/dep/ - Depression

better to be physically disabled than mentally disabled… I envy you.

>>305373
brain damage?

>>305374
They CAN DETECT brain damage with MRT and stuff.

They CANNOT DETECT if your brain is loony-tier and youre not faking it

They CAN DETECT if your diet/sleep lacks a vitamin or two. But it takes time to run multiple tests so its easier to eat vitamins "to be sure".

>>305374
anhedonia, brain fog, ocd since 2024… and now pssd. yeah, brain damage.

>>305376
stop being a bitch.

>>305349
I am starting to think the sigma male truwiz posts are all made by one person

>>305350
nope i've seen at least a couple of other enlightened gigawizs out here. what a shame the only place we have yo go to is full of crabs who can't process external judgment.

I just had a targeted advert for schizophrenia on youtube and now I've been awake all night paranoid.

I had another bizarre dream, there was a prison and depending on the severity of the crimes inmates would have parts of their genitals removed. Like:
light crime = circumcision
medium crime = castration
heavy crime = complete removal of both cock and balls
this was just a dream and there is no methaporical meaning, it was just brutal punishment, has nothing to do with wizardry or "crabs" or troons

I'm a ghost. The world moved on long ago.

>>305009
That's just how old succubi talk

>>305011
I accidentally started to respect my mother thanks to you reply: my mother is a certified master of the art of "old succubi talk".


Feels good to know she's a pro at some "normal thingy".

>>305011
>>305013

thanks to your reply. (Sorry, a phoneposter's typo)


Happy New 2026 Year!

Wizard, warlocks, robots, failed normies, normies, chads, tyrones, simps, ALL THE MEMES can all agree

succubi.

>>302690
>>303702
I feel so much shame I think at least of my complexes stems from still not getting her a new extension cord + TV antenna (telly), a new hole in the wall (mirror), a small player (telly - VCR)

Start working out.

>>305213
meds + meditation to fix it. if you're already interacting with people you're basically good to go for anything. you've only got real problems if you can't leave your room of your own volition.
>>305214
what will you do when they die/disown you?

>>305221
>what will you do when they die/disown you?
Try to get a shit job. Maybe I have matured emotionally to be able to handle them now but I could also be stressed out of my mind like the last time I worked. If I can't handle it by then and have no other better ideas, I'll just kill myself. It's the same story no matter which NEET you ask if they don't have bux or wealth.

>>305221
>you've only got real problems if you can't leave your room of your own volition.
well I'm very close to that.
Didn't speak to a single non essential person (doctor, cashier etc) for long time. I already was very socially anxious before but this really makes it worse. I have an appointment with a doctor about this hair thing soon so i hope i get some meds..

>>305229
get some social interaction instead. of any kind. idk think of a hobby or something. wiz != crab != loser. neets who preach they're happy are faking it. they all end up hollow shells.

>>305221
Psych meds like ssri will make your dick numb forever and have anhedonia permanently, good luck living with that

Wizardly schizos, I need your input.
I was dragged to a shrink by my family and he prescribed me some injections, then Abilify 30 mg. He said I'm healthy, but need to deal with my depression.
But I've read that Abilify 30 mg is a lot for depression. What gives? He wouldn't tell me anything, except that I would get more injections and then hospitalized.
>inb4 stop taking the meds
I can't. My family forces me to take them and my mom makes sure I don't spit them out later.
Am I a schizo or what? What's happening???

>>305356
depends on many factors. where do you live? how old are you? why can't you just btfo your parents? e.g. how the hell could you be prescribed antipsychotics while being "healthy"? were you even evaluated? and why are your parents not explaining anything? like, wtf dude

>>305356
Please stop taking them before you lose your mind, read horror stories about these psych drugs, you will find plenty of material

>>305357
>where do you live?
Let's say I'm a thirdie
>how old are you?
Old enough
>why can't you just btfo your parents?
No, can't do. I live with my parents, their house, their rules.
>e.g. how the hell could you be prescribed antipsychotics while being "healthy"?
That's what I'm asking. Am I healthy?
were you even evaluated?
I was, but they are not sharing the results
>and why are your parents not explaining anything?
That's what I'd like to know too.

