No.211632
I was diagnosed autistic very young. Think I am ugly so never imagined myself in any type of relationship or having sex.
No.211646
>>211631
it comes from crab forums
No.211655
Multiple determinant factors came into play that influenced what I've become, including but not limited to any one of the following: genetics, prenatal and postnatal stressors, upbringing, childhood experiences, puberty, socioeconomic and cultural, religious, genetically inheritable diseases, syndromes, mental disorders, mood disorders, anxiety disorders, psychotic disorders, neurodevelopmental disorders, neurological disorders, etc.
No.211656
>pajeet
>born in pajeetland
>born poor
>sickly child
>abusive parents
>short
>ugly
>brown (read: brown man = shitskin and brown foid = chocolate goddess)
>bad in academics (the only way to succeed in India is to be good in academics)
>can't get along with normies at all
>unbelievably unfortunate
Funnily, today in college a hilarious incident occured. I was sitting alone on the bench in the back of the class. A "friend" and a classmate sat behind me. And started showing me their dating history and succubi that they have fucked. The 5'7 chiseled Chad said भाई यह देख मैने कितनो की ली है (Translation: See how many succubi I have fucked), he showed me their nudes, their Instagrams, my other "friend" did the same. And I just sat quiet in between them for 6 minutes straight.
Ofc, they knew it's over for me, and it literally is, and to rub it in my face for last time as I was holding back screams and tears asked me "When am I gonna get one?". To which well I said "When I'll feel like". lol
It's hard to blame succubi these days, when men are primarily responsible for 99% of the crises on this planet. The entire fucking time I wanted to take his fucking head off. Like faggot, you call succubi sluts and you have defiled 7 of them with no intention to pursue relationship. What the fuck will be left for men like me?
And as for these 'Oh so pious and oppressed Indian succubi', when they would be done having their fun in 20s they will get some IT pajeet to betabuxx in an "Arranged Marriage" (Read: Tinder on Steroids). Unbelievable. Chads should be exterminated on sight. Chads are the root cause of crabdom and male infighting. Fucking turds of humanity. I agree that I am a subhuman in looks but Chads and Roasties are subhuman and soulless in their hearts (if they have one). And the worst part is that these psychopaths and sociopaths are way happier than me.
No.211657
>>211656at least you found that some indians are chad
No.211659
There is nothing glaringly bad or good about me. I am pretty average and should be a normie, but that just never happened. I think my life ended up this way because I learned how to disassociate instead of dealing with my problems. When it came time to start thinking on my own and build my identity, I kinda did nothing, and stayed that way ever since. Now I am a lonely wizard because I put zero effort into making friends or maintaining friendships.
No.211660
crab thread
No.211662
Well I don't know why but I always ghost potential love interests. Could be my ocd, could be the fact that I was bullied for my looks throughout school and highschool, could be that I know every attempt at love in the modern day is most likely to end in a divorce. The point is I stopped trying.
No.211663
>>211662you do it to be wizchad
No.211667
>>211657You know race is literally irrelevant to me. I wouldn't get anywhere in a multiracial world, I wouldn't get anywhere in a world full of Indians either. To me, majority of the people whether Indian or not are largely equally stranger. Indians have treated me with the same disgust as whites or any other races would.
No.211668
>>211667And I mean there are plenty of Chad Indians, majority of the Indians except me have regular sex. Now Indians might not be getting laid in the West, idk but the ones who go to the West tend to be nerdycels.
No.211676
>>211668your issue is with normies which is why I also don't care about race and other such groups of people. It's because regardless the group they're all mostly normalfags, and normalfags are retarded and they all demand stupid shit from you.
No.211680
I was just that guy who never had any close friends my entire life. My "friends" ie people I saw in class and stuff would be nice enough, but literally none of them ever invited me to do something with them after school ended. At each new school it would be day 1 and I could see the little cliques forming and could see how everyone else had close friends but I never did. My parents never gave me any advice when it comes to making friends, nor did they realize there was even a problem until I revealed I was suicidally depressed one day.(after that they just sent me to a bunch of doctors who gave me pills that just gave me side effects and fixed nothing) I was always too shy to ask people to hang out with me so I went through life as a ghost, just going through the motions of what was expected of me while never being intimate with anyone. Alone is no way to go through life. I'm pretty sure we already have this thread somewhere though.
No.211681
>>211680same as you. being a wizard is hard.
No.211688
>>211687
Man you are peak crab. I am not saying that to make fun of you, I say it because I was in the same position as you.
They weren't shoving anything in your face, that is all in your head. That is just what those type of guys (fuccbois) do. A lot of self worth is in how many succubi they fucked so of course they are going to brag about it. You take it as a personal attack because it is specifically something you are insecure about.
Not every guy is a fuccboi, clearly you aren't one and that is okay. Seriously just forget about succubi for now. If you don't want to go the full wizard route and disregard succubi just maintain a good appearance and try to be social. Don't be social with the intention to fuck a succubus. That is a fuccboi thing to do and you are not a fuccboi. Eventually, you will run into a succubus that is into you. I know this is normie shit, but normies say a lot of the same things because it is true, they just say it in a way that doesn't resonate with crabs. If you see a pretty succubus try to get to know her better by asking her on a date. Don't think about sex until things naturally go that way.(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)
No.211689
>>211688wtf meant to reply to
>>211656 No.211691
>>211688>Not every guy is a fuccboi, clearly you aren't one and that is okay. Seriously just forget about succubi for now. If you don't want to go the full wizard route and disregard succubi just maintain a good appearance and try to be social. Don't be social with the intention to fuck a succubus. That is a fuccboi thing to do and you are not a fuccboi. Eventually, you will run into a succubus that is into you. I know this is normie shit, but normies say a lot of the same things because it is true, they just say it in a way that doesn't resonate with crabs. If you see a pretty succubus try to get to know her better by asking her on a date. Don't think about sex until things naturally go that way.Dating advice on wizchan.
Lmao.
No.211711
I am a pleasant, attractive, and kind-hearted person, it's just that there are some things within me that are not very pleasant, and would make any human relationship difficult.
No.211725
all the well liked athletic kids treat me like a small animal
No.211831
>>211688>If you see a pretty succubus try to get to know her better by asking her on a date.and what if she says ewwwww no thanks?
No.211834
>>211831back to the lab Pinky so we can plan for tomorrow night
No.211835
>>211831What if she agrees?
No.211856
>>211688>It will just happen vro…..When is it gonna happen? never? Till I spend my entire 20s holding my cock in my hand, and then some pajeeta who has her brains fucked out by retarded pajeets, marries me for my money in late 30s.
Hell, it gets even better as I have no money either. As a matter of fact nobody ever really talks about the financial impact of crabdom especially in the turd world.
>Don't think about sexIf only I had the power to control what I can think about.
No.211874
>>211872If it's my brain, what and who am I?
