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[–]  No.297373[Reply]>>298396[Watch Thread]

36 years old Wizard here with Schizophrenia living with mom (dad died a long time ago) I don't have any qualifications or income I am disabled and there is no NEETbux in my under developed country my hairline is receding due to how much I stress on my future in every single hour once my mom passes away I will be beyond doomed nobody in my family will support me they all live far away and they can barely support their own survival let alone to support another useless eater my mom already has health issues but nothing too severe (yet) is it possible to turn my life around in this late ago? people say "it's never too late" God I wish my parents never gave birth to me I heard stories og people who spent decades in prison and left by their 40s and still ended up starting a business and buying a house but I can tell it's an abnormal case once you enter your 30s without any skills qualifications or are capeable of work the chance of you being capeable of turning your life around becomes too small.
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[–]  No.298388

>>297709
Sounds like you have CPTSD. I have it too and it is like what yoy described

[–]  No.298396

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>>297373 (OP)
I assume the later reply in the thread is you as well, so Turkey is your country of origin.
Are you retarded or just schizophrenic?
How bad is the disability? Like could you work a no-skill job where you had to talk to people on the phone for 8 hours? Alternatively, are you capable of minor physical labor and generally existing in the world around people without causing a scene?
If you are able to manage the bare minimum for 8 hours on medication or something I recommend you get into networking.
It's not something that takes a high IQ, you being able to speak and understand English is already probably enough as an entry.

If you are at home 24/7 with not much to do you can get a CCNA (although the cert costs money) by studying free online or pirated material.
Even if you have no background and are borderline retarded you should be able to get it within a year, 1.5 at max.
You can see all kinds of minorities in Africa make it and they are likely at a disadvantage too.
You can get a basic ass helpdesk job without it at a telecom provider, but you'll need to work on yourself quite a bit if you are truly too far gone.

Most of these jobs pay enough if your mom happens to die, but leaves you with a home you'll be able to work remote without much worries.
Some offer permanent nightshift options too which is preferable.
Downside? You have to be able to talk to people. I'm an autistic schizoid (not schizophrenic, it's like a fancy way to say antisocial) and I manage. I just learned enough "scripts" to flow through conversations with normies in a flowchart kinda way.

The next step is to get certified and get into a NOC position. Though I have to say, if you are 36 with nothing to show for it, the cert might be needed to even get your "foot in the door".
You'll be doing the same work, not much effort, solve tickets, basic troubleshooting and you won't be talking to customers either.

Not sure how it is in Turkey, but I also live in a lesser country and we have programs for the disadvantaged, meaning companies get gibs for hiring undesirables like us. If you can leverage your disability, do so. If not, hide it as much as possible. I have no idea how real schizophrenia manifests, I had hallucinations when I was a NEET for 10 years, only started working at 28, but it went away after I left what Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

[–]  No.298417>>298424

>>297713
>And on top of that now is the worst time to be weak in this social and financial climate.

The social and financial climate is in a nutshell postmodernity + neoliberalism. When i see old footage from the 60's-70's or even interact with working class people from older generations i get the feeling that most of us wouldn't even have ended up wizards in those times. Many of us are victims of our historical circumstances. Knowing it calms my misanthropy but makes me angry at society at the same time. I just need to stop caring altogether cause there's not much to do.

[–]  No.298424>>298438

>>298417
>>298417
>i get the feeling that most of us wouldn't even have ended up wizards in those times
This is absolutely the case. Abandoning people in general is a modern luxury.

I grew up in a small village of 800, including children and the elderly and everyone knew each other, nobody was truly an outcast.
Even the absolute worst of the bunch were always there and invited to social gatherings and such.
People matched up based on households and general lot in life.
Most outside interactions were limited to the neighboring two villages.
It was something special.
But as I turned 10-11 divorce (due to a drunk abusive father) moved us to a small town, internet access and I was basically gone.

