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 No.305927[Reply]

>be me
>bored
>decide to go for a walk
>the group that used to harass me in high school sees me
>they start shouting embarrassing nicknames they gave me loudly, just like they did in HS
I thought I wouldn't need to deal with that anymore, but it seems like I was wrong. Has anyone here ever experienced something similar? I just want to have some peace.
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 No.305979

>>305978
But yeah, the best way is to capture it on film and then go for the restraining order. If you have film evidence it goes a long way.

Restraining orders are used all the time for people wanting to be separate from their family. It's not something that cops use to go after people right away, but it's used as a signifier that someone wants to be left alone, and if contact continues it's persistent harassment.

 No.305981

>>305978
>>305979
are covert bodycams allowed in OPs country?

 No.305983

This is what I hate about retail work. I see about 50 regular customers who I went to school with.

 No.305988

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>>305978
>You can quite literally get a restraining order in pretty much every first world country
I'm a thirdie, anon. Although I think it would be quite difficult to obtain a restraining order, I believe I might be able to get some money from them for moral damages, maybe.
>once every three years
This happens about once every two months, partly because I don't like leaving my home. What bothers me the most is that it makes me anxious when I decide to leave the house. It's something like the chinese water torture.
>>305979
>>305981
I will try to study a little bit more of law to understand how the judgment would work, I have a somewhat good amount of savings that might help me to pay a good lawyer without involving my mother but I'm not sure of how far I can go by myself on my first legal case. I'm going to try to confront them while recording if I have enough courage, if they just don't react then I will buy a covert bodycam and try again. They probably won't take me seriously in both situations and honestly there's some possibility that I will just bitch out when it happens again, I'm trembling slightly while I type this, this shit is just so pathetic. The good part is that I still have the contact of some witnesses.
>>305983
I already wouldn't be able to work in that field normally, but having to deal with acquaintances must really make it a nightmare sometimes.

 No.305989

>>305988
i feel you bro. ive been in your shoes more times than i can count.
>being stalked in middle school for years
>made a trend (everybody had my face as their phone's lockscreen)
>bullied and harassed

obviously if youre ND then youre basically fucked. your inability to detect subtle social cues makes you marked as prime target for harassment. the bullying will depend on your physicality tho, if youre a bit taller than your peers then it won't go beyond remarks/verbal abuse, if youre shorter though i can't imagine the hell you can go through anon. If youre a NEET and have no friends then nobody will come to save you from the bullying. if theyre the bunch that follow you and slowly torture you then simply ignoring them won't solve a thing. if youre positive that they won't get physical then please just get your cellphone out (or put it in your outer pocker with the audio socket out) and try to record their insults. since you know their names some of them will be bound to get in trouble. Sometimes the only solution is law enforcement, exile, or violence.

if theyre still like this after HS then they're dogshit human being not worth the breath they take from the trees.
Best of luck anon.>>305988


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 No.305809[Reply]

"Hey wizanon… did you go through a similar thing?"

I will never forgive this world, my ancestors, my genes, my family, those people. I will especially, never forgive myself. My adolesence was robbed from me. I could've eaten better, I could've been stronger, I could've said no to all the evil people who abused me, humiliated me, bullied me, took advantage of me. I can pretend to be happy in moments of fantasy, but my baseline is always depression because I have been robbed so completely.

What did I do to deserve this fate? Who was I in my past life to deserve being in such a position? If I had eaten better, I could've grown to my true height. If I had said no and held steadfast, I could've fought back against them. If I had shown some semblance of courage, I could've made happy memories in my youth.

I am 23 years old. You might say that is young. But I have lost the most important years of my growth and development. I have wasted them by suffering emotionally and physically with no fault of my own. I have wasted them by letting others rob me of what I had, my dignity, my reputation, my identity, my resources. I dropped out of school with so much hope, I was truly so happy, only to suffer far more than I ever have at the hands of forces beyond my control.

