dont tell me some shit like not doing anything with your life or getting addicted to something, because those are multiple fuck ups strung together, and dont say something that you didnt have any control over either. im talking one singular instance where you made a conscious decision to do something wrong and it put your future in jeopardy.
i got expelled from uni for academic dishonesty. literally shit is so dumb. you can do everything right all the time and make good decisions every day but fuck up once and you are done for. i feel like i am walking on eggshells constantly. and dont tell me im a retard for getting caught, literally everybody that has ever walked the face of this planet has made shitty choices, its just that not all of them produce effects.
i got expelled from uni for academic dishonesty. literally shit is so dumb. you can do everything right all the time and make good decisions every day but fuck up once and you are done for. i feel like i am walking on eggshells constantly. and dont tell me im a retard for getting caught, literally everybody that has ever walked the face of this planet has made shitty choices, its just that not all of them produce effects.
my parents got me into a university, when they drove me to it I darted for the forest hoping to get away and be homeless, I spend a little while walking around then police picked me up and brought me back to my parents, so then I didnt go to university and sat at home and neeted for a long time
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Not joining the workforce sooner. Now I'm 27, unemployable and it's too late. There is no coming back from this.
I will live and die by the NEET sword.
I will live and die by the NEET sword.
Recovering hikikomori here living with a single-mother.
Dropping out of school for 6 years (9th grade)(I'm still in school and I'm 23). I live in a country in which you have to attend classes even if you're an adult and there's also conscription. I need to go to the army because I plan to be a cctv operator/security guard and that's the only way to get the security guard license where I live, you also have to pay for it. Shit sucks and the pay is low, slightly above janitor's wage, but I'm terrified of work and it seems like the easiest job there is. I guess that's not the only reason I'm such a failure. I'm very lazy and I have no reason nor motivation to participate in the rat race that is life.
Dropping out of school for 6 years (9th grade)(I'm still in school and I'm 23). I live in a country in which you have to attend classes even if you're an adult and there's also conscription. I need to go to the army because I plan to be a cctv operator/security guard and that's the only way to get the security guard license where I live, you also have to pay for it. Shit sucks and the pay is low, slightly above janitor's wage, but I'm terrified of work and it seems like the easiest job there is. I guess that's not the only reason I'm such a failure. I'm very lazy and I have no reason nor motivation to participate in the rat race that is life.
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probably spending way too much effort/time working instead of being a neet
also moving out and living alone made me unable to save any money while working, it was just not worth it
also moving out and living alone made me unable to save any money while working, it was just not worth it
>one singular instance where you made a conscious decision to do something wrong
I think this is a pretty rare situation, most people get broken by millions tiny papercuts for decades.
I think this is a pretty rare situation, most people get broken by millions tiny papercuts for decades.
>>235770
Going on the internet, but there is no going back. It's like letting someone who's slept all their life on the floor sleep in the bed. They might sleep perfectly comfortable on the ground but after sleeping a few nights in a bed they will never go back. This is the same with internet and why you can't just just stop using it if you hate it so muuch lma. The damage is already done, though I doubt I would end up a lot better without it
Going on the internet, but there is no going back. It's like letting someone who's slept all their life on the floor sleep in the bed. They might sleep perfectly comfortable on the ground but after sleeping a few nights in a bed they will never go back. This is the same with internet and why you can't just just stop using it if you hate it so muuch lma. The damage is already done, though I doubt I would end up a lot better without it
Tried some stupid sitting position on a chair, fell on lower back hard. Back pain and bladder problems ever since.
Rest of my life is garbage regardless of fucking up or not
Rest of my life is garbage regardless of fucking up or not
It was probably failing to cultivate a more social hobby when I was a kid like sports or music, I always just went straight home and played video games/watched tv. This caused me to become a shutin who couldn't talk to people, couldn't get a job and couldn't anything except play certain video games (and I was always a scrub who played on lower difficulties)
Definitely going to college. I knew since I was a sophomore in high school that it wasn't worth it, and I wanted to go to trade school instead. However my parents kept pressuring me, reassuring me I was "too smart" not to (in reality I just seemed smart because I was surrounded by retards). I ended up going anyway because I thought I would end up doing something meaningful that would impact the world (LOL). But after I flunked all my first year classes I switched to CS because I thought at least I'm good with computers.
