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 No.300362[Reply]

I am angry over the fact my parents put a massive amount of cash and investment to help my older brother set up his career while i didn't get a fraction of the same financial support and investment they put into my older brother.
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 No.300395

>>300394
Yep, it's just OP is a failed batch. His brother seem to do fine, even inspiring confidence in parents.

 No.300398

>>300394
Every single problem comes from reproduction, stop defending sex-havers

 No.300399

>>300398
Your satirical impression of anti-natalist misanthropes isn't as funny now as it was 10 years ago.

 No.300401

this means that if you end up making BIG WIZBUCKS, you wont feel compelled to share

 No.300464

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>>300393
I agree it's better to avoid having children, but i can't bring my self to hate my parents even if my relationship with one of them is bad, hating my parents or being angry at them will not do anything to improve anythig, i am in this game that i never chose to participate in knowing what is awaiting me, i just ought to keep playing and try to get good at the game of life.


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 No.299535[Reply]

I want to shoot myself in the head with a gun on a crowded street
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 No.299721

If you did it in a crowded place there's a good chance you'd get immediate medical attention, which could result in your survival. This could entail doctors performing a medical "reconstruction" of your face if it was blown off, as well as possible brain damage (meaning you'll live the rest of your life retarded) or permanent paralysis. Imagine the bullet damaging your spinal cord and then being forced to stay alive with everything below your neck paralyzed. Bad idea.

 No.299725

Same id love to see blissfully ignorant normies traumatized and turned mentally ill then they can walk in our shoes for goddamn once..

 No.299727

>>299718
>>299719
>>299706
Even in these supposed last moments Wiz thinks about the judgement of his peers but not about himself. I feel that's the real prison.

 No.299733

>>299721
the key is to shoot through your ears, not your throat or forehead. Once the bullet goes through both hemisphere's of your brain that's it. And even if he ends up a vegetable I doubt he will care. Just don't be a jerk and get someone else killed with your bullet.

 No.300434

>>299721
tbh, people who blow up their face instead of their brain deserve their life of misery
how do you fuck up that? bullet to the head is the most succesful solution with a success rate of 99% and higher depending on the type of firearm


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 No.297373[Reply]

36 years old Wizard here with Schizophrenia living with mom (dad died a long time ago) I don't have any qualifications or income I am disabled and there is no NEETbux in my under developed country my hairline is receding due to how much I stress on my future in every single hour once my mom passes away I will be beyond doomed nobody in my family will support me they all live far away and they can barely support their own survival let alone to support another useless eater my mom already has health issues but nothing too severe (yet) is it possible to turn my life around in this late ago? people say "it's never too late" God I wish my parents never gave birth to me I heard stories og people who spent decades in prison and left by their 40s and still ended up starting a business and buying a house but I can tell it's an abnormal case once you enter your 30s without any skills qualifications or are capeable of work the chance of you being capeable of turning your life around becomes too small.
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 No.300159

>>298424
Cities dehumanize people because nobody is truly essential in cities especially in 2025. But it was also the case in the 1800s.

20-30% of the people living in 1800s cities were not necessary for its economy, such as the Greater London area. They were vagabonds, unemployed journeymen, beggars, thieves, handymen and gamblers. Dying of starvation and easily curable disease was very common.

In a village every single person is needed for basic sustenance.
You're anonymous in cities if you're not part of the high status elite. The worker drones often suffer from very high costs of living and low wages compared to those living costs.

 No.300160

>>298424
Good post, you are completely right

 No.300171

>>300159
Cities used to be where the excess poor went due to overpopulation. They historically have always been meatgrinders that just chew up the population growth of the countryside.

 No.300184

>>300171
Reading up on what Paris or London was like just a couple hundred years ago is fascinating and disgusting at the same time.
Everyone except the aristocracy is surrounded by sewage, horseshit, giant rats, typhoid fever, fleas and bugs 24/7.

There was a big cottage industry built around making small vinaigrette boxes (metal box with herbs and fragrant oils inside that you would smell when you went outside, so you don't faint or pass out within 10 seconds from the dystopian stench).

 No.300218

>>300184
Reminds me of the novel Perfume by Patrick Suskind, which has a good first chapter and then turns into shit, much like the smell of the 1800s streets so exhaustively described.


