/dep/ - Depression

>>301913
>pajamas with a blanked in the summer = bad
orly

>>302350
Context: my apartment has strong heat-insulated walls, which prevent the heat from dissipating quickly. Not everyone live in a home like that, hence the big problem

>>302772
It was 23 degrees Celsius in my room this morning, by the way

Update. Autumn weather + heated apartment = my sleep is good. Unfortunately, I need a proper nightstand lamp and I lack the determination to drill a wall.

>>301927
Also, in some other thread, an importance of good diet for mental well-being was mentioned.

To avoid "dissing" my mom's intentions, I should say she keep cooking *comfort food* - not bad, but it's shouldn't be your everyday food. Yet it was my everyday food.

>>303349
…oh, wait, "computer religion" is literally a bunch of people who went crazy after watching "The Matrix".

>>303350
I mean of all the stupid things normies have worshipped, a GPT who can write a new Bible for you personally that sounds like KJV, is probably the least stupid.

All religions are always so convenient for humans, proof that they are completely fake. A religion that preached that the afterlife is worst than life and you will go there no matter what would never gain traction even if it were true.

>>301426
>>301428
>>301486
>Karma
The meaning of karma that I was taught is that karma ends when you decide not to do evil by harming or hurting others or taking revenge, thereby cutting off one of the causes of suffering.
Of course, that doesn't mean you can't respond violently or defend yourself, but if you do nothing, the suffering only gets worse. You can only mitigate or avoid it completely, which is why pain is inevitable but suffering is optional.
>But is egoistic
And no, it's not pure selfishness. I know that if I drink water, I'm being selfish, and in third world countries there is no water, but it's not something I can magically change. Nor can I abandon everything and let myself get sick helping others because then I wouldn't be able to help others. Think of it like when the emergency oxygen masks fall on an airplane: first yourself and then others, because if you're not okay, you won't be able to help others. People forget this, but Buddha spoke of the middle way because he opposed the ascetic extremism and extremes of his time of Sramana practices.
>But nonviolence make you a cope pacifis…
And no, it's not about nonviolence. Do you think there were warrior monks in China and Japan who had no problem with violence and going to war? The same thing happens with activists and charities that start out Buddhist.
>Also
So no, I don't see karma as the law of the boomerang or the three fingers pointing others and two fingers you or an eye for an eye like new agers or wiccans. These are not Chinese social points that will affect your other life, if it exists, but they are likely to affect your only present life because those who live restlessly, with hatred, resentment, fear, shame, evil, and violence tend to get sick, make others sick, and die violently. So I choose to find, make and have peace bacause that turn me free of some causes of suffering. And in this way, I also relieve some of the suffering of others.

>>303359
>A religion that preached that the afterlife is worst than life and you will go there no matter what

Actually, your statement can be "upgraded" with an idea of ASCENSION - say, an ASCENDED person would enjoy … *such a place*, while an unascended person would NOT.

Come think of it, the idea of nirvana is ridiculously close to that

>>300441
>You can be born smart and everything but if the pleasure center is all fucked up, you are doomed to spend a life of stagnation. There is no motivation to achieve anything.


come to think of it, this is EXACTLY what quackery fans achieve by eating Kellog's

>>300501
>I don't want to praise this stuff but I never understood why people online say this. You only take these kind of drugs when you are already anhedonic, depressed, dysphoric, numbed, apathetic, emotionally dead, a zombie. In that case they can help. When you are not like, and you feel emotions and drive, they might make you anhedonic, but then you wouldn't take them anyways. So this argument makes no sense to me. The worst that can happen is that they don't change shit.
They can work but sometimes they're prescribed to the wrong people.

>>302777
Or, what's worse, a doctor may put a wizard off SSRIs because of this "sexual disfunction side effect" worry.

>>303272
it's no worry. It's very real. Look up PSSD and see how many people ssris destroyed, they killed my dick and they'll kill yours. Never ever take meds, you can feel better without them, it just takes time. never ever take kike meds.

>>303291
>wizard
>it's no worry. It's very real. Look up PSSD and see how many people ssris destroyed, they killed my dick and they'll kill yours.

