/dep/ - Depression

Every morning I'm nauseous, really nauseous, sometime I puke and when I'm not nauseous I get random abdominal pain.
When I'm not nauseous or in pain I may have shortness of breath and tachycardia, often I'm also constipated.
Despite the vomit and constipation I try to eat and drink as much as I can, I'm losing weight and I fear to end up bedbound if I don't do so.
I've done some medical tests like blood tests, endoscopy, ecography, with no evidence of disease…still I'm really sick.
And my problem is I'm monitored by my parents, despite being an adult I have no freedom and they don't want to help me with suicide but I can't live like this.
I'm being tortured with no end in sight.

How do I block out the noise of the world?

Foam has helped me partially or mattresses against windows/ walls etc. depends on what sort of noise and where it’s coming from.

Are used to put mattresses and foam panels against street facing windows. I would say it blocks 25% or so

Mattress covering entire window frame is so obscene though. And don't want hyperacusis caused by using noise cancelling headphones or earplugs.

Whitepillers don't have a retort for autism. You can get a good degree, pursue your hobbies and work on your self esteem but if you have autism you will never make it in this anti-autistic world, Life is all about one thing. Being born without autism. If you're born without autism the normies will make excuses for you, help you out, share money with you, give you 100 chances, etc. Meanwhile if you have autism you're evil and creepy just for existing and blinking the wrong way. Everybody gets to live for free except autists and only autists who are given this fake ass "you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps and make your life" "you gotta amount to something" "innovation" story. Shit that literally no one else has to follow.

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?

Is there any way to do the whole noose thing but ensure I don't end up just brain damaged alive or suffering too much from it? Trying to write a first person fictional story

I'm too stupid to figure out how to get pills and combo them

maybe all this is just a dream, a very long bad dream. this current era these people with no empathy for one another, this corrupt government and this polarization is just getting to me.

will it still come to me if i close myself off from the rest of the world wizards????

Can I die just by taking codein with promethazine and a bit of alcohol? How much of each would I need? I want a peaceful death, to cause as little commotion as possible.

Does anyone ever want to just scream and shout at the world? Whether its frustration for myself or others I find myself having no where to put it. What would you tell people if they would listen to you?

Living with my mom. My mom just zaps all the life-energy out of me.

Do ou know this feeling?

Is it just me…. it began from 2020 fo some weird reason :/
people around me put their hands too often on their crotch. very.. so confidntally… they get all hysterical when u ask them to wash their hands and wont listen 95prcnt of time. what else is how peoole hurry clash in to each other with their genitals too. This shit depresses me. I need to wash my products cuz of filthy cashiers.
When people bump into ur ass it all happens so suddenly. nothing is done to stop this - not even having kids.
Even in hospitals you cant run away from this, the stuff is equaly gross.

I.. i canot stop this horror.
dude.. what else I need to do!?