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 No.301895[Reply]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.303963

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>>303960
The lingering of the brain's collective electronic makeup, the soul, can very well dissolve in to the air and allow the dead to 'feel' the Earth by being part of its electromagnetic field. To become an all-seeing angel in the heavens, or to become part of the ferocious magnetic turmoil of the Earth's core… Both directions of afterlife are rooted in the solid ground of reality.

Reincarnation is rooted in being either:

- A dumb Buddhist who is taught to be OK with being slaughtered by his king because he'll reincarnate as a cozy frog or something

- A stinky Hindu who believes that if he has sex with enough piles of animal feces, he will be rewarded with becoming the animal that makes the feces.


Both are wrong!

>Imagine that you die and [something horrible]

No. Why would I or anyone purposely try to upset ourselves with senseless hypothetical scenarios? I'd rather imagine that when I die I get sent to cute anime witch succubus island, where I get Doritos and MLP toys as a reward for slaughtering niggers (they are bred in captivity specifically for killing; it's really just that much fun!)

 No.303964

>>303960
There is no scientific evidence of a divine morality-driven force that decides who gets reincarnated into "a better person", as far as we know the worst killer could get reincarnated into a king (supposing reincarnation is real).

 No.303965

>>303963
So, you just need to get creamed after death to become an angel. Easy

 No.303966

>>303964
Even so (you are likely right), being born white into relative wealth is an insane cheat code for life quality on this hell planet. One only an idiot would squander away through suicide due to mild discomfort or depression.

Imagine having all your current problems but also having to work on a construction site in India at 44 celsius heat 11 hours a day or you starve and go homeless.

Just suck it up and extract whatever joy you can get out of neetbucks. You struck the jackpot luck wise considering how bad your life with your genetics would be anywhere else.

 No.303968

>>303966
It's unironically better to be a neurotypical working in India for chump change than having bad paranoid schizophrenia in the first world. The whole fucking

>One only an idiot would squander away through suicide due to mild discomfort or depression.


Is doing a lot of lifting in your post.

Obviously it's better to be born a firstie. But there's other factors in life.



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 No.303254[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.
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 No.303932

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I really fucked up this time, in fact, wasn't even that bad, but it came on the worst time possible.

 No.303945

OD'd and gave my self brain damage
Severe back and leg pain
No GP will accept me in my area
Next to zero experience with any kind of non-familial relationships
Zero friends or avenues to make them also lacking the drive to want them
No job
<1 month of money before I have nothing left
My place is a fucking mess
Dad wont talk to me
Realising Mum has actually been an awful influence on my life
Grandparents mental decline is really noticeable now

Tell you what lads, that exit bag is looking real fucking sweet

 No.303946

>>303945
with your last strenght, say something nice to Jesus in a final prayer
like
Jesus Christ I want to be useful to you!

 No.303957

>>303946
I'd sooner wager my after life via undying loyalty to Cthulhu rather than any abrahamic religion.

 No.303967

I hate how people have exploited my autism. I really regret giving effort in life at all, I was too stupid to realize that anger is an expression of dominance, not that I was doing things wrong.

I feel like family and others have just spat in my face with their anger my entire life, and what makes it so fucking disgusting is that the reason I suffered so much is that I tried. I got shamed into working, shamed into living above my means, shamed into doing certain tasks. If I wasn't pro-social I would've been fine living on welfare in a fucking piece of shit apartment in the countryside, and never would have experienced this misery.

I only felt misery after school, I was really happy until I left. At school people were indifferent to me and left me alone. Then just the constant anger I got from family and people at work after leaving school has broken me.

Autism isn't a fucking hard thing either. Just give us NEETbux and leave us the fuck alone. Why the fuck are social workers always trying to push me into work when it's obviously fucking me up, obviously has fucked me up, and clearly does people with this disorder no good.


