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 No.250889[Reply]

jesus h. christ I am watching a video about a man's painful suicide journey and his sister starts speaking and now the video is about her pain of losing her brother. No longer about the sudoku man.

Succubi are damn crazy.
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 No.251309

>>250896
these people are retards. if you declare beforehand that you dont want to be a vegetable on life support, they will pull the plug on you. all the old people do that shit since they know death is right around the corner. literally just dont be a fucking retard like that succ and youll be fine

 No.251310

>>250895
>everything is always about how it affects them
i see your point here but i think this applies to everyone considering its in their nature to survive (look out for themselves)

 No.251316

>>250898
Those in a coma tenf exhibit brain patterns from light sleep to heavy dreaming. Those who are vegetative because they went minutes without oxygen usually have less brain activity than a mouse; just the "lizard" part that keeps to heart beating is firing away

 No.252537

>>250889
That's another lesson about why usccubi's tears must usually be ignored.

 No.252540

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>>250889
So no video? Seriously?



 No.251528[Reply]

had a break and thought it was over but now back to drinking alcohol everyday again

 No.252418

>>251528
Drugs are better left reducing small amounts of them week after week
>burn your alcohol, try chocolate, some other thing that gives you serotonine
>sungazing also stimulates serotonine

 No.252422

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yeah, this shits kinda depressing

 No.252533

>>251528
To feed poison sellers
>fel magic



 No.251979[Reply]

>found a bunch of memory training books in the deep web,so far it may work
>Be terrified/have contempt of blue collar jobs

Im 26,i may live to 80,a uni study is 4 years. Does it be worth it? Is there even a point in earning money(trough work)?
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 No.252201

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>>252195
It's not, unfortunately. He is a "wizardly" guy, just like how Ted Bundy, Hitler, the main character from the movie Drive, and Joker from TDK are, for example. You can be any kind of Chad in reality or fiction, as long as you are seen as a little bit autistic the new gen "wizards" will look up at you as their new role model.

The posters who worship failed Chads are failed normals themselves, isn't it obvious? No actual wizard would idolize the people/characters I mentioned.
Psst, nothing personel, kid.

 No.252211

>>252201
So basically, r9k?

 No.252248

>>252211
We knew it would eventually come back to this, after all this place started out with v9k back then, so we came a full circle.

I mean, it's not like I hate all those people or characters myself. I like Ted Bundy for killing succubi for example and The Joker for being completely disillisoned with civilized society and people in general. But I don't delude myself that they are wizardly in any way or that they are anything but material for the revenge-fantasies of failed normals.

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>>252248
Finally someone with some sense still on wizchan.

 No.252532

>>251979
Give chance for the best, expect the worst.



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 No.246752[Reply]

I am 22 years old and have literally spent on/off the last seven or so years trying to cope with the way I was insulted and mocked by nearly everyone in class,including literal succubus, whislt I just quietly sat there, taking the brunt of it. I would go into depth regarding my situation, but I don't want to be humiliated anyfurther.
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 No.251601

>>251598
It's not impossible, but based on your previous experience I can understand that it feels that way. Actually, your previous experience is the exact problem since the little exposure you've had to people is traumatic and negative, it constrains your world and your emotions in the present and future. Anxiety, shame, fear of people in general makes sense when you see it as the result of what you know, your lived experience.

Finding kind, good-hearted people and spending time with them expands what you know and it's what fundamentally affords you the ability to relax and be yourself around people. Without a single good experience of relating to others, you can't help but feel the way you feel.

Not saying it's easy, but that's what it takes to get better, a so-called corrective emotional experience that can shape you. Unfortunately, you can't just conjure up these positive experiences with a magic wand, but it's something to aim for nonetheless.

 No.251606

>>251600
psychedelics have been the best tool to help myself start healing. when you are staring at the noose tripping major balls and having the worst experience imaginable is worth it when you gain so much from it.

There is no such thing as a bad trip. my worst trips have been the most helpful. you just have to be ready to dismantle the psyche and experience hell.

 No.251610

>>251606
This is how psychedelics have been for me, too. I value even the distressing experiences they have brought me. I think they have helped me cope with severe depression over the years. Although, everyone is different and psychedelics can leave people worse off.

 No.251751

>>246752
>but I don't want to be humiliated anyfurther

Then I see no choice for you: everything has a price. When in a war, to ensure that your enemy pays the highest is the priority.

All else would only give mediocre results. It's run or fight.

>and I speak from experience

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>>246752
>I don't want to be humilliated any further

May be your aching mind is just asking you to delve that wound in depth, so you may take the poison away from it. Do not prevent yourself from feeling something at the fullest, for compressed, coagulated experiences will make the soul rot.

There's something you wanted to do in those situations, isn't it? To ask them, to question them, to backlash, or whatever, mostly you can know…

Your mind is aching, something remains underdeveloped or undelved. Sometimes it's all courage against whatever your inner blockages may put you into. Know yourself.



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 No.249870[Reply]

I'll go first: Weird, forgettable, worthless, creepy, unintelligent, pitiful.
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 No.251568

>>251037
neither, but you're definitely below 30 (probably barely out of high school) to make that dumb irrelevant accusation. i imagine you have to be pretty intimate with someone to agree to coordinate and execute a shooting with them. take note that i didn't say they definitely were, just that i wondered if they might have been. fuck yourself with a rusty knife. :)

 No.251692

"Who? Oh that sperg, he liked computers and making dinosaur noises".

