No.298320
Due to the effect of disease there's a veil of smoke in my brain. Apologies for retarded grammar.
No.298322
>>298319I have sleep apnea & it ruined my life. No energy or motivation to do anything, inability to focus, remember things, think, etc. & so much more. It literally deteriorated my brain. I missed out on almost everything while growing up just because I didn't have the energy for anything. & right now I'm in my 20s & I still didn't have it treated (none of the things my doctor prescribed helped). I wish I had a gun so I could just blow my brains out right now instead of having to deal with this shit for even longer.
Sorry for the blogpost but I needed to type this shit out. Healthy people really will never understand what it's like
No.298372
>>298322Sleep apnea feels like a cosmic joke. There's a metaphysical faggot who thinks that your day time suffering isn't enough so applies an even more evil command and even make you suffer in you sleep.
Life is possible because people sleep and forget the torments of previous. Sleep apnea makes sleep itself a torment.
Everyday I use to look farward to sleeping. Fate has denied me even the consolation of a peaceful sleep. What a disgusting existence. The evil is woven into the very fabric of life.
No.298376
>>298319Great thread, I suffer from various different chronic ailments: hemmerhoids and/or pelvic floor disfunction, strained a tendon in my foot, eczema, fucked my arm while lying down exhausted and now it hurts occasionally and many more mental illnesses. The pain is so fucking borderline unbearable but I'll never get any sort of help for it that actually works, nor will I get neetbux. I hate how the pain comes in waves and whenever I have any sort of hope, I'm just crushed again and fucking again while I waste my life with mounting regret from having this retarded chronic pain just fucking up my life but I just can't stop being so frustrated from my decaying body at twenty fucking two and that's still not mentioning how fucked my brain is to the point of borderline madness and I'm only just getting worse man. Sorry for bitching, just having another shitty night.
No.298379
Saging cause my reply is not worth it. I can't judge spaces from my side mirrors towards my rear and it's the reason I don't know how far away from the kerb I am or from the car park behind. And it's becoming a MAJOR handicap, people think that my problem is too minor so they don't pay any attention but not knowing to drive while living in the part of the world where everything is car dependent is a nightmare, your life feels like prison, you can't go anywhere in emergencies, can't run errands, can't park, can get into potential legal troubles if you try to drive. Your home becomes your prison. And you have to leech on your parents because you have no friends. And you wonder what you'll do when your parents die.
I feel like people don't pay attention to this but when someone can't drive because of medical reasons or other reasons, they become completely dependent on other people and going somewhere is such a hassle. I truly think that it's better to trade a testicle or even your ability to walk just to be able to drive.
No.298402
>>298382
Sleep is a rough one, everything in the modern world is designed to keep you awake. The first time I stayed up to 5am I was 10 years old. It's 4:54am right now, I envy my family members that can stay up till 2am one day and then go to sleep at midnight the next day. It seems like I can't just fall asleep sooner than the previous night. I fucking hate being so anxious and tired all the time.
No.298418
>>298402I have the same problem. It's weird how some people seem to be able to sleep whenever they want. I can try to stay awake 30 hours to change my sleep/wake time, but i cant sleep 1 hour earlier than the previous night
No.298458
>>298455Diet. Change your diet immediately. Especially eliminate dairy and gluten. This will take a lot of discipline but it can be done. Acne is a nutritional/dietary problem that can be solved once the offending food group(s) have been eliminated. Your abdominal pain may also have to do with a dairy and/or wheat allergy.
No.298465
>>298458No i have ACNES (Anterior Cutaneous Nerve Entrapment Syndrome), the nerved are trapped and causes hellfire. No diet can fix this. Only operation or injections and it might not work at all. I wish i had acne, pales before it.
No.298467
Recently I've been having chronic nausea with vomit too, I don't want to go to the hospital
No.298469
I have 20 diseases that i can't afford to diagnose and treat. Im also a xanax addict and eat 30 mg a day, in 6 days I'll have a grand mal seizure cause i can't afford more. Bye.
No.298471
>>298465How many alt remedies have you tried against that thing? I want to know what fails in case I develop that
No.298566
>>298319I used earphones for quite some time at loud volumes. Despite being repeatedly warned by my parents against it. And now I have tinnitus. Interestingly, I don't have much hearing loss.
