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 No.246836[Reply]

i have tried everything with my life , nothing works out . in the end everything collapses on my head
i tried working a normie 9-5 job , was very mentally exhausting plus i have autism (diagnosed not a meme) , so social interacting was the worst thing to do , and i needed that a lot
even with this job i was kinda ok , as long as there is money coming
left the job and got drafted for army for one year , it was a literal hell
finished this year with very little left inside , i felt like im a shell of what it used to be me
maybe the stress gets the best of you and leaves you empty
after finishing military service , i searched for job and after i got a decent one i got kicked out of rental house and searched for a new one
the work place didnt like this and decided to give me the boot
tried to search for a job after that , but i was like digging in water
with me an empty shell after military , and failed job and many many failed interviews with no real job and the money is getting less and less , i decided to go freelance
and it was a disaster , all the freelancer websites i tried are a literal scam filled with indians and pakistanis
didn't stop there , decided to go crypto
built my own rig with the money i was saving for the past year or so , and everything was looking great , i couldn't even believe that it was happening
everything was working as i expected , every number i calculated was correct, and it even grow larger than i expected
so far so good
but ..
one day i woke up , checked up the rig , and every single card has failed
i don't know what's happening with me , why this shit keeps happening with me
it was the first time for the past 10 or so years that i felt genuinely happy
but it's like i shouldn't be happy in this life
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 No.247020

>>246876
This, they brought you here without your consent. It's their responsibility like it or not

 No.247021

>>247020
so what if it is though when people wont take responsibility for it?

 No.247027

Does your country practice tipping? It's often very easy money for little work. Also stop masturbating

 No.247085

>>247017
im just too tired to try anything
anything i try fails for some reason , i just want to make some cash so i can go out of my parents house and live in a small rental or something , living in this house is a living hell
im in a shared room with no privacy , the door is always open , window is broken and there is no money to fix it , because we are poor fucks
and on top of that , im 25 y.o (26 in few months)
i fucking hate my life

 No.247086

>>247085
also they are 24/7 talking / chatting / whatever
i haven't had a good sleep in months



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 No.245877[Reply]

Why do I want to go to prison? I'm an autistic neet with OCD. The idea of excessive structure really appeals to me. I also want to meet someone who will take me under their wing and teach me to be hard. I'm 5'7 and 255 pounds. I think I would do well in prison. Why do I want this? What mental illness do I have?
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 No.246044

>>245877
try learning about bronson

 No.246935

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this awaits op

 No.246996

>>246935
Tf is this shit? This has to be from some shitty movie.

 No.247284

>>245953
>you will waste time
>do something with your life
Stop this dumb meme. I am doing something with my life right now by posting on wizchan. And time is only wasted if you consider being productive as the end everyone should strive for. Which is retarded because the inevitable end is death. Whether you spend your whole life rotting in prison or you spend it making bank and fucking succubi, it literally doesn’t matter.



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 No.241493[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Looking back at the last two threads there seems to be somewhat of a general consensus that we've come to some kind of …impasse(?), that if we're not the last wizard, we will be the last wizards of our kind.

Question is who, if anybody, will come after us?

To me it's ridiculously obvious that the subculture(s) that the wizards, outsiders, outcasts, losers, etc resided in are completely in the hands of the normalfags, right down to the degeneracy contained within them. (Now, it seems like it's starting to consume them but that's another topic maybe).

Some anons in the last thread have argued that wizards should erect ever higher walls to keep out the normalfags from their hobbies but I say that's a futile and exhaustive exercise thanks in no small part to retard-proof internet access.

I think wizards, of the current generation at least, have to make peace that what was once theirs, is no longer. (Older wizards I'd think are beyond caring at this point since they've sort of defeated time.)
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 No.246434

any form of media is dominated by normies fake wizards

 No.246530

>>246389
Universe 25?

 No.246738

To be honest it's kinda funny how all that nerd and geek stuff turned into a whole mainstream culture consisting of succubi suffering from borderline personality disorder whoring for attention and money from failed men while they hook up with narcissistic chads from discord.

It literally turned into the e-version of this whole circus that weve been seeing since high school. Some time ago we were wandering the internet as everything was different and interesting while normies were doing normie things and now we are still here but everyone else is here too and everything else changed as well.

I'm sure there will always be men who won't be able to be a part of society and suffer from it just like wizards but there won't be a clear line between subcultures anymore since theres normies in all of them which will definitely have an impact on future wizards and I think most of them will end up as failed normies because they still grow up to be a small part in all of this.

 No.246941

>>246738
>narcissistic chads from discord.

Chads? On discord? Am I this out of touch with pop culture?

 No.246971

>>246530
What the hell is universe 25?


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 No.244443[Reply]

For about 4 years now I have spoken to a female zero times when ever I am approached by a female which I pretty rare I can't even say hi. I am basically a mute when females are around. The reason for me not being able to talk to females is extreme mental trauma from middle and high school from females that would harass me and bully me for years. All I can think about when a female approaches me are those bully's from high school. I really don't know what to do at this point.

