2brainlet4codingI haven't given up yet, but I know I'm not getting very far.
CatchMy mother caught me about to overdose last night. She cried and hugged me. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to upset her despite the shit she's put me through, but I can't take existence. Nothing is going right. The only thing keeping me sane is h, and I'm so deep in debt that I can't afford more. I want to close my eyes and have the world disappear. I want to surf through my own ideal, surrounded by joy. I've lost so much.
Risking death trough sleep avoidanceWhats the longest youve been awake? Did you trip?
Your corpseWhat do you wish for there to happen to your corpse after you die?
Fasting unto death>can more or lesa be stopped if you change your mind
SuicideMy 33rd birthday in a month, but im deciding to check out early.
Wanting to give away what others wish so much forOne thing that has depressed me is the bunch that wanted life and could not get it.
Joining the armyAny wizards considered joining the military in some form?
RuinSo we all know equality is a scam, and the economy is a pyramid scheme, so how do you cope trying to find security in an inherently unsafe world?
AdviceI'm desperate, i need a job to move out but so far nobody wants to hire me. I want to leave home maybe move to my grandparents house and pay part of the rent. Being at home there's a lot of tension and i just want to be alone.
Anti-DepressantsAnyone here tried those? What did they do.
Living in a poor country is hellI mean it's bad enough the world is utter shit and I'm forced to slave my ass off for pieces of paper until I die but the mere fact i can't even see the efforts of my work at the end of the day, it's fucking mad!
Is suicide really ethically bad in the current environment?This stupid skit (embed related) still gets to me. That's me. I'm that loser, in-the-way, mediocre, never-going-to-invent-shit guy who's in front of you counting out change when you're getting your groceries. I'm that fucking idiot who awkwardly can't decide where he's going nearly causing an accident and holding up a bunch of people who've got shit to do. I'm the one draining my family's resources for a dead end. At some point I have to be asking myself, "Should I really bother being around?"
End of the Wizards III : Who comes after us?Looking back at the last two threads there seems to be somewhat of a general consensus that we've come to some kind of …impasse(?), that if we're not the last wizard, we will be the last wizards of our kind.
I can't even speak to the opposite sexFor about 4 years now I have spoken to a female zero times when ever I am approached by a female which I pretty rare I can't even say hi. I am basically a mute when females are around. The reason for me not being able to talk to females is extreme mental trauma from middle and high school from females that would harass me and bully me for years. All I can think about when a female approaches me are those bully's from high school. I really don't know what to do at this point.
CREATE YOUR OWN LIFE
edgy degenerateHow i do stop being a complete edgelord? most conversations i have devolves into goth tier loathing and in the few voice chats i tried forcing myself to join i could only say slurs and make everyone mad at me. at least part of it is due to the fact that one of my only dopamine sources is unironically watching gore videos and sometimes masturbating to dead succubi. i have practically no social skills and im a dead end autistic schizo loser who is quite possibly the ugliest scariest most boring man alive. any ideas? thanks.
Sick and old>Be a wizard
Psychotic DepressionWondering if any other wizards suffer from this, so here's a General thread for depression with psychotic features and other psychotic/quasi-psychotic disorders.
ostracised and despised everywhere I goin every community I have tried to fit in with I wasn't really welcome especially if I didn't act particularly reserved or spoke my mind/ was "myself".
The effects of increasing competitivenessCompared to 20-30 years ago and earlier, having a meaningful impact in any field or area of interest is at least an order of magnitude more difficult, due primarily to an increase in competition in all fields. This is normally mentioned in the context of how it affects the average person, like how a college degree isn’t an edge anymore. The effects of this on ambitious people are even more severe, though. It’s not possible to keep up with and contribute to the state of the art in anything unless you are an extreme workaholic with no neuroses or vices whose household is entirely taken care of by someone else.
delaying the inevitable>zoomer, turning 21 in a couple weeks
this city>main sidewalks are 3 feet away from speeding cars
Is knowledge harmful? Ae normalfags right?Is it better to be a normalfag? a non thinking drone content with the simple pleasures and thus immoral to lead others to questioning the world around them and having an open mind?
How did it get this bad?Everything is bullshit. Everything is a lie.
