Doesn't matter nearly as much as you're led to believe. Have had family and people close to me die, saw fam die in front of me and couldn't do anything to save them. The idea that you're supposed to obsess over death this much is something people tell you if they hold you in contempt - and they say this precisely because they de-value life and want to convince people of the glory of death, sacrifice, and if they can get you to agree to it, killing on their behalf. Death sucks and it's a bunch of bullshit. Life, however futile it may seem, is basically good, and so is the world. It's not life itself or the trees or birds that did something so awful by living.
Basically - find a way to die alone, so the bastards don't have the satisfaction of leering over you as your life ends. If you can win that, and settle whatever affairs you have, you've already won the greatest victory of all. Reasonable people don't want to be by your side as you die, and wouldn't want to drag people they like into the abyss of death. You might say how selfish that is, but when death comes, you will be alone. Better that than being given over to ritual sacrifice and the grotesque soul of those who did this to the world. If anyone truly cares about you, they will understand this, and probably think the same about their own death. Perhaps the one thing someone might want is someone they trust to watch over them and guard them, so that those who would leer at their death with pleasure are unable to barge in. The assholes love doing that just to twist the knife. So, I think about that, and am so thankful that I'm probably going to die in my home, no medical attention and no one needing to know. I don't expect to die any time soon, and I quite like living and keep in touch with people, so if they can't reach me after a week or two, they know I'm either dead or hiding from something.
There is no Hell and you don't physically "go anywhere" when you die. A child can see through that. The afterlife is something we sense while we are alive - a potential that is difficult to describe in language unless you are someone inclined by true need to find it. It's not something that applies to most of humanity, I've learned. Most of humanity really doesn't think about death in this way. They're too attached to their sense of self and social standing, and when you really see what they feel and think about death, it's some of the most pathetic idiocy I've heard. I thought I was stupid an
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