I was never going to be neurotypical, but in a small community they kinda just drag the dregs with them through life while in a town they ostracize and mock you like some animal.
In the village you had some seriously handicapped kid too who basically made noises and he was still almost omnipresent because all things considered he was one of ours. You knew him and his parents, your parents and grandparents knew each other going way back as well.
You can't outright reject someones entire existence in a village.

Most people had a trade, I would have become an electrician after my father if all things went well, despite circumstances.
They had some petty low skill job in the town, and then did work on the side in and around the village.
Most also had a crap ton of animals and a field to work, we did too.
It all feels so NORMAL in hindsight especially. Maybe it's the rose tinted glasses, but I really do believe what you say.
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>>298424
Thanks for the great personal input. I also had to see my world change a lot. Born in a small eastern European town in the 90's, life was carefree and felt very secure per default as the family model was close to the extended one (e.g constant contact between everyone, very frequent spontaneous sleepovers…) on top of having a normal nuclear family. My parents and grandparents, uncles and aunties… were complete nobodies yet were respectable and respected people, competition wasn't a thing at all.

Then at the turn of the millenium just like you my parents divorced and i had to move elsewhere, to a big western european city. The rest of my family that had stayed home also exploded overtime due to divorces and then scattered all around the world in the poursuit of money and maybe meaning so it's all dead now and it weirds me out. I have the impression that what i experienced in my childhood was like the last stand of the old social order and of a certain psychosocial disposition of the common human, like a link to hundreds of years that got brutaly severed by changes outside of our control. Even something as innocuous as me having been a kid that always played and hung around outside with other boys from morn till night with very limited adult surveillance seems like something out of an already vanished world, and, again, like the last trace of a continuity with a very long past.



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[–]  No.298141[Reply]>>298397[Watch Thread]

I really hope this threat does not count as succubus worship also I am not sure if this board is right place for me to talk about this.

In short, I can no longer get attached to any popular female fictional character simply because some degenerate will draw porn of it. It sounds autistic, but I don't care. This oddly is not the case with male characters; I can get attached to them even if they are popular and some degenerate makes porn of it.

But the problem with obscure female fictional characters is they probably won't get fan art mostly unless you know how to draw.

But I found an third way or a anomaly? that breaks this dilemma, so to speak, and it made me both the happiest man on this rock and the saddest man on this rock….
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[–]  No.298170>>298177

>>298167
Also just because succubus are bad does not make every singla men good you retard
Also
>epic cat meme
Hello Reddit XD

[–]  No.298177>>298178

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>>298168
There's a whole universe of different porn available dude, you were talking about lewd pictures of female characters, that doesn't involve people fucking. The average man worships succubi regardless of porn or not, in fact, I would say most anti porn guys are tradcon mongs who think porn abuses succubi or some shit, or, watching porn, like you say, makes you a "cuck" and indulging in your own sexuality is bad because reasons, and only a real succubus to validate you is acceptable - sounds pretty anti wizard to me.

If you're an actual waifufag, I can respect that, I'm not here to say your esoteric taste in niche cute succubi is bad, sounds fun. However, all the rhetoric around muh degenerate porn is fucking cringe and it sounds like you've internalized a lot of it unnecessarily (why do you care, wizards aren't having relationshits) and it's unhealthy - demonizing a fun outlet is peak normalfaggot behavior and concern trolling about "porn addiction" and "gooning" is for self-loathing losers.

>>298170
I didn't say every single man was good, seemed pretty evident from my post I think men are little sycophants obsessed with mate guarding their little precious girly succubi and getting upset over other men getting any. The irony of saying porn promotes succubi worship and then using the "cuck" slur which is to imply: a succubus is an uberhuman who's besmirched by a foreign penis, pretty funny.

[–]  No.298178

>>298177
I did actually ment porn that is fucking it just that I am esl
Also there are wizard who dont watch porn or are asexual dude wizards should try to rise from their urges
It simple my way of thinking is just too diffrent from yours I dont think we can ever understand eachother

[–]  No.298179

Also
>demonizing a fun outlet is peak normalfaggot
Porn is not really fun it make me feel pleasure for a couple of seconds or minute

[–]  No.298397

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>>298141 (OP)
I relate, but with some additions.
To me this isn't exclusive to female characters, I generally hate the whole $$$ oriented "content" creation culture that has been normalized which in a normal world would be a copyright violation.
This was one of the big mental chains that has prevented me from creating to begin with.
Imagine making a world of your dreams, putting in countless hours to make it come to life in an indie game, a short comic, just a single image even…
You might sell said thing, or just publish it for free to share your joy.