Also for the mods that might read this I do not think I am breaking rule 2 when I am posting this because I am not talking about real succubi in a sexual sense it is about talking to them for any reason other than a sexual reason.I don't need or want a succubus to pleasure myself I can do it myself.
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 No.244509

What is so hard about interacting with succubi? I mean, I was afraid like you back in high school too but nowadays I don't give a fuck anymore. I strike up casual conversations whenever I'm forced to be outside or to go somewhere, with succubi (better than being bored, still) and I don't feel anxious at all. Guess it is because I stopped caring about relationships, sexuality and all that crap after high school.

Once you realize females are just inferior, dumb people (like most males and normals too) you won't be so stressed to please them or to care about what their opinions are.

 No.244550

Race is a huge component in my interactions with succubi, or just people in general. This is usually the most immediate relation to identify. There's an entire zeitgeist running subliminally to each social interaction, and very often this zeitgeist consists of racial commentary where manipulation and groupism lies. This is easy to see for me, but others live life less… realistically, I suppose I'll say. Ignorance is truly bliss, and is probably a better weapon than seeing things the way I do.

 No.244552

>>244550
I can confirm this personally. If you disabuse them of their prejudices they reprach or vindicate themselves in some cases calling you a bigot, moralfagging, silencing, humiliation etc. Normies are awful.

 No.244557


>>244443
>when ever I am approached by a female
Are you extremely attractive or why does this happen to you?

 No.246916

>>244552
Correct the fool, then you shall find an enemy within him



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 No.246008[Reply]

Getting older really sucks. It is not comfy. Feel like my mind and body are declining. Worst of all is the loss of potential. When you are 8 years old anything is possible. You could train football for 8 hours a day from the age of 10 and work on diet, get spotted a club, go to a special school and become a football player.

You could start studying any language at 8 and become fluent. You could train your brain in mathematics and become a scientist.

When I was a kid I wanted to be an archaeologist. It never happened for a variety of reasons. I was too dumb and too easily influenced by outside factors.

It can never happen now. I am almost 27. So many things I missed out on. I feel I am getting even dumber. I can't learn new skills. I am finished.
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 No.246500

This is why I always come back to the thought of getting involved in a niche academic area like medieval poetry or linguistic neuroscience or film history or something. I realize at this point that I am too old to try my hand at pure STEM subjects and for the more general areas there will always be someone younger with more research experience and a better GPA than I had. In fact, I tried learning calculus and making a simple program to organize files on my PC with Python recently and nothing penetrated my head at all.

Then I realized that everything I was interested in when I was younger, and what I received my degree in, still stick. Even more, I can actually learn new things in these fields. I guess sometimes it's just a biological roll of the dice. I probably won't ever become a mathematician or engineer, but maybe some future wizard with my same interests still, at this point in time, have the possibility to download some book I wrote on a linguistic analysis of Boccaccio.

 No.246512

>>246172
This is the correct energy

 No.246516

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>>246172
kickback attitude is a nice skill-tree path for some unassuming thriving

It's a strange satisfaction to contemplate the contrast between one's cozy attitude and the attitude of those tweaking out around the world

I hope you come to find it if you haven't already, lurker

 No.246517

>>246057
That's actually pretty good I feel, I'm almost 30 and I have no formal education outside of high school and basically no savings (I generally only have 2-3k in my account) so 30k in savings seems like a shit ton to me, how did you save that much up, do you live on your own or with your parents? Living on my own I find it almost impossible to save money. I feel like if you invested a portion of that money into good crypto currencies it would be easy to make a whole lot more just my 2 cents though

 No.246914

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 No.245165[Reply]


Do any of you have a developmental disorder or intellectual disability ? like severe autism or something

I think i have FAS but i was never diagnosed, it's hard to diagnose or pinpoint at first glance but i'm 99% sure i have it.
Life sucks majorly, i'm on a different level of fucked up. It's hard to grasp the scope of damage but it's severe. There's a list of problems that comes with it.

For someone like me suicide would be a logical decision.
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 No.246673

>>246186
i consider suicide daily, yet i'm still here and so are you but some day right…

 No.246698

>>246159
>that book
Can confirm. My brain fog went away almost entirely when I went on a gluten-free diet.

 No.246702

>>246698
iv'e done this and it did nothing

 No.246717

>>246698
samefag

 No.246913

>>246702

Many cases include the starch and AGEs stuck inside the brain,for which merely changing the diet IS never enough.

>listen to the warp wanings



 No.246528[Reply]

Does anyone else constantly worry?
I keep going trough scenarios in my head of bad things that might happen and worry constantly even if I know it's very unlikely. Like I used to be involved with some criminal people (didnt do anything myself) but I'm now constantly worried my door will be blasted down (police don't need a search warrant here) because they might think one of them is here, or I were one of the gang members.
I am worried about running into old school-people.
I am worried about old embarrasing images I remember people taking in school somehow being sent to my family.
The list goes on, I've been on high alert for like 2 months now

 No.246535

I am paranoid about people looking at me/taking pictures of me/talking me with intent to harass me, also paranoid about neighbors watching me, it is awful, sometimes it gets so bad my anxiety medication doesn't even help

 No.246536

what were the images

 No.246537

maybe try to distance yourself from these thoughts

 No.246831

I can relate quite a bit

 No.246910

>>246535

Let your fear be heard (inside you)



 No.244441[Reply]

Anyone else encounter people treating them differently than others? Growing up people always kept me at a distance. I was called weird without really doing much but being myself.
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 No.244456

different how?

