/dep/ - Depression

>>302762
Come to think of it, Ray-something earbuds (Raycons) sponsorship was good - yes, overpriced earbuds, but they got better eventually.

Ok, bros, what's some wiz friendly jobs for a 3 years unemployed NEET? My NEETdom status will be revoked soon, any tips?

Look for jobs bump

>>303440
>what's some wiz friendly jobs for a 3 years unemployed NEET
"Wiz friendly"? Any job that doesn't require you to have sex, really. Violation of a man's virginity is the only thing hostile to what makes a wizard. Of course, you've probably convinced yourself that being "wiz" means "I piss my pants whenever I have to talk to anyone who isn't my local Shawarma seller", in which case you're out of luck. You don't have a choice. If you haven't yet learned a trade that you can do by yourself, your only option is to work whatever the job agencies give you. Probably assembly line work.

You should have been hitting the gym and learning basic utilitarian skills these past 3 years. That would have set you on the right course to self-sustain with occasional solo contracting jobs.

I got a job. I got a small raise (2 USD). I have about 20k saved. I'm really scared for my future. At 26, I know I'm not old but I'm not young either. I'm so terrified of being stuck where I am and gaining no real knowledge. And I hate myself for hating it, my coworkers aren't that terrible they're just…old and stuck in their ways. I feel pretty miserable that I'm so miserable, like I'm ungrateful. I am.

>>302696
sexo with schizoid-chan

>>302696
>Have Schizoid Personality Disorder.
It's not a personality disorder. It's a personality type and it's one of nature's vital archetypes. Schizotypality is nature's answer to the "Putting all of your eggs in one basket" problem. When the volcano erupts, it is the schizoid group who survives by being out on a boat fishing alone. Filthy socialites at the volcano party get toasted to crispy, retard normie stacies at the part fried burnt

to a damn crisp

>>302696
But what if I don't really have a Schizoid Personality Disorder? But instead, I'm actually just autistic and overly obsessed with Schizoid Personality Disorder?

>>302723
Problem is, that's also "schizo"

Here's a relatively recent interesting study on this topic. But don't expect any miracles from it.
https://www.cosmic-pancakes.com/blog/pheno-control

smells like a scam to me

>>300733
damn anon I really hope everything gets well

>>300758
Wow! Great news.

OP here, wanted to give an update over 3 months on.

My mother is still in hospital in a special rehab ward, she's made a lot of improvement but the severity of the stroke means its likely she's gonna end up in a care home as she'll require 24/7 care. Physically, its almost like she's back to her old self. She's able to talk and make expressions completely fine, she can stand up out of bed and walk with a stroller, probably even by herself. A far cry from when just having her opening her eyes was an achievement. Cognitively though, it seems like almost the symptoms of dementia or Alzheimers. She can keep a conversation but sometimes, she ends up losing focus and putting her back onto the topic of the conversation can be difficult. She has memory troubles too, short term and long term. She won't be able to tell you what day or year it is and sometimes, its almost as though her memory is acting in recursion where she'll think its a time or year that's already gone by.

I had to tell her that one of her best friend's of 20-30 years, one that she visited in the hospital prior to their passing and went to the funeral of, had passed away 5 years prior. She looked shocked, then when I tried to insist on it, its like she sort of ignored it and went back to trying to do the wordsearch puzzles. I honestly thought I'd gotten used to things but this was a gut punch. I think sometimes she still thinks of me as a kid too. When I tell her I gotta leave the hospital after every visit, she asks if I want a lift home. I thought I was already familiar with loneliness or isolation, but its a different feeling altogether to have the house all to myself for potentially many years into the future.

The situation with my sister escalated to a police matter, (fortunately?) because of some other stupid shit she did, so my mother wasn't harmed or anything. I won't say much else aside from that.

At this point, my auntie and I have been appointed legal guardians of my mother, so I've got plenty of stuff to take care of now.

>>302648
I can't begin to imagine what I would do in a similar situation. The closest I can think of is when my stepfather passed away at home, and I had to help my mother with the funeral, but even then, she was the one helping out with everything. You're having to deal with everything on your own now, plus carry that extra weight, and I don't know how you handle it. I can't think of much to say to help anon.(*)
>Cognitively though, it seems like almost the symptoms of dementia or Alzheimers.
I'll say it bluntly because there's a chance the doctors are trying to do that "Give them hope" thing (if not, ignore me): there's a good chance she does. Strokes do that.
(*) Selfishly, I want to ask you what I should do to prepare for the day when something like this happens to my parents; but I don't think it's right for me to do that here at this time.

