I'm going bald
I'm going broke, and I really don't know how to deal with this fact. I went to 4 doctors to treat it, but none of them worked, and no matter how many medications I took, I was never able to overcome this problem. But these only caused me terrible side effects, such as fatigue, weight gain, apathy, a lot of disinterest in everything, and alopecia, but they were never able to attack the impulses. Violence never stops.Videogame brain?
Do you think growing up with video games ruined me?Unlucky with females
Now i don't know if this is madness but can a person like really just be vexxed or cursed to never have a girlfriend ? It's the fact that even when you try it always seems to not go your way, it always goes wrongly, It's fucking insane how much tries you try yet it does not work, it's almost as if there is someone stopping that shit because it's fucking insane how one can keep trying even in any way yet he cannot succeed with getting a succubus.It's over - thread for the doomed
Hello. Despite this being a depression board, it seems most people are still around trying to do something. I am in a situation where except dying there is nothing to do, so i decided to make a thread wondering if there are any other people like me online, since it's almost impossible to find anyone even on the outskirts of the internet.There's nothing more brutal than being unemployed in India and seeing roasties and chads get jobs.
I don't even know how to elaborate the sheer brutalness of life, I am so tired of being poor and be dependent upon my parents like a cuck. The state has no concept of neetbuxx. I have completed my degree, and I am sick of getting rejected from interviews, dancing all day long on LinkedIn out of the all fucking websites in the world, begging recruiter here and there. Changing my CV again and again, I do this all day, only to get an offer of a job that pays nothing, that wouldn't even qualify as stipend for internships.The fact that I can't have a girlfriend destroys me.
I would like to be with a being with whom I can share everyday moments, to have a being to worry about, in which I can capture the most beautiful part of my being, to whom I can show my vulnerable parts, express my deepest emotions, and show them really who I am. But who am I really? Even in an anonymous forum, I would say he is a great guy, who went through some things, but who despite everything never gave up, someone who always wants the best for others, and who has an optimistic vision even in the most difficult moments. hard And although in a certain way the above is not a lie, the reality is that there is an uncivilized being inside me, someone so disgusting and unpleasant that I don't even like to admit that we are the same person, and hypocritically, whether consciously or unconsciously. , I pretend it doesn't exist. But this is an undeniable reality, and although it is something that can be hidden, it is something that I would never share with anyone, much less voluntarily. I prefer to be a hermit secluded from all social contact rather than show this part of my being. I'm not going to lie to you, life alone is not the best thing in the world, and it has some associated problems, but it is not something completely bad either, and it helps to value things, self-esteem, one's own thoughts, and leave aside vain issues. like social norms, or what someone outside of us may or may not think of us.Escaping the Demiurge PT 2
Serious question for any wizcels:fantasies
anyone else pretend in their heads to be in the same or similar position as a nation's dictator, such as putin?Anti-Suicide General
The purpose of this thread is to counter the general tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads. This thread will therefore feature practical advice about reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.Insomnia
Any other Wizards deal with this borderline life ruining condition? I'm so sick of having this incurable disease that totally fucks my life; it's been 6 years now and the longest I've been able to maintain a decent sleep schedule (before midnight) is about a week. I know this is a total shot in the dark, but if anyone knows a way to combat this that isn't some meme-tier sleep hygiene advice it'd be much appreciated. Otherwise, please discuss your mental illness(s) and how they impact you in your day-to-day life.how THE FUCK is the world so chill
We're not sure where we came from and even less sure to whence we go to.We are in 24\7 uncertainty about WHEN we will go there, or just suffer a tremendous tragedy (I am aware of the Hedonic Treadmill ,but you could die before it kicks in)–or the opposite, you wait forever till you die (horribly) waiting for an impossibly lucky event to occur and solve your life.Why do you act like a woman?
