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 No.294761[Reply]

There's nothing to do. Nobody to talk to. Nothing to experience in my prison-neighbourhood. I live in a multi dimensional prison and I'm slowly going insane. This thread will die while some faggot self improvement/coomer thread will hit bump limit.

Just share personal stories and feels in this thread I guess.
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 No.294764

>>294762
>Lurk on dead hikikomori imageboards
link to them please?

 No.294765

>>294764
If seriously, I know only
uboachan.net/hikki
https://web.archive.org/web/20170608194055/http://brchan.org/rf/
>Hello hikkach. How many of you are read-only? Why are you read-only
https://rfch.rocks/rf/index.html Моё почтение всем девственникам 30 лет и старше. >My respect to all 30-years of age and older virgins!

 No.294766

>>294765
>its in russian
nevermind, thankyou

 No.294767

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>>294766
I always had a connection to Russia. I'm East European myself (Hungarian) but Russia just seems like my homeland: it's depressing, poor and corrupt, rife with alcoholism/drug addiction (specifically opiates) deathly cold winters and surrounded by forests. I feel the spirit of my ancestors when I'm in the woods, it's calming and forces me to deeply respect it. It's sad the state Russia is in right now.

 No.294772

I watch this one guy doing RE 4 speedruns for many years. I don't come often, but it always keeps me calm. He is close to my age. Till this day, he didn't change his manners, his stream outlook. It calms me down. I am mostly a lurker though. But it calms me down seeing that this man never changes his ways. There's nothing quite like it.



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 No.291724[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You always make threads of "I will never be pretty enough", "I will never have a job because I am ugly", "I am horrible :(". Everything related to physical appearance, and complexes. The truth is already unpleasant, and pathetic that men , and especially chaste men, give importance to something as trivial as appearance.
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 No.292759

>>292394
And this is why men have been gang pressed and conscripted and forced to die all throughout history to the benefit of succubi who aren't, because we actually live in a "patriarchy" that benefits men at succubi's expense? You subhuman clown, fuck you.

 No.292760

>>292474
So he was meant to fight someone wielding a knife, disarm them like an anime character and break their wrists? Are you people real?

This is why being a wizard means nothing, no empathy or respect, just callous strongman posturing and dismissal of lived experiences, no different to the response of your average pleb on the street.

 No.292761

>>292760
>So he was meant to fight someone wielding a knife, disarm them like an anime character and break their wrists?
Absolutely. I haven't read the thread yet but I can say that in any fight-or-flight situation, fighting is the only option for a man. Kill kill kill

 No.292785

>>292653
You have two legs, two hands, and a thinking brain, you can learn and work. You can be fine.

 No.294754

>>292548
Men and succubi are different, but our similarities are greater than our differences, so it is important to have empathy and understand why succubi care so much about their appearance, and know how this can affect the life of a succubus.


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 No.294657[Reply]

I'm a deformed freak with this condition, I never even got braces. And now, because I didn't look after my teeth, my entire right side is sitting on two teeth.

I have no money and a few years I'll have my jaw entirely sink in, and be struggling to breathe. I may as well kill myself for being such a deformed freak.

I don't even care about the looks, I just want to feel healthy in my face. I'm a fucking living pug dog but in human form.

I tell people I'm deformed, I'm fucked up, it's not worth it. And they just tell me people deal with worse, that I have to learn to cope with it. But I genuinely don't want to, I'm at the point where I'd rather not exist than exist like this.

I'm going to talk about surgeries and treatments for this.
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 No.294735

>>294732
you have a bad taste in your mouth from eating junk food. You're colder because you're a poor bastard who doesn't have heating. If you want to breathe better and have a better jaw, eat harder things and get out into nature a bit.

>>294734
A person's value is not determined by beauty, that only happens to succubi.

 No.294737

>>294735
I don't eat junk food, I'm particular about what I eat. It's when I wake up that I have a foul taste because I sleep with my mouth hanging open.

I used to be able to just sleep and deal with the cold when my breathing was right. I'm going to suffer so much in old age when I actually get other respiratory problems, then I'll just choke in my sleep and just want to die constantly.

I just want a normal jawline and to be able to breathe like normal people do. I don't want to be a human pug dog, always sniffing funny and getting exhausted.

 No.294738

>>294737
go see a doctor

 No.294739

>>294737
Ever tried any detox? Liver, kidneys, fasting even?

I don't remember where but I read that such breathing at nights (when the body cleanses) is due to low capacity of organs doing their task

 No.294740

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>>294739
I look like this and it only became chronic with tooth loss and the resulting jaw moving up. I've bad blood tests done a while back so I doubt it's anything with my organs.

It's not just at night, it's anytime I lie down, I just have to lie down to sleep.



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 No.286861[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Suicide general, - Discuss everything suicide related here.
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 No.294893

>>294892
are you trying to kill yourself with this plant?

 No.294896

>>294893
Yeah, poison hemlock and some opiate sedative is an effective and easy self euthanasia method. It's what they historically used to euthanize the elderly. The opiate keeps you sedated and calm, the hemlock freezes your breathing and you just suffocate.