No matter what I do now, as much as I would love to believe otherwise, there is absolutely nothing I could do to compensate for what I have lost. Nothing I could do replace those days. Nothing I could do to get back what I lost forever. What's been robbed was meant to be robbed permanently. I can only mourn and ache for the rest of my life, aching for the things I was supposed to have but will never get back.
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 No.305853

>>305850
If the world didn't want me to be fat why did it make so many delicious things to eat, I'm vegetarian so I try not to make the world worse for other creatures

 No.305861

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>>305847
>>305850

Thank you… I don't feel as bad bedrotting now. I remember bedrotting for most of 2019 to 2023. I began drawing recently and it seems to help just a bit. Maybe I should ride around town on the bus, going nowhere… like I used to in 2024.

 No.305951

Im not sad about anything, but im MAD… MAD AS FUCK

 No.305960

>>305951
How come? Don't leave me hanging lol

 No.305986

My parents mostly, and I guess extended family and society as a whole have set me up to fail. They have at least nerfed the shit out of me with horrifying experiences and malnutrition, and no real help with any skills. Suddenly I'm 29 and they are still mad I haven't made myself successful, in reality they want to leech of my money if I was a doctor or something. I just live my life how I want as much as possible now, I will embrace myself and hope it makes people mad. The normies were right, I'LL BE MYSELF!


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 No.305955[Reply]

Its hard being bad at everything, even the things you do for yourself
Whatever I touch usually ends up ruined
Its very hard on me because I allready expect to fail at whatever I try nowadays
Maybe bad luck is real, but whatever I lay my hands on usually ends up more damaged then fixed
Id like to say electronics are a hobby, but i have destroyed more then I repaired
I have no talents no ability to put any Idea I have in my mind into reality
It doesnt matter if I prepare, if I practice
My fingers dont do what I want them to
Something unexpected happens
I couldnt even fix a carburator on my bike
And I couldnt get the replacement to work either
There are very few times I have tried something and got positive results
I have been fired from every job i have ever gotten quickly
I have been learning japanese for 3 years now and I have seen other people become fluid but despite the time I poured in I still suck
Its very hard to explain to other people, they will say "you have to try more or try something different"
But I am trying and failing
Its not that im just seeing the negatives, when I actually succeed at something it makes me very happy but its a rare feeling for me
I try things, even follow tutorials and it never turns out well for me
I have ruined many things I love by trying to fix an issue and breaking them irrepairably
I just want a bit of sucess in what I do
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 No.305957

>>305955

>Do you know how frustrating it feels when you have been trying something for a long time, someone else starts and they eclipse you in short order?
It feels terrible

I know exactly how you feel and I want to tell you, I was in the same spot but I learned quickly. I realized, very early on, that I can only succeed if I fix things on my own terms. Something in my mind just refuses to cooperate if I adhere to a 'correct standard' set by others, I must have total control over the medium I'm working with and I must be the one to set the architectural rules. Because when you're that independent and you play by other people's game, you'll always lose for being outside of it.

 No.305985

I'm someone who learns very slowly as well. They say comparison is the thief of joy, but that's just ignoring the fact some people just take 100x longer to learn stuff and those of us like that are kind of concerned by it. I don't mind hard work, I can put in the hours, but I want some type of tangible results for it..

Let's say there's 3 different types learning a language, the goal is only broken conversational:

Type1: learns it in 6 months
Type2: learns it in 5 years
Type3: learns it in 50 years

I'm talking about a real effort too, not too sure how it goes learning languages but lets say 10 hours a week formal learning, and another 10 hours casual learning with tv shows and games etcc. How could you possible convince me to learn the language unless it was absolutely necessary for me if I know I'm a type3 person?


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 No.304213[Reply]

I just look at all the years I've wasted stagnating. And I just want to be building towards, something… anything. i want my years to be building blocks not nothing. it doesnt have to be anything big. being a great wizchan poster is one possible goal among many.