You always make threads of "I will never be pretty enough", "I will never have a job because I am ugly", "I am horrible :(". Everything related to physical appearance, and complexes. The truth is already unpleasant, and pathetic that men , and especially chaste men, give importance to something as trivial as appearance.title
I wasted my youth locked up, and with the screen as the only company. it's not something I wanted or chose, but that's how things were. I knew I could never make up for lost time, and I thought that by sorting out my financial life and earning a lifetime income at an early age, I could achieve freedom and live once and for all.it's better to stay at home in your room
Back in High School I tried to cope with doing hobbies outside, to participate in normalfag activities because I wanted to at least give the bluepilled advice a go, I knew in the back of my mind it would not work and to nobody's surprise, the expectations are exactly what occurred, it resulted in nothing but utter humiliation. I played for a football academy back in High School and whilst I was decent at it I was treated poorly by my teammates, did not make a single friend there even though I contributed a lot to the stats of the team, we even made it very far into the tournament, after that incident I was discouraged to make friends because no matter how much meritocratic value is under your hands you are worthless to everyone, unless you're a prodigy your efforts are worthless.Family feels entitled to respect without giving it
Those in the older, successful and beloved part of the family seems to demand respect from those "beneath" them.Pattern Recognition Central
What do you think is their plan with recents studies and articles showcasing the way men are starting to approach succubi less? Besides obviously adding fuel to the fire to the gender war between normalniggers, how far does it go? Is monkeypox involved in all of this? Creating awareness of single men at the same time a sexually transmited disease appears? Set things up to re-establish a lesser version of homophobia to keep an eye on non-compliant normies? What are its intended purposes, and, how long will it take them to finally mention in mainstream media sexual demoralization being the cause of degeneracy altogether? I personally believe they have a long way to go, two years or so before they start to quote current statistics and connect the dots.How do you deal with the meaninglessness?
If you have absolutely nothing to strive for, no goal to work towards, no future you can imagine yourself in. If you know that you will never get anything you desire and that you will never be happy or fulfilled.Depressing surroundings
I'm too poor to get a bigger apartment or home and nice furniture, so I'm stuck in a very small apartment that only has a tiny room and a bathroom.abortion\contraception and euthanasia cults
Is it true that there are -and they prey on "pro suicide" websites, etc- cults devoted to culling the human population, or promoting promortalism ,efilism, and anti-natalism? Cults that disseminate materials on infanticide (abortion) , peaceful pill, anti-life "ethical solutions" etc? I didn't read about this anywhere, I just had a kind of telepathic info about it.Death of the Uncool
Death of the Uncool - End of the Wizards Vonline memorials\obituaries depress me
Is anyone else hugely depressed by this stuff? Sometimes I'm googling for certain stuff, or info on a historical person or event…and very often I see obituary pages of people with the same name.Very old, young, middle-aged..died of diseases, accident or just old age, sometimes due to violence or crime.Getting Off This Merry-Go-Round
26 is were I get off. sorry I couldn't make it to 30 and join you in the sun. Just to tiered of the pain. I should have done it sooner but I'm a coward. I would have done it last year but my nerves got in the way. Just need to write the rest of my will and donate the rest of my clothes to charity and I'll be good to go.The process of Learning as a Lazy Bum
>why cant picrel be real?How do we get used to it?
How are we supposed to get used to loneliness and the fact that our life is fucked up?Remember!
Remember wizzies: there are all sorts of impostors here promoting suicide for wizards. They give themselves out as wizards but are not. They continually lurk discussions on this board and others pertaining to self-murder in the strict interest of getting us to go through with our own elimination. Sometimes they start a whole new thread and stage an organic-looking pro-suicide conversation amongst themselves. It is known that this site is "/pol/ adjacent" so many of (((them))) are here as well with such objectives in mind. Be advised.I hate rich or wealthy wizards
I hate wizards who got substantial inheritances, or lucked out otherwise while being unable to work. 99,9% of the problems related to being a wizard are related to a lack of money and the fact normies hate even employing a non-neurotypical, making life an infinite paywall torture simulator where you can only look but not touch anything.Don't play with fire or you'll end up burned.
