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 No.301013[Reply]

Chronic physical pain, insomnia and povery, edition
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 No.301249

>>301247
It doesn't make me feel guilty. It does make me feel stress. I have to live in a busybody world when I'm a slow potato. You have to live at 90 mph in this world to survive…

 No.301252

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>>301247
I used to care about having an excuse to be a loser but at this point I want to be able to experience life to the fullest. Sitting at home and experiencing the world through a screen is not fulfilling.

>why don't you start now?

the youthful optimism is gone. no money and no more free shit and discounts for being young. having to deal with ageism with no experience to offer. body hurts so I can't even take it for granted I will make it to old age. can't talk to anyone because I have a decade long gap in my life and missed out on all the growing up milestones so I have no shared basis for conversation

i know someone will say achually you are still looking for excuses and pity but I don't care how can you have the hope and confidence in yourself when you never felt happy and successful in life and everything keeps getting worse and there is a biological countdown that keeps ticking that you can't just beat with optimism and a can-do attitude?

 No.301253

>>301252
What does it even mean to "live life to the fullest"? Usually when people say this they mean having sex, going to parties and having lots of status from a high paying job. None of that stuff appeals to me so I guess I'll never "live life to the fullest".

 No.301255

>>301253
Not him, but it means self-realization, to become the best version of yourself, reach your potential etc. Having sex and going to parties is just hedonism, you could do all that but you'd still feel empty at the end of the day because you didn't self-actualize.

 No.301256

>>301255
why do people turn into david goggins when you ask life advice?
go And MAXIMIZE your LIFE AND BECOME THE ULTIMATE HUMAN LIFE FORM. CONQUER the WORLD and BECOME A MASTER OF EVERY SKILL.

uhh not me though I will go work my ordinary job and then watch tv. but YOU Should do that.


 No.301250[Reply]

I am a loser who cant do anything right. What is the fastet way for suicide? How is that one suicide website called?

 No.301251

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 No.301254

>>301250
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/


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 No.301028[Reply]

People willl always hate you if you're asocial and never talk.
There is no way around it.
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 No.301064

>>301028
Nah, people simply don't care about you. If they see you, they will just think "what a weird guy" or something similar, then go on with their lives

 No.301065

>>301031
It is because you don't speak, you must speak to develop the ability to speak, it's simple .-.

 No.301085

>>301030
>or worse, they like you and consequently demand more socializing from you
Are you trying to humblebrag?

 No.301240

>>301064
Wrong,specially with people you see and interact everyday

 No.301245

>>301085
no? just saying it's a lose-lose in any case. the best option is when they don't know you exist and therefore cannot pass judgement on you or ruin your inner peace.


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 No.300364[Reply]

I thought I was a hobby guy who like to spend time on his hobby alone but thats not true, all I care is to talk to people, thats why I come here everyday because I want to talk to someone. I am not an autist asperger with countless of niche hobby and a high IQ, I'm just a low temperture IQ monkey who thought he could fool himself and tricks his brain to think he is a genius but Im not. I wish I was made to do something but Im just a lazy parasyte, it sucks
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 No.300635

>>300411
you're 100% right. I was talking about a friendship. good job wizzie👍

 No.300637

>>300384
Wtf is going on with zoomer men now when their idols are these anime succubi? There must be more troon zoomers than any other gen

 No.300638

>>300637
dumbass its a japanese style imageboard of course you're going to see anime pic

 No.301229

>>300637
There is this sad russian song about wanting to be 2D and being digitized or whatnot. Kinda like a "rope into another dimension" type thing.
Can't really post it here because I'm afraid of being misunderstood like that other dude. (Also the version I have as a webm has the frog on it.)

Ever since young I had a vivid involuntary imagination. Some psych would probably call it maladaptive daydreaming.
I'd imagine myself in another world, another me all the time.
Funny enough my visions of this were mostly 2D even before I knew anime. Maybe because I used to draw as a kid before that.
Why the anime succubi?
I'm not a tranny or even gay. They are literally crafted to trigger your brain as a sort of hyperstimuli.
succubi crying already evoke this in most normal men, even some on the fringes. So sad "ideal" female designed to be stimulating will evoke empathy easier.

