/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>224493
I can tell you how my day today was for example
>Wake up
>go to uni
>sit alone like its normal because it is normal even if Im an outlier because nobody cares about me
>dont understand shit award
>skip last lecture tell myself Ill do it at home
>do it at home for remaining 8 hours of the day and only manage 10%
>admit to mommy that I have 0 friends when she asks me about how Im doing with getting a gf
>try to alleviate the pain of failure, of being 23yo and sucking at life, by telling myself that its fine if I kill myself next week
>watch youtube and twitch daily out of habbit
>remember that what Im doing is not nearly enough even though its so draining
>think about how I would have more energy if I was a sociable normalfag that goes to gym
>to top it all off Im also sick for a week already and have produced a bin full of used tissues, I dont feel so well
>no job would want to take me so my net worth is 0
the worst part is that Im 23yo

>>224568
I thought you were much younger before you stated your age, rought shit, that kind of crap is tolerable when you are a teenager or 22 years old (max).

>>224568
Similar but been spinning my wheels in this situation for years and nearing 27. Haven't made any friends at uni but luckily still have some of my fellow wiz apprentice autists from HS who still live in the same area and are either NEET or low skill wagies so I still get to play vidya with them and hang out sometimes. Right now my routine is
>wake up
>walk dogs/feed them
>go to work or turn on the work laptop if it's wfh day
>don't do anything either way but have to pretend I'm busy so my boss doesn't suspect anything
>try not to think about the fact that I need to write a report about this internship for uni and I have nothing cause I'm not doing anything
>try to get myself to study some on the side if I'm not working already but can't bring myself to, I'm too stupid to understand it quickly and become too frustrated/scared to go on and face my retardation
>just kind of read and watch stuff and wait for the day to pass until I can go home/turn off the work laptop
>exercise a little bit usually and walk the dogs again
>tell my mom my day was fine when she comes home from work
>try not to think about the fact that I'm probably going to fail out of uni after over 5 years with no degree because I'm too scared/apathetic to do anything and I'm approaching 30 with nothing to show for it.

>>224500
your mom xD

>>224585
Fuck, get the fuck out of here, stupid Normies and Crabs and Russia

I think i will be a wizard too, because I'm a young christian who don't want to create a family.
I want to have sex every morning when I wake up, but is a sin and I'm not attractive.
Fornication is only for attractive people.
I just fight with porn and masturbation.

because of this thread i dreamt that my penis fell off and i grafted someone elses larger penis on myself.
but then that person looked for his penis and i felt bad so i considered giving the penis back

>>218580
humans are a product of their genetics and environment. no doubt most of the posters here would still be ``weird" and somewhat antisocial, but being exposed to constant positive reinforcement from everyone around you and succubi in particular from an early age would completely change most self-professed volcels.

if the powerful dopamine hits provided by sex and companionship were cheap and easy to come by, you'd be far less incentivized to do something else for passing the time.

>>218580
Not sure about penis but I already am the rest.

>>218580
I'm schizoid so yes I would still be a wizard. I don't like being around people.

I meditated, looked deep inside myself, and found EVIL.
I am the antagonist in the story of this world.
I am literally hitler.

>>224478
ARE you evil?

>>224478
>I am literally hitler.
Hitler didn't have an evil bone in his body.

I'm an ugly manlet.
Simple as that, really.

>>211629
I just lived my life and nothing ever happened.
>went to school for 11 years and in that time no succubus has ever shown any interest and they didnt even want to befriend me at all
>after school I worked a bunch of shitty jobs and there were also no succubi there
>then I was a NEET for many years and as one might expect, no succubi there either
>then I had a few more shitty jobs for a couple months and nothing came out of that
>then I became a NEET again and have been one for the last 10 years and here of course once again no succubi of any kind

so school and employment and neeting didnt yield me any succubi.
I had some friends over these years but they were mostly losers like me and didnt know any succubi and through family I also never got into contact with any succubis.
eventually, I think that was around my early to mid 20s I had fully given up on succubi because if it didnt happen up until that point it obviously would never happen so any further attempts or trying to fit in with the normalfags was an obvious waste of time and I stopped bothering.

of course I been wondering like why? and to this day I have no real answer for that because am I really that ugly? I'm certainly not the elephant man and I have seen uglier and shorter men than me having girlfriends and normal social lifes, I'm not rich but also not THAT poor, I seen poorer men have girlfriends and social lifes.
is it my personality? how could it be if never anyone even got close enough to figure out what mine is?
so I guess the reason I'm a wizard is because I'm meant to be one and was always meant to be one, it must be destiny or shit like that.



