/dep/ - Depression

>>255308
Why would you listen to Jews in the first place?
If you're serious about knowing whether Hell exists or not, and how to avoid it if it does exist, you might have to start reading up on Comparative Religions field. You may find the truth in the end or you may not, it is up to you.

>>258587
That sounds awesome. I haven't dreamed for years and it's so rage inducing.

I'd do anything to have vivid dreams again like as a kid or teen.

>>258650
This is bad advice but for me oioids did induce vivid dreams

>>258650
>>258671
*opioids
also just remembered I read that sleeping with a nicotine patch can also increase the odds and recalling of dreams, you might try that before shooting dope if you really want to dream

>>255308

> watching some orthodox jew on youtube

Why would you waste your time listening to an orthodox jew of all people? Nothing of what they have ever said has become true. The Jews have gotten their ass kicked more than any other people on the face of the planet. Do you think that would have happen if God really had their back? Obviously not. They invented one of the mayor copes in history, because they were massive losers. Slaves to the Babylonians, the Egyptians, defeated by the Romans, expelled from Spain, pogroms in Europe, pogroms in Russia, pogroms in Argentina, the Holocaust, treated like garbage and kicked around the whole globe and a long etc, boy do they needed a cope badly and that is what their religion is.

Stop wasting your time, if you want to listen to a Jew to educated yourself and learn about religion and mysticism, listen the YT channel Esoterica. Your time would be far better spent.

>>257203
it's often pychological. some meds can calm it down severely.

>>257219
Could lack of sleep cause it?

Tinnitus is only a problem if you make it one, millions of people have tinnitus and have decent lives, I've had tinnitus since I was like 8 years old and it never bothered me, hell I only "realized" that it was a "problem" when I was 21 (and thanks to this site no less) before that i thought that everyone had the same, it never bothered me at all, and I only hear it at night for some minutes before sleeping.

>>257923
What about if you want to listen to quiet music?

I am severe hard of hearing since birth. Didn't properly get seen, diagnosed by doctors until I was 20. I assumed it was normal how I heard things muffled. The retarded adults in my life. At home. At school. Extended family. Neighborhood parents. They all pinned me for an eccentric kid. Mostly an idiot kid.

I bluffed my way through school. Not learning anything. That's what happens with people like me. I thought I was a lone freak in this world but from my research it turned out hearing disabled kids can fall through the cracks like this. Bluffing means when you can't hear shit but nod your head through everything. Funny how public school is so fucking bullshit a dumbass could fake their way through.

Not without its troubles though. I was the dumb kid since I was existing in a little silent world of my own. There's this thing called passive learning or something. With normal hearing you're subconsciously always learning from hearing things in passing from the world around your. Picking up social cues and things like that so you can play along with the act to fit in. To not be a sperg who gets annihilated by normies. People don't even know they do this. I am a person without this. Hence the stereotype of deaf and dumb. We're missing a parts of the spectrum of education types. Not just academic book learning.

I was bullied so badly for it. By teachers too. Funny how any other crippled kid would have incited violence against the bully. Like if anyone fucked with the wheelchair kid, they've be hung from a tree. I digress.

I developed tinnitus around age 15/16 maybe but didn't tell anyone. It came because I would put on headphones too loud while playing on the computer all day. That was the only way I felt normal because I could put on headphones and actually hear music and videos properly. There wasn't as much multimedia back then though.

The first little while was rough cause the constant acoustic shockwaves bouncing around inside my head. Finally I convinced my parents to take me to the GP.

My parents… classic narrow minded conservative boomers. They didn't want to admit anything could possibly be wrong with their kid. It would be a knock against their own self worth. They were even so afraid I might gay. That retarded fucking gay panic era. lol. Yet another story for another time.

They scanned my brain and the bullshit doc said, doesn't look like anything to me. Next they sent me for a hePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>257263
Short version: been in prison and in psych ward both. Had some fights with certain *cough*ethnic groups, including fights when they tried to stab me, etc.

>>257377
Who?

>>257502
>certain *cough*ethnic groups
You mean jews? are you sure they weren't just trying to sell you a loan?

>>257539
No, I was referring to gypsies aka the blacks of central/eastern europe.

>>257377
Who cares what images people use?

>>256786
That's not much money.

>>258505
Something prevents you from living out your desires, some phobia or disorder. That doesn't mean you lack desire itself.

>>258507
See above.

>>258520
You are crying about something that never even existed in the first place. "Actual love" is just a romantic concept, dreamy idealists came up with it, of course it is a lie. People are attracted to…attractive people?! God, what a shock. Who would have thought?

Seriously, stop reading fairy tales, wiz. Love in the idealized sense of the word was never, ever a thing.

>>258459
Yeah, it really is mind boggling that this thread is still, somehow, up.

