/dep/ - Depression

you need to take your meds what you're saying makes no sense.

Turn the other cheek or something.

>>309395
How does it not make sense? Its literally the plot of Amadeus.

some people just are insufferable and only live to torment others
can't you just block him or filter him or something?

>>309393
>The worst part is that my "envy" has moved from wanting a catalog like his, to having now, in my own estimation, attained that catalog
You mean to say that his demeaning behavior may have contrubted to you succeeding in your goals? Perhaps that's why he does it. He wants to see you shine, and as a man, he goes about pushing you down the right path through keyboard combat. He knows that you know what he can do and he aims to show you how confident and vivacious you too could be once you reach his height.
>to envying his pride and arrogance and self-assuredness.
If you have achieved your goals, then you ought to feel pride. You by all means should self-assure yourself that you are able to do what you put your mind to.
>…as a supposed Christian
>As a Christian I shouldn't…
Stop shackling your healthy male emotions "as a Christian" and instead embrace your them as a tool with which to grow.

There is no shame in envy. To want what others have only becomes a sin when you seek to take it from them. To use your envy as a tool for growth and advancement towards your greater goals, then envy is good.

Not in a hobby but I was the joke at work. The supervisor signed me up for insulting mailing lists for junkmail to my house, sent strange emails from other employee's open computers so I looked like a freak trying to respond to them (people I respected and thought they were having an off day)… I had to quit finally, they guy was unfireable and I wasn't going to stick around for that. I recommend finding another circle of hobbyists: keep the hobby but find another crew.

>>309434
Yeah I used to be bullied by my coworker too. It sucks when you have to go in day after day being called a retard.

>>309393
Is he a wagecuck?

i was kinda cyberbullied as a depressed teenager.

they impersonated a succubus and tried to coerce me into killing myself over the course of months. I was already depressed/suicidal so it was more like encouraging/pushing me towards what was already manifesting in my own mind. ironically, the last thing they said was "do it for me" and that was a big part of what snapped me out of it mid-attempt (asphyxiation).

now ~20 years later, i still feel cursed by the demon who tormented me. it's a shitty life experience.

I think I'm pro-cyberbullying these days

>>310494
I have selective mutism so im like airlines fuel to assholes jerks that like to talk to much or have no problem to make suffering me bacause i fight little to them. In general i talk normal to normies and in hobby talks but when there're these attention whores its like they build a hierarchy to bully people thanks to their power, wealth, charisma, image or wathever
>Also
I never told anyone about this thing about selective mutism (just one nun and she was the most gentle and kind person i met in my life but she was more a nun than a succubi)
but i know these assholes know it by nature and they love ans enjoy torture me.
>And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone.
I a stupid agnostic but i read a lot of religions and philosophies of life and every year i turn more slowly into a Buddhist Daoist with some christian like mindset and ideas.
And yes this year i got that idea of "what if this asshole achieve the worst possible suffering experience in life and keeps living with this suffering for his entire damn existence without death peace" and yes, this is a contradiction of my ideas and ideals, these are like alien ideas to me.
You know, doing these practices of metta or love-kindness actually hurt me a lot knowning that i feel like this in response to suffering that these assholes cause me. Its like i slowly turn from a Jedi to a Sith.
The best to do is learn to ignore them and if they are too much annoying take it to the legal.

>>310494
it's ok, there's so many half breeds around that nobody is gonna be able to tell you apart

>>309393
Yes, I don't know who it is as I see it everywhere I go, multiple people, will probably do a Rodger if I don't find it

>>309393
He sounds like a typical narcissist, OP. Cut contact with him and find another social circle. You don't have to put up with this.

Every time I establish myself in some group i get bullied, their 6th sense is remarkable I must say. I resort to just being alone, or fully embracing being the biggest troll I can possibly be, which often leads to bans and currently 2 police visits to my house!!