Alcoholism
Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?Depression Crawl Thread LXX
Vent your shit here that is not deserving of its own thread editionSuffering from illness with no suicide method available
Every morning I'm nauseous, really nauseous, sometime I puke and when I'm not nauseous I get random abdominal pain.Being "human"
Is anyone else lacking formative, human experiences? I've never:I hate sex
It's completely fucking evil. I hate living in a world where it even exists, much less one where it's celebrated. It's something 99% of men do, they don't even think twice about it. I feel completely alienated from humanity because of this. Every time I read or hear something about it I get this pit in my stomach and a sense of impending doom. It used to give me panic attacks, but now it only fills me with unbridled rage.Why am I not happy?
Why am I not happy? I have nothing, my physical and mental health is ruined, I'm broke in debt dying from addiction, stuck in a SHITHOLE house with family that I hate. There's nothing left and I've been dead for years. Why am I not happy about ending it? I don't even do anything cause I'm too tired sleep all day can't eat cause my teeth are falling out and once xans end I will be a vegetable. Just end me.Autism
I fucking loathe being autistic, I fucking hate how I can have articulate thoughts in my head yet can only muster and spew out the same few fucking phrases irl because I’m caught off guard and don’t know what to saylife is tough
Same day Different shit I am 28M got a useless degree live in a shithole 3rd world country didn't work in my life all i do is consuming media watching twitch and movies i had a fight with my mom once and i lost my temper and beat her before so she forced me to go to mental insuition like rehab and forced to take meds i stayed like 6 monthes i sometimes i want to finish it all wondering how i have to hold so much longer than this and do i have to keep waiting till i reach 50 or 60.Inability to speak properly
Any other wizards here that have trouble with speaking "normally" or pronouncing certain letters? This kind of thing occurs naturally to normalfags and it really is just something that should come inherent to everyone. I've had times when I think I'm talking normally but people tell me to stop yelling, or other times when I think I'm talking in above average volume and people tell me I'm being silent. I also struggle to pronounce the letter "s" properly and sound like a spazz which has made me actively avoid certain words. It's just another one of those things that has made me realize how we and normalfags live in an entirely different state of existence. I remember how Chris Chan used to get bullied for his voice among other things, I'm not sure if it is an autistic trait or a consequence of my reclusive life but it has made my anxiety in public worse, and has also totally ruined my dreams of starting a music project one day9 months until death, what are some good things to do until then
i have got 9 months until i am free from this world, so while im still here i was wondering what would be the best way to spend my time, just playing vidya? i have no friends both irl and online, watching shows/animes that i see happy people / people with relationships and stuff makes me have anxiety and i really despise people,i just want to spend my time cozy, hyper obsessed with something that doesnt have any connection whatsoever with the real world, i was thinking about getting into an extreme grindy (no p2w) mmorpg if there is one, any recommendations are appreciated thanks fellow wizsCompanion animals
My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.Anti-Suicide General 2
Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.No hope for autists
Whitepillers don't have a retort for autism. You can get a good degree, pursue your hobbies and work on your self esteem but if you have autism you will never make it in this anti-autistic world, Life is all about one thing. Being born without autism. If you're born without autism the normies will make excuses for you, help you out, share money with you, give you 100 chances, etc. Meanwhile if you have autism you're evil and creepy just for existing and blinking the wrong way. Everybody gets to live for free except autists and only autists who are given this fake ass "you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps and make your life" "you gotta amount to something" "innovation" story. Shit that literally no one else has to follow.Minimizing Depression
Let's discuss strategies for getting rid of pessimistic thoughts. No negativity allowed in this thread.Anhedonia. The inability to feel pleasure.
The inability to anticipate pleasure but the ability to anticipate effort, hardship leave me in a state of stagnation.Is there any compassion for failed people like us in the world?
