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 No.233017[Reply]

Please share links and footages of people suiciding and caught on camera…it would be better if it is made by teens.
Any type of suicide is okay
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 No.234077

>>234064
Damn, are we talking about the same case?

That day, this brethen and her mother came to the daycare… and my friend-brethen was never the same.

We didn't share tiers… until 15 years later drinking spirits.
And I love my friend, the only Friend that I ever had.

 No.234078

>>234077
Just to put details in to view: my friend found his father hanging.

The next day He told me about this.

 No.234152

>>234022
Had no idea that was a kid until near the end I wonder why he streamed it more people should consider doing it but to do it to your kid or kid brother is fucked up.
Post more

 No.234465

Just as the ceiling light goes off, his lights were one second away from going off. Probably eased him into accepting death
https://crazyshit.com/cnt/medias/79319-depressed-man-gets-drunk-hangs-himself-on-livestream

 No.234567

>>233963
>absolutely blown away by the results
at least he's still got his sense of humor, i guess



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 No.233084[Reply]

How do you guys handle alcoholism? I'm wage-slaving at the moment and can't quite understand how to handle it.
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 No.234454

Why are alcoholics mostly chill on image boards and weed fags such narcissistic elitist pretentious know-it-all fags?

 No.234455

>>234454
Reddit. Through upboats and fake TILs they now believe weed is a mystic cure-all that the evil corporations are trying to destroy. Everyone who rejects must clearly be brainwashed by the systemz and a slave to the corporate machine, because why would the corporations want to capitalize on a psychologically addictive drug? I mean come on man.

 No.234457

>>234454
I guess because booze has been socially accepted for centuries, weed is still kinda frowned upon by a lot of people, so they get defensive and antagonistic. I believe when it gets widely legalized and becomes a normal thing people will shut the fuck up about it and start shilling the next meme drug, I wonder what'll be.

 No.234458

You drink.

If you are forced to go cold turkey, you will suffer the first flames of Hell, even worse than with Opioid withdrawals.
And you can die, there is that. Alcohol is the only psychoactive substance, from which withdrawals you can die.

 No.234461

>>234457
Huh, that actually sounds reasonable.



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 No.231893[Reply]

Every action seems irrational and meaningless to me.I can't do anything.I don't have any drive motivation to do smt. Do you do all the things without purpose and still live satisfied lives?

Let's say you are a pilot and u are up in the air: what is the reason to go to your destination and not drive it somewhere else?

Basically whatever you answer to this i will then ask,what is the reason for that until the end.

For example : you go to the destination so that people don't die

Why they shouldn't die?

Because they have a rifht to live.

Why do they have a right to live?

Cuz they deserved it.

Why they deserved it?

Basically i will ask why whatever opinion u put forward,and u will get locked in the end and realize we actually do everything without a reason.because crashing the plane or reaching the destination both seem same to me when u think about reasoning?

Help me get out of this dilemma in my life ty wizzies
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 No.234392

>>233573
Can you tell me the sauce of the ost?

 No.234393

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>>234392
It's on the filename: Emancipator - Natural Cause
If you like Emancipator try his "Soon it will be cold enough to build fires" album. Probably my favorite album ever.

 No.234394

>>233624
Why am I here? What am I doing? These hands are not beautiful and neither can they create beauty.

 No.234456

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>>234394
Can you appreciate beauty? You don't necessarily have to make it yourself

 No.234468

>>231893
>Basically whatever you answer to this i will then ask,what is the reason for that until the end

I don't want to an hero because living lasts for a brief moment. Not long enough to end it prematurely. Death is unreversible and eternal. I'm going to be dead forever but I'm alive just for a moment. I don't have a reason to end my living and neither I have any other, big reason to live. And why I'm curious to see what happen next? There's no answer to that. That's brain's chemistry. Some people become great and some become an hero.
>because crashing the plane or reaching the destination both seem same to me when u think about reasoning?
Go outside and breathe some fresh air fam.
>>231930
Did posting this post lead you to pleasure?



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 No.234208[Reply]

Anyone else feel they have a pretty shitty family but also feel like they have no other means of surviving?
What do you choose?

