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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.310651

How I feel most days

 No.310653

>>310651
which one?

 No.310658

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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

Previous: >>308343

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 No.310637

my tinnitus seems to have become reactive to sounds in my right ear and i can hear it over a shower or brown noise and i also hear ringing when i move my body and its beginning to make me feel hopeless

 No.310644

>>310239
>i still cant ride a bicycle
yo same *fistbump*
>dad wants to teach 8 year old me how to ride a bike with no training wheels because lol fuck logic
>does the run while holding the back of the seat thing
>I start getting the hang of going straight but live on a narrow street and have to turn back around
>think i have to lean and put my foot down like motocross
>completely eat shit
>dad can i get training wheels?
>lolno
>after several days of this, i completely throw a tantrum, dad gives up

>>310236
holy shit I went through this too
>parents buy me a car in senior year of highschool (99 elantra in 2009 lol)
>hey dad can we go out driving? no
I shit you not this car sat for two years in the driveway untouched like a total cocktease, I could have had my license in high school and had social opportunities but fuck me yet again

 No.310646

>>310644
Why didn’t you make a driving license? Don’t need parents for that. Should be glad they bought you a car, you fucked it up.

 No.310649

Take your entire body and soul to try to even become below average when you're born a defect.

 No.310657

>>310578
Only faggots wear black gloves for cooking. Just wash your hands!


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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.310643

>>310618
that sound like shit, working retail sucked. Worked at wallyworld for 12 years; was cashier, carts if they needed it, customer service desk returning shoplifted items and money order crap, then electronics/photo lab to basically running the entire back of the store when covid hit. That's when I finally said fuck it and quit. Now I've been working in a call center for 5 years doing inbound/outbound calls for idiots who buy equipment and are too fucking stupid to use it properly and then get pissy at me for calling them. Doing tech support for boomers over the phone is the biggest pain in the ass. Coworkers barely last 6 months and the ones that have stuck around are the most fake-ass snakes. Office politics and gossip is a whole new battleground.

 No.310645

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I got a free week and I'm not enjoying it in the slightest. I just feel overwhelming emptiness. I tried to play some games, read some book but then, what? I somewhat feel nostalgic and pity myself about my small habits: those book reviews, those effort posts, those pretentious anime analysis that I wrote in the loneliness of my room and that will dissapear into nothingness…
Yet I know that next monday I will dread waking up early again.
Life is a cosmic joke

 No.310647

>>310643
>17 years of walmart and call-center work experience.
you must be crazy. those are two jobs i absolutely could not tolerate doing and for multiple years each. longest ive been at any job is 2 years and im 35. Im close to starting my 3rd year at this job

 No.310648

>>310645
is picrel pesoa? I read the book of disquiet and it was an incredibly comfy kind of depression. he has another book too that i want to read

 No.310656

do you have a dead end job or a good job?


 No.310113[Reply]

Just got fired from my dead end job and i noticed i have nothing going for my life. No real skills or anything that could make me enough money to go retire early to some third world shithole and live the pseudo neet life. Would military service be a good idea? i have no delusions about striking gold or doing some call of duty shenanigans. it's a recognizeable organization and people often hire vets just cause theyre vets from my experience
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 No.310627

>>310113
I got kicked out of basic training for being too weak. I remember crying when the drill sgts yelled at me for something. I had fucked up, and i knew that not only did they talk about me, but the other trainees talked about me as well. I couldn't make eye contact either, my social skills where awful. I remember when my incredibly short short career came to an end, it felt like a gut punch.I came home and i fell into a deep depression which i still feel.

 No.310630

may I suggest Airborne Psychological operations?

 No.310635

I tried signing up on 3 occasions to fix myself but got pulled back. If I were more determinated when I was 14 I think I wouldn't even know about this place.

 No.310654

When I was younger I thought about joining the army or some military stuff as a way to save myself from ending up living like a neet and gaining skills but the time went by and I never did that. Now I don't know what to do with my life, I have some ideas about what to do tough but idk.

If you can join, do it. You don't seems to have anything to lose anyway.

 No.310655

>>310113
Try being a trucker instead. It's like the military of jobs, they'll take you immediately and without much effort. you're their slave for a few years but you'll get a CDL to use anywhere and get paid probably way more than the deadend job you had. And you get to see the country, and maybe fuck some lot lizards. I'm considering it myself. Retail is severely cutting hours as they move to automation. Now even retail isn't a safe fallback. Actually, in the beginning I joined retail so I could drive for them after a year, but now I've gotten BS speeding tickets so I probably can't anymore.