 No.246280

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 No.246351

I was always the kid that sat in the back of the class that no one liked. At best I was a tertiary friend in any friend group I was part of, never a primary friend. I never truly socially developed which is a big part of why I am the piece of shit that I am today all these years later.

I daydream about just buying a plane ticket to a new state and starting a new life and living the normalfag dream, but I know I can never do that. I don't even know how to get a job here, how to move out, how to pay taxes, or how to do anything. It seems everyone else learned these things with their friends as teens/young adults, but since I had none I never got to learn these things.

 No.246788

Oh sure, people generally judged me first before giving me a chance. i’ve had friends out of nowhere tell me they dont like me, or friends tell me and reminisce on how much they hated me until they gave me a chance (o was a tool). i still am often gaslit in life today by family. they treat me like im retarded, even on topics they know nothing about and i know a lot. even when i was a young mutant. i remember having barely any friends, succubi were always scared and grossed out. I was that ugly fat kid that spent all night making and passing out valentines day cards to the class only to return to my desk to find my pathetic bag hanging with only a fucking card from the teacher

 No.246791

Being treated different:
-as a child pre young teen years
Bullied and teased resulting in moving schools and very low self esteem. Adults did not mind me if I was behaved probably thinking me being weird was normal for a kid.

-teen years
At first treated the same as I was when I was a kid but somehow bullying stopped as I embraced being different (pre social media years so not what you may be thinking) and people felt I was eccentric. People felt I was weird and it was more like "Wiz is odd but get to know him and he is cool"
-adult
people see me as very weird and either find it repulsive in the sense they try to move away from myself or find it interesting. I am not some furry or any weird like that but I like to ask question things and try learn others perspectives old but visible self harm scarring contributes to how others perceive me

The penalty does not exist when you have no social life and could be seen as a blessing depending on what weird means for you. People who are weird in creepy ways will only ever be tolerated out of guilt and someone feeling sorry for them.

People treat me as if I am mentally retarded at times as well it is a mixed bag.



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 No.228958[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

>29
>worthless polisci degree (2015)
>didn't work a job until 24
>have had 14 jobs and quit them all within a year or less
>haven't worked more than 2 months at a job since almost 2 years ago
>live at home, never paid rent
>never made more than 16/hr doing almost entirely what amounts to stocking shelves in grocery stores
>schizoid
>misanthropic
>lack the natural affect and social fluidity that makes interactions with people smooth due to years of isolation
>can't stand interacting with people in a professional way
>get really anxious, feel panicky, etc
I got a job where I had to go into 711's, convenience stores, etc and talk to the store managers about shelf space for our candy bars and buying displays. I couldn't handle it. The idea of having to ingratiate and grovel to someone i don't want to talk to so some anonymous faggot company can make more profit just made me so angry. I ghosted after 2 weeks of training and one week of sitting in my car outside the stores to spoof the companies GPS on our tablet.

Is it over? Should I just move to some small town in the midwest and stock shelves at the local grocery store and hide from the vicious judgement and shame of the east coast yuppies who i was supposed to be a part of?
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 No.246298

>>246293
That simply isn't true but it isn't totally wrong either, yeah people have high expectations and are never satisfied, that's human, can you blame them? If third worlders did not crave this way of life there would not be so many of them migrating to NA, Europe or these isles of wealth in south east asia and the middle east.

 No.246765

>>228962
I'm not OP, but your post helped me a lot. Thank you for the wisdom.

 No.246776

>>246272
>22 days a month
Suicide is preferable to that kind of life

 No.246779

>>246776
is this bad? does it mean you work that much just to pay rent? why dont wagies get on benefits and learn to live frugally with free time instead of money?

 No.246780

>>246779
22 days a month is a completely normal work schedule. He's being a little drama queen.


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 No.242585[Reply]

I know how horrible this sounds but:am I the only one who fantasizes about living without rules,paternal supervision, family ties etc?
Also all i'll inherit, having my own place,etc
I feel my life will be 50 times better if im alone and rich
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 No.246129

>>242601
complete bullshit

 No.246130

I think it very common that people feel like this, they just dont admit it and talk about it

I do, and own parents open did about my grandparents, so it is normalised to me

 No.246131

I used to think that but it's a lot easier to just move out.

 No.246153

>>242627
LOL being grateful is a scam used by breeders on their offspring. Theres nothing to be grateful about this is a pointless life, take whatever you can get.

 No.246775

>>242591
why do they expect us to be their biggest fucking fans



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