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 No.298876[Reply]

I do nothing besides doomscrolling, going outside for a while and maybe read for an hour a day (if i can find a book that interests me) or watch an episode of some anime but the rest of the day is spent doomscrolling on my computer, I am too insomniac and have bladder issues to spend half or most my days sleeping to pass my days with sleep like many NEETs can do with ease, there is just no way for me to get out of this cycle, at least not on my own, I need money and connections, most importantly MONEY.
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 No.299232

>>299218
No, even a lot of working professionals in big cities can't afford the luxury of enough space for gym equipment. It isn't a scam to them, it's the only way to get a proper workout.

 No.299233

>>299218
You must have no idea how small many people's apartments are.

 No.299598

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Take it easy.

 No.300196

>>299113
>just take shrooms
I always wanted to try. How does a total antisocial 0 network wizard even get access to this type of stuff?
I bet if I tried I'd get vanned or given poisoned shrooms.

 No.300197

>>300196
In some countries there is a loophole and you can legally buy a grow kit. The fruit bodies would still be illegal though.


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 No.299267[Reply]

Any other wizzies have substance addiction problems? This falls under general addiction problems, but I suspect being trapped inside all day like a caged animal and the existence of DNM has made enough people here quasi drug addicts. My personal weaknesses are opiates, benzos and cigarettes; I wouldn't say I'm addicted, but even thinking about never again feeling the warm embrace of opiates or the soothing release of benzos makes me feel ill.
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 No.300082

>>300081
> I have been doing it since I was in second grade or hell even first grade
i did that too at that age. i wonder how common it is. Weird that most people seem to pretend children are not sexual

 No.300085

>>300084
>most people
that's a big WIzard SHIT "most people" lmao!!
>And researches are clear kids start exploring their sexuality at 9
who the fuck are even these researchers researching little kid witchies rubbing their cunnies… can i get this job with a s.t.e.m degree ?

 No.300086

It's widely observed that many individuals begin exploring their sexuality between the ages of 12-14. However, research on this subject is limited, as studies on such sensitive topics can be controversial and researchers may avoid them to prevent any legal issues. It's also noted that children start to develop an awareness of their sexuality as early as 9 years old. While I personally have concerns about what some might consider inappropriate behavior for that age, this is not to say that I hold extreme views about age differences in relationships. I’m cautious about discussing these matters openly, as the legal and social environments surrounding them are complex. People are often reluctant to voice their opinions for fear of being labeled inappropriately, and that fear has contributed to a climate where these discussions are stifled.
>>300081
>>300085
>>300082
Anyways be careful discussing this, normies and feds are always looking to make arrests. Not worth the trouble imo.

 No.300117

Does maladaptive daydreaming count as one? It's kind of like a drug allowing you to zone out completely. Makes you ignore your real world problem, you put some music on and you constantly imagine a scenario, you talk to yourself, go over it. Just imagine seeing yourself in the third person walking in a room, circle by circle, listening to music, talking to yourself, and I am pretty sure you're looking at someone who is severely mentally ill. I have had it since childhood, on and off. I know what I am about to say will sound like blasphemy here but a lot of times, I just wish I was a normal person.

 No.300163

Came back from work, my mom forgot to take my sheets in from the rain ffs. Gonna take some oxy and drink some rum until I drift off to the void, hopefully these pills kick in soon so I can forget that I'm alive.


>>300045
I wish I was as naïve and young as you.


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 No.293203[Reply]

I'm going broke, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I went to 4 doctors to treat it, but none of them worked, and no matter how many medications I took, I was never able to overcome this problem. But these only caused me terrible side effects, such as fatigue, weight gain, apathy, a lot of disinterest in everything, and alopecia, but they were never able to attack the impulses. Violence never stops.
Sometimes I blame my family for raising me in such a violent environment, but then I think it's better to bury the past and look forward. But sometimes it is difficult, since it is not about the violence of 10 or 15 years ago, it is about things sometimes from less than a week ago.

I feel like an alcoholic, where instead of keeping a place free of that poison, it is offered to me in all shapes, sizes, colors and flavors.
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 No.299258

>>299257
When i was a teenager and very drunk a succubus literally dragged me into a bathroom and started trying to pull my pants down. Basically attempted rape. I have zero attraction to succubi so will had nothing to do with it. I'm not even attractive though, there are just crazy drunk demons out there.

All wizards actively reject sex. ANYONE can get it if they actually try. Even if prostitution is illegal it's your choice to not get on a plane.

Your crabposting is fucking annoying

 No.299744

>>299258
>I have zero attraction to succubi
that's a weird thing to say

 No.300089

>>294068
Reminds me of a kid I knew in 7th grade who was balding HARD. seriously he must have been like 9 or 10? How does that even happen. the top of his fringe was easily 2 inches ahead the sides of his fringe, it's supposed to be a straight line

 No.300090

>>300089
Genetics obviously play a part but I think that kid must've had some terrible shit happening to him at home. Stress can do that to you too.