>24

>pretty unmotivated(and assumed unintelligent) high school dropout
>most likely avpd or social phobia
>work experience is full time in a warehouse job I got from my uncle for a year making maybe $12/hr
>have a decent savings from this because I was to depressed and tired to buy anything

what family life is like:
>absent father who mostly works
>rest of family is "housewife" bipolar mom and brain damaged and schizophrenic brother, I hate both of them and they are slobs
>have been in charge of most "housewife" responsibilities since as young as I was able to do them
>hemorrhaging savings since everyone but me is a chainsmoker and my mom goes on spending spree's expecting me to cover the bills with my savings
>have to go to bed later than I want every night because share a room with mom and bro and they will keep me up otherwise

I have never lived alone and have no idea what it actually costs to live alone. Since I live in a rural area and have no education or connections. I feel like the only alternative to living with my family would be working minimum wage and probably living in a car or with a lot of other people.
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 No.234212

>>234208
I know I am doomposting and I am just going to live with my parents and be upset about it until I can't anymore which will open up a
whole new set of challenges with whatever happens to me.

But I was inspired to post for the first time in a while, I usually just lurk but I am in a bit of a motivated headspace.
To get off topic for a moment it's funny how difficult and long it takes to write anything that is not incoherent or entirely a wall
of text.

What is the best course of action in a situation like this? Should I see if I can stomach some job at a grocery store and try and get
some type of trade degree? Even if I did succeed in independence with some luxuries I think I would still be miserable slaving away.
I guess I just dont know what to do and I dont even feel like I can articulate it properly. I feel guilty even posting this
because I dont even know if things are that bad or if theyre fairly typical and i'm just being a bitch and destroying a thread that
probably has more merit to it than this.

 No.234384

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>>234212
Get any job that you can right now and learn some trade or career on the side. I just happenned to luck out and through some basic knowledge on HTML and CSS ended up as a web developer.

If you are in the right place at the right time, knowing the right people and having the right profile you can improve your situation.

Sounds like having to wait until the stars allign but three of those things you can affect at least partially.

>I would still be miserable slaving away

You can be miserable, poor, ill and jobless in your room. You can be a miserable wageslave with poor health but able to afford some healthcare. There are more ways to be miserable, pick your poison.

Good luck.

 No.234418

I was forced to exist so in a way I was given no good choices.

 No.234431

>>234208
I'm also 24 and a unmotivated high school dropout. Family life sucks as well, might as well not have them. But I understand my advantage in having them vs living on my own. Since they pay rent and other stuff. I help sometimes as well. Being on your own means paying the bills on your own, unless you can find a roommate. Better your family who you know, than some random person who might fuck you over any time.

 No.234453

>>234384
Fuck off bragfag.



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 No.234398[Reply]

Why can't I just accept that I'm a boring, worthless person that has never and will never amount to anything in life?
Life would be so much easier if I just did.
And yet I keep clinging to false hope. "Things will change", I keep telling to myself.
Why am I like this?
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 No.234403

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Look at the news. The only people like you that matter to others are those who get a high score.

 No.234413

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>>234398
Does it even matter? Just accept you're a fucking pathetic piece of shit like me and live with it. Live your life man, fuck everything else or don't. It never matters in the end anyways.

 No.234414

I'm at peace with it, no problem living a completely mediocre life, as long as I have food, a roof and a bed.

 No.234416

There is no problem with that. It's just that life still sucks after you accept that. Literally nothing changes. It will only get worse.

 No.234430

>>234413
It does matter for the stained carpet absent in your image.
A wise man said once that no clear moves should me allowed there.



 No.233836[Reply]

i wanna get out and drive my own business

unhappy and dead currently wtf is wrong hahaha

im out of funnies

 No.233839

ah well. life s like that. most of the time you lose
gets alienated. eat shit.

 No.233842

im made to go to jail apparently

 No.233844

im afraid of psychologists and the following damage

 No.234407

drive a truck
into a crowd and
get a highscore,
big melon titties,
unending bliss
awaits those who act.

 No.234429

>>233842
Tell us what happened



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 No.225583[Reply]

Anyone know of any documentaries about super depressing dead end lives that people live?

