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Depression Crawl Thread LXX Anonymage 07/25/25 (Fri) 16:23:02 No.301876 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Vent your shit here that is not deserving of its own thread edition
previous thread >>301013

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Anonymage 10/02/25 (Thu) 23:20:22 No.303257

>>303256
No. It is worse. Not by a lot and depends on circumstances, but it's not the same.

Your teeth that gets worked on isn't going to be the one causing you pain, but the surrounding area that got molested as a result if that makes any sense.
I had inflammation for a few days, nothing super major, but considering most if not all my fillings were without anesthesia I would say it is worse.
Again, nothing to worry about, just prepare mentally for a few days of pain killers and pay attention to fever signs.
If you have fever, don't hesitate to call or go back.

It's also quite random, for one I had no issues for another I did suffer a bit more.
Same with wisdom teeth. I had my jaw broken for one, and the other was removed and didn't even need stitches. It's hard to tell.
If you are prone to panicking just go to sleep after or something.
I'm paranoid as hell and if I have inflammation I do feel my forehead as hot, but no fever. So don't get too worked up, make sure to check temps instead of panicking.

Anonymage 10/03/25 (Fri) 18:58:21 No.303281

Had another ER visit for my blood pressure.
Nothing conclusive found, likely a combination of nightshifts and stress.
Legitimately felt like I was going to die.
Again.

I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I worked on getting healthier over the year and the result?
Same shit when I was abusing my body last year.
How does one not just give up after this? I already told my mom to call my one friend so he would at least know if I croaked and not just ghosted…
Exhausted.

Anonymage 10/03/25 (Fri) 19:13:17 No.303282

Told my parents I wanted to kms months ago

They never asked about it, never amended their behavior. Never bothered to follow up on it. I don't think they really even give a shit.

No wonder I ended up a soulless fuck, a clueless, useless father and a miserable, cold mother. I'm just glad my little brother is starting to break away from this shit. I hope he thrives

Anonymage 10/28/25 (Tue) 09:33:37 No.303785

>>303250
The first step is the hardest, takes your DECISEVENESS or such
>It's crazy how much of this just looks like "he is a lazy retard" from the outside when it takes more energy for a simple step than it takes for others to walk the whole road ahead.

and DECISEVENESS is a problem in XXI century, when they BOMBARD you with a mixture of unrelated (one-to-each-other kind of unrelated) news, NEWS, N E W S ON 11!!! so you, a wizard, have no idea if something big or small is breweing. Yet all those news sap your deciseveness to become a pro or - at least - COMPETENT ENOUGH to earn $$$, not just "pays the bills" $.

inb4 "r u da learn Human Design anon?"
No.

>>303282
Heh. So, you expected some kind of attention?

>They never asked about it, never amended their behavior. Never bothered to follow up on it. I don't think they really even give a shit.

aaaaaaa… shit. Look, I had a similar dramatic moment in my life, and my father told me to go for it only to chicken out 5 seconds later because we were on a highway. They're probably *taught* to keep a cool, icy face.

Oh and by the way. Learn to twist nuts or something. Maybe learn to earn money by doing shit jobs like literal shit delivery man (assensation car driver aka "honey man") - you will be able to tell people AT LEAST WE BOTH KNOW MY LIFE IS SHIT FIRST FREEDOM FRIES LATER

Yes, disgusting, that's why they pay decent $$ to shit driver jobs ahaha
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Anonymage 11/30/25 (Sun) 19:35:16 No.304300

I absolutely hate social events and interaactions
I didn't ask to be here
I didn't ask to be born
I didn't assk to be adopted
I just this shit to end
At times like this, I can only think about I wish I'd succeded at my previous suicide attemps.
It feels even worse (a little) to think about how pathetic I am for having this problem.

