/dep/ - Depression

what are you guys eating today for lunch and dinner

>>310546
>>310548
>i'm scared i permanently fuckrd myself.
You certainly have not done this, wiz. Just try to calm down.

>fuck i am a retard
Not even close.

>i did, and was prescribed prednidone and flonase.
This makes sense. He (your doctor) is taking a very typical approach: (1) reduce inflammation (prednisone) and (2) clear out your sinuses (flonase).

But if these things are not working, and you are still in pain, I would suggest again firstly to inform your doctor that your pain has not abated but has only differently worsened and increased. If you have a good doctor (most of us do not however), but if you do — I have no doubt that he will be able to think of a proper solution to your continuing symptoms. Though in the meantime, be knowledgeable that there are other ways of reducing inflammation and causing your sinuses to clear, apart from oral steroids and nasal sprays.

Firstly then regarding the inflammation: I would suggest the complete immediate removal of both dairy and wheat from your daily diet. There are many reports in proper medical literature and on normal blogs of dairy products contributing to ear-related disorders like otitis media. Dairy promotes mucus production, which can only complicate the clogging and pressure someone suffering from an otological problem would be feeling. While wheat by its own right is a nightmare for your pancreas and overall metabolism, converting quickly into glucose, promoting immune imbalance and bacterial growth. Remove both for a week and see if you experience any improvement.

Regarding your sinuses: bring a large pot of water to its boiling point. Turn off the fire. While standing over the pot, wrap a large towel behind your upper back and head, so to form a sort of simulated heat dome. Then place your face close to the water and breathe the steam in deeply, sometimes alternating with inclining your head toward the side having the affected ear. This should be a much more directed (effective) way of clearing your nasal passages than standing inside a hot shower stall.

>it isn't so bad sometimes but other times it feels like burning, right Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

I'm not the wizard you guys have been replying to but I also have a mild case of ETD, I'll try some of these. It is very nice to see kindness and care showing up in such a place.

>>310545
Nothing

>>310550
thank you again for your replies and reassurance wiz, it means a lot. i have read that about dairy/wheat being inflammatory, and i've been reducing the amount i eat and i've been trying to increase my intake of fruit like berries to help with it, hopefully. for now i've completely dropped the medication but i haven't informed the doctor since i can only go to urgent care. i feel like both choices can potentially make things worse and i am stunlocked by it. i guess i don't really know what i'm doing at all, and i don't know how anything in life works and it complicates things a bit, i am entirely dependent on my parents for help with my life as pathetic as that is. i'm pretty scared that i've been doing things entirely wrong and have messed things up, especially by suddenly stopping the medication but i really don't want to deal with any of the potential side effects, and i don't really trust doctors, not to say that i think i know any better.

i will be sure to try that trick you mentioned with the boiling pot of water soon. my tinnitus doesn't seem so bad right now, but that's how i often feel early in the day and it gets to me later. sorry for shitting up this thread with my whinging.

>>310552
i'm curious how long have you been dealing with it, and do you also experience tinnitus?

>>309624
you are spiritually jewish, the kike views the body as a mere vehicle, nothing more

>>310499
you are spiritually nigger, the niggers view other people as a mere thingy to yap at, nothing more

I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I've always hated being so hairy. I remember being a child and looking at the few hairs on my arms with worry, thinking that I would end up as hairy as my father. That's one of the reasons why I've never tried anything with a succubus. I used to hope that one day I would live alone and be able to wax my whole body, but now I know that will never happen.

>>310510

The alternative can be shitty.
Used to get made fun of in locker rooms for barely having body hair. It devolved to homosexual 'normies' manhandling me. It got bad, so bad that one of the bullies told on them because he probably thought I'd show up with a gun. I still look like a middle schooler trying to grow a mustache if don't swipe a razor over my lip once a week, which I do because I'm paranoid of looking like a tranny now that I'm old. The occasional sex-obsessed normie getting their grimy gaze on me is disgusting. I don't brush my front teeth past what's needed, so I can disgust people outside with my plaque-caked teeth if all other measures fail to repulse them to the point I must break out my chimp grin. I stain my clothes and spray them with novelty cologne that smells like blood and iodine to be more revolting. My aversion to showers helps immensely. It works, I see people's interest visibly turn to figuring how fast they can retreat. I get mistaken as a pesky homeless in the rare occasions I have to go someplace other than my usual grocery store near closing or the liquor place in early morning, but every solution has its trade-offs and that is an acceptable one for me. I find more dignity in being visibly undesirable. True twink death can't come soon enough.

>>310496
Absolutely correct. In a very fucked up way, I am glad that I find someone who understands what I am saying. It's the same reason why I don't park my Hyundai Excel near a Camry even. Because you know, you know. I am glad I didn't take the damn lift that day because, if I would have I would have probably started to cry or had a brain stroke.

