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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

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 No.311696

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I may have brooded too much upon "If you keep staring at the abyss long enough, it'll stare back at you" to come to a nonsensical conclusion.

The only evidence of my existence is to be recorded, to be in someone's memory, to be registered. But if I exist in a vacuum that means I'm already dead right? But is the world truly a vacuum? Space isn't, at least from my knowledge; it's filled with something we don't understand, something we call "dark matter", but isn't that just a cope? Just to make ourselves feel better about not being ignorant like our primitive ancestors? Maybe the question will remain unanswered but one thing is for sure; this is the path I have taken to account for my existence.

I feel at peace whenever I delude myself into thinking I'm being registered. That I'm not being neglected. Maybe something or someone in the void is keeping track of the rhythm of my breath, that something out there is fervently unfurling the tangle of my thoughts without my knowledge. Maybe if I keep searching I can truly find out that I'm alive, that is to realize that I'm being recorded. Even when I'm blankly gazing at the supposedly inanimate wall before me, it may be more alive than me. Because it's only thing that has recorded the trace of my existence and many other people. Because it has existed and will continue to be recorded beyond how much I will be.

Maybe the void will love me back if I love it deeply enough. Maybe deluding myself into romanticising newton's third law will keep me out of despair. Maybe this is why people talk to seemingly lifeless objects, to animals. They want to be recorded, by anything at all.

 No.311697

In my view—hmm—the mental burdens that weigh upon human beings are, in fact, an entity—a massive, formless mass—composed of the collective weight of all the problems and concerns held within the minds of humanity. This entity drifts through space; it is vast in scale and possesses countless tentacles. These tentacles reach downward, latching onto our heads and infiltrating our brains—and it is from this process that the burdens within our own minds arise. We are merely vessels for this "mental entity." Consequently, wherever we go—whether we are asleep or engaged in our daily activities—the tentacles embedded in our heads keep us in a state of constant thought. Imagine it this way: each tentacle corresponds to one human being; the entity possesses a multitude of these appendages, with one attached to every single person. In a sense, the mental burdens experienced by each individual serve as nourishment for this colossal, drifting entity—a creature of the mind with countless tentacles connected to the brains of all humanity, while our bodies act as nothing more than its vessels.

 No.311701

>>311696
>>311697
There exists a thin barrier between sanity and the collapse of human reason a barrier necessitated by the infinite, cosmic ignorance required because the human mind cannot contain the totality of universal truth.

The beauty of nature, the vibrant hues of the sky, the vast oceans, all vistas of space or Earth everything we perceive as real and beautiful are, in truth, merely a lullaby, a fragile illusion crafted specifically to prevent the human mind from shattering. Humans believe they inhabit a coherent, complete world yet, our existence is but an echo of a single discordant note, or a tiny particle drifting within the dream of an ancient, incomprehensible entity of unfathomable scale.

This is why the ultimate horror is not physical death, but rather the moment the veil of illusion is torn away, exposing one to the absolute truth a reality so far beyond the bounds of human reason that the mere act of beholding it would instantly obliterate one’s sanity, leaving one to prefer death over the burden of a mind forced to comprehend the incomprehensible.

 No.311710

>>311597
I got the goyojo G215. There are basically two price ranges that correspond to the resolution of the sensor. This was competitively priced for the 256x192 resolution size sensor and additionally it has a manually adjustable focus which most other monoculars in that price range lack. The FOV is also quite low which is actually a good thing because it increases effective resolution. Basically the more of an area you try to spread over the same resolution sensor, the lower res that image will be, so low FOV is actually a good thing. It also has a laser pointer which is nice to have as I don't have one of those but they are fun to play with.

I've only started playing around with this a little but it's already pretty impressive. I can see tiny little birds in the bushes that are completely invisible to the naked eye and of course the night vision works. I've just been using it out an open window so far though. I think tonight I will try it outside. These things don't work through closed windows so just be aware of that.