>>310314
to be a security guard, do you have to have muscle? I'm fit, i work out, but no real muscle. I probably don't eat enough/right, sleep well enough, or its just genetics


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 No.307023[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

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>>296511
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 No.310569

I'm just going to decapitate myself on train tracks there's a rail line not so far from my house I haven't been outside in months and finding the energy to do it is hard but I'll wall there tomorrow and see if it's possible.

What about slitting your wrist? I like the idea of my mother finding me so maybe she can have some closure I'll just bleed in the bathtub

 No.310575

i hate myself and wish to die. i have no courage though so i'm too scared to end it all. survival instinct etc

 No.310614

>>310575
The survival instinct is by far the biggest hurdle to committing suicide.

I've seen a video of someone just straight up slicing their throat and dying shortly after, and I could never do that. I'd probably cut it abit but then desperately cover it to prevent myself from bleeding out. It's why I legitimately think it's retarded to say that people who commit suicide are cowards. There's nothing cowardly about killing yourself, you're literally doing something that goes against your own instincts, it's honestly an almost divine act of defiance.

I think people who have never had suicidal tendencies just don't understand. People like us are in a tug of war, constantly wishing to die, but never having the full guts to go through with it.

 No.310632

>>310614
Oh wow, you're right. I never thought about that. Yeah, now thinking about that, it does take a fair amount of courage to commit to the suicide. I guess it is a matter of perspective. People try to bend it to fit their narrative or outlook, like "he killed himself, so he is a coward", etc.

 No.310639

>>307310
I agree. I'm terrified of that idea, too. And it's been one of the reasons, why I did not do it so far.


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 No.310116[Reply]

Why there no reason to exist but if you point to it and ask society(any people) why you shouldn't kill yourself, they just ignore you, make fun of you, and exclude you from society ?
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 No.310272

They want to prey on you instead of trying to be good. Money rules the world they take and break. Pussies are everywhere, every thing they do try is so they can have sex and smoke PCP with succubi for the big score of booty and loot. Everyone is sex obsessed, period. succubus crazy and real drug addled and a lobe altering bum obsessed faggot. Mag is needed recently here. The sagging tits on leppard are imposed even. Trying to work on me in my sleep is now nightly and their genius is using their peen so "rightly". Teens need to focus on gaming and schoolwork IMO.

 No.310287

>>310235
Just keep working and do not ask dumb questions, like everyone does.

 No.310342

>>310116
>Why there no reason to study STEM but if you point to it and ask society(any people) why you shouldn't study STEM, they just ignore you, make fun of you, and exclude you from society ?

There are topics to discuss with privately run LLMs and not humans.

 No.310360

Because they are the ones deserving pain.

 No.310638

the old Yahwe is gonna throw into the hellfire, if you do it
fuck this guy


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 No.307723[Reply]

Very late 20s. Never been on a date, never been approached. Never had any friends, only acquaintances. Not even meme internet "friends". I always thought these things would naturally come to me at a later age, but they never did. With each passing year it gets worse. There is something profoundly wrong with me, it's like the part of my brain that's responsible for human contact was amputated at birth
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 No.310468

>>307723
I just got my powers a few months ago. I've never had any friends of any kind, although I can't say I ever had any expectation that the friends were going to magically appear later.
I've been withdrawn as long as I can remember. In first grade I used to sit on the steps by myself at recess and daydream instead of playing with the other kids.
Never had a job either. I spent the years since high school alternating between NEETing and very slowly completing university classes.

I don't think anyone is born this way though, except maybe true autistics. I think withdrawal is almost always a failure of the adults in the early stages of life. Every little kid I've ever seen is naturally very outgoing and has almost no inhibition. Shyness and timidity are major red flags something has gone wrong.
If a parent or teacher or older guardian figure catches it quickly (and isn't the active source of the problem, which many parents are) you can pick the kid back up and push them back out into the world, but if you ignore it for any length of time it snowballs. They get too far behind their peers and too entrenched in bad emotional reflexes, and at that point they're permanently defective humans.

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>>307723
>There is something profoundly wrong with me, it's like the part of my brain that's responsible for human contact was amputated at birth
I know about the feeling
I dont want to put stupid ideas in my mind or your mind but i slowly started to believe that i have AvPD or some social or anxiety problem and i need help.
When i was more young i never had age related experiences so i like a out of place for a lot of people.

 No.310508

>>310497
It's very likely that we have some mental health issue, anon.
Today, I was thinking that maybe I feel under too much pressure and I just freeze. And this is why I feel like:
>it's like the part of my brain that's responsible for human contact was amputated at birth

 No.310514

I did get meme intent friend at later after but… This was when I was nearly 40 and they still weren't really consistent friends who I was very good with or seemed to prioritize me.

