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 No.230820[Reply]

So how do I get out of this?
Is there a way normfags can help us?
I've been seeing a therapist.
I always feel angry, anxious and I have crying outbursts for no reason.
Also angry often I'm afraid I will hurt my parents one day. I feel time goes twice as fast and my time is running out. I want to make drawings express my self but I wast my time watching movies and fapping while my time is running out.
How do I get out of this?
Can we help each other here?
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 No.231021

>>231019
His style is definitely reminiscent of that Zarathustra book, but I doubt he has any actual real beliefs and convictions. Probably just a retarded contrarian that finds fault with every perspective for the sole purpose of looking down on others.

Going after pleasure, avoiding pain, seeking order in the world? Pffft, that's what The Majority does and I don't mean the majority, I mean The Majority capitalized. Meanwhile, he absolutely revels in the delight of larping as philosopher online, but that's not "happiness" in the normalfag sense, of course. If you disagree, get some Reading Comprehension™ and have sex, i/n/cel.

 No.231022

>>230820
I don’t know.
Some other lad who gets wasted biweekly, ploughs through gfs and is invited to events bimonthly had a micromeltdown about an Autism self diagnosis and got pined for by all of his fucking mates while I spent 40 minutes on the bus trying to prevent myself from having a grand maul seizure because the sky was clear, and nobody has or will ever truely empathise or understand.

 No.231023

>>231019
The core views and thoughts of The Majority are to "feel good", is that not what you yourself suggested when you said that people only do things for pleasure? As I sated before The Majority assumes everyone is the same as themselves, which is why you think that, and also cannot comprehend anyone who thinks differently than yourself. The Majority flees from pain and despises anyone who says they are unhappy. If you had read what I previously wrote you would know what I find beneficial about suffering and pain. " It is clear to myself that negative thoughts and feelings are what causes one to question oneself, to doubt ones actions, to reflect on things, to introspect, to truly and utterly change if you would only listen to it.". Read what I write.

>>231021
I'm assuming you are the psychology shiller? Why are you hiding over here yet still reading my posts like I predicted? You will throw shots at me with others but run from an argument when engaged, only proving that you are in-fact what I said you were, a coward.

 No.231024

>>231017
If you seriously followed apathy you would not be here to reply to me. If you wish to die, then die this second; why delay? Go outside now and find the height on which you may throw yourself off. Those robbed of emotion, purpose, and consciousness are only left with bodily pains and cravings; death becomes your first and last answer. Your goddess apathy is nothingness, so join her in that nothingness. Obliterate yourself as a sacrifice to her, for what could be a finer offering than yourself? Any living or thinking being causes her disgrace, offend her no longer, make haste and leave everything behind so you might elope with her into that endless void.

 No.231025

>>231023
I "ran away" because there was nothing to argue against. Your views are clearly inconsistent and the meanings of different words and phrases shifts according to your needs. Your go to strategy is to be as vague as possible, never provide definitions for the specialized meanings you have for certain words and then accuse others of projecting views you do not have or lacking reading comprehension. Here's a protip: if people are indeed continually misunderstanding your drivel, you should aim to clarify your points.

>It is clear to myself that negative thoughts and feelings are what causes one to question oneself, to doubt ones actions, to reflect on things, to introspect, to truly and utterly change if you would only listen to it.


Sounds an awful lot like psychology to me. I mean, introspect? You meant shining a light up your arse instead of the mental exercise, right? Careful there, you might find yourself contradicting your entire rant about psychology. Seems like you're using psychological tools, and for what purpose? Presumably, the negative thoughts and feelings go away after motivating you to change? Could it be said that you've used introspection to figure out the problem (since diagnose is a loaded term for you) and then solved it? One could say that you've noticed a causal relationship between the state of the world and your own emotions? And would this theory not be psychological in nature? And would taking appropriate action as you saw fit be therapeutic and alleviate the suffering caused by your affect?

No, I must be mistaken. I'm just reading too much into it, again. Ah, curse you Zarathustra, you have won again and I have no choice but to accept that I am a coward indeed. You have diagn- err, figured out the problem correctly, I am simply intimidated by your poetic, life-affirming prose. I shall take your advice and interpret these negative feelings of shame and try to introspect, so that I may change after all. You were right, psychology was not the answer after all.



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 No.228904[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread.

