/dep/ - Depression

what's you problem? if the programme is difficult find buddies if not well uh

My advice is to try to finish out the semester and then withdraw or just quit being enrolled.

I dropped out of uni 10 years ago, I can't say I regret this

>>307689
I tried the whole higher education thing for five years until I gave up and quit. Made sure I had a path in the trades lined up afterwards, though. Don't really regret it but it's a personal thing for sure. I was never really meant for college, simple as that, though it took a long time to admit it and give up on it. Only went cause that's what you're supposed to do after finishing the high school equivalent here and stayed because I felt like I'd already wasted too much time to start over.

I had to drop out of a striver nationally high ranked university and go to a shitty university where sub-80 iq moonlights their full time job for an unfailable business degree. Now I am a NEET. Depressed, weak, mentally unstable, computer addicted retard like me can't turn into a functional member of society no matter how hard I try.

>>307689
Have you tried modafinil?

Just phrase it differently on the resume, that still counts as some coursework for jobs later.

I personally crapped out a degree at the bottom of my class and just finished it… I should have just dropped the last year looking back.

>>307704
I'm not the OP but have YOU tried modafinil?

>>307704
I have. It's fine once in a while but tolerance is insane, day 2 is 20% of day 1.

>>307704
Never take jewpills.

>>307704
i was on stimulants but they dont help me they make me sweat and unable to focus even at low doses
At most taking stimulants makes me want to play video games and not go outside

>>307704
Damn gonna start doing math

>>307708
Yes I have. I order it from India. It's the single best nootropic I've tried for when I want to study/read something. Although I only take it during fall and winter since it makes my allergies worse.

>>307728
Have you never tried any stronger stimulants? Modafinil is pretty weak in my opinion, I had energy issues like the OP when I was in university and only managed to finish it on stronger stims like Ritalin and it's RC variants. If it's the first thing you ever take it will probably be god tier like that but I would recommend something stronger for somebody in OP's position for sure.

>>307711
>>307689
Which ones did you try? And the effect gets stronger with higher doses, not lower doses. Ritalin and 4F-MPH are the sole reason I was able to finish my university degree despite having a severe lack of energy due to my sleep apnea.
I would recommend you to go visit a doctor if you are constantly fatigued, you are most likely experiencing some medical issue, but in the mean time the right stimulants might be able to keep you functioning.

>>307710
Sadly, some people just need to take them to keep functioning in this gay society. It's not ideal but they can seriously save your life. I would rather achieve something with the help of jewpills than dissapointing myself and everybody who cares about me to stay sober.

>>307711
Also, one more thing, are you motivated to finish your courses and where did you take those stimulants?
I used to take them in a bathroom stall while at my university's library, and then immediately go sit in the library to do all my coursework / assignments. I found that taking them like that helped me be way more productive since if you're at school you're gonna already be in the right mindset to work on things. Stimulants don't really help that much with motivation in my experience so you gotta be smart with your situation around it. If you take them at home it'll be easy to just jack off and play videogames the whole time, even if you do have the energy to do your schoolwork.
Going out to a public spot where you can do your school stuff without too much disturbance can help even without the stimulants. You should try it some time.

>im such a failure
School itself is fail. To drop out of it does not make a failure out of a man. University only exists to exploit the needs of hypersocial humans who have developed a dependency on being surrounded by their peers 10 hours each day as a result of being forced in to such an environment since kindergarten. If you've ever spent a day at primary or secondary education sometimes thinking "man, school sucks, I'd rather be at home playing Gamecube", then you've still maintained some of your humanity by not rewiring your brain to revere the concept of being at school as a form of Stockholm syndrome. You're the normal healthy one.

If you don't wake up every morning excited about how you'll get to spend lunch break talking with friends, about what new hot 3DPD you'll be able to follow around campus, or by what new ways you can impress some old balding teacher… then university isn't for you. Because that's all it is: an adult daycare meant to make the schoolchild's way of life persist in to adulthood as a way of cementing them as an obedient office worker. How to maintain relationships with employees in a closed building while impressing your boss. That is what they teach. Is that the life you want to live? Are you willing to fight tooth-and-all to compete for it among every other university graduate? Can you not imagine any better lifestyles that don't involve keeping up an act every day so you don't get booted out of it?

University's completion is not necessary for 95% of jobs and there's no cultural, fundamental, or artistic skills you can learn from it that can't otherwise be learned for free off of the internet. You have nothing to gain, while giving yourself artificial deadlines and standards which you can fail. A degree means nothing to most employers and people in general. Does it mean anything to you? Does beating a long, arduous video game mean anything to you if it's not a game you enjoy? If the feat of completion isn't even revered by those who you associate with? Your lack of drive despite being in the most energetic point of your life is telling of your incompatibility with school as a concept. You should quit before it breaks you, and maybe clog all the university toilets with paper before you do. Watch as the janitor gets payed a living wage to come out of his private janny cave to pour blue chemicals down the toilets before spending 40 minutes pushing around a cool cart with brooms and stuff on it. He goes back to his cool private cave and clocks out after a 5 hour lunch break. That guy didn't complete university. He doesn't show up to work and rush to pile around a watercooler to discuss the big basketball game. He doesn't hurriedly finish meaningless paperwork to the delight of someone who who did that for 25 years to earn a promotion that allows him to do slightly less paperwork. He has job security because nothing can replace a Janitor, and even if the university closed he'd be able to get the same job anywhere else. People working jobs earned through degrees can't say the same.

Even if you complete school and earn your fancy paper, you'll still be more likely to get a job flipping burgers. And good for it too, because as evidenced by your waning motivation in school you'd enjoy it more and it would be better for you spiritually. Even if you fall for the idea that "money is everything", then still tradesmen and self-employed laborers make more money than the average young degree-bearing secretary or office drone. You would absolutely be better off dropping out and focusing on becoming strong, healthy, and finding a simple job to work while experimenting with ways to work on your own time. Even if it doesn't work out and you find yourself wanting or needing to go back to school, you can do that any time.

>>307732
>>307733
ritalin amphetamine, terrible side effects no good effects
>motivation
If i had motivation i wouldnt need pills i think
the times i actually tried taking it outside, it made me skip and just go home
being on stimulants outside is terrifying and overstimulating I almost got run over once

>>307739
>you can do that any time
you almost made it

>>307751
Why does that statement bother you?

>>307739
Excellent post. I graduated (((university))) but not without an attempt at suicide and additional fighting against constant depression.

>>307762
Because it's gay