>>205756>Benzos opiates and booze all at the same time is just asking to OD
I am aware of that, I used to throw in weed and edible weed too. Actually ODed some couple of times, landed in ER. Third world hospital. I remember my second OD/suicide attempt I just passed out while waiting to get called. I'd do heroin if I could but it is non-existant here; and I am not going back to being a coke fiend. I don't mind dying.
I am drinking hard liquor straight, not beer, I am not a pussy.
>Also most street xanax isn't real alprazolam.
I take genuine Clonazepam bought from a real pharmacy with a prescription becauee I am technically dependent on benzos and I am tappering off slowly. Tried to quit cold turkey and had a seizure. Cheap as fuck, 8 bucks for 30 pills of 2mg where I live. And my shrink is state-sponsored because I am part of the system, but I refuse to be "institunalized" like every shrink I talk to suggests. My shrink is very honest wizard
in his 50s, he tells me he hates his career and speciality (addiction psychiatrist). He's kind and cruel to me at the same time. He dumps my appointments 50% of the time. Fucker knows I react self-destructively to perceived rejection.
I might be a hopeless loser but I bite and fight back. I take pride in wizardry. Wizards are strong, believe it or not. Every wizard should feel proud about himself, despite flaws.
I am half drunk ranting in a language that is not even my mother tongue.