/dep/ - Depression★

>>297297 (OP)
>fasting out of pure whim
Let your body heal and be thankful you do not need to withstand crushing hunger while doing so. Such bliss…

>>297297 (OP)
Same, I've always been super skinny but recently I just have 0 appetite or really any desire to do anything besides sleep and smoke cigarettes.

It takes so much energy and effort to eat food, make food, acquire food. I dont know how it's supposedly common that depression can cause people to get fat

>>297684
they eat potato chips and sweets because those take no effort to prepare and eat

>>297689
I cant eat things like that because i dont enjoy it and it seems to provide no nutrition so it feels like eating poison

>>297625
"" Jesus answered him, “It is written, 'To the Lord thy God thou shalt do homage, and to Him alone shalt thou render worship.'” ""

>not talking in 1st person

>>297620 (OP)
How not going against anyone out there? There must be someone special for you to kill and loot before even thinking about offing yourself.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conium_maculatum#Toxicity

>A short time after ingestion, the alkaloids induce potentially fatal neuromuscular dysfunction due to failure of the respiratory muscles. Acute toxicity, if not lethal, may resolve in spontaneous recovery, provided further exposure is avoided. Death can be prevented by artificial ventilation until the effects have worn off 48–72 hours later.[20] For an adult, the ingestion of more than 100 mg (0.1 gram) of coniine (about six to eight fresh leaves, or a smaller dose of the seeds or root) may be fatal. Narcotic-like effects can be observed as soon as 30 minutes after ingestion of green leaf matter of the plant, with victims falling asleep and unconsciousness gradually deepening until death a few hours later

Tell me how this isn't better?

>>297673
Dying via hemlock is said to be extremely painful

>>297288
>high social status
Why care?

>>297289
just mentioning that basic fact

>>297288
yeah I don't know. I'm clumsy and remiss. thank you for trying helping me, I appreciate

>>297289
i will suggest daily physical exercise (or at least 1 hour of walking) as well as getting your fair share of daily vitamin D, not to mention quality sleep and diet, when you have spent a long time as a NEET out of education and learning, your brain becomes out of shape, i can't help you fully with this issue because i have not even solved it yet my self, i will suggest you have an honest conversation with your parents, explain to them how it is irrational for them to expect someone with 0 skills to get a job and try find some useful skill that you can learn, if needed convince them to get you a refurbished PC, and show them that you are dedicated to learn skills that will help you find employment online, I.D.k, just think and find ways to at least delay being kicked out from the house.

>>297289
Normies are savage wild animals, especially succubi. You must maintain integrity when dealing with them. They will see your autism but at least you can herd them a bit.

>>297504 (OP)
Via reddit. I never knew how hated I was, I always used to believe that succubi have hearts and don't care about looks but I only ever saw succubi with good looking guys so it was only a matter of time that I came across blackpilling content and got blackpilled.

The next was my height, I am just a tiny guy with shit genes. When I asked around the internet about my height, it was enough to blackpill me.

I was frequenting imageboards since 11 years old. It's horrible.

I'm similar, but I have a lot of nostalgia for the mid 2000s era of the internet

>>297504 (OP)
I got bullied until developing mania. When you get rid of the stupid want about fitting in then you realize how much filth is around you and that sets you into some sweet sadism. Still I say those normies did not get shit enough from me but, I was just one of my kind :(

>>297513
They must be gloating at the mere thought of you being minimally sad about them using sex a rule enforcing factor which affects your soul.

I rejected my mom's love and caused her to spiral into depression.

>>297350
Oh, Wizzie, employment is rough nowadays even in the developed world, let alone the third world, it's valid to want to be independant from your parents, why don't you start helping your mom a little bit with the house chores? it's not rocket science

>The other thing is that I am quickly losing my cognitive abilities

I have the same issue, years of NEETdom nuked my brain, I have 0 short term memory, I even forget the names of everyday objects and i need to describe them with hand gestures to people IRL, i even forget what i wanted to do a second ago, i also have a super slow brain procesing speed, and i am constantly distracted with my own thoughts, i literally can't focus on anything for a minute without my mind wandering, my brain has been out of shape since i dropped out of school, and it's making learning new things hard as HELL.

>>297355
I try to help her by getting groceries and doing work that requires her to go outside, I have started small by cleaning my own dishes, cleaning the bathroom, but it still doesn't feel enough when I see how many chores my mom does. I really have to up my game but I am too lazy.

