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 No.219448[Reply]

After hitting 30 this feeling has been eating me and I don't know how to resolve it. I started watching different youtube channels and it made me realize how much time I wasted staring at a screen when I could be experiencing the world and creating things. The 21st century offers so many possibilities and yet all I did was sit at home play video games and read inane garbage online. Now I always had depression, anxiety, social autism, adhd, average iq etc. that lead to me being an underachiever but nowadays it feels like I was just the right self-help book and meds/supplement combination and some effort away from solving all these issues.

I could start now but after hitting 30 I feel this sense of hopelessness after experiencing aging. I felt like shit in my 20s but now I realize I actually felt good. Now I tire easily and years of sitting made my body feel rusty. I feel like the youth shield is gone and I can't take the future for granted anymore and expect it to make it even to 40. Every time I experience a new pain or sensation I imagine it to be the start of something serious.

How do you deal with this? It feels like modern technology amplifies winners so if you are a loser it feels extra bad because there is such a big contrast between living with your parents and riding the bus and eating mac and cheese and living in a multi-million dollar mansion with a beautiful view and driving a ferrari and eating at 3 star restauraunts.
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 No.229474

>>229472
How does it work then?

 No.229479

>>219656
Based
>>219657
>>219662
Niggers

 No.229677

>>228984
I have a similar issue to OP, but still have a little less than a decade until I become a full fledged wizard.
Everyday is a battle of a swinging pendulum: brain fog and emptiness, or desperation and overwhelming ambition. Right now I am in the ambitious phase and want to lockdown a 'big boy' job before I turn 30, though it is demoralizing that the people who are my age and used to talk to me are now finishing university and getting internships or even getting engaged - it makes me feel like a confused old man in the body of a young one.

I've accepted that I might actually have adhd that fills my head with noise that makes me forget what I was just thinking about or doing, but there has to be something else that has absolutely fucked me over and led me to the bad route.

How do I push myself one last time to secure a decent job or my own place before I am done.

 No.229678

You dont

 No.229685

>>219454
you're completely right. i can barely stand being in public for this reason. i get to observe a society and people within it that i dont get to participate it meaningfully unless im engaging in a financial transaction. its pretty fucked up
>>224011
>>224024
based


 No.227799[Reply]

Do you want to change your life?
Do you really want to change your life?
MEDITATE
Wizzies, meditation is highly famous but seldom practiced seriously. The results from meditation takes time. It's like exercise. During the first day it will be hard to stay still and concentrate, but as you practice it, your body and mind start getting used to it. The benefits are immense. To mention a few:
>it improves concentration a lot
>it quiet your inner monologue, reducing it to 96% or even 100% depending on how well you are praticing it
>it increases the size of your pre-frontal-cortex which is responsible for making decisions
>increases gaba, which is the chemical that makes you calm
>it sharpens your sense making colors look brighter and sounds sound more vivid
>it gives you insights
>it makes you live in the present moment, since you are not ruminating the past or thinking about the future
>it reduces anxiety

And if you want to make it more meaningful, I advise practicing Buddhist teachings, even if you don't indetify as a Buddhist (that's irrelevant). You can still continue being a Christian and still follow Buddha's teachings for a happier and sober life.

I speak from experience. I've been meditating for 5 months almost everyday and now I'm starting to reap the fruits of my efforts. If I could dedicate my life 100% to spirituality and become a monk, I would, but where I live there's barely any monasteries. I don't mind though. I'm happy. I could be happy anywhere as long as I could practice meditation and the teachings of the great Buddha.

Just do it. Do it today or tonight. If silence is a problem, put on a whine noise sound on your headphones (I do that). Do it for 20 minutes. If it's too hard for you, reduce it to 10, but no less. You first session is always special. You will get out of there thinking: "what the hell, this shit really works".