Then, despite having good grades and skills, because I was too autistic to network or even apply for jobs, I ended up at a bottom of the barrel IT job. I've also come to despise digital technology and realized I've always been an outdoors, hands-on and creative person at heart. And on top of that I wasted 5 years and $30k in debt from it and didn't make a single friend or anything while I was there. I would've been better off being a NEET or lowly wageslave that whole time. And I knew every step along the way I was doing the wrong thing, but I let those above me dictate my decisions anyway, because that's what I was used to all my life. I will never forgive myself, for being such an obedient slave to this despicable society.
Then, despite having good grades and skills, because I was too autistic to network or even apply for jobs, I ended up at a bottom of the barrel IT job. I've also come to despise digital technology and realized I've always been an outdoors, hands-on and creative person at heart. And on top of that I wasted 5 years and $30k in debt from it and didn't make a single friend or anything while I was there. I would've been better off being a NEET or lowly wageslave that whole time. And I knew every step along the way I was doing the wrong thing, but I let those above me dictate my decisions anyway, because that's what I was used to all my life. I will never forgive myself, for being such an obedient slave to this despicable society.
When i was in my early teens i sincerely was going to kill myself but threw my plans away when my mother came home early, i wish i had because i can't muster the will or motivation to do it anymore.
Waiting two years after highschool to go to college, and then going to college.
Sounds stupid but a couple of years make a lot of difference when you're 21 and dealing with 18/19 year olds.
Then there is a series of fuckups that ended up with me getting a shitty bachellors degree in 6 years instead of 4.
And also choosing to study computer science, because I was good with computers (I really wasn't)
But yeah if I had to pic one it'd be going to college.
I kinda sound like >>235876 with the exception that he sounds like he's actually good with computers when I am and always have been a fraud.
Sounds stupid but a couple of years make a lot of difference when you're 21 and dealing with 18/19 year olds.
Then there is a series of fuckups that ended up with me getting a shitty bachellors degree in 6 years instead of 4.
And also choosing to study computer science, because I was good with computers (I really wasn't)
But yeah if I had to pic one it'd be going to college.
I kinda sound like >>235876 with the exception that he sounds like he's actually good with computers when I am and always have been a fraud.
Its hard to say for me since I don't really have the feeling that anything I did in life was a really conscious decision since I've always been having mental health issues that influenced my decision making.
I'd say the worst decision I made in my life was not trying to find work after I dropped out of school early in my teens. I worked at one place for a month under bad conditions and then I just stopped looking for work and didn't do anything for years and didn't have any real social contact after that, now I'm nearly 30 and I don't have anything and I also lack the energy to do anything including things I liked since I know I've wasted the most important time period of my life already and it doesn't matter since my mental health most likely couldn't be fixed anyway.
I'd say the worst decision I made in my life was not trying to find work after I dropped out of school early in my teens. I worked at one place for a month under bad conditions and then I just stopped looking for work and didn't do anything for years and didn't have any real social contact after that, now I'm nearly 30 and I don't have anything and I also lack the energy to do anything including things I liked since I know I've wasted the most important time period of my life already and it doesn't matter since my mental health most likely couldn't be fixed anyway.
Failing to be a real man and looking after my mum after all the years she sacrificed her own happiness to look after me. I can still hear her in her room crying to herself four years after her death. She deserved so much better than what she got in life.
>>235773
You can still start now if you want. Do adult learning to get skills or go stack shelves. Middle age succubi can work at walmart with no qualifications or experience. Just make up a bullshit excuse for not working saying you had a disabled family member you looked after or worked in your dad's shop.
>>235791
Being a hikkikomori who spends all their day watching anime and playing video games is THE fuck up of the thread. If you're on NEET bux you have so many options to do things it's just a waste to do passive hobbies all the time.
You can still start now if you want. Do adult learning to get skills or go stack shelves. Middle age succubi can work at walmart with no qualifications or experience. Just make up a bullshit excuse for not working saying you had a disabled family member you looked after or worked in your dad's shop.
>>235791
Being a hikkikomori who spends all their day watching anime and playing video games is THE fuck up of the thread. If you're on NEET bux you have so many options to do things it's just a waste to do passive hobbies all the time.
