/dep/ - Depression

>>307839
he's experiencing an episode be calm with him

>>307519
I'm only nineteen and already the decay has commenced. My back and neck hurts, my brain is fucked from years of anxiety and drug use.

>>307839
>What? Your post doesn't even make sense.

you say "it's over" but that does not help you one bit. you know what does help a small amount? exercise, physical activity, physical expression; kid's even used to call this "playing" before there were video games who took everything over.

my post was asking what kind of physicality you wanna try next so you don't dwell on how enshittified things are.

>>307841
>I'm only nineteen and already the decay has commenced. My back and neck hurts, my brain is fucked from years of anxiety and drug use.

you have decades of life left inside, find out how the healthy people spend their time. what do they do.

>>307843
figures you're an esl

You sound like you expect too much from other people. People are dumb and trash and worthless, you and me included. Stop giving a fk about them and start focusing on yourself and what you want in life. You will feel better afterward, trust me I am experienced wiz

And by the way this introspection intellectual slop you served us here will lead you nowhere, it sound dumb and pointless from an external viewpoint even tho its was likely very meaningful to you, so you should stop it, for your own good, its just a waste of energy, in my opinion.

>>307829
fact check: false

>>307830
> Stop giving a fk about them and start focusing on yourself and what you want in life.

What he said is true. Also if you actually live like that good things come automatic.

>>307829
>not care about what others think
ill just get my shit kicked in if its around the wrong person

>>307837
Are you so small and weak that you believe people will not only attack you, but also beat you every time? If someone gets violent, get violent back.

>>307745
I find myself desiring cutesy silly fun stuff as I get older.
It is what it is.
I can't stomach drama or "realistic" shit anymore. Not a homosexual though thankfully.

>>307723
I am nearing 30. I've been like that all my life. I have a friend but we share just the basic stuff, going to the same school, knowing same people, not that much in common.
When I was much younger I had several bouts of 'I can find myself friends and maybe even a cute girlfriend like in one of them animes'. It never went anywere. My attempts at finding friends get crushed by the fact most people i've encountered in my life are just plain retards with whom I can't discuss anything. We just don't share anything with them. I realized what's the point? I'd rather be in my own company that waste time and effort on fruitless relationships.

>>307747
>When I was much younger I had several bouts of 'I can find myself friends and maybe even a cute girlfriend like in one of them animes'. It never went anywere.
My vampire wife will arrive any minute now.
A yukionna will do as well.

>with whom I can't discuss anything.
What would you like to discuss with friends?
I used to have stuff I cared about and stuff I wanted to talk about with people, but nowadays I just don't have any interests or things to share.
I have to wonder why I even desire such a thing anymore in that case.

>>307748
>What would you like to discuss with friends?
What first comes to mind, vidyagames. Discussing what we playan or ever playing them with a friend somehow. That seems so alien.

I can share some experience with this.

If you haven't reached any milestones by your late 20s, now is the very last chance. After that it's well and truly over. I wageslaved during my 20s, thinking that if I just work hard I'll naturally meet cool people and maybe get a gf. However I was an awkward sperg which is why I spent all my time working, not really understanding how to socialize.

In my 30s I can't form a connection with anyone now on pretty much any level. I have a career sure, so at least I'm not homeless, but that's it.

Your brain does indeed calcify and what skills you perfect in your 20s are what you're stuck with.

>>307630
>https://alpha-stim.com/
Not sure this would actually help with your OCD, plus it seems pricy. In any case I recommend avoiding therapy unless you find a therapist that actually cares about you and can help you practice ERP. But modern therapy is completely freudian and most of the time therapists refuse to listen to you, so I recommend practicing ERP on your own.

>>307634
>modern therapy is completely freudian
What? The only therapy most insurances will pay for is CBT.

>>307640
Most CBT insurance therapists don't actually do real ERP. They do talk therapy with a CBT label. Proper ERP exists but is hard to find. That's why I think modern therapy is often useless Freudian-lite for OCD.

i think the clinic wants to see me locked up

>>307631
>but no matter how hard i tried online people just don't work to fill my void
I can relate to this. I still prefer being alone to being around normies though.

get a part time job and become frugal so you don't need as much money. move to a small shitty apartment that's walking distance from work so you don't have to pay for a car and insurance.

working seems like hell to me
i live off unemployment monies and when they run out later this year the rope is the only realistic option
it is also extremely unlikely I will ever be employed even if I try very hard to find a job

>>307767
the worst is there are some jobs where you work REALLY 4 or even 3 days a week out there. but like >>307770 said, you can become a freeter

what kind of work do you do, wizzie?

>>307774
Wow wouldnt want to be you

>>306994
under large remote trees is a spot i enjoy for meditating.

its not that bad. i only ever lurked here so im not totally sure what wiz attitudes towards substances are. why not try lsd and meditate on your experiences? read into buddhist practices and be cool.

>>304017
Are you Christian?

>>307560
yes.

