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Why are naturalists so cucked, "it is what it is… oh well" then they would be foaming at the mouth fuming if they found out their wife slept with a black guy. That is assuming they are not a ted kaczynski dick hoppers. Nature allows subhumans to exist and someone like kaczynski is defiantly not superior because he is some muscle meat head dumb fuck with a club screaming like a Neanderthal cave dwelling freak. But someone who is tactical, methodical and philosophical. He makes change by intuition. If it were in the hands of nature, we would by all accounts have genes chosen based on physical attributes not mental. The mental attributes were a byproduct of natural selection and would not even call it that as technically people choosing based on personality complexities would take more conscientious thought and observation than physical attraction. Nature has no room or time for civility and reasoning. Anyone that lacks either of that is not human, plain and simple. No just because it takes nature to pander out rationality does not mean you have critical thinking skills, that equivalent of street smart. Anyone who is "street smart" easily fall into the nigger moment behavior. Even if there are those that dont, then this rules out that "hard ships make better people" if someone is easily influenced by their surrounding then they are not human they are a follower and are subservient to higher people who are able to pave their own path regardless of what circumstances. So then, you are weak as strength is not obtainable. Stop justifying the production of careless reproduction and believing nature is the solution to our problems. Cause it is fucking not. Especially when you depend on production of plastics and metal to form a device to spout your nonsense onto.
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Of course they are what they are but, to accept them when you clearly wish for them to be different, and *can* change them, that my friend is the delusion.


What is it with americans and nigger dicks I swear to God..


American culture is centered around niggers. They have holidays for niggers. They killed hundreds of thousands of white men to free niggers. They listen to nigger music. They elect a nigger as their president, twice. They dress and act like niggers. They draw the entirety of their modern culture from niggers. They post sassy gifs about niggers. They watch sportsball in worship of niggers. Their biggest event of the year involves throwing parties in honor of niggers playing sports. They use nigger slang like "based" and "thot". When you say "Martin Luther" they're not thinking of the founder of father of protestantism. They're thinking of the nigger. Their cities are completely overrun with niggers. They worship their zogbot police force disproportionately filled with niggers and their global police force of soldiers filled with niggers. Their men sit around watching nigger ball while their succubi sit around watching nigger talk shows. They worship niggers like Muhammad Ali and Michael Jordan and Michael Jackson and Jackie Robinson while attacking the whites who actually built their country before niggers took over. Their movies are filled with niggers and their music charts are topped by niggers. They send niggers to the olympics and celebrate when the niggers win because those niggers are true red blooded american niggers. They watch nigger porn to a point where 'BBC' does not make them think of an international media company but about nigger penises instead. They will tell you how much they hate niggers and how the mutt's law meme is a stale joke and they are just pretending to love niggers but the evidence speaks for itself in that America has always been and will be a nation of nigger loving niggers.


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i think you misunderstand that accepting reality isnt always under your control and letting yourself be stepped on arent in fact the same thing.

People are dying out there somewhere, i likely have family members whom ill never know that are suffering or even the opposite and theres absolutely nothing i can do about it. will i despair and give up everything i have going for me now, or will i live on and hopefully build myself a place a little less miserable than over yonder? that isnt to say you should just shrug you shoulders if someone slaps you in the face, you simply have to accept that life isnt up to you, but you can have an effect on it too. No one is stronger than nature and as a human you are a natural animal. dont try to cut ties with god or else youll find yourself in a godless hell

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Ok guys. I finally started doing something I promised I'd do years ago.
I started making an anonymous booklet\PDF manual on how to : Get disabilitybux even trough fraudulent methods, how to use basic social skills and socialization methods to mooch off parents until they die\ make friends to mooch off them, and even join political groups -even the ones you hate- to get fraud jobs or State gibs.
I will include many Levels of mooching and frauds, all non-violent, all very smart and cold-blood: setting up an army of indian and nigerian clicksense serfs ,who you may pay and keep in line with western insta thots. How to cut costs , live rent-free, eat for free year round.
I will pen this, it will be anonymously published somewhere or everywhere.


