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 No.235802[Reply]

I am currently a homeless wizard, attending a small community college of bland, unimportant classes. I sleep in an abandoned house near my school for shelter and use the gym on campus for shower. I shop at Walmart and Dollar Tree and I hate life - I hate existence. Why couldn't reality have been perfect? Why did it have to be a shitty survival game that sucks ass? I am $5,000 in debt this semester and my classes are retarded. I have no friends and my family thinks I'm an alcoholic freak even though I'm not drinking anymore, hence why I'm homeless. Being around people honestly makes me infuriatingly angry, they actually ruin anything beautiful with their hostile emotions.
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 No.235810

>>235808
>staying in some guy's house for now, and he happens to be pretty creepy
he propably already drugged you and sodomized you in your sleep.
Leave before it's too late.
>I honestly wonder if prison would be preferable to this.
Everything is preferable over this.
If you live in western europe do some shit that'll get you arrested, if you're american, I'm sorry. Prison is probably not gonna be much better.
stay safe wizzie.

 No.235815

>>235810
American prison is better, I see videos of death row inmates watching some tv or playing some video games and it pisses me off that murderers have that luxury but a homeless person who doesn't have enough money for things can't get that luxury.

 No.238332

>>235802
>>235808
any updates?

 No.238352

>>235804
>My family disowned me a few months ago because they got tired of me
what you did?

 No.238353

OP maybe try contact a social worker they may be able to help you and ify ou can please consider using different images to post an OP with.

>>235808
Prison would be fine if you did not have to deal with other people it is not a nice place but can be ok depending on the people you are with.

>>235804
I feel this I have been abandoned by my parents was homeless and started living with other family and despite not interacting with them they want me gone. I do not try to argue with them I respect their choice I am but trash after all.



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 No.238338[Reply]

0.5g IV heroin + 80mg oxy + valium. Enough for a successful suicide you reckon? What are your opinions? No tolerance for several months, but I have been a heroin user in the past.

 No.238339

That is a good start, yes. Make sure you are absolutely certain. Wishing you the best

 No.238340

>>238339
Thank you buddy. Worst case scenario I wake up in the hospital with no memory right? From my experience and the research I did it should be a pretty smooth passage to the other side.

 No.238341

>>238340
Your welcome. Yes, if they find you and hit you with that narcan quick enough that would be worst case scenario



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 No.238227[Reply]

Don't even try.

Normies are born and raised to be competitive, parasitic, psychopaths.

If you're failed normie, just giveup they'll never accept you, normal logic is, feign morality, kindness etc when there's something down the line, someone who's destined to be a loser not a threat so keep to yourself, with them it's a cycle of sympathy, deception, use and discard, that's why being white or brown doesn't matter if you're loser or homeless , you're the all the same to a norman, they don't care about your efforts to appease them, if you're stupid enough to fight back, they will mock you call you retarded, cringe, etc and go back to hedonic treadmill.

Pic rel, mass-killer became lawyer, had the gf who loved him, still went ER, had scores of them show up to his trial.
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 No.238295

That's pretty much my frustrated jerk boss at work

 No.238296

>>238291
Wizcord mods did this to me

 No.238298

>>238231
Imagine being angry at a fellow Wiz because he's having a better day than you are and saying a positive thing for once. "Sorry you are not depressed enough to join our depression club please become more depressed." You sound retarded man, depression is not a competition, far from.

 No.238301

>>238298
He's mad about the amount of people who assert everyone has control over their experience of reality to the same degree. That's why he quoted the part about life being what you make of it.

 No.238318

>>238290
i'll rephrase him. i'd rather kill myself than work.



 No.237782[Reply]

Anyone having trouble with law? How are you handling the situation with parents?

 No.238306

I beat the shit out of my dad a year ago, if you must know. This came at the tail-end of years of disrespect from my side. And his side, for that matter.

He's already completely forgiven me because he's a hopeless retard. No lasting consequences from the law.



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 No.237922[Reply]

Hey wizzies, I noticed that when I'm moreso depressed if I happen to go out for a walk or something. I get mentally exhausted like to the point of yawning. Like theres cars going by, people doing stuff, stuff happening around. I can't take it. It's too much. Maybe its just this place that irks me. I'm looking forward to moving to a quiet place.
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 No.238191

Whenever I take a walk instead of relaxing I get worse, I think a lot while I walk, I constantly remember bad stuff and shit and end more depressed

 No.238255

>>238191
I live in a city of roughly 9m people and I hate it here. I will never be able to leave, and this place adds tens of thousands of people to it every single year.

Going outside makes me feel exhausted too so I've largely stopped doing it. Sometimes I leave for an hour or two when the neighbours in my apartment building are making banging noises though.

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 No.238262

>>237922
when i go outside i feel nice until i see other ppl happy, then i get this inkling of jealousy that eats away at me.

 No.238263

>>238255
so fucking true man, its like a prison



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 No.235017[Reply]

So an incident in my life has lead me to become deeply introspective of myself and one thing that I've realized is that I'm dumb as hell. Like, my intelligence is so minuscule that I won't ever master any kind of skill, whether that is mastering a game like Age of Empires 2 or learning and mastering coding languages. My memory and critical thinking skills are just too below the normal to even become decent at these things and there is nothing I can do to fix this, so the only thing left to do is to cope.

How do you learn to accept this very grim reality? Best copes for low intelligence? I've lost all hope and I'm ready to ball my eyes out.
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 No.238078

People who have passion for things that are practical for surviving in the world are the ones who have "high IQ".

For me, I've never really wanted to do or be anything, all I've wanted to do since I was a kid was stay at home and consume media. I've never had any interest in practical and creative hobbies, and I've never particularly cared for socialising.

