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 No.195237[Reply]

I know i know sounds like schizo topic but for real don't u get feelings of being alienated and people like fucking robots, cogs in a monster machine and you ask yourself is everything real?
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 No.195556

>>195547
Might as well be

 No.195560

Pulling back from your ego (self) is a great thing, because it lets you gain so much more self-awareness and build your character the way you see fit. Ego death however -true ego death- is the dissolution of your prefrontal lobe until you begin drooling and need to be fed through a tube. Many things such as droogs, pain without proper respite, and porn (which is drug) all help to melt your melty brain to achieve this enlightened acidic state.
If you're questioning the nature of reality, yes everything is composed of dense imagination, which isn't "real" but is still real in the sense that imagination is in a way real (in the dimension of thought).
You may read or listen to The Astral Plane and it's Scenery for specifics, but humbly accepting you're wrong about something and have room to grow is the singular best thing you can do for intellectual growth as a person.
Kudos
>>195535
SSRIs led me to in such a calm way, begin to plan vividly in my head where and when I would dispatch my gay coworker and the homeless blacks roaming my commute to work. Do you think that would have ended well? They can't make me take my meds, and I've never touched an anti-psychotic in my life (unless NAC is a secret anti-psychotic, which I've discarded).

 No.195561

>>195237
In terms of the machine you're referring to, one of the reasons everyone feels like a normie cog is because of a false system of morality introduced through colleges and media explained in Michael J Minnicino's New Dark Age.
The other reason is because you're socially inept, and incapable of understanding people of even your own race who don't think in extremely similar ways.
Yes, people are less human, but you're also just autistic.
Look into the article I mentioned and Mouthy Buddha's Jewish question for just a smidge on the origins of this machine, and into MBTI+How to Win Friends & Influence People(how to be interested in other people)+48 Laws of Power(how to be interesting to other people)+zeolite to cure your vaccine-tism.

 No.195569

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>>195237
So what if it sounds schizo? This entire site spins around schizo matters!

As it is schizo to perceive others as npcs. Do not limit yourself, think surrealistic as you can.

 No.195570

>>195239
It is more what you have in your mental body than any other thing else.
>warp



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 No.192936[Reply]

I have a theory. I think it might be possible to put myself in a suggestive/hypnotic state, in a dark room with only a computer screen and headphones on my ears. I play some kind of educational or informational video, and just let it go into my ears without thinking about anything at all.

Think it would work?
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 No.195382

>>195367
How does time flow if it happens to flow in the astral plane?
What do you think of the agnostic explanation of the white light that zaps souls to erase their memories and send them here?
There are several planes in the spiritual world, each one more higher than the previous one, is it possible to move from one another?

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>>195365
>I'm curious, what do you think about reincarnation in general? Why do people reincarnate, how can they control where they do, and how can they prevent loss of memory/personality after doing so?
The answer to these questions is the same as why you persist from moment to moment despite having no essential existence. If you see that you are a heap of elements and conditions bound together, then you can also see how those conditions might be transmitted between 'lives' when you fall apart

 No.195440

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>>195382
>How does time flow if it happens to flow in the astral plane?
The 7th plane created concepts like time and astral matter, things begin and end on the higher 3 planes much in the same way as the physical world. When you die, your astral body rots in a similar way to your physical body and may even leave an empty husk depending on how you died (as your spirit moves to whatever place on the 7th place you're pulled).
>What do you think of the agnostic explanation of the white light that zaps souls to erase their memories
It seems to be a mechanism to harvest the second body by killing it, you can do the same thing all by yourself to ghosts. They are the ones who feed off of our suffering, it is a mistake to blame God for (((their))) mechanisms of spiritual entrapment on earth. It's a little man in a spaceship who may or may not suck up your second body when you die, not a natural cycle created by God.
>There are several planes in the spiritual world, each one more higher than the previous one, is it possible to move from one another?
Yes, all the astronauts believe that the planets are this. It is a common teaching in Kaballah and Goyim-Kaballah (Masonry). You can only visit different planets and dimensions through various kinds of astral traval. The Astral Plane and it's Scenery compounds on astral traval to dimensions on the 7th plane, and Franz Bardon's Initiation into Hermetics explains how to visit the dimensions of the 4 elements to explore the gnome dimension if you so desire.

