/wiz/ - Wizardry

I am in fucking army of r*ssia for 6 months already.
Imagine if you're forced to wake up by the same exact time, do the same exact bullshit, get screamed at for someone else's faults, hang around normalfags 24/7 without ANY opportunity to be alone, and everyone thinks you are the retard.
Fun facts: we dont have a store to buy shit, our cards are locked away from us so some cunt can just steal your money, normal phones and Internet are forbidden, and we MIGHT get access to 2000-s tier phone in the end of the week. And we also get paid (probably) 2000 in local currency (30-ish dollars) per month.

Not sure if this belongs here or on /dep/ but I'll take a shot here:
Do you have any tics? Just vocal tics, just motor tics, or maybe you have Tourette's Syndrome and have both kinds of tics? How has this affected your life? Have you been shamed and bullied because of it? Or maybe you don't have this problem but you've known people who do?

I've had tics ever since I was in grade school. Mostly vocal tics. One day I got sick, I had to keep clearing my throat, and then I would make a short "hmm" grunting sound to test if my throat had cleared. But I kinda just never stopped making these noises. Over the past decades I've lost some tics, gained some new ones, had old ones come back, just a never ending evolution of annoying sounds that I subconsciously feel are necessary to do.

I've never been officially diagnosed, usually this is diagnosed in kids, but my parents never could afford to take me to doctors for stuff. Instead they would just yell at me, or insult me, or mock me; I hate the mockery most of all, why did my shameful grunt compel others to imitate the grunt with a stupid fucking grin on their face? My parents, siblings, anyone nearby when I was at school, it's so fucking demoralizing. At least my parents didn't hit me when I did it (though my brother did). At this point as an adult, an official diagnosis won't really do anything to help me, not like there's a cure or anything.

I really don't know what to expect posting this here. I tried searching related terms but I don't think I found any mentions of this in any active threads. If you post about this anywhere else on the internet, literally ANYWHERE, there will ALWAYS be at least ONE person who says something along the lines of, "I hate people like you, you just want attention, I beat up people in school like you and feel no remorse, I would kill you right now if I could". Why does this incite such rage? Every single time I realize that I am making some stupid sound I hate myself. Every single time I decide "I'm not going to make that noise ever again" but then in a few minutes I notice that I'm doing it again. I'm constantly worrying if someone heard me make some stupid noise. Some people, like those who tell others "Just don't be depressed", refuse to accept or just can't understand that it's a neurological disorder, it's not just "a habit", it's not some little quirk we decided to adopt to stand out. They say "just stop making noises". It's an urge that will nevePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Do any other wizards here have Fragile X Syndrome? I have been reading about it and it explains my condition better than autism/schizophrenia syndromes though it does seem to manifest autism spectrum(ASD) traits.

I recently become convinced i'll live to be very old,like 80+ and im scared or starled about it.
loneliness,possible damage to vital functions,the surely dystopian future,etc.

how can I prepare?how can I stop my body from degenerating?I started a series of anti-aging measures such as cold therapy and caloric restriction. Im 25 now,still live with parents.So i guess i will live half my life alone.
Im also considering taking the vow of brahmacharya, 12 years. If it works as planned i would have some decades to enjoy the glory brought by brahmacharya.

Is anyone else here completely okay with being a loser at life?

It makes no difference to me if I'm successful, have a good career, don't, have lots of money. All I care about is having a roof over my head and enough food in the pantry.

I spent years being miserable trying to have a career and get moving ahead in life. But once I realized that didn't matter to me, I suddenly became happier quitting my job and being a loser.

For anything space related.
I remember in year 2015 when the satellite thingy arrived at pluto. That was awesome to see those pics.
Here is some cool video I found on youtube it comes with cool music too

>anon
>you have been chosen to be sent to the international space exploration program
>you will be sent to a faraway planet in a high tech space vessel to explore and report back home whatever you might find out
>it travels with 1000x light speed and has enough supplies for 100 years of life
>it also comes with a 4K camera, infrared, high speed internet connection and a surround system so you can play music to aliens you might find
>you are connected to Houston space station 24/7 for questions and you will be given an instruction into your new space vehicle
would you accept or decline, anon?

and more importantly, where would you travel to?

