No.211632
I was diagnosed autistic very young. Think I am ugly so never imagined myself in any type of relationship or having sex.
No.211646
>>211631
it comes from crab forums
No.211655
Multiple determinant factors came into play that influenced what I've become, including but not limited to any one of the following: genetics, prenatal and postnatal stressors, upbringing, childhood experiences, puberty, socioeconomic and cultural, religious, genetically inheritable diseases, syndromes, mental disorders, mood disorders, anxiety disorders, psychotic disorders, neurodevelopmental disorders, neurological disorders, etc.
No.211656
>pajeet
>born in pajeetland
>born poor
>sickly child
>abusive parents
>short
>ugly
>brown (read: brown man = shitskin and brown foid = chocolate goddess)
>bad in academics (the only way to succeed in India is to be good in academics)
>can't get along with normies at all
>unbelievably unfortunate
Funnily, today in college a hilarious incident occured. I was sitting alone on the bench in the back of the class. A "friend" and a classmate sat behind me. And started showing me their dating history and succubi that they have fucked. The 5'7 chiseled Chad said भाई यह देख मैने कितनो की ली है (Translation: See how many succubi I have fucked), he showed me their nudes, their Instagrams, my other "friend" did the same. And I just sat quiet in between them for 6 minutes straight.
Ofc, they knew it's over for me, and it literally is, and to rub it in my face for last time as I was holding back screams and tears asked me "When am I gonna get one?". To which well I said "When I'll feel like". lol
It's hard to blame succubi these days, when men are primarily responsible for 99% of the crises on this planet. The entire fucking time I wanted to take his fucking head off. Like faggot, you call succubi sluts and you have defiled 7 of them with no intention to pursue relationship. What the fuck will be left for men like me?
And as for these 'Oh so pious and oppressed Indian succubi', when they would be done having their fun in 20s they will get some IT pajeet to betabuxx in an "Arranged Marriage" (Read: Tinder on Steroids). Unbelievable. Chads should be exterminated on sight. Chads are the root cause of crabdom and male infighting. Fucking turds of humanity. I agree that I am a subhuman in looks but Chads and Roasties are subhuman and soulless in their hearts (if they have one). And the worst part is that these psychopaths and sociopaths are way happier than me.
No.211657
>>211656at least you found that some indians are chad
No.211659
There is nothing glaringly bad or good about me. I am pretty average and should be a normie, but that just never happened. I think my life ended up this way because I learned how to disassociate instead of dealing with my problems. When it came time to start thinking on my own and build my identity, I kinda did nothing, and stayed that way ever since. Now I am a lonely wizard because I put zero effort into making friends or maintaining friendships.
No.211660
crab thread
No.211662
Well I don't know why but I always ghost potential love interests. Could be my ocd, could be the fact that I was bullied for my looks throughout school and highschool, could be that I know every attempt at love in the modern day is most likely to end in a divorce. The point is I stopped trying.
No.211663
>>211662you do it to be wizchad
No.211667
>>211657You know race is literally irrelevant to me. I wouldn't get anywhere in a multiracial world, I wouldn't get anywhere in a world full of Indians either. To me, majority of the people whether Indian or not are largely equally stranger. Indians have treated me with the same disgust as whites or any other races would.
No.211668
>>211667And I mean there are plenty of Chad Indians, majority of the Indians except me have regular sex. Now Indians might not be getting laid in the West, idk but the ones who go to the West tend to be nerdycels.
No.211676
>>211668your issue is with normies which is why I also don't care about race and other such groups of people. It's because regardless the group they're all mostly normalfags, and normalfags are retarded and they all demand stupid shit from you.
No.211680
I was just that guy who never had any close friends my entire life. My "friends" ie people I saw in class and stuff would be nice enough, but literally none of them ever invited me to do something with them after school ended. At each new school it would be day 1 and I could see the little cliques forming and could see how everyone else had close friends but I never did. My parents never gave me any advice when it comes to making friends, nor did they realize there was even a problem until I revealed I was suicidally depressed one day.(after that they just sent me to a bunch of doctors who gave me pills that just gave me side effects and fixed nothing) I was always too shy to ask people to hang out with me so I went through life as a ghost, just going through the motions of what was expected of me while never being intimate with anyone. Alone is no way to go through life. I'm pretty sure we already have this thread somewhere though.
