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 No.306923

I feel an immense disgust with the fact that I inhabit a human body. It manifests most acutely when I must face a physical process in action. Examples being; having to urinate or defecate, or having an erection. Defecating is particularly bad. I become aware that I am a worthless ape. I feel suicidal when I must wipe shit from my anus. Maybe you laugh at reading such a sentence, but it is truly horrible. I feel particularly demoralised and depleted when I realise that normalfags get to experience reality free from this burden. They do not fixate on the weight of their body, the terror of possessing a spine. They are not reminded that they are nothing but an animated flesh puppet when they face sexual arousal. It all feels like a cruel joke.

 No.306924

Unintelligent evolution put consciousness into a flesh body, normalfags don't feel this burden because they are like bugs they are fit to the evolutionary machinery.

 No.306925

I can't relate cuz I really like pooping.

I do hate having a physical body though, but mostly because meatspace is so cumbersome. Having to move around, all the tiny complexities of real life that make things a hassle, tripping, hitting myself against objects in my house, things falling out of my hand, spilling drinks… I also hate how vulnerable my body is, one poke with a sharp object and I'm probably dead, all the gooey stuff just leaks out.

I would much prefer to be a glowing orb of light or some shit, no physical body, just pure MIND. Maybe soon, after I finally rope.

 No.306938

I am incompatible with living on a very deep and fundamental level. I am 30 and I feel like human bodies after this burst of youth and vitality in the teens and twenties are just slow rotting flesh machines which aren't worth living in. To maintain this rotting machine you must waste away at some job for most of your existence. Why should I bother if I can just hang myself ?
You receive this psychological hostility from other humans with lies, gaslighting, petty torment etc. Why shouldn't I just leave ? Finally there is everyday life, everything is dirty, noisy, unpleasant. I can't say I'm unhappy that I am hanging myself.

 No.307006

>>306938
I think much of the despair and nihilism in our culture is due to the fact we almost universally have to go through debilitating old age now. It's weird, in the olden days you could be pretty confident you'd drop dead sometime in your 40s, even the 50s was a gift.

People used to drop dead from disease within a few years of their bodies giving out.

 No.307007

>>307006
Are normies even despairing? They seem to enjoy this soulless and nihilistic behavior.

 No.307032

I always wished I could be a floating shape, like in Flatland. And to emit light at will. I could explore everywhere on earth, travel the bottom of the ocean, wander through forests, explore caves… I'd want to either be a 3d cube or 2d triangle. Eventually I'd go to space to explore and never look back



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