I just want to devote years to something and get better at it, and improve at it. But that only happens in video games.

i hate the feeling of wasted years. time slipping away. i guess i just give up on something. i start a lot of projects. have a bipolar manic high. but then i see its going no where and just give up. i guess there is a rationality to it. but thats how i got the wasted years.

maybe its because im neet. a job, you're always investing your years into, trying to climb the ladder, even if you're not doing it successfully. at least you're progressing in money, thats 1 thing.

i just dont have the endurance to stick with something im not making progress in, and thats why i never make progress.
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 No.305801

>>305790
Comparison is the thief of joy. Anytime I want to work on something, I am quick to compare myself to people in the highest echelon of their field. Why create art unless I can be one of the great masters? Why do anything unless I can go pro and get paid to do it? I'm not satisfied to be a NEET and live a simple existence with my hobbies.

 No.305802

To further add to what I just posted: I was told from a young age that I am not worthy of affection unless I produce exceptional things. That may be the root of my suffering.

 No.305810

>>305790
I've been trying to draw for a long time but I stop for a few months and start again and feel like I'm at the exact same place I was years ago. I also try to read books and force myself through them and I sometimes do but I'm too slow and have to read it over again a lot. I am too retarded to even finish a lot of video games. I think I just have a reall low IQ.

 No.305811

>>305810
Reading gets 100x easier after a prolonged digital detox. The drawback is you really have to go cold turkey on everything digital to unlock this perk. There is nothing wrong with your brain.

 No.305984

If you like miniatures and that type of stuff I'd recommend that. It's a little hard to get into depending on many things, however I found the easiest part so far, for a lazy and unmotivated person like me has been building terrain pieces. They are allowed and look good even if messy and made poorly. You can turn pringles can into castle towers, very cool stuff. also works well with cheap art supply store stuff, you don't need any crazy paint for terrain. later on if it pleases you, you can get nicer stuff.


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.305835

>>305734
>>305738

10 years ago, goldwashing near Jamestown (CA) was still a thing (mentioned in some TV show on tourism)

so MAYBE some unemployed wizard from that area still has a chance to try and re-live that 1853 Gold Rush San Francisco vibe.

 No.305946

>>305724
How old are you? I've been unemployed now for 8 months now. All of my fear and stress is about working and having to get another job. I have no fear of a wasted life, I would be content spending the rest of my living playing video games in my moms home. Not much fear of death, mostly a fear of health problems. Some fear of hell.

 No.305948

>>305946
why are you afraid of a arbitrary system created to keep humans docile? you think there's any form of justice in a world where everyone spawns with different stats and disabilities while others spawn perfectly and go to heaven to play music with a bastard addicted to eating foreskins and who killed his own som as sacrifice to himself?

 No.305971

>>305948
don't forget god and jesus apparently let Epstein perversion run rampant in the world, who am I kidding humanity is so fucking doomed soon

 No.305982

I hate my job so much, it's the worst amount varying suffering methods designed purely to get me on every level. First of all my roster is ALWAYS changing, Sometimes I finish at 10pm, and supposed to start the next day at 12pm, but I get asked at 9:30pm to come in at 6am, NIGHTMARE. Can't say no either otherwise goodbye and I can't get benefits in this country. Also it's often so busy and sressful, easy one to explain. I get about 2 days a week though with NOTHING TO DO!!!!! NOTHING!!! for 10 hours!!!!! I have 1 hour work, and it's not real downtime either, I must LOOK BUSY!!! I ask for some work to do they say no and do cleaning, I do cleaning but that makes time go so slow. It feel like 20 hours not 10. then next day super busy and i can only appreciate that for 20% of the day, then it gets old and mega stressful again I HATE IT


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 No.305961[Reply]

I need no recognition, I want meaning, but education itseld doesn't give any. Being counscious of the simulation, how it works and why it exists gives a very weird feeling.

There are people who blames the rich, this and that, but the truth is that knowledge doesn't give any meaning and the slogan found in ultimate mortal kombat 3 does not make sense. In fact, knowledge of an anthill in your garden doesn't give you any power (that matters, anyway).

I'd like to go back in time, pick myself up violently against the wall, seeing eye to eye and say "IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION, A THEATER, AND YOU WILL BE TASKED TO MAINTAIN THIS ILLUSION AND YOU WILL HATE IT ALL".