You got any interest in your work? The mass of normies will immediately generate countless amounts of unspeakable degenerate works, or just general r34 material, each selling it to their patreons or whatever for more money than you've likely ever seen as a wizard.
All by violating your creation. The mutilate your work with hour long drivel videos that become the new reality (as perceived by the mass of consumers) of your work.
It's maddening really.

Now with AI tools this has started to spread to less popular creations as well.
I can't even imagine how I would deal with having something I cherished enough to put in the work to make desecrated like this.

Keep in mind I'm not against pornographic content in general. I've never been a fan of 3DPD, but I did and still do enjoy doujins and the like, though less so than in my youth.
It just pains me to imagine having something that is truly "my own" taken by a mass of normies who simply do not care.
This happened when what used to be niche hobbies, escapism (anime/manga, video games) became mainstream. The masses have distorted what once was and the "space" turned hostile to the likes of myself.

Again this might just sound like I'm hating on people for "enjoying things wrong", but the superficial nature of the general public has and will shape everything it reaches as the market adapts to a newfound demand.

I hope this helps ease your mind, you are not alone.



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[–]  No.296532[Reply][Watch Thread]

Do you have good or bad experiences in your host country or do you feel accepted or tolerated in the society of the country? Have you had problems because you were a foreigner? Can you tell us about them?
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[–]  No.298377>>298389

>>298374
Well the conquest of India was quite bloody we were invaded and then subsequently ruled by Muslims for more than a 1000 years. And you can already guess how they treated us.

The fact that Muslims persecuted Hindus so harshly is the only reason I identify as a Hindu apart from that I am pretty much an atheist. Because if gods were real, they wouldn't have given me the life that I have right now.

[–]  No.298378>>298387

>>298261
Does anyone know how to get beyond this feeling of inferiority? I am Asian and lived in San Francisco and before you know I started masturbating to WMAF porn. Literally if you're an Asian no much how much you get paid, do not go to San Francisco.

[–]  No.298387

>>298378
Just imagine it’s your mom in those porn videos and that should stop you from jerking off I guess problem fixed

[–]  No.298389

>>298377
India was invaded by everybody, it's a subservient nation made up of subservient people.

[–]  No.298393

>>298363
They're mostly Hindu yeah, but it's not as if the Pakistani and Muslim ones that come here behave any differently. I don't know how much animosity there actually is in India, but the Muslim/Hindu conflicts seems to be entirely irrelevant to them here. They'll socialize with one another and the kids seem half secularized anyway.



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[–]  No.295867[Reply][Watch Thread]

Why am I so pathetic? I don't even have it that bad, just slightly below average but still with all the tools to succeed and yet all I do is complain because there are others who have it better.

I live in perpetual regret because when I become aware of a problem instead of working on fixing it I hate and pity myself for having the kind of personality that would cause that problem. In my 20s I was making posts like "is it too late to …" and now in my 30s I feel like a fool for not doing anything back then but now again I am pitying myself and paralyzed by the reality of the wasted time I won't get back and the effects of aging with nothing to show for.

I feel like by now I've shown what kind of person I am and there is a very hard cap on what I can achieve. Any hope for change seems delusional.
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[–]  No.296425>>296435

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>>296395
>If you dont have any other issues

[–]  No.296435>>296718

>>296425
Kek. Real life issues are what brings them to internet in the first place. If real life was going well we wouldn't be here. But yeah one shouldn't ignore real life issues. Life for us men, especially a browncel like me is dealing with one issue and preparing for next 4 issues. Because only thing that keep me company are issues. Only thing life has is downs for me. Not a single up.

