/wiz/ - Wizardry

I'm beginning to suspect that my lack of accomplishments is due to my competitive drive being completely unused and dormant. This came to me after asking for critiques on my drawings, getting critiques from artists better than me, and it kinda makes me mad and drives me. I've been getting better lately and can see ways in which I am deficient, the veil is lifted. Also have a problem with SkillShare, — feel free to skip this part, it's not important and kinda complicated and dumb — having started a free trial, I decide it's worthless and forget about it but have it marked on my calendar to cancel, I reset the password then, sign in and there's no trial and nothing to cancel, then they take a years subscription from me a few days later. Working on retreiving the $180. - — end of irrelavent section — Makes me fantasize about starting a competitor to drive them out of business or at least hurt their profits. Thinking about it though I don't really want to spend so much time on that, but focus on drawing.

Anyway I make this thread to discuss this idea and also to invite challenge in general. Any wiz want to post in this thread about our lifestyles and compete to have the best? I'm gonna imagine I'm competing with somebody while I clean my room. It's been basically unused for 6+ months cause it's too full of stuff. I've got mice in it and I've spilled piss bottles a couple times, one with quite a bit and it smelled for a couple weeks. I moved my computer to the living room floor one day to use one evening and I never returned it. From standing desk to laying down all day, lately it's been taking a toll on me laying down too much. So I better clean it soon. The following pictures are of my room, using a fish eye lens.

How can you maintain the wiz lifestyle for many years?
I always read how people live on the vidya, anime, porn but for me that stuff died off completely and now I just go to work, eat and sleep. nothing else.
I feel like I have been lied to.

Have you ever gotten this look or reaction from a family member or someone else? Do you feel annoyed? Ashamed? Or do you not really notice or care at all?

Can you imagine yourself having a girlfriend or even wife and kids?
I honestly can't, I'm so far gone that even if a succubus wanted to be my girlfriend I wouldn't know what to do. I don't know what normal people do when they're in a relationship. I can't imagine myself having friends either, I can't remember the last time I had someone who called me a friend, I rarely speak to people at all, other than to ask for directions or when random people greet me when I go outside. Sometimes I don't even know if I'm a human being anymore, I see "normal" people and they all seem like cattle to me.

I was writing a big post as a response to another thread where I typed up a lot of intel about jobs/careers and if they're good for wiz or wiz-type people (based on my experience/knowledge). I figured I might as well post this as a thread. If this should go to some previous "jobs for wiz" thread I can also move the post there (I didnt find any thread tho)

I hope with this thread just to give intel to wizards who want to get a job or career or go to college (feel free to contribute with your own intel). For disclosure, I don't think badly of NEETs or any other wiz for that matter nor am I telling anyone to do anything. I became a wage peasant myself due to personal reasons - it is possible some wiz are also considering this but would like to have some information.

Here's my take for jobs/careers and if they are good for wizzies based on those I have experienced or observed:

Science:
>Workplaces vary a lot, depends 100% on your boss (advisor). Reasonably frequently, you can find cozy environments with a hands off boss. However there are also environments run by a neurotic micromanaging turbonormie
>Doable for wizzies if you can work around 40h a week (more is better) and if you can do the studies part for science. If youre lucky, your schedule can be looser than normal jobs, but you will still work a reasonable amount
>Social environment is better than the average job for sure at low and mid level because over half of the people are either mildly autistic or at least quiet and busy. Shitters with a middle school mentality dont go to science because they cant stand the lack of socializing and the autistic nature of the work. People with obnoxious hypersocial normie personalities tend to shrivel up and develop major problems if they get into science (I have seen many cases of this)
>At the high end it is very toxic and unlikely to be good for any wiz, except high functioning wizards with OCD/single-minded focus. High-end science ("elite" research groups, "elite" post-docs, any leadership position) is sadly toxic, theres's plenty of "sweatshop" like environments, and 80%+ of the professors/top researchers themselves work like slaves. This goes double if you're trying to do it in the USA.
>In summary, science can be good for a wizard if you can meet the requirements and find Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