If only a time machine wasn't one…

 No.305966

You should teach. I know teens aren't the best audience. But imagine getting paid a salary that it would take 800 million youtube vids a month to get, just for aspie monologues on Warcraft lore to a captive audience that has to be there.

 No.305967

>>305966
Teaching is the most soulless job out there. If it ain't agriculture gunmaking, it's worthless

 No.305968

>>305967
What is agriculture gunmaking? growing guns out of the soil? You should teach a course on it.

 No.305976

>>305968
Silly wiz, it should be "agriculture, gunmaking"

 No.305977

>>305968
>growing guns out of the soil?
Gunpowder can be made with nitrates washed from the soil, and carbon burnt from its foliage.


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 No.304361[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.305972

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I don't see how people can believe in God anymore. I used to believe, but reality just keeps making that seem more and more unlikely. Or at least unlikely that there is a God and he is good. Maybe there really is a God after all and he is just the most maximally evil being in the universe.

 No.305973

>>305972
We are God looking at ourselves in a zillion ways. Raping children is one of them. Don't worry about God or purpose, it's all a joke.

 No.305974

>>305938
Your situation is not too bad. Life's a struggle and you seem to face adequate challenges for your age. That's just what it takes to grow up, it's a process, and we are never really done, just the problems we deal with change over time (or how we are affected by problems) and also how we evaluate our experience of reality and how we perceive the same phenomenons. No one tells you this when growing up, but this stuff never stops and I think it requires work and attention to come up with an idea. This point when you think that
>I'll live my life when [x] happens!" But is [x] ever gonna happen?
is never really going to happen so no need to wait for it. You are living your life right now. And I'll tell you, it's all right. It's fine being quiet and having no friends, it's all right not being settled. You have lots of time to find out what you want to do, don't pressure it, you can't enforce it anyway. Life is aimless, worry is a disease, you can't satisfy the people around you and you don't have to.

 No.305975

>>305974
>>305938
I can relate, I also have a discord that is just me, just 1 account though. but i talk and argue with myself. use it as a diary and biography. i use it less since AI got big. now i just mostly use it to dump links.

i had a NSFW board, and the most eery thing was when the title got changed to "You are Bad". And when I changed it back, it still reverted back. And it only went away after I deleted anything NSFW. It was like God or the Discord Admins were watching my private discord channel.

Also while there is only 1 account, sometimes if i type fast on another tab, it shows up as if someone else is responding which is also creepy.

 No.305980

>>305973
>be me
>a living neuroslop
<"we're all God"

Nice grandeur.


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 No.303825[Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.
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 No.305817

My father is braindead who shits and pees all over and my mothers beats shit of him and hates us both lately she keeps saying we should have never been born funny enough she's the only one who give a fuck about us all other is vicious hyenas no one has any compassion for my mental health and this filthy feminist hellhole only cares about female suffering

 No.305819

>>303825
Nope. But I don't do it because my mom is pure evil and would probably use my death as an excuse to farm sympathy from her friends.

 No.305820

I don't care if they'd care but they probably would, though I'm not suicidal, my life isn't too bad right now

But yeah if I had to wage slave it'd probably kill me, wage slavery is unnatural, ideally I'd own my piece of land where I could grow crops and live off the land, it requires little effort

 No.305829

>>305579
>my parents never cared about me yet they will lie and say they do care that i'm gone. fucking evil

I … understand. My parents were kinda from the same field: they would provide me cool material stuff, yet the emotional side of the parenting was not too good.

 No.305962

>>305829
my parents idea of "parenting" was to constantly inflict these petty torments. I was just thinking the last day how unthinkable it is for me to want to hug my mom. I've long cut off all contact. my life was like a game of running away from gross people


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 No.305937[Reply]

Every time I think of death, the end of my self I can feel my brain fighting it, pretty much actively trying to shut down.
It's a weird sinking feeling, thinking of the unimaginable.
People have died around me and I felt nothing, but then again I'm not an overly emotive or emotional person.

I still can't cope with death as a concept. I don't want to cease experiencing. I'd genuinely prefer hell to oblivion.