 No.195456

>>195367
>neutral cross
You mean plus cross?
I feel it has same meaning as crossroads symbolism.

 No.195457

>>195440
God could at least prevent it manually or put prevention mechanisms in place.



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 No.195401[Reply]

Anyone a wizard in part due to self harm? I have mutilated my legs with cutting addiction, making it impossible to ever show my body to anyone.

I quit cutting for like a year but I'm diving back in because it feels good and I have nothing to lose.

 No.195412

Mental illness

 No.195421

>>195401
Just finish the job

 No.195423

just get one of those pajama onesies that has a hole in the front. you unbutton that and fuck the bitch fully clothed. don't see the problem tbh…

 No.195439

nigger

 No.195448

Moved to >>>/dep/264812.



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 No.194489[Reply]

I'm a soon to be ex-NEET and I have come to terms that, yes, there are things I want to achieve before dying, there are things I "deem" worth it, places I want to visit, things I want to learn and do.
But, none of that will be possible without first fighting this enormous inertia of NEETDOM.
How to stay consistent? I've tried many things over the years, even professional help and medication, none successful, I can't deny that I did enjoy a lot of my time as a NEET, because I did, but for me it's time for a new chapter.
I don't mind so much being a wizard apprentice, actually I never did minded that part, I have some weird views on sex and it's futility, so I was fortunate enough to never have even gone through the "angry KV teenager phase", I was just fine with it, but the NEET part was not planned, I did not see that coming. I morphed into a NEET, and before I knew it, boom, I was trapped. I don't mind being alone, but NEETDOM is now trapping me, stopping me from developing, there is this feeling of wanting to get out of this vicious cycle, but a huge difficulty, especially in maintaining consistency.
Any advice, story or resources are welcomed.
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 No.194565

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I'm 32 and only worked on off from 18-22 before becoming full-time NEET. The worst part about working is the normies you have to work with/under. They're all low/average IQ and left logic brained. Zero creativity or philosophical thought. They aren't aware of any sub culture, even mainstream leftist culture is unknown to them. They just watch sportsball and socialise locally with other normals.

I did get to do some time with some intelligent people though so I know they're out there.

I just want to get enough income to move out of my mom's house. She's batshit crazy race traitor boomer. I'm going to practice the arts and try to make income selling them but I don't really believe I'll succeed.

I want to loot Jewish people.

 No.195359

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This is a good post out of all the blackpilling "virgin" jack-off scum that riddles the board; I'll bite.
Understanding that cultivation of will is the foundation of all great acccomplishment, we'll first discuss the difference between will and FEELINGS (aka motivation). If will is the tree and it's roots (foundation), the motivation and the FEELINGS can be moreso associated with the leaves as an anon in endchan points out. Leaves wave and leaves go, relying on FEELING LIKE IT will result in maybe 3 days of "productivity" every month or so (lasting a total of 20 mins. or really 3 since most people can only concentrate for that long).
Cultivation of will on the other hand is something that we shall prioritize to achieve what goals the few of us here actually have; the ambition that hasn't been stifled with silly fat neckbeard manchildren who conflate jacking off to child porn and never touching boobies to actively practicing witchcraft.
You may use meditation, you may use reading, but this exercise can only be done consistently if adequately combined with what little consistent routine you already hold. If you don't have a job, part time job, volunteer work, or classes, there's no real way to even hold a consistent sleep cycle for most people. Additionally, it is so much easier to attach your day's most important obligations to as soon as the day begins. For the sake of success though, we will really only dedicate one habit at a time to cultivate. Set an alarm to go off after 10 minutes, install a habit tracking app, and make sure you keep your practice area free of internet or even timekeeping devices. Your phone may rest on a dresser provided it is well out of reach.
The chair you use must be upright, and not overly upholstered; the posture you use should be condusive to concentration and not relaxation (else you would obviously find it hard to concentrate your mind while relaxing your body). Yogic foot positions were introduced after the yogis saw French gymnastics and thought it was cool, stuff like the full and half lotus is only necessary in conjunction with mudras to cultivate specific organs of the body and their energetic counterparts (chakras).
Aanyways, the result of cultivating self-observation is awareness of the self-deception of the mind, which leads to wisdom/discernment. Additionally, cultivating the consciousness leads to greater ability of making more conscious decisions and succumbing less to the emotional and nigger-Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.195422

