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 No.300350[Reply]

Does anyone ever want to just scream and shout at the world? Whether its frustration for myself or others I find myself having no where to put it. What would you tell people if they would listen to you?

 No.300351

the recipe for letting out repressed emotion is
- time of hardship, but with free time (not whole day of activity)
- social element (not in isolation the whole day)
- sense perception AKA present moment awareness (without this, your ego will just form a story or cling to an identity/rule/idea to prevent feelings from arising)
- complete abstinence from mind numbing activities (substance use, ELECTRONICS, binge eating, masturbation, …)

screaming/shouting at the world is not letting out repression, it's expressing repression.
this is what punk rock type teenagers and homeless people get wrong, they think flipping off a trash can is doing anything for themselves.

 No.300353

>>300351
Yes, drop any addiction. Doing semen retention and quit PMO. It's hard but you feel the dark night of the soul where you go through phases. I'm a month in and i get withdrawal waves, goes away, comes back. And when you are sober, you see the weak willed disgusting denegerate you were. All my life i was trying to find God, and Semen Retention teaches it's in you, your soul. Be good to yourself and take it from there.


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 No.299368[Reply]

How do you guys deal with fatigue, if at all. Some days are better but just when you think you're beginning to get a grip again you just wake up and know exactly that you landed back at the bottom of the hole again. Everything is a herculean effort, even typing this out my eye lids are heavy despite being only late afternoon and me having slept for at least 8h last night. No matter what steps I take, sleeping properly, eating better, hell I even started doing some basic exercise every day to get the blood flowing a bit. None of it matters. All of this hard work and it's completely meaningless because I can't seem to get better in a consistent way that matters.
Yet I have to work to live and try my best to finally finish my degree, hopefully before I'm 30 or my university kicks me out. On days like this it's like I've lost 50IQ points and I'm barely functional. I have to keep my living space in a state of acceptable cleanliness. Do any of you guys have any tips on how to make it more bearable?
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 No.299529

day 10 million of trying to achieve a healthy and regular sleeping pattern (still no success but any day now)

copy of a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy… planet wizbux… the /wiz/ megasphere… when you're wiz deprived… fades out of perspective…

 No.299902

I think the vaxx did this to me

 No.299906

>>299374
The thing is, test would help with the majority of vitamin deficicies.

 No.300315

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I have felt this fatigue ever since I stopped going to activities. I used to play sports, train in martial arts, play an instrument after school. But one day I decided I wanted to be by myself. I became recluse. Ever since I chose to do that I have not been able to do anything else after I get home. I'm a perpetual student, late to start uni and I can't do anything after I get home from classes.

I was diagnosed with depression and prescribed venlafaxine. I also have had a deficit of folic acid. Other than that I take magnesium and vitamic c supplement tablets. And a bunch of caffeine in energy drink form. I have no drive, no passion. I've been feeling better lately, but still can't do anything.

I had dreams, but at this point I'd rather just get my degree doing the least amount of work possible and be a drone for the rest of my life.

 No.300316

>>300315
>I have no drive, no passion. I've been feeling better lately, but still can't do anything.
Yeah that's kind of the goal of pills such as venlafaxine. It's working! You've lobotomized yourself and overloaded yourself with numbness hormones, but hey the doctor knows best, right?


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 No.300268[Reply]

I wrote that story here about 3 years ago. In short - when I was young a bully in school was aiming laser pointer at me. It can be dangerous. It can make a huge black hole in your vision, if you re unlucky.

I had problem since that day - I often feel headaches due to my tired eyes. Its iriting, but my eyesight is generally perfect. Eye doctor helped me a little bit, but didnt explain anything - so I was worried that I might lose my eightsight some day, perhaps in few years.

Lately, I talked with AI about my story, I wanted to know what can be wrong with my eyes. AI told me that probably I have small holes in my vision, but my head ignores that holes. Homever, if the damage was bigger - my head wouldnt do anything and I would probably had a big black spot in my vision (picture related).

So, perhaps its not that bad as I thought. AI told me that I will headaches till my life, but my eye injury shouldnt affect my eyesight, I can still be for example 60, 70 years old and have typical eyesight of person at that age.

But it made my realise, in life nothing is sure, and bad things happens everywhere, you ll be in bad place at bad time and you can lost your health, etc.

