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 No.302164[Reply]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.306155

I like drinking but only when I know I'm not going to interact with other people. Sober me knows to be quiet and not say stupid shit I'll regret later. Drunk me does not. Sure feels good though.

 No.307069

I drink more or less everyday. Red wine, cant stop. I tell myself this was last one, even in the morning. Then later in the evening I am out buying more. Drinking right now

 No.307070

>>307069
More to it, I always wondered why people just dont stop. But now I am there myself. You really need to be there I guess. For example I look at gambling addicts and I dont understand it, but they probably look at me and dont understand it.

 No.307102

Got sober for 4 months now. On NYE had a bottle of sake, the next day near 1/2 a bottle of whiskey, the next I drank all night - wine, beer, whiskey. Horrible withdrawal the next 4 days. Bought some strong zyns to keep me sedated. In my psychosis I realized all this shit is never enough for me. Trashed all of them. 15 years wasted.

 No.307133

Dopa mucuna supplements helped me tremendously to quit alcohol.

I was drinking because of dopamine-seeking and dopa mucuna gives me that dopamine boost and I was able to quit drinking.

I started using a SAD lamp + dopa mucuna and the lift in dopamine made me not feel craving for alcohol.


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 No.306157[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
ice cold edition
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 No.307127

>>307123
here take a head pat! i've been at vague whineposting for years myself.

 No.307128

>>307123
I am mentally disabled. I have IQ below 50-60 because I'm overdeveloped in spatial intelligence, but piss poor at everything else. Even though nothing is visibly wrong with my appearence, I have near perfect symmetry that makes me look like an uncanny valley analog horror monster. I can't look at my reflection without making my skin crawl and many people have called me a freak.

You know, truthfully, I don't want to do anything. I feel this perfect void of nothingness in my chest that feels calm, but heavy to endure. It makes the present moment so unbearable, so difficult to stay awake under this pressure. No, it's not depression, because I know how depression feels like. It's this intense, suffocating sense of serenity. Everything feels perfect, everything feels good, and all thats left is your desire to do something that's met with an overwhelming wall of pressure. My frustrations occur when I try to distract myself, whether with food or something else, because enduring this sensation is so difficult.

 No.307130

>>307128
>I have near perfect symmetry that makes me look like an uncanny valley analog horror monster
When i was a child i would dream of a body like this, not in asthetic but in fiction. A body where symmetry is so fine tuned, every muscle fibre and even every vein and artery for most part are nearly symmetrical. I actually envy this a little bit. If you have such a high spatial awareness, i am a little curious on why won't you take a hobby like break dance or something like combat sports, you might have gift even you never knew.

 No.307131

>>307130
near perfect symmetry looks good theoretically or in fiction, but in real life, its extremely creepy. I actually want to play soccer but I feel so awkward being around normies. So I'll just run at 3am.

 No.307132

>>307109
> i am mortally afraid of making a phone call
I've had similar problems. Living alone while neeting for some time didn't help. Looks like it's only the rope for me.


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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.307121

Stop derailing the thread. Further thread derailment will result in a ban.

 No.307122

my sn was confiscated

 No.307124

>>307030
Isn't existence itself reason enough to push you off the edge? Merely walking outside and taking in the vulgarity and decadence that engulfs everything is a strong enough reminder that I am not suited for this world… and maybe that's alright. It's part of nature I suppose (natural selection?) I just can't even begin to imagine myself enacting the role of a functioning adult, with an office job and a social circle etc. I don't require any further reason for a premature death.

 No.307125

>>307124
actually, sadly no. when i'm in my room and i'm not thinking about the painful parts of reality, and i'm distracted or engaged with a good thread, anime, game, video etc. i still want to live. i'm curious about what will happen in the future and there are still things that i enjoy.

when i want to get into that complete suicidal state, i have to actively seek it out. sometimes i go to r/foreveralone and just reading the titles of the threads gives me that pit in my stomach. other times i see 3dpd porn and it makes me feel disgusted with my body and my lack of normalcy. sometimes i re-read theodore millon's psychological description of the avoidant personality disorder and it makes that pit in my stomach hurt a lot. then i can always remember any memory of social interaction in my life and it immediately makes me want to rope.

maybe if i can stack enough of these together, i can make it pass the threshold. the problem with life is that it's still possible to become comfortable or harbor delusion hope in the future.