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>>195386
Just pick whats good and left te rest

 No.195425

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>>194489
>I'm a soon to be ex-NEET and I have come to terms that, yes, there are things I want to achieve before dying, there are things I "deem" worth it, places I want to visit, things I want to learn and do.
>But, none of that will be possible without first fighting this enormous inertia of NEETDOM.
>I morphed into a NEET, and before I knew it, boom, I was trapped. I don't mind being alone, but NEETDOM is now trapping me, stopping me from developing, there is this feeling of wanting to get out of this vicious cycle, but a huge difficulty, especially in maintaining consistency.
>Any advice, story or resources are welcomed.
Inertia is like a big ball. When big ball is rolling towards you only a fool would fight it, but a small push will deflect it and lead it where you want. In this way gentleness overcomes the big ball, and what was once inertia is now a great power for you to wield. This is the way of NEET

 No.195427

>>195425
Fairly sure his reward system is ruined.



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 No.194777[Reply]

I'm 28 years old and never had a girlfriend in my life, never.

Confession time and thread.
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 No.195295

>>195279
damn what the fuck

 No.195300

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>>195279
she put her fingers in what

 No.195329

>>195253
Jews are the Temple of Satan, no big deal really, compared to the Temple of Sol.

templeos.motes.camp
asha.motes.camp

 No.195346

>>195329
>jew this jew that

Just take your schizo meds, bro.



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 No.193428[Reply]

Among normal people you have to fit certain criteria to fit in. You have to be outgoing, you have to dress and look a certain way, you have to be happy, etc. Among imageboard loser crowds you have to have been browsing these sites since the beginning, you have to be into and knowledgeable about anime, computers and videogames, you have to use linux, you have to be into obscure media and music, you have to be into breakcore. Of course you don't have to fit all the criteria and what makes someone cool changes slightly from person to person, but you're given a subconscious score based on these things. It's a different social hierarchy, one that attempts to be the opposite of the mainstream one, but it's the same old system. I'm a boring person who browses discord servers and youtube all day on his windows laptop. I use discord, but only talk to 1 person in dms and then make a couple of posts in 2 servers once every couple of days. I'm not knowledgeable about any type of media either. I like anime succubus images, but don't watch much anime. This means I'm a "normalfag" here and a "loser" in the outside world. I wish there was a community that accepted you regardless of what you're like, but that goes against human nature.
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 No.195309

>>194835
Checking the top video on breakcore it seems to be remixes of old Trance and Drum and bass music with internet memes and weeb shit slapped on top of it. Often spread up to be all but a wall of noise to any one not retarded and under the age of 18. To put it in simple terms, it's the niggerization of late 90s and early 2000s dance music the way Hip hop and rap defiled earlier decades music with it's constant sampling.

OP is right. Every group has standards and expectations. Everyone tries to make their own group seem superior to others as a way of peacocking themselves as better people. It's not exactly a ground breaking revelation.

