/dep/ - Depression

My father is braindead who shits and pees all over and my mothers beats shit of him and hates us both lately she keeps saying we should have never been born funny enough she's the only one who give a fuck about us all other is vicious hyenas no one has any compassion for my mental health and this filthy feminist hellhole only cares about female suffering

>>303825
Nope. But I don't do it because my mom is pure evil and would probably use my death as an excuse to farm sympathy from her friends.

I don't care if they'd care but they probably would, though I'm not suicidal, my life isn't too bad right now

But yeah if I had to wage slave it'd probably kill me, wage slavery is unnatural, ideally I'd own my piece of land where I could grow crops and live off the land, it requires little effort

>>305579
>my parents never cared about me yet they will lie and say they do care that i'm gone. fucking evil

I … understand. My parents were kinda from the same field: they would provide me cool material stuff, yet the emotional side of the parenting was not too good.

>>305829
my parents idea of "parenting" was to constantly inflict these petty torments. I was just thinking the last day how unthinkable it is for me to want to hug my mom. I've long cut off all contact. my life was like a game of running away from gross people

>>305880
Would you elaborate on that a little? The technique I mean.

>yet personally if I would reflect the times in my life where I was thinking nonstop there are aspects of it that I miss like simply having an extensive coherent thought process and coming to a conclusion that seemed like the truth.

I tried writing about how we might diverge here, but I seem to fail at making a point. I hope I manage to get it across somehow.

I personally am not stuck on philosophical things where a truth or a semblance of it can be reached through reason. I'm stuck in mental loops related to decisions that need to be made in life to progress.
Every decision, every step you take has an opportunity cost. If your life is not really all that nice and you aren't all that capable, making the wrong ones is too costly.
Making no decision is also costly, but not as terrifying as making the wrong one.

Unfortunately if you are "traumatized" enough by your own history of incompetence you'll end up paralyzed whenever a decision needs to be made.
I'm stuck in a very zero sum / permanence mindset where I need to be sure every step is optimal before I take it.
Paralyzed because there are no such steps to take in my situation unfortunately.
I try to get out of it by just committing to something the second a sufficient impulse presents, like buying new equipment because the old one has rotted or failed etc., but often still end up regretting it, because the thing bought sucks despite months of research.

This applies to everything.
What career path to pick for a 30 year old exNEET with failing health? I can maybe finish one course in something if I put my all into it, but if I pick the wrong one and drop out for the 5th 6th or 7th time depending on how you count it I wont get another shot. I wont give myself another shot.

Decisions are hard and I envy people who can make one and stick to it because reality shows that most paths when walked long enough can bless you with success and satisfaction of some kind.
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>>305886
As a wiz from a country with free-but-red-tapey medical aid, I pretty much should start nagging for help NOW.

>>305907
Yeah better start now rather then when the pain becomes unbearable.
After all these years the only benefit I see in having socialized health care is that the private versions are well, not quite affordable, but not completely out of reach for those of meager means.
If you are in Eastern Europe you can just soft-bribe the doctors to get in faster and cheaper than going full private.

>>305911
Oh! I havee a spinal doctor here, who works both ways so… maybe…

>>305912
Yeah those are the ones that can "help" you most often.
Like you go to one of his private visits, pay with cash, no receipts or any papers for that and I got an MRI appointment for the public system in no time at 1/10 of the cost.
It's bullshit, but it's how the world works sadly.
I wish they didn't ban "gratitude money" or whatever you'd call it in English. Basically giving envelopes with cash to doctors to grease the wheels.
It used to be common public practice. Now you have to be a normie to navigate these situations properly. I struggle quite a bit with these unspoken things.

>>303766
thanks

>>299707
>Spend more time at the gym.
>Buy Bitcoin.

You do neither of those things.

This is another reason I want to die by train I hope at least one normie realises how evil they all fucking are but seeing gore for years i saw no empathy just them cheering for the triump of darwinism such is the filthy world

>>304170
Yes I do.

