>>220422 (OP)I used to have people I talk to online for most of my youth. Never really had friends IRL at the time.
Mostly on teamspeak servers /xfire related to some at the time niche games, s4 league, early league s1-s3/4, cod classic and MMOs like Metin2.
Now in hindsight it always only worked because I was really good at these games, since I spent 12+ hours daily, so randoms would flock to me like some kind of micro-celebrity that they would always want to play with however lame that sounds.
Never felt like it at the time, maybe my memories are just tainted by hindsight. Non of those people would have ever talked to me if not for that.
I have one friend I talk to, basically only through chat who I met through college and we basically dropped out. The only reason I even have 1 is because of random chance and we happened to have very similar mindsets.
There are no places for people like me anymore. I'm 29 and honestly everything I enjoyed has turned mainstream, card games… anime and game forums were so different, safe havens for the likes of me.
Nowadays even if I somehow manage to enjoy a modern show, manga or game I actively avoid online discussions of it. "normies" enjoy them wrong, however retarded that sounds and it taints my experience if I realize.
That aforementioned micro-celebrity thing has been turned into reality through youtube for many of them, influencers and whatnot who shape the online landscape filled with NPCs who have downloaded their opinions on things from hour long "video essays".
It's beyond insane. Thousands of uncreative soulless golems churn out "content" trying to leech that success in the name of capital and clout from the few remaining works of art.
Even here I often read some really odd things clearly coming from someone at least a decade younger. Older people must have felt the same about me back then I guess.
I feel like if you are in your 30s or around that, you too experienced a period of great, yet fast transformation of the world.
Sometimes I feel like I escaped an insane asylum looking at what is normal today.
Maybe it's arrogance. Maybe I'm a bitter retard. I just can't even fathom interacting with the youth in any meaningful way even though way back when, age differences didn't mean shit for online friend groups.
The few I do interact with in the workplace now seem alien to me.
Not even in the sense of a normie compared to a wizard, but even compared to the normies I'm used to, the youth today feels like a different species.
All in all, I miss having people to talk to in chats and forums and such. Being anonymous has it's pros. It's comforting in a way.
But even the way I am I would like to have one or two more people to interact with.
The issue is I barely do anything anymore and social interactions need an excuse at the very least, some shared interest that carries it on. So that's that.
It feels like normies have taken everything I ever enjoyed and skinned them wearing them as badges, titles, temporary identities to larp as some quirky skinwalkers.
The creatives tailor their creations to them because money. There is nothing left.