Suicide GeneralThe last suicide general has hit the bump limit.
At what age can you not turn your life around?>29
Is knowledge harmful? Ae normalfags right?Is it better to be a normalfag? a non thinking drone content with the simple pleasures and thus immoral to lead others to questioning the world around them and having an open mind?
Losing MotivationEspecially when it comes to games, I've lost all motivation to do anything with my self. Even getting up in the morning is exhausting.
any of you guys have bad experiences with infinite content pools?I end up spending all day on youtube and constantly refreshing forums holy fuck I hate it just reblocked youtube, it's horrible how these sites are designed, my fucked up brain may have something to do with it though.
dep reaction imagesPost your most relatable depression reaction pictures. I have a folder of these and looking at them, recognizing myself in them makes me feel better. As if someone out there shares my thoughts and feelings, even though the pictures are mostly cartoons and animals. It's an illusion, but somehow it helps.
Anti-DepressantsAnyone here tried those? What did they do.
neetdomI'm so tired and depressed i don't even know how i would hold down a job and i'm applying for a job in 2 weeks
Self HarmFigured I'd make a thread about it
Irreversible Personality DamageCan we have irreversible personality damage ?
Every interpretation is a misinterpretationPerspective blinds objectivity. Status blinds objectivity. Race blinds objectivity. Religion blinds objectivity. Ideology blinds objectivity. Sex blinds objectivity. We are ceaselessly speaking into the void for a hint of cerebral pleasure. What is the best way to look at something? Obviously, I am so blinded that I cannot give a genuine answer. Are facts the only reality? I seriously sound like an idiot… shall I read a book? It's seriously just another blinder to make my reality more opaque. I am not a wizard… I do not speak like one. I won't pretend to be one. My words won't twist to appease any zeitgeist, or flavor of person. I am not a sycophant.
What even is the point in doing anything?What's the point in doing anything if we are all going to die, I mean if I were to die right now my life "experience" would be exactly the same than if I were to die at 99 after curing cancer and creating space colonies, to be precise, I would experience nothing, the end result of life is the same no matter what you do while alive, non existence. The king and slave are the same once they are in the grave, just a rotting sack of flesh and bones, sure the king may have more history books written about him, but it's not like he will ever have the chance to read them. And of course the psychologist will say "oh that's the depression talking, you have a warped view", but is it really? Is there anything really wrong with what I just said? It just seems to me that nothing is worth doing in life, no goal can justify the pain and suffering of working to achieve it. What do you think about this?
Unable to participate in reality on any level -- Perpetual ObserverEverything in this world seems designed to taunt me. I thought I won a small victory over reality by quelling my desire for material things, but in return I've been saddled with an "intellectual" thirst and something approaching a creative drive. That seems like a fitting pursuit for those with a certain level of detachment from society, and indeed the histories, philosophies and natural sciences enjoy an avid readership among the niche imageboard crowd–this one being no exception.
Moving OutLet's say that you are in a situation where you somehow have enough money to move out and live on your own, but possess about 0 social skills or living skills, and even basic chores are challenging. But at home, you are stuck living in a shared room with your parents for 25 years. Would you move out?
SchadenfreudeDo you believe someone who find joy in other people's suffering and misfortune deserve to be happy?
Purgatory Hell LifeI am currently a homeless wizard, attending a small community college of bland, unimportant classes. I sleep in an abandoned house near my school for shelter and use the gym on campus for shower. I shop at Walmart and Dollar Tree and I hate life - I hate existence. Why couldn't reality have been perfect? Why did it have to be a shitty survival game that sucks ass? I am $5,000 in debt this semester and my classes are retarded. I have no friends and my family thinks I'm an alcoholic freak even though I'm not drinking anymore, hence why I'm homeless. Being around people honestly makes me infuriatingly angry, they actually ruin anything beautiful with their hostile emotions.
Life is HellDon't even try.