However when talking to people, I hear that they are speaking but I can't discern the exact words that they are saying. And it is frustrating to pretend that I understand what is being said. Because of this people don't want to talk to me because they have to speak louder and they feel like they have to add more effort while speaking.
Despite being totally dependent upon my parents. I can't really tell them about it. They shout and get angry with me and they are like "we told you so". It's so isolating and frustrating. And what's even worse is that despite so many "advancements of modern age" we still can't figure out a way to reverse hearing loss. It's crazy.
No.298567
>>298566Not going to lie. This issue sometimes makes me cry. No one wants to talk to me because they don't wanna have extra hassle and when me and my colleagues or acquaintances are in a group, for the most part, I can almost never understand what they are talking about with themselves. And because I can't understand them, I always come across as retarded. It makes me so upset, I can hardly explain how much pain this problem has caused me. And how there is literally no solution to this problem at all.
No.298568
>>298566>"advancements of modern age"That means fuck all. I have been to many doctors and all of them are pill pushing clueless bastards.
No.298569
>>298566>However when talking to people, I hear that they are speaking but I can't discern the exact words that they are saying. I get this as a result of anxiety.
No.298570
>>298569"Reject what you cannot have"
No.298572
>>298568I think this goes for vision as well, there aren't that many treatments for one's eyes as well. Tell you what I just visited a doctor, she checked my retina and boom after a few days, I have astigmatism, I have massive trouble driving at night, and I am surprised that we haven't even come up with some sort of googles that make bright things dull and dull things bright.
It's a massive problem. The governments across the world have failed to manage how much light intensity and how high off the grounds should headlights be, and assholes driving these death machines have no regards for other users and drive on high beams like total faggots, if you drive a low slung sedan and encounter an SUV or truck, you're COMPLETELY blind for a significant amount of time.
Even the low beams of cars nowadays look like highbeams, it's crazy. I have no idea how people manage to drive at night, some people just have superior vision and manage to look through oncoming lights, I wish I had that talent.
No.298574
>>298573once you eat the 'za you can't take it from aul'ma
No.298576
>>298573Similar situation, though not as bad. Without some seeds/fiber supplement I have to shit like 8 times a day. I have it under control now but I've had to accept that I will need to use public restrooms / shit at work and won't be able to just hold it anymore. Also get bloated and gassy after lunch, no matter what I eat. Any medical reasons have been ruled out, I was told it's just IBS or something like that.
No.298577
>>298572People buy SUVs to sit higher and have better visibility. Then other people buy even taller SUVs, and so on. Total selfish asshole behavior. And also they claim they buy SUVs because they are safer. Well, yeah, at the cost of the lower car driver's safety. The roads have become a bizarre battleground of prestige, where the winner is the one who sits higher. A lot like hens in a coop lol. Just shows how primitive normie thinking is. They can be superficially kind and empathetic, but their actions show otherwise.
No.298578
This is disgusting but I have pus leaking out of some wound on my armpit that I thought I got rid of. I'm too apathetic to do anything about it other than shower when I have energy.
No.298583
>>298582Liver and intestine in bad conditions, bruh. A long, long fast you should try. Longer than a week.
No.298590
>>298587do whatever you want, I don't care
No.298591
>>298589like I said do what ever you want to do
No.298596
>>298573Sounds like you have a bad gut biome. I'm struggling with the same. It's like I can take 1, maybe 2 normal shits, then something happens, and I get similar-themed semi-diarrhea for the next few weeks. Right now my gut has an eggy farts and sudden pains phase, been going on for 2 weeks. What I've noticed is that after a severe diarrhea, my gut goes into a different phase, like a great reset of the gut biome. So maybe it's a method to intentionally induce a total, gut-purging diarrhea, and hope I randomly roll better shits this time. Could be because my appendix was removed, and I read that it's supposed to be a refuge for the good bacteria. Well, I never received the good bacteria anyway, since I was born through c-section.
Anyway, I wish you solid shits and good winds.
