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 No.285617[Reply]

Hello. Despite this being a depression board, it seems most people are still around trying to do something. I am in a situation where except dying there is nothing to do, so i decided to make a thread wondering if there are any other people like me online, since it's almost impossible to find anyone even on the outskirts of the internet.

tl;dr i have countless diagnosed and undiagnosed physical illnesses which cause me agony daily and i feel like i'm dying every day, spent all my money on doctors and went into debt, cant make any more money, will eventually be homeless(can happen at any time), addicted to xanax that if i quit im gonna get seizures, i will never have a normal home(never had my own room) or family(mentally retarded?) not to mention my mental health problems etc.
Overall I guess I have around 10 major problems of which each is lethal and will kill me, and 100s of minor ones(which a normal person would consider unbearable). I have nothing and noone, my life self-destructed this the year and it's been half a year of pointless suffering knowing i'm gonna die anyway. I just couldn't push myself to end it since i'm the biggest coward in this world.
I guess i'm not sure if there's anything to talk about, since everyone in similar situations is either dead or sleeping under the bridge and dying. I just lost interest in talking to anyone since I know they can't comprehend my situation at all. Even on suicide forums maybe even 1 person out of 100 is in a situation comparable to mine. So I just made this pointless thread.
If life is truly over for you, and you don't know what to do, this thread is for you.
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 No.295165

>>288963
If you're still here, how are you doing now? Do you know who DBDR is?

 No.295212

>>294841
what's the name of the manga?

 No.295213

>>295212
the hunter guilds

 No.295226

>>294841
Same wizbro

 No.296751

>>295159
I'm the same



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 No.291139[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Now i don't know if this is madness but can a person like really just be vexxed or cursed to never have a girlfriend ? It's the fact that even when you try it always seems to not go your way, it always goes wrongly, It's fucking insane how much tries you try yet it does not work, it's almost as if there is someone stopping that shit because it's fucking insane how one can keep trying even in any way yet he cannot succeed with getting a succubus.

Do you think there is really some fucking paranormal background to males not having the chance to get a girlfriend even though they do everything that seems to be accepted by Social standards and even break social standards just to get a girlfriend yet with no avail, Even the most handsome yet cannot get it, I remember there was a thread about how people are bound to be lonely well this is a continuation, Do you think there are some who are destined to never have a girlfriend even though it seems absurd ?

Is there anyway to break from this cycle ?
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 No.294585

>>293985
>A w0man alone wont bring you happiness.
Correct
>Seek God and He will bring you real happiness
False

 No.294837

>>291419
isn't that memegraphic from 4chan? it even has tfw and pepe in it

 No.294844

>>294837
The Old Man of the Mountain

 No.295158

>>291162
>>291164
True, but I just want to point out that autism is not the only neurodivergent thing. There are various traits and personality disorders that can give a man this "paranormal aura".

 No.296749

>>291419
I'd say it's a societal issue.


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 No.296567[Reply]

Whitepillers don't have a retort for autism. You can get a good degree, pursue your hobbies and work on your self esteem but if you have autism you will never make it in this anti-autistic world, Life is all about one thing. Being born without autism. If you're born without autism the normies will make excuses for you, help you out, share money with you, give you 100 chances, etc. Meanwhile if you have autism you're evil and creepy just for existing and blinking the wrong way. Everybody gets to live for free except autists and only autists who are given this fake ass "you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps and make your life" "you gotta amount to something" "innovation" story. Shit that literally no one else has to follow.
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 No.296731

>>296730
Best bet would be to see a psychiatrist. Just keep in mind some of them are quacks with an agenda to either over- or under-diagnose.

 No.296738

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>>296567
>85~90% of high functioning autistic adults with uni degrees are unemployed, vs the neurotypical unemployment rate of 5% and Down Syndrome unemployment rate of 50%.
>The suicide rate of ASD people is 15x the general population's.
>Only a minority of ASD people (especially men) will ever even have one relationship and the divorce rate of marriages in which one partner is neurotypical and the other is autistic is 80%.
>90% of autistic kids get bullied in school and one study found that 63% of all bullied kids were autistic, Well I mean. low functioning autists are obviously not going to do well either. Except when you are high functioning you have enough intellect to be painfully aware of all the ways you are falling short and the shit state of your life etc.

