Time has changed, and so has the internet and myself. Last week, I realized
that even though I have used internet to get my social fix to get away from
loneliness, I realized that I was only making that loneliness worse. You can not
hide from loneliness. I used to pride myself into being a hardcore outcast,
often rejecting potential relationships, friendships, missing out on invites, holidays
etc. and I realized that too much isolation can kill you. As a teenager, you think you can
conquer everything, until reality hits you in adulthood and you realize that you
need real compassion from a real human being. Video games, pornography, internet discussion,
and internet fights all seem fun and dandy when you're a teenager, but there comes a time
where those pleasures won't help you.
I've been getting therapy and I'm scheduled for a job interview this Thursday. 4chan, 8chan,
lookism, crabs.me etc. all have taught me something and that is that being miserable and
having a pessmistic view on life only causes more suffering, not less. There is
no reason to suffer. We humans often try to rationalize everything, but sometimes all we need is to experience is life, and love.
Change is possible, and I hope every single of you wizards find happiness at some
point in your lives. Wizchan was the last chansite I browsed, as it wasn't as edgy as 4chan, and I could find some meaningful discussion here, but alas, it can not replace real human
connection.
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