No.304582
Don't lie to me, do you have a pet, a dog, a cat, a mother, a father, or a family member that you love?
A few days ago, I had a terrible experience involving anger and frustration, and I realized that a simple hug took away any cruel intrussive suicidal thoughts in my head, almost like a grounding technique. Now I try to hug my pillow or squeeze my chest, and I even started to think that those machine hugs for autistic people could be effective for wathever it do.
And yes in a way its relaxing.
>Also
One of my cats start to purr too much when i become too much anxious, strange behaviour but maybe she try to be helful in a way.
Another one of my cats died in a cruel way. To be honest, I spent a few weeks feeling detached, thinking about how stupid life is, full of suffering, and yet we seek to cause more suffering sometimes.
No.304583
>>304582The life of a Wizard can end up being a life of solitude locked away in an ivory tower.
But honestly, I never liked this ivory tower.
No.304585
nah, i have a tulpa and that satisfies all my love and affection needs.
No.304586
I dont have any pets and never thought about getting any. I see this as animal cruelty to cage some animal and have it be depending on my worthless ass.
the animal wouldnt have a happy life so I never bothered.
also yes I have family members but hugs arent really a thing in my family and I never hug anyone, at most you can get a firm handshake out of me or a fistbump.
last time I was hugged by my mom must been like 20+ years ago.
also "to be desired" doesnt sound appealing to me at all, it sounds like another annoying chore and what I learned in life is that if you are on some other persons mind then it always means trouble one way or another.
No.304588
>>304586would you hug your mom and tell us what happened?