>>258653
It's because of the crab who derailed the thread with the psyop that everyone with a sex drive automatically wants to fuck succs.

idk op. why do you spend enough time thinking about succubi that you developed hatred for them?

>>258421
>The only reason one wouldn't have sex with attractive succubi is low testosteron levels.
An unsourced, sweeping assertion.
>That or the person in question is gay.
An unsourced, sweeping assertion.
Both of those can be immediately dismissed because of that.
>"Purity, religion, personal code" all these crumble in the face of sexual temptation.
No, they crumble for *you* in the face of sexual temptation, because you are a weak-willed and impulsive animal. You openly relay that you aren't a wizard, worship and strive for sex, and don't belong here. Unable to stand that other people have more depth to their psyche than lust, you need to try and speak for them and convince them that they're all inexplicably lying, as some sort of comforting mechanism for your own mental inadequacy.

The "reality" is that humans are not a hivemind, and some individuals are superior to you mentally. You may have reduced yourself to an animalistic drone that operates on nothing but impulse, but others have developed their own mentality, stemming from greater lucidity and introspection. The idea of "fighting sexual urges" is a strawman you manufactured yourself, no one else mentioned it. Healthy people aren't slaves to lust you fucking idiot, they have more to their mind than throwing their purity away for a few minutes of basal "pleasure". Go back to Crabchan.

>>258543
can't wash of the 'tism

>>258546
At this point the meaning of autism has become so polluted that it should be removed from the DSM and replaced with some other polite way of saying retarded, and something like “neglect-induced social adjustment disorder”. I still believe the latter is not neurological and completely treatable with some combination of plastic surgery and social skill rehabilitation to make up for the learning missed in adolescence.

>>258550
word "autistic" is just overused on chans and similar sites. For normalfags it still means what it used to. They don't call our kind "autists", but simply losers or weirdos. There might be some normie minority who uses chanspeech irl to sound cool or something though

>>258554
poor or struggling people would just use the most pejorative version of the word and call you a retard. this is a big reason why i struggle against this idea of equating eccentricity or reclusive behavior with "autism". most people don't want to be seen as a retard.

>>258554
also, well-read and anti-social people like myself don't enjoy being pathologized for being different or not following normal social cues. i do not respect this culture and the majority of the people that make it up.

>>258516
I don't think you get what it's like to have a schizoid personality disorder with ocd, asperger's, and adhd… I think you gotta go back to 4chan normie.

>>258517
It's just mindboggling that you talk about how people are mean and evil so then you pick the most edgy-teenager topic to read about as if hitler and people that write about him are not also people.

>>258518
Do not misconstrue my message - it is the mean man that is unintelligent and evil. Speaking of, the way you so openly violate my weaknesses make me think that you took my OP personally? Does talking about Hitler hurt your feelings? If so, remember that I said that I do not follow his ideology.

>>258506
Why do you try to sound to such an extent like some old-fashioned British gentleman?

>>258529
I'm a native english speaker and I'm not a wigger.

>>256077
>I want nuclear warfare.
Controversial take: I don't want nuclear warfare.
>Because the world created for us is a prison. It's a huge cosmic joke, just look around you and ask yourself: is this worth striving for? Is this worth working all the hours god sends just to keep my head above the water for? Who is actually happy other a tiny minority that exploits everyone else?
Everything you say is correct. Nuclear warfare will take all of these valid points you made about the terror of life and then…amp them up.
>I live in a society that censors me, hates me and demonizes me. I've been living under a political, financial and shapeshifting class of elites that traffick in children for pleasure, and use their blood and bodies to keep themselves artificially alive for longer.
And it will be even worse under a nuclear post-apocalyptic wasteland.
>My people are largely automatons, eschewing growth of the spirit and mind in favour of every unnatural pleasure they can dip their diseased privates into when they aren't working themselves to the bone for those evil vampires on top.
>I can't be proud of what my ancestors achieved, of what they built and what they believed. I can't strive for the same. I can't utter my own thoughts for fear of going destitute.
And you won't even remember what your ancestors even were in a post-apocalyptic world.
>I live under a parasitic psychopathic class. I will be singing my praises to God if I burn in nuclear fire. I will eat molten lead if it means they have to as well.
Are you sure you want nuclear armageddon? Why not just suicide?

>>258448
>11 interceptor vessels that can shoot it down with incredible accuracy

1980s Star Wars fantasy

>That's assuming that the chart of yours was correct. Do you know what "propaganda" is? Not the modern definition of people on Reddit calling one politician an agent of Russia, but the original officially applied wartime meaning. It's when a force uses scare tactics to make itself look strong and capable of putting up a fight. Well that's what Russia has been doing for about 80 years -

The USA and Russia are constantly negotiating about arms reduction, why would they lie about having LESS nukes than they really do?

