[ Home ] [ wiz / dep / hob / lounge / jp / meta / games / music ] [ all ] [  Rules ] [  FAQ ] [  Search /  History ] [  Textboard ] [  Wiki ]

/dep/ - Depression

Depression
[]
Email
Subject
Comment
File
Embed
Password (For file deletion.)

  [Go to bottom]  [Catalog]  [Reload]  [Archive]

File: 1603185219063.jpg (95.58 KB, 1200x676, 300:169, bitcoin-1594870913.jpg) ImgOps iqdb

 No.230600[Reply]

Bitcoin. How many other Wizards, other than myself, missed out on their chance to eternal NEETdom? Personally, I've been aware of Bitcoin since 2009. I even mined it for a time before giving up. To rub salt in the wound further, I was even friends with many people who invested in it, yet never followed their example myself. While this is mostly due to the fact I was rather young at the time, even a small change of heart would have made me a millionaire right now.

For a long time, you were either born into riches or worked hard to get there. Now you'd be rich if you put spare change into internet funny money years ago. It's not fair, bros. And the regret will haunt me for the rest of my life.

If you have some crypto regret stories, share them in this thread so that this poor wizard might not feel alone in their mistake anymore. Wagecucking is so much more painful when you know you could have avoided it entirely.
46 posts and 6 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.238036

File: 1616550683049.jpg (3.37 MB, 7500x5304, 625:442, 1594577759763.jpg) ImgOps iqdb

>>230600

Don't think you missed out on the crypto boat just yet. The crypto space is going through its adoption phase and bankers along with normies will pile in soon.

Buy BTC/ETH/LINK if you want to retire in 5 years.

ETH or ethereum will bring about a privatized decentralized internet where useless third parties/ corporations/banks will be replaced by DAPPs and smart contracts.

LINK or chainlink will secure the data feeds that connect the surface level internet protocols and businesses to DAPPs or smartcontracts and act as an decentralized oracle.

Buy at least 100 LINK and 1-10ETH if you can afford it. You will thank me in 3-5 years when LINK hits 1,000+. Do your own research as there are other great projects out there such as DOT and UBT that will blow up as well. Just do your own research and see what projects actually do and who are the developers working on the projects itself. Good lucks guys

 No.238037

>>238036
Trusted „“ )
>>Mainnet
It floats?

 No.238038

File: 1616551875195.jpg (3.31 MB, 7500x5304, 625:442, 1594577830478.jpg) ImgOps iqdb

>>238037
here's some more resources for you to dig into.

https://www.chainlinkhub.com/breadcrumbs/

Mainnet-protocol that is fully online for the public to interact with.

Testnet-protocol that is private and can be tested for developers

 No.238042

>>234793
This.

Notice how nobody ever talks about using bitcoin to buy drugs or whatever anymore like they used to, that's because the black market aspect (one of the factors driving demand early on) has moved onto other more efficient and discrete coins. This coupled with the fact that the transaction costs are high means that it's not worth using for any small purchases. And further, the volatility of the coin makes it further shit for using as a currency, you sell something for 2 bitcoins today and find out tomorrow that you've lost $20,000 because bitcoin had a another bear moment.

The volatility, transaction fees and superior alternative coins all make it a shit currency. Why then is it retaining its value? Because people are speculating on it and using it as a storage of value, it's all dependent on bitcoin consistently growing and recovering from its crashes. It's a giant pyramid scheme at this point and the longer it goes on, the more bagholders there will be. It's one that's been strangely immune to popping because the recovery from previous crashes has been followed by a boom, which means there's a horde of people just waiting for the dip to sink a whole lot of money in.

Bitcoin will be stable for a while, lots of financial institutions are now hedging their money in there because the stock market itself is volatile in its own way. It's a safe bet at the moment due to the aforementioned fellas waiting to buy the dip, but once the economy recovers and bitcoin stops its bull run, you'll see that money start to seep out.

 No.238044

>>238036
And I think with eth it's still possible to mine and make a profit, albeit a small one, depending on your electricity costs.



