No.224267
I finished school a decade ago. I will be 27 in a few months.
This thread is based on a similar one I saw about 2 years ago. I am a relatively new, and started using the board in 2021. As I got older, I came to the conclusion that the lack social skills, while essential to my personality, is not something that I can take pride in, or enjoy discussing, nor is my approaching middle age. If anything, I tend to be nostalgic about and idealize my youth when my chronic health problems were less evident. I am glad for you if this board somehow gave you catharsis, lifted you up, or blackpilled you in a profound way (if that is what you wanted), it’s just that I feel that wouldn’t fit in here (or any other imageboard). Some of the things you post here look like something I would come up with in my late teens or early 20s, back when I had the energy to take the memes too seriously.
>you’re not a true wizard if you don’t consume anime etc.
As if the action of wasting time on something else other than gook media would nullify the a(nti)social behavior acquired by a person over the years. I don’t get it, which probably has a lot to with me being more focused on survival rather than self expression since I’m a poorfag that lives in the shithole of *kraine (there are worse places to live in, I am obviously privileged since I do not work, and I do not deserve pity for personal reasons not directly related to the topic of this post).
I find that doomscrolling, be it normie comments under the youtube videos or the imageboards is detrimental for my sanity, and I would rather spend time on any type of escapism. Going offline for extended periods of time appears to be an even better option, but I don’t have the strength for it. Even wallowing in my thoughts as I attempt amateur psychoanalysis, while much like the doomscrolling, ultimately does not better my situation, is less harmful, because it lacks the aspect of repeating an action for a dopamine release.
No.224270
>>224267Have you never attempted university goaded by your family? I did a few times, been in and out of higher education for the last 7 years since I finished school. I can't seem to stick to it.
>Some of the things you post here look like something I would come up with in my late teens or early 20s, back when I had the energy to take the memes too seriously. I don't think I'm the only one who posts them in a clumsy attempt to have fun in the manner they best knew. It's the same reason I fire up the same old games in an attempt to live out my nostalgia. I was happy in my early 20s because I got to live alone and meet the goals I set myself as a kid, specific achievements in some games. My nag of a mom didn't allow me too much game time. However, a switch flipped when I turned 23.
Go for some walks if you want to escape from the internet, as long as the cold weather still lasts. It's rather cold for late May, I hope summer doesn't come any time soon. Sometimes I waver going out for a walk because I developed a bizarre gait and I sometimes mutter under my breath. I know people stare but I don't hate it. It's a sobering thought that we've become the people our mothers told us to avoid on the street. I also hate seeing teens who remind me I am a decade older.
No.224277
>>224270>Have you never attempted university For about 4 days. Got into uni for free after finishing school. In retrospect, I obviously fucked up big time: this wasn't the time to be NEET. I should've seen the writing on the wall after 2014, got an eductation, trade, and accumulated enough money to settle abroad and leave this territory doomed to destruction by the shitlibs.
>goaded by your family?They were rather liberal and allowed me do nothing without pressure.
>as long as the cold weather still lastsI used to like cool wet weather in my teens, but now it's the opposite I'm into hot dry weather. I don't mind getting my legs covered in rural dirt road dust in 30°C heat.
>Go for some walks if you want to escape from the internetI'd be glad to touch grass, if i wasn't hiding form the mobilization.
No.224297
>>224277>For about 4 days. Got into uni for free after finishing school. In retrospect, I obviously fucked up big time: this wasn't the time to be NEETI'm about to drop out for the third time at 25 but that's a story for another time (don't want to derail your thread). Worst part is that I know it's a sink or swim situation, but let's hope that my shithole implements gibs within a decade or so, if the economic trend continues. I've been NEET for 3 years so far overall.
What did you do only for 4 days there, why even bother going? Just because that's the custom?
I forgot about mobilization. I hope it's over and you won't have to lay low anymore. Imagine living worse than Scandinavian inmates. I'd be the same, but gladly my shithole R*mania is as free as it has ever been. I actually go out on walks so I can't say I live like a prisoner. Do you at least have open balcony where you can get some sun?