>>306997
goodbye :3

>>307789
It's a curse that the Archons inflict upon those who do not enjoy feeling sick. This is why NEETs feel bad all the time. Forever vacation = forever ill.

>>307792
For some, freedom is only found within walls.

Work's been surprisingly fine for me this month… only hangup is the two old farts from the morning shift. One of them needs to retire, I spend 4 hours out of the day trying to dodge him… just follows me around stopping projects and telling me everything can't be fixed because he already tried.

>>303790
Security is actually not a bad gig for your typical wizzie and it can very rewarding, but you do need to get lucky with finding the right job I feel. Yea, you can probably just accept the first security job you come across if you're really desperate, but it might consist of you being forced to stand on your feet the entirety of your shift in some retail store or public facing venue dealing with NPC normies all day who want to fight you and cause trouble, and it would drain your wiz-battery pack quickly and then you would end up hating it. Here's some wiz-tips for finding an ideal security job:

1) Don't just accept just any security gig that you're offered, always try to ask around to find out exactly what the job consists of. It'll also depend on the security company you apply to, some of them will be clear and upfront with you about the job requirements as well as the locations you'll be working at, while others will be very evasive because they just need to fill the post and don't really care much about their workers. I would recommend avoiding those type of places. A decent security company will be upfront with you about their expectations as well as the work environment. At the same time you can't be a floor mat yourself and just accept whatever job post you're offered, if you don't think you'll like working at a job site - don't accept it.

2) Try to do some research on the security company that you're applying to and what kind of sites they staff, for example some of them will focus exclusively on public facing venues like security at concerts, retail stores, normie social events, and if you're just looking for some easy sit down on your butt do-nothing jobs, then you'll obviously probably want to avoid those. Try to get some previous employee feedback about the company that you're applying to, you can google the employer and their reviews and read what previous employees said about working there, whether if it's a good place or not. An ideal wizzie security job is one where you'll be mostly working by yourself, isolated from the general public and your duties mostly consisting of sitting down, occasionally doing some patrol rounds or watching the CCTV cameras on a monitor. Places like industrial areas, warehouses, after-hours medical facilities, etc. when all the normies are gone, etc. those can be good environments to work at.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>307815

only if zero criminal record. i have super minor criminal record, and was told yea, dont bother, it ll be a nite mare for you to become even an unarmed.

and even so,

could wind up like dude stuck deployed in bad areas. or worse, they put you someplace and are turned into a receptionist

>>307820
or maybe because hes some wizkid retard straight out of /pol/: "defend land that is yours" whats *yours* exactly? youre a fucking low status alienated, disconnected male - nothing is yours, nobody cares, theres nothing glorious or cool about being another body for society's "disposable" male meatgrinder. its pathetic on many levels. youre dying to protect succubi who dont give a fuck about you, just to be demonized post-death. failing that youll come back traumatized with limbs missing, having only killed guys forced into the same situation as you.

the only good thing about being drafted is getting the chance to shoot your recruiters or the archetypical hazing strongman posturing losers who bullied you like back in highschool.

>>307821
You either fight on better terms or fight on worse terms. Forced mobilization on occupied territories has been a thing since 2014 and only increased since 2022. Muscovian shelf life is way shorter, up to 12 days. The guys in Muscovy are not forced, they signed contracts to kill, as a result the financial burden was out on Muscovian regions with all negative economical consequences. Succubi actually often fight better than men and there's plenty of them on Ukrainian side. Ukrainians in Crimea were forced by Muscovy to fight in Syria too. If you value your life that much, then you're a privileged failed normalfag who didn't suffer enough.

>>307822
why don't you go grab a snack and take /pol/ elsewhere? you're cringe

>>307822
my life fucking sucks but im not enough of a beaten down wretch like you to glorify throwing his life away for a society that considers you dispensable simply because of your gender.

i dont care when it started retard, blah blah blah, the draft has been a thing for all of history, le russian bad whatever, i dont give a fuck about the politics of whatever side youre on and no wizard should (why care about geopolitics of a world youre outcast from anyway), youre some little polchud wizkid who still thinks falls for this nationalist koolaid like you think it gives you some meaning in life to pretend this shit matters and gives you a little hobby. i heard some stories about russian soldiers contracts being forced to be extended so they had to go fight, im sure thats true and theres always men forced to fight in wars on both sides. its not some cod campaign.

bro is actually falling for muh russian elite female snipers tier feminist pop culture slop about how succubi are better soldiers. "plenty of them" a la cherrypicked propaganda articles you eat up and in any case they werent forced to fight like the men are so i have absolutely no respect for them. its like a white person voluntarily going to pick cotton, its not at all the same context, they arent "better" when they can just up and leave when they feel like it and by virtue of gender arent compelled to go die. this is the only relevant and important part to me and to any wiz - that society says your life is inherently worthless because youre male, and if you subscribe to that notion youre an absolute subhuman loser scumfuck.

