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I'm 28, when I was 16 I got into amphetamines and I've pretty much completely fried my brain. I managed to quit everything but the damage still remains. My body and mind are totally ruined. I'm a shell of my former self. I can't even enjoy rotting in my room all day, nothing is pleasurable, everything tastes like cardboard. I'm losing my hair and my dick doesn't work anymore. I have diabetes, chronic fatigue, impotency, severe depression, anhedonia and chronic pain in my neck and lower back. I think In a year I'll probably be bed ridden.
if anyone's overcome addiction, health problems from addiction, can you give me any advice?(user was warned for this post)
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Minoxidil just promotes hair growth and better circulation of the scalp, but doesn't stop the root of the issue. Unfortunately it can have side effects too.
The best solution at the moment really is a transplant, but if it's something health related like alopecia, then a healthier lifestyle would help, yes.


What about rolling? It did help me grow a beard, haven't used it for hair as I'm not balding but I know some people do use if for that and it works with the same principle as mino but withouth side effects


Beard is different, so yes, it could work. A lot of people actually use mino for thicker beard since they hardly have any.


For balding, don't bother with oral finasteride. Just use topical finasteride on the scalp. It can be applied with minoxidil and is extremely unlikely to cause side effects, some doctors even claim it has no risk of endocrinal side effects although I'd be surprised if that's strictly true. But it does seem pretty clear those side effects are extremely rare if finasteride is only used topically and a lot of guys who had bad side effects on oral finasteride have switched to topical and reported side effects completely stopped. I went through a phase where my hair was falling out very fast, scared the shit out of me. Minoxidil restored a lot of it but later I noticed the beginning of hairline recession so I then went on topical finasteride. Results have been very good. Wanted to post because I used to think the situation was hopeless but this stuff actually solved the problem. Obviously it's not guaranteed to work but rates of success on minoxidil and finasteride are very high, provided you haven't already gone really bald.



Samefagging again, this crab? Anyway, whoever wizard ever had an interest for what I said about fasting and leaving certain foods, let him delve on his own. These are some authors:

>Arnold Ehret (extreme method)

>Daniel Reid (moderate)
>Alexi Suvorin (quick)
>Frank Suarez (special for fat guys)
>Yoshinori Nagumo (about rapidly aging)
>Valter Longo
>Horace Fletcher (for those who cannot fast without risk)

Brainfog and restlessness come from a mixture of accumulated toxins and stress.


After being rejected overwhelmingly in several situation thru life, I cannot still understand the real motive, and thinking objectively cannot reach any other conclusion than it being due how stupid normals are. I usted to feel a shame that got vanished thru years yet I feel still that some of it remains in the deep zones of my mind… The toxic idea of "the problem being yours, anon" brought by peer pressure only gets you wrecked while normgroids are just being psychotically mean. Like pulling through my mind an idea like a stab, as if attempting to make me even more miserable while the numbers against me are an undeniable proof of me being… whatever I be, which they see and I don't. Blaming me for their malignity, for the sake of killing my already lowered spirit.

As an easy example: after earning low karma enough at reddit, definitely I don't come but to conclude that such place is a toxic pit of bitter, self-deceiving cattle, they just gather there knowing that numbers will support them, even within subreddits that are supposedly far far away from normalidiocy.

Share thoughts.
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Thanks. I envy this guys balls. I wish i had the balls to do this instead of having to remain in this weird wiz/normie purgatory. I remember a guy on /r9k/ talking about living a very similar life style but i unfortunately can;t find the posts in the archive.


OP here. Just came back from reddit and you wizzies might bt pleased to know places like:

Those places seem safer.


reddit is a pay-for-votes propaganda mill that shuts down successful splinter subreddits and astroturfs all of the regional or politics ones. There are neat subcommunities and occasionally subject matter experts but the price is supporting the worst kind of social media


Well we could actually organize ourselves with our own subreddit just there.


r/NEET is comfy, pretty much just like here.


Growing old is awful, I'm a 28 years old NEET and I'm starting to get afraid of hitting my 30s, and the decline get even more awful after your 30s, I'm can't deal with it, bros.
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You only think 30 feels old because there are a large chunk of users on the internet who are literal children.

You are only really as old as your body makes you feel. Some people treat their bodies like total dogshit and start feeling old in their late 20s. There are like 50-year-olds who can still move around like they are 30.



wait til you realize you ll end up homeless, once its just you, in a decade or so


>something is awful
>am a NEET

"wow that must sux so many dingdongs bro!"


