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 No.299408[Reply]

I've heard a lot about "fear of missing out"/"fomo". But I have a different kind of fear that doesn't really make sense in my mind: a fear of keeping up with things, or, a fear of catching up.

For example: Many years ago I played internet mahjong a lot. But eventually I stopped playing for a few months. Now, any time I consider playing again, I get paralyzed by this irrational fear. I think things like "it's too late for me to get back into this". And, of course, the fact that this fear stops me from catching back up only makes this fear grow larger and larger.

I once had a small youtube channel but it has been so many years since I uploaded anything, I feel like "it's too late for this, I missed the boat, what's done is done".

I know this fear is irrational but I still am held back it.
Does anyone relate to this fear AT ALL?
I am bad at describing this so this might not make any sense at all.

 No.299409

>>299408
isnt that basically just being lazy and procrastinating?

 No.299410

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>>299408
I relate OP, it feels like you could have done all the things you want to do at younger age and now you feel like it is a waste of time because your not young anymore, why even try I'll die soon? your brain is saying, and you agree with your brain, then you procrastinate. its a unhealthy habit brcause at the end of the day you do nothing and you wasted your day doing nothing.
the only thing is to start NOW and tomorrow and then the day after, etc…its like bycicle, if you stop treadle you fall.

 No.299411

>>299408
>"it's too late for me to get back into this"
We (and by that I mean you) can dissect these thoughts for their origin and why they hold so much sway on you. It's a good mental exercise.

It usually goes like this for me.
>Want to play 'jong?
Y/N. If you want to, what stops you?
>Its too late
Late for what?
>Im XX old KHV I should be doing whateverwhatever
What this had to do with wanting to play 'jong?

 No.299412

This sounds a like straight up clinical depression.

If you've incidentally trained yourself not to enjoy things in general, then the sense of post enjoyment comedown might have further conditioned you to avoid things you specifically liked in the past.

I've experienced this once or twice with anime - specifically ones that I really enjoyed, the idea of experiencing them again and having them retroactively ruined or devalued means I don't watch them.

If what you enjoyed has little in the way of intrinsic value (i.e. enjoying it has extra benefits like exercising the mind or producing artefacts you take pride in) then if you're in full depression mode you'll need extra motivation to attempt it.

In some cases, getting back into the habit is just a case of perseverance, but it's not guaranteed.

 No.299425

I find it difficult to relate to your particular fear.

In general, if something seems like an irrational fear, i'd advise to really deeply consider if it is actually irrational. Try to make a clear-cut judgement. If it still seems irrational then you should try to overcome it by intentionally confronting it. That is, to simply do the feared activities for a while until you know you aren't hindered by it. If you still feel the fear but you have proved to yourself that you are in control of it then its fine, you just have to accept the feeling


 No.299336[Reply]

Since last year's December, I have discovered that you can just keep lying on the bed and enter a weird stage where you're neither asleep nor awake. It's crazy as it feels like what substance abusing would feel like although I have never even touched alcohol, weed, or even cigs let alone hard drugs

And bed rotting is crazy addictive. Time flies so quickly it's unbelievable. I spend most of my day lying in the bed, and I have gotten so skinny fat it is simply unbelievable, I am a mere 160cm tall ethnicel but I weigh a massive 150 pounds. My body looks so ugly that even my mama doesn't love me.

Has anybody else experiences this where you're at a prolonged stage of not being asleep and not being awake but in a weird in-between because of the comfyness of bed?
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 No.299394

>>299388
same
if i didnt have to work, if my backwards country had neetbux, id happily rot for the rest of my life

 No.299395

i tried it for some 50 minutes and i got to the point where i could see colored blobs rythmically expanding and contracting, but i stopped due to impatience and boredom
will keep trying

 No.299399

>>299395
>colored blobs rythmically expanding and contracting
black and purplish / dark red ?

 No.299400

>>299399
yeah, was that close?

 No.299401

>>299400
idk but I never experienced what OP did, so I think it's just ordinary eye glitches or something


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 No.296532[Reply]

Do you have good or bad experiences in your host country or do you feel accepted or tolerated in the society of the country? Have you had problems because you were a foreigner? Can you tell us about them?
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 No.298378

>>298261
Does anyone know how to get beyond this feeling of inferiority? I am Asian and lived in San Francisco and before you know I started masturbating to WMAF porn. Literally if you're an Asian no much how much you get paid, do not go to San Francisco.