>>305869
No you don't (jk)

same. I was just the other day looking in the shop seeing one of those chocolate thingies "a hug for the most kind dad" and it made me incredibly sad I didn't have this kind of relationship with my parents where I would feel like I would want to show them little affections like that
I think about suicide everyday and I probably will do it soon

There is no happiness. No happy ending. No "making it". Even if I can have anything I want I don't know what to look forward to.

>>305891
idk about that. think about how we live in an industrial world. we're like cats locked in a flat. you know actually unless you sterilize your cat it'll go insane locked in the house. same with dogs for that matter. i think that's what's happening to people. you can't live like this unless you're castrated, but castration isn't an option is it. so yeah for us at least it's just suffering out there

I disagree only if dreamless sleep dreams are another form of torture designed by the filthy creator

>>305896
>idk about that. think about how we live in an industrial world. we're like cats locked in a flat. you know actually unless you sterilize your cat it'll go insane locked in the house. same with dogs for that matter. i think that's what's happening to people. you can't live like this unless you're castrated, but castration isn't an option is it. so yeah for us at least it's just suffering out there

I knew it.

>you can't live like this unless you're castrated, but castration isn't an option is it
It's not an option here because it's "untraditional".

>>305090
to steel my nuts, lol? anyway what does iron do? will it help me not feel like somebody's trying to crush my neck when anxiety hits? i'm fucked up enough that anxiety feels like a very physical thing

>>303176
Friendly reminder you body might not be able to absorb it from food or it might not be able to produce it by means of sunlight… both cases happened to me. After a study on vitamin D my doctor prescribed me pills of 5000 iu of vitamin D per day for four months. In the very first week those pills solved a problem that for almost two decades I thought it was normal: perpetual exhaustion. Nowadays I have more energy and don't even feel tired after working out. The downside of this is that I cannot blame fatigue for my lack of interest in developing my skills… that's a psychological issue no ammount of money will solve.

>>305097
Thank you for being with me.
See, I used to hear on how the lack of vitamin D ruins the mood for the Finnish people. I understand when a Saint-Petersburg guy lacks the money to buy some cod liver, but the Finns??? Thank you for explaining the need for proper meds-like vitamins D

Regards, OP




>>305097
>The downside of this is that I cannot blame fatigue for my lack of interest in developing my skills…

ugh? uh? Your job, mate? Your title?
Coulda help you a li'l bit at that I guess

If you work at some gov't job, you will feel empty a bit from the very nature of strict gov't jobs, "by the book" and stuff… If not, please tell so I could some looking up.

>that's a psychological issue no ammount of money will solve.
Ah, sometimes you just need some *edutaiment* videos that explain your things in fun manner rather than bold manner. Coulda ask a chatty for some fun channels to larn something *adjacent* to the skills you already have

>>305093
>to steel my nuts, lol?
:D

>anyway what does iron do?
hmmmmm… blood cells use Fe+ ion to contain, to "grab"/"hold" oxygen.

Less ferrum in your body means less Fe+ atoms are ready to parttake in your fresh blood generation.

Thing is, one's blood cells can only be used for mere weeks and then it gets recycled by your own body. The efficency is around 40%, if I remember it right.

Therefore, your body needs iron to make new blood as your body keeps destroying old blood cells with Fe atoms going down the drain.


>will it help me not feel like somebody's trying to crush my neck when anxiety hits? i'm fucked up enough that anxiety feels like a very physical thing

Hmmmmmm… Iron deficency and anxiety can be interlinked.

Some random words on top of that:
"inflatable neck collar", the thing's under 5$
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My family wants me to go full-on vegan for, roughly, a month. This has been happening, well, around every season.

I reckon going full vegan will turn me into a soywiz. I can't stand going vegan then going un-vegan then going vegan back and forth.

1) What do? Sneaky approach or clash with my family?

2) Can I claim such a diet - and the stress from the fact I've been *shunned into* taking it - has been ruining my mental health in case I request help and get some "how come a dude like you have problems? You're just faaaat".

>>305576
not much curious about it. lainchan users really are fucked up in the head and sure as hell their approach to life is often unwizardly.

>>305314
"You are very smart for your age!"

