/dep/ - Depression

What have you done in an effort to improve your situation and outlook?

I never understand why people would kill themselves instead of killing someone else AND THEN killing themself. Go kill a healthcare CEO or rob a bank

>>306089
nothing, i'm chronically lazy and indecisive just like my ancestors who were also just low class bums
>>306091
i hate no one really, not even some disgusting mega capistalist or politician who exploits me. i wouldn't even kill a foid who cheated on me

kys and (((they))) win

You ask why I haven't ended my life. This is something I wonder about too. I first began seriously considering suicide in my early teens. I sometimes ask myself, "Has it been worth it to stay alive since then?" Invariably, the answer is, "Certainly not." So why continue? There's no great reason. I'm simply not in a hurry, and there are still some things I'd like to do, if I can. The world tells me I'll die anyway, if I just wait a few more decades. In the meantime, I might see something interesting. I used to feel much more strongly, as you seem to, that life is unbearable. I wonder why it all doesn't seem so serious anymore? I suppose I've gradually removed the parts I can't tolerate, and come to terms with others. Even the worst days are "manageable" now. Reading and meditation help a lot. Considering the progress I've made, especially in the last few years, I do have hope that I can continue to improve things. Eventually, perhaps I'll be glad I didn't end it back then. Or perhaps not. It doesn't seem like the sort of thing that should trouble me either way. That sort of "troubling" seems to be connected to my finding things "intolerable." Well, I'm sorry for rambling so much, but I hope I've answered your question.

>>306091
There's a huge chance of ending up with a life imprisonment where you can't rope.

I guess you can think of survival instinct as some kind of individualised minimal level of "livability", when it gets too low you kill yourself. Some people never
do it even when they slowly waste away at old age. Then you have the teenagers who unalive themselves over very small things. Only you can decide when it gets too much.

Killing yourself because your existence is intolerable is one thing, but doing it because you can't be useful to society or fit in or be normal and accepted is just gay as fuck and I don't respect it. So you should ask yourself how bad am I really suffering? Can I actually not take it anymore? If the answer to the latter is yes, then go ahead and end your suffering, but don't let society brainwash you into killing yourself for their sake.

>>306108
here's your token of my wizardly external validation

what the fjck is that

>>306108
Not fitting into society brings a lot of practical problems with it which can be intolerable. If you can NEET it up and somewhat insolate yourself from other people, you can be fine, but you will be reminded every time you go outside that you have a target on your back and you will be surprised to see that literal strangers will go out of their way to bully you for no reason. Getting a job or moving up is impossible because your apparent Otherness is so obvious to other people that they will either consciously or subconsciously aim to put you down in your place and not allow you to exist in peace.

Make no mistake, alienation can be quite intolerable. It's not an abstraction, it's very much real. The hivemind can detect you and you will have problems having any kind of life at all.

Dead internet theory.

>>306120
Have you noticed how many new nonsensical threads are being made, then readily abandoned by the OP? It's a simple, yet insidious tactic, they've been using it on 4chan for decades. It worked amazingly well as you can tell.

I'm only going to end myself when shit gets real bad. I intend to waste all my money first, might just NEET it up until I can't live anymore. I did spend some time homeless, and it wasn't fun like I thought it was (I was autisticly dressed in armour and a sword wandering the streets and woodlands)