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 No.262348[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Im going to do everything within my power to not coom (no fap,no wet dreams,no nothing)for 180 days. I want to realize the absolute peak of male human life and see if,then, I still want to die. I honestly dont know what i will think -then- but I -now- speculate about the "me of the future";180 days in the future,to be most precise.
godpseed to all you in my stead.
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 No.263232

>>263205
Because when you replace fap with things like that and doing your chores and avoiding too much stimulation you re-wire your brains dopamine center and it's easier to work towards hobby goals instead of Day 0 your life away to some stupid vile demon succubus

 No.263238

>>263226
>Normals end up watching porn and jerking off because they realize having a wife/gf is overrated as hell.

Do you even know any normalfags, they're a lot like you, but instead of just porn and masturbation, add actual sex and casual relationships. Every post of yours you use it to defend your porn addiction. Not to mention you masturbate with your sister's underwear, disgusting normalfag. You're a prisoner to porn and your sexual desires in a much similar way, too blind to see it. Everything that brings to light your appalling addiction, like good wizards who are into abstinence makes you feel attacked.

 No.263244

>>263208
Sounds like a bunch of flimsy bullshit some faggot made up to make you stop enjoying things you like, hard pass.

 No.263360

Coomers are like potheads when you tell them about the bad side-effects of weed

 No.263362

Nofappers are like vegans…nuff said LOL


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 No.262801[Reply]

I'm 34 years old. Because of the excessive suffering for the past 10 years i've became looking older than my age. Old age is something that i feared the most and now that the moment has finally came, should i say good bye to life? I can't bear life like this, i want to be young forever.
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 No.263235

>>263161
Is dying your hair difficult? I'm not happy with the way my grey hair looks but if it takes any more effort than just like switching your shampoo I probably won't do it.

 No.263236

>>263159
I wish people would still treat me like a child. It's basically better in every way.

 No.263247

>>263164
>>263165
Don't care what you think
I'm a NEET and rarely leave the house, I just don't want to see an old man in the mirror.

>>263235
It's pretty easy if you're just dyeing out greys. You buy the kit at the store mix the two bottles together shake it and rub it into your hair and wait a few minutes then wash it out.

 No.263254

>>263215
Looking young is mostly genetic and yes its humblebraggin. Looking young is always better even if you’re not in dating market because you’re more likely to get hired in some jobs who wants presentability. People will also treat you better.

 No.263346

Yeah, I aged quite a bit over the last couple of years. I still look pretty youngish but definitely not like a teenager anymore. There is nothing we can do about it.



 No.263323[Reply]

My mental illness has been deteriorating at new levels. I reached a period of "newfound" stability some months ago.

I realize I didn't find stability at all, I just snapped peacefully for the first time ever. When I snap I get aggressive, do something dangerous and end up either in ER, the psych ward or in jail. Or all 3 in different orders.

Now that I've dealt with depression and boredom, I'm dealing with erratic behavior while feeling tranquil and happy. Very erratic behavior. I stopped talking to other people voluntarily, and I mean literally everyone I've known, even the few childhood friends I had. I cut ties with all acquaintances. I avoid my coworkers at all times, even though my job revolves around meetings and explaining technical shit to others. I stopped censoring myself when I'm in public and I notice some people get scared, stare at me or simply avoid me, which feels great to be honest. This is starting to happen at work. I'm having more delusions, I'm delusional most of the time.

I am willing to die anytime, I shouldn't censor my behavior, my opinions or anything at all. This is bringing lots of trouble.

They don't even want me in the psych wards. I know how local wards work, I know some of their protocol. I avoid doing stuff that could instantly get me tied, while disrupting the whole place as much as possible. Like, I can't punch a bitch nurse that's not helping me sleep, but I can break the TV, hide dangerous objects (like cables) and trash every single toy so other patients get bored and more aggressive.

>lol normgroid while even talk to other people or work

Because I live in a poor place/country, I need to interact with other people for money and food. Otherwise there's literally no food or money. And I need food to survive. I'm not wagecucking and interacting with people out of fun.

 No.263339

You just pushing yourself and your mental health (social anixety) is not helping you, you got a job great but it requires social interaction with people, man either you take small steps and try to cope or quit it, what is the point of working job if u and getting mad and going to jail pshy ward is this what u want ? don't push ur luck,
try to live a simple peacful life man try to save apply for disbux
If you are stressed about job and ppl why do it? after many years from now you will find it didn't add value to your life it is just maybe fucked your life for worse.
>you just like Buridan's ass equally hungry and thirsty.



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 No.263064[Reply]

I can't believe I had to endure 12 years of this absolute drudgery and idiotic shit.

Thinking back on it, nothing good came of it. I learned no skills, I gained nothing except PTSD and a host of bad memories that make me cringe and make my stomach hurt.

