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 No.301194[Reply]

I'm in my 30s. People I went to school with and family friends are married, have high paying careers and are healthy. I got the advantages of parents, an education and the first world and high performing peers and I still fumbled it all.

 No.301195

It's a bad roll. I had to roll at least a 2 to at least be normal and I rolled a 1. Critical failure.

 No.301200

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>>301194
Not a first worlder, but a guy who I went to Uni with is now in another country and already bought his own apartment years ago, last time I checked on him he was progressing in his career meanwhile I am still not even at square one, He was just luckier than I because his father lived in a better country and managed to find him a job through connections, he barely studied or attended classes regularly or anything.

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>>301194
I know some people like that who 'made' it too. One is an old friend from elementary school. I almost never see him anymore but we live in a small town so sometimes we still talk. He is 26, married his high school gf a few years ago, they have an apartment they own and three cats. He's not even in a super fancy career, he just started working after finishing 10th grade and that's why he's basically set now.
The other guy I met in high school and he was kind of a Chad unironically. Not necessarily god like looks but probably a 7 or 8. Most of all it was the way he carried himself and acted, it was always like he was in complete control. He was also top of the class and really industrious and in the time it has taken me to get halfway through my Bachelors he is almost finishing up his Masters and even doing a semester abroad in Japan.
It is what it is. I have my own issues that held me back and I'm working on it. I just have to accept that I will always lag behind most people in terms of socially expected milestones. But then again, I already knew a decade ago that I would become a wizard and with every passing year I come closer to it. Some of us are just a little too abnormal to function well in society. We just have to try to get by regardless.

 No.301222

>>301208
>>301194
we whiped out our chances, it may be CLOSELY too late



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 No.301096[Reply]

I know it's pointless for me to even think about what if I was born white and in the first world as there is nothing I can do to change it. But I have these thoughts frequently, just maladaptively daydreaming constantly how good life would have been if I was white.

Yes, there are problem in white countries like that of healthcare and loneliness as white people do not like families, I think. As a result of that I think a lot of them end up being very lonely. The schooling system is rough and has a lot of bullying as well. And then there is DEI which is not good.

Still though, I wish I was born white and in the first world, possibly sometime before mass migration and everything but even now, as the governments in first world at least pretend to care about you, at least pretend to offer neetbuxx, at least you get a minimum wagie job, as miserable as that would make you, at least you would have a job.

But in the third world, holy shit, you can't even make 100USD a month, which is just not liveable. Like I have heard that parents kick out kids in America, Western Europe, and Oceania when they turn 18, but I have heard so many stories of these kids at least managing to survive and living paycheque to paycheque which I am sure is hard to manage even in the first world. But at least you have some hope.

I have never heard of any success story of a kid being kicked out in the third world, nearly all of them die when they are kicked out.

I am probably mentally ill or maybe it's a coping mechanism that I have where I just keep on imagining my life as a white person and as a first worlder. I am about to be kicked out of my house in third world and I am already imagining worst case scenarios like dying of rabies on the side of a street after getting bit by stray animals, having my hand chopped off and forced to become a part of a begging ring, etc.

Let me know if you guys know of some online jobs that I can do which pay something. But then again it's probably retarded to ask for online jobs when I have no real skills. And whatever skills I have ChatGPT is probably better than me at it.
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 No.301124

>>301123
Are you a third worlder? Go to any shady/shitty job offers website and look up for vacations like "chat moderator," "dating website moderator," "translator for international dating service" and the like.
They will ask some basic question and then start teaching you the ropes.
It's semi-legil since you are scamming people basically, but don't worry, it's safe.
You will start right away under the watch of your manager and then you will do it solo.
If you don't like the job, you can just quit right away and stop contacting them. Again, no strings attached.
But if you go balls deep, wait jntil your first payment atleast.
You can work as many or as little hours as you want, so get the hang of how much you can work in one day.
Depending on your timezone, you might need to work at nights. You will work mostly when it's daytime in USA.

 No.301126

>>301124
Yes, I am a third worlder. I have applied to a few sites including those which looked too good to be true. All of them were kinda shady. Any precautions or OPSEC, I should keep in mind or anything?

 No.301127

>>301122
when i joined an agency they were using infloww to pay me but they blocked my account i worked for a week and i never got my pay but i did get 5% commission so maybe op can get a legit gig but i don't know where you can find a legit gig

 No.301128

>>301126
Just don't give them your credit card info.
I was only asked to show my passport on camera and that's all.
I guess it depends on the company, I worked at one out of thousands out there.
Just don't be a retard and overshare your private info.

 No.301134

>>301128
I just wanna say thank you so much wizanon for helping me. You have no idea how much I truly appreciate it especially in times like these. I have filled like 13 forms right now which only required my email and my name. I am a bit hesitant to fill anonymous Google forms on shady websites which require my birth date and phone number though.