>>258449
>The U.S.-made FGM-148 Javelin is one of the premier portable anti-tank missile systems in the world. It’s also an expensive piece of kit, with each missile typically costing more than the targets it eliminates.

Javelins cost more than tanks

>>258453

>Javelins cost more than tanks

No dude, every missile goes for 200k, it cost more than a truck not a tank or an APC.

>>258423
You'll probably get over it. I did. When anime appeals to you in part because you think it's a community away from the normalfags and somehow better or special, then once they take that away from you you don't have much left to enjoy. Anime itself is alright but not really better than any other medium unless you really do just adore the art style.

>he loves and admires it but for all the wrong reasons.
This is how I feel about literally everything I enjoy in life. No one else seems to appreciate things in the same manner I do and so I am fundamentally unable to enter "fandoms" and such.

>>258372

Excuse me fam, op here again and I just would like to let you know that I am no Pedofile because police plant drug paraphernalia on me to destroy my life..

Do u realize the criminal community would of stabbed me in San Quentin while I was on the Lvl 4 general pop yards with real murderers and goons if I was truly a pedofile..

You were probably just trolling but Feel free to explain yourself better.. yeah..>>258372

>>258428
Are you tall or physically built op ?
I fail to see how a frameless wiz would survive in this environment.

I really need to build some muscles on this teens shaped body in case I ever ger sent to prison for whatever reason.

>>258424
>unable to enter fandoms
Are you leeting normans to intimidate you instead of making them feel awkward instead. Such misery, fella…

>>258431

I was blessed with an avg 5' 10 build with weak bones from calcium starvation as a scrub.

The shorter you are the less starving you got to do from eating the inadequate meals.. and you get to dodge the bullet of eating a homeless's tray of sloppy seconds and catching Herpes etc.. cuz we be soo hungry…

By the end of my term tho I figureed out they legalized tax returns for prisoners so I bought some illegal hardcover Marvel and Dc Encyclopedia s so i could figure out everything that happens without physically reading the comics for years…

10/10 buy, they werent suposed to make it to me becuz they had hardcovers but time flew so fast reading them and ppl were trying to give 100$+ of cocaine for one of them..

If you cant somehow get in with the shotcallers and lifers they will send you to stab sumbody, then you have to leave so another group from your race who are in trouble and are supposed to fabricate a fight with victim as a distraction to get you out scottfree, etc ..

I was drawing porno for all the burnt out murderers so they never made me do any of that dirt thank god, but i get alot of shit from alot of bums sometimes feeling i never earned my keep. Lol

>>258431

I do not know, I never had real friends although some people I knew in Twitter a couple years ago, but they were only online friends and I never met them irl. Also I barely speak with them anymore. At least I lived with my family so I had some human interaction but now I live in a little room I'm renting, I barely have money and I think I never felt so alone before. This sucks, I wish I could speak with somebody but I don't know where and even if I knew I always lose interest. Anyway, sorry for my English, I'm from Latin America. Bye.

>>247755
I'm know we're all anonymous here but I truly hope that life worked out for you since then

>>256426
How many friends do you have and regularly talk to, IRL or otherwise?

>>258156
Skirting the edges of rule 3.

>>247755

:(

>>257430

> our society is destroyed beyond recovery

society has always been like this and it will never change, you were just too young to realize it, that is why that feeling will never come back, because your eyes are open now. Listen to George Carlin, he was complaining about it long before your time.

> Remember fansites? that long gone time when the internet wasn't corporate

You mean when the internet wasn't filled by normalfags and only geeks used it. Those were the glory days, I was there almost from the beginning. The sound of an US Robotics modem opening a magical door to that world it's one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard. The normalfags just did to the internet what they do to the world, that is all.

The internet, at least in the 90's and most of the 00's was so different. It stopped feeling like it was about having fun and escaping the real world. Social media ruined everything. Normies ruined everything. It's all about politics and identity politics and pure fucking tribalism. Doesn't even matter what country you're from, this isn't just a case of "America bad". Every fucking person has an opinion and will force it upon you and if you don't agree then you're the enemy. Even in fucking video games, or what few remaining "geek" culture forums there are left. Fuck off. I don't care about your fucking normie politics. I don't care about skin colour, about whether the blue or red party win, about fucking pronouns or some war between the plucky underdogs and the big bad empire. The internet used to be an escape. Now it feels even more real than the real world. Because it is just a reflection now of how ugly our society is.

>>257992
The only people who say this are zoomers who are salty missed out and console themselves with vaporwave remixes of actual 80s/90s songs because the real thing isn't authentic enough for them.

>>258001
It's not just that the line between the internet and real life was obliterated, authenticity has been killed as well. That's why geekdom sucks so much now, anybody with a following can insert themselves into a geek niche and become the face of that niche.

>>257430
Absolutely based.

>>258001
yeah the Death of the internet