>>305363
R.I.P.

>>305016
as an emotional person, I can agree: good thing people like myself don't get to be in charge of implementing, "signing" new laws.

>>305044
If your only replies are "ur a faggot" and "ur a jew" you don't belong here, you look like automated shitposting bots and deserve to be ignored or even better banned

To all Wizbros, I implore you to start fixing your mental health by changing the food you eat to mainly meat, fish, animal fat, raw milk, butter, organs and the rest whatever you enjoy. Then try exercise, stretching, meditation. Get a pet. Channel your mana and try everything in your power to return to your natural healthy form. Do not for a second consider taking the neurotoxic globalist castration lobotomy poison that are psych drugs, does not matter what kind or brand.
Speaking from personal experience, I took SSRI medication for 6 months and still feel blunted emotionally and intelectually 10 years later, not to mention loss of proper feeling in the private areas, tinnitus in the ears, obesity and plenty more issues i did not have before.
CONSERVE YOUR SPIRIT AT ALL COST, NO MATTER HOW DARK AND NARROW THE PATH GETS. YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK AT THE MOMENT.

Also, i recommend reading We Want To Live written by Aajonus Vonderplanitz

>>305358
mom my problem isn't food my problem is that i'm so crippled by anxiety and hatred my stomach feels like a knot. mom i know it's hard for you to understand but once you slip out of society there isn't a way to get back in, just why the fuck would i care about what i eat? anything that i can swallow is fine i've nothing to live for and magic is spiritual not bodily

>>303691
I had a GERD-like booshi back in 2019


in 2020, I realised it was the "not so spicy" spicy food from work that was doing the inflaming stuff to me

>>303691



ok, just in case


try to eat 1 source of carbs only per month or, at least, week:

switch between:
rice/pasta+bread+buns/buckwheat "kasha"

to rule out undiagnosed GLUTEN stuff

literally bro…
who needs buy alcohol?

It's pretty easy to not drink if you're not around it.

Keep yourself busy, stop buying it and avoid situations where you might be tempted.

>>305313
My city basically has a liquor store on every street almost lol. In a 1km radius google maps shows 18 stores. This is also excluding the super/minimarts

>>305320
Was it really rape though? Maybe that goat wanted it…

Actually, I rarely remember my past. It feels like my brain is forced to forget it, but some phrases still stay with me.

When I was in 5th grade, a succubus told me I looked like a nerd and that I would end up alone because of it. I don’t understand why people think intelligence is something negative. People will hate you or love you for the same reason. I’m quiet and calm for about 80% of my day; the other 20% is filled with depression and despair.

About four years ago, my sister and I had a serious argument about my inconsistency with responsibilities, and she called me a liar. The next day, on our way to school, we took a picture in a photo booth. Her eyes were full of hate. I hate that picture as much as I hate myself.

Once, while playing League of Legends with random people on a call, someone called me a “goofballssion.” It sounded funny at the time, but now it makes me reflect on my personality and on what friendship really means.

>>305314
Twas a combo of "You have crazy eyes, like a maniac" + "Who knows what kind of shit you are thinking". Both were said by my female classmates.

>>305334
maniac on my wizchan! did you by chance rape a horse?

A lot of generic insults based on my weirdness and shyness come to mind. However one phrase I can remember so clearly was on my 25th birthday a coworker said "congrats on the quarter century". I'm 29 in a month. Also was reminded that the average death age is like 75 for men in my country. lots of us are going to croak around 50~60. I'm essentially already middle aged.

>>302846
>>303759
Now, whom should I listen to?

I used Discord for six consecutive years, and this experience helped me make the only friend I’ve had in my whole life. We will complete six years of friendship in September this year. (Like many boys at a young age, I was bullied, and that messed up my social interactions.)

