/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>154924
I am experimenting with using imageboards for at most one hour daily. For a short while I forbade myself to use the Internet at all. There was a period of a few years after I graduated college that I basically only used the Internet all day and became very mentally ill and had to be hospitalized. The recovery has been very slow and I have regained the ability to do simple household chores, draw, read and play video games. It is mostly still a waste of time, but my aim is to eventually be productive and delay the depletion of my NEET fund.

>>161521
What the fuck did you do on the internet to guarantee hospitalisation? Is it really that great?

On the computer most of the day. I have a project to download all japanese anime/korean hentai manhwa/all good music that exist on the internet. I have a sense of impending interneet doom that if I delay this any longer, maybe in 2-3 years there will be no free content on the internet because everything will be paywalled to oblivion. Or when my parents unable to affoord internet anymore. When that time comes I must be enjoying all the contents i downloaded offline while waiting for death.

>>155418
i thought i was the only one that did this, i have over 300 tabs open that are over 2 years old and i only ever use about 7-10 regularly. i also have them all grouped by category

My days are generally the same

>work nights, Monday to Friday
>so I'm working between 9pm (sometimes 10pm) to 6am Mon night to Sat morning
>usually sleep between about 8am to around 4pm, some days 330 others 5ish
>browse the internet on my tablet in bed until I'm tired enough to sleep
>have something to eat when I get up, go for a walk (or use mom's exercise bike) for a bit, then game out until work
>weekends, replace work with drink

Boring, I guess, but comfy

It never gets better.

Yes. You need to learn how to make changes to what causes you happiness.

Moved to >>>/dep/210112.

My family recently asked if I was asexual. I'm not sure how I got to this point, but from what I understand succumbi will always be there to tempt. The key is always to be aware of the situation and not let the instinct take control of me and use logic to pull myself out of it. (Why do I feel this way? What good will it do for me to feel this way?) Eventually I feel like I no longer have to do this, and it has become an unconscious habit.

>>161224
Good progress wiz

>>160907
Jesus christ, is this what Clownworld has reduced people to? Competitors in the Oppression Olympics? I'm not you, but I would have been a lot more abrasive in telling her that you're not gay.

Also, there weren't really any hardships other than the slow burn of realizing there was something very wrong and mounting concern from my parents who never quite got the message until I forcefed it to them. The only thing I could wish for is to understand how a normal person's sexuality works. I wouldn't want to act on it, I'd just like to know. It's how I imagine Nick Vujicic feels whenever he sees people moving around. Because for all his charisma, you can't tell me he wouldn't want to move on his own two feet, or lack thereof.

Looking back, I'd say my last chance to try a relationship would have been in the winter of 2013, when I was 16. Cute nerdy succubus in my French class that seemed interested in me, but I was having none of it. I told her what I told everyone else back in school, which was something to the effect of "I'm not interested, please seek someone else." And that was that.

>>161044
The thing is, I want my dick. It's convenient to piss out of, and it tells me I'm a man. But I just want any notion of sexual arousal and its associated melancholy removed forever. I'd be a proponent of chemical castration if it a) wasn't outlawed, b) didn't cause feminization and c) didn't have any danger of killing you.

>>161224
This. It helps a lot if you realize all the potential shortcomings of a relationship (dump/cheating/property destruction/less free time) and mentally decided whether or not the cost is worth the reward (hint: it isn't and never will be).

As an asexual, your desperate want to become me mirrors my desperate want to become you. I want to feel horny, I want to be able to look at a picture of a naked person and feel real fucking good when I masturbate. I want to have all the problems you have so badly. And you all want to feel nothing and think its great because what you have now is awful. But were both wrong and will continue to be displeased.
Becoming asexual would solve nothing. Me becoming sexual would change nothing.

>>156598
Fapping isn't the same as sex. If it were, you wouldn't be complaining, would you? I could be considered pure degenerate, because I don't find myself attracted to the opposite sex or any sex for that matter. So I fap to nothing or I fap to some fetish.

>>160331
Chris basically lives on donations from trolls.

>>161391
Last time I checked he was on disability.

>>152864
Thread should have ended here.

Do you think I could make a career being a public spokesman Aspergers advocate? Speaking at conferences, being an Aspie talking head when they need an insider perspective

>>161625
Feels like there's already a crowded market for that sort of work. Whenever I look for new autism-related material online I see a lot of aspies trying to do that.