 No.238080

There is no cope for this.
If you are dumb, which in the modern sense means perform poorly academically more than anything, then all you can expect in the future is a life of minimum wage slavery and suffering. There is no escape or cope to get through this unpleasant reality.

 No.238111

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>>235017
>I am a failure, pity me.

 No.238188

Socrates' greatest discovery was knowing that he knows nothing. So knowing you're dumb is half the battle. Look at the millions who think they are far more smarter and skilled than they actually are.

If dumb people knew they were dumb, the world would be a smarter place

 No.238218

>>238111
I've heard that "The Laws of Power" is the most commonly read book by prisoners. Because of that, I've never known what to think of it. It's like, "Do I want to copy the philosophy of a prisoner?" I'm not sure it's something good to emulate given the clientele.



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 No.238105[Reply]

Hi wizzies,


I'm reading about depression treatment options and CBT comes up a lot. Is it all a big meme or does it actually work?

I'm not that fond of talking to other humans so not sure this is even an option for me…

 No.238107

It's sort of good if you're the typical extrovert with a lack of inner speech. CBT makes you focus on your inner experience, recognize patterns. It can be eye-opening if you haven't developed that kind of self-awareness yet, but if you're the typical introvert that spends most of his time in his head, it won't be nearly as insightful.

Also, it doesn't actually work. At least not better than any other empirically tested therapy or AD treatment. It might sound crazy, but shit like psychoanalysis, exposure therapy, gestalt, and even taking a bunch of AD pills - it all has the same effect size for some reason, which is really confusing considering that a lot of the therapies do completely opposite shit of each other and how is that even remotely similar to anti-depressants I can't say. I can only deduce that therapy in general is a giant placebo and no better than random chance - no matter which type of therapy you choose, it's about the same chance of "improving" (which is technically measured with a self-report questionnaire, believing that you are improving, rather than anything actually objective).

>I'm not that fond of talking to other humans so not sure this is even an option for me…


You can do CBT on your own. You can google 'CBT workbook' for a very streamlined way of doing it, like filling in a bunch of forms, it's quite boring and tedious.

 No.238108

>>238107
I feel like trying it out, do you think this would be a good start?

https://cogbtherapy.com/introduction-to-cbt

I'll do it later and let some wizzies know how it goes.

 No.238109

>>238108
Sure, it seems alright. The book in the OP image is actually a really good general introduction, but I think people learn better by doing, like with workbooks that do it step by step.

There's also this variant called REBT, an older sister therapy to CBT, which is a bit more philosophical and gives you a practical value system alongside the cognitive-behavioral framework. Consider reading "A guide to rational living" by Albert Ellis.

 No.238124

They tried selling me on ACT therapy (Acceptance-Commitment Therapy) with some meditation, but I found it not as effective as just not-giving-a-fuck anymore. Not-giving-a-fuck Anymore profoundly improved my quality of life, while it left me more lazy and less ambitious, it prevents me from being easily exploited to the point I want to kill myself.

I think I read about CBT being compared to ACT, with people claiming ACT was more effective and CBT was just a meme therapy. Any way I found any therapy ineffective at increasing my earning potential.

 No.238129

CBT saved my life. Most people here will probably reject it though as they are addicted to fatalistic determinism.



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 No.238110[Reply]

I have a weird idea to cast here on wizchan (may the crabs around not get to butthurt by it): it's about posting motivational quotes that reflect things or quailities we cannot even understand due to our level of apathy, misery and lack of virtue.

>accompanied with explanation, usually quotes from rich peers who shine above the normalcattle


This one in my case: I usually regretted every hard-try I did, since my life hasn't improved anything due to my efforts yet solely doing the ass adn being a nobody… stuck at my pc where I am usually happier and even more healthy and productive and motivated than ever wagecucking , doing sport or else. Like born to be a loser.


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 No.237987[Reply]

Hello /dep/.

First time posting in here since about 2014. What's happening around here these days?

Posting this again as apparently posting Wojaks is not allowed.
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 No.238030

>>237993

>Kohlchan is the exact same thing


I'll give it a look. Cheers.

 No.238031

>>237992
I posted on casey from 2012-2015. Somehow it warms my heart to know that there are bernds here.

 No.238091

>>237989
>All imageboards have
Last I checked, 4chan still runs at lightning speed.

 No.238102

>>237992
>The death of Krautchan in 2017 was the big one for me. Not a German but I loved their /int/ board, unironically the best imageboard I've ever posted on.

I know that feel. Posted there from 2011 till 2016 or so.


>>237993
Kohlchan's /int/ is not even remotely similar. It's very dull with a lot of sillyposting.

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>>238031
>>238102

Based bernd refugees. I still have those Christmas cards that German bernd posted out back in 2015/16. What a magical time it was back then. Hope you bernds are in good health and doing well nowadays. We probably shitposted together on casey back in the day.



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 No.237925[Reply]

my alcoholic mom used to kick the shit out of me every night and now as I'm sitting in my rundown crackden of a bedroom at 3:28 in the morning I'm realising literally all my issues stem from that bitch. What now wizbros?
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 No.237931

Punch your wizmom in the nuts

 No.237945

Fuck? Your mom? Your thread title?

 No.237968

aren't we all fuckd up in one way or another due to childhood? I've back traced as far as i can within my concious mind to se why im fuckd up in the way i am. There's one thing i cant understand tho, and that has to do with my deeper sexuality fantasys which stems back to early age. I wont say anymore of this.

 No.238072

>>237968
Have the same problem. I think we both know what it could mean right? It's a bit scary to think that "it" might have happened to us and we don't remember. Anyways, silence.

 No.238073

>>237925
where are you from? run away wiz, you can hire me to kill her if that makes you feel good. if u got some meth i can do it and be out of the country in a day



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