>>276120>Some people are born intrinsically evil.
i don't know if this is true. it could be and could not be. i have heard valid arguments for either case. i suspect it is way more of a choice then people like to admit. evil likes to hide behind this and pretend choice doesn't exist. because if choice existed for people who hate themselves, there may have been a choice that would have resulted in them not hating themselves and somehow this is too dangerous of a thought. evil people say they can't be responsible for their actions because free will is an illusion. i don't believe them though.
>I try to now find hobbies but can't help but feel disgusted everytime I'm in the sight of beauty.
it's nice to see someone admit this. sometimes i believe this disgust is the only protection i have in this life. i suspect a similar relationship exists between evil and choice. freely choosing i imagine must feel as disgusting as beauty to those who do everything in their power to prevent choice from manifesting.
>A hierarchy is not man made, but natural.
i don't think so. people who are blessed with a purity of heart have something in them, that gives them power, makes them attractive to the opposite sex (in a way that luxury or social status never could) and makes them feel good effortlessly.
hierarchy is the desperate attempt to organize and conspire violently so that purity of heart no longer outshines them in everything they do. if there is constant conflict, fear, uncertainty, doubt, problems, then this hierarchy that was born out of envy can seem like it is actually of service but a quick glance is enough to understand that the problems hierarchies solve are those created by hierarchies. hierarchy is a human motor powered by envy.
>Just hate that some people are created just to bare the sin of their lineage while others are chosen to be protected from the world.
i don't believe this is how it works. you might start this life moving in a certain direction but you alone have the power to decide who you want to be. an asshole could just stop being an asshole from one second to the next if the asshole expects all the change that comes with it both positive and negative.