No.306888
Hey mages, wizards, posting this here so some may see it instead of just throwing it in a doc somewhere.
I love life. For a period of about two to three years I was empty and melancholic with constant suicidal thoughts. But now I can't hate the world, the struggle of life moves my soul; the clouds, the sea, the stars, flowers, the wind, it all is so amazing to witness. Most of all I love people, for what they can be, seeing the rare phenomenon of a genuine person, be it in person, through their words, or through something they made, tugs at me like nothing else. And it's not like my life has materially gotten much better, I got out of my nagging bitch aunts house but otherwise not much has changed.
But this transformation has only made everything hurt more, going out amongst the normgroids deeply upsets me because they squander themselves for nothing. But even then I cant bring myself to hate how much it hurts.
If you're reading this mage it'd mean a lot to see you chase your dreams, I don't believe in that crap about humans only being able to care about a certain number of people.
No.306891
It's all just brain chemistry. I have times where I am happy and positive like that too and then feel the complete opposite the next day. There is little predictability or control either. Sometimes I'd feel really good and making good progress during the day, but because of that I release too much dopamine or adrenaline giving myself bad insomnia and spending the next few days feeling really bad. Or if not insomnia then just regular burn out that lasts a lot longer than the good mood days. Or some days where you just feel tired, dazed and unmotivated where 1 out 100 times I manage to pull myself out of but the next 99 times it just doesn't work. I think my brain is just fucked and don't react to the environment like happy people do, either overshooting or undershooting all the time. Good mindsets and habits would probably help me but they can't save me.
No.306892
This is normal. "THe blackpill" and the spiral of deperession it's designed to incite is literally a troll meme made by people who hate men and want to see the young ones fall in to despair. The truth is, the world is funny and cool, and while it may be challenging and unfulfilling at times, there's always something to fight for.
>going out amongst the normgroids deeply upsets me because they squander themselves for nothing.
Laugh at them. They have no sympathy for themselves, so why should you have sympathy for them?
No.306894
>But now I can't hate the world, the struggle of life moves my soul; the clouds, the sea, the stars, flowers, the wind, it all is so amazing to witness.
In my opinion this is delusional thinking, life is objectively terrible, you're either too young to realize this or too immature to comprehend that earth is a massive slaughterhouse. I understand that there is beauty in the world but this beauty is completely cancelled by the vast amount of suffering that takes place every day under the sun. Now you may say I don't care about others I have a good life, but ignoring the mountain of skulls won't save you from becoming part of it one day. Keep it real man.
No.306895
>>306892 here.
>>306894 proves my point. He's saying that you're wrong to be happy with life; that you should feel bad because life is "objectively" bad. You would be wise to laugh at this guy and call him a rude name.
No.306897
Blackpill is crab terminology and has nothing to do with wizards. What's more important, since you love people, get the fuck out of here, socialize, start a family, increase your social standing and whatnot. Since you love it all, you've no legitimate right to larp as wizard.
No.306898
>>306895your happy trolling is pathetic to say the least
No.306899
>>306897>Anyone who isn't a misanthropic nihilist like me is just a coping larper normie/r9k/ called. They don't want you back. No board wants you.
No.306900
>>306895You have a low iq, being aware that life is terrible doesn't mean that you should be sad all the time otherwise you're delusional, it means that you should keep it real as I said, believing that everything is good just makes you weak and vulnerable and prone to commit errors.
No.306901
>>306899If love people and world and everything it offers please explain why the fuck are you here pretending to be a wizard? Do you have severe mental illness that makes you disabled? Uh well then I'll just leave you alone. But if you don't have such condition and still pretend to be a wizard, you're a fucking hypocrite. Positively minded people without any significant pathologies *can't* stay virgins, period. If you say otherwise you're a fucking nigger.
No.306904
>>306900>being aware that life is terribleLife isn't terrible. Your definition of 'terrible' is terribly skewed.
>believing that everything is good just makes you weak and vulnerable and prone to commit errors.I agree, but I'm not the one proposing this black-and-White idea that because life as a whole isn't terrible, that it is entirely good. Life is full of ups and downs, challenges and celebrations, losses and victories, good imageboard threads and bad imageboard threads. It is this variety, these fluctuations, which is one of the reasons that life is so cool.
