/wiz/ - Wizardry

lol retard wants to relive embarassing moments in his mind and torture himself with it to cry like a bitch and have more excuses to do shit all

this shit shouldn't be on /wiz/ but on a crybaby board

>>230022
Totally had a convulsion, foam out of mouth and shaking in class everyone didn't talk to me for 2 whole weeks after, no eye contact or saying hi.

>>230027
said the turdie

Having autistic tourettes spasms in the middle of class at 13. Pushed the 'not care' rule too far into saying the stupidest fucking shit that sounded cool at the time. lmao. But there's a sort of nostalgia in it, that I had the liberty to be so stupid and get away with it.

>It was the most humiliating experience of my life.
if that's true it's pretty tame compared to the experiences of most people here tbh

>>229900
>honestly


read this you bitch:
https://wizchan.org/lounge/res/325701.html#q325751

>>230020
:v

With a succubus in your life you can do these things as well. It's very sad being alone.

>>230031
the succubus is draining all your energy so you become weak and unable to think for yourself and to work on yourself.

she basically stealing your soul.

>>230034
couldn't have said it better. as a group they conspire to rob you of energy so they can sit on a couch and become fat, luxurious and ugly. if it is up to them, you are supposed to be their cannonfodder so they can be tyrants.

barely nowadays, it stops really making that much of a difference and i just end up doing something else instead of jerking off

>>229784
i remember reading a part on schopenhauer where he says something like we are a slave to our sexual urges and whatnot, and also saw a documentary on youtube where they put monkeys in like a enclosed enviroment and they randomly started to jerk off, only in such a domesticated world are men willing to masturbate to numb the daily life, this is why im against it

>>229992
Fair enough, but since it's a natural behavior—one that even monkeys exhibit in the wild—doesn't that imply it's beneficial for the organism? Personally, I think that if evolution led monkeys to adopt this behavior, there's probably a good reason for it, and you shouldnt "be against it" because it is absurd to be against nature.

>>229997
i mean
arent we a subspecie of monkeys who evolved certain faculties better then others
also i just think thats the overall side effect of being in a domesticated society, along with many other things

I don't even remember. Goddamn.

>>229877

I mostly just do groundskeeper stuff once a week, or more if there's been a storm and there's crap to pick up.
During the town's history day I sometimes let myself be talked into dressed in historic costume to hand out pamphlets, but I'm autistic enough they don't bother to try to prep me to be a tour guide. I've also been working with a couple of the history hags to make field trips more immersive for kids, but I'd rather chew my left foot off than do anything but help organize and come up with ideas.
I hung out at the main ones enough that I help with and eventually figured I might as well put the chairs up.

>>229879
You are like a wageslave but doing it for free?
That sounds fun

I give weed out to people that’s my charity

>>229878

The history hags were initially excited because anyone my age or younger even visiting is exciting to them. I call them that, but they are nice for old succubi. One even gave me a card saying I could put volunteering there on resumes if I ever look for a job.
It is cool hanging around the people who've made the town their lives. You pick up old ghost stories, learn about cool historic figures you'd never have heard of otherwise, about now-gone parts of the sites. It's humbling, as well, to be reminded of how easily details are lost over time.

>>229880

It's important sites relevant to niche interest in my country's history
It's like annoying boomers say, 'Do what you love' and all. Plus since I'm only sometimes 'paid' in granny baked goods or extra gift shop slop, I choose when I do it so they don't get annoyed if I have other things keeping me from picking up branches or sweeping up.

no and i dont plan to.

>>229889
Covid hasn't gone anywhere. Msm is just tired of reporting over the constant barrage of new variants.

update us if you're still alive

if only china did not make bats soup we wouldn't have this

Getting sick sucks even if it's just the flu. I thought wizards who have fragile health would be more sympathetic. GWS

>>229815
i havent heard of someone contracting it since like 2021
thats some bad metabolism genes dude

>>229820
>literally covid 19
>just the flu
thats like saying contracting the plague was a really bad flu

>>227591
Do you really think you are entitled to my medical information? That's wild.