Thomas Ligotti - The Conspiracy Against the Human Race:
https://img.fireden.net/tg/image/1518/55/1518559287999.pdf
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 No.230943

The book in the OP reminded me of this https://legacy.gscdn.nl/archives/images/suicide_note.pdf

 No.230958

Does anyone else get a tinge of anxiety around their birthdays after another year spent without progressing in life? I know it's not exactly a long term plan to just live off my parents and every minute I spend not progressing my career means a worse outcome for me once my parents die and I have to support myself. I've started exercising and learning a language but that's not a plan that's just something to help me cope with the anxiety. I feel like I'm falling into a pit of no return. I'm not sure I can go back to slaving mindlessly and meaninglessly as society collapses around me without becoming suicidal again though.

 No.230960

>>230958
Hello past me, I'm future you. It doesn't get better.

 No.230991

I really really want to go back to bed instead of forcefully getting up for the day. Fuck wageslaving.

 No.231020

>>230958
Stop caring about the future.
Carpe diem to the extreme.
Do what you enjoy until you can.

It is better to live a short life doing whatever you want then to live a long life slaving away. Just give yourself to your passions, hobbies and interests and stop caring about the results of your behavior. Tomorrow will take care of itself, you just focus on reaping pleasure after pleasure and having a great time while you can.


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 No.229314[Reply]

Street cat who has the habit of sneaking in our kitchen. So I cornered her there and went on squeezing her hard against the ground with a broom stick for 30 minutes.

Now this same cat had ruined the water filter before, but even then only cuz i scared her into hiding under the sink and next to the filter in the first place.

She’s sick now all cuz of my pettiness. I have far bigger problems and enemies in my life, but I took it out on her.
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 No.230518

>>230517
Agreed, hurting other people to feel better about oneself is one of the quintessential normgroid acts.

 No.230525

You have done nothing wrong OP, its vermin that steals and spreads diseases. I am sorry you live in some shithole where there are stray animals around.
Forget these cat worshiping morons ITT.

 No.230529

>>230525
Absolutely vile. I hope he has fun in the seventh circle of hell.

 No.231012

fuck you worthless cunt never do that shit again

 No.231018

>>230230
Cultural and genetic consequences from all the unimaginable rape and torture mongols did on eastern slavs linger til this day, you would be surprised, how popular is animal torture among russian kids.



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 No.230896[Reply]

How do you cope with being ugly? For me every hope of having a normal teenagehood was shattered by outbursts of acne which made my face an unsightly mess. succubi always mocked me for something i didn't choose and guys treated me with indifference at best, and even in my 20s I still have visible scars on my cheeks, in short I never had a clean face since i was 10. But even if the scars were to magically disappear overnight I don't think I'll ever psychologically recover because the damage is already done. Are there any other unattractive wizards who chose to make nature a favor by not reproducing?
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 No.230899

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>mfw acne scars

 No.230900

Ugliness doesn't necessarily make you a loser at life. If you can't compete with the dominating race in your country you can go to poor asian countries or any place in the third world. Even if you're 3/10 you can be a 5 in a different part of the world and it'd be even better if you have some sort of income. But this endless loop of chasing life desires will never make you happy/satisfied.
Also try to find somewhere else on the internet to share your thoughts. 4chan for example.

 No.230903

Ugliness destroyed my life. Don't listen to people who tell you "it doesn't matter bro" etc. Yes it matters. Actually, it's the first thing that people see in you. Whatever you do, nothing will change this second they will see your face, your height, your body, etc. Everything happens before you even take a single breath.

Personaly i cope with avoiding as much as human contact as possible. I know that whatever happens i will ALWAYS lose in a social relation. I will either be rejected or subdued. There is nothing to do about that. Wearing a cap, sunglasses, headphones and avoid looking too much at people. Works for me, so i don't even have to talk to people (automatic cash check for example).

 No.230904

I have body dysmorphic disorder and ever since I noticed a small imperfection/asymmetry on my face at 14 years old I lost all my confidence forever, I haven't been able to look people in the eyes since and have been battling with agoraphobia after I finished high school for the past 7 years, when I get really upset about it I punch myself in the face until I get a black eye or my nose starts bleeding

 No.231016

Wear a mask.



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 No.230600[Reply]

Bitcoin. How many other Wizards, other than myself, missed out on their chance to eternal NEETdom? Personally, I've been aware of Bitcoin since 2009. I even mined it for a time before giving up. To rub salt in the wound further, I was even friends with many people who invested in it, yet never followed their example myself. While this is mostly due to the fact I was rather young at the time, even a small change of heart would have made me a millionaire right now.

