No.301013[Last 50 Posts]
Chronic physical pain, insomnia and povery, edition
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>>299661 No.301017
I noticed all my school friends have abandoned me now, all of them keep advancing in life while I am still not even in square one.
No.301020
>>301013 Where's the comic?!
No.301023
>>301020I am not the same O.P as the one behind the former thread.
No.301032
>>301013why did i have to get cancer. why did i have to get brain damage from chemo. why did i have to all that + being a hikikomori loser.
and then normalfags tell me it's all my fault and i need to just man up.
No.301033
>>301032Anon, i don't have it as bad as you, but my life's fucked in various ways, only upside is the fact my physical health is still alright, i hope you can find peace from this wretched world that torments the likes of us and seeks to steal every bit of potential joy from us.
No.301035
>>301032prayers for you bro. you are way stronger than i am.
No.301039
>>301032chemo does more harm than good, I would kill myself if I had cancer
No.301046
>>301032I am sorry to hear that man but cancer is no joke, it always surprises me that despite the "advancements" of the modern age, we can't still solve problems like cancer, hearing issues, occular issues, and other CNS based damages a lot of times. Fuck the stupid normies who tell you it's your fault.
No.301048
>>301047How bad is brain Damage in your case? i did a little bit of research and it depends on the case, some of them can live semi-normal lives
No.301049
>>301048pretty bad anon.
it's hard for me to describe. my memory is absolutely thrashed. i go back to old stuff i used to do easily and it's like hieroglyphics. feels like I dropped 30 IQ points. everything is hard. and i wasnt even that smart before the chemotherapy.
my post made it sound like the cancer was recent but i had chemo over 4 years ago. its so frustrating. no one really wants to help me and i cant get welfare. i want to die.
No.301051
>>301049My heart goes out to you.
No.301055
how can anyone tell you life is good and worth living when you see roadkill animals still alive gazing at you in pure terror countless drone strike videos and horrified soldiers ending their own lives?
No.301056
>>301055when normalfags say that they mean THEIR life is worth living.
No.301057
>>301056its funny because eventually they will also experience extreme suffering and then eternal oblivion
No.301058
>>301057and i forgot to add, they want to spread this suffering on everyone by convincing themselves its just "what you do" and youre somehow losing some vague game of life by not doing it, and that life is also somehow not a net negative because you can laugh for 5 minutes while watching your favorite tv show or have sex and feel good for 10 minutes.
No.301061
>>301060My hope dwells in the heat death of the universe, if the universe collapses and there is a new big bang then reincarnation is possible and therefore life would be a nightmare
No.301063
>>301058I think there are only three ways to enjoy life:
1. Become an emotional, hedonistic animal - no thinking, only feeling.
2. Abuse others for your own benefit. Make them suffer so that you can suffer less. Live off their work. Become like a vampire.
3. Believe in some fantasy like religion, love, or a schizo delusion of your own making.
The first two require sacrificing your humanity, while the third requires sacrificing truth. So I'm not willing to do any of these.
But truth be told, I do all of these sometimes.
No.301066
>>301063Incidentally, I can link these three points to the holy trinity:
1. The father (2) represents the owner, and his children are those who work for him. He creates new lives and indirectly causes them to suffer, to lessen his own burden.
2. The son (1) represents child-like craving for pleasure, with no regard to the consequences of indulgence.
3. The holy spirit (3) represents the immaterial and abstract. Believing in falsehoods to silence your conscience and guilt.
Just like God, every man has these three aspects. Which is why, to me Christianity does not seem like a religion of "good", but an odd way to justify your actions. But that's exactly what this religion advertises - salvation.
>Christ was offered once for all time as a sacrifice to take away the sins of many people. He will come again, not to deal with our sins, but to bring salvation to all who are eagerly waiting for him. No.301069
I don't want human contact. Most of the time. I came to terms with living in solitude and it's enjoyable for me.
