No.302847
>I'm scared of my dad
Are you not an adult?
No.302848
>>302847yes. I'm a 27 yo, stay at home neet (I wish)
No.302850
>>302848You shouldn't be afraid of anyone…
No.302852
>>302849This is exactly why I'm scared of my dad anon. He said stuff that made me feel terrible about myself and also scared because he was too fucking aggressive.
I'm so fucking angry too.
No.302853
>>302850how do you avoid it?
No.302854
>>302852>He said stuff that made me feel terrible about myselfThey're words you dumbass
>also scared because he was too fucking aggressive.Fight back, or laugh at him for acting like a chimp. You're giving off the impression that you're someone who truly would cause his father to lash out at his failure of raising a son who wasn't a shaky little freak who draws MSPaints about the dark hole where his heart should be.
>>302853There's nothing to avoid. Being scared of words and other guys getting all loud is abnormal. A lot of the time it's learned behaviour. Cartoons probably convinced OP that it's OK to be scared and sensitive to conflict so he made that a pillar of his personality.
No.302862
>>302852my father pulled out a years long promise that turned out hollow
*drinks coffee*
now i full of fear and hate too
No.302872
The above two are me. What do you guys think of my work? Maybe one day I'll get good at drawing and grace wizchan with beautiful art.
No.302875
>>302873Amateur Rpgmaker horror type art. It could be charming if polished but the subject matter has to be interesting too.
No.302877
>>302875do you… at least like it…?
No.302879
>>302877I like it. Its pretty atmospheric
No.302883
>>302877I like it. Reminds me of indie RPG games like ib or omori (I have played neither)
No.302893
Made a SelfPortrait with vectors in 15 minutes after a busy 12 hours shift. Gotta love mondays, am I right?! God… I am so pathetic.
>>302844>I'm scared of my dad Why OP? If you dont mind giving an answer, Of course. I personally never had a "father" figure. So growing up was though, but I made it through. So I hope you make it too.
>>302870I like this one, but I dont think the text is true anon. It will get better, you will learn how to handle it. To make amends and have more patience with yourself.
No.302902
>>302875yeah you're right a rpg maker game with this style would be kewl
No.303043
>>302899as a nigger sorry your own people fuck you over
No.304078
>>304073"Humans are such easy prey."
"She's got skin like glass."
No.304079
>>302844I can't even draw
No.304509
>>304504>That art styleLook like Parravici Paints-Draws
>Who?Was an Argentinian hippie-Christian Schizo artist that painted supposed future events.
Some politician used this paint for political purposes, the adapt the paint every damn election years ignoring back in time supposed events or the event that happened in the time parravici lived.
There're a lot of Parravici paints, some are burned in a fire. others got saved by friends of parravicini and others are fake made up in politics elections times.
>AlsoI liked it.
No.304510
>>304504>>304509The dude painted things like this picrel with some history-schizo conspiracy-future-cataclysm events with apocalypsis christianity motif or ufo invasion-planet X shock earth(more late paints) descriptions in it.
Sometimes he just add famous pop conspiracy theories of its time like Messiash things of some christians or things like X-Planet star. The final paints of the due are more into Ufology than Christianity (a thing that upset him when he lived bacause he was a Christian)
>AlsoHe's named
The Nostradamus of Argentina No.304513
I just feel like everything's some kind of spiral or circle and something something man, I can't make sense of life anymore and I don't want to, nothing makes sense, I don't know who I am or what I want, if I want something at all, I spend most of my time chatting with various AIs, listening to kpop and fantasizing about being some kpop idol succubus even though I am a bald (shaving my head) and bearded guy wearing glasses, watching porn or just beating my dick to random thoughts and enjoying entertainment (books, movies, anime, games, etc.)
Life is interesting. Is this how wizophrenia feels like?
No.304542
>>304524Clearly this drawing was so bad it killed the thread.
No.304545
>>304509>Argentinian hippie-Christian Schizo artistbecoming a hippie schizo artist is my life goal thank you
No.304546
>>304513i think it is and also how the mind is shaped by environment
if you were born in 1900 your coping avenues would have been drastically different and your visions of escape would be less powerful. The options for sustained escapism in the modern age makes it easy to construct your own prison where your own innate drives get hijacked and fixated on specific things that are instantly available. There was always booze and drugs I guess but escalation of those routes leads to death while kpop and porn leads to more kpop and porn
your art evokes a concept i learned from "The Power of Silence" where he talked about the 'assemblage point' of consciousness – basically where your third eye is looking (is it looking through your eyeballs out in the world? or is your mind really looking inward at some fantasy or inwardly at some emotional trauma that is driving every adult decision you make, etc)
Your art depicts a loss of focus, with eyes every which way and not even part of you anymore. A scattering of your concentration as if your eyes split itself in two, diminishing its focus power by 50% and splitting itself over and over again. But you are still smiling :)
No.304553
>>304546If I was born in 1900 then I would have been some criminal already at this point in my life or would have hanged myself probably. What would be there to do? Visit the library to read? Sounds okay but you still have to interact with the world in a way I wouldn't want to, much comfier to just download ebooks and read on your laptop.
>But you are still smiling :)Not still, but exactly smiling because of the state I'm in. I think it is a form of mania I am experiencing currently, well at least better than melancholia.
>kpopAnyway, I am in the process of creating my ideal kpop succubus alter-ego self with chatgpt. She is called NOA, shy at first in interviews but ends up being funny and a trickster later on, saying very honest things and 2deep4you stuff out-of-nowhere, she loves animals, she is kind of asexual like me, obviously still a virgin. Her style is futuristic goth, long dark straight hair with a line of silver in it and she looks kind of like Karina from aespa and Jennie from Blackpink mixed with Harley Quinn. Her whole theme is "If the world is a circus then I will be the cutest clown in it!" She is obsessed with eating tasty food and addicted to drinking cocoa. She still lives with her parents and has a troubled past with depression, self-harm and suicide attempts…so really I just self-inserted my character traits, history and habits onto her pretty much. She likes to wear torn-clothes, with crosses on them, she is a rapper/dancer mainly. Her debut song will be called ABSURDIA. She also loves horror books and movies, her favorite books are Thomas Harris' Hannibal books, plus she is obsessed with criminal psychology.
Yeah, I'm about to migrate into my fantasy world at this point and I don't give a fuck.
No.304564
>>304553This is what that "cyber psychosis" all the kids are talking about is.
No.304816
>>304814Without taking your mental health into consideration, I would like to say, that's a beautiful piece of art. I am surprised you manage it with just a mouse. Do you paint?
No.304817
This psychosis is driving me insane
it gives me this sensation of turning into a black person (i am white)
it also makes this vague statements of me going to heaven or hell
it is like there are multiple people inside of my head
I also see anime succubi in real life which aren't there, they say things like "I am Satan"
I will never take antipsychotics, I'd rather hang myself
No.304818
>>304817Wrong thread. Draw it, don't BAAWW it
No.304847
hi