Good luck, guys!
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 No.227878

You know nobody going do that

 No.229668

>>227878
Not with that attitude

 No.229669

Just go walk in nature if u want to clear your mind, no need to larp as a buddhist monk

 No.229681

>>227853
>feeling that I’d wasted my time.
This is a big part of it; sitting silently IS wasting time and stirs up the anxiety that causes us to feel restless and NEED TO DO SOMETHING (even if that SOMETHING is causing us pain and suffering)

keep sitting with it

 No.229684

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>>227799
Is this a thread of meditation? I the dude of the thread of Magick for relaxation. I wanna share some alternatives to Vippasana or Annapasanti meditation
>Kasina
The use of color gaze or color discs of buddhists
>Tatrak
Candle gazing, i gazed sometimes fires and are damn relaxing
>Sky gazing and cloud gazing
Tibet buddhist do this, very relaxing. Its like a kasina and watching fire at times.
>Wall gazing
The japanese zen do this, i did this for one year and my eyes got a lot of resistance to keep open seing the eyes of others or focus in things.
>Metta phrases or Coue
I tried this with a focus in heart with a hand in my chest and another in arms and its kinda comfy if you achieve a good focus in the activity. I got some funny experiences with this practice, is more fun when you do it when wake up with too much suggestionability in darkness and before sleep. Or you can try at plain sunlight and focus in nature.
>Energy hands or focus in hands
Taoist or magnetic hands
hypnotherapist use this, close your hands in palm forms and focus in it, breath and later try to play like there's a energy between them and ideomotor reflex placebo will act, you can keep focusing or use other methods of meditation very relaxing. You can fake to close them and while you relax and breath you gonna get the fluffy sensation in hands and fingers.

The more you keep doing in focus activity in a routine, the more you gain skill at it. Keep doing (but pls take easy if you force too much your eyes)


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 No.229335[Reply]

If due to finances and life circumstances you are 100% forced to cohabitate with normies, how do you deal with them? They constantly pick on you, belittle you and attempt to crush you.
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 No.229670

I was about to write that you don't need meditation in the other thread, that it's a moronic, misguided, idolistic practice. But it's the only tool for most people to realize you have no ego. (Even so, it doesn't seem to be an aim or the end goal of meditation of most. It seems like a mini cult)
Without an ego, you can offer them certain offers which potentially are not benefitial for you (like fucking them up physically). Then depending on situation it's either deescalated, or they chicken out, or it's escalated and they realize you can stand for yourself, or it's escalated and you end up dead / in prison.

A person without an ego doesn't fear defeat, death, or prison.
Obviously he still has his attachments.
So it's usually preferable to handle that in a smart way. But having an image of a complete nutcase can also yield good results.

When you have that shit sorted out, one might find oneself to be a side kind of person, one less included in common affairs. For me it's a nice bonus. I can do my shit while they do theirs.

 No.229671

>>229670
I'm thinking though, mixed gender workplaces might be difficult
idk, git gud in order to not share work with succubi?

 No.229672

>>229671
LLM's idea is to log the shit done by females and then snitch.
In essence it's also saying "git gud so the workplace is professional enough that it can resolve conflicts in a fair way" - was not the case in my early life.

 No.229679

>>229667
How about this: Fuck work, fuck employers, neetbucks, 200-500 a month from parents and 60k loaned money stashed away in offline ledgers and I will never repay a cent and it has grown to more than 130k since 2017.

And no I don't feel sorry for those credit companies

 No.229680

>>229667
That's a shit life and you basically eat unhealthy crap to survive, unless I guess you know where to scavenge for food. Even then it'll be discarded stuff. Mixed with the state trying to get rid of you through all kinds of nefarious means like drugs or outright violence, if you cant defend yourself physically you're fucked

You'll have a better chance going off grid away from cities, even then it'll be hard without money to buy clothes etc


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 No.227944[Reply]

wizards, this is a truly important question. how do you tell your mom, or anyone else for that matter, that you are really not interested in whatever female they think you should "befriend"?

i know you're going to troll me, but i still kindly ask you to find a second and think about what could be the *optimal* solution. the solution that doesn't burn bridges, doesn't create bitter enemies and yet lets you maintain the high ground. i know this is not fully achievable, but there gotta be an algorithm or something.

my brain just crashes in such situations. it's like "idk wtf are you're even talking about???" i need help
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 No.229539

>>228037
can attest lol. I've been reprimanded because by default i ignore all roasties especially young ones. I've been given "the talk" by my boss and the roasties act all offended that i didn't sniff their farts and kiss the ground they walk on when i inevitably must interact wiith them due to work

 No.229540

>>228048
i hate to say it but yea the other wiz is right. If you're attractive to succubi in even the most minute way, they'll inevitably cause issues in your life. You're average at best. Or you've got something weird about your looks which they can't help but glance at. All in all, you're not attractive in the least. Maybe you're short or something

