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Anonymage 05/28/25 (Wed) 17:50:38 No.300854 [Reply]

I have no purpose at life. I just roam. I do this since I was born. Never said one day I'm going to do something. I'm waiting the moment I will say "fine thats' it, thats the day I'll do something with my life" but I know it will never come. I'm a trash

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Anonymage 10/24/25 (Fri) 12:16:16 No.303723

>>303709
"Witch house".

I'll post a link to a certain COUB channel to avoid elaborating by typing too much

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 06:42:12 No.303743

>>303723
https://coub.com/nightmarehouse17

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:45:04 No.303751

I see nothing wrong about this. Are you suffering from cold or hunger?

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 14:18:28 No.303761

>>303751
so
mucthis

are you sore? any chronic pains?

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 14:32:50 No.303763

>>303761
Yes. Wdym?

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Anonymage 09/04/25 (Thu) 14:16:06 No.302683 [Reply]

ОК, i just dont get it

My mother keeps calling me at my workplace over the fact my pants look "horrible", "off-putting", and other stuff

I am busting me arse here to earn some money to cover her expenses yet she would start a fucking opera scene over wrong type of pants I am wearing.

Ugh.

For years, I was believing I am an autistic debile with asexuality-like condition, now I realise it was me mum all along, teaching me to be nervous over this or that irrelevant detail here or there - stuff people would normally give no friks about

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Anonymage 10/23/25 (Thu) 06:53:53 No.303699

>>303697
You need to make very clear to her what she is and who she. And then, block her number, don't answer her, completely ignore everything by her, don't give her a bite because it's obvious she's an emotional vampire that lives through your suffering.

Anonymage 10/23/25 (Thu) 07:25:09 No.303700

>>303699
Thanks m8 - I WILL do it. Because at this point it is obvious it is not about me - she would shuffle my stuff in away I would never find shit, but if I have a bunch of tols lying around, she WOULD toss them at random location and she WOULD berate me for being messy and she WOULD insist what she did was keeping things in ORDER

Anonymage 10/23/25 (Thu) 09:10:28 No.303702

>>302720
>She's bored, selfish and immature.
>She's bored
Actually, that's quite a thing to say.
She DOES live a boring, no-new-stuff life.

* She has no working telly, to begin with.
** Her radio is b…ks tier, and her another radio is just lying around unplugged.
* She has a mirror lying around unhanged, and I pretty much should get myself busy hanging it.
* No DVD/VHS/Blu-Ray
* No modern lappy to watch YouTube. Besides, she is really backwards in terms of treating Internet as a lair of liars/trolls/dimwits/haxxors; so her means of enjoying da Internet are limited also.
* Her apartments is hoarded with fiction books yet she doesn't seem to have much of modern fiction in her disposal.

All while she is a "vampire" on my vibes/energy; she … *could* use several thumb drives full of free stuff.

And fix her the better radio. I mean, a nice shelf to keep her radio atop her kitchen table, yes.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:45:55 No.303752

Why are you not neeting, loser? Getting played at by boomers …

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 14:17:38 No.303760

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>>303752
No, my country has no gibs for most neets
and I don't have a certificate in schizophrenia

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Chronically online and chronically alone Anonymage 06/17/25 (Tue) 02:46:22 No.301325 [Reply]

>Join discord server
>Too nervous to talk to anyone and make friends
>Become a lurker and feel sad when I see others make connections and friends
>end up leaving the server

Any tips to help stop this dilemma?

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Anonymage 09/12/25 (Fri) 14:12:04 No.302834

>>302454
I can already see a world of rogue AIs roaming the Net

Anonymage 09/12/25 (Fri) 14:15:45 No.302836

>>302459
AI makes a decent thera-help-helper tbqh

Anonymage 09/12/25 (Fri) 22:44:09 No.302838

>>301325
>make friends on discord
plz don't, discord is filled with groomers, powertripping mods and the worst kind of people.
You are better off just trying to join some hobby club. Don't worry, you might share more in common with people from DnD clubs than you think.