 No.307129

>>307124
>Merely walking outside and taking in the vulgarity and decadence that engulfs everything is a strong enough
To a certain degree i agree, but the core must be seperated from the additional layer here. The world is not the problem by your own framework. Existence is the base state, the decay of it is something additional, not the core nature. Still, the amount of effort it will take to fix all that is not worth it and I have given up. I wish to enjoy my life with little few things I can get here tand there, and small joy of life.


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.306516

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when you have to hear that coworker who bitches about never having money babble on about the vacation they took

 No.306528

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Dishwasher faggot from a few threads back here if anyone remembers me.

I got a job at a sheet metal-powder coating business, so far it's alright but I'm still so disgusted at working full time; it's suicidal inducing to just spend 40 hours a week staring at the decaying walls under the flouresent lights.


The pay's good, and the co-workers are older (youngest is 30) white guys; I just can't help but feel like I'm wasting my life and I have nothing to live for, like being in a waiting room for years or something.


Just a slow grinding decline into madness and bitterness.

Pic rel is a pic I took at work.

 No.306538

>>305095
the music they play alone…

 No.306932

my life exclusively consists of doing some odd jobs then poorneeting for as long as i can. this is pretty soulless to be honest

 No.307126

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>$4,000 tax return for staying within the lowest earner threshold
It really is that easy


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 No.306545[Reply]

I am not even that horny, a lot of the days I force my self to do it while not even being in the mood for it, it's just the most effective way for me to cope, masturbation is free, gives you instant pleasure and can burn for you many hours at the time, there are times when i find my self touching myself just so I can use it as a way to distract my self for my anxieties and negative thought loops, as soon as i start touching myself all my anxiety and negative emotions start to dissolve as much as i hate and it hate how much i overdo it, i can't deny it makes getting through my days easier when i can just touch my self for many hours instead of just sitting there being miserable feeling hollow bored to tears and empty or anxious and overthinking at worse, my point here is that I believe the addiction for me is a mere sympotom, something I use to escape my negative feelings and the emptiness of my daily life, thanks for reading my blogpost
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 No.306880

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Porn is terrible but without it I have no idea how to cope with the stress in my life, it's so pathetic when porn is your only cope and escapism.

 No.306885

>>306545
i have been banned!

 No.307001

>>306545
It's a fucking addiction and I hate it. It destroyed everything in my life and takes me many hours of my days only to after masturbated 3 times one after other, I feel destroyed and without energy. Many times I wish to suicide myself in that state after masturbate for the low level of energy that I had. Wish the best of luck to everyone trying to left this evilness.

 No.307002

>>307001
Just stop fapping.

 No.307090

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I used to be a pretty hardcore junkie, now cigarettes and fapping are my only vices
truth be told, i was mostly jerking off on stimulants, apart from getting high on weed
Stopped because it was destroying my body fast
Cant beat the libido, gotta live with it
>>306880
its hard, but its always something
for me its anime and vidya again now
some people are just easy to get addicted
>>306548
if i can offer you some kind of relief, I was fapping sometimes for days at a time on drugs till my member was red and hurt and i did that often
Everything still works
If you are just jerking off, I think it is highly unlikely you are doing any permanent harm
likely the fear of consequences is damaging you more then the actual fapping
good look anon, im sure youll be able to moderate yourself


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 No.306437[Reply]

Does anyone else voluntarily exile themselves from society?

I'm tired of socializing, drama, human interests, social demands, social everything.

I wish I was a machine instead of a talking ape. I actually hate being an animal.
I don't even hate people, I just don't want to be in any contact with them. I even hate my own body for forcing me to eat and wash in order to not completely dysfunction.
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 No.306747

>>306437
I want but my environment doesn't let me do it. I mean, I have to get known by people to gave me job on my uni so… Until I get a job, I have to tolerate the gossip and the human idiocy for a good time.

