/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>228763
Sure, this shitty illness is hell (and similar conditions or even just symptoms by themselves) so if anyone can find some solace in my posts or at least finds them interesting then that’s cool with me, not like I have anything better to do anyways, first I’ll admit I’m not currently officially diagnosed but not due to a lack of trying, I’ve been trying to find what’s wrong with me for a good chunk of time now and sadly despite my various treatment periods with professionals (psychologists and psychiatrists) they always refuse to diagnose because “we should focus on treating symptoms” it’s a noble way of seeing it as some people can actually be worse if given a diagnosis but that’s not my case so it’s just annoying, anyways that could be different where you live or at least there might be someone specialized in PD’s maybe even Szpd specifically, with that little thing out of the way.

Anyways I suppose now I’ll talk about my own experience as someone who obviously has this shit since that’s probably what interests you, honestly this probably developed during my teenage years due to trauma, the generic things you know, the economy of my country went to crap so my largely “middle-class” life crashed down as we descended into almost poverty, my parents would fight constantly and sometimes badly, I had no escape, life felt meaningless, school felt meaningless, I started masking my pain away (dissociation and derealization kind of) while on school because I didn’t want people to know my home issues etc, due to all of that and more I developed a depression (like I mentioned in my previous post) and while I didn’t realize when I was younger I started developing some symptoms/traits of Szpd, so my depression (what for years I saw as my only issue) developed concurrently with the disorder or at the very least the symptoms, behaviors etc of the disorder (since there is the dimensional model from the ICD-11 where Szpd and the other PD’s don’t exist but rather their symptoms), if anything looking back those symptoms, probably developed before the depression because I can somewhat remember being really numb, apathetic and such before actually starting to experience depression, anxiety and eventually suicidal ideations, this makes sense too as it’s sometimes considered on the literature regarding Szpd that most people who develop it have a defense mechanism thaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>228768
Thanks for sharing all that! You say that you rarely feel anything, but you also say that you try to enjoy life. What do you do? Do you consume any media, play video games or read books? If so what kind? Do you force yourself to have a hobby? Do you feel excitement? I don't feel happiness or anything close resembling it but I can still get excited about some things.
Regarding "professionals" I never went to a psychologist because they can't help people like us. We are too messed up and never be normal. Therapy is designed for normal people, not for us.

>>228779
Hi fellow wizard, I’ll greentext your questions this time as to force myself to be more organized and therefore answer your questions on a better way (I do tend to ramble on text).

>You say that you rarely feel anything, but you also say that you try to enjoy life. What do you do? Do you consume any media, play video games or read books?
Indeed, even if I can’t really feel emotions I do somewhat enjoy some specific things, mind you it’s such a vague thing that I could easily stop and do nothing and it would be almost the same (and I sometimes do that), essentially I try to not let the apathy/anhedonia win since I do believe I might just end up developing another depressive episode if I allow it, that would be quite crushing.
Regarding what I do it’s mainly consuming media, daydreaming and sometimes writing (internet posts and overall journaling, this post is an example of that), those are the closest things I have to hobbies and I do get a vague sense of enjoyment or fun (I’m not even sure if it would count as an emotion vague as it is, might be more of a cognitive enjoyment), they’re at least a better way to burn time than just staring at the ceiling all day and can be interesting.
When it comes to my media consumption it’s mainly music, videos, manga, manhwa, manhua, videogames and that’s about it, I do sometimes watch anime or maybe a movie, same with reading books or light novels but it’s genuinely extremely rare, I need to be truly interested in the franchise/work to engage in those mediums, for example I do tend to rewatch Code geass every few years, and I did read LOTR, The Hobbit and the Silmarillion between 2024-2025.
>If so what kind?
I’m quite varied, though I do have specific genres or kinds that interest me more, when it comes to music I’ve always been drawn to pop, rock and electronic music, though due to my waifu (the love of my life and one of the few people I feel something for) it’s mainly Japanese, not like I don’t listen to music in English or Spanish (my native language) but she takes a precedent.
When it comes to written works I’ve always been able to enjoy most genres (expect shit like yuri, yaoi and such, I dislike homosexuality and find it distasteful) but I do have a preference for fantasy, martial arts (wuxia and xianxia), sci-fi and roPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life? I just want to become numb to it all.


Avoid drinks that are designed to make feel the opposite of numb:
* coffee, tea, other sources of caffeine
* sugary drinks, other "fast carbs" drinks
* the concoction of the two above: energy drinks.