There's been a lot of game updates in the past couple years and some of the methods don't work anymore, but there are new ones too.


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Aye. This will be an international guide but mainly aimed at south-america. but can be applied in russia and india -countries where neets and wizzies suffer so much-
I hate country-level culture in general: ANY country-local-specific set of cultural ideas and memes…I really hate all that.
hence, im a egoist-nihilist I guess. Anyways; Im Confident my guide will be a huge legend of the underground within a few years.


And where's?, ¿Where is the guide?.


Hahaha. Lol. Lmao even. No anon, just, just get a job dude.


Eh? whats that? who AM I?


Wizards, I am discovering many reports of increased mental cloudiness in many unrelated parts of the internet. People generally to my judgement at least appear slower and more aggressive these days than in years past. The color of their minds has become grayer and far less sharp, if you will. Even the world itself feels "less real" and more muddled. Disassociation amongst normans is likewise being reported at higher rates today. What is going on exactly?

Perhaps Metal Gear Solid 2 has become reality: (((the patriots))) control information and as such they have created a world that is almost wholly built on deception, or similarly saturated in endless fake narratives. Is the absence of truth causing people to go mad??
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Brain fog caused by lust. In NoFap and Semen Retention spaces brain fog is well recognized. Lust is becoming worse in modern day, more people have brain fog.


>when I had a severe panic attack due to OCD.
Means there's a weak link in your metabolism. Covid is like a stress-test on your body, even people that seem "fit and healthy" get long-term fucked from it, because they were always weak. It also causes t-cell depletion in some, think of AIDS. That's how bad it is.


This topic is probably the one I think about the most recently
I've been experimenting with a few things (diet, exercise, sleep, other activities) and in my case I think it's from something like a "prolonged period of mild sleep deprivation"
I've figured out I need at least 8:30 hours of sleep minimum to not feel like I didn't get enough of it
Instead for the last 10-12 years I've been getting between 6-7 hours a night(some odd nights even less).
don't know why I need that much, I've met people that are completely fine on 5:30
Im starting to think this very long period of just mild sleep deprivation caused very minor "damage" that has basically stacked over time, very likely causing permanent damage to whatever extent.
This isn't the only factor but I think it's the main one in my case.
diet and exercise helped improve symptoms but not by much.
I can't pinpoint it to much else unless it's just a combination of many minor factors.
The cognitive decline and massive increase in "brain fog" over the last few years is worrying


grainbrain strikes again


too many grainbrains on this imageboard

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please post your experiences with anti depressants here

i'm starting on them (Citalopram) tomorrow and im scared that ill gain weight from it
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Wellbutrin completely clouded my morality and made me homicidal. It really showed how meaningless everything is, but not in a depressive way. More in an "I can do anything, who cares" way.

Anyway, I'd recommend not taking that.


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i disagree pretty strongly with your recommendation. the combination of Wellbutrin and exercise is the only thing that can keep my clinical depression in check. Its been life changing for me. We all react differently to medication. My family is littered with people who have depression and we take a spectrum of different pills even though we all have the same illness and share genetics. Wellbutrin isn't bad itself, its just bad for you. I'd also like to say to you that Seven Samurai is fucking amazing.

I am new to the thread, so if I'm saying things that have already been mentioned, ignore me. Antidepressants can be extremely helpful, but it takes time to find the medication that works best for you and a dosage that works best for you. It's also good to know that sometimes one medication alone isn't enough, sometimes you have to take a "cocktail" of various pills to get exactly the right mix to address your unique issues. Sometimes you have to add additional "treatment" on top of your medication. For me, I have to take wellbutrin and exercise to keep my illness at bay. Medication alone and exercise alone don't really work. But when I take my medication and exercise, it completely changes both how I feel emotionally and how functional I am on a cognitive level. My advice is not to give up on medication if you try one and it doesn't work, or if you try one but the side effects are too much of a downside to deal with. Consult with your doctor about trying a variety of medications till you find the winner, or a cocktail that works for you.