>>160642
No I mean the normal one with the blue inside to scare people away from you (blue inside means your infectious)

>>160647
>>160640
I see you are still trying to get people here shot for lolz.
This time you aren't even on topic but still, any chance to get people to hurt themselves for your amusement must be taken.

Fuck off with your evil bullshit.

>>160640
>>160641
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>>160649
i am in agreement with the 1st poster.
i always have at least 3 high quality masks in my shoulder bag/computer case.
also a tube of fake blood for when you want an area to yourself…
and a white wrist band to complete the look…

You have to take care of it and you may have to buy special products to do so. Mine looks like shit because I dont really groom it and looking like a hobo hasnt fucked me over yet.

>>161565
Yeah I do. I both smoke and use edibles depending on the occasion. I don’t like smoking cause it smells, and you gotta do it outside, and it’ll eventually fuck up my lungs, but edibles always make so drowsy and I get way higher than I mean to with them so it just depends.

Yes, I smoke often and am admittedly addicted to it at this point. I have never tried edibles but I am interested in trying them sometime, might be the ticket for me with my very high tolerance

I vape strong sativas for the artistic and intellectual inspiration. I enjoy the boost in lateral thinking, but the associated lethargy and anxiety is not something I've ever been a fan of.

To any cannabis users, I recommend doing it in silent darkness. It adds something almost psychedelic to the experience.

Moved to >>>/lounge/230524.

Moved to >>>/lounge/230535.

>>159851
I heard once that you must first lose yourself to truly find it.

It is possible. I think I am essentially at this point from reading books about Zen Buddhism, Jung, and meditating. Although im sure feelings will come back and then pass again in some form. The word happy has somewhat lost its meaning to me though

>>160860
yes, i think you're right. same thing with early exposure to anything else. the novelty just wears off. I'm 28, and was much more social from 15-25. I haven't given a shit whether people call me at all. I've just sat in front of the computer for 12/hr a day for the past 3 years

>>159851
I can deal with being relatively isolated but it doesn't feel entirely healthy psychologially. It feels like there's a skull shaped weight resting on top of my skull inside my head. however, I also abhor social interaction. I can't even stand when other people get near me. So while i don't think its possible to be happy in isolation I think that its plenty possible to adequately "tolerate" it. It's not like i was happy even when i had friends, so its all the same shit

>>159858
It's effective in the same way a single swig of water can save your life in the desert. As draining as the internet can feel sometimes I know it must still be keeping me grounded in some way because my paranoia and manic behaviors have skyrocketed every time I decided i'd had enough and I should be dedicating myself to personal pursuits only. Spending all of this time in your own thoughts with nobody else to act as a judge absolutely has a net negative impact on your ego and how you relate to other people but if that's not something you're concerned about in the first place I think it's possible to turn isolation into a lever for self actualization with the right attitude. It's up to you to decide whether or not you want to embrace the schism.

Psychedelics are perfect for this in my experience nad others. See this video. It uses the metaphor that the brain is an operating system and psychedelics reboot it. It is accurate in my opinion. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9c8an2XZ3MU

Meditation is also strongly recommended. If you're irrationally afraid of drugs then do that. The hardest part is just committing fully to doing it everyday. Try to schedule it and set a timer for 20 mins. Just focus on your breathing and senses and try to quiet your thoughts

>>159081
Where do you get your drugs?

>>159082
From his normie dealer friends

>>158839
Mucusless Diet at long term.
Holotropic breathwork, at short.

>>158839
Using psychedelics to fix psychological and emotional issues only works for the kind of people who get depressed between jobs because they've been unemployed for an entire week (!!!) or who think they should seek professional help after a bad breakup

naw, it would be too hard. yk how shit was back then. despite being a wizard i support the sexual revolution. less stigma would be better

>>161525
excessive use of chad, stacey, etc.

Yes, but only because we desperately need to reduce the population before we run out of oil.

>>161556
No. Life was better before oil, it'll be better after. Need to cull the weak.

>>161362
>It's why a lot of companies and organizations look for men that have a ring on their finger when they hire them
You are absolutely right, sir

Next step of human evolution is going beyond mind.

In order to have something you never, you may do something you never did.

respectful disagreement to OP, my negative feelings I believe are motivating reminders of problems I need to fix, and positive feelings are one of the things which make life tolerable

>>159710
bait

>>159671
Genius post.