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 No.303736[Reply]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.304015

>>303894
Did nightshift for about a year, you'll get permanent brain damage from it and people will think you're a methhead. I'd recommend some blackout blinds, Ikea has some good ones.

Try not to smoke cigs/drink coffee obsessively (good luck) and just go to sleep when you get home instead of trying to 'reset' your sleep schedule.

What's your job anyway?

 No.304018

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>>304015
oh yes, night shifts.
I used to believe its nothing until I tried. Night shifts and maybe people who DO ruin your head and maybe your life

 No.304021

>>304018
context: I failed to realize I have VERY sunny windows and no blackout curtains hence no sleep.

It was quite a torture.

 No.304035

>>304015
>Did nightshift for about a year, you'll get permanent brain damage from it and people will think you're a methhead.
Thank God it's just a temporary thing until New Years.
>I'd recommend some blackout blinds, Ikea has some good ones.
I'm a little too broke to get some new blinds right now but I reckon taping some cardboard boxes to my windows should work until my first paycheck hits, I'll keep Ikea in mind though.
>What's your job anyway?
Stocking shelves at a supermarket, they get the night shift workers to stock everything at night apparently so most of the people around the store during the day are just cashiers and people fulfilling online orders.

 No.304038

>>304000
Your answer is very much appreciated.

>Treat productive hobbies like they are as serious as work. In fact it is more serious. One is working for someone else. The other is working for you to make your life better even if only in a subjective sense.

This is so obvious that I think I've forgotten about this when the grinding started. I was always thinking and worried that there is no way I would ever be able to have a job and keep it for a longer because I'm too broken, but I think it's pretty stable right now and I have a secured position and I shouldn't worry about this anymore and can finally start to care about myself again when work time's over.

>Instead of treating life like an unused rounding error on the side of work, treat work like it is a temporary deviation from life.

Very well put and I'm stuck at the first version of this sentence. In fact my private life feels just like waiting for work again. That's not bearable for many more decades.

>Get some productivity software.
>I wish I could share the software I use but it's not very self explanatory.

The way you make it mysterious makes me wonder what exactly you mean. This year I bought a DAW for music composition and mixing but I haven't even used it for 5 minutes. That's what I would start with, I guess that's one option what you meant when talking about productivity software.


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 No.303254[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.
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 No.304005

>>303990
Lmao i studied a bookkeeping certificate online. Even while i was doing it i could tell it was an utterly pointless scam. At least it didnt cost me much.

 No.304032

There is seemingly this all consuming cancer in the air
It makes everyone waste their lives on meaningless bs
things which make life worth living like basic respect, freedom, health, capability of being left alone are actively attacked and removed from society
everything is reduced to this sequence of demoralised interactions

 No.304033

>>304032
The toxic leaders of the world enjoy to enforce misery upon us

 No.304036

I've missed out on so much basic human experiences by having a fucked up brain. Even the dumbest, most insufferable, most unfortunate, disabled normie has memories of relationships with people, places he had seen or memorable things he had done. I had nothing. Even when I interact with people or travel to places, it felt wrong like I am not really getting "it". The rest of the time when I am not doing that I just hide in my room. My life passes me by. It feels like I had been imprisoned since birth, only looking at other people's life from my window, except that I am physically free.

 No.304037

>>304036
you should try to get a hobby, anything really, something that doesn't involve a computer screen. Even going on walks, listening to podcast, doing exercise, learning how to cook a dish you like, reading any book you're interested in, and then yeah also spending time on your pc.

I'm in the same situation as you, I've gone through really long periods of social isolation and it really degenerates your brain. Rumination is a mental disease.
Best thing is to exercise and also sunbathe enough to counterbalance the onset of depression or depression in general. Being physically active is what can give you some relief and help with your condition. It won't make it go away but it will help if you're consistent.


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 No.302958[Reply]

>So TL:DR; online places changed and I'm no longer suited for them. There are no suitable places and circumstances to make friends at my age. People my age got families and why would they want to be my friend anyways?


2000s internet vibes can still be found in:

* Gaiaonline
* Vaporwave communities
* City forums, I guess?
* Food communities, kitchen clubs
* they hack "gamespy" era PC games to have multiplayer mode WITHOUT now-defunct GameSlayn. Games that still have communities

* Dos.zone
DOS era games can be played online.
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 No.303025

>>302983
> Meanwhile I had all those shit and was only made fun for having "old" hardware by chads in school or in the neighborhood that I hang out with because they all already had flat screens or curved LED monitors.Its incredibly frustrating to see something I was basically bullied for (being poor) is now worshipped by brainless rich tards in tik tok buying them at thrift stores or garage sales. I fucking hate this gay world planet.