Being passive in my teens and 20s. It is a blanket thing, but I gave into anxiety and fear so I basically blew my only chance for a normal life and having friends/getting laid. So I became a wizzard because I literally had no way to meet anybody due to work/being broke. I did learned my lesson, but I have no more opportunities to implement anything.
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Seeing the voice actors from "The Legend of Korra" TV show and being unable to suspend disbelief, thus eliminating the ability to escape from life. tl;dr basically realizing that the worlds and characters I loved were fake and nothing could change that.
>>235887
>You can still start now if you want. Do adult learning to get skills or go stack shelves. Middle age succubi can work at walmart with no qualifications or experience.
Did you pick up this advice from Reddit? Of course middle aged succubi can get jobs, store managers are simps.
>Just make up a bullshit excuse for not working saying you had a disabled family member you looked after or worked in your dad's shop.
That's just as bad as saying you've been a NEET all that time.
>You can still start now if you want. Do adult learning to get skills or go stack shelves. Middle age succubi can work at walmart with no qualifications or experience.
Did you pick up this advice from Reddit? Of course middle aged succubi can get jobs, store managers are simps.
>Just make up a bullshit excuse for not working saying you had a disabled family member you looked after or worked in your dad's shop.
That's just as bad as saying you've been a NEET all that time.
>>235886
This is perhaps the saddest one ITT. I feel the same with my grandma, who was the closest thing I had to a mother.
This is perhaps the saddest one ITT. I feel the same with my grandma, who was the closest thing I had to a mother.
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>>235890
Yeah something similar happened to me, back in 2012-2013 I was a "brony" (don't laugh) and this horse right here was my waifu, she was kind, nice and smart, her VA is a massive slut that was always teasing fans on twitter with her voice, it was so bad that I could no longer see my waifu as before so I ended up abandoning the show.
Fuck real people, they even manage to ruin their own characters.
Yeah something similar happened to me, back in 2012-2013 I was a "brony" (don't laugh) and this horse right here was my waifu, she was kind, nice and smart, her VA is a massive slut that was always teasing fans on twitter with her voice, it was so bad that I could no longer see my waifu as before so I ended up abandoning the show.
Fuck real people, they even manage to ruin their own characters.
>>235905
Yes, one of the worst days of my life. How I just… let reality encroach upon something I idolized, and let destroy it. I remember the moments after looking behind the curtain and seeing those faces which fragmented my transcendental place. I lived alone in the shower a while - staring blankly. Shortly afterwards, I layed in my bed for hours regretting the decision. It really seems silly, but having so much hope vanish before my eyes was too much to bear.
Yes, one of the worst days of my life. How I just… let reality encroach upon something I idolized, and let destroy it. I remember the moments after looking behind the curtain and seeing those faces which fragmented my transcendental place. I lived alone in the shower a while - staring blankly. Shortly afterwards, I layed in my bed for hours regretting the decision. It really seems silly, but having so much hope vanish before my eyes was too much to bear.
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>>235770
Getting a political science degree and/or generally just going to college at all. I did it because that’s what I thought I was supposed to do at 17. I deliberately avoided all math intensive classes and just wasted 5 years coasting through classes. I paid off my debt thankfully but i honestly gave up on getting any kind of dignified job awhile ago. I haven’t worked consistently since sept 2018 and I don’t really see any point to suddenly start working again approaching 30. I did try to join the Air Force but was permanently disqualified when I was around 24 (I got a head injury at 16). That was my last attempt to be a productive member of society. Now I just don’t care about my future or what happens
Getting a political science degree and/or generally just going to college at all. I did it because that’s what I thought I was supposed to do at 17. I deliberately avoided all math intensive classes and just wasted 5 years coasting through classes. I paid off my debt thankfully but i honestly gave up on getting any kind of dignified job awhile ago. I haven’t worked consistently since sept 2018 and I don’t really see any point to suddenly start working again approaching 30. I did try to join the Air Force but was permanently disqualified when I was around 24 (I got a head injury at 16). That was my last attempt to be a productive member of society. Now I just don’t care about my future or what happens
>>235907
Yeah I'm in the same boat. I had a dream wizard security guard job, half the time spent reading and half spent walking around an abandoned factory. But then I got the ambition for immortality and decided to go to college to try and learn AI so that I could upload my consciousness into a computer. Well that gave me the suicidal thoughts again due to all the stupid toil, and I eventually just got a codemonkey job which I hate. But the good part is that I do have an idea for how to achieve spiritual immortality now, not sure if the college thing was really necessary for that though.
