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 No.311337[Reply]

The more you interact with people irl the more chances they have to ruin your day
Avoiding contact is the best option for staying happy as a wizard based on my experience
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 No.311889

>>311545
oh fuck, i had to be put on drugs and have a tard wrangler in high school so I wouldnt get kicked out

 No.311891

>>311889
>oh fuck, i had to be put on drugs

probably not fun drugs like weed, i'm sorry this happened to you.

>and have a tard wrangler in high school so I wouldnt get kicked out


i don't know what that is. is that some kind of restrictive gear you have to wear so you don't hurt anyone? just guessing. they probably used a different name at the autism hotline where you ordered the wrangler.

they did evil shit to me too in school, maybe not as bad as what they did to you, maybe worse, i dunno at this point. the weapons they use against children in school are aplenty.

 No.311892

how am i going to avoid contact with people as slavic cannon fodder?

 No.311893

>>311892
why can't you get out of the way of the cannon. the idea behind being cannonfodder is being obivious to it. you are being told you are a hero and you defend something and then you get moved on the chessboard and then you die while still thinking you are serving some greater good your group cowers behind. once you understand it, you stop being in the group and you are no longer the cannonfodder.

 No.311902

>>311892
Kill them



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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.311722

>>311667
Isn't this your job to sit there?
Normies always create problems out of nothing

 No.311728

>>311667
Im balding but lucky i can wear a beanie at my job and I listen to music all day which REALLY helps, i can't belive I worked so many years without it

 No.311748

Just be successful.

 No.311765

It's happening again. Vacation started and all I feel is empty, anhedonic, don't want to do anything. This will be for another 30 years. Why did I even stay alive when I was suicidal? Now I don't have it in me anymore.

 No.311901

>>311765
people who end themselves have the right idea



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 No.310904[Reply]

Hesitation is defeat edition. There is no running away.

Previous >>309794
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 No.311855

>>311853
It depends on your station in life and how many are answerable to you. We're just peasants.

 No.311894

I need to end it all some time in the next 4 months. I don't want to live in this AI world.

 No.311895

>>311894
:(, i fear we are stuck. There is no escape. 2027 is the Incarnation Ceremony that will birth the AI God.

 No.311898

>>311895
2027 is the year where there will be no more reincarnation.

 No.311900

Fantasizing about ODing on fent



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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.311876

>>311859
couple o wizzies hanging out in lummy fields near draynor

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 No.311897

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 No.310788[Reply]

At what age did you become blackpilled about your life?
Around 12-14 I knew exactly where I would end up, and sadly was completely right even back then, nothing changed
Everything went about as poorly as expected
Being relatively intelligent as an autistic sperg is worst.
Not even having the bliss of ignorance
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 No.311835

I began feeling retarded around 14-15. I used to be the gifted kid who managed to get tens or nines at class without making any effort until my last years of middle-school where i began feeling like a worthless retard. I already was autistic from before, but at least that wasn't problematic until then

 No.311846

>>311834
>I'm apparently a late bloomer
You are.

 No.311850

Are these people 20 and exagerrating? How the fuck can you know anything at 10 years ago old when you barely have any self awareness at all? The only thing I remember from being 10 years old is that I had two or three friends and all of them abused me.

 No.311888

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>>311850
I became self aware around 11 and instantly fell into a months long deep depression

 No.311890

>>311850
>10 years ago old when you barely have any self awareness at all?
Projection. Healthy children are completely aware of the world and able to introspect upon their role within it at that age.
>The only thing I remember from being 10 years old is that I had two or three friends and all of them abused me.
Well there you go. You've let their poor treatment dominate your mind for so long, even in to adulthood, that it's actually overwritten your regular childhood memories. You've become OBSESSED with being bullied as a child so it's all you can remember now. You've made your inability to brush off being picked on and the subject of young boy banter your entire personality.



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 No.311836[Reply]

I really wish i sperged out after something mildly useful like economics, math or science and not something retarded like Warhammer 40,000 or spanish medieval history
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 No.311867

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>>311858
I don't know how to do this, but if it's forcing myself to like something because it is, then no. If school taught me something is that if i try to force myself to learn about something just because i have to and not because i'm passionate or interested in it is dehumanizing and exhausting

 No.311872

>>311867
>I don't know how to do this

making your wishes come true? imagine your wish to be one of these toys that glow in the dark when held under light. you bothering to concentrate on the thing is the light that charges it.

