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[–]  No.297751[Reply]>>298489[Watch Thread]

Does anyone else live like they will have another chance at life despite not being religious? I am so displeased with my starting point in life and how much better others have it without needing to put in any effort that I mentally checked out and have been a low-effort hedonist focusing on being comfortable with the least effort in the moment. Like refusing to play an unbalanced game. But there is no alternative, no one is going to balance life. I'm still in disbelief that this will be the only way I get to experience life. Born in times of great technological progress and opportunity but unable to enjoy it.
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[–]  No.297818>>297820

>>297752
Nah, some are aware of it. The only reason I don't kill myself as an autist is because I realize how lucky I was to be born into a western country with generous Neetbucks for life (permanent disability).

In a third world country I wouldn't even be alive.

So even if there is rebirth in some form, I get to prolong a comfy existence for at least 80-100 years and postpone being born as a rat or slum indian who has to scavenge garbage for sustenance.

(And I don't loathe those people - I'm just scared of that fate, and grateful it wasn't bestowed upon me)

[–]  No.297820

>>297818
what country? how hard was it getting permabux for autism? im in the uk and i reckon i could swing it somehow

[–]  No.297825>>297826

>>297752
Retarded argument. Human existence is nothing but an attempt to rid ourselves of these naturally imposed horrors. Carnivores and herbivores balance each other out in the bigger picture. Rich/poor, west/rest are just a result of some form of 'winners' externalizing the cost of their winning to those with less power and then solidifying that difference in power. Such a thing could not happen in the natural world. The reason we suffer so much is because we know that things could be different if the human soul weren't such an ugly thing.

[–]  No.297826

>>297825
yeah we could easily have a utopia if it wasn't for greedy bitches who always want more, to be better than the rest, to be #1

[–]  No.298489

>>297751 (OP)
Another chance in this world, is to me just another chance for serious miseries. That's the core of this reality.

What do you crave for?



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[–]  No.296804[Reply]>>298488[Watch Thread]

I think it's genuinely just plain over if you don't have education, skills or job experience at the age of 25. It feels like I should just play videogames until anhedonia reaches critical condition and then to just off myself. I lost to job market. I lost to capitalism. My ego and my weakness won't allow me to live as burger king worker. Not to mention i'd be a useless worthless asset in any job anyway. Fuck
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[–]  No.297888>>297889>>297890>>297903

I'm 33 with no job experience or college degree. I am so cooked. How did I get here? I went on reddit to ask for advice but on the same board people with just a 1 year gap and STEM degrees were complaining about not finding a job despite 1000 applications so I didn't even dare to ask.

[–]  No.297889

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>>297888
>reddit

[–]  No.297890

>>297888
I fucking hate users from reddit

[–]  No.297903

>>297888
I mean they also seem to have it pretty bad…
I will graduate with my cs bachelor 1 year late and I feel like Im pretty unemployable due to my lack of personal projects. So I could relate to them.

[–]  No.298488

>>296804 (OP)
Again, I insist: learn your Human Design.

That war always lost. Don't let it deceive you from your real, best chances.

>>296822
>My ego and my weakness won't allow me to live as burger king worker.
And even though, he should rather set his own burger business to outcompete his wagecucker in the end. That'd be a great middle finger.

>>296828
Nah, that's just normie sabotage. GO for neetbux, tell you feel horrible sick and whatever. Show your poor resume.

UNEMPLOYMENT AND CELIBACY WILL RISE, you just wait. This site might as well become overcrowded.



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[–]  No.297846[Reply]>>297956>>298487[Watch Thread]

Its the type of pain most people live with, a background pain. Ambient pain. The idea of dying alone. The idea of being a virgin. having so skills. No purpose. every day is exactly the same, you never leave the house, you cant, you cant drive a car, you are too tired to walk. and its going to be like this for the rest of your life.
You were born to die.
every second hurdling faster and faster towards death.

and no one cares, even if you told someone they would despise you.

you might as well be a corpse already, let the bugs and birds eat you, rot away till you are nothing but bones, let your bones turn to dust, let a gust of wind blow you away.

all that pain, and one day it was like you were never there.
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[–]  No.297943

>>297941
If paths of liberation are conditioning then whatever you have just written is also conditioning. How can we be anything other than what was put inside our brains?

I totally agree with your conclusion.

