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 No.301528[Reply]

Confession thread. Confess your sins to fellow wizards. A sorrow shared is a sorrow doubled, but maybe that's ok.

Confession can help us heal from depression. Through confession, the individual takes responsibility for the state of his life, concentrating on what he has done, not what has been done to him.

Christ’s own words to the apostles: “If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained” (John 20:23), which the Church understands as the institution of the Sacrament of Reconciliation and the granting of authority to forgive sins in His name.

Forgiveness is also essential of one another: “If you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins” (Matthew 6:15). A heart hardened against others cannot receive mercy.
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 No.301645

>>301644
There are no photos of fish or references to fish being eaten by cats from the first Depression Crawl Thread through the ones made in 2022. If it's in a crawl thread, it would be the /lounge/ one which I don't have archives of. Sorry!

I believe somebody has been manually backing up /lounge/'s Crawl thread on an off-site platform, but I don't give enough of a rat to check!

 No.301666

ive used my sister's hair comb to comb the hair that's on my private region.

 No.301667

Years ago a NYT article was posted here about a monastery's summer program. I went there and got in trouble for talking to the receptionist's teenage daughter.

 No.301681

>>301667
>got in trouble for talking to the receptionist's teenage daughter
Sexhaver behaviour desu

 No.301683

>>301666
Throw it away!



 No.301040[Reply]

Hey, it's me your resident disgusting nonhuman junkie Benzo spammer. I finally ran out of all ways to get money and I don't even have energy left to try scamming people so it's finally over. I would like to mention I had other reasons to self destruct, like countless debts, mentally ill family, no room to live in, endless diseases eg broken stomach hurts I can't eat and it feels like my spine broke and I'm so weak I'm dying from a walk. Apparently once I ran out of pills I'll have endless months of seizures and psychosis and might jump out of random windows after losing contact with reality.
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 No.301599

>>301595
What do you want to offer me oh mighty wizard? You are half correct, i am forced by circumstances, the other half is that I hate everything in this world and living. Only reason I suffered unbearable agony so long is that I'm a coward that's afraid of doing anything at all, otherwise I'd obviously be long gone years and years ago.

 No.301600

I have a feeling this poster is a troll, i have seen a thread here several months ago that's very simlilar to this one

 No.301603

>>301599
Why not just flee to another country or something?

 No.301606

>>301600
if u read what i write i told u ive been posting here for months cause i live week to week due to my addiction that will kill me if i run out of pills so i hustle lie scam and lie. and thats 1/10 lethal problems i have. i wish i was trolling cause 10% of what i experience is enough for anyone to rope, im just brain broken and have to be pushed to the absolute edge to finally attempt and probably fail.
>>301603
im from poland and yes im done in this country basically so in theory its not a bad idea. problem is i have no money no health and nothing and u make it seem like jumping countries is like buying groceries. i can go and be homeless in germany maybe and thats the extent of my realistic possibilities.

 No.301635

70% of my tooth is gone, it cracked and fell apart. It's also the tooth that had poison put inside it that civilized countries don't use since it poisons the organism. I can't afford a dentist so my death is up faster. My whole organism is gonna get poisoned idk what might even happen to it. Goodbye.



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 No.299042[Reply]

"Why break the seals of mute despair unbidden
And wail life's discords into careless ears?

If any cares for the weak words here written,
It must be someone desolate, fate-smitten,
Whose faith and hope are dead, and who would die."
https://archive.org/details/cityofdreadfulni00thomrich/page/1/mode/1up
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 No.299849

Thanks Wiz

 No.299874

>>299849
A wizard should know Bysshe Vanolis

 No.301561

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"Whence come you in the world of life and light
to this our City of Tremendous Night?"

 No.301562

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"I wake from daydreams to this real night."

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"For their woe broods maddening inwardly"



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 No.299097[Reply]

Do you feel like there is nothing to do online anymore?