For a long time, you were either born into riches or worked hard to get there. Now you'd be rich if you put spare change into internet funny money years ago. It's not fair, bros. And the regret will haunt me for the rest of my life.

If you have some crypto regret stories, share them in this thread so that this poor wizard might not feel alone in their mistake anymore. Wagecucking is so much more painful when you know you could have avoided it entirely.
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 No.230618

>>230602
>Friends
More like internet acquaintances.

 No.230621

I literally tried to invest 20k into it at a point when I could have multipled my money by like 10 times but the exchanges locked me out. They proved long ago that the markets are manipulated by a single large player who can create up and down swings however he wants them to funnel money from unsuspecting rubes. I had timed it perfectly but they locked me out and I was too lazy to sign up for another exchange.

 No.230622

>>230600
Oh no the crypto regret wizzie is back with his daily "tfw no crypto millionaire" threads.

 No.231014

>>230600
started scraping together some bitcoin earlier today online after a wizzard from another thread tought me how to do surveys. Only have 20 dollars from like 3 hours of work but if i do this every other day i might be able to scrape some together to buy another crypto before it moons with it

 No.231015

You could have also invested into apple or tesla 10 years ago and made a ton of money. You could have published that book about the story in your head and made a lot of money. You could have bumped into the right normie who liked you for some reason and gave you a chance at a cushy well-paying job. You could have pursued another hobby and become a successful youtuber who makes ad revenue through his videos. It doesn't end.

At the same time, you could have enlisted in the military and had your face or legs blown off. You could have been exposed to meth as a kid and become an addict. You could have put all your money into a stock and lost it all. Someone could have dropped a heavy object on your head by accident and left you a bumbling retard who drools from the side of his mouth for the rest of his life. You could have been born in some poor backwater village in china. It doesn't end here either.



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 No.228423[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

not getting paid enough for this shit edition

previous >>226032
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 No.230980

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>>230977
That sounds cool. I really should learn to properly code, at my last position I had the possibility to look into python but I'm a slow learner and have no confidence to apply for something more responsible, so now I'm stuck at usersupport entryposition, which is stressful for me when I am getting yelled at and there are people in my same position that don't know what an .exe is.

>>230978
are 60-hour weeks usual for your country, or are you working overtime to support your family?

 No.230981

>>230980
>are 60-hour weeks usual for your country, or are you working overtime to support your family?
i'm taking 5 12-hours shifts a week (at the moment, there were times when i took 6 or 7 when i needed more money for emergencies), the usual norm for people in this profession is 4 days/week, though the legislated work week is 40 hours there's literally no place that ever conforms to that standard
the pay is low by the profession's standards (network engineer), but at this place i don't have to conform to strict standards or anything so it's like a payoff of sorts
the family is the only thing motivating me, so i don't know if i can consider it "overtime" as there's nothing else i might want to spend my time on anyway, it's kind of philosophical almost maybe i dunno

 No.230984

>wake up an hour before alarm
>automatically start imagining I'm working and saying routinely things
>like a paralyzed zombie

 No.231000

>>230976
My job is easy and 90% of the time stressfree, but my job is also very very boring and repetitive. I am not sure if this is any better.

 No.231013

>work overnights at grocery store
>Another department takes stuff from my department
>They usually tell me so I can tell my boss
>They never Last night, so I leave note saying what happened
>Tonight, I got chewed out by another person in the second department for leaving a note

I'd like to not be chewed out for other people not doing their job

>>230976
Mine is extremely easy. The work itself isn't stressful (literally putting fruit and veg in containers). Dealing with people is stressful. Thankfully, most of my interactions are with people in other departments. Usually it's ok, but I get the occasional exchange like above


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 No.229281[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The last suicide general has hit the bump limit. Previous thread >>226293
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>>231002
holy autism

 No.231004

>>231003
>post laughing meme picture and a buzzword
Btfo

 No.231006

>>230994
>Train
>Jump
>Hanging
>Gun
>Poison
Thats how you kill yourself, anything else is nonsense. Stop shitting up this thread with these outlandish ideas that popped in your immature head.

 No.231010

>>231006
Forgot about exit bags, faggot?

 No.231011

>>231010
Thats an old meme.


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 No.213134[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Reading the end of the wizards thread I wondered:

What's it like to be a wizard without any hobbies or interests? (Or at least interests and hobbies that USED to be associated with wizards?)

I've been slowly shedding my old hobbies and interests as they became mainstream (even degenerate otaku porn fetishes have this slowly increasing normalcy) and now I'm down to a couple things I still enjoy a little.

