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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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>>303921
>digitalis and amitriptyline
Don't its neutralize each other effects?

 No.303937

>>303931
Thank you for this image
*side walk*

 No.303961

>>303734
same but I just ended up with the crisis team, I'm thankful I didn't get sectioned in hindsight tbh

 No.303969

Ideally I’d like to go out in a very violent, painful but also fairly quick way, any suggestions wizards?

 No.304075

Is it really possible for me to kill myself by inserting a fork into the socket on the wall, or is this just a meme?


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 No.302844[Reply]

And say something about it if you want. I'm scared of my dad so I'm drawing a monster (him?)
I didn't know we could draw. Why isn't this done more often?
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Op here, anons. I left the site for some weeks and came back today. I'm very happy to see that some of you have drew your feelings.
I want to share that since the day I created the thread I have been doing a lot reflection and I think I made a lot of progress.
That said, my issues are massive and I'm not sure about my future :/

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i wish to pet a cat

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 No.303254[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.
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 No.304060

This is ridiculous. You're (we're?) all so absurd. I'm grateful to you but I
really hope I never come back here.

Falling, falling, falling in the darkness. Watching everything and everyone
pass by on the way down, unable to touch them, unable to stop. Stretching out
and blurring and melting - a peculiar feeling. How many years has it been?

I don't want to be like you (us?) anymore.

 No.304064

I slept for almost a continuous ~18 hours, only getting up to pee a few times.
Dreamed about a childhood friend. Last time we'd have played together would be some ~25 years ago. Why do these memories stick so much stronger than anything more recent? Do our souls just die around age 12-16?

Being awake just doesn't offer much. Back to bed.

 No.304068

>>304064
>18 hours
I love that kind of slumber. I drank four beers yesterday and took a sleeping pill, slept for 20 hours straight. Had a lot of dreams. Mostly weird shit about my relatives hating on me. But sleep is the last refuge I have. Wish I could sleep forever.
Sometimes I have weird feelings non-existent in real life. Some are comfy, some feel like chewing razors. But all dreams better than what lies outside of them.

 No.304071

>>304068
>I drank four beers yesterday and took a sleeping pill,
You are brave.
I once drank one (1) beer because I forgot that I took my sleeping pill, and I basically skipped from a pleasant buzz stage straight to the "drank two liters of vodka" hangover.

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>>304060
See you tomorrow.


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 No.304061[Reply]

I'm tired, boss. Tired of being on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. I'm tired of never having me a buddy to be with to tell me where we're going to, coming from, or why. Mostly, I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world… every day. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head… all the time. Can you understand?

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>>304061
>I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world… every day. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head… all the time. Can you understand?
Camaraderie and friendship still exist. You're always going to end up with weird, problematic, shy, avoidant, or very inadequate friends anyone is perfect. And more than one person just wants validation and acceptance, even with their problems.
You can be better than this every day by being exemplary, but exemplary means setting an example, not just being perfect.
>Also
I'm tired of being tired and defeatist.
Read Prometheus rising. Do the exercises thank me later.
Exercise, get some sun before 10 a.m., drink water, sleep well, stop listening to trashy indie sad pop music, and listen to adrenaline-pumping music or old cheerful music, and don't pay attention to the shit news.
>the thing
If you think there's a Machiavellian plan to exterminate humanity, just think that the group conspiring against them are your friends, and that's the mindset of a winner.
And dont be a asshole, become an unstoppable and immovable force of nature, kindness and humanity.
every day, in every form you will become great and more great at everything. And this is the way to a humanizing process ,called life, and some people now believe that life is a rush race and die fast, take it slowly, repeat every day, make it often.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7BByo2V-HA&list=RDZ7BByo2V-HA&start_radio=1&pp=ygUqV0FSTklORyAtIE1DIE9SU0VOIChTUEVFRCBVUCkgRVhURU5ERUQgTUlYoAcB

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 No.304067

The logical end for humanity is extinction.



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 No.303736[Reply]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.304038

>>304000
Your answer is very much appreciated.

>Treat productive hobbies like they are as serious as work. In fact it is more serious. One is working for someone else. The other is working for you to make your life better even if only in a subjective sense.


This is so obvious that I think I've forgotten about this when the grinding started. I was always thinking and worried that there is no way I would ever be able to have a job and keep it for a longer because I'm too broken, but I think it's pretty stable right now and I have a secured position and I shouldn't worry about this anymore and can finally start to care about myself again when work time's over.

