/dep/ - Depression

What's stopping you from being what you want?

Do you want to be a billionare astronaut concert pianist? Ok, maybe you need to reevaluate.

You want to be "the main." What does this mean?

>>304279
I tired
Being poor its a shit, i need to study a shit thing to get (maybe, theres a chance) job and get money to buy things i need to do wathever i need or want.
And the worst part its I not a child anymore so learning gonna be a shit slow and the feel of out of place is insane.
I feel it like the things are next, behind and too close to me but there's a invisible wall just stopping me to do something
I dont want to kill myself, I just tired.

>>304281

Are you the guy who only wants to do math and draw?

>>304279
what do you even want to be? I found that there is nothing worthwhile out there.
>where people would respect me or care about me.
this is more of a burden than you think.

>There's no meaning of existing
Correct. The is so little meaning that the feeling of meaninglessness itself is meaningless. Train your will to ignore it and just do whatever is available. If nothing is, don't do anything.

>>304280
I want to be a natural blonde and blue-eyed person with paler skin, from a Germanic tribe, and mainly from a 1st world country.

>>304292
That wouldn't be you. You are what you are on an ontological level.

the only thing that gives life meaning is strong emotional experiences. maybe you're not going to experience romantic love and being respected by your peers, but you could enjoy the feeling of progressing in a skill, satisfying your curiosity, experiencing beautiful things in general, not just people but in nature. you could go to a casino and experience the thrill of putting everything on red. you could get in a fight and win. you could post actually funny and interesting threads on the internet and make someone laugh.

>>304299
>the only thing that gives life meaning is strong emotional experiences
nope, just hedonistic cope.

>>304282
>Are you the guy who only wants to do math and draw?
Nope
I liked to draw as kid but now no. I studied some piano and music theory but i abandoned it.
I like to read but i have too much digital hobbies, maybe i need more non-computer related.