Any wizards who actually live without any real hobbies? I know I'm asking for a lot but I'd like responses from actual wizards or people close to wizardhood like the latter half of your 20s.
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 No.230754

>>230753
I have been proven wrong by your superior wisdom.

 No.230755

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>>230747
haha yeah well the dude didn't know what either was, and I was comparing it to the original DB, not that it matters

>>230749
maybe he got married after getting famous and into easy mode, but you could say that it was the other way around, those directors or producers aren't normal to them either after getting famous, and we don't know how they got into the industry at first, I doubt that many came because of a trend, so normal or not, they were passionate.
Even nowadays there isn't a lot of money to be made in animation for the people who actually do the work, so they need to be interested to a degree at least, which had to be mostly otakus at the beginning.

 No.230794

>>222016
They're ruining hobbies, not improving them you fucking retard.

 No.230954

I always wonder if normalfags absorb everything that's popular without realizing what's in them.

 No.230992

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>>224465
>IQ tests don't mean much, it's just pattern matching.
Pattern matching is a big part of intelligence, but it's a good thing that the IQ test measures a fuckload more; unless you went online and did one of those "IQ tests". You think that's the IQ test? You must be a bit retarded. A real IQ test requires a trained individual to administer it under proper conditions, and if it's not done properly it's not valid.

Do you really think that people are blank slates? There are requisite levels of intelligence to do many tasks. Have you ever been around truly stupid people? I doubt it; There's millions of people who literally can't sort items into boxes without supervision.
We can measure their intelligence with IQ, just like average and above average people, and it always correlates.
Where things get fucked up is people thinking intelligence is magic betterness. it's not. It's not creativity either, nor empathy, nor industriousness. People confuse certain personality traits with intelligence and then bitch that IQ doesn't measure it. It wasn't designed to, because that shit isn't part of intelligence.


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 No.228931[Reply]

My parents are getting older by the day. My mom is 61 and my dad is 65 and I still live with them. It's been recently crossing my mind lately that they're going to die eventually and then I will no longer be able to rely on them for food and housing. Is there anyway a /dep/ user can prepare to live on my own despite me having absolutely no real world skills? I've been working a wage slave job without a college degree ever since I left high school.
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 No.229955

Anon, I'm in the same boat. The only way out for us when our boomer parents die is to live as a hobo and get murdered by hobo hunters, or jump off a bridge while you still have your dignity. Either way, the outlook is grim if you're over 30 with elderly parents and zero life skills.

 No.230243

>>229955
Yeah, I am hitting 30 within days so this has been hitting me hard lately.

 No.230279

If you inherit a home it might be easy. My one parent who is still alive is poor, so I'll be out on the street within a month or two of their deaths. I can't drive, but if you can look into van living. Walmart parking lots are good spots to stay a few nights.

 No.230376

>>230279
I can't drive as well. Otherwise I'd consider it. I'm in the same situation.

 No.230989

>>228931
Same situation. Only I have nothing to live for once my mother goes, so I will be finding a way out myself. Comfort is so important to humans, especially men I think, and once that goes and you are alone, there is nothing left.



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 No.229613[Reply]

ITT we discuss what awaits us after death,experiences,analysis of data,theories,etc
Some options:
>abrahamic religions are right;heaven or hell
>dharmic religions are right. celibate wizards who didnt fap probably get a free pass to nirvama
>eternal oblivion. you won't be there to not-notice
>quantum immortality.none of us will ever die on our own perspective.

>http://journalofcosmology.com/Consciousness156.html


I vote for the last option
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 No.229981

>>229980
Did he have a whole imageboard dedicated to it and there were people donating money and so on? I think I remember that if that's the thing you're talking about.

 No.230008

>>229981
Yeah he allowed people to transfer crypto I think which could be transferred to the next system. The whole thing had a very weird feel to it, even though it was far from the weirdest thing out there.

 No.230016

Systemspace forever!

 No.230018

>>230008
>far from the weirdest thing out there.
What is the weirdest thing you've seen out there?

 No.230987

I am fully convinced that life is a deliberate test. Call it a trial, simulation, whatever, and there is someone administrating the test, call them God, Examiner, whatever. In this life, we are deliberately meant to have bad things constantly thrown at us, constantly supposed to be in pain, and we are tested on how we react and respond to those tests. Only at the end of the test, death, do we find out what it was for and how we did. I can't otherwise explain if there is a god, why is He so evil; if there is meaning to life, why is it so pointless?



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