>>220822Thanks. I will look into nyclatopia. And I will also have my Vitamin A levels tested.
My major gripe is that I can't parallel park and that is actively ruining my fantasy life, I am (or was) a massive car guy but realising that I can't drive a car properly broke me to the core. It makes me feel so unmanly. All of the games that I have played, all of the dreams I have dreamt, the car magazines I have memorised from front to back, only to realise I am poor at parking the car.
My specific gripe is that I can't parallel park properly, today in my turd world country where parallel parking isn't usually done, I saw two cars with some space in between, I thought I would try for the first time in my life to parallel park. And what made the situation so tense is that in my third world country someone had a BMW. An expensive car in the third world be all means.
And it was one of the two cars, I tried parking in between both of them. And thank God I had my younger brother with me. I asked him to step out and tell me when I am gonna hit a car. And I was about to hit the beamer behind, I almost didn't hear my brother's voice. Until he jumped upon the trunk of the car to tell me and I just managed to stop between a hair's breath between my car and the beamer.
If I would've hit the beamer, I would've been in generational debt, and what's worse is that I am dependent upon my parents financially so they would've had to pay for repairs.
The reason it's ruining my life so much is because when I see European cities or San Francisco or NYC, my dream cities as a third worlder, most of the people there park their cars via parallel parking and I feel so inferior knowing so many people can park this way. I will never be able to get a licence in first world countries because I can't parallel park. It's actively ruining my life. Cars are everything for me. I want to travel in them, do things like travel route 66. Drive up and down in San Francisco. See the Golden Gate Bridge and so much more. But it turns out all of my dreams have went to trash.
I know it sounds weird to say this and would sound equally weird to hear this but I am suicidal because I can't parallel park especially after today's incident.
If I met God and he offered me a wish, I would wish for him to grant me skills that I can parallel park with.