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 No.302665[Reply]

had a schizophrenic crisis 6 years ago. because of that I lost 6 years of my life and also the second part of my youth. this will never come back and it just ruined my life. there's nothing I can do but be sad about that and cope.
I lost my ability to enjoy things and starting new things. I also lost good years of maybe school or training I could have done and get a job, but now all I can wish now is to have a bad job because it is all what I deserve.
in two years I'll be a wizard and all my dreams have been crushed by the schizophrenic happening.
all these years, wasted and will never comeback. of course some of you may have it worse but to me this happening crushed my soul and made me more depressed than before.
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 No.305298

>>302665
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if you are not taking any meds right now you should try cyproheptadine, a serotonin antagonist/blocker, ray peat recommends it for depression and schizophrenia

 No.305300

I've been hearing voices and having minor hallucinations for a year now. What I've experienced:
-being convinced I was dead and living in hell for a few days
-the voices always say disgusting things, like when I'm walking and I see a dog they say "you want to fuck that dog"
-waking up multiple times every night being convinced people have broken in my apartment
-strange sensations behind my eyes, like maggots are eating my brain
-strange philosophical and religious conversations, like going into the technicalities how so many people seem to be controlled by Satan
-complete loss of being able to be alone in my own head, constant thoughts of suicide but backing out at the last moment
I need to die one way or another soon, but each time I get the rope ready I back out.

 No.305301

>>305300
If you're vaxxed, then these afflictions are some of the late-stage terminal symptoms. You have two more weeks.

 No.305304

>>305300
eliminate all sources of gluten immediately. wheat/glutinous flour is mentally injurious to all who eat it, but specifically so to the sensitive and autistic. its causal associations with what we in modern language call "schizophrenia" are near infinite.

and no, this does not mean in wheat's absence to begin eating crappy gluten-free rice flour based packaged breads whose ingestion will cause your blood to be saturated with arsenic and mercury.

perhaps also eliminate all sources of solanine (that is all solanaceous vegetables, ie white potatoes).

take a complete well-sourced B vitamin daily (deficiencies in B1, B2, B6, B12, are each of them etiologically bound to schizophrenia).

get enough sleep always. 10 hours of truthful rest vs 8 of the same will give your brain an important advantage in restoring healthy function.

 No.305306

old person here.

all i can tell you is, if you re still in your 20 s or early 30s, you may think otherwise, but you re young and you have youth on your side.

dont dwell on the past. learn from it , of course, so you dont repeat it, if you can control it.

But you cant go back and un do or alter one second in the past.

And just focus on future and improvement.



 No.304864[Reply]

Its like it's this horrible world, full of horrible people, and it's so tempting to hate Being. To hate being itself. And fall into complete nihilism. But you have to embrace Being as it is. And yourself as you are. And just accept the place the Cosmos has given you. And even if it is your destiny to be friendless, ostracized, outcast by all. And to have a shitty job. And you just wagie and then you die forgotten. That's what you were put into this cosmos to do. And you just have to do it. And that's what it means to be a Man. And you just do your shitty job a little bit better each day. And you've made the world a slightly better place, even though the World still hates you back, and there's no reward for goodness.
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 No.305242

Jordan Peterson is the epitome of dishonesty. Terrible thread

 No.305283

>>304864
Part of me believes this post is reverse psychology to turn us into future mass shooters 🤔

 No.305284

>>305283
Yep - disregard the premise and manifest your own destiny. It might still suck but it will be your own.

 No.305299

>>304864
You should research and follow the people he's influenced by or sometimes str8 up plagiarizes instead.

You'll get a lot farther.

 No.305305

>>305242
he's a jew puppet; a proud jew puppet. honesty is not discoverable in that line of work. but he is knowledgeable of himself, enough that he works for the jew, so no excusing quarter is owed him.



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 No.304361[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.305237

>>305236
>So many things coincided for it to happen
Cohencided*. It was by design.

 No.305249

>>305236
Never trust a jew. Troonery is saint in comparison to the evils they are yet to unleash.

