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 No.307689[Reply]

I am losing my motivation im gonna fail out of Uni
I dont really want to quit, but I have less and less energy
I am in a state of constant burnout despite doing nearly nothing
im such a failure
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 No.307728

>>307708
Yes I have. I order it from India. It's the single best nootropic I've tried for when I want to study/read something. Although I only take it during fall and winter since it makes my allergies worse.

 No.307732

>>307728
Have you never tried any stronger stimulants? Modafinil is pretty weak in my opinion, I had energy issues like the OP when I was in university and only managed to finish it on stronger stims like Ritalin and it's RC variants. If it's the first thing you ever take it will probably be god tier like that but I would recommend something stronger for somebody in OP's position for sure.

>>307711
>>307689
Which ones did you try? And the effect gets stronger with higher doses, not lower doses. Ritalin and 4F-MPH are the sole reason I was able to finish my university degree despite having a severe lack of energy due to my sleep apnea.
I would recommend you to go visit a doctor if you are constantly fatigued, you are most likely experiencing some medical issue, but in the mean time the right stimulants might be able to keep you functioning.

>>307710
Sadly, some people just need to take them to keep functioning in this gay society. It's not ideal but they can seriously save your life. I would rather achieve something with the help of jewpills than dissapointing myself and everybody who cares about me to stay sober.

 No.307733

>>307711
Also, one more thing, are you motivated to finish your courses and where did you take those stimulants?
I used to take them in a bathroom stall while at my university's library, and then immediately go sit in the library to do all my coursework / assignments. I found that taking them like that helped me be way more productive since if you're at school you're gonna already be in the right mindset to work on things. Stimulants don't really help that much with motivation in my experience so you gotta be smart with your situation around it. If you take them at home it'll be easy to just jack off and play videogames the whole time, even if you do have the energy to do your schoolwork.
Going out to a public spot where you can do your school stuff without too much disturbance can help even without the stimulants. You should try it some time.

 No.307739

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>im such a failure
School itself is fail. To drop out of it does not make a failure out of a man. University only exists to exploit the needs of hypersocial humans who have developed a dependency on being surrounded by their peers 10 hours each day as a result of being forced in to such an environment since kindergarten. If you've ever spent a day at primary or secondary education sometimes thinking "man, school sucks, I'd rather be at home playing Gamecube", then you've still maintained some of your humanity by not rewiring your brain to revere the concept of being at school as a form of Stockholm syndrome. You're the normal healthy one.

If you don't wake up every morning excited about how you'll get to spend lunch break talking with friends, about what new hot 3DPD you'll be able to follow around campus, or by what new ways you can impress some old balding teacher… then university isn't for you. Because that's all it is: an adult daycare meant to make the schoolchild's way of life persist in to adulthood as a way of cementing them as an obedient office worker. How to maintain relationships with employees in a closed building while impressing your boss. That is what they teach. Is that the life you want to live? Are you willing to fight tooth-and-all to compete for it among every other university graduate? Can you not imagine any better lifestyles that don't involve keeping up an act every day so you don't get booted out of it?

University's completion is not necessary for 95% of jobs and there's no cultural, fundamental, or artistic skills you can learn from it that can't otherwise be learned for free off of the internet. You have nothing to gain, while giving yourself artificial deadlines and standards which you can fail. A degree means nothing to most employers and people in general. Does it mean anything to you? Does beating a long, arduous video game mean anything to you if it's not a game you enjoy? If the feat of completion isn't even revered by those who you associate with? Your lack of drive despite being in the most energetic point of your life is telling of your incompatibility with school as a concept. You should quit before it breaks you, and maybe clog all the university toilets with paper before you do. Watch as the janitor gets payed a living wage to come out of his private janny cave to pour blue chemicals down the toilets before spending 40 minutes pushing around a cool cart wiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.307750

>>307732
>>307733
ritalin amphetamine, terrible side effects no good effects
>motivation
If i had motivation i wouldnt need pills i think
the times i actually tried taking it outside, it made me skip and just go home
being on stimulants outside is terrifying and overstimulating I almost got run over once



 No.307749[Reply]

I'm an isekaist, I believe I'll get reincarnated in another world as I please. I don't think living in this world is worth, like this world is not what I wished for. I might have committed serious sins in my past life. So, I basically did nothing wrong in my current life and God/Deity/Goddess doesn't punish suicidal people as the bible doesn't mention condemnation to those who kill themselves.