 No.298387

>>298378
Just imagine it’s your mom in those porn videos and that should stop you from jerking off I guess problem fixed

 No.298389

>>298377
India was invaded by everybody, it's a subservient nation made up of subservient people.

 No.298393

>>298363
They're mostly Hindu yeah, but it's not as if the Pakistani and Muslim ones that come here behave any differently. I don't know how much animosity there actually is in India, but the Muslim/Hindu conflicts seems to be entirely irrelevant to them here. They'll socialize with one another and the kids seem half secularized anyway.

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 No.297385[Reply]

I'm fucking jaded by life because of people and normalfags. I really can't take it anymore. I have limits and today I got my tolerence limit to the macimum, I don't feel good at all. normalfags make life disgusting when you're around them. I can't anymore today, I don't know if I could live like this during all my life.
I'm in pain physically. my heart hurts kind of. I feel depressed.
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 No.299301

>>299165
I still go for a walk every monday with the hospital. I see the two zoomers who one of them is autistic and the other one is either schizo-affective or has tourette I don't remember. A new person came and he was in high school with me and now I must go socilize with another guy who I was with during uni but I don't want to go drink a coffee with them nor be their friends again but it os rude to say no I don't want to. I'm forced to socialize now. I put do much effort on not to get friends anymore and now I must go to a café and talk shit with two people I don't want to be with

 No.299302

>>299301
I want to be left alone

 No.299308

>>299301
never happened to me lol. I have no social life

 No.299316

>>299301
good to be able to hear from you again, anon.

 No.299318

>>299316
you're welcome


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 No.299002[Reply]

Ive been diagnosed with ASD, my iq is tested to be 82. Ive also dealt with sexual disorders & depression.

Growing up I lived as an outcast, a homosexual freak, a retard and dealt with rejection especialy during school where I was excluded for being part of the special ed & also had so many embarassing moments due to being incomptent and socially inept. Right now at 21 I still live at home with a dead end job, having ideation of suicide pretty often

I always fanatsize how my life wouldve turned out if I wasnt born mentally sick.
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 No.299109

>>299039
you gonna keep up this "only drooling retards with helmets have autism" charade and shtick up forever here just for entertainment value? cause its kinda funny

 No.299110

>>299109
An "autist" wouldn't see humor in the idea, and certainly wouldn't be ae to rhetort with sarcasm (We all know it's sarcasm and that you're genuinely butthurt by having your 'special boy who can't be held responsible for his own shortcomings' title challenged.

 No.299111

>>299110
nta but I didn't know it was sarcasm, I genuinely thought you were so stupid to think autism is the same as debilitating retardation

 No.299305

>>299036
I was the same until 20, when I abruptly stopped being bubbly and energetic as I moved out of my hometown. I was close friends with the other two autists who were into a specific MMO and niche of single player games, along using a niche type of imageboard lingo, which was rare back in the early 2010s in my 2nd world small town. We weren't even of the same age; we were 15, 16 and 18 when we were the closest. I could be like that, but lost the energy to find like minded people, lost the innocence and also the resilience to get shunned by dozens of normalfags and succubi in the process of finding someone I could get on.

 No.299309

>>299110
Oh yeah, autists are not allowed to have a sense of humor either now.

Fuck off normie.


 No.297861[Reply]

Been browsing 4chads /pol/ all day for happenings and apparently Musk is gonna end NEETbux. I'm disabled and am unable to work, so I guess this is it for me. It was nice wizzies, but I guess this is the end.
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 No.297885

>>297883
Cool it with the anti semitism

 No.299166

>>297861
>>297881
If they need to go to work, it's because there are taxes. I do not have any hope, despite being libertarian, about taxes being truly removed. It's their way of control.

 No.299177

>>297866
End yourself nigger.

 No.299203

Exorcisms don't work on schizos because it is a mental condition not demonic possession

 No.299281

>>297866
Neetbux should be for disableds not lazy 👨🏿


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 No.298019[Reply]

I'm older than people who have kids who're already graduating from high school. I know it shouldn't bother me, but I can't help it. I feel like my life hasn't progress at all. I already have grey hairs on my beard and I don't feel my age at all. life as a wizard is like living in a perpetual limbo where nothing ever happens until you grow old and die.
I know many young wizards will call me a failed normie for saying this, but it's only until you reach a certain age that the loneliness of the wiz life starts to creep in and you begin to wonder where did all go wrong.
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 No.299255

>>299253
how is ai gonna reshuffle your genetics and the things you mentioned?

the fact still remains you need a boatload of cash and a top surgeon to make that "reshuffle" happen even if ai gives you the perfect blueprint for it

dont get me wrong, i dream of that same reshuffle literally daily and i occassionally get euphoric dreams in my sleep where it finally actually happens. but when i wake up i realize it takes so much money

 No.299259

>>299255

first things first.

