/dep/ - Depression

>>306437
Dealing with people is too stressful. I've cut off ties as much as I can and still survive. Posting here is hard enough, but at least I'm anonymous and can dip out if anyone tries confronting me.

Normies will be like "you aren't allowed to do this"
they are really this demented someone living alone with no social contact is offensive and incomprehensible to them

over the years, yes that is the way ive drifted

cutting off ties with old friends, even though having connections to the past feels nice and is grounding a way, maintaining the relationships and dealing with my own cognitive dissonance around the masks i wear around them is just too mentally taxing so i've opted for maximizing hermitude

and yes being an animal is annoying, esp with awareness of ones neuroses and addictive patterns one cannot consciously control.. driven by unconscious forces, and biology that is making it difficult to maintain the healthy homeostasis that felt a lot easier in my 20s with minimal effort… now as i grow more weary of being human, the demands and lists of daily chores to keep it from becoming dysfunctional just keeps growing…

>>306438
Same. I can barely even post online anymore.

>>306454
Yeah I basically don't give a shit about a majority of topics, and the few silly things I'm still interested in are considered gross and cringe even among autistic losers.

>>306458
The majority of topics.

Sorry for brain damage and bad proofreeding

>>306437
I did, a lot of people actually. Most notably family.
Have a pretty bad family background, don't wanna detail too much, father was abusive, divorce, live with mom.
I permanently cut contact with his side of the family for good reason, not just his actions.

Ended up "forgive and forget" reconnecting 10 years later, but after some time I just cut contact with him again.
My sister reconnected too and since then does anything for his approval, kinda insane.
Either way I couldn't handle the constant drama it caused, or the constant unwanted hour long phone calls or prompts for interaction.
Haven't talked to him for many years again now.

I cut contact with my sister for a year and a half too for the same reason. Reconnected, but a couple months ago just told her to fucking behave, keep me out of drama with mom and family.
I don't care for them really.

I just can't handle the stress of all these pointless, frivolous nonsense they can get worked up over.
Honestly? If I was in my fathers shoes with succubi like this around I'd have been a fucking drunk abuser too.

I can't take repetitive topics, people getting worked up about literally nothing and expecting, demanding you to care. I can't handle gossiping about randoms or family.
I don't care about politics, I don't care about succubi or family. I don't care for shit.
Why the fuck should I get panic attacks because mom or my sister is venting to me about eachother over some perceived slight that once I realize what sparked it I wish I could give them the Bart Simpson treatment… (Since you posted homer)
I don't wanna see 1000 photos or videos about my sisters son either. I don't care.

Let's not forget all the mandatory bullshit if you have family like somehow a birthday every other month or "namedays" (absolute retardation) christmas easter all kinds of bullshit.
All of it with some excuse to meet up and "catch up". Stress over getting presents too. I hate it.

For random people too.
I don't like keeping up with "acquaintances" so I regularly purged all contacts after graduation or job changes.
Flat out told some people on the street I don't really want to chat or "catch up" and they should leave me be.
I don't have the mental fortitude to be prompted randomly anymore and play along. I clearly explained that I wasn't trying to be hostile either.
Since they knew me as the weird loser to begin with they accepted.


TL:DR; Yes, I do cut contact with people as much as I can reasonably. I don't have the mental fortitude to handle all the minutia of social interaction. Neither do I care to.
I'm too mentally fragile and I'm not really wanting to change or "improve" on that front either.

>>306458
The few times I got into medieval history here people just disappeared and would rather shitpost about jews and Trump. Makes me wonder how many pseudonormies post here.

>>306437
i can't because not only am i a failure of a man in the biological sense but in the material sense aswell aka a poor fag

>>306505
Only reason I haven't cut contact with the rest of the family as well.
I wouldn't make it on my own.
Not that I hate them, but I'd feel better by myself.

Being a loner is for the best, but being lonely is almost even worse. Damned if you do, damned if you don't, the only winning move is not to play. Might as well commit and move out in the middle of nowhere so social contact is not a factor.

>>306522
The idea is always more beautiful than the actual reality of being in the middle of nowhere.

Even an ultra-introvert like Unabomber couldn't take ir and you likely couldn't as well.

I tried for 18 months. It was shit.

The only reason to interact with people is the pursuit of a job or to reproduce. I don't need either of those things which makes the socializing game a completely useless waste of time and money.

>>306539
It's very easy to end up with delusional beliefs the more you isolate yourself.