 No.305265

>>305236
>Troonery
Troonery is the logical endgame of female worship which permeates 95% of present-day media. There is no escaping it unless you're fine reading old books or listening obscure music genres. Everything else is either straight up gynocentric bullshit or social related crap, succubi dominate social games and society as a whole so of course they'd be at the spotlight of this. Introversion and spirituality are male dominated topics, but obviously they are greatly lacking these days. It cannot be any other way tho, I mean, in a ehhh I'm sorry for using this word because it often carries negative connotations but yeah, in a capitalistic society.

 No.305302

>>305237
>jews
No and yes. They saw something to exploit and did so.

>>305265
>logical endgame
In a sense.

As a wizard that consumes troon porn, you can see the transecting lines that lead up to this point. Before, transfaggotry was relegated to some weird ass curiosity, usually seen on some kind of documentary or a segment on a late night show and as it's own niche porn genre. I don't think it even figured that much in the faggot brigade which was primarily focused on fags and dykes.

This *current trend* of transfaggotry could only have happened when it did, with nerd hobbies being hijacked by the mainstream, social media and dating landscape expanding to destroy self-esteem (low status nerds just giving up on succubi) and rebuilding it in degenerate ways (nerds becoming the gf) and porn addiction and a need for novel porn taking hold thanks to easy access porno among many other things.

I'll continue my thoughts on this later.

 No.305303

>>305302
I mean, there's a reason trap porn, and SPECIFICALLY trap porn, started occupying huge sections of 4chan (and other altchans) in the early 10s. You could post any kind of porn on /b/ including faggot porn yet it was only in the early 10s when trap threads became ubiquitous. It's like a collective "psyche" just gave up at that point.


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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.304670

>>301262
>It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.


vent your apartment
go to sleep early
wake up early

 No.304671

>>304651


r u sure its not some Jordan with some Afghan Borzoi doggo pet?
set up a cam

 No.305050

>>304646
I've been researching and apparently some people crash from ginger and other organic serotonin antagonists, I tried for a day but I wasn't sure to keep going after I read some people's experiences

 No.305150

>>305050
I couldn't surmise that there would be any danger in incorporating a small amount of grated organic ginger root into your daily tea/water. I did this myself years ago and found no harm from it. It was one of the first serotonin antagonists that I had discovered to which I had no ill reaction.

Ginger, B1, Magnesium, Vitamin E, total discontinuation of the offending drug (ssri, etc.), eliminating fluoride, sweating, belief that things can and will improve – are all helpful weapons in fighting pssd, all of which can lead to cure.

>I tried for a day but I wasn't sure to keep going after I read some people's experiences


Be mindful that many in the "pssd community" do not want others to improve. This is not say that I am calling into question their claimed experiences with certain herbs (ie, ginger), but at least in virtue of my own experience with pssd and the trying out of different serotonin antagonists of variable strength, I can say I do not feel you need to be afraid of crashing on the ingesting of some ginger for however many few days. Ginger has been used safely for thousands of years; even in antiquity high-class etairai (greek prostitutes) would mix ginger into the drinks of their clients so to encourage arousal.

But like in any personal experiment, proceeding gradually by steps, not over-running one's goal, being watchful for any sensitivity in the diet to the introduction of a new element, is always a wise course. So ultimately it is up to you. But don't ever lose confidence that your brain can be restored to its original healthy chemistry…whichever restorative path you end up following.

 No.305297

>>305150
I've also noticed that everyone in the "pssd community" is terribly dishonest, there is so much toxic positivity going on. So many people think their condition is a fundamental aspect of their personality and spend all their precious time discussing their symptoms. That can't be healthy… I never want to become like that.

>Magnesium, Vitamin E, B1

Do you recommend dietary supplements or rather only finding it in natural foods?

Thank you for reassuring me about ginger. I put some in my tea every day now. I've been doing cardio, exercising, and eating healthy without fail. And thanks for your previous advice, I wish all wizs would realize what you said about serotonin and the people behind it all - this is truly evil.

Anyway, I hope I have what it takes to keep going. I'll try not to lose hope, it seems that dopamine receptors take more than a year to heal. By the way, I don't even care about libido that much anymore, I think I've accepted that's how things are now. But I can't accept the anhedonia… Climbed up a hill yesterday and felt nothing. It goes away sometimes thankfully. Sorry for blogpost.



