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Depression Crawl Thread LXXII Anonymage 12/03/25 (Wed) 19:06:52 No.304361 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html

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Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 09:04:37 No.304940

Yeah I agree it's pretty bleak, but at the same time in the times past I'd be able to grow up more healthy physically, get my chance to murder a few people, and then blissfully leave this living hell at 20-25 years of age by a merciful bullet or a blade in my heart. I can't imagine anything better and more worthwhile than that. But now I'm a just rotten corpse, weak beyond the ability to be able to afford food on my own. Kill people? Lol dude. I'm afraid to simply be in the 10m vicinity. But yeah I do spend a lot of time fantasizing about violence, brutal, unprovoked and unchecked violence. That hollow, impotent rage is pretty much everything that's left of me as a human being. Ending my life would be more kind than satisfying any of my wishes at this point.

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 04:12:17 No.304951

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My long-running LARP of pretending to be a game developer is growing tiresome since I have learned that nobody will discover or play my games no matter how hard I try. My mediocre games vanish into the heaps of macaroni art that gets released on itch.io each day. Indie dev was my biggest cope.

Anonymage 12/31/25 (Wed) 02:15:30 No.304960

>>304951
If you're doing it as a career, fair enough being upset about not making it. But if you just want to create vidya related content and have people play it, there are numerous ways to still flex some creativity.
I've created maps/levels for Source games and one of them was completed by nearly 1000 people. Didn't earn a cent, but at least it wasn't completely wasted effort.

Anonymage 12/31/25 (Wed) 04:09:51 No.304962

>>304960
Maybe I will go back to working on community Doom megawads. That's the only time people really played something I made.

Anonymage 12/31/25 (Wed) 11:03:36 No.304963

managed to get the rope around my neck twice this month, won't be long until I actually die I think

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Alcoholism Anonymage 08/11/25 (Mon) 14:25:02 No.302164 [Reply]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.

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Anonymage 10/07/25 (Tue) 14:43:48 No.303344

>>303153
same situation
i just drink anyway lmao
and sometimes it goes away
it depends on how severe your GERD is

Anonymage 10/22/25 (Wed) 19:39:32 No.303691

>>303344
It's gotten worse with age, will probably fuck up my esophagus if I'm not careful. at its worst it feels like there's molten lava in my chest. so i've been cutting back.

i've tried anti-acid tablets but it makes it worse in the long term i noticed, better to just drink a lot of water - and never imbibe on an empty stomach.

Anonymage 10/24/25 (Fri) 12:14:13 No.303722

>>303691
I had a GERD-like booshi back in 2019

in 2020, I realised it was the "not so spicy" spicy food from work that was doing the inflaming stuff to me

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 06:57:04 No.304933

>>303691

ok, just in case

try to eat 1 source of carbs only per month or, at least, week:

switch between:
rice/pasta+bread+buns/buckwheat "kasha"

to rule out undiagnosed GLUTEN stuff

Anonymage 12/31/25 (Wed) 03:08:35 No.304961

literally bro…
who needs buy alcohol?

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Anonymage 05/11/25 (Sun) 00:52:45 No.300442 [Reply]

The top 5 regrets of the dying according to an Australian palliative care nurse Bonnie Ware are:

-I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
-I wish I hadn't worked so much.
-I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
-I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
-I wish that I had let myself be happier.

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Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 16:29:46 No.304941

>>300448

Absolute truth bomb and you're absolutely correct.

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 18:14:56 No.304943

>>300442
>-I wish that I had let myself be happier

Whoops, it was not me

it was me mum interrupting me randomly

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 19:58:12 No.304957

>>304937
nta but after years of thinking things would change i came to the conclusion most people are Nietzschean last men and want two things in life, to be comfy and entertained, and people are only comfy if the economy is good. also if the movies and shows are good.

for the most part normies dont care about politics.