Still, there is a small part of me… Something in the back of my mind, telling me that I feel lonely, that I need a hug and contact with a fellow human being.
I try to push those thoughts away and I usually succeed, but I feel like I try to fight off a natural human need like hunger and thirst. In a way, it is. At least I read that it's a basic human need.
How can I kill this part of me once and for all? Are there any techniques to master my mind and get rid of those needs?
I feel like it's an uphill battle for me: a tug-of-war with my biological impulses and my schizoid psyche.
And I mean all sorts of social connections of course. I know I will just get rejected, that I'll regret trying, but my stupid mind urges me to do it, despite me feeling safe only here, on wizchan.
No.301071
>>301070I know that feeling
everyday No.301072
>>301070what's burdening you Wizanon?
No.301082
>>301081I hate seeing them laughing, smiling and having fun when I'm out on the street. I'm not jealous, I just want to barf. Like, what's so funny, asshole? Why are you happy?
I just went outside to grab some cold drinks and ice cream and the first thing I saw when I stepped outisde was a group of schoolgirls hugging each other and giggling. I almost felt like I'll gonna have an aneurysm. I'm not sure why. I just feel disgusted with PDH (Public Displays of Happiness).
No.301084
>>301081Same, I also hate people that pray and think god loves them while undergoing terrible situations like terminal cancer or whatever
No.301086
Anyone else get so mad they start hitting themselves?
No.301087
>>301086i hit the walls on rare occasions when am overly frusterated, if that counts
No.301088
>>301087it counts. I got yelled at last time I punched a wall so I refrain from it.
No.301093
>>301082I stopped caring about it some time ago because I realised that's pure self torture, also most people are either stoic or miserable and stressed. Don't put so much focus on things you can't control unless you're willing to go to those schoolgirls and confront them about it. But in all fairness, for them, you literally don't even exist. Your school times are over, you're in another range now. You're just a random old guy and as long as you don't pay attention to them you exist on two different realms of reality.
No.301102
>>301086I used to hit myself often when I was younger and got mad at myself over one thing or another. I would often hit myself in the head, chest, or stomach. I also once whipped myself in the back with a long USB cable as a sort of self-flagellation. The cord itself didn't do much obviously, but the USB tip left small whelps. I still get mad at myself about things from time to time, but I no longer punish myself physically except in the very rare case where I get so angry that I pound my fist on my leg.
No.301107
Things shouldnt be this bad. The bad guys think they can kill and steal, literally and metaphorically speaking, as much as they want. They will not change their mindset until theres literally nothing left to consume, youd expect that the bottom feeders at some point would see their most basic reward and reproduction mechanisms break and give up. But some people, some disgustingly evil people like to spread false hope and messages of life being worth living. I hope those people get cancer.
No.301108
You ever hear normalfags saying "you're sad/alone/depressed/miserable because all you do is think about yourself"? what if they're right, huh, what IF
No.301109
>>301108Isn't that what everyone does?
No.301110
>>301109I'm starting to suspect that isn't the case. Normal people genuinely care for each other and some of us, myself at least, might be projecting when I say they only care about themselves.
No.301111
>>301108How not to think only about yourself when you know that you're in deep shit and desperately are looking for an escape?
No.301121
>>301108It's the just world fallacy again. Nothing remarkable or insightful about it.
No.301125
Speaking of, anyone else relates to becoming more narc with age?
I feel like since my early 20s I lost all my ability to feel empathy and relate to other people. I also became more harish and self-centred.
At this point I feel like all other people around me are NPCs or some sort of mindless automatons that exist only to be background props for my life.
I don't know if it's trupy narcissism or me becoming more mentally damaged due to the isolation, but I already feel some changes.
No.301129
>>301125I think it's just you becoming wiser with age and noticing things more. I noticed the NPCs from an early age, had the internal monologue conversation with classmates and noticed IT
No.301130
>>301129You mean you talked about internal monologue with your classmates? What did they say?