If I saw a succubus cry IRL I'd be disgusted even if it's my mother or my sister. Somehow sad anime pics like this still resonate.
Maybe I'm defective. Maybe it's what tickled my tism like some people had ponies or sonic. Maybe it's psychology.
Don't hate on it because you don't like it, anime/manga is a common escape for our age group.
I'm 29, born '96 so depending on who you ask I'm from the last year of millennials or the first of the zoomers.
Due to poverty I had access to things later in my region so I still mostly relate to the former.

In 2D world there is no real pain or age or anything especially if you got set on creative mode.

 No.301230

>>300637
it's interesting how common it is for people complaining about zoomers to be clearly zoomers themselves because they think things that have been around for much longer are recent zoomer shit lmao


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 No.299097[Reply]

Do you feel like there is nothing to do online anymore?

Maybe the I'm viewing the past with rose tinted goggles now that I'm turning 30 soon, but I believe the internet as a whole has lost it's charm.
Back in my (relative) youth I could explore it endlessly find whatever to pass the time with.
It was a perfect escape from the real world, whether forums or online games at the time I could always find myself a group of people who shared some of my interests and interact with them.
It felt like I always was a part of a community, the web felt very tribal in a sense.
Now it all feels empty and hostile. It's almost the same experience as moving from a rural village to a big city just in the digital world.

It's all commercial, brands instead of people, everyone is hostile by default unless they try to sell you on something, nobody is there to have fun anymore. Nothing is authentic anymore.
Games are hyper-competitive.
Communities are fast and loose.
Maybe I'm just jaded, maybe I just don't have any real interest anymore, maybe I'm seeing the world in monochrome, but is that really true?

It feels like every corner of the internet has been shit on by a billion randoms constantly chiming in. Jumping into a space just to take a dump for a quick laugh resulting in very little long term traction for these spaces. Compared to old forums anyways.
People aren't invested in anything anymore, things are more permanent on this slow imageboard than they are on mainstream spaces.
Going back to the village analogy, it's like in a city, where you don't even know the next door neighbor in your concrete hives, so why not shit up the place?

Not sure if it's the age, brainrot, depression or anhedonia, but I just can't will myself to care about anything anymore. The only thing left to do on the internet for me seems to be chasing nostalgia. Other than that all that is available is an endless flood of slop that I can scroll while listening to some multi-hour video essay about some other slop.

Video games that used to be my primary way of passing time feel like such a chore nowadays. You get one, launch it, have to learn a couple dozen mechanics, random lingo for the same crap with dozens of numbers you can tune that often end up pointless or gimp you. Then a forced 1-2 hour handhold session with tutorials and cutscenes…
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 No.300363

>>300356
>People rush from one hype to the other.
I see this quite a lot with modern-day video games. People talk about them so much for a month or two until they eventually move on to the next thing.

 No.300453

Yes, even masturbating to porn is boring now. Feels like i've seen every good image for my fetishes. When I cum there's no satisfaction, just relief from not being horny anymore.

Tried nofap it doesn't do shit. I feel nostalgia over my youngfapping days when jerking off was genuinely exciting and novel. Life takes everything away in the end

 No.300523

The closest thing I've gotten to forums of old were the UnevenEdge forums where they try to recreate the old [adult swim] forums. Complete with the section for incoherent babbling. It's alright…but it's just not the same.

 No.301227

>>300453
Anon I'm not sure how serious you are about this, but I wholeheartedly agree.
For me the whole thing has been a serious slippery slope, but I still recall my youthful goon sessions fondly. However cringe and pathetic that might sound.
Back then finding some high quality flash animation or whatever else felt like a gold mine, now looking back at those things I feel nothing. Maybe a pang of nostalgia.
I'm sure it's desensitization, slipping into more extreme or just high quality material, but it is what it is.

 No.301228

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>>301227
i'm very serious.
I don't have many pleasures in life so I lament what I lost not what I never had. a couple of months ago I hunted down one of the first images I ever fapped to. It was just some generic rule34 shit. but to me when I was young it was the hottest thing in the world.

You can say it's desensitization, and in a sense it is, because life is desensitization. we never want to admit it but life is always taking things away from you. you are always losing. your intellect, your health, your memories. It's all slowly being flushed away.


 No.301188[Reply]

Well my family is forcing me to take Duloxetine for my anxiety disorder, what am I in for?
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 No.301219

>>301218
yeah, because the chemical theory of depression is bullshit. there is no test for it, if you report getting better then it worked, if you don't, then try another, then another, then another until you convince yourself something has changed. maybe you get a shot of B12 or ketamine and you finally feel like getting out of bed.