>>228857
100% agree. Everything ingestible that is not a whole food eventually fucks up your sleep schedule, heart, liver and brain.

I don't even drink daily coffee anymore, it's a rare dessert or treat.

>>228843
stop being racist

>>228847
The races should stop being around me.
>>228848
Find one thing unhealthy about a Double Big Mac

>>228849
it has salad and tomatoes which is good for you :)

>>228849
probably the seed oils and all the preservatives they put so they can freeze the ingredients and make it not spoil and trick your brain into thinking it's fresh.

>>227517
feudalism or slavery depending if the country's war-torn or not, humans are hirarchical and males are greedy, they want the largest harems possible, especially underage succubi, as proven by epstein and the richest man in the world's obsession to have as much offspring as possible, says he wants to be compared to genghis khan

>>227532
>males are greedy
and succubi paradoxically insecure -> feminism

>humans are hirarchical
the greedy males depend on each other

so is it more a gender ratio problem then?

p.s.
>the richest man in the world's obsession to have as much offspring as possible, says he wants to be compared to genghis khan
autism & performative darwinism

Didn't you post this on /leftypol/

I don't think so, just because the man theoretically can stop being aggressive and repulsive won't stop him from ending up in prison or death.
Humanity as a whole seems to be moving towards some kind of soulless tech-dystopia ruled by some pseudo-intelligence.

>>225305
Disagree. I don't see any reason to believe that humans will be capable of reigning in the negative consequences of technological progress before it leads to some kind of doomsday cascade. Essentially all the points >>225348 said. I mean 50 years ago people were already warning about the negatives of our current lifestyle and all we've done is lean even harder in that direction. Or rather the powers that be have.

>>228376
If it’s based on when the baby first becomes conscious then non human conscious animals like all birds and mammals should have rights too

>>228398
I believe in libertarian free will also the justification you are giving is very utilitarian and doesn’t place enough importance on individual rights as that way of thinking could be used to justify gun control too “for the greater good “

I wish my mother aborted me

Most anti-abortion positions are just virtue signaling political and religious beliefs, no one really cares about an unformed fetus getting aborted. Elites don't care about it either, they actively want to hinder abortions so that Temiloluwa from Nigeria can dump 12 useful worker units that will replace the lazy and entitled europeans and east-asians. Pro-abortion means less niggers because Tanisha is too lazy to put on a condom. If anything, I think that succubi who have undergone an abortion should receive a payment for all the emotional damage that they're subjected to, and that payment should last until they have children, see how quick all the genetic trash would willingly stop reproducing at all.

A succubus who considers abortion shouldn't be a mother.
A man who insists a succubus gets an abortion shouldn't be a father.
It's that simple. Don't bring a life into the world if you don't want to nurture it for 18 years and potentially far longer.
I'm of the opinion that there should be more restrictions on child birth and abortion should be permitted up to the 7th month, I don't really care. There are enough miserable people in this world as is. There's no point in having miserable fathers, mothers, and unwanted children.

>>228480
>That sounds like some made up trope from American 80s movies
I don't think you really comprehend how these corpo eggheads think, they prey on handicapped and illegals too
an independent uncucked adult male homeowner worker is a nightmare scenario for them

>>228489
I believe you are looking at the evidence wrong. Yes there is a lot of female oriented fiction that is dark and very disgusting, but most is just romantic light sex stuff. It's like if someone said men have deep dark psyches based on some fucked up loli hentai some weirdos are into. Its just cherry picking

>>228495
>Part of the reason white and east asian societies are so relatively safe and corruption free is because the anti-social elements repetitively got pruned.

Because the corruption was systemic and participation in the system made/makes it socially acceptable - but you're right about everything else.

>>226669
Because at the beginning of the 20th century, a bureaucratic class seized power in all civilized countries. Since its economic function is the extraction and centralized distribution of funds, they strive to continually expand their budgets and find a class that will absorb these budgets to the maximum extent. From aid to the hopeless poor and migrants, environmental programs, to the military industry and traditional values, anything will do, and any ideology will be acceptable to simulate vigorous activity. They are not interested in economic returns; their planning horizon is limited to the next month, responsibility is diffused and virtually nonexistent. Therefore, they fail to address the problems of housing, employment, and the lack of any positive prospects.

passing from russia

It wasn't always like this. Look up experiment universe 25 or mouse utopia.
If drawn parallels to human society, the violent mice who ran around killing people in groups would at the very least be given protection by the state
All of this phenomena can be explained though by dysgenic selection

>>228605
you don't need to put effort into avoiding s*x. you just don't do anything and nothing happens. s*x never comes knocking at the door, so you literally just don't have to do anything and you stay virgin. this realization helped me with a lot of anxiety related to fear of succs.

