I miss being a kid.I would do so much if it meant a chance to go back to those times, when life was carefree, where I didn't have to do anything to be loved, I simply needed to exist, everyone just treated me like I was so special, a true gift, but now there are so many expectations to live up to, responsibilities, you're expected to either work or starve, or, if you become a NEET like me, a lifestyle where you don't work, but still have your basic necessities taken care of, either by government or parents, you're looked down on and, if you leech off your parents like me, eventually they get sick of it, sick of you, even though none of us asked to be here in the first place. I wasn't suicidal back then, at all.
Piss jug strategy.>inb4 bleach
monke in wizard outfitI'm not even depressed as much as i know, but sometimes it can be really depressing to think about the shitty limitations provided by envirornment and genetics. Life can be more tedious than average when you IQ(WAIS-III)is below your shithole's average, as if it wasn't not enough to deal with these normies and their annoying local culture.The concept of libertarian free will is a mirage, but it's still kind of hard to accept that, i feel like i'm watching a autistic comedy movie.
pressure from parentsdo your parents force you to do anything?
Wageslave Generalend of the year and doing it all over again edition
I am too naive, I lost all of my savingsI know this will sound fun to a lot of you. My thread might also be deleted since it has no other purpose than talking about me. You can talk about yourself on that thread as well.
The most depressing thing you can think of.>>>/jp/32056
NeetSo say i have 1300 in neet money monthly, would that be enough to sustain myself/live off alone.
Does anyoen else feel old online or out of touch?I had always felt like an other online but it wasn't until 2017+ and especially the past two years I feel old online.
Suicide or LDAR?Is living worth it or no?
why are normies so scared of dying?i have literally never gotten scared about dying. i think it is a huge comfort knowing that i don't have to live forever in this dogshit life. think "i have no mouth and i must scream". however, i noticed that when normalcattle are reminded that they are going to die, they just get ass ravaged. nothing destroys them more than when someone dies. and they have to cope with all these shitty funeral rituals and religion to try and make themselves feel better. what is so scary about it? i mean it is just a natural fact. everybody who ever lived died. even the king of the jews they love so much.
Rejected no matter where I goI can't seem to find a place anywhere, not in normal society not in niche neet circles, the only question left is where do I go? where can I find a place where I won't be wished to leave if I don't act like someone else,
"Mental illness" "Depression"Anyone else feel like normal people literally cant imagine what it's like to be an ugly autistic genetic dead end. They think it must all be in the person's head and that if they're sad for years it must be depression. They refuse to face the fact that some people just had no chance in life as that makes their place in society feel more valuable; like they acomplished not being one of us failiures rather than get there by chance.
RamblingI'm just so tired of it all. All the politics, all the insanity, all the soulless people, all the puppeteers moving everyone's string and feeling like I'm the only sane person around me. The worst is how I envy the puppets, they seem so happy and carefree, while I suffer in silence, slowly being consumed. I want to die, yet I'm too weak to do the job myself. I'm a hopeless romantic, and yet I am a ghost, invisible to those around. Even online, where I should be among others like me, I'm alone and cast away from the groups. I'm """good looking""", yet only see my rotten remains. It angers me so much how crab types are usually right, I want them to be mentally ill nutjobs, to not take their outlandish convictions seriously. It feels like I was specifically cursed from birth to have this shadow over me as punishment or simply to entertain whatever or whoever casted it. I'm hardly a religious nor spiritual man but I can't help but *feel* it. I try to improve myself, take my meds and go to my therapy. It only dulls the pain, the sickness is still there. Beside, I find it more and more difficult to keep going when I'm broken beyond repair. Why waste everyone's time when the outcome will be the same? The worst of it all, is how deep down, I know it's all my fault.
Nothing in life is exciting anymore.31 years old and the copes I used to go to no longer really entice me.All I do all day is lay in bed will get up to eat,browse the internet,sleep maybe go on a walk sometimes. I could play a videogame,but never feel like it, anime, YouTube,twitch, nothing interests me.Food and sleep are the only two things that interest me anymore.
Insanity and IsolationIs anyone else growing insane because of total isolation? I don't even feel human anymore.I sleep away the days and stay up at nights. And i keep repeating. I don't even know anymore what to do. I haven't seen sunlight in long time. My mind feels so broken. I am so tired
End of the Wizards: Outside Looking InThe gatekeepers are dead and we're staring down the barrel.