What are your favourite wizchan threads of all time?
Link to the the archive/cached page of them

Time has changed, and so has the internet and myself. Last week, I realized
that even though I have used internet to get my social fix to get away from
loneliness, I realized that I was only making that loneliness worse. You can not
hide from loneliness. I used to pride myself into being a hardcore outcast,
often rejecting potential relationships, friendships, missing out on invites, holidays
etc. and I realized that too much isolation can kill you. As a teenager, you think you can
conquer everything, until reality hits you in adulthood and you realize that you
need real compassion from a real human being. Video games, pornography, internet discussion,
and internet fights all seem fun and dandy when you're a teenager, but there comes a time
where those pleasures won't help you.

I've been getting therapy and I'm scheduled for a job interview this Thursday. 4chan, 8chan,
lookism, crabs.me etc. all have taught me something and that is that being miserable and
having a pessmistic view on life only causes more suffering, not less. There is
no reason to suffer. We humans often try to rationalize everything, but sometimes all we need is to experience is life, and love.

Change is possible, and I hope every single of you wizards find happiness at some
point in your lives. Wizchan was the last chansite I browsed, as it wasn't as edgy as 4chan, and I could find some meaningful discussion here, but alas, it can not replace real human
connection.

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Why do wizards here appear to be well versed on Gnostic Christianity but never mention Neoplatonism? I find it to be a valid alternative to Gnosticism because it encourages intellectual contemplation and asceticism without connoting matter and the physical world as a pernicious source of evil. Unlike in Gnostic theology, the Neoplatonic Demiurge isn't a demonic entity, but merely the divine craftsman of the universe, the physical realm an imperfect copy of the higher intellectual realm, and human souls generally take part in a collective world-soul to which individual souls can ascend by pursuing an ascetic lifestyle, experiencing the universe as a whole oneness through negative Apophatic theology and practicing introspection on a daily basis.
I'm not quite articulate and my post may appear confusing, but I recommend every interested wizard to take a look at the Enneads, here's a passage that i'd like to share to give you a taste of what Neoplatonism is about:
>"Nevertheless, how will you discover the beauty which their excellent soul possesses? Withdraw within yourself, and examine yourself. If you do not yet therein discover beauty, do as the artist, who cuts off, polishes, purifies until he has adorned his statue with all the marks of beauty. Remove from your soul, therefore, all that is superfluous, straighten out all that is crooked, purify and illuminate what is obscure, and do not cease perfecting your statue until the divine resplendence of virtue shines forth upon your sight, until you see temperance in its holy purity seated in your breast. When you shall have acquired this perfection; when you will see it in yourself; when you will purely dwell within yourself; when you will cease to meet within yourself any obstacle to unity; when nothing foreign will any more, by its admixture, alter the simplicity of your interior essence; when within your whole being you will be a veritable light, immeasurable in size, uncircumscribed by any figure within narrow boundaries, unincreasable because reaching out to infinity, and entirely incommensurable because it transcends all measure and quantity; when you shall have become such, then, having become sight itself, you may have confidence in yourself, for you will no longer need any guide."
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This movie is absolutely amazing, one of the best I have ever seen. Even after watching the book it managed to impress me, despite knowing the plot and ending.

This is both an amazing film and also I feel Charlie Kaufman's pinnacle as a screenwriter, almost a goodbye at the end of his career.

Focusing on the movie, it is so well written. There are so many details that could only be displayed in the film format (e.g., the shot late on of a hand on the wheel and the succubus's face as though she is driving) and also as typical of Charlie Kaufman there is the referencing to his own movies and career, including Adaptation (the notion of a "twin" who is living out one's fantasies of success - the guy who "gets the succubus" in the romantic movie within the film,), Eternal Sunshine (the idea of memories but also the shot from above of the car in the snow top-left of screen, like the ice with the crack in it from the Eternal Sunshine… movie poster), Synechdoche (with the "stalker" who is actually the character from the future stalking him throughout the movie). It is fucking fantastic.

The risk he takes in allowing his characters to read out poems, to recite verbatim a movie review which is relevant to this film as well as the film that the review was about in real life (the character himself is viewing his life back as though it is a movie). At the beginning of the movie Jacob says that his girlfriend is "ideal", which is obviously true in two ways, and then says that he will read out this poem about an idealised succubus and says "It goes like this…" or "I'll read it, it begins like this.." and then she interrupts him and the rest of the movie is the poem about this idealised succubus (i.e., an idealised life, in part) being recited in the form of actions and memories.

This movie really left an impression. It deals with regret, haunting memories, the inability to accurately remember people to the point where their characters are rather absurd or like patchwork quilts constructed from their various periods and other smaller memories associated with them. The fact the movie also suggests early on that it is a classic horror movie, and retains that sense of dread and the possibility that is a horror movie and then reveals it is in fact a horror movie but not the kind we are used to. An absolute masterpiece.