Inventory is emptyReading the end of the wizards thread I wondered:
going outside is exhaustingHey wizzies, I noticed that when I'm moreso depressed if I happen to go out for a walk or something. I get mentally exhausted like to the point of yawning. Like theres cars going by, people doing stuff, stuff happening around. I can't take it. It's too much. Maybe its just this place that irks me. I'm looking forward to moving to a quiet place.
Best cope for being dumb as hell?So an incident in my life has lead me to become deeply introspective of myself and one thing that I've realized is that I'm dumb as hell. Like, my intelligence is so minuscule that I won't ever master any kind of skill, whether that is mastering a game like Age of Empires 2 or learning and mastering coding languages. My memory and critical thinking skills are just too below the normal to even become decent at these things and there is nothing I can do to fix this, so the only thing left to do is to cope.
Lazy lazy assesI have a weird idea to cast here on wizchan (may the crabs around not get to butthurt by it): it's about posting motivational quotes that reflect things or quailities we cannot even understand due to our level of apathy, misery and lack of virtue.
Missing Out.Bitcoin. How many other Wizards, other than myself, missed out on their chance to eternal NEETdom? Personally, I've been aware of Bitcoin since 2009. I even mined it for a time before giving up. To rub salt in the wound further, I was even friends with many people who invested in it, yet never followed their example myself. While this is mostly due to the fact I was rather young at the time, even a small change of heart would have made me a millionaire right now.
Is wizard depression caused by social isolation? If so, why don't we enjoy socializing?I'm sure everyone knows the studies on monkeys in isolation and how they become depressed and unmotivated, how humans are social creatures and most people rely on social interaction to feel fulfilled, how solitary confinement in prison is seen as the most severe punishment for a prisoner, the thing is, if social isolation is shown to be so detrimental to people, why don't us wizards enjoy socializing? Why do we shy away from people and isolate when it's so bad for us? I honestly don't understand this about myself at all, if social interaction makes us anhedonic and depressed, and social isolation also makes us anhedonic and depressed, then what hope is there for any of us? Are we beyond saving? Are we fundamentally broken, like a bricked phone, stuck in a permenant state of faulty programming and boot loops?
Unable to relateI am unable to relate to nearly anyone online that expresses their misery for example the event that prompted this thread was seeing someone mention they are suicidal and plan to kill themselves and I sympathized at first only to read on and discover as usual it was a crab sad that he was alone without a GF and instantly I felt disgust.
Returning foreverI've seen this image posted around here many times and I think it warrants its own thread for discussion. It really gives a good visual summary of Schopenhauer's philosophically grounded idea of reincarnation:
sleep deprivationAny wizards have experience with long term sleep deprivation? By this I mean sleeping less than 7 hours a night for long periods of time. Since I started wagecucking full-time I have been working 7 to 3 and sleeping from 12 to 6 or sometimes 1 to 6 in terms of when I actually manage to fall asleep. I'm amazed at the lack of free time and even with what I do have I have less and less creative energy. Worse, I have begun to feel more and more dissociated from reality. Like I am not actually in my body. I've had this happen before. Age 13 I realized life was less real than it used to be. Age 16 I had another episode briefly but it wasn't persistent. But over this past year it's grown worse and I've had more and more common of these awful intrusive thoughts and other shit. I just care less and less about anything. Ideology religions philosophy I just don't give a shit. And I wonder if there is any way back? Any other anons have experience with long term sleep deprivation? How long before you felt normal again once resuming s normal sleep schedule?
Life Sucks CompetitionMy life sucks ass in a degree that I am sure exceeds infinitude. I am in a panera bread in the middle of a snow storm in Boise, Idaho. This is a quasi-help request. I do not fit in at all as a homeless man and I am scaring myself and others. I do not use drugs or alcohol because those are pretty much immediate "GO TO JAIL" cards analogously. I am trying to go to school and I fear that I am going to be arrested any day for being homeless here as it is a low-crime and low-homeless area. Wizards, please make me feel better. Please, tell me that your life sucks more than mine.
