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 No.302958[Reply]

>So TL:DR; online places changed and I'm no longer suited for them. There are no suitable places and circumstances to make friends at my age. People my age got families and why would they want to be my friend anyways?


2000s internet vibes can still be found in:

* Gaiaonline
* Vaporwave communities
* City forums, I guess?
* Food communities, kitchen clubs
* they hack "gamespy" era PC games to have multiplayer mode WITHOUT now-defunct GameSlayn. Games that still have communities

* Dos.zone
DOS era games can be played online.
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 No.303027

>>302957
You really did make an entire thread to reply to my post.
Quite insane.
Also took a while for me to even check the catalog.

>>302973
Yeah the change isn't only noticed by people my age, it really depends on what age you gained internet access and what parts you got exposed to initially.
I still had an atari for example, but not because I was into retro anything, or because I'm old enough to be one of its users, it's just that rural poverty meant we got everything much later than the rest of the world.
Then when I got exposed to the internet I was lead by my "elders" as well.

I'm sure even zoomers notice, you mention minecraft, a lot of those early creators, though I didn't consume much, but some were big enough that reached me too, they used to be much different.
They were… creative and authentic. Nowadays all of it feels way too intentionally crafted to be a brand, something to sell, something to make money from.

Every space online has been way too commercialized and normiefied and the issue is that there are more and more people who have only seen this version of the internet and they love it. So if you don't, there is no space for you and they will make it very clear.
It is sad.

>More like, people didnt exactly 'change', they began to show their true colors.
I disagree with this to an extent. Again, the people I used to be around moved on with their lives. They didn't start showing their true color, it's just that they matured and had different priorities.
So what I'm trying to say here is that there is a difference between the oldheads baring their teeth. You might be right about some of them, but most just moved on in my opinion and the ones that replaced them are simply a different breed accustomed to a different "normal".
You know, don't tell people your name, don't post anything about yourself type people were replaced with those that lived life online in public like it's normal.
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 No.303274

Posted some relevant info in /games/

 No.304027

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I wonder of cute Two-Bees will be a thing in 30 years or so

 No.304457

>>302958
Yeah, I feel that as well. When I was younger, I had this plan to "live online", basically to avoid the regular life of chasing things like money and succubi and just enjoy browsing the internet after I graduated.

The more time passed, the more I felt alienated from this digital hellscape, to the point where I tried to "escape" back into the real world to get away from it all. I feel spiritually homeless on the internet and never fit in with others in meatspace as well.

>>302983
God, I fucking hate zoomers and them chasing after certain "aesthetics".
t.zoomer

 No.304629

>>304457
>>304457
Looks so relateable it's almost like I persoally wrote this post; I, however, don't say "meatspace" so it's not like it my post

Conclusio: RELATEABLE!!! I wanted to be a similar kind of person. Sadly, CS/IT is full of "jocks", "bros" and other "all-emotional "intelligence" types who treat wizards of digital lands as haha funny wageslaves to toy with "do this… no, no, do THIS, not that… no-no-no, try GOOD VIBES to understand me", don't be a ****"


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 No.303398[Reply]

The sole purpose of this post is to share the techniques and books I have accumulated over time to achieve relaxation and other things.
I have read about meditation, magic, ceremonial magic, chaotic and postmodern magic, anxiety therapies, and relaxation techniques. This thread is not a cure for all problems. I don't want to turn this into a blogspot, so feel free to ask whatever you want.
>Also
Remember that you can also search for the techniques I mention on the internet, on YouTube, or on WikiHow, where you can find help on how to perform these techniques and more tips.
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 No.304191

>>304190
Stick with the reading list. It’s really good. Also I would recommend the book hatha yoga by the same author of the Hindu yogi science of breath, kybalion, arcane formula, etc (the author in question is William Walker Atkinson). The book hatha yoga delves into obscure methods of staying healthy that the elites don’t want you to know about. Highly recommended.

