/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>171831
Why do you think I'm making it up? Heat is what most electrical currents decay into. Ever felt a battery after it's charged? It's hot.

>>171833
Woah, slow down there Einstein, your brain must be overheating also

>>168581
>Besides if the so called heaven exists its probably trash anyway. Just an endless contest of who can suck gods cock the best and the longest.
Fuck this had me in tears, wasn't expecting to read something like this.

>>168068
Pessimism leads you to believe in the chance of a Hell-fire.

fuck what you heard. it's this life that matters the most. live righteous in THIS WORLD and everything will come.

Been there for 3 weeks. It feels like prison and there's nothing to do. If you're lucky, there will be some toys or games to play that haven't been destroyed by earlier patients. Between that, reading, sleeping, and waiting for meals, there's not much to do. Don't expect this environment to provide you with life meaning, it's supposed to just be a stable environment.

I had a private room, but also had the nurses come up and turn the lights on in the middle of the night to make sure I was still there. Very fucking annoying. Also got the butt injections

>>174022
just dont fuck up your suicide attempt like me and end up in there anyways, being treated like an animal and all your rights taken away from you. however, it's safer than real prison and 3 weeks is not unendurable. the real problem is the system itself is flawed, you shouldn't be treated like a criminal for suffering from something like suicidal depression, that will only give you more trauma.

Used to work at mental asylum in poor European country for a few months.
We did drug up our patients against their will, sometimes tied them down. I only witnessed one case of patient VS. patient violence when one patient smacked and pushed another patient for going into smoking area, the one who got smacked wasn't allowed there because he would eat cigarette filters or any other little piece of garbage, situation was neglect on my part and it still hunts me a bit. New arrivals usually got drugged to the point they couldn't talk, just drool, drooling was so intense they carried towels for absorption. There weren't any solitary rooms in my ward (men only). Due to getting drugged up patients were mostly chill. Patients could use internet in the library, max one hour a day. There were non-mandatory daily walks if the weather was good, but not all were allowed to go outside, same with computer time.

>>169361
>Are you allowed to do excercise all day if that's what you want?
It was an option in my ward, we had some workout machines lined up along the corridor.

>>169474
>I'm planning on voluntarily making a trip to one myself soon
One of our patients was a practicing doctor who liked spending his vacations there for some reason.

>>169484
>>169603
Same patients are tourists, who shouldn't really be there. I suppose they just want someone else to take care of them, provide meals, clean clothes, warmth, baths, its better than living in their own garbage. If one doesn't intend to do anything with their life anyway it can become a lifestyle.

>>174048
that screencap is cancer

>>174049
I disagree.

Learn to ride bicycle first dude.

I'm 30 too and can't drive either. I live in Argentina and was thinking to try to learn and get the license but nowadays is mandatory to get vaccined to get the driving license so I'll stay away from that

>>173909
>your friends
>rest of the post
wizchan 2020

>>168053
>>168055

How fat are you? You gotta be at least 400lbs

>>173740
>gets PTSD from an online forum

whew

well now i’m going to be 3 years behind before i graduate.

forced to live at home and never have peace and quiet because my family is a bunch of monkeys who always need to be entertained be it complaining with each other or just senseless actions. They got a new dog for no reason and I can’t even read a book without hearing him bark or his foot steps or them playing with it. I have thoughts of just strangling the dog but when I actually look at it I just see an innocent creature who is getting toyed with by a bunch of demons. My dad paid for my rent when I rented an apartment for uni. Get no sleep either because the mattress on the floor i sleep on is shit and i sleep in the basement and has a centipede problem that causes me anxiety, have woken up to huge ones on the wall right beside me. Add that to my insomnia and adhd and I wake up with terrible brain fog after 3 hrs of sleep, when taking meds makes my heart feels like it will blow up.

Even if i do graduate i will be 65k in debt, if i don’t graduate and drop out now i will be 25k in debt and have no job experience.

I need to gtfo this house but idk how. Rent is expensive everywere and I have student loan debt building up and can’t manage school and work. All i want in life is a quiet place to live in. Nothing else

>>153552
I got a job washing dishes. I make about $400 a week. I could get a studio apartment close to my workplace for $750 a month.

I don't have a job at the moment, but I feel that's all going to end now. I've finally gotten over my anxiety and dread that's been plaguing my mind all this time, and it helps me feel more conscious and alive. I plan to be successful and make lots of money in the coming years.

I'm 30, have been working all through my 20's. Mostly full time positions. I have never made enough to move out. I didn't finish my degree and I don't have a trade skill, so I will probably never make more than $15 - $18/hr. I currently make roughly 2x the min wage in my state, have over $15,000 USD saved in the bank, and am still not sure I could move out. Not to mention the only motivation one could have from moving out is to get laid, and that obviously isn't going to happen. I live with my mom who works full time as well, we live in a giant house and I rarely even see her as our work schedules are different. Its comfy, but at work I always have to lie about my situation. Do not ever let normies know you still live at home.