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 No.307723[Reply]

Very late 20s. Never been on a date, never been approached. Never had any friends, only acquaintances. Not even meme internet "friends". I always thought these things would naturally come to me at a later age, but they never did. With each passing year it gets worse. There is something profoundly wrong with me, it's like the part of my brain that's responsible for human contact was amputated at birth
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 No.307744

>>307743
Ah right OP mentioned age, I'm turning 30 shortly, very soon actually. A matter of days. Wonder if I'll feel any different.
I'll be ordering something delicious.

 No.307745

>>307743
>azata
Gay.

 No.307746

>>307745
I find myself desiring cutesy silly fun stuff as I get older.
It is what it is.
I can't stomach drama or "realistic" shit anymore. Not a homosexual though thankfully.

 No.307747

>>307723
I am nearing 30. I've been like that all my life. I have a friend but we share just the basic stuff, going to the same school, knowing same people, not that much in common.
When I was much younger I had several bouts of 'I can find myself friends and maybe even a cute girlfriend like in one of them animes'. It never went anywere. My attempts at finding friends get crushed by the fact most people i've encountered in my life are just plain retards with whom I can't discuss anything. We just don't share anything with them. I realized what's the point? I'd rather be in my own company that waste time and effort on fruitless relationships.

 No.307748

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>>307747
>When I was much younger I had several bouts of 'I can find myself friends and maybe even a cute girlfriend like in one of them animes'. It never went anywere.
My vampire wife will arrive any minute now.
A yukionna will do as well.

>with whom I can't discuss anything.

What would you like to discuss with friends?
I used to have stuff I cared about and stuff I wanted to talk about with people, but nowadays I just don't have any interests or things to share.
I have to wonder why I even desire such a thing anymore in that case.



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 No.307210[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.

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 No.307715

somehow I became schizophrenic in my 30s. Why does this shit only happen to me? Yeah schizophrenia affects others but I had to be a miserable depressed NEET on top of it.

So many fucked up things happen to me if I list them all it sounds like I'm joking around. I have to mention each of them in different posts or It sounds absurd.

 No.307716

>>307715
The funny thing about life is it's completely unbelievable unless it happened to you

 No.307735

>start a video game
>be completely exhausted and mind fogged after 5 minutes
There's nothing left to do, it's just over.

 No.307737

>>307735
this is so relatable lol

 No.307741

>>307715
What are the symptoms? Nasty voices, eldritch abominations?


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 No.307650[Reply]

I have become increasingly depressed at the state of discourse about almost any subject. Look at the opinions of most people and discuss their reasoning with them; they do not really have reasons based on experience or logic. They are just saying things they think are normal to say. They imitate others. They understand the world through memes. Zero actual curiosity or critical thinking skills when it comes to discussion of politics/culture/history/science/art. Everyone just parrots what they think others think. They think in memes. Partly to fit in and achieve social acceptance and partly just monkey see monkey do like a child or animal.

Democracy is a failure because most people have no idea what they are voting for or what the consequences will be. They just follow the cultural memes. The internet has exacerbated this. Most people’s political views or views on the culture are just glorified SIX SEVEN repetitions - people have no good justification for any of the ideas they follow.

It might sound arrogant and supercilious to say these things. I worry that I am not that different and I just copy things sometimes by instinct. Makes me wonder if the self even fucking exists and we are just biological self replicating robots copying things.

Depressing. Enraging.

