Don't bury yourself so soon. There is always the possiblity of changing for the better, no matter what people on the net say.
>moneyYou only need the basic amount to survive and to enjoy your hobbies. Most rich people spend money on things they absolutely don't need.
>good at anythingYou don't need to be good at anything, life isn't a competition, only normals think that it is.
>a burden to my familyThey are probably just as much of a burden for you, right? They made you, they should at least support you.
>monasteryNo, stay away from those places. Same goes for military and anything along these lines. Living with complete strangers is hell itself. Not to mention your superior would bully you most likely, even in a monastery. You would be forced to work on stupid things in order to learn "humility" and would be forced to engage in boring social activities like common prayer, going to mass, etc. Even homelessness is better.
>>244828Gods do exist but the christian god is a demon you should avoid as much as you can. He is a bloodthirsty tyrant who freely disregards his own morals and does whatever pleases him while demanding slavery from every one of his creatures.
Walk the Path of Light along with the benevolent gods and wake others up from their deep slumber.