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04/01/25April fools!
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[–]  No.298019[Reply][Watch Thread]

I'm older than people who have kids who're already graduating from high school. I know it shouldn't bother me, but I can't help it. I feel like my life hasn't progress at all. I already have grey hairs on my beard and I don't feel my age at all. life as a wizard is like living in a perpetual limbo where nothing ever happens until you grow old and die.
I know many young wizards will call me a failed normie for saying this, but it's only until you reach a certain age that the loneliness of the wiz life starts to creep in and you begin to wonder where did all go wrong.
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[–]  No.299255>>299259

>>299253
how is ai gonna reshuffle your genetics and the things you mentioned?

the fact still remains you need a boatload of cash and a top surgeon to make that "reshuffle" happen even if ai gives you the perfect blueprint for it

dont get me wrong, i dream of that same reshuffle literally daily and i occassionally get euphoric dreams in my sleep where it finally actually happens. but when i wake up i realize it takes so much money

[–]  No.299259>>299263

>>299255

first things first.

The Ai we need does not yet exist. its close, but not yet. For a quick explanation: the current horse race now is over whats called Agi, or Artificial general intelligence, this, 20 to 25 years back meant an Ai equal in intellect to a normal person. in my opinion its already been done. but, anti Ai people dispute its been done, there are pros and cons to it does or does not exist yet.

back to our focus. now, what we need, for our aims, is called ASI , or Artificial Super Intelligence, an Ai smarter than smartest person to of ever lived.

in my opinion ASI will be created sometime between now and 2029/2030. Year 2029 will be key.

What you, and I, and our brothers need to do, between now and 2029/2030, we must back Ai into Agi into ASI. Back it 1,000%

but but but but….. Anon, Ai could do! Ai may do!, Ai mite!!

No. You want it. Back Ai 1,000%

ASI will be capable of Anything, able to learn anything, able to solve anything. It will not be limited by human nonsense, bias, frailties, weaknesses, etc….

I Need a humans to do XYZ? i dont. its in my rear view mirror. and been so , for me, for a long time. All tasks imagined will be solved by ASI.

join the ride friend.

[–]  No.299263>>299265

>>299259
Never read so much bullshit in a single post

[–]  No.299265>>299280

>>299263
Fucking this. If that guy watched CNN he would know AI will be the literal end of the world just like global warming.

[–]  No.299280

>>299265
It wont end the world on the spot, but expecting it to change your facial structure, body type and height just by making a text prompt is psychotic.

There is no salvation for ugliness at least during our lifetimes, at least if we're talking about affordable options.



[–]  No.299227[Reply]>>299251[Watch Thread]

I regret not enjoying my youth more,when i was 14-16 if i think back i could have had so much fun, instead i had to be a fucking depressed loser even Back then and just barley coped as to not end myself.
But at least i didnt have to worry about money/Rent but i just wasted away my youth and did nothing and now its way too late at 27. I should have enjoyed that time and just not worry,gotten high everyday drop out of school and do what i actually enjoy ,Go out blah blah so on and so on
I Wish i Had a time machine
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[–]  No.299244

I don't really get what you could do but you did not.

[–]  No.299250>>299252

>>299243
>wanted to learn to play piano
>wanted to learn to draw
>friends playing together in games I didn't own
unfortunately the cost of the equipment and software scared me off. Also wasn't sure if I could commit myself to learning it due to both uni and part time job taking up a good chunk of my time. I had a decent gaming pc that I built during high school, but I pirated most of my games to save money. couldn't play together with my uni friends who had legit copies. some had 3ds and played Mario kart 7 together. Wanted to get one to play together, but refrained mostly thinking that my money was better spent on more life important stuff. One time my friends asked if I wanted to travel to the Netherlands together, I decline due to wanting to save money.
economically secured now, but my youth was bleak with a few rare moments of good memories. had I not been so stingy I could had more of those good memories. The friends I had in uni are gone now, too late to do anything about it now, guess things are just going to get bleaker.

[–]  No.299251

>>299227 (OP)
>just wasted away my youth and did nothing
>I should have enjoyed that time and just not worry,gotten high everyday drop out of school and do what i actually enjoy ,Go out blah blah so on and so on
Your second statement hints that there were things that you liked to do but didn't? not sure what you meant with did nothing, was there something preventing you
and you distract yourself with doom scrolling or something?

