>>298058I would kill myself but only if it's done in a way that I like, that is, I get an anaesthesia administered by a doctor like the way they do before operations and have soldiers aim their assault rifles at my head and then blast me to nothingness.
With that said I will be honest with you here. I just wanted and still want very basic things in life like being able to drive correctly and confidently (I can't reverse properly and don't know how far I am from the fence looking at my side mirrors and I can't parallel park either), have a house, have a family, be physically be able to have sex (I can't get hard and when I do it is painful because of phimosis and frenulum breve, and even when that is coped with I can't cum because of being high inhibition and feeling unattractive no succubus wants a guy like me), have a job.
I don't think I have ever asked for much I know the disdain this comment is going to get, I just wanted a normal life. I don't wanna die because somewhere deep down inside i have hope that things will be fine or I am just too cowardly to attempt suicide.
Overall, a pretty horrific situation where you're not really living and not really dying but slowly inching towards personal disaster.