>>308772sorry you're in the depths right now and it's hard (or impossible) to see a light at the end of the tunnel where you have relief.
Do you have fluctuations in this feeling are there days that somehow you feel back to normal, even if it's fleeting?
Do you want more questions, advice, or something in particular? I can say i relate to the vague yet pervasive existential dread you're experiencing, but i also know being in the thick of it is hard to listen to advice or anything.
Like the fact that there's a grain of truth in what people have said: "you'll be fine" - cus in a sense you got through yesterday's battle - you were technically fine. So what's really going on?