 No.307651

it's true, but it's worse than you think. most "people" aren't even human, they're bio-robots that react as if they have inner experience but there's nothing there actually. they're part of a hivemind and most of the time they're in idle mode where they just sync up on memes, but sometimes they operate as a unified whole and cause wars and revolutions. i don't know who or what controls them but ever so often it happens and the results are disastrous.

a good litmus test for whether you are dealing with a conscious human is any signs of internal conflict and "neuroticism". this implies that the body and mind (soul) are separate and want to go in different directions. the zombies on the other hand, operate in reality with zero friction because they have no soul and it is trivial to adapt themselves to any arbitrary conditions that they might find themselves in.

 No.307655

>>307651
Okay, and this changes things how? You don't mistreat animals just because they're animals either.

 No.307668

I think the same. Memes have changed people's way of thinking. Memes make people take things less seriously

 No.307693

All opinions I pay attention too on social media are recycled after another following the same cliche meme-pattern.

 No.307730

I agree



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 No.307519[Reply]

i'm 37 (soon to be 38). watching as your body degrades in real time is debilitating. earthly life is evil in every aspect.
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 No.307576

>>307575
Torturing consciousness is a replicable, scientifically demonstrable, evil deed

 No.307578

>>307575
Go back to reddit, godless abomination.

 No.307579

>>307576
>Torturing consciousness
No such thing. Plenty of wizards happily.

>science

A human construct based on blind faith in axioms.

>>307578
Lol

 No.307721

>>307575
If you start thinking like this then all human ideas like physics, evolution, atheism are just human constructs not independent of mind.

 No.307722

i for one feel good because i eat raw plants and call your food candy, i exercise, i skate, i meditate, i sunbathe, i read, i build my own furniture. while you suffer i am mildly optimistic. being healthy is worth it, your mouthpleasure can't compare to loving your body and it loving you back.

my body is literally a machine that loves me and i take good care of it.

also just stop being depressed, it's possible once you stop insisting on it so hard.



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 No.302164[Reply]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.307427

>>307425
It's impossible to fry dopamine unless
>However, high-dose amphetamine can cause indirect neurotoxicity as a result of increased oxidative stress from reactive oxygen species and autoxidation of dopamine
I don't how to put it in my own words. I'm not a biologist or chemist

 No.307428

>>307427
What I meant is fucking with the dopamine system by gulping to much alcohol. I know what it feels like, it's like a total draught, nothing is fun, complete anhedonia for days. But it passes, timeline depends on how much and for how long you've been drinking.

 No.307429

>>307428
I don't think it has something to do with the dopamine system. Drug withdrawal happens with antidepressant too and any kind of withdraw can lead to death, seizures and other awful things that are probably not related to dopamine.
>nothing is fun, complete anhedonia
Quite common effects when a body is ill and needs to preserve energy for recovery.

 No.307460

I am drunk again, but I poured out all alcohol yesterday and swore to never drink again, I am too weak

 No.307718

>>307460
drinking again



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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

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 No.307697

>>307695
but considering brain is a computer it is the most realistic answer i know. if self consciousness was real then "i" would be a solid concept instead it's very vague and many even argue that "i" doesn't exist and that ego is an illusion.

 No.307698

what's with all this retarded philosophy debate itt?
i just want to kill myself

 No.307701

>>307697
Not the fella you're replying to but I don't think the brain can be boiled down to something as "simple" as a computer. I know this sounds woo-woo but my feeling is that the brain, like everything else in nature, has a lot of intuitive wisdom built into it. A computer is designed with a purpose within the limited mental constraints of its designers. There is a vastness, depth and interconnected-ness to things that emerge from natural evolutionary processes that simply do not map onto things made by humans. Perhaps the reason it is hard for us to pin down what "consciousness" is or "where that elusive I is located in the brain" is because we lack the language to even describe these sorts of things because we always get bogged down trying to dissect everything into atomic units.

