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Due to the effect of disease there's a veil of smoke in my brain. Apologies for retarded grammar.
[–] No.298322>>298372>>298382>>299054
>>298319 (OP)I have sleep apnea & it ruined my life. No energy or motivation to do anything, inability to focus, remember things, think, etc. & so much more. It literally deteriorated my brain. I missed out on almost everything while growing up just because I didn't have the energy for anything. & right now I'm in my 20s & I still didn't have it treated (none of the things my doctor prescribed helped). I wish I had a gun so I could just blow my brains out right now instead of having to deal with this shit for even longer.
Sorry for the blogpost but I needed to type this shit out. Healthy people really will never understand what it's like
[–] No.298372
>>298322Sleep apnea feels like a cosmic joke. There's a metaphysical faggot who thinks that your day time suffering isn't enough so applies an even more evil command and even make you suffer in you sleep.
Life is possible because people sleep and forget the torments of previous. Sleep apnea makes sleep itself a torment.
Everyday I use to look farward to sleeping. Fate has denied me even the consolation of a peaceful sleep. What a disgusting existence. The evil is woven into the very fabric of life.
[–] No.298376
>>298319 (OP)Great thread, I suffer from various different chronic ailments: hemmerhoids and/or pelvic floor disfunction, strained a tendon in my foot, eczema, fucked my arm while lying down exhausted and now it hurts occasionally and many more mental illnesses. The pain is so fucking borderline unbearable but I'll never get any sort of help for it that actually works, nor will I get neetbux. I hate how the pain comes in waves and whenever I have any sort of hope, I'm just crushed again and fucking again while I waste my life with mounting regret from having this retarded chronic pain just fucking up my life but I just can't stop being so frustrated from my decaying body at twenty fucking two and that's still not mentioning how fucked my brain is to the point of borderline madness and I'm only just getting worse man. Sorry for bitching, just having another shitty night.
[–] No.298379
Saging cause my reply is not worth it. I can't judge spaces from my side mirrors towards my rear and it's the reason I don't know how far away from the kerb I am or from the car park behind. And it's becoming a MAJOR handicap, people think that my problem is too minor so they don't pay any attention but not knowing to drive while living in the part of the world where everything is car dependent is a nightmare, your life feels like prison, you can't go anywhere in emergencies, can't run errands, can't park, can get into potential legal troubles if you try to drive. Your home becomes your prison. And you have to leech on your parents because you have no friends. And you wonder what you'll do when your parents die.
I feel like people don't pay attention to this but when someone can't drive because of medical reasons or other reasons, they become completely dependent on other people and going somewhere is such a hassle. I truly think that it's better to trade a testicle or even your ability to walk just to be able to drive.
[–] No.298382>>298402
>>298322I have the same symptoms as you, the same life style, but due to a different cause. The thing about severe insomnia like this is it always sounds like you're talking about some spilled milk. Like, you bumped your toe or something. But then if it happens night after night… it effects your cognition adversely and you can't do anything because you're physically exhausted.
then what happens… trash builds up around you as you can't take care of yourself. you stay in bed in a twilight of wakefulness and half-sleep. unable to think properly, unable to plan, to organize, so much to remember as it builds and builds, the information, the chores, the to dos… overflowing… the brain, overwhelmed, loses information like trying to hold water in a colander.
For me I've found that even if i get okay sleep that if its not perfect my day is still ruined. and my day is still ruined most of the time from these sleep issues. wake up at the wrong sleep phase? enjoy feeling groggy for hours. miss even an hour less of sleep? the body knows it didnt get enough and punishes you like it missed the full night. it seems like its amazingly fragile and it needs to be perfect for you to feel good. i wish you the best of luck dealing with your condition wiz.
[–] No.298402>>298418
>>298382Sleep is a rough one, everything in the modern world is designed to keep you awake. The first time I stayed up to 5am I was 10 years old. It's 4:54am right now, I envy my family members that can stay up till 2am one day and then go to sleep at midnight the next day. It seems like I can't just fall asleep sooner than the previous night. I fucking hate being so anxious and tired all the time.
[–] No.298418
>>298402I have the same problem. It's weird how some people seem to be able to sleep whenever they want. I can try to stay awake 30 hours to change my sleep/wake time, but i cant sleep 1 hour earlier than the previous night
[–] No.298458>>298465>>298685
>>298455Diet. Change your diet immediately. Especially eliminate dairy and gluten. This will take a lot of discipline but it can be done. Acne is a nutritional/dietary problem that can be solved once the offending food group(s) have been eliminated. Your abdominal pain may also have to do with a dairy and/or wheat allergy.
