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 No.304210[Reply]

A little money can help me. I think money can solve any kind of problem, including yours. There's nothing in this world that money can't buy. It can even buy true love.
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 No.304358

>>304357
>psychological damage
you have no slightest idea what this is. you're larping as an ugly guy. your wall of text summarizes to
>yeah Im not ugly but what about…
>I think you just want to start a circular conversation that it's not going anywhere.
Im sorry to break your larp but you're not ugly and your problems are not as bad as you think they're.

 No.304444

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im on neetbux i and i spend it on bullshit. i couldve saved to get a car but i just keep power electronics albums. fuck me

 No.304447

>>304444
what do you buy?

 No.304449

>>304447
CD's, cassette, vinyl, of harsh noise and power electronics albums

 No.304453

>>304449
based physical autism. one of the little joys of my life is buying doujin cds


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 No.299368[Reply]

How do you guys deal with fatigue, if at all. Some days are better but just when you think you're beginning to get a grip again you just wake up and know exactly that you landed back at the bottom of the hole again. Everything is a herculean effort, even typing this out my eye lids are heavy despite being only late afternoon and me having slept for at least 8h last night. No matter what steps I take, sleeping properly, eating better, hell I even started doing some basic exercise every day to get the blood flowing a bit. None of it matters. All of this hard work and it's completely meaningless because I can't seem to get better in a consistent way that matters.
Yet I have to work to live and try my best to finally finish my degree, hopefully before I'm 30 or my university kicks me out. On days like this it's like I've lost 50IQ points and I'm barely functional. I have to keep my living space in a state of acceptable cleanliness. Do any of you guys have any tips on how to make it more bearable?
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 No.304370

warpwaning

 No.304372

>>299368
>How do you guys deal with fatigue, if at all.
"Shall live and die by the fuck you". If providence wants me to be a slave OK I couldn't care less. I can't seem to comprehend how the fuck I am supposed to do anything when I basically have two options
1. Wake up late and be sleepy all day
2. Wake up early and be miserable all day
I have realized that the amount sleep doesn't matter. I'm just fucked up by the Gods themselves. Days when I feel acceptably well happen as often as you find a pattern in white noise.

 No.304384

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>>304372

 No.304385

>>299368

OK, so, I am going to spill some *seemingly offtopic* idea: try optimizing your sleeping station.
Reasoning is that… so you *could* - *probably*, at least - get higher quality sleep, by not aching while sleeping.
PROFIT: you will recharge better for the same sleeping time.

CONTEXT: I mean, sleeping on trashy bed >>> bad sleep despite "proper" hours of sleep >>> fatigue… >>> errors

Details: well, it happened to me! Twice or even "thrice"!

1. I had a too warm blanket. A wool blanket, "normal" for an old house, was too warm for me in our brand new heat-insulated apartment. I bought a cotton blanket - half the insulation - for 20$ or so recently and woke up so well-rested I remeber thinking "and… how come no one have told me this before?!?!"
2. I got a cool matress this year! Slapped it atop my cheap "sofa bed" with a huge crack (two 200x70 sleeping cusions, but not a single 200x140) My back finally stpped aching.

3. Also, I got a good big pillow (I am a big person, as in both tall and fat)
Without it, I have a harder time sleeping

4. AC in the summer. (Or a dehumidifier and a bunch of spare water bottles, at least… not sure if that's a good idea though)

5. Get a set of disposeable nose expanders to see if your sleep improves. If it does, well, check yourself for "Sleep apnea" stuff. REASON: What if you *need* a CPAP mask but you don't know about it yet?

 No.304387

The solution is getting diagnosed for adhd and getting precscribed stimulants. If you can control to urge to binge them, and take them as prescribed - it is LIFE CHANGING


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 No.304290[Reply]

people are irrational, i am not suicidal but this emil cioran quote helped it suddenly become so clear to me

"If I were to be totally sincere, I would say that I do not know why I live and why I do not stop living. The answer probably lies in the irrational character of life which maintains itself without reason."

"people are irrational" - this realisation may not seem deep or like its something new to you, but it feels very enlightening to me, and i get stuck on a constant loop of constantly contemplating irrationality
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 No.304301

The frightening part is everyone mistaking the rationalization of this irrationality for it "getting better". Because when you see it like that it becomes clear that as the organisms we are, we can and do come up with elaborate coping mechanisms to prolong life no matter how painful it becomes: see boomers for a perfect example of this.

Meanwhile young people take risks or kill themselves with relative nonchalance. My only answer for this is that we grow attached to life, again, no matter how bad it becomes. Really bad news for the wizard crowd, man.