No.211681
>>211680same as you. being a wizard is hard.
No.211688
>>211687
Man you are peak crab. I am not saying that to make fun of you, I say it because I was in the same position as you.
They weren't shoving anything in your face, that is all in your head. That is just what those type of guys (fuccbois) do. A lot of self worth is in how many succubi they fucked so of course they are going to brag about it. You take it as a personal attack because it is specifically something you are insecure about.
Not every guy is a fuccboi, clearly you aren't one and that is okay. Seriously just forget about succubi for now. If you don't want to go the full wizard route and disregard succubi just maintain a good appearance and try to be social. Don't be social with the intention to fuck a succubus. That is a fuccboi thing to do and you are not a fuccboi. Eventually, you will run into a succubus that is into you. I know this is normie shit, but normies say a lot of the same things because it is true, they just say it in a way that doesn't resonate with crabs. If you see a pretty succubus try to get to know her better by asking her on a date. Don't think about sex until things naturally go that way.(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)
No.211689
>>211688wtf meant to reply to
>>211656 No.211691
>>211688>Not every guy is a fuccboi, clearly you aren't one and that is okay. Seriously just forget about succubi for now. If you don't want to go the full wizard route and disregard succubi just maintain a good appearance and try to be social. Don't be social with the intention to fuck a succubus. That is a fuccboi thing to do and you are not a fuccboi. Eventually, you will run into a succubus that is into you. I know this is normie shit, but normies say a lot of the same things because it is true, they just say it in a way that doesn't resonate with crabs. If you see a pretty succubus try to get to know her better by asking her on a date. Don't think about sex until things naturally go that way.Dating advice on wizchan.
Lmao.
No.211711
I am a pleasant, attractive, and kind-hearted person, it's just that there are some things within me that are not very pleasant, and would make any human relationship difficult.
No.211725
all the well liked athletic kids treat me like a small animal
No.211831
>>211688>If you see a pretty succubus try to get to know her better by asking her on a date.and what if she says ewwwww no thanks?
No.211834
>>211831back to the lab Pinky so we can plan for tomorrow night
No.211835
>>211831What if she agrees?
No.211856
>>211688>It will just happen vro…..When is it gonna happen? never? Till I spend my entire 20s holding my cock in my hand, and then some pajeeta who has her brains fucked out by retarded pajeets, marries me for my money in late 30s.
Hell, it gets even better as I have no money either. As a matter of fact nobody ever really talks about the financial impact of crabdom especially in the turd world.
>Don't think about sexIf only I had the power to control what I can think about.
No.211874
>>211872If it's my brain, what and who am I?
If I am my brain, or inside my brain, who is there to control me?
Controlling your own thoughts is an obvious paradox. It's fascinating to me that people seem to not see this, completely taken by some sort of illusion
No.211875
>>211874if you don't control your thoughts, who or what does?
No.211892
My sad story is that I was a kind and open socially awkward kid, who was an easy target for bullying for both classmates and teachers. Because of that my social inadequacy worsened and my self-esteem fell through the floor. Eventually I gave up on the world and shut myself in my room for years.
No.211912
>>211629Antinatalism is probably what drove the nail in the coffin. I was/am actually pretty good looking and succubi would flirt with me but I would drop spaghetti hard and run away every time (I hope I won't get banned for something I have no control over and I hope we're past this lookism shit). But at 26 I just stopped giving a shit about succubi because I realized procreation is fundamentally selfish and abusive and that there is something inherently evil about sex itself because the entire mechanism exists to promote this stupid life game/cult. Now I just focus on composing and curating classical music.
No.211917
>>211656>5'7 >ChadIndia is hilarious!
No.211918
>>211875Quantum superposition
No.211921
came really close to being normal as a teen then balding hit me like a brick. now i sit in my pajamas all day.
No.211924
>>211917Yup, he was a short Chad, with very chiseled Jaw. Honestly, he didn't even look 5'7 because of proportions. Regardless, whether it may be fathomable for Western people or not, majority of Indians do have frequent sex. The age of losing virginity might be a bit late.