 No.296741

>>296738
Disturbing how even literal downies have a better chance at getting a job…

 No.296746

>>296738
>>296741

im 32 and pretty high functioning but ive lost half a dozen jobs this year. i only walked out on one because it was so shit. another i dropped the role but they said they'd put me in a different position then it never happened. i did have one sort of ok job (it paid well atleast) but they fired me without any stated reason.

 No.296747

>>296738
yep, and there's retards on here who think you can be just as happy as normals being autistic



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 No.296737[Reply]

For several years I had the idea of ending my life in the back of my head despite barely ever experiencing extreme depression in any remote way, I spent long periods reading about various suicide methods at sanctionedsuicide and even making threads asking for technical questions related to suicide methods, but it's something I never planned to do at any time soon, and I still have no plans to do it at anytime soon at the moment, I made a thread here about this topic several years and some Anons thought I was being an attention whore just because My life did not suck enough that I would want to end it instantly, I am not too unhappy at the moment, but I know shit might hit the fan at some point, and I will have no other choice, I also fear ageing and getting too old, it's really the biggest issue with being a Wizard, oneday I will be too old and weak to even hold a glass of water, And I will have no children or grand children to help me, I have an obsession with suicide, the amount of time I spent thinking about it is so absurd given I am not even that pessimistic of a person.

Sorry the pic is too unrelated, I hope I made my point reach all of you

 No.296742

>>296737
Suicide for a Human is pretty much the best way to go, you decide when and how and you can finish all your unfinished business before you do it, say goodbye to whoever before stepping over to the other side. you can manage all that.

but realistically only very few people get this, most People die slow deaths over years from illness while still clinging to the idea they might heal again or People die in random accidents.
like only very few people get to leave on their terms.

 No.296743

it's just a cope. like those wagies that dream about escaping to some exotic place or whatever. you dream about finally escaping into nothingness, but it's never going to happen because life's defining feature is that's ironically always just bearable enough to not motivate you to act, in either direction.

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>>296743
I have seen news of middle schoolers who killed them selves over the stress caused by school exams or school bullying, but you have a bit of truth in your post, pic related, but i don't know how can you say that about life always being "bearable enough to not motivate us to act

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>>296742
Totally, most suicide attempts fail for a reason, it's why I made sure I know as much as possible about the method and all the dos and donts, so i can do it that it ends my life without it failing only to let me survive only to be kept alive vegetable or crippled



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 No.296558[Reply]

I want to kill myself efficiently without much pain, what's a good way to do this?
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 No.296698

>>296690
>who is able to contemplate, plan their death, and take things into their own hands when the day comes
Ironically I find that only chads/normies are able to kill themselves. They had a dopamine high their whole life and something goes wrong. They're suddenly sad and unhappy and choose suicide to stop feeling sad and unhappy.
But for someone who lives in pain and sadness their whole life, a real wizard, suicide seems meaningless.

 No.296703

>>296698
We do not have psychic powers or scrying orbs. We only notice suicide as participants within society because social connections and communications become severed. And the more connections are severed the more noticeable the suicide, e.g. Robin Williams. Deaths are as unequal as lives. Demographic study is where you would notice virgin suicide. If, for instance, the percentage of virgins over the age of 25 in the population falls far more sharply than the number of men who say they lost their virginity at or after the age of 25 could explain.

 No.296727

Kill yourself and birth a new man in the image of your values.

 No.296728

>>296703
If you google the main cause of death in autistic males (but not females), it is in the vicinity of 10-20x more than the general population.

 No.296739

gun, OBVIOUSLY
if not, sn
then theres a huge drop-off
if you at least have an apartment where you can do something uninterrupted then several methods come to mind
i dont, so my only options are train, drowning or jumping. I live too low, dont know how to drown myself(wont work without weighing yourself down properly) so all that's left is the most painful and messy train guillotine.



