/dep/ - Depression

Do your parents know about this and if so what do they think? If they are supportive of you they'd sell their properties and move to another country but chances are they're the typical mindraped leftist normies (no offense, mine are as well). Most euro countries will be full muslim niggerhell in a decade or two so my advice if you can't leave the country will be to fully disappear from both the normie internet and irl as much as possible, lest some antifa jihadists start doing cultural revolution type of hunts in the future. Also learn basic OPSEC.

>>308546
>assuming he has parents
He's probably the child of a single mum.

>>308547
Assuming you're the same brownoid as the one above my post it's statistically much more likely that you're the fatherless here. Proving the point that OP's only mistake was getting caught, there's no befriending with cousin-fuckers and voodoo cannibals.

>i am 18 years old
[-]

Lol, were you that guy on the soyjak.st image board that got doxxed?

>>308728
Well, at under a month old you have no memory of the event. I do at age 14 and it was agony even through anesthesia. The recovery was hell and peeing was hell for about one full month.

>>308732
Not having memory of the traumatic event doesn't prevent your neurons from their huge dose of shock though. Come to think of it, this practice could have been inspired by people who put plants through stress to stimulate growth.

>>308728
>>308730
I’ve written this before somewhere on the boards of other fora, but I’ll repeat it here as I think it has some worth in sufficing the truth:

Judaism “works”, that is — it is psychologically effectual — because the entire system is rooted in trauma conditioning. I would even go so far as to say that Jewishness or Yiddishkeit (yiddish for jewishness) is properly speaking a series of codified trauma reflexes affixed into the receiving mind at an age when the mind cannot make critical sense of what it is learning. Here’s an adumbrated list showing my thinking:

Circumcision: learned trauma reflex

Exodus (where evil goyim are persecuting you): learned trauma reflex

Holocaust (which we can agree here without any charge of anti-semitism was/is a dramatized historical event): learned trauma reflex

Contemptible goyim who hate you causelessly: learned trauma reflex

Yirat Ha’Shamim (hebrew for “fear of the skies/heaven”, the essential underpinning point of their “education” system, if you can call it that): obvious learned trauma reflex

Mesirah (the halachic precept that is the reflexive antitype of a mafia code enforcing punitive measures against jews who inform on jews to goyish authorities): learned trauma reflex

Kashrut (hebrew for propriety, meaning obviously properness in one’s dietary practices): learned trauma reflex that like circumcision binds the mind of the believing jew into a state of fear and self-chosen exclusion.

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>>308744
interesting take

>>308744
The problem of all religion and cultures is tribalism, bitch attention whore behaviour and absolute self importance with late victimism.
All of these things lead to shit nationalism or destruction of self identity or individual identity into the power of political power like "them" against "us"
There's no more "you" just Us.
This allow tribalism and identity identification without reasoning.
Thing like Jew or Nazi or gay or lesbian or Kekguy or Wiz or Crab lead to absolute total acceptante and reduction of Human condition to a artificial tag like these mask or identity or tribals structure, absolute destroying individuality and Human condition.
A mere simulation of ideal forms that never achieve a psychalystic form in the world of matter.
This is the pure manifestation of eucledian logic in modern world, an antinatural thing that lead of destruction of human condition if it got into power or even in the condition of democracy or totalitarian scheme. Its not about diversity, race, racism, inclussion or pride. Its not about nationalism, religion or political ideas. Its about power in the costume of identities.
There's no middle or "no" or "maybe" just the "this is this and its all".
Non-eucledian logic can turn you into a more human and healthy behaviour against this new artificial robot existence of retarded monkey trowing shit against each others based in stupid identities or "i that thing or" "i good and you bad".
When you achieve non-eucledian logic mindset, you achieve a shield against extreme stupid ideas and can get a big panorama of the real existence from matter world.
That the big "Maybe" in the power of human side, this maybe is the ego-death and dual mind in favor of human side against the robots of the future.
Bacause life and human is a process and not a rigid line of tribal and social machinery.

>>308555
My doc told me something about pancreas wearing down throughout years and years of eating sweets. Maybe the pancreas in to blame?

Besides, thanks for the reminder to go to the local doc.

>>308565
Update: aw shucks, lost my medical insurance certificate, fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuu–

>>308565
Limiting or outright removing all wheat and sugar is a simple provable means for halting pancreatic damage. No need to see a doctor for that.

>>308693
I've often wondered what my life would have been like if I had grown up without eating wheat.

Thanks for some of the interesting (scary?) posts you wizzies made in this thread. It solidifies the fact I will never EVER take antidepressants or SSRIs no matter how miserable or shitty my life gets.

>>308378
good choice.

