/dep/ - Depression★

Semaglutide is destroying me. Have to take it for weight loss because I’m a fat slob. I’m also highly addicted to junk food and sugar. I’m not yet an alcoholic but I have been drinking once or twice every week for years now. Something like a 12 pack every week in a single night. So it’s not like my body is fully dependent on alcohol but I’m almost there. However, binge eating and beer are the only pleasures I have in my life. Semaglutide is slowing down the eating part but I still have food cravings and feel anxious over not having the dopamine kick out of food. I also miss those good times while drinking alone in my room listening to music and daydreaming while gulping down lots of beer. It feels like an intimate moment all for myself. The only time where my feelings are free to flourish because my sober state is neutral and numb. I take antidepressants and they do nothing. I got the feeling semaglutide won’t make me happy either. Yeah I will be thin but what’s the point of staying healthy if I’m a retard friendless loser NEET with no education, no money and no will to live. I hate sobriety. I’m going to starve myself to death just to be miserable yet thin.