You was supposed to wear funny "haha funny 8-bit world is kewl" tier merch - pixel-art (MINECRAFT-themed) merch/MARIO/YOSHI/LUIGI/BOWSER badges, play Minecraft sometimes (5 hour experience + some vids on HOW TO BUILD A HIDDEN BASE on YouTube would be fine) etc.


impose it's yer choice, not necessity
it's like not wearing DISCO THEME HOT SHIT if you only own a tape player with a bunch of 80s/70s funk/fusion

 No.303027

>>302957
You really did make an entire thread to reply to my post.
Quite insane.
Also took a while for me to even check the catalog.

>>302973
Yeah the change isn't only noticed by people my age, it really depends on what age you gained internet access and what parts you got exposed to initially.
I still had an atari for example, but not because I was into retro anything, or because I'm old enough to be one of its users, it's just that rural poverty meant we got everything much later than the rest of the world.
Then when I got exposed to the internet I was lead by my "elders" as well.

I'm sure even zoomers notice, you mention minecraft, a lot of those early creators, though I didn't consume much, but some were big enough that reached me too, they used to be much different.
They were… creative and authentic. Nowadays all of it feels way too intentionally crafted to be a brand, something to sell, something to make money from.

Every space online has been way too commercialized and normiefied and the issue is that there are more and more people who have only seen this version of the internet and they love it. So if you don't, there is no space for you and they will make it very clear.
It is sad.

>More like, people didnt exactly 'change', they began to show their true colors.
I disagree with this to an extent. Again, the people I used to be around moved on with their lives. They didn't start showing their true color, it's just that they matured and had different priorities.
So what I'm trying to say here is that there is a difference between the oldheads baring their teeth. You might be right about some of them, but most just moved on in my opinion and the ones that replaced them are simply a different breed accustomed to a different "normal".
You know, don't tell people your name, don't post anything about yourself type people were replaced with those that lived life online in public like it's normal.
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 No.303274

Posted some relevant info in /games/

 No.304027

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I wonder of cute Two-Bees will be a thing in 30 years or so

 No.304034

>>304027
>of

*if


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 No.302683[Reply]

ОК, i just dont get it


My mother keeps calling me at my workplace over the fact my pants look "horrible", "off-putting", and other stuff


I am busting me arse here to earn some money to cover her expenses yet she would start a fucking opera scene over wrong type of pants I am wearing.


Ugh.

For years, I was believing I am an autistic debile with asexuality-like condition, now I realise it was me mum all along, teaching me to be nervous over this or that irrelevant detail here or there - stuff people would normally give no friks about
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 No.304013

Why do you still associate with her at all if you have a job? You can just block her and never talk to her again.

 No.304016

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>>304013
DOES NOT COMPUTE

 No.304029

>>302683
OP I am in the same boat. Why does the bitching never end? I thought it would stop after I got a job. But the bitching just never stops. There is always something to bitch about.

 No.304030

>>304029
what does she usually bitch about exactly? You not helping with the chores?

 No.304031

>>304029
OP here, 2 my cents:
Me mum drinks coffee, and used to wear shitty shoes.
Lately, I got her new leather shoes (and new leather handbag). And got her new coffee brand. She pretty much acts pretty now.
BESIDES; I also drink less coffee now my guts don't hurt. Guess what? When I drink coffee, I feel angry. When I don't, I merely act toxic a bit.


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 No.302948[Reply]

I know the truth.
We didn't have a normal childhood, and if we did at some point during childhood, puberty, or adolescence, we screwed up and were rejected or abandoned or some fucked up thing.
>Ptsd
A few days ago, I read that people with PTSD have a characteristic lack of light and permanent dilated pupils in their eyes, as if they were almost dead. I looked at photos from my childhood, and at a certain age, I already looked terrible just by looking my eyes and face, from genuine happyness to pure sadness.
>Do you want to vent and tell me a story about some traumatic shit?
I have vague memories of tunnel vision dissociation after being rejected and abandoned as a child and another one as teenager. I wouldn't wish that experience to anyone.