I don't get it! I don't need an erection by anyway since I am a wizard, isn't that so by default? I don't watch xxx videos though…

>>302617
>If you're just going to level out to baseline anyways
This hasn't happened in my case. My baseline happiness level has clearly changed over time and hasn't just been a constant level throughout my entire life as you claim. I had severe depression for years that gradually lessened over time. Your concept of "pursuit of pleasure" that flattens out over time sounds like it's just collecting materialistic crap and consuming media.

>>302617
>Given the existence of the hedonic treadmill, why does happiness matter? Why is the pursuit of happiness at all important? If you're just going to level out to baseline anyways, you might as well just sit and rot, since that requires far fewer resources.
You buy this and you'll be happy, you do that (for me) and you'll be happy. It doesn't exist.

I meditate to try to slow the hedonic treadmill and try to enjoy just being.

>>302766
>
Chasing happiness matters because it affirms the self. If you are sad and someone tells you to cheer up and smile, it's not because they're a hedonistic hylic attempting to trap you in this realm. It's because they want you to actualize even the slightest amount of external energy such that it may affect your mood and ideally make someone else happy as well.

Nah, my paternal grandma was all like "i get it, YOU LOVE SUFFERING"


good think she died of cancer, not a sudden "urGH!" heart failure.

>>303267
also, my English is "utter shite" shit. I misspelled "good thing" as "good think", ugh.

>>303269
very common mistake, not an issue since the intended meaning is very clear

>>303253
Ok thanks. I've looked online and people compare it getting a cavity filled? Is this accurate?

>>303256
No. It is worse. Not by a lot and depends on circumstances, but it's not the same.

Your teeth that gets worked on isn't going to be the one causing you pain, but the surrounding area that got molested as a result if that makes any sense.
I had inflammation for a few days, nothing super major, but considering most if not all my fillings were without anesthesia I would say it is worse.
Again, nothing to worry about, just prepare mentally for a few days of pain killers and pay attention to fever signs.
If you have fever, don't hesitate to call or go back.

It's also quite random, for one I had no issues for another I did suffer a bit more.
Same with wisdom teeth. I had my jaw broken for one, and the other was removed and didn't even need stitches. It's hard to tell.
If you are prone to panicking just go to sleep after or something.
I'm paranoid as hell and if I have inflammation I do feel my forehead as hot, but no fever. So don't get too worked up, make sure to check temps instead of panicking.

Had another ER visit for my blood pressure.
Nothing conclusive found, likely a combination of nightshifts and stress.
Legitimately felt like I was going to die.
Again.

I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I worked on getting healthier over the year and the result?
Same shit when I was abusing my body last year.
How does one not just give up after this? I already told my mom to call my one friend so he would at least know if I croaked and not just ghosted…
Exhausted.

Told my parents I wanted to kms months ago

They never asked about it, never amended their behavior. Never bothered to follow up on it. I don't think they really even give a shit.

No wonder I ended up a soulless fuck, a clueless, useless father and a miserable, cold mother. I'm just glad my little brother is starting to break away from this shit. I hope he thrives

>>303250
The first step is the hardest, takes your DECISEVENESS or such
>It's crazy how much of this just looks like "he is a lazy retard" from the outside when it takes more energy for a simple step than it takes for others to walk the whole road ahead.

and DECISEVENESS is a problem in XXI century, when they BOMBARD you with a mixture of unrelated (one-to-each-other kind of unrelated) news, NEWS, N E W S ON 11!!! so you, a wizard, have no idea if something big or small is breweing. Yet all those news sap your deciseveness to become a pro or - at least - COMPETENT ENOUGH to earn $$$, not just "pays the bills" $.

inb4 "r u da learn Human Design anon?"
No.

>>303282
Heh. So, you expected some kind of attention?

>They never asked about it, never amended their behavior. Never bothered to follow up on it. I don't think they really even give a shit.


aaaaaaa… shit. Look, I had a similar dramatic moment in my life, and my father told me to go for it only to chicken out 5 seconds later because we were on a highway. They're probably *taught* to keep a cool, icy face.

Oh and by the way. Learn to twist nuts or something. Maybe learn to earn money by doing shit jobs like literal shit delivery man (assensation car driver aka "honey man") - you will be able to tell people AT LEAST WE BOTH KNOW MY LIFE IS SHIT FIRST FREEDOM FRIES LATER

Yes, disgusting, that's why they pay decent $$ to shit driver jobs ahaha
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>>301996
Being a vegetable seems better than this because it would take responsibility for my life off me which I can't handle anyway.
I want to write in my will for my family to throw my corpse into the tracsh

I relate to all of these posts a lot.