Yeah I'm in the same boat. I had a dream wizard security guard job, half the time spent reading and half spent walking around an abandoned factory. But then I got the ambition for immortality and decided to go to college to try and learn AI so that I could upload my consciousness into a computer. Well that gave me the suicidal thoughts again due to all the stupid toil, and I eventually just got a codemonkey job which I hate. But the good part is that I do have an idea for how to achieve spiritual immortality now, not sure if the college thing was really necessary for that though.
>>235905
>>235906
You worshiped a cartoon horse. WTF did you think you were doing? Looking into an alternative reality where your Pikachu Sonic hybrid was broadcasting to you? Seeing how the sausage was made is a good thing for people like you and tries to force you back to reality before you start saying the cartoons will merge with us soon.
>>235907
Why did you get a political science degree? That's not going to get you any sort of dignified jobs. Politics are as dirty and undignified as they come.
Why did the head injury disqualify you? You shouldn't give up on improving your situation just because you had some set backs. Don't give up Wiz, you can still do something cool even now. Approaching 30 is far from end game.
>>235910
You will never upload your consciousness to a computer and even if you did you will be forgotten and lost in a very short time frame. Storing data costs space and money (rent, taxes). No one is going to store some random codemonkey so naive he got his head frozen for six months because Walt Disney did it.
>>235906
You worshiped a cartoon horse. WTF did you think you were doing? Looking into an alternative reality where your Pikachu Sonic hybrid was broadcasting to you? Seeing how the sausage was made is a good thing for people like you and tries to force you back to reality before you start saying the cartoons will merge with us soon.
>>235907
Why did you get a political science degree? That's not going to get you any sort of dignified jobs. Politics are as dirty and undignified as they come.
Why did the head injury disqualify you? You shouldn't give up on improving your situation just because you had some set backs. Don't give up Wiz, you can still do something cool even now. Approaching 30 is far from end game.
>>235910
You will never upload your consciousness to a computer and even if you did you will be forgotten and lost in a very short time frame. Storing data costs space and money (rent, taxes). No one is going to store some random codemonkey so naive he got his head frozen for six months because Walt Disney did it.
>>235911
I know, my mistake was that I was using a hard materialist framework to work with consciousness and I've discovered through personal experimentation that that's unproductive and inaccurate.
I know, my mistake was that I was using a hard materialist framework to work with consciousness and I've discovered through personal experimentation that that's unproductive and inaccurate.
I can't really point to anything in specific. I could pick up a dozen fuckups but I don't think any had a giant impact by themselves. I don't know how I could've realistically changed my life, that's the sad thing. I did nothing wrong and also nothing right.
>>235911
It wasn't like that, I used that show as a very powerful form of escapism when my life was at bottom barrel tier of bad, but it's hard to escape into the fantasy world when you remember that this turbo slut is the one that voices your favorite character, you can't tell them apart anymore, I couldn't stop thinking how this whore was so different from my waifu, it all ended when she started teasing retards on twitter using my waifu's voice just because she has a pathologic need for attention like all femoids.
Never ever look behind the curtain, it's not worth it.
It wasn't like that, I used that show as a very powerful form of escapism when my life was at bottom barrel tier of bad, but it's hard to escape into the fantasy world when you remember that this turbo slut is the one that voices your favorite character, you can't tell them apart anymore, I couldn't stop thinking how this whore was so different from my waifu, it all ended when she started teasing retards on twitter using my waifu's voice just because she has a pathologic need for attention like all femoids.
Never ever look behind the curtain, it's not worth it.
>>235916
Oh and before some mods bans me for posting 3D females, I would like to say that I just posted that to emphasize how slutty Tara Strong used to behave, posting tit pics pretty much every day, it was purely informative, pls don't ban me.
Oh and before some mods bans me for posting 3D females, I would like to say that I just posted that to emphasize how slutty Tara Strong used to behave, posting tit pics pretty much every day, it was purely informative, pls don't ban me.
