/dep/ - Depression

it doesn't matter. i've spent quite some time thinking about it and figured that there is simply nothing worth saying. though if you can pump out another my twisted world by all means go ahead

I would write one, but I'm somewhat of a dramaqueen and would love to give a few last nuclear level fuck yous to everyone who deserves it. Also in case any of them have the ability to change their mindsets, hopefully my letter would sway them in some way. I doubt it, but I'll roll that dice. I think I would go full on manifesto so only my parents would actually care to read it. Ideally will just die after them as they aren't so bad anymore. extended family sucks

i can't stand my own writing, especially in my native language so i'm not going to bother writing anything. it would sound too melodramatic or schizophrenic. how do i even explain that there was something painfully wrong with me since i was born? and how do i explain that i'm suspicious of this world and believe it's ruled by an evil deity that wants to keep us trapped in a material prison?

hopefully after i die i don't have to stay and watch my own funeral. i don't want "closure", i just want to get the heck out of here asap.

no, i can't stand normalfags seeing my true thoughts and feelings
in fact, i'll delete all my stuff before i kms
i already burned my journal last year and haven't written down anything since then

That greatly depends on who it's meant for. Closure is not something anyone is entitled to. It's better to just go no contact gradually. If anyone actually cared about your life, you could leave behind breadcrumbs, not necessarily anything big like a journal.

I'm not leaving anything but silence

>>308201
i like silence. in fact it's very uncomfortable for me when i have to speak more than usual (i'm usually completely silent).

>>308091
Not sure. i maybe would but it would be short

>>308091
I'm pretty anti-suicide unless you are suffering physically.
I'd count that if you are being forced to work a physical job with a fucked body or homelessness is on the horizon, otherwise just don't do it.

On the note thing, I'd leave a note I think.
Something that absolves them of any responsibility because honestly I don't give a shit if I'm going out anyways.
I'm beyond hating them at my age.

If I kms, I'm going to leave a note telling my boomer parents to go fuck themselves for having me circumcised.

do you still feel attached to society?
i might leave one just so people aren't confused what to do with my stuff

>>308675
I was also circumcised by my boomer parents and likely have an acquired arrhythmia because of it (I was crying so much). I have no idea how to overcome this. Or why I was subjected to such life-impairing abuse before I was even a day old. I also don't know why I still talk to them – what kind of parents allow something like that to be done to their own newly-born helpless little child? What complete psychosis and lack of respect for a life.

>>308675
>>308682
Come to think of it, circumcision is a way to fight phímōsis - you both probably had phímōsis back in the days…

>>308689
>you both probably had phímōsis back in the days

Phimosis is normal for babies, is incredibly rare for it to persist in to adolescence, and is easily curable in one single doctors visit - often by non-destructive means. There is zero fucking reason for partially skinning babies alive to be so common. It is ritualistic pedophilic sexual torture by the admission of the very subhumans who invented it.

>>308690
Having lived with and without one for roughly 15 years each, I do prefer without.

Solely and purely because of no cheese and way easier to keep clean.

Beyond that it's whatever. Both you can live with.
A condom is way easier to put on without a foreskin but that is likely not a wizard concern unless you have a thing for rubbers.

>>308727
You may say that, but imagine having been tortured before even a month old to no real medical purpose whatever; and the torture being so extreme that it resulted in you having a damaged nervous system and irregular heartbeat for life.

I think "I do prefer" with.

>>308728
Now you know why it's so worldview-altering to be born in a [REDACTED] family.

>>308728
Well, at under a month old you have no memory of the event. I do at age 14 and it was agony even through anesthesia. The recovery was hell and peeing was hell for about one full month.

>>308732
Not having memory of the traumatic event doesn't prevent your neurons from their huge dose of shock though. Come to think of it, this practice could have been inspired by people who put plants through stress to stimulate growth.

>>308728
>>308730
I’ve written this before somewhere on the boards of other fora, but I’ll repeat it here as I think it has some worth in sufficing the truth:

Judaism “works”, that is — it is psychologically effectual — because the entire system is rooted in trauma conditioning. I would even go so far as to say that Jewishness or Yiddishkeit (yiddish for jewishness) is properly speaking a series of codified trauma reflexes affixed into the receiving mind at an age when the mind cannot make critical sense of what it is learning. Here’s an adumbrated list showing my thinking:

Circumcision: learned trauma reflex

Exodus (where evil goyim are persecuting you): learned trauma reflex

Holocaust (which we can agree here without any charge of anti-semitism was/is a dramatized historical event): learned trauma reflex

Contemptible goyim who hate you causelessly: learned trauma reflex

Yirat Ha’Shamim (hebrew for “fear of the skies/heaven”, the essential underpinning point of their “education” system, if you can call it that): obvious learned trauma reflex

Mesirah (the halachic precept that is the reflexive antitype of a mafia code enforcing punitive measures against jews who inform on jews to goyish authorities): learned trauma reflex

Kashrut (hebrew for propriety, meaning obviously properness in one’s dietary practices): learned trauma reflex that like circumcision binds the mind of the believing jew into a state of fear and self-chosen exclusion.

These are all then seen as compositive doctrinal elements that when united easily yield a shared religious identity designed to be immune to impeachment from the mind of a believer.

I could go on. But you should get it by now. It takes profound discipline to break through such a conditioning program when you will have been born at the inside of it.

>>308744
interesting take

>>308744
The problem of all religion and cultures is tribalism, bitch attention whore behaviour and absolute self importance with late victimism.
All of these things lead to shit nationalism or destruction of self identity or individual identity into the power of political power like "them" against "us"
There's no more "you" just Us.
This allow tribalism and identity identification without reasoning.
Thing like Jew or Nazi or gay or lesbian or Kekguy or Wiz or Crab lead to absolute total acceptante and reduction of Human condition to a artificial tag like these mask or identity or tribals structure, absolute destroying individuality and Human condition.
A mere simulation of ideal forms that never achieve a psychalystic form in the world of matter.
This is the pure manifestation of eucledian logic in modern world, an antinatural thing that lead of destruction of human condition if it got into power or even in the condition of democracy or totalitarian scheme. Its not about diversity, race, racism, inclussion or pride. Its not about nationalism, religion or political ideas. Its about power in the costume of identities.
There's no middle or "no" or "maybe" just the "this is this and its all".
Non-eucledian logic can turn you into a more human and healthy behaviour against this new artificial robot existence of retarded monkey trowing shit against each others based in stupid identities or "i that thing or" "i good and you bad".
When you achieve non-eucledian logic mindset, you achieve a shield against extreme stupid ideas and can get a big panorama of the real existence from matter world.
That the big "Maybe" in the power of human side, this maybe is the ego-death and dual mind in favor of human side against the robots of the future.
Bacause life and human is a process and not a rigid line of tribal and social machinery.

>>308678
why even care what happens with your stuff

I don't think it's absolutely necessary, it depends if you want them to know about something or not. It can be useful if you want them to do something specific after you die, like cremating your dead body, or not sharing the cause of your death to anyone. It's also a good way to say what you were afraid of telling others when you were alive, maybe telling everything you hate about someone or how your parents failed at raising you, etc.
>>308675
Based.

I always felt like suicide note is illogical. The whole point of choosing the way out is that you don't want to deal with life's bullshit and/or impact it in anyway. Why give orientations to a world that hates you? Just leave and say nothing is the non-soy way.