Feeling like a waste of fleshI'm at college and I currently have no job, nearly everyone in my group is around the same age as me and has a job. I'm not trying hard enough or more like I'm being to lazy to motivate myself to do anything for myself. I fear that I will never be fully independent or responsible for myself.
wizardly symptoms>a list of the endured miseries by the peers around, feel free to include if I am missing anything:
Stuck living like a permanent childI've been living as a shut in neet since I was a preteen. I'm now in my late 30's and I still basically live like a kid. I'm not on disability and live with no income or allowance, no healthcare, I can't drive, I've never had a job before, never had any kind of relationship before real or egirl, kissless virgin, no friends. I can't go anywhere without being driven there by my parent and he doesn't take me anywhere except the grocery store. I've been trying to get him to take me to the library for about 7 years now but he won't do it.
This isn’t really an edgy or a sad postI’m just a fucking workaholic loser on a general basis and that’s pretty much my personality.
Therapy threadAnything related to therapy cna go here >///<
All victims aroundAm I surrounded by cowards for real? Is there not any single soul out there who ever bullied normgroids as they bully him? Is there not any single mind in this hive who, living it right now, does not think to hit terror back with terror?
Love youWizard brothers, if I were to kill myself or accidentally overdose.
How do I cope with the past?I am 22 years old and have literally spent on/off the last seven or so years trying to cope with the way I was insulted and mocked by nearly everyone in class,including literal succubus, whislt I just quietly sat there, taking the brunt of it. I would go into depth regarding my situation, but I don't want to be humiliated anyfurther.
holidays and being socialMy god i hate the holidays, it means being social and family time.
I hateI can't make it. Hard to cope with it. I've entirely relapsed to habitual use, escataping back to heavy drug use. It has been weeks that I crave an opiod every single day. And liquor and a benzo.
ImpotenceHow do you cope with not being able to get an erection?
You need to give upYou gain everything you never wanted so you need to give up. You may be an apprentice and sad about not having this or that but none of that shit matters.
How should I live?All of my dreams are dead. I know I'll never write a great book, create a video game, or make a movie because I'm both lazy and untalented. I know I'll never experience romance because I'm ugly. I know I'll never be rich because I've never had a job and I have no work ethic. I don't even know how old I am anymore, is it 27 or 28? Am I already 30? I don't know, every day just blurs together as I browse imageboards, walk the dog, and do household chores around my parent's house.
NormiesWhy is it that despite being friendly and trying to be nice, normies talk shit behind your back or just insult you.
Inability to effect outcomesWhat do you do when you try hard to make something happen and cultivate your skills, only for nothing to change? And then you try and change your approach and do something different and still nothing changes?
When was the first time you realize that women are sexually self sufficient and men are just useless50% of humanity will soon, if it didnt already, become useless. As procreation is becoming more and more the last concern of many people. Its strange how it remind me of universe 25 experiment when mice stopped breading.
How open are you with your struggle with mental health?I can't even hide it. Have never been able to, it has only gotten more visible and it has fully evolved to its full extent now that I am nearing 30.
The Ultimate Suicide CocktailMight sound like a dumb question but here's the thing:
Anyone else have way quite a few complications wih their health that is exacerbated by geneticsMy trashy genetics ruins everything. I literally look,feel and act like a retarded zombiee. People often laugh smile or loo kaway when they see me, my face is revolting. The the whites of my eyes have a extremely unpleasing yellow/brownish complexion to them,my my gums have receeded thanks to gingivitis and my poor oral hygiene, suffer from constipation and my ribs are literally sticking out. Also; I haven't slept properly in over 3 years and look as if I belong in a grave. I am 23 years old and I am meant to be in the prime of my life, yet here I am rotting in my bed, surviving on one small meal a day with a bit of fruit included. Everyone else on this website complaining about their health should consider themselves lucky in comparison to me.
