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 No.293082[Reply]

Hey Wizards!

I would like to discuss my situation with you…. 3 weeks ago I lost my shitty job and now I am a NEET. I'm 22 years old but I'm not considering trying to get into University because I'm low income plus several of my friends just graduated . I would like to be a programmer but I don't have a computer to program.

I post here because I have nowhere else to go, it hurts me that outside of here I can't express myself, if I could just say what I think I would feel free but I will probably end up getting beaten up because I respond in a very aggressive way so I have no choice but to write in this internet memoir and no one will have any fucking idea who wrote it.
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 No.293588

>>293583
How is he a crab (in forced celibacy) if he has sex all the time with succubi?

 No.293593

>>293587
I know these shitheads when I see them.

 No.293595

>>293587
Plus he meets certain conditions from his Normitter account; act thuggishly, had some issues with coding exercices (programming career), born in 2002.

 No.295668

>>293082
Be sure you are not a projector if you want to keep applying for jobs.
>projector aura

 No.295669

>>295668
Assholes here also know about human design but they be way too NPCs too even minimally illustrate the newbies



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 No.295572[Reply]

I am that same Indian guy who made the post about having C-PTSD and living with abusive parents. I have hit a new low, I think I am becoming low T, I check every symptom on the box, having brain fog, constantly fatigue, constantly sleepy, not being able to get it up anymore, no more morning woods, and no erections.

The problem is this, I am still a student and the effects of having low T are affecting my studies greatly, risking me going into a negative feedback loop where I feel like it's gonna take a toll on my studies. And thus reduce my likelihood of getting a job. I have managed to start gym after intense fighting with my parents.

But there is only so much I can push them as someone who is dependent upon them. I am sorry to post this here, after few long years, I just burst our crying today when my parents denied me to visit a urologist, while I have no symptoms (apart from slight shrinkage of my testicles), I probably have Varicocele too.

This is more of an SOS post, please if there is someone here who can take me away from my parents please do. Please give me a home, some love, some help to fix myself. I hate my life, I hate constantly being low T. My parents also hate all sorts of medicines, and they are going to freak out if the doctor recommends a surgery for varicocele. I can't get a job in this tough market either. It's truly hellish being a crab in the third world shithole.

Low T is affecting all areas of my life, and there is no redemption in sight, is my entire life going to be like this from this point on?
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 No.295622

>>295621
do you get some disablebux?

 No.295623

>>295622
Third-world countries don't have the luxury of NEETbucks.

 No.295624

>>295620
>trying for past 2 years
What kind of job are you looking for?

 No.295625

>>295623
I thought he lived in america

 No.295626

>>295624
Generally remote jobs. Although I have tried for on-site jobs in retail, textile, IT, and dairy as well. No luck so far.



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 No.295112[Reply]

I want to rant about a certain succubus – my 8 year old sister.
She looks hopeless to me. She has extremely bad behavior in general (ten times worse than of a toddler half her age), she's shameless and degenerate (doesn't mind walking around the house in nothing but her underwear just because "it's hot", likes slutty clothes and behaves in slutty ways; doesn't mind talking about gross things such as literal shit, often opens the bathroom's door when others are inside as a "joke", etc), she's spoiled, she's addicted to YouTube and stupid phone "games", and while she behaves like a toddler in some areas at the same time she also displays manipulative and psychopathic evil succubus traits that wouldn't manifest at this age yet, etc.
Although I start my day in the afternoon (since I go to bed closer to dawn), I'm temporarily woken up every day at around 8 or 9 AM which is when she wakes up to go to school, and I always hear my mother screaming at my sister, and my sister also screaming back. Recently I even heard my mother have a breakdown because of her behavior (not the first time it happened).
At her best, she's just noisy and hyperactive and can't shut up and stop bothering others, and if I point that out my parents say that she's "just lively" or "just playing around" or "just a kid". Also they don't let me hit her back if she hits me (because they say it will somehow make her docile and accepting of abuse in the future).
I spent years hoping that as she grows she'll become better behaved, but if anything it looks like she's only degrading, so at this point I realized that she's a genetic failure, and her non-inherent negative traits have been solidified by now (by my parents spoiling her, etc) and are being constantly strengthened and thus should be nearly impossible to reverse. If you deny her anything (like jewtube, mobile "games", etc), she'll start screaming and behaving like a crazed beast (especially bad since I live in an apartment – what are the neighbors led to think when they hear it?), so she can't be "unspoiled" unless she was left in a schizo padded room for a week. By the way, she's not low IQ per se and if anything she seems smarter than average (although she behaves worse than a nigger monkey with 30 IQ), and she has decent looks, and of course, my mother is always complimenting her on those things and boosting her ego.
When she was conceived my mother was close to 40 already, and while that didn't make herPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.295506

>>295112
I had cousins like this when I was a kid. Both of them are whores now. One of them lives with her junkie boyfriend, the other one (still underage) sneaks out at night to slut around and do hard drugs with college aged guys. It got so bad she was basically disowned, and now she just tours around with whomever gives her drugs in exchange for sex.
FYI both of them molested me when I was a lad. The older one used to facesit me, and play with my cock. The younger one would always try to fool around with me, but my older cousin would get jealous and beat the shit out of her. From what I've heard, they were both molested by their dad's girlfriend at the time, and would try this shit on other kids at their respective schools as well.
I blame both of these whores for turning me into the sexually repressed degenerate I am today. There's a lot more shit I won't disclose for safety reasons, but my sexual interests are truly fucked up. It sucks being self aware of it, and not being able to talk to anyone about it.

