/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>228327

Old cel here. take w/ piece of salt. Back in 1990s, would call a place up, can i volunteer? YES, can you come today?

Ask to volunteer someplace now, sends me what looks like a 10+ page job application, we cant get you in for a year + , ummmmm ok….

When I had no money and was starving I visited these free food places for homeless people. I saw the most despicable people there, drug addicts, alcoholics, gipsies etc.
The food itself was greasy crap which gave me a stomach ache.
I realised you're better just scraping some coins together and buying the cheapest bread you can find. You also have to wait a long time and it's only available certain days in the month.

Yes, I volunteer at a local food bank. This was right after covid had it's restrictions lifted mind you so we were always busy. Part of me was sad with the amount of people who were coming in. But the story that sticks with me is pretty regularly we had a young boy, couldn't be more than 7 to come in and pickup food on his bike, I'd always throw him a couple of dollars when he came in. Sad to see peeps so young coming to the food bank, but that's what we are here for.

>>228337
seriously
most volunteer applications ive filled out never even follow up with me

>>228367
you're a good wizard

>>228485
True. Any wizard who doubts that should check out female oriented fiction, especially the one amateurish writeressesses write for other succubi online. I've beat my meat to lots of different shit throughtout the years but even the darkest creation of japanese bastards who create smut for perverts pale in comparison to all the rape, torture, sadism and other gruesome shit they shlick to. Like gangsters killing off fMC families, kidnapping them, torturing them but it's alright thought, the gangster falls in love and simply chokes and beats her lovingly.
If you realize that this is just the average female fantasy, then all we see in this cursed society makes perfect sense.

>>228489
>>228485
People don't understand that callousness, yelling and indifference to others are signals of status, because historically, displaying that behavior got your head kicked in if you were low on the pecking order. Most normal people still have instincts that keep that behavior in check because we're wired for a different society, but the punishment is gone. Some unemployed druggie sadist can go fuck with a wagie for sport, mistreating him, and the wagie can't do anything back without risking his job. Despite on paper the wagie being above the delinquent, succubi respond to the person doing the berating.

Being too friendly and too agreeable is also a signal of low status, because that behavior is typically only done by neurotypicals if they're at risk of expulsion. Even in real life, when I see someone non-autistic who is TOO nice, he almost always is either planning a backstab, is in a precarious position with employment or has some filthy secret he's kept hidden, typically a sex crime.

The egalitarian play-nice leveling that society has attempted has just exacerbated the situation and made it worse, and lead to the blackpill. Obviously succubi don't find agreeable and over-socialized men attractive, and while socialization to society's values was once a good trait that lead to positive results, now it leads to deleterious results. The end result is that people turn to cynical and cold explanations (the blackpill), and shred their pro-social outlook.

Society was a lot worse and a lot more brutal not too far into the past, and it was typically pro-social people that survived. I feel like blackpillers and crabs can't really look past the specifics of the modern era. Part of the reason white and east asian societies are so relatively safe and corruption free is because the anti-social elements repetitively got pruned.

>>228480
>That sounds like some made up trope from American 80s movies
I don't think you really comprehend how these corpo eggheads think, they prey on handicapped and illegals too
an independent uncucked adult male homeowner worker is a nightmare scenario for them

>>228489
I believe you are looking at the evidence wrong. Yes there is a lot of female oriented fiction that is dark and very disgusting, but most is just romantic light sex stuff. It's like if someone said men have deep dark psyches based on some fucked up loli hentai some weirdos are into. Its just cherry picking

>>228495
>Part of the reason white and east asian societies are so relatively safe and corruption free is because the anti-social elements repetitively got pruned.

Because the corruption was systemic and participation in the system made/makes it socially acceptable - but you're right about everything else.

>>228506
I am an One Piece (anime and manga, not the niggerslop show) enjoyer since 2010 or so and it pains me to see how normified this title has become. It has always been filled with normalfags, of course, after all it is a big 3 of shonen - the most attractive genre for subhumans of all kinds. But now everyone just gobbles down Oda's tiny pecker and asks for more.
The manga at the moment is total trash, dumb plot, dumb characters, fake out deaths. No one gives a shit. Oda is a degenerate nigger who approved the awful show that attracted unwashed hordes of morons.

