When people talk about their sufferings and hardships. They tend to do it in an exalted way. They always tell it as it is and- almost as to accept it, wear it as a badge, laying it bare before the listener.
but please tell me. Who on earth would want people to know of their sufferings? Well. They like to use them not to show how weak they are but as a testament to their fortitude. But i've noticed that these solemn, self proclaimed conquerors of adversity are always either false to themselves or the listener and almost always fall into two distinct, gay categories.
1. The liar.
This person does not tell the story as it is. They tell it the way they tell it to themselves. Like a polished ball of shit. They brush over important parts or details and try to make it sound pretty almost. Hiding the real nature of the situation or event, they often do this to gain sympathy whilst staying morally innocent. The point is that the event or situation was actually too hard to bare for them so they don't tell it to its fullest because they don't want to look like a retard or loser. They tell the fanfiction version they created.
These people were never in any real danger to begin with. They were well equipt to deal with the situation so they are perfectly fine telling it truthfully. Often as not a depressing story but a cool one. They aim to be revered because of it, paint themselves as some sort of underdog when in reality they were on top the whole time.
i don't tell my tales of trauma or hardships because there is no rectitude to be salvaged from them, you as a normal person would get no catharsis in placing yourself in my shoes, no, in fact you would find it repugnant if not frightening. It would make you use that awful buzzword "yikes". You would leave wishing you never heard it because it tampers with your world view and to top it off i still am a loser. But even if i wasn't. Even then you would feel that chaos and evil had one. But you'll never hear it. It would be absolute torment for me to repeat it.
if there is a point to all this posting it is that there is no such thing as a real life reflection or autobiography. There are always things too embarrassing for people to recall and there are always things left out, things that the author hides even from them self. No autobiography is 100% true. It is all embellished. tweaked. and manipulated to sound just.
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