/dep/ - Depression

>>299822
Because he's mentally deficient anon, or stupid to put it bluntly. It's the same with me.
Some people have to occupy the left end of the IQ spectrum, as regrettable as it is. Born and bred janitors is all we'll amount to, irrespective of the education quality poured into us.
We're losers.

>>299822
dont have the means to fund trade school or college, none of the colleges around me even have programs for electrical engineering.

>>299823
stop being a fucking loser, if you can type youre not as stupid as you think so stop feeling sorry for yourself.

>>299821
>I do not understand what issue you are talking about
The part where we are basically suffering in vain, my guy. Completely and utterly in vain. I mean you ARE suffering right? This is /dep/ after all

Sick of the brainrot that seems to pervade throughout western civilization, everywhere I go I'm bombarded with endless fucking ads, borderline softcore porn bullshit everywhere and racemixing couples. It really feels like we're living in a dystopian nightmare with the endless vices being peddled on every street corner; think about how much sugar people are eating now on average compared to the 50s, the SSRIs, the debt-slavery, the misegenation and people spending their entire lives with a screen. I'm 22 and I've already seen just how much worse things have gotten, it can't get much worse before society collapses I'm sure.

I know I sound like a boomer, but it's depressing seeing all these retarded institutions of addiction everywhere selling tons of fake candy slop shit and cigs/vapes, drugs being glorified and loneliness being the norm.

>>299837
Comedic even?

>>299836
still stuck huh? i tried to give you some advice over the years, but you're in complete gridlock mentally. i've experienced similar internal resistance before and i've never really found a solution. at some point it either starts flowing or it doesn't and you have to move on. but you have to push yourself for some period of time and it feels like shit until at some point it doesn't and it becomes sustainable. you could try drawing for 15-30 minutes a day for 30 days straight and see if your feelings change. because at the end of the day, it really is all about how you FEEL. you don't FEEL like it's possible or worthwhile, so you will rationalize those feelings. but imagine if you could just flip a switch and feel different, the reasons would become completely irrelevant. the problem is, i've no idea how to achieve something like that consistently, whenever it happens to me, it just seems like pure luck, the right factors being aligned and allowing my psychic energy to pass.

>>299836
start sketching cubes today and 10 years from now you'll be ready for spheres.

>>299830
I see this happen in basically every corner of the internet or life in general. Sadly, this sort of behavior seems to be part and parcel with human nature as a whole. Every topic is boiled down to a binary choice, everyone picks one side or the other, and then they proceed to argue back and forth in a verbal pissing match that may or may not sway the occasional onlooker to their side, but usually accomplishes nothing of value. Repeat ad infinitum.

>>299778
Personally, I believe there are a few major factors into whether or not this cycle can be effectively and permanently broken. Optimists generally hold to the belief that everything begins and ends with one's own self, that by changing one's own mindset and rejecting any perception of failure is a guaranteed path to success. Pessimists on the other hand will often observe the environment around them as the primary factor in life's struggle, concluding that too harsh an environment with too many hostile people can make success impossible. While I feel that both sides have a ring of truth to them, I think ultimately the question of breaking this cycle of inaction is very much up to the individual asking. You'll have to observe your life and ask yourself "Where am I now? How did I get here? What are my options currently?" Then when you have the answers to those questions, ask yourself "Are my current options acceptable? Is it worth it to change and why? What can I hope to achieve by changing and is that really what I want for myself?" By going through these questions, you can get a decent idea of what obstacles in life are working against you, as well as what tools you still have within you to change, and finally if that change is worth all the effort when considering the possible rewards.

I hope this doesn't come across as a long-winded non-answer to your dilemma, simply telling you 'figure it out yourself,' but that is kind of my main point. No one on this board truly knows the details of your life or current circumstances, nor can (or should) they tell you how to live your life. Can you actually change your life at any age? Realistically yes, even an old man in his seventies can make a different life for himself, but not all change guarantees success or happiness nor is the reward always wortPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>299842
not that anon, apologies for interjecting.
>changing one's own mindset and rejecting any perception of failure is a guaranteed path to success.
While there are certainly many people who do this, a true optimist accepts failure is a part of life and growing as a person.

>>299644
>>299647
Completely delusional. There are a huge number of old/ugly/fat/mentally ill succubi. And the desperate trans people would date a "ugly nerd" too. Becoming trans yourself doesnt do anything beneficial to one's chances. This conversation is the dumbest shit ive ever heard. Satistically being trans is a very strong predictor of being alone and lonely. Literally must be sub-80 iq to argue that people do it to get a partner

>>299644
>An ugly nerd has 1000x more chances of dating someone as a semi-attractive female passing human than as himself.
a) Sure, to another insane person maybe.
b) The magic power of trooning isn't as effective as you think it is.

Putting troons aside, I wonder how many people including unwitting normalfags, have dropped out of society.