As for cognitive decline something has to be done quickly, let me know if you find some solution, it's becoming like a degenerative disease. And it has been happening more and more, not only am I not able to speak anymore, I also process things very slowly.

Like earlier I could just study for exams just a night before and could somehow remember all the information, but now even if I study a week before I am unable to remember that.

I have also had my own share of funny incidents. Like I had to put something outside of my house and lock the front door and then go through my back door, cause the lock of my front door doesn't work from the outside. So instead of putting the box just out of the front door, then locking it from inside, and going out through the back door. For some reason I decided to lock the front door first and move the box out of the back door, and then go all the way to the front. My mother started laughing seeing me do this and was like "Your head doesn't work does it?"

Same is happening while driving as well, one might thing the more I drive the more my skills would improve but instead they are deteriorating day after day. It's like I have constant mental fog, where I can't see properly.

Earlier I could explain anything to my friends and even explain to them in English but now I struggle to describe things in my own language. When I see some old screenshots of the posts that I have written, I am surprised that I could've explained something so well.

Not only that I feel like my IQ has been reduced, earlier I could easily understand complex video games, but now it takes me too long to understand even a simple video game.

I am in my 20s but it feels like my skills and abilities are at the par of 80 years old. Like when someone says something to me, I have to take my whole sweet ass time to understand and interpret what is being said.

I am also very bad with directions now, which I wasn't earlier, I could easily figure things out, easily do math, but it feels like nothing works.

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>>297364
I am trying to increase my daily share to sun exposure, i heard vitamin D helps a lot with short term memory issues, all i will suggest is daily exercise, staying hydrated, and quality sleep everynight, i also tried to improve my short term memory less by memorizing rythmic poems, but i gave up after a while due to the lack of noticable progress, i cannot really give advice here, because my cognitive skills are probably way worse than yours, I can't even learn basic algebra, remember how to spell most english words without the usage of auto-correct or solve 4chan's captcha, you should look for a cognitive therapist or psychterist online on some subreddit or webform, the internet is a vast place.

>>297350
>The other thing is that I am quickly losing my cognitive abilities
Yeah same, I'm just as you described there, down to developing a slight stutter.
I think the only cure is to use our brains, I never really test my brain with maths or complex thought any more.

>>296932 (OP)
Learn Human Design.

>>297499
Good input.

>>297499
Taking a screenshot for that whole post so I won't lose it if the site gets taken down.

>>297499
Hell yeah, cook up some meat on your way out so the person that finds you can have a burger.

>>297248 (OP)
I wish escapism worked for me. No matter what I do to try to distract myself my real life worries still nag at the back of my head.

>>297248 (OP)
I often took lots of weed to make literally everything in my life seem like a distant dream and to just live in my island. But i stopped bc it always made me stupid as shit and really unhappy once i got sober

Not necesarilly dreams but intrussive thoughts (basically OCD) about scenarios I would like to take part in. These fuckers keep me from actually engaging in "truly" escapist activities like everyone has such as watching some anime, a movie, series, reading a book, vidya, looking onto interesting stuff on Jewtube.
Sorry for avoiding the actual question, I just wanted to take it off my chest.

just wait till you get sick and start being in constant pain&dying, it will resolve itself and escapism will become impossible

>>297276
This, I am in my late 30s, I no longer enjoy gaming, anime or even masturbating, No job, no social life, no hobbies, no interests, just existing.

>>297204 (OP)
Have you Tried not being poor?

>>297207 do you know where you are?

>>297207
You have no idea how hard it's getting a job when you lack higher education and connections, I been trying to get a shitty job in over 5 years and non of these places want to hire me.(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

Closing the thread because OP is just talking to himself.

You can delay death by being healthy.
While you're alive, you may as well find ways to have fun.

But remember that everyone else is in the exact same situation as you in regards of mortality.
There is no way to be sure if death is the end. Nothing in this world is ever lost, can only change form, so it's best to assume you will have to go through life again.
So try not to perpetuate harm and suffering.

But for now, focus on the first two points.

>>297166
I'm already very healthy (no drugs, no alcohol, no s*x, 9 hours sleep, healthy air, etc) and yes, I DO try to have nice clean fun; but at the moment the fun ends (for example: I finish all available episodes of an anime) the dopamine crush is terrible; or when I when I just arrive home after eating out a nice meal, so on. those few seconds of "it's over..now remains the Void"
For some reason I seem to have an altruistic nature. i enjoy helping others and can't bring myself to be mean and violent (unless severely provoked).

>>297167
yeah i lift weights when i get those moments

This post is completely incoherent to me