>>308378
I think the motive underwriting the push for prescribing SSRI drugs is the same as for the motive behind projects like feminism and vaccines and abortions – fertility suppression for goyim.

I was on med(Z)for like ten years. Wasn't my choice obviously. It's all gay poison (J)ust my take. I got apathy from it but I think I always had that anyways, I never felt any symptoms in them besides sleepiness. I was on all of them dude all of them. I think overall they're just placebo's with chemicals. I think being sober of all chemicals especially drugs or beer is good and you can get high easily by just breathing and schizo projecting pretending, I need to be as healthy and strong as I can and beer or meds feel like alzheimer aids

>>308686
>or meds feel like alzheimer aids

they cause provable empirical injury to the brain. of course jewish psychiatric medications make humans feel worse.

Funny tricks for OP to try.
From someone who tried to watch SEL when they aired it.

Try logging out a little bit by:

1)use some old smartphone as your offline device (Gutenberg Project books, old books, .pdf of Popular mechanics magazines off Archive.org)

AND

2)set your main smartphone, your online device into silent mode on schedule (Do Not Disturb mode on samsungs and alike allows scheduling auto-enable and auto-disable schedule in pairs, say 22:00-07:00)

3. Check your EMR levels in your room and test your EMR sensitivity. What if you are constantly being affected by your Wi-Fi router? Try putting it into another room…

4. Get a y3k-styled chromed mp3 player, maybe?

>>305893
I think you may have far-sighted eyes. Which means you need reading glasses.

Regards, a near-sighted person who needs regular glasses.

I have finally realized something. The Internet now is overwhelming in terms of making a myriad of small decisions every time you want to do something poorly decined. Say, every time you just want to watch a *tube video to pass some time or scout for *something* that's interesting, you have thousands of videos to choose from and they're all "interesting".

The digital rabbit hole is real.

Next time you go to a computer, you make a short idea of what are you going to watch.

"Just spending 20 minutes watching 1 old short comedy movie from 1970s" or
"I need to look up how to sync up my old pc and new laptop"

If you want to try a new recipe, you may try to go to a nice bench near your local shop, and look up some recipes when you're near a store, not in the comfort of your home. (That's my guess, though, not a serious tested idea of living)

>>308749
>to do something poorly decined
>decined

Both "poorly defined" and "poorly decided" $(confused_smile_here)

>>305598
I recommend you to do what I do - watch old movies, play old games, read old books. Forget that the world around you is in the 2020s.

Watch youtube videos about the 20th century western world or Japan. Read old VNs. As long as you aren't a wagie, living in the past is possible.

>>308723
One vote for maintain course: just be 10% more mindful of documentation and job performance. Any wild swings will wreck your mental state and work won't appreciate it anyway (after working somewhere a while, bosses tend to cast us in a bracket you can't escape from).

>>308764
on the odyssey of a wizard, one shall be handed : The Tao

https://ia800507.us.archive.org/33/items/TaoTeChing/Tao_Te_Ching.pdf

>>308764
No one has ever achieved anything, whatever they did will be erased forever soon, people only think it matters because of the limited existence of humanity, but truly there’s nothing you can do with your life, “achievements” are a lie.

>>308771
>No one has ever achieved anything
You don't actually believe this.

>>308764
>23
you're still a toddler

>>308772
sorry you're in the depths right now and it's hard (or impossible) to see a light at the end of the tunnel where you have relief.

Do you have fluctuations in this feeling are there days that somehow you feel back to normal, even if it's fleeting?

Do you want more questions, advice, or something in particular? I can say i relate to the vague yet pervasive existential dread you're experiencing, but i also know being in the thick of it is hard to listen to advice or anything.

Like the fact that there's a grain of truth in what people have said: "you'll be fine" - cus in a sense you got through yesterday's battle - you were technically fine. So what's really going on?

>>308741
Similar notion from me, too. Ive found out drinking energy drinks gives me weird toothache, but quitting the energy drinks makes my teethache go away.

I do consume D3 viramin, and I have finished a bottle of 5-HTP this spring, but my K2 viramin is mostly untouched, waiting for me to finish it.

>>308687
The voices are real beings. They just only lie and make up shit in order to harass you.

When I started ignoring mine completely rather than entertaining their shit they lost their mind and started screaming and repeating the same sentences over and over. Like a robot that glitched out.

Anyway, normalfags will never entertain these ideas because The Science(tm) says it's not possible.

