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 No.289573[Reply]

Older wizzie here, I spend a good decade on psych meds and constantly trying to work past my autism. It doesn't work, here's some advice for you high functioning spergs that are suffering.

1. Make dealings with the fact you'll never have a wife, girlfriend and children, and psychologically accept it. The crab blackpill stuff with autism is 100% correct, it is harder for us than someone with schizophrenia. I'm someone tall and good looking enough to be asked out by succubi in the past, but it doesn't work out as they ghost you the second they work out what you are.

2. If you have to socialize, socialize with old people. They're more forgiving than younger normalfags. Retirement homes advertise chatting and talking to the elderly, if you need to get your social fix in, you could easily sate the urge with that. They won't be mean to you and they'll be desperate for your company. If you're an extroverted aspie who needs socialization, have a grandma/grandpa or two you go and see every second day. You will absolutely make their day, and you'll be able to talk to someone in a safe environment.

3. Get offline. Computer addiction destroys aspies, and we're susceptible to porn addiction and absolutely depraved coomery. If you're NEETing you can easily spend 12+ hours a day doomscrolling. We're all trannying out at rapid rates because we're susceptible to that brainrot.

4. A part time job where you work alone is preferable to NEETdom. But make sure it is alone, you must always find work where you're alone. You will be victimized because of your condition in hyper-social normie workplaces, guaranteed. Even if you weren't at school, you will be at work. Autists are typically fine at school but suffer at work to the point where 85% of us live on NEETbux.

5. Understand that there's nothing in the normalfag life that will actually make you happy. I did it all, I pushed myself to the limits trying to suppress and overcome my autism. I lived a life that for a while could be considered normie. It will not satisfy you and it won't make you happy. Find a healthy routine and stick to it.

6. Kacazynski-maxx if you can. If you can live in the countryside with a bit of land, do it. Having a small garden, going fishing, being in nature and having a dog will make you pretty happy by yourself. I was my happiest the less I used screens and the more outdoors I was.
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 No.289610

Lately I've found the "enforcement" against us is somewhat less - so long as we're marked as clear social inferiors and don't make the mistake of thinking we can have any friends, and that our activities will be constrained. That's what all of that was about when it was done in the 80s and 90s - creating a slave society and marking who the low slaves are.

The "gig economy" has been a godsend for many of us, because no one really cares about your background if you can provide some service. A lot of the big stuff is just imperial largesse, but if you find a niche, you can find something to sell, even if it's not the best life. The biggest problem is finding the true believers who make it their mission to destroy us, so they can Nazify this whole planet and make everyone as Satanic as them. I make my niche by saying what those people are and describing their MO, and this has also helped me seek out things which are truly important.

I find the best "cure", so far as there is one, is to see this beast for what it is, and stop internalizing it. If you describe it as brain inflammation and something mechanistic, that is something that can be managed and allows you agency, and the ruling ideas are that autists are definitionally devoid of agency and thought. That's the ideological though, common to liberals, Marxists, and Nazis alike - they all share the common thread of suppressing everyone who wasn't meant for the new world.

 No.289612

quick post but older wizard here to and can confirm that OP is lacking in life experience as to make some of his points and advices very bad.

lots of people that been sheltered and buffered have no idea and they have lots stupid notions and no idea still.

 No.289632

>>289610
My country in Europe is being destroyed so hard by inflation and lack of wage increases, even local Doordashing is becoming infeasible as less and less people order food to their homes.

And it's the only gig economy/app job available. People are simply running out of money.

 No.289642

>>289612
Okay instead of being a faggot that just lobs criticisms, why don't you tell me exactly what I've gotten wrong and why?

That's such a normalfag thing to do. Just lie back and smugly assert "well you don't know anything". It's intolerable in real life and it's insufferable on here.

 No.289644

There is a certain type of high functioning autist who is basically just a mega nerd and his autism allows him deep interest into a particular area and that unlocks high paid nerd jobs which unlocks kinda ugly nerd pussy, otherwise I don't really see much to disagree with. I don't know why they're giving you a hard time.