>>173594
I'm like this. And almost no one understand the joy of learning new stuff. It it only thing that I never started hating.

i superficially learn tons of stuff by looking up words and diving into random/related subejcts, clicking and reading through wikipedia articles

the 'see also' section of wikipedia articles is so damn useful for jumping around things

>>173613
For some people learning is very fun and those people are very lucky, I'm sure you've met someone who obsessed over a technical subject like programming or science. The thing is there is nothing you can do in order to get into that hyper passionate state, it's completely unconscious. It goes back to the idea of what truly creates your interests? Why can some people enjoy studying for hours and hours and have fun but others can't stand 10 minutes? I think if you are not born with this ability you are fucked.

>>173613
There is a difference learning something for leisure and studying something you want to do professionally.
I grantee you would have felt the pressure once you had to preform for bands or at parties.

When people hear the word "learning" they confuse it with "memorizing". When you learn something, you're acquiring a skill or perspective that's based on the resources or people you happen to consult with; it's a personal experience that way. The brain is wired to recognize patterns and draw conclusions. That's fun. But people are scared by "the pursuit of knowledge" because they think of the multiplication tables and historical dates they were forced to memorize in grade school. It's becomes work and they don't see any personal expression involved.
I don't consider clicking around Wikipedia articles for fun facts to be learning either, which is what some people in this thread seem to talk about. It's like flipping through TV channels. You might find something interesting to explore further and have a genuine interest in, but most of the time you're feeding your brain useless information that I think is more exhausting to it than the "work" of learning. More awareness is always exciting and there's merit to that but learning only really happens when that pressure or motivation to perform well is on you.

My life objectively sucks and would have sucked in any time period since i'm sick.
BUT.
People, espescially here, don't get how life is so much easier today than it was in any time period we know.
I mean, if you're just a neet like me, you're basically above most humans beings that lived for MILLENIA. Cheap food, hot water, internet, etc.

>>173606
> you're basically above most humans beings that lived for MILLENIA
That's true; however, it's likely that at least some of us wouldn't even have survived into adulthood. I for example suffered from recurrent severe ear infections as a child, any one of which might have proved fatal without antibiotics.

>>173422
I've decided I need to stop taking so much shit from myself and comparing myself to others so much. And just compare myself to how I was yesterday, much more then comparing myself to other people. Its the only way I can have sanity and happiness. The negativity about myself and abuse of myself only inevitably spills over to my family.

Unlike a lot of other wizzies here I do believe in and care about self improvement. There's certain things I want to achieve no matter how far behind everybody else I am, just for the sake of achieving them before I die. I think every NEET, wizard apprentice and wizzie should be the same, trying to improve themselves and their situation in whatever way they can however much they can, because its better then stagnating or getting worse.

But I think I'm going to need to stop exposing myself to so much negativity and toxicity from other people, 4chan is the worst for this. Its just become a complete cesspit of psychopaths who are jackboots of the normie world, taking the judgement and standards and condemnation to the extreme

pessimism and depression are not the same thing. I am an antinatalist and a pessimist but I don't see value in projecting my philosophy into my personal life. Why would I want to saddness and unhappiness to be my identity.

>>173606
>cheap food
cheap eadible items isn't food, it has close to no nutritional value, if any
>hot water
contaminated with chemical wastes produced by corporations
>internet
aka govt's and bit tech's propaganda and spying tool

Is there an English translation of Caraco's work?

>>173484
Unfortunately, no such thing as a full english translation. Here are some blog posts about him & some fragments of his writing:

https://web.archive.org/web/20110813105551/http://chaoshandbook.blogspot.com/

https://illusioncity.net/albert-caraco/

https://en.m.wikiquote.org/wiki/Albert_Caraco

>>169499
/accelerationists/ we out here

>>173499
Nah

I'm surprised I'm not dead yet. And fuck everybody who supports this clownworld shit. I mean I get it, we all didn't have a choice and just making the best of it, but it is worth it if some of the worst people can just stop breathing.

Conscious life is oscillating between extremes in search for a central equilibrium that is constantly negated the moment we reach it. It advances in time like waves that no matter how long the building phase will break up at some point giving rise to a new wave with different qualities. A wave, that can be watching a movie or months of feeling good before hitting the ground again, it's a relatively coherent experience over time and we know that each coherent experience must end - finally the experience of life comes to an end in death. Waves don't make compromises, that's nature.

I remember some Greek philosopher (not Heraclitus) having this view of time and motion.