>>235916
the blame always rests with the waifufag perpetrator, you shouldn't have a waifu, it's unwizardly.
the blame always rests with the waifufag perpetrator, you shouldn't have a waifu, it's unwizardly.
>>235916
Duh. That's why you should always be careful when you're looking up a character, and immediately look away if there's VA information or anything that breaks the suspension of disbelief. Your mistake was probably looking the information on purpose.
Duh. That's why you should always be careful when you're looking up a character, and immediately look away if there's VA information or anything that breaks the suspension of disbelief. Your mistake was probably looking the information on purpose.
>>235918
Fuck off, japanese wizards have been waifufagging since the 80's, waifus are pretty much wizard fuel.
>>235919
It was very hard not to look for info, Tara Strong was basically the goddess of the fandom back in the day, and trust me when I say that she always went out of her way to be noticed in slutty and degenerate ways while using my waifu as cannon fodder.
Fuck off, japanese wizards have been waifufagging since the 80's, waifus are pretty much wizard fuel.
>>235919
It was very hard not to look for info, Tara Strong was basically the goddess of the fandom back in the day, and trust me when I say that she always went out of her way to be noticed in slutty and degenerate ways while using my waifu as cannon fodder.
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>>235920
Forgot pic.
Forgot pic.
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>>235920
>japanese wizards
you mean japanese crabs. Waifus are failed normalfag tier and crabs cope for not having a gf.
>japanese wizards
you mean japanese crabs. Waifus are failed normalfag tier and crabs cope for not having a gf.
>>235921
That is… pretty fucked up. I just know I hated seeing human faces behind my beloved cartoon characters. Maybe I am actually a dysfunctional retard with mental issues for letting something like that bother me, but it really did fuck me up
That is… pretty fucked up. I just know I hated seeing human faces behind my beloved cartoon characters. Maybe I am actually a dysfunctional retard with mental issues for letting something like that bother me, but it really did fuck me up
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>>235923
Now imagine that, every single day, it eventually became too much and I just stopped watching the show and found another waifu with a non slut VA.
Japs were very smart when they decided to completely ban their saiyus, idols and shit from behaving like this.
Now imagine that, every single day, it eventually became too much and I just stopped watching the show and found another waifu with a non slut VA.
Japs were very smart when they decided to completely ban their saiyus, idols and shit from behaving like this.
>>235924
She should've been more professional, but I don't condemn her as an individual. Her succubitch wits were just telling her how popular and 'cool' she would be if she accepted that a large portion of the fandom for the cartoon she voiced in was adult males. A fine strategy, actually.
She should've been more professional, but I don't condemn her as an individual. Her succubitch wits were just telling her how popular and 'cool' she would be if she accepted that a large portion of the fandom for the cartoon she voiced in was adult males. A fine strategy, actually.
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>One single conscious decision to do something wrong.
I find it rather optimist to think if you had done ONE thing differently your whole life would've turned okay.
Maybe dropping Christianity altogether, but I think I would've dropped it eventually when I realized faith wouldn't be enough or my peers would've gotten enough of my autism.
>>235890
>>235905
How strange this kind of stuff never happened to me. Then again I don't follow VAs social media at all.
I still remember reading people chimping out every time Hamill didn't voice the Joker in some animated movie.
>>235916
>>235920
>>235924
Internet fandom drama is always quite a thing to watch. Ponies above all. I assume you were quite young and impressionable when you got hooked into it.
>>235925
Tara is in a quite privileged position among Cartoon Voice actors, she seems to be the first choice for every new cartoon, you really don't hear any other actress pulling that kind of shit.
I find it rather optimist to think if you had done ONE thing differently your whole life would've turned okay.
Maybe dropping Christianity altogether, but I think I would've dropped it eventually when I realized faith wouldn't be enough or my peers would've gotten enough of my autism.
>>235890
>>235905
How strange this kind of stuff never happened to me. Then again I don't follow VAs social media at all.
I still remember reading people chimping out every time Hamill didn't voice the Joker in some animated movie.
>>235916
>>235920
>>235924
Internet fandom drama is always quite a thing to watch. Ponies above all. I assume you were quite young and impressionable when you got hooked into it.