>>302649
I would say to ask them if they have any guardianship or power of attorney set up for their estate already. In my own mother's case, she hadn't done that, so it had to be taken before a civil tribunal to settle. This in my case is a headache, as I'm not currently on the lease of my mother's home at the moment and could be made homeless, where the only person who could sign my name on the lease is someone who isn't fit to sign any legal documents. So it was necessary for me toward that end.

If they do, then it saves you the headache of having to sort all that out. If you are given power of attorney, you'll likely have to take a list of all assets and debts of a person to coincide with your appointment. And depending on where you live, you'll have to re-report this every X amount of months. Aside from the usual thing of doing things in line with your parents wishes.

I would also open another bank account to scrounge any extra money, or just start saving a little extra than usual. Even if you live in a country where healthcare might be free, things like retirement homes do cost money for placement. Its just a good thing to have extra money, even if they've got life insurance set up.

You should prepare yourself mentally for the potential of people to try and take advantage of situations like that too. I have my sister, and she's an outlier as far as behaviour goes, but its more common than you think for distant family members to suddenly come back into people's lives when they're right at the end to try to gain something from it. It can be blatantly selfish but don't lose your cool. Try to pace yourself as well, in general. I don't think its possible to NOT burnout if you're visiting the hospital constantly. Any family who you can trust and rely on, those without the expectation of receiving something in return, have them in your corner all throughout.

Above all, have the courage to tell the people in your life who you love and cherish how much they mean to you BEFORE something like this happens. In retrospect, I was always put off of expressing myself; nervousness, anxiety, just an overbearing shyness I had. But being put in a position where you may not get to tell them is a genuine horror more than any speculative embarrassment. I had gripes with my mother too for years, but I've come to realize they were selfish and shoPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>302307
I've been saying that for years and people just get defensive over it.

Screw that statistic that claims only 1% of the population are psychopaths.
It's not a World Health Organization diagnosis, it's a patterns of behaviors, actions and speech.

Based on those, 90-95% of normie/neurotypical people are psychopaths.

>>297463
There is no compassion because there are very little people willing to acknowledge that it could have been them too if a few factors in their life went wrong. It's like that one meme sentence I see often: "You are closer to being homeless than being a billionaire" (or its variant "You are one missed paycheck away from being homeless"). It's true, and people readily accept this fact more when it's about money, but less when it's about one's life circumstances.

You don't necessarily have to be homeless to have a miserable life, even "little things" like isolation can worsen your quality of life to the point it drives you suicidal. That expands to a lot of things.

Life is the most frontloaded shit we ever experience. The first five to ten years of your life are the most important in terms of development (to be frank it fucking starts in the womb and before conception) and have the biggest impact in your future emotional and physical well-being. You can't choose your environment though. You can't pick your parents either, or the location you're born into (not necessarily talking about the country, but being born in a slum vs being born in a town with decent infrastructure or in the suburbs of a big city changes what you have access to). And you can't choose whether you're neurotypical or not.

Normies basically have benefitted from a confluence of positive factors from birth that set them up for a decent life in adulthood and that makes them unable to put themselves in a downtrodden person's shoes. That's all there is to it. And that's why if you ever make the mistake of venting about your life to one of them, you'll get the same copy and paste advice you've heard a thousand times before.

it's not really your or their fault though, because genetic determinism is a thing.

>>302307
If you don't believe this anon translate yourself this article
https://wiadomosci.onet.pl/olsztyn/brutalny-atak-na-bezdomnego-zatrzymano-dwoch-mlodych-mezczyzn/ernmj7q

>>302307
>Just a guy on the street doing nothing is enough to spur a normalfag into a frenzy one step from murder.

"He's just standing here… MENACINGLY!!!" (c) Patrick from SpBobSqPants

The world is in a very sorry state, many people would be grateful if you just left them alone/weren't a criminal. Don't get me wrong though, they'll still not like people like us but we aren't the elephant in the room for most normies right now.

>>302424
I admire your courage

>>302424
See you next week.

>>302430
youre not gonna see me either way cause after seizure damage i wont be able to even browse wizchan
>>302425
its not courage i kept extending it as long as i could even though all it was suffering for nothing for years. courage would be if i killed myself a couple years ago.
i am going homeless and simply telling my 'family' that i despise and don't want to see again, another plus of dying, that im moving out. i feel empty on my last night in this universe, my feelings feel like they disappeared

good luck anon, may you be released from your suffering soon. i hope i die soon too

dang.