 No.229551

>>229540
i know. i hate succubi. otoh u can sometimes play a feminist and they'll be all smiles with u. the problem is when u deal with a succubus on a regular basis, there's a balance to be struck and i'd much prefer to strike on the head with something heavy

 No.229675

my mom is at it again :D prob thinks she can make it worse! i guess i have no choice but to use my autism super powers! should be a breeze! i seriously want to move out and disappear

 No.229676

>>229675

The algorithm i use:

If someone upsets you,
Tell them what they did that upset you. You dont need to explain yourself, you dont need to give a reason, you dont need to lie at all. Youre allowed to have boundaries. Youre allowed to have private reasons. To an extent- as long as youre not hurting anyone- youre allowed even to be a bit irrational.

If they continue to cross that line and disrespect your boundaries, then that person is habitually disrespecting you and should be treated with a degree of hostility until you get your point across.

A mediator would be preferable if you can get one, but usually with family and with parents especially, you need to stand up for yourself and fight for yourself. No one's going to do it for you.


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 No.227891[Reply]

Why don't you have a tulpa, anon?
You can cheat yourself out of loneliness by fostering a loving relationship with an imaginary friend.

Benefits of a tulpa,
>You can choose any shape or form for her.
>You will never feel alone.
>She will always show unconditional love.
>She will always follow you around.
>You can have sex without losing your virginity powers or contracting STDs.
>Costs absolutely nothing.
>Basically the 'ultimate' form of a waifu.
The only negative is the social stigma, which you can easily avoid by not revealing your powerlevel.

It was the best decision of my life. It feels so good to have someone take care of you, compliment you and physically comfort you.
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 No.229588

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what food does your tulpa eat?

 No.229589

>>229587
well, you will never be able to see your tulpa, but maybe you can still interact with her? it would probably be like messages coming from the void.

idk, i wouldn't bother in that case. the best part of tulpamaxxing is being able to see, touch, smell, feel your tulpa. we're working with all senses, but you're just limited to one or maybe zero and it's just an "abstract sense" of something. just stick with waifus and AI chatbots, sorry.

 No.229653

>>227891
I have read some guides but all of them are shit and read like they have been written by redditors.

How to get started if the goal is to make a romantic/waifu tulpa?
Whats the actual things I have to repeat to get there?

 No.229660

>>229653
Guides are fake and gay, everything about tulpas is intuitive and self-evident.

Presence
>Imagine her doing something next to you (rubbing her hands, shuffling around on her feet, etc.)
Visual
>Impose an image of her in flesh space using your mind's eye.
Autonomy
>Turn off your brain and observe and accept whatever she does next. She'll act erratically at first, but the longer you do this, the more her behavior normalizes and becomes more consistent.
Tactile
>Imagine her hand touching a spot on your body and hold onto that feeling for as long as you can. When you lose focus, move her touch to an adjacent spot.

If you do any of this at least one hour per day, you'll quickly see results.

Hallucinations (persistent, voluntary ones, at least) are mostly LARP, though.

 No.229665

>>229660
I honestly have trouble with getting started to make her more than a waifu, when i tried to imagine her in my room I always retroactively kind of "wing back time" and imagine more detail than initially, this makes the whole thing feels stuttery if that makes sense. Also I have to imagine everything for now, tho I only started like 2 days ago.


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 No.229546[Reply]

If I quit smoking and pretended to be dead, would it be a good idea to destroy the world, for example, with COVID-19 or World War II? If so, what would you wish for?

> World War III
> COVID-19
> Zombie Apocalypse
> Alien Invasion
> Robot Wars
> Dinosaurs Return
> Parasitic Monsters

The choice is yours; I'll just run it, and the one with the most votes will be chosen.
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 No.229592

>>229546
big but unexplainable disease, like, you get sick but there is no virus or bacteria or contamination or anything. that would freak everyone out

or extremely quick desertification. have you read the time machine, when the guy goes too far into the future and the earth is just an uninhabitable desert and the only visible life forms are a bunch of small crustaceans? something like that, or the game "kenshi"

 No.229595

i hate science fiction

 No.229639

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>>229546
>If I quit smoking and pretended to be dead, would it be a good idea to destroy the world
>quit smoking
>pretend to be dead
>destroy the world

I'm sorry wiz, but what? What do any of these things have to do with each other? Why would you need to pretend you're dead in order to quit smoking, or to quit smoking to pretend that you're dead? Why would either of those things be required to destroy the world, or influence whether or not it's a 'good idea' to do so? I don't understand your thought process at all.