 No.304192

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>>304190
>What do fellow wizzies here think of the /fringe/ reading list? petsonally ive only read the kybalion
They Kybalion is a re-made up of another book of Atkinson (arcane formulas? Or some tittle with mansonry in it i dont remember) with more hermetic aesthetic, i dont like it. I enjoyed it at my first entrance in supposed western esoterism (its not western esoterism but its kinda into modern religious esoterism pre-new age like teosophy) but now I know its kinda lame, its like a new age book.
>not to mention that it's getting a lot of bad rep lately in hermetic circles for not relating to hermeticism
It have a lot or new thought ideas, its not truly hermetic philosophy with greek-egyptian lore rituals and etc.
New thought its more like a offshot of Mesmerism-Hypnosis with Christian Science with some light indian beliefs or aesthetics with some universal metaphysics. If you enjoy it as a chaoist or it make thing for you work for the paradigm its ok, In ME personal case, dont work for me.
>and bardon's exercises that i want you anons opinion on.
Suppusoedly Bardon stealed some secret book and paper of a magic lodge or something (sound like crowley) but i dont know.
Bardon intro to hermetics its like a Raja Yoga with a lot of techniques focuses on breath, visualization and correspondences and etc. Its very technical at first not to focused on ritualism (he have other books focused on that topic)
I enjoy bardon and some techniques are from Indian Yogas techniques and maybe chinese and others from western ideas, I see it more focused on itself esoteric system than a Hypnosis or belief like new thoughts guys.
This book its more internal (like a qi gong as example) than external focused on rituals or invocations evocations, etc.
>Its true hermetism?
In bardon sense, yeah, but in a hermetic philosophy and practices of western greek-egyptian-alchemy OG lore, nope. Go read hermetic philosophy and religious books of hermetism for that.

>Fringe reading list
If you want some books of magick of personal, post-modern, maybe lodge tradition or new age fluffbunny and wicca there're some books here Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.304196

>>304192
>if you don't have a middle ground between absolute belief, dogma and agnosticism you can become a asshole.
always stay humble in your beliefs. i really enjoyed the kybalion for what it was the first time ive read but i obviously was a bunch of snake oil bullshit from the get-go, empty promises with no real hermetic background. Hells he even failed to describe hermetic philosophy properly. that leddit jew was right in regards to him, because when i read the arcane teachings he also somehow created a new occult order out of the blue from supposedly ancient chaldea called the arcane council, with the same recycle "hermetic laws" and manifestation/unmanifestation phaes of creation. im kinda pissed off i wasted my time for nothing. thank you /fringe/. Might have better luck with other books tho.

 No.304310

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>>303398
Read this book, very useful as a start for knowledge of anxiety and how to fix behaviour.

 No.304627

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>>303398
>Place a pillow under your knees, and sleep without a pillow under your head.
I read somewhere that the first helps you sleep better and the second helps circulation in your back and neck. I sleep without a pillow under my head because I find it more comfortable for sleep.

>Hug a pillow (rest in bed or sit or stand)
Dont ask why, just do it, for more than 23-25 sec.
You can add visualization, acting like youre huggins someone or sing to the pillow.
>Bedsheet hug (for sleep etc)
Weight yourself down with the sheets (or make a sheets weight pillow) and try to achieve the effect of a hug. Add visualization or act like you're hugging someone etc.
Don't put too much weight on your chest or you'll have trouble breathing and you'll have nightmares, or you might cut off the blood circulation in your arm.
>Also
One day i dreamed with anime characters (three lolis) with this way, incredible wholesome dream and very comfy.
It felt like heaven.


 No.304604[Reply]

It's not a thread to talk about insomnia. It's a thread to live the insomnia.

Post your 3AM thoughts here

 No.304607

3AM thoughts would be just like an unmoderated depression crawl thread, so this thread is redundant. I am confident OP is a troll who isn't aware what self hatred is and how it manifests.

 No.304610

Moved to >>>/b/1030601.


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 No.304573[Reply]

Guys, I hate to admit but Ive tried to distract myself from the degradation of life using the breadcrumbs society calls "happiness" or "content" or some shit but I refuse, I can't be some bitch boy. I want to do horrid and terrible things to succubi specifically. I wanted to blow my fucking brains out but in a way that would be submitting to it. So im stuck in this sick fucking cycle like a fucking rat in a wheel. I can only cause pain and suffering, its yearning. There is no fucking god here. I wish I was a god, a god of the purest form of hatred and disgust for the human race. Boys, use your hatred… for hate.
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 No.304581

>>304580
Yeah, it was to vent. I had witnessed something dismal and humiliating. Clearly you've succumbed to humanities label or "your own definiton of success" or whatever the fuck. Cope more pussy, I hope you find the same hatred as me and do something beautiful.