If I am my brain, or inside my brain, who is there to control me?
Controlling your own thoughts is an obvious paradox. It's fascinating to me that people seem to not see this, completely taken by some sort of illusion
No.211875
>>211874if you don't control your thoughts, who or what does?
No.211892
My sad story is that I was a kind and open socially awkward kid, who was an easy target for bullying for both classmates and teachers. Because of that my social inadequacy worsened and my self-esteem fell through the floor. Eventually I gave up on the world and shut myself in my room for years.
No.211912
>>211629Antinatalism is probably what drove the nail in the coffin. I was/am actually pretty good looking and succubi would flirt with me but I would drop spaghetti hard and run away every time (I hope I won't get banned for something I have no control over and I hope we're past this lookism shit). But at 26 I just stopped giving a shit about succubi because I realized procreation is fundamentally selfish and abusive and that there is something inherently evil about sex itself because the entire mechanism exists to promote this stupid life game/cult. Now I just focus on composing and curating classical music.
No.211917
>>211656>5'7 >ChadIndia is hilarious!
No.211918
>>211875Quantum superposition
No.211921
came really close to being normal as a teen then balding hit me like a brick. now i sit in my pajamas all day.
No.211924
>>211917Yup, he was a short Chad, with very chiseled Jaw. Honestly, he didn't even look 5'7 because of proportions. Regardless, whether it may be fathomable for Western people or not, majority of Indians do have frequent sex. The age of losing virginity might be a bit late.
No.211936
>>211924I don't doubt it. Not even most succubi are cockhungry enough to seek out a Chad or Tyrone in a distant land so they settle for Paresh at home (don't know the equivalent of Chad in India).
No.211938
>>211937Isn't he doing that?
No.212038
>>211921that's sad to hear, wiz. What age did you lose your hair?
No.212067
it was a combination of bad luck and human stupidity…
i tested extremely high on all the intelligence tests from 1st year thru high school…
instant pariah status, always got along better with the adults than the stupidents…
i could never relate to the shit tv/music/movies around me…
the majority of the stupidents were thrilled if they barely passed…
the school district admins were little better than paid political thugs…
they hated me because i always asked about shit they couldn't deal with mentally…
i had nothing in common with my classmates…
when i passed ALL the standard tests the state required with the highest marks i became a hated outcast…
the admins accused me of cheating because "NO ONE EVER GETS A PERFECT SCORE" !
THEY WOULDN'T LET ME GRADUATE !
i took the GED test the state offered, and it was disgustingly easy…
my old english drama etc teacher gave the test, and there were questions as to how i got a perfect score..
HE SAID "NO ONE EVER GETS A PERFECT SCORE ON THE ENGLISH SECTION"!!!!!!!!!
i also finished way ahead of the others…
he asked why i didn't do better in classes; i told him i was just bored spitless…
i finally realised i did not belong with the creatures around me…
i can barely stand woetomen; they are basically intelligent parasites…
i know i don't belong amongst the sheep around me…
oh well, wtf…
No.212068
>>211629>The first day of being born i knew it was overwell you kind of just /thread'ed yourself. If you were 'made' a wizard then that means you weren't one before and are a failed normie. I don't see wizardry as an issue. I see a wizard as someone not capable of fitting into a neurotypical normgroid society and being labled as an outcast. So yes. I was born a wizard too and hopefully so was everyone else here.
No.212109
>>212067> tested extremely high on all the intelligence tests from 1st year thru high school…how high exactly?
No.212112
>>212109not that anon.
just alone the SAT is a national IQ test.
if you're getting perfect scores you can assume he has an IQ higher than 140
No.212115
>>212112the problem with IQ tests is that most are inaccurate and people always try to game the system to gain an advantage…
i see people who claim 220 and higher; a huge load of biden…
the test does not exsist to determine that legitimately…
No.212116
>>212115>>212112The SAT is not an iq test. It is a standardized test used only in america that is meant to test if you know some high school topics. That's it.
No.212117
>>212112I was told i got the 2nd highest score in the entire state.
i was very disappointed in my preformance…
after the principal stopped screaming at me; i got up walked away and never went back…
i don't like the hairless apes that surround me…
they have fancy peices of paper but lack the skills and learning to make them pay
off… sad…
No.212212
Last night I just passed by a group of vagina havers and they all looked at me with a disgust in their faces. It was strange because no male did that while females were trying to mock me with a smile trying to hide their disgust by my presence some giggled and commented on my appearance not to me directly but to their friends. I went outside to buy some cola and snacks to watch anime. I don’t know why people are so shitty. It's always been like this all my life, if I can have a normal relationship with males it's ruined by females who talk shit about me and don't approve of my presence.
No.212220
it's funny, now that i am an AOD i find that the society that surround. me is meaningless, degenerate, and perverted beyond reasonable recovery…
it will not end well…
No.212230
>>212212it's because they think we have shit genes so we ought to die basically. That's normie "empathy" for you. What's funny is that they don't even find it fucked up and they can't imagine it ever happening to them.
No.212231
>>212212Don't underestimate self hatred and insecurity in succubi. They know they're dumb and weak and their only power comes from their sexuality and ability to judge men on whether they deserve it. These miserable bitches do that sort of thing because it's the only way they can hurt someone else. Pay them no mind except maybe pity.
No.212253
>>212231>>212212Around 99% of succubi also expire after 18-early 20s (depending on their genes), whereas men can maintain their physical and mental powers well into old age. This is why succubi are so neurotic and sexually obsessed. You'd be too if you knew your life peaked in your teens and early 20s and then just went off a cliff. They're literal neurotic, deceitful baby factories and sex reward givers for people who are perfect normies and don't give them the ick.
Anyway, if you want to stop being afraid of succubi (or stop seeing them as glamorous), just google birth videos, especially the ones that show "crowning" (when the baby's head is near the vaginal opening) and pay attention to how they push a grapefruit sized head out of a tiny hole, and the baby is covered in dried semen (it can survive for days in the vagina), piss, shit, lube (mucus), amniotic fluid. Their bodies become absolutely busted. It's not fun being a succubus and they know it, so stop caring about their desperate attempts to control you with their "pussy power".
No.212272
>>212267
It's also telling how taboo those things are. Google has even started censoring it and you can't find it without really trying to look for it. No normie talks about it because it breaks the illusion of love, romance, purity, birth being a "beautiful miracle", succubi are wonderful, beauty and youth are forever, being in a relationship is like having a pair of forever young supermodel pair of tits glued to your face 24/7, etc.