>>193441
Drop outs find each other so the drug addicted criminals think they're part of the same group as the disabled or the socially stunted because all of them are drop outs. Which has been a personal pet hate of mine for over a decade now. Being a drop out doesn't mean you're a drugged up criminal, but they force their way into the same spaces you are and you can't remove them. It's the literal collapse of a hobby meme.

 No.195318

>>195309
>>195298
>>194835
it is just a type of industrial electronic music with a lot of breaks and samples from other things. i used to really like breakcore.nl releases. i dont think there is any association with weeb shit or memes, none greater than would be expected from internet users at least

 No.195328

>>193428
>you have to be happy
One means they "must" be happy, making them slave to happiness, I think.

 No.195337

>>193441
Torn's server?



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 No.193911[Reply]

Do you ever wonder what it will be like to get old, I mean truly old, and never have a lifetime of experiences to look back on and reminisce about? If you end up in some old folks home and some person asks you about your life, what will you have to tell them? Some old childhood stories so dusty and decrepit you can barely remember them? You could talk about what your opinions about the world are, based on what you've read, but when it comes to talking about how you actually impacted the world or influenced it? What will you have to say? What good is having opinions on stuff if it never leads to any sort of actionable outcome?

I have realized by now my cowardice means I will probably never kill myself. I will just continue on like this for perhaps the rest of my life. This prospect has started to terrify me.

Ultimately it is your actions that define you and give you a sense of self and belonging in the world. A year is a long time, you could do a lot of stuff in it and if you have many dozens of years of life it's only natural to rack up experiences that test your character and show you who you are. I don't like thinking that I was just a coward who was too afraid to put myself to the test and just hid away and rotted. It's almost like you're not even a real person, just some ghost that never even existed.

I feel an immense sense of loss when imagining myself ending up like this. I can't even remember my life since the 10+ years I became a shut-in. It all just blurs together. What if that's what it will be like when I'm 80?

I'm wondering if anyone else can relate to this feeling of dread and unwillingness to become a ghost instead of a full person?
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 No.194641

>>193911
A lot of assumptions, I have to go to sleep now, but the experience on have is a very limited part of the whole, just like what you read, even if you were a doctor/researcher in the cutting edge of your field, your perspective is limited to what you enter in contact with, some Chinese or Scottish may be taking a completely different route then your research and you'll never know. Maybe his techniques are better at solving a particular problem or maybe with a little tweak, you could solve the entire problem using his/her technique. But you'll never know… Does it matter? -No.
Second, you can rise and become a ubermanch wizard, embrace wizardhood and become a powerful independent wizard that enjoys life and it's knowledge, the path I am currently threading it, succubus is such a narrow thread of the experience… You can be liberated by your wizard powers and have a greater life then if you had a succubus by your side, it depends on your willingness to sacrifice and endure, I know it's hard for many of us to coexist with the normalhumans, but maybe it's a worthy sacrifice.

No price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.” —Nietzsche

 No.195289

Since I am getting old, I have been thinking about this. It's not as big a deal as you would think. Life really isn't all that great. I'm happy I had my place away from society and that I can wash my hands clean of all of it when it's time to go, however that happens. Hopefully I'm not tortured which is looking likely given what humanity is and where the country is going.

It really was all a lie, and I mean all of it was a lie. Religion is a lie, the institutions we're taught to revere are really big lies, and all the ideas humans had about being something were largely lies. The fantasy of going to outer space was a gigantic fucking lie from start to finish, a story told to children who actually thought we went to the moon. Socialism told a ton of whopping lies about its nature to convince people that technology and the institutions were going to save them, but that has never happened at any point in human history, and the technological and institutional interest was starkly opposed to those people who were not selected to live.