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 21:53:07 No.304958

>>304957
From Gibbon:
>The people of Rome, viewing, with a secret pleasure, the humiliation of the
>aristocracy, demanded only bread and public shows; and were supplied with both
>by the liberal hand of Augustus. The rich and polite Italians, who had almost
>universally embraced the philosophy of Epicurus, enjoyed the present blessings
>of ease and tranquillity, and suffered not the pleasing dream to be interrupted
>by the memory of their old tumultuous freedom. With its power, the senate
>had lost its dignity; many of the most noble families were extinct. The
>republicans of spirit and ability had perished in the field of battle, or in
>the proscription. The door of the assembly had been designedly left open, for
>a mixed multitude of more than a thousand persons, who reflected disgrace upon
>their rank, instead of deriving honor from it.

Anonymage 12/31/25 (Wed) 02:12:57 No.304959

deathbed regrets are the dumbest fucking thing ever, and normgroids are retarded for living their life trying to avoid them

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dead internet Anonymage 12/06/25 (Sat) 13:00:26 No.304408 [Reply]

new internet of over 10 yrs now… is it me or there is nothing left to talk about?

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Anonymage 12/14/25 (Sun) 15:18:01 No.304615

meh im so booooored

Anonymage 12/16/25 (Tue) 14:36:11 No.304650

https://youtu.be/vQS_KdHBWYU?si=UEFin9a--X2YksmV

Anonymage 12/20/25 (Sat) 06:49:59 No.304757

so bored

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 11:39:23 No.304955

bored as f

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 11:54:21 No.304956

>>304955
Stop

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meds and switzerland Anonymage 12/27/25 (Sat) 16:10:19 No.304887 [Reply]

any wizards choose to take psychiatric meds?
and also what's the deal with assisted/medically induced suicide these days?

i hate crawling back to antidepressants but when my thoughts start getting too dark that i can't metabolize them on my own with meditation, and i can't concentrate on anything, i just need something to take the edge off, and if i'm not abusing substances, it's really hard to think of anything that will work better than prozac. but i hate that i need them. my old doctors would say something like, "well what if you needed glasses would you hate them and refuse to wear them? Or just get glasses and live your life?"

Seems switzerland actually lets non-citizens have assisted suicide? my mental health is not really severe enough probably… i don't have a terminal illness or anything… just a tootheache and dysthimia that makes me want to escape dealing with it head on… i had a fleeting relief by researching it and seeing it exists, but the thought has since passed (for now)

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Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 22:57:56 No.304946

We shouldn't let murdering scumbags get to live on the taxpayer dime waiting 30 years to be executed.

If a murderer confesses and pleads guilty he should face the firing squad the next day. That'll scare them straight. Then you'd see crime go down.

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 23:50:14 No.304947

>>304946
>Then you'd see crime go down.
We'd see less people admitting to murder, and more people murdering those who got their criminal friend executed either through vague legislative involvement or by directly pulling the trigger.

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 00:35:49 No.304948

>>304947
> more people murdering those who got their criminal friend executed

I don't think speeding up the process would lead to that.

> "Oh it'll be 20 years till my murdering buddy is executed, so I don't care as much"

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 06:44:33 No.304952

>>304932
>basic human right
Shut the fuck up you judeomarxistic worm. Biomass like you shouldn't have access to the Internet

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 10:43:53 No.304953

>>304945
>>304952
This is not pol

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Suicide general Anonymage 12/07/24 (Sat) 20:38:05 No.296511 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.

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Anonymage 12/09/25 (Tue) 23:05:06 No.304491

>>304377
it is possible if u have no tolerance, but mixing benzos with opioids is much more likely. death is through additive respiratory depression

Anonymage 12/10/25 (Wed) 18:22:41 No.304507

>>296511

Anonymage 12/21/25 (Sun) 21:17:50 No.304773

>>304330
From my research it takes up to 20 minutes maybe even more, an awfully long time for one to panic and call the ambulance, one really need benzos to keep calm.

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 01:39:49 No.304949

does drinking vodka help build the courage to do it?

Anonymage 12/30/25 (Tue) 03:56:51 No.304950

>>304949
yeah when your liver fails

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Suffering from illness with no suicide method available Anonymage 08/22/25 (Fri) 10:55:02 No.302379 [Reply]

Every morning I'm nauseous, really nauseous, sometime I puke and when I'm not nauseous I get random abdominal pain.
When I'm not nauseous or in pain I may have shortness of breath and tachycardia, often I'm also constipated.
Despite the vomit and constipation I try to eat and drink as much as I can, I'm losing weight and I fear to end up bedbound if I don't do so.
I've done some medical tests like blood tests, endoscopy, ecography, with no evidence of disease…still I'm really sick.
And my problem is I'm monitored by my parents, despite being an adult I have no freedom and they don't want to help me with suicide but I can't live like this.
I'm being tortured with no end in sight.

