No.307706
Why do us humans have to be so alone? I feel that despite having options to live and exist and do things we still are so very dependent on this biological programming to seek connection. I don't know how to say this but I honestly, often hate myself for seeking it from other people — trying to make friends who would listen, or talk, or at least stay. I know people are very busy and have no time to stay to listen and understand other people's loneliness but I typically wonder if I could just have one person, not a therapist, just one genuinely good person who would not be judgemental (although they could be if they have any good advice) and would just listen to me like I matter; my situation is not something I am making up, this is me, suffering from being an outlier who has tried so hard to be a part of normal people but just couldn't. I really tried, but the performance was too much (although calling it a performance would be hypocritical). I could not do it, everyday I felt I was lying to myself, there was a small part of whatever honesty left was leaving me everyday, slowly but I could feel it. I did't know if I am living or lying. How long can I continue with this? Even when alone one, doing his work, to push through shouldn't there be a part within him that calls for an alignment with his honest self? I feel I lack that, it feels so pretentious to be existing. I don't wanna leave everything and just run away because I am not strong enough but I wonder if I could continue like this, and even if I could, calling that just a part of being human and a lot of other (fellow wizards) are going through the same, I don't know how long I could go on without completely going insane.
No.307707
conjure a tulpa
No.307783
I only feel any connection with other neets, weirdos and outcasts. I can't say I have much desire to connect with normies
No.307784
>>307706>trying to make friends you're breaking a rule, hide it next time
No.307786
evolution made you perpetually hungry to force you to go for the peach. meditate and study biology and philosophy and whatnot. gotta learn to suffer, there isn't a solution. okay maybe there is if you go the normie route but i wouldn't know
No.307817
>>307786even normies are lonely like us nothing matters just go fuck around
No.307818
if u want someone u need trust and u for that u need confidence if u really want a friend but if u get bored just know u tried cuz we dont matter just like animals
No.307829
You sound like you expect too much from other people. People are dumb and trash and worthless, you and me included. Stop giving a fk about them and start focusing on yourself and what you want in life. You will feel better afterward, trust me I am experienced wiz
And by the way this introspection intellectual slop you served us here will lead you nowhere, it sound dumb and pointless from an external viewpoint even tho its was likely very meaningful to you, so you should stop it, for your own good, its just a waste of energy, in my opinion.
No.307830
>>307829fact check: false
No.307831
>>307830> Stop giving a fk about them and start focusing on yourself and what you want in life.What he said is true. Also if you actually live like that good things come automatic.
No.307837
>>307829>not care about what others thinkill just get my shit kicked in if its around the wrong person
No.307838
>>307837Are you so small and weak that you believe people will not only attack you, but also beat you every time? If someone gets violent, get violent back.
No.307873
>>307831not true. Having a valid social environment that helps you grow is just as important. source: look at the mirror.