I will never forgive humanity and a society that subjected me to such tortures.
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 No.263130

I would have been better off if I just slacked off got in fights did drugs and skipped school

 No.263160

>>263101
Yeah my parents did push hard against this decision but after going through high school I was so burnt out and desperate for an improvement that it was fairly easy to stay adamant about it.

 No.263182

>>263126
Thats something I really don’t understand in wizchan really. Working is MILLIONS of times more normalfag thing than going university but for some reason its tolerated. I don’t do either btw before someone attacks me. I did graduated from university 4 years ago and I’m 29yo neet. I really believe someone who works cannot be true wizard but just a virgin normal. My father did even find me a cushy job but I said I prefere death over working and I did refused. I’m biologically incapable of working and will NEVER work.

 No.263191

>>263182
> I said I prefere death over working and I did refused

Wow, you're special (the good kind).

 No.263197

>>263191
Most people say that but they never go through with it.



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 No.261562[Reply]

after my sister moved back home a month ago ive been experiencing stress and a result i have constant eye pain
feels like theres some pressure in my eyes and my vision becomes blurry because of it but it only occurs when im home
i've been coping by staying at my grandmothers cottage because i am the only one there but i can't use it at moment because my cousin and his wife are using it.

what should i do?
ive been planning a trip to turkey for 2-3 months in winter so i can stay somewhere else for as long as possible & why do i get ocular pain? and how long do i have to experience ocular pain before anything serious develops like glaucoma, it was bad enough that my vision was blurry
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 No.262268

Türkiye.

 No.262272

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>>261562
OP either needs a pair of glasses or to see an acupuncturist. When I suffered from intense ocular pressure behind/in my left eye opioids were the only things that could negate it but acupuncture actually "cured it". Smoking weed/cigs would also trigger it. You could also try buying some herbs like ashwagandha or passion flower to help calm your nerves and reduce overall bodily tension. Taking magnesium orally can help reduce muscle tension but nothing works better than epsom salts (another form of magnesium) in a hot bath.

I carry most of my anxiety in my jaw which is right up there by the eye & ear where the most complicated tiny bone structures in the human body are located. Ultimately it comes down to mindfulness to not stress yourself into a negative health condition. When people carry their anxiety/guilt/shame in their stomach/gut it can psychosomatically cause terrible life altering symptoms so be glad it hasn't come to that I guess.

 No.263025

>>262272
its stress

 No.263090

>what should i do?
what do I know

 No.263107

>>261562
the attention span here has been deteriorating… OP you have a very hard time being yourself when your sister is around, the conditions of the body mirror the internal struggle you are going through. In my experience, the problem here lies in the fact that you have something buried deep down, connected to your sister, maybe something you can't forgive her for or can't let go of. In wiz terms, we often harbor a lot of resentment towards our female relatives for not being able to reflect on our way of life, thus leaving us down with ourselves and our pain.

A few years back, I would have recommended just going away as far as possible, but in reality, the hardest thing you can do -face that part of pain- is the one most suitable for long term, try talking with her in an honest way, see if anything comes up and you will be better.



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 No.262369[Reply]

How agonizing is wrist cutting as a method? Gun laws are strict as fuck in my country and there's no buildings nearby that are high enough for me to jump off and be 100% I'll actually die and won't just be a vegetable afterwards. I have a box of razor blades I can use whenever I want but I'm still not sure about how painful it's going to be and if I'll even cut the right veins.
Any advice?
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 No.262998

>>262972
It's made up bullshit by the author. I written my thoughts on this on sanctioned suicide before I got banned
"The chart is also misleading in some ways, for example with the shotgun it says it takes 1.7 minutes to die but if you someone killed themselves with a shotgun correctly (which you can find if you click on my profile) you will die in less than 1 second and there would be zero agony since the bullet is faster than pain. Even a handgun will kill in less than a second and be painless if done right. Overdosing on illegal drugs is also very vague because a lot of illegal drugs wont be of any use for suicide, only GHB, Heroin and fentanyl are useful for killing yourself painlessly, the same is for non-prescription drugs too it's very vague and some can kill super quick and painless if done right whilst others are terrible for killing yourself.
Tldr? The chart is misleading and vague"

 No.263020

>>262998
That forum sucks ass so you aren’t missing anything

 No.263097

>>262369
sorry guys I'm really new to this topic, I've had severe mental illness for ages but only been really suicidal last couple years. Why are prescription meds considered a bad method? (Low ranked on that chart.) I have like a shit ton of Klonopin. Do you just throw it up, so it doesn't work?

 No.263103

>>263097
>I have like a shit ton of Klonopin. Do you just throw it up, so it doesn't work?
Don't know about that specific drug, but generally drugs have a low rate of success, and if/when you fail, it tends to completely destroy your stomach lining so you'll have horrendous pain for the rest of your life. Do not try with that method.

