/dep/ - Depression

I was watching TV and out of nowhere I got a very ugly reality check, I just realized that my floor is full of my own hair, I'm getting bald, I don't know how to feel, I'm taking medication and now I don't feel really sad, but I can't feel happy either, I want to throw up, I've been playing video games all these days and without realizing it out of nowhere I start crying, What a fucking rage, because my mom worries and I don't know how to explain what's wrong with me