Suicide Note: For or Against It?If you lost a loved one to suicide, would you want to know why they did it?
edgy degenerateHow i do stop being a complete edgelord? most conversations i have devolves into goth tier loathing and in the few voice chats i tried forcing myself to join i could only say slurs and make everyone mad at me. at least part of it is due to the fact that one of my only dopamine sources is unironically watching gore videos and sometimes masturbating to dead succubi. i have practically no social skills and im a dead end autistic schizo loser who is quite possibly the ugliest scariest most boring man alive. any ideas? thanks.
Maxbe being a volcel is not that badI didn't know I'd turn out like this when I was a kid. I was slim I was a decent looking kid with full of life. I guess my good fortune left me the day when my old school closed down and I had to go to a shitty school in 3rd grade. I got outcasted and bullied by my classmates for being the less talkative shy kid. After that horrible year I started to develop bad eating habits and then I started 4th grade with some love handles around my waist. Well 4th grade was even better then 3rd grade was, we got a new classmate who was kind of a weirdo. We weren't exactly friends, he.. one time he punched my front tooth out during one of his temper tantrum. I also became near sighted in that year (hereditary) but I refused to wear my prescription glasses due to not being an ever bigger target for my bullies. Years went by in that toxic environment and from a bright child full of life became a loser. Because of my bad grades I could only apply to shitty secondary schools. I chose one with a good IT past because I was into computer games (who could've thought). But the school was nothing like it was advertised. IT meant for them teaching ms office lol. So that was a waste of 4 years with moron classmates who made every single day hell for me, teachers were also doucheturds there. Then the finals came I completed it and and got shitty, almost worthless grades. I was 18 then now a decade later here I am a complete burnt out loser, fat, ugly, face full of scars and vitiligo, crooked smile virgin and looking at myself in the mirror I'm starting to accept the reality that maybe I'm not meant to be a person who will pass his genes to the next generation but maybe a celibate till the end of my time on this earth. And you know what? Maybe that's fine too. Maybe I meant to be like this. Thinking about how things might've been different doesn't help…
Im actually glad wageslaves get abusedThe type of people who complain about having to work for low wages and long hours to pay for dogshit food and rent rat infested apartments are the same type of people that would be be first to get enslaved in the medieval era. The average person only needs to feed clothe and shelter themselves and if they're too stupid to address those priorities first so they can have a blanket of security if money gets dire then it's no surprise as to why millennials and zoomers advocate for communism while actual employers view their staff as low iq disposable shitheads that literally couldn't feed themselves without needing their precious salaries every week to month while people who live independently in developing nations could use that money far more usefully towards aiding those around them, hate paying for food then grow your own, hate paying every month for an apartment go buy a small patch of land and build shelter or fuck just buy a trailer, hate buying clothes then repurpose old clothes or ffs make your own. My god I despise poor people.
/BPD/ Borderline personality disorderMaking a thread for BPD discussion since the last one we had here has died.
Do you think normalfags are happy?In sad and depressing days like this one I can't help but wonder if normalfags are happy, don't misunderstand it's not like a want a gf and sex but the few times I see normies they seem happier and more well adjusted than me, I wish I could just live a day in my life without my awful suicidal thoughts, without the pain, the fear, the sadness, without feeling like the entire world wants to destroy my psyche, I would like to laugh, to go to a coffee shop being happy and calm, I would like to say "Yeah today was a very good day" just because existence didn't hurt that day.
The technological singularityThe singularity will not only be the salvation of humanity, but the salvation of all living beings on Earth from pointless toil. The singularity will establish a heaven on Earth for all beings and it will be beautiful.
Were you happy as a child?I am reading Elliot Rodgers My twisted world and an idea came to me I observed how he cherishes his childhood and was happy as a child and could not relate myself as my own childhood was fraught with misery and already present mental health issues so I am curious if other wizards were happy as a child?
NostalgyWhat a irony.
"mentally ill" but do not think you areAny other wizards here relate to being officially mentally ill but not actually feeling mentally ill or at least only a little?
I tried it allAnd none of it works.