 No.300097

>>294097
>>294101
Jews are not high iq, otherwise they wouldn't worship saturn.
They are very cunning but low iq just like the rest of normalfags.


 No.300064[Reply]

Did you imagine you would end up like this as a kid? What happened with that happy child? Where are those childhood friends now? Where are those memories, those places, those moments…? I'm so broken right now. I barely exist in the meatspace. I'm a ghost, a shell of my former self. Nothing feels real or right. Everything keeps getting worse.
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 No.300071

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As a kid I was amazed by adults and all the things they could accomplish and I thought I would somehow naturally grow into it but it never happened. Nothing feels effortless. I have no confidence in anything which is why I am alone and a NEET. I can't imagine being capable of producing value someone would pay for. I can't imagine anyone wanting to spend time with me. I am constantly anxious. I thought maybe antideprassants will change something but nope.

 No.300074

>>300064
>Did you imagine you would end up like this as a kid?
I don't think I ever thought seriously about the future. I just assumed everything would work out okay.
I'm well aware that tragedy happens naturally, while good times only come from effort. I've just never put much effort into anything so here I am.
It's my fault, but will I change? Nope.

 No.300080

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>>300064
I certainly did not think I would end up this way. My childhood/teens was far from peaceful or perfect but I am still grateful for the nice moments I had playing games with friends (like pic rel), imagining some fairy tale future where I live happily in Japan or discovering some new anime or game. Around 13-14 I realized that I was falling behind socially, a lot of my friends from before started to pine for the attention of succubi, going out to party and drink and such in order to fit in. That's when I truly started to feel apart from people as I was unwilling to give up myself for a semblance of social acceptance. But I think even that younger version of me thought that I would find my place somewhere, eventually. That I would find a career, a gee-eff, move out and have my own place etc. Becoming a wizard was something I would often joke about back then in a self deprecating kind of way. Now, over a decade later, I'm inching closer to it with every day. I have failed university, though not for lack of trying. I have given up on my future prospects. I know in my bones that I will stay in my mom's house until I die. I'm trying to be thankful for the life I have, since it's far from unbearable, at least materially. But I would be lying if I said that there wasn't still a longing for more. For the life I was promised from a young age. Or at least the kind of joy I was able to experience all those years ago. I suppose resignation will become acceptance with enough time passing by.

 No.300088

I sort of imagined i'd get fixed into being a normal person once I was older. I still essentially carry the same issues and fears as I did when I was a child, I only have experience on how to deal with them now. I have not conquered the fundamental issues. I don't really mind though, I'm not going to try any more to break what my DNA is. The only other thing I imaged was being relatively rich. That's funny as I am barely getting by and retirement surely isn't an option. Once i'm 65+ or unable to work I guess I'll be left to rot on the streets without any safety net. Scary to think about, it's even scarier to think how much worse it'll probably be than what I imagine in my head

 No.300091

>>300064
>Did you imagine you would end up like this as a kid?
Yeah, pretty much. The jokes about me having a robot girlfriend (much like the Detergent track) started when I was about 12, so it's no one's surprise.
>What happened with that happy child?
I'm probably a bit happier than I was as a child
>Where are those childhood friends now?
I didn't have any past age 9
>Where are those memories, those places, those moments?
I'm still reliving them in this office chair I've conducted my life in.
>I'm so broken right now.
Sorry to hear that
>I barely exist in the meatspace.
Same. I roll with it because it was effectively a conscious deciscion on my part to live like this.
>Nothing feels real or right. Everything keeps getting worse.
Well enjoy things as they are knowing that it's just going to get worse


 No.298755[Reply]

I'm not from first world and every time I read mental health and despaircore discourse I see how people "try multiple therapists". How the fuck do you afford them? Don't they charge literal hundreds of dollars per session? And people do these for months, years. How are NEETs and jobless useless wizards supposed to "just get therapy"? For a few years I fantasized about how this magic therapy is cure-all and could fix me, but after asking people "what do you actually do in therapy" people give incredibly vague answers and either show no progress or they never really had this kind of problems i'm having in the first place. More to that, there are places like therapyabuse forum or other spaces which blatantly say that these sessions with expensive psychologists don't do anything at all at best, and are actively resentful of you if you're a failed person at worst.