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Anonymage 11/11/25 (Tue) 22:27:58 No.304012

>>302379
shortness of breath and tachycardia can come from reduced monoamine oxidase activity, very rare to have this.

try a tyramine free diet, since unmetabolized tyramine can lead to tachycardia and shortness of breath since it raises blood pressure.>>302379

Anonymage 11/13/25 (Thu) 18:28:44 No.304025

>>304012
sounds somewhat relateable… i burp after cheese

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 07:07:12 No.304936

>>304935
My diet for December has been:
more fish (good?)
more soda (bad?)
more beans, lentils cabbage (?????)
no meat
(inb4 soyboy) no soy also
no diary (seems to help?)
no spicy food also

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 18:07:38 No.304942

>>304012
Ahahaha! Thanks for a hint, fren! Because I've been avoiding dairy products altogether for a month AND my burp problems have gone - even though my fizzy soda cola intake was awfully high yesterday. Havent it been for your hint, I wouldnt have noticed how smooth my last month was

regards, this very guy who've been complaining of being forced to lent - IT SEEMS TO DO TANGIBLE GOOD

i take i need to only eat dairy in moderation or… well,abstain from it,going full soiboi (im wizard-aged already anyway)

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 18:18:13 No.304944

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i have same sympthoms two years ago. punking, panic attacks, nauseous, shortness of breath, sinus tachycardia, feel like someone holding my throat. urine and blood test were normal and doc said so healty.

then i realized my throat get irritated especially in the morning. its due to silent reflux. im in diet for 3 months. i have eliminated cigarettes, coffee, and chocolate from my life.

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Anonymage 09/30/25 (Tue) 10:40:39 No.303176 [Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3

they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke

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Anonymage 10/20/25 (Mon) 16:26:32 No.303659

>>303658
Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:

L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.

You can put this into an llm to get explanations..

I've been doing this for 13 days and there is a slight difference… but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided, so it surprises absolutely nobody

Anonymage 10/20/25 (Mon) 16:33:06 No.303660

>>303659
Thanks. I might find something similar in a DM store or something.

>but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided
Same reason I'm thinking basic vitamins worked a bit for me initially. I guess I was so deprived that anything, even low quality stuff helped.
I'm trying an iron pill now, it has 14mg iron 10mg zinc, 1mg copper(?) 1,4mg B6 some B12 and a bit of folic acid.

Doctor wasn't worried, but my blood iron is constantly on the low end so I decided to take this anyways.
Hope for something notable and that they don't mess with my BP meds.
Was drinking 2-3 energy drinks a day for a decade before and was forced to quit… That had B6 B12 too. Maybe this is the key to salvation.

Anonymage 10/20/25 (Mon) 16:45:19 No.303661

>>303632
Depending on what you mean by "libido problems" pelvic floor exercises could go a long a way.
That was my issue. Now I can jerk it to doujins all day again if I wanted to.
The desire is lower now that I'm past 30 though. Probably natural + dopamine fatigue.

Anonymage 11/07/25 (Fri) 13:19:01 No.303941

>>303180
what if i'll buy one too…

>>303659
>Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:
>L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.
bump

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 06:59:23 No.304934

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one - vitamin D

it's winter, so youre most likely in need for a source of vitamin D

The lack of vitamin D has been linked to both depression and ruined immune system

I'm tired Anonymage 06/04/25 (Wed) 11:20:42 No.301044 [Reply]

I'm nervous because I've tried so many times and it never worked.

I recently worked alone on the backend of a course project, barely sleeping and also helping with the frontend. Before the deadline, my hands were shaking from anxiety and lack of sleep, which made my stuttering worse. Still, I finished the project (ASP.NET + Angular) and got 11 out of 12 points - almost a perfect score.

