/dep/ - Depression

I want to take DRUGS

YES, I WANT TO TAKE DRUGS FORGET ABOUT ALL MY SADNESS AND BE HAPPY.

i need a new vice besides masturbation, junk food, drinking, and imageboards. i dont give a fuck if its bad for me. i like things that are bad for me. im not planning to live to an old age anyway

Im considering starting volunteer/charity work because helping humans gives humans dopamine. Anyone else on this line of thought?
Do wizzies help the poor and the ill?

What do you guys think of reincarnation? Of the possibility that existence might be sadistic enough to force us back into the game endlessly? I honestly would not put it past reality to do such a thing. Imagine reincarnating as an infant that chokes to death on his umbilical cord at birth. Or perhaps a dog being skinned alive by gooks before being thrown into a pot of scalding liquid. Maybe you'll end up as an oblivious rich person who is so protected from the world that he has no idea that such things even happen. I often wonder about such things. The sheer amount of torture technology that's been devised from the human mind is astounding. Maybe I'm just focusing too much on the negative? Look at all of the beauty humanity has achieved through artistic masterpiece and technology! What other species has managed to escape the floor of earth? I think this would be a cool topic for the /dep/ board to discuss, I like disturbing feelings. I want to see this thread crawling with horror and madness and unhappiness; make it reek like a death pit, wizards! I want to hurt some people!

Do you ever self-medicate depression through eating food?

I practically need chocolate, ice cream, pizza, candy bars, pastries, cake etc. daily or I can't sleep at all because my mood gets so low during the day.
The happiest I'm going to feel all day is 1-2 hours after eating, and during eating.

French fries and potato chips are also very soothing and improve the mood for a few hours. I do have to limit the eating to maybe 2000-2500kcal a day so I don't become obese.

At this point, I think eating is the only thing I look forward to in life. It's the only real thing giving me any joy anymore. Video games, movies etc. don't cut it anymore. I'm tired of them.

lost my father when i was 21 , live whit bedridden grandmother for decade , and just now my mother died ,i have noone,have no inheritance ,norelatives because i do not have bio parents im just picked from the streets just great, feels like Guts i cant conecnt to noone, feel odd,maybe im FREE now

i go to lidl today with the intention of using my 10€ coupoun. i use a calculator to ensure that i spend exactly 10€. once the items are scanned it comes out to 9,45€, the prices listed are not the same once scanned. i cant walk back and grab items to make it go above 10 because there is a huge line behind me.

this shit ruined my day. im on welfare i have to save every fucking penny that i can. i screamed my lungs out once i got home. why does literally nothing i do go right? everything fails, how is that possible? how?

Anything related to therapy cna go here >///<
Have you found therapy helpful at all and if so why and if not why.

It seems to me that a therapist can help you if you have some things you want to achieve or gain in life but for whatever reason you will not go for them and also therapy can help people learn how to manage and identify their feelings but people who are self aware can do this by reading a book instead.
general therapy seems centered on establishing yourself within the community socially and working so you can buy things you want but what can it do for people who dont want anything? is it so crazy to think that just as some people like X and others Y there are also people who dont enjoy life at all. Do you think there will ever be therapy that helps people let go of life and end it peacefully.

I mean I already know there’s a suicide thread but I needed quick answers/opinions from different wizards who may or may not obtain the necessary knowledge to guide me through my exiting plan involving the method of overdosing on a combination of prescription and non-prescription medications, DXM, and alcohol. I, know it’s the “pussiest” and least possible way of holding a chance of working-out but I’m in the third world, I do not have access to guns, fentanyl, heroin and most drugs that could actually make a legit effect with the aforementioned combination, but like I said I’m denied access to guns by country’s laws and I’m in a Muslim majority country where drugs are a strong taboo and require a huge freaking amount of connections with people who are already drug addicts and as you might have already guessed guys I’m a wizard or else I would’ve asked one of my connections to hook me up with a drug dealer right? However, I have access to trains and hanging, I’m too trained for hanging though it requires a vast amount of time to plan it in the right way at the right place&time and honestly I don’t want my parents and siblings to see my hanging corpse, a crooked out one on the ground would be far less of a horrible scene “imo”. And death by trains/cliffs/high-places causes a escalation of social media debate of religious people whether they’re Christians or Muslims that develops into a racial-debate about the copts being the natives of Egypt and islamic people being a bunch of colonizers (yeah I’m Egyptian) and of course the atheists take place and defend the suicidal person, saying it’s a human right and get into massive debates with the religious people. This happened with almost every person who died by heights and trains heres then his corpse was discovered later on and be dissected and classified as a suicide case, if you died by your hands here and you weren’t covered up and quickly buried by your parents/friends/relatives or whoever the fuck, your whole family’s members get fucked for life, especially in the neighborhood they live in. And for sure I want to avoid bringing any unnecessary additional burdens to my family, my death is of a big enough cause of remorse to them. So, as I’ve explained my options and situation, could you support me through this wizzies? I really cannot see no other place on the internet where I can find people who don’t think suicide is a taboo and is so shunned. All I have is, 120 pill of 0.5mg Xanax, 30 pill of 7.5 mg Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

Any of you use any drugs to cope with life and depression

I would be an addict but i don't have connections or many options to get drugs
>I would use uppers like adderal but that stuff turns me psychotic so i can only do downers

What would be a wizard drug, to me it seems like opium would fit, mdma would be something of a normie drug