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 No.305084[Reply]

>even the extrovert normalfags with an excellent social and sexual life are on multiple drugs and getting therapy
I'm absolutely done for, dude. Even my life improves, I'll still just be a monkey to the rest of them. Fuck.
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 No.305190

If you've been keeping up with normies the last 10 years have culled them. let's say if 80% of people were normies in 2005, now it's barely 50%. The rest are now failed-normies or whatever term you want to use. Most people are isolated or turned crazy

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>>305190
2020 have done A LOT to keep normies … well, not so normalcy-oriented, if we remember it right

 No.305277

>>305190
this is interesting
I always wondered what the "society is collapsing" posters really meant

 No.305279

>>305260
2020 was a great divide. It pushed many people into extremisms, whether it be politically, socially, deviancy or in any other manner you can think of. Very few people have a "Oh well that happened xD" as their true feelings about the lockdowns, I overhear 1,000's of coworkers and customers talk about it over the years. One group that got extremely nudged to insanity were small business owners, imagine working hard in a bakery you are putting blood sweat and tears into just for it to be forcibly closed. Your stock goes to waste, your rent/lease still needs to be paid and you're given like 10% of your actual earnings for compensation. Forced to sell up or give up, all the while McDonalds and KFC could still operate selling that genetically modified and chemically enhanced normie slop.

>>305277
I do too, I believe it's how Westerners are embracing LDAR (Lay down and rot) whilst 3rd worlders happy to work for peanuts take over and then those in charge inevitably make us corrupted (even more so) shit hole nations. Seeing a doctor in 2005 was easy, took 1 hour. In 2035 it'll take all day and cost all you have. Same with ALL services, unless you can pay your way to shortcut it. Good luck with that, as the min wage will have no purchasing power at all aside from enough to keep you alive to work another day, and that's if we are lucky.

Rough times ahead for all of us. Looks like the Elite will finally have humans domesticated like cattle soon.

 No.305295

>>305279
Oh yeah.

truly, 2020 was a great divide. All and all, I was on the lucky side in 2020 so got to experience the "haha normies getting rekt", "haha antivaxxers be mad", "haha oxford vaccine project rekt" haha fun and next to none of the "when will this eeeeeeend???" woe.



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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.305165

>>296511
dying and suffering in agony is so lonely. i have few days to do it at most and i still have no clue how to defeat SI despite my life being over for a long time. wish i didn't care about anything and was normal about it like everyone else who just kills themselves cause they failed a college exam. i want to just walk out of here and not see or hear anyone from my family ever. i'm dying from endless diseases, have drug-induced dementia and i'll run out of drugs and get seizures or strokes in a day or two. anyway, my method is and always will be train since i have no home or even room to myself, so i cant do anything at home and im a tard that would fuck up every method that required caoabilities. doesnt get easier than walking in front of a train, im just a coward and ill never change. if i wont do it ill end up in prison mental ward hospital in a loop till im 100 years old or die earlier.

 No.305168

>>305149
Now that's a Socratic thought indeed.

 No.305174

>>305165
>wish i didn't care about anything and was normal about it like everyone else who just kills themselves cause they failed a college exam
Does that really happen?
t. highschool dropout

 No.305175

>>305174
Yeah. Though I don't know why you both belittle those people. If the college was their only chance to not live a worthless subhuman life, it's perfectly sensible to suicide.

 No.305293

>>305160
I've thought the same thing as you, my guy. Lately though, I feel like I came far too early. The technological singularity feels like something that'll be close to happening by the end of my lifetime if I were to keep living.

I envy those who'll be born within at least 2030, because I believe the children born in that time will get to experience it fairly young.

Unfortunately, a lot of us are gonna be stuck here, waiting in a shithole that seemingly moves at a snail's pace when it comes to the technological singularity's arrival.


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 No.305176[Reply]

Do you take any medication? I am currently taking sertraline, and it has reduced my PTSD symptoms by a lot. I still think about past trauma, but it happens far less often than it used to, and the thoughts no longer feel as overwhelming. It is like the volume has been turned down on memories that once dominated my mind.