Walking cadavreAnybody else feels like this? I am alive but I'm dead. Life has no sense for me and every thing I dreamed of is completely impossible. No mattee what I do nothing will ever change, even if I manage to do better there are outside things that make everything impossible and worthless, even worse now with this coronameme thing. So I just have no hopes nor anything, life in the past was shit and there will be no justice ever. I live in automatic mode, my past 4 years just passed by, I even get confused about when did stuff from past years happened, for example a mail that I was sure I received it in 2019 turned out to be from 2018. I can't kill myself, I've tried but I simply can't. A part within me gets hyped when small sparks of hope appear but they get crushed instantly by reality. I'm almost resigned that this is the kind of life I'll have until I die. I used to escape from this with lame entertaining (anime, porn, exercise, learning stuff, etc) but that doesn't works anymore. I don't get why the fuck I had to be born
Leaking urine and diabetesStarted leaking urine drops today, can barely put pressure on my bladder and urethra. Back injury did this.
What do you suggest I do?So to start, I have been depressed since I was around 12 or so and I've been feeling better, but I've recently become more anxious than depressed. I want to take Xan or some other anti-anxiety pill but does it work? I've taken it for recreation before but it didn't really make me less anxious. What does wizchan suggest I do. (btw i'm new here srry)
Becoming a alcoholicAnyone else struggling with controlling their drinking?
Mental decayDoes anyone else notice a decay of mental and cognitive functions?
Weird MentalityI was born with weird mentality. I give you few examples of it.
Low oxygen after waking upEvery morning I feel terrible because my head feels like it lacks oxygen, tinnitus is very loud, head feels heavy, empty, bare of emotions, slow and disoriented. I always have to breathe consciously and very deep to feel somewhat better again though it takes time till it adapts to a normal level every day.
AnhedoniaIs there a way to combat anhedonia without talking to a therapist/psychiatrist or getting outside help? I've been okay with living as a hermit but in the past few months, my leisure time has really become a mental pain because I just can't enjoy anything anymore. Weekends are such a burden because I have no clue what to do with the time, but while at work I yearn for them, despite the fact that they only offer crushing boredom.
/therapy/The thread all about therapy of all sorts including non conventional therapeutic practices like taking psychedelics and experience with drugs used in conjunction with therapy.
what was the biggest fuckup of your life?dont tell me some shit like not doing anything with your life or getting addicted to something, because those are multiple fuck ups strung together, and dont say something that you didnt have any control over either. im talking one singular instance where you made a conscious decision to do something wrong and it put your future in jeopardy.
I'm BoringI started off with delusionally high self-worth, but over the years getting smacked down by reality eventually gave me self-awareness at all the things I suck at.
Effects of loneliness on mental healthHow does being completely alone affect ur mental health?
Repeatability of lifeI think about my life and I realized something.
Mother hateMy mother is such a stupid oblivious incompetent cunt, i fuckin hate her
Can mods whisper you messages that pop upI remember I was paranoid suicidal making no fucking sense and a mod message poped out trying to calm me down and reassuring me that we're all friends here.
DisattachmentDo you ever feel like you can't complete one single action in the long run? I always quit my hobbies and get bored of them or my opinions on them are constantly changing. I tried languages, instruments, drawing… I've always experienced the same process. If you know the solution, please help.
Hacking the elf-preservation mechanismHow does one hack the self-preservation mechanism in order to commit suicide? All suicide guides only talk about physical methods but the real battle is the one in the mind. For various reasons I believe myself to be a burden and I also find myself in a state of constant misery due to health issue. Really though I shouldn't have to justify myself, if nothing else, the one freedom I should always retain is the freedom to end my life whenever I so please to do so. However I find myself a slave to life and not free at all for I can not overcome the survival instinct that says "LIVE, LIVE, LIVE!" no matter how degraded and painful my life continues to get with no hope of escape. So how do I conquer my own mind, the subconscious will to life, such that I can become completely resolved to terminate my own life for what I see as the good of the whole world? I want to fight overpopulation and waste and to put an end to my own suffering and three of these concerns will be addressed by suicide. Suicide to me is a moral good, a tremendous act of altruism, but I am fighting billions of years of evolution that has hardwired the overwhelming imperative to survive.