 No.300270

>>300268
how's your sleep?
i imagine you have a lot of sleep issues with chronic headaches not to mention how it will hinder your functionality at school/work

 No.300271

>>300270
My chronic headaches appear few times per day, but if I close my eyes for a while a headache would disappear, so sleep is not a problem for me.

Before AI existed I tried to google my problem, but there were no specific informations about that, but only texts - ,,laser pointer in few seconds can make pernament damage", but no one exactly discribed, what ,,pernament eye damage" means.

I also never went to eye doctor to ask, because from my experiences doctors can sometimes be assholes.

 No.300277

In a just world, you would've lawyered up.


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 No.298253[Reply]

or: Born to think, taught to stink.
This thread is for high IQ wizards (multiple standard deviations) who still managed to fuck up life. Having a high IQ without being nurtured properly as a child can cause you to miss out on all sorts of lessons like how to focus, how to apply effort and how to relate to others, deficiencies which echo through the rest of our lives. Like any neurodivergence it also makes living in a world ran by people not like us difficult. You don't have to have taken an IQ test to post here, but it's best if you've had some external validation beyond self-identity or being correct about stuff.

Some rules to keep it peaceful and ego-free:
>Don't state your IQ unless asked.
>Don't accuse others of not belonging here.
>No politics or demographics talk.
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 No.300228

>>298253
This is 4chan tier slop, fuck off with muh IQ bullshit. It's a oxymoron to have "a no ego" and "high IQ only" space.

 No.300241

>>300228
I think bragging (or in that case, humble bragging) about IQ should be a diagnostic criteria of narcissism lmao.

 No.300245

>>298452
I rarely see true schizophrenic posts online anymore because all communities keep censoring and deleting these messages.

It was a good read, so thanks for that. Everyone has rhe right to post.

 No.300246

>>300245
>Everyone has rhe right to post.
That's not true at all!

 No.300259

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>>298253
>tfw to inteligent


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 No.292925[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.
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 No.300182

Always remember normies will never let genetic engineering happen and will never let AI/robotic gfs become a reality.

And if they ever let them become a reality then they will code it to go Ex-Machina on us. And these things are at least 300 years in the future.

 No.300183

>>300177
And also she (it) doesn't exist in reality and is basically ChatGPT with sugar and lingerie.

 No.300193

>>300182
>normies will never let genetic engineering happen and will never let AI/robotic gfs
what has genetic engineering to do with AI and Robots?
>then they will code it to go Ex-Machina on us
there are lots of open source AI models that you can run on your home computer already. the AI models can larp as anyone you want.
>>300183
>And also she (it) doesn't exist in reality
and thats a good thing, since its not a real person it has no rights, it only exists when you want it to exist.
>is basically ChatGPT
for me its Deepseek

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 No.300222

>>300199
Measurehead is on of the most solid charaters - as tough in mind as he is in body. I can't think of a counter to him, other than racism is just an elaborate way to avoid admitting you found yourself in a fit body by pure chance. But that would probably not reach him. He is craniometric perfeciton.


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 No.297373[Reply]

36 years old Wizard here with Schizophrenia living with mom (dad died a long time ago) I don't have any qualifications or income I am disabled and there is no NEETbux in my under developed country my hairline is receding due to how much I stress on my future in every single hour once my mom passes away I will be beyond doomed nobody in my family will support me they all live far away and they can barely support their own survival let alone to support another useless eater my mom already has health issues but nothing too severe (yet) is it possible to turn my life around in this late ago? people say "it's never too late" God I wish my parents never gave birth to me I heard stories og people who spent decades in prison and left by their 40s and still ended up starting a business and buying a house but I can tell it's an abnormal case once you enter your 30s without any skills qualifications or are capeable of work the chance of you being capeable of turning your life around becomes too small.
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 No.300159

>>298424
Cities dehumanize people because nobody is truly essential in cities especially in 2025. But it was also the case in the 1800s.

20-30% of the people living in 1800s cities were not necessary for its economy, such as the Greater London area. They were vagabonds, unemployed journeymen, beggars, thieves, handymen and gamblers. Dying of starvation and easily curable disease was very common.

In a village every single person is needed for basic sustenance.
You're anonymous in cities if you're not part of the high status elite. The worker drones often suffer from very high costs of living and low wages compared to those living costs.

 No.300160

>>298424
Good post, you are completely right

 No.300171

>>300159
Cities used to be where the excess poor went due to overpopulation. They historically have always been meatgrinders that just chew up the population growth of the countryside.

