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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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 No.303564

I don't take individual supplements, just A-Z vitamin depot, plus extra D3, because I had a blood test with insufficiency. The insufficiency is gone but idk what changed tbh. I'm taking it for 3 months now…

Lately I tried a depot that has all amino acids (the stuff that neurotransmitters are made of) for 6 days now and it does something.
I feel a bit more present but reality really IS depressing…

All in all, doesn't do much but maybe for you it will? Chance is high you eat trash and lack nutrients.

If you care, skip the individual snake oil pills and grab the cheap depot ones that have all vitamins and amino acids under the sun…

 No.303565

>>303564
But I vape like a chimney and hate myself for that and also fap a ton.

30+ depression hits different, its like an anhedonia blur forever

 No.303574

>>303565
hmmmmm… I vape too.

>>303564
Good ideas, thanks. I am sure my body lacks proper nutrition, and I do need to take a pill of 5HTP aminoacid now.


In fact, I kind of feel better when I take "neuro"-oriented vitamin pills. Thanks for the reminder…

 No.303577

>>303565
>I vape like a chimney
Chimneys output smoke, not glycerine vapour. If anything you vape like the fog machine at a childrens' Halloween party.
>30+ depression hits different, its like an anhedonia blur forever
It likely has less to do with your age and more to do with the fact that you're purposely preventing the oxygen receptors in your lungs from functioning.

 No.303578

>>303577
Yes, I really need to kick that addiction. Whenever I do that, I spiral deeply into ending it all and have unstable mood :/



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 No.299778[Reply]

Is it even possible to break this cycle?

>me 10 years ago

>I'm so behind everyone I'm such a loser
>it will take years for me to see any progress
>I will be old by the time my efforts may pay off
>depressed end up doing nothing

>me 5 years ago

>fuck I'm 30 soon and haven't achieved anything this is so embarassing
>start drinking to cope

>me now

>god I was such an idiot back then why didn't I start doing something years ago I was still young
>now I am pushing 40 and it's over for real
>bedrotting every day 0 motivation to do anything cant even distract myself with anything anymore
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 No.302538

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>>302524
Listen, it's awesome that you got out of that situation and are now living a life that you find worth living. Good for you, seriously. The reason people like Goggins grind my gears so much is that, as you've said yourself, most of us don't lead such bad lives to begin with. But all those gurus online will tell you to get on your grind and hustle and never stop and what not and for what? I have food and shelter and a job that I can tolerate for now, I am healthy and even have a couple of friends I can play video games with. The only things I am 'lacking' are superfluous things like social status or material riches, which are things you get through your circumstance for the most part.
I don't care about being exceptional, I just want to be comfortable and enjoy this ride as much as I can within my means while I still can, before life finds a way to fuck me up again. It's kind of like the Western vs Eastern mindset, the Western one being about pursuit and struggle and the Eastern more coming to acceptance of what is and contentment from within.

 No.302539

>>302538
Wish I could phrase things in such a concise manner.
Well said.

 No.302556

>>302538
thanx

>>302539
this

second this opinion on >>302538

 No.303575

>>299779
>>299782
sheeeeeeeeeet

 No.303576

>>299779
Been there


however, my "anything" was too chatotic, be wary.


for instance, I haven't learnef a single habit voluntarily.


Also, some books say many people have an anti-"habit" of thinking low-probability harsh negative things.



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 No.303254[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.
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 No.303566

>>303412
plot twist: you'll get to woo a Flemish succubus instead

Flandre.jpg

 No.303567

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>>303566
Never gonna happen. An adult man who hasn't even held hands with a succubus before is not going to be appealing to a uni student who can get anyone. Besides I have zero feelings for her. I tried imagining a romantic scenario between us and it makes me want to kill myself.
Good news is the manager hasn't brought this fucking insane plan up yet since last week so I think I'm in the clear.