 No.300972[Reply]

Is there any way to do the whole noose thing but ensure I don't end up just brain damaged alive or suffering too much from it? Trying to write a first person fictional story

I'm too stupid to figure out how to get pills and combo them
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 No.301067

religions are great at helping you overcome self concern.
they can help you blow your head wide open.
you need your head blown wide open.
afterwards, you can do what you want.

you will be able to tell when your head has been blown open, because afterward, you don't 'suffer' anymore. you'll have painful experiences still, but you wont cling to stuff.

after that, life is your canvas.

 No.301097

don't do it

 No.301103

>>301067
DO I need my head blown wide open?
WILL I not suffer?

 No.301104

>>301103
good questions

 No.301105

>>301067
You shouldn't go to religion to find freedom from suffering. Blessed are those who mourn, after all.



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 No.300443[Reply]

I am too fatigued for hobbies.

I work from my bed.

I do errands in my spare time.

Life is bad.
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 No.300736

>>300666
I can't say who I work for but I'm an middle manager executive. I am autistic and in my country because of disability discrimination laws they have to let me work from home or whatever other adjustments I if I need that unless the job can't be done that way (e.g. if I was a carpenter)

Move part time then take an extended career break, switch to an easy job and live low cost. Maybe that's the way

 No.300742

>>300735
It's a funny story. I was having chest pains and one day I promised to God I'd quit if he he stopped the chest pains in that moment, it did and I took that as a clear sign from God and it was easy as hell because I believed God wanted me to quit. Which taught me a valuable lesson, it's not even important if it was God or not, faith made it super fucking easy, you need faith either in yourself or some higher power, faith will make quitting easy, faith can make anything easy

 No.300786

>>300742
this. motivation is overrated. confidence, not arrogance, is key.

well done anon on quitting. hope your life goes well.

 No.300793

>>300742
But then there's millions of rules and sacraments in the bible that overwhelm me and differences in their interpretation

Instead of complaining that the rosebush is full of thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses, they say. But if I just feel a vague faithfulness to a monotheistic god with a personal relationship and no theology then asking god to do things only seems to work a fraction of the times for me

 No.301042

>>300742
This is why I quit, or atleast heavily cut back on my alcohol consumption. If it just acted like a heart attack one day I'd continue drinking until I died around the 45~55 mark, but at only 31 I had extreme abdomin pain and several other issues all related to my drinking and my doctor said it's only mild damage, it would get far worse and potentially stay like this for decades. So I got better



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 No.301018[Reply]

Do you think babies are happy? They seem to me to be the one beings that I can't hate. Disgusting, yes, but they can't help it. They have done no wrong and are victims of culture.

Some sure, probably have bad personalities and no empathy. But, when I see a cute baby, it kind of softens my vulnerability. It doesn't happen nowadays maybe because I'm ugly but once upon a time babies would sometimes look at me in public, and smile or something. It's such pure, safe validation. I know they're not wanting to hurt me, or mocking me. It's just a innocent human connection where I'm hopefully making them feel safe.

It's sad I won't be in a position to have a baby on my own but also yeah I can't look after myself let alone a baby so it would be hell.

 No.301019

They are a blood sacrifice to bound yourself and your kin to Saturn. Time eternal. They are also pretty potent in rituals (abortion, child abuse,etc) to elevate yourself to the stars. Basically they are the path to ascension . True detective shows the villain doing absolutely disgusting things to escape the loop and become something like a time demon. Children are the currency to break free. Your own children is a wound so deep you break yourself and reality. So when i see babies, i see the price, the promise and the pain.



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 No.297839[Reply]

anyone else not know what theyre gonna do with their future? i had a job at 21 in an amazon facility for about a month, but i lost it because my dad stopped driving me and i had to much anxiety to get myself there. ive been a NEET ever since i dropped out of middle school other than that i have no idea what im gonna do. most days i dont eat because im to anxious to go outside and where i live doesnt help, my dad uses our house as a flophouse for his bum friends to play loud shitty guitar music. i think my future is fucked, it might be better if i spared myself the suffering and committed suicide but i dont have the will to do it, just like i dont have the will to do anything else which is why im in this situation.
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 No.299139

>>297839
I do not even care anymore. Splenic authority, you see.

 No.299140

>>298926
>>298927
>Yeah but for me AI & robotics is the reason
Not a single mention against taxes against land. Huh.
>Whats the point of even trying anything if I already know that humanity will be stripped of its freedoms & autonomy
It always was this way. At such point that you do not even want to live on your own in the countryside or apart from cities, but rather begging for slave place amongst so many other cattle.

 No.300970

I have bitcoin

 No.300971

I'm gonna make music

 No.300979

>>300971
do not make music! do not listen to music either, the sensation feeds your ego

become a soulless NPC
embrace living on autopilot like cattle
chew your cud



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 No.300922[Reply]

ambiguous grief for the world wide web // proactively feeling guilt for my contribution to e-deforestation

 No.300924

cuttting of your my dick // taking hormone pills // trying to be the sad anime succubus i believe that I am

 No.300938

dont engage in the algorithm and everyone around you will be retarded while youre still just normal its based

 No.300956

say no to e-pollution



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 No.300723[Reply]

My mother had a hemorrhagic stroke yesterday afternoon. She was lying on her bed when I found her, completely out of it, making pained noises and wasn't able to even speak properly. When she could, she made mention of a really bad headache. Had to call the ambulance and everything, they didn't seem to know what it was at first. So she was taken to the hospital, had a scan done since I'd mentioned she had a history of strokes. They only knew for certain what it was when they scanned her head, and immediately started prepping her for a brain operation that had a 20-50% success rate.