>>306437
I take satisfaction in not attending the events that everyone expects you to attend. Weddings, work Christmas party, funerals/wakes, any sort of work thing like a cookout (even if it’s during work hours and it’s outside, I just stay at my desk and enjoy the spite), cousin invited me to a wedding and I even RSVP’d and then didn’t go just to maximize my lack of etiquette and attendance. It feels good. I remember I first felt this when my high school had its prom and then graduation. It just felt so good to disrespect these normalcunt milestones by not attending

>>309955
My sister got mad because I didn’t show up for class photos and didn’t submit a yearbook photo so I’m not in the yearbook. Her anger satisfied me a lot

>>306437
Yeah, most of the time I do it feeling that I'm mainly the problem, and things would get better if I take myself out of their equation, depends on context and if they are people I deeply care about
I cut myself off from my immediate family, still talk to grandparents, but ultimately, I would probably cut them off too if I find reason that its the best thing to do between me and them
Cut myself off from practically all of my friends, but thinking back I'm not even sure if they were actually friends, or people who made themselves to believe they were something else
Ironically, I've felt more at peace at my lonesome than I was going on discord everyday to play PUBG

>>309955
highly relatable, it almost convinced me i was made to destroy things of this nature

>>306437
My dream in life is to move out innawoods and live off grid, away from society and live a self sufficient life away from human apes until I perish. It's not possible in a developed nation unfortunately. Normogroids want you to wage slave for pennies on the dollar. It would have been acceptable if it meant having your own place but that's not even a possibility in these times. Living with parents even in my 30s is dreadful with how much noise pollution I have to deal with from my mom.

I wish they prescribed OxyContin for depression

>>304646
It is important to understand that the SSRIs serve the same purpose as a lobotomy. It is just a nicer packaged means of numbing and zombifying people because shoving a sharp object up your nose and stabbing your brain looks mean

>>309959
Jews understand this.

>>309959
>>310174
Yes my head does know this well now!

If you want to get healthy you don't just patch up your symptom, you try and throw some supplements, vitamins or micro-elements at the suspected deficiencies! And quit sugary drinks and coconuts cheap sweets, the palm oil gives you sore skin, sore guns, sore everything.

I personally consume something many Scandinavians do because they're Scandinavians stuck on a fishy peninsula.

>>310339
>And quit sugary drinks and coconuts cheap sweets, the palm oil gives you sore skin, sore guns, sore everything.

Correct 100%.

>I personally consume something many Scandinavians do

Which is what? Fish oil?

>>310374
I don't believe I have. He laments that the doctor refuses to prescribe him pills that she seems to prescribe to everyone else. I'm saying that it is good for her to withhold the lobotomizers, because SSRIs and such are very gay. For her to not give the wizard such destructive pills shows that she must actually care about him to some degree.

>>310376
I'm almost sure he meant that the psychiatrist doesn't prescribe him opioids against the pain despite them prescribing SSRIs and antipsychotics for having a hick up so to speak. The wiz doesn't want SSRIs or antipsychotics but opioids.

>>310381
Yeah I meant exactly this, he prescribes poison to hundrends of patients, I personally have to endure a dystonia from antipsychotic injections, but he criticized my parents for giving me paracetamol for pain lol I'd need morphine.

>>310380
picrel's oxytocin

>>310368
What is your diet like?

thought of a tiny detail i'd like to add to the mountain of ideas that is accumulating against this unhealthy vice of fiction, which even though i gave it every opportunity to be defended starts to look like a puddle of tears to me.

a guy who meditates i believe will be infinite times more interesting then a guy who watches popular contemporary fiction. doesn't that mean it is better not to watch the popular slop? fiction seems to me like fast food. it is designed to seduce you but even though you pay for it with your most precious currency (time that is), it still puts you at a disadvantage and you would be better of eating real food. real food i believe to be living an actual human life in physical reality.

>>309982
Politics are the opposite of fiction, it's just that there are so many people who treat it as if it is fiction these days I can see why you might think otherwise.

>>310082
>Politics are the opposite of fiction

i think you are missing the bigger picture here. democracy is a theater play. rich people have henchmen and they make the rules for everyone else. if you break them, they inflict violence upon you, even when you don't break any rules, they will still inflict violence upon you. because this sucks for everyone else, the rich people have paid another class of henchmen to pretend that everyone else is actually involved in the process of making rules for everyone else, even though this is not true. there are those who believe this theater play (you) and then there are other people who don't believe it (me) and the henchmen keep lists about people like me to make sure to violate me extra hard.

you don't seem to be aware of that, which makes me question your intelligence. what makes you believe this is a democracy is that you are either one of the henchmen and you are doing theater (fiction) right now with me or you have been trained to think so little that the theater was enough to convince you and you never grew suspicious and you can generally be summarized as a teacher's pet.