 No.304584

>>304581
Out of curiosity, what did you witness?

 No.304589

Hatred is only useful as long as it doesn't destroy you or inconvenience you greatly in the process.

>>304580
You can't know what OP's going through and what he will end up doing. Plenty of image board posters delivered with their edgy power fantasies and made them into reality. Most of us jut vent or fantasize about things but there is always a chance some guy will really go nuts. Not everyone is the same as you.
>Grow up and get a job for starters…
lol How would that improve his situation? (That's if he is unemployed to begin with…)

 No.304591

>>304580
FWIW it doesn't fit the definition of power fantasy, because breaking someone else's skull is far from impossible.
>We've all had that phase when we were writing epic posts with badass Greek statues
That's definitely a projection, but yeah most people have been through the whining on the internet phase. For some it never ended. Not sure if it's good or bad.

 No.304594

>>304573
> Ive tried to distract myself from the degradation of life using the breadcrumbs society calls "happiness" or "content" or some shit
That's the wicked game of the modern world: wageslave for scraps > spend scraps to consume recreational distractions > lie to yourself about one day "getting ahead" > continue to wageslave > repeat until dead. It's all pointless repetition and stagnation. I can fully understand why people are violently lashing out more frequently than ever before, they're desperate to escape the waking nightmare of modern life (or they get duped and radicalized by political propaganda). Personally, I've been studying spiritualism and theology, as well as practicing forms of meditation in an attempt to elevate my consciousness, transcend humanity, and forever leave this doomed planet behind when I die. That's my intention, anyway.

>>304580
>get a job for starters…
I see this kind of post made a little more frequently these days, I assume it's just a weak attempt at trolling. I personally have a full-time job and it barely improves my quality of life, not nearly enough to recommend it to anyone ever. Having a job these days does practically nothing positive for a person, let alone a wizard. Wageslavery is referred to as such for good reason, so fuck off.


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 No.304582[Reply]

Don't lie to me, do you have a pet, a dog, a cat, a mother, a father, or a family member that you love?
A few days ago, I had a terrible experience involving anger and frustration, and I realized that a simple hug took away any cruel intrussive suicidal thoughts in my head, almost like a grounding technique. Now I try to hug my pillow or squeeze my chest, and I even started to think that those machine hugs for autistic people could be effective for wathever it do.
And yes in a way its relaxing.
>Also
One of my cats start to purr too much when i become too much anxious, strange behaviour but maybe she try to be helful in a way.
Another one of my cats died in a cruel way. To be honest, I spent a few weeks feeling detached, thinking about how stupid life is, full of suffering, and yet we seek to cause more suffering sometimes.

 No.304583

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>>304582
The life of a Wizard can end up being a life of solitude locked away in an ivory tower.
But honestly, I never liked this ivory tower.

 No.304585

nah, i have a tulpa and that satisfies all my love and affection needs.

 No.304586

I dont have any pets and never thought about getting any. I see this as animal cruelty to cage some animal and have it be depending on my worthless ass.
the animal wouldnt have a happy life so I never bothered.
also yes I have family members but hugs arent really a thing in my family and I never hug anyone, at most you can get a firm handshake out of me or a fistbump.
last time I was hugged by my mom must been like 20+ years ago.

also "to be desired" doesnt sound appealing to me at all, it sounds like another annoying chore and what I learned in life is that if you are on some other persons mind then it always means trouble one way or another.

 No.304588

>>304586
would you hug your mom and tell us what happened?


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 No.300844[Reply]

It's completely fucking evil. I hate living in a world where it even exists, much less one where it's celebrated. It's something 99% of men do, they don't even think twice about it. I feel completely alienated from humanity because of this. Every time I read or hear something about it I get this pit in my stomach and a sense of impending doom. It used to give me panic attacks, but now it only fills me with unbridled rage.
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 No.304404

>>304376
men falling out of society and stopping breaking their backs for them is their worst nightmare

 No.304407

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Not gonna lie to you
That site >>304356 and this >>304404 sound oddly like a feminist.