 No.311725

>>311695
There's no unity or self-sufficiency for a conscious being. Conscious beings are always split in themselves, like body mind duality. Humans are conscious beings. It follows that after we die, whatever happens, I think there's one main question: Will there be eternal self sufficiency or will there again be consciousness? And as long as objective conditions like our universe allow conscious beings to exist I think for so long we can't escape the curse (some call it gift) of consciousness.


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 No.311712[Reply]

Do any of you feel like you just dont really want to get out of your hopelessness/depression? Like it is just the standart? Hard to really explain.
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 No.311716

I just don't want to have to do stuff anymore.

 No.311720

Its like an implicit sunk-cost fallacy situation. I dont want to improve because at this point im not just used to the pain and shittiness, im literally adapted to it, ive *become* misery, sadness and tragedy. I cannot be anything else.

 No.311721

We're all here to rot and die

 No.311724

It's taboo to talk about, but the same goes for sex and relationships. What would be the point of losing your virginity after 30? On the other hand you could get married to a wrinkly 50-60 year old virgin and be in a nonsexual marriage if it's about loneliness. After all, even 100 year old people marry though not for the first time. People have life scripts even outcasts. The story wouldn't make sense.

 No.311726

I once watched a documentary on YouTube about the word melancholy, more specifically, its about how the best way to describe the feeling of melancholy is wanting to stay in your sadness due to its familiarity and the strange comfort it may give


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 No.307023[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

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>>296511
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 No.311552

i have been in pits of despair and panic so extreme that i think needing a suicide general and a huge discussion about it all is really performative. if you need all these complex plans its cause you aren't really suicidal and youre just looking for ways to vent that youre sad unconstructively. if i need to die im confident id be able to do really extreme methods like slice my own throat or run into a wall repeatedly if im imprisoned.
but things in my life have always worked themselves out before i needed to.
my problems really arent my problems. its being forced to live with my family members that are demented retards.
but things will work themselves out like my brother will get a new horse tranquilizer for his mental retardation or my mom will get an expensive surgery or some family member will give us money and i wont need to kill myself anymore cause my life went back to status quo.

 No.311615

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Is it cruel if I burn all my belongings including family photos where my face appears?
I just want it to look like I never existed

 No.311636

>>311615
no, it are your belongings, do with it what you want
your small everyday objects are yours

 No.311688

Is slicing my throat a good way to kill myself? I didn't find it listed on lostallhope

My only worry is blood coagulating and blocking the bleeding. My idea was to aim to my aortic vein. Alternatively try to cut a vein on my leg before I do the neck, just in case

 No.311723

>>311688
Cutting or bloodletting has a low succes rate compared to other methods. This might be a good idea however if you have no other options.


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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.311661

>>311562
You too? they only told us in training that you'll have to clock in at 4 am on site, I was imagining myself again hugging my pillow, lying on my bed while the cold rain outside makes me nest in my bed sheet.
It would drown in me comfort letting my anxiety out while still being a neet after failing to get a job.
>Oh you failed again? no worries come rest in you childhood bedroom, maybe buy some snacks and get some food
But I didn't fail, I got the job and having to figure out how to mask is tense and exhausting

 No.311667

>>310123
the normies at my job are so stupid.
>sit at a reception desk overnight
>quickly open an incognito tab and move it to the bottom of the screen (with the brightness down) while i keep the laptop screen close to my body to obscure the cameras view
>open youtube videos of music or content and/or kick streams to listen to
>connect my earbuds to the computers wifi and have long hair to obscure them
>sit there for hours listening to content staring off into space
>two cameras are pointing at me and they just see me "doing nothing"

my coworkers are apparently asking my supervisor how the fuck i just sit there doing nothing for 8 hours not knowing that im just listening to stuff through my earbuds. what a bunch of a retards

 No.311692

>>311660
Act calm.

Ask a deepseek to "explain to me like I'm 5 the most basic thing about working at a callcentre". Then chat some more. See, you have your personal coach in your smartphone!

I mean, I understand, chatting with people can be tedious. Follow the script, I suppose.

However, I have a feeling it may be hard for you. Think of it as studying grounds, not just your attempt to make $ to live.

