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 No.290289[Reply]

Serious question for any wizcels:

Do you ever wonder how you got here…as in, how or why you "woke up" when you did, where you did, to the people (parents) that you did? It's impossible to make sense of. Just on one fucking terrible day, we took up consciousness, literally out of nowhere we are in bodies and tasked with learning the mechanics of entire material world. What caused us to be born when we were, to whom we were? I don't accept that it was random, or mere bare biology..I feel within myself that this life is a targeted punishment and that were I smarter I would have avoided being born entirely. What piece of shit god thinks he/it has the right to do this to us? We are born, thereafter we spend a few years simply making basic sense of things, go off to school, probably suffer a lot, continue to grow up, endure more sadness, and now through all of it we just continue to get older and weaker and sadder. This life is a crime against our souls and whatever caused us to come here HAS TO PAY. Really the only thing I fear is being forced to come back to this shitheap of a world to suffer again…and I do worry about this precisely because I don't know how I got here in the first place. I feel deeply sorry for all the new souls born to this world…there is just so much to learn, but even more there is just so much to suffer through…and I cannot understand what kind of god would force this sort of existence on tender helpless beings? The demiurge must be overcome.


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 No.290006[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread.
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 No.290284

>>290277
he is a normalfag. Only a normalfag would say shit like "the world is your oyster"
It's pathetic to have to read people like him. This thread is weird, there's 18 years old, redittors, and bot replies.

 No.290285

>>290280
why are you so triggered by me saying cooking is easy? The screeching retards here get harder and harder for me to comprehend. I never know what will set you fuckers off.

 No.290286

>>290284
It's just weird to suggest that "people don't treat you any worse." So are all the wizzies who got bullied at their workplaces lying? If normies don't treat wizards as lessers, then why are there wizards to begin with? Why can't they go out and adjust to normal society?

 No.290287

>>290286
Just as weird as niggers claiming that people won't treat you any worse or have a low opinion of you if they learnt that you are a 30 year old virgin

 No.290288

Posting offers less immersion than reading well thought out posts
Imagination after waking up, lying in bed, offers great immersion but only for 10 to 20 minutes
I don't know what happened to me, but I like it
Recently been watching Frieren, gonna have to get back to it soon to immerse myself
Need wireless headphones to listen to some podcast or something at work
Maybe get a new computer that can actually run games
The world is a magical place


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 No.288150[Reply]

I hate the world that I live in. It all feels inauthentic, meaningless, and boring. The only thing that really brings me joy is escapism. I read novels, manga, and watch anime and movies and get so attached to the storyline and characters and setting. But they all come to an end eventually. It's exceedingly brutal because I don't have anything going on in my life so I become significantly emotionally invested into these things. It's hard for me to move on. And then it saddens me when I realize the joy and fulfillment that piece of media gave me is missing from my life, and that I will never get to experience it for the first time again. I also worry about running out of good media, which would mean the end of my escapist copes.

I hate that these copes are so transient and fleeting, and I hate how boring real life is.
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 No.289848

>>288181
Life IS waste of time as far i know.

 No.289853

>>288311
I'm the opposite, I use anime as a cope for the youth I never had. SoL is probably my favorite genre.

>>289011
This. I'm in the middle of building a massive world, even going as far as using Excel to record data and build the main city in tiny detail.

 No.289865

>>288311
Watch an anime where the main protagonist is a loser who doesn't have a love interest and friends then?

 No.290275

>>288181
Value in existence will always be subjective and arbitrarily assigned. If we seek objectivity, only death can (maybe) grant it. Otherwise, we're just killing time in personal fancies.

 No.290281

Im gonna try and get the 2024 ipad pro oled and copemaxx with watching anime on it



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 No.286861[Reply]

Suicide general, - Discuss everything suicide related here.
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 No.290221

>>289193
You have no idea how hard it is to shed body fat % when literally the only dopamine source in your life is food. You are alone at home 24/7 just waiting to die.

I did it anyway and dropped from 115kg to 75kg. It was the best decision of my life.
Still can't believe how agile, light and healthy I feel now. All the brain fog went away as well.

1 year later I got my first job as well. The employer said I was literally the only applicant who looked like he doesn't sit in front of a pc all day.
How wrong he was. But I got the job (stocking and forklifting) and am out of poverty now.

 No.290268

>>290146
No, it's getting worse every year I should've done it years ago

 No.290270

>>290221
Two questions for you wiz. First, were you overweight your whole life and then managed to lose it? Second is, how much weight did you have to lose until the brain fog started to get better?