File: 1607095242649.jpg (2.8 MB, 3264x2448, 4:3, 20201020_214917_HDR.jpg) ImgOps iqdb

 No.233084[Reply]

How do you guys handle alcoholism? I'm wage-slaving at the moment and can't quite understand how to handle it.
52 posts and 3 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237954

>>233084
Get locked up for a significant amount of time to where you don't have access to it and get used to not having it. It also helps to not have any money or a vehicle to purchase any after you get out.

The second option is to get addicted to something else instead, like kratom.

 No.237955

>>234458
>If you are forced to go cold turkey, you will suffer the first flames of Hell, even worse than with Opioid withdrawals.

Very, very true.

 No.238002

>>234437
>Also the time lock I brought had pictures showing it for degenerate uses, such as male penis cages and human collars. I fucking hate this world
I don't get why this upsets you. Would you rather every one of those cucks uses their penis to impregnate more succubi and reproduce faster?
If anything the whole idea of a chastity cage is actually very wizardly if you think about the implications.

 No.238007

>>234458
>Alcohol is the only psychoactive substance, from which withdrawals you can die.
Not true. You can also die from barbiturate, opiate and benzodiazepine withdrawal. Probably other drugs too I haven't heard of.

 No.238025

>>238007
Never heard of direct death caused by opiate withdrawals. You are right about benzos, their withdrawal induce pretty similar seizures in extreme cases as do alchol ones.

Psychological effects are of course so heavy with opiate withdrawals that there is increased change of suicide.
And of course, someone with very bad health, and especially with heart condition, can die from pretty much anything that will put strain on the heart.



File: 1615724639860.jpg (44.23 KB, 609x419, 609:419, Harlow_PHOTO_CREDIT_UW-Mad….jpg) ImgOps iqdb

 No.237613[Reply]

I'm sure everyone knows the studies on monkeys in isolation and how they become depressed and unmotivated, how humans are social creatures and most people rely on social interaction to feel fulfilled, how solitary confinement in prison is seen as the most severe punishment for a prisoner, the thing is, if social isolation is shown to be so detrimental to people, why don't us wizards enjoy socializing? Why do we shy away from people and isolate when it's so bad for us? I honestly don't understand this about myself at all, if social interaction makes us anhedonic and depressed, and social isolation also makes us anhedonic and depressed, then what hope is there for any of us? Are we beyond saving? Are we fundamentally broken, like a bricked phone, stuck in a permenant state of faulty programming and boot loops?
6 posts omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237914

>>237911
>socializing at work is dreadful, as its a mix of the dregs of society (rap/social media loving 20somethings, catty succs, "men" trying to prove yheir manliness or superiority)
>home is better but i still have to deal with parents and their nagging
>fuck social media. Webforums are slightly better, but its starting to becomeinfested with normals and zoomers

 No.237969

File: 1616452305040.jpg (15.7 KB, 264x400, 33:50, external-content.duckduckg….jpg) ImgOps iqdb

>>237613
Solitude is a motivation for creativity which can only be foumd when searching deep within oneself.
A lot of highly creative people and thinkers spent a lot of their time alone.

this books was interesting, goes into a lot of the psychology behind people like us.

 No.237971

Your social drives aren't evolved in relation to the current social environment but a constant social tribe environment. The same drives of avoidance are evident in other apes but manifest as functional within a social dynamic that doesn't breakdown. Developing functionally beneficial behaviors and accurate sense of social isolation may not have happened in an environment where the social environment is constant. If one deducing social isolation from the "depressed" experience it's different from an actual known craving which may not exist for social isolation.

 No.237972

I know this has been said a million times, but you yourself only posted this thread to socialize with other humans. You cannot be a part of wizchan and claim to not like socializing on some level.

 No.237974

>>237972
This makes me think whether the subreddit /schizo and related subs are self negating forums as all the participants like to socialize. It more seems like there are the wrong conditions in real life socializing instead of it being a personality disorder.



File: 1615072004382.webm (1.19 MB, 578x384, 289:192, Gondola feels.webm) ImgOps iqdb

 No.237280[Reply]

I am unable to relate to nearly anyone online that expresses their misery for example the event that prompted this thread was seeing someone mention they are suicidal and plan to kill themselves and I sympathized at first only to read on and discover as usual it was a crab sad that he was alone without a GF and instantly I felt disgust.