Am I the only who feels like someone/something is looking out for him from above, so to speak? I mean this thing arranging the events and circumstances of my life for my own benefit, even if at first I don't understand why things happen to me. I get the impression that I'm protected and this thing watches over me so that I don't ruin myself. I made and continue to make stupid mistakes in succession but somehow things always ultimately turned out for the best, looking back on them. I was raised a christian but I'm not religious because I don't agree with the ethics of christianity, mainly the turning the other cheek part and stuff like that. I have the feeling that I am destined for greatness and uniqueness in some form and that this superior being, my guardian angel sends me signs and shields me.

For examples, this Being intervened lots of times in the past when I tried to leave the wizardly path in my younger days and now thinking back it really saved me from becoming a normalfag or a failed normal and I thank him or it for it. But there were other examples too when rationally I should have had much worse luck than I happened to have.
I'm sure some of you will scream coping or schizo but I don't know. I am certain there is someone out there who is designing at least my life and wants it to have a certain direction. A direction that leads to isolation and distancing yourself from common people and their worldviews and customs. I didn't post this in the christian thread because I don't believe in the christian idea of god and I think this is about more than christian believes.

First about let me make this clear, this thread ain't against wizardry or any improvecuck shit, it's about groid behaviour and avoiding them

Back in the day I used to not give a fuck about my looks, had long hair and went out with a hoodie. While that kept some normgroids away sometimes it made business owners to look at me with suspiction or attract crazy people and stuff like that. Lately I was reading that Lookism webtoon and started to think about grooming myself a little. The other day I wanted to test how much this would change so I went with my hoodie and dark jeans as always except I put a shirt and a necktie and styled my hair (I'm thinking about cutting it since long hair requires too much care). I also put on sunglasses. Groids' behaviour changed almost instantly towards me, store owners won't view me with suspiction, they even treated me with more manners and stuff. My looks were more like a mafia thug/aggressive type and hobos and related shit also avoided me

Don't get me wrong, I find this so fucking frustrating. I realized that just by putting a fucking necktie normgroids would treat me different, their superficialism is terrible. I mean I know that groids are superficial but experiencing this was even more shocking. They judge people by their looks in a very sick manner. You could be either a psychopath or a genius and your looks would dictate their reaction. I don't want interaction with them yet ironically trying to look like them seems to keep groids away

So, what are your thoughts or experiences on this? Should wizards "blend in" among the groids to avoid unwanted attention? I always thought that looking like a hobo would be a better option since that would scare them away but on the opposite it seems that looking like a normalfag keeps them away. Like the gray man concept of preppers. I'm forced to go outside to buy groceries and some stuff so staying inside 24/7 is impossible, I must walk in the fucking city where the lowest human type walks around

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E3Z4dUs-JwE

Rabbi Yom Tov Glaser reveals that the first Pope was actually a Jewish Rabbi who was highly skilled in Kabbalah. Kabbalah is an ancient Jewish from of mysticism that involves occultism and a form of withcraft from the ancient mystery religions.

I started to believe in new age type things and vibes specifically. I could go to church occasionally but got more and more tired of it. Eventually came across some street preachers and their message became more and more oppressive. Started to wonder if the god of the bible thought I was getting too powerful and eventually got interested in black magick.

All of my dreams are dead. I know I'll never write a great book, create a video game, or make a movie because I'm both lazy and untalented. I know I'll never experience romance because I'm ugly. I know I'll never be rich because I've never had a job and I have no work ethic. I don't even know how old I am anymore, is it 27 or 28? Am I already 30? I don't know, every day just blurs together as I browse imageboards, walk the dog, and do household chores around my parent's house.

How should a person live when they're already dead inside? I ask because I'm unhappy, I know I have no choice but to keep living as I lack the willpower required to commit suicide, so how should I cope with this sort of situation?