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My dick is small so I can't even live out my sexual fantasy of face/throat fucking a succ and blowing cum into them. I don't even have an impossible to fulfill fetish like some niggas on here with vore inflation pregnant bbws and shit but still will remain forever unfulfilled. A succ will never be impressed with my cock or ever choke on it from sucking it, never will have trouble handling it in her mouth. Whichever succ if ever ends up with me will never be able to brag how her bf has a huge donkey cock and make all her friends jealous. A female will never respect me and see me as a man because I'm not packing. It's truly fucking over. This thought kills all my confidence and masculinity.I have discovered the worst kind of rotting.
Since last year's December, I have discovered that you can just keep lying on the bed and enter a weird stage where you're neither asleep nor awake. It's crazy as it feels like what substance abusing would feel like although I have never even touched alcohol, weed, or even cigs let alone hard drugswhy shouldnt we all just kill ourselves?
most of us are so fucking unattractive, retarded, uneducated, unlovable, lazy/unambitious etc… that there is no point in continuing this misery.Being a massive loser amongst family members
Does any of you get irritated with family gatherings or when guests come to visit you in your family's house?Joining the Army
It seems I have no other choice, unfortunately. Because of the lack of jobs where I live and my family now turning my life into hell because they openly despise me, I can't see any other way but to join the army and do at least one year of military service, given that it's the only job that practically always is open for literally anyone, and to get in you just have to want it.Escaping the Demiurge PT 2
Serious question for any wizcels:america makes me depressed
it is a nation of ungodly horror. it's just crime, satanic energy everywhere, corruption, fags, low IQ unread uneducated population, loose std carrying succubi, money worshipping society with no morals. need I go on? how do you not get depressed as an american. i would rather be chinese at this point, it's actually a much better functioning society than america not so shockingly. maybe america has a couple gems like california or washington state or new york, that's it, and they're all way more shit than they used to be. California used to be the shitanyone fantasize about what life is like as a non autist
Ive been diagnosed with ASD, my iq is tested to be 82. Ive also dealt with sexual disorders & depression.Getting older as a wizard.
I'm older than people who have kids who're already graduating from high school. I know it shouldn't bother me, but I can't help it. I feel like my life hasn't progress at all. I already have grey hairs on my beard and I don't feel my age at all. life as a wizard is like living in a perpetual limbo where nothing ever happens until you grow old and die.Wasted Youth
I regret not enjoying my youth more,when i was 14-16 if i think back i could have had so much fun, instead i had to be a fucking depressed loser even Back then and just barley coped as to not end myself.I'm going bald
I'm going broke, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I went to 4 doctors to treat it, but none of them worked, and no matter how many medications I took, I was never able to overcome this problem. But these only caused me terrible side effects, such as fatigue, weight gain, apathy, a lot of disinterest in everything, and alopecia, but they were never able to attack the impulses. Violence never stops.Hopelessly rotting everyday
I do nothing besides doomscrolling, going outside for a while and maybe read for an hour a day (if i can find a book that interests me) or watch an episode of some anime but the rest of the day is spent doomscrolling on my computer, I am too insomniac and have bladder issues to spend half or most my days sleeping to pass my days with sleep like many NEETs can do with ease, there is just no way for me to get out of this cycle, at least not on my own, I need money and connections, most importantly MONEY.Please help im lost
Im 27 years old , i dont know anything , i graduated faculty of arts in 8 years failing once every year because i didnt study enough , i live in a place where there's compulsory recruitment and didnt apply because i am on antidepressants and don't want to waste a year of my life which is not very important but this city does not care if you die , normal citizens are not of much importance here anyway , i tried checking fiverr & freelancer because i didnt have an idea what to do if i want to work from home , it doesn't seem to be very promising , it felt impossible to get a place among all these beasts conquering every damn field in the category , i barely know anything about the world and autistic and i think im stupid too , but if i try to surpass my stupidity , what to learn to be able to work remotely and not eat shit for the rest of my life?Disease Thread
This thread is for the discussion of the greatest misfortune in existence that is disease.Misanthropy and god
Are you a believer in a higher being and hate humanity?Personal suicide diary - final notes. 2 weeks to die 28 reasons
Last time I mentioned that I have 2 weeks to kms someone asked if I have a test or something in school. Let me tell you something interesting. I won't talk about my life story but I will enlighten you how bad life can get and what real suicide out of necessity means.becoming atheist, lost about morality \suicide
The only ,or main, reason I totally suppressed my own ideation of erasing my own life, was not violating religious precepts..Also regarding morality, I genuinely dislike violence (im unable to deliberately kill an ant, for example, I make an effort to avoid stepping on them) ,but there are *so many* complex Ethical issues, with real impact on my life, which without religion, I have to start from scratch (deciding whether theyre good, or evil)Do you feel like there is nothing to do online anymore?
