/dep/ - Depression

Please share links and footages of people suiciding and caught on camera…it would be better if it is made by teens.
Any type of suicide is okay

How do you guys handle alcoholism? I'm wage-slaving at the moment and can't quite understand how to handle it.

Every action seems irrational and meaningless to me.I can't do anything.I don't have any drive motivation to do smt. Do you do all the things without purpose and still live satisfied lives?

Let's say you are a pilot and u are up in the air: what is the reason to go to your destination and not drive it somewhere else?

Basically whatever you answer to this i will then ask,what is the reason for that until the end.

For example : you go to the destination so that people don't die

Why they shouldn't die?

Because they have a rifht to live.

Why do they have a right to live?

Cuz they deserved it.

Why they deserved it?

Basically i will ask why whatever opinion u put forward,and u will get locked in the end and realize we actually do everything without a reason.because crashing the plane or reaching the destination both seem same to me when u think about reasoning?

Help me get out of this dilemma in my life ty wizzies

Anyone else feel they have a pretty shitty family but also feel like they have no other means of surviving?
What do you choose?

>24
>pretty unmotivated(and assumed unintelligent) high school dropout
>most likely avpd or social phobia
>work experience is full time in a warehouse job I got from my uncle for a year making maybe $12/hr
>have a decent savings from this because I was to depressed and tired to buy anything

what family life is like:
>absent father who mostly works
>rest of family is "housewife" bipolar mom and brain damaged and schizophrenic brother, I hate both of them and they are slobs
>have been in charge of most "housewife" responsibilities since as young as I was able to do them
>hemorrhaging savings since everyone but me is a chainsmoker and my mom goes on spending spree's expecting me to cover the bills with my savings
>have to go to bed later than I want every night because share a room with mom and bro and they will keep me up otherwise

I have never lived alone and have no idea what it actually costs to live alone. Since I live in a rural area and have no education or connections. I feel like the only alternative to living with my family would be working minimum wage and probably living in a car or with a lot of other people.

Why can't I just accept that I'm a boring, worthless person that has never and will never amount to anything in life?
Life would be so much easier if I just did.
And yet I keep clinging to false hope. "Things will change", I keep telling to myself.
Why am I like this?

i wanna get out and drive my own business

unhappy and dead currently wtf is wrong hahaha

im out of funnies

Anyone know of any documentaries about super depressing dead end lives that people live?

I tried looking up drug addiction stuff, but most of those people had more fulfilling lives than me so it wasn't really interesting.

I want something that will make my life look good by comparison.

If you lost a loved one to suicide, would you want to know why they did it?

What if the reason that he did that was that he was secretly a horrible rotten person? Would it give you comfort or would you rather keep your memory of them as pure as possible?

For example, if your kid fucked people up economically, and he couldn't live with what he's done, would you want them to tell you that in a suicide letter? Would it give you some comfort in knowing a piece of shit has lost his life? Would you get some sense of closure from knowing his reasoning?
Thanks in advance to anyone who answers, this is important to me.

First off, I entirely disagree with what is considered culturally acceptable by society: clothing style, lingo, overt sexual posturing, drug-use… I can go on. But simply by the merit of preferring things that are sophisticated: information(obviously), science, orchestral music(actual music), philosophical conversation… I am ostracized by the normaltrons. Like another user said, they make ME seem like an idiot with their high-school, name-calling bullshit! 'How ridiculous,' I think. 'Me, an idiot?! But isn't it they who speak such nonsensical, animal terminology?!' These creatures… They fight with derogatory terms instead of logic.. Why must I live amongst these animals? Understand, I wasn't conditioned by the swine of society to desire this, "fitting in." My objective was less intentive on seeking the subjection of my fellows, but by simply not being bothered by them. But now, as an adult.. I am forced to participate in their 'competition.' I have been to jail, and I have been homeless… And it is not my happiness to be surrounded by opportunistic parasites! Nay, I will compete with these pretentious bullies and hopefully overcome these monsters. My fellow wizards, graduate with me on this quest in defeating the normalswine.. they deserve no peace.

Every time I try to do something in the real world or even in normie places on the internet I get scolded,laughed at,ridiculed,bullied etc I just can't comprehend how humans work,how they manage to live day by day buying stupid shit all the time,working,having relationships etc.

All of this alienated me from the real world,other people look like aliens for me,I don't care about what happens in the real world anymore,I don't care about politics,the economy,the elections,COVID or anything that goes outside my own little bubble.

I think I wasn't designed for living in this world,when I watch anime or play games I look at these vast worlds full of great things or incredible people and I wish I lived in those worlds instead of this shitty world,sometimes I cry all night because I don't want to live in this horrible world that has nothing for me,but the only option is killing myself,I wish I could live in my fantasy words,I think that is extremely sad and almost criminal that the human mind is able to create these beautiful perfect worlds but we are forever doomed to watch them from outside,never indulging in our most precious fantasies.

I wish there was some kind of VR machine that plugged into our brains so people like me that just can't function in this world could enjoy our own fantasies living our perfect fantasy lives,normies that enjoy life could enjoy their shit as always if they want to,but for people like us the only solution is suicide.

This is so fucking bullshit,I never asked to be born like this,I never wanted to experience this horrible absurd world but I'm forced to,I'm forced to endure this dogshit until I die and dissolve into nothingness,this is so unfair and I'm so fucking mad at all,I wish I could live in my fantasy worlds inside my brain but I can't,and instead I'm forced to be alive in this shitty world that has nothing for me.