 No.301220

Tbh ngl having PTSD is a feminine trait. Go on the PTSD sub and most of the users are succubi who got shellshocked from being molested as a kid.
The truth is that only people with feminine souls can get PTSD.

 No.301221

>>301220
Yeah tell that to a veteran

 No.301223

>>301221
I would, because it stands. Even effeminate boys get drafted in to wars. Those who can't endure the natural, bloody human experience are not fit for survival. You can feel bad that these soft guys were thrown in to a situation that could break them permanently, but nobody should have to tolerate those who allow their fears for something no longer happening control them.

War scared you? Sorry to hear. You're going to keep making it everyone else's problem even though the war is over? Eat dirt. If they didn't get the veteran status from being in a war, they'd be just another panicky oddball hyperventilating after being pulled over for speeding. And then we get to here, where guys who DIDN'T experience any of life's less fashionable aspects are having "panic attacks" over nothing, because they were never taught that it's not OK to let your irrational fears weigh down on you and others. Perma waah-waaah tantrum babies. I kick them.

 No.301226

>>301223
I appreciate your effort to make wizzies ‘man up’ and all but the reality of things is the horror created by our own mind, not by external observations. In other words there needs to be no war to experience ptsd symptoms. I agree that these words are used inflationary still the case stands that the symptoms subjectively are very real.


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 No.301161[Reply]

After reading what it's like to be poor in Indis or one of those desperate bangladeshi guest workers 48 celsius Dubai heat for 200 dollars a month, I'm convinced hell already exists on Earth.

And I don't want to be in a body whose only option is to endure that for several decades. Not having prior memories is irrelevant.
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 No.301168

>>301166
If you don't exist you don't suffer

 No.301196

the fact those people don't kill themselves en masse indicates to me their pain is tolerable, or at least compensated by their lack of awareness and/or copes.

and why is not having prior memories irrelevant? assuming the hypothetical is true, would that future person who grows up in a completely different environment than you today, really you at all?

 No.301197

>>301196
I'll tell you how there pain is intolerable. Half of them believe that after they die they are gonna have a better life and that they are going to be rewarded for it if they complete their religious duties. As for the other less violent half, they simply aren't aware and conciously choose not to see what their life could be, I tried this with my poor friends by showing them videos of middle class people and they were just not interested in seeing it, I told them to see the stark difference between themselves and the middle class and they were all so disinterested in it that they didn't care as if consciouly choosing not to see it cause they know deep down inside that if they would, then it would break their perception of reality. But man were they interested in cricket and other slop made to divert attention.

 No.301201

>>301161
I fear suicide because it seems too easy. 41 years of sadness and suffering and I can just bounce after a few minutes spent on the end of a rope I have in my garage? Like, that's it? I'm just free to go, and they're not gonna send the spectral search teams with astral scent hounds to track me down for breaking out of this corporeal prison? No sir, I don't trust it.

 No.301224

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>>301161
I meant this mostly as a joke, but when discussing why third worlders seem to increase in numbers despite the suffering I told my friend the following.
They are too corrupt to escape the samsara cycle which ironically they themselves have invented.
With every iteration they perpetuate their corruption so they just accumulate in number over time.

If you aren't already one of them I wouldn't worry in all honesty. The average wizard has sinned less against others than most normies simply by virtue of interacting with less people in general.
Despite this I fear death. I'm 29 with ruined health and no future in a world that is passing by me, seemingly destined for destitution. By my own design it appears.
Yet I fear it. Every night I'm reminded of my mortality I cry. Every time I attempt to fight it by some minor improvement I'm in tears again.
I know I'll regret a great many things when the reaper comes to claim me and those are things I can no longer change.
I made some attempts, but pussied out from the only hard 100% success rate attempt at the last moment about exactly a decade ago.

I somehow still held hope for the future, that I would change, that I would live a life where I could die in peace. Guess what? It took just about 3 days to be back to same-old same-old…
I'm not sure why I'm like this. I do feel like I at least posses the illusion of free will. Things should have never been as hard as I made them out to be.
Inaction is the regret I hold in my heart, the time past is what I mourn each night. Yet the present and the future? Easily spent in the same frivolous manner.
In this sense I am a worse being than any brown, black or whatever else in these situations you dread, so my "joke" above doesn't quite ring true anymore.