No.212314
>>211629Not quite sure honestly. Psychological trauma perhaps? I used to be a chinlet fatty so years of rejection in my teens left me with some weird form of gynophobia. At around 20yo I went full gym rat mode and discovered that I was gifted with lush facial hair so I'm much better in looks department now - subjectively I'd rate myself a 6.5/10 with 5 being average. I'm fine talking to succubi in general but as soon as any romantic or sexual tension arises I enter turbo virgin mode - shaky hands, stutter, avoiding eye contact, fidgeting with my hands and general awkwardness. Might have not been an issue if I was a cute eboy but seeing as I grew into a large burly and muscular bearded man the dissonance between my appearance and behavior makes me look like some sort of creep. I might be subconsciously coping but seeing the shit some of my peers are going through in their relationships I don't think I even want a succubus in my life anymore. I'm just enjoying my life for what it is at the moment.
No.212315
Some are because of being gay, closeted or unrealized
No.212317
>>212315so they can't be wizards. okay.
No.212325
>>211688I am a 5'4 Indian nigga, there ain't no hope for me, I am slowly trying to transition to a wiz from being a crab, but I keep falling back to hatred.
No.212326
>>212325> 5'4 Indianthat's horrible wizard bro. Pretty much you are a cartoon character that no one takes seriously. It's truly over zoomers are taller too the average zoomer is now at least 6 feet.
No.212327
73 in a few more days, 6'+ 234lbs ( i am told by woetoman that i look as tho i'm about 40)…
the reason i am so young looking is i've NEVER BEEN MARRIED!
MARRIAGE TO WOETOMEN WILL KILL YOU! IT IS TO THEIR ADVANTAGE TO DO SO !
EVERY ONE OF THE GUYS I GREW UP WITH LOOKS LIKE THE WALKING DEAD !
the number of hoors i meet looking for their 3rd-4th-5th victim/husband is fooking rediculous in the extreme…
florida/califaguistan/NYC are the worst places to be around hoors, they have divorce lawyers on speed dial…(not a joke)
avoid involvment at all costs…
No.212329
>>211629Growing up in a fetid mold infested swamp trailer with a sexually abusing BPD single mother and an alcoholic absent hateful father does things to a kid, especially when they are forced to be isolated and scared of the world. Other kids pick up on that, they will see you as different and tear into you for easy social points. Collect enough negative interactions, sheer trauma and inherited schizophrenia from a bloodline of cruelty, its easy to see what effect that has on someone. Pure social isolation, fear and dissociation at a young age made me not develop a sense of self until way later. The only time I ever opened up to anyone got me sent to an underfunded mental ward for two weeks where I was assaulted, beaten and sexually abused in a time of extreme vulnerability. It was constant things like that. The minute I could legally leave I did, I used that to build a case for NEETbux and for 6 years now I have been hiding in my room, slowly losing my mind and watching it all decay. I don't blame the world really, I could try making friends online right now but I've convinced myself that everyone on this planet has a heart full of venom. I could try getting a succubus but the thought of sexual activity makes me shake and gag, plus in any romantic fantasy I've had its always been with a man because add being a faggot to the mix of misery. So for now, I enjoy playing classical guitar,drawing and smoking my cigarettes until either I sort out the mess in my head and find a reason to go or rot in this room and die hating the sad eyes I see in the mirror.
tl;dr I am a sad sad man by nurture and nature
No.212330
I don't know. I was born in a country where I could get social welfare relatively easily so it was natural I would drop out of society once I finished high school. Well, here I am, 31 years old, a hopeless wizard.
No.212332
>>212329i wish i could help you somehow, you are not the only one to be getting ef'd over by reality…
people suck, if you show even the slightest weakness they will come at you…
if you can; live for yourself because anyone who shows the least weakness gets eaten…
No.212333
>>212314you don't, you will be much happier without one of the creatures…
No.212339
>>211936paresh sounds like the guy who'd do the succubi homework for free back in high school lmao
Jamal is better desu
No.212900
>>211629a mix of "do what you like anon :)", ingrown toenails preventing me from playing football (soccer for firsties) and being taught to never have friends during early childhood, which made me socially stunted during teen years, when i was getting demands from my grandmother to befriend other teens at my parish but I absolutely refused all demands.
do i really have any excuse?
No.212993
Been overweight my entire life and have always been very much aware of, and self-conscious about it.
Then I gradually realized by observing others that I somehow never picked up essential social knowledge that is apparently natural for everyone else, and so at around wizardry level 34 I just gave up on desiring companionship.
No.213055
>What, my friend, made you a wizard?
I dislike females because they lack souls.
So I decided to no longer be part of the ecosystem, live an unnatural life separated from nature and natural selection.
No.213182
>>211629>What, my friend, made you a wizard? Was it ugliness, mental issues, being ethnic or a combination?I'm schizoid.
No.214041
I don't like humans. That's exactly what made me a wizard.
No.214267
>>211629I want to say a combination of autism and ugliness but also just being a jaded misanthrope old man from a young age.
No.214549
>>211629I'm a manlet and the shame of being one lead to me developing extreme agoraphobia and failing school and becoming a NEET. I have other issues too, like being an autist. But manletism deprived me of the ability to at least masquerade as normal.
No.214550
I don't have any medical diagnostics like autism, i just simply never fit in as a child, and was fundamentally different from normies. Never cared about anything they cared about. Its simple as that. If you're not a normie theres nothing you can do.
No.214551
>>214550I'm tall and good looking as well, which might trigger people but i'm not bnraging i never had a gf. If youre messed up inside it doesn't matter what you look like.
No.214556
>>211629I think I pretty much have it figured out after all these years. Childhood emotional neglect, exposure to porn, my tendency to use avoidance as a way to cope.
No.214592
>>211629I think a lot of people here decided to throw away their lives solely based on an old Japanese joke and the affirmations of on-screen text boxes
No.214612
>>211629not everyone is necessarily against you. Most people don't really care but I think its true that most people are inherently selfish. I'm sorry for what you went through and I hope you find some warmth but does it even matter anymore?
No.214613
5 years of non-stop physical and mental bullying during my formative years at school where I was made out to be a pariah and had my few friends I'd known up to that point betray me. Nothing quite fucks you up like being drenched in water and then punched in the face in front of an entire classroom of your peers laughing at you and then having the teacher, a protective authority figure, fail to stifle a giggle and tell you to get out because you're disrupting her class. It finally made me realise that nobody will help you, nobody cares about you, the system only works for those who fit in, society is evil and you can't trust anybody because they will just hurt you in the end. All of them. I never recovered from those years and it made me avoidant and I've lived on the internet ever since. Except even this was taken from me post 2012 with the mass-influx of outsiders and the centralisation of the internet into just a handful of sites. Even on places like 4chan I no longer feel like I belong. My escapist hobbies in video games, anime and now even manga have been invaded. The feeling of belonging nowhere and a deep-rooted resentment of "normalfags" are core wizardly traits. As is being over 30. Never has this been more true.
No.214619
>>214613yeah very early 1st grade bullying set me for life. and i also had an indifferent and mean teacher.
like i stood up for myself and had a fistfight in the middle of class, and she told both of us not to say hi to her next year. which i did. and then she was like dont u remember me?
but tbh ive come to realize its more about my own bad personality than the bad luck of especially mean classmates. because even in new enviroments with new kids i quickly found myself at the bottom.