I will browse communities related to mental health and be turned off my how everyone is toxically spewing optimism and often the case is they are just using the sad people to feel better about themselves making irrational absolutist statements that life always gets better which is a blatant lie and requires ignoring reality.

The people I see posting online about being miserable seem to often be attention seekers trying to get some (you)'s to feed their ego what is more is that you cannot actually openly discuss ideas anywhere about being truly pessimistic but here on wizchan or you get banned.
I am sick and tired of the marketplace of ideas being regulated by normalfags who attempt to shut down any controversial community especially when it comes to mental health for example pro suicide forums. (sanctioned suicide is full of normalfags and crabs)

I feel extremely alienated both online and offline due to having opinions which I can defend logically and it is starting to really wear me down.
11 posts and 1 image reply omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237769

Everytime I find some community of losers it's filled with the same type of person who you can just correctly guess their background, family, beliefs, media tastes, etc. That includes this place and you reading this post. I personally hate it. I have to watch myself everywhere.

 No.237938

>>237721
Kind of based, but I wonder what you do in your free time anon? reading probably?
>>237755
He most likely doesn't actually hate others anon, as hate actually takes effort. Being indifferent and just dossing or LDAR-ing isn't rare especially on this board and I thought you'd already be familiar with such notions.

 No.237962

>>237938
He clearly stated that he hated others, it is not just being indifferent.

 No.237966

>>237721
Do you feel your drive for solitude just gets stronger by age, kind of an addiction that has no end to it?

 No.237973

everything has its reason. Suffering has merit….live because more is to come. The answer might be in the suffering



File: 1603219222203.jpeg (54.81 KB, 640x359, 640:359, trainspotting_green_mattr….jpeg) ImgOps iqdb

 No.230614[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I can't, I just can't stop with this porn addiction, I don't even enjoy it anymore, I just do it because I have the hope of feeling something but in the end is always the same, I've tried everything to stop, my longest streak was 32 days but, the boredom I experienced was horrible, everyday I cut my internet access but since I have no job or go to school I was all the day bored, I could not enjoy my anime because of the flatline I think I may have neet anhedonia, I haven't go to school since 1 year ago when I dropped out of high school, I cannot get a job because I am a high school drop out, I cannot go back to to school because of corona virus, my brain is fried, I cannot stand this anymore.
115 posts and 20 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237936

>>237935
Well, please do tell, what is a spook?

 No.237939

>>237937
Oh, I thought he was using it in the Stirnerian sense.

 No.237947

>>237611
>reframe the problem
Yes, I agree. I kept failing until I realized that the semen equals my life energy. I compared how I feel while keeping nofap with how I feel without it and the difference was that I was more hollow, lifeless when I was jerking it to anime titties. If semen is the energy of my life, and preserving it makes me more whole, more energized, then why waste it? Why make life more miserable than it is? It really helped getting out of this addiction. Been sober for 183 days.

 No.237961

>>236651
>Securing financial independence, developing knowledge, creativity, critical thinking skills, strengthening your body, increasing vitality, endurance, peeling back layers of illusions in the world and the self, developing an intuition for Truth…
So again, what is the relation between fapping for an hour a day and doing these things? Or rather, why can't you do both? How does masturbation exactly prevent you from doing "useful" stuff?

You won't become an Übermensch just because you stop watching porn and stop masturbating.

>>236659
>point is that they further degenerate over time. Just look at all those discord trannies and shit
The term "degeneration" is entirely subjective and just means something that can't be accepted by normal people. I fap to trannies too, what is exactly wrong with it?
>ry fapping without any porn at all
Never understood this argument either. Why is it better to fap without porn? Why should I fantasize about succubi in my neighborhood instead of masturbating to bimbos whom I will never meet with? Plus watching porn+masturbating is much better and pleasurable than doing it without any visual support.

 No.238454

>>237961
what if I told you this was the new norm?