[–]  No.297947>>297958

>>297941
Because you know clinging, you assume you know not-clinging. Because you don't know not-clinging, you assume it's clinging. This is a mistake. You wish for everything to be the same so you can better justify yourself in suffering, and due to this desire, you assume suffering and tranquility are the same. You assume wisdom and ignorance are the same. This is also a mistake. You take pride in suffering, and so everything must be suffering, and nothing is allowed to be anything else. Friend, you have effectively allowed yourself to become a blind man. You walk around as a blind man. Everywhere you turn, it's equal darkness. When someone informs you there is vision, you tell them it's the same as blindness. I tell you this out of compassion but I can only go so far, if you don't strive and put aside this pride in suffering picked up from the world, you'll continue to live in it and see nothing beyond it. Be well, friend.

[–]  No.297956

>>297846 (OP)
It's so useless to offer these wiews without any request or solutions. What are you aiming for? A circlewhine about it?

[–]  No.297958

>>297947
Why do you assume I don't know tranquility? Why do you assume all I know is suffering? All I'm saying is that even tranquility in the end is completely useless and nothing of worth. People like you sound like preachers, Know-it-all, uptight, passive-aggressive, sensitive. If you were tranquil you wouldn't feel the need to answer like that. I'm sorry but your lost in desperate attempt to feel better than others. Have a good day anyways.

[–]  No.298487

>>297846 (OP)
which skills? being creative enough to know what to say?
There is nothing to say, and even when you learn from others, it's all pathetic.

I say, one of life goal for every wiz is
>First: no-fap if you cannot afford the second, because your health and aura are weak
>Second: to goon and wank without letting a single drop go out, not even at nights. Learning how to regulate the body via diet, cold, gym, etc… so this energy gets effectively recycled.

God help you all against the hordes of ishtar, hell on her



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[–]  No.297855[Reply][Watch Thread]

At what age have you last time felt content, happy, hopeful about your situation? At which age it ended, and you changed? For me it's probably 14 years old. I enjoyed the hell out of the internet and videogames. But looking back I think it was always leading to this neet wiz suicide-considering lifestyle.

[–]  No.297858

its the same for me, 14, and i wasted all the good years i have where you can actually enjoy stuff on browsing 4chan and listening to garbage avante garde music. thats what left an impression on me. as a result i am permanently fucked up and stunted.

[–]  No.297877

Anxiety since childhood. Hopeful till 5 with relapses at 7 and then at about 9-10. Hopeful about the situation not related to filth and natalistic thingy thangs.

[–]  No.298039>>298047>>298481

Life treats people that are lazy so badly. Im so lonely and sad. what do I do now. What should I do to fix my life. why. I wish I had more time. Time is what I need the most of. If I had even a little bit more my time randomly before each exam, a few days, then I couldve gotten a good grade. Im utterly incapable of making up a schedule and sticking to it Im so lazy, I dont engage with the material just going to university and back, what have a learned today? nothing. I couldnt understand anything, and here I am failing my studies because Im so utterly incapable of making a schedule. I failed my exam. Im getting bad grades all the time. I fail to give a fuck about passing. I study until my brain hurts each day take breaks watching slop intertwined with lectures and at the end I didnt have enough time and failed anyways. I fucked up hard.

[–]  No.298047

>>298039
Are you Indian?

[–]  No.298481

>>298039
Whatever your strategy and authority lead you to. Learn what those things are before you end up fucking it up deeper



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[–]  No.298034[Reply]>>298035>>298038[Watch Thread]

Not sure if this fits here, but

I often make bets with myself; for example, I have not eaten for 2 weeks, and if I do something good, maybe, and if I fail, something bad will happen again. This maybe is just coping, but I remember failing some of these challenges and something bad happening that still haunts me to this day and makes me feel deeply sad about it.

[–]  No.298035>>298075>>298480

>>298034 (OP)
>I have not eaten for 2 weeks
you didn't die???
also, I did something like that too. I used to tell myself what to do and then toss a coin, and I'd do thing based on the result. but I don't do it anymore and it wadn't that long, during a short time

[–]  No.298038

>>298034 (OP)
OCD.

[–]  No.298075>>298077

>>298035
Human can last longer without food that water

[–]  No.298077

>>298075
ok👍

[–]  No.298480

>>298035
>did not die
An adult can take even 30 days without significant damage.



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[–]  No.295572[Reply]>>298478[Watch Thread]

I am that same Indian guy who made the post about having C-PTSD and living with abusive parents. I have hit a new low, I think I am becoming low T, I check every symptom on the box, having brain fog, constantly fatigue, constantly sleepy, not being able to get it up anymore, no more morning woods, and no erections.

The problem is this, I am still a student and the effects of having low T are affecting my studies greatly, risking me going into a negative feedback loop where I feel like it's gonna take a toll on my studies. And thus reduce my likelihood of getting a job. I have managed to start gym after intense fighting with my parents.