Life Sucks CompetitionMy life sucks ass in a degree that I am sure exceeds infinitude. I am in a panera bread in the middle of a snow storm in Boise, Idaho. This is a quasi-help request. I do not fit in at all as a homeless man and I am scaring myself and others. I do not use drugs or alcohol because those are pretty much immediate "GO TO JAIL" cards analogously. I am trying to go to school and I fear that I am going to be arrested any day for being homeless here as it is a low-crime and low-homeless area. Wizards, please make me feel better. Please, tell me that your life sucks more than mine.
Life is HellDon't even try.
There's no escaping the universeEven if humanity were to colonize the universe, it would all be meaningless. Yes, there are other planets with resources and stuff. So what? How is that special? How is that unique? How is that significant in any way?
Inventory is emptyReading the end of the wizards thread I wondered:
Self-medicating through foodDo you ever self-medicate depression through eating food?
At what age can you not turn your life around?>29
Have you ever had/lost a friend online?Usually Wizards are solitary steering clear from socializing in any form so they may concentrate on uncovering the mysteries of the universe as is our nature however on a rare occasion when out foraging for medicinal herbs or traveling along the plains we come across another wizard and against all odds form a friendship.
GrudgesThis thread is for posting grudges you hold. Whether it be against a person, place, thing, idea, what do you hate? You don't need to explain why, but you can if you want.
Keep getting arrested for doing nothing.Guys I was just sitting around just sitting and like five PA U.S.A Cops arrested me, detained me for two days, and then put me on house arrest, for doing literally nothing. I'm off house arrest now, my internet and phone services have been restored, and I just have to say, what the fuck. Does anyone know what is going on. I've been banned from both 4chan AND reddit for mentioning this and it's fucking horrible.
womenthe funniest part about the female is their focus on being kind and empathetic. i have not met a single succubus in my whole life who has had the empathy and goodheartedness of an average guy. im genuinely convinced they feel very little empathy or remorse for whatever reason. its also funny how little we can do in our world without succubi interjecting into whatever youre doing and making everything just a little more difficult. videogames, tv, films, books, art. its all been ruined by or ‘for’ succubi. genuinely besides basic neccesities try to think of a hobby or task or anything you do that hasnt been made harder by succubi. i dont hate succubi for this even its just so amazing how worshipped they are
How do you take a break from the internet when it becomes a chronic addiction?I've seen way way too much shit today to quickly, finding pedo shit on tor browser, a Nigerian succubus locked up in a cage that got tortured for 8 months, finding out what 2 babies 1 fox was, finding out the case of raymond fife and 100s of brutal reports of black on white violence. I'm too fucking scared and sad and I need a break considering I've seen shit like that on the internet for god knows how long man but never that much awful shit that quickly in a fucking day
Weird MentalityI was born with weird mentality. I give you few examples of it.
EnvyI always feel so uncomfortable when I am around someone more attractive than me or more successful than me. I hate hearing about other people’s achievements. I never buy anything I don’t absolutely need or watch videos so as to not give other people money and views and contribute to their success. I am a firm believer in secular humanism and believe that all successful people work hard to get to where they are, even though my rational side knows this isn’t true. Nevertheless I am a secular humanist.
"mentally ill" but do not think you areAny other wizards here relate to being officially mentally ill but not actually feeling mentally ill or at least only a little?
Alternatives to suicideOk wizzies, if the ultimate cope is not suicide, then what is it?
Unable to participate in reality on any level -- Perpetual ObserverEverything in this world seems designed to taunt me. I thought I won a small victory over reality by quelling my desire for material things, but in return I've been saddled with an "intellectual" thirst and something approaching a creative drive. That seems like a fitting pursuit for those with a certain level of detachment from society, and indeed the histories, philosophies and natural sciences enjoy an avid readership among the niche imageboard crowd–this one being no exception.
Do you think normalfags are happy?In sad and depressing days like this one I can't help but wonder if normalfags are happy, don't misunderstand it's not like a want a gf and sex but the few times I see normies they seem happier and more well adjusted than me, I wish I could just live a day in my life without my awful suicidal thoughts, without the pain, the fear, the sadness, without feeling like the entire world wants to destroy my psyche, I would like to laugh, to go to a coffee shop being happy and calm, I would like to say "Yeah today was a very good day" just because existence didn't hurt that day.
It's Kind of a Funny StoryDid anyone else watch this movie or read the book?