Being a massive loser amongst family members

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Being a massive loser amongst family members Anonymage 12/20/24 (Fri) 13:11:12 No.296810

Does any of you get irritated with family gatherings or when guests come to visit you in your family's house?
I am 24 years old, little to not school education, no job, whenever I am with some relatives or in some family gathering I can sense how much they look down at me for being a massive loser, even if they almost never express it directly at all, since I was a child I would always be asked by them questions like "how are you doing in school?" or "are you getting any good grades" Of course they no longer ask me such question, But I still feel a lot of shame when I am around them, I try to avoid sitting with them like the plague

Anonymage 12/20/24 (Fri) 14:42:38 No.296815

yeah, i can feel this psychic pressure being applied to me when normalfags are in the room. they don't even have to say anything, you know you're being measured against a standard that you don't believe in but your brain has evolved to push your towards conforming so there's always that internal conflict that bubbles up as anxiety and shame. the only thing that seems to help is just leaving the situation. solitude is such a blessing.

Anonymage 12/20/24 (Fri) 16:36:50 No.296818

>>296810
Aye, it feels like an interrogation, and the more distant the family, the worse questions they ask. Sometimes I wonder if they are curious, or if they just want to listen to a freak mumble for the kicks. I mean they get these demonic smiles when they're listening to me, like children watching a rat try to escape from a bucket of water.

>>296815
>being measured against a standard that you don't believe in
so much this
and I'm sure they pick the questions they know I don't have a good answer to, like they already know, but want to hear me admit it

Anonymage 12/21/24 (Sat) 13:30:20 No.296853

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the worst thing is when you are with your family relatives who are in the same age as you but have achieved far more than you, it's almost crazy seeing the people who you were once in the same level as become vastly successful compared to you

Anonymage 12/21/24 (Sat) 13:34:18 No.296854

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>>296853
leaving family relatives aside, there was a guy who I used to play C.S source with in 2018, he bought his own place in 2022, and he is in the same exact age as me, i know i sound like a failed normie, but i don't know how can you repress the feelings of shame in such situations.