[Last 50 Posts]

File: 1614222155103.jpg (52.25 KB, 548x469, 548:469, 1547790026258-0.jpg) ImgOps iqdb

 No.236807[Reply]

how does one stop overthinking? the sheer amount of variables just makes me want to give up right away
i can't enjoy anything because i'm scared of the things that could go wrong while other people people just live their lives on the go and don't give a fuck
17 posts omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237786

>>237703
The key is to stop trying to escape. Hard to explain. I realized that today and things suddenly became not as bad as I thought they were

 No.237826

>>237518
this, chronic back and neck pain are no joke

 No.237885

Read the book power of now

 No.237887

>>237518
You can't feel your heart. What you have is muscles shaking due to tension or anxiety

 No.237888

>>237518
>get gout
>toe (then ankle) swells out, turns red
>pain is excruciating. It's kind of like a mix between stubbing my toe and pins and needles, but different. Hard to explain besides "it hurts a lot"
>enjoy walking. Can't do it because it makes foot pain worse
>can't even sleep, lay down or sit down without foot paining
Not sure if it's the worst pain ever, but it's the worst I've felt. Glad I'm on meds for it. I'd rather "mild anhedonia" over physical pain



File: 1609687439875.png (82.43 KB, 1108x1009, 1108:1009, M6qSNM1.png) ImgOps iqdb

 No.234341[Reply]

I've seen this image posted around here many times and I think it warrants its own thread for discussion. It really gives a good visual summary of Schopenhauer's philosophically grounded idea of reincarnation:

>Only by a false illusion does the cool shade of Orcus allure him as a

haven of rest. The earth rolls on from day into night; the individual
dies; but the sun itself burns without intermission, an eternal noon.
Life is certain to the will-to-live; the form of life is the endless present; it matters not how individuals, the phenomena of the Idea, arise
and pass away in time, like fleeting dreams.

>When we die, we throw off our individuality like a worn-out garment


In short, according to this position, life is the permanent condition of this world. When you die, you may lose your self (your elevated perspective) but not selfhood in general. As long as there is a perceiving subject, it is (you) that is perceiving as transmuted consciousness. What is compelling about this idea is that it doesn't depend on the existence of an immortal soul or spirit in order to be true.

So my question is, do you find this position plausible? If yes, does it scare you?

Honestly I find it both plausible and nightmarish in its consequences, because it entails that there is no rest, no peace and no release from the torments of this world, not even for a minute. The moment you are gone, there is not even a pause before you are violently brought back to be tortured, gutted, and consumed once more in the cosmic slaughterhouse.
31 posts and 2 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.234831

>>234341
why cant it be finite before and infinite after?

 No.237818

>>234341
>because it entails that there is no rest, no peace and no release from the torments of this world, not even for a minute.
This is my main critique to buddhism and dharmic religions in general. They take the concept of moksa/nirvana/liberation as granted when there's no proof for it. How do you know the Buddha is free from the rebirth cycle? These traditions claim that either renouncing desire or merging with God/Brahman ends the cycle of rebirth, yet there is no evidence of this. The Buddha could've been reborn and be living now as another person, or if you were to live eternally the same life he'd be living the same life either right now (or in a future if the universe starts again).

 No.237820

File: 1616145831707.png (3.11 MB, 1844x2048, 461:512, Screenshot_20210313-173148.png) ImgOps iqdb

>When you die, you may lose your self (your elevated perspective) but not selfhood in general. As long as there is a perceiving subject, it is (you) that is perceiving as transmuted consciousness. What is compelling about this idea is that it doesn't depend on the existence of an immortal soul or spirit in order to be true.

If this "transmuted consciousness" is "you" in any meaningful sense then what you are describing is literally just an immortal soul

 No.237835

>>237820
where does this picture comes from?

 No.237836

File: 1616182360899.jpg (3.34 MB, 3521x4736, 3521:4736, Yamamoto Takato.jpg) ImgOps iqdb

>>237835
Not him but it's by a Japanese artist that draws in the Pre-Raphaelite style. He's actually pretty goood.



 No.235903[Reply]

Any wizards have experience with long term sleep deprivation? By this I mean sleeping less than 7 hours a night for long periods of time. Since I started wagecucking full-time I have been working 7 to 3 and sleeping from 12 to 6 or sometimes 1 to 6 in terms of when I actually manage to fall asleep. I'm amazed at the lack of free time and even with what I do have I have less and less creative energy. Worse, I have begun to feel more and more dissociated from reality. Like I am not actually in my body. I've had this happen before. Age 13 I realized life was less real than it used to be. Age 16 I had another episode briefly but it wasn't persistent. But over this past year it's grown worse and I've had more and more common of these awful intrusive thoughts and other shit. I just care less and less about anything. Ideology religions philosophy I just don't give a shit. And I wonder if there is any way back? Any other anons have experience with long term sleep deprivation? How long before you felt normal again once resuming s normal sleep schedule?
8 posts and 1 image reply omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237464

