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(previous thread) https://wizchan.org/wiz/res/168642.html
Post tips and information for homeless or about to be homeless wizards

Have you embraced solitude and how did you come about this choice if it was one and what is your story do you think your childhood lead to you being ok with being alone?

As a child my parents were split up a common theme for wizards but I consider some aspects of my childhood to be influential to my preference for isolation as an adult.
I lived with my mother full time as a child until the age of 7 and for various reasons my mother was never home so I was by myself and forbidden to leave the room I lived in.
When I started to live with my father nothing much changed except as he was sick he never got out of bed and was mostly sleeping and we lived in relative isolation away from others so I had the outdoors to explore as a child.
During schooling I was bullied a lot and was always acting up so was in detention every single day for lunch in my elementary school and this meant no other children were allowed to come near me or they would be in trouble I spent my time thinking alone.
I was also not allowed to have any friends as a child if a playmate took a liking to me when I was older my mother would tell me that not to trust the other child or make fun of them and say "wizzie you do not want to be around this child he is a loser" despite me being the biggest outcast. Of note is abuse by my parents in addition to my peers I think that played a part as well.

It is no surprise to myself that when I left schooling I withdrew from all social contact and shut myself away for numerous years and counting but I cannot help but feel that my entire younger days were preparing me to be alone because I do not feel lonely at all.
I used to enjoy talking online to some people from image boards on skype etc but I have now fully realized that there is no point in me trying to make friends with others online because it wont happen even if I wish I could I simply cannot make a friendship as if I never learnt to.
I feel more content now that I do not even bother trying to talk to others even when bored of my hobbies.

What about you wizards also sorry for the blog posting but I want to know if anyone else is similar to me. If psycho babble means anything one of my "mental disorders" is supposedly schizoid.

After digging through several more obscure boards it dawned on me there's nothing, never was.
It's nothing.
The only reason imageboards had been a pastime was because I was hoping for some corner to play out, or just something interesting to think about. It's comforting to see that there are some threads where your thoughts are shown, that you aren't insane. And wizchan is nice in that respect, interesting thoughts certainly and yet… because of my stupidity and desire to stop thinking, it's a way to engage in mental gymnastics, create mental prisons that eject yourself from the unforgiving responsibilities of living, but no longer does this work for me anymore. I can no longer turn a blind eye to my lobotomy. It just hurts

There's another thread that details the lack of hobbies, how everything is dead and we must move on. Just realizing that may include imageboards and how, ultimately, there's something dead in them too. And it's a real asinine thing to detail, there's no real revelation in this, of course imageboards are a waste of time. So is this post, it's very self-masturbatory, I'm aware.

Just figured there are lurkers here that may benefit from the reminder that these places do little for you - well, at least for me they no longer do anything. Just more alienation, and that's okay, whatever. I'm not sure why we're all prone to look for some common ground even if we're never going to see each other in reality and I'll be stuck in my corner of American Suburbia working a job with mostly foreigners, yuppies, and permanently tired - of course it's the best way to endure a situation you can't get out of, to kill your senses and self-awareness. But I'm not sure why I have - or you have - accepted it. It'd be nice to have energy back. To think or see beyond 5 centimeters in front of you.

Regardless, I guess I'll go. I am a faggot, I know. Whatever. Call me a fuckup faggot, I know I am one. Just fucking kill me, misanthropy is all I have left. FUCK THIS GOOD LUCK AND GOOD BYE

First about let me make this clear, this thread ain't against wizardry or any improvecuck shit, it's about groid behaviour and avoiding them

Back in the day I used to not give a fuck about my looks, had long hair and went out with a hoodie. While that kept some normgroids away sometimes it made business owners to look at me with suspiction or attract crazy people and stuff like that. Lately I was reading that Lookism webtoon and started to think about grooming myself a little. The other day I wanted to test how much this would change so I went with my hoodie and dark jeans as always except I put a shirt and a necktie and styled my hair (I'm thinking about cutting it since long hair requires too much care). I also put on sunglasses. Groids' behaviour changed almost instantly towards me, store owners won't view me with suspiction, they even treated me with more manners and stuff. My looks were more like a mafia thug/aggressive type and hobos and related shit also avoided me

Don't get me wrong, I find this so fucking frustrating. I realized that just by putting a fucking necktie normgroids would treat me different, their superficialism is terrible. I mean I know that groids are superficial but experiencing this was even more shocking. They judge people by their looks in a very sick manner. You could be either a psychopath or a genius and your looks would dictate their reaction. I don't want interaction with them yet ironically trying to look like them seems to keep groids away

So, what are your thoughts or experiences on this? Should wizards "blend in" among the groids to avoid unwanted attention? I always thought that looking like a hobo would be a better option since that would scare them away but on the opposite it seems that looking like a normalfag keeps them away. Like the gray man concept of preppers. I'm forced to go outside to buy groceries and some stuff so staying inside 24/7 is impossible, I must walk in the fucking city where the lowest human type walks around

What are you wizards going to do when they make vaccines so compulsory you can’t go outside without getting in trouble with police?

Before I begin, I want to mention that I’m using the word celibacy to mean NO SEX, NO PORN, and NO MASTURBATION.

Currently I’m on psychiatric medications that kill my sex drive. I haven’t masturbated or looked at porn, 2D or 3D, in months. However, I may have to get off these medications at some point for other reasons. Truly celibate wizards, how do you manage it? How do you avoid the desire to fap?

Its amazing how the internet started as a tool for wizards and outcasts to communicate and share knowledge and know is the normie world and you are weird if you dont put your real face in the internet every place on the internet if full of NPC normie crap even 4chan and the Deep Web is amazing that somrthing with a lot of potential become shit so quickly

I predict that most of this decade is going to be disastrous where each year gets worse than the last year and 2020 is just a preview of what will come in the 2020's. And to think, all of this happened is because people overreacted to some glorified flu with a high survival rate.

This world is so cucked how can NPCs cope in doing the same shit everyday work trying to get money succubus material things same crap

article about (males) not having sex becoming more common

https://www.washingtonpost.com/business/2019/03/29/share-americans-not-having-sex-has-reached-record-high/?utm_term=.13bc0eafcbdd