No.211936
>>211924I don't doubt it. Not even most succubi are cockhungry enough to seek out a Chad or Tyrone in a distant land so they settle for Paresh at home (don't know the equivalent of Chad in India).
No.211938
>>211937Isn't he doing that?
No.212038
>>211921that's sad to hear, wiz. What age did you lose your hair?
No.212067
it was a combination of bad luck and human stupidity…
i tested extremely high on all the intelligence tests from 1st year thru high school…
instant pariah status, always got along better with the adults than the stupidents…
i could never relate to the shit tv/music/movies around me…
the majority of the stupidents were thrilled if they barely passed…
the school district admins were little better than paid political thugs…
they hated me because i always asked about shit they couldn't deal with mentally…
i had nothing in common with my classmates…
when i passed ALL the standard tests the state required with the highest marks i became a hated outcast…
the admins accused me of cheating because "NO ONE EVER GETS A PERFECT SCORE" !
THEY WOULDN'T LET ME GRADUATE !
i took the GED test the state offered, and it was disgustingly easy…
my old english drama etc teacher gave the test, and there were questions as to how i got a perfect score..
HE SAID "NO ONE EVER GETS A PERFECT SCORE ON THE ENGLISH SECTION"!!!!!!!!!
i also finished way ahead of the others…
he asked why i didn't do better in classes; i told him i was just bored spitless…
i finally realised i did not belong with the creatures around me…
i can barely stand woetomen; they are basically intelligent parasites…
i know i don't belong amongst the sheep around me…
oh well, wtf…
No.212068
>>211629>The first day of being born i knew it was overwell you kind of just /thread'ed yourself. If you were 'made' a wizard then that means you weren't one before and are a failed normie. I don't see wizardry as an issue. I see a wizard as someone not capable of fitting into a neurotypical normgroid society and being labled as an outcast. So yes. I was born a wizard too and hopefully so was everyone else here.
No.212109
>>212067> tested extremely high on all the intelligence tests from 1st year thru high school…how high exactly?
No.212112
>>212109not that anon.
just alone the SAT is a national IQ test.
if you're getting perfect scores you can assume he has an IQ higher than 140
No.212115
>>212112the problem with IQ tests is that most are inaccurate and people always try to game the system to gain an advantage…
i see people who claim 220 and higher; a huge load of biden…
the test does not exsist to determine that legitimately…
No.212116
>>212115>>212112The SAT is not an iq test. It is a standardized test used only in america that is meant to test if you know some high school topics. That's it.
No.212117
>>212112I was told i got the 2nd highest score in the entire state.
i was very disappointed in my preformance…
after the principal stopped screaming at me; i got up walked away and never went back…
i don't like the hairless apes that surround me…
they have fancy peices of paper but lack the skills and learning to make them pay
off… sad…
No.212212
Last night I just passed by a group of vagina havers and they all looked at me with a disgust in their faces. It was strange because no male did that while females were trying to mock me with a smile trying to hide their disgust by my presence some giggled and commented on my appearance not to me directly but to their friends. I went outside to buy some cola and snacks to watch anime. I don’t know why people are so shitty. It's always been like this all my life, if I can have a normal relationship with males it's ruined by females who talk shit about me and don't approve of my presence.
No.212220
it's funny, now that i am an AOD i find that the society that surround. me is meaningless, degenerate, and perverted beyond reasonable recovery…
it will not end well…
No.212230
>>212212it's because they think we have shit genes so we ought to die basically. That's normie "empathy" for you. What's funny is that they don't even find it fucked up and they can't imagine it ever happening to them.
No.212231
>>212212Don't underestimate self hatred and insecurity in succubi. They know they're dumb and weak and their only power comes from their sexuality and ability to judge men on whether they deserve it. These miserable bitches do that sort of thing because it's the only way they can hurt someone else. Pay them no mind except maybe pity.
No.212253
>>212231>>212212Around 99% of succubi also expire after 18-early 20s (depending on their genes), whereas men can maintain their physical and mental powers well into old age. This is why succubi are so neurotic and sexually obsessed. You'd be too if you knew your life peaked in your teens and early 20s and then just went off a cliff. They're literal neurotic, deceitful baby factories and sex reward givers for people who are perfect normies and don't give them the ick.