>>306901>why the fuck are you here pretending to be a wizard?I'm not pretending to be a wizard. I'm a 31 year old virgin man with no interest in pursuing sexual relations. The fact that I'm not slicing my wrists does not and never has deducted from my title of wizard. Where did you get the idea that you had to be miserable to be considered one?
>Positively minded people without any significant pathologies *can't* stay virgins, period.Uh oh! Sounds like you're denying the validity of voluntary celibacy!
No.306905
>>306904>voluntary celibacyyou claim to be voluntarily celibate despite not disliking succubi?
No.306906
>>306904>Life isn't terrible.Life is a struggle for survival where we're forced to act constantly to avoid unpleasant sensations(hunger, thirst, pain, heat, cold, fear, trauma, suffering, distress, disease, etc….).
Given this assumption we can objectively declare life as terrible (from google: "Terrible is an adjective used to describe something extremely unpleasant, of very low quality, severe, or causing fear and distress.")
No.306907
>>306905>you claim to be voluntarily celibate despite not disliking succubi?Who mentioned succubi?!?
>>306906>Life is a struggle for survival where we're forced to act constantly to avoid unpleasant sensationsLife is a game in which we are faced with challenges to continue playing. And you're not being forced to partake, because you can stop living any time. If you're going to go the route of using dictionary definitions to "prove" what life is, then I'll do the same:
Life is a game we play where we're rewarded for trying hard to win the rewards of pleasant sensations (satiation, hydration, relaxation, warmth, chilliness, excitement, experience, growth, peace, health, etc….).
Given this assumption we can objectively declare life as excellent (from google: "extremely good; outstanding..")
It's all about perspective. OP has the right perspective. Your perception is wrong, weak, and gay. From the looks of it so far, those who share your perspective are miserable and crabby. When those who enjoy life manage to change the perspective of someone who doesn't, happiness increases. When those who loath existense as some terrible struggle convince someone that their perspective is correct, happiness decreases. So stop trying to perpetute your joke ideology that life is bad lest you be labelled as someone who wants guys here to be as sad and whiny as you.
No.306908
>>306907>Who mentioned succubi?!?indeed who. i see your brain is gone for the most part which is probably why you're happy about your life.
No.306911
>>306907>Life is a game in which we are faced with challenges to continue playing. And you're not being forced to partake, because you can stop living any time.This is a very stupid reply, you know perfectly that assisted dying is not available in most countries, we're far away from the suicide cabins of Futurama. But I will use this as another proof that life is terrible, because if life was a game you would indeed have an exit button, instead you have to undergo a very painful and dreadful process to quit this existence.
No.306912
>>306911>assisted dying is not available in most countriesEvery country has gravity. Assisted dying is for suicidal people who are too weak to climb.
No.306913
>>306912You keep proving that you pro-lifers are just mad sadists or plain retards.
No.306914
>>306913You depressed pissbabies continue to prove that assisted suicide should be mandatory.
No.306917
>>306913imo it's deeply ironic how these happy-go-lucky normies just slide back into massively unsophisticated trolling. i think it just goes to prove how little they believe their own opinions.
No.306918
>>306917I think it's more indicative that there's no use seriously engaging with a blackpiller so the only reasonable response to their cultic depression fetish is to make them feel even worse by calling them names.
No.306919
>>306918ah i see. well i should've anticipated that you have special needs, so i will help you out. this board, dear mister, is called /dep/, which is a shorthand for Depression. in the english language Depression means, in simple terms, that you're not feeling well. so please kindly go to /lounge/ and be happy there for as long as you wish.
No.306921
>>306917I agree with you I highly doubt they're happy either, however is not just trolling some of them truly believe this stuff, we have unironical pro-lifers on wizchan who follow the american religious ideology of magatards.
No.306922
>>306921>The only people who aren't chronically depressed and want to bring others down are MAGALove it
No.306931
I don't think this board is for threads like these
No.307053
>>306892The problem with the blackpill that no one talks about it is that it is constant, let me explain, you're not being blackpilled ones like once you have looked at the date, researches, studies, etc. which are absolutely true. You don't need to look at them again and again, it's like having a disease and constantly reminding yourself that you have a disease, that's just no way to live to be honest, and you dive deeper and deeper in it to find a solution to your problems, but there isn't one.