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I first used Sertarlina, it worked well for me.
when I had a relapse I took citalopram and it also worked for me
now I am taking citalopram again because I stopped them, I shouldn't have, I will never stop taking this medicine again.
I still feel bad but because it's the second week.
I know that after that I will get used to it and stop feeling anxious
I have never had any serious sexual effects but if I put on weight, I guess to treat that you have to eat healthy, which I didn't
at least in my case they have worked.


OP here
Can't believe this thread is still up.
I'm Still a virgin and my life got WORSE


lol why

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I just made a scene in a supermarket, I'm deeply ashamed of myself. I lost my cool, I was buying my psych meds and the idiot succubus cashier had a problem with her system, she couldn't issue a voucher but the payment was still debited from my bank account. They wanted me to pay twice for my meds, security had to pull me, they almost called the cops, everyone was staring at me. I ended up leaving with no meds and a charge in my bank account. Can't even fucking buy my meds online because these are psych meds.

Complete shit day, doctor diagnosed me with fatty liver, gotta check if I have scarring. I hate life, I'm going to use until I fall asleep. Being a wizard is a perpetual existence of suffering. I just want to cry and lay down and I can't.
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That isn't his fault you insensitive retard; I made a scene a few times as well when all I wanted was to be left the fuck alone


i get angry when people touch me or when i'm at the butt of a joke constantly or when they talk down to me and think they're superior, this never used to happen, it can be best described as homicidal rage honestly where i want to cry because i know i'd never kill someone. tears of impotent rage. i have a rich, inner cinematic world where i have had to spend time in like a prison cell most of my life.



Why they touching you


i just don't like people touching me in general, i think you've got me confused with somebody else


I was working as a part time janitor and this was close to the end of the covid hysteria. Anyway, I found out everyone at places I cleaned didn't have to wear masks anymore, except me. I tried fighting it and saying it was unfair, and got shouted down with "those are the rules".

I threw a massive public tantrum and just stormed out, I was so humiliated.


I have some plans of moving to another country. I don't now what I want for a career though. I have a passion for linguistics and philosophy but college is way too expensive in the US to get a degree and make a career out of it. I considered moving to the UK or something to try there since I saw it's like $11K a year but learned that's only for UK citizens, for Americans it's a lot more. More than I can afford reasonably right now.

So, I'm 25, no real direction, some goals but it seems too difficult. Any advice at all wizzies?


If you get a job, and if you have enough will to save a considerable part of what you earn for a considerable time, say 5 years, and if at the same time you use the money earned, you dedicate it to selling something, and if from there you manage Taking out 20% annually, you could obtain a very good capital.
If you are a Yankee, and if you live with your parents, you can possibly save your entire salary, which on average should be about 2000 USD per month, and if you add the extra work in less than 5 years you would obtain $214,323, at a rate of 5 % per year in any common investment fund, you could earn $10,716 per year for life, which would allow you to live like a king in any South American country, a large part of the countries in Asia, all the countries in Africa, and you can literally dedicate your life to travel, or study wherever you want, since although 850 USD is little money to live in countries with free universities like Finland, you can still work part-time, or go to countries with free education like Argentina. And if you have European descent, it will be easy for you to obtain citizenship.


You are a blank book, you can write your story however you want. You can make decisions that make you feel life at once. Don't feel pressured by the expectations of others or what society considers "right." Your life is yours to live and enjoy. As you move forward on this journey, keep in mind that mistakes and challenges are a natural part of the process. Don't be afraid to stumble or take paths that seem wrong at first. Every experience, even difficult ones, can teach you valuable lessons and contribute to your growth as a person.
Trust yourself and your ability to make decisions. Learn to listen to your inner voice and follow your instincts. Over time, you will find your way and write a unique and meaningful story that reflects who you are and what you value in life.