No.298597
>>298596>What I've noticed is that after a severe diarrhea, my gut goes into a different phase, like a great reset of the gut biome>Could be because my appendix was removed, and I read that it's supposed to be a refuge for the good bacteriaThat's 100% it. The appendix serves as sort of a warehouse for vital bacterial cultures so that when something bad is eaten or an illness is contracted, you can replace the bacteria that has been purged.
Prebiotics, probiotics, and even bacterial suppositories should be taken by those without an appendix.
No.298685
>>298458Diet helping anything is a myth. When it works it's placebo effect.
No.298686
>Healthy people are NPCs. They don't really exist. With disease comes the awareness of your body that your private hell and your true existence begins and hear the scream of everything
I mean, you stand correct, but I hope that you include mental illnesses too, otherwise your argument would be lacking. In schizophrenia, for example, the body can feel like a prison in the same way.
No.298942
My hurts like hell. This is hell. All is evil.
No.298943
Oh God take pity on me
No.298946
Pain is the only reality. What a terrible, terribly existence. All is evil.
No.298954
>>298319I have narcolepsy. so I fall asleep during the day. Not like face first into my desk but I get so sleepy I basically have to halt whatever I'm doing and take a nap.
Been to doctors and tried medication but nothing helps. can't drive a car, can't work a job. Just take my brain out and throw it into the wood chipper.
No.298967
Im pretty sure I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, or Long Covid or Long Vaccine or whatever. Abnormally thick blood and inflammation. The most annoying thing of all is dyspnea, struggling to breath. Sometimes I ahve almost normal levels of energy but then as soon as I try doing too much or pushing myself I "crash" for twice the amount of time I felt good. This condition is rarely officially recognized because doctors are retards, and because it'd be a nightmare for insurance companies. But the science is there is one bothers to listen to instead of outdated insurance or "official" guidelines. It's an autoimmune disease basically, perhaps for life.
>Pain teach you what it means to really exist.
Pretty much, they say you only start living when you realize you're going to die. Like your mortality actually hits you in the face. The irony is normalfags live so much more than us, yet they're not really alive because they're not conscious enough of reality, just in autopilot.
No.298991
I'm taking like 5 shits a day, can it be normal? I feel fine but it's tiresome, even considering I'm neeting and home all day.
No.298993
>>298991if you're neeting, you can try fasting for a day at first, to see if your shits improve
No.298995
>>298991I shit every two weeks or so
No.298996
>>298991Might be IBS. I started having the same shit after getting the stomach flu years ago. All of a sudden I would get crazy spontaneous urges to shit and shit like 5-8 times a day. After the first time it always felt like it "irritated" my bowel and they just forcibly pushed everything out until they were completely empty, resulting in those bursts of urges. Almost never diarrhea, sometimes it looked kinda half digested. I had it checked out and it was nothing in my case but I have to take psyllium husk supplements with every meal otherwise it comes back immediately.
No.298997
>>298991it happens to me too. It is an anxiety symptom according to my doctor
No.299054
>>298322It's hell on earth. I have had sleep apnea since at least 12, only got diagnosed at 30. Absolutely horrifying to know all this time that something is wrong with you (constant headaches, constantly tired, dizzy) but you don't know what it. And you don't have a reference on how bad it truely is. And you're so exhausted and brainfogged that surviving is all you can do, leaving no time to figure out what's wrong.
My body never got to develop due to the constant hypoxias, making me permanently weak and dependent on others for basically everything.
Now after surgery and treatment it is slightly better but the damage to my life and body has already been done.
No.299081
>>298991Me too for two months now. I had serious cold and the doctor prescribed me antibiotics. It started afterwards. It is always same, doesn't get better or worse and I don't have any other symptoms. I'm afraid that I'm stuck with this for life.
No.299082
>>299081Also the stool is mushy, not liquid.
No.299114
I have 7 days left to live. Im sick with everything but i dont know what and dont treat it cause im broke. Also i got addicted to xanax so much that i have to take 30mg a day which is 8 times the maximum dose, otherwise i will have a grand mal seizure, which is either death or severe brain damage. 7 days left to die. I would sell my soul to satan if that would increase my chances since the only realistic option is lying in front of a train. I will never make it to April either way, also gonna tell my parents i'm leaving. Goodbye here too since i never had a real home except the internet.
No.299115
>>299114Sorry, I don't know anything about xanax, but can't you wean off it gradually? Take 15mg one day, then 10 the next day, then 5 and so on. What would happen if you did that?
