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 No.289941[Reply]

I've always felt like there is a specific subgroup of people that were born to be successful, and the rest are those who gaslight themselves into thinking that their lives are “decent” or those who simply lost hope. No specific talents or aspirations, no deep connections with others.
There are even specific voices that people find pleasant to listen to, while others have to find ways to make themselves heard. At some point I wanted to be heard too. I had Ideas, I had Opinions or Wants.
I live invisibly, cutting off all of my “relationships” before they even start, because I understand that my mental state is a barrier from anything healthy. IF people like me disappear, it wouldn’t change much: it is not a corny feeling, it is an actual fact.
I am now physically sick whenever I am at my workplace, so I quit a week ago. Antisocial and anxious thoughts got the best of me, I guess.
I have a plan and conditions ready to end my life, and I am not bitter about it anymore. Just was curious to maybe hear from other deeply alienated people like myself.
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 No.289959

>>289956
It's work that someone has to do. It accomplishes important functions. It gives them an income high enough to afford a middle class life. I don't see anything all that bad about that.

 No.289978

>>289944
>how are your days as a NEET going?
Not very good I'm looking for the most reliable suicide method

 No.289982

>>289958
That might have been the word OP was looking for yet that doesn't change the essence of what he was trying to say.

 No.290064

>>289959

Yeah but those guys dont have it made. Tall, good looking men with good paying Office Jobs have it made. Its like bragging youre tall at 6’1. No, youre tall at 6’4

 No.290073

>>290064
Foid hands typed this.



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 No.289084[Reply]

why should i continue on?
I wouldnt say im actively suicidal, but i find it hard to find a reason to go on for.
whats your reason?
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 No.289322

>>289321
Sort of*

 No.289325

>>289084
Committing suicide is fairly difficult. I don't think this life has anything for me, I could be wrong, so just going to ride it out until I die.

 No.289457

>>289084
Why not? I understand that if your life is horrible then you will want to take a shortcut to the afterlife, but if your life is just boring or joyless, then that is fixable. Myself, I've no real reason to live, I'm just coasting and taking it as easy as I can until my mother dies, then I will likely just check out myself.

 No.289458

FOMO.

 No.289885

>>289086
To not have to suffer for another 40-50 years. That's a start.



 No.289757[Reply]

Have any wizards here noticed that the world feels much quieter today than it did 4-5 years ago. Did the (((vaccine))) really kill of a large percentage of the population? Are people not going outside as often anymore? When I go walking in various places there are uniformly less people in these places than what was customary only a few years ago.
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 No.289784

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but.. the world is exploding.

There are several major wars going on, the major ones being the Ukraine war and the Palatinate war but make no mistake a lot of smaller countries are trying their luck while the big boys are distracted.

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>>289784
>palatinate
Damn, didn't even know there was a war there, I'm so out of touch

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>>289788
you know what i meant, Palestine, the one Israel is blowing up.

dont be a spelling national socialist.

support Zion.

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 No.289564[Reply]

When I was younger, around 20-25 years old, I was highly driven, motivated, outgoing, hopeful and physically fit. I had even graduated college. Then, the year I turned 26, I destroyed my right shoulder, left leg, totaled my car, dropped out of the trade school I was in, lost my job, became an alcoholic, and was THIS close to killing myself. Obviously I didn't since I'm posting here now at 29. I even went back to school and graduated for the trade and got the "dream job." Also stopped drinking 3 months ago.

However. since that year I haven't felt that happiness I once had. All of the things I had built up for myself were taken away all at once. I used to enjoy doing multiple martial arts, running, swimming, gaming, and learning new things. I just don't get the same enjoyment or excitement out of any of that stuff anymore. I don't know what to do any more. Do I just keep living even though I hate it? Just so I don't make my mother upset that I killed myself? It's just not good any more. Hasn't been for years.
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 No.289617

>>289616
I would also like to add that if you need anyone to talk to, hmu.

 No.289638

>>289616
i love God.

all of normalmaxxing lifestyle prologues are an aversion to and enmity with God.

wizardly being the anti-thesis of normalmax, and normalmax being extreme aversion to God, and going against Him in all their body and mind and spirit.

love the Lord with all your body and mind and spirit; this is the path of wizardy.

bible is a powerful tome.

 No.289667

>>289616
>>289638
lol and now christianfags too
someone burn this thread

 No.289726

>>289616
And it is not what you do (but of course action follows faith), but what HE DID, DOES, and WILL DO.

 No.289747

>>289616
proud of you anon



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 No.288596[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread.
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 No.289880

>>289878
also hate how expensive shit is. when i left in 2017 a studio, in my poor southern state, went for $500ish. now it’s $900ish but menial wages haven’t increased at all. it’s all so goddamn frustrating, i didn’t even sit on my ass and fuck around pointlessly i genuinely tried. i’m just angry and scrambled and exhausted of going to take a piss or shit and having to scrub her slime off of. disgusting pig succubus

 No.289903

I'm in a really rough spot in life. I don't know what to say. It just sucks.

 No.289905

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Dear Oscars

I wish I could (finally) say something positive, but I am still devastated by AT's passing.