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Anonymage 05/24/25 (Sat) 16:55:09 No.300761 [Reply]

suicide is the best thing you can do in your life. you can never go wrong by doing it. the only reason people won't do it (besides obvious reasons like instinct of self-preservation and fear of unknown) is because they think there is something good ahead in their life and you just have to wait a little. and so our life is wasting like this, eternally awaiting while going through phases of misery and humiliation over and over again until you're dead from "natural" cause.

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Anonymage 08/02/25 (Sat) 05:56:47 No.302000

>>301996
Being a vegetable seems better than this because it would take responsibility for my life off me which I can't handle anyway.
I want to write in my will for my family to throw my corpse into the tracsh

Anonymage 08/02/25 (Sat) 12:09:56 No.302002

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>>301996
>What do you think about running and smashing your head in the wall?

Anonymage 08/03/25 (Sun) 02:45:52 No.302009

I relate to all of these posts a lot.

Only child,
Mediocre parents,
No friends in high school,
No gf,
No job,
Interests nobody gives a shit about,
etc,

I've decided to go to college 10 hours away from home to try to restart my life. Have any of you guys tried any thing similar?

Anonymage 08/07/25 (Thu) 15:06:10 No.302097

>>300761
I like to think about it as a form of control. If I manage to have the means to end it all quickly if something very bad happens, like:
>get broke and unemployed
>contract severe illness that will make me suffer for years, like cancer or some degenerative disease
I would be way more satisfied and secure about my life.

I mean, being a reclusive PC potato will only get you so far. You will become seriously ill eventually. Your brain won't just stop working and *poof* you're dead. Now a shotgun can do exactly that. So that's my number one thing to buy, but it's difficult to find in my country. I don't trust "painless" ways to commit seppuku.

Anonymage 09/26/25 (Fri) 06:41:48 No.303101

>>300773
>like a good little teenager who just discovered Buddhism throuh Wikipedia.

ok, now that's intolerant XD

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Circadian rhythm Anonymage 06/16/25 (Mon) 23:58:00 No.301321 [Reply]

How's everyone's sleep schedule? Any tips or tricks for getting a consistent sleep pattern and/or sleep schedule

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Anonymage 09/19/25 (Fri) 08:26:25 No.302978

>>302487
Update: while the "blanket" part i sworking, I have to not forget to use my AC to keep my room at steady 20 C(elsius) - because my room was 24 C last evening (warm, no pajamas needed) but it got cold in the morning (19 C) so I *need* to switch to "cold room with good pajamas" sleeping style.

Anonymage 09/19/25 (Fri) 12:28:17 No.302982

>>301321
I used to have very bad sleep schedule. The only thing that fixed it was just set up alarm clock to wake me up in the morning, no matter how much or how little sleep I got. I also took melatonin pills at 23:00 for a few weeks (under a month). I stopped taking it because I fear that it might mess up my natural melatonin production in the long run. Anyway, I feel a tiny bit better after I fixed my sleep schedule. It also makes things easier, since the society works according to the "normal" (i.e. most popular) sleep schedule (shops and the library are open when I'm not sleeping).

Anonymage 09/19/25 (Fri) 22:54:34 No.302997

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Fuck everything, I wish I did not need to sleep at all, just few minutes of micro-sleep daily, or the other way around, I wish I could live in lucid dream like a junkie in Inception, real life is a waste of memories anyways.

Anonymage 09/22/25 (Mon) 03:00:13 No.303020

>>302977
If you're so invested in the idea that minute wattage differences between household lightbulbs is any contributing factor to your rough sleep, then… Yeah. I, anonymous internet forum user who clearly has your best interest in mind, PROMISES that you will sleep like a loli if you spend a bunch of money on premium light bulbs for your bathroom.