>Instead of treating life like an unused rounding error on the side of work, treat work like it is a temporary deviation from life.


Very well put and I'm stuck at the first version of this sentence. In fact my private life feels just like waiting for work again. That's not bearable for many more decades.

>Get some productivity software.

>I wish I could share the software I use but it's not very self explanatory.

The way you make it mysterious makes me wonder what exactly you mean. This year I bought a DAW for music composition and mixing but I haven't even used it for 5 minutes. That's what I would start with, I guess that's one option what you meant when talking about productivity software.

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>>304035
cardboard? cool.
I have an idea: put "inner" side of the cardboard towards the street and "outer" - the one with the writings - towards the room


why: looks less obnoxious


Frankly, I never realized I could simply cardBOARD my wndows rather than splurge $$$ on blackout curtains. In 2022, however, I got cheap yet efficient blackouties from an online marketplace and not IKEA. They still do the job.

 No.304056

Keep getting headaches at work. I hope it gets so bad that I get a stroke so I can claim benefits, or it just fucking kills me.

 No.304062

>>304056
Make sure to avoid paracetamol tablets overdosing as paracetamol may poison your liver up.

Thats an unironically good reason for you to see a state-paid doctor or start asking Grok/DeepThink for possible causes of your headaches - what if you have a *generalized* headache caused by caffeine overdosing and ruined sleep hygiene? That'll help your employer to brush your "claim" off.

 No.304063

>>304056
>>304062
>Make sure to avoid paracetamol tablets overdosing as paracetamol may poison your liver up.


I mean, it's /dep/, yes, but even that "claim" "benefts" part may fall apart due to judge taking parace'-poisoned liver into consideration.



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 No.302042[Reply]

I literally got top employee performance of the year two times in a row for exemplary performanceby corporate (not to mention I do unpaid overtime)

And yet because I don't participate in their coffee room gossip and office bullshit (mind you these people are about 20% as productive as me) they want me to lose my job because I don't "match the energy of the community".

Do I just have to suck it up and kms, before I become homeless? Since without a salary that's going to be within 12 months.
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 No.303129

>>303128
so much for southern hospitality

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>>303128
Sounds like Tennessee people are "blokes", still holding to that settler mentality of trusting people from their "family" and treating people outside of the "family" in crew's disposable way.

 No.303757

Let them do it. Do not suck the dick of mental exhaustion.

You might break all the same, they might hate you even more for your cowardice, remember they are irrational beasts

 No.304055

As a wildlife researcher lives around and studies wild animals, so should you, fellow wiz. Why do the most insane thing of being around beasts and not learning their culture and customs?

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>>304055
talking to norpers is draining and depressing



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 No.303944[Reply]

Mother woke up with a face stroke.
im a 34 year old neet/hikkie. But this is a sign i have to become an adult now.
Although it feels like im trapped in a cage, underwater, while screaming.

 No.303947

Kind of similar situation with me. Mom has chronic, debilitating pain and balance issues so I have become a substitute mom basically. I have to do all the chores, yardwork and cooking now. If dad ever becomes disabled, I might as well rope because I don't know how to repair 20-year-old automobiles and shit.

 No.303958

Ask social services to provide an affordable replacement of your mom

 No.304054

It has to be done.
Over the last 5 years (a very short time span for me) I've learned to drive, take care of the house, take care of myself, even wagied for a bit.
There is no other way to survive. The minimal pledge for the mortal coil has to be paid. Most groids know this without even thinking about it, but we can't keep denying our place here.



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 No.302369[Reply]

todai I learned Helicobacter Pylori bacteria reduces your B12 vitamin levels as well as iron levels.


My diet is weird also

I need to pass a breath Helicobacter Pilori test (or vomit into a cup a little, I suppose)

maybe that's where my ruined mood comes from

 No.302377

>>302369
AND lack of B12 vitamin causes depression by fricking up your something something fermets


guess I'll buy some B12


regards, a feller who has been "veganized" by his mom

 No.302884

>>302377
OK, I've bought some "NOW Foods" B12 vitamin.

 No.303095

>>302369
I got stomach ulcers because of this piece of shit bacteria growing too much in my stomach.
Fucking had to take 4 medicines at once.
Now drinking a shit ton of cranberry juice so I don't have to deal with it in the future.

