/dep/ - Depression

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>>304719
My whole life ive been an autistic and depressed loner that couldnt really connect with normalfags. This one year, when I was around 18/19 was the only exception. But as i said before, I realised that I have little in common with these people and that it is not possible for me to establish a deep connection with them.. They probably also realised that and stopped inviting me at some point. So no, I wouldnt call myself a failed normie

>>304723
>So no, I wouldnt call myself a failed normie
Of course you wouldn't. Dude really stop being a crab. Go socialize. Party with better people. Get a degree. You won't be happy as a crab.

>>303032
I knew it was over for me when an ugly bitch in school told everyone she was my girlfriend for a few weeks until some chad felt bad for her and she actually got a chad boyfriend out of it. I had to yell to everyone that she was not my gf and some sports player thought I was being mean on purpose and ended up dating her. I think that is when I realized I will always be alone and there is no point in trying, normies and crabs have it so easy because they actually have something they want to get, meanwhile I just had no interest in anything.

I will win the lottery and build a giant wizard's tower and invite all of you to join me in it.

>>303823
My best guess is, I have facial features of a boxer despite my actual build of coach potato lazy bum. Therefore, te cool dude kinda tried to tell me its remarkable how a large fella ended up being so humble

>have you ever been told you had no personality?
>she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said.

1. true, that's what trolling is
2. Extroverts vs introverts, I suppose.

>>300509
cool quote

i sit from his memoires or from some of his novels?

Yep. By losers who had no personality themselves. Just looked down on them and went back to my tower of sorcery.

>>304686
mukyu to that
based and wizpilled

>>303205
I can relate to that so much. im in my 30s but all my dreams are of HS or MS. Its not like I didn't do anything in college. but no one has ever voluntarily spent any time with me. so my only interactions are in school. and its just not the same in college, where you might have a class just once a week.

K-12 was the only time in life i interacted with the same cast daily, so my dreams still use it as my plots. and if i live to 90, it'll do the same

>>303200
funny shit is, I both used to be a lolcow-like derp and used to accidentally inspire people to make and spread memes.

Feels… "life achievement" tier when I remember the memes of my era

>>303220
wtf
watch cartoons
watch 1994 movies

>>299520
> I'm so afraid of living.
Me too, sometimes I feel the same :(
I don't know exactly what will happen to me. I don't know anything. I am afraid of thinking about how i'm going to end up

in my country we have a saying "i would cutt of my arm if it hurt me" just like the story of the boy who had a flood in his village and his foot got stuck and the water level kept rising and rising but no one could save him , well that's because he couldn't sacrifice his foot , you should give up your foot too ,these whack losers that were merely a part of your memory chose to cut off their arms, you should do the same too . sad thing is i am experiencing what you are expericing altho i am prolly 20/15 years younger then you , i can allready tell i won't be having a life time friendship or atleast a 5 year friendship sorry for bad spelling

>>303991

its night and I cant put my phone down to charge… hold on… let me try a piece of peace of mind…

You have at least one other dude in your head. God has foreseen it all. Go meditate.

>>304667
funny thing is, there is a theory each hemisphere of human's brain actually has 2 consciousness, not just one (they used to "treat" seizures by cutting up a part of brain. Bam! 2 different personalities in charge of 2 halves of body, limbs and such)

sure, alone we crumble.

>>304681
I have only been growing stronger. Cope harder.

>>304577
I not tired of assholes and their behaviour
I tired of my response, emotions and my behaviour response to that assholes behaviour.
Revenge and hate doesn't give anything useful, just more hate, revenge, and suffering in the process of life.
>Also
This is a way to illumination.

>>304626
I had to cut my coffee to react less to

1) actual asso-s
2) people who aren't as as-le as myself haha

The game is to get as far away from normies as possible as quickly as you can.

>>304632
Normies are so close that some of them are you. Beware.

>>304626
true

>>303427
>Don't psychopaths have cognitive empathy?

Cognitive… empathy? Sounds like a name for an empathy substitute (in the same sense as "soy milk" is "milk")

>They understand what's going on - they just don't care. What they're missing is affective empathy.

Smart mathy person (and a 6'3" absolute unit of a bloke), yeah, but when it comes to *feelings*, he's a massive "I don't care" meathead. He's blind to the *vibe* of relief or such. So every time I sigh in relief he reall has to ask me "WHY are you SIGHING?!?!"

He has the life experience to process regular, normal" emotions, but he is completely blind to serious dramatic moments of a small fella's life. Therefore, every time I have a strong emotion - and don't have the COMPOSURE to mask it… one more SNAFU moment happens.



>What they're missing is affective empathy.
Every time he said something important and I was all like "phew! Thanks!" he would only start asking WHY I just made this funny noise of gasp/sigh in relief.

>>303430
You have to remember 10% of the population has alexithymia or is mind blind in other words they have no theory of mind and cannot comprehend other people have thoughts and feelings as well.

>>303431
>You have to remember 10% of the population has alexithymia

Ah. Thanks. Truly, I needed that information.

>>303431
the severity of this alexi-something varies though

>>303408
>>303431
Bump

Apparently, my father decded to *go for cigarettes* after my mother tried to rant with him over… a can of sardines. Or some other canned fish.


Dad was tired, after carrying stuff (elevator was turned off).
Mom was stupid, thinking its appropriate to strip hard-working dads off their food.
Me - heard everything and now have to live with it.