Anonymage 09/22/25 (Mon) 08:39:47 No.303024

>>302977
Genuinely, yes, a "smart" lightbulb you can control with your phone is great. "daylight" during the day, and yellow-orange at night helps massively

but only for ur bedroom tho obviously

Lost money Anonymage 09/17/25 (Wed) 22:57:29 No.302925 [Reply]

I lost a lot of money trading, worst part is:
I made it all back twice, and twice lost everything.
While I was winning I thought to myself, great finally there is something I'm good at, something that could uplift me from the deep hole I got stuck in for so many years, and then I got wiped, I might try again in few mounts, but it got me thinking, why even try?
Not even about trading or making money, no matter what I've tried over the years nothing ever sticks with me or works for me.
There was nothing in my life that I was ever good at, finally I thought to myself, this is it, it worked so good for me, maybe I'm not such a failure, maybe it is my calling, and what do you know? I fucked up like I did everything I've ever touched.

I'm lost, I feel empty inside, but there is no pain, some fainting panic, but that's it, I feel dark and empty inside.

I think the only thing that might make me feel better is something that I must get good at fast, something where I could easily measure and see progress, but I don't know what it could be.

P.S. I'll vent here for a while, yell into abyss, hope it works.

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Anonymage 09/19/25 (Fri) 00:20:20 No.302971

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i dont remember why exactly but i saved these for a reason some years ago, maybe it could help

Anonymage 09/19/25 (Fri) 18:07:19 No.302993

I was successful in trading but spent all my money on psychiatric quacks, then normal doctors, became sicker than I ever been and ended up a homeless dying drug addict with nothing.

Anonymage 09/19/25 (Fri) 18:53:51 No.302994

>>302993
You have a phone. Just start trading again.

Anonymage 09/19/25 (Fri) 19:59:54 No.302995

>>302968
lel, psychology says the more soul you pit into trading the worse the outcome is.

should have set up a nice trading account already…

Anonymage 09/20/25 (Sat) 11:15:55 No.302999

>>302939
youre right and i need to stop and think realistically. i would hate wasting what time i do have running a rat race with no chance of actual success.
>>302970
oddly enough, this is how i usually cope day to day. it definitely does help dealing with stress and makes me strong enough to deal with issues that inevitably arise throughout life.

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The fact that I can't have a girlfriend destroys me. Anonymage 06/09/24 (Sun) 07:54:18 No.292925 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.

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Anonymage 09/13/25 (Sat) 21:04:58 No.302843

>>302840
crysatl cafe is right around the corner.

Anonymage 09/13/25 (Sat) 23:40:15 No.302851

>>302841
I grasp this on an intellectual level but I wish I could come to actually *feel* this level of revulsion towards sex. I hate even having the urge.

Anonymage 09/14/25 (Sun) 14:15:04 No.302869

>>301830
good question

Anonymage 09/17/25 (Wed) 13:42:20 No.302914

What has this chan come to?

Anonymage 09/17/25 (Wed) 23:04:11 No.302927

>>302914
Could it be possible?! This old saint in the forest has not yet heard of it, that Wizchan is dead!

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FALLING BEHIND Anonymage 06/15/25 (Sun) 19:25:07 No.301287 [Reply]

>Last semester of uni
>Stuck on final assignments with no motivation
>Each day the deadline gets closer

I'm so close yet I can't get my act together

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Anonymage 09/16/25 (Tue) 11:42:06 No.302898

>>301287
I take it your picked wrong profession to study

should have mastered how to twist nuts instead

context: labor shortage is a bitch
context 2: I failed MASSIVELY as a student, different unis - to no avail. Yet somehow I keep it together as a warehouse worker with a decent pay - and I don't deal with *that* kind of social experience.

Anonymage 09/17/25 (Wed) 06:20:36 No.302906

>>302898
Higher education does not work for everybody. You can try to force yourself through it by any means necessary but some are simply better suited to being told what to do, having and external schedule and so on. It's not a character failure. It's just how some are wired.

Anonymage 09/17/25 (Wed) 06:34:23 No.302907

AI will replace midwits anyway.