Because of that change, I feel more hopeful about the future. The medication has not erased what I went through, but it has given me room to think, breathe, and live without being constantly pulled back into the past. Having that extra mental space has made it easier to imagine a life that is not defined entirely by trauma.
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 No.305287

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>>305263
>Through sertraline, I have been able to discover a sense of kindness and peace within myself, even while the world around me remains unpredictable. It has helped quiet the constant inner turmoil and allowed me to approach life with more patience, clarity, and emotional balance.


Welp!
1. Good for you I guess
2. Well, my fear is, they'll suspect a yet another form of schizophrenia rather than JUST prescribing me a cute and adorable modern drug "because it runs in yer family!" and "well, depression is a symptom of SCH, loony!"
3. I am not sure about the hostile guy here, but he probably had been the bully type due to his *potty*load of problems in his life that made him Wizardchan tier

 No.305289

Desvenlafaxine 50mg, which is good since I've gone down from taking 100mg + two other medication to just one.
Having a routine and exercise has helped me a lot as well.
My 20s were a lot of trial and error with SSRI's and Benzos and other shit. Feel more stable than ever now, still get down moments tho.

 No.305291

>>305176
OP, I eat some pills too.

Multivitamins:
B12 vitamin, x10 the daily dose
+ some other vitamins to compensate for my lent-based diet

Magnesium. Just like in "Disco Elysium". Kinda helps.

Vitamin D.
Well… sometimes. I prefer cod liver

Also, avoid cola. It has caffeine. I cannot sleep. Oh wait I have a nice non-prescription thingy to drink! Bye!

>>305183
Today I learned what NPD is. Your "a terminal case of victimhood" wording can be applied to a person with narcissistic personality disorder. And, well, a disorder's disorder, so there no shame in getting a pill against that.

 No.305292


>>305289
>SSRI's

oh! oh! i remember something.
L-tryptophan is the thing your body makes 5-htp from, and 5-htp is used by your body to make serotonin!

I have some 5-htp sup pills left lying in the kitchen. I get my l-tryptophan from scrambled eggs with ketchup, mostly.

>>305291

 No.305296

>>305254
I disagree… I think doctors are never honest. I recommend avoiding them at all costs, human beings are not meant to take medication. I already posted about this in another thread but I took a few prozac pills and for more than a year after I have had no sex drive and suffer from almost constant anhedonia. It almost feels like being dead yet still alive. That dishonest doctor pretty much accused me of lying too… Unless you truly believe it helps, and it's not just placebo, please throw the pills in the toilet wizs.
>>305255
I hear you, but I think it's important to remember PTSD heals naturally over time. Even if it takes 5 years to heal completely I would prefer that to becoming numb forever because of medication. Glad it helped you at least, that's what matters. These meds are really a cruel lottery.



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 No.305228[Reply]

I think age 31-32 was the point where I realized I'm too autistic and weird to ever have 'normal' things in life.

I will die either institutionalized or in some shitty rental with nothing to my name. Nothing that I dreamed about will ever become true.
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 No.305241

We're not born to be happy.
This planet is not for us it is hostile.
Very few have a decent life without issues.

 No.305244

>>305241
Very well said. You need to have 0.01% tier luck to actually have a life worth living.

 No.305271

I've never actually had any type of dreams. I'm probably an NPC or whatever kids these days call it. There was a point in time where I wanted to have a lot of money but I've never actually seriously had my sights on any type of specific work or education.

 No.305282

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Honestly, my life is full of the moments where I asked for this, and now I have to live with it. Feels lainpilled…



…guess I need to friendmaxx.

 No.305290

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I wonder what are those normal things in life OP mentions. Because things like owning a home and the such are becoming more and more scarcer.



 No.305123[Reply]

People like to say suffering “builds character” or “makes you stronger,” but that idea is only half true at best. Struggle can force growth when there’s support, safety, and room to process what happened. Some people do come out of hardship with deeper empathy, resilience, or clarity about what matters. But that growth isn’t automatic, and it’s not owed to the pain itself. Often it comes despite the suffering, not because of it, through reflection, help from others, or sheer luck in having the resources to heal.