Things are supposed to be delved and practiced during this decay:
>How AGEs get stuck at your brain
>alcaline diet or ehretism
>effects of fasting
>why starch and milk should be abandoned, or reduced
>why sport is the best thing you can do for your brain
>why eating several times a day ages you faster and how intermittent fasting solves this

Otherwise nothing should be expected to prevent you going downhill as you fo right now.
If your body is so constantly tired, that's due to something inside that you should have expelled long ago, but your body did not so.
>Ehretist principle of "Vitality = Power - Obstruction"


Because you did nothing about your stagnant brains, which often are the ultimate cause of wizardly lack of energy to achieve even mediocre tasks.
Did you fast? Did you change your diet? Ever read about alcalinization of diet, about the importance of semen preservation, about how good veg fats are for your brain, about how much does it need sport and sunlight? Do you even know your dosha according to ayurveda system?

Did you delve about any of these things, omega fellow? Or did you rather listen to those crabs yelling all these things are pseudosciences? Follow them towards their own shithole, you'll tell me about the results!

>this existence is unpredictable and things very quickly fall apart

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I know it's something to be ashamed of, but I always held friendship in high regard. To have a true friend is to have a soulmate no succubus could ever compete with. And I had people I connected with, and thought of them as friends, but they always neglect and betray our friendship in the end. Forget the girlfriends, one could live a happy life without sex if only he'd have a true friend.
You're the only people I can talk about this, so I guess you're my friends.
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Virtual reality. Why would anyone choose alzhimer's forever, a cynobite love-craftian dimension, or the face worm?


Alcoholism is the answer, at least for short term.


Yeah that one is obviously better than the others. Should’ve added a glitch in the system that sticks you in a wall or something.


Hello would you mind letting me know which hosting company you're using?
I've loaded your blog in 3 different browsers and I must say this blog loads a lot faster then most.
Can you suggest a good internet hosting provider at
a fair price? Thank you, I appreciate it!


I have always longed for friendship.
I've been friendless for as long as I've been breathing.
My only outlook on how the other side might be was through anime. Little me watching one piece and how the nakama crew had each others back, went on adventures, fought, reconciliated and enjoyed a good meal.

I tried to make some nakamas in real life too. Whether was it in highschool, uni or workplace, failure was always eagerly awaiting for me at the end.

Nakamas don't exist OP. :(


I want to talk about something strange that happens to me often.

I'm shy, introverted and I also detest people as I have seen the worst in them so I never bother to talk to anyone when I leave the house.

The problem is, when I go to a place a good number of times, something always happens.
It starts with looks that I can see with my side vision, then it's a joke between two people nearby in which they don't mention it's about me but I'm 100% sure it is and then sadly it might escalate to full blown harassment, humiliation, bullying.. I don't even know.

This is all because I never make any friends anywhere and thus I have no allies. I'm too neutral and when I'm too neutral it doesn't mean I'm safe. It means I'm up for grabs.

My newest problem is happening at a gym that I go to. Yes, I'm trying to get physically strong so I can beat the shit out of people that pick on me or at least have a higher change at defending myself successfully. I'm also too poor to have a home gym so I have to suck it up.

There is a small group of people that I'm pretty sure don't like me in that gym. It all started because I farted silently while deadlifting something heavy and I saw the guy waving his hand like a hand fan behind me.

I'm worried that these people confront me or start to mock me and I don't know how I should react.
Fucking cunts. It's like waiting for a bomb to explode.

Has anyone ever gone through something like this?
What is the explanation to something like this?
How does a person fix something like this?
I will not be submissive or kiss anyone's ass by the way.
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People are also quick to have a laugh on your expense and then they kiss your butt in the next second because you did something cool, its all just perception based on what they see. Most people are not full on bully types who are just sadistic and for people who got bullied a lot as teens this might be a weird concept to understand.

The truth is that you can even fart in public and it won't be embarrassing to anyone if you have enough confidence to own up to it, there's a lot of confident dudes who do stuff like that and it never even bothers anyone because they are just so confident about it.


u can be in either of 4 states with people in the gym or at work: antagonistic (opposing interests), socially functional (looking out for another), socially dysfunctional (awkward, weird for no reason) or asocial (no contact and not minding another)

i think wizards are robbed of social functioning and of being asocial due to mental illness, paranoia, and lack of social skills

what's left is socially dysfunctional and antagonistic

with antagonism you have three options: flee, pretend to be calm brave and confident, or fight
the worst thing you can do is to openly show that you are upset, without backing that shit up
if they see you being upset, but you dont put some damage to them, then they will know that you are harmless, and theyll mess with you without any fear for themselves

with dysfunctionality, any time you feel awkward or weird about being in peoples presence, u should think about whose fault that is
is it just you? or is it their fault?
either way, knowing whose fault it is will alleviate weirdness

if you notice that a lot of weirdness is on them, then you can start calling them out on it (calmly) once things turn sour. thats very potent

if you wanna mess around with social functioning, try getting to know people, and from then on greet them with a smile and with eye contact every time you see them, and look out for them


