/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>219201
>Unfortunately there's no solution to this.
I disagree.

>>225351
I have the right to kick a dog when he bites, will I be able to kick your face when you fail to behave humanely?

>>228026
>I've never met someone who had anything against friendless virgins.
I would not entrust a known friendless virgin with any responsibility at work and I am a friendless virgin (a wizard, even) myself. Society absolutely looks down on us, and it is for good reason. It is a very strong indication of failure, of inadequacy, of some sort of mental dysfunction. Moreover, you KNOW that this will be used against you, so any competent person will take care to hide or at least not advertise this. Anyone who is publicly found out as such is therefore doubly incompetent for failing to keep this failing of theirs out of the spotlight.

>>219200
Once you realize that they are correct, and accept it, perhaps even indulge in it. You will realize the profound, and paramount hatred that normies spew from their draconic mouths, and feel free from it.

>>228279
The truth is NTs collectively hate outcasts more than you as an individual could be hope to be racist/bigoted/etc. as an individual

>>211629
I'm ugly and had undiagnosed autism(diagnosed in hs) for most of my upbringing so I didn't get proper treatment from people around me. My mother also abused me a lot because of it, I blame everything on her.

Can't say exactly. Bit of mental illness and spectrum stuff, I think, but I've never been to a doctor for brain related things.

Part of it is that I was the weird kid. Somehow I started lucid dreaming in kindergarten. This permanently messed up how I think about reality, but back then, it mostly meant that I believed alternate dimensions were real. So I'd think about alternate dimensions a lot and tell people I was visiting them (it was more live vivid daydreams), because I was already convinced I could visit "alternate dimensions" (dreams) and these were just weaker connections to them.

Most ignored me but a few kids kids would smile and nod or ask questions about whatever weird thing I was talking about, only to turn around and laugh with their friends about how weird I was. I usually didn't catch on to this for months or years at a time for each person who tried it. I have a very hard time trusting people now. I'm always listening in to people around me to make sure they're not talking about something I did.

I'm just really glad this was in the 90s. They probably could have pushed me to suicide in the era of social media and everyone having A/V recording devices in their pockets.

Another part of it is I am not someone I would ever want to live with. Mental space is not very good a lot of the time. I can be very mean/hurtful if it's not in a good state, and it hurts me a lot (usually as self-hate) when I hurt someone even a little. It didn't seem right to suggest this person as an option to anyone else.

Way too racist and not good enough looking currently.

>>228283
>not good enough looking currently
>currently
Got something you'd like to share with us, "wiz"?

In short, I don't have much of an imagination.
It wasn't always this way but I stopped finding comfort in delusions a long time ago. I think I fundamentally lack something, something like a soul, that makes me human. The rot goes too deep.

>>227891
I have multiple tulpas, I am going to aggregate the types of behaviors that they exhibit, not all of them exhibit every single one of these behaviors, though.
>Yawns, stretches, taps her lap, and does other such mundane movements when I catch her from the corner of my eye.
>Forcefully intrudes herself into my life from time to time when I am not interacting with them.
>Brings her own food when I am eating (and will let me have a few bites of her food)
>Communicates whenever I look back at her (smiling, winking, waving)
>Provides commentary and reactions to things occurring in my day-to-day life.
>At least one of them always cuddles tightly with me when I am sleeping.
>Requests activities that include the entire group, e.g. watching an anime while sitting on my bed or taking a walk.
>While taking walks, they tend to move and act playfully.
>Tries to get "physical" very often when I don't expect it (massages, hugging, leaning on my shoulder, getting inside my arm, hugging my neck from behind)
>Multiple tulpas socialize among each other about random topics without my involvement.
>Multiple tulpas play/ screw around with each other.
>Multiple tulpas band together to prank me or solicit some type of response or opinion.
>Helps protect from intrusive or negative thoughts by creating a mental blockade using some sort of magic (not real magic, but imagery like magic work as a placebo)
>Offers her body for warmth when I am feeling cold (the "imaginary body warmth" helps with numbing cold perception)
>Cheers me up and motivates me to finish my work.
>Can possess my body for "emergency mode"
>Unconditionally and physically attracted to my body and personality by virtue of being spiritually tethered.
>Lovebombs me when I am feeling low value.
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I suffer from schizophrenia with voices and minor hallucinations. I can only say this stuff becomes pure hell once it goes from something you have under control to involuntary hallucinations you can not control. With these voices I literally can not be alone inside of my own head for a single moment, there is literally a motherfucker commenting on my thoughts, I can not control what he says or turn it off.