 No.311693

>>311667
"We have no pacts over items that aren't mine".

Anyway, sitting for 8 hours straight without taking breaks is "bodily unhealthy". You are expected to rise up and do some stretches… in their fit-o-stacey imaginary worlds! Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.

>youtube videos of music or content and/or kick streams
>sit at a reception desk overnight

 No.311722

>>311667
Isn't this your job to sit there?
Normies always create problems out of nothing


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 No.311549[Reply]

It seems I have to accept my fate as homeless, because finding a job is very difficult. I have tried many jobs, but in the end, I was fired and failed. How fortunate are those who can work in their respective fields and live their lives by working as usual, going about their days normally, while I am shackled by the suffering every day, having no money and no job, being homeless is my last choice or death.
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>>311593
I'm very sorry to hear that, I've also been in that situation where I was fired many times, changed jobs and failed and became homeless like this, I can only hope and pray that all of you get decent jobs and don't demand, I'm now in church with my homeless friends to help the church like cleaning the church, repairing damage and so on, here we are taken care of in our church, we are very grateful that there is a place for us to survive and we are happy here.

 No.311606

>>311593
"Right to work" bucko

 No.311711

I wish you the best Wiz

 No.311718

>>311582
Honestly, even as a thirdie, I suppose that experience that this brother is going with is not very different from what I would go through. I just hope things get alright for him, I wish I had some money tbh to give to him, but of course such is life when you're unemployed.

 No.311719

>>311718
What’s truly saddening is how the struggle to survive whether as a homeless person or under the weight of immense social pressure drives many to suicide. I’ve seen people take their own lives even when they appeared to be doing just fine whether they were in school, employed, unemployed at home, or living on the streets. Everyone carries their own burdens, and those who find themselves unable to endure life or who simply lack the fortune to adapt or find any sense of comfort eventually reach a breaking point and give up; in other words, they choose suicide. I suspect the OP feels the same way.
>Becoming homeless or facing death.
That is what was mentioned at the end. In a way, the OP is fortunate to have found a place where they could adapt and discover some comfort, even though they ended up homeless after being fired from job after job. They reached a point where they contemplated suicide, but instead chose the path of homelessness a choice between survival and death. Fortunately, they found companionship among other homeless individuals, as well as a welcoming space at a church. To those of you considering suicide or facing homelessness please, remember that life is very short. Try to make the best of it, however you are able to cope. I say this because so many people in our society are currently pushed to the very edge.


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 No.311703[Reply]

I don't get it, their only byproduct is pollution, I have allergy but that is fine I can cope up with it, but my pet cat or rather my mother's bad cat literally goes and hides inside the bed. I mean I just don't get it.

Like it is clear that fireworks do not benefit the environment and their byproduct literally lasts for a few seconds, think about this, like if you bbq at least you eat something, if you drive a car at least you get somewhere.

I just don't get it, and this is not just limited to one county, lunar day, 4th of july, etc. all across the world. Like they are literally one thing that I do not get honestly. I understand that caring about environment for a wiz like me is redundant cause I don't have a stake in the future but I just dont it man.
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 No.311705

>>311703
no idea dude, I think to enjoy fireworks you gotta be retarded in some twisted way.
here where I live fireworks are used on new years and anyone can buy them.
people spends thousands of euros on Fireworks, they complain the entire year they are poor and not earning enough and then waste all their money savings on fireworks, their money literally goes up in smoke.
then they also cripple themselves with it all the time, every year there are dozens of normalfags that blow off their hands and faces with these fireworks.

 No.311706

Because they go boom

 No.311715

>>311703
I think it's just a difference in intelligence. The dumber you are the more you'll be able to appreciate loud sounds as a form of entertainment. I worked at a fireworks store once and observed this exact correlation without fail with my own eyes.

 No.311717

>>311715

Yeah, pretty sure this has something to do with it.

 No.311727

People like fireworks because it stimulates their eyesight and hearing.
Saging for dumb question.


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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.311677

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ass

 No.311678

>>311677
hahahaha

 No.311679

>>311677
Wizard cutie mark?