Only child,
Mediocre parents,
No friends in high school,
No gf,
No job,
Interests nobody gives a shit about,
etc,

I've decided to go to college 10 hours away from home to try to restart my life. Have any of you guys tried any thing similar?

>>300761
I like to think about it as a form of control. If I manage to have the means to end it all quickly if something very bad happens, like:
>get broke and unemployed
>contract severe illness that will make me suffer for years, like cancer or some degenerative disease
I would be way more satisfied and secure about my life.

I mean, being a reclusive PC potato will only get you so far. You will become seriously ill eventually. Your brain won't just stop working and *poof* you're dead. Now a shotgun can do exactly that. So that's my number one thing to buy, but it's difficult to find in my country. I don't trust "painless" ways to commit seppuku.

>>300773
>like a good little teenager who just discovered Buddhism throuh Wikipedia.



ok, now that's intolerant XD

>>302487
Update: while the "blanket" part i sworking, I have to not forget to use my AC to keep my room at steady 20 C(elsius) - because my room was 24 C last evening (warm, no pajamas needed) but it got cold in the morning (19 C) so I *need* to switch to "cold room with good pajamas" sleeping style.

>>301321
I used to have very bad sleep schedule. The only thing that fixed it was just set up alarm clock to wake me up in the morning, no matter how much or how little sleep I got. I also took melatonin pills at 23:00 for a few weeks (under a month). I stopped taking it because I fear that it might mess up my natural melatonin production in the long run. Anyway, I feel a tiny bit better after I fixed my sleep schedule. It also makes things easier, since the society works according to the "normal" (i.e. most popular) sleep schedule (shops and the library are open when I'm not sleeping).

Fuck everything, I wish I did not need to sleep at all, just few minutes of micro-sleep daily, or the other way around, I wish I could live in lucid dream like a junkie in Inception, real life is a waste of memories anyways.

>>302977
If you're so invested in the idea that minute wattage differences between household lightbulbs is any contributing factor to your rough sleep, then… Yeah. I, anonymous internet forum user who clearly has your best interest in mind, PROMISES that you will sleep like a loli if you spend a bunch of money on premium light bulbs for your bathroom.

>>302977
Genuinely, yes, a "smart" lightbulb you can control with your phone is great. "daylight" during the day, and yellow-orange at night helps massively

but only for ur bedroom tho obviously

i dont remember why exactly but i saved these for a reason some years ago, maybe it could help

I was successful in trading but spent all my money on psychiatric quacks, then normal doctors, became sicker than I ever been and ended up a homeless dying drug addict with nothing.

>>302993
You have a phone. Just start trading again.

>>302968
lel, psychology says the more soul you pit into trading the worse the outcome is.


should have set up a nice trading account already…

>>302939
youre right and i need to stop and think realistically. i would hate wasting what time i do have running a rat race with no chance of actual success.
>>302970
oddly enough, this is how i usually cope day to day. it definitely does help dealing with stress and makes me strong enough to deal with issues that inevitably arise throughout life.

>>300447
Cutting ties with family the most important, espcially if you can find a way to live without them. Animals are kicked out on their own for a reason, I fucking want to live for myself and be left the fuck alone already.

>>300447
>Yes, I went to college to network. Yes, that was wrong.
I WENT TO UNI FOR EVEN MORE STUPID REASONS - because my mother forced me to.

that will be my biggest regret ever.
I will always think everyone assumes a 6 feet tall man to be "wanting to fug by default". Therefore, silly succubi, instead of being boring - silently tossing be a .pdf file of a timetable - would start playing their succ games with me. This was the LAST thing I was going to an uni for - I only wanted to get a speciality in computers to avoid dealing with people's mind games on daily basis.


sorry

had to vent

>>302880
Basically, my life fell victim of "big guys are dumb" meme. I work at a literal warehouse now, all thanks to stereotypes. Eeeeesh.

-I wish I had started working earlier, better economy and I wasted a good 5 years. Also 2x rates for overtime was still around back then
-I wish I didn't try so hard to appear normal, wasted effort and no results
-I wish didn't try so hard in school and instead focused on real skills that could be used in the workforce
-I wish I took better care of my teeth, and health in general
-I wish I committed to learning languages, I would have been fluent by now

>>302915
Relateable! All relateable…