/dep/ - Depression

Has any (actual) wizard moved onto anything else?

>>213134
>2021
>having hobbies

The only hobbie normalfags have nowadays is to look at their cellphone screen like zombies, posting about the latest viral bs on twitter or watching youtube videos.

I used to read mangas back when it was considered super nerdy and most normalfags would look down on it, now it's so fucking mainstream that you see zoomers with anime t-shirts all the time. Video games have also become too fucking mainstream, all the stuff I used to love and gave me a sense of belonging has been absorbed by the normalcattle collective. Now it's a bit too late for me to really get into something new.

currently zero. I used to raise and care for ant colonies but my mental health got so bad i started forgetting to feed them and eventually they all died.

>>232333
This is what seems to be the case across the thread.
It's dead, whatever it is.
So,
>>232212
>if it doesn't matter, then what does? and if it does matter, how do we go about reestablishing that exclusivity?
The only way to reclaim exclusivity is to immerse yourself into worlds.

>>239210
To shed away the rot requires more effort. [Insiders] mourn the plague of [outsiders] because they make it increasingly difficult to justify how immersed [insiders] are. Immersion allows one to build outward instead of drown in what-is. It allows one to enjoy time passing.
I.e. instead of enjoying whatever it is, people use that "it" to further their own games of social-credit, uniqueness, profits (>>228955), etc. The only way to be at the fringe is to (>>234464) revive language, which is what the Internet destroyed. Basic language.

How do you revive language? Build a wall thick enough where someone cannot just insert (>>234044) themselves into the new domain. Requires some form of expertise or fervent autism.

Like anime? Learn japanese, and now you're further away.
Like videogames? Dive into older ones and do ROM hacks or whatever else.

Either erect a wall of autism so high that it only filters the elect or forgo the, now labeled dilettante, pastimes. That is, if it bothers you too much and you don't have the energy.
Because it does not matter what your identity is, it is only important to remember how little we all know anyway, and go from there. This comes in the form of being ready to die, or ready to live - to be at the footstool of whoever rules us and wait for execution but to at least free our minds. I would rather die on my feet than to live on my knees, etc.

It cannot be emphasized enough the extent of astroturfing, pyscho-warfare there is on the internet and how we're all in our own bubbles concocted Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>232333
I understand your point; yes, there does seem to be a certain level of futility in trying to define ourselves when things are so constantly and easily co-opted/appropriated/exploited.

But I think this this kind of circular logic is defeatist and basically rationalizes away the need to make any effort to define one's self, establish any interests, or build a community. It seems like a lot of the counterargument in this thread just stems from laziness, "it's dead, so why bother?"

The fact that this thread is still getting replies a year on is evidence people care and feel that at least to extent maintaining our sense of self through our interests is worthwhile.

>>239343
Compared to the majority of the discussion, this is a pretty fucking comprehensive post.

>Build a wall thick enough where someone cannot just insert (>>234044) themselves into the new domain. Requires some form of expertise or fervent autism.

This offers a legitimate answer to the question I asked how do we go about reestablishing that exclusivity? when I posted >>232212

>Because it does not matter what your identity is, it is only important to remember how little we all know anyway, and go from there.

A potential end to this entire thread. Is trying to distance ourselves from normalfags a meaningless act of vanity derived from a false need to define ourselves by being the "other"? I bounce back and fourth on this point, sometimes feeling the need to define myself through uniqueness, at other times, being content with allowing my identity to generate itself organically from me pursuing my interests without constantly juxtaposing myself to the mainstream. This is something I really struggle with in a way that extends way past the discussion in this thread.

Will be 30 in a couple of months and I begin to see why you are not considered a wizard until 30. People expect me to be married and with a career. Family is old and decrepit. What few "friends" I have gradually abandoned me over the past decade as I am not profitable. I see now that profit and domination are the prime motivators of nearly all people and I cannot help but be disgusted. The deception that holds a stranglehold on the people irks me. I cannot stand communication with others because I know they are liars and I cannot help but lie too though I try not to. I feel novel pains in my body and know that I will have to face the decay alone. No support in 10 years time except for that which I can purchase. Social groups are useful because people pick up your slack if you promise to do the same when they need it. If you are excluded due to whatever combination of eccentricites made you a wizard, you are essentially marked for death in a very insidious way. Humans are hell incarnate.

