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[–]  No.296708>>296710>>296711>>296716>>296780>>298502>>299021>>299135[Watch Thread]

I unironically think I'm starting to develop some kind of dementia. I'm 35 almost 36. More and more often I find myself spacing out and completely forgetting what I'm doing. I can't focus. I know it's not depression. I was very depressed 10 years ago and nearly killed myself, and I'm a lot happier now than back then, I haven't even thought about suicide in years, so that's not it. I'm not even as stressed as I used to be anymore. I don't even have a lot of negative thoughts. I get confused easily when talking to people and end up doing or saying inappropriate things unintentionally. For example I start dissociating while talking to people and start humming a song, put my hand on their shoulders, other stuff like that. This is going to sound like a massive troll but just the other day I visited my parents, I sat down at the dinner table, I started dissociating, my mom put her hand on my shoulder to get my attention, I couldn't snap out of it fast enough and nearly kissed her. She was horrified and turned away and didn't say anything the rest of the night.

I think one possible solution is to move back in with my parents. Being alone all the time is not good for me. But obviously after what happened there's no way they're going to let me, they probably don't feel safe and for good reason. Lmao. That was my only hope. I don't know what's going to happen to me.

And no, I'm not a drug addict, alcoholic or any of that stuff.

[–]  No.296709

this is what happens when you don't strengeth your brain…well thats why I believe. Im also a lazy no brainer

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>>296708 (OP)
I am far younger than you, yet, I relate, ages of NEETdom have fried my brain, I have no short term memory, Extremely slow processing speed,my brain is just too shitty sluggish compared to the average person, it's basically out of shape, I constantly forget what I wanted to do a second ago or even forget the names of basic every day house objects in my native language, I get the need to describe them to people with hand gestures only for them to laugh at me for my horrible short term memory

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>>296708 (OP)
Well I'm 26 and I am schizophrenic which is basically premature dementia so I understand you very well, I'm mentally stable only with antipsychotics and a minimum of 12 hours of sleep

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>>296711
I need 15 hours of sleep minimum otherwise I get ADHD

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>>296711
Is it true antipsychotics give you ginecomastia? Do they help at all? Do you behave less erratically on them?

[–]  No.296715

>>296714
They have many side effects sadly but I'm a different person when I take them, I am no longer hallucinating or alienating myself

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>>296708 (OP)
I know what you mean, I sometimes struggle to find the correct words to express myself. I have also had multiple head injuries, many self-inflicted. So, there's TBI at the very least and possibly early CTE which would explain some things I feel.

I've heard for years from my mother that something such as learning a new language helps the brain's 'neuroplasticity.'
Another needed thing is going outside and having some kind of unpredictable stimulation that only an outside environment can provide. This is said to keep the brain active.
Attached is a quick tidbit that touches on the matter, I'll remove it if it goes beyond anything allowable or permitted.

[–]  No.296717

>>296716
shaky shake your ass🕺🎶🎵

[–]  No.296780

>>296708 (OP)
this is what happens after consuming too much touhou and fumo culture

[–]  No.298502

>>296708 (OP)
How long have you practiced fasting "in a row"?

>For example I start dissociating while talking to people and start humming a song, put my hand on their shoulders, other stuff like that. This is going to sound like a massive troll but just the other day I visited my parents, I sat down at the dinner table, I started dissociating, my mom put her hand on my shoulder to get my attention, I couldn't snap out of it fast enough and nearly kissed her. She was horrified and turned away and didn't say anything the rest of the night.


Epic. Be sure you use this ability against those deserving, though.

[–]  No.298510>>298860

Ever since the COVID pandemic there has been a marked increase in the number of people who end up saying the wrong word when they mean to say another word or not being able to think of the word they want to say. Like at least a 300-400% increase. It has been very noticeable.

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>>296716
That picture is great.

So many people even on this website refuse to acknowledge we're just base animals who happen to use tools.

There is no grand "meaning". Even walking to the store to buy a salad can contain enough tiny events to keep your mind satisfied for a while.

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>>296714
I didn't know until recently that there are different types of atypical antipsychotics that work on different chemical pathways in the brain. I was under the impression they all sedate you and give you man tits but aripirazole actually makes you energetic and restless instead and doesn't raise prolactin. There are newer ones that work in completely different ways.

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>>296710
Same. 9 years of being a NEET and I feel like I became a retard.
My ability to learn has rusted to the point where picking up new video games is too much of a mental task.
Wonder if there is a solution to this.

[–]  No.298703

>>298511
You need to be the most boring, inane, lame retard to get excitement out of going to the store and buying something, your IQ needs to be ridiculously low to enjoy something like that, that’s literally like having the mind of a 5 year old

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>>298510
Vaxxies are completely hellbound. Myocarditis, autoimmune disease, turbocancers, sudden deaths, aids-like progression and worsening symptoms. Ofcourse they will have brain fog and not being able to find the right words.