[–]  No.296718

>>296435
>Because only thing that keep me company are issues.
Thats a fire line.

[–]  No.298318

>>296383
Maybe for some, but not for me
I do think orange faggot retard is a faggot and a retard just like the political-informational side of those that vote for him but that's besides the point and a surefire derailment incoming.
I think it's agency
We feel unable to change anything in life and in spite of being connected to it in various ways we can't be actors in it in a way that feels fulfilling.
So it's not status or riches, but agency in a bearable overall state that matters. A balance of chances and failures, happiness and misery.
In the worldview of many those might overlap. The degree to which this notion this individual has built is valid remains questionable.
You and I fail to take the required happiness/fulfillment/purpose from life and thus are overwhelmed a lot.

[–]  No.298338

>>296395
Normies are just as addicted to the internet as us. Theyre on their phones gaming and using social media every waking hour.



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[–]  No.294748[Reply][Watch Thread]

I'm so fucking ugly and disgusting
It's painful to look myself in the mirror
I wanna kill myself
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[–]  No.296517

>>296515
americans are taller

[–]  No.296529>>298250>>298264

>>296515
In places like the Netherlands or Montenegro (where avg. zoomer girIs are close to 180cm or 6ft) I assume it is the very protein heavy diet, lots of meat, cheese, yoghurt.

Combined with sexual hypergamy (the requirements of being a potential dad candidate height-wise increasing every generation).

[–]  No.298250>>298264

>>296529
Hypergamy is inflating everywhere, born in 2000s people in Latin America are getting taller, I'm just a bit above 5'8" and I'm the 3rd shortest out of every 10 young guys, 180 is the new "okay" standard with tolerance towards 175-179.

[–]  No.298259

i have low-slung foreskin and sedan breve

[–]  No.298264

>>296529
So you mean that is not the fact of people being hornier in hotter lands what leads to abuse of sex and therefore dysgenic behaviour?

A protein heavy diet is usually shit unless it be keto and not everyone can take it for life. Read Valter Longo about high protein diets.

>>298250
Why would you resent this?
>in wizchan…?



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[–]  No.296737[Reply]>>296742>>298251[Watch Thread]

For several years I had the idea of ending my life in the back of my head despite barely ever experiencing extreme depression in any remote way, I spent long periods reading about various suicide methods at sanctionedsuicide and even making threads asking for technical questions related to suicide methods, but it's something I never planned to do at any time soon, and I still have no plans to do it at anytime soon at the moment, I made a thread here about this topic several years and some Anons thought I was being an attention whore just because My life did not suck enough that I would want to end it instantly, I am not too unhappy at the moment, but I know shit might hit the fan at some point, and I will have no other choice, I also fear ageing and getting too old, it's really the biggest issue with being a Wizard, oneday I will be too old and weak to even hold a glass of water, And I will have no children or grand children to help me, I have an obsession with suicide, the amount of time I spent thinking about it is so absurd given I am not even that pessimistic of a person.

Sorry the pic is too unrelated, I hope I made my point reach all of you

[–]  No.296742>>296745

>>296737 (OP)
Suicide for a Human is pretty much the best way to go, you decide when and how and you can finish all your unfinished business before you do it, say goodbye to whoever before stepping over to the other side. you can manage all that.

but realistically only very few people get this, most People die slow deaths over years from illness while still clinging to the idea they might heal again or People die in random accidents.
like only very few people get to leave on their terms.

[–]  No.296743>>296744

it's just a cope. like those wagies that dream about escaping to some exotic place or whatever. you dream about finally escaping into nothingness, but it's never going to happen because life's defining feature is that's ironically always just bearable enough to not motivate you to act, in either direction.