>>236515
There's a lot of truth too this, especially finding some type of fake virtue in their weakness much like SJWs do, I wonder how similar at the core many liberal/virtue signalling wizzies and crabs are with SJWs.

>>236579
I'm not even American, but from what I've heard you need to go to a state which does not have the red flag laws, which are laws written by normalgroids that if you have any history in mental assylums/institutes or any history of mentall illness then you're not allowed a gun, they do this because they think mentally ill crabs are the ones shooting up schools.

I am dying supposedly and I can't even think about anything except going back to school or working lately. Which would be pointless. I don't even know if I have enough time to hit 60 on WoW and treatment numbers in the teens of millions. I want to learn and live good damn it, they gave me a lethal injection as I tried to live my dreams of becoming a genius, it's not fair at all. I never hurt anyone that bad to deserve that. I'm not gone yet though and I will miss you guys on here.

>>237886
Based Zappa poster

>>236676
Yeah I think it's fucked. Get it remove asap. I hope it's just the teeth and it's not spreding in your gums.

>>236713
It got better, I'll remove it next week.

>>236676
That looks unpleasant

please go to the dentist, don't ignore it like I did. the infection spread to my ear and now I have severe headaches. tears are going down my face as I type this, take care of your teeth guys and don't forget to brush.

>>236676
That's just bad decay deep down through the dentin and down into the root. Absolutely not something to leave to 'get better', but nothing to be terrified about. If you leave it long enough it will infect the gum and potentially spread up to the sinuses and eventually the brain, but that would only be a low chance or so if it is a mandibular (bottom layer) molar. If it was an maxillary molar (upper layer) the risk would be far greater.

>>239182
All my yes. One of the biggest gifts my mother gave me was she showed me how Machiovellian succubi really are.

>>239166
>"don't talk to that trash"
She literally called you trash in front of your grandman because she told you some kind words? What did you do? You say nothing?

>>239170
What a bunch of crap.

>>239183
In OP's case, it's useful if he plans to have a tolerable relationship with their parents. It doesn't sound to me like OP could leave them, or he would have done it a long time ago.

>>239188
>What did you do? You say nothing?
I bet wizzie threw her up against a wall:
https://web.archive.org/web/20060324185310/http://toobis.com/rant-toobis1mom0.html

>>239166
Sup, lainon

You gotta try and force youself to do things you used to enjoy, and don't have any expectations. You'll most likely feel like shit the first few times you do it but eventually you should start enjoying that particular activity again.

>>236785
You're calling the one man who managed to piss off every aristocrat in his society an "ultra-normal"? Socrates was a fucking warlock that questioned the reputations of those in power and unveiled how unworthy they were of that power. How is that normal?

I wake up, do the menial tasks I have to do, see if any of the channels I'm subscribed to uploaded anything, sometimes gather information on how to commit suicide, then read boards and listen to music in the background until I fall asleep.

i don't, i just have no instinctual need to do anything aside from the instincts that have the strongest hold over me and everyone else, for eg. hunger, i cannot even extract pleasure from playing games, enjoying anime or other forms of art, or going out, or anything really, i spend most of my time browsing imageboards

I'm thinking about becoming an alcoholic
Maybe it will make me numb, and numbness is infinitely better than this

>>237739
Same symptoms here, sounds like klinefelter

Do you get tremors and shakes when doing basic movements? Cuz that’s where my osteoporosis is at right now

Don’t ever go on a diet btw, cuz rapid weight loss turned my osteoporosis from a manageable stage to a severe problem

>>237739
A strong man is never a wrong man.

>>237739
They're animals. That's how animals do social interactions. It was never about right or wrong, it's about showing your teeth

>>236346
Go to California

I'm a 28 year old college student who never had a job and stopped caring what happens to me. I'm living for the day I can take my last few breaths while laughing at the absurdity of this stupid fucking world.

>>239111
>she here she there she everywhere
>SHE SHE SHE
can we stop giving them attention even in this single thread? holy shit

>>239124
Oh sorry I forgot Genie is probably lurking this very thread and jacking off at the thought of some wizard using a pronoun to mention her.

