/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>225878
you're lifting quotes from the transcendental aesthetic without attribution and modifying the wording slightly to adapt it to my post and in so doing making it seem like it's contradicting it when the original (and sometimes also your modifications of it) are in perfect agreement with it.

>Time is not an empirical concept that is drawn from the experience of change.
the "change" i'm talking about in that post is not something one can have an experience of, but is a "feature" (or "form" in kantian) of experience itself. change is not something you can touch, see, hear, etc., but is a feature that is always present in experience, the the changing itself of sensations (tactile, visual, auditory, etc). therefore, it's not an empirical concept, since there are no empirical objects from which to abstract it from. the way i "derived" it in the post when i said, "look for time in our perception", wasn't by "drawing it from an experience" - because all experience necessarily has it - but by what kant called "the faculty for intuiting a priori".
the original sentence by kant (A30/B46) in guyer-wood's translation is, "Time is not an empirical concept that is drawn from an experience", which is fully in line with how i treated it.

>Simultaneity or succession, that are the basis for change, would not come into perception if the representation of time did not ground them a priori.
this is the next sentence in the transcendental aesthetic. the only modification you did is adding ", that are the basis for change," to adapt it to my post, which ironically makes it literally equivalent to what i said in it, yet you somehow say it as if it were asserting something new that contradicted what i said. simultaneity is what i enumerated as (1) and succession is what i enumerated as (2), and i said that these two are what time in essence is, and furthermore that they "are fundamental and necessary facts of experience".

>From that a priori intuition we can ground further apodictic principles about the relation of time
but i also said the same thing informally in a passing comment and you're just repeating it to me in kantonese
>and that is in essence what time is (then we can derive further facts about it from those two ifPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>224922
>once you die, you die

You know, that would be quite a bummer to be stuck in some "cannot proceed further" state of pain of dying.

that's why "dying horribly" is something really scary - not just because it looks horrible.

>>224915
No, I'm not prepared for it at all, but I hope to be soon

>>224915
I'm not prepared. I'm scared.
>>224925
Not that wizard but I think it's really unfortunate how it's become such a hot-button topic. I think it's unfortunate how both sides always make this worse. I find it an extremely interesting topic, probably the most interesting and important topic this is. It's the same with religion as a whole. I've thought about these things a lot and watched a lot of videos (and read a book or two I got recommended to me) but there has just never been something that convinced me that there is "something more". Anything to show we aren't just atoms and a conciousness destined to one day stop existing forever. This isn't because I'm "too smart for religion", "too rational" or anything stupid like that. There are plenty of smarter and more rational (if there even is such a thing) people than me who disagree completely. I am totally open to other perspectives but have never genuinely believed in one other than my own. I could live my life as a monk or priest but I'd never truly believe it to my core.
But it's something that should be discussed more.
Recently been toying around with the idea of uploading conciousness into a computer (obviously just from a philosophical standpoint). If you just clone your brain 1:1 into the computer there will simply be you and someone with your brain from your perspective. Meanwhile if you did the same and wiped you out at the same time it'd just be you dying from your perspective.
But what if you first replaced half your brain with the computer while you remained fully concious, then from your perspective you'd just be yourself but with half-computer brain. So that's still you, right?
But what if they did that simultaneously for both sides of the brain? Which one would your conciousness go into? None? What if you kept the two brain-halves alive but in a sleep-state then put them together and re-activated them, then from your own brain's initial perspective it just went to sleep and woke up like you do every day.
So conciousness and death don't exist but we simultaneously know they do because we're concious and alive in this moment. Are we already dead? Always dying? What is a stream of conciousness if it can be split and what happens if it is?
Who are you?

>>224918
>near death
>near

Come back to us with the post-death experiences.

>>226421
key phrase:

>once you have it figured out.


sigh… I never did.

It's great - it really brings about a sense of agency.

And then invariably within about a week or so after making longer term plans something comes in to fuck it up.

That said, in the aggregate, the net accomplishment seems to be greater than grab-asstic idleness and opportunism.

I've been trying to brush my teeth everyday recently, that's the closest thing to a routine I have experienced in a long while and it just feels tedious to me.

I maintain my routine such that my tasks coincide with the daily uploads of a certain niche youtuber. It's pretty fun to finish what I'm doing and be rewarded with a 20-30 minute video to chill out to.

>>226421
i often wonder the opposite. Without my habits i am nothing. Like a deer in the headlights i am stunned by not being the one in charge of my routine.i can never bring myself to do something unusual without mentally preparing and declaring it to myself a hundred times before i do it. routine is my life. it is all i have left to control otherwise i really am a total slave

>>223542
>haven't we already established that therapy doesn't work?
it's just a paid "friend" for normies to cry to


so

much

this

I my case, it's all a mixed bag:

>>220360
relatable

>>220363
relatable

>>222438
relatable



>>224202

Same! Today, I woke up crying from a repressed memory piece too!

