/dep/ - Depression

>I wonder if this led me to become who I am now, at least in social settings.
The fact that being less social than average is just your personality, which you've not made any serious attempts to change.
>I have no idea if I suffered from this
Then do yourself a favor and come to accept that you didn't. If you don't know if you suffered or not, then you didn't suffer. Don't dwell on hypotheticals and possible reasons that you're not feeling as good as you'd like. You're not suffering emotional abuse right now and that's all that matters.
>I read those internet ads about caring for parents and children, and they recommended hugs, affection, and not denying children's pain and suffering, and that the best thing is to get it off the emotions of their chest or body. but if this doesn't happen, then they build up a shell, armor, or something like that
This armor is called emotional maturity. It's the natural ability to not succumb to random bouts of sadness or hysteria; to not let your state of mind and dedication towards your current task be swayed by bad feelings. It's just a matter of not being a baby anymore.
>Babies and toddlers do this naturally when they cry.
Which you are not anymore. There are viable ways to relive emotional tension and take your mind off of your problems as an adult man, but none of them involve crying.
>I can't remember the last time I cried with all my might or something like that.
Then be glad that you're not living a life full of sad happenings worth crying over. If you ever father children and are unfortunate enough to see them die young, then you'll probably cry. Not crying after watching Bambi as an adult is not a sign of being cold or [/i]emotionless[/i].
>I wonder if I can treat it
There's nothing to treat. What do you have to gain by age-regressing to the point of being emotionally vulnerable?

This Tumblr female culture of "Maybe I'm an undiagnosed, untested, abuse survivor with repressed memories, and that's why I can't win the videogame" needs to end. You're a dude, OP. Act like it.

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>The fact that being less social than average is just your personality, which you've not made any serious attempts to change.
People who are emotionally denied tend to deny sympathy or friendships, sometimes even denying them before others do, why? Bacause of fear of being denied. as if it were a shit behaviour loop. Not bacause they want but bacause they're at this way by habit and experience.
>If you don't know if you suffered or not, then you didn't suffer
Problems manifest themselves early on, and normally our parents or guardians don't usually see them, and then these manifest themselves later and worse in adulthood. So yes we habits are our problems based on experience and trauma.
There is a book about children of emotionally neglectful parents, and there are even parents who gave their children everything they needed but no affection, and then ended up with emotional dependency issues, adult addictions, social problems, or problems with their own families, although this is not always the case.
>This armor is called emotional maturity
Everyone can cry, but I'm sure that normalizing the idea that armor=maturity will only lead to more emotional tension, stress, and anxiety because you don't have good mechanisms for getting rid of emotions that you don't even know you should be processing bacause you see it like a good shield or something.
Hiding or mask your shit all the time will only frustrate you if that's all you know how to do and you can't break free from it if you dont have the knowledge to do. There's a reason why NEET are sometimes so screwed up emotionally, and it's not just because they're NEETs.
>Which you are not anymore. There are viable ways to relive emotional tension and take your mind off of your problems as an adult man, but none of them involve crying.
Yep you get my point there's a reason why the military learn cope mechanism for survival, but the military has a certain mindset of its own. I doubt the depressed wizard has the same mindset, but the coping mechanisms probably work more or less the same way.
Although I believe that never crying properly can screw you up, I my experience had a bout of facial paralysis and other stress-related issues that wouldn't go away, even with my cope mechanism or breathing exercises. I ended up discovering that crying and screaming under the sheets with a lot of force relieved my body much better than that. This happened bacause i hide to much shit for myself.
>Then be glad that you're not living a life full of sad happenings worth crying over.
I think that holding back the urge to cry over something as silly as Bambi's death will only make you more stressed in the long run.
>There's nothing to treat. What do you have to gain by age-regressing to the point of being emotionally vulnerable?
I think OP believes is socially awkward because he may not be very expressive due to emotional neglect, which may have led him to be a little more inexpressive or still keep hiding or mask shit like me. Although, of course, I have no idea maybe he has anxiety disorder or avoidance issues or who fuck knows.
>This Tumblr female culture of "Maybe I'm an undiagnosed, untested, abuse survivor with repressed memories, and that's why I can't win the videogame" needs to end. You're a dude, OP. Act like it.
Anon we're not on Tumblr, nobody of these comes here, and succubi don't exist here (if that's the case, show your breasts or some skin on a picrel on next post and then we'll ban you for absolute retardation)
I think OP genuinely wanted to post this because he just wanted to get rid of his shit.
In the long run, getting the idea of normies and yourself into your head leads to feeling of you out of place and paranoid all the time, and then you may wonder why. Maybe we re just fucked up from childhood or our brain is fucked and we dont know.