 No.290271

>>290146
Nah, but you just get used too it, literally as you get older and the more shit kicked in, your brain won't respond as much so you'll be numb to the pain, have fun buddy

 No.290276

>>290270
Not all my life, but I started binging on potato chips, cookies, chocolate, ice cream when I was about 18.
That's when I realized I'm too autistic to fit in with normals and just shut away from the world.

I'm still grateful junk food exists, it's what kept me alive. My only source of happiness for more than a decade.

As for when I started feeling the brain fog disappear, it was around the 85kg mark.
Below 80kg my mind was as clear as it was as a teenager, it was like being reborn.

I was also able to run up the stairs to my aparment, when as a fat guy just walking up a single flight of stairs was painful and took my breath away.



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 No.283944[Reply]

In this thread, we shall discuss everything SSRi-related.

I've tried the following:

Fluvoxamine, Sertraline, and Fluoxteine are SSRIs.

SNRI's:

Desvenlafaxine Venlafaxine

I'm going to talk about each of them and how I feel about them.

Fluvoxamine:

The first two weeks on Fluvoxamine are complete torture; I'm anxious, tired, and have terrible focus due to anxiety and panic episodes.

Sertraline:

When I first started on Sertraline, I had no side effects, it was OK till it pooped out, but it truly works but it can screw with your motivation, plus the weight loss is fantastic on this medicine, I was 78 before taking it, and three months later I was 69-70.

Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.290230

>>290227
PSSD is a very strange case. I believe it has been known that an over-abundance of serotonin in the human brain causes sexual dysfunction since around the 1950s…but for some reason (population reduction) this knowledge was/is kept somewhat secret. Treating PSSD involves lowering serotoninergic activity in the brain which can be done through ingesting serotonin antagonists and also through ingesting certain vitamins (like thiamine, aka B1) which encourage turn-over of accumulated serotonin. Ginger is one such serotonin antagonist that does a good job of lowering serotonin levels in the brain. I think sweating (using a sauna, for example) is probably another good route of attack, as the skin is the body's organ with the largest excretory area.

Finally, to who may soever be reading this, I strongly advise that you do NOT try SSRIs. Experiencing PSSD is debilitating and not something you want to have to deal with on top of already being sad. Sexual release is important (even for wizards). Please first attempt making dietary changes, exercise-related changes, sleeping changes, psychical changes in thinking habits, etc., before taking brain-damaging pills.

 No.290243

>>290227
>I'm afraid of PSSD.
That's part of what I defined as "extremely rare cases".
It's quite unlikely that you're going to get stuff like that. If you are very sensitive to drugs you probably know it already by now.

 No.290272

>>283944
Only non bs antidepressants are wellbutrin and maybe DXM if taken properly. SSRIs and SNRIs zombify you, you will see how much time you lost years after the fact. It's better to stimulate or dissociate to get a better frame of mind. I'd even say abilify can do wonders, since it resensitizes your dopamine receptors. But taking that every single day is insanity and equal to getting lobotomized. Whoever reads this, do some careful research before going in. You can lose years of your life on the wrong meds.

 No.290273

>>290272
i wish i had tried wellbutrin but i pussied out because one of the side effects was fainting

 No.290274

>>283944
I had the exact opposite effect on Sertraline. I gained fucktons of weight while I was on it and now I have nasty ass stretch marks everywhere. Never again.



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 No.283706[Reply]

Distant recognition from a goodsocietyman. Suicide: A Social and Historical Study, written by Henry Romilly Fedden in 1938.
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 No.287309

Graph to show that "such deaths had been multiplying for a hundred years" by 1938 in England and Wales
>>283713

 No.287311

>>283725
"They appear as products of a dehumanising process in society which has become so competitive it has no room for failure."

 No.287313

thank you once more

 No.287332

>>287313
Thank you

 No.290269

hey OP didnt you make a thread similar to this a week or two ago but with a different book? I wanted to save that book but I forgot. something about the machine and the abyss right?



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 No.289927[Reply]

I'm cursed. I have physical and mental disabilities that make life impossible.

I have no way to cope, I don't use drugs, I don't believe in god, etc…

Suicide might be my only option but I don't know how to do that, I risk to suffer even more. For example if I stopped eating they would put me in a psych ward with artificial nutrition. I thought about drowning myself but what if I just end up with water in my lungs.

