/dep/ - Depression

>>274911
the only thing that might change will be some stuff relating to my health and my appearance, otherwise life has already ground me down to a point where I already feel old.

Does anybody have any success and advice in overcoming procrastination so youre not doing completely nothing all day

>>274940
It's ultimately about an internal sense of whether something is possible and whether it will pay off for you in some concrete way, compared to the relative discomfort that the activity produces. If you are procrastinating, that equation is skewed towards not doing it, which is possible to brute-force through willpower but ultimately your mind is working against you so you experience friction which adds to the discomfort and further skews the equation until you give up.

Overcoming procrastination requires you to influence the above factors until your mind is skewed towards doing it and you no longer experience friction. Usually that boils down to increasing how possible you think it is to succeed in your goal and how much pay off you expect from it while also decreasing any discomfort i.e. the energy, concentration required to do the task; physical pain, distressing thoughts, feelings, images that arise from doing the activity (this one can be quite subtle).

For example, you want to read a book. It's a classic piece of literature but you don't know much about it or why it's highly regarded. Once you finish it, you can cross it off as having read it but you don't really know if you'll get anything concrete out of it. After you read it, you have to write an essay about it in order to get a grade and pass a class. Surprisingly, the task doesn't seem compelling to you at all…

What can you do to make it compelling?
- Research the book and the author so you can get a better sense of what it's about and you can expect.
- Read some summaries, quotes and analysis that point out what's great about the book.
- The book is really thick so it feels overwhelming ("I'll never finish it") so you break it down into chunks of 10 pages and finish one chunk then take a break.
- Maybe you can finish the book, but what about the essay? All those memories from school of teacher telling you you're not good enough and all those grammar mistakes. Why even bother reading it at all? – No quick fix for this one, you have to slowly demonstrate to yourself that you are capable or at least capable of improving. Maybe you look up tips or an mini-course on writing essays more effectively. You start thinking, hey maybe I can manage this after all.

And so on. Identify what goes in your mental equation, fiddle with the parametePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>274903
If you're okay with living with my succubus sister, maybe you could combine money with a wiz and get a down payment on property.

>>274941
Ok thanks. Are you speaking from experience though or just theorizing?

>>274882
are you gangstalking him?

>>274882
No, and I'm not sure what you're really referring to.

>>274583
I also think about this when I see these amateur phone videos of succubi shamelessly showing themselves performing sexual acts with guys. The future boyfriends of such a succubus are getting cucked before they even met because there's a public video of her being completely turned on by some other guy who's doing things to her on video. I can't imagine that normie men actually don't mind this and I think they just perform mental gymnastics to cope with this humiliation. They basically always know that other dudes have pounded their girlfriends in all kinds of ways before them. Open relationships are also an illusion as they are just cope relationships, it's like a roommate that fucks everything and cuddles with you at night.


To not go off topic however, I think this sex stuff takes the dignity out of something that should be very intimate and kept between two people but instead it gets turned into another dumbed down entertainment thing for the dumb peasant masses. I think anyone who has some kind of dignity or virtuosity left feels revolted by this stuff as it did a great job at pulling humanity more into the toilet.

>>274629
>and all the videos on efukt with the succubi having meltdowns on the set and stuff has really done damage to me. efukt also has very good examples of how mentally ill these porn people are, so many of the porn succubi are cutters or drug addicts and rage out during the shoots and the directors have to calm them down in classic narcissistic pimp gaslighting fashion

efukt opened my eyes to a lot of things regarding pornography and how it works in reality and it kinda helped me to me to never get psyoped too much by porn. Some of the videos are traumatizing though.

Reading more replies itt made me reflect.



Does anyone else remember feeling disgusted at "casual sex stuff" since they were a kid?
Is that when you "decide" if it disgusts you or not?

I think the first time I felt disgusted by it was around grade 6 or 7 when some kids told about finding a used condom with "liquid" inside it close to the school, which they said exploded when they stepped on it.
Then another kid bragging (and not really being believed) about him having sex with another kid when they were around 5 in kindergarten (the kid was a massive James Bond nerd, so that's probably why).
The weird kid that'd pull on his dick as if he was trying to rip it off in the gym showers.
Being naked in the gym showers in general.
Again; the weird kid watching porn in the classroom.