I tried looking up drug addiction stuff, but most of those people had more fulfilling lives than me so it wasn't really interesting.

I want something that will make my life look good by comparison.
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 No.232759


>>231673
>>231673

How is he not in a home?

 No.232849

>>225585
Recovering addicts who got clean often manage to go on and live good happy lives

 No.233261

>>231746
Lol at the Kaiji poster around 8:29

 No.234408

>>225583
>Anyone know of any documentaries about super depressing dead end lives that people live? I want something that will make my life look good by comparison.

Look up serial killer documentaries and empathize with the victims. It makes your life seem good by comparison.

 No.234428

>>234408
but everyone feels sorry for the victims and no one feels sorry for op



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 No.234379[Reply]

If you lost a loved one to suicide, would you want to know why they did it?

What if the reason that he did that was that he was secretly a horrible rotten person? Would it give you comfort or would you rather keep your memory of them as pure as possible?

For example, if your kid fucked people up economically, and he couldn't live with what he's done, would you want them to tell you that in a suicide letter? Would it give you some comfort in knowing a piece of shit has lost his life? Would you get some sense of closure from knowing his reasoning?
Thanks in advance to anyone who answers, this is important to me.
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 No.234387

>>234385
I appreciate your answer but I'm not sure you understood the scenario, my economic situation is fine, but in my example I meant what is that I myself destroyed another person's livelihood and drove them and their family into debilitating debt (just a hypothetical, what I truly did might be way worse depends on perspective).
I have sinned gravely, so I have a good reason to die. It's not easy at all, my life otherwise is actually pretty comfortable.(can't share my reasons so please don't ask,thanks).

 No.234405

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>>234379
Only suicide note that matters to people is your manifesto explaining why you had to get a highscore.

 No.234411

>>234387
If you really harmed these people to such an extent, I'd say you have a far greater duty to help them in any way you can. Killing yourself would only harm more people, and you'd be neglecting your duty to the people you victimized.

If you actually feel guilt and remorse, you'll start taking positive steps to help them. If all you feel is shame and an indulgent desire for self-flagellation, then you'll continue obsessing over the need to "punish" yourself, which is ultimately a form of narcissism too many people share.

The righteous seek to repair or limit the problems they have created. The morally decrepit use those problems as an excuse to create more. Suicide is just creating more, doubling-down on your original mistake.

 No.234426

>>234405
Feds pls

 No.234427

>>234411
I agree with this wizard.



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 No.234300[Reply]

First off, I entirely disagree with what is considered culturally acceptable by society: clothing style, lingo, overt sexual posturing, drug-use… I can go on. But simply by the merit of preferring things that are sophisticated: information(obviously), science, orchestral music(actual music), philosophical conversation… I am ostracized by the normaltrons. Like another user said, they make ME seem like an idiot with their high-school, name-calling bullshit! 'How ridiculous,' I think. 'Me, an idiot?! But isn't it they who speak such nonsensical, animal terminology?!' These creatures… They fight with derogatory terms instead of logic.. Why must I live amongst these animals? Understand, I wasn't conditioned by the swine of society to desire this, "fitting in." My objective was less intentive on seeking the subjection of my fellows, but by simply not being bothered by them. But now, as an adult.. I am forced to participate in their 'competition.' I have been to jail, and I have been homeless… And it is not my happiness to be surrounded by opportunistic parasites! Nay, I will compete with these pretentious bullies and hopefully overcome these monsters. My fellow wizards, graduate with me on this quest in defeating the normalswine.. they deserve no peace.
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>>234348
@@356
Jojo and X-Men leitmotifs, but the scene choreography and OST are Hellsing TV.
>>'and the dead just keep walking'_

 No.234395

>>234322
"emotional intelligence" = willingness to let other people manipulate you

The only reason the term exists is to let weak-willed wоmen feel better about themselves.

 No.234396

>>234395
Not him, but the entire thing seems like the perspective of someone that has seen too much anime and now can't separate himself from epic power plays that exist purely for dramatic effect.

