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 No.309759[Reply]

i keep wondering if all fiction could be unhealthy for the brain. human life is so short, a day has so few hours. how can you take one or more of these hours and flee to a place that doesn't exist and disconnect from your own reality.

places that don't exist have begun to repell me. my own reality has so many projects i would like to attend to that i feel gridlocked by not knowing what to do first. desire for fiction might be nothing but pure idleness.

i assume i understand the impulse, though i could be mistaken. when i was a child and were forced to attend child prison (school), the idea of no longer being able to explore the world at my own pace and instead had to spend time with the violent conformist was completely depressing. have them judge my intelligence based on how hard i could force myself to care what they thought was important in their desperate attempt to turn me into a mindless soldier and stomp all my dreams and interests in the process.

i'd flee into video games and at least videogames are interactive. in a video game i can make decisions, in school i was but an inmate without agency. but in a movie about a super hero, there is no interaction, the poor fool who watches this is but the passive recipient of centralized propaganda. i don't see how someone would accept this premise and spend time on this.
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 No.309811

>>309805
>actually you don't need anything
yes I need entertainment, without entertainment life is boring.
>like living in a place with very few people, have you tried that?
I'm perfectly fine in my room where there are no other people.
>you are missing out
no I dont miss out on anything, "real life" is boring and a waste of time. any time spend not on a computer counts to me as wasted.
>even a bad real life is better then a virtual life
absolutely not
>there are ways to make reality less hellish
murder is illegal last I checked

 No.309813

>>309809
>that's filling your brain with things that aren't real.
things that arent real are much more interesting than "real" things.
>after that your brain is filled with fake people and fake places.
which are more interesting than their real life equivalent
>but not with real people
real people are niggers/normalfaggots. why would you want to know shit about "real" people? boring.
>and only a tiny corner 10% of the brain left for reality.
question is how to reduce this further.

 No.309814

>yes I need entertainment, without entertainment life is boring.
you are being too dramatic, a need is something life can't go on without. you would never bore yourself to death so that's nonsense what you are talking. i genuinely believe the conventional opinion on boredom is spot on: when you are bored, you are not spending your time wisely. if you were, you'd be so busy you would hardly ever feel bored. personally i have discovered what i believe to be the answer to boredom which is a system that connects different parts of my brain at different times and different moods. to describe it as simply as i can: i have a good way of making notes of things i find interesting and then when i am bored, i press one button and one of these notes pops up on my screen. that's the answer to boredom, not watching lord of the rings.

>>like living in a place with very few people, have you tried that?
>I'm perfectly fine in my room where there are no other people.
well i dont wanna end up like you so i am still gonna try it though i feel kinship to you with disdain for other people.

>no I dont miss out on anything,
do you even astral travel and meditate? because that is the only way i see to not miss out, other then that you are missing out. i was in africa this year and encountered wild monkeys who survived in a city and now my city feels like inferior trash. though the squirrels (what i believe to be the closest things to monkeys i have) tried their best to cheer me up. animals don't treat me as bad as they treat the other people, they can sense i am closer to them then to the normie humans.

>>even a bad real life is better then a virtual life
>absolutely not
i'm real, it is way better to talk to me then to talk to a bot. people love it to talk to me, they wanna tell me all kinds of shit and come up with all kinds of evil ways to trick me into forced conversations. that's proof. checkmate atheist!

>>there are ways to make reality less hellish
>murder is illegal last I checked
but then you'd be one of those assholes you wouldn't want to be around. you better take good care of not becoming what you hate, that is the one thing you can have over normies that maPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.309815

>>309813
>things that arent real are much more interesting than "real" things.
then the consumerism has worked on you unfortunately.

>why would you want to know shit about "real" people? boring.
you know what, you got me there, i wouldn't. i think people are completely boring but part of that is because they are so eerily similar to each other which i ascribe to them being subject to the exact same education and entertainment. i'd love to know interesting people but normal people of course not, i consider that a torture.

>>and only a tiny corner 10% of the brain left for reality.
>question is how to reduce this further.
i roll my eyes in disdain. if you are in any position to make choices and you choose fiction over reality, the freedom of choice is wasted on you. choice i believe to be the biggest thing most people here on dep leave on the table unexamined. you could choose your way out of any shit and i don't mean ending your life prematurely, human life is already short.