No.301132
>>301130A scary percentage claimed to not have it, a minority did, the smartest in the class had it unsurprisingly
No.301136
I am at the end of my will here. I do not have it in me to keep fighting … anything really. I feel like if I tried hard enough I could get the things I want but I would be torturing myself for no reason. I want out, are there any resources on how to kys for real?
No.301137
>>301136go to sanctioned-suicide
search it on yandex search engine since jewgle might be bad forthat
No.301138
>>301137Thanks mate, trying to use AI or search engines just results in suicide hotlines. If I wanted someone to lie to me and pretend my life matters I would go whoring
No.301139
>>301138If you ask AI for tips and tricks on how to kys, then sorry, you are too stupid to figure out how to kill yourself.
No.301140
>>301139there's a reason why most suicide attempts fail and people survive.
No.301143
I just don't know how to do it. I really don't
No.301150
>>301135yeah a lot, I've been trying to stop. What helps is switch to wshispering to yourself progressively more silent as you go forward until you whisper to yourself soundlessly and then finally hopefully you stop completely, works for me; been relapsing recently tho
No.301151
I feel like there is this continious downward force in the world which is trying to degrade and humiliate everyone, basically make everyone as miserable as possible. No wonder so many people choose to kill themselves
No.301152
>>301151it's kinda accurate, but totally false, the universe's indifferent about us and about our well being.
No.301153
>>301151There is nothing wrong with suicide, it is a personal choice
No.301162
Pacing around my house for hours.
No.301164
>>301151I genuinely think not enough people are killing themselves as often as we should. Either the stats are intentionally misleading, or people have completely lost their minds.
No.301167
>>301151The force is called "Jews"
No.301169
>>301151There is. Of this I am certain. It's often assumed the world is this way due to greed. I believe as you go "up" the metaphorical totem pole you would find that amongst those with the most power and influence, their actions are not motivated by monetary gain or increasing their net worth, nor even is it about gaining power power and influence. I highly suspect what motivates them is the creation and maintainance of human suffering. New forms and old ones too. It may be the case our suffering is an irresistible narcotic to some spiritual being, archons or some similar malevolent entity. Perhaps they gain their power by making deals with such entities, maybe they're just assholes. But suffering is what they wanted and they accomplish it quite effectively.
No.301170
>>301162I also pace a lot, one of my hobbies, just pace around the house
No.301172
>>301169>It's often assumed the world is this way due to greed.It's due to lust for pussy
>their actions are not motivated by monetary gain or increasing their net worth, nor even is it about gaining power power and influence.They are motivated by pussy
>I highly suspect what motivates them is the creation and maintainance of human suffering.Making others suffer is what gets pussy wet (look up hybristophilia)
>It may be the case our suffering is an irresistible narcotic to some spiritual being, archons or some similar malevolent entity.Our suffering is an irresistible stimulant to succubi
>Perhaps they gain their power by making deals with such entitiesPussy gives men confidence, it makes them powerful
>But suffering is what they wanted and they accomplish it quite effectively.What they want is pussy and our suffering is the currency with which they buy it
Think about it, succubi are impressed by men who hurt other men. Look at human history with this in mind, and it becomes apparent. The reason for all the injustice in this world is not the Jews, or Masons, or any other secret society. It's succubi. Always has been, since the beginning of humanity.
No.301189
>>301172I thought the succubus was a trans so I didn't watch at her tits first, am I gay? (I hope not)
No.301192
>>301152The universe can be indifferent to you AND there can be a downward force trying to degrade everyone. They're not mutually exclusive.
No.301233
>>301232Based. For me it not only fixed my brain, but if fixed years of damage to my body and face, it made me prettier I swear to God. I notice benefits will stack up and a few relapses here and there are nothing to stress about, if you retain more days than you don't things will get better over time, quicker of course if you do a long streak, it's after those you really notice the benefits and shit will often stay with you, like I'll get better at playing games or playing my piano and when I relapse I notice it's still better than years ago, but you need like 2 weeks of retention minimum to get peak reflexes
No.301234
>>301232>>301233you must be practicing fecal retention as well.