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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.303739

>>303725
Nothing. I dunno how a regular hanging would work, even if you grabbed it for a while, would you eventually tire and have to give up?
Anyway, that's how I failed the doorknob, I guess. I don't really remember what happened. I think I panicked as my consciousness faded and got out somehow. Maybe I jerked out or threw my hands up or something. I suppose the people who can do it are the ones really committed, who can go long enough to get to the point where it's too late to try and help yourself. Maybe I wasn't drunk enough.

That was a long time ago and good and bad things have happened to me since then. I don't think I would've missed out on much if I'd been successful, but I'm no longer in a place where I'm suffering enough to try again, even if I still think about it.

 No.303921

I have digitalis and amitriptyline, but here is the kicker: it's in form of injections. Do you think it would work if I ingest them?
Also, what should I take to knock myself out? I was thinking about taking a whole pack of benzoes and over the counter sleep aids.
It would work as a poor man's heart switch, but without morphine. I can't acess other drugs like that. Although, I have oxyotocine, but I dunno how it would interact with other drugs.
I was thinking about adding beta blockers to lower my blood pressure even further.

 No.303931

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>>303921
>digitalis and amitriptyline
Don't its neutralize each other effects?

 No.303937

>>303931
Thank you for this image
*side walk*

 No.303961

>>303734
same but I just ended up with the crisis team, I'm thankful I didn't get sectioned in hindsight tbh


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 No.303847[Reply]

I feel like I have a big black hole instead of my heart. it happens when I'm sad. It 100% comes from my depression for sure. it hurts because it's like someone stabbed you and you can feel the hole and it hurts even more and I get more depressed and I feel like the hole is growing bigger and heavier. it hurts so much when it happens. no hobby can satisfy me to fill the hole. the hole acts like a black hole and absorbs every positive thinking or things.
anyone felt/feels that and how did you overcome it?
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 No.303953

>>303952
I get very mild auditory hallucinations that might actually just be due to an undiagnosed sleep disorder. My only major symptoms that I can identify are ideas of reference and paranoid delusions but only rarely because the antipsychotics actually work most of the time. The side effects kind of suck but they are manageable. I struggled with the condition for years but it's not as bad now. I don't have the focus or motivation that I used to but it might just be me getting old and jaded. My cousin has it bad and has spent decades homeless or in jail.

What is your experience with the condition?

 No.303954

>>303953
>What is your experience with the condition?
it all started in 2018 or 2019 I don't remmber. schizophrenia striked me out of nowhere. I had delirium and had to quit my job at the factory. went 4 week to psychicyard and after coming home I had lot of delirium (I thought my neighbors hacked our devices and where mocking us because of what we do or watch on our devices. these delirium stayes for years. nowdays I feel neutral/a normal state of mind because of years of meds and resting (didn't do anything these years, just resting at home/a NEET another words).
here's my story so far

 No.303955

>>303954
>didn't do anything these years, just resting at home/a NEET another words).

That's kind of what I did. I used it as an excuse to take up a bunch of hobbies and just try to learn any skill. I managed to code a few simple video games during that time. At this point, the ship has sailed on trying to make a career for myself due to AI and the worsening job market but I had fun at least.

 No.303956

>>303955
waoh you made a game,im impressed.
for me, I learned no skills in these resting years. I couldn't do anything, I was too depressed and crying like everyday. i was in a bad mood and the delirium because of schizophrenia. so yeah I developped 0 skills

 No.303959

>>303955
Wiz, don't beat yourself down over AI. The people who care about games would rather play an authentic game made by YOU rather than some quickly made AI game with stolen assests. Same thing with art: people who CARE about art pick a real drawing every time.
Give coding one more try, you have nothing to lose, aren't you? Who knows, maybe in a few years you will develop your skill so well that you would be able to solve complex problems where AI stumbles.



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 No.303944[Reply]

Mother woke up with a face stroke.
im a 34 year old neet/hikkie. But this is a sign i have to become an adult now.
Although it feels like im trapped in a cage, underwater, while screaming.

 No.303947

Kind of similar situation with me. Mom has chronic, debilitating pain and balance issues so I have become a substitute mom basically. I have to do all the chores, yardwork and cooking now. If dad ever becomes disabled, I might as well rope because I don't know how to repair 20-year-old automobiles and shit.

