I'm beginning to suspect that my lack of accomplishments is due to my competitive drive being completely unused and dormant. This came to me after asking for critiques on my drawings, getting critiques from artists better than me, and it kinda makes me mad and drives me. I've been getting better lately and can see ways in which I am deficient, the veil is lifted. Also have a problem with SkillShare, — feel free to skip this part, it's not important and kinda complicated and dumb — having started a free trial, I decide it's worthless and forget about it but have it marked on my calendar to cancel, I reset the password then, sign in and there's no trial and nothing to cancel, then they take a years subscription from me a few days later. Working on retreiving the $180. - — end of irrelavent section — Makes me fantasize about starting a competitor to drive them out of business or at least hurt their profits. Thinking about it though I don't really want to spend so much time on that, but focus on drawing.9 posts and 3 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.
Anyway I make this thread to discuss this idea and also to invite challenge in general. Any wiz want to post in this thread about our lifestyles and compete to have the best? I'm gonna imagine I'm competing with somebody while I clean my room. It's been basically unused for 6+ months cause it's too full of stuff. I've got mice in it and I've spilled piss bottles a couple times, one with quite a bit and it smelled for a couple weeks. I moved my computer to the living room floor one day to use one evening and I never returned it. From standing desk to laying down all day, lately it's been taking a toll on me laying down too much. So I better clean it soon. The following pictures are of my room, using a fish eye lens.
Isn't there an episode of Paranoid Agent that's like this?
In the broad strokes, yes.
Getting into wolf fights gets you always in stress. When I was at hi school I had a mindset of "winning the race to pee on the trophy" while everyone just got pissed about it.
In general, dreams of a swimming pool can provide us with a lot of information about our emotions. To dream that we are in a pool surrounded by beautiful plants indicates that we want to live strong emotions and love passions; If we get into the water in the dream, it augurs that we will have difficulties in the near future, so we must review everything we are doing at this time.
I had to throw away my competitiveness young. I realized that if I didn’t win, I simply couldn’t accept it and it destroyed me inside. So the only way to be able to compete and not ruin myself was to get rid of the notion of competition.