>>227591
fuck it, why not

> Clinical Depression brought on by a pseudo psychotic break caused by not making the cut of postgrad candidates I'd spent the last year and change of my life trying to achieve

> Psychomotor retardation (lol), audio hallucinations, stress rashes, near daily nightmares

> Specifically;
"Catastrophic thinking and going all in on every stimulus is not actually a rational strategy. Sure you put yourself into everything you did, but you did this because 1. you didn't have any attractive alternatives and 2. you have not developed a sense of scale appropriate to your situation."

That specifically got the ball rolling for me. Up to that point in my life my lack of skill and social graces had been made up for by intensity and hard work and *I thought that was how things were supposed to go*. It had been so ingrained in me to the point of pseudo autism to just go all in on everything always and the level of actual challenge in my life up to that point was such that it had actually worked. Encountering the real fucking world and market forces for the first time was something I was not prepared for in the slightest. And this was *after* I had a job and successfully completed 4 years of study with what were awarded as merits.

>QOL wise
I started thought stopping on projects and tasks until they had been assessed on ROI and available layout perspective. In turn I started turning down opportunities and stopped thinking that I had to do everything that was presented to me as a moral imperative.

I've read/been told that effective therapy is when bad habits and maladaptive strategies have become so ingrained that not only can the subject not change it but they're incapable of recognising it. Outsourcing some of the cognitive load and being assessed against a coherent framework was useful in recognising that what I had assumed was a valid strategy on the rare occasions I thought about it, was essentially a streak of luck.

And like, yeah? It's not like optimal life habits are taught in school, most parents are absent, dysfunctional or both, and most cultural reference points are not optimised or even particularly organised. So where in fuck are you supposed to learn hPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>221020
It helped me with the immediate issue of my mother's death but otherwise I'd say the psychotherapy was a waste of time and money. As for the drugs they seem to have worked, as now I feel much better, so there's that, but I understand they won't help everyone, certainly not as much as a proper diet would (I'm still working on that personally).

NEETing is normal therapy will only pathologize it and turn a temporary setback into something bigger for big pharma perks, ruining your life permanently.

depends on what problem you have tbh

>>229305
Which again reinforces his point. If they're willing to spend that much for his benefit, it would be simpler to just give it to him so he can live his life. Doing all the work instead is pointless. The only point is to satisfy his parents desire to see him be normal.

Yep. We should really learn from cluster B how to handle these fools

its better if everyone works a job. That's how we all get wealth and prosperity

>>229305
Lol Chinese millionaires will spend $1 mil so their kids can attend an American public magnet school easy

>by friends
Got none
>parents
I take advantage of them
>those closest to you
My neko-tan takes advantage of me yes
>or anyone else
I carry my team in every online game I play

>It’s incredibly frustrating, isn't it?
It is normal. To take advantage of and to be taken advantage of is akin to inhaling and exhaling. Those who allow themselves only to exhale will be empty and tired. Those who only inhale will be full of hot air. It is important to balance being on the giving and receiving end of advantageous gestures.

I don't know if I would call it "taken advantage of", but I feel that there is often times an asymmetrical exchange in terms of effort and expectations in my relationships.
For instance, my mother might want to show me some stupid bullshit she saw on youtube, or rant about something she heard from her ladyfriend, and I'm just supposed to drop everything and listen without getting a word in myself.
Then if I ever want to show my mother something, or tell her something, she can barely be bothered to pay attention and for no longer than a couple minutes.
With my father he might require my help to lift something heavy or help out in the yard (which has taken hours on certain occasions in the past), but when something in my room needs fixing I'm on my own.
I don't have any friends right now, but when I did I feel like it was a similar thing. I'd have a friend call me on Skype (remember skype lol, anyway) and he'd rant for 2 hours about some stupid shit, but if I ever wanted to talk to him he'd always be busy, etc.
The only place where I feel like I got explicitly taken advantage of was at work. I've had several (menial, minimumm-wage type) jobs where I was doing most of the work while my coworkers slacked off or sat in the back talking.
It's like Rodney Dangerfield said: "I get no respect, I tell ya, no respect at all."