 No.306874

yeah is way better not to be part of society, if you got a real good look at what people are like, you'd want to be as far away from them and their system of violence and slavery as possible.

in order to enjoy this society you have to be a cuck and that is what the education system is for. making you a cuck. untrain your sense of selfpreservation, untrain your selfrespect, untrain your opposition to injustice. for billionaires to get richer, you need get get poorer, sicker and sadder.

the one thing you can do is refuse to let go of cause-and-effect.

 No.306875

>>306437
Just threw away all the stuff I bought off a shelf and filled a couple contractor bags with it. Long story short is I was raised by a narcissist and an alcoholic all my life and am not fit for whatever the act of interacting with other humans is these days so its time to pack a bag and head for the mountains.

I hate that I have so much hate and distrust for other humans but most of my interactions with them show me most of them are greedy self centered mattress climbers that have dog brain.

I think about how much happiness I'd gain if I was completely alone in this world so I wouldn't have to mask around npcs just to feel normal. I feel happy in the woods because every animal out there is honest in every action they make.

Humans do the complete opposite and its the reason Im not saying a word to anyone. I've almost got everything cleaned up and by the time they start asking about me (if they even do ask about me) ill be in the next state minding my own business.

 No.307074

Began doing this at the beginning of 2026.

It is strangely calming and beautiful.

 No.307089

>>306875
>I think about how much happiness I'd gain if I was completely alone in this world so I wouldn't have to mask around npcs just to feel normal. I feel happy in the woods because every animal out there is honest in every action they make.
In my perfect world I'd be the only person on Earth. Then I could be truly free. Christopher Thomas Knight escaped innawoods for 27 years. Wish I had the courage to do that.


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 No.307038[Reply]

Other people make my life unhappy and miserable
I just wanna be left alone
What is worse then having to fight with other people toget what you want every step of the way
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 No.307079

>>307051
Sounds more like a nigger said this

 No.307080

>>307068
ok so?
what can be taken away from that quote?
it's like saying
"a car without fuel is useless"
well yeah duh
so?

 No.307081

>>307080
That's a really stupid interpretation of the statement. There's no need to deduce something so clear to similes involving material utlilty.
>A man who has the knowledge but lacks the power clearly to express it is no better off than if he never had any ideas at all.
Means that doing things ends up getting those things done, while just thinking about doing those things doesn't. There's no reason to revere those who simply think. Such reverence is especially unnecessary in the context of reflection, i.e don't get an ego boner because you know how to solve a problem but are too lazy to actually fix that issue. Your contribution to resolving the issue as someone who knows but does not do is worth the same as that from someone who doesn't know and doesn't do, because they both bring about the same results. tl;dr Do it, faggot.

I can't figure out the quote's relevance to this thread, but on the whole it applies to /dep/ well
>I want to die soo sooo bad and I've learned 500 ways to kill myself from suicide handbooks but I absolutely can not and will not kill myself because uuh willpower or predetermism or my mom will turn me in to a vegetable or something. You must pity me and revere me as though I am someone who actually did take his life though because me and him are like totally the same, in fact I am suffering more than they guy who actually did die.

 No.307084

>>307038
What is worse?
People acting like they know everything about you from taking just one look at you, or from reading just one of your posts. If you take their misguided advice, you will not only fight with other people on your way, but you will be going the wrong way entirely.

 No.307086

>>307044
Extreme laziness, gooning, idling in the comfort zone for too long.


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 No.306888[Reply]

Hey mages, wizards, posting this here so some may see it instead of just throwing it in a doc somewhere.

I love life. For a period of about two to three years I was empty and melancholic with constant suicidal thoughts. But now I can't hate the world, the struggle of life moves my soul; the clouds, the sea, the stars, flowers, the wind, it all is so amazing to witness. Most of all I love people, for what they can be, seeing the rare phenomenon of a genuine person, be it in person, through their words, or through something they made, tugs at me like nothing else. And it's not like my life has materially gotten much better, I got out of my nagging bitch aunts house but otherwise not much has changed.
But this transformation has only made everything hurt more, going out amongst the normgroids deeply upsets me because they squander themselves for nothing. But even then I cant bring myself to hate how much it hurts.
If you're reading this mage it'd mean a lot to see you chase your dreams, I don't believe in that crap about humans only being able to care about a certain number of people.
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 No.307053

>>306892
The problem with the blackpill that no one talks about it is that it is constant, let me explain, you're not being blackpilled ones like once you have looked at the date, researches, studies, etc. which are absolutely true. You don't need to look at them again and again, it's like having a disease and constantly reminding yourself that you have a disease, that's just no way to live to be honest, and you dive deeper and deeper in it to find a solution to your problems, but there isn't one.