[–] No.298465>>298471
>>298458No i have ACNES (Anterior Cutaneous Nerve Entrapment Syndrome), the nerved are trapped and causes hellfire. No diet can fix this. Only operation or injections and it might not work at all. I wish i had acne, pales before it.
[–] No.298467
Recently I've been having chronic nausea with vomit too, I don't want to go to the hospital
[–] No.298469
I have 20 diseases that i can't afford to diagnose and treat. Im also a xanax addict and eat 30 mg a day, in 6 days I'll have a grand mal seizure cause i can't afford more. Bye.
[–] No.298471
>>298465How many alt remedies have you tried against that thing? I want to know what fails in case I develop that
[–] No.298566>>298567>>298568>>298569
>>298319 (OP)I used earphones for quite some time at loud volumes. Despite being repeatedly warned by my parents against it. And now I have tinnitus. Interestingly, I don't have much hearing loss.
However when talking to people, I hear that they are speaking but I can't discern the exact words that they are saying. And it is frustrating to pretend that I understand what is being said. Because of this people don't want to talk to me because they have to speak louder and they feel like they have to add more effort while speaking.
Despite being totally dependent upon my parents. I can't really tell them about it. They shout and get angry with me and they are like "we told you so". It's so isolating and frustrating. And what's even worse is that despite so many "advancements of modern age" we still can't figure out a way to reverse hearing loss. It's crazy.
[–] No.298567
>>298566Not going to lie. This issue sometimes makes me cry. No one wants to talk to me because they don't wanna have extra hassle and when me and my colleagues or acquaintances are in a group, for the most part, I can almost never understand what they are talking about with themselves. And because I can't understand them, I always come across as retarded. It makes me so upset, I can hardly explain how much pain this problem has caused me. And how there is literally no solution to this problem at all.
[–] No.298568>>298572
>>298566>"advancements of modern age"That means fuck all. I have been to many doctors and all of them are pill pushing clueless bastards.
[–] No.298569>>298570
>>298566>However when talking to people, I hear that they are speaking but I can't discern the exact words that they are saying. I get this as a result of anxiety.
[–] No.298570
>>298569"Reject what you cannot have"
[–] No.298572>>298577
>>298568I think this goes for vision as well, there aren't that many treatments for one's eyes as well. Tell you what I just visited a doctor, she checked my retina and boom after a few days, I have astigmatism, I have massive trouble driving at night, and I am surprised that we haven't even come up with some sort of googles that make bright things dull and dull things bright.
It's a massive problem. The governments across the world have failed to manage how much light intensity and how high off the grounds should headlights be, and assholes driving these death machines have no regards for other users and drive on high beams like total faggots, if you drive a low slung sedan and encounter an SUV or truck, you're COMPLETELY blind for a significant amount of time.
Even the low beams of cars nowadays look like highbeams, it's crazy. I have no idea how people manage to drive at night, some people just have superior vision and manage to look through oncoming lights, I wish I had that talent.
[–] No.298574
>>298573once you eat the 'za you can't take it from aul'ma
[–] No.298576>>298582
>>298573Similar situation, though not as bad. Without some seeds/fiber supplement I have to shit like 8 times a day. I have it under control now but I've had to accept that I will need to use public restrooms / shit at work and won't be able to just hold it anymore. Also get bloated and gassy after lunch, no matter what I eat. Any medical reasons have been ruled out, I was told it's just IBS or something like that.
[–] No.298577>>298580
>>298572People buy SUVs to sit higher and have better visibility. Then other people buy even taller SUVs, and so on. Total selfish asshole behavior. And also they claim they buy SUVs because they are safer. Well, yeah, at the cost of the lower car driver's safety. The roads have become a bizarre battleground of prestige, where the winner is the one who sits higher. A lot like hens in a coop lol. Just shows how primitive normie thinking is. They can be superficially kind and empathetic, but their actions show otherwise.
[–] No.298578
This is disgusting but I have pus leaking out of some wound on my armpit that I thought I got rid of. I'm too apathetic to do anything about it other than shower when I have energy.
[–] No.298583>>298584
>>298582Liver and intestine in bad conditions, bruh. A long, long fast you should try. Longer than a week.
[–] No.298590
>>298587do whatever you want, I don't care
[–] No.298591
>>298589like I said do what ever you want to do
[–] No.298596>>298597
>>298573Sounds like you have a bad gut biome. I'm struggling with the same. It's like I can take 1, maybe 2 normal shits, then something happens, and I get similar-themed semi-diarrhea for the next few weeks. Right now my gut has an eggy farts and sudden pains phase, been going on for 2 weeks. What I've noticed is that after a severe diarrhea, my gut goes into a different phase, like a great reset of the gut biome. So maybe it's a method to intentionally induce a total, gut-purging diarrhea, and hope I randomly roll better shits this time. Could be because my appendix was removed, and I read that it's supposed to be a refuge for the good bacteria. Well, I never received the good bacteria anyway, since I was born through c-section.
