/dep/ - Depression

I've been drinking for 10 years straight. In my 20s it used to be a six pack every day, mostly to cope with depression. Then I gradually cut back to drinking before bed. Helped me shut down. Kinda stupid. Then 30s hit and if I drink hard liquor (I got there eventually) my next day is fucked. Got some nasty hangovers this year and developed alcohol cravings. Started taking valerian and melatonin with beer and fall asleep pretty quick. I'm not even finishing a beer. Guess that's a start. I get cravings once in a while but they are manageable. I guess a combination of st john's wort, omega 3, vitamin D and some physical activity helps. It's a shit drug and the other shit one is nicotine.

I drink a 8 standard drink bottle of wine 3x a week. I've been doing this for 5 years now and I have had no negative side effects, although I'm noticing my resistance to alcohol has increased with time. I just don't get as drunk of it as I used to.

Apparently for alcoholics your early 40s is your mid-life crisis in regards to drinking. You have to decide whether you'll drink yourself to death or give it up.

>>302177
Staying away from liquor is already a major improvement. Wine or beer only, and you'll usually run out before you get too fucked up. Liquor is too easily abused.

>>302178
I have no self control with drinking, so I can only buy 6-8 standard drinks in a single sitting. I literally won't stop drinking if I buy more, I once woke up on the playground passed out after buying a full bottle of gin.

I'm on NEETbux so I can't afford to become a full alcoholic. I'd probably be more at risk of alcoholism if I actually had a job.

>>302164
I used to be an alcoholic, I have no idea how I managed to subdue it. It's a very insidious vice and most of my family were addicts.

i wish i was an alcoholic instead of a benzo addict. alcohol is legal no prescription cheap while im broke and will die within 2 days cause of withdrawals. still the better choice.

Usually I start drinking when I get home from work, and then drink until I sleep as this is how I can get a good night of sleep most of the times (although I will still wake up feeling tired and anxious). Most of the times I drink wine, but sometimes I will also consume some hard liquor.
Recently I've started to take codeine while at work just so things can become more bearable.
Honestly, I hate how things turned out. I still don't feel the bad effects of drinking and consuming opioids since I'm in my early 20s, but I know that someday my body is gonna get completely fucked up, but if it wasn't for these small vices I would have killed myself for sure.
And btw I'm drunk as I write this, so sorry if my grammar is fucked up.

>>302164
I'm drinking since i'm 14, drinking is so fucking bad for your body. I feel tired all the time, i'm angry 24/24, and can't remember anything. I quit alcohol for 1 month and 20 days, but i just fell again into that infinite pain hole. If you want to stop, try to stop with one of your friend or smthg like that. (i also download an app called "I Am Sober" and this app help me a lot).

Sry for the grammar stuff also cuz i'm under influence.

I never drink, the few times I tried it it made me retarded for several days after. Like there was something wrong with my thinking which I could not precisely pinpoint.

>>302164
pretty much wasted my entire 20s blacked out alone on vodka. would drink 0,5 litre bottle night before work and show up super hungover again and again. told myself i wont drink anymore then do it again the next day. went sober for 100 days after christmas because my parents told me i had to get my shit together. was surprisingly easy and it felt nice to be sober. have been drinking a few times this summer but it does not feel that nice when you don't do it all the time. seeing my favorite alcoholic dying at the age of 34 (kingcobra guy) is hopefully what makes it stick forever. rip dude.

I've switched to drinking weak beers. After a while my taste for the stronger stuff went away.

There isn't much wrong with a beer or two to reward yourself after a day of work, and it gives you something to look forward to. If you find yourself wanting to drink too much then stop buying so much alcohol. Once you've drank less for a while you won't want to go back, because you'll feel a lot better in general.

If you want to quit completely having carbonated drinks instead can help. Carbonation and sugar are a good part of what makes drinking addicting too, not just the alcohol.

I had a drink open and a buzz constantly off the clock, and it was starting to get in the way of work too. I was able to drop it cold turkey, for which I am thankful! 8 months sober, with another 6 months before that (had a drinkypoo for the holidays, was fairly confident I wasn't going to spiral out but I probably shouldn't have risked it).

>>302555
I think the older you get the easier it is to quit. Personally I got tired of constantly having the beer shits + pissing in the middle of the night etc. Just not worth it anymore.

I’ve been drinking since I 2011ish. I’m traumatized as shit and it’s only gotten worse. I hope my liver just explodes lol cause I’m too much of a pussy to shoot myself. Sometimes I go ptsd rage mode and end up in the hospital. I’m not at the point where I’m shaking or having hallucinations, but I always walk to that fucking liquor store.