So congrats and fuck off
,-_-,

 No.289966

>Movie is coming out on a certain day in March
>K, its juat coming out in March
>not coming out at all

Whatever dementia induced shit this is it's sure af making me immune to whatever's hip rn :>

 No.289973

>>289880
I kept telling wizards it's only going to get worse and worse as capital keeps accumulating to the same 0,2% of owners while everyone else has to pay more & more with wages staying stagnant.

Arrogant young apprentices said life has to turn out for the better eventually. It doesn't. We are at a point in history where if you weren't born rich, you need to prepare for decades of hell and struggle.

That $900 apartment will be $1300 in a few years and wages wont go up a cent.
The brutal reality is you can stay with your mom or live in a forest or the streets. You have no other options. Life is hell.


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 No.288457[Reply]

Back in High School I tried to cope with doing hobbies outside, to participate in normalfag activities because I wanted to at least give the bluepilled advice a go, I knew in the back of my mind it would not work and to nobody's surprise, the expectations are exactly what occurred, it resulted in nothing but utter humiliation. I played for a football academy back in High School and whilst I was decent at it I was treated poorly by my teammates, did not make a single friend there even though I contributed a lot to the stats of the team, we even made it very far into the tournament, after that incident I was discouraged to make friends because no matter how much meritocratic value is under your hands you are worthless to everyone, unless you're a prodigy your efforts are worthless.

Going outside has not improved my health but only worsen it, it has done the opposite effect, it makes me feel more worthless, more worse overall, a complete abomination, it reminds me of what I look like which is the opposite of what I'm trying to achieve. If you're an ugly midget subhuman like me then don't go outside and if you have to then try to limit it as much as possible because other people will remind you of your own flaws.

For ugly midgets like me, I think it's better to stay home and play video games. Don't go outside unless you have to. Make sure all of your hobbies are in solitude, experience surreal dimensions through novels, animes and video games. Outdoor hobbies can be selectively chosen, ones that don't include many people, walk through national parks in those isolating tracks because not much people are there, it's a great cope to view nature as a wiz. If you have the privilege, then work remote or at least hybrid, if you can't do this then get into a field of work that requires a limited interaction of others, if you are even more privileged then NEET but I would not suggest this as its damaging to your health in the long run.

There's no point going to malls, restaurants or visiting popular tourist sites like the Eiffel tower, it is super damaging to your brain being in places surrounded by normalfags. Just watch the YouTube video of it or visit the Minecraft version.
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 No.289531

ever since i decided to go full wizc and just live selfishly but leading a healthy life, doing what's best for me, my life has improved and i've never felt better.

It's a lie that humans are social animals, they want you to believe that because then you're basically easier to control, it's another way to say that you depend on them to exist, which is partially true, but all your psychological needs can be met without the help of irl human interactions.

Avoid people. Avoid niggers. Avoid whores which is every female. Just take it easy wizfriends. people just bring more problems and if you're a wiozc like me then you don't need more problems. You need peace.

 No.289547

>>289531

>It's a lie that humans are social animals


How is it a lie?

 No.289548

>>289547
Not that poster, but it is a lie. It only applies to neurotypicals.
The only reason a neurodivergent needs other people is for food production, or should a grave illness fall upon them, a doctor.

Not everyone needs to be around people or talk to them, or spend time with them.
For a lot of people (like me), it's a huge energy drain which requires weeks of recharging just to be around a bunch of people for 3 hours.

I don't count wizchan as socializing. I just read it for interesting posts a few times a week for about 15 minutes and then I quit. I could live without it, it's just the only website that is worth reading.

I've gone years previously without talking to anyone or viewing any forum/imageboard. I didn't go crazy or feel pain or whatever normies feel when they are isolated for 24 hours.
It was peaceful, relaxing and ordinary for me.

 No.289570

>>289548
ND here, reads correct enough to me. I do enjoy interacting with people (everyone here does or they should re-examine why they seek a forum over books, it's not a big deal to enjoy it.) but there is not the sense of a fundamental need in order to be happy behind it.

I find that with stillness and without the thoughts and perspectives of others, I naturally gravitate towards confidence and happiness. Only through other people are these really dragged down.

However I believe the "social animal" idea is tied to the need to rely on each other to survive at all. Which is where it cannot be denied. Self-sufficiency is a rarely practiced art. And of course it would be, only families have children and so each time the decision to become self-sufficient is a deliberate step away from community into solitude, it contains friction, it is un-obvious. Doubt even 1% of posters here have even seriously considered it due to the difficulty and frankly rather arbitrary challenge it is. It is far easier to live amongst people. Thank you grocery stores that do delivery, amen.

 No.289661

I've never been happier than spending time in my room doing whatever I want.



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 No.278964[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Suicide general, - Discuss everything suicide related here.

                                             
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 No.286840

>>286839
So then it has everything to do with other people, if your happiness is tied to how they feel.

 No.286841

>>286696
It is written in the legends of the desets lands that Saint Adolf used it to end his life. His death is just a fairytale they tell to their kids, but the PPK in .32 is very lethal. It's a service arm after all, designed to kill.