 No.309816

>>309814
>you would never bore yourself to death
without entertainment I would probably have killed myself a long time ago.
>well i dont wanna end up like you
then this site is not for you normalfag
>do you even astral travel and meditate?
waste of time so no
>i was in africa this year
my condolences
>it is way better to talk to me then to talk to a bot
not really, AI is pretty decent these days, probably why this board is so dead these days. also provides more entertainment.
>people love it to talk to me
I dont love talking to you, I wanna understand why a normalfag comes here.
>checkmate atheist!
religion is a waste of time. your god is not real and does not exist.
>but then you'd be one of those assholes
ewxactly, thus improvement of surroundings is impossible.
>>309815
>consumerism
nothing bad about consumerism. I have lots of time to spend on it and it costs nothing.
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 No.309743[Reply]

I'm very depressed and I will also develop chaos in my mind so I don't care about everyone anymore and I will destroy everything why should I be a fool who can only blame myself while others can be happy without being able to feel how crazy this world is I will destroy everything and if this world ends and everything is destroyed then I will be a living witness that I am the one who knows how cruel this world is and how unfair all of this is everyone everything everything must have an end if it doesn't end then I will always be in hell or at least be locked up as rotting flesh
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 No.309783

>>309776

labels dont help, they hinder. they are used by people to dismiss the problem and abandon responsibility, which likely is the only path to healing. you don't have depression, you have something way more specific, personal and complicated. when you call it depression, you let yourself be seduced by the diagnostic language; it's often hollow promises and the undignified preemptive certainty they hide behind. i say do the oposite: describe your condition as crude, unhinged, precise and accessible to others as you can. your name about your condition should be so easy to understand that when you tell it to someone who has no idea about it, understands it the first time you mention it without having to ask fir details.

"i thought i had to fart the other day but i actually shat my pants with liquid shit a little" now that's how i talk about my most recenr condition, without shame! not using this ridiculous gatekept medical language.

 No.309788

>>309783
so i have a very specific, personal kind or depression, that is actually a bit comorbid with my overall inclination to being anxious?

 No.309791

>>309788
>so i have a very specific, personal kind or depression, that is actually a bit comorbid with my overall inclination to being anxious?

i can never know what you have because i can't feel what you feel so what could my opinion possibly be worth. nothing. i can look at your approach though. when you tell me with your chest sticking out all proud and identified: "i have depression!" then i don't know how that feels like, that tells me nothing. the term is like a shotgun and hits everything, you want something that only hits what you actually have precisely. you know the term is too much of a blanket term to be useful by the fact that you would receive 100 different answers if you asked 100 depressed people about their condition and not the same answer 100 times.

calling it comorbid and anxiety is at least a step in the right direction but you are once again committing what i in my pieced-together understanding of mental health believe to be a mistake: you just repeat medical labels as if they meant anything. what i believe to be way better would be to invent/sculpt/compose/craft/sketch a way to describe what is actually going on so that when a kid in the park asks you what is wrong with you, you could tell it in a way that makes sense to the kid and then the kid in the park might have a way better idea on what to do about it then any doctor ever because the kid did not have it's humanity pranked, whipped and tortured out of it in medschool.

most importantly though, bothering to be precise about it will give you better ideas on what to try to make things better and the most healing the most helping will be what you do to yourself, not what will be done onto you by others. don't wait to be rescued, nobody is coming, you do the rescuing.

 No.309806

>>309791
my wiz plz accept diz hug i bestow on thee :3

 No.309812

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>>309806
>my wiz plz accept diz hug i bestow on thee :3

first i was °_° like in the gif but then how could i turn such a generous hug.


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 No.308343[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

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 No.309786

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if you aren't born into wealth and attractive, what the FUCK are you even supposed to do.
you cant even play the game if you aren't even allowed to have any of the pieces and the whole time you are at the mercy of corporations and investors rolling the dice. Even the escapism is shit now and the good stuff from the past is getting harder and harder to find.
fucking mouse colony bullshit except a million times worse

 No.309787

>>309782
liver is full of post processed body junk. just eat meat bro. don't be a veggie

 No.309802

>>309787
proof? I eat liver, steak, chicken, pork, duck.
Liver is great really

 No.309804

>>309802
idk i don't like liver and my explanation of why it's bad aligns with my taste perfectly, smh
>proof
plz read biology or sth

 No.309810

>>309804
>liver is full of post processed body junk
prove it, faggot.


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 No.309747[Reply]

Sometimes I wish went to the mental hospital. Maybe things would’ve turned out differently. Maybe.
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 No.309790

>>309770
but what if you genuinely need help? if the one system intended to stop your mental suffering actually makes it worse, who can help?

