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[–]  No.297041[Reply]>>298492[Watch Thread]

Is being a male with bpd a fate worse than death? Do any of you know for certain you have BPD?
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[–]  No.297378

>>297156
the only good and based indian was osho. he wanted the whole villages in india to be sterilized.

[–]  No.297411>>298492

Why not take meds?

[–]  No.297639

i was diangosed with Bpd at age 20. im 24 now and it doesnt get any better

[–]  No.297640

yes. personally I cannot think of a worse fate than having a made up illness.

[–]  No.298492

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>>297041 (OP)
He sure didn't try this.
>attached

>>297411
This means less money wasted in the long term


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[–]  No.296490[Reply]>>298491[Watch Thread]

i have no reason to live anymore. ask me anything.

- no, i will not kill myself
- yes, i have tried hobbies
- no, i am not diagnosed with depression
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[–]  No.297776

>>297744
fucking hell I thought I was the only one. after a few days the habitual urges were already pretty much gone and I flatlined completely. I got back into pmo but mostly due to boredome more than actual horniness. planning on quitting for good though

[–]  No.297778>>297785

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>>297772
He isn't addicted though, he just happened to not jerk off for 30 days because he didn't feel like it. If you don't buy into the nofap cult brainrot beforehand you'll notice there's actually no benefits because it's all in your head. You'll also notice there's much crossover with deranged /pol/tards who think it's a Jewish plot to keep da whit man down. The creator of the easy peasy method is also a male feminist who thinks men watching porn are going around beating up succubi, as if violent media causes violence, so he's a retard, grifting off other gullible retards and making a brand for himself.

The only thing which makes me feel alive is doing something which contributes to my goals, like getting better at a hobby, whether I fap or not is irrelevant. If your goal is: people on the internet said I shouldn't touch me willy, and you *want* to attribute everything good in life to not shooting ropes, of course, you'll get the desired effect. That doesn't make it true, though. Self-reported testimonials are not hard data.

[–]  No.297785>>297791>>298491

>>297778
Look i understand where you coming from. I'm not antifap, mast can def be healthy. PORN is not, atleast for me. It actually caused me severe physical withdrawls like an opiod addict. My stomach is finally getting better after years looking at the cause. My aches are disappearing. It's like a fucking drug. I will never touch that poison again. I'm just saying if you are depressed, feeling like shit and you a porn user. Try going without. And no it doesn't mean fapping. PMO is the problem here. I was on the other side for years belittling antiporn wizzies. But they are right. The easy peasy method is great for deconstructing the need for porn, dont give a fuck about feminist it's bad for females blablabla. It says it's a DRUG and you an addict, everything the brain thinks of tricking you back into it. And yes even boredom is a need to get that insta dopa fix. Do what you want if you happy with it and you can live and have it under control. I never could and never will. I'm better without that's all that matters.

[–]  No.297791

>>297785
you have some sort of core problem with self-control. You should work on that directly instead of focusing on porn as one particular manifestation of your weakness

[–]  No.298491

>>296490 (OP)
a new day, a new chance to burn alive and get permanent brain damage from whatever and stay like an overfried potato in silent agony until death. Amongst many others possibilities ever ignored by breeders in their delusional tendencies.

>>297785
we need our mana. May you ppl not have to learn it the hard way


>yea, we are this way


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[–]  No.297783[Reply]>>297807>>298490[Watch Thread]

i'm 27, i live with my parents, i don't have a job and to be honest i don't give a fuck anymore. i would have wanted to move out 5 years ago, when i had a ton of ambitions, but my fuckin overprotective mother didn't give me a hint of freedom. now they hate me just for being. like everyone else. i used to be good at history and wanted to move in that direction, and now i'm NEET who spends all my free time on the internet and goes to the store once a week. i hate them for not letting me realize myself in a life that i don't see any point in right now.
thank u mom
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[–]  No.297807>>297808>>298490

>>297783 (OP)
I relate to the section about overly-protective parents lashing at you years later for HOW they raised you and blaming you as if it's your fault, impossible to reason with them.