>because they are just so confident about it
>If you have charisma you can own shit like farting

Let me translate for wizzie OP what these normals said.
be confident = be tall and muscular


You can still be "tall and muscular" and lack confidence or even look plain insecure, also that whole "tall" stuff is just nihilistic bullshit fueled by toxic succubi (who hardly have any tall or fit boyfriends to begin with) and insecure guys on the internet who act like their height is the main reason why their life sucks. Of course tall will always be attractive and muscular as well but in reality most people are not even working out regularly and most people are also not really tall. Please get off the internet and look at couples, most of the dudes are not even tall or buff because they are still confident in a way, most of us just have some kind of mental issue that prevents us from being confident and instead of working on that some of us just come up with nihilistic theories.

Its still important to work out because the human body needs it but doing anything in an effort to fix ones insecurity is something that won't work, I actually know a guy who got really buff because he tried to fix his insecurities and now he's still an idiot but also buff which only benefits him very short term until people realize what a faggot he is.


> tall. Please get off the internet and look at couples, most of the dudes are not even tall or buff because they are still confident in a way, most of us just have some kind of mental issue that prevents us from being confident

You need to be extremely hard tortured to death for writing obvious lie like this. I would gladly enjoy torture you to death.

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how do I LEAVE the INTERNET?
and vidya. and netflix..electronics,cellphone even.
How??i cant stay up ,pulling an all-nighter,glued to my screen. no,non,nein! It has to be a pure sleep deprivation,unaided by any electricity.
but I dwell upon addiction to the blue-light screen. my life IS sitting in a chair..this has to change,it must!
but the vice cripples me. heed me,give me advice,rescue me.
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Why quit vidya. Games can teach us a lot of things as long as the game is older.



>>269500 you sound like a zoomer poser kid who isn't even 30s or was born before the 90s



Ok when I say new games suck ass I don't mean every new game is bad but most are. Why do you feel that making fun of age is a good insult. In my opinion it sounds more childish than what I said. The gaming market is on decline AND YOU KNOW THAT!



Also when I say old games I mean stuff pre 2010


New games are just too hard. Deflect these 100 incoming strikes per second bro and then dodge and then jump and attack to get 1 hit in and if you don't you die instantly. It's like someone played Mario Bros and thought you beat the game by trial and error instead of figuring out how to get past the hard parts.

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I have the philosophy that for an act to have moral merit,the opposite deed must be realistically attainable.
for example: being peaceful and not killing someone who skrewed you up,is only morally valuable if you CAN kill him
sobriety is only praiseworthy if you can access hard booze

I recently bought a gun with ammo, I confirmed I still crave(cartoon) porn so Im refraining from looking at it.I even got some strong benzos and vodka in a corner.
am I harvesting a breeding ground for disaster?
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Right? From philosophy to latinn supremacists to advocating murder should be more frequent and normal.

This thread has it all!


What are you trying to prove?
You're not gonna magically fix your life by not fapping to hentai. You jack off to cartoons because your life is miserable and it might not even be your fault. Life has robbed you of the chance to live a normal life, so the next best thing is trying to cope with small pleasures. Nofap only benefits chads and normies who actually have sex with succubi, wizards only castrate themselves for no reason.


I bet someone could fix their whole life by quiting, probably not most, though. Its a blessing to have some simple problems, I imagine many wizards have what seems more like a constellation of problems, no bottom or end in sight.


Why are you taking this shitposter's word salad seriously?


There is nothing wrong with murder. It's already frequent and normal.

I'm not discreet, let the normals seethe. A life of hiding isn't worth living.


Its kind of difficult these days, living is naturally a pain unless you are ignorant?

1.You must always do the "right" thing

Lets talk about whats right and whats wrong.
For someone to perceive whats right whats wrong, he/she needs to have a purpose,
(an end destination)

when you have an end destination you can know if you are doing the right or wrong by checking it logically.

with the end destination you could follow a series of logical steps to reach it.

what is logic?
logic is relation.
you relate everything that is new, to a past crystallized mental framework.

any logic you use, at the simplest level it comes down to axioms.

Mathematics is the only thing that relates to our reality almost flawlessly.
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I'm running a scam where I go to university to get gov't benefits. It'll work until I'm 30, I'm 24 now. 6 years of sweet NEETdom, here I come!


I'm too lazy to vent.