 No.309792

>>309790
I came to the conclusion that the main flaw of the mental health system is its tendency to suck you in and once you are affiliated with it it's very hard to become independent of it be it medically or in a symbolic/ linguistic way as their methods of producing acceptable self narratives are probably much stronger than most advertisement measures. Like, you are in a bad condition mentally and you don't know what to do and you feel like you can't overcome this condition yourself and you also don't know much about this stuff (maybe some theory but the personal experience is unknown to you) and you don't seem to find much help online and they recommend if you are seriously feeling bad then go meet a professional - that's when they have you. And then the whole mental health journey begins. And it seems really convincing at first, someone is there for you to listen, someone you ascribed competence and the ability to cure your condition. But after some time you'll realise that's not how it works, because change only can come from within and by changing your life conditions, but not by the mental health system at all, at best they might with a low probability help to give some input which might put you on the right track but it's actually dependent on a myriad factors from social life to upbringing family nation income etc etc and it's actually a miracle if mental health system works it almost exclusively implies that your surrounding environment is already very stable. But then you are already sucked in and you adopt the mind set that you can't do anything by yourself without external help, and further more you kind of forget what actually caused your condition and your in for decades of wondering what's wrong with you accepting the illness mind set. While in fact maybe you were just missing a car or 100 000 dollars which would cure you immediately, but mental health system would never give you 100 000 dollars not even a dime but they earn 100000 with you the longer you keep coming back to them the better.

 No.309798

>>309790
>but what if you genuinely need help?
>who can help?
You are your only help. The entire idea of "I need someone's help to not feel sad" is a carryover from when you were a small child. As an adult man you're the only one who can make yourself feel better. No psychiatrists, therapists, or rent-a-mommy can do you any good. Only finding out why you're feeling so low and working towards rectifying it is going to help.

>the one system intended to stop your mental suffering
It's not. These systems are intended to keep you pacified so you don't go out and kill other people as a coping mechanism for feeling bad. Drugs and psuedo-psychotherapy fulfill that duty, so there's no need or want for the workers in this system to put in any care towards your mental state beyond just giving you those bare minimums.

 No.309800

>>309747
I was in an psychatric hospital for four weeks. nothing changed in my life

 No.309807

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Success in some thing is how you cure /dep/


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 No.309794[Reply]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

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 No.309796

It's tiresome to pretend being a muslim while i absolutely abhor it. My culture is deeply ingrained into islam and it's so ridiculous. How i envy white people

 No.309797

salmons

 No.309799

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>>309797
;)


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 No.309031[Reply]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.309768

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 No.309778

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 No.309657[Reply]

I try and try like I really do to be a wizard but unfortunately keep heading into becoming a crab. As someone who can't afford to NEET and will just die on the side of the street if I do so, I have to unfortunately go out into the real world and try to get a job and maintain a "social life".

And that is the worst part about it, I simply don't get it, a friend of mine wanted to meet another friend and he wanted me to go to club with me, now why did I agree? Because I wanted a referral for a job. Apart from that clubs in my country are horrendous for sub-3 men like me because they don't let people like me enter because of "dress code" when in reality you look ugly, short, singly, and the whole nine yards.

I got a referral so that's a good thing if it materialises into a job. But what I saw in club is not something that I have not known but to see it happen it still caught me like a deer in the headlights, basically I knew that this friend of friend is going to be a piece of shit because he is a club-goer.

But when I saw him literally just go up to a bitch and started making out with her continuously then going to the toiled and then coming back, and then actually showing me his Instagram and Snapchat about fucking a succubus 5 times one day, and fucking 10 different succubi in 10 days and sharing nudes on Telegram by starting out with the message "New Pussy around my Dick.".

God bless him for giving me the referral which probably won't materialise into a job but for some reason I wish I never met him, I saw a weird kind of primal expression on the faces of succubi, the man was 6'4 and had a chiseled face. And when I came back home I swear to god, I couldn't drive the car straight. Like I was about to crash 3 times, not because I was driving fast, but I was so pissed and my mind was just thinking about like what the fuck? I had to struggle for every single ounce of thing in life, and there are guys like this who just do what? Fucking exist?

