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 No.303197[Reply]

Everything you see is controlled by algorithms.

The internet algorithms are gang stalking me.
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 No.303202

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 No.303212

>>303198
The devs aren't in control anymore and the algorithms recommend things I see

I live in constant dejavu

 No.303213

>>303197
>>303197
use a local llm chatbot then, blin!

 No.303251

Ignore this. It was crazy.

The aggressive ads are just coincidences and it's impossible anyway.

 No.303280

I'm being gang stalked by rogue uncreated algorithms.

I live in an emotional world that hates me and no one believes me.



 No.302958[Reply]

>So TL:DR; online places changed and I'm no longer suited for them. There are no suitable places and circumstances to make friends at my age. People my age got families and why would they want to be my friend anyways?


2000s internet vibes can still be found in:

* Gaiaonline
* Vaporwave communities
* City forums, I guess?
* Food communities, kitchen clubs
* they hack "gamespy" era PC games to have multiplayer mode WITHOUT now-defunct GameSlayn. Games that still have communities

* Dos.zone
DOS era games can be played online.
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 No.303013

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>>302983
Is this why when I went to buy a video player, to play my old tapes, they were wanting £40 for it? IN A FUCKING BHF SHOP?

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 No.303025

>>302983
> Meanwhile I had all those shit and was only made fun for having "old" hardware by chads in school or in the neighborhood that I hang out with because they all already had flat screens or curved LED monitors.Its incredibly frustrating to see something I was basically bullied for (being poor) is now worshipped by brainless rich tards in tik tok buying them at thrift stores or garage sales. I fucking hate this gay world planet.

You was supposed to wear funny "haha funny 8-bit world is kewl" tier merch - pixel-art (MINECRAFT-themed) merch/MARIO/YOSHI/LUIGI/BOWSER badges, play Minecraft sometimes (5 hour experience + some vids on HOW TO BUILD A HIDDEN BASE on YouTube would be fine) etc.


impose it's yer choice, not necessity
it's like not wearing DISCO THEME HOT SHIT if you only own a tape player with a bunch of 80s/70s funk/fusion

 No.303027

>>302957
You really did make an entire thread to reply to my post.
Quite insane.
Also took a while for me to even check the catalog.

>>302973
Yeah the change isn't only noticed by people my age, it really depends on what age you gained internet access and what parts you got exposed to initially.
I still had an atari for example, but not because I was into retro anything, or because I'm old enough to be one of its users, it's just that rural poverty meant we got everything much later than the rest of the world.
Then when I got exposed to the internet I was lead by my "elders" as well.

I'm sure even zoomers notice, you mention minecraft, a lot of those early creators, though I didn't consume much, but some were big enough that reached me too, they used to be much different.
They were… creative and authentic. Nowadays all of it feels way too intentionally crafted to be a brand, something to sell, something to make money from.

Every space online has been way too commercialized and normiefied and the issue is that there are more and more people who have only seen this version of the internet and they love it. So if you don't, there is no space for you and they will make it very clear.
It is sad.

>More like, people didnt exactly 'change', they began to show their true colors.

I disagree with this to an extent. Again, the people I used to be around moved on with their lives. They didn't start showing their true color, it's just that they matured and had different priorities.
So what I'm trying to say here is that there is a difference between the oldheads baring their teeth. You might be right about some of them, but most just moved on in my opinion and the ones that replaced them are simply a different breed accustomed to a different "normal".
You know, don't tell people your name, don't post anything about yourself type people were replaced with those that lived life online in public like it's normal.
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 No.303274

Posted some relevant info in /games/



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 No.302617[Reply]

Given the existence of the hedonic treadmill, why does happiness matter? Why is the pursuit of happiness at all important? If you're just going to level out to baseline anyways, you might as well just sit and rot, since that requires far fewer resources.
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 No.302767

>>302617
>If you're just going to level out to baseline anyways
This hasn't happened in my case. My baseline happiness level has clearly changed over time and hasn't just been a constant level throughout my entire life as you claim. I had severe depression for years that gradually lessened over time. Your concept of "pursuit of pleasure" that flattens out over time sounds like it's just collecting materialistic crap and consuming media.