Do you feel like there is nothing to do online anymore?Even if I try to improve it still won't get better
I feel like society has left me behind it is one of the most fastest moving things to ever exist, and I can never catch up to it because I've been quite stagnant my entire life. Even if I try to improve, I'm still leagues behind the average persons social progression. All I'm really left with is the mere remains of a career, wife, kids, etc.Dementia
I unironically think I'm starting to develop some kind of dementia. I'm 35 almost 36. More and more often I find myself spacing out and completely forgetting what I'm doing. I can't focus. I know it's not depression. I was very depressed 10 years ago and nearly killed myself, and I'm a lot happier now than back then, I haven't even thought about suicide in years, so that's not it. I'm not even as stressed as I used to be anymore. I don't even have a lot of negative thoughts. I get confused easily when talking to people and end up doing or saying inappropriate things unintentionally. For example I start dissociating while talking to people and start humming a song, put my hand on their shoulders, other stuff like that. This is going to sound like a massive troll but just the other day I visited my parents, I sat down at the dinner table, I started dissociating, my mom put her hand on my shoulder to get my attention, I couldn't snap out of it fast enough and nearly kissed her. She was horrified and turned away and didn't say anything the rest of the night.this diseased world
maybe all this is just a dream, a very long bad dream. this current era these people with no empathy for one another, this corrupt government and this polarization is just getting to me.Is there any compassion for failed people like us in the world?
Do you think normies could ever accept us or even tolerate us for real? It's obvious that absolute majority people is repulsed by a NEET lifestyle, failed dating/life/work experience, motivational or existential problems. Do you think there's a space for us to exist at all? Is it acceptable, is it planned for? Or we are truly just the trash of the world that should be cut out from society the sooner the better?Being "human"
Is anyone else lacking formative, human experiences? I've never:Anyone else avoid the public due to shame or rage?
I can't go out as a KHHV 43-year old when there are 25-30 year old men with their kids and wives walking around and driving their SUV's.Is there a way to break through numbness
I'm not depressed but I'm not happy either, at some point from 13-14 I stopped feeling excited about anything and around 17 is when I basically shut down and now I dont even really think anymoreThe City of Dreadful Night
"Why break the seals of mute despair unbiddenThis website is scary.
There are a whole hosts of posts here where we explain how we're dependent upon our parents and how when they die we will die with them, I am starting to think that the lack of money is a real problem.Death of the Uncool
Death of the Uncool - End of the Wizards VAnti-Suicide General
The purpose of this thread is to counter the general tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads. This thread will therefore feature practical advice about reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.How do you deal with being one of the sexless?
I was at work and had to just fucking sit there and listen to this guy go on and on about how succubi constantly hit him up and fucked him. I normally don't react to this kind of stuff. But then he showed video after video after video and it eventually got to me. This fuck is the same age as me but his life just seemed so much easier. I legitimately didn't understand what it's like to have a fucking succubus text you. Want to see you. He even said "You're not ugly. How?" I just didn't have an answer. I just live with the cope that some people just have it easier and others like myself emit and anti succubus field. I am happier the further away from sex and relationship shit I hear. Normally I can just live around it and it doesn't bother me. This time was different some how. What the fuck.ahhhhhh I can't cope.
I can't pass the driving test in Germany while foids drive BMWs. I am a total genetic subhuman. Driving involves genetic based machinery like Spatial Awareness and good motor controls, my subhuman genetics have none of that I failed despite spending 2500 euros. I am truly an embarrassment.The fact that I can't have a girlfriend destroys me.
I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.How to cope knowing I am physically incapable of sex?
We all are not having sex. But at least you guys possess the ability to have sex. I on the other hand know that I won't be able to cum during sex because I have OCD, tight foreskin and tight frenulum.People that rub it in your face.
I went to the college today for some work regarding documentation and met a "friend", people in the college have nothing to talk about except bitches. The "friend" in question screamed my name from afar, later came running, and told me he has scored a bitch. Showed me a photo of a bitch and him cuddling. What is more shocking is that the guy is also kinda below average in looks but extremely out going to the point he just sleeps when he's at home.Wiz Ethical code
Im working on a wiz\neet inspired ethical code. Not a full philosophy, but a set of strict guidelines to morally abide by. thus far, they be:Is it even worth it to get a college degree anymore since connections are clearly more important?