Anyway, if you want to stop being afraid of succubi (or stop seeing them as glamorous), just google birth videos, especially the ones that show "crowning" (when the baby's head is near the vaginal opening) and pay attention to how they push a grapefruit sized head out of a tiny hole, and the baby is covered in dried semen (it can survive for days in the vagina), piss, shit, lube (mucus), amniotic fluid. Their bodies become absolutely busted. It's not fun being a succubus and they know it, so stop caring about their desperate attempts to control you with their "pussy power".
No.212272
>>212267
It's also telling how taboo those things are. Google has even started censoring it and you can't find it without really trying to look for it. No normie talks about it because it breaks the illusion of love, romance, purity, birth being a "beautiful miracle", succubi are wonderful, beauty and youth are forever, being in a relationship is like having a pair of forever young supermodel pair of tits glued to your face 24/7, etc.
No.212314
>>211629Not quite sure honestly. Psychological trauma perhaps? I used to be a chinlet fatty so years of rejection in my teens left me with some weird form of gynophobia. At around 20yo I went full gym rat mode and discovered that I was gifted with lush facial hair so I'm much better in looks department now - subjectively I'd rate myself a 6.5/10 with 5 being average. I'm fine talking to succubi in general but as soon as any romantic or sexual tension arises I enter turbo virgin mode - shaky hands, stutter, avoiding eye contact, fidgeting with my hands and general awkwardness. Might have not been an issue if I was a cute eboy but seeing as I grew into a large burly and muscular bearded man the dissonance between my appearance and behavior makes me look like some sort of creep. I might be subconsciously coping but seeing the shit some of my peers are going through in their relationships I don't think I even want a succubus in my life anymore. I'm just enjoying my life for what it is at the moment.
No.212315
Some are because of being gay, closeted or unrealized
No.212317
>>212315so they can't be wizards. okay.
No.212325
>>211688I am a 5'4 Indian nigga, there ain't no hope for me, I am slowly trying to transition to a wiz from being a crab, but I keep falling back to hatred.
No.212326
>>212325> 5'4 Indianthat's horrible wizard bro. Pretty much you are a cartoon character that no one takes seriously. It's truly over zoomers are taller too the average zoomer is now at least 6 feet.
No.212327
73 in a few more days, 6'+ 234lbs ( i am told by woetoman that i look as tho i'm about 40)…
the reason i am so young looking is i've NEVER BEEN MARRIED!
MARRIAGE TO WOETOMEN WILL KILL YOU! IT IS TO THEIR ADVANTAGE TO DO SO !
EVERY ONE OF THE GUYS I GREW UP WITH LOOKS LIKE THE WALKING DEAD !
the number of hoors i meet looking for their 3rd-4th-5th victim/husband is fooking rediculous in the extreme…
florida/califaguistan/NYC are the worst places to be around hoors, they have divorce lawyers on speed dial…(not a joke)
avoid involvment at all costs…
No.212329
>>211629Growing up in a fetid mold infested swamp trailer with a sexually abusing BPD single mother and an alcoholic absent hateful father does things to a kid, especially when they are forced to be isolated and scared of the world. Other kids pick up on that, they will see you as different and tear into you for easy social points. Collect enough negative interactions, sheer trauma and inherited schizophrenia from a bloodline of cruelty, its easy to see what effect that has on someone. Pure social isolation, fear and dissociation at a young age made me not develop a sense of self until way later. The only time I ever opened up to anyone got me sent to an underfunded mental ward for two weeks where I was assaulted, beaten and sexually abused in a time of extreme vulnerability. It was constant things like that. The minute I could legally leave I did, I used that to build a case for NEETbux and for 6 years now I have been hiding in my room, slowly losing my mind and watching it all decay. I don't blame the world really, I could try making friends online right now but I've convinced myself that everyone on this planet has a heart full of venom. I could try getting a succubus but the thought of sexual activity makes me shake and gag, plus in any romantic fantasy I've had its always been with a man because add being a faggot to the mix of misery. So for now, I enjoy playing classical guitar,drawing and smoking my cigarettes until either I sort out the mess in my head and find a reason to go or rot in this room and die hating the sad eyes I see in the mirror.
tl;dr I am a sad sad man by nurture and nature
No.212330
I don't know. I was born in a country where I could get social welfare relatively easily so it was natural I would drop out of society once I finished high school. Well, here I am, 31 years old, a hopeless wizard.
