/dep/ - Depression★

ive been trying but i often get too impatient. how long does it take you to enter that state?

>>299337
15-20 minutes. 5-10 minutes if I coomed before lol. But it's very weird it's like the comfort of bed makes me want to sleep but since I have already slept the night before, I can't really doze off so I end up in this very weird state.

I can enter that stage at will after age 32+ because games, movies, books etc. feel completely pointless. It feels like I'm just re-experiencing the same stories and characters in a different form over and over.
I can just lay in bed for 10 hours after a small meal and simply not think about anything, or think of random thoughts.

Usually, I travel in places that my mind creates. They're often offshoots or variations of places I saw as a kid, like randomly generated dungeons. I can spend an endless amount of time there.
Once I snap out of it, it does feel like lucid dreaming. But I was only able to get to this point after all kinds of entertainment lost all value.

Now I get zero joy from anything except walking in nature or just closing my eyes in bed.
It's a state of being that is beyond severe depression.
A state where you're just ready to die and be reborn somewhere else in the universe.

You can't enter the dreamstate if you are happy or content with life or Earth. You can only enter it at will once you're completely done with life here.

But anyone can enter that dreamstate when they are asleep. It's there for everyone to experience and mostly stems from your subconscious.

>>299339
oh!
that actually makes me feel kinda conflicted because I was committed to preserving my mana, but i’ll try it out and see if it helps.

>>299340
that so cool
and the way you describe yourself fits me perfectly as well
i’m completely done with this world

>>299340
>>299336 (OP)
I feel envy reading this, sounds way better than doomscrolling in front of PC and dying from soul crushing boredom, even if you are over-doing it if it makes you neglect your physical health.

>>299344
For all the nihilistic doom rotting I do all day, whether I'm rotting in bed or mindlessly scrolling, boredom is one thing I don't experience. If I didn't have to worry about money and external things, I could do this forever.

>>299388
same
if i didnt have to work, if my backwards country had neetbux, id happily rot for the rest of my life

i tried it for some 50 minutes and i got to the point where i could see colored blobs rythmically expanding and contracting, but i stopped due to impatience and boredom
will keep trying

>>299395
>colored blobs rythmically expanding and contracting
black and purplish / dark red ?

>>299399
yeah, was that close?

>>299400
idk but I never experienced what OP did, so I think it's just ordinary eye glitches or something