No.301235
>>301233Nice, always good to hear others testimonies. Keep it up :)
>>301234God bless you, for i was once you.
No.301237
>>301236It can be you. Start today and start believing in yourself, take baby steps
No.301238
>>301236Some people are born with more "energy" than others. I don't think it's something you can really change.
No.301241
>>301239
it's actually possible he would never read the book.
No.301243
>>301242I approve of you anon. Good luck!!!
No.301244
>>301242what do you play? *ignores all your problems that may you cost life*
No.301246
There are so many ugly and even deformed, obese, sick people with extremely high confidence and insolent behavior. Yet, some of us can't even go outside out of shame because of height, baldness or just low self-esteem.
No.301249
>>301247It doesn't make me feel guilty. It does make me feel stress. I have to live in a busybody world when I'm a slow potato. You have to live at 90 mph in this world to survive…
No.301252
>>301247I used to care about having an excuse to be a loser but at this point I want to be able to experience life to the fullest. Sitting at home and experiencing the world through a screen is not fulfilling.
>why don't you start now?the youthful optimism is gone. no money and no more free shit and discounts for being young. having to deal with ageism with no experience to offer. body hurts so I can't even take it for granted I will make it to old age. can't talk to anyone because I have a decade long gap in my life and missed out on all the growing up milestones so I have no shared basis for conversation
i know someone will say achually you are still looking for excuses and pity but I don't care how can you have the hope and confidence in yourself when you never felt happy and successful in life and everything keeps getting worse and there is a biological countdown that keeps ticking that you can't just beat with optimism and a can-do attitude?
No.301253
>>301252What does it even mean to "live life to the fullest"? Usually when people say this they mean having sex, going to parties and having lots of status from a high paying job. None of that stuff appeals to me so I guess I'll never "live life to the fullest".
No.301256
>>301255
why do people turn into david goggins when you ask life advice?
go And MAXIMIZE your LIFE AND BECOME THE ULTIMATE HUMAN LIFE FORM. CONQUER the WORLD and BECOME A MASTER OF EVERY SKILL.
uhh not me though I will go work my ordinary job and then watch tv. but YOU Should do that.
No.301258
>>301257
Yes, The God within.
No.301261
>>301247You might confuse low energy levels with a lack of motivation and purpose combined with years/ decades of feeling depressed and helpless and unable to act according to achieve your goals or never having had any goals. I don’t think we are so much less energetic. Our experience just made us give up on the future and simply having no drive to do anything because we don’t feel good while we do it. I think that might be the main difference. I used to feel accomplished when for example I had a good test result or when I managed to do work in the garden. Not only that, I think neurotypicals enjoy the action more while doing the action, they feel a purpose. But when there’s no sensation of purpose, accomplishment but only years of depression and stagnation and worthlessness then it’s so much harder to enjoy activities that are not instant gratification, activities that require a future and something you can’t live for in the perspective of living a coherent life.
No.301263
If you're going to suicide are you going to make it benefit your family , friends or charity in some way?
I don't think y'all should kill yourself because what if it angers god. But if you do…
any action taken with the intent to deceive creditors, for example, deliberately incurring debt in the final stages of life with no intention or means to repay, could be challenged in court as fraudulent. However, lawful structuring and foresight: making use of joint ownership, beneficiary nominations, and prudent financial decisions made well in advance are OK
No.301264
>>301263There is no god and nobody gives me credit because I'm a neet
No.301265
I am a 30 yo turd worlder with zero skills and 4 diseases HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA and I am too much of a coward to kill myself and I STILL have some sort of hope HAHAHAHAHAH holy shit man. Normalfaggots can look through me. Several have told me that I look sad hahahaha fucking hell man
I use to think that I'll take revenge for being treated like garbage but NO! I am a diseased subhuman.
