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 No.300505[Reply]

have you ever been told you had no personality? I was told that when I was a kid. it hurts. one day, I asked the psychologist I was told that and if it was true, she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said. I believed her but now I'm thinking I don't have a personality and people without personality exist and she was wrong (she maybe just said that to make me happier about myself).
I noticed I was a contrarian and thats my whole personality:being contrarian. but everybody can be contrarian therefore it's not a real personality, and so I have no personality. damn it suck being a NPC (I hate that buzzword).
I'm not telling you how to get a personality because it would be fake and it will show, I don't know maybe I just want to know your reactions over this. maybe you too was told you had no personality and can relate to this post and feel like a NPC too.
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 No.303823

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>>303560
Recently, a fella giving the vibes of a tuff guy told me I look unusually solitude-oriented.

Thing is, the tuff guy looked cool enough to be in a good mood and process the thought for a minute.
(pic not him)

Told him - yup, people like that are put to a good use in big cities. So hey.

So hey. What if that "no personality" line was a cliche not really conveying the original thought?

 No.303832

Not quite but I've been told more than once I have no social skills

 No.303838

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>>303823
My best guess is, I have facial features of a boxer despite my actual build of coach potato lazy bum. Therefore, te cool dude kinda tried to tell me its remarkable how a large fella ended up being so humble

 No.304674

>have you ever been told you had no personality?
>she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said.

1. true, that's what trolling is
2. Extroverts vs introverts, I suppose.

 No.304680

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>>300509
cool quote

i sit from his memoires or from some of his novels?



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 No.303889[Reply]

>Were you emotionally neglected as a child?
I wonder if this led me to become who I am now, at least in social settings.
I have no idea if I suffered from this, although I remember times when I was told not to cry, or I got used to not crying over silly things that perhaps maybe weren't silly for a child.
I read those internet ads about caring for parents and children, and they recommended hugs, affection, and not denying children's pain and suffering, and that the best thing is to get it off the emotions of their chest or body.
but if this doesn't happen, then they build up a shell, armor, or something like that because they mask or hide these emotions automatically out of pure habit and training. and later they will have trouble releasing their emotions from their bodies. Babies and toddlers do this naturally when they cry.
>Also
I can't remember the last time I cried with all my might or something like that.
I wonder if this led me to be the way I am now, at least in a social way. I wonder if I can treat it. I read from an anon that some of these things can only be treated with love. But the truth is confusing.
Maybe my brain is already like this, although I read that the brain can change, as can one's habits and feelings.
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 No.304673

>>304672
>They are only helpful to better choose the appropriate behavior for a social setting
Please elaborate. Especially if you have an MD on a related field (srsly lol)

 No.304675

>>303889
>>304666
>Refrigerator mother theory
<ItS aLl In Dee aNN Ayy

ugh


This article is a bit too one-sided, claiming autism is mostly a DNA problem, e.g. "genetical" according to "modern consensus".

This article fails to elaborate on the idea how experiencing stress from living among conflicting parents can "install" autism-like behaviour patters of the quiet kit type of school student by overloading a kiddo's head with conflicting information: dad this, mom that, thn they [[Fatherlessness|break up]] - oh, DNA problem, obviously.

 No.304676

>>304673
If your emotions are sad make a sad face so that the normalfag doesn't waste his life calling you a psychopath.

 No.304678

>>304672
>"nah" followed by a bunch of 'wrong on purpose' low-effort trolling
Still? After all of these years?

 No.304679

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>>304676

EDITED
Makes some sense, m8

Makes some sense.. "Normies" hate what confuses them and what they don't seem to understand. Something something herd mentality.

>>304678
point taken, but this one has "a troll being itself" vibe: Comrade Troll decided to tell us controlling own emotions = good (as long as it can help us gain some control over our lives)



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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.304649

I’ve tried a lot of anti depressants and not one of them helped me except amisul pride at 200mg. Amisul pride makes your brain retain more dopamine at low doses kinda like giving you a bigger battery. The other meds just brought my lows up and highs down and squashed me into a monotonous bore.

 No.304651

>>304646
A jew is shitting in front of my door every week. I want to kill myself because of this. If I caught hum I'd fucking crush his neck, but he's too smart. Fuck jews.

 No.304661

>>304619
Well, could be your problem is unrelated to the meds, Idk. Male impotence can be caused by psychological things too, just low self-esteem or shitty moods. I can talk by experience, when I have periods during which I feel powerless/weak/a loser then my dick is softer and it's harder for me to get an erection but when I experience some success in some form in life I can get hard-ons that last for hours and can cum like a volcano. Your self-image counts A LOT when it comes to sexuality as a male.

Anyway, if you are sure it's the meds that caused this then sue them, get that money. Money is always good, especially if you didn't work for it, trust me, youngwiz.