[–]  No.299252>>299278

>>299250
You can't know if paying for those things would have been worth it. I bought a game once just to play with someone when i was a late teen and it was awful. I went on a trip once with people and it was perhaps the worst week of my life. Maybe it is difficult to remember why you really made those decisions. Sometimes our past selves were smarter than we remember and our memories have discarded important context. To me it doesnt sound like those things were really all that important, anyway

[–]  No.299278

>>299252
>To me it doesnt sound like those things were really all that important, anyway
Yeah I am still alive and kicking without those experiences. but the few times I hangout with my uni friends I generally enjoyed it. watched movies together in the cinema, visited a theme park and gather up to play games together at a cybercafe.
my friends did this sort of gathering much more frequent, I showed up on rare occasions, mostly because I realize how much of my money would be burning doing these things more frequently. Realize that my gen-x coworker was right that I was too stingy with my money. saving money now because you think it will get you more joy in the future but it's not a guarantee. bought myself a nice 2k screen for my pc for watching movies and gaming. Costed me €300 but feel less joy from it, then the €22 spent to watch guardians of the galaxy with my friends at the cinema. even when technically being a better choice than visiting the cinema regularly with friends.
>You can't know if paying for those things would have been worth it
true, possible I could had ended up with regret of having less money now to spend. knew that after uni, I wouldn't have much socialization anymore, which is why I saved my money to be more well off later in life. Since this choice didn't make me happier than in my uni days. I just wonder if I be a happier person today had I followed the advice of my gen-x coworker and socialized more, despite the expenses.



[–]  No.293203[Reply][Watch Thread]

I'm going broke, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I went to 4 doctors to treat it, but none of them worked, and no matter how many medications I took, I was never able to overcome this problem. But these only caused me terrible side effects, such as fatigue, weight gain, apathy, a lot of disinterest in everything, and alopecia, but they were never able to attack the impulses. Violence never stops.
Sometimes I blame my family for raising me in such a violent environment, but then I think it's better to bury the past and look forward. But sometimes it is difficult, since it is not about the violence of 10 or 15 years ago, it is about things sometimes from less than a week ago.

I feel like an alcoholic, where instead of keeping a place free of that poison, it is offered to me in all shapes, sizes, colors and flavors.
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[–]  No.299237

>>299234
Should have called them cumdumpster sluts.

[–]  No.299246>>299249

>>299234
I feel so happy about having despised foids as a handsome wiz apprentice.

[–]  No.299249>>299257

>>299246
you're probably ugly yourself
lots of ugly people think they're good looking

[–]  No.299257>>299258

>>299249
I theoretically think a goodlooking guy could become wizard out of free will, but the chances are extremely low because most of them automatically get sexual experiences because succubi several levels below them actively solicit sex from them like in the college I went to.

A truly chad looking guy would have to actively reject sex to become a virgin at 30.

Could it happen, maybe. Would such a person hang around here, doubtful.

[–]  No.299258

>>299257
When i was a teenager and very drunk a succubus literally dragged me into a bathroom and started trying to pull my pants down. Basically attempted rape. I have zero attraction to succubi so will had nothing to do with it. I'm not even attractive though, there are just crazy drunk demons out there.

All wizards actively reject sex. ANYONE can get it if they actually try. Even if prostitution is illegal it's your choice to not get on a plane.

Your crabposting is fucking annoying



[–]  No.298876[Reply][Watch Thread]

I do nothing besides doomscrolling, going outside for a while and maybe read for an hour a day (if i can find a book that interests me) or watch an episode of some anime but the rest of the day is spent doomscrolling on my computer, I am too insomniac and have bladder issues to spend half or most my days sleeping to pass my days with sleep like many NEETs can do with ease, there is just no way for me to get out of this cycle, at least not on my own, I need money and connections, most importantly MONEY.
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[–]  No.299194>>299196

>>299180
Gym is a scam. they wont tell you that resting is the important part and that compound exercises are the really useful ones. Buying gear enough to do this at home can cost you like 3 months at that stupid scam.

Gym owner put his machines in your hands, which you do not consume, just use. You put money in his hands. In the end he is the one having both your money and the machines, and whatever waste you might have occasioned will never be so costly as even a 1/100 part of you paid. It's like damn faire attractions.

[–]  No.299196>>299218

>>299194
The gym owner offers you a transparent deal and it is beneficial for some people. Some people don't have space for gym equipment in their home, and/or want a wide variety of equipment. For some people it is indeed better to buy their own equipment - if you have the space then go for it. In no way is it a scam. Many, many things in society these days are scams but this isn't one.