 No.302768

>>302617
>Given the existence of the hedonic treadmill, why does happiness matter? Why is the pursuit of happiness at all important? If you're just going to level out to baseline anyways, you might as well just sit and rot, since that requires far fewer resources.
You buy this and you'll be happy, you do that (for me) and you'll be happy. It doesn't exist.

I meditate to try to slow the hedonic treadmill and try to enjoy just being.

 No.303267

>>302766
>
Chasing happiness matters because it affirms the self. If you are sad and someone tells you to cheer up and smile, it's not because they're a hedonistic hylic attempting to trap you in this realm. It's because they want you to actualize even the slightest amount of external energy such that it may affect your mood and ideally make someone else happy as well.

Nah, my paternal grandma was all like "i get it, YOU LOVE SUFFERING"


good think she died of cancer, not a sudden "urGH!" heart failure.

 No.303269

>>303267
also, my English is "utter shite" shit. I misspelled "good thing" as "good think", ugh.

 No.303353

>>303269
very common mistake, not an issue since the intended meaning is very clear



 No.296567[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Whitepillers don't have a retort for autism. You can get a good degree, pursue your hobbies and work on your self esteem but if you have autism you will never make it in this anti-autistic world, Life is all about one thing. Being born without autism. If you're born without autism the normies will make excuses for you, help you out, share money with you, give you 100 chances, etc. Meanwhile if you have autism you're evil and creepy just for existing and blinking the wrong way. Everybody gets to live for free except autists and only autists who are given this fake ass "you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps and make your life" "you gotta amount to something" "innovation" story. Shit that literally no one else has to follow.
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 No.303204

>>303193
щh ok


my uncle is an autist. Worked as a taxi driver. Was only recently diagnosed with autism (after hitting 40). Weird, huh.

 No.303206

>>303204
That's because that poster is full of shit. A medium functioning autist can work as a taxi driver just fine.
A high functioning one like Elon Musk can become the richest man on the planet.

The only autists who are completely mute are the ones with a very severe case of it. Either they are practically 50 iq and need constant supervision or they are 150 iq savants like that guy who can draw the NYC topographical map with every single building out of memory.

 No.303207

>>303204
>Was only recently diagnosed with autism (after hitting 40). Weird, huh.
Not weird, because what counts as autism has been changed to the point where anyone can get a diagnoses if they get tested on a bad day.

 No.303209

>>303206
that doesnt contradict what i said at all, in the 1990s and 2000s, Elon would be diagnosed as aspergers.

> In 1990 (coming into effect in 1993), the diagnosis of Asperger syndrome was included in the tenth edition (ICD-10) of the World Health Organization's International Classification of Diseases, and in 1994, it was also included in the fourth edition (DSM-4) of the American Psychiatric Association's Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. However, with the publication of DSM-5 in 2013 the syndrome was removed, and the symptoms are now included within autism spectrum disorder along with classic autism and pervasive developmental disorder not otherwise specified (PDD-NOS).


the taxi uncle would also have been labeled as aspie pre-2013.

in double checking i was surprised how long its been since aspergers was dropped.

 No.303268

>>296567
It's possible to pretend to fit in but it requires being in constant pain. It sucks.


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 No.302948[Reply]

I know the truth.
We didn't have a normal childhood, and if we did at some point during childhood, puberty, or adolescence, we screwed up and were rejected or abandoned or some fucked up thing.
>Ptsd
A few days ago, I read that people with PTSD have a characteristic lack of light and permanent dilated pupils in their eyes, as if they were almost dead. I looked at photos from my childhood, and at a certain age, I already looked terrible just by looking my eyes and face, from genuine happyness to pure sadness.
>Do you want to vent and tell me a story about some traumatic shit?
I have vague memories of tunnel vision dissociation after being rejected and abandoned as a child and another one as teenager. I wouldn't wish that experience to anyone.

>Avpd

I wonder if this shit is just a process of dehumanization every damn day. I feel out of step or out of alignment with the normies' charade of pretending that everything is fine. I can barely fake it with family members and some close acquaintances (who are not my friends but are friends of my family) and with childrens, I don't want them to end up like me either.
I'm going to say something that makes me cringe, but this year I felt a very stupid happiness because someone who is not part of my family expressed interest or curiosity about me. I don't know if them did it out of morbid curiosity or genuine interest in some form of human kindness, but it made me feel temporarily happy and not so alone and isolated. And no, it wasn't the typical “Are you okay?” that leads to the automatic fake response of ‘'Yes'’ or “Yes, but I'm just now busy and a little tired.”
If only I could make friends or find something similar to human companionship, like with my pets, I wouldn't feel so alone.
I miss playing video games like TF2, WoW, CS, other MMOs, ending up in long hours games and parties laughing with randoms, Even there, I connected with those who were disconnected and found support and friendship. Thank you for that.
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 No.303245

I don't have anything to say other than that this is the realest thread I've seen in a while.

