/dep/ - Depression

How did they affect you growing up?
How do they affect you to this day?
How do you feel about them?

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread

The last suicide general has hit the bump limit.
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Normalswine have no souls. They feel comfortable in a crowd. They are forced to work 9-5 jobs to survive because they are absolute normalswine scum and lack the ability to create anything themselves. They see the person next to them working 9-5 and think "they're doing it too, so it's okay" and their train of thought stops there. They cannot stop and reflect on their situation. It's impossible for them to think for themselves and must copy everyone else.

Then they latch onto the nearest succubus to marry and have kids with without having even a sliver on consciousness. The reason divorce rates are so high is because normalswine literally just marry for the sake of marriage. It's all an impulse and they don't realise it. They never realise anything, they just consume information and act like the person next to them. When they ask you something and get a non-normalswine answer they shut down and can't comprehend it. They think you're a freak if you listen to old music or don't have social media. Have you ever seen those "who's watching in 2021" comments on music videos? That's just normalswine clustering together to reaffirm each other that it's okay to watch the old music so they don't feel weird and alone.

Earth is the land of the room-temp IQ degenerates. It's okay to treat them like shit. These people are beneath you. Just let them suffer while you head for the light for they are blind and will live in the darkness forever. Genetics has made them irredeemable. Let them squabble in the streets over imaginary rules. They are all just a small labor unit, nothing more. They aren't alive and will never achieve consciousness.

Anyone else feel like their world lost "colour"?
Somehow it seems that the world in my past was more colourful and beautiful.

>29
>worthless polisci degree (2015)
>didn't work a job until 24
>have had 14 jobs and quit them all within a year or less
>haven't worked more than 2 months at a job since almost 2 years ago
>live at home, never paid rent
>never made more than 16/hr doing almost entirely what amounts to stocking shelves in grocery stores
>schizoid
>misanthropic
>lack the natural affect and social fluidity that makes interactions with people smooth due to years of isolation
>can't stand interacting with people in a professional way
>get really anxious, feel panicky, etc
I got a job where I had to go into 711's, convenience stores, etc and talk to the store managers about shelf space for our candy bars and buying displays. I couldn't handle it. The idea of having to ingratiate and grovel to someone i don't want to talk to so some anonymous faggot company can make more profit just made me so angry. I ghosted after 2 weeks of training and one week of sitting in my car outside the stores to spoof the companies GPS on our tablet.

Is it over? Should I just move to some small town in the midwest and stock shelves at the local grocery store and hide from the vicious judgement and shame of the east coast yuppies who i was supposed to be a part of?

Is it better to be a normalfag? a non thinking drone content with the simple pleasures and thus immoral to lead others to questioning the world around them and having an open mind?

My family thinks the former so let me share a story of recent and ask your opinions my magik brethren. My mother is very upset that I have been talking to my younger brother about philosophy and just how to think as she claims it will alienate him from being able to converse with the average person and that it is harmful.
For some context I have "complex mental health issues" rendering me dysfunctional however I strive to be logical.
My mother in her wisdom has expressed she does not want my brother reading books or learning to think about anything beyond a surface layer as he has expressed how awful the world appears to be.

Is it wrong to open someone's mind and help them think for themselves? Are normalfags correct in intentionally limiting their perception and questioning honing a wilful ignorance?
What is to be gained from being able to deconstruct reality and point out the "facts" as they appear to be.

I hate to come off as grandiose and conceited so keep in mind I personally disagree with the following but my Mother claims as psychiatrists have that I am highly intelligent something I disagree with since I know so little and others know much more than I do about what I know plus may have interests which are foreign to me yet she says she does not want my Brother to end up special needs like myself and claims that thinking is wrong and bad for you.

My mother quipped about how I am unable to relate to men in a club/bar(never been) yet able to play the part but wont enjoy their company and this is bad I tried to explain that having an open mind and learning about various things allows me to interact with anyone and discuss various ideas learning from a diverse range of people yet she is very angry I have been encouraging my Brother to read "strange books" which to her means anything at all that you will not see promoted on television or her normalfag facebook group I suppose.

Do normalfags truly hate thinking? I strongly suspect that the regular person is very aware of the realities of life being horrible yet are excellent at remaining optimistic and I do no think we are better as wizards perhaps we are in the wrong because after all what worth does misery have when you can be ignorant?

>Shunned by "friends" /any group I've ever tried to be apart of
When did you realize you were destined to be alone forever?

Lost my job because libtards said I was a racist and provided no evidence and been homeless before, not doing it again.

Especially when it comes to games, I've lost all motivation to do anything with my self. Even getting up in the morning is exhausting.

I don't know what to do with myself. It's an endless cycle; work, go home, sleep.

Everything is just fucking empty and hollow. It just feels like I've wasted 20-odd years of my life with nothing to really 'push' towards.

I can't even find anything that interests me anymore. Everything's just so over saturated and plagued by normalswine who have the conversational depth of a fucking plate.