> . It finally made me realise that nobody will help you, nobody cares about you, the system only works for those who fit in, society is evil and you can't trust anybody because they will just hurt you in the end. All of them. I never recovered from those years and it made me avoidant and I've lived on the internet ever since. I wish I had learned all those lessons by age 6. But instead I clung to an idealistic optimism that people are actually good, that I only began to shake off in the last 5 years, and still haven't entirely.
> Even on places like 4chan I no longer feel like I belong. The nastiness of places like 4chad, makes me forget why I ran away from people in meatspace to begin with. Can't be any worse.
No.214621
>>214613i have a very similar story of events to yours
and now we're both here
my life was great after school for a while, but it was too late, the damage was already done and beginning to set in
picture a young me being relieved to get out of school and start anew, only to see that the world was exactly like school, and social behaviour doesn't change. you have people mostly around you that haven't moved beyond their school years.
i feel ground to a nub. people that think a lack of sex is their issue are fools. just wait until evil people break you
No.215593
>>214613>It finally made me realise that nobody will help you, nobody cares about you, the system only works for those who fit in, society is evil and you can't trust anybody because they will just hurt you in the end.this isn't hyperbole. im disabled, and was severely injured, unable to walk, have to get around with a shopping trolley, and homeless. i did four months like that i begged hospitals to help me, i tried homelessness centers, hotlines, services. it was just like this, being bullied in high school, the nurses, the staff mockingly contemptful, making light of a severe injured. i desperately needed help for a few severe herniated discs, and one that was completely blown out, extreme pain. no help, none, only derision and judgement and humiliation then showing that it was entertaining for them to see me suffer. i wish i was exaggerating even in the slightest, if anything i don't convey well enough the serious tone and their outright cruelty to another human being. because i didn't get any help, i will never be able to walk normally again, i will never be able to live a normal life or do normal things or look after myself properly.
the world is truly evil, and i mean in a very real satanic sense, that the average person out there is a devil worshiper in their attitudes, beliefs, actions, and opinions, they think they are the salt of the earth too. it's insanely evil and demented and a sign that things are going to come to a head and very very badly for everyone when it collapses.
No.216617
>>215593how are you doing now? Males get the sort end of the stick in this sick society.
No.216618
>>215593>the world is truly evil, and i mean in a very real satanic sense, that the average person out there is a devil worshiper in their attitudes, beliefs, actions, and opinions, they think they are the salt of the earth too. it's insanely evil and demented and a sign that things are going to come to a head and very very badly for everyone when it collapses.well said
No.216631
>>211629Mental issues that were never addressed. Easy to feel worthless when even your family doesn't want you.
No.216652
>>211629I will never know, I remember being sent to a psychologist because I wouldn't make friends along with a distant cousin. The cousin's mother was scolded and there was nothing wrong with him. My mother feared the same, because apparently there was nothing wrong with me. He is married with kids and here I am.
No.217120
>>211629Low motivation and self hatred from an early age my dad was the one that made me try to function normally but that was short lived when I became 18, I began to look uglier so that plummet self esteem more. So I sit in my room and basically live how my mind lets me live. Unhygienic in my room
No.217335
Most of us I assume were born ugly or on the autism spectrum so we did not socialize well.
No.217345
>>217335>normies as referenceBut do we socialize well with our own kind, anon? Do we at least?
No.217438
Jesus fuck apparently wizards suffer from main character syndrome, Jerry level pity manipulation, and a textbook definition of spoiled failures.
No.218708
give or take it's almost the same for everbody
No.219722
>>211629this isnt my first magical experience but it is one that I will share…
>in 4th gradei simply had a teacher that i hated so much. i even threw a book at her because she tried to make me read in the library.
>in 5th gradeevery time i saw her in passing i gave her dirty hateful looks. i would whisper– not gossip– not rumours– but truths about her to my peers while making eye contact with her. this made the teacher see other kids facial reactions when i said things about her
>in 6th gradewe got a new guidance counselor at the school. she called me to individually talk to me about what was going on. she revealed to me that i had been making ms binci cry…
in that moment i realized i was selected by Saturn to wield the evil eye. i have honed it sense.
i was a wizard conceived in the ocean so there was no origin to be as my source is my self and is the source for all.
No.219723
I got all of my self esteem beaten out of me from a very young age. I was terible at socializing because I was afraid no one would like me. Over time I kinda just forgot how to socialize and be myself around people so I naturally self isolated.
No.219724
I was always naive and had zero self-awareness. Most of the time I didn't realize that nobody likes me. I even didn't know that people were bullying me. Just had this delusion that everybody likes me for some reason. I was gifted in terms of education - maybe that's why I held to that delusion that people respect me just because I have good grades. Up until 23 years old when I ralized how much of an idiot I've been. Doing insanely retarded stuff all the time, saying inapriopriate things, dressing like a moron. I guess I deserved to be bullied. That time I turned full recluse mode. Now I have extreme social anxiety and schizophrenia.
No.219725
>>219723ok but when did you start studying the occult? surely you did not just sperg out and watch all of dan da dan without realizing that (you) need to start studying the occult learning from the planets and the stars to wield them. dont let big govt turn you into a human sacrifice in the space wars
No.219726
>>219724use those pathetic feelings when meditating to make your self invisible. Dont bottle up your desire to be left alone. let it out and the universe will acquiesce to you
you can at do chaos magic surely
No.219799
>>219733
society wants slave conformity
No.219810
>>212329Imagine having a shit life( not as bad as a kid). And abuse still livinf with my mother as an adult and not even ending up with schizo or anything extreme. Luckily i think im autistic. SSI going to be hard to get on
No.219828
>>211631
maybe but I am glad that I have seen it
No.219858
>>211629Moved around a lot when I was younger and didn't make strong connections with people. Didn't really want to. Didn't want to be involved with succubi or "friend groups". Seemed fake. Dropped out of highschool and bummed around while reading a lot. Had to work so got shitty jobs and had no interest with making relationships with the people I met. Life kept on moving and I discovered more hobbies and a decent enough path in life. I would say it just kind of happened, but I think it's always been like this.
No.219862
My parents were killed in an alley after we had been to see The Mark of Zorro.
No.219865
>>219862Do you have a butler?
No.219867
>>219862I too am secretly a super hero
No.220101
i am here because I like interesting website and people.
No.220301
>>220300
Practically everyone who ends up wizard is to some degeee autistic or schizoid.
It's just the nature of the beast. Doesn't mean something is "wrong" with you, the world simply doesn't like or accommodate such people well.
No.220304
>>220101whats so intresting about a wizard?
No.220318
I just remember going to a therapist when I was age 9 or 10 and I told her I really wanted to fucking die, and she told my parents. Then some Jew gave me Prozac and told me my teenage years were going to suck. She wasn't wrong.