>>235925
Tara is in a quite privileged position among Cartoon Voice actors, she seems to be the first choice for every new cartoon, you really don't hear any other actress pulling that kind of shit.
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>>235926
>Internet fandom drama is always quite a thing to watch. Ponies above all. I assume you were quite young and impressionable when you got hooked into it.
Yes I was like 15 at the time, she just kept posting lewd pics of her tits + lewd pics of my waifu and I hated her for that, the pony thing was a blessing for her because her popularity exploded again, she was dubbed the "Brony queen" and she used that fame to post suggestive pics of her tits again and again fishing for attention.
In retrospective is quite weird to see a mature succubus posting this kind of thing especially when we consider that this was still primarily a show aimed at kids.
>Internet fandom drama is always quite a thing to watch. Ponies above all. I assume you were quite young and impressionable when you got hooked into it.
Yes I was like 15 at the time, she just kept posting lewd pics of her tits + lewd pics of my waifu and I hated her for that, the pony thing was a blessing for her because her popularity exploded again, she was dubbed the "Brony queen" and she used that fame to post suggestive pics of her tits again and again fishing for attention.
In retrospective is quite weird to see a mature succubus posting this kind of thing especially when we consider that this was still primarily a show aimed at kids.
>>235916
Waifuism was a mistake. It's lead to vtubers.
>>235920
They have also been killing themselves since the 80s. They're not people you should idolize. Being a slant eyed retard is no different to being a round eyed retard.
>>235926
Bigger the slut the more people want you in those circles. Start sucking a few dicks and you get hired by the suckee.
>>235927
The bronies were a great example of an internet cult. I spoke to one from /fit/ at the shows peak and asked him what the appeal was. The show wasn't the central part of that group, it was lonely men finding a "supportive" community. They wanted to be accepted and bronies were so fucked up wanting to fuck a horse as a gate way drug lead to the everyone is accepted foundation. Then if you rejected any one you also got rejected which leads to broken men obsessing over their new cult and being terrified of losing the support from others despite it being an unhealthy "family" they're involved with.
It's too late now but it would of been fascinating to have a documentary made on the brony cult when it was at it's peak. Now it's settled back down into the usual furry cancer and tranny circle jerk which is different from the male focused brony shit.
Waifuism was a mistake. It's lead to vtubers.
>>235920
They have also been killing themselves since the 80s. They're not people you should idolize. Being a slant eyed retard is no different to being a round eyed retard.
>>235926
Bigger the slut the more people want you in those circles. Start sucking a few dicks and you get hired by the suckee.
>>235927
The bronies were a great example of an internet cult. I spoke to one from /fit/ at the shows peak and asked him what the appeal was. The show wasn't the central part of that group, it was lonely men finding a "supportive" community. They wanted to be accepted and bronies were so fucked up wanting to fuck a horse as a gate way drug lead to the everyone is accepted foundation. Then if you rejected any one you also got rejected which leads to broken men obsessing over their new cult and being terrified of losing the support from others despite it being an unhealthy "family" they're involved with.
It's too late now but it would of been fascinating to have a documentary made on the brony cult when it was at it's peak. Now it's settled back down into the usual furry cancer and tranny circle jerk which is different from the male focused brony shit.
>>235911
>why political science
It was easy and it was good mental masturbation. I know I’m still young but I’m just not really enthusiastic about being alive anymore. I constantly have a vague sense of dread because I haven’t gotten a career going and I have no sense of stability or predictability in my life. But at the same time, I see guys like my dad who has been a lawyer for 30+ years and he just goes through the motions like he’s waiting to die. He comes home from work and just sits around and reads books. I feel like a career just hollows you out. I dunno, maybe I’m depressed but life just seems like something I have to endure rather than enjoy. Most people cop out with a family and kids but that seems like a massive burden to me. I don’t want to deal with other people to the degree required of a family
>why political science
It was easy and it was good mental masturbation. I know I’m still young but I’m just not really enthusiastic about being alive anymore. I constantly have a vague sense of dread because I haven’t gotten a career going and I have no sense of stability or predictability in my life. But at the same time, I see guys like my dad who has been a lawyer for 30+ years and he just goes through the motions like he’s waiting to die. He comes home from work and just sits around and reads books. I feel like a career just hollows you out. I dunno, maybe I’m depressed but life just seems like something I have to endure rather than enjoy. Most people cop out with a family and kids but that seems like a massive burden to me. I don’t want to deal with other people to the degree required of a family
>Getting addicted to a drug isn't a single fuck up
>"i got expelled from uni for academic dishonesty. "
Op is a fucking retard.
