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 No.213134[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Reading the end of the wizards thread I wondered:

What's it like to be a wizard without any hobbies or interests? (Or at least interests and hobbies that USED to be associated with wizards?)

I've been slowly shedding my old hobbies and interests as they became mainstream (even degenerate otaku porn fetishes have this slowly increasing normalcy) and now I'm down to a couple things I still enjoy a little.

Any wizards who actually live without any real hobbies? I know I'm asking for a lot but I'd like responses from actual wizards or people close to wizardhood like the latter half of your 20s.
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 No.239210

Has any (actual) wizard moved onto anything else?

 No.239247

>>213134
>2021
>having hobbies

The only hobbie normalfags have nowadays is to look at their cellphone screen like zombies, posting about the latest viral bs on twitter or watching youtube videos.

I used to read mangas back when it was considered super nerdy and most normalfags would look down on it, now it's so fucking mainstream that you see zoomers with anime t-shirts all the time. Video games have also become too fucking mainstream, all the stuff I used to love and gave me a sense of belonging has been absorbed by the normalcattle collective. Now it's a bit too late for me to really get into something new.

 No.239251

currently zero. I used to raise and care for ant colonies but my mental health got so bad i started forgetting to feed them and eventually they all died.

 No.239343

>>232333
This is what seems to be the case across the thread.
It's dead, whatever it is.
So,
>>232212
>if it doesn't matter, then what does? and if it does matter, how do we go about reestablishing that exclusivity?
The only way to reclaim exclusivity is to immerse yourself into worlds.

>>239210
To shed away the rot requires more effort. [Insiders] mourn the plague of [outsiders] because they make it increasingly difficult to justify how immersed [insiders] are. Immersion allows one to build outward instead of drown in what-is. It allows one to enjoy time passing.
I.e. instead of enjoying whatever it is, people use that "it" to further their own games of social-credit, uniqueness, profits (>>228955), etc. The only way to be at the fringe is to (>>234464) revive language, which is what the Internet destroyed. Basic language.

How do you revive language? Build a wall thick enough where someone cannot just insert (>>234044) themselves into the new domain. Requires some form of expertise or fervent autism.

Like anime? Learn japanese, and now you're further away.
Like videogames? Dive into older ones and do ROM hacks or whatever else.

Either erect a wall of autism so high that it only filters the elect or forgo the, now labeled dilettante, pastimes. That is, if it bothers you too much and you don't have the energy.
Because it does not matter what your identity is, it is only important to remember how little we all know anyway, and go from there. This comes in the form of being ready to die, or ready to live - to be at the footstool of whoever rules us and wait for execution but to at least free our minds. I would rather die on my feet than to live on my knees, etc.

It cannot be emphasized enough the extent of astroturfing, pyscho-warfare there is on the internet and how we're all in our own bubbles concocted Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.239385

>>232333
I understand your point; yes, there does seem to be a certain level of futility in trying to define ourselves when things are so constantly and easily co-opted/appropriated/exploited.

But I think this this kind of circular logic is defeatist and basically rationalizes away the need to make any effort to define one's self, establish any interests, or build a community. It seems like a lot of the counterargument in this thread just stems from laziness, "it's dead, so why bother?"

The fact that this thread is still getting replies a year on is evidence people care and feel that at least to extent maintaining our sense of self through our interests is worthwhile.

>>239343
Compared to the majority of the discussion, this is a pretty fucking comprehensive post.

>Build a wall thick enough where someone cannot just insert (>>234044) themselves into the new domain. Requires some form of expertise or fervent autism.


This offers a legitimate answer to the question I asked how do we go about reestablishing that exclusivity? when I posted >>232212

>Because it does not matter what your identity is, it is only important to remember how little we all know anyway, and go from there.


A potential end to this entire thread. Is trying to distance ourselves from normalfags a meaningless act of vanity derived from a false need to define ourselves by being the "other"? I bounce back and fourth on this point, sometimes feeling the need to define myself through uniqueness, at other times, being content with allowing my identity to generate itself organically from me pursuing my interests without constantly juxtaposing myself to the mainstream. This is something I really struggle with in a way that extends way past the discussion in this thread.


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 No.236498[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread
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 No.237917

Will be 30 in a couple of months and I begin to see why you are not considered a wizard until 30. People expect me to be married and with a career. Family is old and decrepit. What few "friends" I have gradually abandoned me over the past decade as I am not profitable. I see now that profit and domination are the prime motivators of nearly all people and I cannot help but be disgusted. The deception that holds a stranglehold on the people irks me. I cannot stand communication with others because I know they are liars and I cannot help but lie too though I try not to. I feel novel pains in my body and know that I will have to face the decay alone. No support in 10 years time except for that which I can purchase. Social groups are useful because people pick up your slack if you promise to do the same when they need it. If you are excluded due to whatever combination of eccentricites made you a wizard, you are essentially marked for death in a very insidious way. Humans are hell incarnate.

