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 No.233430[Reply]

Do you guys ever think that maybe you are Chris-chan?

So I have this problem with being able to see an objective version of myself, as in like how I come off. I know how I come off in my head, but there is a disconnect between what you and others think.

I know a lot of people here like to exaggerate their situation, but we're not really at Chris-chan levels of autism, right? Do you honestly think you are THAT bad? I mean, you're obviously fucked up, but you're not that fucked up.

But, is it possible that's actually what you are? You are actually so far gone that you don't even realize how far gone you are. That is what autistic people do, isn't it? Part of autism is being unaware of how you come off to others. So if you have autism, how do you really know how others truly see you?

Like you have an idea in your head about how much autism you actually have, but how come that can't be part of the autism delusion? Is it possible you are actually just an unaware walking Chris-chan? I mean that would explain more why people react to you the way they do.
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 No.234362

>>234361
All online tests are inaccurate. If you're talking about an in person test then it's probably a "meta-test" where they took a bunch of people they knew were autistic and asked them how they thought they interacted with people. Even though it's still subjective, if you give answers similat to how autists give answers then they can be pretty confident that you're autistic.
The test may also not be how it seems, for example if you're asked the question "I often cause awkward situations" answering "yes" would probably reduce your autism likelihood in the test, because autistic people aren't that good at understanding when they cause awkward situations.

 No.234367

Chris-chan is the embodiment of every internet user from the 2000s. He was once a dopey young man, making sonic fanfiction, trying to find love on IRC and making silly youtube videos for fun. Then in the 2010s he became severely depressed, and mutilated his cock, putting pronouns in his social media bios in hopes of approval. Then he lost his mind and started believing in retarded cults (most 30 something year olds with an identity crisis usually practice buddhism or some shit, but in CWC's case he worships anime succubi, but they're both bullshit asian timewaster cults so whatever). Only a matter of time before he suicide baits or actually becomes an hero. But the difference between him and /us/ is people will actually show up to his funeral and call him an internet legend when he dies. Most of us wizards probably won't even get a proper burial

 No.234370

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>>234367
Something Awful presents a dumb bitch can't take hint GI Joe fanfiction. Your rules are suspended, I win tonight.

 No.234762

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I spend a lot of my time reading about lolcows and undesirables in order to not become like them entirely
I've resigned myself to being a person that is lower than low, a person that is part of the lowest common denominator of people. But thankfully what puts me there isn't because of chris-chan tier autism it's more that I have no drive, a shitty job, no future, and all I do is consume media. I read books and like to keep myself educated but what good is it if I'll never do anything with it outside of my lowgrade narcissism

 No.234853

I think I probably come off exactly as I see myself in my head, which is pretty low. When I was younger I thought I was autistic or something but I've come to realize I'm not that weird, I just don't hide from people how self hating I am nearly as much as I think I do.


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 No.234474[Reply]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread
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 No.234836

>>234827
Right? Only jobs I can find and literally work are warehouses. Even Mc donalds where I live isn't hiring and has too many people. How the fuck are you supposed to get a job if no one will hire?

 No.234839

>>234808
This relativistic view of pain and suffering is terrible. Somewhere there is someone even poorer and worse off than you, guaranteed. That doesn't lessen your suffering.

 No.234843

>>234544
dogs are really the only animals that are known to try to rescue or help their owners with very few and rare exceptions\\

so dogs are alright with me. a dog will love you more than a succubus ever will

 No.234844

>>234843
>a dog will love you more than a succubus ever will

of course they will, you could be a serial rapist and murdered, and your dog will still be happy to see you and love you
I bet many wizard's bullies got lots of love from their dogs :)

 No.234852

>>234844
true. but the wizards dogs also loved the bullied wizards. dogs are pretty indifferent to human problems. enlightened or stupid, it must be a good life for them


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 No.213134[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Reading the end of the wizards thread I wondered:

What's it like to be a wizard without any hobbies or interests? (Or at least interests and hobbies that USED to be associated with wizards?)

I've been slowly shedding my old hobbies and interests as they became mainstream (even degenerate otaku porn fetishes have this slowly increasing normalcy) and now I'm down to a couple things I still enjoy a little.

Any wizards who actually live without any real hobbies? I know I'm asking for a lot but I'd like responses from actual wizards or people close to wizardhood like the latter half of your 20s.
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 No.234459

The internet used to be a place where you could escape from real life and now it's just an extension of real life.

 No.234463

>>234459
This is really the biggest thing about modern vs old internet.

 No.234464

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>>234459
Man I remember when I was little and I heard the internet was going to bring the world closer but it really went the other way around.
It seems the only viable option is to hoard all media you are interested in while you are able to.