>>228266
Do you have OCD too? I'm not worried about how my tulpa would react to my intrusive thoughts, but rather how my intrusive thoughts would affect the creation of my tulpa on my part. Let's say I'm trying to create a cute one but my OCD keeps making me imagine gross things in the tulpa, I don't know if it could affect the final result.

>>228278
>Do you have OCD too?
I've had obsessive compulsions before, but I can't diagnose myself.
>but rather how my intrusive thoughts would affect the creation of my tulpa on my part.
I've had those thoughts, too.
My intrusive thoughts showed they would backstab me, that they'd do something disgusting (sexual or otherwise), that they would pick up a knife and kill me, that they are selfish demons or that they would verbally abuse me, and so on.
Since my first tulpa had unconditional access to my consciousness, she quickly corrected any such thoughts and comforted me any time they came up.
Correcting the speech and behavior of a tulpa is a frequent endeavor early on.

Do you swim in the Atlantic ocean? Are their squids?

>>228282
Technically the celtic sea? (I think), there are squids, but I haven't seen one

Moved to >>>/b/1035002.

>>228236
No, they don't. Normies walk, talk and move completely different from me.

I can spot aspies from a mile away.

>>228238
>Normies walk, talk and move completely different from me.
Snowflake delusions perpetuated by conscious decisions reinforced by ill opinions of anyone you consider to not be part of your group. "Normies" all talk, walk, and act differently from one another too. You're just too shallow and self-absorbed to see anything beyond a difference between you and them.

>I can spot aspies from a mile away.
"Autism is my superpower"

>>228239
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12271282/

Autists and aspies communicate, walk and use facial expressions in a very different way than neurotypical people.

Most autists also hate eye contact and lack microexpressions. Very highly functioning ones like Musk can fake them convincingly enough for neurotypicals to accept them.

>>228241
>Autists and aspies communicate, walk and use facial expressions in a very different way than neurotypical people.
Of course, but nobody on this website is an expert who can deduce that someone is autistic from across the street because he's not walking at the exact speed as a mentally healthy person or whistling Home On The Range.
>Very highly functioning ones like Musk
There is no "high functioning autism". There's having a quirky personality, low social experience, and choosing to present yourself in a way that happens to be a bit closer to how retarded autistic people act.

Why must you special snowflakes turn every thread on this website in to "I'm AUTISTIC and SPECIAL unlike NORMIES"? Whether you are or aren't, nobody cares. Stay in your autism circlejerk / hugbox threads.

>>227944
No mom!

If you're sad, you just want to be sad

>>228245
They do that mostly for social brownie points.
> And create some hyper vigilant hostile environment that actually harms them
Hobos are the greatest example of this. People parrot all day about helping the homeless, yet do everything to keep them away. Worst is how people fight to keep the hobos homeless.
Politicians rather give them tents than public housing. Once in a blue moon when politicians actually tries to build public housing for them, entire neighboring blocks protest to get the construction shutdown.
They always mask their reasons as being anything from safety, destruction of environment and even destroying the view. Their real reason is that they just don't want to be near them.
People just give the hobos token help then pat themselves on the back about how good they are. Rather then actually doing anything that would help the hobos, not to be homeless.
>Then call you insane for calling them out.
This needs to happen more often. The worst they ever do that I have experience is that they screech at you.

wizards are always whining

>>228275
The wizard's only real frame of reference is back from high school

>>228276
true, I think after school, wizzies went home and never left their room: no more social situation after the end of school

As long as you can generate sufficient passive income.

>>228132
hospitalizations

>>228132
i had a psychotic break down and they diagnosed me as schizophrenic, but to tell you the truth i think it was a one time deal. but no one believes me. they make me take anti psychotics, and thank god there is no major side effects. buti also get SSI now

pretty sure you have to be mentally or physically ill to get the bux

You can be a NEET at any age as long as you're (N)ot in (E)ducation, (E)mployment or (T)raining.
You can only be a Wizard if you're still a virgin past your thirtieth birthday.

t.lvl 33 mage

>>228136
I'm happy you get bux wizzie. I'm pretty sure antipsychotics make you retarded so I suggest you somehow get rid of this requirement of forced medication.

I like anti-cosmic satanists, guess i qualify but like one poster said it's stupid to confine yourself to one thing. The lords of the left hand path is a great book. I travelled the Qliphoth and it completely changes your soul. The black diamond , the crossing of the abyss, whatever you wanna call it is the endgoal. You become the demiurge. Hell we are the demiurge. We create and procreate. We are the wheel. God has no face but the one we grant him. It's all allegory, all of it.