No.299116
>>299115it takes way too long, the side effects would be unbearable if u cut that fast(they are unbearable anyway, getting off benzos is hell). and u would seize anyway. to properly wean off the dose i am on it would take like half a year or maybe a year, either way i can't afford even one more dose so it's impossible.
No.299120
>>299116I would like to tell to just bear through it, seems better than dying. If you decrease the dose, it will last you much longer. But then I have no idea what benzo withdrawal is like. Can you describe it? If you have so little time left to live, then I imagine you're not working, and you don't really have to do anything, so you could just relax throughout the process.
No.299173
>>299120it is impossible. i cant do anything. just google it if u want to know. i have 0 money nowhere to get money from i exhausted all my options.
in short i will have psychosis, worst anxiety in the world, constant grand mal seizures, heart attack symptoms, stomach dysregulation etc. and those are only the hardest symptoms, not counting endless others. Im so sick i can barely walk so i wont survive this anyway. So I will either end this myself within 200 hours or that is what awaits me.
No.299174
>>299173suppress the seizures with cheap vodka, they suppress seizures from alcohol withdrawal with benzos so you can do it the other way around too
No.299175
>>299173Can you get Kratom somehow? I've heard that it helps with mild to moderate withdrawal symptoms. For severe symptoms you'll have to go to a clinic as I understand it. But if you have no money that's a problem.
https://kratom.org/guides/benzo-withdrawal/ No.299186
>>299173Went through benzo and opiate withdrawals earlier this year, and I only took oxycodone and valium daily for a few weeks and it was pure hell. You're honestly right, death is probably better, usually they put you into a coma for that level of withdrawals.
Good luck.
No.299189
These stomach issues have fucked me over. I had no youth. Now I have palpitations. Fuck this planet. Fuck
No.299191
>>299189I feel you, the worst part is never completely emptying the bowel. The shit is really sticky too, so it takes far too long to wipe, to the point where I'm scuffing blood, and my ass is still not clean. I try to only shit at home now, where I can wash my ass, and I take loperamide before leaving off to work.
No.299343
Pinched my back and stomach nerves by drought. Not toothache like in previous years. Second time this year, way stronger, impossible to sit, stand, and lie. Third day, menthol cream and painkillers don't do shit. Barely got sleep today, at 9 am the power went off, so I went to sleep instead of watching TV. No reason why on the energy supplier site. Lying on the back is hard due to snoring waking me up plus normalfags would use it as ad hominem with their noise violence. (Even though they would sleep even when the drill is on). Temperature was 37.3 °C once.
No.299397
My joints are making these awful crackling noises, i think i am dying
No.299402
>>299398I had this too and I couldn't eat anything solid for almost a year. I went to a doctor and I kept gagging when she put the instrument in and she acted so bitchy about it that I just gave up and didn't want to deal with any kind of uncomfortable invasive tests so I just ate slop for a year hoping it's cancer and that it fucking kills me. But eventually I just trained myself to eat normally, little by little, now I'm back to normal but I still sometimes catch myself mid swallow and spit it out. I don't know if it was purely psychosomatic or if it was some weird medical problem that went away on its own. It got me super depressed because food was one of my last copes and all I could eat was fucking yoghurts, soups, mashed potatoes, shakes, which got old pretty fast.
No.299418
I found an injured mouse outside and I took it in, feeling sorry for it.
I fed it some food and checked over it for injuries. After I seen it was covered in fleas and I remembered how Plague was spread, I put it back outside.
It's been two days and I'm feeling pretty fucking sick ngl. Not like hospitalization tier, but like I have a mild flu.
I'm wondering how bad I've fucked myself up. I don't think I'll get plague or one of the horrific killing diseases. I'm not in that part of the world for that sort of shit. But I wouldn't be surprised if I get something that rolls me for like a month.
No.299422
>>299418I'm usually pretty sympathetic to various creatures but mice ain't one of them. I hate those little bastards sneaking into my house and carrying all sorts of nasty diseases. You should definitely check if there have been hantavirus cases in your state/area, that kills people even in the US.