In reality, people operate mostly in a reciprocal manner, a sort of tit-for-tat strategy, which quickly filters people that act in a overtly selfish and cruel manner. The reason why this doesn't work is because being a manipulator is a one-off strategy that will pay off once, but will diminish your trustworthiness in the future and in the social world, the only real way to lose if no one wants to "play" with you anymore.

There's the popular notion that sociopaths and psychopaths often rise to positions of power because they're expert manipulators, but the only way to rise to the top of any social hierarchy is to do enough favors and provide enough benefit to the people that keep you in that position. The moment a CEO starts doing something retarded, the board can vote him off. Even a tyrant is as strong as his connections, because the moment he forgets to grease General McFucks pockets, is the moment he will get a coup.

Honest cooperation with the right players is always the best strategy in any social game. Epic switcharoo double, triple agent stabs in the back are only a thing in Death Note and the like.

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>>234318
>That graphic

lol

 No.234404

>>234300
When are you going to stand up for yourself? That's the only way you're ever going to be respected.



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 No.228780[Reply]

Every time I try to do something in the real world or even in normie places on the internet I get scolded,laughed at,ridiculed,bullied etc I just can't comprehend how humans work,how they manage to live day by day buying stupid shit all the time,working,having relationships etc.

All of this alienated me from the real world,other people look like aliens for me,I don't care about what happens in the real world anymore,I don't care about politics,the economy,the elections,COVID or anything that goes outside my own little bubble.

I think I wasn't designed for living in this world,when I watch anime or play games I look at these vast worlds full of great things or incredible people and I wish I lived in those worlds instead of this shitty world,sometimes I cry all night because I don't want to live in this horrible world that has nothing for me,but the only option is killing myself,I wish I could live in my fantasy words,I think that is extremely sad and almost criminal that the human mind is able to create these beautiful perfect worlds but we are forever doomed to watch them from outside,never indulging in our most precious fantasies.

I wish there was some kind of VR machine that plugged into our brains so people like me that just can't function in this world could enjoy our own fantasies living our perfect fantasy lives,normies that enjoy life could enjoy their shit as always if they want to,but for people like us the only solution is suicide.

This is so fucking bullshit,I never asked to be born like this,I never wanted to experience this horrible absurd world but I'm forced to,I'm forced to endure this dogshit until I die and dissolve into nothingness,this is so unfair and I'm so fucking mad at all,I wish I could live in my fantasy worlds inside my brain but I can't,and instead I'm forced to be alive in this shitty world that has nothing for me.
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 No.234295

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>>228780
>I just can't comprehend how humans work, how they manage to live day by day buying stupid shit all the time,working,having relationships etc.
Most people simply reproduce the behaviours of others, without really thinking about it. They might be happy or not that way but they certainly won't question it.
Some people however will eventually question those things and often end up realizing that what is considered to be normal doesn't makes much sense. So they'll adopt very different behaviours and be seen as weird by others.

Normies shaped the world according to themselves, we can't fit in as we realize just how little sense it makes and knowing there's nothing we can do to fix it is depressing.
Fantasy worlds on the other hand are crafted so the creator had to put thought into how it will function and how each people in it will play a role. Even with flaws those worlds are still a lot more interesting than our real mindless one.

The best we can do is sticking to what we judge to be right and continue acting according to our beliefs. Living a normal life like everyone else seems worthless, and even if it's painful I can at least be proud of experiencing life differently.

 No.234307

>>231655
>People are confrontational and antagonistic toward men, especially young men and especially young men who seem incompetent or don't fit in.
That's the long and short of it. This is how societies in general have always worked - men only matter once they've made something of themselves. Men without status are either a threat or garbage. And men who ended up as failures? Those are considered lower than dogshit.
As far as I know, all societies in history have worked this way. The matriarchal ones very much included.

 No.234399

>>228841
I think these counter-arguments against existing inside of a virtual world are straw-man arguments. Why you can't have legit experiences in VR and find satisfaction from them?

 No.234402

>>228844
This is still the best response I've seen to any of these arguments. Why should I be scared of brain-in-a-jar scenario if my life is already part of a simulation that I have no real power in?

 No.234711

>>228841
was there not an out limits/nu-twilight zone episode about this? unrelated, but i'm still curious.



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