>>211629

i do think, but i dont care. Its not that i will die because of it anyway.

Nowdays i just care about money. Not being homeless and having basic comfort in life is enough for me.

>>224557
I don't take the sum of anything and compare it to anything else, because instead of looking at numbers and videos of animals eating other animals to justify to myself that life is objectively shit as a scapegoat for my own decisions making my life shit, I do things that make me happy. This is because I am not 19 years old and gay like you.

You're perpetuating suffering at this expense of this website by acting like such a fragile little boy. It's at the expense of all of us here, so please leave.

>>224558 🙈

you're defending life with all of its suffering, I hope you get what you defend

>>224559
You're lambasting life with all of its joy, I know you will never be a real succubus

>>224554
>Suicide is easy, and obviously life isn't as awful as you're making it out to be if you're still clinging to it.
If suicide is easy then why jails and hospitals are full? Should be easy for suffering people to overcome the survival instinct according to you.

>>224556
>but there are countless living beings who experience joy all the time
Not even billionaires experience joy all the time. Like he said >>224557 the amount of suffering on earth is near infinite if you sum it all.


>>224558
>because instead of looking at numbers and videos of animals eating other animals to justify to myself that life is objectively shit as a scapegoat for my own decisions making my life shit, I do things that make me happy
You're mentally incapacitated if you can't comprehend how privileged you are to spend time playing videogames. Ignoring others suffering doesn't make it disappear, it just makes you unprepared for when it will be your turn.

Not worth further discussion with you, you're living in a bubble.

>>224561
>If suicide is easy then why jails and hospitals are full? Should be easy for suffering people to overcome the survival instinct according to you.
Because people in jail and jail in hospitals will eventually be released to enjoy life again. Where do you get this idea that anyone sick or imprisoned wants to die?
>Not even billionaires experience joy all the time
Not ALL the time like 24/7 you ESL idiot. If a man who is happy, healthy, and fulfilled stubs his toe, he will feel pain and regret his decisions leading up to him hitting his toe. In this moment he's not joyful, but when the pain subsides he will once again be happy.
>Ignoring others suffering
Nobody is doing this here. Suffering exists in all areas of life, just as joy does. Those who can't handle their suffering should either escape it by making their lives better, endure it until some joy comes his way, or kill himself. Those are the only options. Whining about how you want to kill yourself but for some reason you can't (because you don't really want to) isn't an option, it's a joke. You're ignoring the objective reality that there is happiness in life to be felt by all, and are painting the world as some black hole of fire and lightning because of it.

You're an edgy teenager ESL who broke out of your containment board.

>>224376
>I think therapy is not meant to make the patient's life better, but to make the patient a more functional member of society
It's not even that. Therapy nowadays is not a mental health treatment, it's a commodity or a service within mental wellness industry. Kinda like you pay for a crocheting class or something. And it's a service for already well-adjusted people who are already memebers of the soceity.
Therapy doesn't mean to heal mentally ill people lol. It's more like a luxury serivce at this point. A spa salon for your brain, except at least spa does make you feel better.

>>221098

Kek

>>224378
I met two succbi in such sessions that conveyed this to me as such while trying to get meds. The first pointedly noted how expensive therapy was if I was already in dire financial straits. The second was while I was unemployed and on medicad. I hated wait for like 4 hours for an appointment and the lady confessed how poorly funded her clinic was she'd see guys just sleeping in the waiting room for 8 hours and never get an appointment. Government claims to give a fuck about you, but only if you are suicidal. It's like treating a long term illness with an ER visit.

>>221020
Depends on the causes of being a NEET. If it's depression and [social] anxiety, sure, pharmacological treatment has potential to be quite effective. There are three catches however:

First, you need to have a treatment selected, which is nearly impossible to do in sensible time (less than decades) on ambulatory sessions. Initial treatment must be formulated for a patient stationed at medical facility with all resuscitation equipment at hand, since some drugs can be rather potent and not entirely predictable in combinations and individual reactions, which in ambulatory setting cannot be prescribed at required dosages without endangering the patient immediately, but have to be gradually ramped up. Even then, it won't be perfect and will have a ton of side-effects that would need constant corrections and adjustments, but that can be done ambulatorly on weekly/monthly visits.

Second, is the length of the process. Even initial selection of treatment in ideal stationary conditions would take from several months to a year, since most drugs have accumulated effect and changing treatment may require several weeks to purge old ones from the system (still much faster than months or a year in case of ambulatory sessions – for just one iteration). Then main therapy with tolerable pharmacological scheme is likely to take several years to yield major results (i.e., actually getting a job) and may not be terminated until results are finalized, which may take on the scale of 5 to 10 years.