No.299423
>>299422I'm not from burgerland and Hantavirus is unheard of here, there's literally never been a case. The Plague hasn't been recorded as really being in my country as far as I know either. If it was Bubonic I'd likely be hospitalized right now.
I likely have caught either Leptospirosis or Salmonella, or some other random bacterial infection. The most common ones seem to be in the range of "you're gonna feel fucked up for the next month".
I'm off to the doctor Monday to look into it.
No.299449
>>299398>>299402both of you should look up 'thiamine deficiency', might be related to what youre experiencing. ive had minimal dysphagia moments (i cant swallow spit and takes me like 6 times trying to make it work), like i wouldnt even call it episodes or spells or frequent enough to bother with them, but frequent enough to notice and tell myself 'hey this has NEVER happened to you before…'
do either of you get dry mouth at times too?
No.299748
>>298319Being completely dependent upon your parents is a curse, I am still in college, and the norm here is that we're dependent upon parents till we get a job.
But something just came up, I had all the regular eye tests and did fine in them, although there was some problem with my cornea and doctor suggested that I get corneal mapping or something of the sorts to further see what's wrong.
The thing is I have had a bad experience getting braces in the past, and for that I had to get my 4 healthy tooth removed, the results weren't satisfactory, my teeth weakened, and now I have to wear retainers every night for my life so my parents think that I am dependent upon my retainers and they see it as a bad thing, and since I myself am unhappy with my treatment and my family opposed me getting braces they have had their gotcha moment and are like "we told you so"
but as I said now that I have problems with my eyes, my parents still think that I shouldn't go to a doctor, after talking to my doctor, researching on the internet, and using ChatGPT, all three of them pointed towards early keratoconus. And my parents are unwilling to help me, so I might have to steal money from them but I can't just go AWOL for a long time without my parents freaking out as I live with them, they will be wondering where I went, and there are no hospitals nearby that scan for corneal mapping. And of course I need money as well.
And I have exams coming up in 30 days, I have had problem reading white text on black background and experience ghosting, I see glare from headlights, and have astigmatism which is getting worsen over time, earlier I used to see only one streak of lights now I am seeing three, in just a span of one month. So it is worsening at a rapid pace.
All of this makes me feel suicidal, I am getting too overwhelmed with different problems in my life, I want someone to just give me and anaesthetic while I am sleeping and shoot me, I don't want to wake up another day.
It is EXTREMELY SCARY that you might lose your vision, life is already hard enough and I can't imagine what it would be like living if your eyes stop working, if you can't drive during the night, can't judge distances while driving during the day. Can't read properly. I am deeply mortified if I am being honest. Why did the universe had to bestow upon me such a rare disease?
No.299817
Nah, pathogens kept us healthy as an ethnic group
No.299904
>>298579I got that neck+back hernia with the appropriate levels of nerve pain radiating to limbs, hemorrhoids and tooth ache trifecta as well.
I miss being young.
I should have known better.
Funnily enough despite the pain I'm still not inclined to improve my lot at all. Taking action is still beyond me so it slowly gets worse.
The jester image is quite appropriate.
Got a very vivid memory of getting lectured by a highschool gym teacher 13-14 years ago about how this was going to happen.
It was a early morning (6:30AM) "therapy" gym class for people who already had some problems.
Sometimes my mind replays it just to torment me, letting me know it's on me.
No.299905
>>299748I think I would rope if I lost my sight tbh. It's just too debilitating.
No.299907
>>299904I have herniations in the back and neck too. I had a surgery but it will never get back to 100% normal. I'll never be pain free again.
What's worse, I developed venous insufficiency, along with high blood pressure and rapid heartbeat (it easily goes up to 100 at rest). I blame it all on my job. I wanted to quit but my mother screams at me all the time when I suggest changing my job to something less stressful.
I don't even want to get better at this point. I will never be my old self, as I was two years ago before starting this job. I feel broken physically and mentally, like something essential was riped out of me. I just want to die sooner, if it means fucking up my heart more and more, I'll do it. This stress is too much for me, it seems.
No.299909
>>299907Man I'm sorry to hear that… I can relate a lot.
I had a blood pressure crisis moment where I ended up in the ER with 195/hundredsomething in December. It was right after a work shift as well.
I'm terrified of dying, but even then it seems I'm unable to change.