 No.304409

>>304407
we're all neets here, fuck off

 No.304411

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>>304407
>feminism is when men stop supporting a broken system that discriminates them and which is built to benefit and give preference to females wants and needs
what a retard.

 No.304571

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>>304407
Based witchGOD


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 No.297542[Reply]

There are a whole hosts of posts here where we explain how we're dependent upon our parents and how when they die we will die with them, I am starting to think that the lack of money is a real problem.

Additionally, I am 22, but pursuing a worthless degree in IT, I don't know if I'd be able to get a job, I feel like I need to do something immediately to avoid this impending catastrophe. But I don't know what, it's like I have seen the writing on the wall.

And of course I have no other reason to believe that I am better than people here on the contrary I might be inferior, hell, I can't even drive properly, you've probably read a thousand of my posts here lamenting that by now.

Fuck man, I need to do something, upskill or some sort of productivity or self-improooovement shit or something, in the odd case that it might works. But this path is scary as fuck, this is leading straight up towards suicide. I am not as gutsy as other users here, who are fine with the idea of dying, I kind of want to live properly for a minute first before contemplating dying and I don't think I am even capable of suicide.

I don't even get along very well with my parents, we have a weird hate-love relationship where I am dependent upon them because I have no option.

I don't understand how I can be so unlucky, there are millions and millions of people, literally 99% of them just living their lives normally, I don't understand why do I have to be in the bottom 1% of this planet's population.

I feel an urgent need to do something to prevent this ship to colliding with an iceberg but I am just sitting and watching, if things continue this way, this is not going to end well.

But man all the posts here just scare me to no end. Everyone is talking about the problem but no one is really offering any real and followable solutions, this is not going to end well for either of us.

I don't know why I decided to make this post I feel a sheer sense of urgency and helplessness yet all I do is bedrot.
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 No.301819

>>301695
I think everyone without children cope in better or worse ways. Like you cant believe The amount of 30 yr old normies with less than 5k to their name "just gotta get rich" with a straight face

People with children just care about their family and this is normal and healthy

 No.303654

>>297542
>scary

of course it is
until AI chatty got available for massed, people were assuming shut-ins and crabs are the same
turns out that's not the case and while shut-ins enjoy "AI girlfriends" or similar stuff, ex-crabs don't

That explains, by the way, where all the wizards who weren't into sex due to, say, social anxiety, went.

 No.304560

>>297543
that would make OP a crab. OP is, probably, a purity-seeking person.

 No.304561

>>304560
focus on your studies and improve your life, isn't inherently about sex

 No.304562

>>297542
>>297546
>>This website is scary.

Of course this is scary! It's a reflection of how unfair our lives were!

For instance, I had a very simple idea in mind to focus on: enroll in IT uni, get a proper rented room for studying, get degree, get a job.
>inb4 this plan was shit as modern CS/IT graduates have to kiss AI's outputty.

My father did everything he could to keep me hanging: kept assuming people like me are not supposed to "waste their best years in a dusty classroom", not supposed to do this, do that; yet he never had the balls to admit he won't support me - NO! He was two-faced: not supporting me in terms of affording a corner to study because I t'is or I t'at - yet he was always repeating me this chant: "SOnNY! I will support you in whatever *aspiration* you have".

And this year he has the ball to call me names.

I take it he's the one who has one lobe working against another when thinking about me. Ugh.



>>297546
OR your honest efforts get thrown into shitter by your "loving" parrots and your room is not designed to accomodate you at all. As well as your lifestyle…


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 No.303825[Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.
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 No.304460

>>303825
My parents would straight up die due to sadness. Thats what keeps me from doing it sadly.

 No.304466

My mom would be destroyed, she's already severely mentally ill and only takes her meds because of me. My dad would be sad too, but he'd get on with it. No one else would really care, maybe a "oh thats sad" at most from old relatives. My boss at work would actually be pissed, I'm a good worker in his opinion (im not, im good at looking good)

 No.304508

Not really, the few left would get over it quickly.