I remember a teacher telling me this once when I was 15. I still sob whehn I think about it.

>>305590
kek wizbro same story. academically i was one of the most successful students in the history of my school. look where it got me. haven't even a job

>>305576
Lainchan.org has been down two times so maybe you'll get to laugh pretty soon.

>>305576
Guess you can start cackling tomorrow: lain's site has been… well, lain. Probably just a hibernation. Bear style.

<It's not just you! lainchan.org is down.
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>>305554
Brace for impact!

>>305826
Yup! Grandpa Joe always could've brought a 3$ "tommy gun" toy to the party XD

>>305661
Yep. Just like faggot op and his obsession with lain, which is one of the many popular "aesthetics" among tiktok teenagers.

Funny tricks for OP to try.
From someone who tried to watch SEL when they aired it.

Try logging out a little bit by:

1)use some old smartphone as your offline device (Gutenberg Project books, old books, .pdf of Popular mechanics magazines off Archive.org)

AND

2)set your main smartphone, your online device into silent mode on schedule (Do Not Disturb mode on samsungs and alike allows scheduling auto-enable and auto-disable schedule in pairs, say 22:00-07:00)

3. Check your EMR levels in your room and test your EMR sensitivity. What if you are constantly being affected by your Wi-Fi router? Try putting it into another room…

4. Get a y3k-styled chromed mp3 player, maybe?

honestly, i never got phone addiction. the screen is small as fuck, it hurts my eyes trying to use it even for a few minutes. the general experience of "using" a phone is terrible. you cant type, your fingers fuck around with "apps" and half-baked gestures, and everything is constantly being deprecated to force you to buy a new phone.

>>305893
I think you may have far-sighted eyes. Which means you need reading glasses.

Regards, a near-sighted person who needs regular glasses.

>>304935
My diet for December has been:
more fish (good?)
more soda (bad?)
more beans, lentils cabbage (?????)
no meat
(inb4 soyboy) no soy also
no diary (seems to help?)
no spicy food also

>>304012
Ahahaha! Thanks for a hint, fren! Because I've been avoiding dairy products altogether for a month AND my burp problems have gone - even though my fizzy soda cola intake was awfully high yesterday. Havent it been for your hint, I wouldnt have noticed how smooth my last month was


regards, this very guy who've been complaining of being forced to lent - IT SEEMS TO DO TANGIBLE GOOD


i take i need to only eat dairy in moderation or… well,abstain from it,going full soiboi (im wizard-aged already anyway)

i have same sympthoms two years ago. punking, panic attacks, nauseous, shortness of breath, sinus tachycardia, feel like someone holding my throat. urine and blood test were normal and doc said so healty.

then i realized my throat get irritated especially in the morning. its due to silent reflux. im in diet for 3 months. i have eliminated cigarettes, coffee, and chocolate from my life.

>>304944
As someone who both drank coffee and ate chocolate before feeling irritated/mad/uneasy, I say:


Thank you, dear wizard friend. I will avoid eating big portion of chocolate in one go this year.

>>304936
>no diary

*No dairy [products]

selffix

You will probably live longer if you don't get treatment

>I won't dwell too long on the clinical descriptions -I don't fully get much of it either, still- I got diagnosed "early enough" >will start treatment very very soon but was given a prognosis of 1-2 years ,some wiggle room - or +

Legacy videos? Oxidative? What?
Sounds like trolling to me.

I would use your diagnosis to access palliative care and assisted dying

>I just need advice on things like; legacy videos (don't dvds\ electronics just rot after a while too, due to some oxidative thing?) ,managing Estate Sale whilst alive, any legal shenanigans, to which point to insist on spending time with relatives outside immediate family, etc

IDK ok? I think you pretty much should sell yer house (ASSOMING you're a wizard) and start coach surfing among your relatives filming videos and road trip stuff. And a YT channel maybe.

I am dying too. I am completely miserable and terrified. There is no point, whatever you do you are forced to confront this fear one day. Unless you are one of those strong people who can die or ctb just like that.