Don't play with fire or you'll burn yourself, don't get close to it or you'll burn yourself, if you shouldn't use it, don't even use it for cooking.The menace of the human female
Why are there female apologists here, on the only website dedicated to wizardly endeavors, the only place on the internet that defends and respects male celibacy of all places?Disadvantage if not social
This is probably not big news, but you have much worse chances of getting anything done in life if you are not social. From jobs, to housing, to money. If you are trying to do everything alone, you will not be as successful. Except you have a godlike family and upbringing. But I suppose nobody here had this.being bald feels like a death sentence
I've been on finasteride for 2 years and I just lost my job and had to move back with my parents and I noticed that my hairline is receding it looks bad, my hair is thinning too, even the back and sides are thinning so I will never be able to get a hair transplant. I've always been anxious about going bald because I have a really bad head shape and I just don't look good without hair, or well, i look worse than with full head of hair.How do you deal with being one of the sexless?
I was at work and had to just fucking sit there and listen to this guy go on and on about how succubi constantly hit him up and fucked him. I normally don't react to this kind of stuff. But then he showed video after video after video and it eventually got to me. This fuck is the same age as me but his life just seemed so much easier. I legitimately didn't understand what it's like to have a fucking succubus text you. Want to see you. He even said "You're not ugly. How?" I just didn't have an answer. I just live with the cope that some people just have it easier and others like myself emit and anti succubus field. I am happier the further away from sex and relationship shit I hear. Normally I can just live around it and it doesn't bother me. This time was different some how. What the fuck.Aquél
Imagine having abstinence from fap, from the screen, without social contact of any kind, just you and your thoughts. You can last an hour maybe a little more looking at the ceiling, you can bathe for another hour, read for a couple more hours, but what the hell do you do during the remaining hours, one can try to talk to a family member, but when they don't want to talk With you, there is not much that can be done, you can try to go for a walk, but when you realize that you have nowhere to go, what to do, or who to be with, when you realize that you have been wandering for 6 hours all over the city, without finding anything but desolation and hopelessness, there you realize the depth of the hole you are in, and how difficult it is to get out of it.Sucidie tips
I went to a forest today to try to slice my veins but to my surprise it's harder than I expected, I'm looking for ways to and it in a relatively painless way. I'm afraid to do online research since everything is very monitored because of the AI craze and 8chan/hispachan have apparently closed. I didn't want to post on 4chan because AFAIK it's filled with garbage to the brim and has gone too mainstream. I don't know if talking about this on hackernews with a throwaway account would be a good ideareflection on normality.
I always hated the ordinary, a miserable and poorly paid job, cheap entertainment through a stupid screen. A life where fun and pleasure is in alcohol, pornography, where individuals cannot spend a minute without noise, whether it is music, a video, series or movie, where the fear of silence is scary. Where stupid things like height, the size of attributes, facial features are present, as if men were succubi. Where they put up with other people's shit just so they wouldn't be alone. Where individuals stop thinking and voluntarily attach themselves to other people's thoughts and ideas without having their own thoughts.Advice for younger men with autism
Older wizzie here, I spend a good decade on psych meds and constantly trying to work past my autism. It doesn't work, here's some advice for you high functioning spergs that are suffering.Are some people better off dead
I don't like who I am genetically. I'm ugly, stupid, worthless, mentally ill and most people don't want anything to do with me. But are they right? Surely there's a reason behind that. It's probably because my reproduction would be really bad for the world. So I am viewed the way I'm viewed and treated the way I'm treated. So I can't even blame them. Right? I have no redeeming qualities. There is simply nothing good about me. I wish I ended everything in elementary school or even kindergarten. I wouldn't have experienced this life. When I die I hope nothing about me is remembered. I wish I left absolutely no trace in the world, but sadly I didDead man
Before I had dreams, hopes, and worked for a better future. Maybe not in the best way, nor in the most constant way possible, but I had it, it made me happy, it made me move, and be someone better. Now I don't have dreams, I'm a lost cannon, and it's really sad, knowing that you can't fight for your dreams, since there is nothing to fight for.Empty World