 No.229640

Id like to see dinosaurs return. Id love to know what they all sounded like clicking and chatting in unison in the forest. They'd probably drown out the sound of the birds and insects and it would be a chorus of clicks and chattering.

 No.229659

>>229592

I think nature's too cool to have to suffer just to freak out normies.
How about wasting disease suddenly infecting humans?


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 No.229635[Reply]

Have you ever felt like you were just being played or taken advantage of—by friends, parents, those closest to you, or anyone else? It’s incredibly frustrating, isn't it? If

 No.229636

if waht

 No.229637

>>229636
confidential

 No.229638

>by friends
Got none
>parents
I take advantage of them
>those closest to you
My neko-tan takes advantage of me yes
>or anyone else
I carry my team in every online game I play

>It’s incredibly frustrating, isn't it?
It is normal. To take advantage of and to be taken advantage of is akin to inhaling and exhaling. Those who allow themselves only to exhale will be empty and tired. Those who only inhale will be full of hot air. It is important to balance being on the giving and receiving end of advantageous gestures.

 No.229651

I don't know if I would call it "taken advantage of", but I feel that there is often times an asymmetrical exchange in terms of effort and expectations in my relationships.
For instance, my mother might want to show me some stupid bullshit she saw on youtube, or rant about something she heard from her ladyfriend, and I'm just supposed to drop everything and listen without getting a word in myself.
Then if I ever want to show my mother something, or tell her something, she can barely be bothered to pay attention and for no longer than a couple minutes.
With my father he might require my help to lift something heavy or help out in the yard (which has taken hours on certain occasions in the past), but when something in my room needs fixing I'm on my own.
I don't have any friends right now, but when I did I feel like it was a similar thing. I'd have a friend call me on Skype (remember skype lol, anyway) and he'd rant for 2 hours about some stupid shit, but if I ever wanted to talk to him he'd always be busy, etc.
The only place where I feel like I got explicitly taken advantage of was at work. I've had several (menial, minimumm-wage type) jobs where I was doing most of the work while my coworkers slacked off or sat in the back talking.
It's like Rodney Dangerfield said: "I get no respect, I tell ya, no respect at all."


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 No.229641[Reply]

I like Igloos

Reading up on Inuit hunter gatherers is comfy. The world really did once feel like it had more wonder in it. I remember growing up on early 20th century books where savage lifestyles still existed, and it just feels a shame the mysticism of the world has disappeared now its been mapped out.

 No.229642

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yurts >>>>> igloos

 No.229643

>>229641
The fantasy of being in your little shelter, comfortable and safe while just outside the unforgiving harsh weather is raging on is indeed quite comfy.

 No.229644

>the mysticism of the world has disappeared now its been mapped out.
Ironically it is those very savages who are still benefited by blissful ignorance. They have all of the questions and none of the answers. They ask the stars for answers the ocean can give them. They dream not of fearsome lions or of the warm embrace of a quiet library at night. An alien world beyond ctheir wildest dreams is a walk away and yet they remain in place, throwing snow at seals and screaming at their ceremonial boot.

Is what I would type if my tax dollars weren't being spent to send blubber-flavored condoms and gender-nuetral marijuana to those God damned snow monkeys. Don't underestimate the reach of globalism's sickly tentacles.

 No.229645

>>229642
That yurt looks like it has way too much wooden furniture. You have to remember they packed all that shit up and had to lug it 200-300km seasonally twice a year. Maybe a chieftan had it decked out like that but i really dont't think theyd waste space on wood.

Pastoral nomadism is sorta peak humanity. I reckon iranian nomads had it good. The food seems delicious. Every night eating flatbread, meat and yogurt with fresh milk.

 No.229646

>>229645
>Traditional nomadic furniture—most notably the avdar (wooden storage chests) and low cabinets—was intentionally built with straight lines and box shapes. This wasn't just for aesthetics; it meant they could double as packing crates, packed full of textiles, religious items, or winter gear, and lashed directly onto the backs of camels or carts.

>Rather than heavy standalone bed frames, traditional sleeping platforms were often modular or designed to double as storage benches, keeping the footprint tight.

Oh I'm wrong. I just assumed they used sacks for everything and didnt consider dual use furniture.