I've got to the point where I'm at peace with myself and find the desire to die as normal as living another day. I just have to blink and I will eventually be 50.
Absolutely no desire to be with succubi, I keep to my particular interests and have a way of seeing the world, and live to be cozy. I cannot say there is much going on for me in life, but I don't desire much either.
No.220360
Cruel family
No.220363
narcissistic evil older sibling, anxious overprotective low IQ mother, distant financially abusive alcoholic father
No.222363
I can't get pussy therefore I'm wiz.
No.222409
Maternal issues. Dysfunctional family dynamics. Social alienation. Bullying. Ideological influences. Mental disorders. Social ineptitude. Likely many more. …
No.222438
i remember, at a very early age (like 4) wondering:
what the fuck is all of this? what am i doing here?
i guess normies dont questions
they just act
No.222445
>>222409were you raised by a single mother?
No.223237
>>211629I hate myself. Generations and generations of hate distilled into me. I must suffer. Infinite suffering throughout endless rebirths. I am weak, I surrender. thy traitorous soul already in hell.
No.223243
>>211629I was homeschooled for years and lost out on all the normal development that is supposed to happen around that time. It's sad because I'm relatively tall, strong, and good looking but my personality is off and my manner of interacting with people is entirely warped. I have friends that are very tolerant of me and interested in what I have to talk about (which is a lot; I did a lot of reading in homeschool). It goes to show that just doing whatever you want in isolation doesn't always pan out. I'm sure my parents play into this as well, but that isn't interesting because no-shit they do.
No.223317
>>223243you can escape it, partly. but you'll need to throw yourself into fully immersed hanging round different people all the time socialising, to the point where through trial and error and constant exposure you have a crash course in being social.
it won't completely replace what you missed, but you can go a surprisingly long way from it.
dont accept current circumstances as fixed, face fears and leave your comfort zone - most social fears aren't as bad as you imagine, especially if you're choosing to face them.
might take months/longer before you feel comfortable in it, but you'll notice adaption.
No.223324
>>211629Autism coupled with an ugly dick. Fear of rejection is too strong.
No.223325
>>223261>when I took an mbti personality test it always was 100% in introversionsame for me. ive taken it several times over the last 15 years and always get that
No.223352
>>223317I already did all that and can socialize with anyone I choose to and many I don't. The problem is that chasing a deeper connection requires the intuition on how and when to push a relationship that far, and I simply do not have that. So here I am, doing everything I can, holding on to what I am, pretending I'm a superman
No.223357
>>223261>if you can call browsing imageboards a lifeThe life for majority of normalfags sucks, just in different way.
And the life of normalfag is not something you want unless you are inhuman wild animal wearing human skin.
No.223360
>>211629I deeply respect my mom for all the love she tried to shower me with, but even my child self could see it's an act and she's trying hard to be the loving mother her nature didn't allow her to be. Her alcoholic dad committed sudoku 4 months before I was born, she was depressed, in turn, taught me depression. For a while she was exhausted from overworking so for two years or so I was raised by grandmother - an alcoholic self harming anorexic. I received no female warmth growing up so I never learnt to reciprocate and show genuine affection myself.
No.223362
>>223360anon i feel you
people who want good but have to play within the evil circumstances
good deeds don't feed the baby, no?
No.223391
My story is that it never even started. I've had some false starts but there's some self-doubt, maybe ingrained by my parents. But they weren't bad parents.
Sometimes things just don't happen, I guess.
No.223395
>>211629>What, my friend, made you a wizard?I didn't intentionally become a wizard until after the meme got popular and I saw it. Before then I had the intention of having sex, but the succubus I wanted moved schools in the twelfth grade, and I never considered another succubus besides her. To me she was the most beautiful succubus in the world.
Now I just value my virginity highly, the sheer raw virgin power my balls possess is unmatched by any demonic entity in this world. I am too powerful, darkness avoids me and plagues bring me tribute. "Have sex, have sex!" my enemies taunt me with. "No." I reply back with my balls shriveled up after they re-ingested my last batch of semen meant for the earth. I do not masturbate.
No.223440
>>223395so you're a failed normalfag?
No.223449
>>211629choice. i seek wizardry
No.223455
My general outlook on life and existence is what made me a wizard. I guess I just had too much time to think by myself in my youth. I didn't fall into the reproducing is the meaning of life trap that the majority of the world falls into and revolves their entire lives around.
No.223456
>>211629The blackpill is one hell of a drug
No.223458
>>211629I was born like this or maybe i did chose it? literally there was/is nothing wrong with me or my life yet i can't/couldn't truly find happiness nor joy in a non-wizard life…
No.223501
>>211629Satanic panic (personally not the one from the 80s)
I started seeing normies as complicit sheep for satan worshipping jews and females as a whole gender received very bad socialization training from pop culture so I started just not wanting to interact with succubi at all
now that I have learned from the Tao Te Ching and do semen retention and other mystic practices I am able to resist the urge to feel led be lust.
No.223528
>>211629I just fucking hate people. I'm disgusted by the basic elements of human behaviour, the ego, the self-delusion, the conformity, the self-righteousness, the vast gulf of arbitrary beliefs that they must hold on to at any price, that forever separates them from objective reality and makes it impossible for them to ever understand anyone else. I stick to anonymous places like this for my social needs, because I have never met anyone I liked better after getting to know him.
And succubi are even worse.
No.223539
>>211711Don't care. Just force the womanoid to deal with them when you face her and begin seeing her. Unless by "unpleasant things" you mean you like to torture animals or something. Also, therapy.
No.223542
>>223539haven't we already established that therapy doesn't work?
it's just a paid "friend" for normies to cry to
No.223543
>>223528Good post, and summarizes my thoughts on humanity as well.
I would also add arrogance to the list. Every single ingroup and religion is so 100% convinced they're right and everyone else is wrong (and historically, wanted these outgroups killed).
No.223544
>>211629It was NEETdom for me. There's nothing wrong with my physical appearance I was just socially spergy and stuck in prolonged adolescence so my peers moved on and I remained a shut in at home just the way I liked it. If I pushed myself or had someone to push me into socialising then I would probably not be wizard right now. It's not something I'm bitter or angry about though.
No.223545
>>211629I was the odd one out at a very small school. A year younger than everyone else in my class and not much in common with them. Nobody was really rude to me past elementary school but I was still totally isolated. I got a deep set idea that nobody actually likes me and I shouldn't test people's patience by forcing my presence on them. I was mostly able to overcome it over the course of high school and college, except when it came to succubi. I turn 30 in two months and while I don't get nervous casually talking to succubi (at least no more than anyone else) going any further at this point seems like a lost cause.
Feels like a shit reason compared to a lot of others in this thread, but it's mine. At least I can be proud of being well read and in reasonably good shape.