Anonymage 09/13/25 (Sat) 22:15:17 No.302846

>>301325
>Too nervous to talk to anyone
This is the dilemma. It has nothing to do with discord. You have to get over this first. Just do baptism by fire and go against all your instincts that tell you to be withdrawn. It's difficult but you gotta do it. Just as an example, my situation went like this:

>randomly playing tf2
>get a pm from someone who thought I had a funny username
>decide not to ignore him, larp as a normalnigger and make jokes I thought were unfunny but he liked them
>asks me to dm him on discord
>download discord and make account
>continue larping as a normalnigger, asking questions and being sincere even if I didn't really care at that point
>get invited to discord clan of like 5 people
>kinda nervous but fuck it can't back out now
>say hello, other guy introduces me to the group
>theyre all italian
>guy who introduced me has to leave, now alone with 4 strangers, very nervous now
>they are all very friendly and open, seem genuinely interested in meeting me
>ask them questions and shit too
>now they're all glad to talk to me when I appear
>no longer have to larp

It's just luck really, and I'll readily admit that I got lucky, but you have to take what life gives you. If I hadn't randomly decided to be outgoing and put in some effort I now wouldn't have 5 italians to yell at me whenever I tell them about my woes. Since you're desperate for normalfag things like friendship, you're gonna have to be a bit of a normalfag first. Fake it till you make it I guess?

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 14:09:33 No.303759

Stop chasing normalretards and embrace the void. Friends are found, not made, what you see in them as "building" relationships is merely the display of already preset compatability between them. You must embrace the solitude and make it your home. Give no excuses, be weird and avoid whatever situation of stress you might fall into, do not try to keep up with them.

Do not chase. Go there, cause some havoc and get away with it. See them for what they are, a poison to you.

Or is it that you might take pleasure by what they say? Of course not, you just have this shithole "need" for fitting in. But that is not the way, no matter what logic says.

Rather get inside the server and judge the retarded words of some of them. Being critic boosted my mood highly better than any approval received by normies. Imagining such conversations as sand castles to be destroyed.

Or rather reject the whole situation. When something is meant for you, no effort is felt, no struggle nor anxiety for fulfulling roles you are not made to fulfill. Learn where you really belong and avoid everything else.

Stop selling yourself around like a retard. No excuses.

My lvl is 32 btw.

I'm tired Anonymage 06/04/25 (Wed) 11:20:42 No.301044 [Reply]

I'm nervous because I've tried so many times and it never worked.

I recently worked alone on the backend of a course project, barely sleeping and also helping with the frontend. Before the deadline, my hands were shaking from anxiety and lack of sleep, which made my stuttering worse. Still, I finished the project (ASP.NET + Angular) and got 11 out of 12 points - almost a perfect score.

But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs, creating the backend and connecting everything via API. After all this, I was given even more assignments, and now I can't focus on my own projects. Everyone acts like they know what I should do, but I want to do what I want. I have a few personal projects, but they never moved beyond testing.

What frustrates me the most is the uncertainty - I never know if I will succeed. The chances of failure seem huge. The military pressure makes it worse - if I do nothing, I am sent to war (death sentence), or thrown out on the street, or harshly judged.

Thoughts of suicide used to come a few times a year; now it is almost every day. I do not want to live like this. I am too weak mentally to die, but I feel like I am just existing without hope. On top of that, I am burdened by old wounds and a burning desire to take revenge for all the humiliations I have suffered.

Also, I stutter. Most people don’t really care about it and just ignore it, which is actually good. But a few still mock me, including relatives, saying things like, “If you don’t like it, don’t stutter, or it’s embarrassing for me.”

Anonymage 06/04/25 (Wed) 11:30:51 No.301045

>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs
Humanity values beauty more than it values useless programming lines. Should have been an artist.