>"i got expelled from uni for academic dishonesty. "
Op is a fucking retard.
>>236021
ive smoked bowls before and i keep it under control. every time you do drugs you make a conscious decision to do them, to say this is tautological. so getting "addicted" is really just a big string of connected bad decisions.
ive smoked bowls before and i keep it under control. every time you do drugs you make a conscious decision to do them, to say this is tautological. so getting "addicted" is really just a big string of connected bad decisions.
>>236048
"i've smoked weed so drug addiction is something people choose"
Yeah, choose a non physically addicting substance which is easily substituted with other distractions in lieu of its presence for your example.
"i've smoked weed so drug addiction is something people choose"
Yeah, choose a non physically addicting substance which is easily substituted with other distractions in lieu of its presence for your example.
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>>235770
I don’t think I’ve made my biggest mistake in life just yet. Generally speaking I’ve eaten shit when I had to compensate for my mistakes which gave me the chance to make amends and acquire the participation certificates necessary to get my foot in the door moving forward. Lockdown has just provided additional mildly acceptable rationalizations for lack of significant achievement; if nothing else my most consistent mistake is all of the time I continue to waste.
I don’t think I’ve made my biggest mistake in life just yet. Generally speaking I’ve eaten shit when I had to compensate for my mistakes which gave me the chance to make amends and acquire the participation certificates necessary to get my foot in the door moving forward. Lockdown has just provided additional mildly acceptable rationalizations for lack of significant achievement; if nothing else my most consistent mistake is all of the time I continue to waste.
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>>235771
Similar. If there's something I shouldn't have done it was not attending university. I did well in high school and got into a good college. Knew as soon as orientation how disconnected I already was from people my age having had basically no close-personal socialization to that point. Spend the rest of the summer dwelling on how isolated and miserable was. Moved into college and immediately told my parents I wasn't going and took a flight home since had been planning to skip classes and kill myself for months anyway. Was supposed to live in an 4 bedroom apartment with a bunch of chinks and I recall how perplexed they were that I was just up and leaving, packing all my belongs up and walking out right after unpacking.
At this stage, I've traced the path leading to fuck-ups so far that they aren't really singular events. My life wouldn't be any different had I stayed. Would have had the same misery to overcome. Also right around the end of high school I had some chances establishing friendships and had a my last chance at teenage love with a succubus I liked that I new at the time by passing on I was likely solidifying my future. The end of high school and transition into NEETdom was the turn, but it was a long-time coming from a childhood of outcasting and loneliness. But I would have had a real shot at norpieworld and normal human connection had I not bailed on college. Don't give a shit about any of this at this point. Real fuck-up was not holding the bitcoin I used to buy drugs in 2013.
>>235930
Look into graduate school and use grants to leech cash from the government. It's a game, but funded phd programs are an option. Work is inhuman anyways, no point in basing life around a career.
Similar. If there's something I shouldn't have done it was not attending university. I did well in high school and got into a good college. Knew as soon as orientation how disconnected I already was from people my age having had basically no close-personal socialization to that point. Spend the rest of the summer dwelling on how isolated and miserable was. Moved into college and immediately told my parents I wasn't going and took a flight home since had been planning to skip classes and kill myself for months anyway. Was supposed to live in an 4 bedroom apartment with a bunch of chinks and I recall how perplexed they were that I was just up and leaving, packing all my belongs up and walking out right after unpacking.
At this stage, I've traced the path leading to fuck-ups so far that they aren't really singular events. My life wouldn't be any different had I stayed. Would have had the same misery to overcome. Also right around the end of high school I had some chances establishing friendships and had a my last chance at teenage love with a succubus I liked that I new at the time by passing on I was likely solidifying my future. The end of high school and transition into NEETdom was the turn, but it was a long-time coming from a childhood of outcasting and loneliness. But I would have had a real shot at norpieworld and normal human connection had I not bailed on college. Don't give a shit about any of this at this point. Real fuck-up was not holding the bitcoin I used to buy drugs in 2013.