No.223550
I'm just lazy and always thought courting succubi and dating were cringe things to do. I don't understand how most people don't feel any shame doing this thing. It's just…pathetic.
No.223551
>>223550Based guy , absolute truth.
Romantic Relationships are fucking cringe and annoying;
Full of drama, meaningless conversations and pathetic insecure jealousy and of course pure selfishness.
People who NEED this type of relationships are naive shallow subhumans and scum of the earth.
No.223555
>>211912While procreation may be selfish it's also giving life to a new person. While living in society is bad, babies enjoy learning, communicating and exploring any new stimulus they have access to. Therefore, it's simultaneously selfish and generous at the same time, though socialization will eventually corrupt the wonderful side of it.
No.223557
>>223550>why people act on the most basic primitive impulse know to man [the reproduction instinct]?You're either a autist-schizoid or just dumb
No.223558
>>223555Even if I could theoretically just spawn one, I don't have the nerves to give it milk or food every few hours, take it to the doctors, daycare, change its diapers 8 times a day and whatever other tasks I need to do just to make sure it doesn't die of an infection or deficiency.
Not everyone is cut out for reproduction. I just want to be alone. Get home from work, shower, read some news, play an old emulator game for 1-2 hours then fall asleep.
If on top of all this I had to entertain, feed and take care of a crying baby or toddler I'd go crazy in a matter of days.
No.223567
Hispanic, diagnosed autistic & ADHD at an early age, raised by a single mother…
No.223570
>>223557I'd disagree that it's the most important and basic impulse. Self-preservation is much more basic if anything, I mean by this getting food for yourself, acting on self-defense, etc. Sex isn't really the central moving force of the universe, despite lots of intellectuals in the previous centuries claiming that it is.
But again, I wasn't talking about sexuality in general, just dating and courting succubi. You can get sexual release lots of ways, you can masturbate or you can pay a whore for example. And that's understandable. I can even understand casual sex stuff normals do. But why court succubi and make an idiot out of yourself just so that you can claim that you are finally in a relationship? Is that really worth it? No, not really. That's just some stupid social pressure the community puts on us. That we are only men if we have won the heart of a succubus and she voluntarily chose to be with us. There is zero benefit to be in a long-term relationship for a male. Long-term relationships or marriage was invented so that the state doesn't have to take care of succubi and kids.
>autist-schizoid or just dumbCould be, but in a world like this only the crazy people are sane.
>>223551Don't forget the necessary social rituals that come along with it, like family dinners with your gf's family or hanging out with her friends. You have to put up with a lot of shit and all for nothing pretty much.
No.223581
>>223570>I'd disagree that it's the most important and basic impulse. Self-preservation is much more basic if anything, I mean by this getting food for yourself, acting on self-defense, etc. Sex isn't really the central moving force of the universe, despite lots of intellectuals in the previous centuries claiming that it is.Yeah, when it comes to nature in general it really is just a bunch of randomness that is pushed into occasional order based off of physical laws.
I learned a lot about goal oriented behavior in my addiction recovery process and based on what I learned, I dont think sex is any sort of base instinct. Neither is hunger. The only thing we come equipped without of the womb are basic reflexes, like sucking on a titty and the processes involved with food digestion. Actual goal seeking behaviors like searching for food and sex are things that the brain has to develop over time. There is one notable experiment where researchers examined dopamine deficient rats and they wouldn't eat food that wasn't fed to them directly. They would literally choose to starve to death over move a few inches to pull a lever to get food because their brains didn't have the ability to release enough dopamine to spur action.
That is pretty much why wizards like
>>223550 feel the way they do. Since we never had sex our brains literally never built those dopamine pathways to motivate us to take the steps to engage in it. We may experience sexual arousal but over the years we trained our brains to satisfy that urge in ways that didn't involve sex. So there is a huge disconnect where normies would risk jail for pussy while virgin wizards just see their behavior shameful and illogical.
While there are some baseline tendencies based on genetic and hormonal influences, the complex behavior involved in fulfilling the desires isn't really baked in our genes, it is mostly shaped through experience. I think 30 is a pretty good age to define wizardry because if you make it through the gauntlet of your 20s still a virgin then you likely have trained your brain to be very wizardly and wont change without significant effort.
No.223583
>>223550same
I don't get how people can enjoy watching romantic scenes in movies
No.223588
In 4th grade I stubbed my wiz toe on a witchies desk and she laughed at me. Even since then I swore to destroy every last witchie and make them apologize for what they did. I am going to find that witchie who laughed at me and make her pay.
No.223589
Being autistic and hearing bluepill bullshit
No.223597
>>223589I know how frustrating it is to keep being told to do something despite being unable to do it. Like another anon said, it's like telling someone with Tourette's to just stop cursing. Sadly, some people even on wizchan can't understand what it's like to have a differently wired brain.
No.223605
>>223581>I think 30 is a pretty good age to define wizardry because if you make it through the gauntlet of your 20s still a virgin then you likely have trained your brain to be very wizardly and wont change without significant effort.Idk, I have a feeling lots of people leave places like this site behind after they just "suddenly man up" in their early 30s.
I've been reading a lot about violent criminal behavior lately, criminal psychology, serial killer study, that sort of thing. Most serial killers and/or lust murderers are in their late 20s-early 30s. Not to say that people here are necessary like that but I found lots of similarities between the wizard outsider life and the life of serial killers. My point is just that people change, sometimes very suddenly and seemingly out of nowhere. I don't believe 30 is early enough to tell that someone will be a virgin for the rest of his life or that there is even a universal age for this. People are different, here too. Some will just norm it up one day when their circumstances will change drastically, like they will be forced to wageslave or to go among people, stuff like that.
No.223606
>>223605Anger and testosterone spikes at 14-16, lowers, then stays very high from 21-30.
There is a very clear hormonal link.
As you age, you just become less of a nutjob if you were predisposed to violence.
Most serial killers are very angry involuntarily celibate nutjob guys between 20-30.
No.223612
>>223606It's not just about testosterone. What you say about angry teenagers is accurate since many go on school shooting sprees and what not because they got rejected by some female. I think it has something to do with aging and social expectations in the case of serial killers. Seeing younger guys than you going out with beautiful succubi and society making you feel like crap for not having done that ever, plus as you age you are nearing more and more death and you start to perceive the first signs of decay around your 30s.
No.223619
>>223612Yeah, people mellow out for a variety of reasons after around 30. The most dangerous people in society are around 16-25 and male especially if they are ugly, high libido and got rejected by lots of succubi.