 No.237967

>>236515
There's a lot of truth too this, especially finding some type of fake virtue in their weakness much like SJWs do, I wonder how similar at the core many liberal/virtue signalling wizzies and crabs are with SJWs.

 No.237970

>>236579
I'm not even American, but from what I've heard you need to go to a state which does not have the red flag laws, which are laws written by normalgroids that if you have any history in mental assylums/institutes or any history of mentall illness then you're not allowed a gun, they do this because they think mentally ill crabs are the ones shooting up schools.

 No.239370

I am dying supposedly and I can't even think about anything except going back to school or working lately. Which would be pointless. I don't even know if I have enough time to hit 60 on WoW and treatment numbers in the teens of millions. I want to learn and live good damn it, they gave me a lethal injection as I tried to live my dreams of becoming a genius, it's not fair at all. I never hurt anyone that bad to deserve that. I'm not gone yet though and I will miss you guys on here.

 No.239674

>>237886
Based Zappa poster


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 No.236674[Reply]

Not only did I lose my molar tooth now I have some sort of necrosis and it's spreading. Just fuck my shit up
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 No.236713

>>236676
Yeah I think it's fucked. Get it remove asap. I hope it's just the teeth and it's not spreding in your gums.

 No.236783

>>236713
It got better, I'll remove it next week.

 No.237311

>>236676
That looks unpleasant

 No.237462

please go to the dentist, don't ignore it like I did. the infection spread to my ear and now I have severe headaches. tears are going down my face as I type this, take care of your teeth guys and don't forget to brush.

 No.239336

>>236676
That's just bad decay deep down through the dentin and down into the root. Absolutely not something to leave to 'get better', but nothing to be terrified about. If you leave it long enough it will infect the gum and potentially spread up to the sinuses and eventually the brain, but that would only be a low chance or so if it is a mandibular (bottom layer) molar. If it was an maxillary molar (upper layer) the risk would be far greater.



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 No.239166[Reply]

just walked in on my mother tutoring some kid online, every second I was there felt like a arrow piercing my chest, She was taking care of him and nurturing him like I never was, I wonder if I had gotten a part time job and earned enough money to pay her to tutor me if I would have had a been parented better, my mother never cared about me I feel it was always faux affection around other people,She abandoned me whenever I needed her, she probably raised those kids more than me, she probably cared about them more than me.

she abandoned me for pennies on the dollar when we were already rather wealthy to go raise some randos kids in her daycare so she could be muh independant feminist, I feel she sold me out for a trivial sum, the date of my birth is also 9 years after my sisters, I am pretty sure I was an accident, I wish I could get isekaied and have a happy upbringing and a caring family.

a few days ago my grandma (the only bit of my family that doesn't treat me like a subhuman and shows genuine care and concern) told me to "go eat healthy" and "go outside" and I genuinely swelled up with happyness because it was the first time in years I was old something with motherly care, she was reprimanded by my mother "don't talk to that trash", lads I just wanna be happy.

cried writing this post,I don't think she understands family or acting for someone when you don't have incentives to do so, I didn't have to be such a fucked up person desu in 99% of timelines I wouldn't have ended up this way.
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 No.239187

>>239182
All my yes. One of the biggest gifts my mother gave me was she showed me how Machiovellian succubi really are.

 No.239188

>>239166
>"don't talk to that trash"
She literally called you trash in front of your grandman because she told you some kind words? What did you do? You say nothing?

>>239170
What a bunch of crap.

 No.239189

>>239183
In OP's case, it's useful if he plans to have a tolerable relationship with their parents. It doesn't sound to me like OP could leave them, or he would have done it a long time ago.

 No.239190

>>239188
>What did you do? You say nothing?
I bet wizzie threw her up against a wall:
https://web.archive.org/web/20060324185310/http://toobis.com/rant-toobis1mom0.html

 No.239218

>>239166
Sup, lainon



 No.236746[Reply]

How you guys cope with anhedonia? I can't do anything because of it.

I just lay in my bed all the day.
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 No.236787

You gotta try and force youself to do things you used to enjoy, and don't have any expectations. You'll most likely feel like shit the first few times you do it but eventually you should start enjoying that particular activity again.

 No.236789

>>236785
You're calling the one man who managed to piss off every aristocrat in his society an "ultra-normal"? Socrates was a fucking warlock that questioned the reputations of those in power and unveiled how unworthy they were of that power. How is that normal?