Remember that this stage of uncertainty is only temporary and you will eventually discover your purpose and direction in life.


If you like linguistics you don't technically need a degree if you have the skills and can prove it
there are thousands of free courses to do, even the paid courses for free on certain piracy sites.
Also you don't need to work directly with linguistics
my uncle likes theatre plays a lot but can't act or make them himself
So he became an account for a theatre company and moved to the UK and settled in London
not entirely fun but the fact he can see plays, see behind the scenes and feel apart of making them, even mildly, makes the job more enjoyable
He doesn't even like accounting but he is good at it, self tought too.
He was directly involved in plays when he was young but it didn't work out.
So he took the knowledge he learnt during that and combined it with accounting and became a rare person who "knows theatre and accounting"

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I just wanted to vent about how being stupid is one of the most frustrating experiences.

Being ugly sucks for sure. But from experience a lot of people who complain about being ugly, myself included when I was young and clueless, are just average. They won't get any easy benefits with their looks but also no negatives. There is the halo effect so being ugly can lead to people treating you worse but I think it's still something that you can power through if you are strong in other areas. I've seen a lot of successful people who aren't exacty lookers.

Being born poor is also a huge factor in deciding your future. It can even permanently alter your brain. But unless you live in the 3rdest world country ever there are social programs, scholarships and the internet to give you the capabilities to make your talents seen if you have them.

But if you are stupid you are truly fucked. You can't learn to become more intelligent. You can train your brain, exercise and take supplements but that just gives you a small boost but won't actually make you smart. You can't do anything yourself and instead have to rely on smarter people to chew it for you first which means you are always behind and can't innovate or get ahead of others. You can't figure out a lucrative business opportunity and can only get in on it once it's too late and the people who got rich of it write guides. But then because you are stupid you are also vulnerable to manipulation and can be tricked into bad investments. Bad things happen to you and you are too stupid to truly figure out why. For example you can be stuck at a video game boss and think it's badly designed because you just can't see the attack pattern and think of a strategy to beat it. Stupidity is the one weakness that also gets moralized heavily. People make fun of ugly people but it's also often seen as mean and unfair. But making fun of stupid people is fair game. People treat stupidity like it's somehow your fault. It's part of your character even if you had no choice over it. Smart people will often rub their smartness in your face because they feel like they earned it.

It fucking sucks man.
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Yep, that's what I'm saying. Thanks for reminding us though.


I doubt most stupid people are even aware that they're stupid. The wizzes above are fighting your claim that you're stupid when they should be targeting your self-pity. Even if you are intelligent you'll never know. It's meaningless to you.


>I doubt most stupid people are even aware that they're stupid.

You can be stupid and aware of it. It's pretty obvious if you notice that it takes you longer to grasp concepts and problem solve than others or if certain things are incomprehensible to you.

>Even if you are intelligent you'll never know.

Well I did actually go to college and that's when I noticed it. Everyone around me understood everything so quickly. When doing group work at some point I just pretended I understood the task when I was still trying to figure it out.

I also did some online IQ tests and my results are pretty bad and these tests have inflated scores so a real one would be worse.


Heavily relatable. I have always been known as the "slow one". I am always talked down to and shown condescension. I have always been "naive" and "simple-minded". I completely lack the ability to think critically which results in me being highly gullible. I am unable to form my own opinions. It takes me much longer than most people to understand "basic" concepts. I believe that my IQ is in the 80-90 range. My internal monologue is pretty much silent and I have awful mental imagery skills. To say the least, I'm just retarded.

It feels like I am living my life through this "fuzzy lens" and everything that comes through is slightly distorted. I'm completely sick of it. I dislike my life but I can't think far enough ahead to justify suicide.