>but if it's forcing myself to like something because it is, then no. If school taught me something is that if i try to force myself to learn about something just because i have to and not because i'm passionate or interested in it is dehumanizing and exhausting


forcing would be if someone coerced you into it even though you don't want to. if you wish for something you obviously want it. you spending your time giving something new a chance, that's not the same as a teacher giving you homework. that's you going on an adventure. your time is your most precious ressource. you have a lot of minutes every day, spend one on something you wish and watch it slowly come closer from the unreal into the real.

 No.311873

>>311867
trying to find a way to illustrate the fine art and craft of manifesting. i just laughed alone in my room trying to convert maximum valued time into low wage money:

i spent years trying to manifest best. put different approaches to the test. the way i imagine the best of the best would manifest a big longterm goal is to spend 15 seconds thinking about it every day and repeat the next day. those 15 seconds are ~4 cent ($ or €) of wagemoney.

with those 15 seconds of focussed attention every day, a master manifestor could go from fat to athletic for example.

there isn't but if there was the possibility of direct conversion from time to money (and the attempt i consider a candidate for biggest con in human history) a master manifestor is someone who could reduce his monthly salary by ~104 cent and could spend the time he has saved on becoming top 1% of healthiest people on the planet.

 No.311881

Some kind of activity is better than none, this is still better than passively watching youtube or reading internet forums all day

 No.311887

>>311867
School is a cruel place. They manipulate us to conform from a very early age. The whole society is parasitic



 No.311862[Reply]

if i were to ask you what you think the big sources of mental unhealth are, my expectation would be that most of you say something like
>this happened to me
misfortune, trauma. while undeniably big, i don't think that's the biggest source at least not where i live. with misfortune i imply that this is something that happened to a person and ruin the life.

i think people half-consciously ruin their own life due to their own fault. now imagine a society in which the majority of people refuse to learn and instead choose to never admit fault and automatically this society is trapped in a downward spiral.

those poor psychologists, i imagine trying to talk to someone who keeps ruining his life but the programming is so strong, there is such expertise in deflecting blame (from working a job where this behavior is expected professionalism) that you can not make him see how he is hitting himself. damned to being sleepless i guess.
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 No.311878

>>311877
That's why you don't go around attempting to "enlighten" normalfags when nobody asked for it and why failed normalfags are so despised

 No.311882

>>311878

good for you for writing something that doesn't start with "goodbye cruel world"

 No.311883

>>311874
>the nature of both of them
their nature? looks like chipmunk and chameleon to me

 No.311884

This kind of thinking always fails.
Instead of thinking if a solution is available and if so what course of action is possible, it becomes something like 'who has done it'.
Sometimes you're just fucked and you can only kill yourself, this kind of thinking doesn't allow this either.

 No.311886

>>311884
>Sometimes you're just fucked and you can only kill yourself

that's overkill. just 'kill' these confidently mistaken parts that occupy your brain. the parts that are usually wrong and when proven wrong pretend to be innocent thus robbing you of the natural self-improvement of learning from mistakes.



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 No.311758[Reply]

If cannot find happiness in life, try find happiness within depression, Everyone is capable of experiencing pleasure, even while depressed people who commit suicide find happiness, and those who are homeless find happiness all full of happiness.
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 No.311761

Up is actually down

 No.311766

>>311764
Umm well, maybe this
>>311719

 No.311767

>>311764
And i like he firmness suicide
>>311762

 No.311772

>>311764
If you need to ask, then you'll probably never know.

Men are incredibly diverse in what brings us joy and sorrow. There is no limit to the extremes to which one functional adult male can differ from another. It's not a phenomenon that needs to be broken down and extrapolated on, it's simply the baseline nature. Some men can find happiness in homelessness - something the idea of brings others fear and sorrow - simply because 'they can'. Consider that there are archetypes of men who can have the world handed to them, but still they wish only to sit under a tree and listen to the birds. Men who work and live comfortably in a hectic bustling society, only to discover later in life that camping and backpacking are what truly brings them joy. For one of these types of men to suddenly be thrust in to homelessness wouldn't have any significant toll on his psyche as that lifestyle is not dissimilar to one they'd want to live out voluntarily.