No.223620
>>223612>many go on school shooting sprees and what not because they got rejected by some femaleno, it's literally only singular cases among countless crabs
they commit murder because they are psychopaths, rejection is only an excuse
crab school shooters are no different from other kinds of homicidal maniacs
you and
>>223612 >>223605 should stop spreading "angry crab school shooter" propaganda
No.223621
>>223620PS testosterone is not a hormone of anger, but of activity, confidence and creative energy
>>223605 >>223606 >>223612 >>223619you must be either succubi or frustrated low T manlets if you think testosterone makes men angry
No.223623
>>223621It does both. Roid rage isn't a myth. It's something perpetuated and warned against by bodybuilders themselves.
No.223634
>>223620>psychopathThat's just a buzzword, though. If we went by the strict definition then most people, at least males, would be considered as psychopaths/anti-social personality disorders. These definitions were invented to demonize the culprits and so that society can put distance between itself and these people. "We are the sane ones, moral ones, healthy ones, etc. You are the crazy, immoral, unhealthy" That's the logic behind it. The only genuine difference between psychopaths and other people is in being reckless and not caring about the consequences of your actions. The so called psychopaths just suffer from impulse control, basically. They have a harder time suppressing their emotions and instincts and act on their impulses even if they get them into trouble.
>>223621T level isn't the only factor in these things, I agree on that. Many high T people live out their frustration in competitive sports or find job in law enforcement, military, stuff like that. Having high T levels can make you more violent though if you don't know how to handle it.
No.223638
>>223634>That's just a buzzword, thoughIt's not and I'm already tired of responding to you because it's like throwing peas at a wall. I know you are the guy who keeps saying autism doesn't exist, and you're the one who made the thread about serial killers. You're either a troll or actually schizophrenic, with your own world and your own truths in your head, never considering another point of view.
Anyway, what matters is that pain and suffering are bad, it doesn't matter who feels the pain. Between the victim and the perpetrator, the sanity, morality, healthiness and motifs don't matter. The goal of any society should be to minimize pain and suffering, without discriminating. Your pain is just as real as my pain, so I should act as if your pain really is my pain, and I should refrain from causing pain to you. Psychopathy is when you fail to understand the reality of other beings' pain.
No.223644
>>223640Same as that one poster in 2024 who kept saying vaccines do nothing and are useless then simply vanished. On a chan with 15 daily posters it's pretty easy to tell the person fixated on that single subject is indeed the only person posting about it.
Or the guy who spent all of early 2025 talking about how he can't parallel park a car in India while succubi can. And this went on for months.
Hyperfixation people are nothing new to wizchan. Today it's the guy denying autism exists and in late 2025 it'll be someone claiming eating meat will give you covid.
No.223649
>>223644Actual schizophrenic delusions of conspirators. Maybe "all the guys" claiming to be autists are really just one dude hyperfixating on his perceived ailment.
No.223651
>>223649everyone who turns out a 30 year old virgin in a society where the average male loses his at age 14-16 is on the autism spectrum and has schizoid/avoidant personalities
succubi are very very good at weeding out non-nt males.
No.223652
>>223651>Only retards decide to not have sexFuck you
No.223653
>>223652As if the ugliest males like myself have any choice in the matter no matter how hard we try.
No.223654
>>223653Well keep that to yourself
No.223656
>>223654I do. I'm just frustrated by normies who think it's a "choice", as if a homeless bum "chooses" not to live in a Trump Tower 5000sqft penthouse.
No.223658
>>223656>>223653I just googled and it costs about 100 euros in the Netherlands. I could easily go do that but i dont. Do you live in the middle east or something and cant get a visa anywhere?
No.223659
>>223638Yes, I'm that guy. I don't have to hide it. I'm not trolling, just stating my own opinions. Is that bad?
>The goal of any society should be to minimize pain and suffering, without discriminatingSays who? If you look through history most societies don't fit this narrative at all. What you think society should be is basically what communists want, some ideal world that won't ever exist.
>Psychopathy is when you fail to understand the reality of other beings' pain.That's not psychopathy, just the way of life. In order to live and prosper any kind of organism needs to do to other organisms what it doesn't want done to itself. Exactly the opposite of your moralizing, over-sensitive logic. Like I said, you can consider most males as psychopaths if you really stick to the definition. It's just a buzzword, like I said.
>>223651This is a funny post. Many guys lose their virginity way past 14-16, the only guys who lose their virginity that early are little Chads. You don't have any connection to reality despite accusing me of this earlier.
No.223661
>>223658I don't mean paying someone to touch your weewee because every cell in your body knows that's fake and sye loathes you.
I mean someone voluntarily doing it because they find you hot.
At this point I enjoy being a wizard and embrace it. I couldn't care less if succubi are repulsed by me. They don't exist to me.
My life is all about hobbies, self-sustenance, small business and health now.
No.223662
>>223659Depends on which society we're talking about.
In the US, most males by age 16.8 have lost their virginity.
Less than 30% before age 16
https://www.inverse.com/article/32446-sex-first-time-virginity-age No.223667
>>223662How do you even conduct these so called objective researches? Obviously most guys will lie to whomever is asking things about them being virgin or not. And even if it is anonymous supposedly, like really, how? You ask 100 guys this question and then project it onto the general population. Statistics are never trustworthy.
No.223671
>>223659>If you look through history most societies don't fit this narrative at all. Right, that's the difference between is and should be.
>What you think society should be is basically what communists want, some ideal world that won't ever exist.Life will never be free of suffering, but we can do things to reduce it. We can't reach perfection, but we can strive towards it.
>you can consider most males as psychopathsMost normies are psychopaths. Not only males.
No.223702
>>223671It's not constructive at all to discuss 'should be' scenarios. Might as well talk about fantasy movies or books as if they were real.
We can strive towards reducing suffering indeed but should we? I mean the general population deserves to suffer. I would go farther and say that to implement a system where everyone is treated equally would be the end of humanity. Yeah, you can call me a Nietzsche fanboy, I kind of like him, not agree with him on everything but I think he is infinitely superior to Schopenhauer or communism and similar bleeding-heart false pretentious ideologies like Christianity.
>Most normies are psychopaths. Not only males.Females are much too careful and cowardly to be proper psychopaths. They like to manipulate people but that's it. They are no risk takers and so that's why most violent criminals are males.
No.223719
>>211629autism and STPD
Also I have ugly polish face and weak frame
However, I don't feel insecure about my looks + a few normies told me I look good, idk if they lied or not
No.223722
>>223667You conduct enough of them with good randomlzed sample sizes to create a scientifically valid peer-reviewed study.
Regardless of which country you look at (with the exception of India and Saudi-Arabia), men generally lose their virginity between 14-17. Northern Europe being the most promiscuous. succubi roughly two years earlier.
No.223723
>>223722>You conduct enough of them with good randomlzed sample sizes to create a scientifically valid peer-reviewed study.That doesn't mean it reflects reality accurately, though. These statistics are always bullshit, whether it comes to politics or anything else. But some people want to make money by making these statistics so whatever, everyone needs to earn their daily bread.