>>308761
my voices don't seem like a coherent being at all, while I sometimes get this unexpected stuff like this metahallucination, they mostly deliver this unbelievably disruptive and lame commentary upon my thoughts. Any attempt at interaction I get these annoying lines like saying one thing then the opposite the next. Sometimes replying to themselves.
I understand our voices can be very different and it's a big mistake to just assume other schizos have similar voices

>>308715
>I don't know what to say to him and I hope I didn't say anything wrong because I don't understand social cues. I hate being autistic so much because I'm scared I will say something wrong or be rude and I don't understand what to say to comfort someone or cheer them up.

Made me reflect on my own behavior because I often feel this way, but is it "autism" or just a lack of social experience of not being in contexts where you can emote and also genuinely not knowing what to say? What can you even say to someone with a chronic, debilitating condition like that? I'm sorry? That's horrible? Would a real person hug them and say something like "We'll get through this."?

I usually default to logic rather than emotion and try to ask questions and problem-solve; not that I can as they're mostly unsolvable. Most guys do this because we're told to not show emotion and experience situations where doing so usually backfires or effects no response so we stop, or like most wizzies never belonged nowhere and never had an environment where they could open up, so you don't learn, or unlearn, that feature.

Put any prototypical person in that context and they'd end up mostly the same, displaying "neurotypical" traits like a cold, flat affect and awkwardness. This isn't necessarily "autism". And this isn't related to anything you wrote, just that it's a pet peeve of mine. I hate the catch-all frivolous labelling of anyone slightly socially maladjusted (which can be attributed to all kinds of 1+1=2 type scenarios not necessarily some neurotic condition: a bullied kid will naturally be quiet, a friendless loner will naturally be uneasy around people). Othering people who naturally behave in certain ways due to their own particular lived experiences making them behave that way as neurodivergent alien-people is ass backwards imo. Imagine telling some young kid who didn't get a good start in life he's officially a broken weirdo down to his very genomes and he should expect a life of alienation and social faux pas for the rest of his days - how encouraging! Why not give him some ADHD meds too?

If you genuinely can't read social cues then maybe, but clearly you can, as you're concerned enough to write this post and didn't want to say the wrong thing and display enough empathy to worry if you offended him, e.g. you'rePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>308761
>The voices are real beings.
You claiming this is an even bigger sign of schizophrenia, if you keep feeding these delusions it might get worse before you realize so cut it out.

i succeeded at being a hopeless linuxoid. checkmate, evil god.

>>308644
I got some little rats and they just need to be pushed together.
I think I managed to get them off the plastic frame rather nicely.
Maybe try some of those?

>>308707
Mate, I literally keep a book of coincidence-like events in my life.

Sometimes, there are several of them in one go. Sometimes, there are little to none. And sometimes I am just too sleepy to get out of my bed to write it down…

>>308707
>>308751


when i was young i tried to dismiss it as random, or a coincidence, or just bad luck;

curses, thats silly or crazy! lol

Old man me, i am 100% sure i am under some kind of curse. and i talked to a stereotype gypsy lady, told me believed multiple family generational curses were all landin on and endin on me, and it was why my life was so fuckin weird. Didnt want to be involved, said it could jump on to people tryin to fuck w/ it for me.

But told me, take a bath, literal, in salt water, and helps if its Sea Salt. Could add other stuff, but salt was most effective.

i feel now, most of us are probably cursed.

100 years back, 500 years back, men w/ lives as fucked as ours we d be told, o yea so and so is cursed, talk to the town elder for solution to break it.

But, in our modern time we re told. Dude Serious, a curse, cmon its 2020s its BS.

i 1,000% believe im cursed and looked for a way to break it. Salt bath helps a lot, for me

>>308765
>salt

No way mate

Salt. A thing used to draw boundaries against spirits turns out to help you with your curse. Interesting.

>>308522
I meant like sacrificing a safer path to chase your dreams or something. I guess not all self-improvement paths require quitting your job. I don't know what you want to achieve so I am mostly talking about myself. I wanted to learn an interesting skill like math or art and make money or something and I don't think I can manage to learn them if I have to wagecuck at the same time, not like I am disciplined enough now. If I have a tolerable job though, I think I'd find it a lot easier to give up and just coast for the rest of my life without trying anything new.

>>308524
>I don't think I can manage to learn them if I have to wagecuck at the same time, not like I am disciplined enough now. If I have a tolerable job though, I think I'd find it a lot easier to give up and just coast for the rest of my life without trying anything new.
Had similar thoughts. If I failed to pursue anything I care about while a NEET with nothing but time then what makes me believe I would ever make progress while a wagie?
Your second point is probably right. Of course you might be different, but to me it became a lot easier to justify letting go/giving up.

life is so great for me, but I am terrible at graphic design

>>308522
>barely manage

Honestly, /wiz/ could use a thread on lifehacks that make our wizard-tier jobs easier. We totally should make a literal cybergrimoire.

>>308524
I have no dreams.