[–] No.296737>>296742>>298251[Watch Thread]
For several years I had the idea of ending my life in the back of my head despite barely ever experiencing extreme depression in any remote way, I spent long periods reading about various suicide methods at sanctionedsuicide and even making threads asking for technical questions related to suicide methods, but it's something I never planned to do at any time soon, and I still have no plans to do it at anytime soon at the moment, I made a thread here about this topic several years and some Anons thought I was being an attention whore just because My life did not suck enough that I would want to end it instantly, I am not too unhappy at the moment, but I know shit might hit the fan at some point, and I will have no other choice, I also fear ageing and getting too old, it's really the biggest issue with being a Wizard, oneday I will be too old and weak to even hold a glass of water, And I will have no children or grand children to help me, I have an obsession with suicide, the amount of time I spent thinking about it is so absurd given I am not even that pessimistic of a person.
Sorry the pic is too unrelated, I hope I made my point reach all of you
[–] No.296742>>296745
>>296737 (OP)Suicide for a Human is pretty much the best way to go, you decide when and how and you can finish all your unfinished business before you do it, say goodbye to whoever before stepping over to the other side. you can manage all that.
but realistically only very few people get this, most People die slow deaths over years from illness while still clinging to the idea they might heal again or People die in random accidents.
like only very few people get to leave on their terms.
[–] No.296743>>296744
it's just a cope. like those wagies that dream about escaping to some exotic place or whatever. you dream about finally escaping into nothingness, but it's never going to happen because life's defining feature is that's ironically always just bearable enough to not motivate you to act, in either direction.
[–] No.298251
>>296737 (OP)It's a persistent thought that brings some solace. I wish I wasn't a pussy and could immediately take action sometimes. I just started working a 9/5 and can already feel the last fragments of "soul" I have left fade away unleashing a terrific feeling of numbness and dread, I don't want to become an instant-gratification zombie wagie with nothing to live for, thus, with the scarce spark I have yet left, I hope for a cathartic situation that inspires me to take my life before things get exponentially worse and I irreversibly stumble into the survival-state of 'pay your bills and suffer an agonizing slow slave death trap' in my third world shit-hole.
Simply mental masturbation.