I am severe hard of hearing since birth. Didn't properly get seen, diagnosed by doctors until I was 20. I assumed it was normal how I heard things muffled. The retarded adults in my life. At home. At school. Extended family. Neighborhood parents. They all pinned me for an eccentric kid. Mostly an idiot kid.
I bluffed my way through school. Not learning anything. That's what happens with people like me. I thought I was a lone freak in this world but from my research it turned out hearing disabled kids can fall through the cracks like this. Bluffing means when you can't hear shit but nod your head through everything. Funny how public school is so fucking bullshit a dumbass could fake their way through.
Not without its troubles though. I was the dumb kid since I was existing in a little silent world of my own. There's this thing called passive learning or something. With normal hearing you're subconsciously always learning from hearing things in passing from the world around your. Picking up social cues and things like that so you can play along with the act to fit in. To not be a sperg who gets annihilated by normies. People don't even know they do this. I am a person without this. Hence the stereotype of deaf and dumb. We're missing a parts of the spectrum of education types. Not just academic book learning.
I was bullied so badly for it. By teachers too. Funny how any other crippled kid would have incited violence against the bully. Like if anyone fucked with the wheelchair kid, they've be hung from a tree. I digress.
I developed tinnitus around age 15/16 maybe but didn't tell anyone. It came because I would put on headphones too loud while playing on the computer all day. That was the only way I felt normal because I could put on headphones and actually hear music and videos properly. There wasn't as much multimedia back then though.
The first little while was rough cause the constant acoustic shockwaves bouncing around inside my head. Finally I convinced my parents to take me to the GP.
My parents… classic narrow minded conservative boomers. They didn't want to admit anything could possibly be wrong with their kid. It would be a knock against their own self worth. They were even so afraid I might gay. That retarded fucking gay panic era. lol. Yet another story for another time.
They scanned my brain and the bullshit doc said, doesn't look like anything to me. Next they sent me for a hePost too long. Click here to view the full text.