>>228512
>enjoyer since 2010 or so and it pains me to see how normified this title has become.
It was 2003 for me since we had a bootleg satellite German TV back in the days. Gundam was nice too.
I know it's a cliche, but to me OP died after the time skip. I was already feeling it decline before that, but it really made it clear that it wasn't the show I loved as a kid.
Kinda like how I felt naruto (another rather mainstream one since it also aired on TV) peaked at the zabuza arc, but shitpudding mate it crystal clear.

As far as popularity goes, I feel like once something hits critical mass normies start to like it just to fit in with the crowd which results in a delusional fanbase that defends dogshit since "it can't be bad if so many like it" "I must like it to fit in" "I'll defend the dogshit too to signal I'm one of them".

Something like that.
Then again sorry for the off topic OP.

Really makes me wonder how latecomers enjoy the "hobby". What were some of the first memorable anime you watched and at around what age did you start? What got you into it?
I'm not even trying to pull the "not a real fan" "hurr too young zoomer" or whatever I'm sorry I know it might come off that way, hell you might be older than me.
I'm genuinely curious how people who got into hobbies I grew up with later in life formed a bond with it if that makes any sense.
For instance I can't imagine getting into anime if I started on later series with a different online community. Gaming is another thing I don't see myself getting into if it wasn't for oldschool MMOs and the like and I had to do some competitive fps shit.

>>228513
>What were some of the first memorable anime you watched
I got hooked on anime in 2007 or so. Just randomly stumbled upon Naruto on Jetix. It was something new and different, even if characters seemed to yell too much. Later my cousin watched Naruto on DVD and I borrowed it, gulped everything down and wanted more. I watched all the major shonens and moved on to something adults on the internet watched in that period. Elven Lied, Evangelion, Berserk. There was no going back after that.
Also Anime was something normies absolutely despised here back then. It was seen as stupid nerd garbage, cartoons for kids and shit. You could even get beaten if retards at school knew you were an anime fan. Come to think of it, it was more of a subculture than anything. Like goths, emo, punks. People were a bit on the cringier side but they were geniune in the adoration. Plus it wasn't easy to find out about anime when internet wasn't even that widespread in my country, less so in my town so only the specific kind of autists would even go down that rabbit hole. Now everyone and their dog is an anime fan. Meatheads that would woop animefans back in the day now consume Jujutso no Kaisen and spew retarded anime memes.

>>228514
So we basically had the same/really similar experience just at a different time.
Cool to see.
Wonder how the generation whose first anime was something like black clover or jujutso you mention views their hobby. Must be quite a bit different.
I notice younger guys seem to be rather detached from things they enjoy as well. Not sure how to describe it better than that.

>>228515
the detachment is in big part because everything is a bit easier. In dialup days, getting a full length episode could be a week long project, and it *cost* you.

Now to enjoy something you're at most 5 clicks and a one line search from whatever it is you wanted.

Similar situation here.
I suffer from chronic pains, nothing gets better.
There is just no way you will ever enjoy living without good health.

I'm sorry for abandoning the thread, I had it open all this time, just no real strength to respond.
To be more clear I just got checkmated by >>228194 this fellow mentally at least for a good bit and I'm still not able to meaningfully respond.
I'll do so anyways to at least show appreciation.
I have read each response fully of course, even if I do not quote directly.

>>228159
I understand the "baby steps" approach, I tried. I managed to "force things" for a while, then somehow drop it and to my shock a year passed.
I to this day am unable to keep a consistent hygiene schedule, it only got better because I do force myself every time I have to go to work which… isn't as often as you might imagine with my blessed dead end helpdesk job I received through something like divine grace.

I tried over and over again and I have accumulated nothing but failures to the point where now my body seems averse to even trying. I just bring the hobby tools for example and stare at them. I can barely read or force myself to think often enough.
Cheap dopamine is the only thing I manage to pursue, but the past few years have been filled with more "starring at the wall in a hazy daydream" rather than any video games or anime. Both which take more effort than I seem able to maintain.
I can muster some up if need be, but as I said, maintaining the spark and kindling it into flame is beyond me.

