/dep/ - Depression

>>308846
>Probably the worst one possible.
i doubt it, but tell me

>>308844
>we still can't predict someone's fate 100
you don't need 100%, 98% is enough. the other 2% account for some physics shenanigans that aren't predictable mathematically, such as a car starting to skid and hitting you to death (the good outcome).

>>308814
i know its easier said than done, but moving to a different state and changing your phone number/deleting social media if you have it absolutely works

I was a local meme posted all over the internet in my country/town.

The jist of it was me walking into establishments asking for a job whilst my father was standing at the doorway watching me. He's frowning, arms crossed. Track pants low enough exposing his ass crack. He's the typical boomer who has no awareness around him. He'd wear mismatched socks, ass crack showing. Sometimes he wears mega short shorts which was popular in my country for men back in the day for some reason. The issue is when he sits down on a chair his cock and balls and exposed and dangling out. Photos have been posted online. People treated me like some freakshow because of it. Luckily 10+ years later it's mostly memory holed. But holy shit I was ready to kill myself over that. People would drive by our house at night and shout insults at us. Imagine being in bed at 2am trying to get comfy and you hear "SHOW US YOU CRACK AND BALLS".

Ropefuel.

>>309517
Sorry to hear your dad is a tard, but maybe he's a cuck too

>>309509
yes, the most basic understanding, is usually wrong. You need to know more than theories which have been disproven by actual research. Again, read research. None of what you're saying is true.

>>309509
have you ever considered that the youtube channel paid by billionaires is not telling you the truth?

>>309510
you've provided no said "research" other than your "well, it seems wrong to me". minimum wage is a feel good government policy that doesn't do anything for the low skilled worker. most government policies are like this because it's about perception rather than understanding the actual mechanisms behind something. if you think this is too "basic" of an explanation, feel free to provide your own.

>>309511
it's just a snappy summary. sowell isn't a billionaire, most economists aren't. redditors just hate prageru because they're not communists.

>>309506
i mean it sure beats working a factory job lol. Just as ultimately pointless too as you'd be replaced in seconds

>>309508
please appreciate it every single day

>>309481
dude that was maybe true years ago but even professional jobs are being cut hard due to infinite indians. There needs to be a standard minimum wage that provides dignity otherwise you're going to have a lot of problems. It's not out job to figure out how, it's just our job to know chaos will happen when you have millions of people desperate and hungry.

>>309516
now imagine if there were 1-2-3-4 $/hr jobs available that the indians would do instead of all of them signing up for that single $7.25 McJob or janitor position. reducing the minimum wage would create more jobs and reduce competition for hwite people.

>>309425
>>309425
get job, save up while living there, eventually can move somewhere cheaper. maybe job leads to experience so you can get job elsewhere when you move to that place (more rural = cheaper? but less jobs so think about what you could do in another city/town?)

>>309433
this. my grandpa passed at 85 but only because of lymphoma. my grandma is 92 and shes pretty lucid. these mfers can persist for quite some time.

thankfully, my grandparents are/were good people

How far can you push it? What would happen if you just dumped a bucket of soapy water on her? What if you just sprayed her with deodorant? What if you just tell her to STFU when she nags? I've dealt with similar situations and I've essentially buck broken old hags that have been notorious witches in everyone's lives. Of course all legally and morally, don't get yourself in trouble. My grandmother is like yours but I've only ever lived with her for months at a time as a child. She quickly realized I'm not a problem if she's not a problem and we didn't become good friends or anything but we had a cordial arrangement.

>>309436
Modern healthcare seems hellbent on keeping old fucks alive and fucking over the younger ones. It's baffling to see.

>>309458
Sorry to trip post to admins watching me.

A job would be nice too as it's time away from her. I currently like my job largely because my mother wont be there. She seriously stands in the doorway and just looks at me. it's like she's under a spell. She often just comes into my room to sleep on my bed and snore like a fucking ogre

>>309394
>>309392
read the tao of pooh. wont help with anything but it feels nice to have something tangible with which to wallow in your own mental struggles

or read some stoicism and become a hellenic pilled gigachad!