No.301267
>>301261I see where you're coming from, but my experience has not been that I suffer from a lack of motivation, it's that the means of pursuing that motivation are lakcking.
I've been in phases of my life of high motivation, where I've worked with "normalfag tempo", sometimes even beyond that. But I can't maintain that for months or years like a normalfag can in their normal life. It peters out after a week, sometimes even days. And it's zero-sum; once I put effort into being a productive member of society during a day job, I start living like a human slug, not doing dishes not cleaning my room eating junk food watching junk media etc. I'm an faint light bulb, the wattage of a normal person is simply not there.
Now, that could simply be that my issue isn't "energy", it's "maintaining motivation" but at that point we're losing ourselves in semantics. I think the more interesting question is whether this deficiency is fully treatable by things like adderall or not (in other words, is it just ADHD?). Though I am certain I have ADHD, I'm not sure that's the entire picture. I think ADHD treatment can aid you, and maybe bring you out of crushing doom, but you're always going to cap out at a level of subpar mediocrity regardless.
No.301268
>>301265My heart goes out for you mate, it's harsher in this part of the world, and you don't even have a healthy body.
No.301270
>>301265it's weird when you're a total subhuman (no offense anon I am one too) and you have to live knowing 100% that you are fucked, up shit's creeks without a paddle, and even if you put in 500 tons of effort it will only move you one inch while normalfags move miles with 1 ounce of effort.
Really, it's crazy how you can fully understand you are absolutely fucked from top to bottom and still wake up every day.
No.301271
>>301270we will never be lucky in our life
No.301273
>>301101all you need is a smile and a greeting son
No.301275
>>301267We are far too similar. I always say to myself that taking cocaine (instead of adderall which might be similar in some way) would approximately would raise me to the standard of a normie output. I need a hardcore drug to even imagine myself being as vibrant and lively as a normie. I didn't try it yet, but I really don't see any alternative. Except just keep on living the way I live and be content with it. No antidepressant or psychiatric drug can even come close to what cocaine could do. At least so I imagine. But I have enough drug experience to know that cocaine will fuck me up very fast even more than I am now.
No.301276
>>301261I think this is it. I tend to blame myself and say I'm lazy (and I am), but really, I got off to such a bad start in adulthood, I had absolutely no context to place myself. The past was empty, the present was shit, and the future was worthless. If you're an outcast with no friends, peers, connection, belonging, who's miserable and lost, why then would you struggle for things which are meaningless within the frame of your little specific dead world. It just doesn't calculate. It would be *odd* if someone under these conditions *did* have goals and plans. This analogy is very banal, but deprive a plant of sunlight, it wilts and dies, deprive a human of their humanity, they hunch and snap. The great irony with the word human is that to be a man is to not be one. It should be huwoman instead.
No.301289
Feels like my life is a strange waking dream. I'm always about to wake up but never do.
No.301302
>>301289Read the Book of Disquiet
No.301303
>>301302The best book I've read.
No.301307
i feel like life is simply waiting for death.
its similar to being a death row prisoner, except we are ALL death row prioners.
this has ruined my life. i can barely see a point to do anything and i am horrified/anxious constantly.
how can anyone want to procreate in this horrible carnival world of monstrous horrors? are they blind? can they not see, hear, think? why?
why has this happened to me? why has God forsaken me?
No.301308
>>301307>its similar to being a death row prisoner, except we are ALL death row prioners.It's a good analogy, because you see within prison a microcosm of our greater situation. Some within prison become so accustomed to the walls (Prisoners call it being "institutionalized") that they cannot live outside them; they end up repeat offenders. They see prison as home, in a sense.
Those who constantly long for and prepare for life outside are those who keep their wits. They know prison isn't reality, and that a greater world exists outside. Normalfags are institutionalized, and we are not.
No.301313
Life is so fucking boring my god. even with drugs I can't make it fun
No.301315
>>301308There has to be a specific term for this. It's a form of alienation that makes you affiliated with the idea and emotional equivalent of death. You can never truly escape this once it reached your most conscious mind. I'm stuck.