But there is only so much I can push them as someone who is dependent upon them. I am sorry to post this here, after few long years, I just burst our crying today when my parents denied me to visit a urologist, while I have no symptoms (apart from slight shrinkage of my testicles), I probably have Varicocele too.

This is more of an SOS post, please if there is someone here who can take me away from my parents please do. Please give me a home, some love, some help to fix myself. I hate my life, I hate constantly being low T. My parents also hate all sorts of medicines, and they are going to freak out if the doctor recommends a surgery for varicocele. I can't get a job in this tough market either. It's truly hellish being a crab in the third world shithole.

Low T is affecting all areas of my life, and there is no redemption in sight, is my entire life going to be like this from this point on?
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[–]  No.298324

>>298314
You need to relax a bit and listen to the other side, I live here, I have seen stuff, I am not making things up, I have got no reason to.

Brother, did you even read the post, I don't have the money to go to hospital to treat my dick, what makes you think I have the money to support any succubus.

>>298317
Nope, in urban areas it's higher than it is in slums and rural areas, in slums and rural areas parents don't tend to their children so children have a lot of free time on their hands and you know what that lead to, I will see if I can find it for you there was a study done by National Health Planning by Ministry of Health, and it was done with keeping in mind the household income of the families, and it said that succubi and men from middle class were the most conservative and the rich and the poor were both likely to lose their virginity before 18.

Look brother, I know you have seen the videos, but I have been living here since birth, I speak the language, you've gotta understand I am not making things up.

[–]  No.298325

>>298312
It is very nice to hear that you are at least financially independent, and what you earn in two days, if I earned that much in a month, I would be so happy and that would practically solve all my monetary problems and make me independent.

>I will make a controversial statement that you might not agree with - I believe that dating and making friends in Australia is far easier than in India. Dating in India is damn near impossible for the average guy and your friends circle is extremely limited to those within your own social class.

I do believe that making friends is easier in India, but then again I have never been outside of India and have never interacted much with non-Indians so maybe you're right. As for dating, I guess people tend to use Instagram and Snapchat so normies do manage to get dates quite easily.

>it's more so that kids here can earn enough to be entirely independent by the time they do turn 18

You're right, this is something that I did not take into account, you guys do have quite a lot of jobs for people who just turned 18 and that does mean that a kid can survive if he's out of the house. That's why I have heard a lot of kids move out by themselves.

Also I am sorry that you didn't have a good experience in India, while things are certainly dilapidated and poverty is unimaginable, I don't think we have a lot of crime as compared to other third world countries, to be honest I am under the (wrong?) impression that there is more crime in places like NYC, LA, and Detroit where you can't even park your electric bicycle without it getting stolen, I never had to worry about having my cycle stolen, or perhaps I am judging things incorrectly.

>Like you're seeing now Indian families can be quite toxic and if you don't live up to their standards they abuse you relentlessly… like that's going help with anything.

You're absolutely 100% correct with this observation, they really seemed to have toss all of that love and respect out of the window for me.

>I can really sympathise with you. Being a wizard is hard but having those handicaps PLUS living in India is truly a pitiful existence. Sorry bhai, kya karein? Maybe the next life will bless you better…

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[–]  No.298360

>>298312
Jesus, you make 200 euros a day working a base entry level job.

I would kill to have even half of that and I live in Europe as an educated employee. Fuck life.

[–]  No.298478

>>295572 (OP)
>stop going to job, no matter what
>practice fasting every month
>never coom
>keep gym, but better if at home and not paying the gym owner
>do your own research about whatever you might have, hide everything from your parents
>there's no other motivation than avoiding worsening
>go to psychologist if you can to apply for neetbux
>do not discuss them. I would just take what I need to take of myself and being discreet about it since it is a health issue. No fucking begging.
>Ignore the cuck throwing inflammatory posts, probably a mod

[–]  No.298479


If the village raises you to be miserable, it must burn in your service. Be sure you know well which "meat" is to be "cooked" in that fire.



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[–]  No.298102[Reply]>>298476[Watch Thread]

Is there anyone else who is trapped in routine and monotony and never notices the days going by, rotting alone in their room? I have lost the motivation to play games, watch anime, or even go on imageboards. I've experienced that since last year, well I don't even know anymore, I lost consciousness on how much time has passed and is passing by. I can't take the lack of genuine feelings anymore. I used to escape monotony with games but they don't bring me pleasure anymore. I used to have one or two online friends but time did it's thing and the interest vanished. My life consists of sleeping during the day, waking up to eat with my family and, at night, if my mind is not flooded by overthinking and negative/nonsensical obsessive thoughts, watching videos or listening to music.