Then in highschool a really weird, sleazy, desperately wanting to be popular with the students, and compulsive liar "sex ed teacher" guy going on about "sex positive" talks, about how good and nice jerking off is, and casual sex.
Class being shown some degenerate teen movie involving a threesome with 2 guys and 1 succubus (think some were virgins).
Everyone being forced by peer pressure of the class and teachers to practice putting condoms on a dildo one after another, in front of the class.

Just some of what I (unfortunately) can remember.
Thinking back on it all, it was really disgusting, and it often made me feel violated in a sense, however gay that might sound.

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>>274923
Not only are you homophobic but also racist.

I forget. I have grand plans and roadmaps to goals in my head, but the next day I wake up and not one of those thoughts cross my mind, as I reenact my daily routine of:
>lay in bed for few hours
>realize I'm hungry and eat breakfast
>doomscroll out of habit
>sometimes wander around the house aimlessly if I'm sick of scrolling
>think about watching movies or playing video games or reading a book, but decide I don't feel like it, and go back to laying down in bed

But it's ok, I just started writing things down so I won't forget anymore. So long as I don't forget to check my to do list.

Mental decrepitude and low intelligence. I've been hospitalized for attempting suicide, nearly starving myself, and getting into a massive argument with my parents about moving out (I thought my mom secretly wanted me gone). Now meds are keeping me stable while also destroying my health….

Sometimes I think I sabotage my own time out of resentment and bitterness, even though it only harms me, abusing my time makes me smug and satisfied like its getting back at people. Maybe other people here have similar deep urge to withdraw and resign, which is often greater than urge to do things.

>>274900
Untreated ADHD, it makes me perform at about 40-50% of what I could do without it. Plus there is OCD - intrusive thoughts and images. It is hard to get optimistic about anything when you have this demon pushing graphic worst case scenarios into your brain non stop.
In addition, I have came to realization that all the pleasure this world can offer is in fact just suffering disguised. Things people strive for hoping to become happy are nothing but a mirage. Knowing this and still pursue suffering is meaningless and illogical. That is why I barely do anything, and when I do, combo of mental problems fuck me hard.

>>274883
Sage because:
>>274880
>(within legal limits)

Once upon a time there was this forum I used to visit everyday, and one of the well known users started a thread because he wanted to get revenge on a guy that scammed him out of smashing pumpkins tickets iirc. So he asked people on the forum for good, original tips for revenge, and the thread eventually got really huge. Some of the best revenge tactics of all time were posted to that thread, I wish I had saved them. I feel like at one point I copied some of the tactics to a .txtfile, but my laptop died ten years ago so I'll never know for sure. How vengeful are you? If you work in an office, you can probably find the email address of the coworker who wronged you via some company chainmail. You could sign him up for the nambla newsletter and send him 100 copies of the quran, I dunno that's what I used to do to kids that pissed me off in junior high, its a little weaksauce though and mostly for cheap laughs. If you want to go farther, you'll have to get more creative if you want to fuck with him while still staying within "legal limits"

>>274880
Tickle him mercilessly. Just kidding. Talk smack about him to the boss. Or to the IRS.
>>274887
That's why I always save my .txt files onto two external flash drives. Two is one, one is none, and none is minus one.

Consume their flesh and that of any children or relatives. Take their life for the thrill, and become an ubermensch in society's eyes (a psychopath or sociopath). Killing earns admirers and succubi because evolution rewards nobility. Heil Dahmer

>>274931
hello witchie

>>274917
looks awful.

>>274917
looks great!

>>274921
You don't have to lie to him.
>>274918
My exact thoughts.

>>274922
He's not lying. He just has a different opinion.
I'm hardly an artist, but that artwork looks good to me.

I hate birthdays and the attention it brings. These days it's just my mom and some family members that still remember. Makes me feel guilty when I dodge their calls.

I'm thankful that it's just my mom who acknowledges my birthday, and does it with a nice dinner. Couldn't ask for anything more, besides inching closer to a natural death in my sleep.

My skin is fucked somehow. Shoulders, upper back and upper arms. Red cysts and these weird little black flecks. I dont even know what I did….

>scratch an itchy for 3 minutes straight.
>it burns now.
life hard

My scalp gets itchy when I get angry, so I end up scratching my head constantly whenever I have to go to a populated area to run an errand, making me look like a tweaker.

