/wiz/ - Wizardry

My backup plan is completely ruined. In my turd world country, the only way to succeed as a sub-5 male is to be good in academics. I am not good in academics. I had a backup plan in my mind, if all else fails, I will become a taxi driver and that would ensure that I get enough enough to survive.

As things stand, it turns out, I am not good at driving either, I got my license, and somehow managed to clear the test. I think I can drive fine during the day, as I have been driving for 4 years now, but I can't drive at all in the night time. Like I get totally blinded. I have tried various glasses and they don't help either.

The only way to make a liveable earning as a taxi driver alone in my country I would have to drive long routes and therefore would have to drive during the time when the sun is down. But apparently I can't do that.

There are two more things, I suck at parking, I have no idea how I managed to parallel park properly during the driving test. I am really quite bad at parking. The other thing is that my confidence has plummeted because I had an incident where I accidentally cut someone off where I was 5km/hr over the speed limit so I thought that I could change lanes, but turns out I cut off a guy who was speeding even harder and that turned into a road rage incident.

What's worse is that both him and me traverse the same route daily, because I use that route to go to college, so I am afraid of encountering him again, and in a turd world country, these encounters could turn deadly.

All in all, my backup option to become a taxi driver is gone. I basically can't drive at night, and am not good at parking. I am also a slow thinker.

It is quite embarrassing and dare I say it makes me feel unmanly because there are so many succubi in my country who are able to drive so assertively and well, and can even drive in the night. My final option to make a living is gone.

I got my vision checked and it turned out to be largely alright, so I don't wear any prescription glasses but I still have no idea as to how people manage to drive in the night at see at night, even succubi can do it. And nobody likes a guy who can't drive.

It's my 30th birthday I can finally post here woo!
This isn't as bad as I thought it would be.

I'm closer to lv37 than lv36 and I must say that finally abandoning all hope of somehow attracting a succubus, at around lv35, in turn made it so that all desires for them continues to diminish by the day, and with that the hatred for normies has all but died down, as I no longer crave or envy their lifestyle.

I attempted to attain this much enlightenment many times before by hating succubi and normies but ended up failing every time, thus making me wonder if any warlocks have been truly successful in embracing wizardry?

Apathy seems to be a much more effective path, albeit slower.

Okay, Almost all of us here barely have any friends IRL, me included (I am sure at least half of us here are fine with that), But what about online Socialization? even the biggest Hikikomoris socialize online, the issue is that I f*g can't relate to people online, even in circles that are meant for "losers" and "outcasts", even if i like many people there and we can somewhat get along, I still feel that I do not belong there and that we live in entirely different worlds, And I do not play online games, nor post in any other imageboard aside of this, I always feel home here, unlike anywhere else online, so it's comfy here, but somewhere like 4trannies? hell no, it really hits when my former online friends are advancing in life and starting romantic relationships and I am left in the same exact place (not negatively) it's when I realize that I don't belong around them and I am only going to relate to them less and less with the time, and I hate it when they try to get me to change my way and try to talk to me about "getting a G.F" and escaping wiz/apperantice-hood so i decide to just abandon them and live inside of my own mind bubble comfortably

Am 47 and have been very clumsy all my life, nowadays i try to stay clear of things that can fall, i don't drive and avoid carrying babies from people who somehow wants me to hold them, I bump into everything and can't look people in the eyes and generally just don't know how to exist in a public setting, i also struggle too much with spatial directions, people think i am blind, and i always look sooooooooooooo awkward when someone tellls me the place of a certain object in the room using their fingers, i also can't understand people often times, they speak too fast and i too speak too fast they can't understand me.

I believe in the potential of humanity. I believe in the human ability of compassion and cooperation. We are still essentially in the dark ages, human civilization is only around 12,000 years old. There has been unprecedented rapid technological development in the past 200 years and it takes time as a species to adjust to all of this. Humanity is going through growing pains as things balance out and the fact is that our species is going to live on for thousands of years more and longer. I fully believe that while our current civilization is decaying and receding and war in the near future with societal decay is inevitable, the society that humans have in the far future will seem utopian compared to our standards now. We have the ability to create a fair and just world, societal systems develop as well as technology does. While the current system is unfair and easy to slip through the cracks, its a first step into the whitepill world of tomorrow. I believe, anons. Humanity is going to make it.

did any wizard tried astral projection or heard about it before ?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Astral_projection

before I learn about it, I thought that astral projection was a process in which the soul get out of the body, and can operate autonomously and freely without relying on the body. so you can for example enter your neighbor's house and watch and listen to everything that happen there, without them be aware of your presence.
but after doing some research, I came across this post on reddit in which the author recounts his experience.

https://www.reddit.com/r/AstralProjection/comments/1lv8mu1/astral_self_defense_everything_you_should_expect/

and from what I read, It looks like a all those delusions and hallucinations are the same symptoms as someone who has schizophrenia.
it also feels like an advanced video game, like you can leave this world and when you come back you are at the same point as when you left, because you saved the "game", also all these materializations of weapons and super powers that you acquire in this world, do indeed feel like a video game.

so what are your thoughts and experiences with astral projection, if any?

I can't do things when they're not mine. for example I don't have a pc and refuse to use my brother's because I want my own thing, my own computer. I don't like using other's peoples stuff.
any other wizard who is the same as me?

This night, I was crying over /dep/ tier past of mine


This morning, a 1,5 hour long rain was… no, is still raining.

inb4 /wiz/ - more like a cozy, re-comforting coincidence

I wonder if sex and relationships lost their zeal for us because after you become an adult, it seems the idea of sex goes from it being this exciting, new activity that you embark on with someone you love and care about; something that causes your blood to boil and butterflies to appear in your stomach, to something that's just expected of you. I feel that after I turned eighteen sex almost entirely lost its appeal. The idea of something so basic in life being discussed as something secretive, exciting, and new to just "wait, you haven't had sex? Why?" is soul crushing, and I'm not surprised if more people don't recover from that.