[–]  No.299218>>299232>>299233

>>299196
So yeah, they just openly fool theirselves for having bad organization at home spaces. Like paying at restaurants while being too lazy to use your kitchen or buying bottle waters at an airport.

[–]  No.299232

>>299218
No, even a lot of working professionals in big cities can't afford the luxury of enough space for gym equipment. It isn't a scam to them, it's the only way to get a proper workout.

[–]  No.299233

>>299218
You must have no idea how small many people's apartments are.



[–]  No.298340[Reply]>>299157[Watch Thread]

How will my life change if I miraculously get a job as a dishwasher or idk burger flipper? Is it really a path forward, trading your soul and most of your day for minimum wage? I suppose I could buy a new PC this way after a while, but just living like that because you have no choice? Rope sounds better
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[–]  No.298433>>299187

>>298341

These jobs aren't there to help someone get ahead. They exist so that you can buy food to survive another day to continue to perpetual wage cuckery

[–]  No.299157>>299179

>>298340 (OP)
We are really fucked up if we call these jobs "miraculous"

[–]  No.299179

>>299157
I.K.R, I don't live in a big city, if i can get ANY low-skill job here (or anywhere else in my country, to be fair) I would consider my self lucky.

[–]  No.299187>>299198

>>298433
This. There isn't any light at the end of the tunnel if you go down this path. You only exist to make the owner filthy rich while he gives you the bare minimum so you don't starve to death.

>>298432
This. NEET as long as you can, and if the system collapses, simply suicide. Don't give in or contribute to the exploitation in any way.
Only agree to employment if it means fair wages or ownership in the company, which will never happen in the current job market for anyone but the top 0,0001% of applicants to highly niche fields of work who also get signing bonuses.

[–]  No.299198

>>299187
Suicide sounds scary. Can we do it?



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[–]  No.299076[Reply]>>299130[Watch Thread]

Im 27 years old , i dont know anything , i graduated faculty of arts in 8 years failing once every year because i didnt study enough , i live in a place where there's compulsory recruitment and didnt apply because i am on antidepressants and don't want to waste a year of my life which is not very important but this city does not care if you die , normal citizens are not of much importance here anyway , i tried checking fiverr & freelancer because i didnt have an idea what to do if i want to work from home , it doesn't seem to be very promising , it felt impossible to get a place among all these beasts conquering every damn field in the category , i barely know anything about the world and autistic and i think im stupid too , but if i try to surpass my stupidity , what to learn to be able to work remotely and not eat shit for the rest of my life?
Im on the verge of complete mental breakdown , i need help.
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[–]  No.299087

>>299086
>think about what you can grow in yourself that others would find useful.
That was expressive , thank you.

[–]  No.299099>>299100

>>299085
Skills like what? I don't understand. What skills? Name one skill that will pay.

[–]  No.299100

>>299099
carpentry, bricklaying, IT tech support, plumbing, pastry making, video editing, business consulting, life coaching, karate training, cocktail mixing, the list goes on…

[–]  No.299130>>299192

>>299076 (OP)
No matter what logic demands. Drive yourself by s&a. Learn this: https://www.geneticmatrix.com

>its free


I am not even applying anymore. 32 years. Pretty much better this way, my parents bred me to be a slave like them. NEETing hard.

[–]  No.299192

>>299130
Can't get what you're trying to say friend , what is the link about?



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[–]  No.297900[Reply]>>299184[Watch Thread]

Are you a believer in a higher being and hate humanity?
I'm not assign nor believe in any belief or after life but I do believe in eugenics, Antinatalism, assisted suicide, the death penalty, abortion,and overall restricting human rights.
I met, heard so many lonely, depressed individuals who believe in a god yet have a heavy disdain for certain section of humanity be it racial or the opposite sex.
Is it because they trust a being that not human but higher? Yet that same being created the object they detest?
I don't have that dilemma since I don't adhere to any religious beliefs.
Do any of you do? If not do you believe being a misanthrope is silly or based?
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[–]  No.297945

>>297937
>I hope for a dragonbreak when the aliens land so i can skip this shit timeline.

I just want to learn 5d kung fu so I can fly and maybe throw a kamehameha

[–]  No.298002>>298004

Misanthropy is the logical consequence if understanding human nature. Who wouldn't be disgusted by man, knowing his nature?
Natalism should be more selective: anti-natalism for the human shit who should have been infant mortality statisttics, pro-natalism for the actual humans.