>>304646
>pornography, abortionism, lgbt, contraceptives
These aren't necessarily evil though you are right jews push these things or use them for their own ends or to earn more money.

Enjoying sexuality in some way, whether it's masturbation/watching porn or another way and discovering new things isn't bad, it's a natural thing to enjoy life as much as you can. But when people start to assume identities like lgbt ones and make them their central core identity then it will end up with less white children. There is nothing wrong with porn itself or enjoying gay porn, only if you adopt some shitty stereotype that comes with this.

Abortion and contraceptives can be useful if the people in question have some diseases that could be inherited by their children or if we are talking about non-whites then by all means these things are good.

 No.304670

>>301262
>It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.


vent your apartment
go to sleep early
wake up early

 No.304671

>>304651


r u sure its not some Jordan with some Afghan Borzoi doggo pet?
set up a cam



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 No.302609[Reply]

The costs of lives burdens is meant for the backs of two so how does one prosper alone?
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 No.303991

The best and only truly good times in life are when I'm completely left alone and have no duties or responsibilities, no pressure to answer any form of communication. It's always been like that. It's the only freedom existing.

 No.304664

>>303991

its night and I cant put my phone down to charge… hold on… let me try a piece of peace of mind…

 No.304665

sounds like some cheesy love song title

 No.304667

You have at least one other dude in your head. God has foreseen it all. Go meditate.

 No.304668

>>304667
funny thing is, there is a theory each hemisphere of human's brain actually has 2 consciousness, not just one (they used to "treat" seizures by cutting up a part of brain. Bam! 2 different personalities in charge of 2 halves of body, limbs and such)



 No.304425[Reply]

is there any job a retard like me can do? my life situation is fucked beyond any comprehension. generally speaking, i dropped out of society at 18 and now im 29, my education level is the lowest possible(i doubt 1% of ppl even have this low in my country) and even cleaner jobs require higher education than mine. But I desperately need money as everything is falling apart in my life because I have no money to fix it. The only thing I ever succeeded at was investing(not a joke) but I have no capital and I have infinite expenses and debts. I'm not from the US, just middle of the shithole of 3rd world country Poland. Locally, most jobs here are either 'customer advisor' or whatever u call them, where u work at some store and are supposed to be a salesman there. Or some backbreaking physical labor that there's no way I can do. Idk, i'm just barking at the moon here. I'm simply completely stuck in an insane situation, and I can't do anything, because I have no money and no way to make any. I'm really losing my mind over this. Soon I'll die because I can't afford healthcare while I have 99 diseases and social help doesn't exist here, or they will lock me up in a psych ward forever because I can't stand the pressure. Sorry if this post makes no sense but really, i'm just rambling everywhere I can because I just can't stand it anymore. My whole family is dying from their own diseases and their own decisions. I don't want to pointlessly talk about my life situation but it's more insane than anyone can imagine.
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 No.304654

>>304653
I see no medications that would hint to palliative care and terminal condition though…

 No.304655

>>304654
i dont need paliative care
i have no money or interest in diagnoses
i take 10 times over the maximum dose of the strongest legal anxiolytic and 24 hours after i stop i will have a seizure and a stroke
so its all set up for free

 No.304657

>>304653
leave your mom's meds, kid3

 No.304660

>>304653
why do you not have hair on your arm? there is the problem, you have low testerone or something in your childhood and did not develop hair on your arm, and now it looks like a succubi arm. that the problem, sorry anon to say it - but you are fucked, should not have drinked the hormonal tap water or what ever shit f*uk you up

 No.304662

>>304652
>>304653
>>304655
See you tomorrow. Been there, done that. Killing yourself is harder than it sounds and requires much more energy and effort than just living. But if you succeed, well good for you I guess.



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 No.304361[Reply]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.304642

>>304600
I'm not talking about the chat function though.

 No.304643

>>304598
>you write similarly to X guy on wizchan so I will assume all of you are only one poster
Classic.

(If anything, I'm doing the opposite. I always encourage the posters here to embrace their misery, like the drugwizzies to keep doing drugs, the homeless wizzies to get into the criminal life, etc.)

 No.304644

>>304361 I just opened up an old 3DS I had from my childhood. I went from being an energetic and optimistic child to a bitter faggot. Every day of my life now I feel miserably numb to anything, because everything got so much worse. And I can't understand myself because I became retarded along the way too.

 No.304645

>>304644
I want to see more photos that I took but the only other ones that I had were on my dad's phone which someone in my family lost. I'm suspicious that she threw it away because she is a leftist fanatic that disagreed with him. I want to put things into words but I cant, I am starting to feel numb again

 No.304659

>>304361
I have so much to do… every time I get a moment to relax I feel like I'm doing something wrong, so I never rest, but I don't do much either, life is such a poor joke.