OP here

i pray for you;
for everyone in this thread;
everyone who is hurt

not for a pain relief, not for a fortune

but for salvation if it exists

to the god of uncertainty who rules the universe


> I want to be as free as possible to think and say whatever without there being any expectation about being experienced in any given thing

i feel you anon
a very relatable post

> I just want to be constantly among new people, then experience things where they could say to themselves, wow, you know that much? Wow, you can do that? It feels fucking awesome to surprise people positively, when was the last time someone working some menial job experienced that? It's the exact type of thing that makes life worth living to me

New people will always act surprised and woah you can do this that!
its a common socializing technique

extroverts are good with people and they know your psyche of wanting attention from others (objectively everyone wants it at some level)

and the moment they find you worthless you are done with.

good deeds are always forgotten
mistakes are always remembered.


Why the fuck things have to change? why? every time I feel like I'm in a somewhat comfortable position (even if its not much by normalfag standards) things change, not even for the worst, but change, I'm used to comformity and comfort, I just want to be in a decent position in life and let that be frozen in time until I die, no changes at all.


How do most people manage to do so much in day, it would take me a week at best to do a fraction of what they can do.
Not necessarily talking about tiredness but i have practically 0 energy to do almost anything, its been like this for years.
0 desire for anything besides mindlessly switching between tabs, any sudden urge to do something else quickly fizzles out when attempting it.
Is this normal? doesn't feel like it. Am i stuck this way from years of being a mindless neet with no hobbies? Is it gradual brainrot?
Aside from that how to most people manage to do so much, it almost seems superhuman if i managed to do what they see as normal day to day activities
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i guess you meant to say schizoid instead of schizophrenics.

i do get your point. normies' motivation lays in the prospect of gaining social status and that's the main reason they pursue things.

if i may project, wizzies have had the social motivation taken out of them. leaving them without the primary drive to perform activities.

i wonder if social motivation could be reaquired, though it would necessitate an unlikely scenario. you would need normies to feed the wizzie brain circuitry with positive reinforcement everytime you interact with them, which ain't possible due to them isolating us in the first place.


The schizoid mind does not draw enjoyment or similar positive reinforcement from objectively positive or successful interactions with other people. I think the schizoid mind works differently, it barely depends on social interaction. It's much more self centered and very unspecified conditions and events contribute towards its state.


I don't know, anon. I don't know. Can barely even shower once a month, let alone do much else on top of that.


wiz … i can't even finish a book and you are recommending to read 6


you're better off not reading any of that crunchy wellness shite tbh

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How is it possible to be so aware of your problems and still not do anything about it?

I found a thread I made 5 years ago where I talked about how much time I wasted and how I know I will regret it in the future if I keep doing nothing and asking people if it's too late to change…

Well 5 years, 5*360 days, 5*360*16 awake hours passed and somehow in all this time I managed to make 0 progress. Like HOW? How is that possible? Even if I spent 30 minutes a day doing something productive by now I would have gotten something out of it as 5*360*30 = 900 hours.

8 years ago I read a book on procrastination so I was aware of it for a long time and I still do it… I found a book I bought about drawing and the receipt is from 7 years ago…

5 years ago I also thought about trying vitamin supplementation and after reading about it for 2 days I got too overwhelmed and forgot about it.

Now what really baffles me is how you would think I am lazy like this because I spend all my time watching tv and playing video games. But somehow I barely played any video games in my life. There are so many interesting old titles I would like to play and COULD but somehow every day miraculously passes by with me having done NOTHING. I just keep playing the same online games I suck at and browsing the internet and watching random youtube videos that I forget about instantly. When I had a library membership I kept loaning books just to accrue late fees while not reading them.

It baffles me how I am actually 30 now but have almost no experiences whatsoever.
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Lot of normanniggerinos claim to have it, but I think it is bullshit to get high on stimulants. I haven't achieved anything at all, living in a state of mental paralysis, sort of like having severe brain fog. Every endeavor I undertake ends up a failure - I literally burn out like a some shitty matchstick and after that there is no will to do anything. The only cure seems to be stimulant medication, because coffee and cigs do lessen the symptoms. Just do it mindset and using willpower are useless. It is exhausting - you want to do something with all your being, but just cant. It is like to have a car that only works randomly in short bursts and when you want to go somewhere you can't start the engine.


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You can only watch


You can't stop the constant passage of time. It flows and ebbs through the universe regardless of our will, testament or testimony. It sucks the life from us until we pass on into the next life, reality willing. Just sit and breathe and a minute passes by like nothing. It's all we have and all we need.


Well, OP, I'm the opposite. However, it's never gotten me anywhere. In fact, I could as well have done nothing and I'd be exactly where I'm now. So while you didn't do anything at all, at least you didn't do anything in vain. You can console yourself in knowing this.


This, doing something and doing nothing has the same result when you're mentally ill.

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