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 No.257958[Reply]

So I've been a neet for a while and it's all fine and dandy, until my mom mentions that I'm doing nothing. I don't know what to answer.

It's just a matter of time until she lashes out on me. I highly doubt she'll ever kick me out but whenever she nags I feel anxious and my day kinda gets ruined.

I suffer from pretty bad depression/anxiety and I don't feel like I can hold down a job, at least for a reasonable amount of time. I can't move either because rent is just impossibly high.

 No.257960

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The resolve of succubi over 40 can't be changed. If she's nagging you now she'll be nagging you forever unless things change. You either need to convince her that you are doing something productive with your time, or prove to her that you're incapable of doing anything differently. If you have a hobby that, on paper, could lead to financial dependence down the line, then show her. Even if it never materializes, the mainstream hivemind has imbued all adults over 25 with the idea that doing thing on computer = lots of money later on. Anything that makes it seem like you're not just ignoring everything she says.

I suggest conducting the job experiment while you have the safety net of living at home. Don't get me wrong, work sucks and being a housecat NEET is great. You say you can't hold down a job and this is what many NEETs believe, but those who are forced in to it as an only option typically end up enduring it, either by enjoying it somewhat or becoming too apathetic to sorrow over it. If you get a job through a temp agency right now, one of two things would happen: You end up not hating the job enough to quit, and continue to work and save money to buy yourself out of your mother's reach. Or, you succumb to anxiety and quit, and have proven to your mother that even when you follow her advice, you still just can't. Even then, you'll end up with a few dollars and qualify for some tax rebates or something. A week of work can mean all the new vidya for years to come. Or invest it in cryptocurrency.

There's this weird phenomenon in my country where foreigners who can't into even the language of us goodly just go from one temp agency to the next, putting in a week or two at each available factory and warehouse before being let go for poor communication and performance, and then when all the agencies have them on record as being incompetent, they are given neetbux for life. It'll take a lot of faking with your punctuality but does pay out.

 No.257961

>>257958

Start an online degree or some form off online training so you can say that you are doing that?

 No.258058

I can't give you any advice like the other guys, but know that someone is in the same position (no job, mental problems, ridiculous rent) except the nagging has escalated. If she's the aggressive type then at one point or another she's going to strongarm you into getting a job, or training/education of some sort and then you'll tuly be miserable. During the points when you're not being nagged on it actually feels like life is worth living, and then–as you said–the day is ruined once they drop that unneeded stress on you like a load of bricks.



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 No.255057[Reply]

Hello wizards, 29 y/o apprentice here. I've been meaning to write here from time to time but never got myself enough will to do it. I've never had proper friends before, childhood, teenager times and even university memories does nothing but give me bad memories of how things ended with people. On the other hand I got to talk people online but even then I am rather sick and tired of making the first move. It's either people are busy with their lives or don't care. It's almost as if there is something prevents others to talk with me for a change. I try my best to keep autism away but nothing ever changes. And this alone drives me crazy.
Aside from that I'm already depressed and been taking antidepressants since 2017. I live in a shit country, my parents, especially my mother gives us hell at home. I've graduated from translation but I can't get to work at where I live thanks to being a shit country and shitty conditions. I'm being pressured to do things as I have no drive to do anything. Call me lazy but I usually have no will to do anything at all. I want to learn about drawing and 3D modelling and hell even study Japanese so that at least I'd get more chances but I never got myself worked up to make an effort to learn those. If I manage to do it, I can't keep up more than 3 days and I immediately lose interest and roll back to square one. Clock is ticking and the only thing I want is killing myself, but then again I'm too afraid and too lazy to do it. What should I do?
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 No.257980

>>257963
Rest in peace.

 No.257982

>>257963
absolutely embarra

 No.258010

Why is his thread still up? Having succubus friends and hanging out with them is fine as long as you don't mention their gender?

 No.258056

>>258010
why indeed

 No.258315

>>258313
Nah. I think the mods made a p. solid rule 2 call.



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 No.257908[Reply]

it's possible? after many rejection from succubus i realized that I don't need a succubus to be happy with my life i prefer to focus my life in other things like my hobbies or have more knowledge can a Wizard obtain a pleasant life without the need for sex? i know it will be a hard life but it takes discipline to overcome our instincts I plan to cut myself from society and interact with Normies and succubus as little as possible to avoid headaches i will also avoid watching porn and fapping to avoid the pain of what can not have I aspire to become an asexual individual being completely free of pain and self sufficient(user was warned for this post)

 No.257911

>>257908
Maybe one day you just get detacched, just try to not to think about those things.
How can you be self sufficient? im curious about your situation.

 No.257912

>>257908
>i will also avoid watching porn
Stopped watching porn years ago, best thing I have done for my sanity.

This thing turns your brain into mush.