Funny you mention blender as it was something I really wanted to be good at at some point. I have 2.8 still downloaded, mostly untouched as you might imagine. Ended up like many delusional dreams of mine.
Well not quite, it can't collect dust at least…

>>228193
>If this is the belief in your heart-of-hearts
This was not a desired outcome nor a desired state of mind. It's not something I decide or choose daily. Though I do consider myself a victim I guess considering my galton board obsession.
I have made attempts which felt like best effort and honest pushes, especially during childhood and you know… the frequency of these became less and less after each rejection and failure.
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>>228138
>Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
how do you define that? I've got some long-term commitments under my belt (a PhD) but other than that I think most people are impulsive retards when it comes down to it. usually when people achieve something long-term it's because circumstances forced them to. a common impetus is having children, many normalfags get whipped right into shape by the responsibility despite being utterly unreliably and flaky otherwise

>>228447
Great observation.

I don't have an exact definition.
The ability to set such long-term goals for yourself without being forced by circumstance.
The discipline to control said impulses without external constraint.
That should be a good first step. Managing day to day needs on my own, body maintenance and the like would be a good step towards the type of life I had in mind for me for example.

Were you forced or coerced by circumstance to get your degree? Maybe it was more comfortable to keep going to college / parents supported you until then so you could put of joining the workforce?
Even if the goal was set for you, you still managed to attain it on your own so I think it counts.

sometmies i like ot go walking ti really reminds me of my mortlity i reckon i went once to a gas staton and asked this guy what he thought of israel and he just looked at me shrugged and walked away i guess he coudnt stand my aura but again i reckon i once also went into the train tracks and found a cool piece ofcpap metal

>>228487
Now that she's a single mother you finally have a chance!

Why are there so many single mothers everywhere, I'm doing a short course and there's at least 4 of them that I know of

>>228499
Because the guys succubi attracted to aren't the guys who want a family and stable relationship. Alpha fucks and beta bucks is real. succubi don't even treat men they aren't attracted to as humans, they just don't exist for them rather then a loser paypig for her and her spawn.

>>228503
Yeah, it was pretty crabish post. But the fact is the fact.

>>228504
>But the fact is the fact.
It doesn't matter if it's factual or not. You could be speaking out of your ass or you could be posting peer-reviewed statistics. You could be defending succubi or calling for their bloody murder. What's wrong with the post is that this is the only place on the internet where you're supposed to disregard them as a whole. Can men not have one place on the internet to talk about things without sex-obsessed outsiders coming in to post about "top 10 reasons I love succubi" and "All succubi are shallow whores and why that makes my PP sad"?

>>228319
i argue with my tulpa when in public to creep everyone out. when somebody asks me if i'm ok i say I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF AN ARGUMENT PLEASE KINDLY LEAVE ME ALONE. when they call police+ambulance i make a joke of them since there is no legal ground to constrain me since i'm obviously not dangerous

I think that I have created a tulpa or something like that because I often find myself talking to someone next to me. im Sorry, but it's always a succubus. One that i loved. I'M SORRY! but this is what it is for me.
I don't know if i should go on with it, I usually think it's not healthy for me but i cannot stop doing it.

>>228470
>im Sorry, but it's always a succubus. One that i loved. I'M SORRY! but this is what it is for me.
You sound like me in Limerency but too far worst.
I dont know if the thing of you was true love but wathever, its not healthy keep a person rent free in your head.
better go to check your head.
Tulpa is on purpose, If you got a Tulpa out of Feed-back loop and fine tuning the rumiation on your imagination about the succubi, i dont think is a healthy tulpa for you, you need to stop to destroy that tulpa thing.
check this
https://wizchan.org/dep/res/307205.html
Or well, maybe you now are total mentally ill and got worst bacause of deppresion or you have something before your love thing and maybe you got this imaginary friend, or a extra personality or some fucked up thing bacause you now keep forcing it around your trauma and problems of before.
>Also
Tulpamancy guys say that talking and going in a way social and alone and just ignore the Tulpa and go healthy in life (this is for trauma method of forcing) in a way destroy it but if that thing persist in your life, better go to check your head.

>>228474
thanks for the response.
thinking on it I can say that it's more a parasite than a tulpa that is burning me out , many times i tried to stop it but couldn't, i tried with different approaches but failed with all of them. I could try one more time

>>227891
not honest with myself enough

>>225375
Sex with another person feels different from masturbation.