 No.304515

>>303825
My father and maybe my older brother, my mother would only be angry at me because she now had to pay for my funeral o guess.

Aside of that my existence would fade into obscurity..

 No.304523

>>303825
My mother would be broken and there is the risk she would end her own life, given she is also very mentally ill.
My father wouldn't care, maybe a little sad.
The rest of the people wouldn't give a damn.


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 No.301831[Reply]

Any other wizards here that have trouble with speaking "normally" or pronouncing certain letters? This kind of thing occurs naturally to normalfags and it really is just something that should come inherent to everyone. I've had times when I think I'm talking normally but people tell me to stop yelling, or other times when I think I'm talking in above average volume and people tell me I'm being silent. I also struggle to pronounce the letter "s" properly and sound like a spazz which has made me actively avoid certain words. It's just another one of those things that has made me realize how we and normalfags live in an entirely different state of existence. I remember how Chris Chan used to get bullied for his voice among other things, I'm not sure if it is an autistic trait or a consequence of my reclusive life but it has made my anxiety in public worse, and has also totally ruined my dreams of starting a music project one day
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 No.304177

>>304175
You don't know any autistic guys then, you know people that call themselves autistic to gain some sort of social special scores.

 No.304493

>>301831
Yes.

I am convinced that I have some kind of partial paralysis of my mouth muscles, or a nervous system issue. (The latter being likely because I suspect my hand coordination is very sub-normal too).

S and Th are both hard, neither can form really well. I struggle with long vowel sounds too, particularly with difficult consonants like L or P. Sometimes too when I try to initiate speech, things just don't move, like I have to actually fire that "go" signal several times before it takes. These problems persist no matter how carefully and intentionally I approach the speech. It's a physical issue.

Everyone thinks I'm some kind of downy by default. Never had an inability to control my volume though, unless you count naturally having a very soft speaking tone due to a lifetime of people literally visibly recoiling in disgust when I speak.

 No.304495

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>>304177
>You don't know any autistic guys then, you know people that call themselves autistic to gain some sort of social special scores.
I know one guy who said he had Asperger's, although they don't use that definition anymore. If he hadn't told me, I wouldn't have noticed, and I know another guy who has all the traits of having something unusual that maybe sound like autism to me.
It's more because of his behavior than anything else. He wouldn't fit in with normies if you compare him to the first one, although the first one doesn't fit in with normies either, except for pretending or hiding certain behaviors.
>Also
And yes, this was before all that bullshit about inclusion, diversity, and neurodiversity became fashionable, as if it were an umbrella term, and even for everything weird, due to embarrassment or lack of interest in having to know or be overly specific and explain every damn personal problem on the part of normies or educational authorities or other idiots just to reduce the term to neurodiversity or wathever.

 No.304496

>>304493
yeah the Th sound is hard, I remember getting sent to speech class from K-5, never fixed it. its crazy u got to stick your tongue between your teeth everytime.

well these days i dont even use th when typing, its always about dis and dat

 No.304505

some have compared my weird flat voice to Walken, so he's my role-model, he makes it cool


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 No.304421[Reply]

Knowing the hedonist succubi stroll the face of the earth was eating away at me so I drew for a bit in an attempt to extend my range of patience. Still, I remain degraded and in misery. I think I'm in a spot right now where I feel neutral but that can't stop me from knowing how disgusting and vile they are, and how even just existing is. What have you drawn?

 No.304422

you should look up guro if you want to satisfy this desire even more

 No.304473

It's a fun way to vent. I made a comic series albeit quite bad about an outcast wagie. Not entirely original but I get to plagiarize my real life experiences

 No.304492

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>>304421
>Hatred through art
>Knowing the hedonist succubi stroll
>was eating away at me so I drew for a bit in an attempt to extend my range of patience.
>I think I'm in a spot right now where I feel neutral
>but that can't stop me from knowing how disgusting and vile they are, and how even just existing is
Sound like a crabdom with a succubi rent free 24/7 in the head.

I like drawing cute lolis and chibis sometimes (not in a sexually way you know) so i dont have a problem with that. so it can fullfiling just learning to draw or do emotion in arts.
>Also
At this point Crabdom gonna be normal in this place… fuck.


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