I think I am in an interesting situation, a lot of outcasts and loser types have freely indulged for decades non-stop their hobbies, pleasures and interests. But I always refrained from these because I thought it would be wiser to save these things for bad times, this was before I realized this rationalization of irrationality action. Should I finally indulge in stuff I like or pull the trigger already?

 No.304303

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>>304293
After Scott Adams said he would have to murder his son to prevent him from being a crab shooter

 No.304305

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>>304297
Epictetus? He was a stoic, right? My favorite stoic idea is the "premeditatio malorum", that is, envisioning worst-case scenarios so as to be mentally prepared for them. However, worshipping "rationality" is inhumane. you have to acknowledge the influence "irrational" (that is, primitive, instinctual, emotional or even "unexplainable") drives have. Maybe it's something that's easier to understand if you are unrestrained or disinhibited, or at least know or knew someone like that.

>>304301
Indulge in stuff. I am not going to tell you to suicide. But in the end it's your choice. I sadly can't just cast a spell that makes it impossible for you to suicide no matter what.

Have you ever seen the Robert Crumb documentary? His brother Charles was a wizard. He still lived with his mother when the documentary was made. But he offed himself before the documentary was even released. He was 49 years old. That decision - suicide - it was just tragic, not "logical"..

His other brother Max, currently 80 years old, was in the same documentary literally speaking of raping succubi hahah. And he didn't off himself

 No.304313

>>304301
>The frightening part is everyone mistaking the rationalization of this irrationality for it "getting better". Because when you see it like that it becomes clear that as the organisms we are, we can and do come up with elaborate coping mechanisms to prolong life no matter how painful it becomes: see boomers for a perfect example of this.

>Meanwhile young people take risks or kill themselves with relative nonchalance.

I think it's the other way round: young yobs have no idea how to handle situations that aren't even that bad for an old chap.

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>>304294
>>304294
it's the other way around, isn't it???


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 No.304279[Reply]

There's no meaning of existing when you can't be what you want. I wish I could live in a world where I am the main and where people would respect me or care about me. If I don't live in this world, I should die.
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 No.304292

>>304280
I want to be a natural blonde and blue-eyed person with paler skin, from a Germanic tribe, and mainly from a 1st world country.

 No.304298

>>304292
That wouldn't be you. You are what you are on an ontological level.

 No.304299

the only thing that gives life meaning is strong emotional experiences. maybe you're not going to experience romantic love and being respected by your peers, but you could enjoy the feeling of progressing in a skill, satisfying your curiosity, experiencing beautiful things in general, not just people but in nature. you could go to a casino and experience the thrill of putting everything on red. you could get in a fight and win. you could post actually funny and interesting threads on the internet and make someone laugh.

 No.304304

>>304299
>the only thing that gives life meaning is strong emotional experiences
nope, just hedonistic cope.

 No.304311

>>304282
>Are you the guy who only wants to do math and draw?
Nope
I liked to draw as kid but now no. I studied some piano and music theory but i abandoned it.
I like to read but i have too much digital hobbies, maybe i need more non-computer related.


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 No.303254[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.
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 No.304257

>>304236
This.

I can't stand people, I live in a overpopulated european city and every time I leave the house I have to endure crowds of people driving cars, talking to each other and forming queues in shops.

Now that winter is coming they also spread viruses and illnesses. It's intolerable how selfish and shallow humans are, they don't care if we get sick.

 No.304275

>>304257
Can't tell if a troll or just the general mindset on this chan. We got covid measures, because niggers like you went along with them, retard.

>Hurr durr other selfish
Meanwhile lives in an already overpopulated city

 No.304276

>>304275
>B-but people have no choice about where they live
Yeah, I bet the rest of those assholes are saying the same thing, yall deserve each other

 No.304284

>>304275
I'm forced to live with my parents and I'm immunodepressed, so yeah these selfish assholes meeting with relatives for christmas spread all kind of diseases. I truly despise this time of the year.

 No.304308

>>304275
>covid was bad
That was one of the best years of my life as an actual 30+ wizard. Life actually paused, the whole of life paused, any guilt trips from my parents, from my coworkers, from MYSELF were on hold. As a working wizard I got to reexperience life as a NEET again.

There are a lot of niggers complaining about people being sheep. Those people are fags who think they're smarter than they actually are since they were deaf and blind to all the other stuff had been going before covid hit.


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 No.303053[Reply]

Today, I learned about a funny mental disorder that is not autism, not retardation, not SCH yet it's a real issue for people who strive for careers and education.