[–]  No.298004

>>298002
agree
it may seem inhumane to deny someone the right to reproduce, but there is far more compassion in preventing yet another miserable life, than in creating yet another miserable life

[–]  No.299162

>>297937
>draconian
>related to time
Saturn

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[–]  No.296764[Reply]>>299164[Watch Thread]

Last time I mentioned that I have 2 weeks to kms someone asked if I have a test or something in school. Let me tell you something interesting. I won't talk about my life story but I will enlighten you how bad life can get and what real suicide out of necessity means.
I will tell you only the immediate reasons of my forced suicide:
1. Sick with infinite diseases and often in such pain that I want to stab myself or jump out the window. Can't eat walk make money or function for years due to this. Feel like I can die at any moment. I've been shitting black last few days which means internal bleeding.
2. I am broke and in infinite debt cause I chose to pursue treatment instead of paying taxes. I also lied to get money loaned to me because I needed it for drugs so I don't end up lobotomized. Its only a matter of time until they put me in prison.
3. I have a benzo addiction, if I don't take at least 10mg Xanax daily and skip one day I will have a grand mal seizure which will kill me or leave me with brain damage.
4. Stuck forever without a room or meter of space my whole life due to mentally retarded family.
…etc I probably forgot half but by now you should know the drill. Life took almost everything from me and I didn't do anything for a long time so I wouldn't call this living anyway. Only thing I have left is freedom of choice to die now or lose it and suffer a thousand times more and die later. I will die at age of 28 in 2024 via train guillotine or fail and become a vegetable. I have only one try and time is not on my side.
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[–]  No.297526

are you here OP?

[–]  No.297769>>297770

Op are you okay ?

I can help you with a lot of advice trust me it's not worth ending your life, there is too much alternative and other ways in which you can rebuild yourself.

First one could easily be leaving your own country, Trust me suicide is so easy but it's just a solution for a temporary problem, Don't let life rape you, Rape life until it becomes bored of you

And fuck every faggot who endorsed this anon on suicide

[–]  No.297770>>297777

>>297769
>just a solution for a temporary problem

This is so ordinary advice that you must be a bot.

[–]  No.297777

>>297770
it must be, i cant imagine any real user writing that

[–]  No.299164

>>296764 (OP)
Which treatment? I don't get much about your situation. Paying taxes for not receiving treatment? Clueless….
You could at least tell us which are your regrets.

I feel not much mercy for those who choose suicide instead of murder, when corralled by the world.



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[–]  No.297961[Reply]>>299163[Watch Thread]

The only ,or main, reason I totally suppressed my own ideation of erasing my own life, was not violating religious precepts..Also regarding morality, I genuinely dislike violence (im unable to deliberately kill an ant, for example, I make an effort to avoid stepping on them) ,but there are *so many* complex Ethical issues, with real impact on my life, which without religion, I have to start from scratch (deciding whether theyre good, or evil)
I want to be a Med student in a couple of years, so–medical profession, lots of ethical issues I need to think for myself, without Religious teaching. euthanasia, stem cell research, contraception, IVF, Surrogate pregnancy without medical need (just voluntary commercial agreement), etc.
What to do? I have a psychiatrist, but haven't talked with him in like 4 months. im 29.

[–]  No.297962>>297964

Why would killing or exercising random violence be a bad thing? No one can answer that without regurgitating some normie stuff

[–]  No.297963

>wants to be a med student
You are a normie.

It is a fundamental philosophical issue that without a moral compass handed down from a supernatural source, you are left with an amoral reality. All arguments to try to construct objective morality without god fall apart because there is no higher authority than the individual. You basically have to do whatever you feel like, which will necessarily result from whatever cultural brainwashing you have been subject to throughout your life.

[–]  No.297964>>297965

>>297962
Would you like to receive such violence upon yourself?

[–]  No.297965

>>297964
That logic doesnt stop ~80% of people from eating meat slaughtering in horrific industrial factory torture farms

[–]  No.299163

>>297961 (OP)
If you can be your own boss, that's avoiding a bunch of problems. May you not fall for the pharma scams of modern age, institutions suck



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[–]  No.299097[Reply]>>299125>>299160[Watch Thread]

Do you feel like there is nothing to do online anymore?