A book isn't gonna save you. Improving is trial and error.

>>309494
Improving is a meme created to make you a good tax paying wage slaving drone.

>>309337
this is why i work nightshift. my contact with humanity is extremely limited. even at my job, i sit at a desk at the top floor of an empty office building and nobody bothers me all night. its peaceful

>>309321
>Nihilist Slop Thinking
Pray do tell, oh enlightened one, how it is that you have come to believe this primate hallucination to have any real fundamental anchoring in transcendental meaning. Oh right! You cannot!

>but muh seat of subjectivity
>but muh immediate sensory experience

"You" and "Me" are nothing but the material bodies software. We exist in order to better orient our physical bodies towards items and places that are likely to lead to mating, and away from pain and danger. Nothing that we perceive or experience is consequential in any sense whatsoever. One day the human race will simply go extinct. And matter will continue on without us. Utterly indifferent to out absence.

you're 100 percent right, the only logical thing to do in these situations is to completely despise your life
>>309323
not true, there's an immaterial ghost controlling the bodies of humans and animals

im super bored right now
what are you doing?

23 here aswell, 2002 baby. Do you think our generation is fucked? Do you think people like us will be late bloomers? I dont know anymore. I envy everyone who achieved things in their teens and early 20s. To have something to call their own. Must be nice.

Does it get unbearable sometimes? The pain in your chest? This heavy pressure weighing you down, keeping you paralyzed? Its crushing isnt it…

>>309319
I hate to be an optimist, but im 35 and i can tell you, at 23, you do still have time. you've got about 7 years. you just have to get on the first rung of the ladder and climb whatever path you decide to set out on. after about 30, you simply will not be willing to do anything. I've accepted who i am and the fate which that entails. its gonna be a life of mediocrity, regret, and sullenness. I could've done alot more but I tucked my tail and consoled myself in isolation and self pity around 25. I could've stepped up and faced adversity but i didn't.

>>307804
the blackpill/i-ncel cult is jewish social engineering to force hopelessness in the young male population, which if embraced leads down to two ends:

1. transgenderism (which is ultimately population reduction)
2. suicide (which is ultimately population reduction)

I've noticed this in myself the few times I have interacted with pretty succubi. I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them. I imagine everywhere they go they get the same reactions from people and the world they live in must be so wildly different than the one a loner like me inhabits. I'm not that ugly but I'm depressed enough that my grooming is completely shit and I look like shit so I get a taste of the negative side of it from society, and I also get a taste of it going away when I groom and dress well.

It really drives home the point that humans are just shallow monkeys. You can use that knowledge to your advantage to manipulate people like some politician or CEO, but personally I just find it depressing and want nothing to do with it.

>>309010
It's just the halo effect. How many jimiko anime succubi are drawn versus the generic standard where everything is flawless?

>>309010
>I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them.

This is weakness that you should not be suffering from. W/omen aren't even human.

>>306675
im not hideous but i stopped caring about my personal appearance. who and what do i have to look good for if i get nothing out of society and have barely any social interactions?

my hair is nearly shoulder length and my neckbeard is coming in nicely. When i go into stores, the cashiers sometimes bristle because they think im homeless, but i just speak softly and gently. they did the same thing when i went for an appointment at the hospital.

At this point id rather be an eyesore for people to have to suffer. fuck society

>>308524
>I don't think I can manage to learn them if I have to wagecuck at the same time, not like I am disciplined enough now. If I have a tolerable job though, I think I'd find it a lot easier to give up and just coast for the rest of my life without trying anything new.
Had similar thoughts. If I failed to pursue anything I care about while a NEET with nothing but time then what makes me believe I would ever make progress while a wagie?
Your second point is probably right. Of course you might be different, but to me it became a lot easier to justify letting go/giving up.

life is so great for me, but I am terrible at graphic design

>>308522
>barely manage

Honestly, /wiz/ could use a thread on lifehacks that make our wizard-tier jobs easier. We totally should make a literal cybergrimoire.