No.301316
I can't stress how doomed a lot of long term NEETs are, if you wasted your 20s as a NEET or being aimless it gets exponentially harder to get a job in your 30s due to career gaps and such. The corporate world is brutal and it gets millions of fresh grads each year, so people in their 30s with no relevant experience are lower on the pecking order.
No.301317
>>301316>it gets exponentially harder to get a job in your 30s due to career gaps and such.No, it gets harder to find a job based on whatever shitty university degree you got in which you can be paid to sit on your ass. Anyone in any White country can go to a temp agency today and have a job tomorrow.
No.301318
>>301317Why so hostile? Anon is clearly talking about jobs that someone would actually want to work. I would rather beg on the street corner than work some jobs. (Probably pays better too)
No.301319
>>301318>Why so hostile?Because he's making things out to be harder and more hopeless than they actually are. He wants to lament and for others to also feel helpless so he embellishes the commonness of minor, rare problems to convince others that they too are afflicted and should feels
doomed. He's a lying faggot trying to bring others down.
>Anon is clearly talking about jobs that someone would actually want to work. I know, that's what I'm making fun of him for in my post…
>I would rather beg on the street corner than work some jobs.Doubt
>Probably pays better tooMinimum wage is still a living wage in most White countries.
No.301320
>>301319He's not lying at all. Life is pretty fucking grim if you're a wizard (read: Not a normalfag). You sound like a normalfag, so I can understand why you can't empathize with the issues of non-normalfags (normalfags lack all empathy and perspective since everything was handed to them from birth)
No.301323
>>301320>Life is pretty fucking grim if you're a wizardFuck off, troll.
No.301329
>go outside
>some random starts talking to you as if you care about strangers on the street
you guys have this problem too?
No.301331
>>301329Beggars and people who sell shit pick me out from the crowd. I wonder what it is about my appearance that screams "I'M EASY TO BULLSHIT"
No.301333
>>301331Weird. Same for me too.
No.301344
humanity in Starsector is made out of libertine, apathetic mongrels living in a hypercapitalistic nanny state run by mongols and babysat by machines in everything they do. arguably the most realistic depicting of the future to date!
No.301346
Just want to lay down and sleep forever. A deep dreamless slumber. I never understood what keeps people clinging on to life. I can't understand what's so great about it. The eternal peace of oblivion seems far superior.
No.301350
>>301307I have this mindset.
But where do money comes from?
No.301351
>>301346Being born is really a curse if you think about the chances of becoming alive from raw matter
No.301356
>>301316LOL companies hire ppl that cant even speak english stfu. So sick of "its over" rhetoric from neets
No.301357
>>301356i find it interesting that despite the job market getting worse by every metric normalfags still show up and claim everything is fine guys stop whining! the disconnect from reality is great.
No.301360
>>301357Go to a job agency.
No.301361
>>301360Why would I do that when I can be NEET.
No.301362
>>301361>never tried to get a job>thinks he can speak about how hard it is to find a jobIf I was your uncle I would abandon you at a waterpark
No.301364
>>301316In my experience most low lying wagecucks are one health scare or economic downturn away from being exactly where the NEETs are.
Not every wagie has a good career, a good portion have some shitty wagecuck job and they can be replaced at any minute.
I find it useless talking to anti-NEETs about this because they instantly go on about building a career and advancing. How many wagecucks don't do that? Go through the average supermarket and calculate the median age working there, it's in the late 30s.
If you're a mentally ill NEET with problems you're not likely getting promotions or advancements, you're not likely to go anywhere. For countries with generous NEETbux, the NEETbux is the rational choice for mentally ill people.
No.301365
Most of us will never be able to catch up no matter what we do, as if that weren't bad enough by itself that doesn't stop those on top from ever getting ahead for as long as they are alive. It's insane when you think about it.