Maybe the I'm viewing the past with rose tinted goggles now that I'm turning 30 soon, but I believe the internet as a whole has lost it's charm.
Back in my (relative) youth I could explore it endlessly find whatever to pass the time with.
It was a perfect escape from the real world, whether forums or online games at the time I could always find myself a group of people who shared some of my interests and interact with them.
It felt like I always was a part of a community, the web felt very tribal in a sense.
Now it all feels empty and hostile. It's almost the same experience as moving from a rural village to a big city just in the digital world.

It's all commercial, brands instead of people, everyone is hostile by default unless they try to sell you on something, nobody is there to have fun anymore. Nothing is authentic anymore.
Games are hyper-competitive.
Communities are fast and loose.
Maybe I'm just jaded, maybe I just don't have any real interest anymore, maybe I'm seeing the world in monochrome, but is that really true?

It feels like every corner of the internet has been shit on by a billion randoms constantly chiming in. Jumping into a space just to take a dump for a quick laugh resulting in very little long term traction for these spaces. Compared to old forums anyways.
People aren't invested in anything anymore, things are more permanent on this slow imageboard than they are on mainstream spaces.
Going back to the village analogy, it's like in a city, where you don't even know the next door neighbor in your concrete hives, so why not shit up the place?

Not sure if it's the age, brainrot, depression or anhedonia, but I just can't will myself to care about anything anymore. The only thing left to do on the internet for me seems to be chasing nostalgia. Other than that all that is available is an endless flood of slop that I can scroll while listening to some multi-hour video essay about some other slop.

Video games that used to be my primary way of passing time feel like such a chore nowadays. You get one, launch it, have to learn a couple dozen mechanics, random lingo for the same crap with dozens of numbers you can tune that often end up pointless or gimp you. Then a forced 1-2 hour handhold session with tutorials and cutscenes…
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 No.300523

The closest thing I've gotten to forums of old were the UnevenEdge forums where they try to recreate the old [adult swim] forums. Complete with the section for incoherent babbling. It's alright…but it's just not the same.

 No.301227

>>300453
Anon I'm not sure how serious you are about this, but I wholeheartedly agree.
For me the whole thing has been a serious slippery slope, but I still recall my youthful goon sessions fondly. However cringe and pathetic that might sound.
Back then finding some high quality flash animation or whatever else felt like a gold mine, now looking back at those things I feel nothing. Maybe a pang of nostalgia.
I'm sure it's desensitization, slipping into more extreme or just high quality material, but it is what it is.

 No.301228

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>>301227
i'm very serious.
I don't have many pleasures in life so I lament what I lost not what I never had. a couple of months ago I hunted down one of the first images I ever fapped to. It was just some generic rule34 shit. but to me when I was young it was the hottest thing in the world.

You can say it's desensitization, and in a sense it is, because life is desensitization. we never want to admit it but life is always taking things away from you. you are always losing. your intellect, your health, your memories. It's all slowly being flushed away.

 No.301434

>>301228
You could always try getting an onahole and go from there if you haven't already.

 No.301682

>>301227
>youthful goon sessions
So far beyond the pale that you don't even know what the words used to be.



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 No.301339[Reply]

Ever since that incident that hurts me deeply, I just want to die and get over it, but every living organism on this stupid rock is afraid of death.

She was so damn perfect, obscure, so safe from rule 34, yet she had lots of fun art on there and some sites, and she was divine as there was no porn of her on there. Maybe it used she was truly something. She came from an interesting story from an interesting piece of media, but it all took to ruin it all with a stupid question.

I am just tired now. I just want the pain to go away.

I really hope this threat does not count as fool worship because it is about a fictional character i love.
And I made this threat here previous about this
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 No.301391

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>>301390
Da little bro

 No.301404

>>301339
Who is your waifu?

 No.301405

>>301404
her name is not important right now what is important is that i am going make the burning of kyoto animation studio look like a joke

 No.301414

>>301405
Elliot Roger if even the 2D succubi reject him

 No.301425

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>>301414
we both have massive SWAG!



