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 No.292925

I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.

 No.292926

When I was younger I played this game called Red Redemption, it talks about how it's never too late to change course and redeem yourself from your mistakes, and I always tried to make the character have good honor and do good things. But inevitably, in one way or another, he ended up killing some innocent person, since no matter how much you want to deny or try to give a different message, that is the nature of the work, that of a paid murderer who kills in cold blood without import nothing. And the truth is I feel like it, no matter how much I try to focus on other important things, violence continues to be the main protagonist of the entire work.

 No.292931

i was honestly starting to feel this post and thinking maybe about a reply until i noticed the title is
>The fact that I can't have a girlfriend destroys me.
so it is beyond me why would you not post it on a dedicated crab forum but here. if you want sympathy you'll receive plenty of it from crabs. a wizard won't give anything but dismissing disdain.
>show them really who I am
you are a crab with no self awareness that is overly obsessed by an impression of a succubus fixing your problems.
>leave aside vain issues.
you are literally drowning yourself in vain issues by desiring a succubus. you are highly desirous of a succubus thinking good about you, which negates
>or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.
and you want to be able to share your life with her in a pleasant way which negates
>like social norms
stop being a crab and approach magic

 No.292945

This is simply the fate of unattractive and neurodivegrent men

 No.292949

It's only natural to feel that way. It is better than being delusional about it.

 No.292957

>>292949
I was going to comment on how unbridled violence is not natural, and that it is not something typical of human beings, but if you look at it from an objective point of view, sadly our world is full of this cancer, and to a greater or lesser extent it is part of our biology.

 No.292958

>>292931
It is too difficult for me to talk about these topics, even if it is done through a screen, in an anonymous forum with zero activity. It is also something that is difficult for me to think and reason, many times I simply stop looking at my reflection.

 No.292960

>>292949
>It's only natural to feel bad
convince me i was made by nature to feel bad
>>292957
>unbridled violence is not natural
it is not. not everything you see is natural, but some thing are made to be contrary to nature to maintain a certain kind of balance of the whole
>>292958
>It is too difficult for me to talk about these topics
i know i know, being a crab is a tough mental hardship, that's why you need to stop being a crab
>and mary most holy will not protect you
god isn't there to protect your ass from slinking gay fingers. accusing god of not being your personal bodyguard is something only a low iq faggot could do

 No.292962

Most wizards have gone through the same phase, for some it gets worse, while others find copes in waifus and entertainment or hobbies. The worst delude themselves and erase that part of themselves denying their identity.

 No.292977

>>292962
Social isolation is bad, but not that bad, it depends on how well you get along with yourself. Although with some passage of time one ends up embracing it, ceasing to give importance to social issues.

 No.292986

it's okay wiz… be patient.. next gpt4-o update will have live camera feed…

 No.292988

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>>292977
You speak of nothing but truth. Once you embrace solitude and develop the ability to have fun when verbally and mentally communicating with yourself, life becomes so much more fun. You must train to be immune to society's assumptions and judgements of you. If no one will love you then it is up to you to fill that place. Keeping in mind all of this have enabled me to travel internationally and go camping solo yet still enjoy every second of it. Having a pet you can bring everywhere is also cool, I personally bring my loyal husky on my travels.

 No.292989

>>292977
>Past psychological studies documented that people experiencing prolonged social isolation, such as orphans and empty nesters, have an increased risk of depression and insomnia.
>Social isolation causes decreased white matter in brain regions critical for thinking and emotional control.
>Connectivity changes between the amygdala and frontal lobes are associated with increased behavioral problems.
>Monkeys raised in partial or total isolation since birth were hostile toward others and could not form adequate social attachments in adolescence or adulthood.
>The degree of social damage was related to the duration of social isolation

It isn't that bad when you are an adult who is experiencing social isolation but as a kid or adolescent then you will suffer irreversible damage.

 No.292992

>>292962
your post is truthful until
>The worst delude themselves and erase that part of themselves denying their identity.
truth is that as a wizkid it is inevitable that you will try to interact with society, maybe even succubi, because you are programmed to do it by nature and as a wizkid you don't have self awareness.

it is also true that some people can't manage being "rejected" by society, which by the way actually means not being able to receive a desirable response from inherently stochastic system, which is for the most part comprised of filthy backstabbers. also there is a more severe case where an individual is unable to cope because of severe psychological damage inflicted by abusive cunts.

it is also true that some people find copes. what is absolutely wrong however, is that you call the rest being delusional.

a Wizard, that is gifted by nature with mind and wisdom of God succeeds to recognize futility of material existence and gives himself away to magic. he is happy with his magic and there is no cope in it, for cope is a state of man that hides from what he cannot overpower, while the Wizard is stronger that any material thing. he crushes them with a wave of his staff and proceeds to be happy.