Anonymage 08/10/25 (Sun) 02:45:23 No.302141

It's within your own mental power to remove these pressures.
You sound very young.
You're too caught up in the stress of school.
Remove yourself from the environment that is causing you all this pain, if only for a week or two, and hereafter re-affirm to yourself that you are more than what other people think of you. And in re-affirming this, make sure you really understand what you are inwardly saying.
Wrongly receiving a lower grade, not advancing in a given project, stuttering, etc – are all bothersome things surely, but they are in nowise great enough to warrant suicidal thinking.
Remember that you have things many many other people don't:
1. you are young
2. you are healthy (apart from stuttering, which really doesn't even qualify as a sickness and can also be bettered)
3. you are smart
4. you have a safe place to sleep
5. (in conclusion) you have no reason to feel the way you are feeling.

Anonymage 08/21/25 (Thu) 15:42:58 No.302356

>having a job
There's your problem.

Anonymage 09/16/25 (Tue) 07:43:51 No.302895

>>301044
>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs, creating the backend and connecting everything via API. After all this, I was given even more assignments, and now I can't focus on my own projects. Everyone acts like they know what I should do, but I want to do what I want. I have a few personal projects, but they never moved beyond testing.

>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover

He's probably "full-on assburger" about design too - don't waste your nerves on him. His "beautiful" cover probably also involves avoiding bullshit features with un-intuitive names - shit youll find in mediocre AIMP4 skins let alone wonky websites.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 14:01:55 No.303758

You following the treaded path which can not only let you down but also drain you along they way.

Learn Human Design, you bunch of noobs. Learn why whatever shit you are doing now will never work while your bodies cry it even if things make sense the opposite way in your thoughts.

I stopped applying for wagecuck holes and I hate not having done it from the very start. How is it that I am anxious only when I seek "a future" as a wagecuck, but totally smooth while I neet?

Suck the world dry. They deserve it.

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Neurotypicals said I'm too quiet and want to fire me Anonymage 08/04/25 (Mon) 22:56:29 No.302042 [Reply]

I literally got top employee performance of the year two times in a row for exemplary performanceby corporate (not to mention I do unpaid overtime)

And yet because I don't participate in their coffee room gossip and office bullshit (mind you these people are about 20% as productive as me) they want me to lose my job because I don't "match the energy of the community".

Do I just have to suck it up and kms, before I become homeless? Since without a salary that's going to be within 12 months.

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Anonymage 09/27/25 (Sat) 18:48:29 No.303127

>>302055
Fries in the bag

Anonymage 09/27/25 (Sat) 20:52:57 No.303128

>>303123
Well I'm in Tennessee and employers don't give a shit about you even with these awards and treat you as disposable unless you're their family member.
-OP

Anonymage 09/28/25 (Sun) 02:06:28 No.303129

>>303128
so much for southern hospitality

Anonymage 09/29/25 (Mon) 10:45:08 No.303159

>>303128
Sounds like Tennessee people are "blokes", still holding to that settler mentality of trusting people from their "family" and treating people outside of the "family" in crew's disposable way.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:56:01 No.303757

Let them do it. Do not suck the dick of mental exhaustion.

You might break all the same, they might hate you even more for your cowardice, remember they are irrational beasts

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Anonymage 06/11/25 (Wed) 02:12:22 No.301194 [Reply]

I'm in my 30s. People I went to school with and family friends are married, have high paying careers and are healthy. I got the advantages of parents, an education and the first world and high performing peers and I still fumbled it all.

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Anonymage 10/03/25 (Fri) 22:54:18 No.303284

r/inherentism helps with this feel.

Anonymage 10/04/25 (Sat) 20:11:09 No.303303

>>302593
A new Ferrari SF90 is 800k these days. Aint nobody leasing or financing one. We'd be talking 10-15k monthly payments.

Driving one means the person is filthy rich and bought it with cash.

Anonymage 10/06/25 (Mon) 05:39:47 No.303315

>>303303
Not him, but I've known people with oil rig money that have absolutely crashed down financially after the oil rig gets mothballed.

Normies are unfathomably stupid with money.

Anonymage 10/06/25 (Mon) 08:07:05 No.303321

>>303303
>wtf is renting a car

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:52:56 No.303756

Strategy and authority. Disregard any other inner compass.