It's like tickling. When someone tickles you, you are unable to stop laughing. When you tickle yourself, barely anything will happen. Sex is like that too.

>>228465
And just how would you know that, “wiz”?

>>228465
If someone tickles me, I am unable to stop punching them in the face. I am a wizard

>>228465
lmao i just tried tickling myself and it had the same effect as if done by someone else
i didn't go too far because i fucking hate that feeling
maybe that's not normal?

>>228468
>>228465
Ok, there's a shit essay
I never told this to anyone but i like hugs.
The problem is that there's a lot of factor to no do it bacause can feel gross and you need to control these factors to be a good experience, even with a succubi if some shit trigger that event without your control.
I know there's these thing about Hug machines for autist but i dont know if i a autist. well, i dont have that problem with too much contact so maybe no.
A non-Wizard friend told me that Sex with Succubi is just like a Hand making pressure in your pee-pee but there's a lot of variables that can turn the experience into ugly to absolute shit, you need to control too much the variables to be a good experience maybe. the other things are about good experience are related to in a way to just the act and wathever you have in lewd mind.
Some adults with child trauma around sexual abuse have traumatic experience to some sensations or even smells, i suppose the dude talk about shit like this and that why.
>Also
Tibet Buddhist with Tantra and Thelemic dudes with Sex Magick do some form of Sex Visualization with (or without in Buddhist case) with fap.
The effects of Visualization in mind can be very interesting, one day i did one practice in bed and i had a interesting powerful orgasm with visualization.
Well maybe the sex shit can in some way do a good thing for your ego bacause its the climax of human experience after being dad-mom etc but maybe its feel empty after a lot of times without the context of Love, just pleasure is empty maybe.
sex magick sound like a personality shift experience, maybe sex and ritual achieve just one of these Peak Experiences that Maslow say that in a way change our perspective of life but this is hard for some people bacause of other determined problems of the persona, who knows.
Aleister Crowley… damn motherfucker.

>>228204
What if that which makes him happy is to be seen as a winner in the eyes of society and conmen? Cheque mate.

>>228206
Then a) he's likely a failed normie that shouldn't be here or b) he needs to realize that if that's what "makes him happy" he will never reach it as society always shifts the goal posts to extract more from you. You will never be good enough.

>>228204
>Look at this society of murder and injustice
that's just the head of the snake. The world is forged with that energy but there is a wake behind it… there IS beauty in this world, peace, prosperity, harmony. It's just not at the head of the snake where evil lives and runs the world forward. It sucks that we have to live in their shadows but it is what it is, and there ARE ways to become immune to their aura and forge your own path.

Become your own head of the snake and start a new wave, or find one that is already out there and try to push more energy in that direction

>>228342
>there IS beauty in this world, peace, prosperity, harmony
I agree, people reject this by their own choice

>>228471
>Lost my virginity
oh, ok. still i dont give a damn about it. you still can be philosophical Wizard maybe. you enjoyed it or want to do it again? well, maybe this is not the good place to talk about it if we go against the rules.
just dont troll about it, still i dont give a damn.
>and totally got stupid lucky with also having a real life friend group at the same time.
That's normal to me, good for you. even if are fake, autist or good for the health of your mind or group.
>here are absolutely draw backs that mentally fatigue you faster if you have no real life social group.
True
>Not having people in your life to be with and spend time with will atrophy your brain faster.
True
>This life truly is very meaningless and unfulfilling. And I want the wiz who wrote this post to know that you are not missing ANYTHING.
>Life sucks for everyone. Normalfags just pretend that it's not as bad it truly is. They absolutely lack intellectual depth and are a pain to be around.
True but you still can have fun and dont give a shit about it. The end is the same for all, call it absurd or enlightened positive nihilism or wathever.
Life is a joke and Absurd, just dont ruin it more.

>>228397
very interesting

>>227963
Wizardchan in its early years was definitely a crab website.

>>227908
i'd love to go for it. but unfortunately price will drop to affordable levels after few decades at best so we'll have to wait a bit.
>>228000
if we won't have some nice longevity pill or something we won't get robowaifus. that's one of the saddest things ever

for me willing to consider a sexbot, the bot would have to be super advanced, almost real, like a replicant from blade runner tier, like you wouldnt blink twice at it if you saw it walking down the street