Just as often, suffering doesn’t strengthen someone at all; it wears them down. Chronic stress, trauma, and loss can rewire the brain toward fear, numbness, or hopelessness. Instead of “character,” you get anxiety, depression, mistrust, or burnout. Saying suffering is good for you can quietly invalidate people who were harmed by it and never got the chance to recover. Pain isn’t a forge that reliably produces stronger people, it’s a risk. Sometimes people adapt and grow, and sometimes they’re left carrying damage that was never fair to ask them to endure in the first place.
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 No.305269

Anon, Elon Musk, one of the greatest man, has been bullied his whole life and is a lolcow, and every clowning on him makes him more popular. Bullying can be a gift.

 No.305270

I don't like it when people say that because in my case it just made me numb and less able to connect with people. Not even that I mistrust them or whatever, I don't really dislike them either, it just feels like I no longer have it in me to crave any type of approval or anything similar to that. I think that if I didn't struggle as much as I did as a kid that I'd probably have turned out differently, more compassionate than I am today. That is not really to say that I'm unable to feel compassion, but I've just reached a point where I'm not actually feeling these things and being aware of it anymore, it feels like I'm reacting to something else instead of me actually having some type of recognition of the fact that I'm feeling remorse or anything towards someone. It's weird to describe and explain, but pretty much I don't feel as I did in the past, seems like instead of me having a set of emotions I can actually differentiate from other emotions and being aware, I'm instead just not feeling like I can be aware of these things, but instead I display it as though it affects me, and it definitely does, but I'm not aware of it as I might have been before. I'm not sure if I can blame it exclusively on my past, I'm also on medication which I've been on for some time now and that could also be the reason as to why I feel like this. But I was also more or less the same back when I wasn't on medication.

 No.305272

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The phrase "suffering makes you stronger" has an implicit assumption: you're already strong, i.e., you can find meaning in your suffering by deeply analysing it and using it for your own observation and improvement, not a material form but a spiritual or psychological one, like understanding the causes behind someone's behaviour and not taking it personal.

Recently I was watching a yt channel where the youtuber was ranting about her life and she was unable to watch herself but as a victim: everyone was mean to her "just because"; but she couln't analyse her own behaviour which, in fact, was the common factor to all of her social problems. Another people might not feel as a victim but neither they can analyse their past, they will just… bear with it, not in the sense that you don't give a shit but in the sense that you deserve all the shit people throw at you. You can cultivate resentment, low self-esteem or personal growth, that is up to you.

 No.305275

>>305272
you make important omissions.

first, babbling is a part of the process of "figuring it out'. of course, if you don't put a conscious effort into it, you'll just be babbling forever, but even if you *do* put effort into it, you will still babble until you "figure it out".

second, it's not really "up to you". what is up to you is how you use your "good time". by "good time" i mean periods when your brain functions ok. but if most of the time your brain is NOT operating ok, then you can't "figure anything out"

 No.305281

>>305269
>Anon, Elon Musk, one of the greatest man, has been bullied his whole life and is a lolcow, and every clowning on him makes him more popular. Bullying can be a gift.



"Oh we11! Th3y bu11y me a lot! Which 54y5 a 1ot about my achievwments" card requires knowing how pull it right e.g. kn0wing your rights



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 No.305203[Reply]

I am physically disabled with many symptoms, I can't work or anything, nor do I have money for any hobbies, I can't even cope with suicidality since I am afraid of dying and the after-life (call me superstitious) and honestly it's not that bad either for me in most of the days in regards to my health as my family still supports me and pays for my medication, it's mostly that life feels utterly-empty for me.
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 No.305268

>>305251
I am miserable enough as a wagie but if i were still a N.E.E.T I would have attempted to K.M.S

 No.305273

>>305267
nigger

 No.305274

>>305273
they're just upset they got fucked by the jews and we didn't

 No.305276

>>305274
one-day when you start taking drugs you will realize life is not that bad.

 No.305278

>>305276
one-day you'll wake up on the road to Israel



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