>Avpd
I wonder if this shit is just a process of dehumanization every damn day. I feel out of step or out of alignment with the normies' charade of pretending that everything is fine. I can barely fake it with family members and some close acquaintances (who are not my friends but are friends of my family) and with childrens, I don't want them to end up like me either.
I'm going to say something that makes me cringe, but this year I felt a very stupid happiness because someone who is not part of my family expressed interest or curiosity about me. I don't know if them did it out of morbid curiosity or genuine interest in some form of human kindness, but it made me feel temporarily happy and not so alone and isolated. And no, it wasn't the typical “Are you okay?” that leads to the automatic fake response of ‘'Yes'’ or “Yes, but I'm just now busy and a little tired.”
If only I could make friends or find something similar to human companionship, like with my pets, I wouldn't feel so alone.
I miss playing video games like TF2, WoW, CS, other MMOs, ending up in long hours games and parties laughing with randoms, Even there, I connected with those who were disconnected and found support and friendship. Thank you for that.
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 No.303246

society is a sadomasochistic hellscape
there will be no happiness, release from misery, or any breaks from meaningless torment
the game is to kill yourself as quick as possible

 No.303247

>>303246
this

 No.303263

>>303236
why call another user of this site a subhuman?

 No.303264

>>303263
NTA but this is a virgin website, not a crab website. Some of us are virgins by choice. And the guy who accused OP of being a "pedonigger" is a normalfag so objectively a subhuman.

 No.304028

>>302957
>So TL:DR; online places changed and I'm no longer suited for them. There are no suitable places and circumstances to make friends at my age. People my age got families and why would they want to be my friend anyways?


2000s internet vibes can still be found in:

* Gaiaonline
* Vaporwave communities
* City forums, I guess?
* Food communities, kitchen clubs
* they hack "gamespy" era PC games to have multiplayer mode WITHOUT now-defunct GameSlayn. Games that still have communities

* Dos.zone
DOS era games can be played online

ALSO


You pretty much can try and buy Anbernic gaming console (it's full of ROMs of retro games)

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 No.302379[Reply]

Every morning I'm nauseous, really nauseous, sometime I puke and when I'm not nauseous I get random abdominal pain.
When I'm not nauseous or in pain I may have shortness of breath and tachycardia, often I'm also constipated.
Despite the vomit and constipation I try to eat and drink as much as I can, I'm losing weight and I fear to end up bedbound if I don't do so.
I've done some medical tests like blood tests, endoscopy, ecography, with no evidence of disease…still I'm really sick.
And my problem is I'm monitored by my parents, despite being an adult I have no freedom and they don't want to help me with suicide but I can't live like this.
I'm being tortured with no end in sight.
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 No.303543

>>303534
oh, and just in case OP has "amerifat" mentality - no, it's not "pop soda fizzy", it's a plain water.


If an average Joe drinks fizzy pop every day and refers to it simply as "water" then gets an IBS it's no wonder he has problems.


ALSO

PerplexityAI says IBS may happen with tests coming up clean.

Your symptoms—morning nausea with vomiting, abdominal pain, rapid heartbeat, shortness of breath, and constipation—might be caused by a functional gastrointestinal disorder like irritable bowel syndrome (IBS) or another similar condition. These issues often relate to how the nerves in your gut work, and stress can make them worse, but regular tests often come back normal.

The fast heartbeat and shortness of breath could be your body’s response to pain or anxiety, but it’s important to rule out serious causes with your doctor. Losing weight without a clear reason is concerning and means you should keep working with your doctor to find the cause, possibly needing more tests or monitoring.

If you want, I can share some tips to ease your symptoms or help you prepare for your next doctor visit. Want me to?

 No.303545

>>303543

>Yes please help me
Sure! Here are some tips that might help ease your symptoms:

1. Eat small, frequent meals instead of big ones to avoid upsetting your stomach.
2. Keep a food diary—track what you eat and when symptoms get worse to spot triggers.
3. Try gentle exercise like walking—it can help digestion and reduce stress.
4. Practice relaxation techniques like deep breathing or meditation to calm your gut and lower heart rate.
5. Stay hydrated but avoid too much caffeine or carbonated drinks.
6. When symptoms flare, rest and avoid heavy or greasy foods.

