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 No.294024[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You see, I am what people call a waifufag, a genuine one. I fell in love with a loli from a very obscure edgy manga made in 2012 and finished in 2015.

I discovered her in 2022, and the few months we were together were genuine, the happiest in life, not even kidding, but then I made a fatal mistake, you see, because I was an insecure purityfag and wanted to know if she was a virgin because a lot of succubi in her manga have been either raped or sexually abused, but she is an exception. She gets stabbed, whipped, and beaten by her boss, who is like Stepbrother. 

I asked the author if she was a virgin, and he said no, and then I asked why she was not a virgin, and he simply said yes.

This comment, single-handed, destroyed me and made me fall into despair through the entire half of 2022 and the entire 2023, and now 2024, I really can't let go of it.
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 No.296027

I dont think I can live anymore. 

That beautiful moment of happiness is probably forever gone, and I dont think anyone can give that moment to me.

I think I am going to end it all. I am just tired. My life is terrible. I can't find any money. I just broke one of my windows out of pure anger.

 No.296028

>>296027
The manga author is probably a pedophile so hey, at least now you dont have to associate yourself with him.

 No.296029

>>296028
it not fair she was almost perfect she was everything i ever wanted

 No.296030

>>296027
who's your daughterfu?

 No.296031

>>296030
Rukkyyung


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 No.295893[Reply]

Should I apply for a part time job at my local grocery store? I keep procrastinating applying
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 No.295955

>>295948
sure, the wagie makes more money, but if you have enough to have a comfortable life than why work for more? it's not like neetie has a wife and kids with ever rising expectations and needs. he also doesn't have anything to prove so bigger number is his bank account doesn't mean much if it requires him to sacrifice peace of mind.

 No.295956

>>295948
at the psychological cost of being suicidal, depending on how much of a capable normie you are

 No.295994

Depends on the pay. I'd do it for more than $20. Sounds comfy. Part time jobs are the best. Problem is you don't get health insurance usually so you need to walk a tightrope between earning enough to live and not earning too much to kick you off medicaid.

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 No.296006

>>295936
Wizchan 2024



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 No.295228[Reply]

I wonder where is the border between consciousness and physical existance. I mean, If I die who can garantee that my consciousness end too? Maybe I will continue suffering as another human. What if there are no real difference between your "me" and mine "me"?

I came up with concept where humanity is connected with their minds so our personalities are just illusion, an aspect of Gods psychological illness. Death of a man only means end of another meat cell on Gods body. The suicide cant help you end your personal suffering because its only part of something more, there are no you or me. Only way to end your and mine personal hell is to erace every sign of intelligent life in universe.

Sorry for mess in this shitpost. Vsem bobra i kvasa.
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>>295721
>Russians are imperialists by nature, so of course they love Bolsheviks
if they were imperialist it would make morse sensese to shill for tsar

 No.295724

>>295721
>Russians are imperialists
If you are from USA or Europe, its funny to read))))
>by nature
fuck of nazi

 No.295944

>>295721
They already shill for him hard. Like constant plans to make him Saint by the Orthodox church and all those walks with crosses and his portrait.
>>295720
People in other countries build cities and provide education without killing 9 million Ukrainians during Holodomor. (The number of 3 million is promoted by the left institutions despite recent findings in order to have Holocaust as the biggest tragedy, as if it's a competition for them).

 No.295945

>>295724
>by nature
>fuck of nazi
90% of Muscovite opposition in emigration is against decolonization and denuclearization of Muscovy. And that's those who the West considers to be cream of the crop. Regular Muscovites are even worse. Actually, Muscovy almost always was the empire. Including the USSR rebranding.

 No.295949

your personality is almost certainly rooted in your brain. So even if consciousness is some kind of transcendent property your experience here, this, only happens once



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 No.295929[Reply]

This shit really triggered me. Imagine caring for some little animals for 7 years then jew approved paper pushers come take them from you with no warning and then kill them.

 No.295930

amerikkkan politics is a joke. if the coppers didn't get him, then surely the haitians would eat him haha

 No.295931

It is a good example for demonstrating the type of society in which we live

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 No.295924[Reply]

 No.295925

Moved to >>>/jp/42618.



 No.292133[Reply]

I was at work and had to just fucking sit there and listen to this guy go on and on about how succubi constantly hit him up and fucked him. I normally don't react to this kind of stuff. But then he showed video after video after video and it eventually got to me. This fuck is the same age as me but his life just seemed so much easier. I legitimately didn't understand what it's like to have a fucking succubus text you. Want to see you. He even said "You're not ugly. How?" I just didn't have an answer. I just live with the cope that some people just have it easier and others like myself emit and anti succubus field. I am happier the further away from sex and relationship shit I hear. Normally I can just live around it and it doesn't bother me. This time was different some how. What the fuck.
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 No.295695

i don’t know, i got lucky i guess, tho i also put in some of my own effort into it (bad hygiene). that helped a lot in protecting my virginity from succs. now i can just enjoy life watching anime all day without some succ pestering me to get a job, etc.