 No.303246

society is a sadomasochistic hellscape
there will be no happiness, release from misery, or any breaks from meaningless torment
the game is to kill yourself as quick as possible

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 No.303263

>>303236
why call another user of this site a subhuman?

 No.303264

>>303263
NTA but this is a virgin website, not a crab website. Some of us are virgins by choice. And the guy who accused OP of being a "pedonigger" is a normalfag so objectively a subhuman.



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 No.302003[Reply]

My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.

I have had depression for my whole life adolescence onward, and I was afraid even 5-6 years ago of this day and thought it would be unsurvivable, and now it's here, and I do want to die. I dont want to live in a world where he isn't here with me. The initial shock has worn off and it's sinking in that my best friend is gone, and I'm not going to see him again. My mother is the only other positive presence in my life, because she knew how much I love him. She has stage 4 cancer and it's still unclear if she's going to survive it or not. She's essentially the only reason why I have not shot myself already. She was never abusive or cruel to me, so I couldn't do that to her even though I don't want to live anymore.

Did you ever have an animal that meant this much to you? People are cruel and petty and small. If an animal loves you it's genuine, they dont have ulterior motives or social performance.
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>>303238
>i believe in love at first sight
It's on a lost hard drive somewhere in my house (I hope), but I actually had a picture of me and my rooster the day I decided I was going to take him home. I was in the pen he was in, sitting on the ground holding him. He didn't like being held yet, I had pretty much just met him. But I remember the smile on my face, and you could just tell how overjoyed I was and how I immediately knew I loved him and was meant to find him. I hope I find that picture again someday.

Here he is when he was younger, with his girlfriend.

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>>303239
and here she is giving him a kiss

 No.303241

>>303238
It sounds like she really loved you. I believe in fate, that certain souls are just meant to find each other.

 No.303243

>>303241
Are you saying you believe in true love?

 No.303244

>>303243
I think so, like you(?) describe in >>303238. It's a kind of metaphysical thing, like some souls are just linked or something.



 No.303237[Reply]

during the last months i moved to another city nearby to continue what the productive ppl call a university study . since my city does not have a uni so i was forced to rent with 5 friends of my brother , i really didnnt bother looking for rent so i let the job for more social individuals like him lol , i kind of adapted living here since no one bothers me like my fucking fam used to do fucking hate them , a couple weeks ago a protesting starts to happen because the lack of hospitals and low educational system , i stayed home and watch and i hope everything to fall apart and at least get better things like uhh more chips and comics discounts . or better…. to die


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 No.299518[Reply]

I can't move on. Everyone already did but I can't. Nobody remembers me. Trying to reach them is pointless, they avoid me like the plague. My parents told me lots of anecdotes from when they were young. They had friends and an extended family, they went on adventures, they cried and laughted, they grew up with lots of friends. They don't see them much nowdays but if they see each other on the street they cheerfully greet them. Their friends are happy to see them. Mines aren't. I dream about them everyday. Some of them, the original duo from my late childhood, I haven't talked to them in almost 15 years. The others, more "recent", haven't seen them in 10. Time keeps marching on. I stay the same.
I wonder, if I kill myself, will they attend my funeral?
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 No.303199

>>302001
A guy I hated at work ended up killing himself a year after leaving. We talked about it for literally less than five minutes despite having worked with him every day for two years. He came up maybe once a month briefly as a reference for the next six months, now he might briefly get mentioned once every three years at best. He killed himself back in 2016.

You really are forgotten about pretty fast after you die outside of your immediate family.

 No.303200

>>303199
only lolcows are remembered forever

 No.303205

I hope no one remembers me, I was very cringy during my middle and high school years and those memories haunt me every single day. The one thing I can relate to is dreaming about those days every single night, literally all of my dreams involve classmates from high and middle school and they revolve around that setting too. They're usually nice dreams though, as bad as those days really were I have a bit of nostalgia and it's nice to interact with those people in a dream without having to do so in real life (which I would dread).