>>302568
What's the longest you've gone without drinking?

The shaking and hallucinations typically don't happen until withdrawal sets in after several days.

I don't struggle with alcohol, I just consume it.

I started drinking pretty late in life and not matter what it does to my health, it has eased the pain and made life bearable.

I drank a bottle of wine the other night. I don't think I have a problem, but I do think that I was using it as an excuse not to go out and do things.

I have quit a couple of times in my life and believe it is just a matter of deciding it's not for me for the time being and then it is no longer a thought. But for now, it is something I choose to do.

I drink 1.2L of beer twise in a week.

>>302164
Yeah. I used to drink about 16 beers and a bit less than half a gallon of vodka a day. On top of this I took two different kinds of benzos. Started getting health issues like intense liver and kidney pain, damage to esophagus and acid reflux, and I became a fat fuck (200~ lbs). Almost choked to death on my own vomit while sleeping a few times. Also lost 3 jobs in rapid succession because I was always drunk, and by the time 2PM rolled around I would rather go to bed and sleep buzzed than work. Was this way for about 2 years.

I quit cold turkey about 4 months ago and honestly it's not as bad as some people say it is. For the first month I definitely wasn't "all there" so to speak but I never got hallucinations like some people do. After that I just feel fine. The only craving I ever have is thinking "huh I could have a beer now… Well I guess I won't" every two weeks or so. I also lost about 50 lbs so far, and I actually start to look human again.

>>302230
Alcohol and benzos do essentially the same thing to your brain. You can just switch over without too much issue.

I'm trying to quit. I'm down to a 24 pack of beer every weekend. I used to be able to do 70 or so per week on average. Been doing this for a solid 10 years. I've had some constant and sometimes sharp pain just under my left ribcage, and my right side/hip. Had blood tests and it's come back mostly fine. Probably early stages of fatty liver I was told and it's reversable if I really tone it down. I really just want to have a 6 pack for the weekend ideally and leave it at that. Hard to stop. I don't even get drunk anymore I just get relaxed or tired. Man I really want to stop, I hate this. I always laughed saying how it's a fun suicide method but I'd rather not die slowly and painfully.

>>302585
Why not just say 2.4L a week

>>302585
2.4L a week is quite low lol

2,400 ml divide by the average beer size 330ml = like just over 7 beers. Bro I've have atleast 11 beers TONIGHT and I don't even feel tipsy, just tired. I don't even get to feel good from my addiction anymore just not jttery

>>302656
Sustained drinking won't feel as good as drinking occasionally. You build up too much of a tolerance that way.

If you drink two glasses of wine twice a week for example, maximizing the distance between them, it will hit you a lot harder than drinking several beers a day every day. Especially on an empty stomach. Then when it's time to sober up, just eat a meal and drink some water and you'll be normal again.

There is no real benefit to binge drinking. You will be tired all the time and forget what you did the day before.

>>302661
>Sustained drinking won't feel as good as drinking occasionally. You build up too much of a tolerance that way.



agredd, tolerance is a bee

I like drinking while the effect lasts but the hangovers are getting less and less worth it. Just makes me feel like a depressed emotional wreck for no reason.

>>302661
You are right about that. I built an insane tolerance from barely being able to handle 2 beers at 18 all the way to casually downing 12~15 a day 3 or 4 times a week. If i were to go for a record I could probably drink 24 beers in a 12 hour period and have a regular hangover. I drank 30 on my last weekend, trying to just drink 15 now between my 2 days off and nothing on the other days. Wish I could simply enjoy 1 beer after work per day and leave it at that.

i was drinking around 85 units a week on average for about five years. last year i decided to reduce and i’ve managed to get it down to about 50 units a week.

it’s still more than three times the recommended limit for men, but i try to stick to mostly 4.5% beer and wine now instead of spirits and 9% beers. i track every single drink in a spreadsheet, updating it each time i pour another one. slightly autistic but if you want to reduce intake you need to know exactly how much you are drinking and you need to do it honestly.

i actually felt happier and more relaxed when i was drinking heavily. i didn't really get any hangovers at all. now i feel a lot more stressed, and on days i don’t drink i get symptoms like a lump in my throat.

does anyone have any ALTERNATIVES to alcohol?

- weed edibles are OK but they're slow to work and don't give much euphoria
- kratom didn't work for me; i've tried multiple strains
- phenibut had almost no effect either and causes a very low mood afterwards

>>302917
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