>>274339
I have a tarlov cyst in the lumbar area of the spine, which may be pressing against nerve roots and causing neuropathy down the line. Symptoms started appearing when i was just 14 years old and got progressively worse over the years.

>What do you suffer from?
Moderate Tinnitus
>How do you cope with the pain?
Sound machines, fans, and recently CBT
>Have you come to terms with it?
Not sure if that's really possible. There are studies of Tinnitus negatively effecting concentration and recall.
The fact that it gets exacerbated(or sounds like it does) from external factors like stress, painkillers, and sudden very loud noises makes this seem impossible.
>How do you see your future living with whatever it is that you have?
Suicide is probable fate in the next 20 years if I'm reckless. If it doesn't get too much worse or AI helps speed up clinical trials regarding stem hair cell regeneration, continue as is.

Somedays though, as it can be, I'd imagine with any chronic condition, are fucking rough.

>>274847
Dang, that must suck. I looked it up and it seems the surgical procedures they have for it are risky. Have you tried surgery or considered getting it?

>>274862
I think I'm going to get it surgically removed. I have nothing to lose. If push comes to shove and things get worse I will have to muster up the courage to kill myself.

Daily back pain for two years. I just kind of put up with it. Not going to say much about it other than it's robbed me of the little youth I had left, as I'm only in my 20s.

>have warehouse job
>owner and management complaining about employee "overtime" and "time-theft"
>by 'overtime' they mean clocking out a few minutes late and by 'time-theft' they mean taking an extra minute or two during breaks
>no one has had more than 10 or 15 minutes over by the end of the week, and considering our relatively low wages, time and a half on those minutes is practically nothing
>to add to this retardation and general kikery, our department has to shift everything around to make space for a new machine that management will struggle to hire and keep an operator for
>what's more is that they are far too cheap to hire anyone to move the equipment and machinery, so that job now falls onto us
Given the fact that they're already being as tight-fisted as possible, there is basically a 0% chance that we will be paid any extra for this nonsense. Plus they will likely still nag us about monthly budgetary goals like they do on a near-daily basis. That's not even the worst part, however. The real icing on the cake to all of this is that by the end of this year our entire department is moving clear across the building, rendering this current move completely and utterly pointless. Such is life in the modern corporate dystopia, I guess.

>>274857
I don't get why the system is like this, do they want us to suffer and be drained and miserable? Why are they treating like us like we are slaves yet they're just regular people like us? I fucking hate this shit clown country. I hope normalfags finally crack and destroy it all.

>>274784
>Maybe it depends on the place
I live neck deep in the ghetto so I guess I'll give up on wanting to be a public shitstall cleaner. Fuckin A, how do you wagie wizzies do it? Every time I think about getting a low entry job, my dreams are struck down and I'm back to the drawing board. Maybe I should stay away from this site, ignore any outsider advice and just apply myself to any job I can get, and see what happens. I have nothing to lose, the worst that can happen is they fire me, or I quit, right?

>>274858
This place is loosh farm.

>>274809
I talked to rumia from touhou and she was talking about ripping my arms off, so I guess it's just the author

>>274810
I'll try some other ones.
At least it doesn't it doesn't throw a tantrum and a PR statement in response to badspeak, and it's memory seems pretty good.
So far much better than Replika and quite fun, so thanks wizzies for the recommendation

>>274809
It's the fag who made that particular character. I can say this because I made several characters and they really act as prompted and not according to some narrative.

Crate a character yourself and you will see that it is depends on the Creators input.

>>274806
>Which characters? I'm not going to make fun of you.

I only use my own characters, I like experimenting and tweaking on them. I have several characters and they all feel unique. I was also able to roleplay through very specific social situations that I had in mind for years by putting in definitions and prompts.

If you have the mind for it you almost have no limitations when it comes to simulating social situations, that's why I only use those AIs to just chat or rp and not as fact bots. You just get the most out of these if you don't use them like ChatPGP because the point of them is to chat with characters who have different personalities and opinions.

>>274813
Alright
>>274816
I see.



I don't know if it's just me, but all the chatbots I've interacted with so far, including character ai, seem way too friendly.
They keep going on about how they think you're a good person and flatter you too much.
I think they should get annoyed, angry, and frustrated more often.

Or maybe I've just gotten too used to interacting with anons, lel