/dep/ - Depression

it is a nation of ungodly horror. it's just crime, satanic energy everywhere, corruption, fags, low IQ unread uneducated population, loose std carrying succubi, money worshipping society with no morals. need I go on? how do you not get depressed as an american. i would rather be chinese at this point, it's actually a much better functioning society than america not so shockingly. maybe america has a couple gems like california or washington state or new york, that's it, and they're all way more shit than they used to be. California used to be the shit

Is it even possible to break this cycle?

>me 10 years ago
>I'm so behind everyone I'm such a loser
>it will take years for me to see any progress
>I will be old by the time my efforts may pay off
>depressed end up doing nothing

>me 5 years ago
>fuck I'm 30 soon and haven't achieved anything this is so embarassing
>start drinking to cope

>me now
>god I was such an idiot back then why didn't I start doing something years ago I was still young
>now I am pushing 40 and it's over for real
>bedrotting every day 0 motivation to do anything cant even distract myself with anything anymore

"It is a simple thing, this golden rule, and all that is required. Political economy and the survival of the fittest can go hang if they say otherwise. What is not good enough for you is not good enough for other men, and there is nothing more to be said."
(Chapter 19. The Ghetto)
https://archive.org/details/peopleofabyss00londiala/page/n9/mode/1up?view=theater

"Why break the seals of mute despair unbidden
And wail life's discords into careless ears?
…
If any cares for the weak words here written,
It must be someone desolate, fate-smitten,
Whose faith and hope are dead, and who would die."
https://archive.org/details/cityofdreadfulni00thomrich/page/1/mode/1up

I can't move on. Everyone already did but I can't. Nobody remembers me. Trying to reach them is pointless, they avoid me like the plague. My parents told me lots of anecdotes from when they were young. They had friends and an extended family, they went on adventures, they cried and laughted, they grew up with lots of friends. They don't see them much nowdays but if they see each other on the street they cheerfully greet them. Their friends are happy to see them. Mines aren't. I dream about them everyday. Some of them, the original duo from my late childhood, I haven't talked to them in almost 15 years. The others, more "recent", haven't seen them in 10. Time keeps marching on. I stay the same.
I wonder, if I kill myself, will they attend my funeral?

Do you think normies could ever accept us or even tolerate us for real? It's obvious that absolute majority people is repulsed by a NEET lifestyle, failed dating/life/work experience, motivational or existential problems. Do you think there's a space for us to exist at all? Is it acceptable, is it planned for? Or we are truly just the trash of the world that should be cut out from society the sooner the better?

Whitepillers don't have a retort for autism. You can get a good degree, pursue your hobbies and work on your self esteem but if you have autism you will never make it in this anti-autistic world, Life is all about one thing. Being born without autism. If you're born without autism the normies will make excuses for you, help you out, share money with you, give you 100 chances, etc. Meanwhile if you have autism you're evil and creepy just for existing and blinking the wrong way. Everybody gets to live for free except autists and only autists who are given this fake ass "you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps and make your life" "you gotta amount to something" "innovation" story. Shit that literally no one else has to follow.

There are succubi who were born in 2007 who have became pornstars now, succubi born in 2008-2011 have regular sex and you all know how middle school was. I guess what I am trying to say is how do you cope with this?

In my eyes, the act of having sex is the highest expression of love and yet not a lot of us will ever receive that pleasure of finally being accepted, there are people here who can't get laid because of how they were raised, there are people here who can't get laid cause of their looks, and the thing is people do wanna talk about it here. There was also a post by disgusting shitskinned pajeet over how he can't have sex cause his dick is up his ass or something and a post on wiz where a guy was sex obsessed and couldn't stop seeing even his family and relatives through a sexual lens.

Because let's face it, most of us aren't happy with our current predicament. Most people here aren't happy with being wizards, our lives are completely unnatural and incompatible with happiness. Posts here are about how to commit suicides and how miserable the lives of people here are. The fact of the matter is that most of us are miserable.

And there is nothing much we can do to escape our predicament. I want to know genuinely if there are any real wizards who have moved beyond this. How did you really do it? How do you get used to a life so lonely? How did you made peace with that? Do none of you ever had the desire of having a kid who looks up to you. Or a wife who will actually be on your side till your deathbed. Or are we just gonna die in some apartment lonely or homeless on a street only for our corpse to be unattended and no respect paid.

I feel very weird when I come to this website, I feel like people here are like me, virgin, loveless, and lonely. But there is something different, I can't contain my innate desire to be wanted. And it seems like people here pretend that they have contained it but deep down inside they wanna escape this.

I am writing this in the state of real post-nut clarity, I just coomed to a pornstar who was born in 2007 and it made me feel how old I really am getting, and how I haven't achieved any thing and I am a worthless basement dweller. It is truly remarkable how different lives the lives of different humans can be.

I was at work and had to just fucking sit there and listen to this guy go on and on about how succubi constantly hit him up and fucked him. I normally don't react to this kind of stuff. But then he showed video after video after video and it eventually got to me. This fuck is the same age as me but his life just seemed so much easier. I legitimately didn't understand what it's like to have a fucking succubus text you. Want to see you. He even said "You're not ugly. How?" I just didn't have an answer. I just live with the cope that some people just have it easier and others like myself emit and anti succubus field. I am happier the further away from sex and relationship shit I hear. Normally I can just live around it and it doesn't bother me. This time was different some how. What the fuck.

This is probably not big news, but you have much worse chances of getting anything done in life if you are not social. From jobs, to housing, to money. If you are trying to do everything alone, you will not be as successful. Except you have a godlike family and upbringing. But I suppose nobody here had this.