Do you think normies could ever accept us or even tolerate us for real? It's obvious that absolute majority people is repulsed by a NEET lifestyle, failed dating/life/work experience, motivational or existential problems. Do you think there's a space for us to exist at all? Is it acceptable, is it planned for? Or we are truly just the trash of the world that should be cut out from society the sooner the better?Being a massive loser amongst family members
Does any of you get irritated with family gatherings or when guests come to visit you in your family's house?Neurotypicals said I'm too quiet and want to fire me
I literally got top employee performance of the year two times in a row for exemplary performanceby corporate (not to mention I do unpaid overtime)dehumanization due to lack of truly human connection
Isolation has carved me in its image and likeness. The presence of another person- of any person whatsoever - instantly slows down my thinking, and while for a normal man contact with others is a stimulus to spoken expression and wit, for me it is a counterstimulus, if this compound word be linguistically permissible. When all by myself, I can think of all kinds of clever remarks, quick comebacks to what no one said, and flashes of witty sociability with nobody. But all of this vanishes when I face someone in the flesh: I lose my intelligence, I can no longer speak, and after half an hour I just feel tired. Yes, talking to people makes me feel like sleeping. Only my ghostly and imaginary friends, only the conversations I have in my dreams, are genuinely real and substantial, and in them intelligence gleams like an image in a mirror.Lost enthusiasm toward university
All my life I believed that studying guaranteed a future, a job, comfort, and a certain circle of good people from a certain social class that was educated and maybe healthy and more good compared to the environment I was born into (I saw this with other people and i knew this vision was true)Heading for hell in a few weeks
Last year I did a community college course in construction, it was a nice little multi skills course in a small building in the middle of nowhere where, there were only 100 or so people there, it was great, unfortunately I failed to get an apprenticeship and have to do another community college courseDepression Crawl Thread LXIX
Chronic physical pain, insomnia and povery, editionwhy shouldnt we all just kill ourselves?
most of us are so fucking unattractive, retarded, uneducated, unlovable, lazy/unambitious etc… that there is no point in continuing this misery.One of parents is sick with cancer, need advice
I've left this place for the last couple of years. But I'm returning back. I need advice and you're the people with more knowledge about this. One of my parents suddenly became sick with cancer, likely will turn terminal soon. I'm finally past 30. I left this place because I felt that I matured, being here reminded me too much of my younger self.The Fatigue
How do you guys deal with fatigue, if at all. Some days are better but just when you think you're beginning to get a grip again you just wake up and know exactly that you landed back at the bottom of the hole again. Everything is a herculean effort, even typing this out my eye lids are heavy despite being only late afternoon and me having slept for at least 8h last night. No matter what steps I take, sleeping properly, eating better, hell I even started doing some basic exercise every day to get the blood flowing a bit. None of it matters. All of this hard work and it's completely meaningless because I can't seem to get better in a consistent way that matters.I'm tired
I'm nervous because I've tried so many times and it never worked.this diseased world
maybe all this is just a dream, a very long bad dream. this current era these people with no empathy for one another, this corrupt government and this polarization is just getting to me.fear of keeping up?
I've heard a lot about "fear of missing out"/"fomo". But I have a different kind of fear that doesn't really make sense in my mind: a fear of keeping up with things, or, a fear of catching up.The fact that I can't have a girlfriend destroys me.
I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.Anhedonia
How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?Joining the Army
It seems I have no other choice, unfortunately. Because of the lack of jobs where I live and my family now turning my life into hell because they openly despise me, I can't see any other way but to join the army and do at least one year of military service, given that it's the only job that practically always is open for literally anyone, and to get in you just have to want it.Nobody's there anymore
I can't move on. Everyone already did but I can't. Nobody remembers me. Trying to reach them is pointless, they avoid me like the plague. My parents told me lots of anecdotes from when they were young. They had friends and an extended family, they went on adventures, they cried and laughted, they grew up with lots of friends. They don't see them much nowdays but if they see each other on the street they cheerfully greet them. Their friends are happy to see them. Mines aren't. I dream about them everyday. Some of them, the original duo from my late childhood, I haven't talked to them in almost 15 years. The others, more "recent", haven't seen them in 10. Time keeps marching on. I stay the same.Wellbutrin
First things first: I don't ask for comments how bad antidepressants generally fuck you up long time and make how all of them you a zombie. You can save this critique for other threads.existential dread-dying backup
How do I make a "backup" of legal, medical, economic, etc- instructions in case I, indeed, suddenly die of any random cause on any given day? Things such as: DNR orders\status , stopping myself from having my organs harvested whilst Im alive (organ "donation"), stuff such as ,in my case, declaring I will NOT have a funeral or even burial, Im dead don't waste cash in me, let the State deal with my corpse, or what to do with my investments\ savings\ funds\ belongings.High IQ cry thread
or: Born to think, taught to stink.Suicide general
This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.Perhaps I was lucky, in my misfortune
I wrote that story here about 3 years ago. In short - when I was young a bully in school was aiming laser pointer at me. It can be dangerous. It can make a huge black hole in your vision, if you re unlucky.This website is scary.