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 No.300883[Reply]

rule 1: NO new rules but this set of rules. no new thing to cling to. no idea or plan. you can even let go of all other rules and plans you have, except for this one.
rule 2: relax into sensations, pains, emotions and feelings without doing anything about them, no matter what situation.
rule 3: look at and get to know your thoughts. pick them apart in any way you see fit. this is where your freedom comes in. you can do rule 3 in any way you like.
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 No.301014

>>300913
what if i see the HOT BABE ?
what should i do then?

 No.301015

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Rule 4: Disregard all above rules and read up on Epicureanism instead.

Rule 34: If it exists, there’s porn of it.

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>>301015
>pleasure is the guide of life
pleasure is nature's trick to get you to do things, and sex is the worst of them all, the worst deception
if creatures rationally wanted to reproduce, there would be no need for pleasure during sex
>buh-buh-but humans go to the lengths of in vitro to make babies!
they are either deluded (believing in some fantasy about life having meaning) or evil (selfishly wanting to secure their future)

 No.301025

>>301024
>pleasure is nature's trick to get you to do things
>Hunger is just nature's trick to keep you from dying of starvation
>blinking is just nature's trick to keep your eyes from drying
>being a buddhist hippy is just nature's trick to keep you from actually writing decent posts

 No.301335

>>301025
if life was good, there would be no need to drink or blink
no one would suffer from thirst or dry eyes



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 No.300854[Reply]

I have no purpose at life. I just roam. I do this since I was born. Never said one day I'm going to do something. I'm waiting the moment I will say "fine thats' it, thats the day I'll do something with my life" but I know it will never come. I'm a trash
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 No.301083

>learn from your mistakes
>what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
This sort of mentality is what I'm lacking. I'm always convinced that I'll either fail pointlessly, or that even if I succeed it won't be worth the effort. I any case nothing is worth doing.

 No.301090

>>300990
Very enlightening thoughts anon. It actually made me feel a little better.

 No.301094

>>301083
>>what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I heard somewhere that nietzsche, when he said it, didn't have the same meaning as we know today

 No.301095

>>301094
Well I heard that what it meant back then was exactly what it means today. I guess we're at an impasse. But which reality would better benefit men trying to grow and learn - the one that I hear or the one that you heard? Consider the answer, then consider if the version you heard is the version that ought to be shared.

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>>300990
Very good post. The kind of thoughts I come here for.
I used to struggle so hard with these imagined visions of greatness, this insane high standard that I held myself to even though I was just a useless depressed youngster who was doing his best. There comes a lot of peace by accepting your lot in life. Maybe you will never move out of your parent's place and have the epic wizcave of your dreams. Maybe you won't ever have the money for that crazy escapist computer setup. I think we need to try to find the answer to the question of "If this was all there is, how could I come to terms with it?". For some this will be harder than others due to luck deciding what life you are born into and your genetic capacity to adapt to it. Some struggle all their lives, unable to cope. But I think a lot of people's situation can improve if they start to let go of the ideas they have of what their lives should look like.
I am struggling with these things myself still, walking on a path that often feels too intimidating and stressful and that I often dream of quitting to just do nothing and rot away in my bed. But I know that wouldn't bring the relief I am seeking either. Living means struggling continuously, we just get better at dealing with it.



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 No.301277[Reply]

What truly troubles you most from your past?

The research is clear: writing can help us manage negative emotional states, process our lives, and even heal from trauma. One of the reasons writing does this, I believe, is because it invites us, and even requires us, to look at our pain in a new way and for a long time. It requires contemplation.

Preserve your memories, keep them well, what you forget you can never retell.

 No.301278

Good thread, but at this point I have become to focused on the everyday B.S and my future fears, I don't think about the past anymore, I guess the best way to get over your shitty past is by making your present shittier.

 No.301280

I am actually thinking about writing a book about my life



 No.301250[Reply]

I am a loser who cant do anything right. What is the fastet way for suicide? How is that one suicide website called?