 No.303219

>>299518
I guess you're going through the stage which I went through in middle school. Back when I was 14, I experienced profound isolation and realized that everyone around me were against me, hated me and wanted me to disappear. So I withdrew and became a hikikomori, and enjoyed it greatly, but got derailed from my life path due to abuse/mental illness/emotional distress, and for several years suffered by attempting to make the most of my life before I circled back to being a hikki, even more depressed and awful than before.

Before, I was only 14-15. Dropped out on the first term of my first year of HS. I had hopes, thought I'd make a name for myself by the time I reached adulthood. I never expected to fail so miserably and face such profound torment at the hands of this world.

It's harrowing, isn't it? The existential dread of being the only one, all alone, disappearing and fading among people you cannot connect with, who cannot connect with you. I am prepared to witness the end of the world, but I won't lie, it's extremely painful.

 No.303220

>>303205
I can relate to that so much. im in my 30s but all my dreams are of HS or MS. Its not like I didn't do anything in college. but no one has ever voluntarily spent any time with me. so my only interactions are in school. and its just not the same in college, where you might have a class just once a week.

K-12 was the only time in life i interacted with the same cast daily, so my dreams still use it as my plots. and if i live to 90, it'll do the same



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 No.301876[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Vent your shit here that is not deserving of its own thread edition
previous thread >>301013
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 No.303253

>>303252
Make sure you are properly numb before they start and make sure to immediately tell the doctor to use more anesthetics if you feel even a tiny bit of pain during the procedure.
Lift your hand or whatever it takes.
Sometimes they miss the spot with the injection (had it happen multiple times) and they think you are numb when it didn't work.
If you feel some stuff going down your throat (medicine numbing thing) while they inject, that means they fucked it up.
Let them know.
Sometimes you are numb on the outside if that makes any sense, but deeper into it you might not be and it's hard to tell.

Afterwards it will hurt, but you should be given antibiotics or maybe just pain killers.
If you have a fever call for antibiotics later if they didn't put you on them immediately.
Don't "tank the damage" so to speak.
I fucked up doing that once.

Basic advice, you probably knew all this already. No need to worry.
Worst thing that can happen is that they have to pull the tooth of it's worse than they expected it to be.

 No.303256

>>303253
Ok thanks. I've looked online and people compare it getting a cavity filled? Is this accurate?

 No.303257

>>303256
No. It is worse. Not by a lot and depends on circumstances, but it's not the same.

Your teeth that gets worked on isn't going to be the one causing you pain, but the surrounding area that got molested as a result if that makes any sense.
I had inflammation for a few days, nothing super major, but considering most if not all my fillings were without anesthesia I would say it is worse.
Again, nothing to worry about, just prepare mentally for a few days of pain killers and pay attention to fever signs.
If you have fever, don't hesitate to call or go back.

It's also quite random, for one I had no issues for another I did suffer a bit more.
Same with wisdom teeth. I had my jaw broken for one, and the other was removed and didn't even need stitches. It's hard to tell.
If you are prone to panicking just go to sleep after or something.
I'm paranoid as hell and if I have inflammation I do feel my forehead as hot, but no fever. So don't get too worked up, make sure to check temps instead of panicking.

 No.303281

Had another ER visit for my blood pressure.
Nothing conclusive found, likely a combination of nightshifts and stress.
Legitimately felt like I was going to die.
Again.

I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I worked on getting healthier over the year and the result?
Same shit when I was abusing my body last year.
How does one not just give up after this? I already told my mom to call my one friend so he would at least know if I croaked and not just ghosted…
Exhausted.

 No.303282

Told my parents I wanted to kms months ago

They never asked about it, never amended their behavior. Never bothered to follow up on it. I don't think they really even give a shit.

No wonder I ended up a soulless fuck, a clueless, useless father and a miserable, cold mother. I'm just glad my little brother is starting to break away from this shit. I hope he thrives


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 No.302844[Reply]

And say something about it if you want. I'm scared of my dad so I'm drawing a monster (him?)
I didn't know we could draw. Why isn't this done more often?
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 No.303043

>>302899
as a nigger sorry your own people fuck you over

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