Browse wizchan and either shit out posts about myself, or read over my old ones to see if anyone has replied to them, which itself usually doesn't happen. Checking wizchan is very often the first thing I do when waking up and it's a pretty horrible way to start the day since it almost always makes me fucking miserable by doing so, since nobody gives a shit, it's all a fucking joke that everyone one is in on except me and everybody hates each other.
Past that, I force myself to play and cross off video games on my backlog. I'd say out of an entire week, I can manage to do this for 4-5 days out of said week. My gaming sessions also usually last about 3-6 hours, or even a little more, depending on how good/boring the game is, or when fatigue starts to set in. I cling to gaming as a way to kill time and as a self-convinced form of continuity and progress. If I'm being honest, if killing time wasn't an issue and I didn't give a shit about my backlog, I'd probably never pick up a game again, or at least only the ones which really, really stand out to me. I envy wizzies who actually do have this stance when it comes to gaming, but I bet it's easy for most of them, since they probably have something else to occupy themselves with.
Failing gaming, there's saving porn to my porn vault and edging for 1-3 hours, if I can manage it. Simply rubbing one out just doesn't feel satisfying at all. Long edging sessions are pretty much the only thing which make masturbation still somewhat stimulating.
Then there's naps. I get tired far more easily these days, so I tend to sleep/nap once or twice at some point for like an hour or so.
I also sometimes read manga, but usually only the sort of stuff that just makes me want to fucking curl up and die, like Strongest Man Kurosawa, or Goodnight Punpun. I tried reading Vinland Saga recently, but meh. It just didn't grab me.
Vikings were a pack of vile, looting savages anyway. Fuck them. Pretty much the only somewhat non-depressive manga I've read is Berserk, since it's basically just a shonen past a certain point.
Anime/films are pretty much a no go. I could very easily watch tons of shows and make that my new hobby, but my autism prevents this. It's very frustrating.
I also have no websites I browse and I have nothing I want to watch on YouTube. This mostly stems from the fact that nothing interests me and that I get easily annoyed at places
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