 No.236839

I wake up, do the menial tasks I have to do, see if any of the channels I'm subscribed to uploaded anything, sometimes gather information on how to commit suicide, then read boards and listen to music in the background until I fall asleep.

 No.236846

i don't, i just have no instinctual need to do anything aside from the instincts that have the strongest hold over me and everyone else, for eg. hunger, i cannot even extract pleasure from playing games, enjoying anime or other forms of art, or going out, or anything really, i spend most of my time browsing imageboards

 No.239185

I'm thinking about becoming an alcoholic
Maybe it will make me numb, and numbness is infinitely better than this



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 No.236346[Reply]

My life sucks ass in a degree that I am sure exceeds infinitude. I am in a panera bread in the middle of a snow storm in Boise, Idaho. This is a quasi-help request. I do not fit in at all as a homeless man and I am scaring myself and others. I do not use drugs or alcohol because those are pretty much immediate "GO TO JAIL" cards analogously. I am trying to go to school and I fear that I am going to be arrested any day for being homeless here as it is a low-crime and low-homeless area. Wizards, please make me feel better. Please, tell me that your life sucks more than mine.
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 No.239062

>>237739
Same symptoms here, sounds like klinefelter

Do you get tremors and shakes when doing basic movements? Cuz that’s where my osteoporosis is at right now

Don’t ever go on a diet btw, cuz rapid weight loss turned my osteoporosis from a manageable stage to a severe problem

 No.239064

>>237739
A strong man is never a wrong man.

 No.239098

>>237739
They're animals. That's how animals do social interactions. It was never about right or wrong, it's about showing your teeth

 No.239114

>>236346
Go to California

 No.239179

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I'm a 28 year old college student who never had a job and stopped caring what happens to me. I'm living for the day I can take my last few breaths while laughing at the absurdity of this stupid fucking world.



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 No.233423[Reply]

Can we have irreversible personality damage ?
Let me clarify, at some point in my life I decided that I should be alone and I dug it deep into my brain as some form of defense that I will end up alone and so nothing anyone can say about me or even if I get rejected it wouldn't hurt(indifference is truly powerful).
After a while life started to get better but it doesn't matter anymore the hole has been dug and the mentality is forever itched in my brain and I don't allow people to get close. Is this irreversible ? Did I do too much damage to my own brain that coming back is impossible now ? Did any wizards have similar experiences ?
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 No.239124

>>239111
>she here she there she everywhere
>SHE SHE SHE
can we stop giving them attention even in this single thread? holy shit

 No.239125

>>239124
Oh sorry I forgot Genie is probably lurking this very thread and jacking off at the thought of some wizard using a pronoun to mention her.

 No.239140

>>239125
man dont be butthurt but why in the world would you want to turn a thread about personality problems into a simp for whores thread i mean jesus christ you guys have the whole internet hijacked into a safespace for them and now you even try it here … one isnt even here safe of the bullshit from the normalfag world i cant belive it anymore and mods of course dont do jackshit if someone talks about wymyn because they are busy supporting whores on their second monitor

 No.239141

>>239140
Listen it's one thing to not want people posting shit like succubi dancers and movie stars or shit, but it's another to get mad that someone posted a wikipedia article about a feral child in the "irreversible personality damage" thread because it's a female.

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>>239124
I saw the siiiiiiign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the siiiiign



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 No.218890[Reply]

I was born with weird mentality. I give you few examples of it.

1. When they bullied me at school, sometimes I thought in my mind that perhaps they have reason for it and it may be partly my fault.
2. When they insulted me at school I did nothing about it, because I thought that if I want to push somebody in the face then I must have good reason for it and being insulted is not enough a reason. I couldnt in most cases insult back thanks to social phobia.
3. Teachers were mad at me when I were fighting with my bully few times at elementary school, so thanks to that I thought that I must avoid fighting with bullies no matter what, because teachers wont like it. So, after elementary school I practically havent fight with anybody, despite being bullied in every school I went to.
4. If somebody told me that I have to do something, the way he wants I did it (even if when in my mind I knew that I should do what I want instead of listening to some moron). If I did what somebody ordered me to do and I didnt like it, then in my mind I was insulting the guy who gave me order (I was calling him moron or something like that)
5. In the middle school even smaller guys than me bullied me, because of me being brainwashed by the teachers that fighting agaisnt bully is bad.
I m ashamed of that.
6. Lots of people yelled at me, mostly for no reason, just because they were frustrated. In the adulthood - I understood - thats just their mentality, which I dont have.
7. When I graduated from middle school, then I wanted to choose high school, but my mother recommended me other highschool, so I did what she wanted me to do and after years I was mad at her, because I could choose better highschool with better people, instead of listening to her.


