I don't understand - what do you expect? People tend to want to be around people that have potential to add to their life, people who look nice or are funny. Sure it's vain and self-indulgent and narcissistic but unfortunately that's how people operate, you and me included, it's very rare for someone to be unconditionally and genuinely empathetic. This upset me for a while because I was as superficial as everyone else despite my inner contradictions and disgust at the gay earth dog eat dog setup going on but there's literally nothing you can do about it. You could go down the whole "er my gawd they don't really appreciate me for who i am INSIDE" "im lonely even though i have tons of friends and relationshits" normalfag rabbithole if you want but there's literally nothing to extract from that, it's a baby first world tier "problem". I don't doubt these schoolkids were rote and vain but like, you sound very arrogant and think you're really funny, and they did to, so what's the issue? Are you not funny, is that not part of your person? If you had cool hair, you styled it, doesn't that make it you? If you're so attractive and wicked and nihilistic just go find some other people to hang around with and you'll probably be alright, just don't try so hard you get burnt out. Maybe you're more of a sperg than you're letting on in which case I sympathise, if not, and people readily accept you because you're so cool and epic, then just deal with it, drop the pointless nihilistic front, and try getting some exposure and positive stimulus.
It's like whenever someone tries to say winning the lottery would be bad because suddenly everyone would treat you differently (better) in exchange for money or to siphon your newfound status.
1) wouldn't be a problem for me anyway because I don't know anyone
2) just have some boundaries so people don't take advantage of you / learn how to separate the wheat from the chaff
I understand the dilemma, think about someone like Mark Zuckerburger, surrounded by complete yes men and leeches (his wife primarily) - the way everyone chastises him for being a sperg lizard person, he's basically a tool, literally and figuratively, to most people. The social contract of the human psyche is gross, but again, what are you gonna do about it? Adapt or die etc, this is present in all relationshits, but at least someone liking you for your appearance or humour is ostensibly more "you" than your status. Now if yPost too long. Click here to view the full text.