>>286205
>zoomers being the hypersocialized generation they are they just cannot stand any form of metal, except modern "black metal" which bears little to no resemblance to the og.
it's really funny to me how metalheads think their angry 13 year old music is too dark or effed up or whatever for le heckin normies

>>299485
I think he's right on the money. For those in the know: look up a certain interview by manga artist Hisashi Eguchi.

Saw it happening with IHNMAIMS. Some stupid streamer played the game and then zoomies tripped over their feet to draw uwu soft boi gijinkas of AM because
>omg a nineties game??? fr fr so cool, I love the nineties and frutigier aero
>zomg a horror game??? just like five night at Freddie's bro
Then shat up all the places to discuss IHNAIMS until they were bored playing with their new toy and left a fucking Wasteland after themselves.
I dread of what would happen of Marathon, bros. I'm so afraid.
I'm not even mad at newcomers, I would be happy if more people experienced those things, but those stupid fucks have no respect for the established fandom.

Hanging is the best overall in the book complete manual to suicide, least painful, accessible (a rope, height is not necessary, you can tie the other end to a door knob then sit down or lie down), most lethal.

I hate normies

>>299813
Me too, wizzie, me too.

>>299812
Guns are the best if you can get them, 99% reliability(shotgun to head) no pain(bullets travel faster than nerve signals) otherwise I would go for laying on train tracks, and if you have neither only then would I go for hanging.

>>299825
a tent + charcoal/wood burning + a place deep in the forest is pretty good too

>>298604
Normalfag spotted. Are you here because your girlfriend dumped you or some shit? Fuck off, this place isn't for you.

>>296810
I used to share similar feelings but I've found that time takes care of these sorts of things. I was made to feel bad when siblings and cousins around me were getting married, having children and advancing in their careers, etc. but now as the years have gone by marriages have broken up, careers have failed, people have gone bankrupt, etc., and all of the sudden I don't seem like such a loser anymore.
Also, in conjunction with the above, as people get older they start reflecting on these things and their priorities shift. Parents look at their children who did everything "right" and still managed to crash and burn or they look at family members that were seemingly normal but ended up as druggies or something, and then they'll look at you and realize you're not so bad after all and that and that the usual normalfag things aren't the be all end all of life.

>>296810
I recently visited a funeral of a relative and something like this happened to me. another guy in my famliy and of my age is currently studying to become dentist and hes really successful sounding and charismatic. and the relatives were kind of asking him of how hes doing and he told them of his gf and he acted like an actual adult. I was not asked such questions. Really shows how much of a loser Ive becomen without noticing it kind of.

Beware the man who was always told by others he was a useless loser, for he will act in anger to prove them wrong.

>>298758
What about 25
26
27?

>>299418
I'm usually pretty sympathetic to various creatures but mice ain't one of them. I hate those little bastards sneaking into my house and carrying all sorts of nasty diseases. You should definitely check if there have been hantavirus cases in your state/area, that kills people even in the US.

>>299422
I'm not from burgerland and Hantavirus is unheard of here, there's literally never been a case. The Plague hasn't been recorded as really being in my country as far as I know either. If it was Bubonic I'd likely be hospitalized right now.

I likely have caught either Leptospirosis or Salmonella, or some other random bacterial infection. The most common ones seem to be in the range of "you're gonna feel fucked up for the next month".

I'm off to the doctor Monday to look into it.

>>299398
>>299402
both of you should look up 'thiamine deficiency', might be related to what youre experiencing. ive had minimal dysphagia moments (i cant swallow spit and takes me like 6 times trying to make it work), like i wouldnt even call it episodes or spells or frequent enough to bother with them, but frequent enough to notice and tell myself 'hey this has NEVER happened to you before…'

do either of you get dry mouth at times too?

>>298319
Being completely dependent upon your parents is a curse, I am still in college, and the norm here is that we're dependent upon parents till we get a job.

But something just came up, I had all the regular eye tests and did fine in them, although there was some problem with my cornea and doctor suggested that I get corneal mapping or something of the sorts to further see what's wrong.

The thing is I have had a bad experience getting braces in the past, and for that I had to get my 4 healthy tooth removed, the results weren't satisfactory, my teeth weakened, and now I have to wear retainers every night for my life so my parents think that I am dependent upon my retainers and they see it as a bad thing, and since I myself am unhappy with my treatment and my family opposed me getting braces they have had their gotcha moment and are like "we told you so"

but as I said now that I have problems with my eyes, my parents still think that I shouldn't go to a doctor, after talking to my doctor, researching on the internet, and using ChatGPT, all three of them pointed towards early keratoconus. And my parents are unwilling to help me, so I might have to steal money from them but I can't just go AWOL for a long time without my parents freaking out as I live with them, they will be wondering where I went, and there are no hospitals nearby that scan for corneal mapping. And of course I need money as well.

And I have exams coming up in 30 days, I have had problem reading white text on black background and experience ghosting, I see glare from headlights, and have astigmatism which is getting worsen over time, earlier I used to see only one streak of lights now I am seeing three, in just a span of one month. So it is worsening at a rapid pace.