I got the call that the surgery was a success last night, but its a question as to how she'll even recover, whether she'll regain full autonomy and brain function or not. I'm unbelievably scared that it ends up being the worst case scenario and I'm praying to God its not the case, I'm hoping she makes a complete recovery despite everything. I wish none of this had ever happened.
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 No.300756

>>300733
You're going through an incredible difficult time. Praying for you and your mom.

 No.300757

>>300748
>In traumatic times, what else is there?
I don't like deluding myself, I'd rather take drugs than believing in god

 No.300758

Thank you everyone, again. She's doing a lot better and showing incremental, but steady improvement. Yesterday in a single day alone, she went from twitching right eyelid, to opening her right eyelid, to moving her arm on her own, to being able to squeeze and release on command, to be able to understand the difference between hot and cold.

Today they've taken her off the ventilator, so she's breathing on her own now. She managed to smile when I cracked a joke, was squeezing my hand, seemed to nod and understand what I said. She even said a weak little "hello." God I love her so much.

>>300744
I've done this. My mother and my sister have had a tumultuous, violent at times relationship. My sister hasn't been afraid to get physical with her, she's threatened to suffocate her to death in the past.

Technically she didn't DO anything at the hospital, but it was her behaviour, demeanour and overall how she was that had my gut instinct screaming at me and telling me to say something. She was speaking schizobabble by the end of the night and saying she was gonna "come home", meaning to my mother's home. Last time she was even in the house, my mother had screamed at her and was totally livid, telling her to get out. She hasn't lived in the house for over 15 years.

 No.300784

>>300733
damn anon I really hope everything gets well

 No.300806

>>300758
Wow! Great news.



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 No.285412[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Death of the Uncool - End of the Wizards V

Watching Geekdom get absorbed into the monoculture over the last decade (and then some) has been a pretty demoralising experience.

Part of the process of commodification, streamlining and assimilation of geek culture into the all-consuming monoculture, is distortion and erasure of the original.

"These would be the successive phases of the image:

1 It is the reflection of a basic reality.

2 It masks and perverts a basic reality.

3 It masks the absence of a basic reality.

4 It bears no relation to any reality whatever: it is its own pure simulacrum.

In the first case, the image is a good appearance: the representation is of the order of sacrament. In the second, it is an evil appearance: of the order of malefice. In the third, it plays at being an appearance: it is of the order of sorcery. In the fourth, it is no longer in the order of appearance at all, but of simulation."

I'm probably using Baudrillard wrong, but I think we're either between phase 2 and 3 or on phase 3. We're at the point where we have "gamers" who don't like videogames as the faces of videogames.
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 No.301248

>>297991
>>298031
>gentrification
Maybe this is coincidence but over the last 10+ years, it feels like Friday has been sliding back until the weekend starts on Monday for gentrifiers, hipsters and yuppies. As a NEET weekdays outside used to be quite relaxed, everybody at work or school and you'd have 6 hours to wander around your part of the city undisturbed except for the reprobates who didn't become active until late afternoon.

 No.301336

Might be time for a new thread.

Gentrifiers are some of the most passively evil people on earth.

 No.301337

>>301336
rich people are evil

 No.301345

>>301337
Perhaps, but there's a specific evil to them like another anon said.

 No.301511

I've seen debates/arguments on reddit and twitter on what a nerd is or isn't and they are literally trying to fit the data after the fact or retroactively claim things as other things.

Basically OPs point of relabelling the nerd. Apparently neckbeards is a "new term" to separate nerds and crabs.

It's like people can only remember the last four years.


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 No.300492[Reply]

Every server is either
1. Bpd/faggy lain posters who turn out to be degen crabs
2.full of trannies
3. schizo tier/hikkis and neets who want you to feel bad for them but wont even try to get help/better
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 No.300534

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>>300492
it's discord, what did you expect?
that it had the highest concentration of the most noble people?

 No.300589

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I fit the bill for the third one.

 No.300590

>>300494
I share the same sentiments anon. The only spaces where I don't have to think about the objective setting first and the subjective opinion second are BBS platforms.

 No.300592

>>300589
shinmyoumaru sukuna touhou 14 double dealing character smiling blushing longer hair

 No.300598

>>300591
>anonymity lets me make really shitty posts
Close, it's "anonymity lets me make posts that other people think are really shitty".
I post things that I like and I think are true. But no matter what I say there is always going to be some person who takes it in a negative way and obsesses on it.
Anonymity helps avoid the drama that comes with specific names tied to ideas someone doesn't like.
I prefer the focus to be on the ideas and topics and not specific identities or popularity contests.



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