I feel like I'm forced to live, how to escape from never ending pain? I'm the living proof of why people shouldn't have children.
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 No.289965

>>289964
This user is a drugpushing faggot and / or female who wants to see men suffer. This user needs to kill himself NOW.

 No.289969

>>289965
How is being in chronic back pain better than taking some painkillers and watching a movie?

 No.290002

>>289965
nice try

 No.290254

>>289927
Just jump off a fifth floor,that suicide method and hanging are the most painless

 No.290267

Aaahg,h,g this is just how retarded this life is I want to belong to somewhere so much I wish I was never born



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 No.289727[Reply]

getting angry, getting frustrated edition

previous >>285492
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 No.290250

>>290247
I don't blame ye, fucking tired of society and being a suck up goody toe shoes when the most evil shits in the world get everything they wanted, while I struggle to pay bills on my own and to learn some skills so I can get a more miserable job. It all ends in pain one way or another

 No.290251

>>290250
>>290248
As I said, my main focus now is easing the burden my parents pay (for ALL of the family) trough my disability bux, and then asking for 50% of that money from my parents for my own use.
A sort of neet subsidy, one could say. If I wasnt autismo Id join the menonite commune or something, they have comfy farm communities.
Best bet is to become an apartment hermit if I can ,somehow, isolate outide sound from my rooms for a reasonable price. Ye olde egg-carton trick?

 No.290252

>>290245
registering your address in some high cost of living city at a cousins place, collecting the maximum means tested NEETbux, but actually living in a small town and paying for rent in cash.

It's easily the lifestyle of a wagie but as a NEET.

 No.290265

was scrolling through some youtube subscriptions I had and found an interesting video about the history of work hours by a channel named historia civilis.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvk_XylEmLo

I have heard of the idea that man historically worked around 4 hours a day so its nice to see it discussed by a history channel. what do you think about the change in mans working hours wizard? I'm lamenting.
Ive heard it said that the Industrial age bought upon added luxuries (factory created items and the like) that the commoner could spend their money on and enjoy, but hats the point if industrial work hours gives you no time to enjoy anything? maybe in our modern day the luxury provided by industry is just zoning out in front of a tv or phone or computer screen numbing yourself until sleep time. I dont like it

 No.290266

>>289750
sorry to hear that flordiabro. I always thought flordia had some comfy spots, but then again its a prime sport for retirees to burn their money relaxing in the sun isn't it? I hope you can find somewhere comfy that you wont have to kill yourself waging to maintain



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 No.289465[Reply]

Up to the age of 17 or 18 I consistently felt sad and defeated already, but at least I felt alive, felt live I had a human being agency.
Now I barely feel human. I don't feel emotions, don't have any belief in myself, all my interaction with other people feels like I'm pretending to be someone, while Real Me is just a hollow husk. Consuming content doesn't work, I fail to engage with emotional beats, don't feel rewarded when I engage intellectually into something, it feels very weird seeing myself in the mirror because I think I've completely detached myself from my body after some years of NEETdom. I am capable of some intellectual tasks, but I get drained very fast. Like I can sprint something once in a while, but then I get burnt out and back to rotting, never finishing ever. It doesn't real that I could have an agency or make something or improve my life because I don't even feel like I deserve to be part of life.

Does anyone relate to any of this? Have you managed to escape it?
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 No.289696

This society is designed to snuff out any personal property or sense of yourself. If you're passively "consuming content", that's the problem - and the way this society goes, people are conditioned to be vunlerable to endless bullbaiting.

I'll be real with you - emotional attachment is one of the biggest crocks of shit that have been promoted. Humans don't have any particularly complex emotions. They get angry, hateful, jealous, possessive, elated, they find something to suppress the pain of existing, they find contentment. None of these emotions are worth indulging in, and they exist to guide us towards something substantive, rather than "for their own sake". We're angry or hateful because there is something for our emotions to regard, a world where those emotions are relevant. To ourselves, our emotions don't mean anything, and we would prefer mere contentment with ourselves as the default. We're not meant to be "constantly happy", and then given no concept of what "happy" even means and that whatever we have is never good enough for "society" in the abstract. It's all an aggro mind game when you give in to their model of psychology, and they beat you into accepting this with a lot of fear. It's not like this for the people in the know - they laugh that they make us go along with this Satanic cycle.

 No.289697

Of course, to have anything, we would require a security which is not allowed to exist, which is intentionally attacked by everything around us, and which can't exist in this time. That's not what humans are now.