>I used to like cool wet weather in my teens, but now it's the opposite I'm into hot dry weatherYes same, I started running cold at 24 as if a switch flipped. Went from sleeping in 19-20° to 24° preferably, but I still do 19° when it's -10° to -15° outside due to costs. I like walking in cool weather because you warm up eventually anyway, and the cloudy skies look kino.
No.224300
>>224297>don't want to derail your threadNobody cares this thread got 2 replies. Go for it if you feel like it.
>What did you do only for 4 days there, why even bother going? Just because that's the custom?Can't remember exactly. I was probably afraid of missing out on the opportunity for free education, and at same time, waking up on time, and navigating a huge uni seemed like a task for a responsible adult (one which I wasn't fit for). Another thing that contributed to rapid burnout is that I did not stay in the dorm and instead took daily 1 hour long bus trips to and from uni and back to my home town.
I was supposed to get an English language teacher trade which is rather crazy, since I barely had enough energy to deal with high school myself, and they somehow expect me to teach others? In 9-11th form I had terrible marks, rarely did homework, and missed about 40% of school days. Can't recall if I ever attended a full 5 day week in my 11th year of school. I'm surprised they didn't make me stay for the second year.
>I hope it's overDon't.
>Do you at least have open balcony where you can get some sun?I do. Kind of afraid to use it out of fear of attracting unwanted attention from the neighbors and the police passing by.
No.224306
28 here, been NEETing since the age of 20 when I had a suicide attempt which made it clear to my family that they shouldn't force me to be a normalfag.
Yes, scrolling aimlessly and reading other people's online brainvomits is pointless and harmful yet I still come here so I can argue with others over stupid shit and to get some attention. But I am always contemplating whether to stop coming here. There was a period of a year or so when I was just focusing my energy purely on escapism. And I think that was better in a way. But it's hard not to seek out some communication. It's not about relating to others for me but about venting. Maybe I should just write a book already. I already write shitty poems from time to time in my mother tongue.
And also, after years of consuming media and escapism my tendency to just daydream and fantasize while listening to music became much stronger. I find my own fantasies and my own personality more interesting than watching a movie or reading some book.
I recommend exercising if you don't do it already. It's a good time waster and at least you will look good for what it's worth for people like us.
No.224309
>>224306>after years of consuming media and escapism my tendency to just daydream and fantasize while listening to music became much strongerGood for you. The opposite happened to me as I chose (or not, if it was mostly subconscious) to avoid the fantasy and to suffer in reality.
>I recommend exercising if you don't do it already.I saw how other people go about sports, and they ought to gain pleasure from it. It brings mostly pain to me, and the feeling that some tendon in my limbs will snap at any second. I'm rather weak and never done a single pull up in my life, I don't know the limits of my body and once injured a shoulder as i was exercising. The effects of the injury were felt for several years. The only exercise I can preform semi-competently are squats (25-30 in a row).
No.224424
Hey, I'm a fellow *kranian in a similar same situation as you.
Finished school 11 years ago, now 26, and coming up on 11 years of living as a shut-in.
I was doing ok for a while, but not so much anymore.
Living by myself ever since mom kicked the bucket 2 years ago.
Got a pretty bleak future ahead all-in-all.
I was living vicariously through making games and daydreaming about being creative, but I had to give that up, and now make vidya slop for others online.
Trying to save up a lot of money in hopes life will not feel so bad in the future and I'll be able to go out at some point again and then mostly retire.
Living under fascism is one of the brutal things about all this, I'm super afraid of going outside and order all my groceries online.
This country and our system is absolute torture for people that don't fit in.
Everything here was pretty much designed and built to break people like us.
All the schools, jobs, the psychiatric system, and social norms - we pay the insane toll of suffering for the cheap cost of living.
There's no surprises that we're completely broken people, that's simply the ukrainian system to crush people working as intended.
And while we're too afraid to go outside to get sent to march to death against Russia for nothing, succs in our age-group either move abroad or are having the time of their life here.