There are a whole hosts of posts here where we explain how we're dependent upon our parents and how when they die we will die with them, I am starting to think that the lack of money is a real problem.Disease Thread
This thread is for the discussion of the greatest misfortune in existence that is disease.Anti-Suicide General
The purpose of this thread is to counter the general tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads. This thread will therefore feature practical advice about reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.250 hours left to stay alive
Hey, it's me your resident disgusting nonhuman junkie Benzo spammer. I finally ran out of all ways to get money and I don't even have energy left to try scamming people so it's finally over. I would like to mention I had other reasons to self destruct, like countless debts, mentally ill family, no room to live in, endless diseases eg broken stomach hurts I can't eat and it feels like my spine broke and I'm so weak I'm dying from a walk. Apparently once I ran out of pills I'll have endless months of seizures and psychosis and might jump out of random windows after losing contact with reality.The City of Dreadful Night
"Why break the seals of mute despair unbiddenDo you feel like there is nothing to do online anymore?
Do you feel like there is nothing to do online anymore?I am tired of living ever since 2022...
Ever since that incident that hurts me deeply, I just want to die and get over it, but every living organism on this stupid rock is afraid of death.new rules
rule 1: NO new rules but this set of rules. no new thing to cling to. no idea or plan. you can even let go of all other rules and plans you have, except for this one.Anyone else fear suicide or death out of fear of being born into a third world hell?
After reading what it's like to be poor in Indis or one of those desperate bangladeshi guest workers 48 celsius Dubai heat for 200 dollars a month, I'm convinced hell already exists on Earth.Not being born into the first world and white is a severe handicap.
I know it's pointless for me to even think about what if I was born white and in the first world as there is nothing I can do to change it. But I have these thoughts frequently, just maladaptively daydreaming constantly how good life would have been if I was white.Death of the Uncool
Death of the Uncool - End of the Wizards VLife post the age of 30
36 years old Wizard here with Schizophrenia living with mom (dad died a long time ago) I don't have any qualifications or income I am disabled and there is no NEETbux in my under developed country my hairline is receding due to how much I stress on my future in every single hour once my mom passes away I will be beyond doomed nobody in my family will support me they all live far away and they can barely support their own survival let alone to support another useless eater my mom already has health issues but nothing too severe (yet) is it possible to turn my life around in this late ago? people say "it's never too late" God I wish my parents never gave birth to me I heard stories og people who spent decades in prison and left by their 40s and still ended up starting a business and buying a house but I can tell it's an abnormal case once you enter your 30s without any skills qualifications or are capeable of work the chance of you being capeable of turning your life around becomes too small.Hopelessly rotting everyday
I do nothing besides doomscrolling, going outside for a while and maybe read for an hour a day (if i can find a book that interests me) or watch an episode of some anime but the rest of the day is spent doomscrolling on my computer, I am too insomniac and have bladder issues to spend half or most my days sleeping to pass my days with sleep like many NEETs can do with ease, there is just no way for me to get out of this cycle, at least not on my own, I need money and connections, most importantly MONEY.I'm going bald
I'm going broke, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I went to 4 doctors to treat it, but none of them worked, and no matter how many medications I took, I was never able to overcome this problem. But these only caused me terrible side effects, such as fatigue, weight gain, apathy, a lot of disinterest in everything, and alopecia, but they were never able to attack the impulses. Violence never stops.Mad World
So my theory is that life is literally hell and we're designed to suffer. Think about how many living beings have been enduring diseases, murders, poverty, infections, mutilations, chronic conditions, abuse, torture, cold/hot weather, injuries, hunger, etc…the amount of suffering being endured on earth is absurd. Literally every single living being will experience a sheer amount of suffering during their life even if they win the lottery. From this we can say that reproduction is the core of all suffering, those that don't reproduce are saints. Our body is our main enemy, we don't even control our brain functions. It's legit to say we live in a mad world probably a mad universe and killing yourself is the only way out.poor family story
my parents were poor so was I (still am) and they told me if I have good grades they can buy me things but I know deep down they don't have the money to buy me things even if I had good grades.