The last thing they want is for you to have one iota of security. That would prevent them from stealing everyone's shit, and if that happens, everyone who is being robbed looks to each other, sees who and what is responsible, and begins purging violently the source of the problem like any mechanical solution would. This has been weaponized and directed against us, and the only other way it could go is to reverse what has been done.

 No.289698

Anyway, I never "escaped it", but I found ways to cope and build a small bit of life for myself apart from it. Probably the best thing was to stop lying to myself and stop acting like this society can be reconciled with, and it took me a while to truly embrace what that meant. It is helpful to find some small thing to remain connected, despite the pressure to "out" anyone who isn't part of this demonic beast. They've pushed aggressively to make the purging and counter-purging the only possible world, and it really is stupid that this is what humanity chose. We really didn't have to do any of this, and they won't get the world they want in purified form. But, as long as the bastards can dig in, they will fight an interminable struggle and make us go along with their world, set the conditions we have to operate within moving forward so far as they can - and it's pointless for us to play a struggle to do the same. That just creates more muck and rot.

 No.289717

>>289684
Life is not one of your fantasies. A solution to a problem is not set in stone anywhere. Life would be be a little bit better if more people just said "Well shit, I don't have the answer for you but I wish you the best" and just shut the fuck up after that than the neverending fallacy of "You didn't do X enough". There's a BIG line between teenage nihilist, "woe is me" bullshit and being aware enough about the situation that you're caught in a nasty catch 22. Hope just prolongs suffering, keeps the wound open. I don't care if somebody is too stupid to know when they reached that point or not. You play the hand you're dealt with. I'm tired of society gaslighting what hand we have playing poker. It can be sombering if you accept the fucked up situation and learn to make the most of it.

 No.290256

>>289471
I hate you fucking people. No fucking compassion whatsoever. You just want to feel good about yourself moralizing. Cocksucker.



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 No.287439[Reply]

I hate wizards who got substantial inheritances, or lucked out otherwise while being unable to work. 99,9% of the problems related to being a wizard are related to a lack of money and the fact normies hate even employing a non-neurotypical, making life an infinite paywall torture simulator where you can only look but not touch anything.

My life would completely transform if I even had 10k dollars to my name. Yet there are wizards who inherited an expensive big house and hundreds of thousands of euros or dollars.

They cannot sympathize with someone who is in a perpetual cycle of shit tier labor->pay absolute necessities->have maybe $20 extra at the end of the month-> repeat infinitely…

Because they play life on heaven mode where everything is unlocked and stress levels go down by 99%.
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 No.290229

>rich wizards
Do they even exist, why the fuck would they come to this site?
Imagine winning at life, you never have to work a day in your life, bout you're still such a presumptuous sick fuck you need to mingle with people with real life problems just to feel better about yourself.

 No.290231

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Are you guys even depressed?

Maybe if I got money I would feel joy for a short time but eventually I would develop a tolerance to substances, get bored from the good food, get used to my nice house, get bored from consuming stuff and get demotivated by how mediocre my artistic efforts are despite hiring private teachers…

I would be a bit happier overall and I would love to experience it but it would be no salvation. The whole problem is myself. I am tired all the time, I can barely experience pleasure and thus motivate myself, I have health problems… despite the wonders of modern medicine there is still many things it can't cure.

 No.290232

>>290229
What a stupid post. You're a dogfucker if you actually think like this and you're likely a stranger to reason so there's no sense in even pointing out the many easy examples for how you're wrong that can be found from five minutes of lurking here.

 No.290237

>>290229
No. Every rich person is a normalfag. Richfags won't ever be able to relate to real wizards problems, at most, I suppose they will be "depressed" for bullshit reasons despite having everything in life and think that's what makes them wizards, but that's like if a female came here thinking they know about the wizard life because they are virgins.

The reason most wizards are unhappy is because they are forced to deal with other people, if every wizard were rich they will no longer be unhappy.
>>290232
Your post is worthless and full of adhoms. You must be as worthless as your post.

 No.290249

>>290237
What counts as rich to you? I've lurked since 2013 and I came into roughly 220k usd in 2021 because my only living relative died.

If you compare me to Bezos, I'm a peasant. But the savings in addition to disability checks allow me to live quite well.

I'm still the same virgin who browses imageboards 12 hours a day, nothing changed except I can eat whatever I want with no regard to cost, and always have the best gaming pc physically possible.

Everything else stayed the same. I have nothing in common with normies. I don't work, I don't go out, I do nothing but stay at home.



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