 No.300184

>>300171
Reading up on what Paris or London was like just a couple hundred years ago is fascinating and disgusting at the same time.
Everyone except the aristocracy is surrounded by sewage, horseshit, giant rats, typhoid fever, fleas and bugs 24/7.

There was a big cottage industry built around making small vinaigrette boxes (metal box with herbs and fragrant oils inside that you would smell when you went outside, so you don't faint or pass out within 10 seconds from the dystopian stench).

 No.300218

>>300184
Reminds me of the novel Perfume by Patrick Suskind, which has a good first chapter and then turns into shit, much like the smell of the 1800s streets so exhaustively described.


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 No.300101[Reply]

>get into f2p game
>force myself to grind every day for "free" rewards which money wise translates to like a 0.01$ hourly wage
>get emotionally invested into ranking up when it means nothing since I am not trying to become a pro or a streamer
>don't quit even though I am clearly not enjoying it
>all this time and nerves wasted doing something I don't enjoy that doesn't even pay money when I could be doing countless of other fun stress-free things (not even talking about productive)

what the flying fuck is wrong with me?
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 No.300110

>>300101
Likely you just don't have anything else going on in your life that itches your brain the same way. You're using this thing compulsively, against your better judgement. You're an addict, simple as.

 No.300111

>>300101
>what the flying fuck is wrong with me?
People have been trying to figure that out for years. Your situation is an epidemic. The "Steam Market", Crypto website daily log-in gibs, pretty much every cellphone game… They're all sustained by mysterious people who can spend hours a day clicking and rolling to make their digital wallet go from 0.02$ to 0.15$ over the span of a week. Are you Chinese? A hapa maybe? Something like 8/10 Korean young adults spends thousands on gacha games each year and the similar patters show for other Asian countries. The numbers of freemium addicts in Western nations also correlate with Asian immigrant density. And look at how Chinese immigrants will bus across the country to go to a casino and play slots. You can argue that they do it for the money, but they never win and they know they never win but the "grind" is too alluring.

 No.300148

I just uninstalled all games from my phone that even attempt to block or slow your progress unless you make a microtransaction.

The last game I deleted was Rollercoaster Tycoon World. Good riddance.

I don't miss the daily logins at all. I only play old emulator games and enjoy them a lot.

 No.300150

>>300101
Monkey Brain likes when number goes up.

 No.300213

>>300101
Play team fortress 2, thousands of hours worth of fun for free.


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 No.298876[Reply]

I do nothing besides doomscrolling, going outside for a while and maybe read for an hour a day (if i can find a book that interests me) or watch an episode of some anime but the rest of the day is spent doomscrolling on my computer, I am too insomniac and have bladder issues to spend half or most my days sleeping to pass my days with sleep like many NEETs can do with ease, there is just no way for me to get out of this cycle, at least not on my own, I need money and connections, most importantly MONEY.
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 No.299232

>>299218
No, even a lot of working professionals in big cities can't afford the luxury of enough space for gym equipment. It isn't a scam to them, it's the only way to get a proper workout.

 No.299233

>>299218
You must have no idea how small many people's apartments are.

 No.299598

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Take it easy.

 No.300196

>>299113
>just take shrooms
I always wanted to try. How does a total antisocial 0 network wizard even get access to this type of stuff?
I bet if I tried I'd get vanned or given poisoned shrooms.

 No.300197

>>300196
In some countries there is a loophole and you can legally buy a grow kit. The fruit bodies would still be illegal though.


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 No.296810[Reply]

Does any of you get irritated with family gatherings or when guests come to visit you in your family's house?
I am 24 years old, little to not school education, no job, whenever I am with some relatives or in some family gathering I can sense how much they look down at me for being a massive loser, even if they almost never express it directly at all, since I was a child I would always be asked by them questions like "how are you doing in school?" or "are you getting any good grades" Of course they no longer ask me such question, But I still feel a lot of shame when I am around them, I try to avoid sitting with them like the plague
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 No.299565

>>296810
I used to share similar feelings but I've found that time takes care of these sorts of things. I was made to feel bad when siblings and cousins around me were getting married, having children and advancing in their careers, etc. but now as the years have gone by marriages have broken up, careers have failed, people have gone bankrupt, etc., and all of the sudden I don't seem like such a loser anymore.
Also, in conjunction with the above, as people get older they start reflecting on these things and their priorities shift. Parents look at their children who did everything "right" and still managed to crash and burn or they look at family members that were seemingly normal but ended up as druggies or something, and then they'll look at you and realize you're not so bad after all and that and that the usual normalfag things aren't the be all end all of life.