>>308524
I have no dreams.

>>305228
Since 25 its as if the film reel that is my life ran out of film and it just kept spinning and projecting a blank screen.

There was never a sense of urgency for me to "adapt" and get a respectable career once i graduated college. That sense of urgency that grips normies and compels them to achieve, network, form relationships just didn't exist in me. i never gave a shit about other people around me or my reputation etc. My parents divorced when i was 7 and i don't think they actually wanted to have children. Mom was abusive and died, dad is emotionally distant and never seemed to have actively engaged with me to mold and shape me into a functional adult. he just let me do whatever, so i just lazed around and fucked off.

I have this instinctive laziness. I bowed out of any classes that involved math or numbers at all. Got a worthless degree. I'm 35 now and I've been working as an overnight security guard for the past 4 years. I literally do nothing all night for 8 hours. I just sit at a desk. I'm on the clock typing this right now.

I feel like you have to be on some kind of continual, upward trajectory so that by the time you're 30 you're established and at cruising altitude; financially, professionally, socially, and romantically. I did "nothing" all of my 20s.

I enjoy the simple pleasures of life. a cigarette alone at the park, a local pizza, good pilsner, good books, and having peace and quiet without pressure from the world of normies or my family

i like drawing these

>>309486
big dude

>>309457
up to the last paragraph your post sounded reasonable, then it cooked out.

>>309459
i was just imagining a scenario where an adult could suddenly get that kind of structure in his life and the only thing that came to mind was the military. there's no adhd there because you're not making your own decisions anymore, executive functioning is done by someone else :D

>>309451
>People usually just reinstall everything.
I couldnt do that, I have a hard time letting go in general. Its paradoxical and retarded yes I know.

>>309456
Ive never understood why people think awareness means anything. The way I see it awareness could come from two completely different places, place A aka the good ending/story where youre aware out of sheer willpower to improve and fluid intelligence. Its catching the problem before it grows unmanageable, perhaps you had loving friends and family who helped you see things that were invisible to you. And then theres place B, the bad ending/story aka the fucking retard nobody, including himself, ever cared about. A story of dereliction. This comes as a late realization through hitting your head on the same exact wall for decades, you were too stupid to understand it back then so you only sort of recognize it through repetition, because its all youve got left in life.

>you can temporarily cut off all electronic devices to pick a hobby that would significantly improve your attention span.
Thats where I keep stumbling because I am poor. I can only think about either really useless or high IQ hobbies that can be done without money. Im out of shape, my genetics are sewage tier so anything physical is an exercise in futility. I guess thats why I understand my parents better now and boomers in general, who just worship TV because it demands minimal effort from you. Any other hobby like knitting or crocheting or origami, manual crafts that dont cost a lot would feel too much like a waste of time. I have massive, unreal FOMO. And theres of course reading itself that im too adhdy for. Id like to try math one day but… the reasoning people usually give for why electronics are le bad is overstimulation, but I have something worse than overstimulation, something that drove me to overuse the computer in first place and its called fucking annoying nosy parents that wont stop bothering me for the most retarded reason. Electronics are an escape, not the root issue. Or thats how it was when I was younger I legit feel my brains fried from both internet and living with annyoing (maybe even narcissistic) people.

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>>309460
Yeah but military requires high amount of focus on your part lest you get fucked by someone else there. Adhd is hell wherever you go. But I don't know if that guy really has adhd. When you're living in isolation with nothing to look forward to, you experience symptoms not unlike adhd

>>309450
29 and I'm losing brainpower and motorfunctions. My mother has always been a braindead zombie that every once in a blue moon turns human and cognitive but most days she's a walking stereotype of a dumb 1960s succubus "oooo shoes" as she swerves the car into the median LOL. Then she will do the same mistake 5 minutes later… Dad has taken a massive decline in the last 5 years. He was always pretty sharp and calm, but whenever you ask him a question now he just opens his mouth and stares blankly at me like a boomer meme "WHAT?"