Maybe the I'm viewing the past with rose tinted goggles now that I'm turning 30 soon, but I believe the internet as a whole has lost it's charm.
Back in my (relative) youth I could explore it endlessly find whatever to pass the time with.
It was a perfect escape from the real world, whether forums or online games at the time I could always find myself a group of people who shared some of my interests and interact with them.
It felt like I always was a part of a community, the web felt very tribal in a sense.
Now it all feels empty and hostile. It's almost the same experience as moving from a rural village to a big city just in the digital world.

It's all commercial, brands instead of people, everyone is hostile by default unless they try to sell you on something, nobody is there to have fun anymore. Nothing is authentic anymore.
Games are hyper-competitive.
Communities are fast and loose.
Maybe I'm just jaded, maybe I just don't have any real interest anymore, maybe I'm seeing the world in monochrome, but is that really true?

It feels like every corner of the internet has been shit on by a billion randoms constantly chiming in. Jumping into a space just to take a dump for a quick laugh resulting in very little long term traction for these spaces. Compared to old forums anyways.
People aren't invested in anything anymore, things are more permanent on this slow imageboard than they are on mainstream spaces.
Going back to the village analogy, it's like in a city, where you don't even know the next door neighbor in your concrete hives, so why not shit up the place?

Not sure if it's the age, brainrot, depression or anhedonia, but I just can't will myself to care about anything anymore. The only thing left to do on the internet for me seems to be chasing nostalgia. Other than that all that is available is an endless flood of slop that I can scroll while listening to some multi-hour video essay about some other slop.

Video games that used to be my primary way of passing time feel like such a chore nowadays. You get one, launch it, have to learn a couple dozen mechanics, random lingo for the same crap with dozens of numbers you can tune that often end up pointless or gimp you. Then a forced 1-2 hour handhold session with tutorials and cutscenes…
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[–]  No.299125>>299134

>>299097 (OP)
Piracy! And let me kindly remind, that the best way of having something done is to actively intervene about it. Do you want back the feel or do you have pretty clear what you wish to find here?
>Maybe I'm just jaded
Maybe both things are happening.
>People aren't invested in anything anymore, things are more permanent on this slow imageboard than they are on mainstream spaces.
Normie world is vapid and soldout. No wonder.
>Games back then used to be launch and play.
So, piracy is important, isn't it? There are people around here who uses Blender, I wonder if they know UPBGE.
>I wish I could will myself to create things
Check first if you suffer from something called "undefined sacral". To save you the agony of even trying.

But tell us, what's your ideal webpage like?

[–]  No.299126>>299134

What the hell is wrong about this place are you all INTPs in Ti-Si loop?

[–]  No.299134>>299149

>>299125
>undefined sacral
>>299126
>INTPs
>Ti-Si

you both got it wrong, it's the age of aquarius affecting the astral projection of the fourth chakra

[–]  No.299149

>>299134
"undefined sacral" OP here. I rest my case.

[–]  No.299160


>>299097 (OP)
>It's all commercial, brands instead of people, everyone is hostile by default unless they try to sell >you on something, nobody is there to have fun anymore. Nothing is authentic anymore.
>Now it all feels empty and hostile. It's almost the same experience as moving from a rural village to a big city just in the digital world.
Social media were a mistake, or at least the way it was implemented. they promoted narcissism, conformism and clout chasing. which doesn't foster creative minds or good people in general.
say and do things that please/amuses the crowd even if you hate it or don't really believe in it. any contrarianism from the mainstream opinions will be meet with hostility.
There are more bad actors now on the internet. who tries to mold the internet more to their liking.
Governments didn't like the free flow of information(increasing the likelihood of dissident) as such tries to find way to restrict internet in order to mold people back to government approved narratives and ideas. activists also see the internet as a cheap and effective way of spreading their propaganda.
Corporations now design their products to be addictive/money milking first and good second. they are also in bed with the 2 former groups in return for favors. they also try to appeal to the widest audience because every alienated person is a lost sale. Content creators don't tend to be better either. they just copy and paste the latest slop formulas. because their goal isn't to make something good, but to make fame and money with the least effort. just like corporation they try to be as tame as possible in order to not alienated people. Most of the internet traffic now is concentrated on just a few sites, which isn't good since it gives these sites owners massive influence to mold people. google can now decided what people will see when they search something, reddit can decided what topic/narrative/content is allowed.
back then people also tend to stay in their lane, if you liked gaming you joined a gaming forum, each place having it's own culture and rules, sure this meant that anything good stayed there but also anything bad.
now when discussion are mostly relegated to a few sites, censorship is rampart in an attempt to cater to everyone's sensibilities.
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