>>306584
not really.

>>306584
true as fuck

>>306437
I want but my environment doesn't let me do it. I mean, I have to get known by people to gave me job on my uni so… Until I get a job, I have to tolerate the gossip and the human idiocy for a good time.

yeah is way better not to be part of society, if you got a real good look at what people are like, you'd want to be as far away from them and their system of violence and slavery as possible.

in order to enjoy this society you have to be a cuck and that is what the education system is for. making you a cuck. untrain your sense of selfpreservation, untrain your selfrespect, untrain your opposition to injustice. for billionaires to get richer, you need get get poorer, sicker and sadder.

the one thing you can do is refuse to let go of cause-and-effect.

>>306437
Just threw away all the stuff I bought off a shelf and filled a couple contractor bags with it. Long story short is I was raised by a narcissist and an alcoholic all my life and am not fit for whatever the act of interacting with other humans is these days so its time to pack a bag and head for the mountains.

I hate that I have so much hate and distrust for other humans but most of my interactions with them show me most of them are greedy self centered mattress climbers that have dog brain.

I think about how much happiness I'd gain if I was completely alone in this world so I wouldn't have to mask around npcs just to feel normal. I feel happy in the woods because every animal out there is honest in every action they make.

Humans do the complete opposite and its the reason Im not saying a word to anyone. I've almost got everything cleaned up and by the time they start asking about me (if they even do ask about me) ill be in the next state minding my own business.

Began doing this at the beginning of 2026.

It is strangely calming and beautiful.

>>306875
>I think about how much happiness I'd gain if I was completely alone in this world so I wouldn't have to mask around npcs just to feel normal. I feel happy in the woods because every animal out there is honest in every action they make.
In my perfect world I'd be the only person on Earth. Then I could be truly free. Christopher Thomas Knight escaped innawoods for 27 years. Wish I had the courage to do that.

I have done so

>>307089
>Wish I had the courage to do that.

i like going to cities i have never been to and sleep in my van. it does take some courage and at times it is unsettling and feels dangerous but in rural areas nobody cares and few people are a bother.

>>307179

one more thing i thought of: when i first did it and it felt very scary to me, i would watch dragon ball from the beginning and it would give me courage. seeing son goku never giving up, working on himself, always getting better while remaining pure of heart helped me fall asleep at night.

it sounds ridiculous but it did work.

It's a sign of depression or just bad mental health. Cutting people off is easy, but just makes things worse. It's hard to find people to connect with though

>>306442
>being an animal is annoying
I hate this view of reality, human beings are very different from animals.
>>306462
>people getting worked up about literally nothing and expecting, demanding you to care
I hate this so much, if you show you don't care, they get worked up even harder.
>>306498
>medieval history
Sounds very interesting. Last time I read history was the life of Augustus in Suetonius' 12 Emperors.
>>306875
I wish I could hang myself in the woods, but i'll have to do it at home.

>I even hate my own body for forcing me to eat and wash in order to not completely dysfunction.
This is why you can't protect your solitude.

One can only achieve exile if one can make themselves ugly and stinky. This is why monks shave their heads and wear rags. As long as you care about your appearance and hygiene someone will always care.

If you want to be a hermit even within society, just stop showering and people will leave you alone.

I'm doing this now. It's for the best. I quite literally have about 100 family members that I used to be in somewhat contact with, but now i shut off as much as possible. 30+ cousins I just dont respond to, of course all the unc/aunties too. I can't handle the stress and judgement and intrusions they force into my life. I can't stand my grandma and older relatives repeating the same questions and stories over and over non stop. Im beetter off online working the least amount of hours possible. Ideally I'll have an apartment of my own soon. The worst part is when these people try to find me at work… very annoying

>>307190
>One can only achieve exile if one can make themselves ugly and stinky.

you'd think this is a valid approach, i did try this.

when i was molested hard by females i stopped brushing my teeth, believing it would make my breath smell so horrible that the succubi leave me alone. this did not really work, i was still swarmed.

dressing as plain as i could, wearing sunglasses everywhere and hiding my long hair did help somewhat but what unfortunately draws the female attention is joy of life, health, connection with source, optimism, lack of corruption. so the only way is to act to be sickly, weak and depressed. basically you can't be happy even though it is easily possible for a human because if you are, females will block your path rugby-style and violently force you to give them attention. they are the worst rapists, they have no concept of consent whatsoever for other people; only for themselves.