/dep/ - Depression

>>297297
>fasting out of pure whim
Let your body heal and be thankful you do not need to withstand crushing hunger while doing so. Such bliss…

>>297297
Same, I've always been super skinny but recently I just have 0 appetite or really any desire to do anything besides sleep and smoke cigarettes.

It takes so much energy and effort to eat food, make food, acquire food. I dont know how it's supposedly common that depression can cause people to get fat

>>297684
they eat potato chips and sweets because those take no effort to prepare and eat

>>297689
I cant eat things like that because i dont enjoy it and it seems to provide no nutrition so it feels like eating poison

>>297625
"" Jesus answered him, “It is written, 'To the Lord thy God thou shalt do homage, and to Him alone shalt thou render worship.'” ""

>not talking in 1st person

>>297620
How not going against anyone out there? There must be someone special for you to kill and loot before even thinking about offing yourself.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conium_maculatum#Toxicity

>A short time after ingestion, the alkaloids induce potentially fatal neuromuscular dysfunction due to failure of the respiratory muscles. Acute toxicity, if not lethal, may resolve in spontaneous recovery, provided further exposure is avoided. Death can be prevented by artificial ventilation until the effects have worn off 48–72 hours later.[20] For an adult, the ingestion of more than 100 mg (0.1 gram) of coniine (about six to eight fresh leaves, or a smaller dose of the seeds or root) may be fatal. Narcotic-like effects can be observed as soon as 30 minutes after ingestion of green leaf matter of the plant, with victims falling asleep and unconsciousness gradually deepening until death a few hours later

Tell me how this isn't better?

>>297673
Dying via hemlock is said to be extremely painful

>>297357
It's still present but it has an effective field based on its strength, so in practice it's non existent. There's also the way that even while having empathy, a lot of people are genuinely too intellectually stunted to grasp when they're hurting others and so the empathy they are capable of won't even trigger.

>>297156
the only good and based indian was osho. he wanted the whole villages in india to be sterilized.

Why not take meds?

i was diangosed with Bpd at age 20. im 24 now and it doesnt get any better

yes. personally I cannot think of a worse fate than having a made up illness.

>>297288
>high social status
Why care?

>>297289
just mentioning that basic fact

>>297288
yeah I don't know. I'm clumsy and remiss. thank you for trying helping me, I appreciate

>>297289
i will suggest daily physical exercise (or at least 1 hour of walking) as well as getting your fair share of daily vitamin D, not to mention quality sleep and diet, when you have spent a long time as a NEET out of education and learning, your brain becomes out of shape, i can't help you fully with this issue because i have not even solved it yet my self, i will suggest you have an honest conversation with your parents, explain to them how it is irrational for them to expect someone with 0 skills to get a job and try find some useful skill that you can learn, if needed convince them to get you a refurbished PC, and show them that you are dedicated to learn skills that will help you find employment online, I.D.k, just think and find ways to at least delay being kicked out from the house.

>>297289
Normies are savage wild animals, especially succubi. You must maintain integrity when dealing with them. They will see your autism but at least you can herd them a bit.

>>297557
Absolutely true. It's unbelievable how bad things truly are in this country, we have a lot of money in India in that hands of top 0.1%. Anyways, my problem is not with rich people. But the problem is that they do not pay the workers their fair wages and the thing is that Indians don't care about being united. If every Indian worker stopped doing jobs that don't pay shit, employers would be forced to pay them adequate salaries. But we don't have any unity among people. We don't even have something called minimum wage in this shithole. I bet if you post a job vacancy of 1 person for eating shit at 1000 USD in an year you will get literally 1 million or so people applying for that job. Like I am no commie but this country could overnight turn into a first world country if EACH AND EVERYONE stopped working and demanded higher salaries, employers would be forced to pay up. But people have no unity. But instead it has become a competiton to the bottom with people ready to work for nothing, they don't understand if none of us is gonna work they are gonna be forced to pay us a decent salary.

>>297566
Ps. I understand the pain of firstworlders. They feel the exact same way as I do when they see someone from poor country doing their jobs for fuck all. Collectively bringing down the standard of living for all including themselves. I now understand what you guys feel. I feel the same thing when I see people in my country working for 1000 USD a year. And I have questions like why are they doing this? Do they not value themselves? And it is because of them that value of my IT degree is worthless. Because my fellow ITniggers in India are ready for a 90hr 7 days a week for 1000USD a year (even if you convert this money to INR it isn't work jackshit) of work and it's because of the fact that these people put up with this shit, I too am left with no other option to put up just to survive. Fuck these rich niggas and desperate niggas man who don't value themselves bringing others down with them.

>>297567
Now ofc I am not smart or anything but this problem seems so easy to solve if ALL people get on board and ALL of them collectively say we ain't gonna work till you pay us a fair share and if you jack up the prices of other things in response we are still not gonna work and I bet if the 99% of this planet combines and say this shit. They will be forced to pay.

>>297557
Yes, I do agree with you. Telling people to go into tech right now tells me the person has no clue what they're talking about. Because no one in tech would advocate for such a thing knowing about the layoffs, high post-grad unemployment, AI job replacement, hiring freezes, and economic depression. Tech is shit-tier for jobs right now (and may be over.) It seems like only the most senior niche engineers are still doing well. Or people "in AI" (which won't last forever. It's hard to say how many years they will get out of that boom.)