 No.303569

>>303567
>not going to be appealing to a uni student who can get anyone. Besides I have zero feelings for her. I tried imagining a romantic scenario between us and it makes me want to kill myself


alternative move - you bait her into providing an intership for you xddddddd

 No.303570

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>>303569
I do not know what you mean by that

 No.303572

>>303570
edit


alternative move you can try and pull out - lure that Belgese gal into taking you "to see Belgium" … out of pity? Lol.


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 No.303135[Reply]

The past really wasn't that bad for the people that survived.

Looking into it, famines basically just killed off people under 4, the elderly, and people aged 20-40 almost universally survived. Like even the potato famine has only 2% of the 20-40 year old cohort die, 1/50 is pretty good survival odds for your core productive and breeding population. That's like 1 person out of two classrooms, and it probably hit the really poor and lower classes. It looks bad with 18% of the population dying on paper, but considering people over 50 don't have kids and kids under 4-10 can be replaced instantly with a post war baby boom, it's demographically not that impactful. It's why Ethiopia's population doubled so rapidly after their famine, and India bounced back from the Bengal famine like it was nothing.

In World war 1, 16% of the French male population aged 18-45 died, making it significantly more demographically impactful than the Irish potato famine, because they were at the age where they were supposed to be having families and providing.

Famines weren't even people really starving to death that often. They mostly got killed off by an infection due to having a weakened immune system, or ate some risky food and got a disease that way. Famines seemed to displace people who then go into crowded cities, drink shitty water, and then get an infection. Famines seemed to hit once every 15 years or so, so typically you'd experience two really shit years in your adult life and then finally get dealt to in the third one as an old person. It more fucked up your family planning than anything else.

It seemed to have an economically positive effect for the actually healthy and productive part of the population in that it cleared away dependents. Immediately after the famine there'd be more available land per person and the available resources for a baby boom.
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 No.303154

>>303137
lol the news has been talking japan's low birth rate for decades. This is nothing new.

 No.303155

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if your thesis is that population decline is a bigger problem now than it was in history, just look at this chart. if the world lost 60% of the population it would just set us back to 1960.

 No.303158

>>303152
Yeah, I've meant something more like genetic modification to stop or massively slow down aging. Replacement organs for every old person would be another straw on the camel's back, since their aged brains keep them out of the workforce. I'm not keeping up with the life extension stuff, but I think youthful blood, which could be cultured has a rejuvenating effect.

The blasé mages ITT have nothing to say about the dependency ratio issue.

 No.303160

>>303150
>>303151
>Presumably the current human stock will be replaced by ultrareligious high fertility people

>or life extension gets figured out, thus solving the issue


>3rd option. AI taking over.


Option 3 1/2 - all at once.

 No.303568

>>303155
>>303155
>4 million


to low

too small

х DOUBT



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 No.302510[Reply]

I fucking loathe being autistic, I fucking hate how I can have articulate thoughts in my head yet can only muster and spew out the same few fucking phrases irl because I’m caught off guard and don’t know what to say

I hate how pathetic I am, I’m so fucking clumsy, my hand coordination is awful. Im always dropping shit which only makes me look like more of a retard

Most of all I hate the way other people look at me, there two “looks” I get from people. The first is the pitiful one. They see how pathetic I am, how socially inept, awkward and harmless I am and take pity on me like they would with a dementia patient. The other “look” is the hateful/judgmental one. They assume due to my awkwardness, my uncanny demeanour, ugly face and lack of height that I’m some kind of freak/someone to be suspicious of. They look at me like I’m some kind of sex pest/serial killer when all I’m doing is just existing

I put in the effort, I workout every day, I eat well, I keep good hygiene, I try, lord knows I fucking try, but I have to ask what’s the point? It won’t change anything. I can’t cure this awful plague of the mind I was born with, I’ll never be accepted or even tolerated by normies so why make an effort? Why try in life and work hard when I don’t even get the slightest bit of respect from the people around me? Part of me wants to just stay in my room stuffing my face with junk food and playing vidya all day but if I did that I’d only be more miserable.