[–]  No.298105>>298108

what does your family think about you sitting in your room doing nothing all day?

[–]  No.298106>>298108

Should've learned to code

[–]  No.298108

>>298105
They don't say anything because I'm taking a course at the moment. But it just started a week ago and I haven't done anything so far. My mom was telling me all the time to pursue a course and do something.
>>298106
I've become too retarded to put in the effort, the process for things like this is more stressful than rewarding for me. At least for things I'm not passionate about and coding is one of them. The course I'm taking is focused on that, ironically. My only hope is that I'm young and still have time to learn productive things.

[–]  No.298476

>>298102 (OP)
Forcing weightlifting is all we got. And no-fap, and to sometimes starve while having questionable diets.



[–]  No.298116[Reply]>>298120>>298475[Watch Thread]

Somehow i went and fell back into the bathtub after i already got out, almost like i slipped on air. Hit myself on the head and spine. I'm 90% sure that I have a hematoma in my brain because my head hasn't stopped hurting after a week and i had some very interesting symptoms. I hope it bursts my brain and kills me. I'm an illness-ridden, debt-broke hardcore benzo addict with no home(live like a rat without my own room for 30 years) that has to eat a pack a day or will have a grand mal seizure anyway, so very soon I would be forced to suicide anyway. I just hope that it won't turn me into a vegetable instead, but i lose every gamble so I can't count on luck. Well, something will do me in eventually, one thing or the other. I can feel death is half a step away. Goodbye brothers.

[–]  No.298117

have you seen a doctor to check if youre really gonna die at least?

[–]  No.298118


[–]  No.298120

>>298116 (OP)
I hope you don't live in the first world cause healthcare unironically suck ass in the first world either it is too expensive or it too slow to respond. Get well soon.

[–]  No.298475

>>298116 (OP)
Mental note: bathtub plastic mats are crucial to avoid permanent injuries by a giving bad step

We should build a collection of errors that could have been easily avoided. Heavy wizlore, for so sayin



[–]  No.298200[Reply]>>298474[Watch Thread]

The process of birth is an humilliation ritual.
The process of growing up is an humilliation ritual.
The process of death is an humilliation ritual.
Through all these process the individual is humilliated, his spirit shattered into pieces. At the end there's nothing but an empty shell. We're born alone and we die alone and the universe is constantly teasing and humilliating us. The human experience is that of pain and suffering. Births are painful, deaths are painful. Demoralized, disenfranchised, humilliated, broken. Our lives are misserable and only the sweet release of the endless void could save our soul from the torment of existence. I loath humanity just as much as I loath myself and my own existence. Afraid to live and afraid to die. Pathetic husk rotten inside.
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[–]  No.298202

Nobody told me I would be a bitch

[–]  No.298237

Births aren't painful in nature, that's a lie, if the succubus is young and truly healthy along with the baby, the child will come out with only 2 contractions giving their mother an orgasm, but in the modern world people are deformed, sick, and stresses, thus the pain.

[–]  No.298238

>the child will come out with only 2 contractions giving their mother an orgasm
NO WIZARDS WITH HEALTHY MOTHERS

[–]  No.298247>>298474

Humanity has already given up. More and more people in the developed world are choosing not to have children, and the number is only projected to increase.
Why should I care about a generation that has already lost faith in continuing humanity? And when you talk about this problem, you're often called a fascist and misogynist.

[–]  No.298474

>>298200 (OP)
So what now?

>>298247
We are antinatalists here. And there's no antinatalism enough in this planet btw



[–]  No.298266[Reply]>>298436[Watch Thread]

There are succubi who were born in 2007 who have became pornstars now, succubi born in 2008-2011 have regular sex and you all know how middle school was. I guess what I am trying to say is how do you cope with this?

In my eyes, the act of having sex is the highest expression of love and yet not a lot of us will ever receive that pleasure of finally being accepted, there are people here who can't get laid because of how they were raised, there are people here who can't get laid cause of their looks, and the thing is people do wanna talk about it here. There was also a post by disgusting shitskinned pajeet over how he can't have sex cause his dick is up his ass or something and a post on wiz where a guy was sex obsessed and couldn't stop seeing even his family and relatives through a sexual lens.

Because let's face it, most of us aren't happy with our current predicament. Most people here aren't happy with being wizards, our lives are completely unnatural and incompatible with happiness. Posts here are about how to commit suicides and how miserable the lives of people here are. The fact of the matter is that most of us are miserable.

