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 No.303889[Reply]

>Were you emotionally neglected as a child?
I wonder if this led me to become who I am now, at least in social settings.
I have no idea if I suffered from this, although I remember times when I was told not to cry, or I got used to not crying over silly things that perhaps maybe weren't silly for a child.
I read those internet ads about caring for parents and children, and they recommended hugs, affection, and not denying children's pain and suffering, and that the best thing is to get it off the emotions of their chest or body.
but if this doesn't happen, then they build up a shell, armor, or something like that because they mask or hide these emotions automatically out of pure habit and training. and later they will have trouble releasing their emotions from their bodies. Babies and toddlers do this naturally when they cry.
>Also
I can't remember the last time I cried with all my might or something like that.
I wonder if this led me to be the way I am now, at least in a social way. I wonder if I can treat it. I read from an anon that some of these things can only be treated with love. But the truth is confusing.
Maybe my brain is already like this, although I read that the brain can change, as can one's habits and feelings.
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 No.304678

>>304672
>"nah" followed by a bunch of 'wrong on purpose' low-effort trolling
Still? After all of these years?

 No.304679

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>>304676

EDITED
Makes some sense, m8

Makes some sense.. "Normies" hate what confuses them and what they don't seem to understand. Something something herd mentality.

>>304678
point taken, but this one has "a troll being itself" vibe: Comrade Troll decided to tell us controlling own emotions = good (as long as it can help us gain some control over our lives)

 No.304744

I understood there are many things my parents did not do right and if I were to have kids I would like to think I know what to do better.

 No.305179

NOT OP, BUT…


BUMP


Ive been thinking lately about the DRAMA in my life. Apparently, some succ next door either have seduced my father or have successfully faked such a thing - for "some" drama which led to a painful divorce. (Or maybe my mother is not a reliable storyteller…)


Now, my whole life is wizardchan-tier simply because some rural-to-city

 No.305188

>>305179
>Now, my whole life is wizardchan-tier simply because some rural-to-city

hedonistic succubus wanted to satisfy her hedonistic desires by provoking my mother to divorce and to away + grab me too = ahaha a young big guy to do stuff with.


Oh, and *her* husband was so frail he… passed away ~10 years ago; go figure.



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 No.304421[Reply]

Knowing the hedonist succubi stroll the face of the earth was eating away at me so I drew for a bit in an attempt to extend my range of patience. Still, I remain degraded and in misery. I think I'm in a spot right now where I feel neutral but that can't stop me from knowing how disgusting and vile they are, and how even just existing is. What have you drawn?

 No.304422

you should look up guro if you want to satisfy this desire even more

 No.304473

It's a fun way to vent. I made a comic series albeit quite bad about an outcast wagie. Not entirely original but I get to plagiarize my real life experiences

 No.304492

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>>304421
>Hatred through art
>Knowing the hedonist succubi stroll
>was eating away at me so I drew for a bit in an attempt to extend my range of patience.
>I think I'm in a spot right now where I feel neutral
>but that can't stop me from knowing how disgusting and vile they are, and how even just existing is
Sound like a crabdom with a succubi rent free 24/7 in the head.

I like drawing cute lolis and chibis sometimes (not in a sexually way you know) so i dont have a problem with that. so it can fullfiling just learning to draw or do emotion in arts.
>Also
At this point Crabdom gonna be normal in this place… fuck.

 No.305187

>>304492
>Sound like a crabdom with a succubi rent free 24/7 in the head

OR, his cozy life was ruined because some succubus have either seduced OPs father leading to a divorce


Or didn't seduce, I dunno.



 No.305152[Reply]

When someone in deep depression shouts that there is no free will, what they are really saying is that everything feels trapped. It feels like their personality, their failures, their pain, and even their thoughts were all decided long before they had a chance to speak. In that state, the idea of choice sounds fake, almost cruel, because nothing feels like it could have gone differently. Life feels like a machine that produced them and then abandoned them inside its gears. Saying there is no free will becomes a way to explain why everything hurts and why escape seems impossible.