Alright, Silly Bean, time to shake off those mental stalkers and *actually* make some moves! Here's your mission, should you choose to accept it. This isn't just about "wooing a gal," it's about reclaiming your life and kicking those inner demons to the curb. Consider this your "Operation: Get Out of Your Head and Into the World" checklist.

Phase 1: Clear the Runway (Mental Prep)

* [ ] Acknowledge the Stalkers: They're there, you know it. But they DO NOT control you. Write down their "greatest hits" – the negative thoughts, the fears, the doubts. Then, next to each, write a *counter-statement* – a positive, empowering truth. (e.g., "I'm not worthy" becomes "I am worthy of connection and happiness.")
* [ ] Therapy (Highly Recommended): Seriously. Talking to a professional about your anxieties, insecurities, and those relentless mental stalkers can be a game-changer. Find a therapist you click with. This is your secret weapon.
* [ ] Daily Mindfulness/Meditation: Even 5 minutes a day of focused breathing or meditation. This trains your brain to be present and to *observe* your thoughts without getting swallowed by them.
* [ ] Identify Your Value: What are you *good* at? What are you *passionate* about? What qualities do you bring to the table? Make a list. Remind yourself *why* someone would want to be around you.
* [ ] Self-Compassion Practice: Treat yourself with the same kindness and understanding you would offer a friend. Make mistakes? That's okay. Don't beat yourself up.
* [ ] Reframe "Stalkers" as "Negative Self-Talk": This helps you to take control.

Phase 2: Build Your Foundation (Self-Improvement)

* [ ] Physical Health: Exercise regularly (even just walks!). Eat relatively healthy. Get enough sleep. This makes a HUGE difference in your mood and confidence.
* [ ] Social Skills Refresher: Read books, watch videos, or attend workshops on building relationships and conversation skills. Practice makes perfect.
* [ ] New Hobbies & Interests: Find things you genuinely *enjoy*. This makes you a more interesting person and provides opportunities to meet others who share your passions.
* [ ] Dress for Success (Or, at Least, "Not Sloth" Mode): Start paying attention to your appearance. Not to impress others, but to feel good about yourself. Clean clothes, a decent haircut… it can make a difference.
* [ ] Clear Social Media (Optional, but Might Help): Clean uPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>305781
>start recording me whenever I react

Use very high-pitched Hz sound that interferes with microphones yet cannot be caught by human ear. I thing there is a device for that.

>a recording of me
AIslop
Your defence line? As a wizard who prolly needs a lawyer over "defamation" at this point? AIslop may be one of the defence lines.

There is a site to slap a Sоrа АІ watermark on a vid.

Bonus points if you add a little АІ filter.

>>305781
Also, check if your given name or surname or both *sound* Jewish and if you have *some* facial features of a Jewish person - say, an Ashkenaz jolly fella. Might be a literal case of anti… well, you know.

>>305781
Sorry you're going trough this, my friendu. I've never been dogpiled or gang-stalked to that extent, but I'd strongly suggest you look into some professional psych help for this kind of situation.

> Back when I was dealt with bullying and some light stalking in school, it was all start by a "friend". I knew his whole family, his issues, his insecurities - and more importantly, his address and bank info. Since I was younger, I didn't know how to ask for help or get even. Honestly, I don't even care anymore, not looking for revenge or anything like that. That scumbag is a total junkie now and is about to get clip*ed by a dealer anyway, lol.

>>305843
Not lie: If I wanted to, I could scrape all ther data online - social midia, pics, inner circle, phone numbers, addresses, banking info - and dup it all on a dark forum. People play good money for that kind of doxx. I could even use AI to cook up some deep fakes to wreck their reputations. I'd start a burner page targeting the top studentes at my high-school and let them spread the word about the absolute filth these people do around town. Of course, I'd have to be smart about it and cover my tracks, 'cause this isn't just fake - it's life-ruining territory – I once wrote this topic in my diary. Hate makes u want to do horrible things. But putting human trash in ther place feels like a full time job.

> Just my story, though. I'm not inciting anything. Like I said: get some professional help. Stay safe out there.