Anonymage 09/17/25 (Wed) 11:35:52 No.302908

>>302907
Midwits would do bettr as warehouse workers, iks de de oh fug

Anonymage 09/17/25 (Wed) 11:47:55 No.302911

>>302906
OK, NOW I think there's something "special" with me. Because both my parents have fancy diplomas yet I am stupid enough to handle a semester.

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Anonymage 07/24/25 (Thu) 00:48:22 No.301851 [Reply]

How do I block out the noise of the world?

Foam has helped me partially or mattresses against windows/ walls etc. depends on what sort of noise and where it’s coming from.

Are used to put mattresses and foam panels against street facing windows. I would say it blocks 25% or so

Mattress covering entire window frame is so obscene though. And don't want hyperacusis caused by using noise cancelling headphones or earplugs.

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Anonymage 08/06/25 (Wed) 20:47:44 No.302080

>>302026
The key is not listening to anything, just having ANC on. It's so perfectly peaceful and quiet, and the earpieces are designed in a way that doesn't cause irritation or pressure whatsoever.

Anonymage 09/02/25 (Tue) 23:31:05 No.302644

>>301884
Beyer dynamics DT770 Pro

Anonymage 09/09/25 (Tue) 20:11:27 No.302789

>>302080
Cool. Guess I should buy noise-cancellinv earbuds too.

Anonymage 09/12/25 (Fri) 13:08:12 No.302827

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For that what could do a better job than earplugs ? It literally blocks the sound from entering your ears. But you must buy quality ones picrel do the job for me if well used i barely hear my loud battery charging at night

Anonymage 09/12/25 (Fri) 13:57:06 No.302828

>>302827
perplexityAI says you gotta rub your earplugs with peroxide once every week

Anonymage 06/01/25 (Sun) 04:57:32 No.300972 [Reply]

Is there any way to do the whole noose thing but ensure I don't end up just brain damaged alive or suffering too much from it? Trying to write a first person fictional story

I'm too stupid to figure out how to get pills and combo them

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Anonymage 06/07/25 (Sat) 09:35:59 No.301097

don't do it

Anonymage 06/07/25 (Sat) 14:49:25 No.301103

>>301067
DO I need my head blown wide open?
WILL I not suffer?

Anonymage 06/07/25 (Sat) 17:57:02 No.301104

>>301103
good questions

Anonymage 06/07/25 (Sat) 18:28:45 No.301105

>>301067
You shouldn't go to religion to find freedom from suffering. Blessed are those who mourn, after all.

Anonymage 09/11/25 (Thu) 09:10:12 No.302809

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>>301021
This updated my journal

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this diseased world Anonymage 12/20/24 (Fri) 14:01:16 No.296812 [Reply]

maybe all this is just a dream, a very long bad dream. this current era these people with no empathy for one another, this corrupt government and this polarization is just getting to me.

will it still come to me if i close myself off from the rest of the world wizards????

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Anonymage 05/17/25 (Sat) 15:03:16 No.300660

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>>298896
What's your favorite part? Mine is part 2 of revelation 18 23 in Greek especially. For by your great merchants (wrings hands) of the Earth that deceiveth the world by pharmakeia. Those with eyes that see and ears that can hear it is quite obvious what it all means, but npcs are blind to it

Anonymage 08/10/25 (Sun) 01:58:52 No.302138

>>296956
All true

Anonymage 08/21/25 (Thu) 16:09:13 No.302359

>>296930
>There is more good than bad in the material world
>imagine being this wrong

Anonymage 09/11/25 (Thu) 01:24:45 No.302805

>>302359
Give us reasons to be positive!!! thank you!!

Anonymage 09/11/25 (Thu) 04:17:13 No.302806

I've just gone with a "no jerks" policy in my life. They're in every group, even the ones that claim to be on the side of "good" or "right." As soon as it's obvious someone is a turd and not just having a bad day, I distance myself and find people with some joy in their lives.

I still trust a few good people over ideology or technology.

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