No.301367
>>301365Yea past a certain threshold of money, you can just sit back and watch it grow, the money multiplies itself. Below that point, the less money you have, the more you have to work to just survive. Most of us will never break through that point.
No.301368
>>301346I imagine that's what Nirvana is, you know everything and you just sleep forever but it also feels like being super high, like maybe the sleep you get under opioids
No.301369
>>301331people pick me out of a crowd for literally anything, usually people wanting directions. Maybe they think I'm approachable Iunno
No.301370
>>301368Yes it makes sense that the Buddhist idea of enlightenment is "being high on opium".
No.301375
>>301369They think you are a "sucker" like when they try to make someone do their homework or make one guy at their job do all the work. Absolutely fucking disgusting
No.301376
>>301375Yeah, this happens when you have a "kind" facial structure. It's not a positive, it invites all the wrong kinds of people who think they can take advantage of you.
Ironically the best defense for these people would be to pin testosterone and hit the gym hard. Even if you look facially approachable, dubious people will avoid you because of your lean size/muscle mass.
No.301382
>>301081Yeah I fucking hate them so much. BUT, to say it's fake is in my opinion coping, it is indeed extremely gay though. See, normalniggers and happy people in general are that way either because they have massive support networks or they're biologically overpowered and can take any challenge head-on and at worst leave no better, but never worse off.
>freedoms and rightsIt takes their minds off pondering the hard questions, and removes accountability (except when it's convenient ie. just world fallacy). Now that you mention it, it's unreal how the privacy and freedom movement has all but died out on all sides of the political spectrum. People don't understand the clusterfuck that modern, obscure and proprietary software is. This will 100% be used against you, but almost nobody is thinking of it let alone planning to fight back.
>how it really isDeath is baked into life. Plain and simple. You can try fooling yourself but good old Schopenhauer nailed it with his quote that goes something like "the pain of the devoured animal is far greater than the pleasure of the killer animal". Problem is, in the modern world somehow we ended up with everyone being killed to the benefit of the very few at the top. If the pain-pleasure balance was bad enough now it's just literal hell, like really how is this any different from being under Satans lava lake?
No.301392
>>301389I tried to get into AI chatbots but I don't know what to say to it.
No.301393
>>301389Ai is used by normalfags wizzy
No.301394
>>301389There are worse addictions man, I talk to AI on occasion when I'm feeling lonely, but it's just a different version of a suicide hotline in reality.
No.301395
Does anyone else just dissociate most of the day? I can't even stop myself from doing it .
No.301396
>>301389Why do you want to get rid of it? Seems like an unproblematic way to simulate interaction. No trouble like in real life where you can fuck up or feel bad for how you are.
No.301399
I wonder, is there anyone here who doesn't talk to other people at all? There are 6+ billions people on this planet but there's no one to talk. How is this possible?
No.301400
>>301399Do you mean face to face talking or any communication at all?
There are "Wild men" who lives out in the woods who never interact with other people. Also people in research outposts in Antarctica might never talk to anyone for months.
No.301401
>>301400I mean, my only conversations happen when a cashier asks if I need a plastic bag when I buy food. I mumble something in return.
No.301403
>>301308>Some within prison become so accustomed to the wallsRate of repeat offending is inversely proportional to the criminal's age at the moment of his first incarceration, so a young mind is more susceptible to grow accustomed to the prison environment and view it as their new home. Likewise, mental prisoners like us spent their teenage years feeling trapped so we wouldn't know real freedom because it scares us, just like walking out the prison's gates feels like for a 20 year old who got there at 15. High school years of being a neglected pushover make us find solace in that mindset even as grown men. It feels like whenever I try to rise above that, my former self is still there to drag me down to a state of soothing misery.
No.301422
I have zero excuses, that's almost the worst part. I'm relatively normal looking other than my excessively thin frame. My family has money, I was never beaten or abused, I don't have some kind of illness, I don't live in the third world.
There is no one to blame but me. Not society, not succubi, not my parents, not politics. Nothing.