"Adaptation disorder" in some sources, "adjustment disorder" in many other, such as Wikipedia.


>Unlike major depressive disorder, adjustment disorder is caused by an outside stressor and generally resolves once the individual is able to adapt to the situation.

You know, given me mum was so good at torturing me verbally I am not surprised I *may* have suffered from this very thing. I mean, I hold my job, buuuuuuuuut…



>Signs of adjustment disorder include sadness, hopelessness, lack of enjoyment, crying spells, nervousness, anxiety, desperation, feeling overwhelmed and thoughts of suicide, performing poorly in school or work, among others.[12]
>([12]=mayo clinic)

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/adjustment-disorders/symptoms-causes/syc-20355224

I wonder if lenting exaggerates this condition, because it… kida matches. I never had this cool "speaking with entities" perk of a *skit*zophrenic, never had an autist-tier hobby to treat as own safe haven, yet all of the above seems to be just the thing that ruined my college/carrer prospects.
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 No.303912

Being a murder victim could cause that disorder. Thanks for the info! Had issues with that for all of my life.

Fucking hate people who think they have the right to murder.
Fucking hate absurdity, always.

 No.303939

>>303912
oh, soma killa tried to whack me over a 35$ celly.

Good thing I had a knoife m8, they woulnt rob a elementary school boy, they would do some psycho stuff, good thing I had a knoife m8

 No.304178

>>303906
Oh and the road is equipped with a traffic light so had he whacked me, he would be responsible for a murder and not a manslaughter becaue he was driving at the red light and not an unregulated crossing

 No.304208

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>>303053
>never had an autist-tier hobby to treat as own safe haven
Why autist with hobbies can have a own safe haven? I ignorant about autism, sorry.
I dont have hobbies bacause I poor and dont have money to do things, I just read or pirate things or try to learn something thanks to internet if i can.
>Also
The truth is, I'm not very successful socially, so I don't think I can do much about that.
Only an idiot who doesn't know how to use money would say that money doesn't bring happiness. That excuse about simple things and living simply for happiness is true, but it's also partly a lie. Money makes absolutely everything easier.
>"Adaptation disorder"
Sound like a term when they cant alienate you to a shit society of abnormal people fucked by hyper-socialization and other problems.

 No.304221

>>304208
>I dont have hobbies bacause I poor and dont have money to do things, I just read or pirate things or try to learn something thanks to internet if i can.

Digital hobbies are hobbies too

>The truth is, I'm not very successful socially, so I don't think I can do much about that.
Only an idiot who doesn't know how to use money would say that money doesn't bring happiness.

Oh I used to be such a person… Now I am kinda wiser with modey.


>"Adaptation disorder"
Sound like a term when they cant alienate you to a shit society of abnormal people fucked by hyper-socialization and other problems.

Or when they need to mark down your "not like them" is cause by outside stress - OUTSIDE e.g. not some inner split-o-phrenia


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 No.304213[Reply]

I just look at all the years I've wasted stagnating. And I just want to be building towards, something… anything. i want my years to be building blocks not nothing. it doesnt have to be anything big. being a great wizchan poster is one possible goal among many.

I just want to devote years to something and get better at it, and improve at it. But that only happens in video games.

i hate the feeling of wasted years. time slipping away. i guess i just give up on something. i start a lot of projects. have a bipolar manic high. but then i see its going no where and just give up. i guess there is a rationality to it. but thats how i got the wasted years.

maybe its because im neet. a job, you're always investing your years into, trying to climb the ladder, even if you're not doing it successfully. at least you're progressing in money, thats 1 thing.

i just dont have the endurance to stick with something im not making progress in, and thats why i never make progress.

 No.304214

there's no magical solution. it really is just about sticking with something long enough to see results and let your brain automate some parts so it becomes effortless. i've surprised myself quite a few times by just sticking with something, enduring the initial suckage, ignoring the shitty results and at some point something *clicks* and it's a whole different experience.

just give yourself a goal of spending /at least/ a 100 hours in the activity before you give up. it gives you a simple metric to focus on i.e. time spent, and you only have to show up. if you fail to make progress (unlikely), you can say you gave it a serious shot and you can move on emotionally. if you succeed, then… yeah, congrats, you have a new source of enjoyment in your life.


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 No.299535[Reply]

I want to shoot myself in the head with a gun on a crowded street
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 No.303765

To yourself? Not some other people around?

Utter cucked misery.

 No.303766

>>302705
You already know you are dressing like pretty fire. No need for anyone to remember you this.