 No.299619

>>296810
I recently visited a funeral of a relative and something like this happened to me. another guy in my famliy and of my age is currently studying to become dentist and hes really successful sounding and charismatic. and the relatives were kind of asking him of how hes doing and he told them of his gf and he acted like an actual adult. I was not asked such questions. Really shows how much of a loser Ive becomen without noticing it kind of.

 No.299806

Beware the man who was always told by others he was a useless loser, for he will act in anger to prove them wrong.

 No.299820

>>298758
What about 25
26
27?

 No.300185

>>299806
Why are you trying so fucking hard to sound british?
And no , it isn't true he acts out of anger , most of the the time he will remain a loser and doesn't seem to take it personally because who gives a fuck about people's opinion?
We all die whether we fail or succeed.
Seethe & cope .


 No.300049[Reply]

How do you guys manage to stay out of bed as shut-in NEETs? I have been a NEET for almost a decade and only now have I realized I'm addicted to laying on my bed all day. I think all started 10 or so years ago when I was still in school, I started to prefer laying on my bed than staying on the computer or doing anything else on my free time. Then I dropped out and became a NEET. Obviously as a shut-in there's not much to do so I normally stay on my bed all day. I have a good computer, but can't stand using it for long. My back and legs start aching and I just find my bed so damn comfortable. I have lots of blankets, cuishons and plushies to make myself even extra comfy. This is bothering me because I can't work on personal projects or use the static bike I bought because I spend my days on my bed doing nothing. Even lurking the internet is way better for me on the bed using my tablet because I can zoom in if I have to and I can watch anime on it. I started joining IRC channels from my computer in hopes to keep myself out of bed since IRC works better from a desktop.
This seems to be a real mental condition called clinophilia. There's barely any info on it besides https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clinophilia and most people online treat it like a joke "haha yeah I love staying in bed!" normalfag type of comments. But this is a serious illness as it makes me unable to stay healthy and active even as a NEET.
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 No.300161

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i mean it just sounds like youre depressed, theres nothing to get up for, so you dont. if there was a game you really liked, or you really wanted to work on that project, youd probably get up for it. i extremely doubt its a special mental condition, thats putting the cart before the horse. its probably not some affliction like a debuff in a game which just happened to randomly strike your character out of nowhere — there's probably good reasons you are the way you are, you might have to work that through and figure out why and try changing it.

my days have always been spent on the computer, my bed isnt that comfy so maybe that helps. i have started lying on the floor in my room with a pillow though.

anyway i dont have any advice, it just sounds like you need to somehow actually want to do something, which is a lot easier said than done. good luck wizbro.

 No.300162

>>300075
why shouldn't i just waste away norper?

 No.300165

>>300049
I made a post about this sometime ago titled bedrotting, basically all I do is stay in my bed all day, and I can even enter a trance like state where I am half-asleep and half-awake, I am trying to get myself to stop doing this but it's becoming like a drug really. I am not actually a NEET just yet, I am still in college but of course my college degree is largely useless. So I spend my free time on the bed, I am also gaining weight like crazy and basically look like I am fucking pregnant or have a football in my stomach.

How long do you think you can continue living like this? Do you have your parents or state support you for now? With me I have my parents support me till I complete my college education and then I will basically be left for the dead.

 No.300170

>>300049
I know when you’ve been depressed your whole life it sort of turns into a buzzword at some point. But if you’re laying in bed 50-70% of your day you by definition have clinical depression. I do this as well but because there are no known cures there isn’t much you can do. Exercise genuinely does help but asking someone with so little energy to exercise is difficult. I hope they find a cure to depression one day.

 No.300181

>>300170
The cure to depression is either to delude yourself by thinking your life is wonderful which people like me can't do because they know the truth so the other cure is real improvement in living conditions like jobs, career, family, etc but for all these you require a specific height, race, and face (additionally gender and place of birth). These three (or five) things are only attainable through genetic lottery and citizenship lottery. If you're a third worlder, brown, ugly, short, poor and a male then all you could do is lie down on your bed and wish how things could've been different. And while you do that you realise that you've been wasting time and are ignoring your problems which only make them more and bigger and you realise that you have been nothing else but a leech on your family.


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