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 No.278964[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Suicide general, - Discuss everything suicide related here.

                                             
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 No.286840

>>286839
So then it has everything to do with other people, if your happiness is tied to how they feel.

 No.286841

>>286696
It is written in the legends of the desets lands that Saint Adolf used it to end his life. His death is just a fairytale they tell to their kids, but the PPK in .32 is very lethal. It's a service arm after all, designed to kill.

 No.287371

>>286538
ok that part about the KPIs and the store requiring an app was actually quite funny

 No.287589

>>286612
Thanks man. It's me, the guy who wrote that note. I'm alive.

Thank you guys. I don't know why I'm still here. I haven't really been the same since those few days. I'm not doing any better, I've started completely neglecting myself, and I'm angry.

But I'm alive. I don't know why.

 No.289518

fuck fentanyl


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 No.289435[Reply]

It's insane how much of my suffering is self-inflicted by my mind.

I had almost a mental breakdown because of a fucking free2play video game I play just to pass the time. I keep playing it because I'm addicted to earning "rewards" even though what use are these rewards if I don't actually enjoy the core game? I am so used to playing it every day like a job I didn't even realize how much time I was wasting. I can spend an entire day playing that dogshit when I have, even if I am not productive, more fulfilling things to do like play well crafted singleplayer video games that are not designed to be addictive, or read a book or watch a movie…

I feel like I have barely any time despite being a NEET because I keep wasting my time like this and also browsing imageboards out of some stupid FOMO even though I know 99.9% of the time it's just shitposts. My brain is so trained to have this nonstop, nonchallenging stimulation that even reading a short article or watching a 10 minute video feels like a big task. I feel ashamed of living like this. Like these people in dystopian stories who just consume connected to some machine. I barely feel like a person because I didn't grow by facing and overcoming challenges and doing stuff by myself because I want to and not because my someone forced me to.

Every time I actually did something it wasn't that bad like I enjoyed exercising and yet I forgot it was an option and feel like all I can do is the same routine of waking up, eating pre-made food, playing the same game, browsing imageboards and then go to sleep. Like even the slightest deviation from this feels almost impossible. I actually felt proud of myself for finally playing a singleplayer game I bought on steam sale 4 years ago… that's just super sad.

 No.289439

>>289435
>free2play video game I play just to pass the time.
What game?

 No.289440

>>289439
Magic the Gathering Arena.

The randomness part is what frustrates me even though it's also what allows me to win despite being mediocre at the game.

 No.289445

>>289440
I reached master rank and quit. It became pay 2 win.



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 No.285492[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

nothing makes sense edition

previous >>281123
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 No.289478

>>289459
the word you're looking for is indentured not indebted.

you never know what will happen in the future and society is going to change in ways the world has never seen over the coming decade. i don't think it will be better, but i know there will be more opportunities because there will be a lot of chaos and people will all be much more in the mix. you will have the opportunity to compete like wild west days.

which is why the best advices on this site is still, disregard females, acquire magic.

make your body and mind strong, this will increase your mana. you will be a strong wizard able to protect and have agency in the world. focus on exercise, eating well, learning useful skills and don't fret about normal values and beliefs which are all derived from self-pleasure and self-gain motivations.

 No.289514

>>285492
Im completely unemployable

 No.289591

>absolutely miserable and constantly stressed when I have a job
>somehow even more stressed out when I'm unemployed
I know it's unrealistic but I really wish I just got money for existing

 No.289603

>>289591
Lots of neets do. The problem is being lucky enough to be born into a country that has neetbucks.

 No.289719

Seeing all of the big time nepo baby streamers complain about how hard their job "streaming" is and putting down actual everyday Joes who are working absolutely god-awful jobs just to barely afford to live makes me so fucking pissed off. Let's just put it into perspective for a moment. Those streamers can come out with some of the worst takes possible which anger their entire audience and yet….people will still continue to watch them. They'll give them money. Nothing changes. NOTHING. They can make absolute fucking fools of themselves and get away with it. How is that hard? If I piss off the wrong co-worker then my life will turn into a living hell and I stand a good chance of losing my job over it and thus my livelihood because I can't just be a NEET. If my manager doesn't like me then they'll do everything in their power to replace me, as has literally happened twice now in my working career. These streamers are so far out of touch they have no idea. And yet they claim to be left-leaning socialists. Go fuck yourself Hasan and Asmongold.