I've slept less than 2 hours a night for the last 5 days because of benzo withdrawal.
Not incredibly long term but I feel pretty numb and disassociated.
I hope it ends soon

 No.237500

>>235933
I’m this guy, I’ve been taking 2mg of loraZepam Before bed and though I’m not getting 8 hours in one sweep, I fall asleep after waking briefly and it feels as if I slept for 8 for the rest of the day.

So if anyone is wondering, go straight for bentos and fuck muh withdrawal. I’d rather suffer and sleep soundly

 No.237504

I have been suffering from a severe case of insomnia for a couple of years, I recently went back to sleep regularly and found that the problem was that because I am a hikki I did not get enough sun exposure causing a vitamin D deficiency.

 No.237809

>>237464
>Not incredibly long term but I feel pretty numb and disassociated.

What causes this, scientifically?

 No.237813

>>237504
I started taking Vit. B, Vit. D, and Ginseng recently and it has helped me some with this. Being hikki it is hard to get yourself out of the nocturnal sleep cycle



File: 1614741892829.jpg (40.89 KB, 676x676, 1:1, b442b3c2ac6ac0beffc9e55447….jpg) ImgOps iqdb

 No.237034[Reply]

I am constantly upset and depressed for absolutely no reason. Nothing I do works. What should I do ? Thanks
5 posts and 1 image reply omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237048

Have you tried all the memes? Eating healthier and supplementing, exercising, meditating, getting natural sunlight, or getting adequate sleep? I personally think there is some truth to it. They are at the very least tools to help you understand your body.

 No.237054

>>237039
Drugs make you upset and depressed. Looks like we found the problem.

 No.237058

>>237048
OP here, I haven't tried some of those things
>getting natural sunlight
i'm indoors mostly all day but I do go on walks/jogs at the park often

>>237054
yeah I realize they probably aren't helping but I wonder if it's even worth quitting

 No.237377

>>237039
>"helped i'm depressed"
>does drugs
>doesnt want to quit
you are only ever going to get worse

 No.237803

>>237377
Vortioxetine is helping me a lot.
>>237058
Are you talking about recreational drugs or medical drugs?



File: 1607577373831.gif (5.19 MB, 332x250, 166:125, c2149932e68731c7fed31d8aa9….gif) ImgOps iqdb

 No.233430[Reply]

Do you guys ever think that maybe you are Chris-chan?

So I have this problem with being able to see an objective version of myself, as in like how I come off. I know how I come off in my head, but there is a disconnect between what you and others think.

I know a lot of people here like to exaggerate their situation, but we're not really at Chris-chan levels of autism, right? Do you honestly think you are THAT bad? I mean, you're obviously fucked up, but you're not that fucked up.

But, is it possible that's actually what you are? You are actually so far gone that you don't even realize how far gone you are. That is what autistic people do, isn't it? Part of autism is being unaware of how you come off to others. So if you have autism, how do you really know how others truly see you?

Like you have an idea in your head about how much autism you actually have, but how come that can't be part of the autism delusion? Is it possible you are actually just an unaware walking Chris-chan? I mean that would explain more why people react to you the way they do.
49 posts and 4 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.

 No.237699

>>237687
I hate that I know those names

 No.237702

>>237687
kiwifarms believe all wizards are Chris chan tier

 No.237707

>>237702
Cuckfarms doesnt seem to care much about us anymore thankfully and now that /cow/ is dead from what I can see I think that chapter is finally about to close.

 No.237766

There's no shame in being severely autistic. Don't be so condescending, OP.

 No.237807

File: 1616123953145.png (186.48 KB, 1607x414, 1607:414, cuckfarms.png) ImgOps iqdb




  [Go to top]   [Catalog]
Delete Post [ ]
[1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10]
[ Home ] [ wiz / dep / hob / lounge / jp / meta / games / music ] [ all ] [  Rules ] [  FAQ ] [  Search /  History ] [  Textboard ] [  Wiki ]