/wiz/ - Wizardry

My mom was an airhead who barely learned to read and write. She grew in poverty and she's obsessed with being poor and loves watching videos of people in extreme poverty. Despite all that she is a narcissistic cunt who thinks she's superior to everyone and loves to humilliate people every chance she gets. She got with my dad because she thought he was rich. No matter how much money she gets she tries to spend it all as soon as she gets it. As a kid, she constantly told me that she didn't love me and that I ruined her life, everytime my dad left the house she used to beat me. Everytime I'm around her, she makes sure to make hurtful comments, completely unprovoked, and loves to shame me in front of people. I know that part of my low self-steem is because of her. She always made me feel like I was worth nothing.

My dad was a musician that eventually became a moderately famous photographer for a national newspaper. He was a decent man when I was a kid, but eventually he started to beat my mom and me, he also kicked us out of the house plenty of times. His so called "fame" got the better of him and became a womanizer. He spent most of his money on succubi and came back home with nothing. That obviously caused more fights that always ended with me having to mop my mother's blood off the floor and having to call an ambulance to get her to the hospital. The beatings only caused my mom to resent me even more for "ruining her life". I was just an elementary school kid when all of these things happened and they continued to happen until I was 17. On top of that I was getting bullied at school, so I came back home from getting bullied to find my parents trying to kill each other.

Now almost a couple of decades later, I'm stuck with two aging parents who believe that I "owe" them for the hell they put me though. Needless to say, I hate them. And even though I feel some "love" for them as a son and know that I will cry them when they finally die. A part of me will find relief when that happens.

Do you think psychotherapy can help NEETs to become something better? It's such a common advice out there: go to therapy, it's the best you can do to help yourself, it's your responsibility etc etc. What's your experience with therapy? Do you think it genuinely might help?

you know what would be nice? a way to further leave our humanity behind. free from the urges of the flesh, keeping only the love for anime, vidya, music, movies, perhaps food (though i would dispense that one personally). only the basic joys that life offers, the kind that allows me to have them independent of companionship.

in essence, a mecha, a robot, a machine that doesn't seek to harm but it is able to defend itself, enabling a life free from society, free from others, making them completely optional. i know that this is partly possible in human form, as my desire for the opposite sex begins to die down at the level 34.

but as this desire dies, leaving no trace of want or disdain, only cold indifference as the age progresses, a disconcerting peace takes place, along with the existential questions.

where to go from here? driving a car with no destiny, maybe that gives a high. once that is done, now what? maybe watching evangelion for the gorillionth time. making a new food or kicking the ball randomly. i don't know, i guess i am not used to this much freedom.

winning the struggle of the flesh comes with a price after all. "where to go from here?", the question comes up again, along with the image of a child looking up to you, holding your hand.

and that child is you.

More often than not I find myself having problems with experiencing proper passage of time. Sometimes I think how X was so long ago, only to discover it happened just two or three months ago, while at the other hand things that I think of as "recent" are already couple of years old. Since I always have "something to do", days pass very quickly at unnoticeable pace. Everything post covid feels off, everything turns into an uniform past that was both "recently" and "a long time ago" and I don't feel like I'm making memories, just it's stuff I remember, if you get what I mean.

I turned 30 in December. I'm a dateless KHHV. Was told I would become a wizard, and get magic powers.

Did not get any magic powers. :(

The world is increasingly becoming more and more hostile to wizards, non-neurotypicals, hermits, the disabled etc. and public opinion in the west practically desires salt mines or concentration camps for such human beings in a very veiled passive-aggressive way.

How are you dealing with the monster planet? I have a gut feeling I have less than 10 years before shit hits the fan. With the economic recession, even otherwise somewhat sane normies are openly posting their wishes of killing off marginalized people. And these people are a large political voting block.

Hello, I'm new to the Forum. I wanted to ask you all a question. What is the importance of seminal retention? I stopped watching pornography and stopped masturbating. I'm starting a life of voluntary celibacy. Any questions or advice are welcome.

So I'm "lucky" to live with my parents and leeching them off as a pathetic NEET.
If I go to work, how will that benefit me?
I won't be able to afford a new PC since it costs a shitton of money. Okay maybe I could afford a laptop for a black day when my PC dies.
I wouldn't be able to move out. I wouldn't be able to afford anything life-changing (education, flat, car).
Basically I wouldn't be able to afford anything. And additionally, I'd be incredibly suicidal like most of the day because i'm an autistic weak mentally pathetic NEET who can't survive society and work in the first place, anyway.

What are the pros towards trying to find a job as a 30+ years old NEET as opposed to trying to kill myself painlessly?

Hotwheels just died.

It's weird, I was just thinking about how he got chased off wizardchan like ten years ago for having sex. I remember everyone calling him "Chad McThunderwheels".