[–]  No.297808>>297812

>>297807
i hate it when they accuse me of my lack of independence. like, mom, u didn't give me the opportunity to be independent.

[–]  No.297811

>its too dangerous to go ride your bike outside with the other kids, 10 year old anon

[–]  No.297812>>298490

>>297808
they tell you "be a man, do not blame other people for your problems"
but parenting is the foundtion of everything, it can make a sky-ground difference in the kind of person you end up becoming in the future.

[–]  No.298490

>>297783 (OP)
It be breeders who agreed to bring more flesh to this rigged game, feel no pity for them. Blame yourself not a bit, and take fortune as it comes.

Even if they let you, outcomes are still very probably to be utter shit. Times are getting worse, you see.

Gen Z and millenials are generally fucked.

>>297807
Because they are not be reasoned with, just say incoherent bullshit and be even weirder. They already know it's their fault. Boomer society of taxcuckery and wageslavery and mortgages and author's rights, it's all shitted.

Do not accept their denial about it.
>>297812
Insist on their fault. Be cheeky, do not beg for understanding, that's lethal to do against normies. We do not see how evil they are, but they are.


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[–]  No.297751[Reply]>>298489[Watch Thread]

Does anyone else live like they will have another chance at life despite not being religious? I am so displeased with my starting point in life and how much better others have it without needing to put in any effort that I mentally checked out and have been a low-effort hedonist focusing on being comfortable with the least effort in the moment. Like refusing to play an unbalanced game. But there is no alternative, no one is going to balance life. I'm still in disbelief that this will be the only way I get to experience life. Born in times of great technological progress and opportunity but unable to enjoy it.
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[–]  No.297818>>297820

>>297752
Nah, some are aware of it. The only reason I don't kill myself as an autist is because I realize how lucky I was to be born into a western country with generous Neetbucks for life (permanent disability).

In a third world country I wouldn't even be alive.

So even if there is rebirth in some form, I get to prolong a comfy existence for at least 80-100 years and postpone being born as a rat or slum indian who has to scavenge garbage for sustenance.

(And I don't loathe those people - I'm just scared of that fate, and grateful it wasn't bestowed upon me)

[–]  No.297820

>>297818
what country? how hard was it getting permabux for autism? im in the uk and i reckon i could swing it somehow

[–]  No.297825>>297826

>>297752
Retarded argument. Human existence is nothing but an attempt to rid ourselves of these naturally imposed horrors. Carnivores and herbivores balance each other out in the bigger picture. Rich/poor, west/rest are just a result of some form of 'winners' externalizing the cost of their winning to those with less power and then solidifying that difference in power. Such a thing could not happen in the natural world. The reason we suffer so much is because we know that things could be different if the human soul weren't such an ugly thing.

[–]  No.297826

>>297825
yeah we could easily have a utopia if it wasn't for greedy bitches who always want more, to be better than the rest, to be #1

[–]  No.298489

>>297751 (OP)
Another chance in this world, is to me just another chance for serious miseries. That's the core of this reality.

What do you crave for?


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[–]  No.296804[Reply]>>298488[Watch Thread]

I think it's genuinely just plain over if you don't have education, skills or job experience at the age of 25. It feels like I should just play videogames until anhedonia reaches critical condition and then to just off myself. I lost to job market. I lost to capitalism. My ego and my weakness won't allow me to live as burger king worker. Not to mention i'd be a useless worthless asset in any job anyway. Fuck
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[–]  No.297888>>297889>>297890>>297903

I'm 33 with no job experience or college degree. I am so cooked. How did I get here? I went on reddit to ask for advice but on the same board people with just a 1 year gap and STEM degrees were complaining about not finding a job despite 1000 applications so I didn't even dare to ask.