>>211629
I'm ugly and had undiagnosed autism(diagnosed in hs) for most of my upbringing so I didn't get proper treatment from people around me. My mother also abused me a lot because of it, I blame everything on her.

Can't say exactly. Bit of mental illness and spectrum stuff, I think, but I've never been to a doctor for brain related things.

Part of it is that I was the weird kid. Somehow I started lucid dreaming in kindergarten. This permanently messed up how I think about reality, but back then, it mostly meant that I believed alternate dimensions were real. So I'd think about alternate dimensions a lot and tell people I was visiting them (it was more live vivid daydreams), because I was already convinced I could visit "alternate dimensions" (dreams) and these were just weaker connections to them.

Most ignored me but a few kids kids would smile and nod or ask questions about whatever weird thing I was talking about, only to turn around and laugh with their friends about how weird I was. I usually didn't catch on to this for months or years at a time for each person who tried it. I have a very hard time trusting people now. I'm always listening in to people around me to make sure they're not talking about something I did.

I'm just really glad this was in the 90s. They probably could have pushed me to suicide in the era of social media and everyone having A/V recording devices in their pockets.

Another part of it is I am not someone I would ever want to live with. Mental space is not very good a lot of the time. I can be very mean/hurtful if it's not in a good state, and it hurts me a lot (usually as self-hate) when I hurt someone even a little. It didn't seem right to suggest this person as an option to anyone else.

It's been funny. I wasted my teenage years avoiding school and people in general and just played video games and was on the internet all day.
I continued this into my early adulthood, but I did make an effort going to college and working part time, but I didnt socialize that much, just vidya, anime, and internet.
Now for the past however long I've just been working my cushy office job making decent money I thought I'd never see.
But, at the end of all this, I'm playing the same exact video games, watching the same kind of anime, and reading the same crap on chan boards.
I would be lying if I didnt mention that I have made attempts to try normalfag things, but from I gather from those experiences is that you should just do things you enjoy after your responsibilities, which is hardly anything as a single man. Just have to make all the bills are paid, food in the kitchen, car working, and apartment clean.
I try to have more intellectual pursuits, like doing deeper study in my field of work or in philosophy, but these past few months I've been in limbo just doing the same old thing. And I'm content with it for the most part. Times like now I feel this weird nagging feeling OP is feeling that I should be doing more, but I fail to get motivated to do them because the reward just isnt that appealing.
Yeah, I can finish reading Kant, but to what end? Maybe that's what I need to do to satisfy this greater spiritual desire that I feel.
Almost like living on autopilot is antithetical to the human experience and it hungers for some greater satisfaction from exercising agency and exerting your will upon your life.

Sorry for the rambling. OP, if you're anything like me, achieving those goals will only do so much for you. I believe people that have had a persistent depression throughout their life are just gonna have to suffer with it, no matter what you do to do the things normals want you to do. You can get a good job, a big house, nice car, maybe even a wife that is amazing and kids that are great. Our brains are just wired to be pessimistic about life.
Assuming this to be true, the best course of action is to invest time into figuring out how you can manage all your brain dysfunctions. At least that way you dont set yourself up for disappointment when you do accomplish your goals.
Life is just underwhelming.

>>219448
Meanwhile, I am happy to reach the goals of my wiz-tier life. I am now an old geezer, who is all going mad over "damn kids and their damn bikes with damn sawn-off exhausts"

>>225532
>It's been funny. I wasted my teenage years avoiding school and people in general and just played video games and was on the internet all day


given the facts "internet censorship" society of nowadays + memology is a way to make money on a bullshit job of a white collar…


…well, you probably did a unique thing "drinking" unfiltered Internet 24/7 XD

>>225551
UPDATE: damn kid got rid of his retarded pitbike - the noisy RATATATATA is gone


also, I consume vitamins. Feels ebin

>>219448
>after…hit 30
>realized


lucky you

my "hit me" happened as a childhood "trauma" of my two parents abhoring each other to the point of criticizing me over a little nooky or cranky noise.

(Im kinda proud I have my job, at least. Its really comfy and cozy at time, and at other times, its demanding, but its also important - I handle spare parts for factories)

Imagine being this booty blasted over the internet. Get a job and commit to a creative enterprise. Your dumb ass should be able to amass 10k hours in 5 - 8 years. Then you'll have something other than stupid rants about leddit killing intenet celebrities. Oh and if you're white become a Nazi, too (srs). Get your act together, partner.

Every year that passes, I enjoy the internet and being on my computer less and less.
4chan went to shit years ago.
Most alternatives are too slow to justify checking more than once or twice a month.
YouTube's hasn't recommended me anything great in years.
The "small web" is mostly just dead, cookie-cutter sites that never have more than one or two blog posts on them.
Video games aren't as fun as they used to be, and I can hardly find the motivation to play them.