>>228257
>anyone who claims to be a Satanist is an idiot.

Couldn't agree more honestly. I am completely open to respecting beliefs of an atheist, pagan, or any controversial sects of the abrahamic faith as well.

It makes no sense to be satanist however, except for holding on to a child like will for rebellion. I remember doing this during my term years as well. I don't understand basis of satanism either beyond simply being rebellious or seeking attention. If you are unhappy, won't it make sense to blame satan who is fundamentally responsible for all bad things in life? Why would you blame the guy who did almost everything else good enough? It's so silly to me.

>>228260
Interesting take, I am quite fond of egg theory. The idea that once we pass away we end up being the creator singularity in our own right. Then we all make a world in our image and so on. If there is any truth to it, it will make sense why we enjoy the kind of games some of us do. Sand box, where we can build things or design characters, and so on.

>>228246
imo you are in my eyes a retard the moment you subscribe to any of these bronze age made religions and their ideas and try to build upon them.
basically god isnt real, satan isnt real and whatever other bullshit jews and other brown people tried to piece together obviously turned out to be wrong and retarded.

>>227880
Im sorry. Couldn't actually feel you…

>>227881
I'm not sure what you mean.

>>227827
i cant think about the god´s idea

>>227827
>What are your thoughts and views on God, if any?
Not very favorable in general due to how the world operates.
I still "pray" to God every now and then, mostly out of desperation, but my prayers are like that you'd have towards a wish fulfilling entity.
I could never quite understand Christian prayer, even as a kid.
It felt like you were talking to a tyrant acting like a good little serf so you can avoid wrath and get some scraps.
"Thy kingdom come and thy will be done." or something, not sure how it actually translates to the English variant.
I talked back to the priest holding bible class often enough to get banned.
(Mostly because I also attended a random Catholic bible study for a while in parallel, nobody checked if I belonged and I was too stupid to know the difference so I just went along with the other priest too lol.)
Never got confirmed either.

Generally speaking I prefer religions where there aren't any claims that are obviously false, tied to real mundane history etc.
So something like taoism I guess.
The more philosophical or fantastical and less human/mundane the better.

To some people Jesus being "some dude" while also somehow God s a point of connection, but to me it's a huge disconnect.
Why should I, person born 30 years ago be subject to tribal nonsense from a far-gone era of some carpenter that was then used as form of control, embraced by politicians at the time for such purposes.
Very weird to me.

Not to sound all fedora atheist here, I know it was in vogue back in the days online. I just dislike how so much of Christianity has been demystified and a lot of stuff has been traced back historically.
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I feel closer to gnosticism in the way the belief of god is almost an intrinsic fact that the old testament god is the representation of the evils of man, and the new testmanet god christ is the true image of what man should be, seeing that he came down. This is also something coming from someone who has only read some of Genesis and the passage of Exodus and the other prophets as a kid, but God seems not to be a god reacting to man's actions, but synchronization of man's nature, rather than a sole separate reaction to it. But then again, people think that God would act according to our beliefs and moral standards, which most would agree he doesn't, at least the traditional Christian beliefs. God, at least in the Christian terms, seems to be the only rational reaction, at least Christ's presence, at least only something that was interacting with humans would put himself as a peasant, like a carpenter, instead of the accolades other gods have, even if he developed a following and so on during his time here. But on the other hand, the Old Testament God seems so archaic or alien and complicated, a humanless voice commanding the prophets to act in his will as servants or slaves, even if it's out of love, at least the translations seem to present the language as such compared to Christ. I have no choice but to be here and to think that god would follow my individual request, or morals seem insane, maybe that's why it's hard to pray, for the world and He act in synchronized suffering or beauty without my interaction. Being an unheard peasant of spirit and body, or being a peasant picking himself to try even with no promised reward, inscribed in human material value, feels like the only two choices. All we can do is find out and see if we guessed right when it comes to more trivial or debatable values we have. I'm retarded anyway, so who knows

I fap every night before sleeping

whenever i feel like it. might be once every two weeks sometimes, might be once a day other times.

Beat of?

>>228251
I can't beat my OF habit no matter how hard I try

Our hormones are stable, we do it for the sake of dopamine and i started doing it less and less since I got my meds for adderal. It just made me crave less hits of dopamine and reduce by addiction to pornography. I would say, this is pretty normal and this is how it is supposed to be. Teenage makes you over do it, we just reached stability.