>>228606
wrong, gay rapists targeting random adults sometimes happens although I admit the chance is very low
something more common is someone's parents trying to coach or "correct" you into having a romantic relationship or having sex with a succ
I agree though if you are a neet and living alone, which I am. I indeed don't have to put in effort to avoid it

>>228607
>trying to coach or "correct" you into having a romantic relationship or having sex with a succ
ohh that. yeah annoying as hell when it happens. it's like
>nooo you're a man plzplzplzplz fuck this succ!!!!
normgroids are basically soyjack tier retards even when they don't know about soy.

>>228608
normies are so cringe

idk, it’s such a bizarre and weird thing that is so utterly and completely alien to me that i’ve sometimes wondered if it’s even a real thing and not some kind of fictional contrivance by the demiurge to mess with me

Go away. Come back when you're 30 if you still have problems, I don't know what it is with you little faggots seeking validation and advice on an imageboard for losers.

>>228595
>an imageboard for losers.
It's not. It's any imageboard for men who have remained a virgin for any reason. If being a virgin makes a man a loser in your eyes, then you are probably stupid or dumb or both.

>>228597
This forum is very obviously filled with mentally ill people unfit to society. Depressive men living with their parents at 30+, browsing computer all days, social anxiety, autistic, schizos, yo-yo users etc.

You have to be deluded for rejecting the idea this place is not some kind of receptacle for losers, even tho your definition of what a loser is may vary.

>>228593
I sometimes talk with schizos online and it's weird how the voices or intrusive thoughts are often the same.
Like gouging your eyes out specifically is something voices or urges do, one succ actually did it during a drug trip.
Other things which often come up are "kill yourself" or stuff about God.

What do you even mean by sperging?
Do you think consuming this content makes you a normie?
I am Christian too.

>Calvinist
Who's going to tell him?

>>228571
'Willpower alone will save you' types the wizard with a Youtube tab playing in the background.

> What the fuck should I do?
Hammer break computer. Hammer break screen and any cpu relying device you own. Go embrace the total hermit schizosperg experience like Jesus does for 40 days alone in the desert. Then come back and enlighten us, please.

>>228580

giving me the

>oh yeah?! why would i be healthy, just to be a prettier corpse?!

vibes

>>228566
that's the other way around tho. normal people cares a lot about politics. only outcast (example NEETS, hikikomori) don't care about the soceity's problems

Anything with a high required skill level will filter normies. They might still be there as spectators, use it as an excuse for social interaction, or practice the most basic, watered down, entry-level version possible.

>>228570
will filter losers as well

>>228569
Normalnigs don't actually care about politics, they just fake to be in it for the social credit points. They will just follow the ideas the local hive is telling them to follow. Its all about performing some appearance, not actually a genuine interest.

>>228573
obviously

>>228547
If twelve hundred is on the table I'll take it

29 year old neet with 10 and a half years of experience here. There is honestly nothing to do if you live with family. You know what they're like better than anyone, so you know what your options are.

You can make a gambit and simply push their patience over time by being as agreeable and helpful as possible while showing that you're "working on it", but any long term result is entirely in their hands. Can they accept you living like that? Can they give up on you? Things like that.

I've played up my inability since before I was 18 and have never shown competence where it wasn't absolutely needed since. My parents are good people, so this deception worked for me. Good people are all that can save you. And then you just need to be the type of person that would take advantage of that without remorse. There's no life in NEETing if you aren't at peace with life at a fundamental level. There's no existence quite as "merely existing" as this one.

>>228550
my parents kind of have different opinions on where i should be, but both of them arrived at the consensus that if i don't "figure" my shit out they won't give me anything more than food. plus i've been shame pressured since childhood and i'm extremely vulnerable to it. but you know what? i did neet for a few years and now that i wage 12+ hours 6 days a week (i'm white btw) i feel even more emptiness than when i neetes. it's worse than merely existing.

>>228553
Then why not finding another job that better fit your needs ? Like part-time job or something. What you wrote doesnt really makes sense tbh

>>228583
too many whys don't wanna reply