 No.287371

>>286538
ok that part about the KPIs and the store requiring an app was actually quite funny

 No.287589

>>286612
Thanks man. It's me, the guy who wrote that note. I'm alive.

Thank you guys. I don't know why I'm still here. I haven't really been the same since those few days. I'm not doing any better, I've started completely neglecting myself, and I'm angry.

But I'm alive. I don't know why.

 No.289518

fuck fentanyl


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 No.285492[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

nothing makes sense edition

previous >>281123
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 No.289478

>>289459
the word you're looking for is indentured not indebted.

you never know what will happen in the future and society is going to change in ways the world has never seen over the coming decade. i don't think it will be better, but i know there will be more opportunities because there will be a lot of chaos and people will all be much more in the mix. you will have the opportunity to compete like wild west days.

which is why the best advices on this site is still, disregard females, acquire magic.

make your body and mind strong, this will increase your mana. you will be a strong wizard able to protect and have agency in the world. focus on exercise, eating well, learning useful skills and don't fret about normal values and beliefs which are all derived from self-pleasure and self-gain motivations.

 No.289514

>>285492
Im completely unemployable

 No.289591

>absolutely miserable and constantly stressed when I have a job
>somehow even more stressed out when I'm unemployed
I know it's unrealistic but I really wish I just got money for existing

 No.289603

>>289591
Lots of neets do. The problem is being lucky enough to be born into a country that has neetbucks.

 No.289719

Seeing all of the big time nepo baby streamers complain about how hard their job "streaming" is and putting down actual everyday Joes who are working absolutely god-awful jobs just to barely afford to live makes me so fucking pissed off. Let's just put it into perspective for a moment. Those streamers can come out with some of the worst takes possible which anger their entire audience and yet….people will still continue to watch them. They'll give them money. Nothing changes. NOTHING. They can make absolute fucking fools of themselves and get away with it. How is that hard? If I piss off the wrong co-worker then my life will turn into a living hell and I stand a good chance of losing my job over it and thus my livelihood because I can't just be a NEET. If my manager doesn't like me then they'll do everything in their power to replace me, as has literally happened twice now in my working career. These streamers are so far out of touch they have no idea. And yet they claim to be left-leaning socialists. Go fuck yourself Hasan and Asmongold.


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 No.284221[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

It's like no matter how neurotypical I try to be or how positive or outspoken I try to be, it just rubs "normies" the wrong way.

It's as if everyone has an 'autism radar' from the moment they see your face. Do people like me who are on the spectrum somehow transmit that information through facial features?
It doesn't even matter if I'm putting on a straight face, or smiling or whatever, people even at school used to ask me if I'm autistic.

It's impossible to fit into society when people just look at you and instantly see you as non-neurotypical. I even got rid of my glasses with LASIK but somehow I still have that 'nerdy' asperger face which people associate with weirdness and 'being different'.
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 No.289133

I HATE BEING ALIVE!!! AAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

 No.289134

>>289132
Yeah I don't disagree with volcelism. I was just saying rape and prostitutes aren't opposites. they are all sex slaves anyway, so it is rape. but sure easy for any man who wants it.

 No.289135

>>289129
pretty much. If your last resort to getting sex is PAYING to a WHORE, you are as in cel as they come. There is literally nothing volcel about having your only option being a whore.
>>289130
this is a virgin imageboard and i ncels are virgins. Nothing wrong with being an i ncel not everyone can be born a normalfag. You know females will only pick you if you display normalfag traits, right? So being volcel in a way means you are one.

 No.291469

>>284221
Yo come to wizchan to seek help against the internalized cuckery of wanting to fit in, not the opposite.

Try the opposite. Be weird. Painfully, aggressively if you have to. Set your limits, your conditions.

 No.291470

>>289135
crabs are disregarded here, since they crave sex and falling for succubi's games. You are horribly wrong.


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 No.288245[Reply]

Did you guys ever hit a point where you had so much of life stacked against you, that you spontaneously realized "None of this is really my fault", and felt a lot better? You can only place the blame on yourself for so long before it starts to become ridiculous. There's nothing I could have done to prevent this, and realizing that makes me feel a lot better.
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 No.289035

Well, it depends, a lot of things were/are stacked against me but if I give up now then that would be purely on me. In the end it doesn't matter what cards you were dealt, only how you played them.

 No.289038

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>>288245
Yeah, I didn't choose my parents.
I didn't choose where or when I was born.
I didn't choose my early education or whatever faith my parents were going to impose on me only to demonize and guilttrip me if I wasn't devout.
I didn't choose to be bad with money like my parents were, resulting in a debt that took a decade to pay off and reduced the quality of life I had in my teenage years.

I'm no longer punishing myself. I did what I could and I'm relieved that I no longer have to care about anyone now.

 No.289067

>>288590
Absolute bullshit. Degrees are completely useless now. The only thing that matters is experience. How the fuck are you 15+ years out of date and writing complete bullshit with such confidence?

 No.289089

>>288245
I don't really know. I gave up a lot sooner than I should have. I'm just so bored all the time.

 No.289092

>>289067
Not that poster, but in Europe you wont even make it into the interview without the proper credentials, there are 1200 people competing for the same garbage office job.



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