this is way adopting magic and transcending into spiritual existence, while abandoning everything that belongs to this world is the only way to being happy. you just need more time to introspect

 No.292993

>>292989
i want also to bring up experiments with solitary confinement, which is known to destroy people's minds, and the lower intelligence the faster. solitary confinement is by no means healthy and somehow interferes with normal functioning of body. the most interesting part that it's not about actually talking to people, but about having some interaction with other beings which are perceived to be alive. remove all life from your life and you die as well. that's why if you're a hardcore neet you just won't be able to quit posting unless you have severe mental issues

 No.293001

>>292992
We are just human. You are not free from being corrupted or hurt by this world. Some people won't ever recover from the abuse and hurt.

 No.293003

>>292988
At first it was a little hard and complicated to face, reaching my lowest point where for a couple of months I became obsessed with a succubus who does live shows, I always felt shame and disgust for this fact, but well, I was 14 years old. Now 8 years later, I feel that even because of the atrocity of my actions, I feel a kind of affection for myself, since although I know that my family loves me, I often feel that I am the only one with whom I can share, dialogue, And who can I count on?
Love comes from acceptance, forgiveness, and honesty. In some way I accepted the violence, and forgive my mistakes, also as a kind of defense mechanism I often quickly forget what I did, and it is difficult for me to remember it. That's why the moments where I feel most alone are where I abandon myself, leaving aside everything that makes me a great person, and turning into a monster.

 No.293004

>>292989
I always fervently believed that my violence comes from 3 places, first from growing up and living in a violent environment, from biology that tends to impulsiveness, and from social isolation. The problem is that after a couple of years in isolation it is difficult to find people with whom to relate. I thought that doing a sport would help, but I became very ill with Covid and later dengue fever, which left me very physically ill. I went to the shrink to find out. Help with some better drug, but due to fatigue he prescribed drugs that worsened my weight, and above all turned me into an empty shell.
And although deep down I still believe that sports can help me, the truth is that so much time without doing physical activity makes it very difficult, and I honestly feel that due to my age I have already passed the train.

 No.293006

>>293001
that's right, but that's not a reason to stop trying to become happier. depression has a way of making you feel as if you can never recover, while in reality you might just need to brace yourself ten times harder to overpower depression. in this way i appreciate wizards who even after turning 30 years old keep trying to find new ways to reach happiness, and no matter how much they rant and despair, each day they find strength to try once more.
>>293004
being violent harms you mentally, consider working on becoming less violent.

 No.293009

>>292992
>truth is that as a wizkid it is inevitable that you will try to interact with society, maybe even succubi, because you are programmed to do it by nature and as a wizkid you don't have self awareness
It's like the other anon says, isolation promotes hostility. So I'm not going to lie to you if from time to time I wish to have a good friend or a partner, or something similar, so as not to appreciate them, I never lash out against them or against anyone, showing these people that I am someone who I am not, until I can inevitably control these emotions. After thinking about it for a while, I realized that ultimately what I really want is not to have a partner, friends, or something similar, what I really want is to leave violence aside using whatever method is necessary.

>it is also true that some people can't manage being "rejected" by society, which by the way actually means not being able to receive a desirable response from inherently stochastic system

Loneliness is a feeling that comes from rejection, whether it is your own or someone else's. The problem is that many individuals do not understand that when they are rejected by someone else, it is not them who is wrong, but the other person for having rejected them. Also things like the "system", or "society", vary a lot, and in general within them there are parts that are more decent than others, since for example you can say that society is shit, but you are really talking about a determined part of it, and not of the entire set itself.

 No.293010

>>293006
I really don't know how to do it. The drugs don't work and they left me naked, I live in a place where there is a certain degree of violence, I feel too old and weak to start a sport, I feel that if I leave I will escape isolation. and have friends, a girlfriend or just people, we will inevitably meet again, I don't know where, I don't know when, but I know that we will meet again on some sunny day.

 No.293012

>>292993
It is what it is. I have my family, and myself, I honestly don't think I need anything else.

 No.293015

>>293010
drugs are not supposed to work btw, but i hope you understand that i can't realistically give any specific advice, even if i knew your exact situation. but you'll figure it out. if you really, with your mind and soul start perceiving damage that you do to yourself by being violent, you'll start figuring something out. you know better. also i don't actually understand why being violent harms you. there's is some subtle difference between wounding somebody else because it is required by reason and doing it on a whim. likely i'm just crazed though :D

 No.293018

>>293010
Explore Jung's idea of the shadow and then research and work on shadow integration. (Try to avoid the new-age motivational iterations if you can, and stick close to the source material.) Jung wrote, "No tree can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell."
I have a feeling you might ascend one day, anon.

