/dep/ - Depression

Why are naturalists so cucked, "it is what it is… oh well" then they would be foaming at the mouth fuming if they found out their wife slept with a black guy. That is assuming they are not a ted kaczynski dick hoppers. Nature allows subhumans to exist and someone like kaczynski is defiantly not superior because he is some muscle meat head dumb fuck with a club screaming like a Neanderthal cave dwelling freak. But someone who is tactical, methodical and philosophical. He makes change by intuition. If it were in the hands of nature, we would by all accounts have genes chosen based on physical attributes not mental. The mental attributes were a byproduct of natural selection and would not even call it that as technically people choosing based on personality complexities would take more conscientious thought and observation than physical attraction. Nature has no room or time for civility and reasoning. Anyone that lacks either of that is not human, plain and simple. No just because it takes nature to pander out rationality does not mean you have critical thinking skills, that equivalent of street smart. Anyone who is "street smart" easily fall into the nigger moment behavior. Even if there are those that dont, then this rules out that "hard ships make better people" if someone is easily influenced by their surrounding then they are not human they are a follower and are subservient to higher people who are able to pave their own path regardless of what circumstances. So then, you are weak as strength is not obtainable. Stop justifying the production of careless reproduction and believing nature is the solution to our problems. Cause it is fucking not. Especially when you depend on production of plastics and metal to form a device to spout your nonsense onto.

Ok guys. I finally started doing something I promised I'd do years ago.
I started making an anonymous booklet\PDF manual on how to : Get disabilitybux even trough fraudulent methods, how to use basic social skills and socialization methods to mooch off parents until they die\ make friends to mooch off them, and even join political groups -even the ones you hate- to get fraud jobs or State gibs.
I will include many Levels of mooching and frauds, all non-violent, all very smart and cold-blood: setting up an army of indian and nigerian clicksense serfs ,who you may pay and keep in line with western insta thots. How to cut costs , live rent-free, eat for free year round.
I will pen this, it will be anonymously published somewhere or everywhere.

Wizards, I am discovering many reports of increased mental cloudiness in many unrelated parts of the internet. People generally to my judgement at least appear slower and more aggressive these days than in years past. The color of their minds has become grayer and far less sharp, if you will. Even the world itself feels "less real" and more muddled. Disassociation amongst normans is likewise being reported at higher rates today. What is going on exactly?

Perhaps Metal Gear Solid 2 has become reality: (((the patriots))) control information and as such they have created a world that is almost wholly built on deception, or similarly saturated in endless fake narratives. Is the absence of truth causing people to go mad??

please post your experiences with anti depressants here

i'm starting on them (Citalopram) tomorrow and im scared that ill gain weight from it

I just made a scene in a supermarket, I'm deeply ashamed of myself. I lost my cool, I was buying my psych meds and the idiot succubus cashier had a problem with her system, she couldn't issue a voucher but the payment was still debited from my bank account. They wanted me to pay twice for my meds, security had to pull me, they almost called the cops, everyone was staring at me. I ended up leaving with no meds and a charge in my bank account. Can't even fucking buy my meds online because these are psych meds.

Complete shit day, doctor diagnosed me with fatty liver, gotta check if I have scarring. I hate life, I'm going to use until I fall asleep. Being a wizard is a perpetual existence of suffering. I just want to cry and lay down and I can't.

I have some plans of moving to another country. I don't now what I want for a career though. I have a passion for linguistics and philosophy but college is way too expensive in the US to get a degree and make a career out of it. I considered moving to the UK or something to try there since I saw it's like $11K a year but learned that's only for UK citizens, for Americans it's a lot more. More than I can afford reasonably right now.

So, I'm 25, no real direction, some goals but it seems too difficult. Any advice at all wizzies?

I just wanted to vent about how being stupid is one of the most frustrating experiences.

Being ugly sucks for sure. But from experience a lot of people who complain about being ugly, myself included when I was young and clueless, are just average. They won't get any easy benefits with their looks but also no negatives. There is the halo effect so being ugly can lead to people treating you worse but I think it's still something that you can power through if you are strong in other areas. I've seen a lot of successful people who aren't exacty lookers.

Being born poor is also a huge factor in deciding your future. It can even permanently alter your brain. But unless you live in the 3rdest world country ever there are social programs, scholarships and the internet to give you the capabilities to make your talents seen if you have them.

But if you are stupid you are truly fucked. You can't learn to become more intelligent. You can train your brain, exercise and take supplements but that just gives you a small boost but won't actually make you smart. You can't do anything yourself and instead have to rely on smarter people to chew it for you first which means you are always behind and can't innovate or get ahead of others. You can't figure out a lucrative business opportunity and can only get in on it once it's too late and the people who got rich of it write guides. But then because you are stupid you are also vulnerable to manipulation and can be tricked into bad investments. Bad things happen to you and you are too stupid to truly figure out why. For example you can be stuck at a video game boss and think it's badly designed because you just can't see the attack pattern and think of a strategy to beat it. Stupidity is the one weakness that also gets moralized heavily. People make fun of ugly people but it's also often seen as mean and unfair. But making fun of stupid people is fair game. People treat stupidity like it's somehow your fault. It's part of your character even if you had no choice over it. Smart people will often rub their smartness in your face because they feel like they earned it.

It fucking sucks man.

If you are reading this somewhere, I hate you as much as you used to hate me, until things got personal. I still hate you after that. Just by existing and reminding me of a friend I once had. Before knowing you, or your antics, I was fine living ignorantly while hating you. But you cant just stop can you, even fate is on your side to cause me great pain. You have let go of the past and so have I, but my hatred is now redirected especially as it lapsed in with my moral judgement. I hope one day you meet someone you get along with only to be stuck in the same dilemma. A great yearn while still in chains of your own self disgust. But your kind doesn't have to suffer, so I guess there is no retribution for everyone. Especially when gods pet is the one doing it. Maybe you might understand, you are not that far gone, especially since you have a social mask for a reason. You just couldn't let me live in blissful ignorance. I genuinely hope you live prosperously and become aware of the lives you walked on as you slowly degrade into realization and guilt. You're not that too far gone, you're not. Now I know how the devil felt, there are two sides to the same coin but it so happens that one side is shinier than the other whole the other is held down by a heavier weight that makes the coin always land on heads. But one day that shine will ware off due to your negligence that coin will be just another collection to a cast ocean of unimportant dead hopes and dreams.

Commencing a gradual progression towards a state of virtual vocal reticence, I find myself experiencing an increasing disconnection from my fellow denizens of the digital realm, resulting in an acute inability to establish any meaningful semblance of rapport or resonance with others.

Just wondering because there seems to be no way out and I want it just to end.