even if I was an anhiliationist(someone who believes there is "nothing" after (??) death) ,I would still have as my most cherished desire and wish in life to live on an Empty World. no animals, no humans..no internet . just plant life, trees, maybe shells and minerals…fungi, algae, all sorts of roots and moss and so on. People might deride this an escapist fantasy, or a survival game LARP but I believe the empty world, a mirror planet, is real and exists.Hikikomori in
I am not a god damn invalid. I am a bit of a potato. A latently suicidal potato with surgery to be frank. Not a serially violent person like their crush. I read between the lines with scientific process and lost myself and most of it all to the system. I know shit you only learn in university lectures that I inferred myself with the help of trade of goods and books. Invalid patient too, leucotomized to be a valid. My mind revolves around acquisition of self desire. I self harm of carnal needs like safety and excitement and food when threatened. I hate to be driven to the brink and ultimately wealth circumvents and is a primary goal, as a suicide patient. The bin is where you do 20 thorazine shots and possibly die by the way. They used to take me there. Obviously, avoidance of displeasure and dismay dominates my thought and motus now. I don't do sherm or anything anymore. I see a net loss of control each consecutive high. Lacking rationality towards societal attitude toward suicide is specifically what makes me avoid the system now. I also won't do drugs because I get "treatment" with an icepick and a home alone doctor that is so shady I beat my chest 5 times. And was told I would die. And received humiliation. No, I'm not retarded even. Retards get to rape. I get to live. I lack and am missing a component of idealistic life like simple normalcy often at home, there I am in danger. Society has alienated me completely for it all. The drunken outbursts drive me on the ropes. I know better than to drink but I can't stop. I am the world's biggest fuckin prisonbird wannabe genius idiot. I don't hate my lot in life still , but wards never brought me what I wanted, I found drugs and misery there with a dash of hope. I really hate it there more than anything. Not my kin, half of them are evil and mental monkeys. Needless to say, I hate numb mental ward doctors SO much. Get off drugs. Can anyone relate?against work
No job out there seems good enough for a wiz. I know there is security/janitor mentioned around but you still have to interact with people. WFH work from home requires you to pass video interviews and be ok with being videotaped in your home as you work. Seems like there is no way out of this situation besides a bullet to the head.f.a.m
Today in high school the same thing always happened to me, the idiots from 4th grade came to hurt me, why? Because I told one of them to go to hell because I didn't want to talk to them, they dragged me to the corner of the high school garden and threw a rock at my head, kicked me and left. , at least they only did that to me and didn't stab me I guess./dep/-suited music
Searched in the board, didn't find a thread for /dep/-suited type of music unless I am terminally retarded.The main difference between third world and first world countries
Most parents in the west who aren't complete junkies or obese hillbillies, treat their kids like scions of their family who deserve all the best things in life, good education, good safe surroundings, high quality food, books, good parenting, vacations etc.racist makes you feel like shit
have you ever faced racism towards you or a relative you were with?The depressive is selfish by nature
The depressed person does not care about their family, they do not care about their friends, they do not care about the injustices of the world, or anything other than their problems, where they lock themselves up, and constantly victimize their problems. Depression is a disease of selfishness, and its cure does not lie in stupid things like medications, playing sports, having a job or studying. Of course, this helps the patient, but it does not attack the root problem, and it can never go away. his self-fixation towards his life and his problems. That's why the only way to really deal with this is by helping others, getting out of yourself, and focusing on others, so that within the happiness of others you can find your own happiness.The suicide hotline is useless and can ruin your life
Called the hotline. Was in a bad way mentally but clear enough to call. I needed somebody to talk to. Instead they made me feel like an idiot and sent the cops and medics to my home.advice about depression
teenager here. im here because i wanted to ask how to forget someone and just move on with it. do you guys just pretend like it never happened or feel sad over it until it doesnt make you feel anything anymore. i came here because people here are almost the only people i relate. i appriciate every advice or personal stories.road to bottom of hell
(The theory behind my proyect is Tantric, to "find purity in the filthiest")Is it possible to live inside one's mind?