I feel the life I've lived in my own world was better than any I was going to have in the human world, and I managed to do a few things for myself and reach things that I think few people ever did, if anyone ever did. I'm still working on things, and I expect they will not be appreciated, but I'm writing and maybe some day someone will see what this really was. Maybe some day we won't have to do this, not just individually but as a society. I gave up on the human project entirely a while back, and I don't even think humanity wants to be salvaged. Most of them literally don't think about the nightmare they put the world through, and if they are told of any consequences for their actions they squeal like retards about how you made them upset, yet they have the gall to call us retarded for wanting basic things.

 No.195290

One thing that helps is not falling into a habit of consuming media. I like to actually think about the world and what I'm seeing, and when I do that, I realized most of the movies and books and so on were pure garbage and I should be more discriminating about what I'm going to read, and spend some time thinking of my own stuff, rather than regurgitating their shit. Bear in mind much of the culture industry is created by trained liars who want us to die as soon as possible, hence all the gratuitous death and sexualism everywhere that is designed to reinforce the Social Darwinian religion. That shit is toxic and I highly recommend people read authors from an earlier time, while trying to consider the context in which those men wrote. Reading about the past and why we got where we are today has been one of my projects and we're not allowed to really talk about what happened between 1870 and 1945 as actual history but rather as a fictionalized version of such. After 1945 there was an immediate project to whitewash fascism because so many of the intellectual class were deep in with the fascists, and they had to hide the reality that the Nazis existed because they were basically funded into existence by a faction of American oligarchs.

 No.195291

>>194008
Most people who kill themselves have some sort of plan - if not an elaborate plan of how they are die with final affairs settled, they at least have a plan if they feel they have to kill themselves, and how much they're willing to endure.

Usually people turn up dead after not really talking to anyone. That's really part of the plan - just get away from society so it's possible to fade away and hopefully not be detected. Ideally no one will find the body for a while.

It's not common for suicides to be spur of the moment decisions, nor are the suicide decisions really irrational. Usually if a man suicides over succubus problems, it's because his life really is in shambles and the succubus made it clear that the man lost the great game of social competition and will always lose. Men face terrible rejection and humiliation from succubi but come out the other end intact, but when men face the total and final humiliation, the total loss of social standing, it's something bigger than one succubus rejecting him. It's something that will never get better. Men can have their lives ruined in a divorce and come out the other end feeling just fine, even happier now that the source of a lot of his problems is no longer present. After talking to enough divorced men you do learn that all the shit we're told about the power of sex is a lie, and it was all a trap to suck us into doing things that we know better than to do. Unfortunately we are denied meaningful historical or political education and are induced to keep making the mistakes, as part of the great game to lie to us.

Maybe a small percentage of suicides are genuinely spur of the moment things, but in those cases it's usually an "oh shit, if I don't get out of here I'm seriously going to wish I got out when I had the chance". People don't really suicide because they just feel bad or feel ennui. They have to believe that continuing to live is worse than the pain and suffering of death and all the humiliation if they have social standing to lose. That usually means that someone has to consider just how bad their life has been, and that it isn't going to get any better. Merely being miserable isn't enough. There usually has to be some threat implied, at least with younger people. I can see older people wishing to get it over with sooner, but even there, there is the implication that they Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.195305

>>194226
But you're not Kant.



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 No.194800[Reply]

I just got myself into a horrible & bizarre situation, and feel like a complete idiot. Looks like being a fucking pushover dipshit finally caught up with me.

I’m 31 and my entire family is at wits end with my lifestyle and I’ve always been such a pushover that I eventually end up doing whatever they tell me to. I don't know why, really, I just do.

When I was 18 I just went to college “because it was the next think you’re supposed to do” – ended up getting a bachelors in biology, only ever showed up for exams and the required labs. Took me like 6 years to finish because I slow walked it. Once I graduated I just sat around and did nothing for a few years.

Family guilt tripped me into doing something, ended up getting a warehouse job, which I quit, then eventually went back to school and dropped out within a week, then got a series of shitty back breaking jobs, interspersed with extended bouts of NEETing. After about 5 years of that, I had to quit my most recent job because physical misery. Haven’t worked in close to a year at this point.