The reply, “you do not have free will, but you do have a will,” changes the frame in a subtle but powerful way. A will is not about being free from causes or history, it is about the fact that something inside still wants, still cares, still reacts. Even if every desire has a source, the desire itself is real. The wish for relief, for connection, for meaning, or even just for the pain to stop, is a force that has weight. Depression can bury that force under exhaustion and despair, but it does not erase it. Having a will means there is still something alive inside you, even when everything else feels predetermined.
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 No.305163

>>305162
Some people might be drawn to determinism because it offers a framework where life’s events and choices are seen as the inevitable result of prior causes. They might look at the world and notice patterns, how genetics influence behavior, how upbringing shapes personality, and how societal pressures guide decisions, and conclude that these forces leave little room for true independent choice. In this view, every action is part of a causal chain stretching back long before an individual was born, and what feels like free will is really just the mind interpreting a predetermined sequence of events. For some, this perspective can feel comforting, as it frames personal struggles or mistakes as part of a larger, understandable system rather than random failures of willpower.

Others might be drawn to determinism through observation of human behavior and scientific reasoning. Neuroscientific studies, for instance, show that the brain can initiate actions before a person is consciously aware of deciding, which can suggest that our sense of choice is an illusion. Philosophically, determinism can appeal to those who prioritize logic and consistency over intuition, as it reduces moral and emotional judgment to cause and effect rather than mysterious free agency. While they may still act and make decisions in daily life, they interpret those actions as inevitable outcomes of prior conditions, and in doing so, they see the world as a predictable, rule-governed system rather than a realm of ultimate personal freedom.

 No.305164

>>305162
Can you prove that there is an uncaused event in your brain that takes arbitrary decisions?

 No.305169

When someone's in depression, they're depressed. Period.
>>305153
Does free will take a man in the sky?
>>305154
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantum_indeterminacy
>>305163
People are drawn to determinism to hype or to outsource responsibility.
>>305164
I just took a random decision to fart on the part of my screen your post occupies. I swear it's uncaused.

 No.305170

>>305169
>quantum woowoo
See video related

 No.305171

>>305170
That explains everything thanks.



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 No.302844[Reply]

And say something about it if you want. I'm scared of my dad so I'm drawing a monster (him?)
I didn't know we could draw. Why isn't this done more often?
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 No.304847

hi

 No.304849

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 No.304889

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tooth pain and a constant pit in my stomach from too much family exposure on the holidays

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 No.305161

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"Kaaaah! Is this what being happy feels like?! I'm scared!"



 No.301895[Reply]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.304801

>>304793
>They say the Mediterranean diet is the healthiest as it contains a lot of fruits, nuts, and berries. I don't know if cutting off wheat could be a good thing for you as you will be needing those carbohydrates but I would suggest you to add fruits and salads to your meals and especially dietary fibres.


IIRC, there are two catches


1. Cucumbers here are full of nitro-shit hence causing constipation and stuff.

2. Wheat? Wheat?!?! You probably should use buckwheat or rice to avoid gluten-related problems (implying any of us *may* have non-severe wheat-related problems)

 No.304803

>>304350
>everyone i've ever liked killed themselves or is in jail.
Are you a gangbanger?

 No.305017

>>304801
buckwheat is good however it is very oxalate-dense (so you shouldn't over-eat it).

 No.305026

>>305017
>oxalate-dense
thank you for the reminder; no food is "superfood" so one should eat different foods from time to time

 No.305151

>>305026
absolutely agreed



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 No.304408[Reply]

new internet of over 10 yrs now… is it me or there is nothing left to talk about?
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 No.305129

It's turning into a vacant internet. There aren't even bots. Just nobody. The media is even reporting that people have resolved to return to analog forms of entertainment and the internet has been deemed cringe. I am just a schizo talking to myself.

 No.305132

>>305129
Nah you'd be surprised how many such schizos are out there too insecure to strike a wizfriendship because they're fucked up in the head and can't process emotions.

