/wiz/ - Wizardry★

Lil update! I'm that 18-years-old (now 19) apprentice that posted in May. That post was removed a couple of months ago, but I assume most of the people here remembers it.

I'm still a loser aspiring to become a wiz. Nothing has changed. The only thing is that I'm not as depressed as I was before, for some reason. But this is it. I'm still a loser.

Long story short, I live in what you would say is a penal colony. Fortunately I've managed to get by. But I want more form life and thus, I wish I didn't have to deal with other people on a daily basis, as it is always so troublesome, I think I've always been a schizoid, so I need my space, in my dream life, I would only have to deal with characters on a screen on a daily basis. But I know that this is not how evolution shaped most humans, so at least, I would really like to limit how much time I have to interact with others face-to-face, and some beer money job (for a first worlder) would be a godsend for me.

The minimum salary in here is 250 dollars, that's all I would need to earn on a monthly basis and I have most of my waking time free, I've looked job listings on fiverr and all those other sites but if some anon here knows like a plan for me to eventually earn more (my dream salary would be 500 dollars) programming on whatever language, that would be ideal.

If I don't get many answers here, I plan to look up mostly east asian redditors looking for scraps, just like me and then team up with them. But I figured some wizards could come up with a more helpful plan for me, I think. SQL seems easy enough and I've done hours of exercises, but I don't know if there is some more profitable language.

I want to kill myself efficiently without much pain, what's a good way to do this?

When the average normie is afraid and shy, and they don't have the balls to talk to a succubus, or even for more important things like getting a job, or opportunities in life other than a simple vagina, they don't do it, Nor will they either, since they are locked in their screens, which covers them from their ridiculous fear. I am not a normie, I lack a complement of normality, too much time locked up posting on image boards rotted my head, my social skills are broken, but you know one thing I don't care, the world eats introverts, shy people, socially stupid people, and I'm tired of being one of them.

Even with everything against me, I will show that I can do it, I don't care if I'm afraid, if I'm not ready, and with multiple insecurities involved, I will prevail in the face of adversity, and I will show myself that I can.

I have a small dick, small hands, shitty hairline, big nose, small and horribly misaligned teeth, ugly facial hair when I bother growing it out, and a faggoty sounding cuck voice. Just your typical genetically inferior dysgenic abomination muttmerican who gets indirectly cucked by Chad and Tyrone on a daily basis when they pump and dump all my crushes.

However, there has never been a greater blow to my confidence than being told on countless occasions, by multiple people, that I look like Mister Bean. Typically delivered in one of the following normalfaggoty manners:

"Ayo anyone ever told you you look like Mista Bean?"
(succubus) "Oh my god you know who you look like? You look just like that one guy on TV, what's his name? Ummmmmm, oh! Mr Beam! You look JUST like him."
"Hey man you ever seen Mr Bean's Holiday? No? You be lookin like him doe straight up"

At some point I tried playing it off. "Oh you mean Rowan Atkinson? Yeah I like his standup." (I really don't but I'm trying to get off the subject.)
"I dont know who dat iz cuz, all I know iz theres a dude on TV Mr Bean and you look like him"
Didn't work. The normalfags are completely fixated on my appearance and resemblance to a bumbling retard on TV.

I'm in my 30s now but this has been going on since high school ever since the niggers started calling me Bean, i.e. "What up Bean?"

One day at work some nigger started commenting on my appearance and said I look like someone… I was ready to be humiliated in front of everyone and called Bean once again. Imagine my relief when he revealed that he was thinking of "the guy from Step Brothers" (aka the ugly one.) It wasn't flattering in the least, but anything beats being called Bean.

If you're ever feeling down on yourself, just be glad and count your blessings that you don't resemble "Mr Bean from Mr Beans Holiday" or any other famously ugly person for that matter.

Why do the feds waste their time profiling me over a stupid email I sent to Putin's office? I'm just a random Australian citizen with broken teeth stuck at home who got lost in the system.. in an average ass taxpayer. Three times I've been in a psych ward and there's always a guy or a succubus that quotes something from my search history to me… Do they think this is a good strategy to find nuclear launch codes? Why the fuck would I have nuclear launch codes?? Ridiculous. Wasting your time but enjoy the entertainment I suppose. Billions of dollars and wizard grade technology and they waste their time on me as if I was god or something.. lmao. Jesus didn't even exist the calendar is fake and gay. Morons. Positivity only gang gang. Have my exif I don't give a fuck I'm angry because you're wasting tax dollars on me instead of giving me my goddamn jaw surgery and dental implants. Think I'd waste my time playing around with acoustics and 432 resonance otherwise? Jeez.. and yesz they will see this. Feel free to comment some shit for them to see.

Are you autistic?

Here's a free test: https://rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php
Pic related are my results.

I feel that there should be at least some correlation between autism and wizardry. When I tried to apply for a job in military (since that's the kind of job that pays really well even if you don't have a degree) their psychologist told me to fuck off (in more polite terms) and that I could be autistic, but I don't have an official diagnosis or anything.
How about you, Anon? Are you on the spectrum?

and so, I decided to speculate tkt about the fact that very soon sex dolls with and artificial intelligence will appear and even now there are neural networks making sex chats. What I want to say is that human females will soon get a competitor. yes, they will be very expensive, but think that we will have a chance for a relationship, even with a robot

What are the chances the change in average height are due to hormonal or environmental factors, in part, and that it's not all down to better nutrition?

Just for an anecdote, me and my brother grew up malnorished by western standards. I had low blood pressure as a child due to just eating the cheapest cereal grains for years. I remember being tested at 10 for low iron levels, and when I stood up too fast I often got dissy. Regularly 'd be hungry at school as my lunches were small. Both me and my brother grew up to be some of the tallest people in town, but we have tall, thin frames. We're both significantly taller than our parents too.

In the 1950s you never really heard of kids going to bed hungry that often in the west, they typically had a solid diet with three square meals and full pantries. That's not really much different to a kid in 1980 or the year 2000. I doubt there's been that much significant nutritional gains to cause increased height since then. Maybe it's an epigenetic change due to the abundance of food? Perhaps, but we know what we eat and how we live is also changing it. Even lower testosterone levels causing delays in when the plates fuse as a teenager could be behind it. People noticed Eunuchs used to be really tall and lean, so are modern people suffering from the same effect?

People say it's sexual selection driving it, with high status tall men being more desired. That might be true before the industrial revolution, but I don't think it's true anymore. The crabs had a source showing it's shorter men breeding more actually (because lower class people are short and fertility is dysgenic). Tall men might be more desired, but they typically don't have more children. So in recent years sexual selection doesn't drive it. Just anecdotally again, being around food banks, you see the people are very short by modern standards and have many children.

We can also look at jawlines and teeth malocclusion to see an environmental impact people put down entirely to genetics for years. You can see in the skeletal record that everyone used to have straight teeth and wide jaws, and that changed around the industrial revolution. People are only now coming around to realize that it's due to changes in the way we eat and live, especially with eating soft foods and breastfeeding less.

So, fellow wizzies, what's your history and background? What do you think lead you to your path that you are in now? What do you thinks were the factor that lead you to your life now? Fate or just a bad set of choices?