I also technically went on one date but that was when I was 30 and it was kind of a fluke and it ended very badly…

 No.310634

I realized all my "friends" were using me as an excentric conspiracytard too late in life.


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 No.306437[Reply]

Does anyone else voluntarily exile themselves from society?

I'm tired of socializing, drama, human interests, social demands, social everything.

I wish I was a machine instead of a talking ape. I actually hate being an animal.
I don't even hate people, I just don't want to be in any contact with them. I even hate my own body for forcing me to eat and wash in order to not completely dysfunction.
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 No.310594

>>306437
i work an overnight security job and i have no problem interacting with my coworkers, but some of them think that being polite and considerate means that its ok to have a 20-30 minute conversation with me.

Its socially unacceptable to just tell people "look i really don't want to interact with anyone" so i have to periodically endure this torture. I get NOTHING out of interacting with other men irl. Its just a nuisance and nothing else

 No.310595

>>307190
i keep a beard and plan to let my hear grow out down to my chest if i can manage. its starting to touch my shoulders.

grooming is crab behavior

 No.310601

>>306437
I did this and don't recommend as it's really easy to get yourself in horrible situations when alone, especially with family. If you are going to cut off ties it's better to murder your own family than have any connection to "exceptions".

 No.310604

>>310601
>If you are going to cut off ties it's better to murder your own family
Retard

 No.310633

>>310601
Behold — the edgelord.


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 No.303825[Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.
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 No.310605

>>310600
They care because it reflects poorly on them which can be traumatic to their self-image. Murders are often wrong place, wrong time like a car accident caused by a drunk driver.

 No.310611

I don't know. I don't care enough about other people around me to know

 No.310625

My little cousin would maybe be a bit sad. Parents would pretend to be sad about it then stop caring after a bit. Outside of that, no one would care.

 No.310629

>>303825
only my aunt and my dad. after they pass away, all bets are off

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>>305962
>my life was like a game of running away from gross people
I relate to this very much. My parents allowed one of my older brothers to sexually and physically abuse me every day throughout my childhood. The best feeling ever was cutting them off. Even though I’m homeless, atleast I have a job, and I never have to talk to them ever again. I feel better, and being homeless isn’t even 10% as bad as people say, but I’m still sodapressed.


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 No.309393[Reply]

Is anyone else here being cyber-bullied? I have been cyberbullied by a colleague in my hobby for over 10 years; he has used his superior reputation to waylay, insult me and make me feel insignificant. It doesn't matter how many laps I would run around him, he only becomes more entrenched in his own sense of superiority. It used to be I just didn't have the catalog of works to "prove myself" to him. Now he is just being incalcitrant, dismissing that I have such works even now. The worst part is that my "envy" has moved from wanting a catalog like his, to having now, in my own estimation, attained that catalog to envying his pride and arrogance and self-assuredness. This is terrible to envy these things as a supposed Christian. And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone. But I will say, I could be a lot more happy if he completely lost his access to the internet.
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>>310494
I have selective mutism so im like airlines fuel to assholes jerks that like to talk to much or have no problem to make suffering me bacause i fight little to them. In general i talk normal to normies and in hobby talks but when there're these attention whores its like they build a hierarchy to bully people thanks to their power, wealth, charisma, image or wathever
>Also
I never told anyone about this thing about selective mutism (just one nun and she was the most gentle and kind person i met in my life but she was more a nun than a succubi)
but i know these assholes know it by nature and they love ans enjoy torture me.
>And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone.
I a stupid agnostic but i read a lot of religions and philosophies of life and every year i turn more slowly into a Buddhist Daoist with some christian like mindset and ideas.
And yes this year i got that idea of "what if this asshole achieve the worst possible suffering experience in life and keeps living with this suffering for his entire damn existence without death peace" and yes, this is a contradiction of my ideas and ideals, these are like alien ideas to me.
You know, doing these practices of metta or love-kindness actually hurt me a lot knowning that i feel like this in response to suffering that these assholes cause me. Its like i slowly turn from a Jedi to a Sith.
The best to do is learn to ignore them and if they are too much annoying take it to the legal.

 No.310502

>>310494
it's ok, there's so many half breeds around that nobody is gonna be able to tell you apart

 No.310513

>>309393
Yes, I don't know who it is as I see it everywhere I go, multiple people, will probably do a Rodger if I don't find it

 No.310517

>>309393
He sounds like a typical narcissist, OP. Cut contact with him and find another social circle. You don't have to put up with this.

 No.310622

Every time I establish myself in some group i get bullied, their 6th sense is remarkable I must say. I resort to just being alone, or fully embracing being the biggest troll I can possibly be, which often leads to bans and currently 2 police visits to my house!!


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