''For your next doctor visit, mention:
- All symptoms in detail (when, how long, what helps/worsens)
- Your weight loss and any anxiety or stress you feel
- Any food patterns you noticed
- How symptoms affect your daily life''

Want me to help you prepare some notes for your doctor? 😊

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 No.304011

Meditation:

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/561023.Break_Through_Pain

you can download the book from https://annas-archive.org/

 No.304012

>>302379
shortness of breath and tachycardia can come from reduced monoamine oxidase activity, very rare to have this.

try a tyramine free diet, since unmetabolized tyramine can lead to tachycardia and shortness of breath since it raises blood pressure.>>302379

 No.304025

>>304012
sounds somewhat relateable… i burp after cheese


 No.304003[Reply]

is vocaloid for trannies?

 No.304004

I dont think so. I enjoy Astrophysics songs and I'm not a tranny. No idea if he's a tranny. Seems like he could be though.
Breakcore is very troon-coded however.

 No.304008

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vocaloid is for the people

 No.304022

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I wonder if OP is a tranny …

 No.304024

Moved to >>>/b/1028547.


 No.301895[Reply]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.303985

>>303984
Sure bro, say that to Roosevelt

 No.303986

>>303985
Which one, though?

 No.303988

>>303636
I'm 33, it never really gets better. You just learn how to deal with pain and emptiness better over time. But then again, the pain and emptiness grows over time as well. Being alive is just one long distraction from death but not all distractions are bad, sometimes distraction is great.

 No.304017

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I found nothing to be more helpful than meditation, Wizbros, I suggest doing it twice a day, once in the morning, once at night for at least 10 minutes, i regulated my nervous system and i have more control over my emotions now

 No.304020

>>304017
Do you practice some specific mediation techniques? Also, do you practice mindfulness and relaxation outisde of your meditation sessions?
I've tried mediation a few times and it did nothing for me, maybe it's about building a habit or something…


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 No.303398[Reply]

The sole purpose of this post is to share the techniques and books I have accumulated over time to achieve relaxation and other things.
I have read about meditation, magic, ceremonial magic, chaotic and postmodern magic, anxiety therapies, and relaxation techniques. This thread is not a cure for all problems. I don't want to turn this into a blogspot, so feel free to ask whatever you want.
>Also
Remember that you can also search for the techniques I mention on the internet, on YouTube, or on WikiHow, where you can find help on how to perform these techniques and more tips.
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 No.303879

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>>303467
Well, did any of you try some of the techniques or read any of the e-books here and learn something?
>Also
May you have a peaceful and happy week.

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>>303800
Try
>Nerve Flossing
>Somatic exercises
>Somatic relief exercises (similar to yoga or grounding practices)
In some somatic exercises they simulate tremors (this is used in a pseudoscience alternative therapy TRE-trauma release therapy) and simulate tremors can be very relaxing bacause turn your muscles into fatigue and release anxiety, its like a Stim maybe.

 No.304010

Really needed this thread, thanks anon

 No.304014

>>304010
I recommend to anyone to be aware of
>Relaxation induced anxiety
if you have anxiety dissorder or ptsd or other problems, relaxation can turn bad sometimes.
And about
>vagus nerves overstimulation.
So be aware of possible side effects, dont overdo these things.

 No.304019

Massage!


Massage devices can be "the life changer" if you're BIG, both tall and fat, resulting in ridiculous leg strains.

You can get a pair thigh-calf massage devices for cheap.


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 No.303197[Reply]

Everything you see is controlled by algorithms.

The internet algorithms are gang stalking me.
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 No.303213

>>303197
>>303197
use a local llm chatbot then, blin!

 No.303251

Ignore this. It was crazy.

The aggressive ads are just coincidences and it's impossible anyway.

 No.303280

I'm being gang stalked by rogue uncreated algorithms.

I live in an emotional world that hates me and no one believes me.

 No.304007

>>303197
>>303198
>>303212
The thing is, 2010s Internet was "dead" compared to 2000s Internet already.

1. Many bots
2. Little to no cool stuff to surf
3. Algorithms of Youtube trying to pick more and more addictive slop for me - not the stuff that would educate me.
4. I swear, 2000s Internet was more welcoming.
5. I still frequent the websites they would tell me about somewhere else, but in 2000s, they would recommend me stuff. Yet… I would never find a new comfy site to lurk at via Internet in 2010s.



To mess with the algorthim, try AdNauseam extension.

Also, try looking up some chicken coups, buckwheat, 75% chocolate bars, Au shares, Miami balconies, silly paper fingertraps etc.

 No.304009

>>303197
you shouldn't be on social media anyways. It's nothing but propaganda.


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