>>173363
stop overcomplicating things
you exist to eat, shit and reproduce.
You fail to do the 3rd and won't have children. Nothing philosophical or deep about your pointless life. You sound like you're under the influence of marihuana perhaps

>>173336
Please enlighten me how you managed to ignore the wars of the tribes around you.
I'm constantly stuck spinning my wheels over trivial shit like what browser to use because muh privacy and a great amount of "what if"s bordering on paranoia.
I'm worried about potential future events to the point where it paralyzes my present. What if I pursue my dream but some political shift makes the normalfags take it all away? Stuff like that.
So basically how do you exempt yourself from something that inevitably affects you?
>>173335
Also how does the whole bad states transforming into good states relate to permanent misery? For example medical problems. What is the good transformation of those with time? Death?

>>173429
>you exist to eat, shit and reproduce.
That's a very generic normalfag thing to say.
>You fail to do the 3rd and won't have children.
I think you failed your way all the way here.

>>173429
I don't want otsay it because I don't like being mean to other persons. But after I commited a post that I really believe in I have to do it.
>you exist to eat, shit and reproduce.
You fail to do the 3rd and won't have children. Nothing philosophical or deep about your pointless life. You sound like you're under the influence of marihuana perhaps

Fuck you. Seriously, fuck you. Eat shit, reproduce? Your life is fucking sad. I have no words for this. I have no explanation for this. I can only come to one conclusion which is that you are a reproducing normie. You either have got a child already or you impregnated a succubi already. It can't be any other way if you think that this life is all about. You are such a worthless piece of prick. Be gone. You don't deserve to post on wizchan. Fuck.
>now you'll say I am just malding because of crab/ wizkid etc…
>You sound like you're under the influence of marihuana perhaps

My fucking God. You must be 16 years old. I hate you so much I can't put it into words. Do you come from r9k directly? Are a bot? Go fucking die. Fuck you. Fuck.

>>171462
You're welcome ma wizza :D

>>171461
Thanks tupacwiz, i always enjoy your posts, i've never heard this song before

>>171465
Explain more?

>>162019
Nice. Keep it up

This world is upside down. The succubi are begged for it while the suckers work to win their approval when it should be the other way around.

I would not expect them to come to my door: they well know what that means. However, they will never give up, on the other hand, executing that attitude of dominance towards men: they always act as receivers, dominatrixes and judges, never the other way around.

We are the vice-rulers of this planet, and not being horrifying enough, we are dominated, even in conservative societies, by those who are supposed to live to serve us. We are dominated through shame, jealousy, pride, sadness, libido. Blind and stupid we react to these drives instead of redirecting them against their origins.

If succubi knocked on my door, they might not mind that I left them the next day: many are like that and yet they adopt the position of courted rather than courting: out of sheer arrogance.

If they really value having children, they would not care so much that the husband could abandon them: it would be enough to know that they have obtained the best possible genes and the offspring itself would be a prize, but of course, that would be intelligent sex and this is the drive,not here. This is usually sought but rather to console the infatuation or the urgency of enjoyment.

succubi will never adopt the role of courtship, knowing that they are privileged because it is men who carry this role, and they'd feel dreadful shame. They are unable to accept how voracious, intense, and intimate their drives become. If they were to transcend those barriers, they could indeed take a tremendous spiritual leap.

Men could not do what they do, despite the fact that succubi are the privileged and winners in every proper sexual encounter: their orgasms are 9 times more intense and yet they are not exhausted by it. A succubus can have 9 orgasms in a day without exhausting herself, a man who has had 9 ejaculations in a day has made an attack on his health yes or yes.

It is said that the courting role of man is the natural one, since this is the case in the animal kingdom. Do you not realize that in the animal kingdom it is the males who have the attractiveness attributes and not the females. Males have crest, mane, colors, have features and dance and fight to demonstrate their virility … however in humans it is the females who have the features: the mane, the hips, etc. The world was confusePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I don't like being alive. Being a wizard perhaps makes life more unpleasant than it otherwise would be, but I don't think it's the essential problem. I have no doubt that if I were a norman I'd still be miserable the vast majority of the time, because our biological and social programming are such that any conceivable way of living in this world entails almost constant frustration, pain, jealousy and anxiety. No one aspect of my circumstances is to blame for that.

I hate living. Wizardry or not. Not being a wizard wouldn't make you not depressed, it wouldn't make you not live in poverty, it wouldn't make you not stuck in a shit job, it wouldn't make you not have a trash family, it wouldn't spare you from disease and genetic conditions, it wouldn't spare you from abuse.
Being a wizard has no impact on how effective you are at coping with bullshit. It has no impact on talent, hobbies or energy. It is simply not that big a deal.

>>168583
I started to feel this place sort of a home. What's next, fellow elders?

>>173218
hmmm. HMMMMM.