Life has no meaning, fuck it tell me weird shit to do.Im tired of leaving this stupid boring life with no surprises and no startling events whatsoever. I've decided that I'm killing myself and nothing has any meaning so before i do that, i want you to tell me random crazy shit to do. Like but keep it possible, im a pathetic coward and i wont be like cutting of my dick or joining the ISIS so just tell me like stupid random shit to do that might sound cool or new. Even if they are insane like reading every garlfiend comic ever or something, wih luck, when im done with it maybe i'll have something to care about or that i enjoyed doing. Again, please keep it possible for a stupid virgin like me to do, also i dont have the money to just "travel the world" so dont pull that bs pls. thank you so much
How to cope with cringe?I know this might sound off, but it's something that really bothers me.
circumsizedI cant jerk off. my cock feels nothing. no frenulum left, not even remanent. cut tight, my dick points to the left because skin is so tight. glans is dry all the time. my fetish is foreskin and phimosis hentai now because I want foreskin so much especially when its erect and the foreskin cover the glan then the bitch lick it to uncover the glans. no rigid band, no gliding sensation. I will have to resort to anal to feel good when masterbating now so I guess im gay until my foreskin grows back.
i hate people who are socially competenti was reading about this 15 year old kid who lived in my town, and he was a legit psychopath and he killed his mom. and one of his (female) teachers came out in support of him and said that he was a great kid and didnt deserve his punishment and all that shit. and everyone knows that they were fucking.
I have no desires.Or at least no desires that I care about enough to put in the effort that they demand from me to come true. My college semester is finally over and I'm on my break, as a kid this sort of break was like being in heaven for a couple of months, all of the time in the world to do all of the fun things I like, like watching films, anime and shows, reading comics and manga, and playing video games. I have all of the time in the world just like before, I can do any of those things, I have all of the entertainment in the world available to me, so many activities I can go outside and do too, but I don't care, there's nothing I genuinely want to do, I have no energy to do anything, no drive, no goals, no dreams, no objectives at all, and it all sounds so boring, and tiresome too, just the idea of having goals, that you'll have to work for and will naturally bring stress and misery, but might not even bring fulfillment, and even if it does it only lasts for a brief moment before we go to the next go, we're naturally never satisfied. I feel like a dead man in a living man's body, just existing and waiting for time to pass, but time passes by so slowly, so very slowly.
5150 general - succubus stole his mana in my sleep edition5150 thread I guess, share stories, tips, tricks, momentos, journals, rants and raves, illnesses, ward photos, complaints. Thread question: did you score a sweet prescription to get high on yet?
Dead Parentslost my father when i was 21 , live whit bedridden grandmother for decade , and just now my mother died ,i have noone,have no inheritance ,norelatives because i do not have bio parents im just picked from the streets just great, feels like Guts i cant conecnt to noone, feel odd,maybe im FREE now
pls respondI am having a bad reaction. Got a mood swing. Feeling scared. Got a very low mood, can't stop thinking about suicide and self-harm.
Are all forums/chans destined to slowly rot away?At first I thought I'm just getting older, but whenever I find a place for myself, sooner or later I realize how bad it becomes. Before I blink, the place I got used to is just gone. I don't know how to get over this.
Wiz mental health 2021Any of you actually diagnosed with psychiatric shit? You probably rely on meds for your daily life, or been to jail or the psych ward. List goes on.
Anxiety and paranoia ruining my lifeI haven’t been able to consistently leave the house for the past 8 years, you know how people say “things get easier the more you do them”? Well it’s the complete opposite for me, the more I am involved in a public place such as trying to get an education the more the paranoia builds, until I can’t take going there any more. I am 26 years old an I have never had a job and I have no education beyond highschool and some random college classes I managed to get through with heavy medication.
sleep deprivationHas anyone else gone long periods on inadequate sleep? I'd imagine this board is full of insomniac wizzes. My story:
Hiro-chanAround late 2016, the long-form suicide note of a 28 year-old Japanese man (which had been saved in the Internet Archive) made its way here. I remember this in incredibly vivid detail because of how moving it was: he detailed how he dropped out of high school at the age of 16 in 2004, lived with his mom, and did little other than play video games. He detailed his childhood crushes in full, including school yearbook photos and their full names, and described how he used to visit one's house. He documented how his mother openly lamented his pitiful state, saying things like "I gave birth to you? For what?" and how he punched holes in the walls of his room in anger.
Advice from fellow NEETs.Hello, I really need help right now, most specifically from any fellow NEETs on the board.
The UN got my favourite website shut down...>https://gab.com/american_futurist/posts/107322415632159680
At what age can you not turn your life around?>29