/dep/ - Depression

I'm crafting the ultimate NEET-EMDOM plan. This is my crafty plan so far:
>give myself accute leukemia trough law of attraction
>spend one year or so HIGH 24\7 on opioids+sedatives, have everyone catering to my whims, entitled to act like a huge a**hole cause muh im gonna die
>Manifest, through the LOA, needing a fundraised -and succeeding- for an anti-cancer surgery
>after it, I ""pocket"" the leftover monies
>Now im rich, am entitled to eat copious amounts of junk food all I want for months to regain lost weight -due- to- cancer
>everyone hails me as hero cause I survived
>???
>repeat for an even more extreme cycle, then finally die in glory