Screw it all. Artificial wombs and cloned people ftw. "Mother bears" are horrible troublemakers in terms of producing "n00rmal ppl".

>>302957
You really did make an entire thread to reply to my post.
Quite insane.
Also took a while for me to even check the catalog.

>>302973
Yeah the change isn't only noticed by people my age, it really depends on what age you gained internet access and what parts you got exposed to initially.
I still had an atari for example, but not because I was into retro anything, or because I'm old enough to be one of its users, it's just that rural poverty meant we got everything much later than the rest of the world.
Then when I got exposed to the internet I was lead by my "elders" as well.

I'm sure even zoomers notice, you mention minecraft, a lot of those early creators, though I didn't consume much, but some were big enough that reached me too, they used to be much different.
They were… creative and authentic. Nowadays all of it feels way too intentionally crafted to be a brand, something to sell, something to make money from.

Every space online has been way too commercialized and normiefied and the issue is that there are more and more people who have only seen this version of the internet and they love it. So if you don't, there is no space for you and they will make it very clear.
It is sad.

>More like, people didnt exactly 'change', they began to show their true colors.
I disagree with this to an extent. Again, the people I used to be around moved on with their lives. They didn't start showing their true color, it's just that they matured and had different priorities.
So what I'm trying to say here is that there is a difference between the oldheads baring their teeth. You might be right about some of them, but most just moved on in my opinion and the ones that replaced them are simply a different breed accustomed to a different "normal".
You know, don't tell people your name, don't post anything about yourself type people were replaced with those that lived life online in public like it's normal.
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Posted some relevant info in /games/

I wonder of cute Two-Bees will be a thing in 30 years or so

>>302958
Yeah, I feel that as well. When I was younger, I had this plan to "live online", basically to avoid the regular life of chasing things like money and succubi and just enjoy browsing the internet after I graduated.

The more time passed, the more I felt alienated from this digital hellscape, to the point where I tried to "escape" back into the real world to get away from it all. I feel spiritually homeless on the internet and never fit in with others in meatspace as well.

>>302983
God, I fucking hate zoomers and them chasing after certain "aesthetics".
t.zoomer

>>304457
>>304457
Looks so relateable it's almost like I persoally wrote this post; I, however, don't say "meatspace" so it's not like it my post

Conclusio: RELATEABLE!!! I wanted to be a similar kind of person. Sadly, CS/IT is full of "jocks", "bros" and other "all-emotional "intelligence" types who treat wizards of digital lands as haha funny wageslaves to toy with "do this… no, no, do THIS, not that… no-no-no, try GOOD VIBES to understand me", don't be a ****"

>>304580
Yeah, it was to vent. I had witnessed something dismal and humiliating. Clearly you've succumbed to humanities label or "your own definiton of success" or whatever the fuck. Cope more pussy, I hope you find the same hatred as me and do something beautiful.

>>304581
Out of curiosity, what did you witness?

Hatred is only useful as long as it doesn't destroy you or inconvenience you greatly in the process.

>>304580
You can't know what OP's going through and what he will end up doing. Plenty of image board posters delivered with their edgy power fantasies and made them into reality. Most of us jut vent or fantasize about things but there is always a chance some guy will really go nuts. Not everyone is the same as you.
>Grow up and get a job for starters…
lol How would that improve his situation? (That's if he is unemployed to begin with…)

>>304580
FWIW it doesn't fit the definition of power fantasy, because breaking someone else's skull is far from impossible.
>We've all had that phase when we were writing epic posts with badass Greek statues
That's definitely a projection, but yeah most people have been through the whining on the internet phase. For some it never ended. Not sure if it's good or bad.

>>304573
> Ive tried to distract myself from the degradation of life using the breadcrumbs society calls "happiness" or "content" or some shit
That's the wicked game of the modern world: wageslave for scraps > spend scraps to consume recreational distractions > lie to yourself about one day "getting ahead" > continue to wageslave > repeat until dead. It's all pointless repetition and stagnation. I can fully understand why people are violently lashing out more frequently than ever before, they're desperate to escape the waking nightmare of modern life (or they get duped and radicalized by political propaganda). Personally, I've been studying spiritualism and theology, as well as practicing forms of meditation in an attempt to elevate my consciousness, transcend humanity, and forever leave this doomed planet behind when I die. That's my intention, anyway.

>>304580
>get a job for starters…
I see this kind of post made a little more frequently these days, I assume it's just a weak attempt at trolling. I personally have a full-time job and it barely improves my quality of life, not nearly enough to recommend it to anyone ever. Having a job these days does practically nothing positive for a person, let alone a wizard. Wageslavery is referred to as such for good reason, so fuck off.

>>304582
The life of a Wizard can end up being a life of solitude locked away in an ivory tower.
But honestly, I never liked this ivory tower.

nah, i have a tulpa and that satisfies all my love and affection needs.

I dont have any pets and never thought about getting any. I see this as animal cruelty to cage some animal and have it be depending on my worthless ass.
the animal wouldnt have a happy life so I never bothered.
also yes I have family members but hugs arent really a thing in my family and I never hug anyone, at most you can get a firm handshake out of me or a fistbump.
last time I was hugged by my mom must been like 20+ years ago.

also "to be desired" doesnt sound appealing to me at all, it sounds like another annoying chore and what I learned in life is that if you are on some other persons mind then it always means trouble one way or another.

>>304586
would you hug your mom and tell us what happened?