[–]  No.297889

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>>297888
>reddit

[–]  No.297890

>>297888
I fucking hate users from reddit

[–]  No.297903

>>297888
I mean they also seem to have it pretty bad…
I will graduate with my cs bachelor 1 year late and I feel like Im pretty unemployable due to my lack of personal projects. So I could relate to them.

[–]  No.298488

>>296804 (OP)
Again, I insist: learn your Human Design.

That war always lost. Don't let it deceive you from your real, best chances.

>>296822
>My ego and my weakness won't allow me to live as burger king worker.
And even though, he should rather set his own burger business to outcompete his wagecucker in the end. That'd be a great middle finger.

>>296828
Nah, that's just normie sabotage. GO for neetbux, tell you feel horrible sick and whatever. Show your poor resume.

UNEMPLOYMENT AND CELIBACY WILL RISE, you just wait. This site might as well become overcrowded.


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[–]  No.297846[Reply]>>297956>>298487[Watch Thread]

Its the type of pain most people live with, a background pain. Ambient pain. The idea of dying alone. The idea of being a virgin. having so skills. No purpose. every day is exactly the same, you never leave the house, you cant, you cant drive a car, you are too tired to walk. and its going to be like this for the rest of your life.
You were born to die.
every second hurdling faster and faster towards death.

and no one cares, even if you told someone they would despise you.

you might as well be a corpse already, let the bugs and birds eat you, rot away till you are nothing but bones, let your bones turn to dust, let a gust of wind blow you away.

all that pain, and one day it was like you were never there.
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[–]  No.297943

>>297941
If paths of liberation are conditioning then whatever you have just written is also conditioning. How can we be anything other than what was put inside our brains?

I totally agree with your conclusion.

[–]  No.297947>>297958

>>297941
Because you know clinging, you assume you know not-clinging. Because you don't know not-clinging, you assume it's clinging. This is a mistake. You wish for everything to be the same so you can better justify yourself in suffering, and due to this desire, you assume suffering and tranquility are the same. You assume wisdom and ignorance are the same. This is also a mistake. You take pride in suffering, and so everything must be suffering, and nothing is allowed to be anything else. Friend, you have effectively allowed yourself to become a blind man. You walk around as a blind man. Everywhere you turn, it's equal darkness. When someone informs you there is vision, you tell them it's the same as blindness. I tell you this out of compassion but I can only go so far, if you don't strive and put aside this pride in suffering picked up from the world, you'll continue to live in it and see nothing beyond it. Be well, friend.

[–]  No.297956

>>297846 (OP)
It's so useless to offer these wiews without any request or solutions. What are you aiming for? A circlewhine about it?

[–]  No.297958

>>297947
Why do you assume I don't know tranquility? Why do you assume all I know is suffering? All I'm saying is that even tranquility in the end is completely useless and nothing of worth. People like you sound like preachers, Know-it-all, uptight, passive-aggressive, sensitive. If you were tranquil you wouldn't feel the need to answer like that. I'm sorry but your lost in desperate attempt to feel better than others. Have a good day anyways.

[–]  No.298487

>>297846 (OP)
which skills? being creative enough to know what to say?
There is nothing to say, and even when you learn from others, it's all pathetic.

I say, one of life goal for every wiz is
>First: no-fap if you cannot afford the second, because your health and aura are weak
>Second: to goon and wank without letting a single drop go out, not even at nights. Learning how to regulate the body via diet, cold, gym, etc… so this energy gets effectively recycled.

God help you all against the hordes of ishtar, hell on her


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[–]  No.297855[Reply][Watch Thread]

At what age have you last time felt content, happy, hopeful about your situation? At which age it ended, and you changed? For me it's probably 14 years old. I enjoyed the hell out of the internet and videogames. But looking back I think it was always leading to this neet wiz suicide-considering lifestyle.

[–]  No.297858

its the same for me, 14, and i wasted all the good years i have where you can actually enjoy stuff on browsing 4chan and listening to garbage avante garde music. thats what left an impression on me. as a result i am permanently fucked up and stunted.