 No.263104

>>263097
Most prescription meds make you throw up and/or give you permanent brain damage. There are some prescription meds you can use to OD peacefully such as Amitriptyline, Chloroquine and Darvon but you also need benzodiazepines, phenobarbital or z-drugs in combination with these.
https://archive.ph/R4jm7 this has some info on overdosing on prescription meds



 No.263077[Reply]

Someone has more details about the carbon monoxide method, or a link containing that details


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 No.263007[Reply]

any one else have a eating disorder? I have bulimia and purge 3 times a week.

 No.263008

Quit eating so much!!!



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 No.261808[Reply]

It seems to me that crucial factors that make up our first-person experience have been shaped by events completely out of our control, such as our genes or the environment in which we grew up. Maybe the only thing that counts in life is luck, I didn't ask to be born in a third world country with low intelligence, migraines that make my life hell or depression that seems incurable. Not to mention the annoying normgroids I have to live with on a daily basis. I really hope that there is no afterlife of any kind, or, if there is, that we can at least choose under what conditions to be born. Maybe some blame can be placed on me, but who cares? what am I but a mind causally dependent on a brain that is subject to the same physical laws as everything else in the fucking universe?
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 No.262874

>>262826
The practical side of this debate is quite important. Free will believers usually give up much later than those who say free will is a meme. If you succumb to blind fatalism you will just shrug your shoulder at every misfortune in life instead of taking a more active approach to things. Just on this point alone it is more beneficial to suppose that the will is free.

 No.262904

>>262874
You have no evidence of that. It is the opposite in my experience. Look at the retarded wizkids here, the illusory pressure of life decisions on their shoulders is such a huge burden that it makes them collapse. Only when you see through it can you feel lightweight and paradoxically free from that absurd stress

 No.262910

Yes, I also feel depersonalised and derealised often.

 No.262982

>>262904
This site to me proves something else, most users don't even try things anymore and surrender to whatever life throws at them without a fight. It's always better to try one too many times than to give up easily.

The retarded wizkids are retarded, yeah, they make retarded choices and pursue retarded ideals which aren't worth it. I don't feel any sort of stress or pressure myself. I do things I want to do and don't give up doing them unless I see no reason in trying anymore. But feeling some sort of burden or responsibility can be good actually, it makes you feel like you are really living your life and you aren't just some passive observer. That feeling when you change the external factors and don't let them change you is priceless. It makes you feel powerful, to force your will onto your surroundings.

 No.262987

Damn bro, too relatable….



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 No.262907[Reply]

I am feeling extremely depressed. I'm coming down from a cycle of elevated mood in general. The sharp shift is confusing and painful. I am mentally ill, delving on details is needless.

I was diagnosed years ago, I've done therapy for many years. I'm an "experienced" patient, I already have all the healthy coping mechanisms. Already been through the suicide attempts and ER, multiple times. Already been through multiple meds, eating healthy and exercising every day. The list goes on and on. Whatever you can imagine there is to improve symptoms, I already did that and succeeded with some methods which I still do. I could even teach you what and what not to do when you're new to your diagnosis or therapy in general.

Point is, I'm here, it won't get better, it hurts and it will hurt forever. I can't even drive a car because of symptoms. I can't control when I dissociate or end up psychotic and I genuinely don't realize when it's happening. My dad has to carpool me to/from work every single day and we hate each other. I don't feel like a complete loser, I am one.

One of my diagnosis is extremely common in the male incarcerated population which makes everything even sadder, I'm prone to violence and it's hard to admit that, only recently I've been meditating on this because I had to stop counting my problems with the law. My hate delusions only get more elaborate through the years and I'm a very decent lone-wolf, I get stuff done by myself, I easily improvise and I do things fast.

Fuck this, I'm going to run and throw a football to clear my mind.
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 No.262920

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>>262919
>Demons don't exist
If only that were true…

 No.262921

>>262919
>I cleanse myself everyday
apparently it's not working that well if you're suicidal

 No.262925

>>262907
I was unable to study for driving license. Today I've reduced that a bit but it still took a lot of focus on mucusless foods and fasting from time to time.

 No.262939

>>262921
Cleansing yourself comes with accepting your faith, good or bad. It's not supposed to be for "improving", there is nothing to improve.

>>262932

Wizards are crazy, which isn't bad. People in this imageboard that aren't crazy are very likely crabcels instead, not wizchads like us.

 No.262945

>>262925
If you are a loony like me you should not drive, it is dangerous, specially if your area is prone to high traffic and jams.

Dangerous for your well-being I clarify, I couldn't give a fuck if you accidentally ram a truck into an orphanage full of kitties.



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