 No.303958

Ask social services to provide an affordable replacement of your mom



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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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 No.303658

>>303564
>Lately I tried a depot that has all amino acids
Care to share what exactly? I'd love to try stuff that works.

 No.303659

>>303658
Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:

L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.

You can put this into an llm to get explanations..

I've been doing this for 13 days and there is a slight difference… but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided, so it surprises absolutely nobody

 No.303660

>>303659
Thanks. I might find something similar in a DM store or something.

>but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided

Same reason I'm thinking basic vitamins worked a bit for me initially. I guess I was so deprived that anything, even low quality stuff helped.
I'm trying an iron pill now, it has 14mg iron 10mg zinc, 1mg copper(?) 1,4mg B6 some B12 and a bit of folic acid.

Doctor wasn't worried, but my blood iron is constantly on the low end so I decided to take this anyways.
Hope for something notable and that they don't mess with my BP meds.
Was drinking 2-3 energy drinks a day for a decade before and was forced to quit… That had B6 B12 too. Maybe this is the key to salvation.

 No.303661

>>303632
Depending on what you mean by "libido problems" pelvic floor exercises could go a long a way.
That was my issue. Now I can jerk it to doujins all day again if I wanted to.
The desire is lower now that I'm past 30 though. Probably natural + dopamine fatigue.

 No.303941

>>303180
what if i'll buy one too…

>>303659
>Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:
>L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.
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 No.303736[Reply]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.303894

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I'm going to start a night shift next week. Is there any way to do night shifts without it wrecking your health? I heard vitamin D supplements help obviously because of the lack of sunlight and such, but how do I maintain a "normal" sleep schedule and a "normal" (normal as far as people like us are concerned) life outside of work?

 No.303918

I'm no wageslave, because my job doesn't pay me so.

 No.303925

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Not sure how to feel, I'm on basically final warning however I'm also in a new higher paid position at the same time.

The warning carried over from my other role even though it was one mistake and the new role is basically unrelated. Still, the other two possibilities were getting fired or getting stuck in the lower paid position forever.

 No.303926

I got a call from the boss asking why I wasn't at work (I wasn't scheduled). Boss works on salary and comes and goes 7 days a week (workaholic) and forgets you can't just run hourly employees in and out all day on whimsy. It's still going to count against me for not being at work lol.

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>>303925
I have a random guess they expect to keep you "on hook" - as if they're gonna threaten you here or there into doing something anti-OSHA or some other kind of "barely illegal" stuff.



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 No.303053[Reply]

Today, I learned about a funny mental disorder that is not autism, not retardation, not SCH yet it's a real issue for people who strive for careers and education.

"Adaptation disorder" in some sources, "adjustment disorder" in many other, such as Wikipedia.


>Unlike major depressive disorder, adjustment disorder is caused by an outside stressor and generally resolves once the individual is able to adapt to the situation.


You know, given me mum was so good at torturing me verbally I am not surprised I *may* have suffered from this very thing. I mean, I hold my job, buuuuuuuuut…



>Signs of adjustment disorder include sadness, hopelessness, lack of enjoyment, crying spells, nervousness, anxiety, desperation, feeling overwhelmed and thoughts of suicide, performing poorly in school or work, among others.[12]

>([12]=mayo clinic)

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/adjustment-disorders/symptoms-causes/syc-20355224

I wonder if lenting exaggerates this condition, because it… kida matches. I never had this cool "speaking with entities" perk of a *skit*zophrenic, never had an autist-tier hobby to treat as own safe haven, yet all of the above seems to be just the thing that ruined my college/carrer prospects.
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 No.303322

>>303320
Point taken

 No.303906

>>303053
OP's here. I was crossing a small road today. And instead of a comfy walk, I was standing against a SUV that didn't seem to slow down today. I wasn't scared. I merely had a slight of that DO IT!!!1111 /dep/raved rage - which, however, didn't kick in.

I guess the SUV slowed down automatically due to its sensors, it's a modern one.