I screwed myself, my health because of a lack of attachments and care for things in general and I'm at the age where recovery is getting harder even if I try.
Mitigation is a more realistic goal if I don't already have something terminal, hopefully. (29)

How do you guys cope? I see so many people here talking about suicide and I just can't fathom it.
I suffer from many chronic ailments, pain, tinnitus (really severe) and much else. I had many absolutely horrid experiences during childhood and youth.
I have no real connection to my broken family, no connection to pretty much anyone or anything. Never loved or felt loved by anyone, not even family.
I don't pursue hobbies I'm a man of inaction. I can't even force myself to do things I supposedly enjoy.
I have one friend I talk to online exclusively in text and meaningless time wasting activities, consuming media, manga/manhua mostly.

It's a pointless life. Wasted.

Based on all of this I should probably be suicidal, but I'm the opposite. I'd be content being a specter just observing things too. I just want to persist.
I don't want this to end, I don't want to end.
I'm terrified. Sure I'm sick, in pain, constantly depressed or anxious, generally a failure, but I don't want to be gone.
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 No.305945

>>305937
The only cope we have is denial, whether that's belief in an afterlife or, what I do, just trying not to think about it. I probably won't die tomorrow anyway, right? That's how I sleep at night. There's absolutely nothing to be gained by worrying about death, no secret knowledge or esoteric wisdoms, only the endless abyss. Not that you just stop yourself from thinking about it when it's bothering you. Eventually the fear trained me not to look there anymore, so maybe it just takes time. Thankfully I'm pretty content with my life, but I figure severe pain is the one thing that would make me wish for death. I'd hope so at least. My wish is that, in our dying moments, we reach some kind of acceptance. I've seen people die though, and the only emotion I could sense was fear, so we probably aren't that lucky.

 No.305949

I believe life is limited and one-time only, then it is the afterlife forever. no re-rolls or extra time. Souls also go to an "appropiate" place depending on good and evil and you don't get to decide.

 No.305950

>>305937
a miracle going your way
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/PEb537ywgHM

 No.305956

The living should be concerned with what they know, which is life. Death we know nothing about. Logically it’s just a limit notation to mark the end points of what belongs to life. We don’t know death by itself but only for what it appears to be from the perspective of life, it’s not a concept of something specific for us but a concept of a brink of knowledge. If you’re materialistic then you come to the conclusion that you found but then again as a materialist then you lack the fantasy to think about the unimaginable.

 No.305959

>>305956
Life can be shared. But all the knowledge one gets from death, its private and kept to yourself. Maybe there is an afterlife, but you cannot share the truth about death with anyone. It's a deeply personal reality that you must experience for yourself.


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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.305916

Wild how on here 6 years ago during a depressive episode I tried to kill myself through freezing myself to death. I drove up the mountain with two bottles of vodka. This was during covid lockdowns.

I had a change of heart and was terrified and praying to god as I was driving back down. As the road was that slippery and I was sliding all over the ice.

It's wild to think that if I crashed and got stuck I probably would've died. I purposely went with no mobile phone and was only wearing a shirt and shorts.

I posted about it the whole time on here hysterically and got laughed at as a troll/attention seeker/whatever. I wanted to die at the time and was in pretty deep depression and terror.

I'm older now, I still feel suicidal but it's more in a "one day" sort of way. I've had a few cycles of getting close and then freaking out at the last minute.

 No.305917

>>305916
>I tried to kill myself through freezing myself to death
Your body would start shivering out of control, it is a terrible way to die.
>I drove up the mountain with two bottles of vodka
Alcoholic coma sounds much more comfy.
>I purposely went with no mobile phone and was only wearing a shirt and shorts.
Scary.

 No.305920

>>305022
Is "Gunshot of head" like a basic handgun to the head?

 No.305936

>>305920
reminder to never EVER shoot yourself on forehead like media bastards show it will fuck your face but you will still be forced to live by normies

 No.305947

I have expired SN extored but afraid to do it asleep my brain is a piece of gargabe and I rarely sleep peacefully I think it would be better for me to do it while awake to avoid being stuck in the labyrinth of my mind


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