 No.234846

>>234464
>It seems the only viable option is to hoard all media you are interested in while you are able to.
>It seems the only viable option is to hoard all media you are interested in while you are able to.
Not sure I follow. I'd only hoard it if was the only copy in existence and destroy so the normies couldn't get their hands on it.

 No.234851

>>213134
>What's it like to be a wizard without any hobbies or interests? (Or at least interests and hobbies that USED to be associated with wizards?)
>
>I've been slowly shedding my old hobbies and interests as they became mainstream (even degenerate otaku porn fetishes have this slowly increasing normalcy) and now I'm down to a couple things I still enjoy a little.
the biggest mistake you can make in life is giving a fuck what other people think of your interests and hobbies, especially as a wizard. they dont care about us anyway who cares what they think. and you know wizards sell each other out for a nickel so who cares what they think too


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 No.234835[Reply]

today I turned 30 and became officially a wizard.
I'm proud of this achievement.
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 No.234842

>>234841
What's your long-term plan? Are you on bux? I'm in my mid thirties and plan to NEET until the bitter end, at any cost.

 No.234845

happy first wiz day, from now on, this will be your wiz day for you became a wizard on this day. Wish you good health and low neuroticism.

 No.234847

>>234842
>What's your long-term plan?
I dont have one, I just live into the day and go the way of least resistance. just keep myself busy reading stuff, watching shows and movies and playing videogames.
>Are you on bux?
no I currently leech from my parents
>until the bitter end, at any cost.
wagecucked shitty jobs when I was younger, like warehouse work and hauling furniture.
never again.
I figure I might manage to live another 10 years relatively comfy as a NEET but after that its going to be much harder and the suicide question will come up again.

>>234845
thanks friend
good health and some luck is what I need, I just hope I can live another couple years in peace like I did the last 4.

 No.234848

Being a wizard isn't as cool as it was in the 00s. Somehow they ruined it.

 No.234850

the cut-off point for wizardry was 2020, you barely made it…now it's up to you to inform the next generation they are not wizards


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 No.231132[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

getting annoyed by stupid coworkers edition

previous >>228423
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 No.234814

>>234799
Maybe, maybe not. Might be I'm just too weak to be stomp on other people. But it's shit like when I'm helping a customer who's clearly frail and then other customers come up to me demanding that I help them or when I'm up on a ladder trying to put the new bullshit promotion materials up colleagues will disappear all of a sudden.


>>234804
It's a temporary reprieve, I'm going back to work pretty soon. NEETing is not an option at the moment cos of bills and NEETbux wouldn't cover them.

 No.234817

Finally the weekend where I can spend all day zombie browsing the internet and masturbating.

 No.234823

>>234789
It was just painful reading about that old man. Thanks for the story.

 No.234833

Even kids in high school are working 40+ hour work weeks now in addition to their classes. How are we supposed to keep up?

 No.234849

>>234796
Managers are assholes, FUCK it's strange how I never had problems with co-workers but managers in these shitty fucking warehouse jobs are the king of assholes.


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 No.232154[Reply]

If the government handed out free, painless, 100% effective suicide kits, would you use it?
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 No.234008

>>234004
Churches are some of the most charitable organizations in the world. Yes there are corrupt churches and yes they are common, just like most charitable organizations are extremely corrupt with less than a penny on the dollar going to charity. Most churches don't use the tithe to enrich themselves, they put the tithe back into the community with food drives or funds for members of the flock that are in need.

 No.234037

>>233254
And this is really bad thing

 No.234653

>>234008
No they keep doing it to spread their mind poison.
See how these braidead fucks ignore my propts to prove it. They are in denial dumb slaves for the rich waiting to be reincarnated but insead a ….fuck it i cant lie to myself anymore im just too fucking awake to go back. Ignorance is bliss plug me back into matrix but its all lies fuckkkk

 No.234724

>>232501
The pain that one has to undergo to do that suicide is the issue. If there were a pill that unbeknownst to me put me in a deep slumber without any issue, then it had be a huge improvement.

Also, if you try a suicide attempt and fail, your life will only become worse.

 No.234834

>>232154
Yes, however normalfags want people like us to suffer for as long as possible, so it won't happen unfortunately.


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 No.234341[Reply]

I've seen this image posted around here many times and I think it warrants its own thread for discussion. It really gives a good visual summary of Schopenhauer's philosophically grounded idea of reincarnation:

>Only by a false illusion does the cool shade of Orcus allure him as a
haven of rest. The earth rolls on from day into night; the individual
dies; but the sun itself burns without intermission, an eternal noon.
Life is certain to the will-to-live; the form of life is the endless present; it matters not how individuals, the phenomena of the Idea, arise
and pass away in time, like fleeting dreams.

>When we die, we throw off our individuality like a worn-out garment

In short, according to this position, life is the permanent condition of this world. When you die, you may lose your self (your elevated perspective) but not selfhood in general. As long as there is a perceiving subject, it is (you) that is perceiving as transmuted consciousness. What is compelling about this idea is that it doesn't depend on the existence of an immortal soul or spirit in order to be true.