Anyway, I wish you solid shits and good winds.
[–] No.298597
>>298596>What I've noticed is that after a severe diarrhea, my gut goes into a different phase, like a great reset of the gut biome>Could be because my appendix was removed, and I read that it's supposed to be a refuge for the good bacteriaThat's 100% it. The appendix serves as sort of a warehouse for vital bacterial cultures so that when something bad is eaten or an illness is contracted, you can replace the bacteria that has been purged.
Prebiotics, probiotics, and even bacterial suppositories should be taken by those without an appendix.
[–] No.298685
>>298458Diet helping anything is a myth. When it works it's placebo effect.
[–] No.298686
>Healthy people are NPCs. They don't really exist. With disease comes the awareness of your body that your private hell and your true existence begins and hear the scream of everything
I mean, you stand correct, but I hope that you include mental illnesses too, otherwise your argument would be lacking. In schizophrenia, for example, the body can feel like a prison in the same way.
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My hurts like hell. This is hell. All is evil.
[–] No.298943
Oh God take pity on me
[–] No.298946
Pain is the only reality. What a terrible, terribly existence. All is evil.
[–] No.298954
>>298319 (OP)I have narcolepsy. so I fall asleep during the day. Not like face first into my desk but I get so sleepy I basically have to halt whatever I'm doing and take a nap.
Been to doctors and tried medication but nothing helps. can't drive a car, can't work a job. Just take my brain out and throw it into the wood chipper.
[–] No.298967
Im pretty sure I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, or Long Covid or Long Vaccine or whatever. Abnormally thick blood and inflammation. The most annoying thing of all is dyspnea, struggling to breath. Sometimes I ahve almost normal levels of energy but then as soon as I try doing too much or pushing myself I "crash" for twice the amount of time I felt good. This condition is rarely officially recognized because doctors are retards, and because it'd be a nightmare for insurance companies. But the science is there is one bothers to listen to instead of outdated insurance or "official" guidelines. It's an autoimmune disease basically, perhaps for life.
>Pain teach you what it means to really exist.
Pretty much, they say you only start living when you realize you're going to die. Like your mortality actually hits you in the face. The irony is normalfags live so much more than us, yet they're not really alive because they're not conscious enough of reality, just in autopilot.
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I'm taking like 5 shits a day, can it be normal? I feel fine but it's tiresome, even considering I'm neeting and home all day.
[–] No.298993
>>298991if you're neeting, you can try fasting for a day at first, to see if your shits improve
[–] No.298995
>>298991I shit every two weeks or so
[–] No.298996
>>298991Might be IBS. I started having the same shit after getting the stomach flu years ago. All of a sudden I would get crazy spontaneous urges to shit and shit like 5-8 times a day. After the first time it always felt like it "irritated" my bowel and they just forcibly pushed everything out until they were completely empty, resulting in those bursts of urges. Almost never diarrhea, sometimes it looked kinda half digested. I had it checked out and it was nothing in my case but I have to take psyllium husk supplements with every meal otherwise it comes back immediately.
[–] No.298997
>>298991it happens to me too. It is an anxiety symptom according to my doctor
[–] No.299054
>>298322It's hell on earth. I have had sleep apnea since at least 12, only got diagnosed at 30. Absolutely horrifying to know all this time that something is wrong with you (constant headaches, constantly tired, dizzy) but you don't know what it. And you don't have a reference on how bad it truely is. And you're so exhausted and brainfogged that surviving is all you can do, leaving no time to figure out what's wrong.
My body never got to develop due to the constant hypoxias, making me permanently weak and dependent on others for basically everything.
Now after surgery and treatment it is slightly better but the damage to my life and body has already been done.
[–] No.299081>>299082
>>298991Me too for two months now. I had serious cold and the doctor prescribed me antibiotics. It started afterwards. It is always same, doesn't get better or worse and I don't have any other symptoms. I'm afraid that I'm stuck with this for life.
[–] No.299082
>>299081Also the stool is mushy, not liquid.
[–] No.299114>>299115>>299181
I have 7 days left to live. Im sick with everything but i dont know what and dont treat it cause im broke. Also i got addicted to xanax so much that i have to take 30mg a day which is 8 times the maximum dose, otherwise i will have a grand mal seizure, which is either death or severe brain damage. 7 days left to die. I would sell my soul to satan if that would increase my chances since the only realistic option is lying in front of a train. I will never make it to April either way, also gonna tell my parents i'm leaving. Goodbye here too since i never had a real home except the internet.