[–]  No.297877

Anxiety since childhood. Hopeful till 5 with relapses at 7 and then at about 9-10. Hopeful about the situation not related to filth and natalistic thingy thangs.

[–]  No.298039>>298047>>298481

Life treats people that are lazy so badly. Im so lonely and sad. what do I do now. What should I do to fix my life. why. I wish I had more time. Time is what I need the most of. If I had even a little bit more my time randomly before each exam, a few days, then I couldve gotten a good grade. Im utterly incapable of making up a schedule and sticking to it Im so lazy, I dont engage with the material just going to university and back, what have a learned today? nothing. I couldnt understand anything, and here I am failing my studies because Im so utterly incapable of making a schedule. I failed my exam. Im getting bad grades all the time. I fail to give a fuck about passing. I study until my brain hurts each day take breaks watching slop intertwined with lectures and at the end I didnt have enough time and failed anyways. I fucked up hard.

[–]  No.298047

>>298039
Are you Indian?

[–]  No.298481

>>298039
Whatever your strategy and authority lead you to. Learn what those things are before you end up fucking it up deeper


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[–]  No.298034[Reply]>>298035>>298038[Watch Thread]

Not sure if this fits here, but

I often make bets with myself; for example, I have not eaten for 2 weeks, and if I do something good, maybe, and if I fail, something bad will happen again. This maybe is just coping, but I remember failing some of these challenges and something bad happening that still haunts me to this day and makes me feel deeply sad about it.

[–]  No.298035>>298075>>298480

>>298034 (OP)
>I have not eaten for 2 weeks
you didn't die???
also, I did something like that too. I used to tell myself what to do and then toss a coin, and I'd do thing based on the result. but I don't do it anymore and it wadn't that long, during a short time

[–]  No.298038

>>298034 (OP)
OCD.

[–]  No.298075>>298077

>>298035
Human can last longer without food that water

[–]  No.298077

>>298075
ok👍

[–]  No.298480

>>298035
>did not die
An adult can take even 30 days without significant damage.


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[–]  No.295572[Reply]>>298478[Watch Thread]

I am that same Indian guy who made the post about having C-PTSD and living with abusive parents. I have hit a new low, I think I am becoming low T, I check every symptom on the box, having brain fog, constantly fatigue, constantly sleepy, not being able to get it up anymore, no more morning woods, and no erections.

The problem is this, I am still a student and the effects of having low T are affecting my studies greatly, risking me going into a negative feedback loop where I feel like it's gonna take a toll on my studies. And thus reduce my likelihood of getting a job. I have managed to start gym after intense fighting with my parents.

But there is only so much I can push them as someone who is dependent upon them. I am sorry to post this here, after few long years, I just burst our crying today when my parents denied me to visit a urologist, while I have no symptoms (apart from slight shrinkage of my testicles), I probably have Varicocele too.

This is more of an SOS post, please if there is someone here who can take me away from my parents please do. Please give me a home, some love, some help to fix myself. I hate my life, I hate constantly being low T. My parents also hate all sorts of medicines, and they are going to freak out if the doctor recommends a surgery for varicocele. I can't get a job in this tough market either. It's truly hellish being a crab in the third world shithole.

Low T is affecting all areas of my life, and there is no redemption in sight, is my entire life going to be like this from this point on?
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[–]  No.298324

>>298314
You need to relax a bit and listen to the other side, I live here, I have seen stuff, I am not making things up, I have got no reason to.

Brother, did you even read the post, I don't have the money to go to hospital to treat my dick, what makes you think I have the money to support any succubus.

>>298317
Nope, in urban areas it's higher than it is in slums and rural areas, in slums and rural areas parents don't tend to their children so children have a lot of free time on their hands and you know what that lead to, I will see if I can find it for you there was a study done by National Health Planning by Ministry of Health, and it was done with keeping in mind the household income of the families, and it said that succubi and men from middle class were the most conservative and the rich and the poor were both likely to lose their virginity before 18.