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 No.289326[Reply]

I am here because I need advice from people older than me. I'm a 21 year old Mexican guy who only has 4 friends and has never had a girlfriend (like probably most people here). I make $100 a week so I barely make enough for anything, I hate my job and I have a hard time finding a job because I have rotacism. I have identity crisis as I like to create fake profiles everyday on shitbook but within hours of creating them I delete them. I masturbate frequently and I don't know what to do with my life. I would like to get feedback from you if possible.

Thanks a lot for reading
PS: I don't know English very well so I apologize if the text is confusing.

 No.289327

4 friends AND a job?
you should be giving US advice haha
humble bragger
even your english is perfect

 No.289328

My country is even poorer than mexico. If I were to get a job, which I won't, I'd make 32 us dollars a week, also barely enough for anything.

 No.289339

>>289326
You probably want to post this on Reddit, and leave this site.

 No.289349

+1 for classic bruce banner image

 No.289392

>>289328
Sounds like literal hell. I just spent $35 on takeaway food for Saturday.



 No.287818[Reply]

Wiz was a mute all through school and made no friends because of his face

Wiz was depressed most of his life, never having the opportunity to live like the rest or be accepted by other humans

Wiz was bullied and rejected for his looks and developed depression

Wiz liked videogames because it did not involve other people who judged him and made him feel miserable

Wiz liked videogames so much that he created a youtube channel dedicated to it

Wiz youtube channel dedicated to videogames was a success(1 million subscribers)

but Wiz never showed his face

Wiz have no need to, Wiz was funny and people liked him

then one day

Wiz did a face reveal

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 No.289174

dont drink yourself to death. im a wizard i dont drink because it is death. it is a waste and much more pain than what you think or ever deserve.

always leave yourself with some options. a river has two banks. wiz needs to love himself and be good to himself. make his own value system derive from lofty wizardly ideals.

can i put this to you, what if your life right now is the same at the end of that steven king adaptation the mist, and youre thinking its over, you do commit and its too late to turn back then things change and you realise the horror.

my point is you only have self body needs to be looked after, look after it dont do something you cant take back. it isnt cool anymore when its not an abstraction on the internet imageboard and youre that person who is dying and in pain.

 No.289177

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So uhh… How do y'all explain Ricky Berwick (pic related) who looks just as unconventional face-wise as MittenSquad and Dizzy but gained 2 million subs over the past year?

Dear GOD/GODS and/or anyone else who can HELP ME (e.g. TIME TRAVELERS or MEMBERS OF SUPER-INTELLIGENT ALIEN CIVILIZATIONS): The next time I wake up, please change my physical form to that of FINN MCMILLAN formerly of SOUTH NEW BRIGHTON at 8 YEARS OLD and keep it that way FOREVER. I am so sick of this chubby Asian man body! Thank you! - CHAUL JHIN KIM (a.k.a. A DESPERATE SOUL)

 No.289181

>>289177
> How do y'all

Ricky is a self deprecating absurd comedian that is deformed which gains him views for shock value alone. That's his entire appeal and why normalfags watch him, to laugh at him.

 No.289190

>>289181
>Ricky is a self deprecating absurd comedian that is deformed which gains him views for shock value alone. That's his entire appeal and why normalfags watch him, to laugh at him.
He also strategically chose the 'based and redpilled' sphere like any grifter/niche personality.

 No.289209

>>289177
I am glad for him.