>Shove this argument in her face

 No.304154

>>299706
honestly normies are so braindead at this point it wouldn't surprise me if even such an event as that were forgotten by them in a few weeks.

 No.304158

>>303766
thanks

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>>299707
>Spend more time at the gym.
>Buy Bitcoin.

You do neither of those things.


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 No.298058[Reply]

most of us are so fucking unattractive, retarded, uneducated, unlovable, lazy/unambitious etc… that there is no point in continuing this misery.

even when some try to gaslight themselves that their loser-lifestyle can be comfy, we all deep down know that this isnt supposed to be *life*.

objectively, we're the bottom of the barrel, rock bottom essentially; we can only cope by escaping reality and isolating ourselves and anytime we encounter the real fucking world, we're deemed as fucking subhumans by others AND ourselves.

we're rotting, just wasting space, energy and oxygen while the only thing left for us is waiting to die, respectively.

i dont get how we all havent already committed suicide by now cuz our fucking trash genetics have been haunting us for our entire existence, yet we collectively and voluntarily decided to continue living. why the fuck are we so stupid???
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 No.304160

>>299332
And on the flipside, I find nonexistence to be the most comforting ending possible
I already feel like I've experienced way too much for one brain, eternal nothing sounds comforting, no awareness, no stress, no feelings, no boredom, nothing, like how it used to be before this whole mess.

 No.304161

>>302162
Given that I have a dick problem that prevents me from feeling any sexual desire for the rest of my life, would you say that my life is permanently ruined? I know this isn't what life is all about, but it's an important part of it. I feel so empty. I want to jump off a cliff, but like many anons, I'm afraid of what lies ahead.

 No.304163

Because I believe me, and many of you who are here have actually pretty good lives. If you think about it, if you can write here, if you don't have a delibitating physical disability, if you are not blind, if you are not a cripple, if you are not paralyzed from neck down, if you didn't get abused as a child, if you didn't grow up in a warzone, if you haven't seen nothing but war and bloodshed since the moment you were born, if you haven't seen your mother torn to shreds with a cluster bomb, if you haven't seen endless piles of dead bodies on a frontline, if you haven't been trafficked and forced into unspeakable things, if you never knew what extreme thirst and hunger feels like, you have a pretty darn good life compared to a pretty substantial portion of the human population.

If you are a NEET, that means your parents haven't given up on you yet. They could have thrown you to the streets, and yet they didn't. They could have forced you into a shit job, and yet they didn't. They could have beat you and abused you and screamed at you every day, and yet they didn't. Your life is not that bad. Being ugly, being a virgin, being fat, having been ostracized, these are not real problems. There are millions of people on Earth who would trade places with us without hesitation. When I think about these things, I feel grateful for the life that I have been given, and I feel I must do my best with what I have.

 No.304164

>>304163
who said you wont eventually get to experience all these bad things?
even if your parents dont hate you, at some point they will die and any day you could become a cripple or get some cancer or some other annoying disease or become homeless.
any day you could become victim of a crime or find yourself in a warzone.
imo the true horror is having a comfy life and then having it torn away from under your ass and taking a deep look down the abyss of how fucking bad things can get.

 No.304165

>>304163
This kind of thinking is absolutely disgusting, basically everyone should'nt kill themselves because they aren't Indian you are saying. screw you


 No.302557[Reply]

I don't feel like I belong to this body. Something says I belong to a blond and blue-eyed person. I'm depressed 'cause I have to be stuck into a Latino's body while I'm German.
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 No.302564

>>302563
Also a latino fucked my sister. While I am a blonde blue-eyed virgin. Do with that info what you will.

 No.303771

Eugenics are a need. Not those genetic failured who perpetuate and accumulate their curses into future generations

If anyone knows how to brainwashes normies into doing the correct thing, just share. They are like damn cattle, no control, no morals…

 No.303788

>>303771
Problem is, in a way, a 180cm+ big guy can also be misinterpreted as "genetic failure" if the stat maker has to focus on something somethng "family's resilience" as in lack of fatherless kids.


Context: I am not just fatherless: it's 3rd eneration (or more?) of turning 6 without father being present.

 No.304159

I hate mi body to, It not represent my soul, but exist a solution learn to "deny yourself" a lot of spirituallities teach this, Christianity buddism etc
Try a prey, like the "our father" try to understend the words, you are denying your selft and accepting an external will, not your will, you can say as a procelitism of Christianity or an start poin to research about spirituality in general, i love you uwu

 No.304162

Ridiculous to want to end your life over this. You don't have a chronic illness or something truly depressing happening to you. You're just unhappy with your skin colour, a first world problem really. Fuck off normie


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