Everything went so wrong… What do you think about me?
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 No.236582

>>218942
its quite opposite

 No.239044

bump

 No.239135

>>223775
>>218890
>>222573
>>223869
Take it from a guy who spent his young years fighting back physically.

The bullies don’t care, the normalfags never cared. You put them in a wheelchair their whole family and friend groups fhases after you. No matter how many of them you put down, none of the normalfags ever learn. If you stop one entire group? Eventually a new geoup starts bullying you. And on, and on.

For some reason, normalfags just don’t respond to losing or to getting beaten. Storytime.

When I was in kindergarten, I was bullied by every single child there. It was horrible. I think they may have all known eachother prior to me arriving, but they were hostile to me from the first moment they saw me. I remember when I first showed up to class children crying and demanding they be allowed to sit far away from me. Eventually their oatracism turned physical and they behan to push me. I didn’t take their shit. One day, after getting oushed, I grabbed a hard toy from the cabinets and went to town on the kids. I knocked out the kids tooth on the first strike, and eventually I was chasing 4 boys while they were crying. Within a couple minutes half the children were on the ground crying and the rest screaming for help.

Not only did I get in legal trouble and have to go see (((psychologists))), not only did I get brutally attacked by my own parents in retaliation for the forbidden “standing up for myself”, but the impact it had on the bullies? Zilch. Nothing. They only stopped physically assaulting me because they knew they couldnt win. But I’d become and even bigger pariah than before. They’d still insult me, but from afar, usually only in the direct presence of a teacher.

I would always say standing up for yourself is the right thing to do. But I also want to make it clear that bullies don’t care. They’re like robots. You stand up for yourself nor for the results, but for the principle. And because those battle-royales were hella adrenalin.

Before anyone says I could have done more to avoid the fighting btw, here’s an example of a buPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.239137

Test

 No.239138

>>239135
It's like what this guy here said:
>>>/lounge/264025
Your entire life is rigged from the very start. You are born to be different. To be an outcast. Normalfags will always treat you like an enemy and gang up on you whenever possible. There's no way around it.



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 No.238386[Reply]

how do i cope with thoughts to kill everyone in my sight when im in public? i often get no sleep or maybe a few broken hours due to the pure rage and sadistic push to knife a random normalfags guts out. nothing has worked at all.
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 No.238545

>>238389
>Telling a doctor you have criminal urges
No

 No.238597

I've been living with these thoughts since I was a kid. Try watching some gore vids, like terrorists executions ,cartel killings, suicides,etc, see if it helps.

 No.238599

I feel a lot of hatred for normies i will love to stole their money or puch succubus in their face

 No.239127

You are absolutely idiotic by posting anything in a topic like this without TOR. Just like those people posting pictures of their room into that other topic.

I only in passing mentioned that under the right circumstances I might do things.
And that was while behind a VPN (although a shitty free one, so don't make that mistake).

And eventually I did get a knock on my door. So not only the imageboard admin (not wizchan though) but also the VPN admin gave IP logs to a court and they gave it to the police.

You wish I wasn't kidding. I don't post ANYTHING as personal as this without full protection now. There are sad normals from all sorts of agencies etc. reading even now while you think it's impossible.

By the way, did you know the wizchan admin also blocks TOR nodes so you have to chain it to a VPN (preferably paid with bitcoins mined by yourself)? What are the motivations for doing this?

 No.239130

>>239127
I've posted on 4chan, 8chan, wizchan, and tons of other splinter sites bareback and never had anyone take notice.



 No.238925[Reply]

Thank God Covid hit I dont have to ever leave my home thanks to online employment and schooling to get a better degree. I dont have to deal with the zoo like world of office spaces surrounded by migrants that smell like rotting flesh. I dont have to walk outside with an m16 anymore. I dont have to wait in shitty traffic jams or hide porn during breaks. I can just be me and be unbothered for fucking ever when I'm at work. Thank fucking christ…
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 No.238953

>>238932
>>238944
You will never understand that it doesn't matter whether covid exists or not. Globalists just decide if it exists or not. When it exists you have to live with the consequences either way.

 No.238965

Covid is based, if only because it inconveniences normalfags. It proves that they can't spend more than a couple days alone

 No.239046

>>238965
I struggle to understand why long periods of loneliness to ordinary folk is percieved as deadly when in the united states high density cities are where your most prone to getting murdered

 No.239065

>>238944
stop spamming that retarded picture and trying to derange the topic of conversation everywhere you go, you low iq ape



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