>>235930
Look into graduate school and use grants to leech cash from the government. It's a game, but funded phd programs are an option. Work is inhuman anyways, no point in basing life around a career.
>>236076
>Real fuck-up was not holding the bitcoin I used to buy drugs in 2013.
Singlehandedly this. I spent around 200 BTC on an ounce of mid-grade pot. I was living with my parents and they found it, threw it away, and yelled at me. If I'd saved that BTC I could buy their fucking house.
>Real fuck-up was not holding the bitcoin I used to buy drugs in 2013.
Singlehandedly this. I spent around 200 BTC on an ounce of mid-grade pot. I was living with my parents and they found it, threw it away, and yelled at me. If I'd saved that BTC I could buy their fucking house.
In highschool I was duped into marxist ideology like the pubescent-brain I was, so I elected to attend a leftist college, which turned out to be a disaster, derailing my formal education. I was cured of Marxism for all time and learned hard lessons about the nature of depravity and evil, but I often wonder if my station in life would be more secure had I chosen a different college. On second thought, truth is more valuable than any money so this disaster was perhaps okay occurrence viewed from a different standpoint.
Honestly, nothing feels like a fuckup anymore. In retrospect, I acted to the best of my capability in every awkward situation I've ever been in.
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>>235770
Not going straight to Uni to study Philosphy even though it was my passion, just because I was scared of what would come after.
Not going straight to Uni to study Philosphy even though it was my passion, just because I was scared of what would come after.
>>236252
Imagine paying to study something you can learn from self study and discussion with others online. Why would you want to go to college for philosophy that seems like a way to really box your thoughts in.
Imagine paying to study something you can learn from self study and discussion with others online. Why would you want to go to college for philosophy that seems like a way to really box your thoughts in.
>>236252
>Uni
Assuming you're European, why would you want to do anything? Don't you guys get neetbux?
>Uni
Assuming you're European, why would you want to do anything? Don't you guys get neetbux?
>>236253
Thats what I was thinking but if you want to do it professionaly you have to get a formal education, not to mention at Uni you have all the time in the world to dwell in books, essays and articles and refine your logic as well as dialectic.
Moreover most people are full of shit and I am tired of discussing midwits, I want to meet like minded people and talk to them, not some smug moron on the internet.
>>236254
I dont want fucking NEETbux from this piece of shit government. They will strip you of anything you have and then harass you with slave labor offers while you barely scrape by in your social housing surrounded by alcoholics, drug addicts, niggers and their screaming babies.
I wanna move to Montana or generally a low density US state where I would live in a house by myself, dedicating my time to literature and knowledge.
Thats what I was thinking but if you want to do it professionaly you have to get a formal education, not to mention at Uni you have all the time in the world to dwell in books, essays and articles and refine your logic as well as dialectic.
Moreover most people are full of shit and I am tired of discussing midwits, I want to meet like minded people and talk to them, not some smug moron on the internet.
>>236254
I dont want fucking NEETbux from this piece of shit government. They will strip you of anything you have and then harass you with slave labor offers while you barely scrape by in your social housing surrounded by alcoholics, drug addicts, niggers and their screaming babies.
I wanna move to Montana or generally a low density US state where I would live in a house by myself, dedicating my time to literature and knowledge.
>>236256
A true philosopher would become a drifter and experience life I wonder if you have talked with the homeless and connected to them at all because a lot of them are truly smart too smart to function.
Why teach philosophy to a bunch of normies when you can go out and preach your ideas on the street
A true philosopher would become a drifter and experience life I wonder if you have talked with the homeless and connected to them at all because a lot of them are truly smart too smart to function.
Why teach philosophy to a bunch of normies when you can go out and preach your ideas on the street
>>236267
So? you adjust to your new enviroment never happier nor sadder after you get used to it all you need is desire.
So? you adjust to your new enviroment never happier nor sadder after you get used to it all you need is desire.
>>236321
Then do it. Remember you won't be able to post here after you're locked away. But tgat doesn't bother you, right?
Then do it. Remember you won't be able to post here after you're locked away. But tgat doesn't bother you, right?