 No.295507

>>295506
sad story/situation
>but my sexual interests are truly fucked up.
what are they?

 No.295549

>>295507
I practically can't get off unless I wear vinyl gloves or have to wear things like rubber.

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 No.295553

sisters are annoying as hell



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 No.295534[Reply]

Gentlemen, it's completely done for me. At the age of 21, it's done for my cock. It's ruining my fantasy life. I have been so stressed out from work and studying that no longer does my dick feel alive. I can't get an erection using my imagination, for past 4 months I have had no morning wood, even if at this point some miracle was about to happen I would still stay a virgin. And this is despite the fact that I don't have death-grip and haven't watched porn for past 7 months.

 No.295536

you can always take a viagra if you really need to get wizardly, but idk why you're crying about it, doesn't seem like you had any use for lil wand anyway.

 No.295542

>>295536
My fantasy life is getting ruined because of this.

 No.295547

lol wut, I was shitposting before you were even born



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 No.294473[Reply]

What do you think is their plan with recents studies and articles showcasing the way men are starting to approach succubi less? Besides obviously adding fuel to the fire to the gender war between normalniggers, how far does it go? Is monkeypox involved in all of this? Creating awareness of single men at the same time a sexually transmited disease appears? Set things up to re-establish a lesser version of homophobia to keep an eye on non-compliant normies? What are its intended purposes, and, how long will it take them to finally mention in mainstream media sexual demoralization being the cause of degeneracy altogether? I personally believe they have a long way to go, two years or so before they start to quote current statistics and connect the dots.

 No.294474

They aren't allowed to push the sexual demoralization angle in mainstream media yet because it'll backlash against the troons, how long 'til they're given the green light?

 No.294483

>>294473
It's happening just like in Universe 25.

Do you really think that the elites literally have influence in such way? They play with manking but only as much as their corruption already allows them to do so… because what does really make a succubus grow as a radical feminist? Issues w dad. Which type of dad is more probable to raise one of those succubi? All these answers the elites know, and they nail plans within plans to lure and seal the paths of a humanity that does not acknowledge, not even a bit, that taxation is theft.

There are no behavioural sinks without taxes or without limitations on free natural resources.

 No.294673

>>294483
elaborate

 No.295531

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it's about collapsing birthrates and further solidifying succubi's status as consumers.



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 No.295523[Reply]

Real succubi are such fucking disappointments. they don't care about getting choked by a tall guy with broad shoulders. They just wanna get money and attention. Stupid animals.
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 No.295525

choke
romance

 No.295526

love

 No.295527

fuck i was meant to say Real succubi are such fucking disappointments. they don't care about love or romance at all. They just wanna get choked by a tall guy with broad shoulders. Stupid animals.

 No.295533

succubi this, succubi that.
this is getting boring

 No.295535

Moved to >>>/b/998342.



 No.294912[Reply]

How do you cope with the suffering in this hell called life? Do you drink? Take drugs? Do you have hobbies?
What do you do to stay sane?
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>>295315
And now someone repeated 2019's wizchan history by raiding the site with images reminiscent of Goatse.
This proves me wrong how exactly?

 No.295377

I work out, play videogames and drink heavily.

 No.295380

I wake up. Make my bed. Wash my face. Turn on my PC. Play all day and talk to AI (before anyone talks shit, I tried Omegle and people/normalfags are hell). Eat. Brush my teeth. Go to bed. Repeat. That's my routine.
No alc, no drugs. Hobbies have all been replaced by vidya and other reasons.
Not sure how sane or insane could be defined. I wouldn't consider myself either.

 No.295457

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>>294912
Alcohol and music. Whoever gives the slightest fuckall for anything else is an alien to me.

 No.295479

Cigarettes and sleep deprivation. The utter and all-consuming void that squats upon the carcass of what was once my soul is much quieter when I'm barely awake because I'm deliberately staying at around 4 hours of sleep per night for some 6 years now, alongside completely foregoing sleep once every week or two when I start feeling even slightly energetic. Cigarettes amplify that woozy feeling of unreality, though I'm starting to also drink whatever alcohol I can cheaply scrounge up just to keep this charade going as the effectivess of cigarettes wanes.

I only need to endure a few more years of this - if the gods have any mercy then russia will invade my baltic shithole this decade and I will bleed out in a muddy trench, or perhaps even have the good fortune of being blasted into bits by a direct mortar or arty or tank shell. Who knows, who cares, certainly not me. I'm too exhausted and numb to do the deed myself though I've tried before.