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>>295694
R9K is down the hall to the left

 No.295909

My bigger problem is that I have avoidant personality disorder and therefore have no friends or social life at all. I don't even have time to worry about not having a gf when I haven't even cleared the basic prerequisites to get one. Honestly if I could just get a normal social life, my life would be 1000% better and I doubt I would care about such a trivial thing as no gf.

 No.295910

>>295909
Why do you think that? Socialising with normal people doesnt feel good at all for me, and likely you too, otherwise you wouldnt have been harmed by normies and developed AvPD

 No.295917

>>295628
>I do not understand the hobby cope offered by normalfags.
?
lolwat

Zoomers are fucking gay. Before normalfags took over geekdom and several nerd niches, hobbies and crafts were the thing many wizards and crabs had in place of friends or succubi.



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 No.295867[Reply]

Why am I so pathetic? I don't even have it that bad, just slightly below average but still with all the tools to succeed and yet all I do is complain because there are others who have it better.

I live in perpetual regret because when I become aware of a problem instead of working on fixing it I hate and pity myself for having the kind of personality that would cause that problem. In my 20s I was making posts like "is it too late to …" and now in my 30s I feel like a fool for not doing anything back then but now again I am pitying myself and paralyzed by the reality of the wasted time I won't get back and the effects of aging with nothing to show for.

I feel like by now I've shown what kind of person I am and there is a very hard cap on what I can achieve. Any hope for change seems delusional.

 No.295870

Stop overthinking and get a plan. What would you prefer to live like? You can make daily steps toward that life, unless you think no life other than being rich and famous is worth living. Stop thinking about other people. Who the fuck cares if some cunt is doing better than you? Have pride in what you're able to accompish and aspire toward. Godspeed.

 No.295871

you still can't move on from this shit?

 No.295891

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Same here 29 about to be 30 exact same scenario
Wasted my 20s grappling with feeling s of inferiority and depression from my teens so while everyone off socializing and getting acclimated with society I did everything I could to avoid humans sure I have some traumas but at 29 nobody wants to hear it they just want to see tangible results .so much potential wasted because I failed to realize I was living my real life ill probably be 35 wishing I started doing something anything right now at 29 3/4th-30 just an endless cycle of wishing I started sooner
I'm cowardly and to high inhibition because I don't want to be embarrassed infront of people who don't even know I exist
I push away the people who love me by being unmotivated and also being around my family makes me feel like I'm dying inside
Fuck I hate ranting the relief was always temporary and the feelings come back like water during a tsunami
AGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 No.295904

not OP here, but I think I'm in a very similar state

>>295871
No, I can't move on from my past because my present situation is the result of my past. And the same factors that made me fail in the past are still with me now, and I keep making the same mistakes, and I keep failing in the same ways, and I believe that's because I have inherent qualities that make me incompatible with the world.

I can silence the regret by distracting myself with activities in my little neet cave, but that comfort vanishes immediately when I step outside and it becomes so obvious that I'm a terrible misfit. My point is that there is something about me that makes me this way, and I want to find out what it is, so I can address the root cause of this problem.

>>295870
>Stop overthinking and get a plan
A plan for what? There is nothing I can think of that I would want to achieve, and that absolute lack of motivation and drive is part of the problem.

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>>295904
same for me. In my 30s and my doctor said i seem like i have autism so i am getting evaluated soon



 No.295586[Reply]

I'm trying to quit porn (cold turkey) and 90% of the content I've seen online has been:

1. an anecdote from someone who has already succeded in quitting

2. an ad for an app

3. people who aren't addicted to porn talking about porn addiction

Is this shit just a grift? I want to hear about it from people who are actually struggling with it, not annoying liberal psychiatrists or infographics.

Please help me, I don't want to be like this anymore
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 No.295866

>>295733
I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything personally.
>>295864
>I still fap I just find the porn industry to be a toxic, evil thing and I refuse to be a victim to it any longer.
This is best mindset to have honestly.

 No.295876

i have some genuine questions. If you have decided that you want to quit porn, and you are actually sure that's what you want, what happens in your brain when you "fail" and watch the porn? Isn't it required that there must be some time period while you are looking for the porn during which you have changed your mind and decided that you dont want to quit porn after all? That means you are actually uncertain and not resolute about quitting. Can't you just analyse what causes you to have doubts and force yourself to make a more resolute decision?

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Can't be an addict of what I draw in moderation..

 No.295886

>>295876
I haven't relapsed this time and don't plan to.

I agree with the Wiz who has said "I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything". We're not, porn addiction *takes* from you, it doesn't add anything. It's more than the time spent masturbating and finding porn, it's about purging your mind of a malignant poison

Realising that has helped me make this is a resolute decision, like you say.

I still have some residual anxiety about the fact that mainstream society is highly sexually suggestive, sex obsessed, and pornographic. I'm more anxious for others than myself, I look upon those still addicted with pity and wish I could help them more

 No.295887

>>295865
figure out what happened to make you consume it again, Wiz. It may not be fun to introspect upon but it did happen for a reason. Once you know you can make next time better.