Most importantly there are, now this will sound like typical "positivity" BS to people but hey you've gotta be kind to yourself and love yourself, in times where you only have yourself, don't be at war with you. And realise that certain things were out of your hands and they'll likely be forever.

 No.307054

>>307053
>once you have looked at the date, researches, studies, etc.
>WHICH ARE ABSOLUTELY TRUE
Lol piss off crab.

 No.307058

>>307057
>you can't disprove the studies about female s*xual behavior.
I don't need to. I've never read any studies relating to female sexual behavior because as a voluntary celibate man, I have no reason to care. Well actually, "not caring" isn't entirely true. Whatever the studies say, the results evidently keep weak-willed and immature men in a perpetual state of self-loathing and whining. I find that incredibly funny, so in a sense I do care. I'm drawn to this website primarily because crying about female sexual behavior is banned. Are you crying? Or are you laughing? Cheer up.

 No.307060

>>306888
>Most of all I love people,
liking individuals is okay but liking people? are you out of your mind? please go back to facebook or whatever.

 No.307085

>>306907
>It's all about perspective. OP has the right perspective. Your perception is wrong, weak, and gay. From the looks of it so far, those who share your perspective are miserable and crabby. When those who enjoy life manage to change the perspective of someone who doesn't, happiness increases. When those who loath existense as some terrible struggle convince someone that their perspective is correct, happiness decreases. So stop trying to perpetute your joke ideology that life is bad lest you be labelled as someone who wants guys here to be as sad and whiny as you.
It's not about perspective at all. Suffering is bad no matter which way you look at it. Are you saying we should put on a smile and cheer up when faced with suffering? Now THAT is wrong, fake, and gay. It's weak too, in a feminine way. "Looking on the bright side" is what succubi do because they can't handle the terrible truth. Pretending I'm happy when my life is objectively shit would literally be a delusion. Do you advocate for being delusional?

And how does one even cheer up?
Seriously, how?
By forcing a smile on my face?
By looking away from the things that trouble me?
The cause of my unhappiness won't go away if I pretend it's not there.
Is there a way to be happier without conducting some kind of psyop on yourself?


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 No.306970[Reply]

I've seen this discussed in many threads so I made a thread for it. Many wizzies had had their life destroyed by psychiatric medication be it SSRI's, antipsychotics, benzodiazepines or others. A psych ward stay tends to leave you worse off. Some people get abused in psychiatric institutions. Mentioning you are sad and thinking about suicide to a doctor or nurse can get you forcefully restrained and tranquilised.
I'm suicidal but I avoid any medical help precisely for this reason.
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 No.307005

>>306992
how disgusting

 No.307009

>>306970
I dont fucking care. I go to the psychiatry to give me pills and stop this shit thougths and impulsive behavior. I dont care about i will became a lobotomized I only want live in peace and alone.

 No.307012

>>307009
>I dont care about i will became a lobotomized
Looks like you are lobotomised already.

 No.307018

>>307012
that makes you brothers doesn't it?

 No.307076

>>307018
I'm schizophrenic not lobotomised


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 No.303825[Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.
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 No.305962

>>305829
my parents idea of "parenting" was to constantly inflict these petty torments. I was just thinking the last day how unthinkable it is for me to want to hug my mom. I've long cut off all contact. my life was like a game of running away from gross people

 No.306383

Yes. If I were convinced otherwise I doubt I'd stick around very long. I wouldn't do that to my family though. Or my cat.

 No.306564

Anyone have the opposite, where large portions of their family hate them so much that they'd be actually sniggering and happy at the funeral?

 No.306734

>>303825
My grandma would care. My mom would be mad because having a son kill himself makes her look bad.

 No.307075

>>306564
What did you do bro


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