All of this makes me feel suicidal, I am getting too overwhelmed with different problems in my life, I want someone to just give me and anaesthetic while I am sleeping and shoot me, I don't want to wake up another day.

It is EXTREMELY SCARY that you might lose your vision, life is already hard enough and I can't imagine what it would be like living if your eyes stop working, if you can't drive during the night, can't judge distances while driving during the day. Can't read properly. I am deeply mortified if I am being honest. Why did the universe had to bestow upon me such a rarePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Nah, pathogens kept us healthy as an ethnic group

>>297621
>Philadelphia
Never began for him

>>297463
You better stop following that cursed trail of "normies pls mercy me" and start taking advantage of them or causing havoc.

Henry David Thoreau adn uncle Ted almost got it. You must just learn to hide while selfsubsisting.

>>297463
Freedom is taken. Rarely given.
>>297607
Of course they do. Denying it is part of the game.
>>297617
I have done that, but not with such irritation. It's better if you just let it fall how obssessed is people with giving succubi the standard of judgement because they are coomers in perpetual urge. Then they might be ashamed of… exactly being so. succubi do not judge each other so hardly, and that's why most men are just putrid slaves to them. Not worth a breath of attention nor sympathy about it.

It's insane that you got to be proving your value and have "somethihg to offer" just to be allowed to live.

Start a war. Fuck em all.

>>299731
just by your comment i can tell that youre still completely autistic. Nutrition doesnt fucking cure autism lmao

If you're able to post here, you're barely autistic. Real autistic kids are vegetables who parents would have aborted if they had known what they'd turn out like. The best "cure" for mild autism is to work in trades. Being around blokey men will rid you of that shit ASAP. But you'll have to endure a lot of pain. Working in STEM fields will make it worse.

>>299766
what part of, "it's a spectrum" don't you understand?

>>299767
Which part of my post implied I'm not aware of the spectrum? The part about severe autism or the part about mild autism?

>>299766
>Being around blokey men will rid you of that shit ASAP
please, please stop peddling this shit lie.

>>299753
>>299752
Oh god, that sounds terrible

>>299752
>telemarketers who kept calling me for months
I don't understand how those businesses operate. Surely at some point they would've released that if someone wasn't interested the first five times you've called them, call number six probably isn't going to change their mind. Some of my colleagues STILL get monthly telemarketing calls from one particular company that (outside of the calls) they last contacted more than a decade ago.

>>299771
They employ a bunch of desperate job seeker at low wages and give them a quota of customers they have to obtain. People who fail to meet the quota are punished with methods from salary deduction to public humiliation in front of the office while they always try to gaslight you about how rich you can get if you successfully bring in a lot of customers. Probably won't fly with first world labor laws but that's how every 3rd world country do it. The people calling you multiple times are either poor performing salesmen who are desperate or new recruits just going through their contacts list. Oh, they also have a calling quota which is how many people you have to call in one day regardless of success. I quit after just one day lol so this info might not be accurate but this is what I infer from observing how they work. Obviously it differs by companies.

>>299738
I have done it and I didn't find the targets to be difficult at all.
It is unbelievably tedious though. Even if you're a good daydreamer it gets to you eventually. I never understood people who wanted a challenge at work until I worked in data entry.

>>299738
I do data entry but it's on site in a warehouse. I enter the addresses and product weights for things being dispatched onto a computer and then they are printed out by the warehouse workers and put on the picked items for dispatch.
It's basically a scam job; the boss is a sucker for having kept me around for three years. On days that I'm off the guys in the warehouse just put the data in themselves. He would get a lot more value if he just hired another labourer, and had the warehouse workers put the data in as things get picked. There'd be less mistakes this way too. But I'll be damned if I lose my easy job.
It's not ideal at all though because I have no skills to take to another job if I get made redundant.

>>299267
In bongland, you can buy small amounts of codeine in pharmacies OTC in the form of painkillers such as Solpadeine, although it's only a small amount of codeine per tablet (12.5mg). I developed an addiction to them a while ago, and take between 2-4 per day.

I also consider myself to be addicted to sugar, but I don't think anyone takes me seriously when I say that. I genuinely do believe it would be easier for me to give up Solpadeine than confectionary though.

>>299267
Mine is much more mild than what you describe. I adore weed and will sometimes go weeks or months smoking each day, however I can stop fairly easily too. If you are too get into a drug, make it weed.

Just stop doing drugs like a loser (Sorry, stop "being a substance user" or whatever the current feel-good codeword for being a weak-willed addict is)
>>299754
>however I can stop fairly easily
That's what they all say. When you get diagnosed with early onset dementia at 38 as a result of rotting your brain on nigger weed, the only thing you'll be able to quit easily is life.

Well I drink a lot but it's not a problem yet.
I quit smoking cold turkey and honestly I question the willpower of anyone who tries to stop and fails.

>>299755
Why of all places around there online you have to come in here to accuse people of being a loser? It doesn't make sense..