Most importantly there are, now this will sound like typical "positivity" BS to people but hey you've gotta be kind to yourself and love yourself, in times where you only have yourself, don't be at war with you. And realise that certain things were out of your hands and they'll likely be forever.
No.307054
>>307053>once you have looked at the date, researches, studies, etc.>WHICH ARE ABSOLUTELY TRUELol piss off crab.
No.307058
>>307057
>you can't disprove the studies about female s*xual behavior.
I don't need to. I've never read any studies relating to female sexual behavior because as a voluntary celibate man, I have no reason to care. Well actually, "not caring" isn't entirely true. Whatever the studies say, the results evidently keep weak-willed and immature men in a perpetual state of self-loathing and whining. I find that incredibly funny, so in a sense I do care. I'm drawn to this website primarily because crying about female sexual behavior is banned. Are you crying? Or are you laughing? Cheer up.
No.307060
>>306888>Most of all I love people,liking individuals is okay but liking people? are you out of your mind? please go back to facebook or whatever.
No.307085
>>306907>It's all about perspective. OP has the right perspective. Your perception is wrong, weak, and gay. From the looks of it so far, those who share your perspective are miserable and crabby. When those who enjoy life manage to change the perspective of someone who doesn't, happiness increases. When those who loath existense as some terrible struggle convince someone that their perspective is correct, happiness decreases. So stop trying to perpetute your joke ideology that life is bad lest you be labelled as someone who wants guys here to be as sad and whiny as you.It's not about perspective at all. Suffering is bad no matter which way you look at it. Are you saying we should put on a smile and cheer up when faced with suffering? Now THAT is wrong, fake, and gay. It's weak too, in a feminine way. "Looking on the bright side" is what succubi do because they can't handle the terrible truth. Pretending I'm happy when my life is objectively shit would literally be a delusion. Do you advocate for being delusional?
And how does one even cheer up?
Seriously, how?
By forcing a smile on my face?
By looking away from the things that trouble me?
The cause of my unhappiness won't go away if I pretend it's not there.
Is there a way to be happier without conducting some kind of psyop on yourself?
No.307143
>>306894I think you are thinking incorrectly, the suffering is what makes it worthwhile. Avoiding pain is lower behavior, it's that man is the going over that makes him beautiful. OP btw.
No.307144
>>306891It's not brain chemistry. Muh biology, muh physics, its all cope. Your soul, your will, is what determines your "brain chemistry"
No.307145
>>307085It's not "look on the bright side" that's still trying to look to pleasure as the main aim of existence. You have to look to will as the driving force of existence and change as the real expression of your will.
No.307146
>>307060Like I said its their potential, what they can be; what they are is disgusting but what they can be is better than anything. You get small glimpses of what is deep inside of people but they are so focused on avoiding discomfort and wallowing in their pleasure they never even try to move towards that.
No.307147
>>306892Because I am better than them.
No.307148
>>306906You're a fat retard
No.307149
>>306906And the reason you're a fat retard is because you're living like an animal. Only animals mindlessly avoid unpleasant sensations, humans go beyond them because we can choose, of our own will, not by conditioning, to not avoid them and even impose them on ourselves. What growth isnt unpleasant? If you're a fatass starving will objectively improve your life yet its unpleasant while continuing to stuff your face is pleasant.
Being a low iq nigger that only thinks about how to feel good isnt smart.
No.307153
>>307149>humans go beyond them because we can choose, of our own will, not by conditioning, to not avoid them and even impose them on ourselvesWhat are you even talking about you dead ass mongoloid, you can choose to impose pain on yourself? Wow of course you can, but this has nothing to do with my argument.
I argued life is terrible because we must endure unpleasant sensations AGAINST OUR WILL, like who the fuck chooses to get cancer? Yet you can be diagnosed with it one day.
We are thrown into the world by our parents and then forced to endure torture or kill ourselves. This is the reality of our world.