Oh and the driver had the nerve to just sit in his car for 20 seconds to memorize my face. Good. Time to shave.

 No.303910

>>303053
>performing poorly in school or work
that's 100% me

 No.303912

Being a murder victim could cause that disorder. Thanks for the info! Had issues with that for all of my life.

Fucking hate people who think they have the right to murder.
Fucking hate absurdity, always.

 No.303939

>>303912
oh, soma killa tried to whack me over a 35$ celly.

Good thing I had a knoife m8, they woulnt rob a elementary school boy, they would do some psycho stuff, good thing I had a knoife m8



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 No.302510[Reply]

I fucking loathe being autistic, I fucking hate how I can have articulate thoughts in my head yet can only muster and spew out the same few fucking phrases irl because I’m caught off guard and don’t know what to say

I hate how pathetic I am, I’m so fucking clumsy, my hand coordination is awful. Im always dropping shit which only makes me look like more of a retard

Most of all I hate the way other people look at me, there two “looks” I get from people. The first is the pitiful one. They see how pathetic I am, how socially inept, awkward and harmless I am and take pity on me like they would with a dementia patient. The other “look” is the hateful/judgmental one. They assume due to my awkwardness, my uncanny demeanour, ugly face and lack of height that I’m some kind of freak/someone to be suspicious of. They look at me like I’m some kind of sex pest/serial killer when all I’m doing is just existing

I put in the effort, I workout every day, I eat well, I keep good hygiene, I try, lord knows I fucking try, but I have to ask what’s the point? It won’t change anything. I can’t cure this awful plague of the mind I was born with, I’ll never be accepted or even tolerated by normies so why make an effort? Why try in life and work hard when I don’t even get the slightest bit of respect from the people around me? Part of me wants to just stay in my room stuffing my face with junk food and playing vidya all day but if I did that I’d only be more miserable.

Any other wizards have this condition? If so how do you cope with it?
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 No.303933

>>303930
>most other autists i know are either hopelessly immersed into useless politics
I recognize the politics and internet arguments are kryptonite for assburgers. I'm trying to get myself permanently banned from 4chan in order to break the feedback loop of getting constantly datamined and baited. I fall for it every time.

 No.303934

>>303933
>I'm trying to get myself permanently banned from 4chan
Just stop using it

 No.303935

>>303934
Sometimes, a permanent solution to a problem is the only one that will work. It's either permabanned or rope for me.

 No.303936

>>303935
Deciding to not use it is a permanent solution. If anything it's more permanent than a ban because of how dynamic most IPs are these days.

 No.303938

>>303935
You can simply start lurking underground, non-mainstream GPTs like ChaosGPT and such


or straight up launch Gaia LLM on your pc



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 No.302609[Reply]

The costs of lives burdens is meant for the backs of two so how does one prosper alone?
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 No.302728

>>302723
Problem is, that's also "schizo"

 No.303903

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 No.303908

>>302696
Just one look at r/schizoid will tell you that a lot of them (mostly succubi and man-whores who sleep around though) are sex-havers. Being schizoid doesn't mean you don't procreate. Hell, some of them even have children of their own.
Anyway, psychiatry is a fake science and words don't have any meaning anymore.

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>>302696
Sometimes I think i have AVPD (Avoidant personality disorder) but now, i dont know anymore.
Maybe it's just a anxiety problem or a anxiety disorder, you know the Avoidant part problems.
I dont think I have autism.
>Also
Sometimes i just feel out of place, like a alien lol.

 No.303917

Satan made solo life difficult; gotta defeat Satan to make it easy as can be.
God still needs to become God, via Satan's defeat, so you can have the two you need (yourself and God), once Satan is out of the picture.

Existence hasn't had a god or gods since always, and having God and gods would make it all it needs to be.
Omnipotence, omniscience, and omnipresence, would solve all problems and make it all easy for everyone and anyone, and for everything and anything.

This planet, and human society, forced a system of dependence, rather than of independence.

This planet doesn't really support independence at all.



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