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[–]  No.220564>>220568>>220575>>220921>>220946[Watch Thread]

My whole life I was treated like shit both at home and anywhere else. I coped to the extent I could with a mix of denial and dissociation. Only recently, after going no contact with my family and finding some people that seem to respect me to some extent, I have started to be honest with myself and process how much I've been bullied. Any small event or thought will trigger anger which can last from a few hours up to the the whole day. It makes me wonder how much I can truly recover and if I will ever not be angry. If you have any insights or similar experiences please share them in this thread.

[–]  No.220565>>220946

My only advice is for you to get into lifting or better boxing, martial arts, kick boxing, etc, it will help you to vent all the negative "energy" inside of you

[–]  No.220567

I'm sorry you're in pain. I will say this though: you will recover to the exact extent you believe yourself capable of recovering, no more no less. Actually physically separating from the source of the abuse is the most important step, and you seem to have already achieved that. What's left for you now is how to psychologically manage things you've already been through. And this course is wholly within your own choosing. However maintaining the positive mentality that you can make a full recovery is one of the wisest things you can do. Also remembering that it is not your fault for having been born into a painful situation surrounded by cruel people will help you to remove any guilt or self-criticism you might feel for the things you have suffered. Lastly I wouldn't trouble myself with asking "will I ever not be angry" because anger is the correct healthy response to injustice, and you shouldn't necessarily be trying to get rid of it, but rather to handle it and engage with it in a way that doesn't overwhelm you.

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>>220564 (OP)
Why did you get bullied?
My problem with being bullied is that technically all the reasons I was bullied are still true. I'm still ugly, I still have no personality, etc.
I feel like when most people online talk about getting bullied it was for some noble reason because they were too special or awesome and everyone was jealous of them.

[–]  No.220569

Hey yeah I was bullied, though only for a few months before I changed schools. Was angry too, and I had fantasies of revenge. What helped me move on was understanding the bullies' perspective. It was their way of unloading their own anger and hopelessness, and I just happened to be there, weak and vulnerable.

[–]  No.220575

>>220564 (OP)
I just turned 39. In my case it still gnaws away at me deep inside. I still experience rage and fury as opposed to mere anger at the flick of a switch and it's tiring as all hell.

[–]  No.220921

>>220564 (OP)
I hasn't gone away for me, though the fact that you at least have found some people who respect you, should make those scars heal, maybe I don't know for sure.
>>220568
you get bullied because you're weak and vulnerable that's it

[–]  No.220946

>>220564 (OP)
You still can be blackmailed by criminal groups living near to you. Have you got ready to minimally make them regret their mere existence?

Your soul needs revenge. But you might not even have a gun with you. Nor a strategy against anyone chasing you or making your life impossible. How to get rid of corpses, how to sow terror without being seen…

Cops are pretty little beyond decorative goons of an elite who gives less than a penny for your welfare.

>>220565
This would just be a nice start. Are you (OP) minimally caring for your fitness, wiz? DID YOU LEARN THE LESSON OF SUCH EVENTS WHERE YOU WERE CLEARLY OUTNUMBERED AND OVERPOWERED?



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