Learn Human Design, learn the way you betrayed yourself all these years

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Anonymage 09/03/25 (Wed) 20:10:21 No.302665 [Reply]

had a schizophrenic crisis 6 years ago. because of that I lost 6 years of my life and also the second part of my youth. this will never come back and it just ruined my life. there's nothing I can do but be sad about that and cope.
I lost my ability to enjoy things and starting new things. I also lost good years of maybe school or training I could have done and get a job, but now all I can wish now is to have a bad job because it is all what I deserve.
in two years I'll be a wizard and all my dreams have been crushed by the schizophrenic happening.
all these years, wasted and will never comeback. of course some of you may have it worse but to me this happening crushed my soul and made me more depressed than before.

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Anonymage 10/13/25 (Mon) 16:01:25 No.303553

>>302701
shit

i had a similar problem with college:

years = spent
diploma = haha not for wizards, for sociophages only (they would coordinate the student-related stuff in one and only CHAT full of various memery and unrelated discussions, VERY DISTRACTING)

Anonymage 10/13/25 (Mon) 16:03:46 No.303554

>>303553
and the worst thing is, me mum is also a massive SOCIAL person, so every time I was bringing up the fact I hate it, she was like "silly bear, you're making things up" as if i am some half-healted LLM and not an actual living person.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:48:49 No.303753

A man solved schizophrenia by having a brain tumor out. An old succubus also stopped it by leaving cereals away from diet.

What have you done this far against it?

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:49:38 No.303754

>>303553
It does not matter. They are useless and I should have dropped by 13 yrs old. Without fear.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:50:17 No.303755

>>303554
Then ghost her and go the way your mind needs you to go. Take care of energy and fuck anything else.

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Autism Anonymage 08/27/25 (Wed) 17:55:27 No.302510 [Reply]

I fucking loathe being autistic, I fucking hate how I can have articulate thoughts in my head yet can only muster and spew out the same few fucking phrases irl because I’m caught off guard and don’t know what to say

I hate how pathetic I am, I’m so fucking clumsy, my hand coordination is awful. Im always dropping shit which only makes me look like more of a retard

Most of all I hate the way other people look at me, there two “looks” I get from people. The first is the pitiful one. They see how pathetic I am, how socially inept, awkward and harmless I am and take pity on me like they would with a dementia patient. The other “look” is the hateful/judgmental one. They assume due to my awkwardness, my uncanny demeanour, ugly face and lack of height that I’m some kind of freak/someone to be suspicious of. They look at me like I’m some kind of sex pest/serial killer when all I’m doing is just existing

I put in the effort, I workout every day, I eat well, I keep good hygiene, I try, lord knows I fucking try, but I have to ask what’s the point? It won’t change anything. I can’t cure this awful plague of the mind I was born with, I’ll never be accepted or even tolerated by normies so why make an effort? Why try in life and work hard when I don’t even get the slightest bit of respect from the people around me? Part of me wants to just stay in my room stuffing my face with junk food and playing vidya all day but if I did that I’d only be more miserable.

Any other wizards have this condition? If so how do you cope with it?

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Anonymage 10/20/25 (Mon) 21:27:02 No.303672

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>>303622
False. Low functioning autists are specifically at risk of brainwashing, someone forcing them to become trans etc.

Google the overlap between autism and transsexuality. It is significant. The vast majority of autists are low IQ and not capable of critical thinking.

Far right extremists, trannie, frustrated gamers throwing around terroristic threats - all low functioning autists.

Only high functioning autists are immune to brainwash.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/36996732/

Anonymage 10/23/25 (Thu) 12:03:45 No.303710

>>303635
What country are you living?

Anonymage 10/24/25 (Fri) 16:31:41 No.303726

>>302510
How can I know if I actually have this or am just misdiagnosing myself? Everything the OP said applies to me. I can't talk normally even to my family members and fuck eye contact. However I don't know if I'm just like this or if it's because I have spent so long isolated from other people that I became this way.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 08:20:10 No.303748

>>303726
Your shut-in life makes you less social and more focused on own stuff

This focus make you too focused on "your own world"

so whenever another person throws a question to you, you are likely to go meltdown-like because your little world has been just sapped.