You know how much it hurts to look back knowing, that regardless of the outcome basically every opportunity would have had an infinitely greater result just by taking action?
Any action? No matter what path I chose to walk it would have been incomparable to my situation. It didn't matter.
Non of the choices matter. The only wrong move was never having made one.

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 No.301194[Reply]

I'm in my 30s. People I went to school with and family friends are married, have high paying careers and are healthy. I got the advantages of parents, an education and the first world and high performing peers and I still fumbled it all.

 No.301195

It's a bad roll. I had to roll at least a 2 to at least be normal and I rolled a 1. Critical failure.

 No.301200

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>>301194
Not a first worlder, but a guy who I went to Uni with is now in another country and already bought his own apartment years ago, last time I checked on him he was progressing in his career meanwhile I am still not even at square one, He was just luckier than I because his father lived in a better country and managed to find him a job through connections, he barely studied or attended classes regularly or anything.

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>>301194
I know some people like that who 'made' it too. One is an old friend from elementary school. I almost never see him anymore but we live in a small town so sometimes we still talk. He is 26, married his high school gf a few years ago, they have an apartment they own and three cats. He's not even in a super fancy career, he just started working after finishing 10th grade and that's why he's basically set now.
The other guy I met in high school and he was kind of a Chad unironically. Not necessarily god like looks but probably a 7 or 8. Most of all it was the way he carried himself and acted, it was always like he was in complete control. He was also top of the class and really industrious and in the time it has taken me to get halfway through my Bachelors he is almost finishing up his Masters and even doing a semester abroad in Japan.
It is what it is. I have my own issues that held me back and I'm working on it. I just have to accept that I will always lag behind most people in terms of socially expected milestones. But then again, I already knew a decade ago that I would become a wizard and with every passing year I come closer to it. Some of us are just a little too abnormal to function well in society. We just have to try to get by regardless.

 No.301222

>>301208
>>301194
we whiped out our chances, it may be CLOSELY too late


 No.301040[Reply]

Hey, it's me your resident disgusting nonhuman junkie Benzo spammer. I finally ran out of all ways to get money and I don't even have energy left to try scamming people so it's finally over. I would like to mention I had other reasons to self destruct, like countless debts, mentally ill family, no room to live in, endless diseases eg broken stomach hurts I can't eat and it feels like my spine broke and I'm so weak I'm dying from a walk. Apparently once I ran out of pills I'll have endless months of seizures and psychosis and might jump out of random windows after losing contact with reality.
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 No.301054

>>301052
Not O.P, but another miserable Chaste third-worlder here, the Rope is my only hope.

 No.301171

>>301040
I went through something similar when younger. I was addicted to Xanax in particular. I never had a prescription and was forced to buy it from sketchy drug dealers. Eventually I got cut off, probably I wasn't cool enough for the guy I bought from. The withdrawals were hell on earth, even now decade later I'd easily say the worst thing I ever experienced. I'm not sure your country but you absolutely can't quit cold turkey at those doses. Only a taper and you'd need to do a slow taper. I'm not sure how it works but surely there's some sort of support system or something? Lioe hospital or psych ward or sometbing? Maybe you can check yourself in to such a program? Seriously cold turkey from such high amounts you are going to experience hell on earth. Not trying to scare you. But you need to avoid that at all costs.

 No.301198

>>301171
Of course I know that. That's why I'll kill myself or become a vegetable before I get withdrawals. Gambled on my life and extended my stay in this hell, 10 days max more and I'll either be dead or a vegetable. Nobody will help me with anything.

 No.301199

>>301198
What is your story? How and why did you get addicted? Why didn't you try to slowly reduce it when you knew it was becoming an addiction? Are you from the first world? There's gotta be programs for homeless people in the third world? How do other poor people in your country get treatment? Or would you say being poor you can't get medical treatment?

 No.301210

>>301198
Where do you live? I can possibly offer assistance of some sort.


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 No.296811[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

2025 will be the layoff year edition. How we holding up?

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 No.301186

>>301178
But what if I was that frog in the center of the ocean and all around me is nothing but endless miles of slowly heating water? Where to jump to?

 No.301187

>>301186
That's like asking "But what if a meteor crashed down on the frog as he was making his escape?". It's impossible. There's always a place to jump, even if you're too scared of what other dangers you imagine to be on that surface.

 No.301190

Is there any way to make 100$ per month online?

 No.301191

>>301190 maybe try this
>>>/wiz/218184

 No.301193

We can never recover time but have at least the potential to earn more in the future.


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