Any other wizards have this condition? If so how do you cope with it?
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 No.302513

No matter how much normal things I try to do and as normal I try to be, I'll always hear this phrase: "this guy is weird". I don't even know if I only hear it in my head or if people really say it most of the time. I do be having auditory hallucinations in the past, and it's always this: the weird guy. I can't do nothing against this. Even just refilling car wash water yesterday, I hear it from people coming along. How can I fucking be more normal than when changing fucking car wash water, like what in the hell.

 No.302514

The worst thing about being an autist for me is that no one ever respected me and never will.

 No.302543

>>302510
since im autistic i never get satisfied due to me being empty and numb from all the corruption from people. i just wish i lived in a different reality where i could start over again..

 No.302918

Yea, I became really unfriendly to people and dont bother even looking at people i dont know, especially succubi and succubi. I dont understand anymore how people get so friendly with strangers. succubi never had anything interesting to say, and now that I dont interact with them they say im a weird and awkward person for not wanting to interacting with them. I hate interacting with succubi especialy those in relationships, spewking to them is pure suifuel. I hate strangers.

I wish i lived in a clan so at least the people around me are related to me and can be more accepting of what I can provide knowing my autism except what strangers expect of you which is that you should be a jester, someone who telepathically knows what the other person would be interested in talking about and talk about worthless menial shit like sportsball.

I used to make some friends here and there as a kid and its always such a foreign thing to look back on. How the hell did I do that? People can be such vile creatures

 No.303563

>>302510
I work at a remote location, as in "all alone at a small shop".

I simply don't have to deal with NORMIES who chit-chat in person ahaha



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 No.300364[Reply]

I thought I was a hobby guy who like to spend time on his hobby alone but thats not true, all I care is to talk to people, thats why I come here everyday because I want to talk to someone. I am not an autist asperger with countless of niche hobby and a high IQ, I'm just a low temperture IQ monkey who thought he could fool himself and tricks his brain to think he is a genius but Im not. I wish I was made to do something but Im just a lazy parasyte, it sucks
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 No.302076

>>300637
Wizchan 2025
Damn this site is really getting old. Wizchan 2035 won't even be wizchan anymore.

 No.302077

>feels lonely
>starts thinking that maybe the hikkiNEET life is not for me and I'd be happier if I make friends and seek validation from others
>start imagining myself getting a job
>gets filled with so much primordial dread, feelings of loneliness and any other concerns get vaporized instantly
Sorry. Not normifying today either.

 No.302507

>>300364
try psych2go channel - they have videos on stuff like "touch starvation" and "wounded extrovert".


Because you dwell on introverts' den, but now you realize you was an extrover all along. Plz try.

 No.303550

>>300364
I should ask AI what hobbies are… /dep/-friendly

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 No.303292[Reply]

I've seen studies where they have said that testosterone is at a historical low for many males, testosterone gives you resilience to emotional problems, makes you more competitive, more risk-taking Etc.
I've always been fat and always been highly stressed for most of my life so I'm pretty sure my testosterone has been in the toilet. When I was going through puberty I was extremely fucking horny like any other kid but that didn't really change my behavior or make me better with succubi. I was fucked up back then but I remember my feelings not taking all my attention.

Has anyone gotten testosterone replacement treatments or taken steroids how did it make you feel?
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 No.303338

>>303292
Bring fat is what spirals low T. Having experienced what its like to have high T, You feel like you can do or try anything. You can hack at a problem for hours until your body starts to hurt from hunger. Your focus is very concentrated among other things. That said, high T isnt permanent.

Testosterone has its purpose and is supposed to rise and fall. You literally can't sleep if your T is too high. You have to jerk off or something similarly taxing otherwise you have too much energy. and will toss and turn all night

Fatness is simple. If you stopped eating goyslop and started walking or doing physical tasks for hours like your fucking body was built to do, you wouldnt be this way. That simple.