Honestly, at that point years of thinking "I am never going to think about cunts" and months of trying to be a fucking monk only to enter a state of ragebait, I swear to god, when I returned in the night I was awake for a total of 48 hours just raging like a mad man and screaming into the damn mattress. Like what the fuck? How in the blue hell is it so easy for these kind of people? And this guy has cheated on every single cunt who was his GF. And has fucked over 40 succubi litePost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.309763

>>309756
>I've never encountered a feminist
she's right in the mirror
>I think those ideas only come into play when creepy men are bothering them
i wouldn't know

 No.309771

fuck you normie
this website is for lifelong celibates
not people like you

 No.309784

>>309771
based

 No.309785

>>309771
>celibate
someone who is a porn addict and masturbated everyday shouldn't be using that word
it's like those females who believe they can be born again virgins and stuff

 No.309789

>>309785
SHUT UP DEMONIC FUCKING NORMIE YOU JUST ASSUME ASSUME ASSUME ASSHOLE. I DON'T WATCH PORN, GO BE A CRAB ELSEWHERE. FUCKING NORMIE


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 No.308814[Reply]

How do you deal with extreme public humiliation and a destroyed reputation? Shits suicide fuel
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 No.309651

Diddy was arrested, accused of various crimes, had a video of him beating his ex leaked online, people learned that he has a cuckhold kink, he was found guilty of paying male prostitutes and on top of that people learned that he has a small penis. DJ Vlad said it's about 3 inches. I saw the video, but I can't say for sure.

He's a multimillionaire. That helps with public humiliation and destroyed reputation. Being rich.

 No.309655

>>309651
hes black

 No.309656

>>309655
how do you know?

 No.309668

It's almost impossible to have a destroyed reputation in today's world. People are too damn distracted to keep track of everyone's scandals. Just move somewhere else and people who know whatever you're worried about won't know. Only way that doesn't work is if you're famous, and if you're famous you don't need to worry about reputation even more. Famous people can get away with so much shit and people will still worship them. You just can't also be ugly or else you end up getting harvey winesteined. He could have kept doing what he was doing if he just lost 40 pounds.

 No.309773

>>308814
>How do you deal with extreme public humiliation and a destroyed reputation? Shits suicide fuel

social status is an illusory game. you are somewhat pre-programmed to mind being considered of lower social status but the world in which this cultural system made sense has not been existing for hundreds/thousands of years. this is industrial mass consumerist cattle dystopia and you don't have to mind being unpopular or lonely because those states merely represent the opinions of fools and your only concern should be not to be one of the fools. if you ever felt being popular and in high demand, you'd hate it so much that you would not lament the absence of it. most people don't know how lucky they are never to have been popular because it would invalidate their entire social framework. they would hate it so much, they'd wonder why they ever cared about anyone if this is what results from it.


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 No.309621[Reply]

Does anyone else hate his own body? I hate mine so much, I feel uncomfortable in my own body the whole time, it doesn't matter what I'm doing, I feel dirty, sick, detqched from my body. I want to get out of my body.
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 No.309715

I have a fat ass and a fat dick

 No.309733

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>>309703
Ah, the Jeremy Clarkson. I have it a bit too. I just wear an unbuttoned work shirt over my outfit to have lines that go straight up and down instead of balloon shape.

 No.309734

>>309715
Look at anon hogging all the ass and pud lol

 No.309736

yeah I hate my body, feels like I'm just waiting until i'm dead

 No.309769

>>309736
>>309736
> I hate my body
Why? Is it for a similar reason like me or are you fat like the guys above?


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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

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 No.308726

>>308564
They don't need to. They can give you enough proteins, fats and vitamins through IV injection indefinitely.

 No.308806

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Any ideas on how to commit suicide by hanging? I wonder what sort of rope, knot, techique and place would be the best. I heard that with a good arrangement you can snap your neck and die painlessly, but honestly since it seems to involve so much technique I tend to think that just regular hanging could be better. I'm only afraid of fucking that up too and ending up as a veggie or suffocating for two hours before passing out.

 No.308808

>>308806
I have experience in this. I've successfully killed myself several times via hanging. You need to read "The Peaceful Blackpill Handbook", "The Art of Not Living", and "Fun With A Razorblade by Big Gay Andrew Loomis". Once you do that you can ask ChatGPT for the best rope and height configuration for your IQ. Then you'll need to apply for a suicide license and pray to g*d that your therapist hasn't told your psychiatrist anything that would suggest you're only suicidal for a reason that SSRIs could instead cure. There is 0% chance the Demiurge will let you die if you don't hang yourself exactly as prescribed. You'll end up as a vegetable, or worse, a fruit.

 No.309327

How do you set up a timed message to emergency services to collect your body? The hotline doesn't take text messages. I don't want a family member to find me. I really have no idea here; this is the only major hole in my plan.

 No.309758

Does anyone here have tinnitus? This might be what convinces me to end it. I can't even focus on my thoughts. It feels like I have lost an entire section of my brain. I can't sleep.


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