How come so much of this mental health "please get help" stuff hinges on therapy stuff? I still feel like I'm missing something.
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 No.298847

>>298802
A Spanish succubus. I like the notion. This is very inspiring.

 No.300012

Bump because its still a fascinating topic.

 No.300018

>>298755
Therapy is another jew run scam.
Only wyman like it.

 No.300020

>>298755
Where I live my insurance covers it. That being said you aren't missing out on anything most of the time. Most therapists are useless. Most problems people go to therapists for aren't something some stranger from outside your circle can help you with. Essentially most normies just rent someone to vent and rant about their lives to for 50 minutes so they feel well enough to continue trucking on for another week until the next session. If you have actual behavioral issues, addictions, trauma etc that is affecting your life, a good therapist can probably help with that. Emphasis on GOOD therapist. Again, most are just quacks who are in it for the easy bucks they can get by pretending to care about normies' problems.

 No.300040

i had a psychotic episode a few years ago, after a stay at the psych ward they told me to go see a psychtrist at this free clinic, well its not free, they made me sign up for insurance and also for welfare.

anyways, he give me the brain pills


 No.299973[Reply]

So my theory is that life is literally hell and we're designed to suffer. Think about how many living beings have been enduring diseases, murders, poverty, infections, mutilations, chronic conditions, abuse, torture, cold/hot weather, injuries, hunger, etc…the amount of suffering being endured on earth is absurd. Literally every single living being will experience a sheer amount of suffering during their life even if they win the lottery. From this we can say that reproduction is the core of all suffering, those that don't reproduce are saints. Our body is our main enemy, we don't even control our brain functions. It's legit to say we live in a mad world probably a mad universe and killing yourself is the only way out.
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 No.299980

i hate humanity, all my enemies are in-humanity

 No.299981

>>299974
>one day the whole humanity will go extinct
Good, extinction will not come soon enough.

>>299979
>what awaits you is just an instant "respawn"
Prove it, I don't believe we will experience life again after this life, the universe should rearrange in the same identical way to recreate your consciousness…which is likely impossible.

 No.299982

>>299981
the universe is made from electric energy, same electric energy is what powers your brain and all the cells in your body.
the body is basically just a closed electric circuit trapping electricity from the universe.
once this body dies that electric energy isnt lost, energy can neither be created nor destroyed, only altered in form thats the first law of thermodynamics.
eventually that energy gets recycled back into a lifeform, it doesnt even need to be a 1:1 copy of your brain, it can be anything that provides a point of view into the universe so after respawn you maybe find yourself to be some animal or a human or anything else that crawls on this rock.
again, there is no escape from this.
I can also say this from personal experience, I always had the feel that this is not the first time that I'm alive.

 No.299983

It breaks my heart, but i have faith even the Demiurge will be redeemed. Meaning us. God for me is nothingness.NO-THING. It is beyond divinity. Beyond anything. Paradox. We will get there.

Timeloop or respawn is a serious possibility. I feel like the future us are already there with their quantum supercomputers studying us. All those antinatalists are being punished because they did not contribute to creating Roko's Basilisk. Now with the next respawn or loop, procreate and contribute to its creation and you will be spared. Not rly :D

 No.299984

>>299981
I believe in a similar idea, but not for the magic electricity reasons like the other guy.
What we know is that we became a conscious being from a prior state of nonexistence. This happened once for definite. So if we assume an infinite future, what has happened once will happen again. Maybe not in a hundred billion years, but eventually it will happen - bearing in mind that when you're unconscious any amount of time passes instantly. That is only considering the endless possibilities of THIS universe, without accounting for a possible multiverse.
Of course, it could also be that this universe ends in Heat Death forever, and that's all there is to it. But that seems unlikely to me. Like even after a trillion gazillion years, nothing will ever happen again? Possible, but doesn't strike me as right.


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 No.299873[Reply]

my parents were poor so was I (still am) and they told me if I have good grades they can buy me things but I know deep down they don't have the money to buy me things even if I had good grades.
any poor who can relate or even any poor who got good grades but your parents didn't pay you things because they you were too poor?
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 No.299946

Sorry for your pain, wizanon, poverty is the worst thing in this earth I.M.O, esp when most people around you have it much better than you, it's a trap that you NEED luck to escape.

 No.299947

just use ai to create an only fans foid account and collect simp bucks.

 No.299950

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>>299948
you must

 No.299955

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>>299952
Did you ever hear the tragedy of Darth Plagueis the Wise?

 No.299964

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>>299962
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQw4w9WgXcQ


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