And there is nothing much we can do to escape our predicament. I want to know genuinely if there are any real wizards who have moved beyond this. How did you really do it? How do you get used to a life so lonely? How did you made peace with that? Do none of you ever had the desire of having a kid who looks up to you. Or a wife who will actually be on your side till your deathbed. Or are we just gonna die in some apartment lonely or homeless on a street only for our corpse to be unattended and no respect paid.

I feel very weird when I come to this website, I feel like people here are like me, virgin, loveless, and lonely. But there is something different, I can't contain my innate desire to be wanted. And it seems like people here pretend that they have contained it but deep down inside they wanna escape this.

I am writing this in the state of real post-nut clarity, I just coomed to a pornstar who was born in 2007 and it made me feel how old I really am getting, and how I haven't achieved any thing and I am a worthless basement dweller. It is truly remarkable how different lives the lives of different humans can be.
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[–]  No.298423

I sympathize with your outlook, as I have phases like this too. Short spans of time when I am struck with a feeling of abnormality that almost makes me sick. Or rather, I feel sickened to live in a society where the things I've seen in my wholesome romcom anime do not exist.
However, I fully disagree that everyone here is miserable, that there is no genuine happiness or fulfilment to be found outside of this aspect of human life, that such real wizards do not or cannot exist. Indeed, there is nothing you can do to change your feelings in a very real sense. It takes time and patience with yourself, acceptance and the willingness to let go, if that's something that is possible with how your brain is wired. There are many ways of balancing out these desires for emotional fulfilment, having a good relationship with your parents for example or some sort of pursuit that is rewarding to you. Romantic fulfilment was only ever something a small minority of people got to experience anyhow, in human history most pairings were out of the necessity to pool resources. Sex too, was mostly just for the gratification of the man and pair bonding / creation of offspring. Most succubi never wanted to be with most men, they were more or less forced by socioeconomic circumstances. That's why nowadays, since our societies are more resource abundant, gender relations are falling apart entirely and sex is merely another transaction.
So again, there was nothing to be done about it on your part from the getgo. Grieve the life you think you could've had and move on.

[–]  No.298429

>>298276
Relatable. I’m also impotent and cannot facilitate relations with the opposite sex, in fact, I face insurmountable difficulty befriending and keeping in close contact with our fellow brethren. This life of languor and ceaseless boredom, of joys and passions of lesser magnitude, it provokes hatred and contempt in me. I have done things I regret, and I have regretted not doing things; but this grief is worthless as it serves only to exacerbate and perpetuate itself.

Depression comes to me in waves.

[–]  No.298436>>298463

>>298266 (OP)
I don't get which feel or idea are you exactly trying to cope against. succubi have it easier because men are the weaker sex, men even bully and despise/value each others according to how much succubi they have pleased without requiring the same from them because their dick dominates everything.

My cope is to still piss off succubi whenever they try to lure and not even look at them

HAVING SEX AS THE HIGHER EXPRESSION OF LOVE: No, sorry, losing my vital substance into an arrogant piece of flesh cannot be considered that. This point of view makes coherence sure with what I see in you as the mental disease of desire. The pussy is a trap, you do not know how to distinguish love from concupiscence and that's what makes you (love)sick in this way.

We are miserable because we are sick or we didn't know how find our place in this world.
>Do none of you ever had the desire of having a kid who looks up to you. Or a wife who will actually be on your side till your deathbed. Or are we just gonna die in some apartment lonely or homeless on a street only for our corpse to be unattended and no respect paid.
Those are fantasies that can take several cruel turns when practiced into reality. No, I am not a natalist. You do not even really want to be so, you are just sick in your soul about it.

If you just stopped cooming you'd have much better aura and mental energy so these miseries would be effectively battled away. It's like the sociopathic spirit of modern succubi, picking on you for not being good enough. A spirit which deserves nothing but hell.

Gooning into epic levels of speed while not letting a drop of your mana out, that is the way of the wizard. Looksmaxxing to reject succubi and piss off normies. Otherwise we end up like you.
>stop cooming, you are alone inside that mental filth of yours because of what you do. Sex is a war and you are a victim.

If you have energy to coom you also have it to lift weights and take cold showers! I don't know if you need these to control your libido, I don't. I just don't want to see anyone here to complain about being a failed wizard here by admitting a coom and then complaining about his mind getting lost because of it. You should really reform yourself if you want to heal or rather shut the fuck up Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

[–]  No.298463>>298472

>>298436
>Gooning into epic levels of speed while not letting a drop of your mana out, that is the way of the wizard.
what differences have you experienced in regular (nofap) sr vs edging with sr?

[–]  No.298472

>>298463
My aura feels a bit off in a good sense. Recently I started to feel an uncanny awareness of sex being a dangerous thing rather than feeling the usual phantasies around it.



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