Third, this is naturally a rather major undertaking, which someone in depression and without source of income has negligible chance to pull of by himself, so someone must walk patient through it, invest their mental and material resources for patient's benefit and be persistent enough over the years to make sure meds are taken on time. Maybe a parent or some other kind of meaningfully concerned relative is required.

>>221020
I can recommend it, it helped me a lot. Resolving some parent issues and some paranoia I've been having. I went for a little over a month, like five session tops.

Though I've heard some bad stories, I definitely recommend the therapist to be a man, not a succubus. Also do not admit illegal shit, do not take expensive pills, that alter your neural chemistry.

I have experienced astral projection many times before, but it usually happens when I’m not actively seeking it.

>>220891
What is it like? I don't think I've ever experienced it and I'm curious.

had it on a mushroom trip, or really every time i do shrooms kinda, but usually it feels like im kind of close to my body just not in it, like im pulling it around on strings like a puppet instead of zooming off into space
the most intense one i experienced during a trip was my first time doing shrooms at all and i dont think anything couldve ever prepared me enough for it
i felt like i was still in my "room" but it felt like i fell into a spinning vortex made up of everything that was "me" and the world around me, it wasnt clear where i ended and where the world started, one abstract thought couldnt be made out from another because they were so intertwined with both eachother and all my other senses
my great amount of terror was overwhelmed by complete awe, and by the end of it i had a sort of aphantasia for a few hours where all my thoughts still felt intertwined and i couldnt really think straight yet i could talk and type completely fine, as if words and actions were simply coming to me rather than needing to be consciously thought out, maybe its what happens when your consciousness and subconsciousness merges
after i was sober enough to walk straight but still feeling the afteraffects i simply went for a walk and saw the trees and nature around me for as beautiful as they truly are
>>219686
this describes the feeling pretty well

>>223520
also im gonna add that the methods for meditation, OBEs, and inducing lucid dreams are all very similar, which i think cements the fact that the subconsciousness is related to all of it

>>223522

No its not lucid dreaming. nderf.org

ive had an obe a very long time ago. i was observing my body and the real world around me with the doctors and my family.

Based

Life starts at 30.

happy birthday

Joyful birthday.

Good job making it to 30.
I wish you fully realize your potential and be the best version of yourself.

Hey, I'm a fellow *kranian in a similar same situation as you.
Finished school 11 years ago, now 26, and coming up on 11 years of living as a shut-in.

I was doing ok for a while, but not so much anymore.

Living by myself ever since mom kicked the bucket 2 years ago.
Got a pretty bleak future ahead all-in-all.

I was living vicariously through making games and daydreaming about being creative, but I had to give that up, and now make vidya slop for others online.
Trying to save up a lot of money in hopes life will not feel so bad in the future and I'll be able to go out at some point again and then mostly retire.

Living under fascism is one of the brutal things about all this, I'm super afraid of going outside and order all my groceries online.

This country and our system is absolute torture for people that don't fit in.
Everything here was pretty much designed and built to break people like us.
All the schools, jobs, the psychiatric system, and social norms - we pay the insane toll of suffering for the cheap cost of living.

There's no surprises that we're completely broken people, that's simply the ukrainian system to crush people working as intended.

And while we're too afraid to go outside to get sent to march to death against Russia for nothing, succs in our age-group either move abroad or are having the time of their life here.
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15 years

О, нас тепер буде троє укрочаклунів.
IMHO, all of the Eastern Europe is a hellhole for anyone who is not a psychopathic turbo normie who is cutthroat and ready to climb above others. This system is built to filter anyone who doesn't fit in. The current regime in our country is a fucking gay faggot fascism. Like, not a real fascism which at least was badass, but the lame and gay one. Only kikes and sociopathic turbo normies can survive here, and for survival they cheat, lie, steal and even kill people.
But from my perspective, this is a deliberate effort to destroy everything that is not psychopathic or outriggt evil. A century long process of behavioral and genetic engineering to create the ultra gopnik or whatever you would call those "people" this cursed land breeds. And I can't stress enough how elites now this land is cursed, so they put enough effort to breed that new man.
I think this land is cursed. The soil itself is cursed. Call it *kraine, Scythia, whatever. This place has dangerous energy and nothing good came out of it.

>>224427
As a balkan wiz I agree. Something about the gene pool here has been corrupted permanently. It's like psychopaths have completely overtaken it. Only a huge world war can act as a cleanse.