i can't even play videogames anymore. i play video games since the first gameboy. i start a game and then it just stopps mattering to me so hard that i can't pretend to care about it. i rather just stare at the wall listening to the birds or the rain.

i had no idea how hard this thread was gonna hit and how little the fiction enjoyers had to say for themselves, obviously they need my help and i thought of something that would help them make a case:

when i first started doing the van life, driving to a city i have never been to and then trying to find a place to sleep by parking at the side of the road or trying to hide the van near trees in some farmland, i was scared. so what i did was watch dragon ball and this helped me be courageous. actually did help me deal with the nervewrecking fear. trying to find a place to sleep in a place

i was worried people bothering me but having an unkempt beard really helps with people leaving you the fuck alone because normies think when your beard is not groomed, you are homeless and then they don't try to bother you because they worry you are gonna bother them. beard made everything better for me. much health in the mental to all of you sweet innocent little babies on your second day on planet earth!

"In the event that I am reincarnated, I would like to return as a deadly virus, to contribute something to solving overpopulation." -Prince Philip

>>310506
MFW Coronavirus was just this guy's isekai

it's probably only worth it if the only other option is suicide

>>310520
welp, I would do it for OTHERS, tho, not me

So guys, I'm wondering how viable is the plastic bag method?

Video related https://youtu.be/KuIMmL4cq5c?t=192

At 3:14 in this scene where the dude drops the plastic bag over the guy's head and then zipties it, could it work if one tried to do it to themselves???

>>310351
You would do everything in your power to get it off.

Is suicide by cop a meme? Are there any OTC drugs that actually would kill me? I am in a lot of physical pain and considering my options. Also, do you think there would be anyone willing enough to help me kill myself/do it for me if these aren't feasible options? I know about laying your head on traintracks but for some reason the possibility of it going wrong horrifies me, even though I know that is unlikely. I think it was some story I read a long time ago that put that in my head.

>>310500
>Is suicide by cop a meme?
suicide by cop is possible in the US, if you search police activity on youtube there are many cases
>Are there any OTC drugs that actually would kill me?
great amounts of alcohol is probably the closest you can get, considering you need prescription even for codeine
>I am in a lot of physical pain and considering my options.
have you considered gradual starvation? for example causing a caloric deficit every day until your body shuts down
>Also, do you think there would be anyone willing enough to help me kill myself/do it for me if these aren't feasible options?
killers exist but we don't have connections, there are people willing to murder for very low budgets in east europe
>I know about laying your head on traintracks
jumping from height is more safe and less traumatic

left side of my head hurts a bit, i think i gotta take the practice a bit more seriously consequence-wise
also found some resources that are intended for people that find hanged folk or those in the midst of attempted hanging/asphyxiation, got a few more details of the nature of the injury from that as well as some hints on common setups (they naturally avoid being too descriptive)
im taking it slow since this stuff is scary, next up ill be looking into tourniquet method to secure a knot

its ridiculous in its own right but this is seemingly the only thing i can do to reassure my body and give me a moment's rest, its like it wants me to convince it that i can do this once it comes down to it
ive since spoken to a fellow suicidal person too but he seems more in a ready-to-die state than a wanting-to-die state, enviable but he's a chronic pain case so it makes sense to me
my own confidence in success remains low, thats always been my personality

I think I'm pro-cyberbullying these days

>>310494
I have selective mutism so im like airlines fuel to assholes jerks that like to talk to much or have no problem to make suffering me bacause i fight little to them. In general i talk normal to normies and in hobby talks but when there're these attention whores its like they build a hierarchy to bully people thanks to their power, wealth, charisma, image or wathever
>Also
I never told anyone about this thing about selective mutism (just one nun and she was the most gentle and kind person i met in my life but she was more a nun than a succubi)
but i know these assholes know it by nature and they love ans enjoy torture me.
>And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone.
I a stupid agnostic but i read a lot of religions and philosophies of life and every year i turn more slowly into a Buddhist Daoist with some christian like mindset and ideas.
And yes this year i got that idea of "what if this asshole achieve the worst possible suffering experience in life and keeps living with this suffering for his entire damn existence without death peace" and yes, this is a contradiction of my ideas and ideals, these are like alien ideas to me.
You know, doing these practices of metta or love-kindness actually hurt me a lot knowning that i feel like this in response to suffering that these assholes cause me. Its like i slowly turn from a Jedi to a Sith.
The best to do is learn to ignore them and if they are too much annoying take it to the legal.

>>310494
it's ok, there's so many half breeds around that nobody is gonna be able to tell you apart

>>309393
Yes, I don't know who it is as I see it everywhere I go, multiple people, will probably do a Rodger if I don't find it

>>309393
He sounds like a typical narcissist, OP. Cut contact with him and find another social circle. You don't have to put up with this.