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 No.289111[Reply]

whats odd that while i have social anxiety surrounding all social situations in general, it seems that it gets worse around people i personally know or have to interact with more often. like i can tell strangers on chatrooms like omegle my life story or my most embarassing mistakes or secrets and not care much but i cant tell anything to people i wanna be friends with or people i know. like the strnager im talking to wouldnt care about me or probably wont remember or any of the shit i said to them and they wouldnt really tell others my most personal info coz im nothing but a stranger to them as well so it wouldnt be of worth. im most scared of being judged by people i know. anyone relate and does anyone know what could be the reason behind this?

 No.289139

my basic take is that you're more concerned with the consequences peoples perception of you has than what they think. its a reasonable enough fear to have and keeps people in line. there are dire consequences if youre exiled from the group the human animal knows this. now the average people deal with this fear also except theyre insulated with proportionate support and love type factors, and so they know even if some do judge them the consequences cant be so bad. for a wizard if you are alone and you lose maybe one person you had then now you are much worse off.

and its true because your mind knows on some level damn better not mess this up this one is actually important or i could end up in trouble. maybe your beliefs attitudes opinions being different enough from others that you anticipate judgement and its consequences and know its not good for you in particular not then being well fancied or liked in general.

one group is dependent on to survive in this world, another is almost interchangeable seemingly

 No.289155

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People that have known me since when I was a kid or at least younger, I have a worse time with because I have to pretend that I've not fallen into the abyss that I have.
While with strangers, I can tell them right away that I'm a mentally ill pessimist, and whatever.
It's years since I'm full-hikki now, though, so I simply don't interact with people at all.

 No.289165

Obviously family and friends will have normalnigger views. You'll never be able to change their views and nothing they say will change yours. It's pointless to talk to normalfags since their life wasn't filled with humiliation and failure at every step.

 No.289188

Yeah, I'm the same way. I assume it's because I actually have avoidant personality disorder rather than just social anxiety. Fear of being judged, embarrassed, disliked and rejected are stronger with someone you actually care about.



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 No.289157[Reply]

I have some kind of severe neurological condition i have no clear answers on and I've apparently suffered from to some degree forever, but it's gotten far worse over the past few years.

I'm completely boxed in, I'm scared of what my reality will become in a few years and I don't want to be here to find out but obviously I may not have the nerve to off myself.

I don't think whatever your circumstances may be that it's all that hopeless, I'd do anything for a functional brain at this point, Jesus christ, I bet if you cut down on screen time and jogged each day your mood would improve by 30 percent at least.

I'm fucked but I don't get that sense from most of the guys here, I see people who are unmotivated and fearful of rejection, who truly don't have any real struggle.

 No.289158

me too. im at point where its so bad im not sure if i wrote that post in some fugue state. society doesnt help people without advocacy, either there are people that love you to help you or you will be in a world of hurt.

except my body despite all best efforts and doing the right thing to take care of it. its also damaged from bad surgery as a kid from socialised medicine the dr makes mistake in public on a patient.

there always been always will be passers through angsty also temp apprentices which are normal and will move on from here. lots of really depress wizard dont even post.

youre right at that point the end its alienating you come to a place for outcast on the internet and then even within that group there are successful people that are mistaken by eveyrone around them for being normal npcs. definitely lots people here that will fix themselves in time and move on, then others who will not and as you put it struggle tremendously not only in their mind but real physical world problems that cannot be thought around. being unable to walk for example. its not the same, still it must suck for them, i'm glad there are some wizard out there doing well.

 No.289166

>>289158
Damn I'm sorry about the physical disabilities, I can walk fine but I have heart damage from drugs and booze. It is what it is. I think I'm gonna wrap it up soon

 No.289170

>>289166
dubs checked and sorry the physical you too. dont want know to say to youo which make me sad for both of us because i dont know what to say to myself. its very difficult, how can i tell you when i know myself, that despondency knowing that even if somehow your physical shell wasn't affecting your mind.

to tell yourself some copes well, we cant know when we will pass, people die of accident anytime cant live like that ok. my retort, im basic required biological functions, in a lot of pain the mental anguish, disability makes more difficult. it got worse over the years. i did work very hard to fix things. the equation doesnt work. theres a lot broken and im of little value to others so there isnt investment where its needed to get better. it is scary, im not scared of death, what is scary is to know the world how it is, my state and condition, and that my efforts are inadequate because of circumstance outside control.