We will never, ever have an egalitarian fair society like Norway, Finland or such places. Evil is glorified, celebrated and encouraged. People laugh at kindness and mock it. Even open violence against children is ultra-common.

>>224430
Pretty much.
Our boomers and their parents were so insanely evil compared to the rest of the world, that they built this nightmare that resembles a torture chamber.

You can see how sick, hypersexual and violent us slavs have always been in "The Painted Bird"

Our society is big on child abuse, then parents were abused and then did the same and worse to their children, which continues massively to this day.
And trauma of atrocities we all committed against each other exacerbated this.
As some anecdotes, during the 20s famine, my grandparent's neighbor boiled and ate her child.
Then in the 70s, another succ took an axe and chopped off her husband's testicles, and he then later committed suicide.

Every normie drinks and gets violent. That and crime are ultimately rewarded in our society.

"To have committed every crime but that of being a father."
The suffering is especially unbearable here. But we really deserve the worst.

>>224349
Agnosticism is the only non-egoistical stance. Both atheists and religious nutjobs are 100% convinced they are right with no proof either way (though I admit the burden of proof is on the religious nutjobs).

Also, it's the least primitive stance. Whereas atheists like you and violent theists like wahhabi muslims/militant christians want to kill anyone who doesn't pick a side because it's "cowardly", as if it's a war.

Grow up. You're a tiny speck of dust in an infinite universe. You, me or the pope don't have a shred of evidence on how this all came to existence. All we have are theoretical models like the BB, or even worse than that, ancient jewish and sanskrit texts.

>>224392
I'm not an atheist, I'm very much convinced that God is real. I don't follow any organized religion though but I do believe in God. I can't prove anything of course, it's just my own belief.

That aside, people like you who are still obsessed with objectivity, evidence and "non-egoistical stances", you people are the actual children who need to grow up. Who cares about objectivity? People only parrot this to give more authority to their subjective opinion over others' subjective opinions. If you need something to be objectively true in order to believe in it then you can wait all your life, it won't happen ever, you can't know anything for 100%. Nothing can be proven, for all we know the Matrix is true and you are sleeping in some pod and dreaming all of this. How can you even prove that you are real? Or that the world exists? You can't prove shit. But that shouldn't stop you from forming your own opinions and sticking by them. Only a moron refuses to form opinions because he needs more proof or needs something to be proven ""objectively"".

The fact is the only authority you need to refer to is yourself. You are the source of your own opinions, values, morals, etc. Not the outside world, not the gods, not objectivity…Subjective perception is the source of all things. People should hurry up and embrace this already instead of clinging to delusional terms like objectivity, universal truth, proof, etc. that are pure cringe.

It's okay to stay neutral when you are a kid or still young. But there comes a time when you have to put down before others what you personally believe in and to put things in order for yourself. Nobody is impartial or neutral totally. You have your opinions but you hide behind scepticism because you are a coward who is afraid of being proven wrong. That's not how a man should live. A man should have things he believes in and things he fights for. That's what life is about. Forcing your subjective opinion on those around you.

>>224394
To disregard truth for your own benefit is the essence of evil. It's exactly what breeders do. They either believe in a false fantasy of love and that they and their child will be happy and everything will be alright, or they don't think about the consequences at all.

If you want something to believe in, why don't you believe in love? Go have sex and make a child, like the adult that you think you are. It's the most "subjective faith" thing to do. Be a man and do it, normalfag. Fight for your genes. That's what life is about. Force a being to live with your genes.

>>224394
Your beliefs are based on nothing. Your smugness and "stance" comes from a lifetime of indoctrination from your local community, otherwise you'd be just as likely to be a hindu or buddhist instead of christian.

How many hindus live in your community?
Yeah, none of you "chose" your religious affiliation. You're all products of wherever you live.

>>224411
Normals are all about objectivity and universal values, that's why we call them normals. They think everyone should adhere to some sacred values, be it having sex or having friends or trying to live by society's values etc. They get offended whenever they encounter anyone who is different from the so called objective idea of what a person should be like.

As long as you are spooked by terms like objectivity, truth and universal morals you are still thinking like normalfags.

>why don't you believe in love?
Because I don't want to. Simple.

>>224412
Learn to read, idiot. Which part of
>I don't follow any organized religion though
you can't understand? I'm not a christian, hindu or buddhist or whatever so your whole post is retarded.

>Your beliefs are based on nothing.
Yeah, that was my whole point. Again, learn some basic reading comprehension. Beliefs are based on nothing. You can't prove anything for sure. So might as well just believe whatever you want to.