 No.307702

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>>307698
>i just want to kill myself
That statement needs to be questioned because it's pretentious and presumptuous. Hence philosophy.

Now I'm with you as a pretentious and presumptuous person myself. I think it's obvious that nature and society are based on principles that guarantee suffering and I think it's obvious that any attempt to change yourself and others can never be more than marginal, temporary and superficial. Non-philosophically speaking: it was over before it began. Life sucks and will never get better unless you're a delusional npc.

Now if that's the case, it seems reasonable to assume that there is a force making it so. Do you believe you can defy that force by ending the body? Perhaps you can because that force selects those who are willing to put up it with it. That's the irony of the antinatalist desire: soon countless single men and countless single succubi are going to die without children and the world will go on with an ever increasing number of delusional npc's. Say rope-chan, do you like that thought?

 No.307717

>>307702
but this is the suicide thread, not the philosophy thread
idk about “defying” the force behind it by kms, but at the very least this life will end, so even if i have no absolute knowledge of whatever comes afterwards, i’m sure it won’t be a repetition
and yes, that final thought does bring me some comfort
we can’t leave this world without a smile, wiz



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 No.307580[Reply]

I am really tired
How can I find happiness independant of other people?
I cant deny I feel the need for connection, but it always ends poorly for me
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 No.307583

realistically what you really crave is just validation. connection is when you're validated by another person's existence because they share your world view or identity. that's difficult for wizardly types because we are more unique and less conformist than others, so it's difficult to find and meet such people.

>>307582
this is a good impersonal way of getting validation that might work for wizardly types. do something valuable, provide a service to a community of people and receive good feedback for it. you have to find a community that isn't completely anonymous and where content isn't transient, so that your contributions can compound and you increase the chance of your work being recognized by others.

i spent a good part of my teenage years just answering people's questions on tech forums and it was actually quite a good source of validation. even though i never made any "friends" in a traditional sense, helping people out with their questions and problems was rewarding for its own sake.

there's tons of ways of getting positive feedback from other people. probably easier than ever now that you have the internet. you just have to put yourself out there, create something interesting, help other people, provide interesting opinions and "takes" that mirror what people are already thinking about etc.

 No.307584

>>307582
>Engage with that hobby's community. Contribute to it.
lmao

 No.307598

>>307580
health, neeting, good entertainment
I guess i'm a bad person to give advice for this as i am suicidal

 No.307713

>>307582
Hobbies don't work long-term, they just give you something to do that isn't doomscrolling

 No.307714

>>307713
>Hobbies don't work long-term (for me), they just give (me) something to do that isn't doomscrolling
Is how you should have wrote your post.



 No.307706[Reply]

Why do us humans have to be so alone? I feel that despite having options to live and exist and do things we still are so very dependent on this biological programming to seek connection. I don't know how to say this but I honestly, often hate myself for seeking it from other people — trying to make friends who would listen, or talk, or at least stay. I know people are very busy and have no time to stay to listen and understand other people's loneliness but I typically wonder if I could just have one person, not a therapist, just one genuinely good person who would not be judgemental (although they could be if they have any good advice) and would just listen to me like I matter; my situation is not something I am making up, this is me, suffering from being an outlier who has tried so hard to be a part of normal people but just couldn't. I really tried, but the performance was too much (although calling it a performance would be hypocritical). I could not do it, everyday I felt I was lying to myself, there was a small part of whatever honesty left was leaving me everyday, slowly but I could feel it. I did't know if I am living or lying. How long can I continue with this? Even when alone one, doing his work, to push through shouldn't there be a part within him that calls for an alignment with his honest self? I feel I lack that, it feels so pretentious to be existing. I don't wanna leave everything and just run away because I am not strong enough but I wonder if I could continue like this, and even if I could, calling that just a part of being human and a lot of other (fellow wizards) are going through the same, I don't know how long I could go on without completely going insane.

 No.307707

conjure a tulpa



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