Maybe you don’t need to join a Discord server to make friends, but you can look for online games that make you interact with people and invite someone to a voice call. If this person is very communicative, he will introduce you to his friends, and “friendship” will become something you build every day. Obviously, everyone has their own limit when it comes to talking to a new person, so it’s natural to have moments of silence.

Friendship is something you need in life. Just one is enough, but it has to be solid.

I have this problem, but I like to think my problem more than being "nervous to talk to anyone and make friends" is that im too adhd, or plainly lazy and dumb, to develop the routine needed to make friends. Thats how it works, no? At least when youre old, and thats the thing, once youre old youre set in your ways, if your ways were those of solitude *and* complacence in solitude, then well, youre kinda truly permafucked in that department. Your brain cannot register new people in your life thus no friends.

And yet it hurts, it hurts so much watching others make connections and friends. But perhaps it is not exactly that what hurts me, but rather the passage of time (completely in vain in my specific case), approaching death with absolutely nothing and no one to show for it.

Oddly I think I make good first impressions, but never goes beyond that because cannot be fucked to care about myself let alone others.

>>301328
Also this

>>301482
>usually about exchanging attention, validation and things like that but if you lack that drive then you won't see the point in it either.
In other words they become energized from socializing while you and I become drained. Its a losing battle.

>The key might be to just find drive in solitude without becoming a rabid consumer or mentally crippled loner, find whatever you're craving in yourself and not other people. 99% of social stuff is just vapor and noise anyway.
Kinda true but again, like it or not socializing expands a groups borders. So your hobby or whatever, will eventually become engulfed by this social monster.

>>302451
>4chong
>succesful
Excuse me what? Do you really believe this? 4chan at this point is a bunch of schizophrenic cliqueish terminally online faggots spamming the same threads 24/7. Literally. Im not being hyperbolic here, its literally the same fucking 100~ people talking to themselves, with 10 of them making 90% of the posts. Why do you think they removed the IP counter?
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>>301659
IRL people are too judgemental. The consequences for acting like a sperg or violating social norms IRL are too high. I prefer the internet where the consequences for fucking up social interactions are minimal.

>>305336
Hey, anon.

I don’t see a problem with sharing my experience with my only friend and how I see this world.

My friendship with him started in September 2020. I was 17, and he was 19.

I met him on a Discord server after he sent a message saying, “Today feels like a day I could put a knife to my neck,” right in the middle of a chat full of dumb jokes about school and love. When I read that, I just replied:
“Hey man, if you want to talk, send me a message. Some feelings hit harder because everything is still too recent, and it’s hard to see things clearly when you’re desperate.”

After that, we started talking about the usual stuff — anime, games, music, and things like that.

Over the years, our contact slowly faded. In a month, we exchange maybe five to twenty messages. Just enough to know if the other one is still alive or doing okay. For most people, this would mean “the friendship is over,” because there’s no real conversation anymore. But I don’t believe that. Friendships don’t die just because they change. They die when both people stop caring that the other exists.

Right now, we talk maybe once every three months. We send long messages about how life’s been going. It’s our way of giving each other a bit of hope in this sad world. I actually like it. We grew up, and the friendship grew up too.

As for my relationship with people in general: when I was a kid, I avoided human contact — not because I was scared or something, but because I just wasn’t interested. Drawing, math, and books felt way more interesting. I was distant from my family back then, and I still am. Maybe bullying affected me more than I noticed at the time.
My psychiatrist told me I have schizotypal personality disorder, which makes my depression worse. It sounds kind of ironic, since I work with culture and events and I’m always busy — sleeping three or four hours a night and working until late.

Going back to being distant from my family: at some point, I started to see human connections in terms of what they’re for. Some people are just there to say “hi,” “good afternoon,” or “good night.” Others notice you, point things out about you, and make you think later. And a lot of people only show up to say weird things that make you uncomfortable. You can’t really avoid any of this — it’s all part of being human.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.