>>239125
man dont be butthurt but why in the world would you want to turn a thread about personality problems into a simp for whores thread i mean jesus christ you guys have the whole internet hijacked into a safespace for them and now you even try it here … one isnt even here safe of the bullshit from the normalfag world i cant belive it anymore and mods of course dont do jackshit if someone talks about wymyn because they are busy supporting whores on their second monitor

>>239140
Listen it's one thing to not want people posting shit like succubi dancers and movie stars or shit, but it's another to get mad that someone posted a wikipedia article about a feral child in the "irreversible personality damage" thread because it's a female.

>>239124
I saw the siiiiiiign and it opened up my eyes
I saw the siiiiign

>>218942
its quite opposite

bump

>>223775
>>218890
>>222573
>>223869
Take it from a guy who spent his young years fighting back physically.

The bullies don’t care, the normalfags never cared. You put them in a wheelchair their whole family and friend groups fhases after you. No matter how many of them you put down, none of the normalfags ever learn. If you stop one entire group? Eventually a new geoup starts bullying you. And on, and on.

For some reason, normalfags just don’t respond to losing or to getting beaten. Storytime.

When I was in kindergarten, I was bullied by every single child there. It was horrible. I think they may have all known eachother prior to me arriving, but they were hostile to me from the first moment they saw me. I remember when I first showed up to class children crying and demanding they be allowed to sit far away from me. Eventually their oatracism turned physical and they behan to push me. I didn’t take their shit. One day, after getting oushed, I grabbed a hard toy from the cabinets and went to town on the kids. I knocked out the kids tooth on the first strike, and eventually I was chasing 4 boys while they were crying. Within a couple minutes half the children were on the ground crying and the rest screaming for help.

Not only did I get in legal trouble and have to go see (((psychologists))), not only did I get brutally attacked by my own parents in retaliation for the forbidden “standing up for myself”, but the impact it had on the bullies? Zilch. Nothing. They only stopped physically assaulting me because they knew they couldnt win. But I’d become and even bigger pariah than before. They’d still insult me, but from afar, usually only in the direct presence of a teacher.

I would always say standing up for yourself is the right thing to do. But I also want to make it clear that bullies don’t care. They’re like robots. You stand up for yourself nor for the results, but for the principle. And because those battle-royales were hella adrenalin.

Before anyone says I could have done more to avoid the fighting btw, here’s an example of a buPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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>>239135
It's like what this guy here said:
>>>/lounge/264025
Your entire life is rigged from the very start. You are born to be different. To be an outcast. Normalfags will always treat you like an enemy and gang up on you whenever possible. There's no way around it.

>>238389
>Telling a doctor you have criminal urges
No

I've been living with these thoughts since I was a kid. Try watching some gore vids, like terrorists executions ,cartel killings, suicides,etc, see if it helps.

I feel a lot of hatred for normies i will love to stole their money or puch succubus in their face

You are absolutely idiotic by posting anything in a topic like this without TOR. Just like those people posting pictures of their room into that other topic.

I only in passing mentioned that under the right circumstances I might do things.
And that was while behind a VPN (although a shitty free one, so don't make that mistake).

And eventually I did get a knock on my door. So not only the imageboard admin (not wizchan though) but also the VPN admin gave IP logs to a court and they gave it to the police.

You wish I wasn't kidding. I don't post ANYTHING as personal as this without full protection now. There are sad normals from all sorts of agencies etc. reading even now while you think it's impossible.

By the way, did you know the wizchan admin also blocks TOR nodes so you have to chain it to a VPN (preferably paid with bitcoins mined by yourself)? What are the motivations for doing this?

>>239127
I've posted on 4chan, 8chan, wizchan, and tons of other splinter sites bareback and never had anyone take notice.

>>238932
>>238944
You will never understand that it doesn't matter whether covid exists or not. Globalists just decide if it exists or not. When it exists you have to live with the consequences either way.

Covid is based, if only because it inconveniences normalfags. It proves that they can't spend more than a couple days alone

>>238965
I struggle to understand why long periods of loneliness to ordinary folk is percieved as deadly when in the united states high density cities are where your most prone to getting murdered

>>238944
stop spamming that retarded picture and trying to derange the topic of conversation everywhere you go, you low iq ape