No.212332
>>212329i wish i could help you somehow, you are not the only one to be getting ef'd over by reality…
people suck, if you show even the slightest weakness they will come at you…
if you can; live for yourself because anyone who shows the least weakness gets eaten…
No.212333
>>212314you don't, you will be much happier without one of the creatures…
No.212339
>>211936paresh sounds like the guy who'd do the succubi homework for free back in high school lmao
Jamal is better desu
No.212900
>>211629a mix of "do what you like anon :)", ingrown toenails preventing me from playing football (soccer for firsties) and being taught to never have friends during early childhood, which made me socially stunted during teen years, when i was getting demands from my grandmother to befriend other teens at my parish but I absolutely refused all demands.
do i really have any excuse?
No.212993
Been overweight my entire life and have always been very much aware of, and self-conscious about it.
Then I gradually realized by observing others that I somehow never picked up essential social knowledge that is apparently natural for everyone else, and so at around wizardry level 34 I just gave up on desiring companionship.
No.213055
>What, my friend, made you a wizard?
I dislike females because they lack souls.
So I decided to no longer be part of the ecosystem, live an unnatural life separated from nature and natural selection.
No.213182
>>211629>What, my friend, made you a wizard? Was it ugliness, mental issues, being ethnic or a combination?I'm schizoid.
No.214041
I don't like humans. That's exactly what made me a wizard.
No.214267
>>211629I want to say a combination of autism and ugliness but also just being a jaded misanthrope old man from a young age.
No.214549
>>211629I'm a manlet and the shame of being one lead to me developing extreme agoraphobia and failing school and becoming a NEET. I have other issues too, like being an autist. But manletism deprived me of the ability to at least masquerade as normal.
No.214550
I don't have any medical diagnostics like autism, i just simply never fit in as a child, and was fundamentally different from normies. Never cared about anything they cared about. Its simple as that. If you're not a normie theres nothing you can do.
No.214551
>>214550I'm tall and good looking as well, which might trigger people but i'm not bnraging i never had a gf. If youre messed up inside it doesn't matter what you look like.
No.214556
>>211629I think I pretty much have it figured out after all these years. Childhood emotional neglect, exposure to porn, my tendency to use avoidance as a way to cope.
No.214592
>>211629I think a lot of people here decided to throw away their lives solely based on an old Japanese joke and the affirmations of on-screen text boxes
No.214612
>>211629not everyone is necessarily against you. Most people don't really care but I think its true that most people are inherently selfish. I'm sorry for what you went through and I hope you find some warmth but does it even matter anymore?
No.214613
5 years of non-stop physical and mental bullying during my formative years at school where I was made out to be a pariah and had my few friends I'd known up to that point betray me. Nothing quite fucks you up like being drenched in water and then punched in the face in front of an entire classroom of your peers laughing at you and then having the teacher, a protective authority figure, fail to stifle a giggle and tell you to get out because you're disrupting her class. It finally made me realise that nobody will help you, nobody cares about you, the system only works for those who fit in, society is evil and you can't trust anybody because they will just hurt you in the end. All of them. I never recovered from those years and it made me avoidant and I've lived on the internet ever since. Except even this was taken from me post 2012 with the mass-influx of outsiders and the centralisation of the internet into just a handful of sites. Even on places like 4chan I no longer feel like I belong. My escapist hobbies in video games, anime and now even manga have been invaded. The feeling of belonging nowhere and a deep-rooted resentment of "normalfags" are core wizardly traits. As is being over 30. Never has this been more true.
No.214619
>>214613yeah very early 1st grade bullying set me for life. and i also had an indifferent and mean teacher.
like i stood up for myself and had a fistfight in the middle of class, and she told both of us not to say hi to her next year. which i did. and then she was like dont u remember me?
but tbh ive come to realize its more about my own bad personality than the bad luck of especially mean classmates. because even in new enviroments with new kids i quickly found myself at the bottom.