My older brother is a school teacher, and my family has been pestering me for years to “leverage your biology degree and just take some education courses to get licensed as a science teacher” and I’ll reply something like, “idk, haha, I don’t think that’s for me guys” and they’ll be all like, “but anon, it’s easy, you won't have to do manual labor anymore, you'll get summers off, and you'll have decent benefits so once we die you won't go homeless"

After resisting for awhile, they got in my head and made me feel really bad to the point I agreed to join the program they found. It’s an online university that works with various localities to license you and get you a job, and they gave me a scholarship because of the teacher shortage in my state. To keep them off my back I said "fine," hoping that over the course of the program I’d figure out something else to do before I actually had to step foot in an real high school.

Well now I’m finally at the point in the program where I'm done with the bulk of the online content and they’re going to put my ass in a real life high school as an intern teacher.

>Here's the best part…

I live in the same house and sleep in the same bedroom that I did when I was in high school myself, and the program I'm in literally found me an internship placement at Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.195281

Schools are hell and why the hell you would join such a monstrous institution, I don't know. Teachers are all scum though and no one actually gives a shit. Maybe if they think you're such a worthless shit, they'll leave you to rot and you could actually try and teach, which they schools fucking hate.

I doubt you'll last though. It's basically the military, there to drill and weed out the weak. They don't appreciate anyone who isn't matching like a fucking Nazi, especially now. Basically expect them to be Nazis and if you can keep your head down in a Nazi environment, it's a job.

 No.195282

As for the lack of independence… teachers get paid shit. I know of teachers who drive Lyft / Uber on the side because they're paid so little. I don't think people give a shit about appearing like an independent man any more, because they know it isn't happening for most of us. Only females looking for mates use that as an excuse to weed out the weak, and they obviously don't care enough to exclude the men they're fucking on the cock carousel or who they eventually fake-marry. Everyone knows the American economy and the supposed wealth of this place is a sham, a bigger sham than any that have ever been attempted.

 No.195284

The thing about the military is that it's not really a meritocracy, it's a suck-up-ocracy and the stupidest shits can get far just by knowing how to kiss ass. The military, as you probably know, doesn't do a whole lot of actual fighting. All the fighting is done by a few specialists and mercs / intel ghouls doing shit to keep up the drug running and fun times. There are very few cases in war where you're actually fighting battles or conventional war, and no one is going to waste resources on a conventional war unless they're certain they're going to win their engagements. Basically this means armies fighting against very outmatched opponents, most recently the Russians stomping over the Ukrainian conventional military in short order, which you wouldn't think since they're basically using the same level of equipment if not the exact same stuff.

 No.195285

I mention the military because you probably know the schools are basically an arm of the military / engaged in a war against their own people. So schools are designed to destroy kids, and have been since the 1980s - and I don't mean passively destroy, I mean the entire point of the school is to actively destroy kids and fuck them up mentally, and pick a few favored kids who are selected to survive. You really learn just how stacked the world is against you as you grow older and see more of the world. It's a new thing because no society in recent history has so willfully destroyed itself as the Anglo-American Empire did, but we all saw it in the 1990s, and the people who couldn't bear to see this any more did the only thing that was left for them to do.

 No.195286

>>195281
>>195282
>>195284
>>195285
Is it that hard to fucking finish your thought before hitting post?



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 No.194595[Reply]

I fucked up, big time, I'm 27 and I have to do all the work I didn't do when I was 18/20, go to college (yes I want to, and it's my best option), college is free where I'm at, I didn't do it way back because I was a dumb, delusional idiot.

I have very low self esteem and I'm a horrible communicator.
I think if I try to fake this "K/driver" personality it will actually be good for me, and it may help me go through this period of trying to do all the work I should have done. I'm starting from zero, having blow every opportunity it came my way, being 27 and not even having a stable job or a skill and seeing every one around you surpass you is awful and humiliating.