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 No.299518[Reply]

I can't move on. Everyone already did but I can't. Nobody remembers me. Trying to reach them is pointless, they avoid me like the plague. My parents told me lots of anecdotes from when they were young. They had friends and an extended family, they went on adventures, they cried and laughted, they grew up with lots of friends. They don't see them much nowdays but if they see each other on the street they cheerfully greet them. Their friends are happy to see them. Mines aren't. I dream about them everyday. Some of them, the original duo from my late childhood, I haven't talked to them in almost 15 years. The others, more "recent", haven't seen them in 10. Time keeps marching on. I stay the same.
I wonder, if I kill myself, will they attend my funeral?
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 No.303219

>>299518
I guess you're going through the stage which I went through in middle school. Back when I was 14, I experienced profound isolation and realized that everyone around me were against me, hated me and wanted me to disappear. So I withdrew and became a hikikomori, and enjoyed it greatly, but got derailed from my life path due to abuse/mental illness/emotional distress, and for several years suffered by attempting to make the most of my life before I circled back to being a hikki, even more depressed and awful than before.

Before, I was only 14-15. Dropped out on the first term of my first year of HS. I had hopes, thought I'd make a name for myself by the time I reached adulthood. I never expected to fail so miserably and face such profound torment at the hands of this world.

It's harrowing, isn't it? The existential dread of being the only one, all alone, disappearing and fading among people you cannot connect with, who cannot connect with you. I am prepared to witness the end of the world, but I won't lie, it's extremely painful.

 No.303220

>>303205
I can relate to that so much. im in my 30s but all my dreams are of HS or MS. Its not like I didn't do anything in college. but no one has ever voluntarily spent any time with me. so my only interactions are in school. and its just not the same in college, where you might have a class just once a week.

K-12 was the only time in life i interacted with the same cast daily, so my dreams still use it as my plots. and if i live to 90, it'll do the same

 No.304086

>>303200
funny shit is, I both used to be a lolcow-like derp and used to accidentally inspire people to make and spread memes.

Feels… "life achievement" tier when I remember the memes of my era

 No.304089

>>303220
wtf
watch cartoons
watch 1994 movies

 No.304658

>>299520
> I'm so afraid of living.
Me too, sometimes I feel the same :(
I don't know exactly what will happen to me. I don't know anything. I am afraid of thinking about how i'm going to end up



 No.297753[Reply]

How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?
I basically don't feel pleasure from anything except food, maybe. Stories, games, art don't really touch me at all and it sucks because I remember how much I loved escapism before and how it brought excitement, joy, sadness etc. Now it's all blank. I want to bring emotions back, want to bring excitement, joy, even sweet sadness would do honestly, I miss being profoundly sad.

Have any of you managed to revert to your older non-anhedonic self?
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 No.302012

>>297753
I have found out eating 5-htp sometimes + consuming tyrosine-rich foods (kasha, bananas) helps me.


Context: seronotin is made of 5-htp in body

dopamine is made of

 No.302015

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>>297753
Amphetamines and cold showers

 No.302030

>>302012
>>302012
>dopamine is made of
tyrosine


also, I asked PerPLX AI to rework my text in "Crowdon Londoner" style:
Bruv, you know there’s bare tyrosine in bananas and buckwheat, innit? And listen — buckwheat porridge, slap a bit o’ gravy on, that hits different. Proper jokes though, ‘cause it’s like the stuff don’t even wanna be porridge in the first place!

 No.303369

>>297753
I tried drinking fuckton of coffee ever since. Did NOT work properly. Allows me to function in some half-hearted/half-assed way (aka posting stuff on Wizardchan instead of doing my work… bak to werk methinks…)

 No.304656

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>>303369
found psychoactive substance abuser



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 No.304408[Reply]

new internet of over 10 yrs now… is it me or there is nothing left to talk about?
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 No.304574

>>304568
wasnt it funded way before?

 No.304575

>>304574
way before?

a wizchan of 2000, that would be cool

 No.304576

>>304575
yea '00 n somethin

 No.304615

meh im so booooored

 No.304650




 No.301895[Reply]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.304106

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>>304105
>>304020
>How to meditation
There's a thread about this topic here with a lot of things >>303398
Just do it often.

 No.304109

no matter what you say, death is always an answer. i'm just too cowardly to go through with it.

 No.304347

>>303985
I think you mean Rosenfeld.
"Roosevelt" is an invented public title made in the facultative purpose of de-jewing a namesake; no different really to "Kennedy", which is an another invented surname standing in place of the older and original Venetian-Jewish (((Cavendish))).

 No.304350

>HAVE A SHOWER AND GO OUTSIDE!
I live in a shithole and i'm surrounded by people i hate. I'm a foreigner in my own country. I hate everyone. No matter how many jobs i get or people i talk to i will still be a complete outsider. The normalfag can't comprehend this. I haven't had a conversation in around 6 years that was even small talk everyone i've ever liked killed themselves or is in jail.

 No.304647

>>304106
thanks



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