> . It finally made me realise that nobody will help you, nobody cares about you, the system only works for those who fit in, society is evil and you can't trust anybody because they will just hurt you in the end. All of them. I never recovered from those years and it made me avoidant and I've lived on the internet ever since. I wish I had learned all those lessons by age 6. But instead I clung to an idealistic optimism that people are actually good, that I only began to shake off in the last 5 years, and still haven't entirely.
> Even on places like 4chan I no longer feel like I belong. The nastiness of places like 4chad, makes me forget why I ran away from people in meatspace to begin with. Can't be any worse.
No.214621
>>214613i have a very similar story of events to yours
and now we're both here
my life was great after school for a while, but it was too late, the damage was already done and beginning to set in
picture a young me being relieved to get out of school and start anew, only to see that the world was exactly like school, and social behaviour doesn't change. you have people mostly around you that haven't moved beyond their school years.
i feel ground to a nub. people that think a lack of sex is their issue are fools. just wait until evil people break you
No.215593
>>214613>It finally made me realise that nobody will help you, nobody cares about you, the system only works for those who fit in, society is evil and you can't trust anybody because they will just hurt you in the end.this isn't hyperbole. im disabled, and was severely injured, unable to walk, have to get around with a shopping trolley, and homeless. i did four months like that i begged hospitals to help me, i tried homelessness centers, hotlines, services. it was just like this, being bullied in high school, the nurses, the staff mockingly contemptful, making light of a severe injured. i desperately needed help for a few severe herniated discs, and one that was completely blown out, extreme pain. no help, none, only derision and judgement and humiliation then showing that it was entertaining for them to see me suffer. i wish i was exaggerating even in the slightest, if anything i don't convey well enough the serious tone and their outright cruelty to another human being. because i didn't get any help, i will never be able to walk normally again, i will never be able to live a normal life or do normal things or look after myself properly.
the world is truly evil, and i mean in a very real satanic sense, that the average person out there is a devil worshiper in their attitudes, beliefs, actions, and opinions, they think they are the salt of the earth too. it's insanely evil and demented and a sign that things are going to come to a head and very very badly for everyone when it collapses.
No.216617
>>215593how are you doing now? Males get the sort end of the stick in this sick society.
No.216618
>>215593>the world is truly evil, and i mean in a very real satanic sense, that the average person out there is a devil worshiper in their attitudes, beliefs, actions, and opinions, they think they are the salt of the earth too. it's insanely evil and demented and a sign that things are going to come to a head and very very badly for everyone when it collapses.well said
No.216631
>>211629Mental issues that were never addressed. Easy to feel worthless when even your family doesn't want you.
No.216652
>>211629I will never know, I remember being sent to a psychologist because I wouldn't make friends along with a distant cousin. The cousin's mother was scolded and there was nothing wrong with him. My mother feared the same, because apparently there was nothing wrong with me. He is married with kids and here I am.
No.217120
>>211629Low motivation and self hatred from an early age my dad was the one that made me try to function normally but that was short lived when I became 18, I began to look uglier so that plummet self esteem more. So I sit in my room and basically live how my mind lets me live. Unhygienic in my room
No.217335
Most of us I assume were born ugly or on the autism spectrum so we did not socialize well.
No.217345
>>217335>normies as referenceBut do we socialize well with our own kind, anon? Do we at least?
No.217438
Jesus fuck apparently wizards suffer from main character syndrome, Jerry level pity manipulation, and a textbook definition of spoiled failures.
No.218708
give or take it's almost the same for everbody
No.219715
>>217438Why shouldnt I be the main character of my own life? You must be some peak normalgoon lurker to say that against it.
No.219722
>>211629this isnt my first magical experience but it is one that I will share…
>in 4th gradei simply had a teacher that i hated so much. i even threw a book at her because she tried to make me read in the library.
>in 5th gradeevery time i saw her in passing i gave her dirty hateful looks. i would whisper– not gossip– not rumours– but truths about her to my peers while making eye contact with her. this made the teacher see other kids facial reactions when i said things about her
>in 6th gradewe got a new guidance counselor at the school. she called me to individually talk to me about what was going on. she revealed to me that i had been making ms binci cry…
in that moment i realized i was selected by Saturn to wield the evil eye. i have honed it sense.
i was a wizard conceived in the ocean so there was no origin to be as my source is my self and is the source for all.