>>226338
This is also true, the overall quality of the internet has been deteriorating to the point real people are indistinguishable from bots

>>226339
Most people ARE soulless NPC biological automatons.

You only notice it now because in the past normies were a less than 0,1% minority on forums, imageboards
and websites in general. You only encountered their retardation in real life.

>>226040
I mostly use it for its intended purpose, as a limitless library to extract whatever media I fancy. Books, films, music, games - I torrent something to read/watch/listen/play every day, perks of living outside first world.

Sometimes I watch stuff on youtube or search things on google using the tag
>before:2012

Sometimes I think of something I want to research or read about and use alternative search engines such as Marginalia in order to dig out obscure blogs.

When I play games, I sometimes alt tab into the wiki or a thread on a forum discussing build paths, current quests, detailing a feature.

I also play an MMO so that's the only reason I'm on the internet for more than 2 hours a day.

>>224095
step 4 ruined successfully

axaxaxaxa

>>224984
>objectively "reality" does not exist, but applying logical thought to your observed reality is not wrong either
neither is it wrong to consciously forgo logical thought when you want to
i apply no logical thought when deciding whether i want 2 or 4 sausages



true, and that's COOL


You don't have to ration your food - you eat as much as you… WANT. Feel like. have vibe for. Have appetite about.

>>226360
Yeah, that's bullshit.

Most Americans eat as much as they feel like and they're obese.>>226360

I used to have online communities and small forums to keep my a lil company. although even then, i was an all biz, stay on topic guy, not really into the social aspects. but now all those small forums are dying out, and im truly stuck with just my own brain. not even text on a screen not wrote by me or ai

>>224136
>yeah i feel lonely online these days but it wasn't always like this
in the old days i think everyone had their "perfect self" persona on display online - basically being who they truly are - like a funny goofball, super serious guy, angry guy, pseudo intellectual, weeabu, etc

actually, yes. that was the case

>>225673
Did you find your schizo meds yet?

Ldar is ok but dont think your entitled to gibs

>>225673
This "delusion" comes from not being able to hold a job or being bullied and disrespected all life

>>225714

In the same lane - only being able to handle a "the only guy at the facility at the time" type of job

no colleagues
homeschooled
only one boss, e.g. there's no bunch of corporate squeakies looking over my shoulder writting down "subject WIZ412D is displaying a drop of efficincy of 1% which is undermining…"

no subordinates

can have a cozy time at jerb

can find some time to phone utility company to ask what kind of prank have they pulled out

>>222236
as someone from a chain of fatherless people… frick it. my heda sparkls a little. gotta sleep

>>225313
Goback2vault, dweller

>>220551
Found a professional-grade stationary bike by the side of the road and it still works. The mechanism that controls the level of resistance is all electromagnetic and quiet as a whisper. Gets my heart rate up decently. Omw to being a fitwiz.

>>220558
yess, it isn't a big deal, some wizards exaggerate, and I think that they like crying sometimes

you need to seek help. and im not talking about your body

>>221170
>I can't afford a dentist or a 12000 dollar operation on my root canals. I can afford a tub of toothpaste


its 25000 RUB in Moscow, broplems werent

Nothing makes you happy, even that buddhist "inner peace" bs wont because you cant make you happy either.

The hedonic treadmill is rhe principle that pain and pleasure are what motivate us to do anything, an effect of this theory is that you can never be happy or sad for long, you normalize to whatever you have, which means you take joy in anything more, and feel bad about anything less. Happiness and sadness are fleeting emphemeral liminal states of being, little rewards or punishments your brain gives you to make you more likely to chase that next high and flee from that next low.

>>226316
>Nothing makes you happy
t. the raped. If nothing makes YOU happy, then say
>nothing makes me happy

Imagine if would get like 100k per month for the rest of your life, would that help you?

>>226318
If I got 2000 usd monthly for the rest of my life I'd be over the top happy.

>>226309
Flying a plane in 65, however..

>>220343
This doesn't feel nice to think about. It means it's free season to call anyone and everyone a crab.

It originally meant someone who is involuntarily celibate (Alana) then later meant anyone who believes crabdom exists and uses the term to refer to themselves and others.

Now it's just a general pejorative for non-conforming male subcultures.

Fuck. I now have to donate magic and regard females.

>>225233
I'm not mad, just found this confusing, I understand succubi using it as an insult, but normies using it describe themselves is weird

>>220340
>Is it for attention?
>Is it to make yourself feel "superior" to other normies?
Yes, victimhood is in style these days. It's woke to respect victims.

>just every term loses it's meaning after 5 or 10 years these days?
Yes, because victimhood is cool and as people rush claim it, victim identities lose meaning.

>Is it some misguided idea that crabism is a mindset?
It is an ideology that presents the male condition as victimhood. See >>220342

>>226194
>>226194
Its alright, succubi wont be able to use the word as a slur soon

>>225233
>there's no difference between normies and crabs.
you are retarded