 No.305133

I have perma blocked most of the sites I used due to being too cancerous but I find myself with a low activity webring site, wizchan and some twitch group. I wonder where one is supposed to go. Offline 24/7? some Discord/Steam friend chat?

 No.305134

>>305133
>some Discord/Steam friend chat?

Yep. Everyone at work is on this stuff. I caved once and signed up - got tired of work acquaintances bugging me when I started the computer in the morning. Uninstalled all of it.

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>>305133
I never used Discord or the social places of anti-social normies sites.
But in december of last year i started using Discord for server proyects (WoW, City of Heroes, Club Penguien etc) i never talk here.
Just read and ask.
I have just one group that sometimes enter and see memes or chat about the topic of Ceremonial magick, meditation etc.
I have one friend of a WoW server in disc.
I not into old IRC



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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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 No.305087

>>305083
I run out of it anyway. Also I didn't start feeling good, just a different sort of bad. But still much less lethargic, which is good I guess.

 No.305090

>>305087
next stop - test your iron levels and check if your body handles iron well.

or, just get some iron supplements as well…

 No.305093

>>305090
to steel my nuts, lol? anyway what does iron do? will it help me not feel like somebody's trying to crush my neck when anxiety hits? i'm fucked up enough that anxiety feels like a very physical thing

 No.305097

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>>303176
Friendly reminder you body might not be able to absorb it from food or it might not be able to produce it by means of sunlight… both cases happened to me. After a study on vitamin D my doctor prescribed me pills of 5000 iu of vitamin D per day for four months. In the very first week those pills solved a problem that for almost two decades I thought it was normal: perpetual exhaustion. Nowadays I have more energy and don't even feel tired after working out. The downside of this is that I cannot blame fatigue for my lack of interest in developing my skills… that's a psychological issue no ammount of money will solve.

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>>305097
Thank you for being with me.
See, I used to hear on how the lack of vitamin D ruins the mood for the Finnish people. I understand when a Saint-Petersburg guy lacks the money to buy some cod liver, but the Finns??? Thank you for explaining the need for proper meds-like vitamins D

Regards, OP




>>305097
>The downside of this is that I cannot blame fatigue for my lack of interest in developing my skills…

ugh? uh? Your job, mate? Your title?
Coulda help you a li'l bit at that I guess

If you work at some gov't job, you will feel empty a bit from the very nature of strict gov't jobs, "by the book" and stuff… If not, please tell so I could some looking up.

>that's a psychological issue no ammount of money will solve.

Ah, sometimes you just need some *edutaiment* videos that explain your things in fun manner rather than bold manner. Coulda ask a chatty for some fun channels to larn something *adjacent* to the skills you already have



 No.305094[Reply]

It’s over for me, I’m 18 and I have the social skills of a goldfish, I’m 5’5, autistic and not particularly good looking

Now at the moment my cope is the gym, I’m fairly lean and have visible abs but I’ve been tempted to start drinking daily or at the very least several days a week

This is because:
1) it feels nice
2) it’s not too expensive
3) it makes me more social
4) it may make life interesting again

But at the same time I have my doubts

These are:
1) I am genetically predisposed to alcoholism, several members of my family are fond of a drink or have been, with my late father being an alcoholic before meeting my mother
2) I am quite proud of what I have done to my body over the past year or so, I used to be quite fat as a child/teen so to throw it all away would be quite upsetting

What should I do wizards? Besides vidya and the gym, nothing brings me any joy, I’ve tried dating apps and got 0 matches and I’ve never been approached by a succubus irl so I know it is for a fact over
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 No.305106

>>305094
>It’s over for me, I’m 18
ugh..?
>and I have the social skills of a goldfish, I’m 5’5, autistic and not particularly good looking
1. Look. Lemme try a broad advice first. You need some PROMPTS for an AI to make your life "more interesting" + download an extdntion that saves your AI chat from your messenger app to your device's memory into a separate file.

2. Now, I have an idea for you to review (with an AI or a trusted person, but not anons, let alone us wizards). The idea is "Cutecel". Think of cutemaxxing and maybe "cute by doing daily things well" also.