The Ai we need does not yet exist. its close, but not yet. For a quick explanation: the current horse race now is over whats called Agi, or Artificial general intelligence, this, 20 to 25 years back meant an Ai equal in intellect to a normal person. in my opinion its already been done. but, anti Ai people dispute its been done, there are pros and cons to it does or does not exist yet.

back to our focus. now, what we need, for our aims, is called ASI , or Artificial Super Intelligence, an Ai smarter than smartest person to of ever lived.

in my opinion ASI will be created sometime between now and 2029/2030. Year 2029 will be key.

What you, and I, and our brothers need to do, between now and 2029/2030, we must back Ai into Agi into ASI. Back it 1,000%

but but but but….. Anon, Ai could do! Ai may do!, Ai mite!!

No. You want it. Back Ai 1,000%

ASI will be capable of Anything, able to learn anything, able to solve anything. It will not be limited by human nonsense, bias, frailties, weaknesses, etc….

I Need a humans to do XYZ? i dont. its in my rear view mirror. and been so , for me, for a long time. All tasks imagined will be solved by ASI.

join the ride friend.

 No.299263

>>299259
Never read so much bullshit in a single post

 No.299265

>>299263
Fucking this. If that guy watched CNN he would know AI will be the literal end of the world just like global warming.

 No.299280

>>299265
It wont end the world on the spot, but expecting it to change your facial structure, body type and height just by making a text prompt is psychotic.

There is no salvation for ugliness at least during our lifetimes, at least if we're talking about affordable options.


 No.299227[Reply]

I regret not enjoying my youth more,when i was 14-16 if i think back i could have had so much fun, instead i had to be a fucking depressed loser even Back then and just barley coped as to not end myself.
But at least i didnt have to worry about money/Rent but i just wasted away my youth and did nothing and now its way too late at 27. I should have enjoyed that time and just not worry,gotten high everyday drop out of school and do what i actually enjoy ,Go out blah blah so on and so on
I Wish i Had a time machine
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 No.299244

I don't really get what you could do but you did not.

 No.299250

>>299243
>wanted to learn to play piano
>wanted to learn to draw
>friends playing together in games I didn't own
unfortunately the cost of the equipment and software scared me off. Also wasn't sure if I could commit myself to learning it due to both uni and part time job taking up a good chunk of my time. I had a decent gaming pc that I built during high school, but I pirated most of my games to save money. couldn't play together with my uni friends who had legit copies. some had 3ds and played Mario kart 7 together. Wanted to get one to play together, but refrained mostly thinking that my money was better spent on more life important stuff. One time my friends asked if I wanted to travel to the Netherlands together, I decline due to wanting to save money.
economically secured now, but my youth was bleak with a few rare moments of good memories. had I not been so stingy I could had more of those good memories. The friends I had in uni are gone now, too late to do anything about it now, guess things are just going to get bleaker.

 No.299251

>>299227
>just wasted away my youth and did nothing
>I should have enjoyed that time and just not worry,gotten high everyday drop out of school and do what i actually enjoy ,Go out blah blah so on and so on
Your second statement hints that there were things that you liked to do but didn't? not sure what you meant with did nothing, was there something preventing you
and you distract yourself with doom scrolling or something?

 No.299252

>>299250
You can't know if paying for those things would have been worth it. I bought a game once just to play with someone when i was a late teen and it was awful. I went on a trip once with people and it was perhaps the worst week of my life. Maybe it is difficult to remember why you really made those decisions. Sometimes our past selves were smarter than we remember and our memories have discarded important context. To me it doesnt sound like those things were really all that important, anyway