>I will never be my old selfThis is probably a huge part of it. All that work it would take only to mitigate further damage and improve slightly, never ending…
I'm not a complete idiot. I'm capable enough to envision my future even if I put in all the effort and the juice just doesn't seem to be worth squeezing anymore in my case.
You know, at some point I was told suffering is relative and it stuck with me since.
I'm also not made for this life. By all metrics I have a chill job, little responsibilities, but somehow even that is too much for me.
Do you think you would be more motivated if going back to being a NEET was an option in your future? I think I might be.
I yearn for that level of freedom more than anything, but it feels unattainable.
No.299937
>>299909>This is probably a huge part of it. All that work it would take only to mitigate further damage and improve slightly, never ending…Yeah, that's what I'm thinking. Most chronic diseases are irreversible. There is also this eixstensionalism. Why me? WTF did I do to deserve it? I'm no wheelchair-bound quadrileptic, but still. I'm pretty young, and people around me are mostly healthy. And of all those young people, why me? It feels lile some cosmic bullshit, like the universe decided to screw with me.
>Do you think you would be more motivated if going back to being a NEET was an option in your future? I think I might be.TBH, I don't want NEETdom as much as having some time to get myself together. I have some savings and I want to take a break to get my health in check. But it's not possible in the current economy, and not so much in my line of work. If I take a break, I might never got back. I kinda want to work, I just want to see something beside this work. I get back, and I feel too tired and in pain to do anything at all. Then, after sleep, it's back to work again. I don't sure I want that to continue.
No.299988
>>299937Unfortunately I can't give you a solution.
Though I'd think twice before quitting your job. I'm quite worried what would happen if I lost mine.
Only got one through sheer luck. Can't imagine going through the interviewing processes again and the economy is looking bleak on so many fronts.
"Some time for myself" can also turn into a wasted year and used up savings. Just make sure you trust yourself with that decision is all I'm saying.
As for the "why me?" questions… I'm not sure. Many people lived worse lives with less health issues as a result, but many had it worse as well.
I do believe I deserved it, but I don't feel like I had as much agency over it as most normies would claim.
Life feels very deterministic.
Look at your current situation for example, as you say sleep-work-too tired-sleep … Kinda hard to bootstrap at that point.
Life has a sort of momentum for most people, genetics and environment sets the trajectory of your life. Most people got where they are due to inertia.
I wish you the best, whatever you might decide.
No.300010
>>298991Same thing, supposedly had meds for it but they stopped working so I'm relying on opioids again.
I wish I wasn't completely useless without drugs.
No.300014
I have been biking and jogging for more than a year and now I got prostatitis. Despite having tried to strength train throughout my life, my body consistently stayed frail and wiry, but I seemed to excel in endurance sports. Got very flexible, could climb 10 flights of stairs without gasping for air. Well, until I got prostatitis so peeing hurts unless I drink so much water that I nearly burst. I can't go out without dehydrating myself on purpose because I get bladdered and can't piss anywhere not silent enough to wind down. I also leak semen if I strain to poop, and that I always do, because I've been constipated all my life. Colon got even more painful, weight gain seems impossible now.
Don't get /fit/ if you don't want to get succubi (which I suppose you don't) and you have poor health to begin with. It won't improve. It's not even comfy to lie down anymore. My legs go numb, my hands swell from resting my head on my arms due to low body fat. Thermoregulation is all over the place. I need 23 degrees to sleep, previously needed 18-19, or my fingers and toes will go numb from the cold.
I'm starting to feel that the cardio high has its downsides science doesn't want you to know.
No.300034
>>300019That sounds awful. Does it only apply to sweating from heat or also from exertion? I'd kill myself if my body didn't allow me to walk fast. Walking is one of the last things I still enjoy.
No.300039
>>299937>Most chronic diseases are irreversible.A few years ago I'd have vehemently disagreed with this but today, after having experienced it myself I am starting to think the sad truth is indeed, chronic disease is for life.
It's just grim when you think about it, one bad step and boom, you're incapacitated forever. I've come to learn that the two, well, three things that a human cannot afford to damage are
>nerveous system>gut>heartYet, one of the most popular, perhaps even underdiagnosed chronic diseases, Multiple Scleroris, is exactly about progressive and almost always irreversible nerve damage (demyelination).