[–] No.299115>>299116
>>299114Sorry, I don't know anything about xanax, but can't you wean off it gradually? Take 15mg one day, then 10 the next day, then 5 and so on. What would happen if you did that?
[–] No.299116>>299120
>>299115it takes way too long, the side effects would be unbearable if u cut that fast(they are unbearable anyway, getting off benzos is hell). and u would seize anyway. to properly wean off the dose i am on it would take like half a year or maybe a year, either way i can't afford even one more dose so it's impossible.
[–] No.299120>>299173
>>299116I would like to tell to just bear through it, seems better than dying. If you decrease the dose, it will last you much longer. But then I have no idea what benzo withdrawal is like. Can you describe it? If you have so little time left to live, then I imagine you're not working, and you don't really have to do anything, so you could just relax throughout the process.
[–] No.299173>>299174>>299175>>299182>>299186
>>299120it is impossible. i cant do anything. just google it if u want to know. i have 0 money nowhere to get money from i exhausted all my options.
in short i will have psychosis, worst anxiety in the world, constant grand mal seizures, heart attack symptoms, stomach dysregulation etc. and those are only the hardest symptoms, not counting endless others. Im so sick i can barely walk so i wont survive this anyway. So I will either end this myself within 200 hours or that is what awaits me.
[–] No.299174
>>299173suppress the seizures with cheap vodka, they suppress seizures from alcohol withdrawal with benzos so you can do it the other way around too
[–] No.299175
>>299173Can you get Kratom somehow? I've heard that it helps with mild to moderate withdrawal symptoms. For severe symptoms you'll have to go to a clinic as I understand it. But if you have no money that's a problem.
https://kratom.org/guides/benzo-withdrawal/ [–] No.299182
>>299173I took benzos for a 2 years after my doses started to increase i cut them suddenly used to be on aripriprazole and other kind of bullshit piece of shit poison that nearly destroyed me
know who saved me?GOD
[–] No.299186
>>299173Went through benzo and opiate withdrawals earlier this year, and I only took oxycodone and valium daily for a few weeks and it was pure hell. You're honestly right, death is probably better, usually they put you into a coma for that level of withdrawals.
Good luck.
[–] No.299189>>299191
These stomach issues have fucked me over. I had no youth. Now I have palpitations. Fuck this planet. Fuck
[–] No.299191
>>299189I feel you, the worst part is never completely emptying the bowel. The shit is really sticky too, so it takes far too long to wipe, to the point where I'm scuffing blood, and my ass is still not clean. I try to only shit at home now, where I can wash my ass, and I take loperamide before leaving off to work.
[–] No.299343
Pinched my back and stomach nerves by drought. Not toothache like in previous years. Second time this year, way stronger, impossible to sit, stand, and lie. Third day, menthol cream and painkillers don't do shit. Barely got sleep today, at 9 am the power went off, so I went to sleep instead of watching TV. No reason why on the energy supplier site. Lying on the back is hard due to snoring waking me up plus normalfags would use it as ad hominem with their noise violence. (Even though they would sleep even when the drill is on). Temperature was 37.3 °C once.
[–] No.299397
My joints are making these awful crackling noises, i think i am dying
[–] No.299402
>>299398I had this too and I couldn't eat anything solid for almost a year. I went to a doctor and I kept gagging when she put the instrument in and she acted so bitchy about it that I just gave up and didn't want to deal with any kind of uncomfortable invasive tests so I just ate slop for a year hoping it's cancer and that it fucking kills me. But eventually I just trained myself to eat normally, little by little, now I'm back to normal but I still sometimes catch myself mid swallow and spit it out. I don't know if it was purely psychosomatic or if it was some weird medical problem that went away on its own. It got me super depressed because food was one of my last copes and all I could eat was fucking yoghurts, soups, mashed potatoes, shakes, which got old pretty fast.
[–] No.299418
I found an injured mouse outside and I took it in, feeling sorry for it.
I fed it some food and checked over it for injuries. After I seen it was covered in fleas and I remembered how Plague was spread, I put it back outside.
It's been two days and I'm feeling pretty fucking sick ngl. Not like hospitalization tier, but like I have a mild flu.
I'm wondering how bad I've fucked myself up. I don't think I'll get plague or one of the horrific killing diseases. I'm not in that part of the world for that sort of shit. But I wouldn't be surprised if I get something that rolls me for like a month.