/wiz/ - Wizardry

Well, life is complicated, never been good with the opposite sex, truth is I got burned and humiliated when dealing with female, that was in my late teens early 20s, now I'm 30 years old and give up on succubi because of my bad experience, any other wiz share the same experience as mine? I'm a NEET too, somehow after get really burned on particular episode dealing with a particular succubi, I simply give up on things in general. So, what's you experience with the opposite sex?

Holy shit, got this really awful epiphany in the middle of the night, I'm a 30 years old man that never had sexual experience, by now, a man at my age has like maybe 14 years of sexual experience and relationship experience under the belt. I know, sex isn't everything, but still, it dawn on me that I never had some (in theory) fundamental aspect of human experience, or something. Honestly, I just don't know if I'm either sad, mad or just don't care. Feels like a door has closed to me.

Since it is something I can't have, and it seems like the end purpose of life is to fuck and reproduce. I have started viewing everything from a very sexual perspective.

I am sorry but I am not able to explain this phenomenon properly but hopefully you got the gist of it.

Everytime I see someone, I know that they have sex, and weirdly in my head I start picturing them doing so. I absolutely detest sex havers. I have a weird inferiority complex with them, I kinda wish that they'd all die in an instant but then I realise that people in my family have had sex.

Whenever I go to a family meet, and see someone's kids, I start imagining how their parents have had sex. How the guy actually left pussy dripping. I can't help but feel anger, inferiority, and curiosity at the same time. It's a weird fucking feeling. It makes me wanna lose my shit and swallow a bullet.

I absolutely detest degeneracy and sex. Everytime I meet someone who is non-virgin, I feel like I am meeting someone from the enemy tribe, and that they are out to get me. Everytime I see them talk to me normally, I pretend to be normal and give normal answers but in the back of my head I feel like I am being subconsciously cucked as I think about them have sex with someone.

I especially hate this feeling when succubi are involved, when I see them do something that they are more skilled than me at, I immediately in the back of my head start seething internally like I am some stupid fucking kid throwing a tantrum.

Since I can't have sex. I feel inferior even to the wizards here cause if you guys are given the opportunity to do sex you will be able to do so, but if I was given the opportunity I wouldn't be able to get hard, do movements, or be able to cum.

All of this makes me feel like a cuck in the back of my head, I pretend to be a normalnigger, but in the back of my head, deep down inside, I am eternally messed up. Whenever I see someone wearing short clothes, partying, or being flirty. I feel an innate urge of great anger and defeat.

I hate that sex exists, I hate that I can't do it, I can't stand the people who do it, I can't stand seeing the fact that there are literal fucking succubi more successful than me at life. I hate it all. I want to burn it all down.

What finally pushed you over the edge, and did you in?
I spent $300 trying to help a very close friend, and he literally threw it all away into the dumpster, made me out to be the one in the wrong, while at the same time I was planning on surprising him with a gift I had spent $200 on.
So I turned to drugs and accidentally overdosed on DXM, and ever since then all the light in my life has drained away, i spend every day feeling like i'm one foot in the grave, it feels like anemia where i'm constantly light headed

So, why being a NEET, shut in, basement dweller, hiki, is always tied to being lazy and underachiever in general? Like, what's the psychological process behind it?

>But between 12-14 percent of adults aged 20-24 have never had sex. This number drops to around five percent for adults aged 25-29, and by age 44, only around 0.3 percent of adults report never having had the type of sex that could end in somebody getting pregnant.
Is the number seriously that low? I would've expected it to be way higher by age 44, at least 5-10%. You're telling me 99.7% of the entire population has had sex at some point by the time they reach middle age? Only a fraction of a percent of people have gone their entire LIVES without ever having sex?

is male celibacy a sort of phenomena that become more common with the time? I am especially looking for the answers of older wizards here, but everyone's are welcome.

I have to disagree on the loser concept as voiced here so often.
i have 70+ years as single white boy and man…
i have never married; i have had numerous jobs; and I have lived in several cities and states.
i have never considered myself to be a loser despite many setbacks and unfortunate experiences…
i know what i can do; if i don't I educate myself to be able to do whats required…
i am now mostly blind in one eye; my hearing was damaged by bad medications i can't write due to doctors bungling my right hand in treatment from a fall…
unless you are completely non functional braindead you can learn something useful that will lift you out of your self-hate…
Don't give up; information is free for the taking.
i never married, my friends who did are dead/dying slowly from their BAD choices…
i just say F*** it and keep on keeping on.
i have suffered setbacks many times but always struggled thru…
i am watching friends expiring slowly day by day who were very successful normies with houses cars planes toys that most men would kill for…
Try 27 variant's of dodge super cars as his toys; 3 houses; so much crap he had to buy an extra house with outbuildings just to store his cars and toys…
it was all for nothing; the greedy bitch he married (#3) murdered him for his money homes cars boats etc…
give thanks for what you have, however small and lacking; it could be far worse…

I'll give you some background, I liked to watch wrestling (scripted, I know) and there have been moments where some crazy fans have jumped in between the ring.

While I don't appreciate acts of violence on wrestler. But sometimes wrestlers go too far, for example there was this fan who once jumped in the ring to attack a wrestler, and when that fan was fully constrained and he presented no threat and was being escorted out, another wrestler jumped in between and suckered punch him.

And for the incident number 2, this guy was trying to beat up a wrestler, but another wrestler stepped in to stop him, like he should've but the thing is he already had him in control, but was still beating him up when he presented no threat.

Like I don't understand why so many people on the internet cheered for this incident, it was clearly the use of disproportional post, and when I made posts about my views on the internet, I was viciously attacked and disliked by the majority of people for not advocating disproportionate use of violence.

I just don't understand what causes people to be like this. And honestly this sometimes worries me about the state of the society as this is a microcosm of how people react to things.