I also got into uni, went there for 2 weeks feeling like a complete subhuman alien, locked myself at home and I'm still in that room rotting to this day.
Money is pretty trivial to make, but it feels so useless, and there's no semblance of meaning left in my life.
Being a good tool and having skills is really not as meaningful as people tend to preach.
I wish you the best, none of us deserve this life.
No.224425
15 years
No.224427
О, нас тепер буде троє укрочаклунів.
IMHO, all of the Eastern Europe is a hellhole for anyone who is not a psychopathic turbo normie who is cutthroat and ready to climb above others. This system is built to filter anyone who doesn't fit in. The current regime in our country is a fucking gay faggot fascism. Like, not a real fascism which at least was badass, but the lame and gay one. Only kikes and sociopathic turbo normies can survive here, and for survival they cheat, lie, steal and even kill people.
But from my perspective, this is a deliberate effort to destroy everything that is not psychopathic or outriggt evil. A century long process of behavioral and genetic engineering to create the ultra gopnik or whatever you would call those "people" this cursed land breeds. And I can't stress enough how elites now this land is cursed, so they put enough effort to breed that new man.
I think this land is cursed. The soil itself is cursed. Call it *kraine, Scythia, whatever. This place has dangerous energy and nothing good came out of it.
No.224430
>>224427As a balkan wiz I agree. Something about the gene pool here has been corrupted permanently. It's like psychopaths have completely overtaken it. Only a huge world war can act as a cleanse.
We will never, ever have an egalitarian fair society like Norway, Finland or such places. Evil is glorified, celebrated and encouraged. People laugh at kindness and mock it. Even open violence against children is ultra-common.
No.224431
>>224430Pretty much.
Our boomers and their parents were so insanely evil compared to the rest of the world, that they built this nightmare that resembles a torture chamber.
You can see how sick, hypersexual and violent us slavs have always been in "The Painted Bird"
Our society is big on child abuse, then parents were abused and then did the same and worse to their children, which continues massively to this day.
And trauma of atrocities we all committed against each other exacerbated this.
As some anecdotes, during the 20s famine, my grandparent's neighbor boiled and ate her child.
Then in the 70s, another succ took an axe and chopped off her husband's testicles, and he then later committed suicide.
Every normie drinks and gets violent. That and crime are ultimately rewarded in our society.
"To have committed every crime but that of being a father."
The suffering is especially unbearable here. But we really deserve the worst.
No.224994
>>224424I heard a not MSM news reporter once say: "The Ukraine is not controlled by the deep state, it IS the deep state."
And it stuck with me since.
It seems like it's the globalists holy cow. That's why they move all resources to protect it.
No.225070
>>224994>it IS the deep state.That would be Israel. Hohols are to dysgenic and retarded to be the crown jewel of american civilization. They are mere savages that were given flintlock muskets, got into a war with another tribe, and now are demanding more muskets.
It is funny, how the very much civilized brits ditched the EU, while the savage hohols sent 500,000-1,000,000 of their countrymen to death for a carrot-on-a-stick promise of EU membership, thinking that it is THE silver bullet. Our attempts at LARPing as western Europeans and Americans are especially pathetic: western-manufactured neoliberal "values", are grafted to where regionally do not belong (frankly, it appears, that they do not belong anywhere) and their distilled hypocrisy is evident against a background of common slav(e)ic savagery.
>>224997>Adunaiis that someone's nickname? i don't see how LOTR or a painting of an arahamic martyr relates to anything that i wrote.
No.225093
It is worth it be a NEET?
Or everything in moderation?
No.225095
>>22426740 yo here, yeah, been neeting for at least 8 years, mother isn't getting any younger AND the neetbux are drying out here, they put pressure on you and force you to have "activities" (with other people) and show you're actually looking for work… yeah holidays are over, too bad I can't get anything but low wage slave tier jobs now and/or being with low IQ stacies etc… welp… at least I'll inherit some, if mother doesn't have to be put in pension home by then, lol… if so, well, that will be suicide for me I guess, finally.
No.225130
>>224994Not a single reporter ever said that. Take your meds