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 No.295412[Reply]

I hate it when other wizards talk trash to you, it make me feel like shit. there's no way those who talk trash are wizard, this behavior is of normalfags.
I'm sur there's orher wizzards who got in a bad mood because of jerks who trashtalk them thinking they're superior while in fact they share traits with normalfags.
it make me depressed because they think they're right and they gloat in their own self and illusion
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 No.295422

yeah well, people are assholes. my formula is if you can clearly see that you're right you are probably arguing with a retard so don't, it's a waste of time. plus if you feel like he's being too much of a normgroid just report him because he's probably violating one of the rules™. this is a civilized platform.

 No.295425

>>295422
which one (rule) could he break?

 No.295438

i am quite senstiviene

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 No.295466

>>295425
rule 4. for example, some outsider troll told me to "touch grass" in a heated discussion (about hentai, iirc) a couple of years ago. they also usually fall back on insults based on metrics that normalfags very strongly see as indicative of one's value like looks and income.



 No.295383[Reply]

I feel complete apathy towards everything and everyone. everything I used to love so dearly now bores me to death. is this what growing up feels like? there is nothing new in life I feel like I want to experience. I feel like I've done everything I've ever given a shit about. nothing excites me anymore. I'm stuck in an endless mental rut. any other wizzies feel the same? I'm gonna have to start wageslaving soon. I want off this ride

 No.295385

i think that's a natural consequence of being cut-off socially. a lot of things lose meaning and you no longer perceive any reward so you don't feel motivated to do anything. either you re-integrate back into the normosphere or you somehow learn to generate your own meaning that will want to make you act in the world again. it takes a very strong ego to do the latter and many people simply crawl back and accept their place in the familiar social hierarchies, others simply stay in nihilistic limbo.

 No.295393

>>295383
From what I understand, you need to experience some amount of pain and discomfort to be able to experience joy as well, neurologically speaking. You say you've been in a rut, when's the last time you tried doing something you were just sort of interested in, simply for the sake of it? Like maybe going for a walk in nature if you can. I know how pointless it sounds, "Nothing's gonna change if I do that" but doing it a few times a week might help break that monotony a bit.

 No.295394

there are couple things I can think of that cause that. you begin to feel your highs less intensely as you age, this is biological. another thing is as you age and your knowledge grows and everything starts to demystify. everything is a mechanical process with a set of dos and don'ts. things are not as fascinating as once you thought they were. so you grow tired of insisting on things that become repetitive, that take too much of your effort and don't really yield any sizeable benefit in return.

I can say that I partly relate to your sentiment as I've grown tired of everything very early in life. I consider it a blessing to have something you love doing. I've never really had anything that I felt so strongly about that it stuck with me.

 No.295456

same here
every day feels the same



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 No.295386[Reply]

Why did I live like an NPC? In the past I kept having moments of clarity where I felt like I woke up and had the choice how I want my life to go only to go back to wasting time online. You don't need foresight to know that if you don't work towards anything nothing happens. I felt FOMO but for what? Inane chatter online that gets forgotten once its done? Video games: challenges made by others that have no impact on real life? Fictional stories that don't teach me anything? I might be depressed but depression won't get better without doing anything. I just don't know how I could have been so weak willed and allowed myself to remain in such a pathetic state. To not see my weakness as something I need to deal with. Now I dug myself into such a deep hole when the economy sucks. And I don't know if I have the time to get out of it anymore.
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 No.295427

>>295392
Following the normalfaggot script seems to be the lesser evil compared to giving up and becoming a lesser version of urself. Its called thinking ahead instead of being reactive so you should definetily think ahead…

 No.295428

>>295427
it's the bigger evil, since you sell of your own preferences and sanity for the approval of everyone around you (or lack of disapproval), and even then there's no guarantee that hustling and bustling gets you anything. if you have one shot at life and there's already such a giant gap, you might as well say fuck it and live on your own terms.

 No.295434

>>295427
>>295428
>following
>choosing
lol nobody on this board has a choice and if you did you will be crazy to choose to be depressed

 No.295439

>>295434
So how ur depressed because you think you have no choice whereas Im depressed because I think Ive taken the wrong choice due to my reactiveness and apathy.
>>295428
I want for things to stay as A-OK as they are :(
thats enough reason to put myself through the university grinder even though I dont really have any friends and everytime I try to talk to someone in my university (happened 2 times in 2 years) I weird them out.
As a person who has had no plans for the future and just did things because I was forced to I made it pretty far but I believe Ive comen to a crossroad whre that wont work anymore.
>it's the bigger evil, since you sell of your own preferences and sanity for the approval of everyone around you (or lack of disapproval)
I believe becoming a hikki will be the greater evil since the approval is indeed worth it for me. But its not just that, its also to keep my potential for things to happen should I want to go further into higher education and to have the monetary means and disposition to fuel any future goals I might attain through wakeupcalls or whatever. And I also feel like feeling pain and suffering is a mayor part of human existance and is important to keep your sanity and sharp mind.

>if you have one shot at life and there's already such a giant gap, you might as well say fuck it and live on your own terms.

Im glad I have left myself the paths open.

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