Psychiatry is evil, it doesn't fix anything and ruins your health

>>302521
But this guy has already ruined his health

I dropped out when i realised they were going to keep me on the threadmill forever

>>302532
Contrary to what psychiatry thinks, anger and depression are not illnesses

>>302534
I said that because all he does is consume twitch and movies the entire day, it's not healthy. He should at least go out to get some fresh air

>>302330
i live in a big overcrowded city in a 3rd world country with a very high criminality rate(brazil) that there is also a bunch of noisy/loud subhumans outside, going outside for me is a nono because of that.
is there any book you would recommend?

>>302330
this

>>302324
play dofus retro a grindy mmorpg

>>302331
Seneca - Letters from a stoic
Plato - The last days of Socrates
Boethius - Consolation of philosophy
If you're dying might want to pick up a suicide manual.

>>302331
Read John's Gospel, maybe Matthew's too if you have the time to spare.
Also, read Ecclesiastes.
>>302373
>Plato - The Last Days of Socrates
You can skip the filler and just read Phaedo. maybe twice.

>>302156
Nature is interested in only two things—to survive and to
reproduce one like itself. Anything you superimpose on that, all
the cultural input, is responsible for the boredom of man. So we
have varieties of religious experience. You are not satisfied with
your own religious teachings or games; so you bring in others
from India, Asia or China. They become interesting because they
are something new. You pick up a new language and try to speak it
and use it to feel more important. But basically, it is the same
thing.

>>300436
This is absurd. We don't transcend our reality, by definition of what our reality is. If God is given birth to by us, he isn't God. Can you give birth to miracles? The word of God from Heaven? No. There exists a limit to the human mind and God, by definition, would exist beyond it.

>>302155
Why don't we say that the self awareness itself is a proof that God exists, Our awareness is of God's knowledge or either that we created omnipotence through our awareness

>>302180
the self
is an insubstantial construct invented to lend coherence and meaning to
an existence that is actually chaotic and meaningless

>>302155
It doesn’t matter whether the cultural hero-system is frankly magical, religious, and primitive or secular, scientific, and civilized.
It is still a mythical hero-system in which people serve in order to
earn a feeling of primary value, of cosmic specialness, of ultimate usefulness to creation, of unshakable meaning. They earn this feeling by carving out a place in nature, by building an edifice that reflects human value: a temple, a cathedral, a totem pole, a skyscraper, a family that spans three generations. The hope and belief is that the things that man creates in society are of lasting worth and meaning, that they outlive or outshine death and decay, that man and his products count. When Norman O. Brown said that Western society since Newton, no matter how scientific or secular it claims to be, is still as “religious” as any other, this is what he meant: “civilized” society is a hopeful belief and protest that science, money and goods make man count for more than any other animal. In this sense everything that man does is religious and heroic, and yet in danger of being fictitious and fallible.

>never talk to anyone nor give a reason for anyone to pay attention to you
>no one pays attention to you

WHO WOULDVE THUNK.

Literally just say what comes to mind. That is what the "normies" are doing. They see a hot succubus and tehy ask her out. They see someone doing a cool thing so they walk up to them and ask about it. It comes easy to them because they havent built up a complex that makes them overthink themselves out of action.

>>301724
Its so dumb how this works. It is like everyone is playing this stupid game where they tell you not to do something and you are supposed to do it anyway. Society doesn't have to be like it but it is.

I know what I need to do to be more social. I need to watch modern entertainment, like stuff on Netflix. That way I can relate to people better and understand how modern people interact.

But I can't bring myself to do it. It always makes me feel so inadequate to watch modern entertainment. I always feel like I'm the butt of the joke.

I always see myself in whoever is getting made fun of. Like if I watch Squid Game I'm sure they shit on some guy and I'm going to relate to the guy and feel like crap about myself.

>>302134
its called "empathy"


try watching pr0n parody of Squid Game instead of the real stuff (IF your ELECTROCHEMISTRY stat is high enough)




or play Disco Elysium, for i dunno

>>301028

I have a recipe for a shaky cocktail of hate and tolerance.

Switch cities, provinces and towns.
Wear something stereotypical of your home county, combine it with "autism awareness" merch or such.

Boom. Your quirkyness is now "plausible" spread between *being around autists too much (not "personal" autism) and "not local" feel (you're from some distant area for locals of the city you're in now)

>>302129

AFAIK, the world of gesture "speakers" is:

a) has several "systems" of gestures, just like languages
b) the "systems" don't correlate with real world languages.
c) we live in XXI century. Set up a chatbot, hand out strangers your business cards that inquire them to use non-vocal ways of communication. Effectively, you'll throw their pep talk into a proper chatbot.