if youre enough of a moron to fall for this sort of hurr defend ur country!!!11!! rhetoric then youre a privileged little mong who doesnt have any real issues. a wiz who takes his own life rather than being bloodfuel for the normalfag war machine has 100000x more respect than some drafted bitch boy poltard loser who takes it up the bum and acts like its a good thing. theres wanting to die on your own terms and then being compelled to die because society says you have to. if you dont find that humiliating, youre chopped, as the kids say.

by shitting out this gross rhetoric youre also by extension advocating to maintain a worldview which keeps low status guys like wizards on the bottom rung and fair game to be treated like dirt and killed. i dont liPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I never belonged to this world
2 years of anhedonia have destroyed me

>>307071
I agree with you, considering 90% of the people did not even know how to read or write in the past it's absurd to believe religion took an important role in their lives.

>>307071
>>307476
>>307508
Pls sorry my engrish
There's a anecdote, I studing a music teacher career at university and we have a class around cultural-social-political context around music, the teacher of this class in a lot of ways act like a Materialist she joke sometimes about religion with some classmates about more specific around any type of Christian belief (she talk sometimes about shamanism and all the thing are focuses for now around western etc) she just say joke and etc, but i never see it as like its too hostile, maybe its bacause i a damn Atheist-Agnostic but she doesn't make me upset or anything or even i see she says too bad thing that can be offensive for someone.
>Well…
Well, one of our classmates is a believer of christ of i dont know what church type etc, she's a ex police, one day bacause of her job her brother is killed, later her father died, she got traumatized and she just got refugee in the church dogma and religion etc typical history, she lost the last class and yesterday we(in reality one of our classmates) told she that that teacher still have some joke-hostility to christianity things and etc (i dont say this, another succubi of our group is adventist and actually told this to her)
She started to babble and etc the typical sermon of god and life an belief and their life and later started to cry bacause this around supposed hostility of teacher around religion turn she very sad.
To me its fucking sad that look like in these moments these thing its her entire personality, its fucked up in a lot of ways and make me anxious.
Fuck, i hate this shit she probabbly fucked up but still babbling around religion bacause is just the first one last thing to mindfuck she and give some little hope of wathever fucked up thing happened.

>>307508
Even the monks in the monastery that had the luxury of writing and reading all day were supported by lesser monks who had to toil and labour. For every monk arguing about how many angels dance on the head of a pin, there were several other monks toiling and labouring to sustain him. The privileged monks were often the excess sons of the nobility that due to primogeniture had to be dumped somewhere. Simony was also rife, with almost every Bishop being from a noble family.

Local priests also had succubi and children despite it being illegal. The Catholic Church priesthood today is more celibate than it ever has been before in history, despite all the handwringing and fretting over illegitimate relationships. People never used to give a fuck if the priest fucked a succubus, now it's treated as a huge scandal.

The nuclear family is a product of the late 19th and early 20th century too. Families were a lot looser in the past because people died all the time. You had step siblings, half siblings, step parents, etc.

There's a religious instinct but these organized religions transplant themselves over it as a form of political control and to justify centralization. But if centralization can't totally be achieved, like with what you see in rural areas, a loose syncreticism is what you find.

>>307531
I blame the Reformation and the Council of Trent.

>>306501
abrahamic religion is inferior because it's not tied to ethnicity, it's the worshiping of another culture and veneration of the ancestors of rival tribes

>living is not worth it
I agree. I'm Christian and it's evil to say God sends people to Hell for suicide according to the Bible as it nowhere says this, in fact several Old Testament figures game ended themselves.
Isekaism, that is being forced to live over and over again sounds incredibly depressing to me.

>>307757
I just want to go to a magical medieval world and get reincarnated as a crown prince.

I actually died last year after some dipshit told me I could make a portal to Gensokyo by cooking pennies on a stove or something. The planet I got reincarnated to was 100% full of other reincarnated Earthlings. Instead of being all fantasy and cool it was just diet Earth with crappy tech. Same old groids. Everyone lied about what they were in their previous life while constantly having dick-measuring contests over who died the most brutally. I was friends with a guy who said he was a B-52 bomber pilot who, instead of bailing out, died steering his flaming plane away from a church full of kids. I found it suspicious that he was still so young so when I killed myself to reincarnate again I asked the angel responsible for moving my soul and she confirmed that it was total bullshit and he would have been an old man if he was telling the truth. Evidently I was reincarnated back on Earth Classic with a secret duty to fulfill and once that's done they say they'll try to reincarnate me as my younger self on to one of the dangerous but fantastical planets with its own native populace of cute witches. Apparently it was a fluke for me to end up on the bad planet in the first place considering I died a virgin so they just reset my entire record.

>>307760
the more I think about it, I see zero point in staying alive in this world

>>307812
here's a science pill i heard recently. "chicken is an egg's way of making another egg". this finished what scraps of spirituality remained in me. so yeah you're right there's literally no reason to stay alive. never has been.