/dep/ - Depression★

because in reality it's not that bad. yeah, you're missing out on money and pussy, but most of us live in develop countries and have parents that support us and the ones that work aren't working in mineshafts all day.

maybe stop complaining for a second that you aren't a billioner fucking pornstars everyday and appreciate what you have?

You sound like that WEF harari jew lmao

Even if you believe your life should end, commiting suicide is difficult for most people. A lot fail and become permanently disabled.

>>298058 (OP)
cause we've been given life as a gift and we should let God take it away as he pleases.

>>298058 (OP)
Eh I think it's all about perspective. There are monks who have less than I do who live contentedly. I don't have to do backbreaking labor in a factory for 18h a day. I have electricity and drinkable running water and plenty of time to wander around my area with lots of nature. I get along well with my parents and will be able to live with them until they die. Sure sometimes the loneliness gets to me or the dreams and ideas that I had about my life when I was younger that never materialized. But the freedom of being a "loser" is that I don't need to pretend to care about made up milestones. I used to struggle a lot to get myself to be a certain way, to be less ashamed of myself. Not so much anymore. At the end of the day it's not so bad. "Every era puts invisible shackles on those who live through it, and I can only dance in my chains." But dance I shall, for my own amusement.

If I ever kill myself I'm leaving a note that says "I just wanted to see what would happen."

>>298078
I wont leave a note or manifesto. Leaving one is very narcissistic and gives the impression the person thinks it makes any difference. Nobody cares that you or I existed.

Nobody even cares that the great pharaohs of Egypt existed, outside one guy (Tutankhamon) whose body is on display to fat tourists like a circus animal.

The significance of a single human life is similar to an ant, bird or snake. Nobody cares if one of them dies. You were never significant. I was never significant.

The person who cares about you the most is you. Once you die, traces of your existence will be erased completely within decades to the point you'll be a record in a digital registry and a date on a tombstone nobody visits.

>>298080
I wouldn't go so far. If you have people who care about you I think there's nothing bad about leaving them a note. That being said I agree that this striving for immortality through status or achievement is a huge cope. All returns to dust either way. We're here to experience life. Nothing more.

>>298081
To parents yes (if they gave a shit about you). I meant to the broader public.

Seeing even how "grand manifests" like the one written by Ted Kaczynski had zero effect on society & are ultimately futile, why do it at all?

Humans are animals and primarily care about their own survival and dopamine levels. They don't care about grand ideas or mechanisms. Trying to propagate them after death by written text is doomed to fail the moment you die. Nobody will care.

>>298082
>To parents yes (if they gave a shit about you). I meant to the broader public.
Fascinating that you would write in reference to the public and think we know you are doing that. Normal people would make notes only for family/friends, and assume that the conversation is about that

>>298070
Life is a curse, a punishment. We are not meant to be contained within these crude vessels of flesh and blood.

>>298058 (OP)
I would kill myself but only if it's done in a way that I like, that is, I get an anaesthesia administered by a doctor like the way they do before operations and have soldiers aim their assault rifles at my head and then blast me to nothingness.

With that said I will be honest with you here. I just wanted and still want very basic things in life like being able to drive correctly and confidently (I can't reverse properly and don't know how far I am from the fence looking at my side mirrors and I can't parallel park either), have a house, have a family, be physically be able to have sex (I can't get hard and when I do it is painful because of phimosis and frenulum breve, and even when that is coped with I can't cum because of being high inhibition and feeling unattractive no succubus wants a guy like me), have a job.

I don't think I have ever asked for much I know the disdain this comment is going to get, I just wanted a normal life. I don't wanna die because somewhere deep down inside i have hope that things will be fine or I am just too cowardly to attempt suicide.

Overall, a pretty horrific situation where you're not really living and not really dying but slowly inching towards personal disaster.

>>298095
Don't people in india drive like shit anyhow

>>298096
This is very untrue. People here are ready to chop heads off at very minor fender benders. And while most people don't follow rules. They are bad drivers in that sense of not following rules. But apart from that you won't believe this but drivers here are extremely skilled and drive and push themselves into places with just a needle sized margin. Driving requires extreme skill here. And if you ignore the rule following part people here are extremely skilled at driving.

>>298110
Using Occam's razor this makes a lot of sense, because for most people in that hellish traffic, much of their net worth and money is tied up to the car they drive. It is s great motivator for avoiding damage.

>>298058 (OP)
Know forgotten/ignored past recognition and keep yourself alive to keep past recogniser alive
https://archive.org/details/the-future-of-suicide-1938
https://archive.org/details/suicide-a-social-and-historical-study

>>298058 (OP)
Mostly because my self-preservation instinct is too strong. But maybe I'll do it one day. It's almost innevitable at this point, but I can always do it later when things become too unbearable.

>>298058 (OP)
I don't want to reincarnate in India.

>>298058 (OP)
I'd rather kill a tax collector first or some old school normies I knew from younger years. No damn way.

>>298207
Could you explain shortly to me which usefulness these texts have?

Better killing some random psychonormie around me than that, so no. Not giving them such pleasure.

>>298058 (OP)
because I simply don't believe in an afterlife (as much as I'd like to), so living will always inherently be better than being dead, because being dead = nonexistence. if I commit suicide to free myself from whatever pain I have while living, but there isn't an afterlife, I will experience no catharsis from dying, as I won't consciously exist anymore to feel better. if there is something after death, great, but the way I see it, we only experience the one life we have, as shitty as it is

>>298477
You're not that evil

>>298058 (OP)
why, i will try of course. only got a week left at most so it's the last day i talk to people. im quitting sleeping, eating, interacting with anyone, or doing anything at all. I'll also go homeless to destroy all my chances for inaction. There is almost no risk since once i run out of drugs im guaranteed to get endless seizures cause of my addiction and i only have a few days left until that, so no matter what method i choose it won't make it worse than what it already is. Time to gamble that a train will make mincemeat out of me and get me out of hell, if i lose then at least i tried.