 No.251693

I have been told other people describe me as ‘very intense and socially awkward.’ Another one was ‘There goes Mr Intense’

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 No.252454

>>249870
"who is that again?"
"creepy"



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 No.251711[Reply]

WHEN DOES IT GO AWAY IM SOF UCKING TIRED OF FEELING LIKE THIS HOLY FUCKING SHIT EVERYDAY FEELS LIKE A BLUR , MY MEMORY IS TERRIBLE, MY VISION IS CONSTANTLY BLURRY AND I NO MOTIVATION TO DO ANYTHING I ALSO DON'T FIND ANY JOY IN ANYTHING BECAUSE I CONSTANTLY FEEL LIKE THIS
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 No.251811

>>251772
The author critizices grains beyond tests… idk.

 No.251815

>>251782
how long do you fast for?
and do u drink any fluids?

 No.251829

>>251782
>>251765
does your brainfog also dissappear a little bit in the evening

 No.251836

Stop eating sugary shit
sugar is poison for the brain

 No.252451

>>251815
Water or green juices. Drinking fruit juices was disregarded because of some crappy results due to fruit substances effect while lacking fiber…

>>251836
Sacarose. Some bodies are even sensitive to common sugars like fructose or lactose… as Perlmutter rants about it.



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 No.252078[Reply]

My god i hate the holidays, it means being social and family time.
It's torturous that even amongst family i'm still the weird one of the bunch.

I struggle with mental health issues that impact my day to day social behaviour. It's no fun being me.
People talk about being alone as if it's a bad thing, i prefer being alone.
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 No.252340

>>252090
I just hate any social gathering, christmas and new year are by far the worst.
Luckily at least the weather is nice and get's dark really quick.

 No.252354

Everyday is "family time" for me. if I can even call "family" the poisonous snakes that I live with. But holidays always makes everything worse. Every Christmas/New Years my sister and female cousins invite all their succubi friends and you can hear their laughs and screams all night long. However tonight is New Years Eve, it's almost 8 pm and everything is surprisingly calm, it's almost scary. Could it be the calm before the storm?
Happy New Year, Wizzies.

 No.252391

>>252354
>>252078
My parents make me go with them like a child, i swear once i move out that'll be the end. You can't force me to be a part off it.
My parents say you always need family sooner or later i disagree, I'm happy to die alone in peace.

 No.252406

>>252391
how old are you? my parents eventually got too embarrassed to take me to see family, they keep me home and just tell them I'm schizophrenic

 No.252438

>>252406
In my twentie. Still my only hope is moving to another state. I hate social obligations,i don't care about friends or family.



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 No.250716[Reply]

When did it all go to hell for you?

I think for me it was at age 14 when I realized I am not neurotypical and it is going to be all downhill from there.

I was only happy and able to enjoy life between ages 3-13.
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 No.251492

>>251489
>is this what people consider traumatizing?
first 5 words of his post:
"This event didn't traumatize me"

 No.252419

7 yrs old: happiest moment, but slope was noticed slowly
9 yrs old: misery was starting to increase
11 yrs: misery takes place in my head
12 yrs: misery now mixes with fear
13 yrs: constant fights and nerve
18 yrs: misery attacks harder than ever
22 yrs: I find something that sincerely makes me wish to have never existed
Today: Just letting time fade away, while destiny moves unknown

 No.252423

>>250716
9th grade. I don't remember how old I was and can't be bothered figuring it out.
I was a pretty happy kid during and before 6th grade. I was always weird and spacy and never made any friends, but I was perfectly happy to just sit and daydream all day by myself. 7th and 8th grades I was starting to have some anxiety but nothing too bad.
The transition to high school was when everything hit the fan. I started having worse and worse anxiety until I was struggling to even enter the school, one of my classes was so scary to me I had to throw up almost every day before I went to it, eventually I got depressed because of how much pressure all the anxiety was putting on me. I made it to the beginning of 11th grade before I dropped out.
I never really recovered from that. I'm still an extremely anxious person. The depressive episodes come and go but I don't feel like I've ever gotten back to the same baseline I was at when I was a child. Every time a depressive episode goes away "normal" is a little bit flatter than it was before.

 No.252436

Birth, my family was doomed to fail sooner or later.
For me personally, birth of my younger brother. I was a teenager at the time, and turns out succubi shouldn't have children in their 40's after all.

 No.252437

I like being autistic but I wish I wasn’t handicapped by other retarded mental health issues.



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 No.251625[Reply]

Anyone else struggle with this? Part of the reason I don't do much is because any mistakes I make even very minor ones will cause my brain to randomly go into torture mode and start torturing itself. I just want the suffering to stop.

 No.251633

This is part of why I can never finish projects. The further along I get, the more I sense the imperfections and it becomes crushing by the end of it.

 No.251640

Yeah. It's hell.

 No.251744

>>251625
Let the different versions of the project get along… saving copies.
>>251633
Doing so, you'd at least have some piece of cake when reaching this point.

 No.252412

>>251625
I remember my OCD stage while a child. It was soft yet I followed with a vice… had to stop it by forcing myself into denying the requests of my brain about it. Doing opposite.



 No.251942[Reply]

I can't make it. Hard to cope with it. I've entirely relapsed to habitual use, escataping back to heavy drug use. It has been weeks that I crave an opiod every single day. And liquor and a benzo.


Only way I can cope with life. I was shocked in desbelief, trying to be misserable in the kitchen eating something light before getting smashed and succubi started blasting music and singing loudly with their hellspawns.

Complete desbelief, even on my private hole, life has to remind me that I am surrounded by people I genuinely hate with malice. Just let me use until ODing. Too tired for this, it has been years and years.

The hatred I have towards all signs of life is so unbearable that I have to force myself into an almost permanent, never-ending
state of stupor (getting smashed as much hard as possible). I hate everything.

 No.252411

>>251942
Commonly things are deeper than just succubi playing loud tunes



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