I believe in you



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 No.285412[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Death of the Uncool - End of the Wizards V

Watching Geekdom get absorbed into the monoculture over the last decade (and then some) has been a pretty demoralising experience.

Part of the process of commodification, streamlining and assimilation of geek culture into the all-consuming monoculture, is distortion and erasure of the original.

"These would be the successive phases of the image:

1 It is the reflection of a basic reality.

2 It masks and perverts a basic reality.

3 It masks the absence of a basic reality.

4 It bears no relation to any reality whatever: it is its own pure simulacrum.

In the first case, the image is a good appearance: the representation is of the order of sacrament. In the second, it is an evil appearance: of the order of malefice. In the third, it plays at being an appearance: it is of the order of sorcery. In the fourth, it is no longer in the order of appearance at all, but of simulation."

I'm probably using Baudrillard wrong, but I think we're either between phase 2 and 3 or on phase 3. We're at the point where we have "gamers" who don't like videogames as the faces of videogames.
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 No.295411

>>285432
You talk like wizarddom is the logical superior yet youre clearly trying to create a new hierarchy in which you are at the top. It isnt a bad thing for creating cukture with other people but ur literally hypocritical and half as smart as a dumb normalfag lol. Go suck some cock faggot.

 No.295737

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The temporary discourse around a certain film release and then watching the film itself, and all I can say is "wow".

I'd never thought I'd see a studio/director burn through at least $200 million to burn down a billion dollar franchise solely because it didn't like a specific demographic of the audience.

It's obviously a little deeper than that, but not by much. There's at least a couple of ways to look at this film.

The film itself is well-made, well-shot, well-acted, I can't find many faults in this regard. The musical aspect isn't too bad in a certain light. And if the story was actually leading to something meaningful, the first 2/3rd seems decent if a little overlong. It's essentially a court room drama to see if Fleck/Joker is culpable for the murders he committed in the last film.

However once it gets to the pivotal scene where Fleck is raped by the prison guards and consequently takes full responsibility for the murders and renounces his Joker persona, it's clear that there's no deeper meaning beyond "fuck you virgins/outcasts/crabs/etc you are inherently bad" and all the prior scenes *were* just a setup drive that point home, every character that was still alive or had sympathy for the Joker in the original was brought back to rescind that sympathy. Literally at one point they highlight that Fleck may be a virgin as if it was a cardinal sin. Fleck gets stabbed to death at the end for "doing the right thing".

I honestly think it's to perpetuate the idea of the would-be nerd as an inherently malevolent being to be used as a scapegoat for all of society's ills. And I honestly think that the would-be nerds have revolutionary potential too that they needed to negate.

The other way to look at this which isn't too different from the first way, is that the joker accidentally became a symbol of the downtrodden, that the idea that maybe our superiors won't come to save us or actually have our best interests at heart. I remember when both wings of the mainstream media started attacking the original film before it came out, as a "dangerous" movie, "crab" movie, that shouldn't be seen by anyone. Watching the original film you understand why that probably was the case, it's not a particularly subtle movie and has themes of class warfare running through it and a sympathetic view of why a person would become a "villain" in our dogshit system and Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.295759

>>295737
Is Todd Philips jewish?

 No.295761

>>295759
is there even a need to ask? lol

 No.295885

>>295759
>>295761
>Phillips was born in Brooklyn, New York City, to a Jewish family.He was raised in Dix Hills, New York, on Long Island.


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 No.295825[Reply]

I need to share a set of deeply\tightly connected musings: atheism, antis*x+antinatalism, and "reality shifting", misanthropist and mortality\dying.
Im a STRONG believer in "reality shifting" -not the shiftok version but the Monroe\ Transposing \Bashar\ Neville \Zeland "schools". I know they're NOT the same but they're non-shit-tok z**mers who teach this. I had been (still am?) religious but after reading Paul Almond, and other such authors, now I doubt deeply. My main reason to be religious\ pro-christianity was its huge emphasis on celibacy (catholicism) but, now I learnt from several authors one can be -and indeed, many are- anti-s*x and celibate and an atheist. Anti-natalism is about life=suffering, but I still oppose any and all forms of contraception. I think human meddling into animal breeding is a cosmic monstrosity and see ecological damage by capitalism (and also communism, soviet retards polluted half the world with really nasty shit) as unforgivable and atrociously heinous. Misanthropy and the fact of my own mortality also hold their dark, trapping fascination upon me.
NOW: As I said, Im having more and more, and more intense, lucid dreaming\OBE\ astral experiences–I believe the Empty World (an exact copy of the 2024 planet with no animals ,or humans) exists and want to go there. My main idea until now was to go as a kind of holiday ,or to perform christian religious exercises, pilgrimages, intense asceticism, etc. Now I still may be ascetic (non-masochistic, tho) but want to never return here. and die there. It pains me to a horrible, horribly intense level that my parents won't ever see me again\ I won't see them or family ever again.

 No.295827

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