No.219723
I got all of my self esteem beaten out of me from a very young age. I was terible at socializing because I was afraid no one would like me. Over time I kinda just forgot how to socialize and be myself around people so I naturally self isolated.
No.219724
I was always naive and had zero self-awareness. Most of the time I didn't realize that nobody likes me. I even didn't know that people were bullying me. Just had this delusion that everybody likes me for some reason. I was gifted in terms of education - maybe that's why I held to that delusion that people respect me just because I have good grades. Up until 23 years old when I ralized how much of an idiot I've been. Doing insanely retarded stuff all the time, saying inapriopriate things, dressing like a moron. I guess I deserved to be bullied. That time I turned full recluse mode. Now I have extreme social anxiety and schizophrenia.
No.219725
>>219723ok but when did you start studying the occult? surely you did not just sperg out and watch all of dan da dan without realizing that (you) need to start studying the occult learning from the planets and the stars to wield them. dont let big govt turn you into a human sacrifice in the space wars
No.219726
>>219724use those pathetic feelings when meditating to make your self invisible. Dont bottle up your desire to be left alone. let it out and the universe will acquiesce to you
you can at do chaos magic surely
No.219733
>>219724>I deserve to be bullied for not being aware enough of how to be loved by normiesIf you despise yourself for having
our values, feel free to be abandoned inside your mental shithole.
>>219723I also was terrible at socializing, before I started thinking about how less than nothing others would do to correctly socialize with me. So I defined as correct socializing as whatever I feel to, often in disregard of normalcy. AS TRUWIZARDS SHOULD DO.
No.219799
>>219733society wants slave conformity
No.219810
>>212329Imagine having a shit life( not as bad as a kid). And abuse still livinf with my mother as an adult and not even ending up with schizo or anything extreme. Luckily i think im autistic. SSI going to be hard to get on
No.219828
>>211631
maybe but I am glad that I have seen it
No.219858
>>211629Moved around a lot when I was younger and didn't make strong connections with people. Didn't really want to. Didn't want to be involved with succubi or "friend groups". Seemed fake. Dropped out of highschool and bummed around while reading a lot. Had to work so got shitty jobs and had no interest with making relationships with the people I met. Life kept on moving and I discovered more hobbies and a decent enough path in life. I would say it just kind of happened, but I think it's always been like this.
No.219862
My parents were killed in an alley after we had been to see The Mark of Zorro.
No.219865
>>219862Do you have a butler?
No.219867
>>219862I too am secretly a super hero
No.220101
i am here because I like interesting website and people.
No.220300
i blame my parents
part of it is probably a shitty genetic roll of the dice, part of it is my esl dad who only ever seemed to care for me superficially, and then never really getting the proper help i needed as a kid
i think i may be a little autistic, and borderline but it comes and goes
at times i'll feel no different from other people but sometimes i'll fall into a spiral
i dont know if its true autism or just a bunch of mental issues that appear similar, and i was tested for it as a kid but they only diagnosed me with adhd
i spend a lot of time getting depressed over embarrassment over my own actions so i mostly choose to be alone which is another major contributor
No.220301
>>220300Practically everyone who ends up wizard is to some degeee autistic or schizoid.
It's just the nature of the beast. Doesn't mean something is "wrong" with you, the world simply doesn't like or accommodate such people well.
No.220304
>>220101whats so intresting about a wizard?
No.220305
>>220304more importantly, normalfags aren't interesting
No.220318
I just remember going to a therapist when I was age 9 or 10 and I told her I really wanted to fucking die, and she told my parents. Then some Jew gave me Prozac and told me my teenage years were going to suck. She wasn't wrong.
I've got to the point where I'm at peace with myself and find the desire to die as normal as living another day. I just have to blink and I will eventually be 50.
Absolutely no desire to be with succubi, I keep to my particular interests and have a way of seeing the world, and live to be cozy. I cannot say there is much going on for me in life, but I don't desire much either.
No.220360
Cruel family
No.220363
narcissistic evil older sibling, anxious overprotective low IQ mother, distant financially abusive alcoholic father