 No.311681

>>311679
it was surpose to be a knife

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 No.311025[Reply]

Fuck school. Its shit and it makes me wanna kms. It drains the life out of me. There is zero point in working for like 40 years anyway
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 No.311685

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>>311026
This. Just learn at home and do some of those tests for retarded adults (e.g GED) later.

 No.311687

>>311025
I don't see the point in following the rat race either, if you're a shut-in like most people on this website are you won't have much to spend money on other than basic needs and Internet, the plan is to leech off family and/or government and if you can't then get a temp job and save money to NEET again and repeat the cycle over and over.

Most degrees will be utterly useless thanks to AI so that's another point.

The lazy hiki friendless life is bliss but only when one breaks away from the brainwash mindrape of feeling guilty about being a burden to society, maybe it feels much lonelier if you don't live with your parents but that hasn't been the case for me thus far so I have no opinion there. Not like it matters, a lot of normies follow the ratrace and still end up living and dying alone anyway, some even get divorceraped.

 No.311691

>>311684
>>311687
>Most degrees will be utterly useless thanks to AI so that's another point.


"Back in my day" I used to feel the same over the Internet making information incredibly accessible, making big cities obsolete since everyone from suburban areas is just going to have access to the same information as people from the downtown.

Turns down I was wrong. So, here's my prognosis: there'll be something about the AI that the lawmakers will hang onto to make huge cities less shitty than rural life

 No.311707

>>311687
I wish I could… I am stuck in the European equivalent of high school. It fucking sucks. Started having suicidal thoughts. I cannot imagine a future I want. NEET sounds preferable but I worry it might not be realistic…

 No.311708

>>311105
Thank you, finally


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 No.310788[Reply]

At what age did you become blackpilled about your life?
Around 12-14 I knew exactly where I would end up, and sadly was completely right even back then, nothing changed
Everything went about as poorly as expected
Being relatively intelligent as an autistic sperg is worst.
Not even having the bliss of ignorance
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 No.311686

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I always knew I wouldn't go far in life, even when I was 5 I used to think this way. At my childhood I thought it would be because of my health, but I slowly realized I wasn't going to die so early but just lead a miserable life instead. Since it was a gradual process, it's hard to say an specific age. Maybe at 13, I guess, since it was when I started to hate my life.

 No.311689

Can't even attend Orthodoxal mass without realizing everyone is going to slurp from the same spoon. Every Stacey, every C-kun… every nose-picking Bryan, too.

 No.311690

>>311689
That should be the least of your concerns

 No.311700

>>311686
At a certain point your thinking just becomes dominated by this craving for the end

 No.311702

>>311700
Yeah, I don't think I've gone through a single day without thinking about dying at least once since then.


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 No.311596[Reply]

I'm not doing great in life. Living and confronting life is hard for me. I'm weak. Life will crush on me one day, I don't have the strength to live and fight for my life. The more time passes the more I want to kill myself or I won't make it into life. Life's hard, living is not easy. I don't have will to live. depression is like a black hole, it's very strong and trap will to live wihch is like life is being suck out of me by the black hole depression. At this point and the point of this thread is to share this and to relate to other wizards who feel or live the same way as I. I just want to relate…just this time.
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 No.311672

>>311665
life's trying to crush you like a hand clenching into a fist and you're inside the hand trying to push the fingers out or you'll die. you have to fight for your life but I am weak and weak men die. life is for strong people with strong will

 No.311673

>>311672
Being weak does not mean you cannot dominate your opponents; every strength has its drawbacks, and every drawback has its advantages. You may be weak, but if you are clever, you can become the one who controls the strong.
>this is fact

 No.311674

>>311673
well, to me, being clever/smart/intelligence is to be strong. and so I'm weak, therefore not smart

 No.311680

>>311673
I thought that I may have found some flaws in that logic, but then I read that it is fact so I guess I have no balls in this court.

 No.311699

>>311672
I think it can be reduced to specific problems like bad health, aggressive people, no money etc. There is no mysterious third person 'life' or 'fate' which is trying to crush you.


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