The gut, well the thing is that most science now agrees that your gut microbiota is relatively stable through life, if it changes it's often for the worse and that is something that comes with basically any and all chronic diseases. The key point in all of this is that bacteria become resistant to, well, treatment and competing "good" bacteria. This thing called "biofilm" makes them privileged hosts that suck the good nutrients and dump all kind of literal toxic waste in your own body, forever. It's not even mutations they develop, but gene expression, so you are very fucked.
The heart doesn't need explanation does it?
Once a person has sustained enough damage in any of these systems/organs it's over. Everything else you can kind of afford to injury, and you will recover in time, hence why you sometimes see paradoxical cases like centenarians who drink and smoke like it's nothing.
>>300014>I'm starting to feel that the cardio high has its downsides science doesn't want you to know.The only proven life-extending intervention is caloric-restriction. Ask yourself why. The more I learn the more I believe some people, specially dysgenic freaks like ourselves, simply cannot go over certain activity limit. Which caps our capacity to get ahead in life. Nothing we can do about it.
No.300059
>>300039>simply cannot go over certain activity limitIt's not like normalfags are demigods because they learnt to mask from a young age until they stopped taking off the mask, or were shaped by society to begin with, no individual quirks.
If you're a coward like me it's impossible to build muscle well because of how tied body and mind are. That's why I had insane gains in cardio but couldn't build muscle. My mind wanted to prime me for escaping and that's why the jogging or biking high is so exciting. I've been mentally escaping all my life, always retiring.
>The only proven life-extending intervention is caloric-restrictionI don't want to get to 80, it will be soul crushingly lonely. It's highly likely though, because despite chronic ailments, I run cold, eat little, never spend much energy, walk a lot. If smoking won't get to me then nothing will, and I will be surrounded by grannies my age that excluded me when we were young, considering 3/4 people over 75 are succubi in my country. Grim.
No.301131
I am so miserable. Nothing is right. Disease took everything from me. I cannot accept this. I want revenge. I want to stuff it in the mouths of those who harmed me. It's not fair. I want revenge.
No.301141
>>301133I won't go into details but I'm just an easy target for every asshole. I have so much resentment for my bullies and people in general.
Man it's unbreathable. I have so much anger inside me. They have ruined my life. Fucking scum. And now disease is raping me. It's not fair!
No.301144
I cannot take healthy people seriously. Whatever they say is bullshit. A sick normalfaggot is closer to truth than a 50 years old healthy wizard.
No.301145
>i'm speshul because I'm fat from gorging myself, unlike everyone else who is an NPC
No.301146
>>301145I am taking about diseases out of your control.
No.301147
Covid vaccine gave me autoimmunity, its amazing some retards are still in denial over how harmful this was.
No.301148
I'm devastated by illnesses both physically and mentally, I would gladly be put to death if it was possible
No.301505
>>300034Both. But it's not as bad as it used to be. I still feel stinging sensations whenever I sweat, but they don't last as long as they used to I no longer seem to get visible hives.
No.301513
I have chronic sinusitis, seborrheic dermatitis and rosacea. I'm not joking when I say all this shit combined ruined my life.
No.301612
I just got stomach ulcers. I was pretty close to death with all the blood I lost.
On quadruple therapy and I hate my life even more now. Fucking hospital fees gonna rape me as well..
No.301619
I was scrolling through advice on how to cope with being ugly, and the most common advice I see is hitting the gym and trying to have at least a nice body. I got so sad that I almost wanted to cry. I'm disabled and have spinal issues and even walking is hard for me. People really don't get how lucky they are that they can lift weights or run. I used to run. I was a good runner. Now, everything is impossible.
I feel like able bodied people silently tell me that if you are disbaled, you are ugly, period. Oh, you can lift weights? Better luck in the next reincarnation, subhuman.
Like, I exercise to the best of my abilities, and I do it daily, but what I do wouldn't give me a fit body.
No.301625
The cataract in my right eye is getting worse and now I'm pretty much blind on my right side. Don't have the 5k to pay for the surgery, and I feel like some weird shit is happening to my left eye now too. Goddamn it I'm too young to be going fucking blind