its scary, to think what will it be like if things this bad now as an old man. when you cant even look after yourself. people will say that is depression, maybe, its real though. i wont make a choice to end my life one day, i will continue to fight in whatever capacity. if my mind is then broken, the culpability will fall upon others.

its another way of saying too, that some people don't make an act of suicide, they're suicided by the system. other people being left behind too its unfortunate because some of your pain then it go onto them for their burden, and then your pain didnt die with you.

your pain didnt die with you it went to them it didnt die with you it went to them. the body is the great sacrifice to grow the spirit, if you can carry the cross to the end then that is brilliant. if you can find a way to help other people on your way out so that living your life and remaining functional is about helping other people and not care about yourself, that can actually help you to do things and stay alive too. its important to try identify any and all hack that allow to make a good outcome from changing internal perspective, values. coping they call it sometimes, in this instance prefer to call it acceptance.

lots of people can be more happy in an instant lower their desire and want for things, only some things you actually need and then a good case can be made and reason away/accept/cope the rePost too long. Click here to view the full text.



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 No.284221[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

It's like no matter how neurotypical I try to be or how positive or outspoken I try to be, it just rubs "normies" the wrong way.

It's as if everyone has an 'autism radar' from the moment they see your face. Do people like me who are on the spectrum somehow transmit that information through facial features?
It doesn't even matter if I'm putting on a straight face, or smiling or whatever, people even at school used to ask me if I'm autistic.

It's impossible to fit into society when people just look at you and instantly see you as non-neurotypical. I even got rid of my glasses with LASIK but somehow I still have that 'nerdy' asperger face which people associate with weirdness and 'being different'.
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 No.289131

>>289130
what they have in common is sexing a succubus who lacks attraction 2u

 No.289132

>>289131
But the sex IS there for the taking. Ignoring it despite its ease has been hailed since the dawn of time to be an excellent measure of willpower and purity.

 No.289133

I HATE BEING ALIVE!!! AAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

 No.289134

>>289132
Yeah I don't disagree with volcelism. I was just saying rape and prostitutes aren't opposites. they are all sex slaves anyway, so it is rape. but sure easy for any man who wants it.

 No.289135

>>289129
pretty much. If your last resort to getting sex is PAYING to a WHORE, you are as in cel as they come. There is literally nothing volcel about having your only option being a whore.
>>289130
this is a virgin imageboard and i ncels are virgins. Nothing wrong with being an i ncel not everyone can be born a normalfag. You know females will only pick you if you display normalfag traits, right? So being volcel in a way means you are one.


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 No.288245[Reply]

Did you guys ever hit a point where you had so much of life stacked against you, that you spontaneously realized "None of this is really my fault", and felt a lot better? You can only place the blame on yourself for so long before it starts to become ridiculous. There's nothing I could have done to prevent this, and realizing that makes me feel a lot better.
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 No.289035

Well, it depends, a lot of things were/are stacked against me but if I give up now then that would be purely on me. In the end it doesn't matter what cards you were dealt, only how you played them.

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>>288245
Yeah, I didn't choose my parents.
I didn't choose where or when I was born.
I didn't choose my early education or whatever faith my parents were going to impose on me only to demonize and guilttrip me if I wasn't devout.
I didn't choose to be bad with money like my parents were, resulting in a debt that took a decade to pay off and reduced the quality of life I had in my teenage years.

I'm no longer punishing myself. I did what I could and I'm relieved that I no longer have to care about anyone now.

 No.289067

>>288590
Absolute bullshit. Degrees are completely useless now. The only thing that matters is experience. How the fuck are you 15+ years out of date and writing complete bullshit with such confidence?

 No.289089

>>288245
I don't really know. I gave up a lot sooner than I should have. I'm just so bored all the time.

 No.289092

>>289067
Not that poster, but in Europe you wont even make it into the interview without the proper credentials, there are 1200 people competing for the same garbage office job.



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