/dep/ - Depression

I have nothing

>"above average iq"
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Drink alcohol before situations where you have to talk to people

Others don't even exist except in your mind. Science proved that perception is just the minds reflection of itself. Nothing to worry about here.

>>305618
>Drink alcohol before situations where you have to talk to people
Same method that someone suggested for avpd
This in passive and long term gonna fuck your life.
Other say use ketamine in a medical way to sleep your brain social-wall to start to talk without fear but ketamine do the same as alcohol in passive and long term.

>>305618
Hit or miss, I'd just get louder and more inappropriate myself. I brought up a dead squirrel story at my cousin's wedding and some race jokes I regret with coworkers.

>>305630
>some race jokes I regret with coworkers
You're there to work, not to have fun.

>>305630
>some race jokes I regret
Why do you regret saying those things?

>>305634
Unprofessional to start, and customers may have overheard. I had just come from construction to a more blended warehouse job with clients in range occasionally, not just numpties with hammers and piles of wood like I was used to.

>>305631
Exactly. I try to redirect any younger crew now that I have a few more years on me with the same prodding if needed.

I was made fun of relentlessly for the way I spoke in public school, and over time that constant ridicule carved itself into how I saw myself. Every comment, every laugh, every sideways look taught me that opening my mouth was a risk, that speaking invited punishment. What started as embarrassment slowly turned into fear. I began to anticipate mockery before it even happened, replaying past moments in my head and bracing myself for the next one. School, which was supposed to be a place to learn and grow, became a space where I felt exposed and unsafe. My voice stopped feeling like a natural part of me and instead felt like a liability, something that could be used against me at any moment.

Eventually, that fear solidified into selective mutism, not as a choice, but as a survival response. Silence became the only way I knew how to protect myself, the only way to avoid being hurt again. Even when I wanted to speak, when I had thoughts, opinions, or needs, my body would lock up as if it were defending me from danger. People often misunderstand this and assume it is shyness or defiance, but it was neither. It was the result of being taught, again and again, that my voice was wrong and that using it would lead to pain. That experience followed me beyond school, shaping how I interact with the world and how safe I feel being seen and heard, long after the teasing itself had stopped.

>>305677
I used to feel the same until the day I had diarrhea at school, I became a pariah after that and stopped caring because there was no way I could redeem myself socially, it stank a lot

>>305688
During elementary school I vomited about 6 times in class over the years. Shat my pants twice, and pissed myself atleast 4 times I can remember. Mostly in front of the class, and I still wasn't the most messed up kid there

>>305727
holy fuck was that some kind of high profile special school for wizards?

>>305688
Same. Shit my pants ONCE in elementary and it followed me until I graduated high school.

I can barely believe people have started stigmatising, pathologising and labeling being a quiet person. Quiet people do nothing wrong and this shows what ultimate cancer this society is converging to. I can already see how in some shitholes like the UK you could in the future get police check-ups at home for "being too quiet"

>>305735
woah where. anyway quiet people have always been dislike afaik. "who knows what shit they're thinking"