Is it possible for me to get rid of my ties to the physical world and live entirely in my own imagination? If I can do the bare minimum for survival (eating, drinking water, maintaining some weight) I think I should be able to do this. Has anyone here tried or done this before? I understand 100% that I'm a loser in life and I like my imagination much better than I like the physical world anyway. Not that I ever wanted to partake in society from a young age anyway. I'm not at all surprised I am where I am.Why is this world such a shithole?
First World Wizzes, get in here.Normies staring at you while you eat
Have you noticed this. I have, and I'm generally pretty mellow and don't really care if other people look at me.Love is Insipid
Love must be deconstructed from its etymological meaning which if it stands in its original form we find out that it is merely only a means from other means in life that fuel our existance, Love is only a substitute mean that justifies our existance in life, Keeps us intact in life but still why is it a mean ? Because it justifies our desire for yearning, For desiring affection for "being loved is what it feels to be immortal", The melancholic hope of feeling that you exist which Love affirms to us in life, So it justifies the Endgoal which is also a means to defy the vast emptiness of life. A means of a means until our demise.Why am I like this?
Ever since being a teenager I kept asking myself why am I me and wish to be someone else. I saw people who had rich parents, good looks, talent, intelligence… and I asked myself why is that not me? It broke me and made me unable to motivate myself to try achieve anything. It feels unfair having to compete against people who are just better than me genetically. Responsibility is crucial for growth but I can't fully accept responsibility because I feel like my personality is seperate from my being. Why do other people get to intuitively do the right thing and I have to use willpower to supervise myself? I often got into arguments with my parents and they were justified but instead of working on myself I would just cry "why am I like this?". Even now as I have to live the consequences of past mistakes like not taking care of my health, dropping out of college, not saving up money instead of learning the lesson and move forward I keep asking myself "what was I thinking?" and wish to go back in time.need some help pushing myself over the edge.
anyone close to the end who can give a little advice? i know i need to do this, i just can't bring myself to give up. I'm worried that i have some type of aimless hope to hang on to but i dont think it exists. how would you quickly flip the lightswitch?Death by chamber
I can not stand it anymore. I'm done. I don't know what to do. It's over for me. My whole will be shit and then I'd die and finally I'd be at peace.Coom defenders are wrong
This place is swarming lately with fools who still yearn about fapping being natural and good, probably demonic kwiifarmers who got bruised as hell by some random stuff here.I feel sad for not being able to have a girlfriend
It's not because I don't have one, I'm someone attractive, empathetic, with good values, a great guy in general. But even so, I cannot and will not be able to have a partner, due to the fateful fact of the violence that I carry in my being, sometimes I don't know how it happens, or why, but it happens and there is no greater pain for me and above all for the other person when it happens. That's why I think that although a life in isolation is not the most pleasant, it really is not that bad, but possible acts must be avoided. But I would be lying to you if I told you that deep in my heart I have the gloomy hope that social norms and love would rise above these impulses.MittenSquad was a wizard all this time
Wiz was a mute all through school and made no friends because of his faceWhy the fuck did I inherit my dad's need for attention.
I live for others expectations, for please others and I hate it. Times I think I change with the same dysgenic behavior to make people laugh, because that was my dad too. And no matter how many times I try to get rid of it, need for attention comes back. If I had the chance to remove my bloodline I would if it meant to wipe my identity from existence. It's god awful to have this shitty mind.