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 No.296722[Reply]

I've been sitting in my room all day with the blinds shut. It's not even like I feel particularly sad, just… nothing. I watch the world move on, people going about their lives, but it feels like I'm frozen in time, like I'm stuck watching a movie I can't interact with.

I tried reading, but the words just don't sink in. I thought about playing a game, but even that feels like too much effort. I just stare at my ceiling, wondering when this fog will lift—or if it even matters anymore.

Sometimes I envy normies. Not for their shallow lives, but for their ability to feel something. Anything. At least they don't just fade into the background.

I don't even know why I'm posting this. Maybe I'm just hoping someone out there gets it.

 No.296723

Different modes of dissociation. Staring into the void. Moving out. Go through hell. Become sleepy. Give up ambitions. Take the daily pill. Repeat. Oblivion.

 No.296726

maybe you shouldn't think that feeling like this is a problem that needs to be solved? and rather just calmly allow yourself to feel nothingness for as long as you need without self-reproach or guilt?



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 No.295867[Reply]

Why am I so pathetic? I don't even have it that bad, just slightly below average but still with all the tools to succeed and yet all I do is complain because there are others who have it better.

I live in perpetual regret because when I become aware of a problem instead of working on fixing it I hate and pity myself for having the kind of personality that would cause that problem. In my 20s I was making posts like "is it too late to …" and now in my 30s I feel like a fool for not doing anything back then but now again I am pitying myself and paralyzed by the reality of the wasted time I won't get back and the effects of aging with nothing to show for.

I feel like by now I've shown what kind of person I am and there is a very hard cap on what I can achieve. Any hope for change seems delusional.
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 No.296395

>>295867
The common denominator among wizards is that we are addicted to the internet.

Internet addiction is real and it is desensitizing your dopamine receptors. Like why the hell would our brain do anythign slightly difficult when, as far as it is concerned, it can get everything it needs from the internet?

Get the fuck off the internet and get your brain accustomed to the normal stimulation of the real world. If you dont have any other issues, you will find yourself moving towards actually improving your life over time.

 No.296396

>>296395
>The common denominator among wizards is that we are addicted to the internet.

>Internet addiction is real and it is desensitizing your dopamine receptors. Like why the hell would our brain do anythign slightly difficult when, as far as it is concerned, it can get everything it needs from the internet?

true

 No.296425

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>>296395
>If you dont have any other issues

 No.296435

>>296425
Kek. Real life issues are what brings them to internet in the first place. If real life was going well we wouldn't be here. But yeah one shouldn't ignore real life issues. Life for us men, especially a browncel like me is dealing with one issue and preparing for next 4 issues. Because only thing that keep me company are issues. Only thing life has is downs for me. Not a single up.

 No.296718

>>296435
>Because only thing that keep me company are issues.
Thats a fire line.



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 No.296637[Reply]

Hello, wizards all over the world. Its another from Siberian apprentice. This shitpost was written long ago, but I publish it now. I have always hear that atheists are brave guys because they dont believe in soul and a cool man on a sky. They dont rely on after death life and look into abbys confident. But I think another way. People who believe in God (I mean primarily christian God, though I have questions to another. May be talk next time) dont really understand meaning of eternity and transcendence. I think that soul concept is freakingly scare idea. No matter how big shit I was during my life. I dont deserve eternal, ETERNAL punishment. We all was brought to this world without our accept, its only about romantic shit in our parents heads (I really love my mom, I just dont respect her choise to born me). And I wish, if I decide to shot my head off, everything will end (if only ideas from my first post arent real). We are all in jail of life, and death could be a great escape. So I wish it is.
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 No.296668

>>296641
Can I barge in and say that God is quite literally nothingness? You might ask how something can come from nothing but the fact that we’re here at all in the first place proves that it’s possible. Many philosophers say that it’s not possible for nothing to exist and that something will always arise.

We must collectively put an end to this bad habit of personification. God is a “what,” not a “who”. All I’m asking now is that you make sure you don’t develop a survivorship bias when thinking about how fine-tuned the universe is.