 No.299278

>>299252
>To me it doesnt sound like those things were really all that important, anyway
Yeah I am still alive and kicking without those experiences. but the few times I hangout with my uni friends I generally enjoyed it. watched movies together in the cinema, visited a theme park and gather up to play games together at a cybercafe.
my friends did this sort of gathering much more frequent, I showed up on rare occasions, mostly because I realize how much of my money would be burning doing these things more frequently. Realize that my gen-x coworker was right that I was too stingy with my money. saving money now because you think it will get you more joy in the future but it's not a guarantee. bought myself a nice 2k screen for my pc for watching movies and gaming. Costed me €300 but feel less joy from it, then the €22 spent to watch guardians of the galaxy with my friends at the cinema. even when technically being a better choice than visiting the cinema regularly with friends.
>You can't know if paying for those things would have been worth it
true, possible I could had ended up with regret of having less money now to spend. knew that after uni, I wouldn't have much socialization anymore, which is why I saved my money to be more well off later in life. Since this choice didn't make me happier than in my uni days. I just wonder if I be a happier person today had I followed the advice of my gen-x coworker and socialized more, despite the expenses.


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 No.299076[Reply]

Im 27 years old , i dont know anything , i graduated faculty of arts in 8 years failing once every year because i didnt study enough , i live in a place where there's compulsory recruitment and didnt apply because i am on antidepressants and don't want to waste a year of my life which is not very important but this city does not care if you die , normal citizens are not of much importance here anyway , i tried checking fiverr & freelancer because i didnt have an idea what to do if i want to work from home , it doesn't seem to be very promising , it felt impossible to get a place among all these beasts conquering every damn field in the category , i barely know anything about the world and autistic and i think im stupid too , but if i try to surpass my stupidity , what to learn to be able to work remotely and not eat shit for the rest of my life?
Im on the verge of complete mental breakdown , i need help.
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 No.299087

>>299086
>think about what you can grow in yourself that others would find useful.
That was expressive , thank you.

 No.299099

>>299085
Skills like what? I don't understand. What skills? Name one skill that will pay.

 No.299100

>>299099
carpentry, bricklaying, IT tech support, plumbing, pastry making, video editing, business consulting, life coaching, karate training, cocktail mixing, the list goes on…

 No.299130

>>299076
No matter what logic demands. Drive yourself by s&a. Learn this: https://www.geneticmatrix.com

>its free

I am not even applying anymore. 32 years. Pretty much better this way, my parents bred me to be a slave like them. NEETing hard.

 No.299192

>>299130
Can't get what you're trying to say friend , what is the link about?


 No.296764[Reply]

Last time I mentioned that I have 2 weeks to kms someone asked if I have a test or something in school. Let me tell you something interesting. I won't talk about my life story but I will enlighten you how bad life can get and what real suicide out of necessity means.
I will tell you only the immediate reasons of my forced suicide:
1. Sick with infinite diseases and often in such pain that I want to stab myself or jump out the window. Can't eat walk make money or function for years due to this. Feel like I can die at any moment. I've been shitting black last few days which means internal bleeding.
2. I am broke and in infinite debt cause I chose to pursue treatment instead of paying taxes. I also lied to get money loaned to me because I needed it for drugs so I don't end up lobotomized. Its only a matter of time until they put me in prison.
3. I have a benzo addiction, if I don't take at least 10mg Xanax daily and skip one day I will have a grand mal seizure which will kill me or leave me with brain damage.
4. Stuck forever without a room or meter of space my whole life due to mentally retarded family.
…etc I probably forgot half but by now you should know the drill. Life took almost everything from me and I didn't do anything for a long time so I wouldn't call this living anyway. Only thing I have left is freedom of choice to die now or lose it and suffer a thousand times more and die later. I will die at age of 28 in 2024 via train guillotine or fail and become a vegetable. I have only one try and time is not on my side.
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 No.297526

are you here OP?

 No.297769

Op are you okay ?

I can help you with a lot of advice trust me it's not worth ending your life, there is too much alternative and other ways in which you can rebuild yourself.

First one could easily be leaving your own country, Trust me suicide is so easy but it's just a solution for a temporary problem, Don't let life rape you, Rape life until it becomes bored of you

And fuck every faggot who endorsed this anon on suicide

 No.297770

>>297769
>just a solution for a temporary problem

This is so ordinary advice that you must be a bot.

 No.297777

>>297770
it must be, i cant imagine any real user writing that

 No.299164

>>296764
Which treatment? I don't get much about your situation. Paying taxes for not receiving treatment? Clueless….
You could at least tell us which are your regrets.

I feel not much mercy for those who choose suicide instead of murder, when corralled by the world.


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