>Now at the moment my cope is the gym, I’m fairly lean and have visible abs but I’ve been tempted to start drinking daily or at the very least several days a week

Look. These two *counter each other*! You tried a so-called gymmaxxing yet you feel you're still a gymcel and you now try DUBOISMAXXING thats just not what you want.


Try: k-pop style to woo k-pop "connoseurettes" who won't flaunyt over a particular K-pop band yet who seem to be into k-pop haha funny boyz

or some other style i dunno
make sure to not get pwned by orkcelz though, waaaaaaaagh

 No.305121

2026 - 18 = 2008
This nigger was born in 2008
He was 8 in 2016
Let that sink in

 No.305122

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>>305094
>What should I do wizards?
Don't sell your soul to alcohol and don't NEET, you need to keep moving forward in other areas of your life.
>>305121
>This nigger was born in 2008
Not necessarily. Only if he was born sometime in the first week of january. He's probably from 2007.
t. 2007 anonymage

 No.305127

>>305101
>>305102
I'm 29 now but I've been lurking wizard/wizchan since I was 17. Some of us know we're destined to be wizards from a young age.

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>>305127
At 29, you are still unaccustomed to being a wizard but the time you are mid thirties, you aren't even really thinking about it much anymore. You have adjusted to it completely by then or at least that is my experience.

The average person has some 9-5 grind that they hate and is more miserable than me and that includes succubi. People aren't delusionmaxxed to the extent I am. It's the only way to survive these days.



 No.305116[Reply]

I live in a hot region of the world. I was born in a place I didn't even ask to be born. Right now, I'm getting bothered by the heat, and I no longer want to touch the sunlight. It makes me itch and I can't stand it. I never wanted to live, but if I were forced to, let it at least be somewhere cold, a calm and serene place. I don't think this will get better. I'm not going to say that I feel this way irl or anywhere else on the internet. I'll just say it here.

I think that's all I have to say. If you're like me, I hope your pain will lessen too.

 No.305117

i live in south texas, it gets hot as hell in the summer, and thanks to climate change winter lasts like 2 days.
but i have an air conditioner so problems werent

 No.305118

>>305116
> I was born in a place I didn't even ask to be born.

how childish.

 No.305119

>>305118
ahh bad crabbie!

>>305116
heat melted your brain. cool down asap

 No.305120

There's snow here and it will be -16 degrees celsius the coming days. I do consider myself lucky but the costs for heating are crippling.



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 No.302369[Reply]

todai I learned Helicobacter Pylori bacteria reduces your B12 vitamin levels as well as iron levels.


My diet is weird also

I need to pass a breath Helicobacter Pilori test (or vomit into a cup a little, I suppose)

maybe that's where my ruined mood comes from
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 No.302884

>>302377
OK, I've bought some "NOW Foods" B12 vitamin.

 No.303095

>>302369
I got stomach ulcers because of this piece of shit bacteria growing too much in my stomach.
Fucking had to take 4 medicines at once.
Now drinking a shit ton of cranberry juice so I don't have to deal with it in the future.

 No.303098

>>303095
ouch
got it

 No.304043

*buys moar vitamins*



i dunno, it appears to be working

 No.305111

OPs here
Last month, I've been lenting (no meat, no eggs, no milk) yet I was taking my b12 pills.

I also did my best to switch from coffee to tea.

All in all, the experiment's been a moderate success in terms of finally not wanting to do bad things to myself, but rather, feel calm.
Side note: with b12 pills, with halved coffee intake and without milk, both my mental health AND my gut health got good, as I don't get irritated unless I make a bold mug of coffee with a side of 4 oz of strong chocolate


However, that also means I will only post on Wizardchan eight times a week or so, as I have some other chats to participate at: some AI prompt guys running quite a model with an online API; a community on a certain anime artist whose works blew my mind recently; some funny microblog site (new site to explore though… I am thinking of something friendly to geeks and tech guy

and maybe a small community running own IRC so I could mIRC here or there



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