 No.296669

>>296668

I want to further expand on this idea by bringing to your attention that nothingness or non-existence shares the same aspects as God (at least from monotheistic viewpoints).
It is eternal, meaning it has no beginning and no end. It is also infinite, which should be self-explanatory. It is limitless and unbound, and it paradoxically contains everything despite being nothing. Additionally, many religions, notably Christianity, state that any man who would view God’s face shall surely die. Think about this from a different perspective: you must be something to know anything at all, and to know nothingness (that unknowable thing¹) one must reduce oneself to nothing, therefore losing the ability to know anything.

¹It is human nature to fear the unknown, what lies beyond death (nothingness) is unknown and unknowable, therefore it frightens us despite being unknown.

God can be seen as an infinite chaos, and this answers the question as to how we got here, but now how that’s possible. Let me explain, if nothingness contains limitless potential, then anything can come from it. I suppose an infinite number of universes can arise from this infinite void but there will never be an infinite number of simultaneous universes (obviously).
Furthermore, my guess is that some inchoate particle, perhaps something as simple as a vibration, came from this void like a fragment (although this void can’t actually fragment), and then the singularity occurred… somehow getting us to where we are today. It is not an extensive or convoluted explanation, maybe not even one that makes sense, but it’s trying to make sense of it all.

God could still exist, but it wouldn’t necessarily be the Whole, rather a created entity that exists beyond our universe (time and space) but not on the same level as the Whole, therefore we’re met with a hierarchy of sorts. It’s all speculative so whatever.

Anyway… look around and realise we live in a simulation no matter what standpoint you take, existence is an artificiality. Non-existence is paradoxically reality and God and everything and more(?). Try to achieve moksha, I guess.

TLDR - From nothing we came and to nothing we shall return.

 No.296697

on that buu pack

 No.296702

I've always thought Dragon Ball villians are hilariously fucked up if you stop to think about them and what they might look like if they were real, especially Buu.

 No.296706

>>296702
Oh yeah Dragon Ball was gruesome for a kid who would analyze things too much. I remember Buu could turn people into chocolate, imagine that happening to you. Would you maintain your consciousness in that state? Could you feel someone eating you? The horror!



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 No.295702[Reply]

it is a nation of ungodly horror. it's just crime, satanic energy everywhere, corruption, fags, low IQ unread uneducated population, loose std carrying succubi, money worshipping society with no morals. need I go on? how do you not get depressed as an american. i would rather be chinese at this point, it's actually a much better functioning society than america not so shockingly. maybe america has a couple gems like california or washington state or new york, that's it, and they're all way more shit than they used to be. California used to be the shit
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 No.296616

>>296604
The only thing you can do is out-psycho the normies. Make them fear you.

 No.296617

>>296604
How do normies even flock to geek communities in the first place?

 No.296619

>>296617
entropy i guess

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 No.296675

Basically, being alive is depressing. Unless you are very intelligent and have charisma it is pretty much pointless. Just wasting time.



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 No.291724[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You always make threads of "I will never be pretty enough", "I will never have a job because I am ugly", "I am horrible :(". Everything related to physical appearance, and complexes. The truth is already unpleasant, and pathetic that men , and especially chaste men, give importance to something as trivial as appearance.
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 No.292785

>>292653
You have two legs, two hands, and a thinking brain, you can learn and work. You can be fine.

 No.294754

>>292548
Men and succubi are different, but our similarities are greater than our differences, so it is important to have empathy and understand why succubi care so much about their appearance, and know how this can affect the life of a succubus.

 No.296608

Ban, prohibit, forbid, discourage, dissuade succubist men & succubine men & heterosexual men & transsuccubi & transincubi & breastfeeders & chestfeeders & nipplefeeders & birthing humans & birthing persons from posting on this imageboard! Problems solved!

 No.296613

>>291724
>Everything related to physical appearance, and complexes.
Good looks has a positive halo effect on other aspects of a person.
Few are the ones who can be ugly, yet virtuous in other aspects.

 No.296671

>>294754
>so it is important to have empathy
Why? Why should I have any consideration at all for those who don't even consider me a fellow human being and literally wants me dead for the crime of existing as someone who isn't sexually attractive to them?


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