>graduate high schoolNo hope for autists
Whitepillers don't have a retort for autism. You can get a good degree, pursue your hobbies and work on your self esteem but if you have autism you will never make it in this anti-autistic world, Life is all about one thing. Being born without autism. If you're born without autism the normies will make excuses for you, help you out, share money with you, give you 100 chances, etc. Meanwhile if you have autism you're evil and creepy just for existing and blinking the wrong way. Everybody gets to live for free except autists and only autists who are given this fake ass "you gotta pull yourself up by your bootstraps and make your life" "you gotta amount to something" "innovation" story. Shit that literally no one else has to follow.kaleidoscope of my (shitty) life
it makes me sad I can't create things I like. I always procrastinate and I always did dAnhedonia
How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?Porn Addiction Grift
I'm trying to quit porn (cold turkey) and 90% of the content I've seen online has been:Are there wizzies from any non-Western countries upset at the Westernisation of their country?
Bascially, my country and it's culture has shifted rapidly, as soon as most of the people have come in contact with the West through internet, liberalisation, and globalisation. And I believe that is one of the reason which has prompted me to become a wizard.Loungehoused, Domesticated, and overly-sheltered
i don't even know how to tie my own shoes, my mom always just did it for me whenever i got a new pair of shoes and it never fell apart. and before you post it yes i watched that spongebob episode, i watched so many tutorials in general but i just can't do the loop part at all. i think im just retarded or something, i have been sheltered my whole life, mom does EVERYTHING for me, even when I really want to do something, she prefers to do it her self instead of letting me learn, i know this sounds like a made-up problem, but being one your mid 20s and not knowing how do anything at all feels so ugh…I hate Lust
I dislike the feeling of lust. I find it responsible for alot of the negative patterns in my life that are preventing me from acquiring a peaceful existance. I have already accepted that I will not have a future that involves another human being but that doesn't give me the resolve to stop watching porn / lust over someone in my mind. Have any wizards here managed to overcome lust and if so, How did you do it?Scared to be born
Hello, wizards. Do you remember the moment when you was born? I dont remember too. Lets not speak about processes in babies brain, Im here to ask you a question. Have you ever think about how the first -homo was scared when he realized his existence?Disadvantage if not social
This is probably not big news, but you have much worse chances of getting anything done in life if you are not social. From jobs, to housing, to money. If you are trying to do everything alone, you will not be as successful. Except you have a godlike family and upbringing. But I suppose nobody here had this.Being Neurodivergent in a Neurotypical World
Being neurodivergent in this world is a fucking death sentence. This world does not and will never understand what it's like to think the way that we do and will keep themselves in constant willful ignorance from here to kingdom come. Forcing us to get worse into mental health issues until we go actually insane and do something drastic, but even then we'll still be demonized and everything because again…willful ignorance. I can't stand this planet.Why do yall want a relationship?
So I turned 20 recently and for already 6 years I'm confident that you don't need a relationship or a gf to live a happy life. I won't deny that I wanted a gf at some point, but I was kid and stupid (like 11-13 y/o. Now I *want* to be alone until I die. And before saying anything consider the following: no relationship means no one will cheat on you, no one will break up with you, you don't have to spent shit ton of money on a succubus, you don't have to raise kids, which means even more money saved. And if you're feeling lonely, get yourself a pet.Emptiest resume ever
I think it's genuinely just plain over if you don't have education, skills or job experience at the age of 25. It feels like I should just play videogames until anhedonia reaches critical condition and then to just off myself. I lost to job market. I lost to capitalism. My ego and my weakness won't allow me to live as burger king worker. Not to mention i'd be a useless worthless asset in any job anyway. FuckMy existence is hellish.
I am that same Indian guy who made the post about having C-PTSD and living with abusive parents. I have hit a new low, I think I am becoming low T, I check every symptom on the box, having brain fog, constantly fatigue, constantly sleepy, not being able to get it up anymore, no more morning woods, and no erections.Trapped by Monotony
Is there anyone else who is trapped in routine and monotony and never notices the days going by, rotting alone in their room? I have lost the motivation to play games, watch anime, or even go on imageboards. I've experienced that since last year, well I don't even know anymore, I lost consciousness on how much time has passed and is passing by. I can't take the lack of genuine feelings anymore. I used to escape monotony with games but they don't bring me pleasure anymore. I used to have one or two online friends but time did it's thing and the interest vanished. My life consists of sleeping during the day, waking up to eat with my family and, at night, if my mind is not flooded by overthinking and negative/nonsensical obsessive thoughts, watching videos or listening to music.Finally dying after a life that's been a nightmare
Somehow i went and fell back into the bathtub after i already got out, almost like i slipped on air. Hit myself on the head and spine. I'm 90% sure that I have a hematoma in my brain because my head hasn't stopped hurting after a week and i had some very interesting symptoms. I hope it bursts my brain and kills me. I'm an illness-ridden, debt-broke hardcore benzo addict with no home(live like a rat without my own room for 30 years) that has to eat a pack a day or will have a grand mal seizure anyway, so very soon I would be forced to suicide anyway. I just hope that it won't turn me into a vegetable instead, but i lose every gamble so I can't count on luck. Well, something will do me in eventually, one thing or the other. I can feel death is half a step away. Goodbye brothers.Suicide general
