/wiz/ - Wizardry

I think I'm slowly giving up being a magician. Sometimes I look in the mirror and smile at my own presence, one time I was quite excited and masturbated with my own reflection. I think it's too much, and even though it only happens once it is enough.I have never experienced romantic love, but if we define it as acceptance, forgiveness, benevolence and honesty, then that is how I feel self-love. Like an elderly couple with decades of commitment, where everything has already been seen, where there are no butterflies in the stomach or the nervousness of the first date. Also the hypocrisy of some actions such as despising violence, rejecting isolated people, You people have bad qualities of your own, which are unacceptable in others, but not in me. Because I wouldn't be near people like that even with a stick.

What can I say? In my defense, I think this is due to prolonged social isolation.

After hitting 30 this feeling has been eating me and I don't know how to resolve it. I started watching different youtube channels and it made me realize how much time I wasted staring at a screen when I could be experiencing the world and creating things. The 21st century offers so many possibilities and yet all I did was sit at home play video games and read inane garbage online. Now I always had depression, anxiety, social autism, adhd, average iq etc. that lead to me being an underachiever but nowadays it feels like I was just the right self-help book and meds/supplement combination and some effort away from solving all these issues.

I could start now but after hitting 30 I feel this sense of hopelessness after experiencing aging. I felt like shit in my 20s but now I realize I actually felt good. Now I tire easily and years of sitting made my body feel rusty. I feel like the youth shield is gone and I can't take the future for granted anymore and expect it to make it even to 40. Every time I experience a new pain or sensation I imagine it to be the start of something serious.

How do you deal with this? It feels like modern technology amplifies winners so if you are a loser it feels extra bad because there is such a big contrast between living with your parents and riding the bus and eating mac and cheese and living in a multi-million dollar mansion with a beautiful view and driving a ferrari and eating at 3 star restauraunts.

A couple days ago I became a wizard.

I worked so hard, accomplished nothing, life a piss.

So many years of my youth on toil and I am in a place little better than if I'd done nothing at all.

Why NEETdom is so common among wizards? Even the wagies here had a NEETdom period in their life, why this type of lifestyle is so common among us? I'm genuinely curious to understand why.

Thread dedicated for those who are practicing abstinence. Share the changes you experience in your journey of self-control and celibacy as you reject porn and masturbation. What you’ve learnt so far about yourself. Your struggles with self-control, and what you expect to accomplish. The numbers of days you plan to go without it and why.

I plan to accomplish at least 5 months without wasting my seed this year and that time I’d squander watching porn I want to use it to improve at digital painting and become better at japanese which have always been goals of mine.

Disregard porn and destructive habits, acquire magic

I fucking hate normalfags. the worst is we can't fight back when we try to hurt them, they act smug instead and we're distraught. insultting them ? it will show you're above them and will spout some facts that shakle your soul.
We are losers, we are punchingbags for them, we're nothing just usless cattle

How can I stop feeling jelous or envious of my peers who have countless things that I lack (not speaking about muh sex or circles of friends), I recognize nature, genetics, and luck are not in everyone's favor and people are different hence it is irrational to envy someone else since we are different, you just thrown into this world and the rest is history, I wish to end my Īrṣyā:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C4%AAr%E1%B9%A3y%C4%81

Any wizard here got so deep into the ways of handling urges that he can fap edging (like weekly, lets say) without finishing it and zero consequences (like night pollutions) because he learned to handle the energy?

Please elders share the ways of aura charging. I wish to thrive in this path

70+ years experience; summation: the creatures are not worth the air they breathe…
they bring nothing but stress aggravation frustration deceit greed misery treachery lies betrayal illness and death…
if you let your dick do your thinking, you are already fucked.
everyone i know who married wishes he hadn't, the creatures are evil incarnate…
i could provide all kinds of examples, but i will keep this short and to the point…
it isn't worth it, never has been never will be…

Yearning for societal markers that promise happiness is embarrassing. Carve out your own path within you own means. That doesn't mean constant improvement or doing nothing. But it could.
Direct yourself and decide what's acceptable. Just be.

Sorry for the psychobabble, but it really can be as complicated or easy as you want. Why let the rules be defined for you?