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I keep starring at succubi when I'm in public places (in the train for example) like a pervert. the thing is I can't help myself but look at the beautiful succubi or turn head to every corner to see if there is a beautiful succubus to stare at. the problem is I want to break this habit because first, succubi aren't worth it, secondly I look lile a perv, thirdly I don't want to get in trouble. I want to ask archmages how do you avoid looking at succubi?
>just don't stare at them
I just can't, it's not that easy to stop just starring. I cat help myself because I'm like attracted (my eyes are) like a magnet.
how do you do my fellows to stop looking at succubi that use the power of their hot body to lure men to become a pervert?

I just wanted to know how did you get rich or got enough money to fulfill your dreams. Or is it you don't need money and are content with your current life and your meagre bank account

Norms, notions and behaviors they have that annoys you.

>Never argue with your critics or openly dismiss them
Their blood seems to almost always boil when you openly disagree or argue back against their point of view. They seems to just expect you to just nod along and agree(even if it's dishonestly).
Even if they deliverer their criticism rudely they expect you to still be polite with them.
Been told that snarky responses to people's criticism like
>I don't care go fix it yourself if you have a problem with it!
>Rich coming from an amateur like you, I like to see you do better!
>Who cares about what you have to say? Shove it up your ass!
>If you don't like it then do something else!
Will just ensure no one will bother to be honest with you, if they see you do something that is bad/wrong they will keep their mouth shut or lie saying you're doing great and hope you sabotage for yourself.
For a while I bought this. However, it just lead to people daring to be more rude with me. Eventually lead me to snap and revert to my old behavior. Then people started to choose their words more carefully when they talk to me.
Most of the time their criticism isn't even constructive, it's just them wanting you to cater to their preferences. So far this "antisocial" behavior haven't cause me any harm.
This is just some bollocks normies made up, because they don't like when people disagree or argues with them. They just want to be "right" without any push back.

Stepped on the scale today and realized that despite the initial "push" from a medical crisis a year ago, I basically regained all weight I lost (minus 5-10kg).
I also realized I've been working for almost 3 years now, going to be 30 the same week I'll hit my 3 years of work too.
3 years… of wages wasted.

I don't even know what the fuck I spent most of it on. It just escapes me.
Still live with mom and all my necessities are taken care of she takes nothing from me.
I had a blessed opportunity these past 3 years to save up for the dogshit future that hit the world now and I wasted it on toys and basically indulging all I couldn't as a NEET with no money.
The worst is that since I'm an impulsive retard I mostly have nothing to show for it either.

Health is even more fucked then ever before since I never took action.
Rather every action that didn't prove fruitful or flat out failed resulted in my absolute surrender for another month or three or six…
Absolutely defeated at the starting line basically.

To get to the point of this thread. Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
I barely have a sense of time. Kinda like when I was a NEET, just instead of 12-16 hours of sleeping and then PC stuff I'm forced to work a rather easy, blessed job.
Once it passes I just feel like I'm teleported to the next shift until I get to sleep through a weekend and months pass.
Even chronic pains don't make me act much. What does one even do to live?

The worst part really is that so many years went down the drain and I really have nothing to show for it. Not even memories.
I want to at least look back on SOMETHING fondly when I'm dying someday.
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Some news portals were talking about employing ex-convicts by providing shelter, food, a job and other opportunities, while many people my age have difficulties finding a job at McDonald's or any other shitty job to start their career (I'm 22 years old), dealing with mental health issues and so on, because we are treated as lazy even when no one wants to lend a hand.

How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life? I just want to become numb to it all. People always say you shouldn't, but whenever I let myself feel any small amount of happiness the feeling of sadness/depression that I'll inevitably feel later is so painful it makes me wish I just didn't feel anything at all in the first place. Meditation has gotten close to this and I like the peace it gives me but I wish I felt that peace all the time.

Thesis:

Engagement with structurally advanced texts and excellent rhetoric trains and temporarily optimises the mind into recurring modes of organization, attention, abstraction, and inference; repeated exposure can temporarily or semi-durably bias cognition toward those modes independently of propositional content.

Or in simpler terms, in the same way that algebra & calculus trains the mind towards logical and methodical thought in the long term, I believe it's possible for works of illustration, music and literature to do so in the short term. If this is true, then it's advantageous to catalogue such art-efacts and optimise exposure to them.

I'm not talking about the first order; "no duh, I read something that told/reminded me of facts and now they're at the front of my attention" or involuntary emotional responses, I'm talking about the temporary mental structure. Meditation or such like, if it works, seems to work by selecting for facts and details, voluntarily emphasising inputs to get desired outputs. It should notionally be possible then, to exercise the mind in such a way that one or more patterns of thought and emphasis can be either cold stored, or reliably reconstructed with inputs on demand. I think genius lies in being able to do this at will and not rely on outside props, but i'm not a genius.

The inspiration for this idea came from reading Robert Carlyle in the morning and consequently having a very organised and effective day at work, but I've noticed it much earlier in the second and third novel of Kai Lung. In the later case, the pleasant but none-the-less non-trivial effort of very complex English usually leaves me in a "well spoken" state for quite some time. I originally put this down to simple mimicry but perhaps there's more to it.

Thoughts? Examples of useful material?

If this is true, consider the darker side - that it's possible to artificially construct and reinforce dysfunctional frames of mind, not just overloading the memory and attention with noise and conflict, but actually implant a structure of thought - at scale. If this was so, how well does it explain modernity.

In short, my vision is fucked I especially notice this when I am wearing glasses.

In short, when I wear glasses they overlap on top of each other. I think the drawing I made might explain more than just words.

And no, it's still not just a problem with glasses I have even when I don't use them, but with glasses it especially makes this worse and, on top of that, I can't see without them that much.

And another thing is how my vision works. For example, if I focus on my hand instead of the box, the box will appear double, while if I focus on the box instead of the hand, the same thing will happen with my hand.

The image explains better

In short, I just want to know what my problem is and what the solution to it. Please help. I don't want to take it anymore. Please

I'm honestly not sure if I'm just asexual at this point. My single biggest fear is sex with a succubus, even if I was explicitly offered it I would most likely decline. I do everything in my power to make sure I'm as unattractive as possible, on the off chance a succubus might be attracted to me, which I find deeply disturbing. Does anyone else relate?

im 18 and the sex is a idea that make me feel disgusting. I don´t have relation with succubus. I think that the sex is a form of engage with the word.
And while more i think i can see that my life is a fucking disaster for be thinking about have sex and be with a succubus all day.
But i dont want humilieate me and be some desesperated. also im ugly shitskin and low iq and social skills (coomer to)
in deep of my heart i believe that lose my virginity will make me happy, that a succubus listen my problems, and scare me the idea that while more times goes on the succubi have more experience and i stuck in back.
I know a contradiction. My point is that i wanna be alone and be happy alone.i dont wanna be part of that twisted system and circle what life is, but my wish chase me.
What recomendation give me? above all the wizard more olders. I think go to a psychiathrist to give me pills and practice some sport, but i dont wanna go to gym because i hate thats machines touch by all world and are many sucubus dresses like whore.