So my question is, do you find this position plausible? If yes, does it scare you?

Honestly I find it both plausible and nightmarish in its consequences, because it entails that there is no rest, no peace and no release from the torments of this world, not even for a minute. The moment you are gone, there is not even a pause before you are violently brought back to be tortured, gutted, and consumed once more in the cosmic slaughterhouse.
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 No.234772

>>234751
>you die you lose consciousness forever and that's about it
I hope you're right

 No.234810

>>234753
I can't prove a negative. You need to prove to me that consciousness continues after death.

 No.234812

>>234753
>>234810
Threads like these would be much shorter if more people knew what an unfalsifiable claim is.

 No.234821

>>234810
Why should there being no afterlife be the "default" position? Even if an afterlife can't be proven, why do you believe in eternal oblivion in the first place?

 No.234831

>>234341
why cant it be finite before and infinite after?


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 No.232557[Reply]

The games I play to pretend I’m succcessful. I’ll never be a real normie. Nobody knows that I play these games to feel better and that I have this folder but it really fills my life to know that every day I can wake up and attend my virtual job while the wage attends his real job I wish I had a real job but I can’t have a real job because I’m unable to have a real job
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 No.234765

>>234742
Thanks wizzie I will check it out if really curious :) I also tend to fill books up with thoughts and such things myself when not so depressed I cannot think properly.
I have met some interesting people in my time also but it does feel to me as if they are vanishing or isolating harder the true wizards and witches seem to be in a decline on any social platform or maybe so many normalfags have joined chans they just simply are near invisible.

I have to admit autists can be some of the worst people to interact with if they are severely autistic and lack any social skills to the point they can only talk about their niche interest I have met one that only talked about some armour from a specific period of time and nothing else lolz

 No.234784

>>232557
I can't even imagine myself having a job. Been unemployed since 2013. I've applied to Walmart, McDonald's, grocery stores, other shithole places, can't find anything. Being autistic with a bad back doesn't help either. Hopefully I'll get rich from crypto someday.

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 No.234820

>>234755
imagine a game where you start constantly loosing health in a town where if you walk outside you get killed by huge-high level enemies. You don't have any combat options unless you have a sword, can't level up unless you actually win in combat, and you can't regenerate your health bar unless you have food. Everything in the town is overpriced. You can ask for a job and no one will offer you one (Shenmue II does this well). You can find random junk in the trash, but no one will buy it from you because it is junk. And there are no good dialogue options because your charisma is shit. That's a real life rpg.

 No.234830

>>232557
>cashier
>successful
ok anon but otherwise i can relate


 No.234725[Reply]

I am a guy from a country with a stupid education system. I am currently doing an undergrad degree in a major I hate(don't ask why, the system here is fscked) and have tons of academic failures. I am somehow trying to pass slowly and clear my stuff. However my mental health problems and the fact that society treats us here worse than criminals makes it worse. Not to mention my seriously bad luck which has given me great pain in past and present. It's not that I hate studying. I love some stuff but not what I am being forced too. And especially with my mental issues, it is a torture. I almost feel like a sub human on most days.

Sorry for the rant guys, but an anonymous forum is one of the few places left for failures like me.
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 No.234729

>>234725
From Eastern Europe too?

 No.234767

>>234725
at least I am not the only one to walk this path

 No.234790

>>234725
You cant simply say all of that and expect not to give an answer as to what major you're studying and why are you studying something you hate.
Do explain yourself so we can reach an understanding.

 No.234819

>>234728
no they don't

 No.234822

I went to a really shitty college that is only one level above forging your degree. I don't listen in class and my assignments is just copy pasted from google's first results yet they still give me decent grades. If you aren't driven you'll just end up in some office or blue collar jobs where you won't use what you've studied so why bother? I've actually been in a competitive uni before this and I dropped out because of stress. Best decision I've made. Fuck that place.


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 No.234800[Reply]

>Shunned by "friends" /any group I've ever tried to be apart of
When did you realize you were destined to be alone forever?

 No.234801

http://reddit.com/r/foreveralone

 No.234802

I kinda stopped altogether at some point, and (I think) unintentionally just avoid everything.
I'm sure some shrink will describe this as fear of rejection or some shit, but I don't care. Not a bad thing for me
The only "friend" I have is my brother

 No.234803

>>234800
You are only free by yourself. You did everything right. People are cancer.

 No.234815

>>234802
Hell yeah Armored Saint

 No.234818

When i was about 13 years old, i did something which i don't exactly remember, but the consquence of it was "You are banned from our friend group" said straigt to my face. It was over something silly. Back then compared to now, i feelt enormous anxity about being alone in school then, so this was horrible. Fuck them!


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