This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.High IQ cry thread
or: Born to think, taught to stink.Life post the age of 30
36 years old Wizard here with Schizophrenia living with mom (dad died a long time ago) I don't have any qualifications or income I am disabled and there is no NEETbux in my under developed country my hairline is receding due to how much I stress on my future in every single hour once my mom passes away I will be beyond doomed nobody in my family will support me they all live far away and they can barely support their own survival let alone to support another useless eater my mom already has health issues but nothing too severe (yet) is it possible to turn my life around in this late ago? people say "it's never too late" God I wish my parents never gave birth to me I heard stories og people who spent decades in prison and left by their 40s and still ended up starting a business and buying a house but I can tell it's an abnormal case once you enter your 30s without any skills qualifications or are capeable of work the chance of you being capeable of turning your life around becomes too small.obsessesion about suicide despite barely being "suicidal"
For several years I had the idea of ending my life in the back of my head despite barely ever experiencing extreme depression in any remote way, I spent long periods reading about various suicide methods at sanctionedsuicide and even making threads asking for technical questions related to suicide methods, but it's something I never planned to do at any time soon, and I still have no plans to do it at anytime soon at the moment, I made a thread here about this topic several years and some Anons thought I was being an attention whore just because My life did not suck enough that I would want to end it instantly, I am not too unhappy at the moment, but I know shit might hit the fan at some point, and I will have no other choice, I also fear ageing and getting too old, it's really the biggest issue with being a Wizard, oneday I will be too old and weak to even hold a glass of water, And I will have no children or grand children to help me, I have an obsession with suicide, the amount of time I spent thinking about it is so absurd given I am not even that pessimistic of a person.Suicide: A Social and Historical Study 1938
https://archive.org/details/suicide-fedden-1938Why am I such a worthless pos
Will probably delete this but had a terrible week (not that I'm not used to it by now) but I was asked to take care of a cat for someone down the street and the first week everything went fine. I fed it emptied the litter box but one night I accidentally left the garage door it used to get in and out too high and noticed something else got in. Since then I haven't seen the cat but last night (almost 2 weeks after) I found the poor things body underneath where he sleeps. I had only gone over twice in about a week and a half due to a cop giving me a speeding ticket for going 7 over the speed limit and my boss at work saying I had to meet for disciplinary action but refusing to say why other than my "behavior". I feel so bad that I killed someones pet and don't know what to do. I had also just planned my first vacation ever after over a decade of wage slaving but I can't take it now because I would be staying with the persons pet I killed for 2 weeks. I was honestly having a hard time not wanting to kill myself as it is and now I just don't know what to do. Cats have been one of the few things that have ever been nice to me and I killed one being irresponsible and preoccupied with my own problems, I feel so bad having killed someones pet kitty.Worth of fake value
To value or not to value, To care or not to care, Do we truly care that much about our value that we defend it with any possible way, But to what extent ? What will we garner from showering with praises and value, A temporary feeling of having worth ? It all fades away after a period of time and you have to do that all again, Like anything in life, Everything fades away, That love that disillusioned you at that first sight fades away after 1 month if the other person doesn’t reciprocate, That’s the same as your value, If you don’t give more to your value then the other person will just get bored, Boredom is our nemesis in this world.depression and losing appetite
I was a very heavy eater, but for whatever reason in the past year my appetite has just gone to a much lower level. I have no will to eat almost anything and have eaten maybe 300 calories just yesterday, my belly just feels locked for the lack of better phrasing, I know it correlated with the worsening of my mental health with the time.serious framework for being ANTI-Family
my parents want to move: sell the house, move to an apartment in the God-Accursed capital city.If I had money, I would cut them off and go live alone; I don't have enough and THEY won't pay for me to live alone.Svuicde by Charcoal poisoning.
I saw someone talkng about it here many years ago,he even posted images of some people who died in their bed rooms by carcoal poisoning, I even researched this on Google:phone-only fags
My laptop died several weeks ago and I got no money to buy a new one, I have been doing nothing but going on long walks daily and looking at walls, I even hate using my smart phone (that i mostly only used to call my mother at work) anyone like me?death anxiety\becoming a "pro neet"
I'm going to make this post very concise, and try to avoid rambling. I'm terrified of death: mortality itself, dying process, what may be after (punishment of some sort\duration for me, likely. if there's nothing I wont be there to notice..but RT the idea of nothing is uncomfy). Anyways Im almost deciding to become a professional insufferable person and mooch off my parents, demand they give me a given big amount of money, start being chastely desperate with everyone, take big risks, try new experiences, sleep almost nothing, etc