 No.311885

>>311767
suicide is awesome



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 No.310911[Reply]

dont enjoy doing anything anymore and no desire to self rehabilitate either.
How do I fix this?

 No.310912

lie down and develop an immaterial dimension in your mind

 No.310919

>>310911
>dont enjoy doing anything anymore and no desire to self rehabilitate either.
>How do I fix this?

when enjoyment is your goal there is a way to get it that few people are talking about.

you operate from the perspective that you do things and then you enjoy these things because you did them as if the things made you feel enjoyment. you might believe that doing things you enjoyed before were making you happy:

>do thing->feel enjoyment


whether that is true or not, it seems to be your expectation of how enjoyment functions.

after having learned how to do it consciously in meditation my perspective on this is different. i decide whether i enjoy something or not. to me joy is not something that you get as an reward or as a byproduct, to me it is something like the lights in my car. i flip a switch and they go on.

to me the enjoyment is not related to the act. this is my constelation. all of these are possible for me.

>do thing-> not feel enjoyment

>do thing-> feel enjoyment
>not do thing-> not feel enjoyment
>not do thing-> feel enjoyment
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 No.310940

>>310911
Im 35 and im at the point where the only thing i do for fun is either read, jerk off, or go to different parks, get a coffee, sit on a bench, and smoke 1-2 cigs. it eats up a few hours

Whenever im in public i always feel like i shouldn't be there because im always alone and it seems like everyone else is always with someone. I feel this cold numb burning

I wouldn't even necessarily say any of it is "fun," its just doing things to pass time instead of sitting in my room doing nothing.

 No.311866

how's the burnout



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 No.311549[Reply]

It seems I have to accept my fate as homeless, because finding a job is very difficult. I have tried many jobs, but in the end, I was fired and failed. How fortunate are those who can work in their respective fields and live their lives by working as usual, going about their days normally, while I am shackled by the suffering every day, having no money and no job, being homeless is my last choice or death.
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 No.311718

>>311582
Honestly, even as a thirdie, I suppose that experience that this brother is going with is not very different from what I would go through. I just hope things get alright for him, I wish I had some money tbh to give to him, but of course such is life when you're unemployed.

 No.311719

>>311718
What’s truly saddening is how the struggle to survive whether as a homeless person or under the weight of immense social pressure drives many to suicide. I’ve seen people take their own lives even when they appeared to be doing just fine whether they were in school, employed, unemployed at home, or living on the streets. Everyone carries their own burdens, and those who find themselves unable to endure life or who simply lack the fortune to adapt or find any sense of comfort eventually reach a breaking point and give up; in other words, they choose suicide. I suspect the OP feels the same way.
>Becoming homeless or facing death.
That is what was mentioned at the end. In a way, the OP is fortunate to have found a place where they could adapt and discover some comfort, even though they ended up homeless after being fired from job after job. They reached a point where they contemplated suicide, but instead chose the path of homelessness a choice between survival and death. Fortunately, they found companionship among other homeless individuals, as well as a welcoming space at a church. To those of you considering suicide or facing homelessness please, remember that life is very short. Try to make the best of it, however you are able to cope. I say this because so many people in our society are currently pushed to the very edge.

 No.311768

>>311719
>To those of you considering suicide or facing homelessness please, remember that life is very short. Try to make the best of it, however you are able to cope. I say this because so many people in our society are currently pushed to the very edge.
I don't get why anyone should force himself to find pleasure in a life that resembles torture, it's like drowning in the middle of the ocean and finding pleasure in the few moments where your head is above the water and you can still breathe, yes you're still breathing but you're drowning motherfucker and nobody is coming to save you. So I can't consider your text a good advice, because if you truly care about people on the edge you would give them a dignified method to cease to exist.

 No.311771

>>311549
I'm sorry, OP. I wish I could help. This world is so fucked right now I'd rather be grinded by bullets to death in WWII.

 No.311856

>>311566
Here's a free tip: avoid sleeping near trash to avoid infection or other bodily damage from glass shards or detergents
good luck wiz



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