>>297566
>this country could overnight turn into a first world country if EACH AND EVERYONE stopped working and demanded higher salaries
Definitely not. Even if all production in India right now were perfectly distributed, everybody would still just live in shit.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_countries_by_GDP_(nominal)_per_capita

>>297504
Via reddit. I never knew how hated I was, I always used to believe that succubi have hearts and don't care about looks but I only ever saw succubi with good looking guys so it was only a matter of time that I came across blackpilling content and got blackpilled.

The next was my height, I am just a tiny guy with shit genes. When I asked around the internet about my height, it was enough to blackpill me.

I was frequenting imageboards since 11 years old. It's horrible.

I'm similar, but I have a lot of nostalgia for the mid 2000s era of the internet

>>297504
I got bullied until developing mania. When you get rid of the stupid want about fitting in then you realize how much filth is around you and that sets you into some sweet sadism. Still I say those normies did not get shit enough from me but, I was just one of my kind :(

>>297513
They must be gloating at the mere thought of you being minimally sad about them using sex a rule enforcing factor which affects your soul.

I rejected my mom's love and caused her to spiral into depression.

>>297350
Oh, Wizzie, employment is rough nowadays even in the developed world, let alone the third world, it's valid to want to be independant from your parents, why don't you start helping your mom a little bit with the house chores? it's not rocket science

>The other thing is that I am quickly losing my cognitive abilities

I have the same issue, years of NEETdom nuked my brain, I have 0 short term memory, I even forget the names of everyday objects and i need to describe them with hand gestures to people IRL, i even forget what i wanted to do a second ago, i also have a super slow brain procesing speed, and i am constantly distracted with my own thoughts, i literally can't focus on anything for a minute without my mind wandering, my brain has been out of shape since i dropped out of school, and it's making learning new things hard as HELL.

>>297355
I try to help her by getting groceries and doing work that requires her to go outside, I have started small by cleaning my own dishes, cleaning the bathroom, but it still doesn't feel enough when I see how many chores my mom does. I really have to up my game but I am too lazy.

As for cognitive decline something has to be done quickly, let me know if you find some solution, it's becoming like a degenerative disease. And it has been happening more and more, not only am I not able to speak anymore, I also process things very slowly.

Like earlier I could just study for exams just a night before and could somehow remember all the information, but now even if I study a week before I am unable to remember that.

I have also had my own share of funny incidents. Like I had to put something outside of my house and lock the front door and then go through my back door, cause the lock of my front door doesn't work from the outside. So instead of putting the box just out of the front door, then locking it from inside, and going out through the back door. For some reason I decided to lock the front door first and move the box out of the back door, and then go all the way to the front. My mother started laughing seeing me do this and was like "Your head doesn't work does it?"

Same is happening while driving as well, one might thing the more I drive the more my skills would improve but instead they are deteriorating day after day. It's like I have constant mental fog, where I can't see properly.

Earlier I could explain anything to my friends and even explain to them in English but now I struggle to describe things in my own language. When I see some old screenshots of the posts that I have written, I am surprised that I could've explained something so well.

Not only that I feel like my IQ has been reduced, earlier I could easily understand complex video games, but now it takes me too long to understand even a simple video game.

I am in my 20s but it feels like my skills and abilities are at the par of 80 years old. Like when someone says something to me, I have to take my whole sweet ass time to understand and interpret what is being said.

I am also very bad with directions now, which I wasn't earlier, I could easily figure things out, easily do math, but it feels like nothing works.

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>>297364
I am trying to increase my daily share to sun exposure, i heard vitamin D helps a lot with short term memory issues, all i will suggest is daily exercise, staying hydrated, and quality sleep everynight, i also tried to improve my short term memory less by memorizing rythmic poems, but i gave up after a while due to the lack of noticable progress, i cannot really give advice here, because my cognitive skills are probably way worse than yours, I can't even learn basic algebra, remember how to spell most english words without the usage of auto-correct or solve 4chan's captcha, you should look for a cognitive therapist or psychterist online on some subreddit or webform, the internet is a vast place.

>>297350
>The other thing is that I am quickly losing my cognitive abilities
Yeah same, I'm just as you described there, down to developing a slight stutter.
I think the only cure is to use our brains, I never really test my brain with maths or complex thought any more.

>>296932
Learn Human Design.

>>297499
Good input.

>>297499
Taking a screenshot for that whole post so I won't lose it if the site gets taken down.

>>297499
Hell yeah, cook up some meat on your way out so the person that finds you can have a burger.

>>296567
Being on the spectrum is bad enough, add being ugly as fuck to that and you're pretty much just stealing oxygen on this planet. Absolutely no one will tolerate your presence and normies will bully you away from any job. it's a hellish existence, especially if you live in a country where gettiing neetbux is not easy.

>>297224
>normies will bully you away from any job
That is, if they can even land a job in the first place.

Any autist in a group home

>>297104
Make sure you block out ALL sunlight and other lights if you want quality sleep.

>>297415
I have to turn off my computer completely, even so that my monitor's "on" light doesn't blink to get good sleep.

>>297344
wow

>>297344
Doctor said so.

>>297349
oh ok, and do you have all the symptoms you described to me?

>>297354
Mostly but it has been better lately I am trying to control myself. But can't help much with the masturbation expect of things.

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