[–]  No.296744

>>296743
I have seen news of middle schoolers who killed them selves over the stress caused by school exams or school bullying, but you have a bit of truth in your post, pic related, but i don't know how can you say that about life always being "bearable enough to not motivate us to act

[–]  No.296745

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>>296742
Totally, most suicide attempts fail for a reason, it's why I made sure I know as much as possible about the method and all the dos and donts, so i can do it that it ends my life without it failing only to let me survive only to be kept alive vegetable or crippled

[–]  No.298251

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>>296737 (OP)
It's a persistent thought that brings some solace. I wish I wasn't a pussy and could immediately take action sometimes. I just started working a 9/5 and can already feel the last fragments of "soul" I have left fade away unleashing a terrific feeling of numbness and dread, I don't want to become an instant-gratification zombie wagie with nothing to live for, thus, with the scarce spark I have yet left, I hope for a cathartic situation that inspires me to take my life before things get exponentially worse and I irreversibly stumble into the survival-state of 'pay your bills and suffer an agonizing slow slave death trap' in my third world shit-hole.

Simply mental masturbation.



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[–]  No.297714[Reply][Watch Thread]

https://archive.org/details/suicide-fedden-1938
Chapters 1-3 of 10
I. Introduction
II. Servant and Widow
III. The Suicide Horror and the Savage
The blurb states:
"This book is the first comprehensive study to be written in English of the infinitely various attitudes towards suicide throughout the history of the human race. The causes of suicide in primitive, classical, mediæval and more modern times, and the points of view which have led philosophers to condemn or approve the custom, are expounded with a scholarly thoroughness in which pedantry plays no part, so that the volume is a gold-mine of out-of-the-way information on the subject."

From the book:
"A certain number of individuals have continuously found this act the most efficient and satisfactory response to circumstances they did not choose to put up with or to which they could find no other reply."
"The personal suicide is usually persecuted by society or only grudgingly recognised even in times of tolerance."
"Suicide is the price paid by many to view the unfamiliar new landscape. The transition to self-sufficiency has often lain for the weak, unfortunate and misplaced via self-destruction. Such deaths, which have been multiplying for a hundred years, are oddly distributed taxes levied against gigantic change." 
"When the number of those who are giddy standing alone grows less, then time will reduce the number of suicides also."
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[–]  No.298212

Chapter III.
The Suicide Horror and the Savage

[–]  No.298213>>298229>>298235

My advice to anyone reading up on suicide is to find something better to do with your time lmao

[–]  No.298229

>>298213
Very convincing. Telling someone that feels like shit and is probably a neet to stop wasting time. They probably don't have the ability to comprehend the analogy of working a job and how that sucks up all ur time so u learn to value ur time better.

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[–]  No.298235

>>298213
"… antidotes to isolation, shelters from reality, combatants against silence and fear… are merely palliative however. They may be said to delay effectively the number of suicides that are demanded from men by the evolution of individuality and the final acquisition of the power to stand alone."

"Suicide is testimony to the difficulty which we yet find of standing on our feet with the old supports gone and the leading strings snapped."

"… the horror of a landscape where nothing but the individual throws a shadow down the perspective from birth to the grave. The inevitability of death then becomes only less inescapable than the personal responsibility of living. Meanwhile, suicide is the price paid by many to view the unfamiliar new landscape. The transition to self-sufficiency has often lain for the weak, unfortunate and misplaced via self-destruction. Such deaths, which have been multiplying for a hundred years, are one of the oddly distributed taxes that are levied against gigantic change."

"The past centuries had no such need of suicide. For this century there always remains free access to the reliable panacea of death. It is one of the gentle compensations created by, and for, the complex difficulty of the time. Such a compensation should grow more and more unnecessary as individuals accustom themselves to the new lie of the land."

No living better placed person around me will admit of my circumstance so I go to old books. This is the best of them under the new conditions.



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[–]  No.297853[Reply][Watch Thread]

i've been daydreaming about living in a world where we stagnated on a 1990's level of technology.

today's internet, with its smartphone-social media, hyperpolitics and ultradopaminergic entertainment is such a mindrape that i'm starting to get really really tired of it…

i'm a millennial but i wish i was born in the 80s or even the 70s just so i could live and relatively normal adult life in the 90s and 00s.

i wanna go back to an analogic world.
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[–]  No.297898

>>297896
>I wonder how boomers haven't gone mad.
I guess they just keep to their ways and avoid using the new technologies unless they have to. That's how I am with digitization of paperwork and AI. I avoid AI like it's the devil and I go to the city hall or other office to take care of stuff, even though it would be much more convenient to register a digital account. It's like I'm used to doing things the old-fashioned way, I almost enjoy it.

