No.305955
Its hard being bad at everything, even the things you do for yourself
Whatever I touch usually ends up ruined
Its very hard on me because I allready expect to fail at whatever I try nowadays
Maybe bad luck is real, but whatever I lay my hands on usually ends up more damaged then fixed
Id like to say electronics are a hobby, but i have destroyed more then I repaired
I have no talents no ability to put any Idea I have in my mind into reality
It doesnt matter if I prepare, if I practice
My fingers dont do what I want them to
Something unexpected happens
I couldnt even fix a carburator on my bike
And I couldnt get the replacement to work either
There are very few times I have tried something and got positive results
I have been fired from every job i have ever gotten quickly
I have been learning japanese for 3 years now and I have seen other people become fluid but despite the time I poured in I still suck
Its very hard to explain to other people, they will say "you have to try more or try something different"
But I am trying and failing
Its not that im just seeing the negatives, when I actually succeed at something it makes me very happy but its a rare feeling for me
I try things, even follow tutorials and it never turns out well for me
I have ruined many things I love by trying to fix an issue and breaking them irrepairably
I just want a bit of sucess in what I do
Its one failure after another
The last thing I sucessfully fixed was the kickstart on a scooter and then it died a few days later
I tried desperately and for weeks to repair it, and failed
I bought another used scooter it failed on me again and again I tried for weeks to fix it and totally failed despite doing everything "right"
I have a monitor I really care about, it was having some issues so I decided to replace the capacitors, I ended up stripping solder pads and despite working slow and carefully im not sure ill ever get it back together
I tried sanding some glass, and despite using the same polish and tools as someone else who I know suceeded, I ended up scratching it more and more
at my job, despite doing something hundreds of times, youd think id get it eventually, but I still make mistakes and destroy it even when im careful so i dont work anymore
Everything takes practice and failure is expected sure
But for me it seems no matter how much time I pour into something, it just doesnt work out
Socially I failed too offcourse I dont have any friends
Most people can name atleast one thing they are really good at, they are suceeding at, even if you are a friendless loser there is usually something
Do you know how frustrating it feels when you have been trying something for a long time, someone else starts and they eclipse you in short order?
It feels terrible
No.305957
>>305955
>Do you know how frustrating it feels when you have been trying something for a long time, someone else starts and they eclipse you in short order?It feels terrible
I know exactly how you feel and I want to tell you, I was in the same spot but I learned quickly. I realized, very early on, that I can only succeed if I fix things on my own terms. Something in my mind just refuses to cooperate if I adhere to a 'correct standard' set by others, I must have total control over the medium I'm working with and I must be the one to set the architectural rules. Because when you're that independent and you play by other people's game, you'll always lose for being outside of it.
No.305985
I'm someone who learns very slowly as well. They say comparison is the thief of joy, but that's just ignoring the fact some people just take 100x longer to learn stuff and those of us like that are kind of concerned by it. I don't mind hard work, I can put in the hours, but I want some type of tangible results for it..
Let's say there's 3 different types learning a language, the goal is only broken conversational:
Type1: learns it in 6 months
Type2: learns it in 5 years
Type3: learns it in 50 years
I'm talking about a real effort too, not too sure how it goes learning languages but lets say 10 hours a week formal learning, and another 10 hours casual learning with tv shows and games etcc. How could you possible convince me to learn the language unless it was absolutely necessary for me if I know I'm a type3 person?
No.306001
>>305955Sounds like you may have "butter fingers" issue. You could practice some finger exercises to give your hands some neural boost.
On a side note. Today I learned some modern study say heavy exercises not only give you gains, but also make brains and nerves grow and make more connections.
No.306013
I feel like I am cursed or something with how much misfortune I had in my life. Now slowly dying. I have also read about other people who mysteriously contract one misfortune after the other. maybe you are one of us
No.306021
>>306013what are you dying from?