Look brother, I know you have seen the videos, but I have been living here since birth, I speak the language, you've gotta understand I am not making things up.

[–]  No.298325

>>298312
It is very nice to hear that you are at least financially independent, and what you earn in two days, if I earned that much in a month, I would be so happy and that would practically solve all my monetary problems and make me independent.

>I will make a controversial statement that you might not agree with - I believe that dating and making friends in Australia is far easier than in India. Dating in India is damn near impossible for the average guy and your friends circle is extremely limited to those within your own social class.
I do believe that making friends is easier in India, but then again I have never been outside of India and have never interacted much with non-Indians so maybe you're right. As for dating, I guess people tend to use Instagram and Snapchat so normies do manage to get dates quite easily.

>it's more so that kids here can earn enough to be entirely independent by the time they do turn 18
You're right, this is something that I did not take into account, you guys do have quite a lot of jobs for people who just turned 18 and that does mean that a kid can survive if he's out of the house. That's why I have heard a lot of kids move out by themselves.

Also I am sorry that you didn't have a good experience in India, while things are certainly dilapidated and poverty is unimaginable, I don't think we have a lot of crime as compared to other third world countries, to be honest I am under the (wrong?) impression that there is more crime in places like NYC, LA, and Detroit where you can't even park your electric bicycle without it getting stolen, I never had to worry about having my cycle stolen, or perhaps I am judging things incorrectly.

>Like you're seeing now Indian families can be quite toxic and if you don't live up to their standards they abuse you relentlessly… like that's going help with anything.
You're absolutely 100% correct with this observation, they really seemed to have toss all of that love and respect out of the window for me.

>I can really sympathise with you. Being a wizard is hard but having those handicaps PLUS living in India is truly a pitiful existence. Sorry bhai, kya karein? Maybe the next life will bless you better…
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[–]  No.298360

>>298312
Jesus, you make 200 euros a day working a base entry level job.

I would kill to have even half of that and I live in Europe as an educated employee. Fuck life.

[–]  No.298478

>>295572 (OP)
>stop going to job, no matter what
>practice fasting every month
>never coom
>keep gym, but better if at home and not paying the gym owner
>do your own research about whatever you might have, hide everything from your parents
>there's no other motivation than avoiding worsening
>go to psychologist if you can to apply for neetbux
>do not discuss them. I would just take what I need to take of myself and being discreet about it since it is a health issue. No fucking begging.
>Ignore the cuck throwing inflammatory posts, probably a mod

[–]  No.298479


If the village raises you to be miserable, it must burn in your service. Be sure you know well which "meat" is to be "cooked" in that fire.


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[–]  No.298102[Reply]>>298476[Watch Thread]

Is there anyone else who is trapped in routine and monotony and never notices the days going by, rotting alone in their room? I have lost the motivation to play games, watch anime, or even go on imageboards. I've experienced that since last year, well I don't even know anymore, I lost consciousness on how much time has passed and is passing by. I can't take the lack of genuine feelings anymore. I used to escape monotony with games but they don't bring me pleasure anymore. I used to have one or two online friends but time did it's thing and the interest vanished. My life consists of sleeping during the day, waking up to eat with my family and, at night, if my mind is not flooded by overthinking and negative/nonsensical obsessive thoughts, watching videos or listening to music.

[–]  No.298105>>298108

what does your family think about you sitting in your room doing nothing all day?

[–]  No.298106>>298108

Should've learned to code

[–]  No.298108

>>298105
They don't say anything because I'm taking a course at the moment. But it just started a week ago and I haven't done anything so far. My mom was telling me all the time to pursue a course and do something.
>>298106
I've become too retarded to put in the effort, the process for things like this is more stressful than rewarding for me. At least for things I'm not passionate about and coding is one of them. The course I'm taking is focused on that, ironically. My only hope is that I'm young and still have time to learn productive things.

[–]  No.298476

>>298102 (OP)
Forcing weightlifting is all we got. And no-fap, and to sometimes starve while having questionable diets.


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