I think that if I just maintain this stoic facade of "K Gosling" (the characters he plays), that may help me in the long run and thought this phase.
Normal people are not as stupid as most of us talk about, at least not about social communication/behavior, they know you don't belong, that you are trying to blend in, and they are fucking cruel, that's why I thought putting up this facade would be a good idea.

He's not a conflict oriented character, he doesn't seek to stand out, "fight" or prove anything and he doesn't try to blend in, he's just there doing his job, no matter what, if people laugh, or dislike him, so be it, like the LAPD station scene where the other officer calls him a skin job, or in Driver where the kids father comes back and wants to talk to him, or Driver where they are all eating a meal together, he doesn't escalate, he's calm, collected and it's ok with the shitty situation, just doing his own thing.

Do you think it could work? I don't think I can stand all the shit I will have to go through as myself, well I failed several times, so. I know that as myself I can't, therapy and medication didn't help in the past.

I still live with my mother and never have money for anything, always working odd jobs and no fucking skill. I'm the joke of the family and friends, well their friends, I don't have any. As well as was the joke of a regular job I had and a course I was attending years ago. It's fucking awful being in this situation. Some days I just want to burry my head in the sand and not see anyone.
But currently I can't just move cities or move to another state, I neither have the money or skills to just apply for jobs that would allow for that.
But as soon as I find a more stable job I will definitely move out.
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 No.195210

>>195203
How do you achieve that of being at peace with yourself even if you are a loser? I would like do do it. In the past I didn't care and I was fine but I don't know, may be is that I am almost 20, everyone seems to be in a better situation. Can you give me some advice?

 No.195211

>>194716
sorry for the harsh words, wizzie. just lurk more, read some threads, try pick out good advice. put in hard work and know it will take sacrifice and ignoring short term pleasures if you want to get any where. god speed lad.

 No.195215

>>195210
Sure.
>I'm almost 20
Go back to r9k

 No.195221

>>195210
Just make your circumstances better by any means possible and enjoy life.

For example I already accepted I'm unemployable, so I steal, live on my parents money, neetbucks and and unreasonably large apartment in a nice location considering I'm unemployed.

I also made decent money cryptoscamming normies in 2017-2019. But I keep that money as savings - I don't touch it unless necessary.

I go to nice restaurants or take holidays if I feel like it. I don't feel 'superior' or 'inferior' to anyone, I just enjoy life.

Those feelings are all in your head. In reality nothing except the risk of prison or 'social shame' inhibits you from doing whatever the hell you want to do before you wither away from this horrible planet.

Stop having morals and ethics.

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>>194595
>interlinked
interlinked



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 No.194586[Reply]

What's correct definition?
>Wizard is a man, who is at least 30 years old and still hasnt lost his virginity
But look at me, I m almost 30 years old and I dont have any desire towards sexual intercourse since I turned 17 years old. My sexuality is just very specific. Sexual intercourse seems to me asexual.
So, being a wizard is very easy for me. Too easy, I would say.

So perhaps, defition of wizard should be a little bit different? Requierments should be expanded? Or perhaps I m just natural born wizard, who thinks too much?
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 No.195059

>>195014
>genuine witchcraft
only schizos give a damn about this occult larp stuff, go back to your paranormal boards

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>>195059
>be me
>visit /wiz/ for wizardry
>'you need to to back to the JS mandatory no-VPN honeypot, schizo'
Yet more single-sentance posting hylics, oh the joy.
Yes, this board is actually /dep/ for people who feel sorry for their lack of childhood fornication.
There there.

 No.195085

>>195080
no one in this thread is crying about being a virgin, you just came in with your retarded abstract definition of a wizard and we called you out for it, thats all

 No.195105

>>194586
> Above all, please remember that you must be a male virgin to post on Wizardchan.

Simple as, no more, no less.

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What is a Wizard?



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