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 No.257726[Reply]

Been a Neet for a few years completely lost it post college i end up jumping between online social groups on discord only to be looked down on by wagies in neet servers. What is the point anons
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 No.257749

>>257743
Get a doctorate in economics, land a nice position at a bank through connections with a few college buddies, make mad cash in stock broking, kick back and watch the money pile up, retire early. p. simple tbhfamalam

 No.257751

>>257743
how the fuck do you ask this on wizchan of all places? get out

 No.257752

>>257743
mommy tendies or welfare

 No.257755

>>257747
This is only in utopian communist countries. I'm a diagnosed sperg and I have to work.

 No.257760

>>257755
This is why spergs need to resist and commit viol*nce when forced to work



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 No.257340[Reply]

In proper agony, had to smoke laced pot for tooth disintegrated, cluster headache full on, spiked drinks with bromo are getting placed, dad getting jiggy with every transgression and toke, I'm getting fat due to the psychiatric industry, dumb too, I just puff and booze and take it mate, death is no better, I can't figure out how to fix this, I hate myself and this pointless existence, not even a damn ward could fix this bullshit shit bomb life I got going, they tried, fuck my life, fuck normal faggots, fuck the nsa for not surveillancing correctly, fuck my family, had it with this gay ass bullshit

Pic is my loud
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 No.257587

>>257559
that was an actual garfield

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 No.257592

>>257559
I guess the last line would make sense if it was "of out the hot food"

 No.257687

>>257559
I had a cluster headache, took the pain right away

I wish I had more, I smoked it all, don't know when I'll be getting more

 No.257688

>>257687
which strain?



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 No.257033[Reply]

Killing myself this holy week (next week)
By the sallekhana way(starving myself) in hopes of not getting rebirth.
Going to the top of a mountain with a backpack with my favorite items.
Planned to do it on Halloween before, but I cannot wait and holy week seems like the perfect date too.
Ill meditate while doing it, hope of getting Jesus or buddhahood.

Why am I doing this?
Olanzapine ruined my life by making me unable to get joy from the activities I used to love (videogames and anime) its been like 2 years on meds, and they say your brain is permanently damaged with the use of it even if you discontinue them (no hope already)
Killing myselfe because Im also a brainlet, I dont have the intelligence to have a job in coding, no talent to have one in art, I have social anxiety so I cant be psychologist too. And I dont want to be a wageslave, I have too much fatigue to work in something like that. I was born with a rich parent, lived a rich life so I wont be able to appreciate a poor life.
Im excited for the afterlife
Wish me luck anons
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 No.257557

>>257556
Yeah, I'm sure he's had a lot of burning practice before

 No.257562

>>257557
The average wizchan user isn't a buddhist monk, at most he likes to roleplay as some monk but he lacks discipline obviously. Nobody here will kill himself, and certainly not through any painful method like burning in flames or refusing to eat.

 No.257565

>>257562
>Nobody here will kill himself
I believe there has been at least one confirmed kill from this site. Now all we need is a cultivator of discipline and wizchan will have its hero.

 No.257568

>>257565
I remember the exit bag guy. But I think it is a cope for people here, thinking they will just kill themselves like that and then no more suffering…In fact I even doubt most wizards actually want to die.

 No.257596

>>257568
>I even doubt most wizards actually want to die
The ones who really wanted to die have done so. What you see now are the stragglers.



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 No.254369[Reply]

How do you cope with being unwanted trash?
Getting told to go away all the time, by everyone in a subtle or unsubtle way, when everyone wants you to fuck off when you can talk to no one because everyone just wants you to go away.
Even if it sounds really pathetic it fucking hurts I wish I could stop thinking about other people
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 No.257111

>>254369
If you still have hope
Try to get rich else you will remain a slave to society and its superficial rules.

 No.257480

>>254381
>My 10th grade history teacher used to take 5 steps back everytime I talked to her.
Teachers are (perhaps justifiably) paranoid of being accused of inappropriate behaviour with students. I wouldn't use that scenario as a litmus test for this kind of thing.

Being mindful of personal space is a good thing though and you should err on the side of caution in this regard when interacting with others.

 No.257482

idk tell me if you work it out

 No.257495

>>257111
I'm thinking I'm going to try and put in a last ditch effort to become a pro cage fighter. There are pros still fighting in their mid 40s so even though I'm kind of old it's not impossible. I have nothing else to lose and it seems like the only possible way to get rich that I could actually tolerate doing. In fact I'm going to go exercise right now. Worst that happens is I get in shape and can fake being a normie in order to begin my life of slavery. God just saying that though… grim shit.

 No.257520

>>257495
They're going to call you… The wizard!



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 No.254299[Reply]

Why can't I enjoy games anymore? Before I quit smoking weed I put over 200 hours on Stardew Valley in less than 2 weeks. Now I've been sober for about the same amount of time and all I want to do is watch youtube videos and refresh wizch.