[–]  No.298862

>>298860
The massive retard on four-chins who constantly uses the word "hellbound" in reference to the vaccinated is a memeflag jew who praises repulsive pharma puppets like gates as "heroes for vaccinating the npcs". Yet there is no man now living who can say he knows 10 unvaccinated people; so if the vaccinated really are "hellbound", that would fairly mean that 97-98% of humanity is travelling downward after death. Quite a large unlikely number. Even for my own part, I was unable to persuade persons I've known for 20 years not to take it – the pro-vaccine propaganda were just too strong (though I did all that I could). Notwithstanding the vaccinated being disgusting sheep, we must concentrate our reproving distaste on those that intentionally and maliciously misled them. Really thus JEWS need to pay greatly for what they have done. They need to pay for hundreds upon hundreds of years of deception (this pandemic hoax was just a blip really, in all the history of their wicked criminality).

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>>298860
Also as an unvaccinated individual who has wisely kept aloof of this 5 year long madness, I have still felt my own mind weaken and deteriorate to the point that I now feel like half of my erst self. This world has darkened and much of my mind with it.

[–]  No.298866

>I was very depressed 10 years ago and nearly killed myself
did you ever truly recover from that though? I had years of improvement after being suicidal and found that the suicidal period caused seemingly permanent brain damage.

[–]  No.298867

>>298511
I can't relate to what you are talking about at all. It just causes me unpleasant stress if i go do things like that

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>>296716
It's precisely because computer people care that they're taking us out of this, and have in some measure succeeded to that end.
They realized that people were dancing quite a lot, shaking their asses everywhere, and much as it gave them happiness, it was never enough.
They realized that people were curious, their intelligence never sated in its demand to 'know', its hunger to be aware incessant. It just didn't end.
They realized that the whole point asses were shaking and dances were transpiring were reducible to two functions:
(1) Get attention
(2) Get more attention

And so, observing that the plane, the theatre called reality, was an intrinsically limited platform, consequential in its cause-effect structure, they then created a digital, more freer world, to appease to human nature, whose only accessing operational demand would be to use the cognition affordable at no expense to all man.
By all accounts, the tech people were -and still are- only giving to your interests, and the people, agitated though they are, full of disdain against their 'exploitative world', will continue to dance in its artificial theatre, literally shaking their asses and jumping around until they drop dead.

They couldn't do it enough in the real world, but now they can do it forever in the digital.
All of this is a product of love.
Shake your ass and dance forever.

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>>298874
i have no ass to shake
how would a male virgin grow an ass?
the ass muscles are for making the pelvic thrust motion
useless

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>>296708 (OP)
i've been abusing benadryl recreationally for the past 11 years (18-29), and it is 100% causing permanent brain damage and dementia, they've literally done scientific studies linking benadryl use to dementia. my memory is absolute dogshit, i get absurdly anxious even trying to engage with people in MMOs like runescape because i can't hold a conversation, have to re-read everything a bunch of times to gather my thoughts coherently. i'll take showers and be unable to tell if i've been in there 5 minutes or an hour from spacing out, or going to the kitchen to get food, forget why i'm in the kitchen, go back, repeat. i barely eat anything at all these days. i'm not even stressed out about it, i just listen to Everywhere at the End of Time and completely lose myself to the void while laying in bed. i've tried to kill myself many times (not recently, dont feel especially depressed), and when death comes it'll come, it is out of my hands at this point. luckily a family member can take care of my cats when i inevitably get too fucked beyond repair, i love those little shitters, and my only real fear i have is forgetting their names

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>>299021
I'm the same as you but I never used drugs, only used alcohol maybe 5 times in my life, never smoke and I eat clean and excercise.
I limit my screentime to about 2 hours a day and haven't watched porn for a decade. I don't watch TV either. The rare times I stare at a screen for hours on end is in a movie threatre.

Honestly, I think some extremely unfortunate people are just predisposed to extremely early age dementia (I assume you are 20-39 and not 60).

Though I don't discount the effect of your benadryl use either. But it can absolutely happen even if you lived a perfectly healthy lifestyle.

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>>299034
>I limit my screentime to about 2 hours a day
what do you do all day?

[–]  No.299135

>>296708 (OP)
You need a group of autists to be around you. With similar traits, of course.

People around here might not even lift, yet they complain about having natural atrophy

[–]  No.299155>>299156

>>299038
Read. Cook. Explore nature. Do things on your checklist that don't involve talking to others. Build things or renovate. Feed pet and take it out for a walk. Possibly take care of food plants or decorative plants.
Read wizchan or watch an educational clip on space, history, science or some other interesting subject for 30-60 mins. Sleep as long as you can.

Lift weights or use a treadmill/rowing machine in 15 minute bursts spread throughout the day. Do chores like taking out the trash or removing excess dust.

[–]  No.299156

>>299155
>Lift weights or use a treadmill/rowing machine in 15 minute bursts spread throughout the day.
shouldn't you do a warmup before each exercise?
that would extend each burst to 20-25 minutes



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