>Regardless of which country you look at (with the exception of India and Saudi-Arabia), men generally lose their virginity between 14-17Extremely doubtful. Most guys I knew in high school were still virgins when we finished. There were only a couple of guys who had gfs or had sex while still in high school. I trust my own experiences better than some random statistics.
No.224186
>>211629Because fapping makes sex obsolete. Why would I want to bother?
No.224464
My childhood screwed me up for life, since I was very insecure in middle school when the other guys started flirting/starting at succubi for the first time. Me? Well, let's see…
I was a fun, easy-going child till I was like six. Then, my alcoholic dad started cheating on my mom. She has BPD so you can imagine what it was like: dad beat the shit out of my mom, then they took turns beating the shit out of me. Dad wasn't present, and my mom was more concerned with that other broad who cheated on her with my dad than me. So, I was left to my own devices. She didn't cook so I resolved to eating plain sugar abd white bread everyday and also school meals. I also didn't knew how to clean myself and my clothes. I also started wetting my bed till I was ten, so since I didn't knew how to clean my underwear, I always smelled like urine. My personality took a 180 and I became distant and awkward. I also had shit grades in school. My teachers were concerned and wanted me to see a child psychiatrists but my parents didn't want me to be seen as mentally ill. Anyway, this whole cheating saga ended with my mom attempting suicide in front of the whole family: she slit her wrists and gobbled down some pills. I was shocked and helped her to the hospital. Then, my parents divorced and mom was clinically depressed and just LDAR in her room for years. I was alone for the whole time. When she got outside though, she used to rummage through my stuff and especially my drawings and she liked to pick on them and tell me I was shit in drawing. I also gained weight during puberty and she always hit me and told me I'm a disgusting pig.
As you can see, I developed that meak and shy personality, I was scared of everyone and spent my time coping with video games. Not very attractive to succubi. And J didn't hav the looks since I wore dirty and torn clothes and smelled bad.
It all took a cumulative effect and I never recovered. I'm more lean now, and I can communicate a bit and hold down a low stress job, but I still struggle with hygiene and mantaining my looks, and keeping my weight in check is a life long struggle. That, and my personality. I'm also not very facially attractive in the first place, so it doesn't help too. With time though, i learned being alone.
No.224465
>>224464Don't let how a succubus (even your mom) treated you as a child negatively effect who you are as an adult. Hit the gym and wash your pants.
No.224466
>>224464good, now you wrote down your personal history once and for all.
moving on, let's leave it behind. every moment lives for itself.
No.224468
>>224466Tbh, I was referring to my lack of affecction and sex and I think my childhood is the culprit. Otherwise, I feel quite comfy with my life. I prefer to think that this whole childhood trauma rubbish is just that, rubbish. Even though I'm a permavirgin, I still think I'm more well-adjusted than most people in some ways. For example, being self-sufficient is a very good thing on itself that actually most people struggle with.
Idl, anecdotally, I was diagnosed with CPTSD by some bitch shrink, and she told me to "educate" myself on trauma. I looked up what the hell it was and found a subreddit full of slutty succubi moaning about not being able to secure a Chad due to their bitchy personalities. I immediately undiagnosed myself and decided to stay off shrinks for the time being.
>>224465I already learned most of that stuff by myself later in life. Unfortunately, I can't lift since I'm disabled. I do small home workouts though.
No.224469
>>224468in day to day life, do you sometimes feel intense fear, intense uncomfortability or times where your mind goes blank or very blurry/foggy?
do you sometimes feel that you are not in control over your mind or actions in certain situations, like talking to someone specific, or being in a specific place, or seeing or hearing something specific?
No.224470
>>224469Yes to all. Why? Excelt the specific part, it happens at random.
No.224471
>>224470people with untreated trauma often report it being random.
traumas can be thought of as ungriefed past selves.
let's say a wizkid is at a store and really wants a chocolate bar.
mom says no.
the wizkid COULD throw a little temper tantrum, cry, do a little rebellious act like stomping the floor and not immediately following wizmom. but the wizkid would be over it soon.
another thing can happen, and this obviously doesn't happen with something as inane as getting a chocolate bar.
the wizkid starts dissociating with reality. the reality of not getting the chocolate bar is so painful, that reality is not tollerable. not even stomping the ground or crying could mend reality in that moment.
when the wizkid grows up, an ungriefed past self exists in his head. he could be 30 years old, but his 7 year old wizkid self not having gotten the chocolate is still in his head, refusing to accept some inputs of his senses.
when such inputs (a thought, a smell, a sight, a sound, ..) happen, the ungriefed past self evokes fight or flight, or just plain shuts down the brain. reality is not an option.
you can force a past self to grief. triggers would no longer put you in fight or flight.
you cry and afterwards you feel a bit more free. one whiny little kid lashing at you to remove yourself from a certain situation less.
No.224476
>>224471 (cont)
the ungriefed past self doesn't live in your memory. personal history is useless in resolving trauma. you can't talk about your past or think back to your past, and expect that to do anything for you. succubi get this wrong.
men don't usually talk about trauma because they just identify with their impulsive actions and dismiss the trauma response as "nerves", and they just gotta toughen up coz that's part of life.
most succubi never resolve their traumas and instead identify with them, and cherish "trigger warnings".
a truwiz meditates three times daily for at least 5 minutes each, then identifies when and where (generally) trauma response happens (maybe in the break room), and pays special attention to what happens inside him as it happens.
he relaxes and breathes and doesn't do anything in response to any intense feelings that pop up.
back at home, he writes or audio-records about what happened.
No.224483
>>224478>I am literally hitler.Hitler didn't have an evil bone in his body.
No.224532
I'm an ugly manlet.
Simple as that, really.
No.224567
>>211629I just lived my life and nothing ever happened.
>went to school for 11 years and in that time no succubus has ever shown any interest and they didnt even want to befriend me at all>after school I worked a bunch of shitty jobs and there were also no succubi there>then I was a NEET for many years and as one might expect, no succubi there either>then I had a few more shitty jobs for a couple months and nothing came out of that>then I became a NEET again and have been one for the last 10 years and here of course once again no succubi of any kindso school and employment and neeting didnt yield me any succubi.
I had some friends over these years but they were mostly losers like me and didnt know any succubi and through family I also never got into contact with any succubis.
eventually, I think that was around my early to mid 20s I had fully given up on succubi because if it didnt happen up until that point it obviously would never happen so any further attempts or trying to fit in with the normalfags was an obvious waste of time and I stopped bothering.
of course I been wondering like why? and to this day I have no real answer for that because am I really that ugly? I'm certainly not the elephant man and I have seen uglier and shorter men than me having girlfriends and normal social lifes, I'm not rich but also not THAT poor, I seen poorer men have girlfriends and social lifes.
is it my personality? how could it be if never anyone even got close enough to figure out what mine is?
so I guess the reason I'm a wizard is because I'm meant to be one and was always meant to be one, it must be destiny or shit like that.
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