TLDR Low T makes you a bitch that cant do anything effectively and saps all your energy away. Its no wonder men are largely useless at fighting for themselves in the modern day

 No.303343

>>303292
>is lack of testosterone our main problem?
No. It's severe mental illness.
You're welcome.

 No.303348

>I've seen studies where they have said that testosterone is at a historical low for many males, testosterone gives you resilience to emotional problems, makes you more competitive, more risk-taking Etc.


Well… as a soiboi tired of "soiboi" tier nervousness, I think OP may be right.


>Has anyone gotten testosterone replacement treatments or taken steroids how did it make you feel?


Never did.
Not sure if tested for testosteron levels.
I lent (abstain from animal-based food) for many days a year, nearly half a year… while my peers don't. SAD!

 No.303558

>>303292
Probably not. Very much anecdotal, but my testosterone is around the upper reference limit (due to genetics) and it does not make me any less of a sperg.

 No.303561

>>303338
Me mum saps my emergy anyway, so who cares



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 No.300505[Reply]

have you ever been told you had no personality? I was told that when I was a kid. it hurts. one day, I asked the psychologist I was told that and if it was true, she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said. I believed her but now I'm thinking I don't have a personality and people without personality exist and she was wrong (she maybe just said that to make me happier about myself).
I noticed I was a contrarian and thats my whole personality:being contrarian. but everybody can be contrarian therefore it's not a real personality, and so I have no personality. damn it suck being a NPC (I hate that buzzword).
I'm not telling you how to get a personality because it would be fake and it will show, I don't know maybe I just want to know your reactions over this. maybe you too was told you had no personality and can relate to this post and feel like a NPC too.
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 No.300622

>>300603
you cannot consciously bottle things up. things get bottled up when we run away, escape, and numb our mind.
if we show up to our feelings, sensing them, we are not bottling things up.

action itself is not virtuous.
specific actions can be very useful, and may either be INFORMED by feelings, or done in DIRECT MECHANICAL REACTION to the feelings.

the latter is perpetuates suffering.
the former is done from a place of freedom and spaciousness.

 No.302167

>>300505
you use wizardchat instead of a mainstream succial media.

A piece of personality - check

 No.303557

>>300505
>have you ever been told you had no personality? I was told that when I was a kid. it hurts. one day, I asked the psychologist I was told that and if it was true, she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said


>personality



Not quite but I was told I am a "doosheela" (a type of aspie-like boring person)

further dialogue revealed I am a wizard and my answer was, "this thing goes for thousands of years, big cities' population almost never repopulated itself "naturally" (e.g. almost never reproduced enough to replace the ones who than died) therefore big cities always had this influx of outside people seeking better life in a big city.

 No.303559

>>300505
>>300505
>I was told that when I was a kid.
What if THE P3RSON WHO SAID THAT was the fella who had been doing a little trolling?

 No.303560

>>300612
>The downside is that people will see you as indecisive because they're used to getting quick, machine-gun responses

ah

>Waiting in silence to let you think is something inconceivable to them because they themselves rarely actually think before responding.


ah!

>They rely on the response just appearing in their head, like a reaction triggered by a stimulus. Input - reaction - output. That's why they give you the fluoride stare if you take a moment to think about what they said.


>fluoride


Ah…



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 No.301831[Reply]

Any other wizards here that have trouble with speaking "normally" or pronouncing certain letters? This kind of thing occurs naturally to normalfags and it really is just something that should come inherent to everyone. I've had times when I think I'm talking normally but people tell me to stop yelling, or other times when I think I'm talking in above average volume and people tell me I'm being silent. I also struggle to pronounce the letter "s" properly and sound like a spazz which has made me actively avoid certain words. It's just another one of those things that has made me realize how we and normalfags live in an entirely different state of existence. I remember how Chris Chan used to get bullied for his voice among other things, I'm not sure if it is an autistic trait or a consequence of my reclusive life but it has made my anxiety in public worse, and has also totally ruined my dreams of starting a music project one day
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 No.303188

Yeah I got a bad retard lisp, combined with an aspie monotone. i got problems with the S, and especially sticking the tongue for the th sounds.