 No.293020

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>>293003
that is good anon, I feel teh same way towards myself. Although I also have family, they judge me off of assumptions leading them to not truly understand me, therefore with them - I do not feel truly loved, my true feelings and thoughts are repressed to fit into the model which they will feel affection towards, it is not me.

 No.293036

>>292931
>crab forum
State which forum is this ? is it some censor ?

 No.293044

>>293036
That poster is mentally ill and low iq and hasn't even reached his 30s.

 No.293045

>>292960
>i know i know, being a crab
https://youtu.be/BIsZa5DPvTs

 No.293046


 No.293047

>>293045
>>292931
>lacks basic wizard knowledge such as the fact that crabs are amazing
>it's oblivious about the coconut crabs who are the greatest and biggest land-dwelling arthropod chads

You should come back when you have something to offer besides your butthurt, kid.
Chad Wizard Coconut Crabs Are The Kings of The Wizard Land Cracking Open The Skulls of Normalniggers Like Coconuts.

Yep, crabs won.

 No.293049

>>293047
crabs have only "won" the mortal battle, which is outside the domain of magic. you just kinda flooded in and that's it. that's why you're so hilarious. i just sit here up my tower of high sorcery and look down at you while throwing some sticks for you to chew. think hard about your victory, what did you gain as prize? now nobody stops you from lamenting about not getting laid. nobody will now prevent you from being unhappy. great victory indeed, and worthy of such as you!

 No.293055

>>293047
Toads are better. They protect the home from all kinds of insects, from cockroaches, mosquitoes, to rats. In my house we had many toads, but they died from the cold.

 No.293210

>>293020
I feel truly loved, but it is still difficult for me to forgive the fact of leaving myself locked up for so long.
I know you have to turn the page, but it's difficult when half the book is burned.

>my true feelings and thoughts are repressed to fit into the model which they will feel affection towards, it is not me

Family is important, but more important is yourself. You have to show yourself and express yourself as you are, regardless of anything or anyone.

 No.293334

>>293015
I'm going to be completely honest with you. Violence, impulsivity, and all that, does not feel bad, on the contrary, it feels good, and hardly generates later regrets, since my father previously beat me and my mother. Many times I also react in a bad way by breaking something, or some similar rubbish, but many times I do it out of desperation more than anything else, especially with my mother or my grandmother, since although violence is understood only as hitting, and break up, the reality is that verbal violence is also violence, and that every time it happens it really destroys me, and even if I try to talk and calm the situation, they never stop, so I threatened to break a certain thing, and I asked them to calm down, but they never did, something ended up broken, with more problems, and everything would get worse.

In a twisted way, my mind adapted to the violence, forgetting the facts, forgiving them, and justifying them. This both in own acts and those of others.

 No.293335

>>292926
Another great video game was Metal Gear Solid V, and although I really don't think they are games for someone who is 13 years old, they still helped quench bad feelings.
And although I hated the screen with all my being, in one way or another it helped me stay calm. Something similar happens with violence, it is detestable in every way, but when you are a slave to it, it feels really calming.

 No.293345

>>292925
>the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist.
Everyone is like that. Some people are just better at suppressing or hiding it. succubi are like that as well. If you got to really know someone, you would find out disgusting things about them. No human can ever really be "good." That is a lie people tell to themselves and others. You are on the correct path to realizing it. Our desires drive us insane. The only way to attain sanity is to cease wanting.

 No.293350

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>>293345
If you hide the violence long enough, it eventually dissipates. Many people are not violent or aggressive for that reason, they usually hide their emotions, they don't cry, nor do they usually appear angry, and they keep all that shit to themselves. I'm not saying that you have to hit, break things, and act like a maniac, but expressing anger in a coherent way, without doing any of the above is really beneficial, the same thing happens with sadness, if you keep these feelings to yourself. and does not cry, does not feel it, and remains apathetic, it will only get worse.

>Our desires drive us insane. The only way to attain sanity is to cease wanting.

A very great truth. Most of the sadness comes from things that we want and that we cannot have, that is why a life in peace and tranquility is about wanting less, and valuing more what we have, and when better things come than we expect, we we will feel better. That's why although I consider myself an optimistic person, pessimism is ironically part of this, since generally I always try to see the worst possible scenario, and try to mitigate it before it happens.
And despite having said all of the above, there are things that even though I know they will happen, I really can't help but feel terribly bad, like the shouting, or the loud arguments. Like when a soldier feels the terror of past moments every time fireworks are fired, or like when an autistic child finds the noise so unpleasant and annoying that he will do everything possible to stop it.

 No.293355

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>The fact that I can't have a girlfriend destroys me.
>I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really?
This video reminds me what I wrote above. Sometimes I think that people who are like that are weak and submissive, but looking at things objectively they are just a little more civilized and normal.



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