 No.301251

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 No.301266

"that one suicide website" is an awful place. I would not recommend going there for any other reason than temporary curiosity. It is just people who moan, sometimes with over tens of thousands of messages per account how terrible life is in general and how it is such a huge tragedy that life exists in first place. I do not want to debunk philosophical pessimism in this post, nonetheless I want to point out that you should not trust an emotionally overwhelmed (severe depression) person with their judgement on a situation (like the situation of being alive in this case). The site is not evil or bad like the media reports on it imply, it's more that awful if you actually want to get better and not just pathetically moan about how bad life is. I do not want to say any names, but there is this user on said website who characterizes this whole website as a whole really well. She also complains very a lot about how life is so unjust and awful, never bothers bettering, does so in an amount of tens of thousands of posts, and she is the whole website in a nutshell.

Judging from your post, I will guess that your problem is fixable. Being a "loser who cant do anything right" is not something you have to take your one and only chance at life for.



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 No.301161[Reply]

After reading what it's like to be poor in Indis or one of those desperate bangladeshi guest workers 48 celsius Dubai heat for 200 dollars a month, I'm convinced hell already exists on Earth.

And I don't want to be in a body whose only option is to endure that for several decades. Not having prior memories is irrelevant.
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 No.301168

>>301166
If you don't exist you don't suffer

 No.301196

the fact those people don't kill themselves en masse indicates to me their pain is tolerable, or at least compensated by their lack of awareness and/or copes.

and why is not having prior memories irrelevant? assuming the hypothetical is true, would that future person who grows up in a completely different environment than you today, really you at all?

 No.301197

>>301196
I'll tell you how there pain is intolerable. Half of them believe that after they die they are gonna have a better life and that they are going to be rewarded for it if they complete their religious duties. As for the other less violent half, they simply aren't aware and conciously choose not to see what their life could be, I tried this with my poor friends by showing them videos of middle class people and they were just not interested in seeing it, I told them to see the stark difference between themselves and the middle class and they were all so disinterested in it that they didn't care as if consciouly choosing not to see it cause they know deep down inside that if they would, then it would break their perception of reality. But man were they interested in cricket and other slop made to divert attention.

 No.301201

>>301161
I fear suicide because it seems too easy. 41 years of sadness and suffering and I can just bounce after a few minutes spent on the end of a rope I have in my garage? Like, that's it? I'm just free to go, and they're not gonna send the spectral search teams with astral scent hounds to track me down for breaking out of this corporeal prison? No sir, I don't trust it.

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>>301161
I meant this mostly as a joke, but when discussing why third worlders seem to increase in numbers despite the suffering I told my friend the following.
They are too corrupt to escape the samsara cycle which ironically they themselves have invented.
With every iteration they perpetuate their corruption so they just accumulate in number over time.

If you aren't already one of them I wouldn't worry in all honesty. The average wizard has sinned less against others than most normies simply by virtue of interacting with less people in general.
Despite this I fear death. I'm 29 with ruined health and no future in a world that is passing by me, seemingly destined for destitution. By my own design it appears.
Yet I fear it. Every night I'm reminded of my mortality I cry. Every time I attempt to fight it by some minor improvement I'm in tears again.
I know I'll regret a great many things when the reaper comes to claim me and those are things I can no longer change.
I made some attempts, but pussied out from the only hard 100% success rate attempt at the last moment about exactly a decade ago.

I somehow still held hope for the future, that I would change, that I would live a life where I could die in peace. Guess what? It took just about 3 days to be back to same-old same-old…
I'm not sure why I'm like this. I do feel like I at least posses the illusion of free will. Things should have never been as hard as I made them out to be.
Inaction is the regret I hold in my heart, the time past is what I mourn each night. Yet the present and the future? Easily spent in the same frivolous manner.
In this sense I am a worse being than any brown, black or whatever else in these situations you dread, so my "joke" above doesn't quite ring true anymore.

You know how much it hurts to look back knowing, that regardless of the outcome basically every opportunity would have had an infinitely greater result just by taking action?
Any action? No matter what path I chose to walk it would have been incomparable to my situation. It didn't matter.
Non of the choices matter. The only wrong move was never having made one.

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