Neuroplasticity can make wonders but it can also be a nightmare if you just seek cozy comfy life.

Had I been full of b-coins, I would probably be a massive awootist now.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:44:01 No.303750

Change your environment. Isolate.

I really hate my body Anonymage 10/25/25 (Sat) 05:33:44 No.303730 [Reply]

The tittle, literally I can't find comfortable clothes, I hate be forced by society to dress with blue jeans, it fit me horrible, i never feel good seeing myselt in a mirror, is ok you can be shit people with me. You can't fuck me more…

Anonymage 10/25/25 (Sat) 05:40:40 No.303731

If you don’t like blue jeans you could wear pajama pants or sweatpants. Nobody’s forcing you not to wear sweat pants.

Anonymage 10/25/25 (Sat) 08:45:56 No.303732

You can get sweatpants that look like blue jeans

Anonymage 10/25/25 (Sat) 15:06:42 No.303733

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I stopped wearing jeans and went with color pants the hipsters used to wear in the 2010's. More casual than khakis and softer material than jeans after some washes. Most come in slims though so I look a little like Gru.

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>>303733
Smart move, I also weak pants that aren't jeans these days.

Also, autumn hurdle. I was chilling too hard yesterday and now a muscle in my shoulder/back boundary area is sore. It doesn't feel too nice. AI says to watch out if it's gonna stay, so I worry a little bit.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 07:08:08 No.303746

>>303733
>Also, autumn hurdle. I was chilling too hard yesterday and now a muscle in my shoulder/back boundary area is sore. It doesn't feel too nice. AI says to watch out if it's gonna stay, so I worry a little bit.

Sorry for thread hijacking, just wanted to say I have some pants recommend-s.

Linen pants.

If you need something less sweaty than jeans (which were invented in San Fran', mind you! Dry climate near San Andreas, mind you) and something more humidity-friendly, yet worker-fashionable - look up =="linen pants"==

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Anonymage 06/14/25 (Sat) 08:11:23 No.301262 [Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.

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Anonymage 07/23/25 (Wed) 07:16:00 No.301848

>>301789
This was all true except now at my parents place I have an awesome bed

And it is dark and quiet enough here.

It's way better.

But.

My boss is back from leave and making me feel like shit again.
This job has rare qualities: remote, low effort, high pay, low interaction, secure, and prestigious. I’d be throwing away a dream job.

As for thinking I need to quit to focus on therapy or medication: that’s not true. When I was not working, I found I don't get healthier. I don’t eat better, exercise more, or feel less anxious. I just stress about different things — including future jobs, financial security, family and community perception and relationship prospects as a result of my job.
i am actually more productive in ny life outside work when I've worked that day it seems or worked during weekday if it's weekend, so not only a mental health boost but productivity.

That said, if the working conditions are too harsh for me, I still have to quit if I can't find a resolution, whatever the consequences.

The meds (I'm OP) are still keeping me from feeling too suicidal tho. Worth it. Still depressed tho.

Anonymage 07/29/25 (Tue) 04:59:36 No.301903

hold on

so you used to consume SSRIs…

…without consuming serotonin precursors?

Well… You could use some 10$ box of L-carnitine

also, try fixing your diet (how? See "Dr. Berg" channel)

Anonymage 07/29/25 (Tue) 05:01:43 No.301904

>>301848
ooh.

glad to hear the "better" part, comrade

I used to be somewhere in the /dep/ zone too. Never showed up at local schrink's since my maternal brother is a certified schizo (so they would pretty much misdiagnose me as yet another schizo as well)

Anonymage 07/29/25 (Tue) 05:03:32 No.301905

>>301848
>My boss is back from leave and making me feel like shit again.

I wonder if you and your boss have different ethnicities, so you pretty much could try and "fake it till you make it" to be into boss' culture?

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 06:43:56 No.303744

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OP, how are you? OP, come in. Your thread was at the brink of sinking!

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