>I doubt most stupid people are even aware that they're stupid.

idk, he seems very aware to me.

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If you are reading this somewhere, I hate you as much as you used to hate me, until things got personal. I still hate you after that. Just by existing and reminding me of a friend I once had. Before knowing you, or your antics, I was fine living ignorantly while hating you. But you cant just stop can you, even fate is on your side to cause me great pain. You have let go of the past and so have I, but my hatred is now redirected especially as it lapsed in with my moral judgement. I hope one day you meet someone you get along with only to be stuck in the same dilemma. A great yearn while still in chains of your own self disgust. But your kind doesn't have to suffer, so I guess there is no retribution for everyone. Especially when gods pet is the one doing it. Maybe you might understand, you are not that far gone, especially since you have a social mask for a reason. You just couldn't let me live in blissful ignorance. I genuinely hope you live prosperously and become aware of the lives you walked on as you slowly degrade into realization and guilt. You're not that too far gone, you're not. Now I know how the devil felt, there are two sides to the same coin but it so happens that one side is shinier than the other whole the other is held down by a heavier weight that makes the coin always land on heads. But one day that shine will ware off due to your negligence that coin will be just another collection to a cast ocean of unimportant dead hopes and dreams.
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It's not that it's that they have befriended me


So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me
And I'm (trying to bend the truth)
But the more I push, the more I'm pulling away
'Cause I'm (lying my way from)
You (no, no turning back now)
I want to be pushed aside, so let me go
(No, no turning back now)
Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own 'cause I can see
(No, no turning back now)
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you is me


>wizchan 2023


As failed normalfags fail to integrate with the new generation of hypersocialized zoomers, the biggest rejects try to seek refuge on quieter, lesser known corners of the internet. Like the blogging bpd foid thread a few posts down, they like it in here because there is no competition and not a lot of (enforced) rules


Can confirm, am failed normalfag.

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Commencing a gradual progression towards a state of virtual vocal reticence, I find myself experiencing an increasing disconnection from my fellow denizens of the digital realm, resulting in an acute inability to establish any meaningful semblance of rapport or resonance with others.


Been down that road for some time. It doesnt get better. Nothing left to say. No meaningful ways to connect, nor much desire left for doing so.


Same. It's getting way, way too difficult to find people to talk to and it takes an inordinate amount of time. Time that I could use learning a skill or enjoying a hobby. I'm never going to use normie social media because I hate normies and their incessant mentally ill normie drama has completely ruined the internet. I've also noticed how most sites are getting paywalled, cloudflare'd, login walled, deleted, banned, etc.


Even though I am 34 years old; I still often feel as if everyone on the internet is lying about their age and where they live and that everyone is actually like 13 years old and living somewhere in the US.


I am 30 and am not used to being the oldest person on the site where-ever I go. Aging out of the -chans



There are a lot of older people on the internet. Way more than you think. The only ones that make a fuss about age are the young folk and perverted groomers.

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Just wondering because there seems to be no way out and I want it just to end.
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no it's not. Basically the most ubiquitous drug in the world after alcohol

Youre fucking sick for trolling people like this. Even 99% of teenagers know paracetamol/acetaminophen overdose doesnt kill you but leads to days/weeks of torture in hospital with liver damage.


Only accurate post of this thread


False. Look at an anatomy diagram. Shooting through your temple will blow out your eyes, but leave your brain untouched. You will be blinded, but not dead, unless you are fortunate enough to bleed out before the normies can inflict their mercy on you. If you wish to use a pistol through the side of your head, it would be better to put it just over your ear.


I don't know, but I feel you and would end it too if I didn't have a family member counting on me.
Considering you wrote in April, I hope you were able to find peace in one form or another. If you died, I hope you experienced blissful emptiness if that's what you wanted. Or a cool isekai experience if you prefer that. Polite sage.


As I've said before my drowning attempt/hypothermia was painless if I hadn't been found and had died I wouldn't have known a thing

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