I'm not sure about how I'll go about acquiring an opiate, do you think enough codine would do the job? I guess I can find some poppy seeds to grow.

 No.294898

>>294896
>freezes your breathing and you just suffocate.

that will be painful

 No.294918

>>294898
It's considered one of the more peaceful methods of going, it's what they used for euthanasia in ancient times. If you're passed out when the paralysis kicks in it's exactly like dying in your sleep, it's like pneumonia, one of the best death's a person can have.

 No.294924

>>294892
I've spent three days looking for it now and it's just nowhere to be seen. I'm going to try going further out into the countryside to find it.


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 No.292175[Reply]

Those in the older, successful and beloved part of the family seems to demand respect from those "beneath" them.
Yet they feel no need to respect anyone and blatantly disrespect and violate boundaries.
However, if you dare to return this behavior in kind, they will act like you are the one in the wrong.

Your sibling keeps pranking and annoy you, tell them you had enough, everyone just dismiss you telling you to learn to take a joke. Eventually when you snap and beat your sibling. Your parents will lecture you how this is not an acceptable response to someone merely pranking you, completely dismissing that this response was provoked. Then force you to apologize to the one provoking you!

Your parents berate you for failing the first year of uni, they even suggest that maybe you just too dumb and should dropout. You retort with that you don't care about the opinions of some high school dropouts and they can shove their opinions up their asses. You get told you have a horrible attitude, if you keep this up no one will bother to criticize and steer you in the right direction in the future.

I don't care what they think, if they won't respect me, I won't respect them. Who needs their dumb advice anyway? I can figure things out on my own. If they can berate and call you names, you can do the same thing to them.
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 No.292352

>>292329
Very likely that you ended up that way as a result of their influence

 No.292358

>>292356
Don't blame the player. Blame the game.

 No.292359

>>292356
Looks like added-noise artifacting from "upscaling" on modern TVs, but I'm not sure how that would wind up represented in a screenshot off a PC media player.

 No.292600

>>292175
They decided to have him, forcing him to live, therefore it is their moral obligation.

 No.294702

>>292331
Just because you live under their roof, doesn't mean you should let them push you around either. Do some chores? sure no problem! letting them berate you over petty things? they can fuck off!
>why are you wasting time drawing? that is an useless hobby and won't pay the bills!
>says the guy who spend his free time binge watching tv, tell me how your hobby pay the bills?
Do people literally expect family members to just let you berate and disrespect them with no form of push back?



 No.294606[Reply]

If you have absolutely nothing to strive for, no goal to work towards, no future you can imagine yourself in. If you know that you will never get anything you desire and that you will never be happy or fulfilled.
How is anyone expected to function like this? I can't kill myself because I don't have the balls. So I still have to work and go through life. But how?

Some people have different ways to cope with their situation, but I don't have any. One of the most powerful copes seems to be religion, but I simply can't believe. I know it's all made up and can't convince myself otherwise.
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 No.294648

Forced to play Oblivion forever…

 No.294651

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>>294647
>be eternaloblivion believer
>work 8 hours a day+ up to 3 extra (commute, winding down, preparing, lunch break, etc)
>pay taxes
>never gonna retire, nor own a home, nor (if United Statian) have all needs covered to the point being homeless isn't an option ie; homelessness IS only one major accident away
>have to pay ambulance rides , can't sleep under a tree in the park at night, boomers live like petty kings and shit on you 24\7
>estranged from blood relatives- can't get a real spouse - can't afford pet
if it was ME whom believe in that shit of oblivion and eternal or, rather, non-temporal nothingness and cessation of all Qali…well. I wouldn't be so tame let's say.

 No.294654

I really should replay Oblivion

 No.294655

>I can't kill myself because I don't have the balls.

This is my problem. I don't even want to get better at this point, I literally just want to die. All I want is to either not be so fucking deformed or to be able to just die. I pray for cancer every day.

I've tried hanging myself, I've tried it so many times. I hope burning myself alive in my bedroom will be the way. Simply douse myself in petrol and just light myself up. I'll scream for a few minutes, collapse, and then the fire around me will consume me within minutes.

I thought about doing it in the forest but the idea of cats and rats munching on my still alive body terrifies me. I have a strong survival instinct, it's hard, but I'm just going to suffer staying alive.

 No.294658

>>294655
you DO know cancer will, most probably, contribute significantly to your deformity, right?
You will weight like 30 kilos and be full of surgery scars and be bald -and not in the cholo gangster way, the ugly way-
Do you have a lot of cash for painkillers and\or a great healthcare plan? cancer isn't an instakill and it hurts much more than you ever felt pain.
>t. knows a bit about cancer



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 No.292261[Reply]

I'm genuinely asking to understand the mindset of a person who solely seek death
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 No.294620

why are you even here?

 No.294621

>>294620
Why wouldn't he be? Wizchan isn't a death cult where suicide is reverred.

 No.294622

Nobody that's done anything wrong has contributed to my suicide. In fact, I realized having a chip on my shoulder is what allowed me to keep on living despite my obvious deformities and inferiority.