[–]  No.297952>>297953

People see only downsides. Technology is amazing. Before year x Life was only about surviving. Its only lately that its gotten to bread Circus games literally. The year depends how you define it. You could listen to music in 70s. In 90s some video games existed. With 2010s you could play online and watch streamers. Imagine living in Finland in 1800s. Which was not that long ago. Chances are you didn't Have Books. Which meant you didn't do anything of entertainment value after The dark comes at 4pm in november

[–]  No.297953

>>297952
Do you also think that uncle Ted was utterly wrong because it has lways been the govt our real problem?

[–]  No.297954>>297957

All zoomers obsessed with a past they never had is cringe

[–]  No.297957

>>297954
this lmao, talk about what you lived



[–]  No.297845[Reply]>>297847>>297848[Watch Thread]

Will probably delete this but had a terrible week (not that I'm not used to it by now) but I was asked to take care of a cat for someone down the street and the first week everything went fine. I fed it emptied the litter box but one night I accidentally left the garage door it used to get in and out too high and noticed something else got in. Since then I haven't seen the cat but last night (almost 2 weeks after) I found the poor things body underneath where he sleeps. I had only gone over twice in about a week and a half due to a cop giving me a speeding ticket for going 7 over the speed limit and my boss at work saying I had to meet for disciplinary action but refusing to say why other than my "behavior". I feel so bad that I killed someones pet and don't know what to do. I had also just planned my first vacation ever after over a decade of wage slaving but I can't take it now because I would be staying with the persons pet I killed for 2 weeks. I was honestly having a hard time not wanting to kill myself as it is and now I just don't know what to do. Cats have been one of the few things that have ever been nice to me and I killed one being irresponsible and preoccupied with my own problems, I feel so bad having killed someones pet kitty.

[–]  No.297847

>>297845 (OP)
destroy the body and just claim the cat ran away, that way you dont get blamed for killing it.
good luck bro, also my condolences.

[–]  No.297848

>>297845 (OP)
I don't get how did you killed the cat?



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To value or not to value, To care or not to care, Do we truly care that much about our value that we defend it with any possible way, But to what extent ? What will we garner from showering with praises and value, A temporary feeling of having worth ? It all fades away after a period of time and you have to do that all again, Like anything in life, Everything fades away, That love that disillusioned you at that first sight fades away after 1 month if the other person doesn’t reciprocate, That’s the same as your value, If you don’t give more to your value then the other person will just get bored, Boredom is our nemesis in this world.
We truly love to wallow in our shit and feces and believe that we’re different than the other person, That we’re different than the other insipid and superficial people, But that’s the same as the other barn of shit that others pile in too and believe they’re better than you, All in for the same ending, For the same pointless and meaningless argument to escape the feeling of being “normal”, of being “mid”, of not having any specialities in this World, We fear that we will be perceived as lower, But in reality the damage is already done, We literally diminish our principles in other to not be perceived as lower by others, That’s just wallowing in the shit of the other person. For what is the worth of a person who died right now as you’re reading this ? For what is the worth of a person living in extreme poverty ? A person living in harsh condition, or someone getting tortured by the mafia right now.. Etc, They have more value than people who consider themselves high and almighty, Hell even a garbage collector holds more value than anyone who has “Villas, Cars, money… etc” Because they’re exploring life in their own condition, And the garbage collector is doing something for society, We just give value to ourselves because we’re pitiful and rely so much on another person’s praise to not fall, But you will fall and the fall will be so hard that you will cease to exist in another person’s eyesight. You can easily trick others by giving them value and watch them as they spiral down into madness when you cease to give them any value, People are evil, They rely on others to give them a shoulder to be another’s shoulder and when that shoulder carrying them ceases to exist, they fall because they were used to standing on the other’s shoulder.


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