 No.303098

>>303095
ouch
got it

 No.304043

*buys moar vitamins*



i dunno, it appears to be working



 No.302958[Reply]

>So TL:DR; online places changed and I'm no longer suited for them. There are no suitable places and circumstances to make friends at my age. People my age got families and why would they want to be my friend anyways?


2000s internet vibes can still be found in:

* Gaiaonline
* Vaporwave communities
* City forums, I guess?
* Food communities, kitchen clubs
* they hack "gamespy" era PC games to have multiplayer mode WITHOUT now-defunct GameSlayn. Games that still have communities

* Dos.zone
DOS era games can be played online.
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 No.303025

>>302983
> Meanwhile I had all those shit and was only made fun for having "old" hardware by chads in school or in the neighborhood that I hang out with because they all already had flat screens or curved LED monitors.Its incredibly frustrating to see something I was basically bullied for (being poor) is now worshipped by brainless rich tards in tik tok buying them at thrift stores or garage sales. I fucking hate this gay world planet.

You was supposed to wear funny "haha funny 8-bit world is kewl" tier merch - pixel-art (MINECRAFT-themed) merch/MARIO/YOSHI/LUIGI/BOWSER badges, play Minecraft sometimes (5 hour experience + some vids on HOW TO BUILD A HIDDEN BASE on YouTube would be fine) etc.


impose it's yer choice, not necessity
it's like not wearing DISCO THEME HOT SHIT if you only own a tape player with a bunch of 80s/70s funk/fusion

 No.303027

>>302957
You really did make an entire thread to reply to my post.
Quite insane.
Also took a while for me to even check the catalog.

>>302973
Yeah the change isn't only noticed by people my age, it really depends on what age you gained internet access and what parts you got exposed to initially.
I still had an atari for example, but not because I was into retro anything, or because I'm old enough to be one of its users, it's just that rural poverty meant we got everything much later than the rest of the world.
Then when I got exposed to the internet I was lead by my "elders" as well.

I'm sure even zoomers notice, you mention minecraft, a lot of those early creators, though I didn't consume much, but some were big enough that reached me too, they used to be much different.
They were… creative and authentic. Nowadays all of it feels way too intentionally crafted to be a brand, something to sell, something to make money from.

Every space online has been way too commercialized and normiefied and the issue is that there are more and more people who have only seen this version of the internet and they love it. So if you don't, there is no space for you and they will make it very clear.
It is sad.

>More like, people didnt exactly 'change', they began to show their true colors.

I disagree with this to an extent. Again, the people I used to be around moved on with their lives. They didn't start showing their true color, it's just that they matured and had different priorities.
So what I'm trying to say here is that there is a difference between the oldheads baring their teeth. You might be right about some of them, but most just moved on in my opinion and the ones that replaced them are simply a different breed accustomed to a different "normal".
You know, don't tell people your name, don't post anything about yourself type people were replaced with those that lived life online in public like it's normal.
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 No.303274

Posted some relevant info in /games/

 No.304027

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I wonder of cute Two-Bees will be a thing in 30 years or so

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>>304027
>of

*if



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 No.302683[Reply]

ОК, i just dont get it


My mother keeps calling me at my workplace over the fact my pants look "horrible", "off-putting", and other stuff


I am busting me arse here to earn some money to cover her expenses yet she would start a fucking opera scene over wrong type of pants I am wearing.


Ugh.

For years, I was believing I am an autistic debile with asexuality-like condition, now I realise it was me mum all along, teaching me to be nervous over this or that irrelevant detail here or there - stuff people would normally give no friks about
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 No.304013

Why do you still associate with her at all if you have a job? You can just block her and never talk to her again.

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>>304013
DOES NOT COMPUTE

 No.304029

>>302683
OP I am in the same boat. Why does the bitching never end? I thought it would stop after I got a job. But the bitching just never stops. There is always something to bitch about.

 No.304030

>>304029
what does she usually bitch about exactly? You not helping with the chores?

 No.304031

>>304029
OP here, 2 my cents:
Me mum drinks coffee, and used to wear shitty shoes.
Lately, I got her new leather shoes (and new leather handbag). And got her new coffee brand. She pretty much acts pretty now.
BESIDES; I also drink less coffee now my guts don't hurt. Guess what? When I drink coffee, I feel angry. When I don't, I merely act toxic a bit.



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