>>229651
When i got over that i discovered that just saying no provokes no ill will whatsoever so its okay so

>>229651
>>229864
I feel for your situation and experiences, similar to me in some ways, but it just feels like I got a 24/7 livestream attached to me, and people somehow know about it and act like they wanna be seen in the frame, or they avoid harshly

luckily I was never in a relationship with a succubi. I did talk to some foids over discord but stuff like that never lasts for me. females are ephemeral and when they do talk to you online they just want quick attention and validation and then they fuck off

>>229881
Hi there wizz, i the Wizard of the magick thread techniques for cope
>I am talking extremely difficult problems like purpose I just don’t care anymore. Even though I do allot to keep busy as a neetgod
If there's no purpose or it is vanidity, is just attachment that make you suffer.
Sorry my engrish, for now i have a purpose. Maybe tomorrow there's no more one or maybe another one but anyway, feeling good healthy and relaxed is a good purpose for life NOW and tomorrow if you want, the health is the base of everything.
>Also
I started to do some somatic exercises to relax my body and free my body tension.
I do each day the same routine 20 to 30 min or even hours or do the same move for a whikw if i can while bacause i enjoy it while i focus and try to relax.
Somatic exercises, qigong moves and breathwork to chill etc
>And what exactly do these exercises?
Well, in a stream of consciousness sense. I breath more good and have more consciousness of breath, i breath more easy and maybe gained some cappacity to breath, every breath turn me more chill, i more calm, i can focus more on things (i like to focus in the fluff sensation in my hands after and during somatic exercises) and i gain body sense while i walk and i get these body sensations and is kinda fun. I gained more equilibrium in my feets like there's a middle axis helping me now to balance.
When I go to the bathroom it is not difficult, it also helps when I get out of bed and I don't get tired so quickly when walking or have pain in my feet when walking and doing it before going to sleep lowers my nerves and I sleep better. I didn't improve my diet much but I try not to eat garbage.
I more calm now so i have little problems related to that.
>Also
So Yep i kinda deppresive sometimes and this help me a lot and still is helping getting more good each day.

>>229884
>Also
Try this one if you want just to focus more in breath. You dont need to do so much exaggerated hard moves, just move your arms and hands, do equilibrium, do pendelum with one legs, with two arms etc you gonna start to feel new interesting sensations after sometime. You can use a comfy pillow in your feets but its kinda unnecesary, same you can use a small ball to press and pass in your feets.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aZL7GXLSSx4&pp=ugUEEgJlbg%3D%3D

>>229885
>>229884
>the fluff sensation in my hands
I see, i feel it, so now i feel like one of these cultivation master or one of these force sensitive.
>Picrel cat as reference of me doing funny things with hands.

"As long as you have a reason to live you should be able to keep going" -Alan Walker, D Gray Man.

>>219200
>All said by people who haven't experienced a lifetime of rejection, social ostracization and involuntary isolation. All said by people who haven't tried every way possible to be likable, but their autism still showed through.
sounds like truewizs unlike you

>>219200
It's always said by "minorities" to me, calling me narcisistic and acting like It is narcisism to say basic facts of life. My life has been shit from the beggining but I have to acommodate the feelings of a therapist I pay for because a succubus touched her hair in elementary and it was a trauma? I'm a paranoid schizophrenic.

>>219200
Ostracization is not the worst thing in the world. Being prevented from reading or studying by Nietzsche's last men is much worse

>>229874
Why would you care about reading or studying if you are under a constant pressure of violence and humiliation from an hostile community surrounding you.

>>229890
Scholars being under constant pressure of violence and humiliation is nothing new