But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs, creating the backend and connecting everything via API. After all this, I was given even more assignments, and now I can't focus on my own projects. Everyone acts like they know what I should do, but I want to do what I want. I have a few personal projects, but they never moved beyond testing.

What frustrates me the most is the uncertainty - I never know if I will succeed. The chances of failure seem huge. The military pressure makes it worse - if I do nothing, I am sent to war (death sentence), or thrown out on the street, or harshly judged.

Thoughts of suicide used to come a few times a year; now it is almost every day. I do not want to live like this. I am too weak mentally to die, but I feel like I am just existing without hope. On top of that, I am burdened by old wounds and a burning desire to take revenge for all the humiliations I have suffered.

Also, I stutter. Most people don’t really care about it and just ignore it, which is actually good. But a few still mock me, including relatives, saying things like, “If you don’t like it, don’t stutter, or it’s embarrassing for me.”

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Anonymage 08/21/25 (Thu) 15:42:58 No.302356

>having a job
There's your problem.

Anonymage 09/16/25 (Tue) 07:43:51 No.302895

>>301044
>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs, creating the backend and connecting everything via API. After all this, I was given even more assignments, and now I can't focus on my own projects. Everyone acts like they know what I should do, but I want to do what I want. I have a few personal projects, but they never moved beyond testing.

>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover

He's probably "full-on assburger" about design too - don't waste your nerves on him. His "beautiful" cover probably also involves avoiding bullshit features with un-intuitive names - shit youll find in mediocre AIMP4 skins let alone wonky websites.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 14:01:55 No.303758

You following the treaded path which can not only let you down but also drain you along they way.

Learn Human Design, you bunch of noobs. Learn why whatever shit you are doing now will never work while your bodies cry it even if things make sense the opposite way in your thoughts.

I stopped applying for wagecuck holes and I hate not having done it from the very start. How is it that I am anxious only when I seek "a future" as a wagecuck, but totally smooth while I neet?

Suck the world dry. They deserve it.

Anonymage 12/27/25 (Sat) 23:54:49 No.304897

>>301044
still here?

Anonymage 12/29/25 (Mon) 06:19:27 No.304930

>>302141
>4. you have a safe place to sleep

we don't know if his neighbour is a crazy junkie of sorts or a cat killa mad lad

This Jordan Peterson video cheers me up Anonymage 12/27/25 (Sat) 01:26:55 No.304864 [Reply]

Its like it's this horrible world, full of horrible people, and it's so tempting to hate Being. To hate being itself. And fall into complete nihilism. But you have to embrace Being as it is. And yourself as you are. And just accept the place the Cosmos has given you. And even if it is your destiny to be friendless, ostracized, outcast by all. And to have a shitty job. And you just wagie and then you die forgotten. That's what you were put into this cosmos to do. And you just have to do it. And that's what it means to be a Man. And you just do your shitty job a little bit better each day. And you've made the world a slightly better place, even though the World still hates you back, and there's no reward for goodness.

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Anonymage 12/27/25 (Sat) 15:14:57 No.304883

>>304877
might as well cut out the imitation and go straight to the source.

But its still a JP message. Take pride in being a frog. But its not like frog pride is because frogs are the best species superior to all others. there are so many species that are bigger, stronger and can do more than frogs. But you accept the role you were given and do your best at it, without any illusions or delusions of rising above.

Anonymage 12/27/25 (Sat) 15:17:12 No.304884

>>304878
he is proud to be on benzos. That's what the whole lobster metaphor is about. Like people caricature that about JP worshipping lobsters as alpha male chads. And it is a little bit of that.

But the larger point is that the lobster gets a serotonin flush from winning fights. But if you get it from prozac or benzos it has the exact same impact on the lobster. So you can win fights, or you can just take benzos. it has the same hormonal impact.

Anonymage 12/27/25 (Sat) 15:20:41 No.304885

Anonymage 12/28/25 (Sun) 05:41:36 No.304903

Massively improved standard of living
The child mortality rate in Africa
Is now the same as it was in Europe in 1952
Which is a statistic
That I just regard as
Absolutely miraculous
The rate of poverty is diminishing
At an amazing rate, right
Between 2000 and 2012
We have poverty

Anonymage 12/28/25 (Sun) 20:14:22 No.304927

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