I got sent to speech class since 1st grade, one of the few places where i got professional intervention for being fucked up. but years of it didn't make a difference.

later on when i tried to be a class clown lolcow, kids thought that i was faking a cartoonish voice, and some claimed to have heard my "real voice". As long as I'm stuck with a retard lisp might as well let them think its intentional comedy. I try to talk like a dumb guy like Patrick Star of Spongebob.

 No.303189

>>303188
I got constantly mocked for my lisp or speech impediment as a kid, it leveled off by high school and was never mentioned by college.

But its not like the problem was ever fixed. Adult still hear the same retard I was in 1st grade. So they make the same internal judgement on me. Just without the mean honesty of kids.

All the shit that attracted mockery and bullying of kids was never fixed, and while adults don't openly acknowledge it, they judge it internally. sometimes they think its an accent or something.

 No.303194

>>301831
The isolation, stress, and nerves you carry around with you can betray you, OP.

When I was younger a few years ago, I remember I used to have nervous tics that came and went: Once, while waiting for the bus after classes at my college, I stood next to a classmate. I had been a NEET for over a year before getting into uni and my social skills were shit even before that. I had nothing to talk about and used to made inappropriate comments trying to be funny. That time, while trying to talk to him (he started the conversation), I had an involuntary movement in my lower jaw. It started to shake, and I couldn't control it. He asked me what it was, and I obviously said it was nothing, but I knew very well that it was something mental.

 No.303555

>>303188
>I got sent to speech class since 1st grade, one of the few places where i got professional intervention for being fucked up. but years of it didn't make a difference

you probably have a funny jaw hence lispy speech

honestly

try speaking with Russian accent
you'll end up speaking non-lispy random accent

 No.303556

>>303194
also, coffee and other stimulates


got some nerve-tics over shitty idea to buy 10 cans of enery drinks to avoid coffee.

Ticking eyelid took a month to heal up



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 No.302665[Reply]

had a schizophrenic crisis 6 years ago. because of that I lost 6 years of my life and also the second part of my youth. this will never come back and it just ruined my life. there's nothing I can do but be sad about that and cope.
I lost my ability to enjoy things and starting new things. I also lost good years of maybe school or training I could have done and get a job, but now all I can wish now is to have a bad job because it is all what I deserve.
in two years I'll be a wizard and all my dreams have been crushed by the schizophrenic happening.
all these years, wasted and will never comeback. of course some of you may have it worse but to me this happening crushed my soul and made me more depressed than before.
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 No.302688

I'm in an almost similar situation as you are but I am 43 and it's too late for me.

I'm on disability. No friends. Lost contact with relatives except my mother. I've spent all my isolated, browsing the internet.

If you don't do something, there is a good chance you will end up like me. It's not fun being on disability in your 40s. People look down at you and you are unemployable except jobs like stacking grocery store shelves. I have so little social experience, I'd probably end up getting bullied.

Get out while you can.

 No.302693

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>>302687
yes, I'll just say I had health issues if someone asks me why I wasn't working for 6 years straight.
>>302688
I was about to say that I hope it will be good for me but after reading your comment, well, I wish YOU all the hopes of the world to help you instead of me. I feel embarassed of my situation because you might suffer more than I

 No.302701

>>302693
You got it. Officially speaking, I've been in college for around 5 years without graduating and I'm trying to get an apprenticeship now at age 27. I will also just tell them that I had health issues. HR usually isn't allowed to ask any further than that.

 No.303553

>>302701
shit

i had a similar problem with college:

years = spent
diploma = haha not for wizards, for sociophages only (they would coordinate the student-related stuff in one and only CHAT full of various memery and unrelated discussions, VERY DISTRACTING)

 No.303554

>>303553
and the worst thing is, me mum is also a massive SOCIAL person, so every time I was bringing up the fact I hate it, she was like "silly bear, you're making things up" as if i am some half-healted LLM and not an actual living person.



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