When I try to even load a game I feel overwhelmingly, crushingly bored as soon as I start playing. The ironic thing is, part of the reason I quit smoking was so I wouldn't constantly forget things and fuck up playing games. It's like no matter what I do I'm damned to be miserable and dissatisfied.
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 No.256195

>>255826
It would be hard to justify it as an outsider meme as Lain is just a character from anime but otherwise I wholeheartedly agree with you. Everyone who uses Lain images to express themselves on the boards falls into your first 2 categories 99.9 % of the time and the other .1 percent runs like Hell away from it once they see the kinda people they are choosing to associate with.

 No.256200

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it takes 50 bucks worth of illegal street magic to enjoy video games now that i'm older

 No.256210

>>254301
Geeze, stop coping and just do something new already

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 No.257466

>>256200
I feel you, I just bought cocaine for the first time and I could finally enjoy osrs. Too bad it lasts so little



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 No.254050[Reply]

I do not deserve the gift of live for I have wasted mine, a freak empty worthless garbage the world would be better off without me certainly.
People look at me when I walk by and no one wants me in their presence, I have been alone for so long I have unlearned human interaction.
Im sorry that this thread is meaningless but I feel bad about my life and I dont know what more to say I was doomed from birth I guess
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 No.254762

I know that when I die - if they ever find my corpse - there will be a party over it

 No.257049

>>254753
We all go about life thinking about ourselves, who cares?

 No.257056

It's okay. If you don't want your life, no one else would want yours either. Some lives are just worth less than others. Life carries no value in and of itself.

 No.257323

>>254762
Putin? Give it to me straight, how goes the war effort?

 No.257418

>>254050
Life is not a gift, it's a curse.



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 No.251079[Reply]

What can i do? I'm autistic homosexual that got bullied by everyone around me
I've always been an extremely shy and awkward child. I never dared to speak up or complain. One time in kindergarten a boy tried to drown me and i didn't even struggle out of politeness.
Does anyone have any advice on how to get over this 'judging' fear, or how to manage it? I know that the first step would probably be to just show something, but my anxiety flat out won't let me. How do I get over this extreme fear of drawing attention towards myself?
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 No.253577

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A general pattern I've found when it comes to unwanted compulsive mental attitudes and states is that they are compulsive because the alternative is always worse and undesirable to the person in some way. For instance, a pervasive "fear of control" is compelling because that attitude of being in control is much more uncomfortable for some reason than feeling perpetually powerless.

The basic mechanism is that your current pervasive attitude, no matter how much you believe it's unwanted and undesirable, is compelling precisely because it is beneficial to you in some way. But how can low self-esteem and being afraid of people's judgements be beneficial? I hate being this way, it's so painful!

And yet, it's much less painful than the alternative. Think about what a "normal" person does when faced with real or imagined negative criticism, their ego defense mechanisms turn on, they invent a story or justification and they don't budge, because it's emotionally painful otherwise. That instinct is the default one and everyone has it, but in your case, you have labeled it as unacceptable, put up an electric fence around it and you are dissuaded from using it through even emotional pain.

The reason you are so sensitive against negative judgement is because you are defenseless against it. The attitude that would allow you to deal with negative judgement is barred off and unavailable to you. If someone attacks you, you can't get angry and defend yourself, whether verbally or otherwise. if someone says something negative about you, you can't prove them wrong, stick up for yourself or just tell them to fuck off.

There's an exercise that let's you bump into this mechanism on your own. Try to imagine what it would be like to be confident, self-assured, to dismiss other people's criticism, to believe you are worthwhile despite what other people say etc. imagine actual concrete situations where this happens and you take up an attitude of confidence. Notice what happens, do you feel better? Maybe for a bit, but then you might get a sharp pain that throws you back into vulnerability or something else is not right, some other reason why this attitude is not allowed or deeply uncomfortable and unwanted.

The emotional pain is usually deep shame that needs to be released and transformed. Once you get rid of the "electric fence", that attitude of confidence suddenly becomes available to you and you will remove your sensitivity to negatiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.254219

>>251079
U can try drugs to rewire ur brain maybe. LSD tends to make me more aggressive, almost like the animal is being released.

 No.254242

>>251079
>Does anyone have any advice
keep exposing yourself to uncomfortable situations. Stress, whilst uncomfortable, you can draw some positives from it. Growth and development stimulated by stressful responses can be your silver lining.

I don't know many people who die from embarrassment. Keep at it. And always remember, people are so engrossed in their own narcissism, they are too fixed on their own embarrassment to worry about yours.

 No.254246

>>253577
You should make a website or something wiz, great contributions you've given to this shit board

 No.257416

I was the same way, it was awful. But as I adult now, in my job I used to it.
I ve seen lots of morons at job in few years. When they say something stupid I laugh at them in my head, sometimes I cant control myself and I laugh at their stupidity, when they say something dumb.

Its kind of defensive mechanism I guess. You have to create your own defense mechanism.



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