If everyone was nice to me and I had no adversaries, I'd have roped a long time ago.

I don't even give a fuck if people laugh and gloat over my death.

 No.294624

What do you mean by no revenge? do suicides usually seek\get revenge first? I wasn't aware of this, murders followed immediately by suicides…I've never seen that on the news.

 No.294691

Too lazy



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 No.294149[Reply]

These gentile doctors take your wisdom teeth so you can't support your jaw properly and will be unable to connect your tongue to the roof of your mouth and nasally breathe. I'm walking around with a spoon in my mouth cause of these fucking rats. Didn't even know until I started practicing Hatha yoga. Roundhouse kick your local oral surgeon. This is why you're depressed because you're always looking down and are unable to lift your body upwards properly. Humans aren't designed to breathe orally. These fucking rats man. The things I've had to do to survive. Shocked.
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 No.294359

I had to get mine pulled because I was spitting out ungodly amounts of blood and felt weak all the time. I felt like I was dying and was close to bedridden from it. W
You don't need them pulled otherwise unless this medical problem I'm describing happens to you

 No.294397

>>294149
Thankfully I got to keep my wisdom teeth, but I wasn't as lucky with my foreskin. I would trade my wisdom teeth to get my foreskin back any day, but unfortunately it's already been grounded up and turned into face cream a long time ago.

 No.294403

>>294398
I fat fingered the post button…
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1BXMsON4u3s
Abstinence, and peace of mind in general is only possible when the glans are covered and protected, otherwise the constant rubbing of the glans against your underwear will put you in a constant state of anxiety, arousal, and just feeling on edge in general. This is the main reason for circumcision, it makes meditation and acting calmly and rationally impossible. Why do you think Muslims and Americans are always on edge and looking for a fight?

 No.294619

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>>294149
Are you circumcised too?

 No.294623

I destroyed two of my teeth due to body dysmorphia. My family just watched as I requested extraction for a minor injury at 18. The second tooth I lost due to neglect due to being afraid of what would happen if I went to the dentist, I think it died after I had facial reconstruction surgery to fix my nose.



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 No.292683[Reply]

I'm too poor to get a bigger apartment or home and nice furniture, so I'm stuck in a very small apartment that only has a tiny room and a bathroom.

Is anyone else getting depressed by their lame surroundings?
Before anyone tells me to get a job, I already work minimum wage.
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 No.292694

>>292683
Get yourself a desk and a decent chair. Every wizard needs to have his enchanting table.

 No.292695

>>292683
Could it rather be due to having no pleasant vegetated extensions around to wander, which contributes to you focusing at your cozy room?

 No.292719

>>292695
Some places don't even have trees. Just endless concrete when you step out.

 No.294602

>>292683
>Is anyone else getting depressed by their lame surroundings?
Yeah, I recently bought a small apartment in bad neighborhood because it has great transport and is really close to city center. The thing is the neighborhood is depressing as fuck. Industrial sites, damaged tenement houses begging for repair, drunkards on bus stops and stuff like that. What makes matter worse is that apartment sucks, it's loud as fuck and I cannot sleep at night. View from my windows are some old buildings and an abandoned warehouse. All in all I spend most of my time at my parents house and I feel almost physically ill while coming back to my apartment.

Whenever I am in better neighborhoods I think to myself how better it would be to live there. Normal blocks, a lot of greenery, normal people with families. I can't wait to sell this retarded apartment.

Anyway OP, is there any chance for you to ditch this place? If you are working for minimum wage why not pick up some simple work in some small scenic town? Or emigrate to a wealthier country? Would it be possible for you? Personally I would like to ditch big city, get away from all this.

 No.294604

Your room is clean and you have your own apartment. Where is the problem? I wish I had my own apartment because the lack of privacy is driving me insane.
You have everything you need, so consider yourself lucky.



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 No.294590[Reply]

Since 2 weeks I feel small discomfort while swallowing, like there is something in there. At first I ignored it it doesn't go away. I made an appointment with doctor and now I scared shitless it's a throat cancer. I am mostly worried about my parents, they don't have anyone else beside me. I really hope it's nothing and I am just panicking.
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 No.294596

I had an issue with swallowing solid food where I couldn't initiate the swallow and couldn't eat right for a year, just soft foods, fucking mashed potatoes and soups for every meal. I went to the doctor, but the bitch couldn't even do the exam correctly since it would trigger my gag reflex with the instrument, so I just said fuck it in my usual avoidant style, if it's cancer, just let it kill me. Then it went away on its own. No clue if it was psychological or an actual medical problem. At one point I legit thought it was a curse and my mother went to some witch doctor and we burned some pieces of paper with Arabic words on it. Couple months after that it started clearing up. Coincidence? Maybe, heh. I'm just glad it went away. Almost pushed me over the edge…

 No.294598

>>294590
>I made an appointment with doctor and now I scared shitless it's a throat cancer.
This is almost certainly the case.

 No.294600

>>294598
Why do you think so? Maybe it's GERD

 No.294601

>>294600
That or possible ligma

 No.294603

>>294601
But who is Steve Jobs?



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