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 No.229350[Reply]

Hey wizzies, I feel the need to classify and understand myself but I'm having trouble with that.

I stay inside when possible but I regularly have to go to appointments (therapy, psychiatry). I am forced out of my shell by obligation. I isolate at home but keep a functional tether to the world via appointments. I do not go outside for fun, I have no IRL friends but some online. I have enough food at home to last me 3 weeks so I don't need to get groceries or accept deliveries. I am very scared when outside. I am NEETing and depend on rehabilitation money.

I am not a hikkimori, what am I?
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 No.229582

you are a glorified cuda interface

 No.229583

I don't know what you are, but I can guess that what you'll be in a few years won't be a pretty sight if you keep living like this. Good luck

 No.229615

>>229351
I also have avoidant personality disorder. This is a good description, but I think it misses some things. Avoidant personality disorder and social anxiety are related and often coincide, but you can still have AVPD without any social anxiety at all. The avoidance stems from a desire to avoid traumatic rejection. Even if you are not anxious at all in interactions you can still have AVPD because you avoid people due to not wanting to get rejected by them. It particularly comes down to wanting to avoid any sort of actual relationship with a person. Random normies that you just interact with at a store or something are usually just subject to social anxiety, but social anxiety is treatable. I know because I tried hard and managed to make a good deal of progress. I still have social anxiety but it's a lot less than it used to be. Avoidance still just as bad though. I think it stems from a feeling that deep down I am unlikable so the more someone comes to know me, the worse things will be for me (as understood by the crazy part of my brain). This triggers a desire to avoid people and it gets stronger the more time I spend with them.

 No.229616

>>229395
This was my life in my 20s but after 10 years of that shit I gave up trying to get medically treated. Ironically I'm doing better now than ever.

 No.229633

>I am very scared when outside.
don't be. there is no logical advantage to that.

if you haven't please try breathing exercises and meditation. that changed everything for me.


 No.229141[Reply]

I can't mentally relate to a regular 40 year old in any shape or form. People who already have 20 year careers or are even CEO's. While I still replay old SNES games on emulators and work a basic job while taking care of an elderly parent who needs assistance for almost everything.
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 No.229553

Part of it is location, Americans especially were quick to kick kids out at 18. I was willing to work hard but had no desire to level up at work or be a community leader. My parents screwed up by kicking us all out of the house: they have a son that won't be hosting Christmas or thanksgiving feasts for the extended family because I don't believe in that lifestyle. A "failure" in normie eyes? Maybe. I don't believe in the American dream and I'm just happy I'm free of suburbia.

 No.229570

>>229553
>Part of it is location
True, plus it's the time period and economic situation. What often times get touted as a "independence" or "growing up" is just being fortunate enough to live in a time and place where you actually have the opportunity to go off and live on your own (often times with a helping of the right family situation i.e. daddy hooking you up with a nice job, so you can actually afford to move out).
Sometimes I see people brag and look down at people who still live with their parents at an age that's not socially acceptable, and it always pisses me off because these "independent" people would have been in exactly the same situation had their lot in life been slightly different.

 No.229572

>>229553
Pure american narcissism. You dont see the asians, arabs or even half of europe doing this crap.

>>229570
NTA but I sometimes wonder how different my life would be if I lived in the 70s or 80s. Even if I'm a total loser at least I'd get plenty of job opportunities I couldnt even think of getting now.

 No.229578

>>229141
Character growth stops at high school for most people. In my wagie job at a factory, I have meet 50-60 year olds who tries to mog each other over social status or materialism, like they are still in high school.
>guys look at how cool I am, I own a Iphone!
>I have stacy, you have becky!

 No.229631

>>229141
I'm soon to be 30 but I feel like I got stuck at 20yo. Part of it is certainly the covid years that were basically just limbo where nothing moved forward and I stayed inside only being enrolled in college without actually studying or taking exams. Now I'm starting trainee program that is meant for 16-17 year olds and I will be a decade older than almost all of them. I flunked out of college and it's impossible to get a job without any kind of certification so this is my only real option but it only reinforces this feeling of being weirdly out of sync. I have moments where I realize that my youth has passed a decade ago, notice signs of aging in my parents and I get scared for a bit. But mostly I'm honestly fine with the way I'm living. I'll be happy to work my basic job and play video games with the few friends I have left, living at home and spending time with my parents while they're still in good health.


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